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hot bombshell bau!reader flirting and winking at spencer every chance she gets and poor spencer just gets hot and bothered very flustered and blushing😋😋
i love you jade i read ur blog like it's the daily newspaper<33
I love you anon, thank you for requesting ♡ fem!reader
"So," says a voice, low and syrupy as warmth spreads up Spencer's side, "how's my favourite agent?"
Your perfume a subtle fragrance of jasmine and vanilla alike, sweetness that lingers —and Spencer knows, having thought of you every time he walks past the sugar ring donut stand by the Staples Mill Station for weeks— you put a hand on his shoulder and lean in for a one-armed hug. His skin erupts with goosebumps.
"Y/N," he says, sounding much too much like a wimp for his own liking. He clears his throat. "When did you get back?"
He's afraid to look at you. He doesn't have a choice. His heart skips a beat at the state of you, which is to say you look stunning in your dark clothes, a tight cut top that borders unprofessional and a pair of thigh hugging pants that pass the border completely. (He's kidding. Mostly. You're dressed fine. He's a loser, is all.)
"This morning. They couldn't keep me from you if they tried, handsome. You look good." You disengage from his side. Spencer's relieved and regretful at once. "I love the haircut, they take a little more than you were expecting?"
"Is it too short?" he asks unsurely.
"It's perfect."
Spencer's taller than you but he never feels it until you're looking up at him, pretty eyes and quirked lips, permanent amusement in your gaze. "I missed you," you say.
"Y/N," Hotch says as he descends the steps to the bullpen. "We talked about this."
"Pen and Morgan do it every day." Your eyebrows pinch together.
Hotch doesn't say anything else, an empty coffee mug in hand as he passes. You don't baulk at his disapproving look, the opposite, sitting on the edge of Morgan's desk to kick your kitten heels gently, a slow back and forth that has Spencer's eyeline pulling down your legs. He shakes it off, but not before you've noticed.
"You don't mind, do you, babe?" you ask. "My flirting?"
It'll probably kill him sooner rather than later. "No. Don't mind."
"'Cus I can stop, I promise. But you're the kind of boy that should be flirted with, you know? And the kind of smart that makes you crazy attractive, which is unfair. It's not like you needed help in that particular department." You lean back as you talk, scrounging around Morgan's things.
"Second shelf," Spencer says.
You stop your searching to grin at him. Pleased, you reach down to the second drawer of Morgan's desk and find what you'd been looking for, a coveted, half-eaten pack of cherry twizzlers.
"But we're not like Pen and Morgan," you say, bringing a twizzler to your mouth.
"We're not?" Spencer asks, confused. He may not summon the necessary charisma to flirt back, but he likes what you have.
"Nope." You take another bite, chew, leaving Spencer in anticipation. Finally, you swallow, lips curving into an even stickier smile. "'Cus Pen and Morgan are never gonna happen. They're better as friends…"
You slip down off of Morgan's desk, leaving his twizzlers behind. Spencer has enough sense about him to anticipate your approach. He's proud of himself for the composure he maintains as your footsteps slow. He even takes a step back to follow you, to your abject delight.
"But we're not just friends, are we?" you ask softly. You lift your chin. He can smell the cherry on you.
"Y/N, enough," Hotch says from somewhere behind. You refuse to look away, and while Spencer fears his chief's tone, he manages to hold your gaze. "HR will mandate another presentation."
"It's alright, Hotch," Spencer says. His cheeks are flushed and his palms are clammy, but his voice holds up. "I don't mind."
"I'm sure you don't."
"This could all be avoided if we took this somewhere a little more private," you murmur.
"Enough. I won't tell you again, Y/N. Shouldn't you be helping Penelope with her ViCAP recalibration?" Hotch asks pointedly.
Spencer takes it for what it is; an effort to separate you from each other before it goes too far. You know it too, rolling your eyes at Spencer like you've a shared secret —Can you believe this guy?— clasping his arm loosely in farewell.
"See you later, Spence." You call him handsome, babe, bub, even sweetheart, but Spence is the worst of all of them because of how you say it, your voice entrenched in pure honey. His heart pangs as you go.
Hotch lingers by Spencer's side, coffee freshly filled and steaming in rings. "You know, you're getting better," he says sympathetically.
Spencer rubs the bridge of his nose roughly. "Thanks."
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Broken Glass | Barca Boys
Summary: Maybe it was only a metaphor, or maybe it was how your relationship felt.
Warnings: cursing, broken relationship.
A/N: I know you love Barca Boys, so here's it is a little angst for you ❤️✨️ also because the votes and anons were clear about you loving this series. Happy late Sunday to you!!!!
Pedri

"No," You say, making him turn back to you. "I'm not going."
"Joder, you are really testing my limits today." He says, trying to keep his cool. "I said let's go, now move it."
You throw your bag into the couch. Walking over to the kitchen. You grab your favorite mug, leaving it on the counter.
He sees you walking over the fridge, taking your dunkin' donuts caramel coffee, you poor it over your mug.
"Para." He orders.
You ignore his words. Grabbing some icecubes and pouring them onto the cup. "Go, it's late."
You knew that moving in with him was a big step, you very much inside of you knew that you might not be ready for it.
But you also knew that you loved him enough to make sacrifices. For him, for you, for the relationship.
"I said stop." He says, trying to grab the mug from your hands. "Give this to me."
You hand him go back and forth with the mug. "Pedro, what is wrong with you? Let go!"
He does, hitting his hand on the counter. He tries to calm himself. He walks over to the office, grabbing his keys and jacket.
"Stop that shit, let's go." He says, trying to sound less mad than he is.
"Are we really doing this?" You ask him. "Pedro, we are not fine, and honestly I don't feel like putting a big fake smile on my face for your family to think that everything is gummies and flowers in happyland!"
"We are fine!"
"No, we are not." You say. "We can't keep doing this."
You two stay quiet, trying to think about ways to fix what you two have, trying to make a smart choice that doesn't involve one of the two taking a different way.
"Te amo." He says, looking at the floor. "We can fix this, I know it."
"I know it too, we just need to know how."
"Let's think about it once we are back, just for tonight, let's not act this way."
You nod, leaving the mug and everything else on the house. He walks over to the couch, grabbing your purse and your jacket.
"Let's go." He smiles, kissing your forehead. "We can talk once we are back."
You can't help the feeling of tiredness, how much this situation is weighting on your shoulder.
You can feel his eyes on your hands, he wants to be able to hold them like he used to, but the feeling of guilt was bigger than his desires.
You noticed that, and like always, you took the initiative and grab his hand. The quickness of his actions makes you let a small smile.
He brings it up, closer to his lips, giving the skin a peck. "My dad is going to be so happy that you are coming." He says.
You nod, knowing that to him, making it seem like everything was fine in front of his parents was the most important thing.
His parents advise you not to move together, < you are too young to be thinking about that >
But you didn't listen, so here's the consequences of your own actions. You are not only young but also very dumb.
Everything was easier before. Everything seemed like a dream, but no. You had to ruin it.
"Do you want more salad, querida?" Rosy asks you.
"Thank you!" You smile at her. "This is delicious, I really like it."
"Well, Pedri always talks about how much you love this salad and I made it especially for you!"
You can feel Pedri's hand squeezing you, you smile and thank his mother one more time.
You take your hand and place it on top of his. You know that you have a long talk as soon as you hit home, but you want to keep with this fake narrative of being okay.
"How's everything?" Rosy asks when you two are alone, noticing the sad eyes you two have. "Are you doing okay?"
You don't want to talk to her about your problems with her son, you also don't want to uncover the truth you can't accept.
"Yes, I just feel tired from staying up late." You lie. "Do you need me to wash the dishes?"
She knows you are lying. It's easy for her to notice that. "Leave that, come with me." She asks, taking the glass from your hands. "Let's go for a walk while the boys play outside."
You nod, walking with her to the entrance of the house. You two decide to walk around the block.
You know she's about to ask, you know she wants to know what is going on, you know she wants the best for you and Pedri.
"Did you two fight?" She asks.
You stayed quiet, you feel embarrassed to even talk with her about it. You know she will tell you that she told you both not to do that, but you still did it.
"If you don't talk, then I can't help."
You look at her, she noticed the tears in your eyes. "It's not that." You try, chocking on a sob. "I just don't understand where it all went wrong."
"Ay, cariño." She hugs you. "It's okay, let it all out."
"And I know you told us that this was not the way to go, and I'm so sorry about not listening." You cry even harder. "I just thought that maybe it was going to be easier, and I don't want to lose him."
She grabs you by the shoulders, walking you over the bench that was at the small park you two were walking by.
"And I'm so sorry, I know this was a mistake, please don't be mad."
"I would never be mad." She smiles, holding your face. "But you know that this has to stop, right?"
You shake your head no, getting up from the bench. You fry your tears with your sleeves, calming down your urge to cry.
"I'm sorry, Rosy." You say, turning to where she is. "I think I overreacted, sorry you had to see that." You say, smiling.
She wants to talk about your reaction and try to know more because to her, this is not a normal reaction to have.
"It's getting colder. Maybe we should go back." You say before she starts speaking.
She got the hint, you weren't going to talk. She just nods, walking by your side in silence. She didn't want to seem disrespectful by trying to force the words out of you.
Before you enter the house once again, you grab her wrist, looking at her with puppy eyes. "Please don't tell anybody about what happened." You beg.
The last thing you want it to create more problems between Pedri and you.
She nods, placing a hand on your face and squishing your cheek. "Want some cake?" She asks, knowing that will make you happy.
You smile, giving her a small nod. You two walk inside, watching how Pedri, his brother, and father are eating a piece of cake already.
"Did you even leave us any?" Rosy jokes.
"A little bit only." Fer jokes.
You enjoyed a piece of cake with them, Rosy and Fernando moved to the kitchen after a while. They were talking and putting everything away, even if you offer help, they denied it.
After a few minutes Pedri moved to where his parents are, taking the plates and cups. You zone out, thinking about the fight.
You can't help but feel hopeless, can it help if you go back to live in separate houses? Can it help if you take a break? Can it help if you go to a counselor?
Maybe.
Maybe not.
"Vamos," Pedri says, handing your things to you.
You frown a little. "I thought we were staying a little bit more." You say, getting up and walking with him to the door.
But he doesn't answer. In fact, he's afraid that if he does, he might say the wrong thing. He just shakes his head, opening the car door for you.
When you get home, he is still in this quiet state. You want to ask, but you prefer for him to be the one telling you what is going on.
"Did you talk to my mom?" He asks.
You turn to where he is, already knowing that a fight is expected. "I mean, we took a walk and talked." You say. "Why?"
"I don't know, maybe because my parents were talking about how you were crying and asking her not to be mad at you." He says in this very deceptive tone.
You grab a napking, cleaning the small drops of coffee you dropped from moving the mug that you left.
"Do you really think moving together was a mistake?" He asks.
"I d-" You pause to think if what you were about to say was the right thing. "I don't know. I think we may have hurried into making that decision."
"So this is it?" He asks, mad at your answer. "I don't think we rushed."
"But we did." You say, wanting to shere what you really feel. "I think we need some time apart. We need to go to counseling or to go back to have our own place."
"You don't want to live here anymore?"
He knew this was coming, but he doesn't say it, maybe because he is afraid, maybe because he feels like his heart is about to explote, maybe because he feels embarrassed that his relationship is failing.
You take a deep breath, knowing that what you are about to do is the hardest thing you've ever done.
But it was necessary.
"No."
Gavi

"Wait, Pablo." You grab his arm, making him stop. "Can you please talk to me?" You ask.
He just frowns, taking his hand and moving your hand. "Vamos." He says, walking over to the car.
You follow him, opening the door and getting on the passenger seat.
"If you are mad, sad, angry, or anything." You say, grabbing his hand. "Can you please tell me?"
He does this thing where he just acts like anything matters, he gets this frown on his face, and he gets quiet.
"Pablo, please." You beg. "Talk to me, anything you want to say, just talk!"
"Do me a favor." He says, taking his hand away from yours. "Please be quiet, I have a headache."
You feel the pain in your heart. You got comfortable on the seat, even when you don't want to be in the same car as him.
You can't keep with this situation, he never shared his feelings, he never shared his thoughts.
It was like fighting someone with your eyes closed. You know nothing about them and you don't know where the next punch is coming from.
You push the seat all the way to the back and bit more down. You know he hates when his seats are moved, he likes to have the same distance between the driver's seat and the passenger seat.
You know that even if he wants to talk, he won't. He will fix it as soon as he can and then continue with this silent treatment trick he pulls.
"I hate when you do this." You say to him. You are done with hiding your feelings just because he hides his own. "If you are mad at me, if you feel like I said something you don't feel comfortable with, if you want me to tone it down, just say it."
The silence continue.
You focus on the busy road, the traffic in Barcelona was crazy tonight. Just what you needed, more time with him in the silente cage.
You think about the day he asked you to be his girlfriend. He used to be someone reserved since the beginning, yes.
But this wall he built to hide his feelings, it was impossible to climb. No matter how hard you tried, no matter how much progress you make. He always finds a way to bring you down to zero.
You turn back to him, his eyes are on the road. You can't think of when all this started, when he started to hide himself.
You used to think that you were happy.
You used to think that you knew him.
But you don't.
You don't want this life, you don't want to have to go the extra mile for him to express his feelings, you don't want to feel like you need to beg him.
"Pull over." You say, undoing your seat belt.
Pablo turns to you, the alarm of the seat belt ringing, alerting him more than it should.
"Are you crazy? We are in the middle of traffic." He says, grabbing your arm with on hand.
"I'm not, just pull over." You say, freeing your arm from his hold. "Please do."
He sees the entrance to a mall, he earns a few honks of the other drivers, but he does not care.
He parks on the first spot he finds. As soon as the car is safe to get off, you try to do it, but the hands of Gavi are stopping you.
"Pablo, let go off me." You calmly say.
"No, I'm not letting you get off." He says, gripping on your arms a little more. "Amor, please."
The look in his eyes is confusing. You can't understand how he goes from full anger and being so closed and then go to begging you with those glossy eyes.
"I can't do this anymore, Pablo." You whisper.
"Don't say that." He begs. "What-, how-, wha-."
He can't even get a sentence without feeling like he's doing something that might make you leave faster.
"Please, suéltame." You say one more time.
"Let me fix thi-"
"No! Pablo, I've tried so hard for so long, but you act as if I'm the enemy." You say, pulling your hands away from him in a very hard pull. "I love you, but I'm tired of feeling as if everything that I do is wrong, as if I'm a bother to you or to your feelings."
He shakes his head, trying to find the right words, but he can't.
"And I begged you, fuck Pablo I've begged you to tell me what's wrong, if I'm doing something." You keep going, expressing everything you feel. "You have no idea what it's like to feel like a bother, and you don't care because clearly you don't mind me feeling like that." You open the door.
He undo his seat belt, running to your side to stop you. "Wait, preciosa, that's not true."
"Move, out of my way." You say, trying to pass over him. "Gavi!"
"No, stop, please, so we can talk." You scuff, trying to go past him. "No!"
"Okay, then tell me something." You say, taking a few steps back. "Are you going to stop being so uptight and start being honest about your feelings with me? I'm tired of being the only one who tries."
"Pero- joder, I don't get why are you so stuck on that!"
You don't need another word. You understood perfectly.
"Pablo, I think it's time for you to leave. I leave by myself." You say, pushing him out of your way.
"Espera," He calls, trying to get you to stay. "Amor, what about us?"
You turn to him, the look in your face is enough to make him shut his mouth.
"There is no us, Gavi."
Ferran

"Do you need help?" Ferran asks, poking your side.
"Stop that." You say, moving his hand away from you. "You already embarrassed me enough during dinner."
"Don't be like that," He says, smirking. "It was fun."
You ignore him, closing the door of the car and leaving him inside.
During this party with his friends, Ferran decided to over shared some not so funny stories about you.
To him and his friends, of course it was funny, because Ferran is used to do that to everybody. He loves to share different stories of moments that made him laugh.
You sometimes feel like Ferran doesn't take anything serious, it's been like that since the beginning.
At first, it was fun.
You can't deny that you find his humor fun, how he didn't take anything that serious. But after some time, you find it nit that funny anymore.
You told yourself that it was because of his work. He needs to be extra serious, and he needs to be concentrated on the field.
It's also that he is an oversharer.
He will share everything with everyone if he is feeling like it. That was something that you feel like in the beginning didn't really matter, but now you feel like sometimes he shares too much.
And you know that when he's home and out with friends, he can be himself. The thing is, he sometimes can't seem the difference between being serious and have an open time for jokes.
"Don't be mad." He says, closing the door after him. "Where are you going?"
"To make some tea."
You walk over to the kitchen, trying to calm yourself down. You don't want to fight with him, not again.
Last time you did, Ferran took it as always. As a joke. Trying to calm the airs with jokes, because in his mind that was going to work with you.
Sometimes you are thankful that Ferran gives you the space you needed. He can't take some situations with the maturity needed, but he knows when to back off.
You stayed on the couch for a little bit, trying to think about what to do with the situation you have on your hands.
You asked Ferran multiple times to take the things with more seriousness. That you needed him to pause his overly good mood for a moment and act like an adult.
You decide to rest the subject and go to bed, you were staying with him for the night. He was playing fifa while talking with his football friends, so you left him alone while he's doing that.
You do the little routine you have while you stay with him. You check your phone after doing the routine. Noticing that your friends were talking about the stories Ferran mentioned, all of them teasing you.
You can't help but get mad again, especially when you noticed that they were talking about something you told Ferran not to tell.
"Ferran, can you come here?" You ask, trying to keep your cool.
He tells the boys that he's going to be off for a few minutes, to not kill him on the game. He leaves his mic off and headsets there, running to the room.
"Si? My team is waiting, tell me." He says, jumping anxious about his game. "What's wrong? Did you forget your cream again?"
You try not to roll your eyes at how desperate he seems to go back to his game. "Stop moving." You say, frustrated at him. "Did you tell our friends about what happened the other day?" You ask, trying to get him to confess first before saying anything.
He thinks for a few moments, "Do you mean the work thing?"
"So you did!" You point at him. "After I told you not to!"
He rolls his eyes, "Baby, they are our friends." He says, smiling at you.
"It doesn't matter, I asked you not to tell, and you did exactly that!"
He doesn't seem to see the problem, he feels like sharing is caring. His friends will share their lives with him and he does too.
"I know, but Miguel had the same experience, and I wanted to let him know that he's not the only one."
"Fer, but that was not something that you could just tell." You explain, trying to remain calm. "That was something that I wanted to keep private and to be able to tell whenever I felt like it. I told you because I trusted you to keep it."
