#dont want to own many items i hate having things

[skunkes]

what do u guys do with non clothing items you dont want anymore and cant rlly sell.... need sum advice.....

[mohgreal]

Mr Greal I need to rant about a SOTE thing I was thinking about last night. Fucking. Why not make it so that Mohg and Miquella were collaborating and both had a genuine, shared view of how to change the world? They both want the best for the disenfranchised races of the Lands Between, right? Miquella has the metamorphosing Albinaurics in the Haligtree, Mohg has his little red Mohglets, stuff like that.

Wouldn’t it be interesting if Blood For The Blood God Big Boy Mohg was who Miquella deemed the most kind or worthy or whatever of the demigods? Raaaaagh I’m just so mad how SOTE bulldozed over these two characters and sapped out anything interesting about them.

cw: me being annoying, (long) sote ranting because this fandom hates me for hating but that never stopped me, if you take this seriously its on you sorry . for some reason i get people feel offended by me openly expressing how i feel about some dlc so im still putting this here You Were Warned ....mr greal will add his personal comments .....

tumblr keeps fucking up my keep readinf STOP im sorry

this is my biggest gripe with sote is how boring they made the existing lore. not even 'bad', just very very boring. it's like i got the most boring reddit fanfiction as canon, which sucks because all the new stuff IS interesting. expect now i don't even care because they sucked the interest i had for the lore by doing so. they could've made radahn more interesting by giving him more lore that isn't just "i love war, golden order, and horsey!". they could've gave mohg more lore and depth. they could've made miquella more interesting and a genuinely new and fresh character with hope for once in a game where it's all bleak and misery.

but they didn't. why.

i don't get it and i never will. im convinced they had a different, or possibly worse — multiple teams work on sote because the way the entire dlc is structured, especially the lore and missing elements (no cutscenes for main bosses or black and white art desc) — really screams too many chefs working on one game (dlc). nightreign existing proves my prior theory ive had since sote came out day one

miquella is, to me, the most boring possible route they could've gone. if you believed the charming theory then it was also predictable for like two years so it's not even as shellshocking as the narrative makes it, because the game expects you (in the sense that based off the existing lore you would have the idea that miquella is morally gray) to know this. the issue is that the only real lore really pointing toward miquella being a charm guy is the bewitching branch. two sentences. you're supposed to get that miquella was Bad All Along because of [one] item description. why micheal zaki???? and yes you could say the other item descs hinted at it, but that's all it is, hinting. its vague and you could easily understand it as miquella being the true goodie people in game think he is.

as for the extreme devotion, i don't see how it's supposed to be seen as bad if you didn't know miquella was a charmer when it makes sense for the lands between to cling to the only piece of hope there is. like i would be worshipping him too when he's supposedly the only real kind demigod trying to make a change??? is this just micheal zaki and georgey marty's way of telling us life is miserable and dont trust incestous blondes? ive seen people defend this by saying its a design choice so the player can feel like miquella is good, then get betrayed like his followers so you can feel it too. but this doesn't work because you would have to be attached or at least like miquella which is basically impossible (unless you were a tumblr miquella stan feeding off dust and scraps) since you haven't meet him?? how can i be betrayed by someone whom i haven't even met? miquella is just childish griffith (im sorry to say that name) marika-ranni morally gray "you tried" badge lumped into one and i really miss how interesting he was before his own dlc. not to mention he only shows up piggybacking on his now boyfriend-brother for like one minute; and that's all he gets in his own dlc . if he was at least his own boss instead of lothric-lorian copy pasted but worse i wouldn't be nearly as disappointed

radahn is still boring to me, which he was before as well, his personlity is basically just the modern irl gymbro to me, which is to say i can't see him without his gym (in radahn's case, war or the golden order)

and mohg getting used as a body bag is so unneeded and just feels forced. i didn't even feel sad. the mohgreal (mr greal as called in the ask™️) didn't get sad at mohg being basically used even beyond death. because it didn't need to happen. you could say that's what makes it tragic, but to me it's just a cheap way of forcing radahn back. radahn's soul isn't what makes him powerful, his powers and body is. so just use mohg instead, miquella already had him charmed, did he not?? radahn's soul isn't going to make mohg magically radahn — except oh wait it magically makes mohg radahn all of a sudden even though that's not how it works!!! we literally saw ranni do this exact same thing (just with her own soul) yet radahn is a magic exception??? this is a blatant retcon and people who pretend sote doesn't have retcons feel like they're gaslighting me because this is just one of a few examples of contradicting lore sote gives you. even if you could magically give me a pile of reason to fill the plotholes, it still feels sour because i never needed to do this in the base game

TLDR: sote made me not care about elden ring, and im now back to being a horror addict im sorry. everyone is allowed to rant to me im very bored

[finneander]

finished dav two days ago so assorted (full spoilers for the whole game) thoughts (really long rants) under the cut

If you dont fw Lucanis's romance don't even talk to me cause you're not a real lover. That man loves Rook so much its unreal. Plus his beautiful sad baby cow eyes. you hear?

