#dw i'm not actually upset i had fun!!

[theradicalace]

Pico F3!

I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WOULD MAKE ME DRAW PLAID HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME 😭 /LH

[laylasverse]

[ 💫 🍃 & 🍊 ] for your better cr from your FANTASTIQUE ask game!! (i’m in love with your mind)

EXCUSE THE MESS ✶ ASK GAME ﹙ 💫 🍃 🍊 ﹚

◞ answering for my better cr. ily theo :(

𐔌 . 💫 ⋮ 'BOUT YOU ֹ ₊ ꒱ what do you reminisce on late at night? is it a person you had to leave behind? someone who left you? why are you still reminded of that past? are you upset with the memories? do you regret them?

in the late hours of the night i tend to be reminded of the girl i was convinced i was soul tied to. spoiler alert, it did not end well! she was my best friend from sixth to ninth grade and i was in love with her. like i have notes saying, "she was crying today. i never want redacted to be crying. she doesn't deserve that," from the seventh grade. i loved that girl so bad that it crumbled in front of me & it was mostly my fault.

i'm not upset with the memories i shared with her. we both helped each other grow and come out of our shells. we just happened to be cursed with a female homoerotic friendship so young. but what does still make me upset is that when i confessed my feelings, two years after we stopped being friends, she told me & i quote, "glad you got that off your chest."

like girl i have youtube videos we made where we are clearly in love with each other. not to mention that everyone who knew us thought we were dating. you couldn't have given me anything a little better than that? oh, well. i don't see or talk to her anymore. thank god!

fun fact! phoebe bridgers is the artist that got me through this era.

𐔌 . 🍃 ⋮ PILOT JONES ֹ ₊ ꒱ who is your bad influence? the one person you can count on to be involved with something insane and drag you along with them? have they always been "bad"? why won't you let them go?

i have a few people like this in my life. a few friends who are always in some kind of mess. i won't name them because it doesn't matter their names ( they're not famous or "characters" ). they are not bad influences on me ( i am extremely skeptical & hard to manipulate lol ), they just make very bad decisions after i give them my advice. i don't want to say they let me down but.. y'know.. they do sometimes.

one of the worst is my older brother. he seems to make the wrong decisions at every turn. all i can do is be there when he finally breaks down.

i won't let these people in my life go because i need them as a reminder of all the people in the world that don't think like me. each of them show me a new world in their own way. even if they do constantly piss me off.

𐔌 . 🍊 ⋮ FORREST GUMP ֹ ₊ ꒱ who runs your mind? the person you're always thinking about? when you make a joke that doesn't quite land, who do you know would've loved it?

jason. and that stupid dork knows it. whole-heartedly.

every single time i tell a joke to someone and they don't get the reference / callback i think about how jason would be giving me a look before chuckling and shaking his head in amusement. i make him giggle in private dw. he understand me to a level that should be a little concerning but it's okay 'cause he's my sugarplum.

i actually did post him to this song on my instagram story for valentines day. he called me corny but was smiling so hard that both his dimples were showing when he said it. i know what you are, boy.

﹙ extra context my better cr is extremely similar to this reality. most of what i have experienced here i have scripted there. ﹚ ꕀ hopefully this doesn't give off "woe is me" lol

[collectionofsinglefathers]

so this one is gonna get a bit more personal than I usually like to get but I have a bad habit of just not talking about my mental health period so like. I don’t know, I guess I wanna try to break that? and also I’ve wanted to in general start posting here more, not specifically about personal stuff but like anything, which is why i’ve been sporadically posting about me writing and stuff like that. but general content warnings, and I’m gonna tag these too so dw, but yeah general content warning up top for depression and anxiety. ALSO, a spoiler warning (which i’ll also put in the tags) for the ending of the first campaign and the third campaign of critical role since this is gonna be centered around that. now I haven’t actually watched the finale of c3, I have avoided literally everything about it so far except for the tailgate stream which i watched almost all of earlier today during my lunch break, but the spoiler warning is more for the earlier Vox Machina centric episodes. and normally, this many years on, I wouldn’t bother putting a spoiler warning for the first campaign, but with the animated show, in case there are new viewers for the campaign or in case there are people who don’t wanna know what happens at the end of c1 because of the animated show, I wanted to make sure I also put a spoiler warning for c1 as well, just to cover all my bases.

NOW. I'm not gonna get into any specific details about my personal struggles, but I have dealt with some level of depression or anxiety for a good portion of my life. the farthest back that I can remember an actual thing where I'm like "oh yeah that was probably depression" is when I was in sixth grade, and for context I'm going to turn 30 this year. there was a time, before I got into CR, where I was both unemployed AND no longer going to school of any kind (college didn't work out for me). in fact, the period of time when I stopped school/was out of work and me getting a job finally was 2 years, and in that time I was NOT in a good place mentally. not in any danger to myself but definitely not doing great. but in that time, I found critical role.

fun fact, I actually found it through a cosplayer I liked on vine at the time. this guy I followed would cosplay as some of the characters, and I had followed them because he also was quite a good singer and I thought he was funny, so when he started posting CR cosplay videos, I looked it up, and that's where I had first discovered it. I watched the first couple of episodes and was HOOKED IMMEDIATELY. I remember, for three weeks straight, it was the only thing I watched as I binged through the first campaign in order to catch up to be current with the campaign (which funnily enough was episode 69). and the character I connected to the most (mostly due to aesthetic if I'm being honest, and also because he was my favorite voice actor at the time) was Vax.

fast forward to the final arc of the first campaign, where they first face off against Vecna, and Vax dies. I remember just laying on my living room floor staring up at the ceiling in absolutely shock and horror at how that fight played out. and obviously, if you have watched c1, you know how that goes for him. he comes back, but temporarily, and is dead dead by the last episode, and I was a WRECK during the c1 finale because of that.

Vax was already my favorite, but when I got to the beginning of the chroma conclave arc, where you see Vax at first really struggling with what they're even doing anymore, to then almost losing his sister and having this insane downward spiral mentally before pulling out of it... It kind of hit a bit close to home for me, because of how much I was also going through it. and watching Vax be able to get out of his own bad place really helped me get out of mine. so when he died at the end of c1, it really fucked me up. not in a way where I was like, upset at the cast or matt or anything like that. but like. c1 is my favorite campaign, but I have never once been able to rewatch or relisten past the briarwood arc because every time I get to the point where keyleth and vax talk at the sun tree about their feelings, I just can't do it. it's far too close to home for me.

now fast forward A LOT OF TIME. to the end of c3. now, I had been in and out of keeping up with c3. not because of me not enjoying it or being frustrated like I've seen other people talk about when it comes to this campaign. it's been because of my mental health, and how I've been dealing with it for the past year, year and a half I'd say. but as the campaign has started to reach a climax to the end, I decided to finally buckle down and get through it because I knew that I wanted to watch it, it was just a matter of DOING IT. and I actually listened to a good amount of this campaign, but when I finally got to the VM episodes, I actually needed to watch. and actually, what I did, it reminded me a lot of when I was binging c1, just in a much shorter amount of time. for an entire weekend, I watched nothing but critical role. and when I got to the last VM episode of this final stretch, when matt put vax's mini on the board after they freed him from the malleus key. I straight up had to pause the episode because I started sobbing. like full on heaving full body sobbing. I was trying so hard to stay quiet because I was so worried that others in my household were going to be worried about me, that's how hard I was crying.

because Vax means a lot to me. he's very, very close to my heart. he will forever live in my mind and my soul. I have a lot of vague ideas for tattoos that I want to eventually get and for a very long time I thought I would want my first one to be a lotr tattoo but I actually thought about it more recently and I want it to actually be the vax tattoo idea I had planned, which was a general idea I had for something to do with raven feathers and snowdrop flowers, and maybe also a dagger. he's really, really important to me. I get emotional just thinking about how important he is to me. I'm emotional right now writing this.

now like I said, I haven't watched the finale to c3 yet. I probably won't fully finish it until some time this weekend cuz. ya know. 8 and a half hours long. but I have been thinking a lot about things that marisha and liam said in that final 4 sided dive, and about things that were said in the cooldown for that last VM episode when they destroyed the malleus key. and I've been trying really really REALLY REALLY hard to not get my hopes up about the possibility of VM being able to keep vax, because I know if I let myself get too hopeful about it and it doesn't happen, it'll fucking WRECK me real bad. but I also know that I'm gonna be fucked up either way so.

