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Pretty proud of how far I’ve come this year
#I have struggled with crippling anxiety for a long time and this year I really wanted to overcome it and become more independent#like#I used to be absolutely terrified of leaving the house#things like driving and going places alone would make me have crazy panic attacks#but this year I’ve done a lot and I’ve overcome a lot and gained so much confidence#I’ve flown across the country twice this year#driven on some pretty intimidating roads like the highway and freeway#gone on solo bike rides for miles through the woods#eaten tons of new foods#I know those sorts of things might seem very simple and normal everyday things#but I have ocd and it can make my anxiety pretty bad#it can also make a lot of my fears rather irrational#likes like trying new foods and going new places are genuinely intimidating for me#bc it makes me feel like I’m going to die lol#but I’ve done ALOT of things I was scared to do#I’ve come along way#and it may seem like boring basic stuff to some people#but considering I couldn’t leave my house two years ago without panicking to the point of losing feeling in my hands and feet#I think I did pretty good lol#I’m starting to feel like a confident person again#I’m starting to feel like I can LIVE again#and it’s pretty nice#just wanted to write this out somewhere lol that’s all#maybe it will be helpful for anyone struggling in similar ways#to see that improvement is possible#lol anyways happy November#mae rambles
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The older I get the more I realize how fucking scary driving is
#probably due to my worsening anxiety but GOD DAMN#Highways? NUH UH#I’m literally never getting my license cause people in the south can’t fucking drive#luv aubrey <33
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poetry: the highway
I wrote this poem in January of 2023. me right before I wrote this poem Consorting with this newfound empowerment is overwhelming and lonely at timesI finally understand that never again do I have to depend on a man for anything-and I breathe a huge sigh of reliefI no longer use them to determine my worth based on whether any of thempay attention to meI no longer use them for validation and no…
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#BPD#driving anxiety#driving phobia#empowerment#Life#mental health#poem#poetry#real life#the highway#truth#writing
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serious need of advice:
anyone who has/had driving anxiety have any tips of how to cope with this major anxiety? i’m 23 years old and still can’t drive. I mostly rely on family to drive me and honestly getting very tired of it (on top of hearing some complaints haha…) i hopefully want to learn how to drive sometime in the future. but i have terrible anxiety about it.
i don’t recall having any serious traumatic events happening in a car. i mean i’ve had the “almost moments”. most of the time i go with my mom, she’s pretty decent at driving most of the time, but has her own issues and sometimes panics while driving and will start yelling during these panics. which i believe being exposed to them, adds onto my anxiety, especially being frantically asked what to do by her when i have no driving experience, so i panic too, but try to hide it from her. also, my mom has had her own driving incidents throughout my life, so seeing her bruised up or how damaged the cars are….probably adds to it as well.
i do believe i have a control issue, which is rooted from anxiety because i can’t control other the drivers around me. on top of the idea of being responsible for a big piece of machinery which could end mine or someone else’s life. plus in jersey…it’s known that people here are horrible drivers…not only from experience, but people do talk about it quite a lot. so, that kinda brings my anxiety up higher.
i’m not saying i’m definitely jumping behind the wheel, especially not right now because i don’t want to pressure myself more and feel out of control. if anyone has any advice dealing with this, please let me know. it would mean a lot to me 🥺
#.txt#anxiety#coping methods#driving anxiety#advice needed#i know people recommend exposure therapy#but unfortunately i cannot#because we only have one car which is my mom#and she has zero trust in me with it#even if i were to drive slow in an empty parking lot#trust me i asked and she shot me a look 👀#i think she was about 23 when she got her license#my aunt was the total opposite and was in line the day she turned 16#i would probably start with shorter routes and local places#mostly during the daylight#and avoiding highways#which you can do while using google maps#highways gives me major anxiety#because everything is so fast#and close#and constant lane changing
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Ughhhhhh what is wrong with me it’s Walmart it’s like a five/ten minute drive I don’t even have to go on the highway I can go all backroads I have the money I know what I want the Walmart app shows you exactly where in the store it is the most annoying part will be finding parking like what’s wrong with me why don’t I just go I’ve been putting it off for like two days what the fuck
#I would rather do anything but drive rn like I have no idea why like I fucking love driving#I did almost have the car in front of me get into an accident the last time I drove and he had to like swerve out of the way and he almost#went into the other side of the highway where cars were coming the other way yknow that probably has something to do with my anxieties but#im gonna ignore it and put socks and shoes on and grab my sweater and fix my hair bc it’s a mess cause I didn’t shape it with gel when it#was wet and now it’s pointing in every direction which is not the move#okay. going to go. going to get posca pens. gonna play with fun markers#might go to the dispensary and get a preroll honestly I want a joint
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not sure if i mentioned this yet but i have my learners permit now! i can legally drive now!!! im so scared!!!!!!!
