#dunno but Im threading a very thin rope

[raksh-writes]

Just a late night vent in hopes it help, feel free to ignore.

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I went to bed early tonight, 'cause Ive barely slept more than 4-5h a night this week and I can Feel it, at my internship and then at home, barely able to think the few hours I have and swaying on my feet in the shower only to go to bed and then spend over 2h laying awake (as of now), like-- for fucks sake...

maybe it's because I got mad earlier, I had to wash my hair (a whole big, long affair), so I planned it a bit earlier before sleep at like 9 but turned out there was no hot water so I got pissed bcs then I had to wait almost an hour for it but I think I got over it, like I have no energy to be mad (enough to cry, tho, I guess, ugh), but I had to blow dry them before sleep so, dunno, is that why? I dont think so, but probably everything combined just got my brain on high alert and waved the sleep I Badly need goodbye. Worst is, if only I was Able to Fall asleep, Id get around 7h when I finally got to bed, but of course that didnt happen, fuck me I guess... at this point I even popped a pill Im pretty sure is gonna make me naouseus tomorrow and Im not sure its a good idea when I have less than 6h before my alarm but Im at the end of my rope tonight.

Fuck this, honestly, Im just so fucking tired...