I don't know if I'm gonna end up liveblogging me watching the finale. we'll see. either way, I'm definitely gonna be not checking any notifications on here for this post, or any post I might make while watching the finale, just in case someone reads this and decides to be a dick and send me spoilers. but in any case. I just wanted to say all that somewhere, and I don't know if I quite have the courage yet to say ALL of that to someone I actually know (I've already said some of it to my best friend, but not everything).

but that's it. wish me luck, as I am now about to start watching the finale.

[arminsumi]

hiii ^^ (It’s me again, sorry that I’m writting so many request but the way you wirte is something)

so, i have been thinking if you could wirte pt.2 for ,,Marley’s Guaradian” — and if you dont have any ideas, honestly I have one — so basically Armin brought reader to the aircraft, and Levi is obviously upset with him. while they are having a little argument, where Armin tries to explain Why did he brought someone so dangerous here, reader tries to knock out Eren, since he has the Founding titan, and Marleyan Army wants it back, Armin obviously stop reader before anything serious happens + reader finds out about Zeke’s betrayal

sorry if It’s too much, i’m sending you virtual cup of motivation and thumbs up for whatever you are working on! take care and dont push yourself too much!

p.s. i wirte the request again beacuse something went down with my Tumblr — if you see another one from my acc with the same text you can ignore it, beacuse i dont know if i actually sent it ^^

˗ˏˋ꒰ 🍒 ꒱ Marley's Guardian Ⅱ

Armin x fem!reader / part Ⅰ

Overview; Armin brought you back to the airship and you found out the truth about your War Chief.

Content; drama, angst, canon!au, Marleyan!reader, switching sides (obeying Armin's commands)

Warnings; S4 spoilers!!! mild violence (hair pulling, Levi giving verbal threats, reader scratching Eren and drawing blood), profanity, S4 Sasha scene, total cliffhanger ending because i'm mean lol

Note; ah dw i love to receive your requests! actually i originally planned to write about armin bringing Y/n back to the airship, but i wasn't sure on the length so i just deleted like two paragraphs' worth of content 😂💀 also SRRY IF THIS IS AGONIZINGLY LONG but i had too much fun writing it while listening to the most dramatic aot ost lol

Armin's hands were trembling.

"You brought their god damn dog on board? Are you trying to kill us, Armin?!" Levi spat.

"Sir — " Armin choked. " — sir, I couldn't leave her to die. I'll accept the consequences for anything that happens from here — could... could you please stop holding her by the hair?" he asked nervously.

Levi's eyes became slitted with anger as they flitted between you and the blond, bloodied soldier. It required incredible strength to fight an Ackerman as a sword-wielding combatant, but with words it required an otherworldly courage.

"Sure." he said slowly, dangerously, and hauled your weight by the hair — a searing pain spread across your scalp.

Everything was a bit blurry, but you felt cool wind brush your face. You were high up... up in the sky? The Scout's airship door was slid open, turbulent airflow filled the gondola. You were forced into a kneel at the edge, too weak to fight back yet Levi still held apprehension in his chest because of you.

"Shall I let her hair go now?" Levi asked sarcastically.

"No!"

You saw Armin's eyes glaze over with fear, you heard him babbling desperately to his captain.

"If I toss her off this airship right now, I will sleep soundly tonight."

"Captain! Please hear me out!" Armin exclaimed desperately. "It would be senseless murder, she's no longer hostile! Like I said earlier, she could have killed me, but she didn't!"

A long silence ensued after his words, one impenetrably thick and jarringly apprehensive.

"Captain..." Armin's voice weakly punctured the silence. He sounded like he was using the last of his strained vocal chords to plead with Levi.

"She's their weapon. Don't mistake her docile behavior for surrender, Armin, she's just out of ammo after fighting."

"Captain."

"She's their weapon." Levi repeated through gritted teeth, "Unless you intend to keep her as such, I'm kicking her off right now."

Armin's mind buzzed for solutions as the longest silence yet ensued.

"C — can we bring her to Commander Hange first?" Armin asked.

After a small moment of begging, another silence ensued, one broken by the harsh and grating sound of your whimper as Levi flung your body in the opposite direction of the airship's exit.

Without regard for his comrade's bewildered stares, Armin rushed to you. "Are you okay?" he asked. The smallest head tilt from you was enough to settle Armin's high-strung nerves.

Levi let out a forfeiting sigh, "Sleep is for the wicked..." he grumbled under his breath. "Alright, let's take her to Hange and that mutt. Mikasa, come with us."

Now, you were supposed to be at your weakest — or so that's what Levi and Armin and the rest of their comrades in the gondola thought.

But when the door leading into the airship's control slid open to reveal Eren Jaeger, you lunged for him like a dragon.

Though he had quick reaction time, you clawed at him much faster than he could shield his face, resulting in three stripes of red across his cheek. He bore a grimace of wolf-like canines.

It required both Levi and Mikasa to restrain you while you thrashed around, but they didn't have to for long.

In your fit of blinded vengeance, you didn't notice a very familiar face sitting besides the owner of the Founding titan, whose hurt face healed over, whisps of steam rising out from your claw marks until they disappeared entirely.

"Stand down, Y/n." Zeke's voice penetrated the atmosphere.

You looked at him wide-eyed, utterly shaken.

"... War Chief?" you croaked confusedly.

But your confusion dissipated at once. Understanding dawned on your face, causing your features to be dragged down.

"Treacherous bastard!" you screamed piercingly, Armin winced. "I once revered you! Bastard! Bastard!"

You ran your foul mouth on the War Chief, calling him audacious, calling him vermin, calling him a lot of things until the atmosphere felt aflame; Armin stepped in with a voice smooth like flowing rivers.

"Stand down, Y/n." he commanded simply, and you obeyed like a dog. He knew something very important about you that you weren't even fully aware of.

See, when you bore witness to your War Chief's treachery, these invisible threads keeping you sewn to his command snapped. Armin could tell, so he played a little experiment, sort of like throwing a stray dog a bone — to see if it would go for it.

It surprised everyone else to see you cease at once after Armin told you to. His blue eyes brought a calming sensation over you. When you looked into them, it felt like you were being stared at by an angel, although that was laughably ironic, considering what people called Eldians in Marley.

"Commander Hange, I have a proposal to make." Armin stood to his superior confidently, while Hange willingly listened.

The air in the airship's gondola shook with celebratory roars from the Eldian soldiers, Floch at the center causing it all.

But packed away into the quiet area were Jean, Connie and Sasha.

"Like hell she's on our side... I'm sleeping with not just one eye open, but two eyes open 'till we get back on solid land." Connie huffed.

Jean looked over at him, "Connie... that just means you won't be sleeping, if you have two eyes open you're awake." he sighed at his friend's stupidity.