#im trying not to let my anxiety stop me from learning how to drive#i always make an effort to push past my fears. but id be lying if i said i dont get nauseous when i think about being on the road#my mom failed her driving test like 5 times and stopped in the middle of a busy highway NEXT TO A STATE TROOPER#thats gonna be me. my future entails a lot of highways but i would rather die than drive on one#theyre like battlefields...#and also GOING FAST IS SO SCARY. I COULD DIE IF I GO FAST.
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Detroit gp is honestly more terrifying than Monaco in terms of street circuits
#ITS SO TIGHT#i also feel like its a lot faster than monaco right?#even more scary than baku tbh#i think its bcs the barriers remind me too much of driving in real life#and whenever im driving near the barrier on the highway my internal monolog is just:#'dont sideswipe and crash into the wall dont crash dont crash dont crash'#like its not like ive ever crashed my car or even come close to it barriers just give me horrible anxiety#catie.race.lb
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seriously the way that jobs are biased against people without a drivers license (for whatever reason!) is insane. even if the job doesn't actually require any driving they'll still pass me over for someone with a drivers license. and it's every. fucking. job.
#this isn't just me going 'wah no one will teach me to drive' btw like it would actually be really dangerous for me to drive#because I don't have the attention capacity + the anxiety + the susceptibility to highway hypnosis + being in a moving car being a#dissociative trigger#and this is just my personal experience! I can't imagine it being revoked by the government or anything#like. I can't even get a job as a sales associate some places bc no drivers license are you for fuckin real
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I don't feel like going to buy gas so I can get up early tomorrow and drive two hours to a Bible Quizzing tournament and eat a lunch that I may or may not like and have to interact with people who seem unhappy with me and coach three children who've never quizzed before and don't know most of their verses and don't know most of the rules bc I still don't have a rule manual and we've only had like three practices and they aren't independent readers yet and they're memorizing out of the KJV and their guardians aren't giving them structured time to practice throughout the week but honestly they're doing their best and I don't want them to be embarrassed or get burnt out
but here we are so I'm just going to make an effort and call it good.