He sighs, "Can you drop it?" He asks. "I have a game to go back to." He point to his game room.
"Perdona?" You ask, not believing that he was acting as if you are the one with the problem.
"My game!" He points. "I'm in the middle of it. Let's drop this, yes I told my friends, yes you are mad but boo hoo, move on!"
You are speechless, he was in this < I don't give a fuck > type of mode, acting like if you can't be mad at him airing your business.
"It's not boo hoo, Ferran." You try to reason with him. "You told everybody something that was mine and only mine to tell. The worst part is that this is not the first time you have done this. Do I have to be more careful now and filter everything I say to you?"
"Why would you? Amor, seriously stop exaggerating."
"No estoy exagerando, Ferran. I'm mad because I trusted you and yet again you ran to your friends and aired my dirty laundry."
"Yet again? Why are you so onto ruin the night <yet again>?" He says, trying to copy your words.
You look over at him, feeling disappointed, Ferran rolled his eyes, walking back to his game room. He doesn't believe he's in the wrong.
You change back into your clothes, putting the stuff you have in the bathroom back in your bag. You are mad and won't spend the night with him.
You call an Uber, waiting for it to be outside, you put your shoes. You grab Ferran's wallet, walking over to the game room.
"I'm leaving. Here's your wallet." You threw it over at the table. "Bye."
He pauses the game. "Espera!" He shouts, cursing under his breath as he shuts down the game. "Wait, don't leave."
You turn to him, his face showing regret. "I'm tired, Fer." You say, feeling like you are the bad one.
"But tired of what? Are you seriously mad about me talking with my friends? Are you that dramatic?"
"Yes, I am seriously mad. Yes, I am dramatic because you keep kissing and telling, and I'm not up for that." You say, opening the front door of his house.
You feel his hand grabbing your arm. He then blocks the door that goes to the street. "You can't leave."
"I can. In fact, I am leaving." You take his hand away from you, trying to walk out of his house. "Move."
"Look, I know I fucked up, but you know how I am."
"And that's not an excuse anymore." You say, moving him to open the door.
Just in time, the Uber pulled to the driveway.
"I made so many excuses for you, but I'm over it, Ferran. And for you to tell me that I'm being dramatic and exaggerating? Sorry, but I'm out."
"You are seriously going to break up with me over something I said?"
You look back at him. "I will. In fact, im doing it." You say, opening the door of the Uber. "But don't worry, go tell your friends about it."
Fermin

"Be careful." Fermin says, grabbing your hand as you walk back inside the house.
You try to let his hand go, failing miserable as he thinks it is because you are falling and grabs you by the waist.
You are coming from a doctors appointment, and Fermin is treating you as if you just came back from war or something.
"Fer, you're making me feel hot." You say, trying to give him a hint. "Can I have some water?" You ask him.
He nods, running to the kitchen to get you that glass of water.
Something you and Fermin always talk about is that he sometimes doesn't know how to give you your space. You need to have your own time to de-stress from everything.
But he's more into long hugs from the moment he sees you to the moment you say goodbye, or even if you're in bed, sleeping over at his or yours, he will have his arms around you, one lg over yours.
You like that, love that your boyfriend is clingy. The things is...
Fermin is more than clingy, he is obsessed with you to the point he will want to hold your hand when driving, when out, when in.
He will want to hold you all the time, even suggesting a warm bath so he can cuddle you inside the bathtub.
It was amazing, you love your boyfriend.
What wasn't so amazing were the fights because he was mad that you needed your space. Meaning you need him away, meaning you hated him and you wanted him to get lost...
Or that was what was happening inside his mind.
You talked about space with him, being able to do your things, to be able to have your moments. To read in peace, to eat without holding his hand, to be in bed on your side without his arms.
"Here it is, princesa." He says, handing you the glass of water.
Pau
You feel him hugging you from behind. You feel yourself cringe at the overwhelming feeling. You hate yo feel that way, but sometimes you can't take the full clingyness.
"Let's get ready for tonight?" You ask, trying to act as if you want to go upstairs. "We need to be ready for Pablo's dinner"
"That means I have to go home, I wanted to watch a movie."
"Fer, our houses are literally three minutes away. You'll be fine."
He pouts, giving your forehead a kiss. "I'll pick you up, okay?" He asks, making you nod. "See you in a bit."
You feel lighter when Fermin left. Sometimes you want to be able to tell him yo give you space without sounding like a bitch.
You had plenty of time to take a shower and prepare for the dinner. It was a simple party with his football friends and even some masía friends from his junio era.
You watch an episode of your show before doing anything. Picking a simple outfit after a shower, some light makeup just because you want to hide the bags under your eyes.
You hear the doorbell just in time, grabbing your bag and praying the last bid of perfume. You find Fermin waiting for you outside, a smile on his face.
"Let's go!" You smile.
During the trip from your house to Gavi's house, Fermin didn't let your hand go. Using every red light as an opportunity to kiss your hand of cheek.
When you arrive you try your best to say hi to everyone. Finding it kind of hard as Fermin was grabbing your hips, keeping you by his side.
"Venga, Fer. Let's go get some food, let the ladies talk." Gavi tells him, pulling him by the shirt.
You thank Gavi, making the ladies at the table laugh. They all tease you about how much Fermin spend next to you.
You can't get mad, you know that it's true and you kind of find it funny too. Plus, the jokes are light, and nobody is insulting you or hurting you or fermin with the jokes.
"So, changing the topic." Gavi's girlfriend says. "Are we taking that trip to Ibiza? Because I need to confirm the airbnb."
"Oh, yes." Laura, Dani's girlfriend, says. "I have the itinerary, I just need to change some things based on our budget."
"Let's keep it budget friendly." You say. "Last time we spent enough to live a lifetime." You laugh.
"Yes, but I loved it." Laura says. "I'm sending you the unedited itinerary. We can see right now what to change."
Fermin, Gavi, and Dani walk back to the table. All of them are carrying food for their girlfriend.
"What are you ladies talking about?" Dani asks, placing Laura's food in front of her.
"Oh, nothing." Laura smirks. "Only our little Ibiza trip, but we promise to be good this time."
"Joder, I'm still in debt after last trip." Gavi jokes, making his girlfriend hit his arm. "Es broma!"
"When are you leaving?" Pedri asks, sitting down with you.
"I think next week, because we talked about it for like a month before finally saying yes five minutes ago." You answer.
"Wait, you are going too?" Fermin whispers to you.
"Obvio." You whisper back. "Thanks for the food."
You continue the talk with everybody else. Talking about different things. What you didn't notice was how Fermin was quiet.
He was kind of mad that you didn't shared the fact that you wanted to go to Ibiza with your friends.
He was planning on using those days to take you somewhere, so you could spend more days together and have a nice mini vacay.
After dinner, Fermin and you helped Gavi and his girlfriend with the cleaning. You hugged them goodbye and went back to Fermin's car.
You find weird how he is kind of quiet and not holding your hand like he's used to. Maybe he's tired, you think.
"Do you want me to make you that food you like?" You ask him. "You told me your parents are coming, and I'm thinking that your mom also likes that plate."
"Why didn't you tell me about the trip?" He asks.
You frown. "Because I don't know?" You chuckle. "I thought I wasn't going to go. That's why."
"I was thinking of taking you on a little vacation." He explains. "But you ruined the plan."
"How did I ruin it?" You ask confused.
"Because you are leVing with your friends and leaving me behind."
You try to understand how is this your fault and why was he so mad.
"Fer, what are you even talking about? We are going for a weekend, I'm not moving there." You explain calmly. "And we are together all the time. We are together after training, at night when you come here for dinner or breakfast, on the weekends. Shit, we are together right now!"
You don't get why he was so mad at you. It was a normal thing that you and the girls would pick a weekend to spend time away from the games, the crazy fans and the routine.
"But I wanted us to spend some time, but thanks for ruining it." He says in a very bad tone. "You don't appreciate what I do for you."
"Fermin, are we really doing this?" You ask, still surprised that he was acting this way.
"Si, I'm honestly mad that you think this is not important."
"I never said that." You fight back, done with his attitude. "But you say < you are leaving me > as if I'm never with you. I've talked about how sometimes I think we need to have our own time. This is part of your own time. You went with Gavi and Ansu to Sevilla during your free days and I never complained."
"Oh, so you were going to?"
You stop fighting at that point, he wanted to be the right one in this fight. "You know what, let's calm down. We can talk about this tomorrow."
"You always do this, I try to spend time with you and be a good boyfriend. But you can't appreciate it."
You only roll your eyes, walking to the kitchen to grab a glass of water. "Whatever." You whisper.
"I want you to cancel the trip." He says, walking over to where you are. "If you really appreciate me and everything I do for you, cancel it, and let's go ourselves on a trip."
You can't help but laugh. "No." You shake your head while chuckling. "I'm not going to cancel anything, and if I do, it won't be because I'm going on one with you."
"Cancel it ot we are over." He says, angry face.
You feel this pain in your heart. You know Fermin is exaggerating, but him pulling this macho move is not setting right with you.
"Okay, close the door on your way out."

"I'm sorry I'm late." Pau says as soon as you open your house door. "We can still go out to eat."
You smile at him. "Actually, my dad came home with some burgers, and I ate one thinking you were going to not come."
"Oh," He says, scratching the back of his neck. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay," you say, hugging him. "I understand that you had to go to a meeting with your coach."
"Can we talk?" He asks.
You know where this is going, and honestly, you are thankful that it's him the one who's starting it.
"Want to go for a walk?" You ask. "My parents are in the living room." You explain.
He nods, taking your hand. You close the door after taking the keys from the key holder. You gab his arm, giving him a kiss on the shoulder.
"How was your night?" You ask, trying to make the conversation flow.
"It was good, Hansi gave us a big speech about how we need to not lack and to be better."
"That's amazing." You smile. "I'm happy that you are doing well on everything."
"How was your night?" He asks, giving you hand a kiss. "Apart from the obvious." He says, referring to him being late.
"Hey, about that." You say, thinking about him. "Did you eat anything?"
"Not much." He confess. "I'm really sorry. I was so late that you had to eat at home and now out like we talked about."
"Honestly, I get it." You shrug. "You are busy, and I ate burgers, so I'm fine."
He smiles, giving you a kiss. "Can we take a seat?" He asks, making you nod. "I really need to talk to you about something."
You smile, trying not to cringe.
"I really like you, you have no idea." He smiles, grabbing your hands. "But I'm really in a place where I can't give you the time I want to give you." He explains. "I want to be able to take you to dinner on time, I want to be able to take you out for more than just my games."
"Pau," you interrupt. "Listen, I know where this is going, and I think that as much as this is hurting. I think it's the best for the best of us."
He hugs you. "I'm really sorry." He says, sounding like he regrets already starting the conversation. "I love you, but I can't let this continue and let you hate me."
"Oh, baby." You chuckle. "I would never hate you, I would probably create a gossip page about you and share your deepest secrets but I won't hate you." You joke.
He laughs, "I really love you." He smiles, grabbing your face. "And I'm sorry this is going the way it is. I promise that if you give me a change, I can do better, maybe not now but in the future."
You give him a kiss. "I can't wait."
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Shattered and Rebuilt

SUMMARY: After a week of poor decisions drifts you and Tyler apart, a life-threatening tornado brings you and Tyler face to face with your deepest fears. Amidst the wreckage of the storm, you discover the vulnerability and love you've been hiding from each other. As you navigate jealousy, insecurity, and past mistakes, you must find a way to rebuild what was almost lost and redefine what it means to be truly vulnerable with each other.
A/N: Thank you so much to @imagine-all-the-fandoms for sending this request in! I know you sent it back in November, and I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to get it posted. I wrote this and then kept adding more and more to it because I kept coming up with new ideas or ways to develop the story even further. Hopefully you enjoy it! xx
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The hum of Tyler’s red Dodge pickup truck filled the air as the tires crunched over gravel, signaling your arrival at the roadside gast station. Out the window, Oklahoma stretched endlessly, a patchwork of flat fields and distant clouds that carried a whisper of the chaos you were chasing this week.
A “Once in a Lifetime Tornado Outbreak” they had called it. And as soon as Tyler got wind of it, you and the rest of the team were loading up the gear and making your way from Arkansas to Oklahoma.
“All right,” Tyler announced, his voice warm but laced with a slight hint of his usual no-nonsense drawl. “Gas stop. Grab whatever you need ‘cause after this, we’re not stoppin’.”
From your spot in the backseat, you stretched, bumping into Ben, the South London journalist currently occupying your personal space as you were squished between him and some of the gear Tyler kept in the backseat. He shifted awkwardly with an apologetic smile.
"Quite the operation you’ve got here," Ben said, his crisp accent standing out like a sore thumb in this dusty corner of America. "I imagine this stop isn’t just about petrol, though. Snacks are the real fuel, yeah?"
Boone, in the passenger seat, barked out a laugh and twisted around to face us. "Damn straight, mate. Tyler’s got a thing for gas station jerky. Won’t admit it, but he eats that stuff like it’s gourmet."
Tyler shot Boone a glare that didn’t quite reach his eyes. "Yeah, and you’re one to talk with your armful of chocolate donuts every time we stop. Besides,"—his gaze flicked up to the rearview mirror, locking with yours for just a second too long—"some people come outta these places with enough candy to stock a piñata."
You smirked, leaning forward between the seats so your chin rested on the back of Tyler's shoulder. "Are you saying you have a problem with my impeccable snack choices, Owens?"
He didn’t look at you, but you didn’t miss the twitch of his lips. "Didn’t say that. Just pointin’ out that your ‘impeccable choices’ mean sticky fingers all over my truck."
"Like jerky grease is any better?" You shot back, raising a brow.
Boone groaned, pulling a ball cap down over his face. "Here we go again."
Ben leaned over, amused. "This feels like foreplay, doesn’t it?"
"Ben!" I shot him a look, feeling heat crawl up my neck, but Tyler, ever unflappable, simply chuckled as he parked by the gas pump.
"Y’all are hopeless," Tyler said, pushing open his door. He turned to you, one boot on the pavement and an easy grin playing on his lips. "You comin’, or are you too busy defendin’ your snack habits to stretch your legs?"
"Depends," You said, hopping out of the truck and closing the door with a satisfying slam. "You gonna buy me a drink, or are you just here to trash talk my love of Skittles?"
His eyes glinted under the brim of his weathered Stetson. "That depends. You gonna keep makin’ me regret lettin’ you in my truck, or you finally gonna admit you’d be bored if you rode with Lily?"
You rolled your eyes, tossing Tyler a glance over your shoulder as you headed toward the gas station with Boone, Lily, Dexter, and Dani in tow. "If I admit it, you’ll never let me live it down. And we can’t have that."
Tyler’s laughter followed you as the glass doors of the gas station swung shut behind you, the cool air blasting away the lingering warmth of the Oklahoma sun. The gas station smelled like cheap coffee and cleaning supplies, the fluorescent lights humming faintly overhead.
You stood in the candy aisle, staring at the two options of brightly colored Skittles packets as if your life depended on the choice between regular and sour.
"Regular or sour," You muttered under your breath, weighing the pros and cons as if this wasn’t a completely ridiculous debate. Regular was classic, reliable—always good. Sour was bold, unexpected, a little more fun. Your fingers hovered between the two when a glimpse of movement outside the window caught your attention.
You glanced over the top of the shelf, peering out into the midday sun, where Tyler’s familiar figure was strolling across the grassy lot. Your brow furrowed slightly as you followed his path to…her.
She was standing just off to the side of the gas station, her light hair pulled up with a claw clip swaying in the breeze as she gazed out at the horizon. She was new. Or at least you assumed since you’d never seen her. She was apparently tagging along with Storm Par for the week, and while you didn’t know much about her, she seemed okay.
Tyler reached her, and you watched as she turned to him as he said something. He gestured out toward the horizon, his hands moving as he spoke, probably talking about something weather-related.
That was just Tyler—always the helpful one. Always looking out for everyone, wanting to make them feel welcome.
That’s all it was, you told myself. Just him being his usual kind, good-natured self. But then he gave her that smirk. The one that was all effortless charm and made you feel like you were the only person in the world he cared to talk to.
A strange pang stirred in your chest, sharp and sudden, and you quickly looked away.
It’s nothing. You grabbed the bag of regular Skittles off the shelf, hesitated, and grabbed the sour ones too. He’s allowed to talk to whoever he wants. He’s even allowed to flirt with whoever he wants.
Still, the pang lingered as you made your way toward the checkout. Passing the jerky section, you paused, scanning the shelves until you found it—Tyler’s favorite brand and flavor. Without thinking, you grabbed two bags and tucked them under your arm.
At the drink cooler, you slid open the glass door and grabbed two bottles of his usual drink. It was an easy rhythm, something you’d done countless times without a second thought. He’d grumble and tease you about spoiling him, but you always noticed how he’d crack a smile and finish every bite and sip.
By the time you reached the register, your arms were full. Skittles for you, jerky and drinks for Tyler.
You dumped the lot onto the counter, pulling a crumpled twenty out of your pocket as the cashier scanned the items. You focused intently on the cashier’s polite small talk, anything to keep from glancing out the window again.
Because you didn’t care. Or at least, that’s what you kept telling myself.
* * *
The motel’s neon vacancy sign buzzed faintly in the warm night air later that day, casting a faint red glow across the gravel lot where the storm-chasing teams had gathered. Most of the trucks were parked in a line, their roof racks empty, and gear scattered across the lot as repairs and tune-ups were underway.
The hum of your laptop filled the air as you and Dani hunched over the screen. The numbers were staggering.
“Nearly fifty thousand people at one time,” Dani said, leaning closer to the screen. She looked at you with wide eyes and a grin. “This is huge. One of our biggest streams yet.”
“Yeah, we did it,” Boone said from the doorway, his arms crossed as he leaned against the frame.
“Now we gotta figure out how to top it,” Dani smirked, nudging your shoulder. She glanced at you slyly. “Maybe we should give the viewers more of you and Tyler. That always gets people talking.”
You rolled your eyes, though your face heated at the comment. Before you could respond, a familiar voice cut through the chatter outside.
“City girl.”
The nickname made your head snap up. You turned toward the roof of the truck, seeing Tyler perched, his hands still fiddling with a piece of equipment as he looked up toward the staircase.
Your gaze followed his line of sight to see Kate— that was her name—standing on the landing of the second-floor staircase. She leaned casually against the railing, looking down at Tyler with a faint, curious smile.
“The cells to the west will choke each other out, she said. The one to the east will put on a show,” Tyler recited, his tone laced with amusement.
“Didn’t throw you off the scent,” Kate replied smoothly, her expression unreadable.
“Hey, that’s what makes Tyler famous,” Boone chimed in, grinning as he wiped his hands on a rag.