"I know! It was a joke — " he began, "Anyways. No one trusts that reaper, so why does Armin?"

Jean shrugged.

"I think she may genuinely be on our side." Sasha chimed, her tone lighthearted for the fact it was a very wild situation. The enemy who had slain countless people in the Eldian army was on their side?

"Seriously?!" Connie began argumentatively.

The door slid open. Jean's eyes spotted you as soon as you emerged.

You squeezed into the celebrating crowd of Eldian soldiers, without Armin by your side. In the other room, unbeknownst to the others, he was previously wiping blood off of your cheek with his handkerchief. He reared his pretty blue eyes at you, and softly commanded that you wait for him in the other room.

Now he remained in the control room, discussing the future with Hange and Levi, while you tried to discretely blend in with everyone else.

"Heya, nice 't have ya on our side." Sasha greeted you.

Because Floch flashed a hostile look your way, you decided to stay with these three.

The conversation staggered due to your blunt responses. But it ceased completely in a moment, a quick yet slow moment.

Your keen senses felt someone clamber onboard the airship, and your lightning reflexes shielded Sasha from taking her fated gunshot wound to the chest.

BANG

Wispy fumes curled up out of the shotgun's muzzle. At the end of the gun's neck was none other than your little sister, Gabi.

🏷️; @chuuyasballz

[stiffyck]

Very relatable tags about DL! I have some thoughts too that I wanna share but I’m not brave enough to say on main

I loved the concept of the game; the gimmick for sharing health with someone was very creative and was an incredible opportunity to pair up new players. We got rancher duo out of it!

However, I didn’t like the fact that 1) desert duo was paired again and 2) the cheating arc was a thing.

As someone who struggles with over attachment to certain characters and pairings, the story desert duo told with DL upset me a lot. I didn’t like the cheating arc and I didn’t like how upset Grian seemed to be paired with scar again. Logically I know they’re great friends and it’s all exaggeration for comedic purposes, but in the moment it feels too real to me and upsets me (personally!! This isn’t a slander on Grian at all- he’s wonderful; I just didn’t like the character he played in DL if that makes sense)

Now with FANON it’s- as you said, 100x worse. I feel like after double life, a lot of people started to portray desert duo as a one sided friendship / relationship where Grian is mean to Scar or whatever. Which upsets me a lot because of the whole attachment thing but also because it’s so inaccurate. Yes they had their angst thing, but Grian isn’t a mean person, and he’s certainly not intentionally malicious towards scar. Shipping aside, they’re very close friends and enjoy each other’s company. It hurts to see people portray them as toxic yknow?

Idk if any of this makes sense but I wanted to share :>

Makes sense dw! I agree! It didn't really upset me per se? More like it annoyed me.

Like you said, nothing against the ccs. It's a fun block game! I mostly had fun watching it and I'm sure they had fun playing!

I didn't mind desert duo being paired again but I did mind the way it made the duo super toxic in fanon. Canon wasn't really my thing in dl either but fanon was so much worse for me.

I don't care if people enjoy stuff where grian is the abuser or whatever, I just wish people didn't try to portray Grian as the one who was somehow the victim in this situation and also???? TAG YOUR ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS PROPERLY

I've stopped trusting desert duo/scarian fics after dl ESPECIALLY when most of them are grian centric because I never know if it's actually hurt/comfort OR if it's Grian being birderline abusive and Scar chasing after him, giving him comfort and forgiving him because he loves him no matter how many times grian hurts him.

Literally just tag the abusive and toxic shit properly ohh my godddddd

[fleamarketbeaniebaby]

hihiii hope u r having a good day and if u arent hope it gets better <3

also- for the tc ask challenge 46, 61 and 93

hii i have had a very good day!! i hope you are as well and tysm for the ask!!

46. Are your feelings for your TC platonic or romantic?

idk tbh.. i'd say it's just a harmless little crush and that i would never act on it, and also i do genuinely enjoy talking to them and just being friendly so i guess both

61. Has your TC ever made you cry? If yes, what did they do?

🌙: yes, i was stressed out over not being able to play a solo so i tried to get help from him with it and he sent me away and told me to just practice with a metronome 😭 he didn't mean to be rude or make me cry i was just having a bad day

⭐: yes also, we joke a lot and one day while teasing me he made the same kind of joke about my instrument that a lot of people make (one that kinda implies that it's boring, useless, etc) and at the time i just rolled my eyes and poked fun at him back but a couple days later i was thinking about it and got really frustrated that it felt like no one ever took my instrument seriously and started crying 😭 once again, he didn't mean to make me upset at all i was just in a bit of a mood. he's told me before that he does actually like my instrument and that he thinks it's important and that i'm a good musician so dw guys

91. If you could ask your TC any question, what would you ask them?

honestly i have no idea... i can never properly answer vague questions like these 💔

[averysmallcetacean]

k so a lot has happened recently and I just want to like, vent/yap ig, this is going to be a long post and I'm going to split it into bullet points for each thing (though some are interconnected) tw for bad mental health and sh/sui mentions (no pictures dw <33 ) - I'll give another tw when it starts

ok here we go!

1. I'm dropping spanish, I currently do 4 a levels, I'm in the final year of sixth form (yr13) and it's just been too much for me for a LONG time. I had a very teary chat with my main spanish teacher and yeah, now I just need to fill in the form (if I can find it on my school's godforsaken website lol). Luckily she was actually really understanding about it and while she's sad that I'm young she understands why

2. This brings me to number two, while my main teacher was ok with it, apparently one of the other teachers wasn't. I was in storytime today (a bunch of the older classics student all hang out while one of our teachers reads rude medieval italian fairytales - we started it on a school trip and it's essentially just chill hang out time). Anyway, this other teacher randomly comes in (she's never come to storytime before), but like, she's nice and it's fine so whatever. She stays for a few minutes then leaves but before she gets out of the door turns and says to me "so, do you like this better than spanish?" I was SHOCKED cause like, what do you say to that??? I think she found out I'm dropping and was upset or smth??? Anyway while I was standing there in shock my friend (parvus cuniculus saucius) stood up for me and said (in a light hearted way) "yes is the correct answer". Anyway, that was shocking.

3. I think I've developed feelings for the above friend (parvus cuniculus saucius) - idk if it's a crush or a squish or what. The only problem is that I'm SO NOT their type in any way & even if I was I don't think we'd work well as partners cause I'm a lot more introverted than them + I am kind of a lot to deal with and literally all my friends end up pulling away so like... yeah, essentially it's really dumb

3.5. This is minor but like I really just want to cuddle with someone, at this point I do not care who, not in a romantic way or anything, I just really love physical contact and find it reassuring and whtv, blah blah - I don't really know why and it doesn't really matter, tldr: I need a hug

4. This is where v light tw-y stuff starts!!! So I had a meltdown or smth yesterday in latin class in front of everyone (inc my friend) and it was really bad. I was crying, scratching at my neck, all of it, I was shaking so badly afterwards. Anyway, I'm now reay scared that this is the pull-away point for my friend, I don't want to lose them. They said they wanted to talk about what it was that upset me but that's just made me more nervous that they're going to get uncomfortable and leave.

I'm going into the reasons behind the meltdown now, this is essentially just a vent, major tw for stuff listed earlier!!!!!!

5. Ok so, the catalyst was stress about uni applications etc, but the main thing was that I've been planning to leave in the first two weeks of uni for ages and I know it's what I want/should do but it's kind of upsetting in a way, like I'm mourning the life I could've had. But at the same time I have the overwhelming urge to just leave, I've nearly left twice and I'm scared I won't stick to the plan. I'm just really scared.