Combat is fun. Like, really fun. It only started to get repetitive by the end of the game when I had exhausted nearly all the skill points I could get and I didn't feel like getting a couple that I missed

I enjoy the gear system muchly. It feels like every armour piece is a Unique on its own, but they're not. Very good. Much better than previous games where you just pick the one with the slightly higher stat

I HATE HATE HATE THE GEAR DESIGN!!!!!! The only thing in the art direction I don't vibe with. Environments? Gorgeous. Characters? Maybe a bit too smooth and perfect but they all look great and are so expressive. The gear though.... It's all so chunky and the fabric is so thick and shapeless and textureless and so many armours just look like plastic... Don't even get me started on the weapons. I played a Spellblade in my first playthrough and all the daggers were just so... chunky and exaggerated. I think the armour and weapon design is really what makes the game's style feel so cartoony and comic-like. And I don't like calling the game cartoony. But man, the armour. I really feel like DA2 and Inquisition had peak armour design.

'Rook has pretty good reasons not to get into Blood Magic' is total BS they literally have you doing Origins Blood Magic in the Deathcaller spec they just made it fucking green. It feels like they totally wanted to add Blood Magic (as they should. its so fun and unique and interesting and sexy) but a. they didn't want to/couldn't add the reactivity needed for Rook Literally Doing Blood Magic and b. the writers have fully relegated blood magic to just being Le Evil Magic with no nuance whatsoever. Merrill and Surana I miss you. They don't even give Rook a reason for not doing blood magic. Maybe I'm reading it wrong but even the whole 'oooohhh your blood got into the ritual' shouldn't stop Rook from doing blood magic. It just gives them a connection to Solas in his cuck fade regret prison?

Not to harp on too much about blood magic but you could totally make a 'blood mage' build with the whole health/mana gimmick and I'm already brainstorming it. There's a good few items and skills for this and I'm absolutely making it highest priority.

They've completely sanded the setting down. The game is not dark at all. I will say that Dragon Age has never been a grimdark series, that's not what I'm getting at. But the tone was a lot bleaker and mature in the other games. Yes Veilguard has horrible things, the blight is bad, bla bla blah. The tone of a game is so much more than just the set pieces used. The few settings beset by blight do not make the game dark, nor does the blood or the dead bodies. That's all surface level. There are bad things happening in this game. You get told its bad. Your companions react with a line or two. You move on. Your companions go back to talking about food or whatever. The game is almost too hopeful and cheery for what is happening in it. I do agree that Dragon Age has always been about the moments of hope and levity in between all the terrible events where it seems like there's no hope. But Veilguard is all levity. In Origins, the setting was so perfectly bleak. You had lost your entire order, the Warden has already gone through whatever they went through that made them join the wardens, the game just starts in this unique position of 'There should be no hope here. There's no way you can do this'. But it's not like that, there is hope. And you travel with your ragtag group of companions and the setting seems so bleak and hopeless, you see the blight spreading, the political machinations, but there's still hope and joy with your companions. With small characters out in the world. Veilguard doesn't have a healthy enough balance of this.

To expand on my point above, the game feels less mature and not as dark because they've completely sanded down any nuance, any complex morality. The Crows got turned into Batman, shadowy, found-family freedom fighters with no real discussions on how they Bought Slaves To Train Into Assassins and how their training includes torture and they will kill you if you fail or want out. Like. Are you really scared of depicting the ASSASSINS as bad people? The Lords of Fortune are an ethical pirate faction as well, who makes sure they don't steal any cultural artifacts. This would be fine if the story gave any good reason for it, like Isabela's past experience with the Tome of Koslun, or if there was friction between Shathann who wanted to preserve these cultural artifacts safely and the rest of the Lords. But no. They're just Good Pirates! The Good Guys are helping you because they're Good Guys and you couldn't get help to save the world from anyone who's not Entirely Good. The Bad Guys are also all 100% Evil Bad guys. It's like the game doesn't want you to get confused or think critically about anything. These are the Good Guys and these are the Bad Guys. Its like that through the entire game. The Venatori and the Antaam are just reduced to The Evil Factions that you're fighting against with your Good Factions. Couldn't even give me a crumb of interesting Qunari political schemes? The Butcher was the closest thing to that and it felt so shoehorned in and underdeveloped because he was so unutilised. He's mentioned a few times at the start of the game and then you fight him near the end. Thats it. For the rest of that the Qunari occupation in Treviso is just faceless evil guys. Each of the companion storylines also has a Clear Evil Guy that you need to help them take down, and it just makes their stories kind of... uncompelling. Like they have a character arc they go through, like Emmrich's fear of death and his desire for lichdom, that feels underdeveloped in favour of you Taking Down The Bad Guy together, and then after you Take Down The Bad Guy, you deal with their underlying character arc in a simple binary choice and it just doesn't feel earned.

I think one thing that the game nailed though was the aftermath of Minrathous if you chose to save Treviso instead. I played a Shadow Dragon and walking through Minrathous, seeing what the Venatori had done, Neve and Tarquin's reactions to you coming back, finding Lorelei's body (and after reading the codex entry on her!! Which states she was one of the elves sold by Loghain in Origins!! which personally hit harder for me because I hc'd my Rook as also being one of those elves and because I'm so attached to my Tabris and the Denerim elves). I think all of that was great. I do think they should've let a Shadow Dragon Rook be more devastated by that. Like, it is my city too. And nobody's asking me how I'm taking that? They also don't give you the option to retort to Neve about it when she gets upset at Rook for not caring about Minrathous which kinda annoyed me. But after that? Slowly building your relationship with Neve back up and earning her trust again as a Shadow Dragon? That felt so rewarding for me.

Act 3 is definitely the strongest. When I said earlier that this game isn't dark, Act 3 feels like the saving grace. It's so good. So raw and emotional. I felt stressed and worried, and it just nailed the tone. It was so strong. Debating which of your companions to send where, seeing the effects of your choices, THE WALK THROUGH SOLAS'S REGRET PRISON!!! It was perfect. I felt like I'd fucked up and I LOVE that feeling.