“You mean on YouTube?” Kate raised an eyebrow, her lips twitching in a barely-there smirk.
Tyler froze for a second, glancing up from the equipment in his hands, and you could almost see the flash of slight irritation in his eyes. He hated when people reduced what he did to just being about clout.
“Uh, y-yeah. Yeah, we’re on the YouTube,” he said, trying to recover with his usual confidence. “We’ve got, what, about a million subscribers now?”
“Yes, sir!” Lily called from across the lot, her voice cheerful as the rest of the group laughed.
“Kate what?” Ben interrupted, scribbling furiously in his notepad. He glanced up at her, pen poised. “Your surname, just in case I include you in my piece.”
Kate hesitated, her posture shifting slightly as if the question made her uncomfortable. “Oh, um, just Kate’s fine,” she said finally.
“She’s a tricky one,” Tyler said, his voice light but teasing.
Boone pointed his finger toward Kate, grinning. “Actually, you made a good call earlier. That eastern cell? It looked stronger, but the cap never broke. You nailed it.”
“Where did you guys all meet?” Kate asked, quickly steering the conversation away from herself. “Did you, uh, study meteorology at the U of A?”
A chorus of laughter erupted from the group. Dani shook her head, Lily and Dexter chuckled, and you stifled a smile.
“No, no,” Boone said, raising a hand. “All right, Kate, me? I just flow with the wind, you know? Never went to, like, school or nothing.” He pointed toward Tyler. “Now, Tyler, though—he studied meteorology.”
“Him?” Kate asked, her tone incredulous as she looked at Tyler.
Tyler simply nodded, a small smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.
“Yeah, he’s a cowboy scientist,” Boone continued. “He’s got this natural instinct. Taught me everything I know—”
“Boone,” Tyler interrupted, his tone sharp enough to cut Boone off before he said too much. Boone just shrugged. “Our crew’s not like your crew, Kate. We don’t need PhDs and fancy gadgets to do what we do. I guarantee you these guys have seen more tornadoes than anyone else in this lot combined.”
“Is that right?” Kate said, her tone thick with skepticism.
Tyler leaned back against his truck, lifting a can of Budweiser to his lips. “But if you can keep up, we’ll put you in the episode,” he said with a smirk before taking a slow sip.
“Wow,” Kate replied dryly, her sarcasm thick.
“Where are you chasing tomorrow?” Lily asked, looking up at Kate.
“Oh, no. No, no, no,” Tyler said, cutting in before Kate could answer. “Not falling for that again. Kate’s from New York. Can’t trust a thing she says.”
Kate shot back without missing a beat. “Well, can always trust a guy who puts his face on a T-shirt.”
The group erupted into laughter, and you glanced over at Tyler, catching the way he ran his tongue along the inside of his cheek in response to her quick jab.
You rolled your eyes. Of course, he’s flustered, you thought, shaking your head. You couldn’t believe he was letting her get to him like this.
* * *
THE NEXT EVENING
The team returned to the motel just as the sun dipped below the horizon, casting the sky in hues of orange and pink. The exhaustion from the day’s chaos was written all over everyone’s faces. After hours of chasing storms, and helping devastated families sift through the rubble of their lives, the weight of it hung heavy in the air. But there was a collective unspoken agreement—you needed to decompress before the next round.
Boone stretched his arms overhead as he leaned against the truck, his voice cutting through the quiet. “Alright, I don’t know about y’all, but I need a drink. There’s a bar down the road that looked promising. Who’s in?”
Dani perked up immediately. “Count me in. I could use a little fun after today.”
Dexter didn’t even hesitate. “I’m game.”
Ben nodded, brushing dust off his shirt. “Sounds nice.”
You glanced at Tyler, who stood off to the side, wiping his hands on a rag after finishing some last-minute adjustments to the equipment. “What about you, Ty? You coming?”
He paused, tossing the rag onto the tailgate before meeting your gaze. “Think I’m gonna sit this one out. Got some old friends from the rodeo circuit in town. Thought I’d swing by and catch up.”
“Oh, come on,” you teased, crossing your arms. “You can’t leave me with these guys.” You gestured toward Boone, Dani, Lily, Ben and Dexter, who were already debating what drink to start with. “And besides who’s going to make sure I don’t get into trouble?”
Tyler chuckled, his smile easy but firm. “You’ll be fine. Besides,” he said, pointing a finger at Boone and Dani, “if anyone’s gonna get into trouble, it’s those two.”
You hesitated for a second, then ventured, “I could come with you instead. I don’t mind skipping the bar.”
He shook his head, a soft look in his eyes as he leaned against the truck. “Nah, you go have fun. You earned it.” He smirked. “Just don’t go using my credit card this time. Pay for your own drinks, sweetheart.”
Boone let out a loud laugh. “You hear that, sweetheart? Daddy Tyler says no spending his hard-earned YouTube money!”
“Ha ha, very funny,” you shot back, rolling your eyes as Tyler fought to hide his grin.
“Seriously, though,” Tyler said, his tone lighter but still genuine, “go unwind. You guys deserve it after today. I’ll catch up with y’all later.”
With that, he grabbed his hat off the dash and settled it onto his head, giving you one last nod before heading off in his truck. You watched him for a moment as he drove away, the familiar rumble of his engine fading into the night.
“Well,” Boone said, clapping his hands together, “guess it’s just us. Let’s go get a drink.”
You followed the others down the road, but your thoughts lingered on Tyler. Something about the way he’d brushed off your offer to join him left a strange feeling in your chest.
Shaking it off, you decided to focus on the night ahead—Tyler could handle himself, and so could you.
The bar was alive with the sound of laughter, clinking glasses, and a live band playing a familiar country tune in the corner. Boone and Dexter were deep into a game of darts while Dani and Ben sat at the bar debating their drink choices. You sipped your second drink of the night, enjoying the rare chance to unwind after the chaos of the day.
Just as you started to relax, your phone buzzed on the table. At first, you ignored it, assuming it was some random notification, but the persistent buzz caught your attention. Picking it up, you saw the words that sent a chill through your veins: Tornado Warning: Seek Shelter Immediately.
Your heart leapt into your throat as you quickly opened your weather app. Your fingers moved on autopilot, pulling up the radar. The ominous red box of the warning covered the area around the motel, and the storm cell you saw forming earlier had grown stronger—far stronger.
“Oh, my God,” you muttered, your eyes locking on the radar.
The tornado wasn’t just nearby. It was forming right over the motel and the rodeo.
The others noticed your sudden change in demeanor. “What’s up?��� Boone asked, stepping closer as he wiped his hands on his shorts.
“There’s a tornado warning,” you said, your voice tight. “It’s right over the motel—where Tyler is.”
Boone’s face went pale. “Are you sure?”
You spun the screen around to show him. The rotating cell was unmistakable, its path heading straight for where Tyler and the equipment were. “We have to go. Now.”
Ben stood abruptly, grabbing his jacket. “Is it normal for one to form that fast like that?”
Dani shook her head and grabbed her phone, already calling Tyler, but the call went straight to voicemail.
“He’s not picking up,” she said, her voice edged with panic.
You grabbed your keys, adrenaline surging as you bolted toward the exit. “We can’t wait. We need to get to him and warn him before it touches down.”
The group rushed outside, the once-clear night now eerily still. The wind had picked up, and the air carried that unmistakable electric charge that came before a storm. Clouds swirled above, illuminated by flashes of lightning.
As you all piled into Boone’s van, your hands shook, not just from fear but from the overwhelming thought of Tyler being caught in the middle of it. You could only hope he’d noticed the signs in time to take cover, but with the storm forming so quickly, the chances felt slim.
Just minutes later the van screeched to a halt in front of the motel, and all you could do was stare at the scene before you. The motel looked like a warzone. The roof had caved in on one side, chunks of debris littering the parking lot. A power line was down, sparking dangerously near the edge of the lot. The neon motel sign flickered weakly, barely clinging to life.
Your breath caught when you saw Tyler’s truck. The hood and windshield were buried under a pile of rubble. But it was there.
He’s here.
Without waiting for the others, you threw the door open and bolted out into the night. Boone’s voice called after you, but it was muffled by the pounding of your heartbeat in your ears.
“Tyler! Tyler!” you shouted, your voice cracking as you scanned the wreckage. You tripped over a piece of broken siding but barely noticed, your eyes darting frantically through the chaos. “Tyler!”
And then, through the haze of rain and debris, you saw movement by the pool. A figure emerged, soaked to the bone and covered in dirt, but unmistakably him.
Tyler.
Your feet moved on instinct, the world around you a blur as you sprinted toward him, your heart pounding like a drum in your chest. Each step felt impossibly long, the distance between you and him stretching endlessly even as you pushed yourself harder. The rain soaked through your clothes, stinging your skin as debris crunched beneath your feet, but none of it mattered. All you could see was him, standing there, alive.
When you reached him, you didn’t slow down. Your body collided with his, and your arms wrapped tightly around his neck, clinging to him with everything you had. It was as if letting go would make him vanish, as if the storm might take him from you after all.
“Tyler,” you choked out, your voice thick with relief and fear. Your fingers dug into his soaked shirt, gripping it like it was your lifeline.
His arms came around you immediately, strong and steady, pulling you against him with a quiet desperation. You could feel the warmth of his skin beneath the chill of his wet clothes, the solid reassurance of his chest rising and falling with each breath. His hands splayed across your back, holding you tightly, as though he needed the contact as much as you did.
“Hey,” he murmured, his voice low and soothing despite the tremor in it. His breath was warm against your temple as he pressed his cheek to your head, his lips grazing your hair. “I’m okay, sweetheart. I’m fine. I promise.”
You squeezed your eyes shut, burying your face against his neck, the faint scent of rain and dirt clinging to him. “I thought—” Your words caught in your throat, a sob threatening to break free. “I thought I lost you.”
He pulled you even closer, one hand sliding up to cradle the back of your head. “You didn’t,” he said softly, his voice firm and steady now, as if willing you to believe it. “I’m here. I’m okay.”
The strength in his embrace felt like a shield against everything—the storm, the fear, the chaos. In that moment, nothing else existed. It was just you and him, the rest of the world fading into a dull hum.
Finally, you pulled back just enough to look at him, your hands still clutching his arms. His green eyes met yours, and you saw a mixture of relief, exhaustion, and something deeper—something unspoken but unmistakable. Rain dripped from his hair, streaking down his face, but he didn’t seem to notice. His focus was entirely on you.
For a moment, neither of you moved. Neither of you spoke. His hands stayed on you, one at your waist, the other brushing lightly against your shoulder. The air between you felt heavy, charged with emotions too raw to name.
Then a voice broke through the moment. “Kate! Are you okay?” Dani called out, her voice carrying across the rubble.
You turned your head, and your stomach dropped. There, climbing out of the pool behind Tyler, was Kate. She was just as soaked, her hair plastered to her face, and she looked shaken but unharmed. Behind her, a mother and her young daughter emerged as well, both clutching each other tightly.
Your chest tightened. Kate was with him?
You looked back at Tyler, and something flickered in his expression—relief, maybe, or concern. You couldn’t tell.
“What happened?” you asked, your voice quieter now, almost afraid of the answer.
“I’ll explain later,” he said, his tone even but weary. His arms loosened around you, and he took a small step back, his gaze shifting briefly to Kate and the others.
You felt Boone’s hand on your shoulder as he and the others caught up. Dani and Lily rushed to check on Kate and the mother and daughter, their voices buzzing with questions.
But you couldn’t focus on them. Your eyes stayed on Tyler, searching his face for something—an answer, an explanation, anything to quiet the unease now gnawing at you.
* * *
THE NEXT MORNING
The morning sunlight filtered through the thin curtains, a pale glow stretching across the room and nudging you awake. The sound of your phone buzzing on the nightstand pulled you the rest of the way from sleep. With a groggy groan, you rolled over and grabbed it, squinting against the brightness of the screen.
It was a text in the group chat, from Tyler.
“Not looking like an active day for storms. You guys take the day off, relax a little. I’ll be back later—gotta go do something.”
You stared at the message, rereading it a couple of times. There were no details, no clues about where he was going or what he needed to do. Just that vague statement—gotta go do something. It was so typically Tyler, giving just enough information to let you know he’d be fine, but not enough to satisfy your curiosity.
A faint pang of unease settled in your chest. After everything that had happened yesterday, you weren’t sure you liked the idea of him heading off on his own, even if the radar was clear. But Tyler wasn’t the type to sit still when something was on his mind.
The group chat pinged again. Boone was the first to respond. “Copy that. Holler if you need backup.”
Dani chimed in next. “What’s the plan for later? We still grilling? Going into town? Let us know!”
You stared at the screen, thumb hovering over the keyboard. Part of you wanted to ask Tyler where he was going, but you stopped yourself. If he wanted to tell you, he would have.
Instead, you sent a quick reply. “Okay. Be safe, Tyler.”
The unease didn’t fade as you set your phone back down and stared at the ceiling. You couldn’t help but wonder what it was he needed to do—and why he felt like he had to do it alone.
* * *
THE NEXT DAY
The next afternoon, you still hadn’t heard from Tyler. His silence gnawed at you more than you cared to admit. You told yourself he was fine—that if something had gone wrong, someone would have heard about it by now. But that didn’t stop your mind from replaying yesterday’s text or the way he’d disappeared without a word.
When your phone lit up with his name, your stomach did a little flip. For a second, you hesitated, your thumb hovering over the screen. You wanted to answer. You wanted to hear his voice, to ask him where he’d been and what the hell he’d been doing for the past day and a half. But you didn’t.
With a frustrated sigh, you let the call go to voicemail and tossed your phone onto the bed.
Boone raised an eyebrow from where he was sitting across the room, scrolling through weather models. “Was that Tyler?”
You nodded, avoiding his gaze.
“Why didn’t you pick up?”
You shrugged, trying to sound nonchalant. “He disappeared for a day and a half without telling anyone. He can wait a little longer.”
Boone didn’t push it, but the look he gave you said he didn’t quite buy your indifference.
It wasn’t long after that when Lily’s phone started ringing. She glanced at the screen, then at you. “It’s Tyler.”
Your stomach twisted as she answered, putting him on speaker.
“Tyler?” she said.
“Hey, Lil,” came his familiar voice, sounding calm and easy, as if nothing was out of the ordinary. “I need your help with something.”
“Where are you?” Lily asked, her tone more concerned than yours had been.
“I’m a few hours away. We’re headed to a trailer dealership outside of town. I’ll send you the address.”
There was a pause as Lily glanced at you, her eyebrows raised. Boone leaned forward, curious.
“What are you doing at a trailer dealership?” Lily asked, voicing the question on everyone’s mind.
“I’ll explain when you get here,” Tyler said, his tone giving nothing away. “Can you come?”
Lily sighed and looked to you, Boone, and the others for input. When you didn’t say anything, Boone nodded. “We’ll be there.”
“Thanks,” Tyler said, sounding genuinely relieved. “I’ll text you the address.”
When the call ended, Lily turned to you. “So, are we going?”
You hesitated, but only for a moment. As annoyed as you were with him, you couldn’t ignore the slight urgency in his voice—or the curiosity bubbling up inside you.
“Yeah,” you said finally. “Let’s go see what this is about.”
The team pulled into the dealership parking lot, the mid-afternoon sun glaring off the rows of shiny new trailers. Your stomach twisted with a mix of curiosity and apprehension as Boone parked the van.
“Is that… Kate?” Lily said, squinting toward the far side of the lot.
You followed her gaze, and sure enough, there she was—climbing out of Tyler’s truck. Your breath hitched. Tyler was already walking around to meet her, his familiar, easy smile plastered on his face as they exchanged a few words.
Boone let out a low whistle, smirking as he glanced over at you. “Well, well, well. Looks like Kate’s the new partner-in-crime.”
“Relax,” you said quickly, rolling your eyes. “It’s not like that.”
“Oh, really?” Dani chimed in, her tone teasing as she leaned over the seat to get a better look. “Because it kinda seems like it is.”
“Guys, come on,” you muttered, your cheeks flushing despite your best efforts.
“You’re totally jealous,” Boone added with a grin.
“I’m not jealous,” you shot back, maybe a little too quickly.
Boone and Dani exchanged knowing looks, but you ignored them, crossing your arms as you watched Tyler and Kate make their way over.
When Tyler reached you, his expression softened, his eyes flickering with something you couldn’t quite place.
“Hey,” he said, his voice low and sincere.
“Hey,” you replied, your tone guarded as you shoved your hands into your pockets.
“I’m sorry for disappearing yesterday,” he said, his brow furrowing slightly. “I should’ve told you where I was going.”
You shrugged, forcing a small smile. “It’s fine. I wasn’t upset.”
He studied you for a moment, his gaze lingering like he didn’t quite believe you. “You sure?”
“Yeah,” you said quickly, looking away. “I’m fine.”
But you weren’t. Not really. It wasn’t jealousy—not exactly. It was the sting of realizing you didn’t mean as much to him as you thought you did. You’d always assumed the team was more than just a group of storm chasers to Tyler, that you were family. His silence, his absence, had left a hollow ache in your chest that you couldn’t quite shake.
Tyler didn’t press the issue, but the way his lips pressed into a thin line told you he wasn’t entirely convinced.
“So,” Boone said, breaking the tension as he stepped forward, clapping Tyler on the shoulder. “What’s with the trailer dealership?”
A grin spread across Tyler’s face, his previous seriousness melting away.
“Follow me,” he said, motioning for you all to follow him.
As the group trailed behind, you couldn’t help but glance back at Kate. She was chatting with Lily about the drone, her smile bright and easy, and you hated the way it made your chest tighten. Shaking your head, you focused on Tyler, determined not to let your insecurities get the best of you.
The energy in the group shifted after Tyler and Kate’s arrival at the dealership. While everyone seemed excited about the new trailer and the possibilities Kate’s glorified science experiment brought, you couldn’t shake the knot in your chest. The idea of Kate tagging along, so comfortable around Tyler, and his seeming indifference to the team yesterday had left you feeling off-kilter.
You stayed back, letting the others crowd around Tyler and pepper him with questions about Kate’s experiment. You only half-listened, nodding absently when someone directed a comment your way.
Tyler glanced at you a few times, his eyes narrowing in quiet concern, but you avoided his gaze, pretending to be preoccupied with your phone or the horizon.
The drive back to regroup was tense in your own head. When Boone brought up seating arrangments now that Kate was traveling with the team, you quickly volunteered to ride with Lily in the van.
“Whoa, breaking tradition?” Boone teased as he slid into the driver’s seat. “You always ride with Tyler.”
“I figured she could use some company for once,” you said lightly, keeping your tone casual even as you avoided Dani’s raised brow.