The thing is, it's a mercy kill - my life is never going to get better. I really desperately want a close relationship with someone, but I'm so fucked that people get uncomfortable and never get that close (I'm a suic!d@l cvttr with no desire to get better - no one wants to be close to someone like that). Plus my arm is really fucked up from 7 yrs of sh and I'm ugly and no ones ever going to want to be in any sort of closer relationship with me, I'm too much

Also, I'm so constantly tired all the time from just living, I never go out or do anything fun, when I go to uni I'm not going to be able to make friends or do anything fun, i'll just work and sleep and that's it, I'm be completely alone and miserable. Independent life is going to be hard and miserable for me

so yh, I desperately want to and need to leave but I'm also scared

[sugar-omi]

okay first of all dw i get you, like ive had intentions to talk to ppl but then im like ",,,nah" LIKE I DONT WANNA TALK ABT FINDING A JOB OR SMTH LIKE IM JUST CHECKING YOU'RE ALIVE GO AWAY<////3

its times like that ik why i got 99-100% introvert on my mbti test

also YES LISTEN I'LL TELL YOU HOW I DID IT BC THIS IS HOW I DO EVEYRTHING, I JUST IMAGINE EVERYTHING A SLIKE A FUCKING COMING OF AGE MOVIE BC THATS THE LIFE IM LIVING IN MY HEAD RIGHT LMAO

i also use a lotta metaphors n say very poetic shit i just,,, the writer is deep and it is a little demon controlling me

MOVING ON OMG WHY AM I ALL OVER THE PLACE

i'm getting so many ideas... maybe lee asking if aloma is, well aloma, and crying bc she missed her so much and it was so scary, so hard for her to just be gone

i imagine its not too long before aloma comes out, seeing the pained expression of her family when they think people aren't looking isn't hard to miss, especially when you keep watching everyone because you've missed them.

ALSO I HAD A FEELING ABT THE SCAR OMG IM GLAD I WAS RIGHT

the family and cove would be so upset, they'd cry harder knowing they weren't there to protect or help aloma. everyone hates they didn't notice sooner, didn't do something sooner so aloma never ran away in the first place.

oh i also imagine the only reason the moms haven't noticed sooner is because they're just going through the motions most days, they all are actually

when i'm upset i kinda have like tunnel vision the whole day/week, even someone i was talking to a moment ago i won't remember exactly what we talked about. or their face/features.

i purposefully avoid making eye contact anyway, but more so during this time bc its hard. so aloma looks so much like their aloma, its hard to look sometimes. always glancing away, or not looking in the first place.

or everything is moving so fast, they're trying to escape thee conversation or situation as fast as possible and they don't take the time to study aloma's face, don't notice even the obvious things because today was too rough.

cove probably wouldn't think too much of the way aloma reacts to the shop either. mm unless aloma went smth like, "it'd be nice if there was a magician around here. those are fun, dont you think cove?"

he'd be a bit curious, but he'd be so hurt at the memory from shopping w her during step 1 he might not think about it until he's trying to sleep at night.

!!! another thought, cove probably thinks that baxter is aloma's boyfriend

never says anything bc, she's just a tourist, that's inappropriate.

but after crying in each others arms, having a heart to heart and breaking through the layer of hurt and regret, cove would ask either then or later on in the morning bc "wait, aren't you dating baxter?"

and aloma is like "ew what're you talking about? we're like siblings"

aloma and baxter would be so close, like maybe holding hands or hugging a lot, just very affectionate and joking a lot. cove isn't use to seeing sibling dynamics like that, or friends like that. ofc terry and randy are silly in their own right, but i think seeing how close aloma is with baxter makes cove yearn.

he wants to know everything about her, and when baxter and arden catch him outside, having just came back from their own lunch date and they invite cove in.

small talk and awkward silence later, cove mumbles, so soft it wouldn't be heard if it wasn't for the silence of baxter's condo.

"please, tell me everything i missed..."

wants to know all the things aloma won't tell him. of course not the sad or personal stories, but the embarrassing ones. or the little habits she adapted. the things that made her laugh, her favorite flower or food.

some things, arden and baxter tell him to ask her himself, but they do say "be careful, please take care of her. she's yearned for sunset bird and it's people for a long time."

of course they don't say anything she wouldn't like, they'll say some classic protective and teasing (big) sibling things, but otherwise usher cove out the door where he runs into aloma who is surprised, but laughs it off and says "what a coincidence, i was just uh.. i was just going to see you." aloma laughs, rubbing her cheek or some other nervous tick cove takes notice of. "wanna.. go see something cool?"

and takes cove to that field of poppies in "happiness" where they smile and laugh and cry.

cove, tucking hair behind aloma's ear. "i wanna know everything about you" "... it's not all pretty." "maybe, but its you."

and she tells him about the beginning, how opal took her in and tried to convince her things aren't as bad as they seem, that now is better than never but of course it didn't work, and she would never push a child out of her home.

and she tells him the in betweens, the funny and the stupid, the chaotic and the hurt/comfort stories. tells him the little things in between those, down to her 2 neighbors favorite colors and how arden toppled everyone over, her and tama trying to follow qiu's moves

told him about the hushed conversations she had under the stars, about the secrets shared in the dark between her and arden as children. not the personal ones, but the ones where they had a crush on some kid with red hair or called a teacher mom, the little ones but big enough to make a 13+ year old crumble in embarrassment

and they laugh, they laugh until they cry and choke and then they cry. well, cove cries mostly.

aloma looks up at the stars, white poppies framing her head and she's laughing, smiling and waving her hands to animate the story and cove flips over, trying to wipe away the tears slowly slipping down.

"cove? what's wrong...?" aloma touches his back, hesitant. cove reaches around, holding her hand.

"i just.. wanna experience those things with you too." cove cries, shaking "im jealous. i know i shouldnt be but..."

aloma is silent, and cove almost apologies but silently, brought to him by the breeze. "we're doing that now aren't we?"

and cove turns around, shocked, but he searches aloma's glassy eyes and then he cries, nodding. and he holds her hand tighter, tangling their fingers together for comfort

imagine the 'indifference route' was a bad dream crush/love Mc was having one night and when they tell Cove about it he is equally crept out and unsettled by the idea that there could've been a reality where they weren't as close as they are now. Where they didn't even *try* to be closer.

and when he learns that the indifferent version of him never even came over the day Mc learned about their biological parents, and weren't there to listen and comfort them, I think that would shock him the most. That this version of him wasn't there for the love of his life in moments like this.

one of the things that keep me up at night ever since I played and regretted the indifferent route. Never again.

omg he'd cry

he'd even apologize

he can't imagine not being apart of your life, he loves you so much. if you're dating he's ruined but if you're still crushing he'd even more ruined

which you'd think it'd be the other way but it's not, although you prbly couldn't tell the difference much but trust me, his heart hurts double. the idea of not being interest in you hurts more especially when he hasn't told you how he feels.

if there's a world, even in a dream, where you aren't interest in each others lives in any way, then there could be a world where he pines after you while you have no interest in him at all

cove can't imagine not loving you at all, so the idea of your disinterested, especially if it's direct and he can see the visible distance-or worst, annoyance- in your gaze

would end up confessing bc he can't let smth like that happen. if it's in step 3 before the end of summer/ happiness moment. he's even more upset bc he's alrdy worried abt the future n you losing touch

if you're dating he'd prbly cry m ask you to marry him bc he can't live like that, is joking abt it when he says it but does want it (if you want it too ofc)

either way what's you to know he wants you, loves you, and at this point Needs to be in your life bc he needs you like water

[m-jelly]

Hi!! Jelly I wanted to request of you can make a fic inspired by

Where the reader and Levi are king and queen and the reader started getting angry because she thought that her husband is cheating on her with the maid ( but actually he was preparing for their anniversary ahead of time )( dw the reader didn’t actually pacify the maid )

While Levi was preparing for a political dinner reader saw him with the maid then they had a talk about it but he didn’t tell her why he was talking to the maid so it pissed her off and on the day of the anniversary she found out and one more thing. ANGST!!! and FLUFF !!! ( you can ignore this and sorry for the English )

Hi! Thank you for sending this and your English is wonderful. So, I'm changing it a little so there isn't a massive understanding as I believe in communication. Hope you don't mind!

