#dun mind me

[thimbell]

WHO WOULD WIN?! AN EMOTIONAL DYSREGULATION EPISODE OVER SOMETHING SILLY or ONE “Ganbatte roomba-san,… ganbatte” TUMBLR POST REFERENCE

forget actual breathing and calming techniques— “ganbatte roomba-san” has done more for me than 3 years of therapy /lh /j

[eunchancorner]

GOOD MORNING EUN!!!

haisss

[tinyevelyn]

TRICK OF TREAT!🍭🎃

[atlantis-princess]

Such raw power.

Such raw hatred.

She's seen that before. Many times.

First the Atlantean King, her predecessor. And the Egyptian King, the Nameless Pharaoh.

What would Timaeus think?

[boss-of-armadildos]

"Almost ready for harvest"

Hey, who wants to celebrate some blood test results with me?

[lbulldesigns]

Ekko and Jinx reunite after she fakes her death.

Ekko: I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU FAkED YOUR DEATH!!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU DYI-

Jinx: I'm Batman.

Ekko: ...

Jinx: *nods her head, and then walks away*

Ekko:

Ekko: *whispering to himself* What the fuck is a Batman?

[rainystressed247]

It's here! A selection of my sketches for you to colour! Yes you!

If you would like to download the file in case tumblr messed up the quality, follow this link to Mega. If there are any issue with the files please contact me, this is the first time I use Mega so yeah >.<

Since these are traditional sketches there may be imperfection/errors, so please go easy on me haha. And if you would like more of these, lmk too! <3 Thanks for always been here!

[4lienat]

Tyler: It’s alright. [Oldies Station’s] the boring one on the record, I know.

that’s it I’m taking OS from Tyler FANS until y’all treat it with the proper respect 🤨

[muttsterion]

Just finished re-watching the Superhero trilogy after a long while and ha I swear Mysterion's expression in this scene still gets to me. Imagine thinking the universe finally reveals to you why you're stuck with your curse....only for it to be "Oh sorry I'm talking to the guy behind you..." and what's worse you can't blame the other guy or even explain to him and your friends why you're so upset.

[artist-issues]

break the cycle. it's been "Why do I feel this way? -> is it ever going to get better? -> Wow, I'm messed up -> I'm insecure about that -> But I'll share my mess with others because the insecurity doesn't control me -> they like it & feel it too -> but if they like it because we're all messed up, then aren't I just secure in my mess? Am I afraid to get cleaned up because then they won't connect with me anymore? -> so then my insecurities do control me -> Why do I feel this way? -> is it ever going to get better? -> Wow, I'm messed up -> I'm insecure about that ->" for as long as I can remember.

Let Him break into the cycle and give you a security in Him, not in your mess. An identity in Him, not in your issues. He's got to take your hand and lead you up, step by step, growing and healing away from that cycle. The cycle shouldn't be who you are. Your support shouldn't be your support just because they have the same mess in common. You shouldn't be worried that by getting a wound healed and moving on, you're giving up your Wounded Support Group.

break the cycle by surrendering to God, who is outside of the cycle and can and does make you a new creation.

what would it be like if you stop looking so much at how you feel, and how you think, and how you are, and start talking about something other than your own psyche? Other than what your psyche has in common with others' psyches? You're so profound when you talk about your thoughts and the people who have the same kinds of thoughts as you. What would it be like if you started looking at something outside of yourself and talking about that?

[sometimesanequine]

[f0linasahl0]

more things about the livestream experience before i go completely insane.

(warning: this is going to be a long one)

1: why is [bishop] lisden's favorite song mulberry street and why is [bishop] sacarver's favorite (if i remember) the outside or stressed out....i just want to throw that out there

2: i absolutely adore the piano spread whatever thing tyler does before he goes and raps to migrane. i dont know what its called but when he runs his hand across the piano, it was good. how did he make it sound so good and musical...

3: why is the shy away livestream version the only livestream version that is on their official "the story" playlist??? i keep thinking about that (https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3roRV3JHZzaU_kQ4-7uv-ahPbFabFmRW)

4: also thinking about how they cut off holding onto you before the outro. basically all there was of holding onto you was the "entertain my faith" part...thinking about the lore THERE. how a "good day dema" ad cut off the ending as well then they talk about how happy they are !! then how it goes to mulberry street after dan LISDEN says its his favorite then how it goes so blurry BEFORE THE AD??? ----"entertain my faith" sounds something like he..wants more from the religion but they cut him off from continuing the rest of holding onto you..like he got in trouble or something? i dont know man

5: "dema is bringing you this music collection that is vibrant with saturation"... "dema wants you to enjoy this collection"..."i just felt trapped before having this collection" ... "contentment"...."now that youve heard some of this collection you must be just like us, completely saturated"..."sometimes i close my eyes to try to escape...you know you cant escape sally...yes i know!" PROPAGANDA

6: why is he holding and grabbing his head so much. past the literal deadpan ass stare hes got through the majority if not all of the experience (like even while doing his little dances you'd think he'd be smiling during...), why does he grip his head so often-- i talked about this before but like what are they doing to him man he like grips his head in almost pain so much

7: also thinking about what the lore implications of jenna and debby being in this...because im pretty sure its shown jenna in levitate is a bandito i only assume debby was one too. why are they there?? were they caught too? or did dema make clones of them to use against josh and tyler?