Tyler didn’t say anything, but you could feel his eyes on you from across the parking lot as you climbed into the van.
The day unfolded like a blur. The forecast showed a massive storm system moving in, with conditions that could easily spawn tornadoes. There wasn’t much time for idle chatter as everyone scrambled to prep equipment and finalize routes. You busied yourself with anything that kept you moving, anything that didn’t involve standing still long enough for Tyler to corner you with questions.
He tried a couple of times, calling your name softly as you passed, but you brushed him off with hurried excuses. “Sorry, I need to grab this,” or “Let me double-check the radar first.”
Tyler wasn’t one to push, but the way his jaw tightened each time you slipped away told you he noticed.
By the time the team split into vehicles to chase the storm, the air was thick with tension—not just from the impending weather, but from whatever had shifted between you and Tyler.
“You sure you don’t want to switch back?” Boone asked as you climbed into the passenger seat of the van.
“I’m good,” you said, forcing a smile.
From the side mirror, you caught a glimpse of Tyler in his truck. His eyes lingered on you for a moment before he turned his attention back to the road ahead.
The storm loomed dark on the horizon, a swirling mass of gray and green that promised chaos. You focused on the task at hand, pushing everything else to the back of your mind. Whatever conversation Tyler wanted to have would have to wait—assuming he still wanted to have it after today.
The storm had reached its peak intensity, and you were well aware of it. The air was thick with tension, but it wasn’t just from the storm—it was from everything that had been building between you and Tyler over the past days. But that was all drowned out by the noise of the wind, the clattering of debris, and the sound of the storm tearing through the world around you.
The team had done everything they could to guide people to shelter. You were now in the theater with the others, feeling the tremors of the wind pushing against the walls, the heavy sounds of destruction that seemed to grow louder by the second. It was chaos—people crying out, the wailing of the sirens, and the unrelenting storm closing in fast.
You’d just seen Tyler heading toward Kate, and the pang in your chest was sharper than before, but before you could even process it, the ceiling above you gave way. A deafening crash followed by an intense, blinding flash of debris. The next thing you knew, you were on the floor, trapped beneath the wreckage. The weight of it made it hard to breathe, and panic set in as you struggled to move, only to realize you were pinned down.
"Tyler!" you screamed out, his name being the first thing that came to your brain. But you barely heard your own voice over the wind outside was deafening, the sound of the tornado ripping apart everything in its path—closer now, just outside the building. You knew he probably wouldn't hear you.
The world around you felt like it was collapsing, and the reality of it hit hard. This wasn’t a close call. You were in the storm’s path, and you had no idea if you’d make it out. Your chest tightened as you cried, helpless.
You were terrified—scared out of your mind—and the thought that this was how your life would end, trapped here under rubble with nothing you could do, made you feel utterly alone.
Then you felt a hand. His hand. You knew it without having to look. His strong, warm hand took yours, and everything in you instantly calmed just a fraction.
“Tyler, please—go find something to hold onto!” you managed to shout.
Tyler’s voice, loud but distant, called out to you through the noise, his words a lifeline. “I’m not leaving you.”
The wind howled, tearing through the air with force, and the walls of the theater groaned. But Tyler’s grip never wavered, his hand wrapping tighter around yours, holding you in place. His other hand reached out and wrapped around the metal chair leg next to you, anchoring himself as best as he could to something solid, something that could keep you both from being swept away.
You closed your eyes and tried to steady your breathing. The storm was closing in, its fury pressing down on the entire town, and you knew that at any moment it could sweep through the building and tear you apart.
It was a sickening feeling—waiting, knowing that every second might be your last. But as you lay there, thoughts of what could have been surged inside you. All the things you’d never get to do with Tyler, all the feelings you’d never be able to express if this was truly the end of your life. You saw flashes of what a life together might have looked like: a first date that you’d spent months fantasizing about, a wedding, a family. You’d never even gotten the chance to tell him how you felt.
And then, in the quietest moment, you turned your head toward him. His face was intense, focused, trying to keep you safe. You locked eyes, and you knew—this was your moment, even if it seemed impossible.
“I love you!” you screamed, your voice cracking with emotion.
But the wind was too loud, the storm too ferocious. He couldn’t hear you over the chaos. He glanced back at you, his brow furrowed. “What?” he yelled back, his face a mask of confusion.
You shook your head, frustrated, heart pounding, but there was no use in trying to say it again. The storm was too loud, and you could barely catch your breath.
But at least you said it. Even if it was in the middle of this madness, even if he couldn’t hear you. You said it. And that was enough.
You squeezed his hand harder, letting the feeling of it fill you. You were scared, yes, but you weren’t alone anymore. Tyler was there. And maybe, just maybe, that would be enough to get you through. Or at least let you die in peace knowing that the one person you loved most was with you when you took your last breath.
The storm passed as suddenly as it had come, leaving a heavy, suffocating silence in its wake. The deafening roar of the wind disappeared, and for a moment, the world felt still—too still after everything. You blinked, disoriented, the faint ringing in your ears slowly fading, and then the reality of the situation set in. Boone and Dexter were kneeling beside you, their voices sounding distant at first, then clearer as they checked on you.
"Are you okay?" Boone's voice was sharp, urgent, but also full of concern.
You tried to speak, but your throat was raw. Instead, you muttered Tyler’s name, your breath coming in shallow gasps. His hand—his warmth—was gone. And that instant panic surged again. You reached for where his hand had been, but the space was empty. You looked around, your eyes darting, searching for him.
“T-Tyler. Is he—?” Your heart skipped, the thought barely finished before it threatened to break you. Were you alone again? Had you been abandoned in this moment of chaos?
Boone and Dexter exchanged a quick glance before assuring you, "He’s fine. He’s okay." They both turned their heads to glance at Tyler, who was standing at the front of the theater, his body tense, scanning the room as if looking for something—or someone.
You felt your pulse calm just slightly. He was alive, and that was something. But then, the silence between the men and you stretched long, and your chest tightened again. Maybe it was the adrenaline, or maybe it was the weight of the last few minutes of your life flashing before you.
But as they started to help remove the debris from you, trying to free you from the mess of broken wood and metal, you couldn’t help but watch Tyler.
For a second, you held on to the hope that he’d come over, that he would check on you. You had been through hell together in the last few minutes. You thought, maybe, just maybe, he’d come running to you now, just like he did during the storm. You waited, your body aching, heart racing, trying to ignore the pain as you glanced over at him, your chest tight with anticipation.
But that hope shattered as soon as you saw him climb onto the stage, his attention locked outside, and without a glance in your direction, he bolted for the exit. Your heart dropped like a stone in your chest. He didn’t even hesitate, not even for a second. He and Javi rushed out, their voices barely audible as they called for Kate, their shouts cutting through the stillness.
The silence in the theater felt deafening, and it echoed in your head as your world seemed to spin. In that moment, it hit you like a punch to the gut. Tyler hadn’t even looked back at you before running to her. All the things you thought you had between you, all the moments you’d shared that made you believe you were more than just a passing person in his life… none of it seemed to matter.
Tyler was gone, running after someone else.
Your vision blurred, your knees buckled, and your body felt weightless as everything you’d been holding back came crashing down. A sob broke free from your chest, a sound so raw and painful that it felt like it was tearing you apart. You couldn’t even catch your breath before your legs gave way entirely.
Before you hit the ground, Boone’s arms were there, catching you. “Hey, hey, I’ve got you,” he murmured, his grip strong around your shoulders. But his words were drowned out by the sound of your heart shattering.
It felt like the world had closed in around you, like you couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think. All you could do was fall, over and over again. You wished, for just a moment, that Tyler would have come to you. But it was too late now.
And as Boone gently helped you back up, you couldn’t shake the feeling that a piece of you had just been lost forever.
* * *
The paramedic’s voice was a soft hum in the background, but all you could focus on was the sharp ache in your chest. They had checked your vitals—pulse, blood pressure, everything. You had a slight concussion, they said, but nothing too serious. Some cuts, bruises, and a few scratches, nothing compared to what could have happened. You nodded along with the questions, but your mind was elsewhere, and your gaze kept flickering to the ambulance beside you.
Kate was on the stretcher. Her eyes were closed, and Tyler stood beside her, speaking in a calm tone to the paramedic who was tending to the cut on her head. He was focused on her—his attention so completely on her that it felt like the world around you shrank. Your heart fell, almost as if it were being dragged down into your stomach.
You pulled your knees up to your chest, the ache inside growing stronger with every passing second. The images from the past few days started to replay in your mind. Tyler, always by her side. The way he complimented her ideas, how he seemed to listen to her like he had no other cares in the world. How he just... dropped everything to help her, as if she were the only one who mattered.
And now, even after everything—after the storm, after the danger he’d been in right alongside you—here he was, tending to her. He hadn't even come to check on you.
It felt like the last little thread that had been holding you together snapped.
You looked down at your hands, fingers trembling as you tried to push the thoughts away. Why does it hurt so much? You had no right to feel jealous or upset. Kate was a part of the team now, and Tyler was always protective of everyone.
But something in you felt like it wasn’t just about the tornado. It was about the way he kept gravitating toward her in a way he never did with you.
It wasn’t just the storm anymore. It wasn’t just the crisis. It was... something more. Something you hadn’t wanted to admit. The realization settled like a stone in your chest. You had cared for him, and you still did. More than you’d let yourself believe, more than you could let go of. But he wasn’t looking at you anymore. He wasn’t thinking of you when things got complicated. He was looking at Kate, helping her, being there for her, even now.
A wave of bitterness washed over you, but you couldn’t make yourself leave. You didn’t know if you wanted to be near him or as far away as possible, but all you could do was sit there, watching him talk to her as if nothing had changed.
Everything had changed.
Lily’s voice cuts through the fog of your thoughts, her tone gentle but full of concern. “Hey, are you okay?” She’s standing nearby, her arms crossed, her eyes searching your face, sensing the distance in your gaze.
You force a small nod, but it’s not enough to convince anyone, not even yourself. You swallow, trying to push down the tightness in your chest. “Yeah, I’m fine. Just a little... tired, I guess.”
Dani, who’s standing with Lily, watches you for a beat before speaking up, her voice a little quieter now. “Are you sure? You’ve been through a lot, you don’t have to push yourself.”
You shake your head again, feeling the weight of everything pressing on you—everything you’d been ignoring. “I think... I think I need a break.” The words slip out before you can stop them. “Maybe it’s time I head home. Take a step back from everything. Sit the next few chases out, you know? Take a few weeks off...maybe longer even.”
Lily exchanges a look with Dani, but they both nod, understanding. It’s not like they hadn’t noticed how distant you’d been, how quiet you’d grown since the storm.
Dani gives your shoulder a light squeeze, trying to offer comfort without pushing too hard. “You do what you need to do,” she says softly. “We’ll hold down the fort here.”
Before you can respond, you hear Tyler’s voice from behind you. You don’t have to turn to know it’s him, the way his footsteps slow as he approaches, the weight of his presence so familiar it almost hurts. “Hey, can we talk for a minute?”
Your chest tightens. You want to look at him, to tell him everything that’s been swirling around inside you since the storm. But all you can do is shake your head. “I’m really tired, Tyler. I think I’m just going to head back to the motel. You should stay with Kate. Make sure she’s okay. I'll talk to you tomorrow.”
His eyes lock onto you, the regret and confusion in them almost enough to make you change your mind. Almost. But you can’t do it. You can’t have that conversation with him now, not when it feels like everything is unraveling at once.
Tyler opens his mouth to say something, but then stops himself. He takes a breath, clearly fighting the urge to press, to make you listen to him. Instead, his shoulders slump slightly, and he nods, his voice quieter now. “Okay... I’ll... I’ll check in on you later.”
You force yourself to look at him, your heart aching as you meet his gaze. There’s so much you want to say, but all that comes out is a soft, “Thanks.”
You turn away before you can see his reaction, before you can see the disappointment or confusion written across his face. You walk toward the back of the ambulance, the air around you feeling heavier with each step. You know this is what you need, but that doesn’t make it any easier.
Tyler doesn’t chase you this time. And maybe that’s what hurts the most.
Tyler watches you retreat into the distance, his heart heavy, something gnawing at him that he can’t quite put into words. He exhales sharply, his mind racing, but he tries to push it aside for the moment, turning toward Lily and Dani, who are still standing a few feet away.
“Is she okay?” Tyler asks, trying to mask the tension in his voice, but the question falls flat. His eyes shift between the two of them, but neither of them meet his gaze immediately.
Lily sighs, crossing her arms, her expression a little more intense than usual. "Are you really asking that, Tyler?" she says, her tone laced with a mix of frustration and concern. "You’ve been... oblivious, man. It's clear what’s going on. You’ve been hurting her.”
Dani steps forward, her brow furrowed. "You think she’s just fine? After everything she’s been through, and after all this time? She's been into you, Tyler. It’s obvious, and you’ve been... distant. All week."
Tyler’s chest tightens at her words. His stomach sinks with the realization, as if the weight of it all finally lands on him. He looks away, running a hand through his hair, his thoughts running in circles. Distant? Has he really been that blind? His gaze flickers back to where you’d disappeared, and a heavy sigh escapes him.
He thinks back to the past few days, the way he’d been caught up in whatever this thing with Kate had become—just... busy. He hadn’t meant to pull away from you. But the more he thinks about it, the more he realizes how often he’d been preoccupied with her, how often his focus had shifted, and how often he’d ignored you in the process.
And then, his mind flashes back to the theater. To you, trapped and terrified, and how his heart had pounded in his chest just being by your side. He had held your hand, clung to it like his life depended on it. And in that moment, he felt like he couldn’t bear the thought of losing you. He could still feel the warmth of your touch, the way your hand had fit so perfectly in his, like it was always meant to be that way. He had been so focused on getting through the storm, keeping you safe, that he hadn’t heard you when you shouted, but there was something in the way you looked at him before the wind swallowed everything up.
Something he didn’t catch then... but he swore he saw your lips move. I love you.
His heart stutters at the thought. He’d read your lips. He’d seen it, and yet... he never said anything, never gave you a chance to tell him in a way that could’ve mattered. The weight of it presses down on him now, his mind spinning with the missed opportunity, and the fear of losing you in ways that don’t have anything to do with storms.
The urgency to fix this suddenly takes over. He can’t let you leave like this. Not without trying, not without giving you something—anything to show that he sees you, that he gets it, that he doesn’t want to let you go without telling you what’s been building inside of him.
"I’ve gotta fix this," he mutters to himself, more to his own conscience than to anyone else.
Lily nods, her expression softening just slightly. “You’d better. She deserves to know how you feel before you let her slip away.”
Tyler doesn’t need any more encouragement. He starts moving toward the ambulance where you’d gone, his heart beating harder now. He won’t let it end like this. He can’t.
You'd said you'd talk to him tomorrow. But tomorrow isn’t soon enough for Tyler.
* * *
BACK AT THE MOTEL
You stand frozen for a moment, the knock on your door taking you by surprise. You weren't expecting him—weren't sure you even wanted him to show up. But when you peer through the peephole and see Tyler standing there, looking almost apologetic, your chest tightens. The emotions from the past few days swirl around you—hurt, confusion, and a trace of something else you didn’t want to acknowledge: hope.
You stand there for a beat, considering what to do. Should you let him in? You feel a little too vulnerable, too exposed. But then you hear his voice through the door, low and sincere.
“Please, just give me a chance to explain, darlin’.”
Your heart stirs, but your frustration, the pain of feeling ignored, holds you back. You sigh and open the door, mentally preparing yourself to face him.
“Tyler—” you start, your voice tinged with everything you’ve been holding in, but he cuts you off before you can say anything more.
Without warning, he reaches up, his hand gentle but firm as it cups your face. Your breath catches in your throat as his lips meet yours in a kiss that catches you completely off guard. It’s soft at first, hesitant, as if he’s testing the waters, but then, as if something inside of him snaps when you don't pull away, it deepens, becoming urgent, almost desperate.
Before you can process what’s happening, he’s pulling you into the room, walking you backward as the door falls shut with a soft thud behind him. The kiss never breaks, and the moment is so intense, so full of emotion, that it takes every bit of your willpower not to melt into him entirely. His hands slide down your back, pressing you closer to him, while your own hands find their way to his shoulders, gripping him tightly as if you need to anchor yourself.
Tyler pulls away just slightly, his forehead resting against yours. His breath is ragged, his eyes searching yours, full of regret and something more.
“I'm sorry,” he murmurs, his voice thick with emotion. “I’ve been so stupid, so blind to how much I’ve hurt you. But I need you to know... I’m here. I’m not going anywhere. You mean more to me than anything else, and I can’t let you leave thinking otherwise.”
You feel his lips brush against your jaw, trailing soft, warm kisses down your neck. Your breath hitches at the sensation, your heart pounding in your chest. The intensity of it all swirls inside of you—the confusion, the hurt, the aching desire to believe him. But there’s a part of you still hesitant, still unsure.
“Tyler…” you breathe, trying to pull back just enough to make eye contact, but he kisses your neck, whispering apologies and promises against your skin. “You’ve hurt me. All week… you’ve been…. I thought—”
“I know,” he interrupts, his lips finding the curve of your shoulder. “I know I hurt you, and I never meant to. I’ve been an idiot, and I’m asking for a second chance. A real chance to prove to you how much you mean to me.”
The raw sincerity in his voice, the way his hands hold you as if he’s terrified you’ll slip away, makes your heart flutter despite the ache in your chest. He’s here. Right now, he’s here, trying to make things right.
“I’ve been a fool,” he says softly, his lips brushing against your skin once more. “But I can’t lose you. Please, forgive me. Let me make it right.”
You close your eyes for a moment, letting his words wash over you, feeling the weight of everything between you two in that single breath. You want to believe him. You want to feel what he’s offering, but the fear of getting hurt again lingers.
But in that moment, with him so close, his presence surrounding you, your heart softens just enough to let him in. Your hands slide to the back of his neck, pulling him in for another kiss—one that’s slow and full of unspoken understanding.
The moment Tyler pulls back just enough to speak, you catch your breath, eyes locked with his as your heart races. His arm slips around your back, pulling you in even closer, his touch possessive but gentle. You feel the heat of his body against yours, the tension between you palpable.
“Jump,” he says, his voice low, urgent.
You hesitate for a brief second, the heat of the moment overwhelming you, but you do as he asks. Wrapping your legs around his waist, you hold on to him tightly. In one fluid motion, he lifts you effortlessly, his grip firm and confident, one hand on your back while the other moves down to your ass, helping to steady you. The way he holds you makes you feel small, protected, and undeniably wanted, and it makes your chest tighten with a mix of desire and something softer, something more vulnerable.