#a sock speaks#the driving still makes me nervous but my mom is riding with me#which low-key makes me more self conscious but is good for safety#I have a new client in the town 10 miles from where I live so I'm gonna get some very needed highway practice#I need to separate the driving anxiety from the quizzing anxiety. they aren't the same so I shouldn't stack them together.#tomorrow may not be fun or restful but at the end of the day it's night#I am going to learn from this experience whether I like it or not
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Vent about school
I am so so terrified to go back to school because I know it’s going to be a social nightmare where I just feel lonely and ashamed all the time again. All of the friends I made first year either left to go do other or couldn’t continue because of terrible situations I hope they’re able to make it out of and find happiness despite and man it’s fucking lonely now. Everyone else in the program is fine and nice and I like them I just know I’m not really friends with them, and it sucks because unlike in high-school this time I really tried to be. I actually tried to be out going and talkative and get to know people but it’s still blatantly obvious I’m always kind of intruding on things it’s so embarrassing whenever I’ve said something (when no one else was talking, dead quiet room) and no one responded even after I’d try to repeat myself, it’s embarrassing when one of them asked the group chat they’re all in (by all I mean over half the students in the design program who I know from spending many all nighters in studio with) if I could come to the big end of the year get together they were having and over half of them who’ve I’ve had conversations with responded they don’t know me that well. Which that’s 100% their right to not be comfortable inviting someone they don’t feel they know to a friend get together it’s completely fair but man, it feels like I’ve yet again missed the chance to make any meaningful in person friendships, it feels like I’m on the outside of everything again and I really tried to do things people told me to this time but nothings changed, it’s just me. I feel like people know there’s something wrong with me and at best I’m pitiful and at worst annoying and I hate it, I know it’s probably all in my head but I hate it. Then there’s just classes too. They keep telling us to ask questions and get help and being your own advocate and yknow yeah that’s important but I swear to god whenever I do some of the professors look and talk to me like I’m just so stupid. I feel it. Even when I’m taking the advice other people give me to be better in class and socially I still end up feeling disdained by them, I feel ashamed of myself no matter what. It’s just highschool all over again and I hate it, and it’s an awful thing to say because I’m so fucking privileged to even have an education, I’m so fucking privileged to get to learn things and walk around freely and in this day be alive and have food to eat. But like, I can’t help it. I can’t help being sad and afraid and angry all the time and I really wish I could. I want to get out of my head but when I do everything I fear other people think feels realized anyways. I don’t want to go back to school I have nightmares and I threw up thinking about it, I don’t want to go back where people fucking look at me like that.
#vent#and this semester I’m going to have to drive a lot so. another add on to mt. anxiety#I hate driving I feel like I’m going to die when I’m behind the wheel and now I’m going to have to do it in this city?#where there’s so many drunk partiers and assholes?#and multiple of my peers have been in huge wrecks?#and I haven’t even been on a highway in 3 years?#I. I might actually die this semester it might happen.
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Me if I ever learn to drive
#dude you don’t understand i actually look at pictures of the cats at school if I’m bored enough#my cat album in photos has over 600 pictures in it#anyways I don’t want to learn to drive it seems scary and I’d have an anxiety attack in one because of a highway merge lane or smth
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Hey hi if you see me posting rn I’m in the car and trying to distract myself so I don’t have anxietyyyyyy
I hate highways.
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So crazy story, one night I was closing at my retail job and suddenly 2 minutes before close the lights went out and then they flickered on and then right back out. When I looked outside all the surrounding stores also had no lights. So closing took an extra 20 minutes as we tried to figure out what to do without power. Then a cop pulled up and told us about half of the town had lost power. So no traffic lights or anything like that.
Super fun and the thing is I was scared of night driving as it was since I have a stigmatism and I was freaking out. Especially once I arrived at the first light and surprise they were actually out. So I go through 3 not working lights and then I get on the highway.
Get on and off the highway no problem and then about halfway home from there things started south again. I passed 2 cops and then a large tree branch suddenly fell into the road. I had to slam on my breaks to avoid it and started freaking out again (not that I ever really calmed down). Then to top it all off I finally get home and I smack my head on the roof of my car while getting out.
All of this happened over the course of an hour or so. And I called my mom twice to calm me down. Super fun closing shift and ride home to end my 11ish hour work day.
#fun#retail#no power#stigmatism#traffic lights#highway#anxiety#stress#ride home#night driving#car#cops#tree branches#smacked#shift#11 hours#so tired#so so tired#breaks#road block#tears#story#short story#mom#phone call#phone#calm down#calm
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I successfully got myself out of driving a leg of the trip back home
#letaras personal#it's not that i dont like driving#i love driving#especially the highway at night#but anxiety has ruined driving for me#(dw ill beat the fewr some day but this day isnt today)
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That’s it y’all, I have had one too many dreams about highway ghosts to drive at night
#haha seriously everytime I drive at night i think im in that twilight zone episode#I have full anxiety burps on highways at night.
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