8: "i cant wait to see you again"

9: ”in a world where this is as good as it gets…we miss you. we really do.”

10: also can we discuss the "CONTROLLED by" dma org and good day dema??? this photo is blurry as hell but CONTROLLED BY! not PRODUCTION OF! specific word choice..also dma org...dmaorg.info...why are clancy's letters posted on a website thats directly correlated with dema...letters from his time inside as well as time outside...can we like talk about that--like other than the obvious showcase that they have his letters and are using them to lie to the people, why are they going through dmaorg?? if clancy isnt directly with dema why are they--why are they going through there???

11: the whole cutscene before lane boy "there was a wonderful structure to the city that put my cares to rest and the responsibilities of the day seemed to be accomplished with minimal effort. once a task was taught and understood, our obligations timely, and it felt secure knowing tomorrows duties would be accomplished with the same efficiency. we all worked to represent our bishop with honor knew that each inhabitant of our region had a like-minded dedication to consistency....why do i kneel to these concepts? tempted by control, control by temptation. stay low, they say. stay low," then the direct contradiction of the redecorate rap he inserts, “with the bells and the whistles scaled back like an isolated track, and he feels trapped when he's not inebriated fair to say he's fairly sedated most days of the week. he might have made it if he lived on a different street. i repeat, scaled back and isolated he says he likes an open schedule but he mostly hates it if you're running to his room, take a breath before you break-in put your ear up to the door, tell me can you hear him saying?” using clancy's letters to show praise to dema then clancy (tyler) directly contradicting being like "no i hold zero praise for this city" and saying how hes isolated and sedated when hes not preforming--how he ALMOST made it out. how if he lived A LITTLE closer to the walls he wouldnt be there right now-

12: the way the old songs are "SCALED BACK AND ISOLATED" ???? A SCALED BACK AND ISOLATED TRACK????

13: the way ned is missing in chlorine when he was such a big part of chlorine

14: AGAIN this shy away version. one-why is it so important to the story, two-the 9 chairs for 9 bishops around the table, three-i fucking love the guitarist by josh i love his energy, four-THE WAY HE BREAKS A GLASS WHEN TALKING ABOUT BREAKING THE CYCLE IN HALF???, THE SCREAM !!!! so many things

[so many things you guys]

15: the fucking bishop ass dancers to stressed out....can we discuss that too. ALSO HOW THEY DRAG HIM TO THE NEXT STAGE FOR STRESSED OUT?

16: "but remember you should- *cut off*" YOU SHOULD WHAT SALLY SACARVER????

17: also firstly, how beautiful the ukulele part was...it was so gorgeous, also the transition was amazing. though past that, can we talk about how fucking sad he looked on that little boat with his uke? was that a mock to his escape attempts? to him singing to an empty sky in trench? singing to the banditos as they boat someplace safer? like...

18: THE MOCKING OF THE BANDITOS WITH THE FUCKING JUMPSUIT/HEAVYDIRTYSOULD PART?? why would dema do that? why would the bishops actively make josh and tyler look like the banditos if it wasn't just a mock? they dont like the banditos i thought why would they have them dressed up like that? like torchbearer bringing the torch to the stage and the look josh has on his face-then tyler also being in a bandito outfit. like--it has to be mocking his attempts. mocking the banditos or SOMETHING

19: heathens being in the livestream makes me think a little too but i dont know. "all my friends are heathens take it slow, wait for them to ask you who you know. please dont make any sudden moves you dont know half of the abuse."

20: also first, what was that alarm that was sounded before never take it? what happened there? second, the lore people have posted about never take it and how it was about the bishops? the way it was played while the alarm was going off and it was almost messier filming...

21: HIM ENDING THE LIVESTREAM WITH "nobody's coming for me" and his deadpan look (sobbing)

22: again, bringing up sally sacarver and dan lisden. sacarver and lisden being bishop's names and hosting this livestream. then showing directly how the bodies they are controlling are deteriorating as the show goes on. "The rules are that you can only seize or control a dead body, and only for a short while."