With ease, he carries you across the room, his steps steady as he approaches the bed. As he lays you down gently, you catch your breath again, your eyes meeting his in the dim light of the room. The weight of everything—the past few days, the uncertainty, the rawness of the moment—it all lingers in the air between you.
You can feel your heart pounding in your chest, but you don’t look away. “I’m still mad at you,” you say quietly, your voice steady despite the fluttering in your stomach.
Tyler’s gaze softens, and for a second, he doesn’t speak, just studies you with that same intensity that’s been there all along. “I know,” he says, his voice low, sincere.
Before you can respond, he leans back in, his lips capturing yours once again. This time, the kiss is different. It’s not just apologetic or desperate. It’s full of promises—unspoken words, a connection you’ve both been fighting to acknowledge. His lips are warm against yours, and you melt into it, losing yourself in the sensation, the depth of the emotion between you.
His hand moves to your face, brushing back a strand of hair as he deepens the kiss, each movement slow and deliberate. You can feel the weight of everything that’s been left unsaid pressing between you, but in this moment, it doesn’t matter. All that matters is the now, the feeling of his body against yours, the way his hands move with intention, as if he’s trying to make up for everything he’s missed.
As the kiss deepens, Tyler’s hands begin to move with purpose, his touch sending a shiver down your spine. His fingers slide down your sides, brushing against the soft fabric of your t-shirt. You can feel the heat radiating off of him as his lips leave yours, trailing down to your jaw, then your neck, each kiss a quiet declaration.
His hands grip the bottom of your shirt, tugging it gently as his lips continue their descent, kissing along your collarbone, and then lower, just above your stomach. You can’t help but gasp softly at the sensation, your breath hitching as his lips move slowly, deliberately, pressing light kisses between the curve of your breasts.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispers against your skin, his voice a low murmur, the words vibrating against your body like a promise. “God, you’re perfect.”
He pushes the fabric higher, inch by inch, his lips following the trail as if memorizing every inch of you. Your skin tingles under the heat of his kisses, and you feel the overwhelming pull of desire tighten in your chest. He moves with a careful, almost reverent pace, as though he’s savoring this moment with you, drawing it out.
“I’ve wanted you for so long,” he breathes against your skin, his hands now lifting your shirt higher, his eyes drinking in every curve, every movement of your body as he works it over your head, leaving you bare under his touch.
His lips trail upward, kissing you again—softer this time, but with just as much intensity as before. You feel his warmth, his presence, his need in every touch, every whispered word. His hands move gently over your body, as if reminding you that you’re not just wanted, you’re wanted deeply.
“Every inch of you is perfect,” he murmurs between kisses, his voice filled with the raw sincerity you’ve longed to hear.
You start to undo the buttons on Tyler’s flannel, your fingers brushing against his chest with each movement. His skin feels warm, a contrast to the cold air around you, but you’re too focused on him to notice anything else. His breath hitches slightly when you reach the last button, and he smirks, a playful glint in his eyes as you move your hands to tug it off his shoulders.
The moment the shirt falls to the floor, you reach for the white tank top underneath, eager to see more of him. Tyler leans back slightly, his lips curling into a smirk that melts away any hesitation you might have had. With a smooth motion, he lifts it over his head, revealing his bare torso to you.
Your eyes immediately follow the muscles that line his chest and stomach, the way his abs ripple slightly with every breath, and the trail of dark hair leading downward.
You reach out without thinking, your fingers brushing over the dusting of hair on his chest. The connection feels electric, and you can’t help but marvel at the feel of him—his warmth, his strength, everything about him drawing you in. Your hands trail down, and you can feel the pulse in your fingertips as they brush the waistband of his jeans. Without hesitation, you reach for his belt, your fingers working quickly to undo it, your heart pounding louder with every moment.
Tyler’s eyes lock onto yours, and he watches you with an intensity that makes your stomach flutter. “You’re killing me, you know that, sweetheart?” he mutters, voice rough with desire.
His hands are at his sides, waiting, the energy between you both crackling with anticipation. The space between you both feels charged, and you can sense he’s just as eager to see where this moment takes you as you are.
You continue your movements, unbuckling his belt, slowly but steadily, until it’s free. The moment is slow, deliberate—your body aching to feel his against yours.
Tyler’s hands are gentle as he reaches for you again, his fingers brushing against your skin with an almost reverent touch. There’s no rush in the way he moves, only a quiet assurance that makes your heart race. His eyes lock with yours, searching for any sign of hesitation, but you only find warmth and something deeper—something that has been growing between you for days, for weeks, maybe even longer.
He slowly unclasps your bra, his touch light but firm, as if he’s giving you space to decide, to feel comfortable in this moment. As it slides off, you feel exposed, but not in a way that makes you want to retreat. Instead, you feel seen, truly seen, for the first time in a long while. Tyler’s gaze never wavers from yours as he guides your jeans down, his hands steady, but there’s a softness in them that matches the way his eyes soften when they meet yours.
“You’re beautiful,” he murmurs, his voice low and filled with something raw, something unspoken. His words hang in the air between you, and you find your breath catching in your throat. It’s not just the physicality of the moment that feels intimate, but the sincerity behind his words.
As he slides your jeans off, he pauses, his hands resting lightly on your bare skin. He lets out a soft sigh, not in impatience, but in awe of how everything feels so right.
When you’re left in nothing but your panties, Tyler takes a step back for a moment. He looks at you as though trying to commit every detail to memory, but there’s no judgment in his eyes, only admiration and something more—something tender that makes your heart flutter.
And when you look at him, really look at him, you see more than just the strong, muscular form in front of you. You see the man who’s been there for you, the one who makes you feel safe, cherished, and—maybe for the first time in a long while—truly desired.
Tyler’s fingers brush your cheek gently as he kneels in front of you. “You don’t have to rush this,” he whispers, his voice low and filled with understanding. “We take it one step at a time. Only if you’re ready.”
You take a breath, feeling the weight of the moment settle around you. There’s no more hesitation, no more uncertainty—just a quiet, steady confidence that you feel in your bones. As you look into Tyler’s eyes, the connection between you feels stronger than ever, a bond forged through everything you’ve been through together.
“I want you, Tyler,” you say, your voice steady, even though your heart is pounding in your chest.
A smile spreads across his face, tender and genuine. His eyes soften, and for a split second, you see something vulnerable there—a rawness that only you’ve seen. Without a word, he leans in, pressing a gentle kiss to your lips, a kiss that says everything you need to hear. He pulls back just slightly, his hand cupping your cheek.
Tyler takes a step back to finish undressing the rest of the way. His movements are deliberate but unhurried, as though savoring the moment. You watch him, your heart racing, your mind a whirlwind of thoughts, but in this moment, all that matters is him—his closeness, the way his presence fills the space between you.
He stands before you, bare and vulnerable, just like you, and there’s no shame, no fear. There’s just you and him, together in this quiet intimacy, and it feels like everything has finally clicked into place.
Tyler moves back to you, his hands gentle as he reaches for you once more. He pulls you closer, his body flush against yours, and the world outside seems to disappear, leaving only the two of you in this moment.
"I don't have a condom, sweetheart."
"I'm clean. And as long as you are, I don't mind. I'm on birth control."
"I'm clean, sweetheart."
As Tyler slowly moves closer, you feel the intensity between you, the emotions that are thick in the air. Everything about this moment feels different, more profound than anything you’ve experienced before.
When he finally slides inside of you, it’s not just physical—it’s as if everything aligns. The way his eyes never leave yours, the way he holds you with such tenderness, like he’s memorizing every curve of your body, every breath you take.
It feels like he’s giving you a piece of him—his vulnerability, his trust, his love. The connection between you two isn’t just about the act, but about something deeper, something you both crave. This is more than just sex. It’s making love, it’s the two of you sharing something raw, unspoken, and powerful.
The slow, deliberate rhythm between you two feels like it’s meant to last forever. His hands are gentle but firm, guiding you closer to him, pulling you into him with such care that it takes your breath away. Every movement, every soft kiss, every whisper in your ear—it’s all full of love. It’s like he’s telling you, without words, that he’s here, he’s not going anywhere, and that he wants you in every way possible.
You meet his gaze, your eyes locked, and you see everything in them. Desire. Affection. A deep, undeniable connection that’s been building between you for so long. When he looks at you like this, you feel seen. You feel cherished, loved, and completely accepted for who you are.
His lips brush against your forehead, soft and tender, as if to reassure you, and you lean into him, wrapping your arms around him, pulling him closer. You let yourself surrender to him, to the love he’s offering. It’s the most vulnerable, intimate thing you’ve ever done, and you can’t help but feel completely safe in his arms.
You know, in this moment, that nothing else matters but the two of you. And for once, you feel like you belong—fully, entirely—right here, with him.
As you and Tyler lay there in the aftermath, the room feels still, the air thick with the emotions that linger between you. You both lay in the warmth of each other’s arms, your bodies entwined under the sheets. He holds you close, his chest rising and falling steadily against your back, and you feel the rise and fall of his breath like a soothing rhythm, grounding you.
Tyler presses a soft kiss to your shoulder, his lips lingering there as he wraps his arm around you more tightly.
His voice is low, tender, almost like a whisper, as he speaks, “I love you.”
The words feel like a promise, like they’ve been waiting to be spoken for so long, and now they’re finally free.
You turn your head slightly, meeting his gaze as you settle into the comfort of his embrace. His eyes are full of vulnerability, and you can feel the rawness of everything he’s just shared with you.
He continues, his voice thick with emotion, “I’ve been so caught up in helping Kate and trying to figure out this theory and experiment with her... but I never stopped thinking about you. I never stopped wanting you.”
You let out a shaky breath, feeling the weight of his honesty settle in your chest. “I didn’t know where I stood with you.” You admit in a whisper. “The way you’ve been spending so much time with her... I just couldn’t help but feel like I was losing you.”
Tyler gently tilts your chin up with his finger, guiding your face toward his as he presses a tender kiss to your lips, slow and full of reassurance. “You haven’t lost me,” he says, his voice thick with sincerity. “I've always been yours. You’re the only one I want, the only one I’ve ever wanted.”
A rush of warmth floods through you at his words, and you close your eyes, letting the vulnerability between you both fill the space. You nestle into him, your head resting on his chest. His hand moves gently through your hair as he continues, “I know I messed up, and I’m sorry. I should have been more open with you. You mean everything to me. Do you think you could ever give me a chance?”
Tears well up in your eyes as you hear him speak so honestly. You didn’t realize how much you needed to hear those words, how much you needed him to understand how deeply you cared.
You bury your face in his chest, your hands clutching his arm as you whisper back, “Don't mess it up, Tyler. Because I love you, Tyler. I really do...and I don't think I'd survive if you broke my heart.”
He squeezes you tighter, his arms enveloping you with a warmth that makes everything else feel small. “I love you too,” he whispers back, his voice rough with emotion. "And believe me, I've got no intentions of breaking your heart...just maybe changing your last name."
As you begin to drift off, the quiet hum of the room and the steady beat of Tyler’s heart fill the space between you. But then, he breaks the silence, his voice soft and warm as he speaks.
“Hey,” he murmurs, just loud enough for you to hear. You look up, meeting his gaze, and he’s studying you with a tenderness that makes your heart swell. “Would you… would you let me take you on a date?”
You smile at the thought, the idea of spending time with him in a peaceful setting, away from the chaos of the past few days, feeling comforting.
“Somewhere nice and quiet,” he adds, as though reading your mind, his voice hopeful.
You nod, your heart fluttering at the thought of a simple, intimate evening with him. “I’d like that,” you reply, your voice soft but sure.
Tyler smiles in return, but then, his eyes fall to your face, his gaze focusing on the cut on your head that’s barely visible against your hair. His thumb gently brushes over it, a soft, tender motion.
“What about this?” he asks quietly. “Are you okay?”
You meet his eyes again, and though the pain is there, it’s not overwhelming. You nod, brushing off the worry. “I’m a little sore, but I’ll be okay,” you assure him, reaching up to touch the place where he’d just brushed.
But Tyler doesn’t look convinced. He gently presses his hand against your cheek, his thumb still gently tracing the curve of your jaw. His voice drops a little, and you can hear the raw vulnerability in it.
“I was so scared,” he admits, his words softer now, almost a confession. “I was so scared I was going to lose you. I’ve never been more scared in my life.”
The weight of his words hits you like a wave, and your breath catches in your throat. You can see the fear in his eyes, the way he holds you like you’re something fragile, something he never wants to let go of.
“I wasn’t sure what I was going to do if something happened to you,” he continues, his voice cracking slightly.
Your heart swells at his vulnerability, and you reach up to cup his face, your thumb grazing his cheek. “I’m right here,” you whisper, your voice firm yet filled with tenderness. "I'm okay."
Tyler closes his eyes for a moment, exhaling deeply, and you can feel the tension leave his body as he holds you a little tighter, like he’s trying to keep you as close as possible. “I don’t ever want to feel that way again,” he admits, his voice low, sincere. “I need you to know… you’re everything to me.”
You nod, your eyes welling up with emotion, and you lean up to press your lips to his, a soft kiss full of reassurance and affection. When you pull away, you rest your forehead against his, your breath mingling. “I love you, Tyler,” you say again, just to remind him, just to make sure he knows.
“I love you too,” he replies, his voice full of conviction. “I’ll keep reminding you every day for the rest of my life if that’s what it takes.”
You smile at that, feeling the sincerity in his words wash over you. The world outside may still be chaotic, but in this moment, with him holding you close, everything feels right. And spending the rest of your life with Tyler Owens doesn't sound too bad.
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Late Night Talking
Content: Your poor boyfriend Reid just has to talk about how he feels. Reverse comfort! He's such a sweetheart :(
Working with the B.A.U. really was a tole taking job. Even more so when you got told you were a room down at the hotel. "You can room with me if you want." It was Reid's quiet voice next to you, "I don't feel much like sleeping so you can have the bed." He gave you that tired smile, the small one that had you knowing that he really didn't feel like sleeping.
Even after you'd both settled in the room and sat comfortably on the bed you could tell he wouldn't sleep so you laid down first. "Lay down." you mumbled and he did so, albeit awkwardly but he laid beside you. "Do you think I'm strange?" it was quiet, an almost unnoticeable whisper. "Strange? Why would I think that?" You could see from your peripherals that Reid was messing with his hands, anxiously thinking. "Talk to me, Spence."
At that he was quiet for a moment. "I just know I'm odd. I use words like betwixt and I know what ballads are. I seem to talk too much and never notice that people don't like what I'm talking about. My favorite shows are nerdy and I always explain them to people who don't care. I go on and on about things the team finds creepy or weird. Derek says I'll never get a date if I keep being this way and I'm starting to see his point, I'm lacking in the boyfriend department and I can't even make friends. You know, the team tells me their secrets and I think it's because they know I have no one else to tell. Did you know J.J. collects butterflies? Or that Derek secretly likes The Smiths? Or that Hotch is fond of chocolate flavored sweets? Emily likes deathmetal. Penelope's favorite television program is Vampire Diaries."
Reid turned to you as he spoke, looking at you as if he might cry. He felt so estranged compared to everyone else, you seemed to be the only one who listened. You didn't even talk when he was done, letting him continue. "I just know all this stuff about everyone, and I feel like no one knows me." You nodded softly and finally talked after a beat of silence. "Chocolate frosted donuts with rainbow sprinkles." Reid was instantly confused by this, raising a brow. "Excuse me?" '
You chuckled, "Your favorite donut. Emily told me." A small smile graced his lips at this. "And Derek said you really like chicken tandoori." His smile only seemed to widen. "And you put three whole tablespoons of sugar in your coffee according to J.J." You seemed like you weren't going to stop anytime soon and he looked so contented he didn't want you to. "And Hotch says you like pretzels and rice crispy treats. Pen says you grew up with horses and that you adore Halloween and all its traditions. Gideon told me you loved classical music and chess, he even saw you play piano once. And you're never lacking in the boyfriend department because you've been nothing but perfect. You're the sweetest man alive and I wish you'd ramble to me every second of the day because your voice is lovely."
He seemed about ready to cry as he moved his hand to touch your cheek. "You're too good to me," he whispered, kissing your forehead, "Thank you. I feel much better sweetheart." You give him a small smile and a kiss. "That's good, now let's get some sleep you look exhausted."
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Housewardens with a Tsundere!Reader (Pt. 1)
I've seen this a lot, and I wanted to share my own takes on how I think they'd act! This is a part one, including Riddle, Leona, and Azul.
Summary: You're tough, brash, and rude, getting snippy at all those who try to approach you. All for the sake of covering up your soft side. How do the housewardens react?
Notes: Romance, GN!reader
Contains: Riddle, Leona, Azul
Riddle Rosehearts
He thinks your behavior is highly improper.
When he first approaches you, you do not hesitate to screech that he's an idiot.
He can and will try to collar you if you're getting particularly loud.
All in all, he thinks you and your defensive, brash nature are utterly infuriating. If you hit him, expect to be collared. You're just- so annoying.
...So why does his heart race whenever he's around you?
That's right. Riddle's also a tsundere (sometimes, at least)
And that means you two are evenly matched
Poor Trey often has to watch you two and your constant bickering, and your occasional stammering.
You yell that Riddle's an idiot, he says you're a buffoon who never learned to respect the rules. Both of you secretly like each other. It is painful to watch.
You make Riddle lunch and you claim you just had extra. Of course, he responds by denying his appreciation.
Who will confesses first? It really depends on whose friends decide to finally intervene.
All in all, you two have a cute yet infuriating to watch relationship.
Leona Kingscholar
He doesn't have time for you, or so he thinks.
When he first sees you, rebuking you for encroaching upon his territory, you call him an idiot for thinking anyone would ever take his ridiculous territory claims seriously.
You're not off to a great start. Leona is very likely to try and make you put your money where your mouth is.
...With a game of chess, of course! Leona just woke up and doesn't feel like particularly like fighting right now.
That, and, he doesn't know why, but he really doesn't feel like getting you hurt.
Considering just how good Leona is, there's a very good chance he'll absolutely demolish you.
But if you manage to win, he'll definitely be impressed.
Either way, he'll tell you to stop bothering him. You huff, and say he was the one bothering you, and that's that.
Except it isn't. Of course, somehow, the two of you end up stuck together. First you're paired up in a joint class, then you're both locked in the botanical gardens during an emergency, and then Ruggie keeps making the two of you talk.
Leona hates it. Considering the way you huff, you do you.
Except, once again, neither of you do.
You actually try to get closer to Leona - despite the roundabout, brash way you go about it - and he hates that he likes it.
Your average interaction at first consists of him telling you to 'get away, herbivore', and you yelling at him to 'stop bossing me around, idiot!'
But slowly, he stops pushing you away. And you warm up with time too.
