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cosmictulips · 4 years ago

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Hey, I hope you are doing better . I think I read in one of the asks that you had answered, that you are in the linguistics field? That's actually so cool, as a person who loves languages and is fascinated by the origin of different languages and their association to cultures, I would love to know if you have any pointers on learning a new language, and possibly a reading on which language I should pick up next to learn, which would end up playing an important part in my life? I have one in mind, but I would like to hear what the cards have to say. You can ignore this if you're not in the mood. Thank you. Sending positive energy your way. May you receive what you manifest.-IPR🌒🍂

IM ALWAYS DOWNNNN TO talk about languages and cultures and news and stuff lol. I actually have a langblr here on tumblrs called @learningcherryblossoms based off of sakura haruno because I want to be as strong literally and mentally as she is lol and she’s also wicked smart and looked down upon constantly, .... just like me LOL anyway

My biggest pointers for learning a language are kind of simple 1. Make sure you want to stick with it for the long haul 2. Make sure you know the reason why you want to study it -can literally be anything - and 3. make sure you take breaks lol I’m glad the langblr and studyblr community have really come around to the whole idea of taking breaks and things -even if none of us follow our own advice xD -- because burnout is real and it’s strong and I had it for years until 2017 xD I have a whole post on that somewhere on my blog. anyway xD Languages and just the study of Language is just so cool and so rad lol OPE I just saw the tarot questions but I’m too excited so no time for waiting xD Honestly, I say learn whatever you truly want to learn xD right my love for languages started when I was... nine and I said to myself, one day I am going to France. Hasn’t happened yet BUT it started my journey on learning French and through that process and honestly some amazing teachers, one of whom was my art instructor and friend who I lost a couple of weeks ago, I’ve truly developed a love for that language, culture and... Europe as a whole. Like through that development I found out about cool places in Europe, I found a love in Japan and Eastern Europe. I’m studying six languages lololol. I’m fully convinced that, had I not pursued French with such a passion as I did, I’d probably.... idk be no where lol. And that’s kind of saying something because the biggest thing after that to me is animal science and environmental activism lol I was literally in college pursuing a biology degree and I am a huge environmental science nerd xD Anyway anyway anyway xD I drew the Empress, 10 of pentacles, knight of cups with the nine of cups in reverse as the overall energy. and I’ll also talk about what was behind it which was the Lovers.

Okay, so this tells me that the universe wants you to know that.... you should be pursuing the language you have in mind ;) kind of an odd belief but I believe things are brought to us for a reason. Right, I have an older sister who firmly believes I once lived in France in a past life. that’s why I decided at such a young age to learn French before I even knew what France or Europe even was xD so I believe that concept applies to you as well. whatever you are thinking about learning, you should pursue it.

I’m seeing that the language you are thinking about is going to bring you a lot of happiness, a lot of abundance, and a lot of... self love and confidence. and honestly, a weird thing about learning a second... third... language lol is that we display ourselves differently. Like my Japanese voice is soooo much softer than my aggressive and loud French and my spunky english lol. it’s so interesting how different parts of ourselves develop as we learn about the cultures around the languages.

and that’s what’s going to be happening to you. You’re going to open up and immerse yourself in this new world. I think you already have some knowledge on the culture honestly. I think that’s how you might have been drawn into the language. 10 of pentacles is also a tale of work. ;) learning a language isn’t always a fun ride.... we have our days -and some of us years *me, I’m talking about me lol* but the most important thing is though, is that you go back to it.

And I guess that’s why the nine of cups is your overall energy here in reverse. there’s a dissatisfaction but I’m telling you that’s not going to last lol. seeing the improvements of language learning and how you develop with it takes a lot of time. I’ve been practicing French for five years now and it’s now like coming to me as I sit in my French class, tutoring people that I know more than I think I do. and I think you’re going to be the same way lolol.

Don’t be dissatisfied with your lack of progress or what you think your progress is. you know a lot more than you think you do ;) which is why ultimately, you’ll become the Lovers card. You’ll be making the choice daily -or nah, despite popular belief you don’t need to study daily xD consuming media is studying so listen to music, watch the show, read the article lol - to keep loving the language. you’ll feel more complete knowing it, and it might inspire you to take a trip somewhere ;)))) but honestly, regardless if this reading was good or bad, I would’ve said to go for it anyway lol. but das just me. you can learn a lot from languages, even if you only ever stay in an A2 or beginners level of the language. I hope this helps =D if you want more resources or things check out my studyblr and feel free to reach out to me =D I LOVE THIS STUFF xD

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bigskydreaming · 5 years ago

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Anyone else familiar with the Chronicles of Amber? Its one of my earliest and favorite series of books, and I’ve been rereading it recently and LOLing at how I never before connected my fondness for it with my fondness for the Batfamily. The royal family of Amber is pretty much the only family in fiction that’s consistently more dysfunctional than the Batfamily.....occasional murder attempts by siblings who then go on to get over it and become BFFs included. Only they’re more like the Batfamily at their most dysfunctional....then taken and dialed up to eleven hundred, lmfao.