@kenkopanda-art thank you for this cute banner <3

Happy Anniversary.

Pairing: Levi x Reader

Genre and tags: Royal AU, fluff, cute, pouty reader and Levi, teasing, fun secrets.

Concept: You and Levi both start making your plans for your anniversary early to celebrate your royal marriage. Due to both of you running around and planning things in secret, you barely get to see each other. You both pout about being apart, but you won't stop planning your anniversary surprises. When they day comes, you surprise each other and promise that you won't do something big again because you missed each other too much.

You let out a long grumpy sigh as you planned more for your anniversary. You'd barely seen much of Levi and you missed him. You liked your staff, but you'd seen so much of them that you were getting tired and grouchy. You had to get these plans done to show Levi how much you love and appreciate him.

You walked through the halls as you organised more. You paused a moment when you noticed Levi with a maid. You felt a sinking feeling inside you as you watched him talk to her and give her instructions. You felt a little jealous, but not because you thought Levi was up to no good. You were jealous that the maid was having Levi's time and you'd barely been around him.

You let out a long sigh. "What I wouldn't give to be a maid for a day."

You stared longingly at your husband as your heart throbbed. You fought tears as the loneliness seeped in. You hugged yourself and hurried away just as Levi noticed you getting upset.

Levi placed his hand on his maid's arm. "Excuse me a moment." He jogged after you and called your name. "Are you by chance hungry?"

You turned to him. "I am not currently. I've had my lunch."

"Oh..." He rubbed the back of his neck and looked at the butler with you. He was jealous of the butler getting all your attention and time. "When are you free?"

"Oh, I'm not sure. I have a lot to plan. Your political dinner is tonight and I have some final touches to make for you."

He sighed. "Right, right..."

You smiled a little. "I'm sorry."

"No, no, it's okay. We both are busy."

You nodded. "I'll see you at the dinner."

"Yes...yes you will."

You hesitated a moment before kissing him and making him flinch. "I love you."

He smiled softly at you. "I love you too."

You waved to him and went about your jobs for the day. You finally changed into an appealing dress for the dinner and greeted the politicians as they came into the palace. You told them all that Levi would join them later, he was just busy. When Levi joined with a maid at his side and her blushing a little, you ignored the whispers and people questioning your husband's loyalty. You knew very well Levi would never ever cheat on you. Levi loved you, he cared for you deeply. Levi fought to have you as his Queen, so he would never throw it all away.

You escaped the dinner and stood on the balcony to get some air. You brushed your tears away as your loneliness sank in. You knew that planning something so big for your anniversary was a mistake because you barely got to see the man you loved so deeply.

You turned your head when you heard your name softly spoken. "Mm, Levi, evening. Did I organise everything well?"

He nodded. "It's perfect, thank you."

You smiled at him. "I'm glad."

He approached you and wiped a tear away. "Are you crying because of me? I'm so sorry."

You let out a long sigh. "I won't lie to you Levi." You held his hands. "We promised each other we'd always be honest, so here it is. I miss you terribly and I'm jealous of the maid."

"Jealous?"

You nodded. "She gets to spend so much time with you and I barely see you. I know you're planning something and I know you'd never cheat because you fought so hard for me, but I miss you. I miss us."

Levi held your waist and kissed you. "I love you. I adore you and I miss you." He kissed you again. "I really missed you. I have also been really jealous of the butlers you've been working with. I wanted so badly to be with you. I promise that after tomorrow, we'll be back together again."

You hugged Levi tightly. "No more planning things without the other."

"I agree." He hugged you back before letting you go. "Come on, we have dinner to finish."

You and Levi worked together to end the night and felt a little better now you'd talked it through. You dragged yourselves to bed and got up the next day to start putting your surprises in full force. You had set up a massive tea party with all kinds of tea for Levi to drink and try, along with baked treats for your anniversary.

Levi had organised for a playground to be made for you, so you could play games together like you would at a fair. He even had gotten nice fairground food and sweets as well. He wanted to have fun with you for the day and believed this was the best way to do it.

Levi waited for you and got word from his butler you were waiting for him. He hurried along to where you were and saw what you'd done for me. He smiled at the beautiful little tea party for just you and him. He walked closer to see you were wearing the dress he loved the most on you.

He smiled and said your name with pure love. "Is this what you've been doing?"

You nodded. "Yes. I wanted to do a tea party. I know you love tea and I have managed to get tea that we've never tried before."

"This is incredible. No wonder you've been working so hard."

You giggled. "Yeah. So, what have you been planning?"

He held your hand and walked with you to the back of the palace to show you the fun games and food. "I brought the fair to the palace. It's for all of our staff and you. I know how much you appreciate our staff and well, they helped us become a couple."

You welled up. "It's perfect."

"We'll have tea together, then come here."

You nodded. "Please."

He blushed a little. "Can we promise never to do this again? I hated not being with you."

"Promise. We should plan together."

He laughed a little. "Agreed."

[bxttxrflybxddie]

HEY BESY8E OMHG

COYLD I REQUEST MAELSTROM WITH LIKE A SHORT MALE READER CRUSH??

hcs pls! omg ur wroting is lovely

|Gunnar Maelstrom With A Short, Male Crush|

a/n: aww tysm!! and omg it's been so long since i've written for this evil old man haha ty for this request! also, i myself am not male so i cannot give insight on the specifics of that :/ however this was definitely written with a male reader in mind!

pairing: professor gunnar maelstrom x male! short! gunnar's crush! vile teacher! reader

post type: headcannons

requested: yes!

word count: 0.5k

warnings: crimes!!! and evil men being in love with evil men!! also i made the reader a teacher also lol

being the new teacher at vile academy is no small feat

you deal w troublemaking students CONSTANTLY

+ remarks from other instructors about your style of educating

but there's always someone you can confide with

professor gunnar maelstrom

ever since shadowsan's betrayal, you were the next-best choice

you've been incredibly useful and diligent with your skills as a vile thief, but when it came to teaching the future of spies, you were still an amateur 😔

you have more of a direct style of teaching. though you excel in the topic of your learnings, it's more simple to do rather than to explain.

gunnar helps you with teaching students !! the two of you have many combined classes together!!

actually how he realized fell for you <3 he was already head over heels but just watching you

how passionate you were speaking about how psychology can be involved with your class

the determined and optimistic look on your perfect, kissable face

gunnar was drowning in your sheer brilliance

and at that moment he realized that you had him wrapped around your thieving finger

expect to get the Daily Remark™️ about your height

nothing to truly upset you but definitely snarky enough to make you get that cute look on your face

he'll never let you know but this man. has no idea. what on earth. he is doing. and that is a fact.

you're his first crush in most likely decades; him being to dedicated to the life of crime to have a love life of his own

he cannot flirt to save his life, but he's not nervous or anything around you! so expect him to ask you things and act a little...unusual

however this is the professor maelstrom when ISNT he a little unusual

i'm imaging it's just you both in the teachers lounge. it's dead quiet, you and gunnar doing your own things separately.