You're weirdly friendly - though sometimes, your insults do genuinely get to Leona. You'll apologize in that roundabout, flustered way of yours, and though Leona rarely vocalizes, he'll accept.
He doesn't want to lose you, after all, no matter how much he pretends he couldn't care less.
Leona doesn't confess first. You don't confess first. Ruggie confesses first on both of your behalfs, and though Leona plans to chew him out at first, when things work out, Ruggie quickly finds himself on the receiving end of countless donuts.
While dating, both of you will likely be softer with one another.
Once again, very cute relationship, and both of you are so harsh and yet so soft with each other at the same time.
Azul Ashengrotto

At first, Azul genuinely dislikes you. Your posturing, your pride, the way you seem to look down on him with your endless insults reminds him of those who bullied him.
But, Azul isn't that same little octopus anymore. He's grown used to insults, sadly. He's been looked down on all his life.
Your words mean nothing to him. They're a slight sting at most.
Overall, he'd just like to stay away from you. The moment you first met, you told him to "S-Stay away from me, you scheming idiot!"
Then, when he - in an attempt to stay smug despite his burgeoning temper - asked you if you were scared, you replied that you could never be scared of a slow, clumsy loser like him.
Slow, clumsy, idiotic octopus. That's what they called him as a kid.
And then, he sees your cuter moments. The more endearing ones. And he can't help but feel his heart flutter against his wishes.
God, Azul hates it. He hates how cute he finds you, how his heart races whenever he's around you.
Love is a position of vulnerability. Azul's meant to take advantage of it, not be the one stuck with it!
And, well, Azul's never known anything but rejection when it comes to true connection. Even the twins always insisted they were nothing more than his business partners (though the accuracy of their claim is rather dubious).
And you? You're going to mock him for sure.
Truth be told, Azul's scared. He's scared of what'll happen if you find out about the budding feeling in his chest, and he's scared of being laughed at by someone who he can't help but love.
So, of course, he tries to keep his walls up. Never drop that smug air of his. Never let you see the burgeoning fear underneath.
But that doesn't work out. You do manage to squeeze out the cracks in his facade, but then you laugh, saying he should really drop that infuriating smug face and do this more often because it looks cute, and he doesn't know what to do.
People aren't supposed to love this side of him. Least of all you. You're always insulting him, after all!
And yet, you think he looks cute like this. He hates how much his face flushes at that.
Now that Azul's developed a crush, he can't deny that, now, there are times when your jabs get to him. He doesn't say anything. He can't. He had to remain composed, because otherwise he's opening himself up to endless mockery.
But one day, it gets to him, and he finds himself hunched in a corner, reverting to his old habits as he furiously checks himself for any imperfections. What's he doing wrong? Is his voice truly annoying?
...And then you walk in on him.
How had he forgotten to lock the door? He feels like such a moron, but he can't let you see, or-
You're nothing but patient and apologetic. Even as he hisses at you to leave, threatens you, and tries to make you a contract, you're still patient.
You apologize, for once. He can't help but still get prickly with you, after all, you've just witnessed a humiliating moment of his that you caused. But he still does appreciate it.
You two do gradually get closer, softer, doing favors for one another. Feelings are budding. And yet, neither of you do anything.
Eventually, Jade and Floyd intervene, and just straight up set you two up. It's embarrassing for the both of you, but hey, at least you got together.
Azul's still docking their pay, of course.
Though the two of you get off to a rough start, you still manage to find your way together in the end.
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Can you give please do SFW and NSFW alphabet head canons for Logan (Wolverine)
Hi!! I am so sorry that it took me this long to finish..! I’ve actually never heard of alphabet head cannons so I had to find some templates and couldn’t find an SFW so please forgive me 🙁🙏 I would also like to apologize that I’m terrible at making head cannons, because I don’t have the mindset of that.. so this will probably be my first and last time I’ll do this 😞
Requests are still open ❤️
Warnings: smut, fem reader, my writing, not proof read obvi.. I also kinda rushed the end so I’m sorry 😢
A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)
Very caring, now matter how old he is gets. Logan will make sure to give you the best treatment of your life. Literally the definition of princess treatment.
After getting the dick pounded out of you, with all of these marks on your poor worn out body. Logan will kiss each mark then pick you up and carry you to the bathroom. Like nobody talks about it so i fucking will, Logan will sit you on the toilet and make sure you piss. Why? Your handsome lover wants you to be healthy! No UTIs or yeast infection for the princess (speaking from experience.) Then you both will have a very relaxing shower together before cuddling in bed!
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
Logans favorite part of his body will probably be his chest, mainly his abs. He knows how much you love them, and how much you like doing other things with them. Not to mention he works hard for his body to look the way it does, it’s something everyone should be proud of.
Now realistically, Logan will tell you that he loves every single inch of you. Yknow how you ask your parents who’s the favorite sibling, they’ll tell you they love each and single one of you, but make it so obvious that they favor the other one. Yeah, this is how it is. Except yknow he loves your hips. With the way he always grabs them, either from moving you to the side or moving you when your leg get to sore from riding him. Logan just loves how they feel in his hands.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
As a man would, Logan loves to fill your sweet pussy with his cum. And once in a while, cuming on your tits when he’s fucking his hand. But again, mainly you cunt. He’ll fill it up as much as he please and once you’re both finished, he loves to pull away and admire how much cum drips out of your hole and onto the bed. He loves his little stuffed donut.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
Logan definitely fucked his hand when you were asleep, taking your dirty underwear from the floor and fucked that too. Not one of his proudest moments. But when your moaning his name and stirring in your sleep, he couldn’t help himself.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)
Bro is over 200 years old, please shoot me if you ever met someone who says that this man is a virgin. Because they are lying to you and themselves.
But that saying, in these 200 years, he’s had plenty of sexual partners. That means more experience and the better your pussy gets dicked down.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
Logan loves when you’re on top of him. Why? Well, this is the perfect view for him. He loves the way your tits bounce and if you have small girls, he loves seeing them. He loves boobs, Logan is definitely a boob man! But he loves grabbing your hips and since he’s so much stronger than you, he moves your hips back and forth. Logan loves when your nails dig into his chest when you’re on top of him, and he LOVES watching your face while his dick is going deep into you.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
He is not silly turning sex, Logan finds this time most serious. Durning these moments, he completely loses himself and only focuses on you and your pleasure. So really, he has no time for goofiness, and too him, any man who’s goofy durning sex. A time where you solely focus on your lover and their needs. Is not a man, but a boy. Because every woman who’s being intimate with a man deserves to be treated like a queen.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
Now you see the mans face and head, it’s nothing but hair. The whole guy is hairy, and if you’re not into hairy men. Well Logan is not for you. He grooms his face and hair but leaves everything untouched because it’s just so unnecessary to him. That being said, he has never trimmed downstairs, and won’t plan to. Plus he knows how much you’re into that thick happy trail of his.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
Logan during intimacy is very loving, he finds the moment where they’re but so vulnerable towards each other. Logan finds being intimate a very serious thing.
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
If you aren’t around then yes, he needs to find a way to relieve his boner. Just the thought of you makes him so unbelievably hard. So when you’re away and he thinks of you, he can’t help himself. I like to believe that you guys have toys in the bedroom, so he definitely uses your vibrators to get done.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
So, bud definitely has a few!! Like I said in previous, he loves your boobs, that being said he’s definitely into Breast play. His hands will always be on your boobs, playing with your nipples, sucking on your nipples. Marking them up.
Another one Logan has is orgasm play, now I feel like that he will only do this when you’re not “behaving” such as making him jealous, purposefully pissing him off, yada yada you get the jist. Logan will make sure you sexy time is one of the most miserable times for you, basically saying that you don’t get to cum, he’ll drag it out on and on until he feels like you deserve it.
I am a firm believer that Logan will steal your panties from the night before. He knows where he threw them at while ripping them off you, he knows just how wet they were during that time. So obviously, he’s gonna use them to jerk himself off.
Finally, one of the last ones Logan has it’s degrading. Either he’s degrading or you, he’s so into it. Especially during a rough night, he loves to call you his dirty slut, his slutty little girl. The famous “you’re such a fucking cumslut, wanting me to always fill the tight pussy of yours up. Don’t worry, I’ll fill it up, so nice and full.”
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
Whenever he gets hard, Logan will drag you to a closed off space and pull your pants to your to your knees, and push your panties to the side. He doesn’t care, he’ll take you right then and there. Logan is just always so horny for you, but can you blame him? His girlfriend is so fucking hot.
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
Boobs, your boobs to be exact.
Show a little bit of cleavage, well sister. You better be ready for the outcome. Logan will make it so obvious that he’s staring. It’s kinda embarrassing, especially when you’re around other people.
Another thing that gets him going is when you talk back to people, putting them in their place. He finds the bossy and demanding side of you so fucking sexy. He sometimes acts bratty just to see that side of you.
N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
Anything that will physically harm you, he doesnt care if you’re into it. It’s a big no. He also won’t share, so no threesomes. He finds it’s disrespectful and a little hurtful that you’ll want another person into the game, making him think that he’s not giving you enough or not making you feel good.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
Definitely depends on his mood or day.. but mainly I think he likes to focus on your pleasure, so he’ll definitely eat you out. Especially when he’s pissed off with something, he just wants to bury his head into your thighs and eat his meal.
But he also loves when you give him head, he asks for it almost all the time. It’s the best thing ever, just to feel how talented you are with your tongue and mouth.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
Logan definitely goes fast and rough, it’s how you like it too. The both of you think it’s the best way to do it, especially since Logan has so much stamina and strength. The way his cock hits all the way back.
But of course, there are times where you guys take it slow. Showing to each other just how much you truly love one another.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
He loves them, when you both are horny but don’t have the time to take your time. It’s super convenient. He doesn’t care where or what time it is, he will pull down your pants and fuck you.
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
I don’t think he’s cares all too much about being risky. As long as he knows he’s in a spot with you that no one will see, you two will be fine.
You see, he doesn’t care if anyone saw him fucking you. He just knows that your worried people will see, so he takes cover for you.
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
Logan can probably go as many as five, I know once he fucks you till his balls are quite literally empty and can’t go anymore because he’s too sensitive. That’s when you take you chance because that when he’s gets all subby. Enjoy your time 😉
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
Yes!! He loves using toys just to be mean to you, he knows your favorite vibrator, sets in on the highest setting and places it directly on your clit, enjoying the way your hips flinch back.
Logan also likes using toys on himself, especially fleshlights that feel exactly like you. Or using your vibrator on himself.
Overall, toys are a big yes!
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
Logan loves to tease you, when it comes to public and barely touching you in your most sensitive areas or sending you dirty texts. (I am a firm believer that he would send you dick picks or send you pictures of his abs, flaunting the v-line you love so much.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
His sounds are quiet but loud enough for you to hear, he moans in your ear when he’s on top of you. Or when you’re on top of him, he lets out small quieter moans. Logan gets louder when he’s closing to cumming too.
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
Logan’s favorite outfit on you that will get him so unbelievably horny is a pair of sweats and a tight shirt. Gets him so hard, and an instant way to get nutted in.
X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
Okay, let’s be so for real..
Logan ripped, we know what the v-line is like! We all know that he’s hairy downstairs, but you don’t care. Because all what matters is that dick serves you good.
Logan is more of a grower than a shower. When he’s hard, he grows to be 7 to 8 inches. He’s not that thick, but big enough to stretch that pussy out!
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
I guess it all depends on his mood and how he feels. Logan overall can have sex anytime he wants. He’s your horndog after all.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards
He’s not that quick to fall asleep, he’ll stay in bed with you while you both cuddle each other and chat. After sex, the both of you take your time lay down and relax, feeling each others skin and heartbeat. This is a very relaxing time together.
#avengers#avengers x reader#marvel imagine#marvel#marvel imagines#the avengers#avenger imagine#deadpool 3#deadpool and wolverine#logan howlett x you#logan howlett imagine#logan howlett smut#enemies to lovers#wolverine x reader#wolverine#wolverine smut#deadpool smut#deadpool
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Catching up! So today we’re mostly having replies related to all the stuff we posted recently.
Starting with the most important question.
Anonymous asked:
Wait, Idia got called a brocon? When?
He did! Grim called him a brocon in 5-13 right after we saw Ortho for the first time :3 (timestamp on 5:42 just in case)
Anonymous asked:
How does that smoke beer donut taste?
(this is about this drawing)
Very smoky! And like something Gidel isn’t supposed to eat…
Anonymous asked:
I wanna see some of your traditional art
Actually, Anon, you’re looking at it…
The majority of things that we post daily was originally drawn traditionally, and then coloured digitally. I really want to do more art that is 100% traditional, but never get a chance to for a bunch of reasons :(
Anonymous asked:
I love your analysis holy cow! see its because of Book 5 that i cant stop seeing Vil and Rook as mom and dad. i love this ship mind you, (they are my comfort ship and it gives me life whenever you draw them you beautiful soul) but even if some didnt see them as a romantic couple--in my opinion they still have that VIBE you know? Like whenever they're there you just cant help but feel like BRO THEY WOULD BEAT UP YOUR BULLIES AND THEN GROUND YOU AND SEND YOU TO YOUR ROOM FOR FIGHTING IN THE FIRST PLACE LOL is it just a me feeling?
(this is related to this post)
Thank you for your kind words, Anon! I am very happy you enjoyed the analysis and that you like my RookVil art <3
Yeah, I think these two being very parental is pretty obvious and pretty intentional! All jokes aside, Pomefiore trio really feels like it was written in a way that they would read as a family. We don’t usually like this trope because characters playing house could get pretty boring, and a lot of family-related tropes don’t resonate with us at all. So I am surprised to this day that we love Pomefiore’s vibes so much. I’m guessing that it’s because of how unusual of a family they are, how Epel actually fights with Vil a lot, and how he grows from being a little brat to being a little brat that is eager to grow and excited to show his senpais his new cool magic tricks, while they tease him but still are very proud and excited for him. Like, they’re strict and would smack him (well, Vil would) but they also want him to grow. Woah, that sounds way too wholesome ew lol
Anyways! Even if we exclude Epel, and this is another thing I’ve talked about a lot, I genuinely feel like Rook and Vil were intentionally written as a couple that has been together for quite some time, at least coding-wise. There are just too many tropes and situations that they have that are usually used for couples… Alright I’ll stop myself or I’ll rant about them again even though I just did a couple of weeks ago.
blackbutlerfandomnerddomain asked:
I just love baby Vil so much, makes me wonder what happened
(this is about this drawing)
Adults with shitty opinions + kids that can’t separate reality from fiction happened… truly, two of the worst things that could happen to a possible friendship between actors.
A couple of asks about this drawing:
Anonymous asked:
Oh oh! I saw! Che'nya art! We (smiley kitty fans) are starving! Thank you for the food! It is delicious! May we have another plate, please?
Poor smiley kitty fans! :( I am so sorry you’re starving! Please enjoy your food.
Unfortunately I don’t have any more smiley catfood for you…….. yet.
Anonymous asked:
*see Chenya *
*starts biting at the bars of my containment*
Better question for him..... What that tongue do??? 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀
What that tongue doesn’t do, Anon? Wink
Anonymous asked:
Question. How much of Riddle's body do you think Che'nya would lick to clean him?
In theory, he’d probably get bored pretty quickly, but I kind of want him to just keep licking… Riddle thought it would be over 15 minutes ago, but Che’nya’s still licking… The moment he would be done with his face, ears and head (cat saliva in Riddle’s hair…), Riddle would realise that Che’nya is determined to lick him all over. Time to call Trey…
blackbutlerfandomnerddomain asked:
Riddle gets licked my Chenya often in my lil delulu ass world
Sometimes Che’nya randomly appears, licks his cheek and disappears again.
Anonymous asked:
Bro I gotta know, what do the tweel's dick(s) look like on their merform? I was scrolling on ur bluesky and saw this one with jade and idia and something between idia's legs and I was like "is that his dick?" If so DAYUM! May that bussy rest in peace
Love your art and speedpaints btw💗
Thank you for enjoying my art and especially my speedpaints! I am very happy to hear that <3
Hehe I’m glad you liked that one! I had a lot of fun with that piece.
I feel like I draw merpeen differently every single time lol but I love the design we came up with for that Jade/Idia drawing, and in fact I do have a post in which I talk about how it probably works! There aren’t any pictures there, but there are some interesting thoughts…
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Warlord Donut: OH, I’M SORRY. WERE WE SUPPOSED TO RETURN THAT STUFF? I’M AFRAID IT’S TOO LATE. BUT IF YOU NEED A LOAN, LET ME KNOW, AND I’LL ASK MY FRIEND ROSETTA ON YOUR BEHALF. I HEARD SHE RECENTLY CAME INTO SOME MONEY.
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I DON’T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT BANKERS, BUT I DO KNOW NOBODY LIKES YOU RIGHT NOW AND NOBODY IS GOING TO BE DOING YOU GUYS ANY FAVORS ANY TIME SOON. AS FOR YOUR FATHER’S BODY, I’M AFRAID I’VE ALREADY TAKEN YOUR FATHER’S SKIN AND TURNED IT INTO A POWDER ROOM RUG. IT’S QUITE WATERPROOF AND MONGO SOMETIMES MISSES HIS PEE PAD WHEN HE HAS TO GO POTTY IN THE SAFEROOM. UNFORTUNATELY, IT’S NOT VERY ATTRACTIVE SINCE IT CAME WITHOUT A HEAD.
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THIS IS WHY YOU’LL NEVER BE AS GOOD OF A KING AS YOUR FATHER. HE TALKED ABOUT HOW MUCH OF A DISAPPOINTMENT YOU WERE BEFORE HE DIED.
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YOU KNOW, THAT’S THE ONE THING I’M NOT LYING ABOUT, WHICH I’M SURE MAKES IT HURT EVEN MORE BECAUSE I BET YOU KNOW IT’S TRUE, TOO.
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I’M SORRY, BUT YOU ARE MUCH TOO POOR TO BE TALKING TO ME LIKE THIS.
-Dungeon Crawler Carl Book 7: This Inevitable Ruin, Matt Dinniman
#the trash talk game on this cat is god tier#book 7 spoilers#dcc book 7 spoilers#post#dungeon crawler carl#quote#princess donut#dcc#dungeon crawler world: earth#dcc book 7#this inevitable ruin
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Work it Out
Bang Chan x Female reader
Word count: 3.1k (DRABBLES I TELL YOU!)
Synopsis: Chan asks you to come check out the new pilates machines the guys just got but poor Channie is not very bendy, unlike you.