Ugh, I kinda love these immortal, fucked up reality-walking sorcerers and their constant scheming and backstabbing and shifting alliances, not always just because they’re all vying for the throne or backing different siblings who are vying for the throne, but also just sometimes because their dad loved so and so more than them.

Plus, unlike with Bruce, where there’s at least competing takes on whether or not he’s a total bastard and responsible for much of the division within his own family, with the Chronicles of Amber, that’s not really a factor. There’s not really an alternative take to “Oberon was a fucking bastard and responsible for much of the division within his own family, so fuck that guy.”

I kinda want to expand on this and the Amber family tree and which of them are like which Batfam members and why, but I don’t know if that would mean anything to anyone lol, because I honestly don’t know how familiar people are with this series.

(LOL, I’m currently cackling because I just got to a part I’d tooooootally forgotten about, where Flora pulls a fucking hand grenade out of her purse and hands it to her nephew Merlin, who looks at her like ‘wtf’? Now, Flora is one of the youngest members of Corwin’s generation - Corwin being Merlin’s father and the narrator of the first five books - although that still means Flora is probably about a thousand years old herself. But she tends to be regarded by most of her siblings and people in general as just the vapid, air-headed ‘beauty’ of the family who mostly is just concerned with having a good time, living a lavish lifestyle, and enjoying herself. She tends to always end up on the winning side of her siblings’ various power struggles though, because she’s got a keen sense of feeling where the wind is blowing and allying herself accordingly - she doesn’t have much interest in vying for the same kind of power most of her siblings are always after, she just likes to be comfortable and prefers to back whomever she thinks having in charge will let her remain the most comfortable, allowing her to live her life the way she enjoys and fuck everything else, pretty much. Anyway, the thing to remember about this family is they’re all immortal and basically superhuman, and most of them are experts at all kinds of weapons and fighting styles, not to mention sorcerers and practitioners of various magical arts. Then here you’ve got ‘ditzy, air-headed party girl Flora’.....and she just fucking pulls a fucking hand grenade out of her purse and hands it to her nephew. And when he’s like wtf, why do you even have that? Her response? LOLOLOL. She just shrugs and says "Sweetie, in all the centuries I’ve been alive, I’ve yet to face a problem where I didn’t think ‘this wouldn’t be a problem if I just had a hand grenade.’ And so, I just make sure I always have a hand grenade on me somewhere.” And that’s Flora for you, in a nutshell. LMFAO).

Anyway.

Basic premise of the series is that in the beginning, there was one world and one world only, a confusing, shifting place of dizzying physics and magic called the Courts of Chaos, the creation of one of the two prime figures of the universe - the Serpent, whose opposing counterpart is the Unicorn. The one representing chaos, the other order. Though an important distinction is that they’re not meant to be God and the Devil, or any form of Good vs Evil....just Order vs Chaos. And sometimes Order is a tyrannical fucking asshole, and sometimes Chaos is in the mood to be helpful and kind. Its all relative and always changing.

At a certain point long ago, a member of one of the ancient royal houses of Chaos, Dworkin Baromin, came into contact with the Unicorn and its notions and representation of Order, a previously unconsidered opposite to the Chaos that before that was all Dworkin or anyone else had ever known. With the Unicorn’s backing, Dworkin left the Courts of Chaos and went as far away from it as he could, and then using a combination of his own sorcery and things the Unicorn taught him, Dworkin created a magical labyrinth called the Pattern, a sorcerous construct through which he imposed Order upon the shapeless, formless Chaos around him, and created a whole new world called Amber - though Amber for the most part consists just of its titular city and its surrounding environment. Its not a world in the traditional sense, more just that there’s not really anything else to call it, since like the Courts of Chaos it kinda just....exists unto itself.

But for reasons known only to the Serpent and the Unicorn, with not even the greatest minds of Amber or the Courts ever truly understanding the mechanics of how or why this happened.....in the act of drawing the Pattern, creating Order out of Chaos, Dworkin also incited the creation of an infinite number of other universes that within the series are called ‘Shadows’ by the royals of both Amber and the Courts, because these infinite universes are all said to be the shadows cast by the world of Amber when it came into being.....they’re all the worlds Amber COULD have been, all the forms of Order it COULD have taken, rather than the specific shape it took from the endless potential held within the Chaos it was formed from. And all these other universes are real, they exist, but the royals of Amber and the Courts tend to consider them.....largely irrelevant in the grand scheme of things. Ever since the Pattern’s creation, Dworkin’s descendants aka the royal family of Amber, and the nobility of the Courts have been locked in an eternal, never-ending power struggle between Order and Chaos, each vying to become the dominant force in the cosmos once and for all. The Courts want to eliminate their counterpart and undo what Dworkin wrought, return things to what they’d been before Dworkin ‘betrayed them,’ and Amber wants to....well, okay, the royal family of Amber tend to be the central figures of the series as it follows first Corwin’s and then Merlin’s adventures, so its most accurate to say that there’s very little consistency to what ‘they’ want overall, lol.