23: also just the heavydirtysoul part. starting to think about the: "I tricked Nico into taking me outside the walls. I created a fiery diversion. I escaped." i just keep thinking about that and:

24: "we've come for you, we've got people on the way, no chances, none at all" the way this is direct quotes from dan and sally, who are bishops, and it is also direct lyrics (or close to direct lyrics) from no chances. it just keeps cementing itself on everything ive already thought about

25: past just the livestream experience what is with josh and the bucket hat lol. i love it but like.-

26: "you ask me if its real, i see your shifting eyes, you dig in your heels, i dig my hole to die" also wondering why the "live from the outside" version is here rather than the original.-is it important

27: his little dances are my favorite thing-

28: CAR RADIO...car radio. thats it thats the point. just the car radio part is everything to me--its giving old car radio performances and im living for it. though also old car radio performances? did they put it together like that on purpose?

29: NEVER TAKE IT HAVING A BURNING CAR HOLY SHIT FIREY DIVERSION? LMAO just how close he is to the camera during this too...so many thoughts

30: "...you know you cant escape sally...yes i know!" IS THIS LIVESTREAM SHOWING CLANCY AND HOW HE DIDN'T ESCAPE EITHER?? SHOWING THAT HE HAS BEEN CAUGHT AND IF HE CANT ESCAPE, THE NOTORIOUS CLANCY, THEN YOU CANT EITHER???! SO MANY THOUGHT!!

[sorry for how long this is-]

DID THIS SHOW HOW MANY THOUGHTS I HAVE HERE. im going insane like i keep thinking about the lore implications of this goddamn livestream. i have more points (i will make a essay list whatever for it all so i don't go any crazier) but this is already a lot for one post. just wanted to like...throw this out there. i know some might be a stretch but please just hear me out. just hear me out :,)

[um-huh-whuh]

11 sure was a funny episode huh

guys i don't think she enjoys BFDIA anymore 💔💔

[withered-tears]

If these two dorks keep being so fucking cute at each other imma have to put a diabetes warning on this friking fic.

[marshiegoat]

I have a shit ton of oc’s (a long list that I dread to add on my toyhouse/refsheet, and I still make more lmao), but these are my current faves so far,,,,

Purdy wemen,,,

(Jewel’s is outdated, but idk when I’m gonna redesign her bfbfngng)

[shihkas]

Like literally just say what you mean. Torture, abuse, conditioning, cults, etc. you don’t need the conspiracy to legitimize your pain or anyone else’s.

Cont'd:

I brought up project monarch because the conspiracy theorists who invented the term ramcoa were referring directly to it and this beta programming etc terminology is all straight up project monarch shit. It can’t be separated. Ramcoa = project monarch = violent antisemitic conspiracy.

This post contains graphic discussion of Nazism, the Holocaust, Nazi experiments, concentration camps, and antisemitism. I also directly address and refute your claim that "RAMCOA = Project Monarch = violent antisemitic conspiracy" in this post.

First of all do not assume I'm "(mis)using terms to legitimize my pain". You do not know me. You do not know anything about me. I used my family's experiences as an example. My family is not me.

Also love how I've been providing source after source after source and you can't even back up your claim that "ritual abuse is an antisemitic dog whistle." You didn't try to refute or deny any of my other claims, or admit that you were wrong in the slightest. And you're continuing to make arguments without any sources. I doubt you even read my post at all actually let alone any of the links.

Just say you don't care about child abuse survivors and leave. But clearly you want to die on this hill (under a read more because this got very long):

Let me first make it clear I do not take antisemitism lightly. Antisemitism is something that should not ever under any circumstance be taken lightly. Let me also make it clear the Holocaust was in and of itself a combination of ritual and organized abuses:

"Ritualized" in the sense that it was compound sadistic forms of abuse (sexual, physical, psychological, etc.) and justified in the name of the Nazis' institutionalized disregard of the humanity of the Jewish people

"Mind control" in reference to their many horrific so-called "experiments" they enacted (this is better described as interrogation techniques/behavioural modification through torture, mind control is a frustrating and inaccurate term)

"Organized" in the sense that... I really shouldn't have to explain this one, they were an entire government body

Nazis themselves conducted and documented their own "mind control experiments/research", as early as the 1920s (see 1.2 on pg2):

First let me clarify, again, mind control =/= the sci-fi depiction of it. It's literally just torturing an individual until they do something they're told without question. This really isn't that fucking hard to do unfortunately

In relation to the above article, "mind control techniques" can be much better described as "interrogation techniques" and that's why people very rarely find anything about "mind control abuse" when they google it, because they're not discussed through the same lens. "Mind control" in the context of the acronym "RAMCOA" is psychiatric terminology, not criminal terminology (not anymore at least)

Part of their "biomedical research" (torture) was testing "truth serums" (refers to mind-altering, aka. "mind-controlling", substances) on their victims. This led to the US recruiting these Nazi scientists and getting their help in the US' own "psychological control" projects, like MK Ultra (see previous link) and Operation/Project Paperclip

So to summarize I have explained how the Nazis' experiments actually laid the foundation of ritual and organized abuse, and how the Nazis heavily contributed to the research into "mind control" itself.