Personal gripe. I wish we got Minrathous proper instead of Docktown. Like, what was shown back in 2020. Thinking back on it, that trailer has such a different vibe to Veilguard? It's kind of odd.

There's a lot of moments where it feels like there was supposed to be more but there wasn't. You can definitely feel the game's development cycle made an impact here. A lot of the writing feels like a first draft that was meant to be fleshed out but wasn't. A lot of missed opportunities to do more.

New bullet points cause I hit the limit:

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE SOUTH IS RAZED AND IN RUINS AND DENERIM HAS FALLEN AND YOU'RE TELLING ME THIS IN A CODEX ENTRY. IN A LETTER? ALL MY FAVOURITE PEOPLE AND PLACES ARE THERE. FROM THE PAST THREE GAMES. AND THEY GET A CODEX? AND NOBODY CARES? IT'S NOT EVEN MENTIONED BY HARDING? ARE YOU SERIOUS?

Please actually let me pick what I'm saying. I didn't mind so much because the auto-dialogue managed to fit my image of Rook this time but I can tell this is going to get annoying in future playthroughs. I don't want to play the same character in slightly different flavours.

BioWare the day you stop with your paraphrasing is the day I die happy. Please. Sometimes it is just Not Clear At All that that is what that line actually is and the tone icons just mean nothing at times. Please I am begging you.

All in all. I think BioWare should be proud of this game. It released in a great state. It's solid. The gameplay is great. It's a good Action-RPG. It's a mediocre Dragon Age. I've seen that sentiment a lot and it feels like the best way to describe it. The game feels so disjointed from other Dragon Age games, it's so clearly meant to be a soft-reboot, major lore revelations are just kinda explained by your group at the round table and brushed over like they never happened... Sigh. 7.5/10. You could've been amazing.

[nathanleemustdie]

think about the whole perspective

i want the new enhypen album but i dont want to get harassed to hell and back so i think ill do what i usually do and buy from those odd unofficial kpop websites. they honestly sell shit for like 10x cheaper too. i never gave a fuck if its a knockoff as long as it worked.

you can literally buy a $60+ kpop album for like $30. you can match your favs too for a fraction of the price! (omg that sounds like im writing an infomercial from 2002) idc that it’s a knockoff, if i like it, and it looks similar, i’m paying like $25 for a similar $1000 clothing item some idol wore. (sites like fashionchingu, and idk if idolsfashion still exists or not)

even tho im going to try and boycott sm/hybe groups and the company in general, that does not mean i dont stan them anymore or that i hate the groups (bc i dont, i hate the companies) just only following fan accs/watching their reuploaded lives on yt fan accs, only watching them on fan accs, buying unofficial items, and downloading through suspicious converters/listening to the boycott playlists ppl have made on spotify. strictly boycott if you want but do not harass anyone else for not doing exactly as you say, as long as we are not giving money to the companies, it’s going to have the same effect either way, so let ppl boycott in their own manner.

and dont get me wrong, i do also feel bad for groups like bts, enhypen, txt, seventeen, the rest of riize, aespa, nct, red velvet, newjeans, etc, i feel bad bc now ALL their careers will be ruined bc of their industries. i hope the k-stans and c-stans know they didnt JUST ruin seunghan’s career, but the careers of MANY idols. im not going to go through and count but just looking at sm, nct is like 25 members + all the other groups + soloists so that’s at LEAST 50 idols if im just going to guess. and if you add hybe’s groups + soloists that’s like 80.

if YG and KQ do something more bizarre than usual, kpop wont be a thing anymore. all companies will be boycotted, 1000s of idols careers will be thrown in the trash, no tickets will sell, merch/albums wont sell, the ENTIRE kpop industry will come down and there will be no rebuilding it. and if you’re still a kpop stan after that, the harassing wont end.

HATE COMMENTS/HATE REBLOGS ≠ BLOCKED

[summaryi]

When the Moon Hatched - Sarah A. Parker

reluctant 2/5

ok i havent finished yet but

the world is interesting so far

not enough known about characters

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but the one thing that might push this into DNF territory for me DESPITE THE INTERESTING WORLD

is the fucking fantasy spelling of known and existing concepts

like fucking dae and day

if you make up a creature person place concept whatever

yeah have it your way

use the beautiful spellings of faerie instead of fairy

but fucking

having to read dae which means day when the word day already exists and dae just means day

not my cup of tea

but i press on

wanna know about these moons

and the POV switches are in such tiny font compared to the rest of the text i was flipping back and forth to find it

and something just happened but im like?? i didnt have the time to get invested

so this doesnt mean anything to me

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ive kept reading and im really torn???? some parts are breathtakingly sweet and soft, like a nostalgic memory

and some parts are

so

disjointed

huh??

i feel like a third of it is lovingly crafted

and tbe other two thirds are just slapped together to fill pages

its a weird fucking experience

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im fucking incensed what the hell

one of the chapters ripped my heart out and tore it into shreds

and three chapters later there are so many fucking unnecessary made up fantasy words just crammed together holy hell

was this written by two different people

and if youre going to use your own made up words

give us some fucking explanation or show and tell

if i dont know whats going on because none of the words make sense how can i fucking read jesus christ

what the hell is going on in this book

im actually pissed because the quality of the writing is so inconsistent

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ok i finished it

am i fucking stupid? is it the kindle editions? or do all these books keep fucking putting pronunciation guides and glossaries at the back with zero indication they're there, not even a * or page at the front

maybe its a me problem but holy fuck

put the map at the back and the definitions and pronunciation at tne FRONT

AND THE FUCKING TRIGGER WARNINGS TOO WHY ARE THEY the last possible item

is it me??? am i the problem???