Anyway, all of that was countless millennia ago, at least as far as Amber is concerned, because time runs differently in Amber, the Courts and across all Shadows. Each universe runs according to its own clock. So for instance, Earth and ‘our’ universe exists and is considered to be one of these Shadows......even though this universe is billions of years old. In Amber time, it hasn’t been anywhere close to billions of years since Dworkin first drew the Pattern....untold millennia, its said, but even the royal family acknowledges that time is a fickle thing from universe to universe. Which is part of why they don’t consider themselves or the Courts’ royals to be gods, the creators of all universes....that’s kinda what I meant when I said they consider the infinite other universes to be largely irrelevant in the grand scheme of things. Its not that they don’t matter, or that they don’t tend to spend a lot of time in various of these Shadows, its more that like.....according to their own history and mythology, all these universes came into being in large part BECAUSE of their family, Dworkin, the Pattern....but other than that, their creation and existence has very little to actually DO with them. It was....a side-effect, that wasn’t really either expected, wanted, or understood, so its just....one of those things that just is the way it is. They consider their family to be the creators of Amber, and thus their ‘divine mandate’ to rule it......it is what Dworkin intended it to be, the Order he pictured when he drew it out of Chaos. Everything else.....is nothing to do with what he intended to create, so as much as their own history claims its because of them, they don’t tend to be that interested in CLAIMING any of these other universes as like, theirs, or their creations.

BUT one power unique to the royal family of Amber and the nobility of the Courts, is that they can Shadow-walk......they can move between these various universes as easily as just walking from one place to the next. They’re reality walkers....upon reaching adulthood, each of Dworkin’s descendants do something called ‘walking the Pattern,’ like physically make their way across the Pattern he inscribed in a labyrinth he later built the palace atop of....and only his descendants can actually walk the Pattern and live. Others usually die in the attempt. But upon reaching the center of the Pattern, something about the act of walking it and ‘attuning’ themselves to it, then forever grants that person the ability to move freely from one universe to the next. The Courts have their own version of the Pattern - though a twisting, chaotic kind of maze unlike its clear form - they call the Logrus, and it empowers them to walk through Shadows the same way as the Amberites do.

So all of that began untold time before the beginning of the series, because the royal bloodlines of both Amber and the Courts are immortal in the sense that they can be killed, are as vulnerable to that as anyone - well aside from power and skills they draw from their various forms of sorcery, derived from the Primal Pattern of Order and its opposite number, the Logrus of Chaos - so they’re not unkillable, but unless they’re killed, they can pretty much live forever. They don’t age past adulthood, don’t get sick and are superhumanly strong to various and largely undescribed degrees - like Corwin in one book kinda effortlessly throws a car while he’s on Earth, and he’s not surprised to be able to do this and is pretty matter-of-fact about it, but so matter-of-fact, that such feats are kinda rarely mentioned, not really a big deal to the characters so not something they focus on as much as their actual fighting prowess or sorcery.

Most of the main characters are all said to be centuries old even by their own universe’s timetable, and members of their previous generations are millennia old. So ages past, Dworkin made the Pattern, founded Amber and eventually disappeared and was succeeded by his son Oberon, who is in turn the father of the current Royal Family. And Oberon, in the thousands of years he ruled Amber before HE mysteriously disappeared, not long before the start of the first book, with his disappearance being what sparks the major plotlines, such as the war of succession that breaks out after he’s gone.....well like I said, he’s kinda a douche. No two ways about. Most of his kids hate him but also like....were desperate for his love and approval too, when he deigned to dole it out.

But a huge part of why there even WAS a war of succession is that well.....dude was a douche, and did NOT make it easy to follow a chain of succession and decide who should take the throne after him. Probably because he half expected it to never matter, as he intended to live forever, lol. But it complicated things considerably in his absence, considering that he’s said to have had 47 kids, though most are never named or mentioned in the series. In fact, Corwin, the narrator of the first five books, mentions that he’s only ever even known of fifteen brothers and eight sisters, with six of those brothers and four of those sisters either dead or missing or disappeared to go live in some distant Shadow centuries ago. The other twenty or so kids Oberon had were likely the products of affairs that he at least knew about and kept some kind of eye on, but only twenty-four of his kids were ever actually claimed by him.

Course, remember the immortality thing.....its not like Oberon had 47 kids all within just a normal human lifetime and with just a handful of partners.....we’re talking about 47 kids spread out over several thousand years, with the thirteen currently known and living members of the royal family as of Oberon’s disappearance all having been born within a span of at least two thousand years. One of the pretty interesting things about the family’s dynamics IMO was the fact that like.....none of them ever referred to each other as anything other than just siblings, even though technically many of them are half-siblings, with different mothers. Given that only Dworkin’s descendants and the royal bloodlines of the Courts he originally came from are actually immortal, most of the women Oberon married or had affairs with were mortal, with normal human lifespans.

So the interesting part about this is that within the thirteen members of Corwin’s generation that he interacts with most......they’re not really all that focused on the fact that many of them are technically half-siblings BUT most of them tend to be closest with the ones who are their full siblings, and share the same mother. However, this doesn’t always or even usually tend to be because they consider any of their other siblings any LESS their brother and sister, just because they have a different mother.....its more an age thing. The siblings with the same mothers all tended to be born relatively close together, whereas some of their other siblings were already centuries old and off doing their own thing before they were born. So the ones born of the same mothers usually were the one who actually grew up together....and then they only really got to know and started interacted with their much older siblings once they were adults themselves.....in turn, the same being true of their much younger siblings interacting with them only once they reached adulthood, often centuries later.