when suddenly and out of completely nowhere:

"do you have a preference for men, (codename)?"

just random, out of the blue little ways to get to know you like that CONSTANTLY when you're alone together

if you're uncomfortable with his personal questions he'll stop dw!!

ask him abt himself.....he loves talking (especially to you <333)

him gazing longingly across any room you're in

if any mission requires a teacher to go, he's insisting the two of you go

him doing psychological tests on you to pick apart your brain get to know you better !

please omg....ask him fun facts about sea creatures he'll pass away on the spot if he finds out you share a love for marine life as well

he's dreaming about taking you on an aquarium date but shh!! it's a secret!!!

everyone who hasn't been a vile agent for >2 years knows he's sweet on you

him being teased from the other teachers bc of this

he'll roll his eyes at them, but not deny what they're joking about

besides, you're worth it

you're worth everything to him <3

© BXTTXRFLYBXDDIE

[byeler]

17, 19, 39, 99 !!!!!!!!! :D

hi moon tysm for sending these :-) i just had to think abt the answers for a realllllly long time dw

17. what is your favorite line you’ve ever written?

i spent so long thinking about this and couldn't come up with a good answer so i'm going with

“I’m not angry,” Mike says angrily. 

i know i've written better lines but this one is so fucking dumb that it makes me laugh every time i think about it so idc it's my favorite i love him so much

19. what are some books or authors that influenced your style the most?

markus zusak will always be my number one, he has such incredible and stunning prose that leaves me in awe no matter how many times i reread. even though our styles are completely different i really admire how intentional he is with every single line he writes, and i think some of that does manage to come through.

maggie stiefvater has some hilariously witty lines of both narration and dialogue that have stuck with me for years and i think some of that does manage to creep into my work. and again, as different as our styles are, i definitely look up to donna tartt's works a lot, and while i don't think i truly emulate her in my writing, i do think i eliminate some of my worst lines by judging my work in comparison to hers

39. are you an avid reader?

i try to be!! i have a kindle and a libby account and have signed up for ten different library cards to link with it so i can almost always check out whatever book i want. i'm currently rereading little women since it's been probably over a decade since i last did :-)

i actually don't read fics that often anymore, but that's mainly because i'm so busy these days. and i really struggle with productivity in my down time - i tend to get into my own head and tell myself that if i have enough time to be reading fics, i have enough time to be writing them, and then i get upset with myself and accomplish neither. which is fun!!

99. was being a writer a dream of yours when you were little? or did it spring up when your older? or is it just a hobby? 

it was my career goal probably around ages like 8-14!! i actually started taking writing more seriously around the time i was 15, which is the same time my dream died out. i honestly don't have any desire to publish my own work or write some sort of great novel, it really is just a fun hobby for me. i took a couple creative writing courses in college but at the end of the day i'd like it to remain something i enjoy in my free time as opposed to a career

[charmspoint]

Hi! Not the same anon, but you said in a previous ask that you fell out of love with bsd. I was thinking about starting that series so I'm curious, can you tell me about more about your opinions on bsd?

Oh boy uhhhhh my opinions about bsd. Anon I'm so so sorry for what is about to happen.

Quick and easy advice: Read until the end of the guild arc and then drop it and consider the series done, that would be until end of ch 37, enjoy

Now for the crazy version:

It doesn't IMMIDIETLY go bad Guild arc but after that is where things slowly start to slack and slip and then we end up with what we ended up ye.

I really enjoyed bsd up until the end of the guild arc! I won't say it has NO writing problems, they were always there, but there were a lot less noticeable. The characters are cool and creative and if you are watching the anime the animation is stunning (though I do rec the manga, anime has a bad habit of cutting corners or changing scenes, especially when it comes to soukoku for some reason). Like it's no coincidence that even after I've completely fell out of love with the manga, characters like Chuuya and Ranpo are still ones I think about and consider amongs my favs. BSD had a lot lot lot of potential.

Anyway, Kafka Asagiri can't write for shit.

That's mean I know, but I'm really really tired of this dude like, the way he writes reminds me of the way i wrote when i was like 15 and that is NOT a compliment.

He has a really really unfortunate habit of making characters Just so many characters. Go to bsd fan wiki, go look at how many fucking organizations there are, that's too many organizations. This is why bsd was good until after guild arc. You had Port Mafia you had Detective Agency, they are at war, in comes Guild, they have to unite, simple but effective. And then like 11 other organizations are pulled out of nothing and each of them has at least a couple of names characters and sometimes a few of them will get developed but probably really only one and that is what Kafka does. He's a character designer. He makes shiny new toys and plays with them for a while and then he throws them away because he's bored and he wants a new toy. That's just how everything has started to feel.

Like

I hadn't kept up with the manga for a while. I used to get some info about what was happening from my friend but then she dropped it too, so now i only get what accidentally ends up on my dash. I heard Kenji got a bit of a backstory recently good for him. I honestly dont know where bsd is going rn, is it better, is it worse, is it trudging down the same old track. If anyone who follows me reads it feel free to jump into my ask box to tell me about it, especially if its like 'you are wrong lucy its actually good now' because god knows i want it to be.

But that's just the overall impression I got from kafka's writing. Like, I think he knows somewhat where he is going, maybe the end goal, but he's honestly flying by the seat of his pants. Things happen and you are like 'wait what, is that allowed?', Chuuya is a god now, its a nitpick only im upset about but its my blog, and god, god kafka thinks hes so smart

It was cool at first you know, we had Ranpo and Dazai who were both genius detectives with their own flavors and it was fun. But you know that sherlock video where the guy rants how sherlock just magically knows things and we are just supposed to accept it because sherlock is so smart and special THATS HOW THE WHOLE OF BSD STARTS TO FEEL. Every other villain is a brilliant genius strategist and they do things and know things and battle with dazai who also does things and knows things and none of it is ever explained because well they are geniuses just trust me they would know, dw they can do this, they are geniuses. Kafka just uses them to do whatever the fuck he wants without having to work for it because they are geniuses. It's annoying! The fucking code talking scene will be something ill be mad about on my death bed i stg.

Anon, I'm a character driven person. If i like the characters, I can stand a mediocre plot that's fine. But Kafka displays such massive misuse of all his characters its simply unbearable. I love Chuuya with all my heart and I don't acknowledge more than like 5% of his backstory. I was looking forwarded to his backstory! This never happened to me before, that i find out more about a character n just stand there n go

'well thats stupid as shit, that didn't happen'

And believe me anon I could rant about misuse of Chuuya until next year.

Just. It really really does have that feeling, you know. Like Kafka makes characters and gets bored of them and then just plays around with new characters until hes bored of them too. On and on and on. Instead of deepening the relationships between already pretty big 'core' cast, he keeps throwing new characters at them, that were never mentioned before but are suddenly super important. Only to forget about them too.

It feels pointless to care about characters when you read bsd. Nothing will be done with them, and this goes beyond like 'well this is a side character, they won't get much work' I feel like fucking Atsushi has been half forgotten and he's the mc. Or maybe Dazai is the mc??? But then i heard Kafka started to abandon him too which is just??

Ugh, sorry about huge ass angry rant, bsd is just THAT sort of topic with me, I feel like i said this same thing like 50 different times to a dozen of different people and i still get upset about it every single time.

If i could steal one set of characters and make them my own it would be the original cast of bsd, agency, port mafia, guild. I love those characters, i wish they had a better writer and attention they deserved, it could have been very cool

I said so much but i didnt even talk about how cannibalization arc is completely wasted or anything, I feel like every time i write this it ends up less and less coherent and more just me screaming at the clouds

I hope that helps?