but like, ok, have the separate pronunciation guide and the glossary or definitions at the end

i still want some kind of BRIEF in-story explanation

people DO this to GREAT effect

it's fucking practical

and it does NOT break the stupid "show, dont tell" rule to have a character just do a quick "oh, MC is new/amnesiac/willfully ignorant, here's a 2 sentence primer"

anyways

overall, hate this book

it is NOT for me

i can sort of see why its paced and split the way it is? but also i cant

it feels very.......... it just feels like only a tiny sliver of the entire book is well polished

and the rest of it is slag, just tossed in

like????

the parts that i enjoy were enough to get me to finish the book but holy shit im pissed off

it could be so good!!!! but it's not!!!! overall the idea and the plot and all the strings are very good!!! but its so badly woven!!!!!!! except for a few shining hero moments

but what the fuck!!! it should all be equally good!!!!!!!!!!!

am i just a hater??? idk everyones fucking sucking this books dick and like

its like

a delicious meal that got dropped in a puddle full of shit

like there are pieces i liked! they were good! i see the potential! but fucking christ it was not a michelin experience and those tasty bites were not worth the rest of this meal??????? aaaaakrslhbgliugraiaubefigawrlharfk

[gaiatan]

What the heck is a ghost?

Ghosting is the act of making avatars for other users. This usually happens in the dressing room, a sub of the avatar talk thread (but sometimes you'll see it in the main AT thread or chatterbox)

Old farts (like me) might remember Tektek, which was similar in that you could make avis for people using its dream avatar simulator

but tektek is dead now! so what do you use?

why gaia's own avatar builder! now i cant say this thing is great....in fact a lot of people hate it but its all we got (unless you wanna build inside the normal avatar function) you can also change its layout with gaiaupgrade if you have it

At the top you'll see the Ghost? button, this lets you open a lil box you can type in someone's Ghost ID (the numbers on your profile url are your id) or their username (new-ish feature!) and then BAM you have their lil avatar (provided they have ghosting turned on, remember if you're asking for a ghost to make sure its on! or to let someone know that its not on if you want to ghost them and theyre asking for them)

there's three inventory options from here

Item DB: this is every SINGLE item that is on gaia and in the avatar builder, this does include items you cannot get as they've either never been released or are limited to like...one person and whoever they give them out to (so good luck if you're using this as an actual way to find new items)

My Inventory: this is items YOU own, this will be the only other option if you are not actively ghosting someone (which means the default avi will be you) this could be a good way to find items you know that the person you're ghosting doesnt have

Ghost User Inventory: this will only show up once you're actively ghosting someone, make sure to check you're on this if they request to ONLY use their own items! now you can see every item they own! (provided its for the base they're currently using, ie you wont see any paw items for human bases)

You finished the ghost now what?

navigate to the bbc code area, pick the option that fits their base and then copy and paste the code into a reply in the thread you're showing the ghost off to. mind you the image only is hosted for a limited time (the list will always be there) so if you need to keep the image you might want to save it somewhere!

How do i ask for a ghost?

You want a new avatar but you're stumped, maybe you really want to cosplay your oc or a character but you're stuck! or maybe you have a challenge for someone!

You have two main options

make a new thread: go to the board of your choice, usually the dressing room but hey if you wanna post in CB go ahead. state what you're looking for, if you want it to be strictly your own items or not (and if not if you have a budget or not), and as many details as you want. dont care? tell em to go nuts. have extremely specific needs and hate most avis people make? give htem as much info as you can and try to provide previous avis if you can (or avis you're inspired by)

you can also tack this onto your closet thread if youve made one (or whatever fitting thread if you're hosting a contest or something)

or

look for someone's ghosting shop: these are threads that people will run where they ghost other people, usually for a fee (more on that in a second) or for free (they also might not be really stated to be a shop they might just wanna ghost you or its a ghost for ghost thread)

I can get paid?

Ya sure can! and you can pay others as well! How much you pay is really...up to you as there's not really a set price on what people pay for ghosts. I've gotten anything from the mithril coins, a couple grand, to nearly 100k for avatars. you also can send wishlist items, items you dont want (some people ghost to get rid of items), just the tipping button (which i believe goes up to 1k?), to gcash, and even art

you also...dont have to. some people do ghosts for free

now go out there and haunt people i mean make avis for them or get avis made for you