And this family is just so. So. Petty as fuck. LMFAO. And they all get it from their dad.

Like, the oldest living child of Oberon is Benedict, his eldest son by his first wife Cymnea. Which would make him the clear heir to the throne, except well. Oberon was a douche. At some point, the two younger sons he had with Cymnea, Osric and Finndo, conspired to take the throne from him most likely due to his Douchery, and Oberon sent them to the front-lines of a war from which they conveniently never returned. Which needless to say, caused problems between him and Cymnea.....to which Oberon’s galaxy brain response was to not just divorce her.....but also to declare his marriage to her entirely null and void....which retroactively erased Benedict’s claim to the throne and made him technically illegitimate.

And this wouldn’t really be a problem, because while Benedict is stern, humorless and pretty much just obsessed with honing himself into the greatest swordsmaster and tactician that ever lived in any universe....he’s also unfailingly fair, and pretty much the ONLY member of the family that ALL his siblings like enough that they’d agree to respect his claim to the throne if he wanted it. Except....he doesn’t. At all. He hates politics and thinks all of that is bullshit and usually just fucks off to various shadows to emerge as some mysterious war leader fighting for the little guy, only coming back to Amber when there’s some family crisis or they’re in a war themselves, because Benedict might hate their bullshit, but above all else he is a Dutiful Son and he always Does the Right Thing, no matter how he feels about it. So....they call, he shows up. Usually in a perpetually sour mood, but whatever, he’s there, who does he need to fight.

He’s said to only have ever been in love once, with the only person to ever defeat him in battle....Lintra the Hell-Maid, a warrior princess of one of the Courts of Chaos’ noble houses. They had a brief romance during one of the few cessations in hostility between the Courts and Amber, but then conflict resumed and they both sided with their families....and faced each other in battle again. And this time, Benedict won, and killed her in their battle, though not before she cut off his right arm. Various siblings have over the centuries offered him their aid in using magic or technology to give him a new one but he refuses and just says he’s still a better swordsman with one arm than anyone else is with two.

Then the next oldest living child is Eric, Oberon’s oldest son with his second wife, Faielle. Which would make Eric the legitimate heir, except for one little problem: Oberon was a douchebag. Because although he did end up marrying Faielle, he had an affair with her before he actually divorced Cymnea, which Eric was a product of. So Eric is the oldest son of Oberon’s first lawful wife, after he declared his marriage with Cymnea retroactively null....it just doesn’t matter, because he’s technically not legitimate because he was born before his parents’ legitimately married. Which means that Eric’s younger full brother Corwin, born after they were married, is technically the oldest living child with a fully uncontested legitimate claim to the throne. Which Eric HATES him for. And Corwin hates him for, well, being hated since he was born.

And Eric can kinda be a prick, but he’s pretty decent in most regards which means he’s fairly well-liked and respected by the rest of their siblings.....except for those who like Corwin more, because although for most of his early life, Corwin was legendarily reckless and irresponsible, he was well....a lot more likable in most peoples’ eyes than Eric. So they’re incredibly close in age, were raised together, but have hated each other for as long as they’ve been alive. Centuries before the series began, they apparently - or so Eric claims - decided to settle things between them with a duel, once and for all.....and Eric won, with Corwin’s injuries from their duel leaving him in a coma, which he eventually awoke from with brain damage that caused amnesia for a few hundred years. And Eric left him on Earth and asked Flora to keep an eye on him, and like, hilariously doesn’t get why Corwin’s so pissed at him later because he’s like BUT I LEFT YOU ALIVE DOES THAT MEAN NOTHING TO YOU?

And Corwin’s like....uh....not really bruh. And Eric’s like “Ugh, I just can’t win. I didn’t even KILL you because you’re my BROTHER, and yet Dad and everyone else all just assumed I killed you anyway, what the fuck is up with that?” And Corwin’s just like gee, I can’t imagine why anyone would doubt you when you said we totally agreed to duel to the death but also you totally didn’t kill me, you’re right, that’s so weird. I mean, I guess you could have just told someone where to find me on Earth and then that would have proven you were telling the truth.

And Eric’s response was like: “Umm, no, because then they would have brought you back to Amber, cured your amnesia, and then you would be back to being my main rival for the crown, whereas you being out of the picture is what let me seize the crown once Dad disappeared? Duh? Like think, little brother, you sound so dumb right now. How hard did I hit you, I thought you were all better now, ugh.”

LOL. And then Faielle’s youngest child with Oberon was Deirdre, who is known as the most beloved of the royals. Everyone loved Deirdre, pretty much, because Deirdre was caring, no-nonsense, and a terror in battle with her weapon of choice, a battle-axe as big as she was. Basically the only person who didn’t like Deirdre was Eric, and that was really just because she and Corwin were as tight from day one as Eric and Corwin were mortal enemies, like, Corwin’s uncontested favorite sibling, and Eric couldn’t stand that. And Deirdre couldn’t stand Eric, because he hated Corwin, the big brother she adored.