Despite the Nazi roots of ritual abuse, mind control, and organized abuse, people still love to use, uh, let me quote you exactly: "Ramcoa = project monarch = violent antisemitic conspiracy" as an excuse to discredit abuse survivors. Thanks for not citing Any proof of that.

You are quite literally trying to claim that organized abuse inherently equates to a "violent antisemitic conspiracy" which hilariously in and of itself loops back around to antisemitism. You are making assumptions that people calling something an "abusive institution" = "inherently refers to an organization comprised of specifically Jewish individuals" = "antisemitism".

The biggest reason people whine about how "RAMCOA is antisemitic" is because of blood libel:

The term blood libel refers to the false allegation that Jews used the blood of non-Jewish, usually Christian children, for ritual purposes. The Nazis made effective use of the blood libel to demonize Jews, with Julius Steicher's newspaper Der Stürmer making frequent use of ritual murder imagery in its antisemitic propaganda.

Hey isn't it interesting how the source of the word "ritual" in the context of antisemitism was first used by Nazis themselves? I wonder what kind of implications that has?

This relates to allegations of ritual abuse, mind control, and organized abuse because of the many claims that some individuals made during the 80s and 90s while the Satanic Panic was going on, some of which featured accounts of children witnessing/being involved in sacrificial rituals.

These specific accounts were unfounded. There were no convictions directly related to the Satanic Panic. Again, no, there are no documented worldwide satanic cults whose members regularly bathe in the blood of infants.

People also assume RAMCOA = antisemitism because:

Michelle Remembers. This was the real "start" of the Satanic Panic. By the way the psychologist who wrote it married his client (Michelle). Just to illustrate the inherently abusive power dynamic there. Michelle WAS a victim; of Pazder, who used her and overblew whatever experiences she had for profit.

Svali exists unfortunately. Svali is a self-proclaimed "Illuminati survivor" who is well-known because she's very graphic about her fake experiences, and the more graphic something is the more researchers are inclined to look at it, especially when what she writes about is underresearched. Here's an entire Wordpress blog about how much of a fraud she is.

Springmeier's Illuminati literature. Fritz Springmeier is an ACTUAL conspiracy theorist who purports Actual antisemitic conspiracy theories and blood libel. One of his books mentions DID, and an unfortunately popular (fake) DID YouTuber started using parts of his book to map their (fake) system.

The above is likely a big reason why the association with DID and the Illuminati (which should go without saying is inherently ACTUALLY antisemitic in nature) came to the spotlight, and thus DID's association with antisemitism, based on a few bad apples.

On Project Monarch:

Project Monarch as a term comes from ONE INDIVIDUAL. ONE. One singular individual who claimed to have experiences that are actually rooted in some reality because yes MK Ultra did happen and yes there are victims of it, very well known ones at that. Other people started talking about Project Monarch in name ONLY because of O'Brien.

Do I need to mention again that Nazis were involved in MK Ultra? I wonder if they, you know, THE NAZIS, incorporated their horrific antisemitic beliefs into their torture! :)

That's it. That's all that needs to be said about Project Monarch. MK Ultra happened. There were subsections of MK Ultra (Project Monarch was never named as one however, but also keep in mind documents were destroyed (see second paragraph) so).

This woman is claiming to be a survivor. It's not up to me to defend or deny her claims of abuse because I do not know her and also I don't give a shit because her claims are, as I have REPEATEDLY stated and cited, rooted in some proven reality.

You cannot insist that because of the term's "shaky roots" (which that claim literally has no basis, because all of the Satanic Panic allegations were proven to be false) we should no longer use the terminology.

If we are going to go with the argument that "terminology with so-called poisoned/negative roots should never be used": are you gonna go up to a 60 year old transgender man and tell him to stop calling himself "a transsexual" because "uwu that word is offensive now uwuwuw"? Goddamn I sure fucking hope not.

These words aren't For You to use. They are descriptors used either in scientific literature, or for individuals to identify their experience (to label), such as "CSA survivor", "CSEM survivor". You are obsessing over semantics.

The whole idea that RAMCOA = antisemitism is only something I've seen talked about in recent years. Prior to like, 2020 (you know, the year that everyone had to stay in their houses and a bunch of 11 year olds started pretending to have DID and claimed experiences that they simply did not have, thus bastardizing this disorder and ritual abuse in and of itself) I had Never heard of this claim because it is baseless bullshit used to deny the experiences of ritual abuse survivors because, truly, at the end of the day, people just don't want to believe children are being abused.

By the way my grandfather barely escaped Nazi Germany by the skin of his teeth. Just so you know who you're fucking talking to. :)