[mothmvn]

uuuugh intellectual property rant i think about a lot because i can't bear to try the Artist career in current conditions

unfortunately digital media reality interacts really stupid with the concept of "intellectual property"

we can often secretly agree intellectual property is a bad thing because sharing and iterating upon ideas is a good thing, because for eons and eons that's been living creatures' method for moving forward. however, since you cannot actually own a digital or online object (it gets reproduced! that's how it's viewed on a new device! it exists by being copied and re-shared!), the intellectual property becomes the only thing underpinning the collection of pixels produced in digital art shared online

so then generally left-wing people still end up arguing for their inherent, capitalism-given right to restrict access to new or unique ideas. because this is already a system they exploit for money. not necessarily in a malicious way, but like, they have already built their careers on the current legal/tech platform, which depends on the idea that humans are not just legally, but morally wrong to steal and re-publish information. in a world where "information gets duplicated for free for the person to view your work" is the bones of the main communication system. am i going crazy here

idk, like it's difficult for me to even argue that people producing digital items have a property-like right to them. you have a layered PSD or Premiere file or whatever that you don't share (on some level this is "the artwork" in ALL its dimensions), and you share thousands of flat copies you can't claim to own (you hand them over to apps and websites). in practice, you "own" the right to sue someone else, if they use one of the many auto-generated copies in a way you personally dislike (e.g. they earn money that you believe you would have earned otherwise)

which like. that's still not "owning your art", in my understanding. what you "own" is the right to link endlessly multiplying copies to yourself - much like a book author over all copies printed anywhere and everywhere. but book copies are solid objects that can be stolen, at least! this falls apart with e-books just like it falls apart with digital artwork! we're all trying to fake some kind of monetisable scarcity with digital files!! ! am i going crazy here!!!!

(and the only way you can logic your way into scarcity is by believing in your own legally-reinforced superpower of Intellectual Property, an ephemeral flavour you create that no one else has the right to replicate. how recently in history did we invent this authorial overreach vs how long have we been iterating on shit in spite of our friend saying loudly in the background "Hey What the fuck I painted that kind of thing first")

so like, the entire argument put forth by anti-AI digital artists completely falls apart for me if i level with it morally, genuinely

i can't stop mulling this over because i Hate that the premise of "art for fun, for me" as a career, its financial security, is staked on me becoming a digital cop. i dont want to do that! and non-digital materials aren't the medium most actual art Work is done in (because again, that work takes place in the realm where we practise monetising IP & being an e-cop about people re-using my art). so the only role i can see art playing in my life is a hobby.

and i guess on an interpersonal level it sucks that I'm separated from most "real artists" just by this refusal to utilise "IP powers" in real life. refusal to rely on money i "should have earned" from someone else's re-iteration or re-share to a different audience. god just saying that makes me feel nasty - yeah, i the original artist coulda done that hypothetical re-iteration too, but DID I?! isn't that the argument we use to value art - "you coulda done it but DID YOU" ?!

i dont know. am i going crazy here.

[toriel-2]

alot of characterrs in isaac are very annoying but if you added one thing theyd be 1 billion times better.

-tainted lazarus? kind of annoying. make flip a 5-room charge instead of 6, just for t.laz and not the main item cause the main item is actually busted and the main reason it isnt on t.laz is because its t.laz, now suddenly alot of little things are working out way better

-i think tainted lost should have like a 25% chance that all consumables get replaced with holy card because the binding of isaac is bullshit and theres way too many things you can get hit by, and also t.lost's pool literally loses out on a bunch of defensive items so its even worse for him. help this cunt

-theres so many changes you could make to tainted jacob. birthright could give you mantle for the ghost form instead of a second fucking esau? birthright could make it so esau just does half a heart of contact damage, or even a full heart, or you could just make that a thing even without birthright and then give t.jacob an extra life thing like how lazarus has right now where when you die you turn into ghost jacob and next floor you come back? you could just give t.jacob flight as a base which someone suggested in the replies of one of my posts. just something more than what he is now which is not fun, i want him to be fun because i like having fun when i play video games and not hate myself.

-tainted blue baby is torture. he should get everything in the world. make him immune to his own explosions. make him start with 4 soul hearts. make the cement shit literally delete bosses. i dont fucking know. i literally just cheated and enabled godmode after like a straight week of using this character he is just so not fucking fun. which is weird cause he could in theory be fun if the whole Chuckin' Shit thing he does just deleted enemies but it doesnt. he's a bad character edmond

[sidesteppostinghours]

:33 18 and 6 for cynthia and 23 and 42 for caine? also E for both of them?

evening!! hii sammy :D (and gm to you)!

18. What embarrasses them?

oh my beloved little girl gets embarrassed/flustered super easily, its a trait many (ortega and themmy) have exploited before. broadly, something that would embarrass her is just being put in the center of attention. shes got extremely low arrogance, she prefers sticking to the sidelines whenever possible. its also a role shes more used to playing– back in her sidestep days, she was a sidekick, and even earlier than that, back in the farm, she specialized more on tailing and tracking people. she wasnt trained to act in front of a group of people that wasnt serving them, and alongside her whole,,, thing with the past, shed revisit it often and itd be a nightmare for her lol.

6. Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?

ooh this is interesting. hmmm. id say she defaults to laws being immovable, but given the right incentive she could find out some creative ways to push them. i guess the best way to explain it is like. you know dnd alignments? yeah shed be lawful good, but resting on the trigger finger of true neutral. it wasnt like that before she met the rangers, id categorize her as lawful neutral because of what the farm taught her, but the rangers gave her a sense of purpose and morality that shifted that neutrality into good. she still gets apprehensive when she thinks about going against what shes been told, especially since she grew up with this getting drilled into her.

23. How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)? 

you know, caines not the type to get jealous over what people have, its not useful to think about what couldve been when they could be spending their time thinking about how to use the resources hes got effectively and overall hes very content with the draw life has given him, so-

*remembers mortums lab exists*

i take back everything i just said, caine would strangle god with his bare hands for the chance to play with her lab

for him though, envy ends up being more of a mix of wistfulness and awe. hes not very antagonistic when he gets like this, youll just get a lot of questions from them and possibly see the very rare caine puppy dog eyes as they stare forlornly at the item they want (which. lets be real here. is more than likely something tech related. you will never see caine as happy as when he got the chance to play with ortegas mods).