So when Corwin gets his memory back, Deirdre’s the first sibling he actually seeks out. And he’s like “Get in loser. We’re going to Amber to kick King Eric the Assmunch off the throne he STOLE from me like a THIEF. Bring your axe, we’re probably gonna have to kill a whole bunch of people first though cuz you know he’s gonna be a douche about and be like nuh-uh, you can’t have it, its mine. Ugh. Why is he just the worst.”

And Deirdre’s just like “You had me at bring your axe.”

And about a century after Faielle died, Oberon remarried again, a red-head sorceress named Clarissa from a Shadow with their own unique forms of magic. They had three kids, Brand, Fiona and Bleys, who are usually referred to by their siblings as ‘the redheads,’ and they all grew up super close, always likely to take each other’s side before anyone outside their little trio, and the three of them are all accomplished sorcerers, easily the most powerful in the family. And they’ve all been pissed at dear old dad for centuries because his divorce from Clarissa was messy as heeeeeeeeell. Like.....he had his next child, Llewella, while he was still married to Clarissa and cheating on her....and when she got pissed at this, Oberon the douche’s righteous response was “Oh yeah? Well guess what? Even though she’s technically illegitimate, I’m going to formally adopt Llewella as legitimately part of the chain of succession JUST to piss you off even MORE!”

And Clarissa’s kids, the redheads, did NOT like that. Even though ironically, without that move, they probably all would have been inclined to support one of the others’ claims to the throne, that spiting of their mother, even centuries after their mother died, had them so eternally pissed off at their dad that they were like NOPE! Doesn’t matter that we’re way down the chain of succession and don’t even really WANT the damn throne, we want one of us to get it anyway just to make sure that no ‘legitimate’ heir of Dad’s gets it instead, because fuck that dude.

Which led to them all conspiring together to put Brand on the throne, and led to ummm.....Fiona attempting to kill Corwin once or twice as she saw him as the biggest obstacle to Brand getting the throne. Which did not endear her to him. But she is regarded as the smartest and most dangerous of all of them, as well as the best with magic. So after Fiona and Bleys turn on Brand, because they found out he decided that if he was going to try and be king, why not go even bigger and try and destroy the Pattern and draw a new one of his own devising and literally remake the universe in his own image - to which Fiona and Bleys were like, YIKES, when did that become the plan.....

Well, Fiona wasn’t about to work with Eric, whom she found unendurable, so she reluctantly sought out Corwin for his help against Brand instead, as she thought him the lesser of two evils out of those who might actually be somewhat helpful in opposing Brand. And then she was basically like: “Huh. This is so weird. I thought I was going to hate this, but you’re surprisingly likable when I’m not trying to kill you.”

And Corwin was like, gee, you’re swell, Fi.

But its also why Fiona and Corwin’s son Merlin are really close and she becomes his mentor and tutor in all things magic - she has a soft spot for Merlin because she feels bad for how treated him until she sided with him against Brand. And Corwin’s like “I do not know how I feel about this information, but I’m leaning towards I Do Not Care For It.”

And Bleys is like, this charming boisterous guy most people get along with, who is a warrior-sorcerer equally dangerous as a fighter and with magic. And unlike Fiona, he’s always kinda tried to buddy up with Corwin, and acts all hurt whenever Corwin’s like....what are you doing, dude. Eventually, they kinda become close after Fiona and Bleys officially turn on Brand and reveal the conspiracy they’d spent centuries building with him, and Bleys is like see, I don’t get why we couldn’t have been like this all along. Corwin’s just like, I wanna say it has something to do with you not really objecting to Fi’s constant attempts to assassinate me, so the two of you could put our ‘wants to destroy the fucking universe’ brother on the throne instead of me, just to spite Dad, who none of us even like all that much and is probably dead anyway and thus doesn’t actually care.

And Bleys is all: “Uh....I don’t really get what that has to do with anything, but whatever I guess. Let’s have another beer, and maybe start a fight that gets us thrown out of not just this tavern, but the whole city, no, country, no - universe! It’ll be fun!”

Also, Bleys has a tendency to fake his own death a lot. Its kinda a thing. He has Reasons. He thinks.

And then of course there’s Llewella and Julian, Caine and Gerard and that��s not even getting into Dalt and Coral and the weird bromance rivalry that Merlin and Rinaldo have but I have no idea if anyone is even reading this and have run out of energy slash focus sooooo lol. The end.

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lolakasa · 6 years ago

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hiiiii i really love your work (you might be my very fav artist on tumblr actually!! hehe), especially the post time skip pieces because they're just !!! so beautiful i would like to be able to draw like you, but i'm already fifteen only started drawing like a month ago, so here comes my question how old are you, when did you start to draw and how long it took you to be 100% proud of your work? (you don't have to answer if it makes you somehow uncorftable or you just don't want to) love ya

Thanks!! I’m a whole lot older than you LOL my drawing story it’s gonna be super unrelatable to you bc I started drawing kinda seriously when I was 10 and was like good at it for my age when I was 13, and then occassionally drew till I was almost 17 I think. I discovered I forgot how to draw some years later and decided to actually teach myself again when I was 22 (lololol I’ve talked about this a bunch of times and somehow remember less each time xD). I started posting my drawings on this site like a year after when I felt I was drawing like I did as a teen (I drew for hours everyday trying to recover lol). I get better and worst depending on the seasons now I think bc I don’t draw much in winter and summer bc the weather fucks with my hands and feelings ;~;I was proud of my drawings when I was 13 and then closer to that again when I was 23, but now I’m seriously hating my drawings lolol

15 it’s a good age I think for learning quicker probably, but any age is good I feel also :) Hope you have fun drawing!