Warnings: 18+ MDNI! Cursing/strong language, oral (f receiving), overstimulation/forced orgasm, squirting, unprotected piv sex (please use protection always but ESPECIALLY if you have multiple partners!), cum shot, cum eating, rimming, lots of dirty talking, alluding to having unprotected anal sex and cream pie, praise, pet names (baby, of course baby girl), rough sex, slight dumification, spit play (a little), I think that's it, there's a lot in this so if I missed something please do let me know so I can add it!
After Jisung made you cum three times on his tongue, which is not an easy feat to do, he helped you try to not look quite so fucked out when you were getting ready to leave. You went to walk out of the studio so Jisung could get back to work and he gently grabbed your wrist and stopped you.
“Are you... are we...” He looked so worried. You smiled and hugged Jisung then pecked his lips and took a line from Minho’s book.
“Don’t think too much okay? We’re two friends that wanted to screw around and so we did. Did you like it?” Jisung let out a deep breath and laughed.
“Fuck yes!” You smiled sweetly at him.
“Good I did too, maybe we can do it again some time.” Jisung seemed much calmer seeing you so relaxed and after hearing you say that.
“Absolutely!” He said, his smile beaming.
“Good now I’ll see you this Monday for board game night. Tell Seungmin I said no Monopoly it makes Felix sad when he has to go to jail.” You pecked his lips one more time and left the studio. The Monday night game night ended up being chaos as usual. Since Seungmin couldn’t pick Monopoly he picked Life instead and when Felix lost his job and got a lawsuit he started to get those big sparkly anime eyes. You made a mental note to remind yourself to put salt in Seungmin’s next cup of coffee for making Yongbok sad. Chan who was sitting next to you during the board game, leaned over and whispered.
“Don’t put salt in Seungmin’s coffee...” You giggled a little and whispered back.
“How did you-” Chan laughed and his eyes scrunched up.
“It’s practically written on your face. He found a loophole fair and square.” You pressed your lips together.
“I’m not convinced. What about mayo in a donut?” Chan shook his head no.
“Toothpaste in his orange juice?” Chan cringed.
“Remind me never to make you mad.” You laughed.
“Oh yea! I almost forgot! We got a couple new pilates machines set up in the workout room now. Haven’t got to use them yet why don’t you come over tomorrow and we can check em out!”
“Sounds good to me!” You looked over at Seungmin who was smirking as his eyes were zeroed in on poor Felix just as he realized he was getting divorced in the game. You leaned over to Chan and whispered again.
“Oh that’s it me and Felix are baking him a batch of salted cookies together.” Chan laughed and shook his head.
The next day you met Chan to do pilates as discussed. When Chan answered the door and saw you he lagged for a second. You were standing there in a sports bra and spandex shorts, hair pulled back, water bottle in hand. Chan of course was in his signature shorts and tank top with a pair of under armor leggings underneath in addition. He quickly caught up with his brain and moved aside to let you in.
“Hey y/n! You ready?” You walked in bouncing on your toes.
“Oh yea already did some stretching. I’m loosey goosey.” You bent over and touched your toes. Chan cleared his throat and tried to not look at your full round ass, unsuccessfully. You popped back up and so did Chan’s eyes.
“So let’s check these things out. Maybe you’ll be able to bend a little easier with the machine’s help.” Chan nodded.
“Maybe I guess we’ll see.” He led you to the room they designated for the gym equipment and when you walked in there were two pilates reformers set up right next to each other. You ran over to the first one.
“Okay it’s super cool that you guys have these. Let's get going Channie boy, hop on.” Chan raised his eyebrow at you and you rolled your eyes but giggled.
“Get your head out of the gutter and get on your machine.” He laughed and his dimples appeared as he got onto the machine next to yours. You started with a few simple exercises first and Chan seemed to be keeping up okay. You tried one a bit harder and you could hear Chan starting to grunt, which did things to your body at the most inappropriate of times. You pushed those thoughts and feelings down and moved into another position that really bent and stretched you out. Chan screamed out dramatically in pain and let go flopping down on the machine.
“Oh come on Channie we just started.” You stretched into the pose deeper. He was red and sweaty and the veins on his neck and arms were popping. Focus.
“No way I can’t do that, I’m not bendy. I’ll just help you. You can spot me on weights later.” Chan winked at you and you felt your body betray you and flush again. Chan looked you over in your position.
“Wow you’re really bendy!” You again tried to pull yourself together and started the next exercise. Chan placed his hand on your leg and helped you stretch and lean into the new pose while keeping you steady. His hand gently squeezed the soft flesh it held onto as your leg came back down.
“I saw this really good stretch for your adductors. Move and get on like this.” He guided you to lay on your back, hips at the edge of the carriage, legs up, and bent at the knee. Then he grabbed the pully straps and helped you place your feet in them.
“There now push into the straps on your feet.” You did. You grunted and you could feel the muscles of your inner thighs contract. You relaxed back into the resting position which you couldn’t lie didn’t leave much to the imagination with your shorts on, you just hoped they weren’t wet with all that moaning and groaning Chan was doing earlier. Suddenly Chan stepped over the side rail of the machine and was between your legs. He put his hands on the insides of your thighs and your whole body buzzed.
“Push again.” You pressed into the pully straps and felt Chan squeeze as your thighs tightened.
“You feel that?” His voice was an octave lower. You blushed and nodded, a little sweat starting to bead on your forehead. You relaxed and slid back into your original position and Chan’s crotch was perfectly lined up with yours. His hands slid from the insides of your thighs to the outsides and started massaging up and down, getting dangerously close to your ass each time.
“I need to tell you something but I need to preface this something by first saying I’m not just a pervert or anything.” You scrunched up your face and looked at the position you were in and then him.
“Yea okay but seriously.” You laughed and nodded.
“Okay let the record reflect that Chan is in fact not just a pervert.” He shook his head and rolled his eyes.
“Just tell me what you need to tell me Channie.”
“Okay so I was going through unnamed files on the computer at the studio and I came across one that was really long, which was weird. So I put my headphones in and clicked it and... well... it seems as though Jisung accidently hit studio record when you guys were uh...” Chan did not even need to finish the sentence you knew exactly what he was going to say.
“Oh my fucking god you heard us!?” Your head thunked down on the carriage and your hands covered your eyes. Chan kept rubbing your thighs trying to reassure you.
“No all of it! Well at least not at first.” You looked through your fingers as Chan stood nervously between your legs.
“What do you mean not at first?” Chan bit at his plump bottom lip.
“Well I went to click it off right? And I accidently skipped ahead and maybe might have heard your moaning.” You looked at him waiting for the rest of his explanation.
“So you know I turned it off quickly after that but your moaning was echoing in my head after hearing it through my headphones. I’m not proud but I clicked it back on and listened to Jisung eat you out. Your moans were so fucking pretty and my dick has been rock hard every time I’m around you since and I just really want to taste your pussy and fuck you right on this machine, make you moan like that for me. Make you scream for me.” He slid his hands down your thighs again but this time he gripped your ass by the handful. You would be a bold-faced liar if you said your cunt didn’t clench and gush hearing Chan say those words and grabbing you. If your shorts weren’t ruined before they definitely were now. You were apprehensive regardless of how your body was reacting.
“Chan I... I have to be honest Jisung isn’t the only one of the guys that I’ve... well... done stuff with...” Chan nodded.
“I know baby girl you were with Minho.”
“And Changbin.”
“Oh.” You looked away embarrassed and covered your face not wanting to see how Chan was surely looking at you, waiting for the disgust and slut shaming that was sure to come. You had fucked or sucked three of his friends and now look at you, dripping and clenching for him. Chan leaned over you and pulled your hands away.
“Hey, I don’t care if you’ve messed around with them. That’s none of my business. My business is here between these sexy legs.” Chan palmed and rubbed your pussy with his whole hand over your tight shorts and you let out a choked moan.
“Should I stop?” You should say yes. You definitely shouldn’t be fucking a fourth friend but your brain wasn’t making the decicisons anymore.
“No...” You said breathy as he pressed his fingers harder against your cunt rubbing you up and down slowly.
“Don’t stop Channie.” He hummed and smiled.
“You gonna let me eat that pretty pussy?” You nodded as you started panting.
“Yes Channie.”
“Mhm... you gonna let me fuck your tight little hole on this machine yea?” Your shorts were completely soaked with your juices as Chan rubbed your whole pussy faster.
“Mmmm! YES CHANNIE! Want you to fuck me so hard on this!” Chan knelt down in front of your wet shorts he gripped the seam of them and ripped them apart exposing your perfect glazed cunt.
“So fucking pretty, god damn baby girl, such a pretty little pussy. Needs cleaned though.” Chan’s tongue swiped through your folds.
“Taste so sweet, sweet little cunt, gonna eat it so good.” Chan hooked his arms around your legs that were still suspended in the pully straps and started to go crazy on your pussy. Licking sucking slurping, he’d stop long enough to spred your pussy lips and spit on your cunt before rubbing it all over your clit hard and then diving back in and slurping on you more. You could feel his saliva and your arousal dripping down your ass. Chan’s tongue swiped lower collecting your juices and his spit and when his tongue gently brushed against your asshole you clenched hard. Chan’s grip around your thighs tightened.
“You like how it feels when I lick your ass baby girl? Want me to eat that too you pretty little thing? Come here give me that tight little hole.” Chan let go of your legs and pushed your thighs back so your asshole and pussy were easily accessible. Chan spit on your sensitive pussy then on your asshole and started gently teasing it with the tip of his tongue. He was eye level with your cunt and saw how hard you clenched when he teased it. It egged him on and he started eating your ass with enthusiasm, licking a broad stripe from hole to clit from time to time, sucking on the sensitive bundle of nerves before tonguing your ass again. Chan’s fingers started teasing your clit as he continued to circle his tongue around your asshole and you came so hard you were screaming Chan’s name, thankful none of the other guys were home.
“CHAN OH FUCK... CH-CHANNIE FUCK FUCK YES!” Both of your hands rested on Chan’s head and pushed his face against your ass and pussy harder. He fucking loved it he wrapped his arms around your legs again and was ravenous the way he continued to push you through your orgasm into overstimulation.
“CHAN FUCK CHAN F- YOU GOTTA ST-FUCK GOTTA STOP!” He only hummed shaking his head no. He was hell bent on making you cum again. He slid two fingers inside of you and started pumping them deep and hard as he drank everything your dripping cunt gave him. He stopped eating your pussy long enough to coach and praise you.
“Such a good girl, don’t squirm now baby girl fuck so good, taste amazing, can’t get enough of eating you. Want you to cum for me again baby girl, want you to squirt on my face.” He started sucking on your clit hard, pumping his fingers into you with precision hitting that detonate button inside you over and over again. He hummed as he sucked hard on your clit and you were glad your feet were in those straps. Your body contorted, your back arching as you came as hard as you ever had and started squirting. Chan finger fucked you harder slurping at your juices until your legs trembled in the straps. Finally Chan pulled off of you. You laid there chest heaving up and down legs shaking still being held up by the pully straps. Chan stood up, whipped his shirt off and wiped his face before tossing it then dropping his shorts, pants, and briefs all at once. He leaned over you and you could feel his warm hard cock press against your extremely sensitive cunt. He grabbed your sports bra and ripped it apart freeing your breasts which he immediately started sucking on as he continued to rub his throbbing cock against your slick folds making you twitch and shudder. He squeezed your tits and pushed them together. You laid there still in a haze from the mind-blowing orgasms.
“Condom baby girl?” You just shook your head side to side.
“B-I’m on... I’m on birth control.” Chan bit his bottom lip so hard he drew blood.
“You’re gonna let me fuck you raw baby girl?” You took another deep breath still trying to come down and nodded.
Chan grabbed his cock and lined it up with your drenched hole.
“Such a good girl letting me take her hole raw. I’m gonna fuck you so hard and then I’m gonna cum all over your cute fucked out little cunt.” You nodded and Chan slid his cock in and bottomed out in you immedetly.
“CHANNIE!” He cooed at you.
“I know baby I know shh shh, I said I’m gonna fuck your pretty little pussy hard and I’m going to fuck you hard.” He held onto your hips and started fucking you hard and deep, his hips slapping into your plump ass over and over as he railed you on the new pilates machine.
“Tell me baby girl how’s that feel huh? You like the way my cock feels raw inside you?” You nodded babbling back to him unable to control the level of your voice and shouting.
“Raw! YES RAW! Fuck me raw Channie! SO FUCKING GOOD CHANNIE! CH-CHANNIE I’M GONNA...” Your orgasm came out of nowhere as you continued to scream Chan’s name over and over.
“God fuck yes squeeze my cock baby, cum all over it. I’m not done with you yet baby keep going.” He started teasing your clit and electricity buzzed through your whole body. The grunt that came from you was guttural as Chan pushed you past overstimulation again.
“Can- ca-can't Channie fuck fuck I can’t.” Chan pushed sweaty fly aways out of your face and made you look at him.
“You’re gonna.” With that Chan gripped your hips and started fucking you just as hard as he had been before. You laid there limp on that machine letting it hold your legs up for you at that point as Chan absolutely punished your pussy with his cock.
“Next time you’re gonna let me fuck that tight little ass yea? Give me that little hole? FUCK have you ever been fucked in your ass baby girl?” You shook your head no unable to speak.
“Oh you’ll be so tight baby I’d blow so fast, then watch you squeeze out my cum OH FUCK! You’d let me fuck your ass raw too right baby girl. Pump my cum deep in your ass and make you squeeze it back out.” Your whole body moved with his relentless thrusts, you nodded again. Chan spit on your pussy and then took four fingers and started rubbing them firmly and quickly over your clit as his cock filled you again and again, his spit and your juices dripping down his dick, your legs and ass. He rubbed your pussy as he fucked it hard and you started to squirt again. The moan that came from you turned into a whine and then just heavy breaths. Your cunt tried to force Chan’s cock out as you came hard but he held on to the base and kept shoving himself in deeper, again and again as your cum kept squirting out of you with each thrust. You were twitching, legs shaking, pulling at your hair and breasts. Chan’s hips started to falter. He pulled out his cock and started stroking it fast and hard right over your dripping swollen pussy.
“Gonna paint this pretty cunt white... FUCK! Watch me cum on you baby, watch now watch me cum!” When you forced yourself to lift your head just to watch Chan cum on you he moaned and his cock twitched in his hand and he started coming. Stripes of his hot seed shot across your tummy and pussy lips and started to drip, Chan kept stroking his cock fast as more cum streaked across your slit and dripped down. He held on to his cock tightly and walked over by your face, presenting his it to you.
“Suck it baby girl, get it all.” He put the tip of his dick in your mouth as you laid there completely fucked out again. You gently sucked on it collecting his taste and swallowing it.” Chan rubbed the tip of his cock across your pouty lips twitching and shuddering from his own overstimulation. You ran your fingers through the cum on your tummy and licked it off prompting Chan to run his fingers through your sensitive cunt and collect more before shoving three fingers in your mouth and making you suck them clean.
“Come on, let’s go shower. Wanna see you wash that pussy real good for me and I’ll let you eat all my cum you want baby girl.”
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TPOT 17 SPOILERS!!!
And me being clinically insane
ok so this episode HAD ME SCREAMING like OMG i literally spent the next 40 minutes after watching it walking and running around outside to get energy out while talking nonstop on the phone with my friend (we watched it at the same time) which, 1, I haven't willingly gone outside in AGES, 2, I hate walking, and 3, I've never been one to yap. Also Ive been like, unable to feel much emotion this year at all, and this suddenly filled me with so much that I had to run outside for 40 minutes to get it all out?? Like, how????
ANYWAYS this is going to be very out of order but who cares I need these thoughts out even if no one will read any of it
First, THE FIRST FEW SECONDS OF THE VIDEO AND I KNEW IT WAS GOING TO BE PEAK-
I already knew it was gonna be amazing with all the new people they've been hiring and stuff, but starting it off with angst and blocks funny doings? Like omg??
And wait can we talk about the new animators and bg artists and stuff for a second?? I was literally able to just sense when it was one of the new hires and omg they are amazing, I love how lively they've made it all it's just so yummy to my brain ok I just had to get that out there
We got to see the eliminated contestants again!! Like wow tbh I was not expecting that it was a very pleasant surprise. We will talk about that later tho in the theory section
Cake at stake went how I expected it to go, but wow I was not expecting bottle to be hosting today lmao- nice to see her get more things other then just all silly goofy. Also she's good at drawing?? But also those drawings definitely hit a few sore spots- bottle I love you but c'mon now- pencil did NOT have to be that mean though like damn I get your traumatized but that's not an excuse to be so mean to others mate 😭
i literally screamed when winner was safe though (I voted for them 4 times on 2 accounts cough cough..)
Pretty much all the characters got actual screentime!! And actually good screentime!!! No offense to the writers at all but sometimes it's obvious to tell who they prefer. They cooked tho omg
Also WINNER MY BELOVED AUGHHHHHHSHJDJ
AND LOOK I HATE LOSER ALOT, BUT WE EVEN GOT MORE STUFF ON HIM TOO?? the 5 Loser fans jumping up and down in joy that he was mentioned again even if it was mostly about his downfall
WINNER LOOKED SO HAPPY EATING THE CEREAL THOUGH SFTER THE MARSHMALLOW THING THO LIKE MY BABY OMG 😭😭😭 THIS DID NOT HELP MY WINNER OBSESSION AT ALL
Poor blackhole at the bug part tho like damn
But also TREE!! I LOVE tree alot too and he was in this quite a bit too!
And also MORE GRASSY STUFF! look I hc him as a child and all that and find him adorable but like his entire personality can't just be "I'm grassy!"
Also One is MAD bro like dudes on her period or some shit 💀 and her room is absolutely wreaked and all that- things aren't going to plan, and it really shows.
Also her pretty much attacking donut caught me so off guard like what?? I literally did the bfdi gasp out loud like damn girl
And yet he STILL got all his limbs back. It really goes to show just how powerless she is without the contracts.
And omg the pencil and book part caught me so off guard. Like, props to book man- she deserves to stand up for herself for once. I can't help but feel bad for pencil though. She is not taking any of this well and it's just driving others further away, ruining any chances she has of making new friends and learning to move on. She's stuck in the past and won't accept it.
That part with Pen talking to her hit me pretty hard though. I really hope he helps her heal in the future
And now for random stuff since I can't think of anything else specifically!!
I love the effects they've been doing, they really add alot to the mood of some moments
The writers, animators, bg artists, just everyone who worked on this episode, absolutely cooked!! This is definitely one of the best episodes yet, and I thought the other recent ones where good-
The memories!! I love all of the flashbacks they did!! They added so much to this episode!