42. How badly do they want to reach their end goal? 

a reasonable amount! dont. dont look at the driven achievement. no you dont have to check their drive stat, hey stop looking at the stats-

hes willing to do what it takes to achieve his goals, no matter how badly it hurts, because he genuinely believes its that important. theyll sacrifice a lot for what they believe is the greater good. its less that he wants to reach his end goal, and more that they need to. its something that goes beyond what they feel (and thats part of the reason they attribute their motivation to fate rather than justice!).

E) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?

Caine- theyre already very difficult to get close to usually, and hes rather aloof and hard to talk to. theyre polite, just,,, distant. i already struggle with holding conversations so itd peter out very quick. unless we somehow got on the subject of tech. in which case fuck yeah i know how to work my way through an infodump and itd probably be a fun conversation. most likely though, wed be in the same room and minding our own business lol.

Cynthia- oh i would hate talking to her. SHED BE NICE AND POLITE AND SWEET BUT GOD SHED BE SO DIFFICULT TO TALK TO. we both tend to react to the energy the other person gives off but our default state is quiet and polite, with the anxiety of a nervous lapdog. everytime id think of talking to her id probably have an anxiety spike because theres so few things to talk about, both of us require specific dialogue options to unlock character information and i could not deal with that stress 😭😭😭

questions from here!

[cringelordofchaos]

You asked Berry this so I am asking YOU out of spite for not asking ME

YOUR SONIC HEADCANONS??

IFHASHFKAJHVKAHDKC

uhmm ill be my own attorney in the court; in my defense, your honour, i saw berry reblog a post specifically about sonic sexuality headcanons and berry shared their hcs in the tags but also put in the tags abt how their 'headcanons may change'. and i wanted to see if their headcanons changed so i asked them

ANYWAY

uhh these r all pretty much identity + nd hcs so sorry if u were lookin for more

(edit:wait actually im gonna sort this into two parts:: queer + nd headcanons and then like. backstory and personality hcs)

SONIC: adhd, used to hc him as bi ace but fuck it hes romance repulsed oriented aroace, also me likes the idea of him being genderqueer in some way, moreso specifically either transmasc nonbiney or transmasc trigender. also adhd (side note i heard someone sayhe couldnt possibly have adhd cuz "he can focus on missions" and. wjhat.) also maybe ptsd from thecountless traumatic experiences hess had to endure

AMY: sappho. i have also adhd'ed her in the past but im not so sure npw. i also saw someone hc her as bipolar and thas valid

TAILS: i know he can definitely represent as an autistic stereotypce but look at him :(( (but i genuinely think his backstory is sort of a metaphor for the nd experience. and also i think theres a lot of things that may make him autistic codedthough albeit many of them r stereotypical). special interest in engineering

KNUCKLES: bisexual as ffffff, though he doesnt give a shi abt labels

and ofc STTICKS:: demirose lesbiian. . also female but she rlly doesnt care abt gender. also autistci mayhaps

now for the more interesting hcs:

SONIC: something traumatic happened to him that made him scared of water in the first place, thas for sure methinks. he also just doesnt really show his negative emotions and he moreso just tries to 'dealw it' instead. i have headcanoned this for years as many others have and it appears to be somewhat canon in frontiers which is pretty great. he plays the electric guitar and is a pretty skilled singer and yeah. chilli dawgs r his comfort food....... loves rock electric and heavy metal and sometimes listens to it on his runs. pretty comfortable w being independent . also this is not a headcanon but i dont think his idw iteration is that out of character. he sees pretty much everyone (rivals and frenemiesalike) as friendos

AMY: has some form of abandonment issues which is what makes her as clingy as she is. generally used to feel left out and misunderstood from sonic n others in games like adventure and adventure2 but their relationshipsget better. listen. listen i heard someone on tumblr hc amy having abandonment issues and it hasnt left my miind since. she used to feel embarrassed by herself and her personality but became much more expressive of herself as time went on bc she starrted feeling more accepted. DEFINITELY writes fanfiction and fancomics and draws fanart and likes theatre(this is canoon actually). has meetings w the girlsTM where she just reads their fortune n everything. she also said in one game that she aspires to BE LIKE sonic and i have hcs abt that as well. can b mischievious and sneaky. has a tarot card reading BUSINESS this girl earns money for this !! shes very magiical girl bc she can pull her hammer out there, tell the future, turn invisible, has a 'sonic snese' but this is not a headcanon this is canon. plays the violin. loves to create fun outfits. into knitting and crocheting. . yeah i have more

TAILS: he can get pretty insecure of himself at times, heholds high expactations of himself and feels like if he doesnt meet them he might as well be a failure. ooopslol. he also hates when ppl misinterperets who he is as a person and when they undermine how skilled he is. he sometimes doesnt really let others know how he feels and hides it w a positive attitude. his gizmo is his comfort item. sonic was his first friend. the reason why he acted cocky in lost world and constantly pointed out how they shouldnt trust eggman (although it was super ooc) is bc of how insecure he was and he felt like sonic didnt trust himenough. and he feels bad abt it. hm. he also likes to draw sometimes and is generally skilled and precise, partly bc he has to draw blueprints for his creeations. one of them orphans. wags his tails/unintentionally starts flying when hes excited (stimming woag). hes not really SCARED of thunderstorms but they ARE a sensory nightmare for hiim (loud, bright/0). sonic sort of 'taught him how to make friends'. he still has cosmo in the form of a plant inside his house. he has many bunkers/ Sometimes he has a hard time accepting help (inherited from his older brotherlol). his tails are an nd allegoryOK ILL SHUT UP NOW