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3 4 5 8 10 11 12 20 21 25 26 for the truth or dare asks I think HSS MC's dad and TF/TS MC's mom or adopted by Estela and F!MC. Anyway you're badass and the mom friend, that is for sure. "The bells rang. All kinds of students, from jocks to nerds to sorority sisters, started flooding the campus ground as they tried to find their friends. The next second, she exited the class door and everyone suddenly stopped in their tracks.

3: (truth) What are your three favorite things about your appearance? (dare) List all nine of your tumblr crushes, and describe each blog/blogger in one word.

1. My eyes are pretty

2. I have nice af nails

3. My legs are 10/10 and y’all can fight me on it

4: (truth) What is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you? (dare) Post the oldest selfie on your camera roll.

Lmao here’s 17 year old me with Christian Borle after I met him in NewYork when I lived there for like a month and a half ish lmao enjoy my ugly mug. also idk why i look high???

5: (truth) If your parents knew everything you've ever done, what would they think is the worst thing? (dare) Tag the three nonmutuals you admire most.

Snuck out of my room once to go sleep in a hotel with my boyfriend but then panicked and snuck back into my house and then had him spend the night in my room when they were in California and my brother was in the next room. True story.

8: (truth) If you could go on a date with any of your mutuals, who would it be and what would you do? (dare) Send an anonymous compliment to one of your four "Biggest Fans" on tumblr.

@choiceswhodunnit aka me and we’d go to the mall and buy makeup lmao (lol sorry probs not the answer you wanted but I don’t wanna date anyone rn or even go on a date so yee lol)

10: (truth) What was your favorite band five years ago? (dare) Tag a blog that posts very different content from yours, but that you couldn't imagine not following.

The Jones Brothers #RideOrDie

11: (truth) Where did you get each article of clothing you're wearing right now? (dare) Pick up the closest book to you. Turn to page 39 and copy down line 7.

”...age, stepping forward.” Yep, that’s the entire line

12: (truth) What are your five favorite girls' names and five favorite boys' names? (dare) Copy and paste the 14th line of text from the last document you worked on in Word or Google Drive.

“they should still practice safe sex to stop the spread of STDs or HIV/AIDS.” Lol this is my project for my Sex, Health, and AIDS class. 10/10 class

20: (truth) What does your bedroom look like? (dare) Take one selfie and post it. You only get one shot! (No old selfies or retrying, even if you think you look bad)

lololol hi tumblr

21: (truth) What three fictional characters would you most like to meet? (dare) Write your name down on a piece of paper and draw a quick picture of yourself. Take a photo of it and post it.

Nancy fucking Drew, Sean fucking Gayle, and Becca fucking Davenport

25: (truth) What is the last thing you lied about? (dare) Tag three people you want to know better and ask them each three questions about themselves.

My midterm score. Really I got a 74% but I lied and said 75% to my friends lmao

26: (truth) What's the last movie you watched? (dare) Reblog the most recent of your own selfies posted on tumblr, and in the tags say two things you like about your appearance in it?

Black Panther!!!! 10/10 movie!

I’ll respond to the rest of your Q’s hold on lol

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lovehotelreservation · 7 years ago

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I’ll Say “I Love You” Until We Get Along - I Hate You [14/15]

Summary: Begotten by the gods, Ardyn has sought to return the favor, their precious world to burn. Until he runs into you, a cherished reminder of his past that he thought to have closed his heart to centuries ago. Now, however, he finds your heart sealed shut to him, and he is determined to pry it open one way or another. Prequel and sequel to “The Most Beautiful Boogie Man”

Rating: PG-13

Pairing: Reader/Ardyn

[Previous Chapter]

HELLO EVERYONE! ; u ; And thus, with the end of the year soon upon us, so has the conclusion of this fic! Thank you all so much for supporting this fic through likes, reblogs, comments, and kudos! While I tend to get sappy and sentimental with the conclusion of things, I shall leave that towards the end of the chapter!

After all, the final chapter is here at last! As always, I hope you enjoy!

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There was that look again.

But rather than cold, icy frigidness, it was set aflame with resolve.

Was it defiance, or an intense sense of justice?

Regardless, it piqued Ardyn's interest as he saw it directed his way.

By you.

Carrying an air of sophisticated anticipation--one that masked his lust for you and devastation--he remained up above from the steps of the Citadel, with Noctis and his friends down below on the Citadel driveway.

His voice rich and profound, he took a step forward and called out your name, your full title of queen included. By the way how unsurprised the others looked, he was sure you had already divulged your connection to him. Regardless, he outstretched a hand to you, his lips quirked in a grin, "And what does Venus Fly--nay, the Queen of Lucis decree upon Ardyn the Accursed?"