The secrets on the whitboard (from TBs view)! Someone in a group I'm in on here already decoded it and woww. One is getting really angry. I can't help but feel like she's going to do something to fanny soon enough.
also! Two!! They're really going through it huh. I never thought they'd like, actually portray depression, and do it accurately, in bfdi. Really hurts my soul but I love angst sm-
Talking about angst, we're getting more actual angst! Bfdi is known for being alot less serious and kinda dancing around more angsty things, having to make em silly in some way, but we just got hit with blatant feels this episode! I am eating it up angst is my life line and bfdi is also my life line so add them together and it's my life
Also we saw six!! But why only six? What happened to the others? I'm the sub counts aren't canon (as much as I imagine them to be), so I doubt we could use the 2763 thing as a reason why their not there.
Apparently both One and Four have doors that lead to the Equation Playground. Which we already knew, this just makes it even more confirmed.
THEORY TIME!!!!!
so if One and Four have doors that lead to the Equation Playground, does that mean all the algebraliens do? Or only the ones with magic? (Assuming the others don't have magic that we just haven't seen in the sub videos of course.)
That means one of the doors in Twos elimination space leads there too. Maybe the one the eliminated contestants where banging on? However, that could also be the door to the second door on the roof of the hotel! We've never seen into that room before so there's a good chance that could also be it.
Also if they do all have their own doors to the playground, that would imply the other algebraliens all have their own areas too, like how four has the E.X.I.T, One has her whole space room and flower field thing, Two has their eliminated contestant thing, etc. this would be very cool.
Anyways I'm like 99% sure something bad is going to happen to Fanny soon. One has obviously kinda lost it and has been watching Fanny, and from the decoded messages it's clear she doesn't like her at all. One if you touch Fanny istg-
This is all I can remember rn writing this all down has taken like 20 minutes so I've forgotten some things but it's whatever since this is super long already. Anyways I'm going to go fucking explode now my brain is just dlwndjekskdb
#bfdi tpot#Bfdi#the power of two#tpot 17#Tpot 17 spoilers#Spoilers#bfdi spoilers#Wow this was a lot and not even all of it#Jeebus#JnJ what have you done to me#One when I get you One-#professional yapper ahh
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Dilemma
Part 2
Warning ⚠️ mild language
"God it's annoying."
You give a hard swing on poor Esmeralda.
"Girl, you okay?" Lucy asked.
"No, I'm not." You run your hands through your hair in frustration as you watch the lifeless sack of hay rolling on the floor. "It's been over 6 months and I can't figure him out." You confess to your best friend.
It's been quite sometime since you found yourself crushing over your clumsy hotshot boss.
"Maybe...he's shy?" Lucy tried to calm you. She hands you a bottle of water hoping it will wash down your anger.
"Shy? No Luce, you don't understand. I get weird signals from him. One minute he's the softest person in the world and the next he be getting onto my nerves."
"Why don't we just take a break? Lie down for a while?" Lucy sighed.
You groan but listen to her anyway. You slowly make your way to the kitchen when you find the cause of your frustration.
"I got snacks." Meet Anthony Lockwood, charming, reckless and the hot shot boss who's giving you mixed feelings.
You all grab a piece of donut when Lockwood takes it away. You raise your eyebrow at him.
"I can't believe I forgot! This has almonds and you're allergic." He frowns. "Here. I got you this."
He hands you a plate of your favourite pie and freshly brewed coffee.
You gasp "Lockwood you didn't have to.."
"Of course I do. Taking care of my employees is my ultimate responsibility, and it's something I take great pleasure in."
You gave him a weak smile and turned to Lucy.
"This is what I was talking about" you mouth to Lucy.
Ever since you stepped into Portland Row you've witnessed Lockwood's roof touching chivalry.
Example 1 : He always gets the door for you but he also gets the door for senior citizens too. So, he's just kind.
Example 2 : One time he brought you a beautiful scarf for Christmas but he also got everyone gifts so it doesn't matter much. Also he stated "It was on sale."
Example 3: He took a bullet for you but he would do the same for others too as he loves being reckless.
He never mention his feelings but listens to your endless rants no matter how late it gets or how tired he is. He always offers his shoulder to you when you need a good cry.
It's annoying.
It's annoying to the point, sometimes you feel like a fool.
"It's unbearable. What should I do Luce?" You whine.
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"WHY DOESN'T SHE UNDERSTAND?"
George flinches as he see his best friend pacing the room.
Anthony Lockwood never lost his cool. He thought he was the best when it comes to handling his feelings but a certain girl was proving him wrong.
George takes a sip of his tea which turned cold, thanks to Lockwood's shenanigans.
"Why don't you confess to her?" He shrugs.
"That's ridiculous. I'm a total mess around her. My brain turns to a mush and I can't seem to form a coherent sentence."
"You're just being dramatic."
"I'm not. Remember last Christmas when I got her that scarf she'd been eyeing in the shop? I surprised her with it. And guess what I said?" He sighed. 'It was on sale.' Who says that to their crush?"
"Yeah, you are kind of hopeless when it comes to girls."
"When she looks at me with those big eyes, I completely lose my composure and turn into a puddle of jelly."
"What should I do George? I'm in a dilemma."
Next morning
"Lucy, we have to do something about those two idiots. I'm so tired of their nonsense."
"You're right George. I'm exhausted. Y/n's nonstop talking is driving me mad."
After a moment of silence George smirk "I think I got an idea."
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"Are you sure this will work?" Lockwood ask as he fix his neck tie.
"It will if you don't fuck up."
George and Lucy arranged a romantic date in a fancy restaurant for their stupid lovesick friends.
Anthony felt his hands sweating. He wasn't even this nervous when he fought his first visitor.
"I'm so nervous. What if she rejects me? Not like anyone can reject me as I'm extremely charming but we should keep all the possibilities in mind just-"
"Listen here, Lockwood," George pressed his forehead against his friend's, their gazes locked. "As your best mate for over a decade, I can assure you anyone would be lucky to have you in their life. You might be a total prick, but you're a true friend. I hate to admit it, but I'm glad you're my best friend."
"Are you guys done with your bromance?"
George rolls his eyes in response. "Is she ready?"
"Yes. She's almost done." Lucy chirped.
"Great. We'll stay close by. Don't fuck it up," George warned, his tone serious. With a gentle nudge, he added, "Go get your girl."
Hello friends, I know it's been ages since I wrote something. I have so many things to share. I'll share little by little each time I write. Thank you so much for reading this chapter. I hope you enjoyed it. I'll post the second part real soon. Love you xoxo
Word count: 878
#fandom#lockwood and co#anthony lockwood#anthony bloody lockwood#fanfic#locknation#lockwood x reader#anthony lockwood x reader#fem reader
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I need for Eddie to meet the one and only Mr. Myers because I just know he wouldn’t understand how we talk to him without words and he’d be so lost!
Hiii lovey!! This makes me laugh just thinking about it because poor Eddie would be so lost and also concerned😂 I hope you enjoy this little convo and I had to bring back Ghosty and mentions of the other guys 💖


“Hey baby are you in..holy shit!” “Hey Eddie! Oh I’m sorry I forgot to tell you Mike was going to be here…he comes over every Friday morning for donuts.” “Mike?…you…you call him Mike?” “Yes? Oh god I’m the worst sorry Michael this is Eddie…Eddie this is Michael he’s been one of my closest friends for a while now…you’re right Mike sorry…he’s more like a brother at this point.” “Uh…uhm nice to meet you…Michael…Myers….” “Mike you can’t eat all the glazed one those are my favorite…..no don’t put it back now you already took a bite out of it…okay fine yeah I’ll take it.” “What’s happening? How…he’s not-” “he’s not what?” “Uh nothing…I didn’t…say anything…why is he looking at me like that?” “That’s just his face?…Michael do not touch that you know how coffee makes you all wonky.” “Uhm babe are we still-” “going to the pumpkin patch? Yes sorry let me go get my coat and put my shoes on-” “you’re going to leave me alone with-” “I’ll be right back…help yourself to a donut!” “Uh…uhm so…how…how is your…day going Mike?…sorry sorry I meant uhm…Michael…” “he’s not going to talk to you.” “Jesus Christ!” “Flattered but that’s not my name…nice to see you again nerd boy.” “Uhm yeah nice to…see you again Ghostface…anyone else here that I should know about?” “No…just the usual suspects…Jason is in the backyard doing weird shit and Freddy is-” “Ghosty! What the hell? I told you stop sneaking in like some sort of weird stalker serial killer…use the front door like a normal person.” “Sorry…the window is just so much more fun…where are you two off too? Mike what the fuck? You took a bite out of every single donut you asshole.” “The pumpkin patch…and don’t talk to him like that it’s rude…ready Eddie?” “Yes yes I’m ready…let’s go..please.” “Have fun nerd boy…have her home on time I’ll let big Mike handle you…right Mike?” “Yeah yeah she’ll be home on time….” “Bye Ghosty…bye Mike…yes yes I have my purse and my phone don’t worry…love you have a good day! Don’t let Freddy get into trouble.” “I’m not his fucking babysitter…that’s Jason’s department…come on Mike let’s go see what’s new on HBO….yes you can bring the fucking donuts….”
#eddie munson concept#eddie munson au#eddie munson fanfiction#eddie munson imagine#eddie munson x reader#boyfriend!eddie munson#eddie munson x you#eddie munson x y/n#eddie munson x fem!reader#eddie munson fluff#Eddie Munson spooky season au#Eddie Munson x reader fluff#Eddie Munson x fem!reader fluff#Eddie Munson#michael myers#ghostface#stranger things au#stranger things fanfiction#my little dungeon master baby
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Tidbits from a week visiting with family (I’ve been here since Tuesday night and won’t leave until next Tuesday)
-I forgot how humid Michigan is I am dying. It was 70% humidity here and I am just dripping. Also my mom leaves the ac set to 78 so sometimes I start sweating just sitting inside which is something I no longer tolerate in my own house (my parents have more than enough money to lower the wc but my mom grew up poor and thus is aggressively frugal)
- my mother got me my favorite kind of donuts
- I’ve always kind of been the spoiled baby of the family which was delightful when I first would visit after college but i haven’t figured out how to shift the dynamic now. My brother and his gf will always cook dinner one night when they here and sometimes will but truthfully would rather not (I like that visits home have always been for extended potatoe time) but I don’t like being shown up by my brother and I want my mom to not have to do everything
- my dad is really struggling with his health. He has Parkinson’s and he’s been slowly declining for years now but he was hospitalized with a uti back in June and just hasn’t really recovered. He no longer even leaves his room for meals and has a commode in his bedroom. He does leave the house roughly once a week for his doctor appointments and pt but otherwise basically just goes from bed to chair to commode.
- my mother has switched from taking hour long walks around the neighborhood to doing the exercise bike down stairs to not be too far from him too often (though she does still go to church and the grocery store)
- I worry about how much my mom is a full time care taker and how hard it is for my dad to slowly loose his independence
- my mom went to a wedding and got my brother to come stay with my dad. They didn’t ask me. And like my brother is unemployed and has no pets or real responsibilities or obligations so it makes sense to ask him. And my dad often needs help with tolieting and maybe it’s easier to have your same gender child help. Or he just seems more helpful. It’s obviously easier for me to not come back and stay and caretake but I also feel bad for not
- they changed all the chairs out at church and it was very unsettling
- my brother quick mid “poetry for neandthrals” game today, a game simile to taboo but you can’t use multi syllable because he couldn’t think of good enough clues and his gf wasn’t guessing things good enough. This man is 34 years old. He also is the worst manplainer of anyone I’ve ever interacted with it and constantly tries to talk as though he’s the smartest person in the room and how it’s so sad that most people can’t be bothered to think this deeply. While he’s never worked a full time job or done anything of note 🙄 he does at least do the dishes every night we’re here. And to his credit he is often correct about whatever theory for the board game he’s currently going on about but he is absolutely insufferable about and has zero tolerance for anyone getting anything wrong ever which makes him obnoxious to play with.
- I’ve knitted half a sleeve of my sweater finished two books, slept 9-10 hours every night, eaten all the cookies and yummy snacks my heart could desire so it’s not all bad.
- and helped my mom set up the new computer, got the printer back online and transferred her files over (though it did take me several tries oops) so I haven’t been a complete potato
- anyway being home is weird
#every year it becomes more like visiting my parents and less like going home#and I don’t really know how to feel about it#at least both my parents are wonderful#even if my brother is still annoying and immature
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I Saw You In My Dream Ep 3&4 Thoughts
It is so hot and I am so tired but that will not stop me from my liveblog. I can probably only watch one episode but maaaaybe I can squeeze in two. *eats donut* Let’s go. Under the cut:
A trigger warning before the episode? Honestly that’s amazing. More shows do this please and thank.
Noisy neighbors go AWAY. It’s too hot to be noisy.
I am not a fan of Pan. If she’s only doing this because she wants to become famous like…that’s fine but that’s not gonna work out for her. She needs to be doing it for the love of it. Also her desire to be famous is stronger than her feelings for her boyfriend? She should have broken up with him long ago. Yu deserves better. He will get better. But something is definitely rubbing me the wrong way about her deciding to go on a dating reality show while she has a boyfriend, definitely before talking to him about it, simply because she wants to be famous.
This is so unbearably cute actually and it also doesn’t make me feel particularly sleepy AT ALL. Nope. No siree. Not me. Nope.
IT GOT CUTER WIHGKJDHGKJFHKGJH. Someone please tell me this moment has been giffed. I need it.
What is the age difference here? Because I do love a good age difference.
Now WHOMST is this random badminton player and WHAT will be the outcome of him hitting Ai with a birdie?
YU IS PEELING THE SHRIMP. THIS IS NOT A DRILL. YU IS PEELING THE SHRIMP FOR AI.
Oh no oh poor baby Ing. This hurts so deliciously. Pine away, my friend, pine away. Yo will be yours eventually.
Yeah Pan is actually the worst. She can go away now.
Levitating food ball? Is this a dream? What’s happening. I’m here for it.
Oh it WAS a dream. Less fun but okay.
Well this liveblog was short and I gotta watch episode 4 tonight because I don’t think I’ll be able to watch tomorrow so I’m just gonna jump right in. I probably won’t say much because I am so tired but I wouldn’t be able to sleep after that cliffhanger. You get it.
These two are too cute for their own good. Ai is so, so worried but refuses to admit it and Yu will just tease him about it forever.
Yeah. This is the face of a man in love. In love with Ai. Can’t believe that his wildest dreams are seemingly coming true. Because Ai worries about him. And jumps into the sea after him. And won’t go home unless he goes home. And has been so incredibly clingy lately. Yeah Yu is in love and nothing this show says or does (even giving Yu an ex) will convince me that Yu hasn’t had a crush on Ai for years.
Does the levitating mean it’s a dream that’s not going to happen? Or if it happens it’s not gonna be exactly how Ai dreams it?
Yo definitely knows something about Yu’s feelings the way he keeps hinting at those two but Ai is just starting to get feelings of his own so Yo has to be making his assumptions purely based on Yu, right?
Oh man I want to keep watching. But that’s not a good idea. I need to go to bed at some point. But this show is really hitting all the spots for me I think.
#i saw you in my dream#i saw you in my dream the series#i saw you in my dream series#rae liveblogs#rae liveblogs i saw you in my dream
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Two men with no choice but to be there
May 18, 1995
Donald had a stroke. He was too ill to talk to me tonight on the phone. Pat was there, caring for them both, Donald and his Mom. I said I’d be there Sunday AM for a visit.
May 21, 1995
Drove to Patterson to take Donald donuts and fresh flowers. He and his Mom were thrilled.
Donald now loses his hearing.
May 22, 1995. Monday
Talked with Donald tonight. He sounded drifty, floating. Yet, he was crystal precise as to fact and time. I told him that I was very concerned about his physical deterioration. His 84 year old Mom can’t care for him alone.
July 6, 1995
My Mom said to me tonight “Don’t match up with a person with Aids again soon…I’m worried about your mental health.”
July 11, 1995. Tuesday
Los Gaviotas Restaurant in Patterson threw a big 5 year anniversary party tonight. There I sat, writing my notes and enjoying the spray of events! Then on to Donald, and then to his Mom’s, and then back to Donald.
Donald sees men in his room One man is in a tank top. One looks like his boy friend. They are men who are not there, at least our eyes. They at times speak to Donald.
I’m so glad that Donald is in the hospital. He needs that close care. But, how much longer must he endure this?
July 14, 1995
Sweet time with Donald. Such an alone experience. Two men with no choice but to be there (Donald and I)…one giving a back rub, one receiving it. I asked him “When all is gone, what’s left? What’s the meaning? He said He’d go to a gay bar in Stockton. (after death) I said “Where is the meaning there? He said “I haven’t thought that far ahead yet.” I said “ You have handled this so graciously. You are so kind (Donald now being nearly blind due to complications caused bt Aids), He said “Oh great, I get the posthumous award?” I said “ Yea, a great thing!” A nurse wanted to show him pictures of her grand kids. He tried , but he could not see them. She, wearing her badge complete with Aids red ribbon, then proceeded to tell him what they looked like, what they wore.. Fuck the eyes! He’s got ears. As one nurse walked by laughing, he yelled out, catting around with her.
I massage him, especially his back. He loves that.
Around 5pm, he started yelling for home. His Mom was there.The nurses and I tried to console him. This is home, as horrifying as it is.
July 16, 1995
I again didn’t visit Donald. 2 days away now. Poor dear thing. My whole soul and being however are with him. I just needed breathing space.
July 17, 1995
Sweet time with Donald tonight. He wants to die happy, meaning, with the knowledge that he will be remembered.
He feels abandoned now by friends and family and by and large , he has been abandoned. Yet, his Mom is very devoted. Pat was there tonight and Donald’s friend Bob showed up. Even in this advanced stage of Aids, Donald wants to score!
July 18, 1995
A visit again with sweet Donald. He floats in and out of full and of partial hallucinations. He goes hot, then cold, in a minute.
July 28, 1995
Rodney died yesterday at 11am. Lots of gasping, per the nurse. Rodney’s Mom had just stepped out. The nurse ran to get her. His sister was not there. Donald and his Mom set feet away, in their space. Grueling beauty. Unspeakable. (Rodney was Donald’s Aids patient room mate. They were patients in the Patterson hospital , where the last stage Aids patients in Stanislaus county were sent Note. 2/12/2024)
July 29, 1995
Donald said as I left today “You made me happy.” He made me happy, too. I had purchased a card for Rodney , his roomy who died. Donald’s Mom, his friend Randy and I signed it. So will the hospital staff. That meant a lot to Donald. And, I brought him flowers which he can’t see, but that he appreciates. His Mom can see them however.
White flowers for brevity of life and for peace.
#journaling#writing#The Aid's crisis#Aid's support volunteer#gay history#Nurses supporting Aid's patient#Emotional stress caused by Aid's care#Donalds mother stuck by him during his Aid's journey#May-July 1995
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