[sleepy--anon]

Karma

Hey hey, I've written for our favorite gay couple. ⚠️Warning ⚠️ this fic contains a very small portion of feet tks and "public" tks. Ok enjoy!

Ant stared at his phone embarrassed as the video on Velvet's Twitter played again. Velvet was asking Ant to come to bed and the words "make me" slip out of Ant's mouth and suddenly Ant's high pitched giggles flowed out of the speakers as he pleaded with Velvet off screen. Ant growled with a bright pink face and texted Bad.

Ant

Have you seen the video on Red's Twitter??

Bad

Yeah I have, I thought it was adorable! You guys are soooo cute!!

Ant

Yeah yeah, I'm not happy about it

Bad

Oh...my bad, why did you text me tho?

Ant

Because you've known Velvet the longest, he was a mod on your server! You have to know a way I can get revenge right?!

Bad

Ok jeez Ant calm down! He technically made me promise not to tell anyone so you can't let him know I said this

Ant

Yeah yeah of course what?

Bad

Red is actually freakishly ticklish, like more than you which is surprising

Ant

First of all, rude, second of all, if he's worse than me how have I never known about this?

Bad

He's very good at keeping his breaking spot concealed, you have to break him first then he's hysterical

Ant

Care to share 🥺👉👈

Bad

He's gonna kill me, but it's his inner thighs

Ant

Thanks Bad! I'll cover for you dw :D

Bad

You better! Have fun and don't kill him, he can’t take much

Ant smiled evilly at the new information and planned to strike after dinner.

Time skip to after dinner obviously

The couple were laying in bed cuddling when Ant decides that he's ready for revenge.

"Hey Babe?"

"Mhm?"

"You wanna explain why you thought it was a good idea to post that video to Twitter?" Velvet's relaxed face suddenly formed into a frown.

"I didn't think it'd actually upset you, I'm sorry, I can take it down?" Ant softened at his boyfriend but decided he still wanted to go through with his plan.

"Oh no you can leave it up, but only if I'm allowed to do the same." Velvet's brows suddenly furrowed in confusion and gestured for Ant to explain what he meant.

"I'll record on my phone where it's just audio and I get to tickle the absolute crap out of you."

"Good luck with that we've already tried this My Love, I'm not ticklish." Ant smirked, ready to wipe that smug look off his boyfriend’s face.

"Actually, with some intense interrogation, I got some very contradicting information from Bad." Ant said, his voice getting deeper as his hand slid from his knee to his thigh. Velvet immediately stiffened and paled.

"W-What did he say?" Velvet knew he was screwed.

"Just that you are actually freakishly ticklish but I need to break you first~" And with that Velvet heard the soft ding of Ant hitting record on his phone and suddenly sporadically squeezing the ever loving crap out of Velvet's thighs. He quickly climbed on top of him so he had better access as Velvet squealed and kicked.

"FUHUHUHUCK AHAHAHANT!" Ant decided that he wasn’t so mean, the teasing would be in his ear so the recording wouldn't hear it. Ant moved up to attack every inch of his upper body and realized what Bad ment by he couldn’t take much, the power from his laughter never faltered.

"What's the matter~? Can't handle what you dish out~?" Ant teased in his ear, purposefully making his breath more tickly.

"GOHOHOD YOHOHOU'RE SOHOHO MEHEHEAN!"

"One more thing and then we're even." Ant suddenly bent backwards so that he was laying on his boyfriend’s legs. Velvet sucked in as much air as he could for the short break.

"AAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!" Velvet was thrown into hysterical laughter when Ant scribbled ruthlessly against his bare feet. He tried to kick, he tried to buck, but all he could do was cackle and weekly slap at Ants knees. Ant stopped after a few seconds and quickly stopped the recording. He rubbed Velvet's chest and encouraged him to breathe.

"You good Red?" He nodded slowly and hummed as Ant pushed the hair off of his sweaty forehead.

"Not once did you tell me to stop~" Ant teased lightly as he softly brushed his fingers against the still sparkling nerves. Velvet jumped at the feeling and blushed at the observation.

"Shut up... it's nice sometimes." He stated covering his face. Ant giggled fondly and laid down to cuddle his boyfriend again, occasionally spidering up his sides just for fun until they fell asleep. Red woke up to a bunch of notifications on his phone, when he opened Twitter he saw Ant had posted the video with the caption "Karma's a bitch my love" When Velvet watched the video and read the replies he got red in the face and suddenly understood how Ant felt.

[mapbotofficial]

Hey so, it's come to my attention that the map jokes are partly why you stopped updating this blog and stuff and I don't remember that far back so I don't know if anyone else was doing it but I do remember making the map jokes. If those jokes upset you or disheartened you from sharing the story you had going then I'm sorry about that. I genuinely thought we were all having a bit of fun with it but if not, that's fine. I now know it was a problem so I won't do it anymore.

Good luck again with your character designs and I'll be around for the reboot you've got instore!

~Mouse

actually the map jokes werent the issue dw your fine! tbh i thought it was funny

i havent really shared the proper reasons as for why i stopped but i figured this would be a good time for it?

its mostly that not a lot of people seemed to be interested in the story i was making, even the joke posts about it, similar to what mod riddle said about people not interacting with posts

but its MAINLY the part that i love to draw images for the blog! and having burnout in art as well as. ok so i draw with a mouse and having a hand injury from a few years ago causing pain easily makes that VERY difficult to do proper drawings frequently, hence why im redoing the designs on paper rn!

the main reason i havent responded to any of the map asks currently in the inbox is becuase there is 60 lmao

[carrieway]

14 24 34 for the dw asks? ^.^

14. Best regeneration?

i'm only currently knowledgeable of nuwho regenerations, and honestly i'm at a four-way tie !! from nine all the way to twelve, they all bring such different emotions and experiences that i love them all (even when eleven and twelve broke my heart TT)- but i will say, ten's regeneration to eleven, taking into deleted script pieces where the doctor discussed the master and how he went down his path vs the doctor very clearly being at the crossroads of that same path but choosing kindness over everything- it's so so good imo. i wish they kept that line in during the doc's and wilf's talk !! it would've added so much more to it !!

eleven and twelve's speeches however will stick with me the most, and have helped me a lot in rough patches frankly, so those will always get huge amounts of appreciation from me. and nine's "you were fantastic" and so was i" is just !!!! he went from being so ashamed of himself and full of hate and pain over what he had to do, to proudly proclaiming, in his last words that he was absolutely fantastic. nine is such a wonderful doctor, even in his one season.

24. Best TARDIS Team?

oooh certainly a question for the ages- i'll always land back on Mickey/Rose/Jack/Nine as my favorite, seeing their fun conversation and all of them just having a lunch together feels so nice and grounded, and it makes me wonder what they all got up to without all the huge adventures taking the lead.

the best however for me is of course the medusa cascade gang, you truly cannot go wrong with every one of the doctor's friends (in that current time) helping him and saving the universe just as he did for them.

34. Best two-parter?

my instinct is to say the empty child/the doctor dances as those are my comfort episodes (seeing the doctor truly happy and everyone surviving is something i think should happen just a little bit more for them tbh :[ ) but i really think the lie of the land/monk episodes are really stand out ones. the entire plotline of them are so unique, taking a few tropes and previously done outlines and filling them in with something so frankly intense and captivating. my first viewing (a few months back actually !!), i was really honestly shocked by so much of the stuff, my mom really enjoyed them too- esp with how the monks didn't entirely talk by moving their mouths-, and tbh when the doc claimed to be on the monks side, i got so amped and upset ndndnd n even after when he was like "lol jk" i still was annoyed a bit because of how heavy of a choice bill had to make vs the doctor being all smiles after (i have my own read on all of that but i dont wanna make this even longer ndndndn)

runner ups are ofc simm!master's episodes, the doctor falls duo, and honestly !! i enjoyed spyfall, even with my critics around some of the writing :]

thank you very much for the questions !!!! i really liked thinking over my answers ee

[adios-gatos]

I hope I'm not too late for the ask meme, could I ask n° 1 for the boys? Any combo you feel like! - Piraticusdorm

of course you arent dw!!