The other four looked towards you, their expressions tense yet trusting.

You moved forward, your steps unsure at first. However, as you gazed up at him--your goal in sight--you gained courage even as you approached the man who was once your lover. Matching his tone in confidence and volume, your expression softened while you rested your hand over your heart.

"In my days as queen, I proudly pledged my loyalty and my love to Ardyn Lucis Caelum..." You trailed off, your eyes shifting down.

Even with the battles against all the monstrous daemons that plagued the city, the air in Insomnia never felt so tense during this brief moment of silence.

And then he saw your hand grab a fistful of your Kingsglaive uniform, your shoulders slowly beginning to shake.

Next, he notice your fingers flying down to the hilt of your sword.

However, what truly captured his focus were the tears in your eyes as you lifted your head, crying out to him with your blade drawn, "But as I stand before you today as Kingsglaive, I have absolutely no ties to Ardyn Izunia!"

Ardyn's eyes closed and his lips quirked into a smile.

Rejection.

Again.

"A pity."

He could already hear Noctis and his friends ready their weapons in retaliation.

But they didn't matter in this moment.

It would seem he would have to resort to this plan after all.

Damn you, Izunia.

With his eyes boring into yours, he stated with utmost finality, "But say what you will, darling, I do believe that we swore to each other that death do us part, no?"

He raised his hand, a glow of purple and black forming before it surged right towards you, faster than you could even try to deflect it with your weapon.

The sound of you choking was that last thing the others heard before you crumpled to the ground, sword clanking upon the concrete. Darkness immediately pooled beneath your body, dragging it down within the shadows.

While the four were lost in a panic, Ardyn only chuckled darkly as he remarked, "Now, for the rest of you...Ifrit, the Infernian. He doesn't share the Glacian's fondness for mankind." A pitch black shadow with wisps of purple suddenly appeared around his arms, your unconscious body materializing. With you finally in his clutches once again--even by drastic measures--he felt pure tranquility while he continued with a hum, "But you can expect a warm welcome."

His back facing the others, he proceeded to bring you back inside the Citadel with the parting words of "We shall await you...above."

Leaving the quartet to deal with the ruthless wrath of Ifrit, Ardyn paid little mind to it all as he carried you to the elevator, intending to bring you up to the bedroom. How unfortunate and foolish of him to think he would be able to do this with you once more as he did so often during your marriage, as though your former life as Queen would somehow absolve him of his sins, marriage or not.

Here, in the same bedroom that the two of you once fled in fear of persecution from your own people, he would have you rest, to ease your mind of the burdens that the two contrasting versions of yourself had to uphold. Ideally, once he claimed rightful victory over Noctis, he would rouse you from your sleep. Whether to bring forth his former Queen, to gently sculpt and mold the current Kingsglaive member into his idealized version of his most cherished darling, or to even start from scratch, he looked forward to beginning a new life with you.

Gingerly lying you upon the bed, Ardyn--unable to take it any longer--stole a kiss from your lips, during which an image flashed through his mind, seeing that defiant look in your eyes.

Of which remained to be closed when he turned to make his return to the throne room.

And from where he would never return from.

At last, the final conflict.

He and Noctis, exchanging blows, charging at one another with a rage and sorrow to span across the ages. Undoubtedly, he was sure their fight would have been quite the spectacle--a downside to being the main villain in this melodrama, being unable to watch this clash firsthand.

However, it resulted in Ardyn having no choice but to give the prince his deserved applause.

It was the least he could do before fulfilling every bit of his intention to utterly decimate him in the afterlife.

Knowing that Noctis had accepted the power of the Kings of Lucis, Ardyn was eager and bloodthirsty for the challenge as he called forth his powers yet again.

But then a flash of piercing light shone out on either side of him, warmth engulfing both of his arms.

He glanced to the right.

Lunafreya.

He turned to the left.

You.

However, you were not in your Kingsglaive uniform, but in the same clothes you wore on the day you were blighted out from this world.

Instinctively, he moved to shove Lunafreya away, who merely disappeared before he could fully raise his arm.

As for you, however, he immediately sought to draw you close, to chain you to him and never let go.

But he didn't need to.

For you held onto his side, all the while horror quickly shone itself on his face as he watched as the Kings of Lucis burst forth from Noctis's back, ready to strike.

Not again.

With as much intensity as the fear seized him, so did his arms while he drew you into a protective embrace, his back facing the imminent onslaught of his bloodline's judgment.

If he could take on the burden of his ailing, ungrateful people as their beloved king, he didn't have to think twice about shielding you from the mercilessness of mortality that he once failed to protect you from as your husband.However, you showed no fear in face of this, only hugging him tight as you endured the wrath of Lucis's kings with him. For every pierce, every slash, every strike, you clung to him--not out of pain, but to comfort, to ease.

To ensure him that you would not leave his side.

And in the wake of the flurry of divine weapons being drawn to smite out the Accursed, there was nary a trace of either him or you left.

Extinguished.

For whatever heavenly light he was certain that you would come to embody, he hoped he may join you, if just to be the shadow cast upon your wake.

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jk actual last chapter will be posted next week on friday as usual lololol HAPPY NEW YEAR’S EVERYONE!!!