KNUCLES: icoud rambllea lot about him whenever im in the mood especially when i seeppl misinterperet him but i dont really have much HEADcanons bc everything i say abt him is canon

STICKS: ok this is gonna sound wild and its definitely not original but. she has abandonment/truusst issues relatedto her former parents that have something to do w the government which is one of the reasons she became so hateful of th egovenrment. dont ask (actually do if you want to). generally feels free to be herself but there are times when she feels ashamed of her wild side ig you couldcall it. very creative.

the reason why theres not shadow even though hes one of the more popular ones is bc im just not obsessed w him at the moment sorry :(

I HAVE MORE but these are all FOR NOW

now YOU TELL ME YOUR SONIC HEADCANONS SO I DONT LOOK AS DELUSIONAL [[POINTS FINGER AT YOU]]

[firelord-frowny]

YIKES lmaooo accidentally made myself cryyyyy re-reading this bit of fanfiction i have no recollection of writinggggg omfg.

tbh i feel like this is worth the read even if you dont give a fraction of a flying fuck about fanfic or about assassins creed lmao bc like. its a very expressive and eloquent exploration of how hard it is to see yourself through the eyes of someone who loves you when you fucking hate yourself 🙃

“My body, it… it’s so weak. And soft. I’m not strong enough to fight anyone. I’m not fast enough to run away.” 

“Your mind is just as effective a self-defense tool as any sword or shield.” 

“Is it, though?” 

“You’re here. You’ve survived things that many people wouldn’t have.” 

“That is true. But what I’ve had to give up? The things I’ve had to let happen to me? A man invites himself unto my body. And I don’t want him there. But I can’t stop him. At the end of it, I’m uninjured. But not because I fought him off. I’m uninjured because I negotiated. Because I figured out what he wanted most out of me. And I handed it over. So he wouldn’t have to hurt me in order to steal it. I get robbed all the time. But I don’t lose my most prized items because I’ve learned how to hide them. Or disguise them. Or convince my assailants that my less expensive belongings are worth more than they really are. I never win anything, Alexios. I’m never saved by my intellect. And you should know what I’m talking about, because you are exactly the kind of person who relishes in finding a mark like me. One who is so painfully aware of their own shortcomings that they don’t even try to put up a fight. I survive. I don’t triumph. And if my body were strong, then maybe I could triumph. Someday. In some way.” 

“Not everyone can be… strong, or fast. And not everyone can be brilliant. I think if I had a mind like yours, then… I would probably have become someone I could be a lot more proud of than I am. You think having to use wit instead of force to protect yourself is a weakness, but what I wouldn’t give to know how to end a conflict without resorting to extreme violence. I’m not saying that it doesn’t make sense for you to feel how you do. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt that kind of helplessness. I’m just saying that the way you are… the body that you have… there is nothing wrong with you. You are beautiful. And worthy, and powerful in your own right. You, exactly the way you are, have a valuable place in the world. Especially my world. I need you. The version of you that sits before me right now. That’s what I need.” 

“I don’t understand. I can’t do anything for you.” 

He looked at me for a long time. The calculating look. The one he gets when he’s examining a rockface he’s never climbed before. Looking for footholds and handholds. Scoping out the most efficient rout. Or, perhaps, the look he gets when he’s gauging just how fast he needs to run to clear the jump from one plateau to another. Estimating how much strength he’ll need to conserve to reach the top of a mountain. The only difference between Alexios and a mathematician is that Alexios never actually deals with numbers. But he calculates all the same. He solves equations in a glance that a polymath would need an abacus for. Perhaps he can’t tell you in numbers exactly how far away one handhold is from the next, but he’ll launch himself the precise distance, nonetheless. And it’s because of that look in his eyes that I know that the next words he said to me would be thoroughly considered and thoughtful. 

We’ve been this close, and closer, thousands of times by now. But this time felt brand new. Breathtaking. Absolutely ethereal. 

His hands slid to rest on my outer thighs, pressing gently so the contact between my inner thighs and his hips was solid. Then he held me by my waist, traveling again to the small of my back, then up higher, moving slow and reverent. 

Then he told me, “I wish I had your gift for words so I could tell you what this feels like for me.” 

I said, “Just close your eyes and speak.” 

I closed my eyes, too, and then after a moment, I heard him sigh. Then he speaks. Quiet, low, and slow.

“This… is the softest place I’ve ever been in my life. As long as I can remember, everything around me has been… sharp. Serrated. Hard. Rough. I’m smashing metal against metal. Bone against stone. I’m cutting, or being cut. I only touch people to hurt them. The most soothing thing I ever feel is someone else’s blood warming my skin. But now I’m here. Between your thighs. And the way your body ‘gives’ under my touch… you don’t even have to hold me to embrace me. You’re so. Soft. And all I have to do to be surrounded by you is touch you. All I have to do is touch you, and now everything jagged in me gets to know what it feels like to be smoothe. I’ve always been so angry about my life. Resentful. Suffering for no good reason. But now I come home to you, and lay beside you and all I can do is thank the Gods for everything I’ve ever been through that turned me into someone who can keep a soft, precious thing like you safe.”

Oh. 

One day, someday, maybe it will stop surprising me every time Alexios takes my breath away. Maybe I’ll stop being caught off guard every time he finds a new way to tell me he loves me. 