CONRAD:

BELLUS: - first of all hes already v into the piraticus dorm’s uniform for the shirts mostly and is usually into pretty people so the moment he sees conrad and his flashy fashion hes 👀. though conrad doesnt seem like the kind of person bellus would actually get a crush on?? its likely because hes an authority figure dnksa - not having a crush wouldnt stop him from hitting on conrad occasionally, mostly because bellus enjoys flustering people who seem composed. he does Not understand that being a mermaid in of itself can make others uncomfortable even if theyre in the same dorm - does want to braid some of the water flowers in the lake the boys claimed into conrads hair. if conrad declines he might try to sneak them in as a little game

MERI: - for reasons he wouldnt admit too, somehow meris jealous that conrad has kenns respect?? hes a lil jealous of anyone kenn respects but hes the most jealous over conrad - because of that hes huffy towards conrad and gives him the silent treatment. which doesnt really work on someone who doesnt know you but maybe its a blessing if anything and no one should explain that to meri - meri has made Many plans for pranks against conrad but conrad seems like a v observant guy?? so that and caspian and kenn being there to stop meri makes the situation lowkey feel like a wilde coyote and roadrunner one tbh

CASPIAN: - so like. he and the others had to get over their opinions about pirates pre-nrc quickly when they were put into the piraticus dorm and hes done p well with that. but he still cant stop feeling wary when he sees conrads eye patch and hat he wears in the dorm(?). but kenn likes him and the feeling isnt as bad whenever conrad is in more casual clothing so caspian just tolerates it - even with that, he enjoys the times conrad plays the piano and sings with everyone

KENN: - he has a lot of respect for conrad for being able to manage the dorm and as a result everyone within in. despite that he lowkey avoids talking to him when he can since after moving to nrc hes become Aware of the opinions people have about mermaids mostly because now he cant ignore them. so kenns likely aware of the fact conrad is uncomfortable around mermaids and tries to restrain the others enough where conrad doesnt have to get involved - probably overthinks if his magic specifically makes conrad uncomfortable since his is straight up siren magic. he learned that it isnt acceptable to just use his magic whenever he feels like during first year but since theyre both third years, when kenn remembers how he was when he was still adjusting hes just ‘god conrad saw that.’ hes found hours later by caspian with his head in his hands still embarrassed  - vibes a lot with the keeping your word but using any loopholes possible method conrad also uses. may or may not try to subtly point out loopholes to him if he somehow looks over one

TINK:

BELLUS: - likes trying to pick out the bells in tinks voice whenever hes singing and enjoys even more watching tink dance. bellus is most interested in whenever tink flies while dancing but the thought of doing the same makes him a lil skittish. flying seems fun but he isnt fond of the thought of what happens if you fall. you cant fall when youre in water!! - with the fact hes a hopeless romantic, the moment he hears about tinks secret admirer hes !!! and also trying to find out who it is. though if/when he does, he wont tell tink who it is because that Ruins the Suspense!! The Mystery!! that doesnt keep bellus from using knowing that secret to tease tink though so f

MERI: - even if meri isnt the nicest of the gang, he does like tinks pranks and will try to get tink involved in his. especially the ones that involve octavinelle - may Try to not provoke tink besides playful teasing because of the fact he sees tink as a potential prank buddy. he also understands neverland faeries more than mainlanders and non mermaid folk in general so hes more willing to rein himself in if it means tink will join his games - they both have some similar qualities like being quick to act out & fight and having fun at the expense of others. theyd either get along well or butt heads. maybe a bit of both! if they do play pranks together itd be harder for meri to get genuinely mad at tink when they clash. though he might end up treating it like a game and make tink more upset when they do smh

CASPIAN: - thinks its amusing to watch tinks pranks but he wont outwardly show more than maybe a smile at his antics - since he likes people watching and sometimes drawing said people, caspian probably has some drawing of tink in his journal mostly focused on his face. he just remembers all the other neverland faeries hes seen from the lagoons whenever he sees tink and with that, the rest of neverland. so drawing tink reminds a bit of home - even with that association caspian still doesnt talk to tink often like how he does with most other people

KENN: - lowkey associates tink with caspian since they both have the right hand man role going on - also sees tinks pranks as entertaining, its just whenever meri is there too he becomes more wary about the situation - he does want to respect tink since hes a vice dorm leader, its just whenever he sees him around the dorm he cant help but just be internally “whos this lost sassy child..........” the 9 inch height difference they have doesnt help tink out there

KROK:

BELLUS: - for some reason krok Does seem like someone bellus would have a crush on?? itd be a one sided one and off type of crush more than anything but its still there in the background - dnvs i could see bellus unintentionally scaring off krok more than anything with his flirting when its taken into account the reputation neverland mermaids made for themselves. hes out there trying to braid kroks hair and playfully splash him and convince him to sunbathe with the others because theres snacks and kroks just “oh god this guys gonna try to drown me” - so maybe he does also splash people he doesnt like but its about the Context yknow? - a lil confused when he hears that krok cant sing Or play instruments and offers to teach him. which mostly involves getting caspian to teach him because bellus is only a good teacher when the topics about stars. but he Will be willing to sit through the lessons with him

MERI: - hes a lil intimidated by the fact kroks a crocodile even if krok doesnt get into fights in the first place especially unprovoked. though considering meri tends to provoke Everyone, he might have a good reason to be wary - also isnt fond of kroks ability to eat others magic since he relies on his so much. and with the fun combination of meris temper, his unintentional magic usage when hes upset, the fact the piratcus dorms are on the ocean, and that being on a ship doesnt make a boiling ocean any more comfortable, kroks likely had to eat meris magic before. hes still upset about it - even though their height difference is only 4 inches, meri sometimes squats when they do talk out of spite - despite all of that, he does appreciate that kroks an honest person because lying about emotions is such a hassle. though he also thinks that krok not hiding things too takes the fun out of things

CASPIAN: - tbh he cant comprehend the concept of someone not being good at both playing instruments and singing, mostly because hes used to being around music focused magic back home. like?? are you saying you cant even play a shell horn?? what the fuck???? he assumes krok is just fucking with them even if krok tries to prove he isnt - if krok does accept bellus’s offer to learn how to play, caspian is a pretty patient person so hopefully thatd make krok more comfortable? outside of that, caspian does enjoy playing and talking with the fish and birds around the campus so that could be something they could talk about- - caspian does lie a lot though especially to people he isnt close to so that might bring up some issues between them vdsv

KENN: - “caspian theres a weird fucking cat outside” - kenn when he first sees krok sunbathing - he understands wanting time to relax but he doesnt get sleeping all the time. hes used to everyone always wanting to splash and play back home and only stop to brush their hair and sunbathe so someone willingly choosing to just snooze whenever he can?? why’d you do that........ - even if he doesnt understand it he’ll still try to not wake up krok if hes sleeping outside again. sometimes bellus and meri get past him but he does what he can to keep them from bothering him like he does with most - hes v interested in kroks magic tbh since it seems v useful to have on hand. hes also a lil curious about what his own magic tastes like