#ardyn izunia #ardyn lucis caelum #final fantasy xv #ffxv #ffxv fanfiction #reader insert #fic #i'll say i love you until we get along #super freaknasty writing #management will return in a queue minutes

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anacchi24 · 8 years ago

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A - Z Tag Game

Tagged by: @reimeijennoir and @petrichor-note, thanks for the tag~ :3

(under the cut because the answers are so friggin long lololol xD )

A - Age: 16, turning 17 this year (sadly) :’)

B - Biggest fear(s): Having too many fears. I mean, it’s natural that people are afraid of some things, right? I’m just scared I’d be too scared of too many things that I end up getting too paranoid over everything

C - Current time: 11:54 AM

D - Drink you last had: Lemon tea :D

E - Everyday starts with: With me waking up or me going to sleep. I’m not sure why, but I’m getting insomnia lately probably has something to do with anxiety which I’m starting to feel a hell lot more lately but oh well. At least I still have games and art to take my mind off of it.

F - Favourite song: I never have an all-time favourite, tbh. Though I like Japanese songs (specifically Kenshi Yonezu, character songs of my fave animes, EnStars unit songs) and also nursery rhymes in general.

G - Ghosts, are they real?: I’d like to believe they’re not because I’m a scaredy cat who can’t watch any horror movies but I’ve heard too many stories to just brush it off. Either way, I’ve never had the opportunity to confirm that ghosts are true or not, and I would never want to find out either.

H - Hometown: Tangerang. Which is a pretty nice place because it’s next to the capital city of Indonesia, Jakarta; which means shipping stuffs are relatively cheaper since both towns share the same port. Tangerang is less crowded too so the traffic jam is more bearable. But as much as I like this town, I’m hoping I can get out of here someday (hopefully to another country like Japan or England) hahaha xD

I - In love with: Wait, lemme get my 24 pages long list---

J - Jealous of: a lot of people, but mostly my older sis. She’s... an overachiever, to put it in a way. She’s capable of a lot of things and my parents are so very proud of her and ahh... I should stop here before it gets too depressing hahaha xD (Tho I guess I should mention that my admiration towards her is still bigger than my jealousy. She’s a hardworking person and deserves every good things happening to her)

K - Killed someone: In fanfics and imaginations, yes. They’re all fictional characters, though. I’m too much of a coward to actually think of killing someone xD

L - Last time you cried: Today.

I saw several men so beautiful, I started crying look at dem abs tho hnggggh-//shot/// xD

M - Middle name: Veronica. I actually don’t really understand, but my full name consists of three names, and Veronica is the second one xD

N - Number of sibling(s): 1 bilogical older sister, 1 self-proclaimed twin sister, and lots of adopted online siblings. Tho I have to say I have two favorites out of all my online sinlings; they are both little sister figures to me and they’re both such amazing artists and writer and they kill my heart with angst and fluff from time to time and they’re both cinnamon rolls whose smiles I want to protect and I could go on and on all day just talking about how much I adore them.

One of them even drew Chiaki and me just a few minutes ago, gosh dammit, I love her so much.

I mean, look.

at these.

She’s so precious and wonderful. Why can’t I officially adopt you right now, Mirai-chan </3

O - One wish: For those who I love and care about have their wishes come true :D

P - Person I last called/texted: Domino’s Pizza xD

Q - Questions you’re always asked: In class, “What’s the English of *insert Indonesian word/phrase here*?”.

R - Reason to smile: My fave characters, my love for those characters, fanfics and fanarts of those characters, and my friends.

S - Song last sang: Fight for Judge by Knights. I love all four of Knights’s songs and I absolutely can’t wait until their next CD is released! x3

T - Time you woke up: Unpredictable. I have no life schedule (not just a sleeping schedule lololol) so the time I wake up or go to sleep is incredibly inconsistent. Though I do notice that the later I go to sleep, the earlier I wake up and the the earlier I go to sleep, the later I wake up. I’m weird that way xD

U - Underwear colour: I honestly forgot, I just put on whichever pants that’s on top of the pile xD

V - Vacation destination: Japan, England, then a tour around Europe~ Though a vacation to Philippines to visit most of my online friends

W - Worst habit: Procrastinating xD

X - X-rays you had: Teeth and jaws. Idk what it’s called, but my back teeth can’t grow properly because I didn’t chew enough when I was a kid xD

Y - Your favorite food: Same as music, I have no all-time favorite. Now, though, I’m in love with mac ‘n cheese a certain restaurant in a nearby mall serves. The mozarellas had me drooling ^q^

Z - Zodiac: Cancer! And while we’re at it, lemme include the the lovely insult my trash, Lia, had said to me when I told her this: “No wonder you’re a cancer to society.” XD that seriously made me laugh, though xD Heck, I still laugh whenever I remember it pffff- XDD

I’ll tag @liablackpandora @freezingdreamer @crows-with-keys @papillonprisme @ranami68 @catslab @pokkipo @tina-nightray @choc0bunnyqueen @lawlicht4eva @canthydefromthelicht and anyone else who wants to do it! :3

#you don't have to do it if you don't want to tho #or if you've already done it #so many people have done this idk anymore #tag game #personal

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