Then he said, “I wish you could appreciate the balance. Appreciate that maybe, in some way, people like you and me are made for each other. Who you are brings such wonderful meaning to who I am and what I’ve been through. I wish who I am could bring similar meaning to you. I wish you could love the things about yourself that are so precious to me.” 

I think I left my body in that moment. Sitting there in front of Alexios. In front of this man made of solid audacity and nerve, smelted and forged. I couldn’t remain in my body if I was to stand a chance at fathoming how the words he just said could be said about me by anyone at all, let alone him. 

I know I left my body because when I heard him finally say, “Why are you shaking?” I didn’t know why he’d ask such a thing. But I looked down at my hands, and yes, they were trembling. And I felt myself slam back into my corporeal form - heavy, and unsteady, like an earthquake. 

Indeed, I think I was shaking because my whole world had just been rattled. My entire self-concept, shifted like a fault line. That there should be any use for the utter desolation I’ve suffered through? That all the things I hate most about myself could bring any meaning at all to another person’s suffering? I was shaking with the exertion of struggling to hold my understanding together. But when I answered him, all I said was, “I’m sorry.” 

He held both of my hands.”You’re sorry? What for? What did I say that made you think you should be sorry?” 

The grief in my throat was so thick, I could barely speak. But I forced the words out: “I’m letting you down.” And right around this moment was when tears overwhelmed my eyelids. And I think I could hear Alexios’s heart shattering.

He gasped a little and then said, “What? By the Gods, no, no. That’s not it at all. Never.” He let go of my hands, but only to slide his arms the rest of the way around me. I felt his lips on my forehead, and then my ear against his chest. He held me just like he did that very first time. It took my breath away then, and it still takes my breath away now. “I don’t ever want you to believe anything other than that I’m so, so proud of you. Proud to be with you. Honored that you’ll even look at me. I didn’t say all those things in criticism. I said them to try to help you see how much you mean to me.” 

That only broke me even more. And racked me with even more guilt. I didn’t want to disappoint him more by apologizing again, so I didn’t. Not out loud, anyway. In my head, I was pleading. Praying. I’m sorry your love is wasted on me. 

Then he looked down at me and said, “...But you can’t, can you? You really… you honestly just can’t.” 

He pulled me in close again, gently swaying, rocking. And I heard him say, “I’m so, so sorry for what’s been taken from you.

[bunbunpawz]

jFashion

I hate it when people shame others for not being 100% accurate to their fashion. So many circumstances come into play, there is never a need to be rude when people are trying so hard. Long ago, before jirai kei, I tried to put my feelings in other fashion, I tried Lolita, Gyaru, soft girl, 90′s trend when it was a thing etc. I found myself drawn more towards the aesthetic of Japanese clothes, I wouldn’t mind wearing not Jfashion but at least in my country and my circumstances there weren’t many girlier, softer cuts for clothes. So naturally I became more interested in the Japanese clothing. Lolita was one example, in Japan, Lolita fashion is a lot more broad and forgiving. Fashion in general in Japan if forgiving. But when I tried it back in my own country, there were so many rules to follow! And I do undestand that without some guidelines, any A line dress could become “lolita”, which can beome so vague that it no longer looks accurate to the look. However with so many rules, I found myself more stressing out than relaxing in garments I enjoy wearing. Even something as small as saying “lolita” instead of “lolita fashion” could be ridiculed. Even when the intend is very clear to what I mean.  I was drawn to the country lolita the most, because I wanted to feel a sense of simplisity and freedom, and in general I have a more softer persoanlity. Kinda Ironic I chose to wear Jirai Kei over Ryousangata isn’t it? In anyway, I had about the same feelings people developed years later towards Cottage Core. By the time that became a trend I already quit.  Gosh, I remember how every detail mattered, down to socks and if your shoes have open or closed toes, even when the Japanese lolita fashion accepted either! It was so stressfull. With Gyaru, I never actually got to go outside dressed in gyaru. I went to a meet up once but I kinda messed up and thought it was themed like the meet up before that. Because of that I felt kinda shamed and missplaced. So gave up here too.  I tried some classic Jfashion too, the Harajuku very known ones like Dekora and Mori-kei. Later I just wanted to find easier to find clothes that were simple and comfortable to wear while also easy to find. BUT AGAIN! my country didn’t come through for me. Something as simple as a plain white T-shirt was such a mess to find. Wide Jeans what were those? It would be years before they returned back to fashion. WIth such circumastances its no wonder I had to go through loops and hoops to find anything close to what I was looking for. On top of that I couldn’t order online and could only rely on what I could purchase at a store and with minimal income. Luckily for me we had Jfashion stores, very expensive ones, but every now and  then a gold item would pop up. Something cheap and good looking.  Thats why even though SheIn is awful for the enviorment, it can be so helpful too. Its a double edge sword really. People that cant get the correct sillouete or order from japan, or even just afford the style, can get cheap, stolen designs from shein that cost a fraction, but are also made cheaply in comparison. But sometimes that is all you can do. I dont support theft of course not, but popular desings that are stolen within the community itself, I cant help but feel like maybe its alright? For example, the Jirai Kei bear pattern clothes are so popular, many different brands made similar designs and copied off of each other. Shein also made a similar design, which can be called out for being awful, or can be called out for being inclusive to people that cant afford the bigger brands or order from Japan. And what about Plus size? Most Japanese brands are onesize, to a 3 size methood, which depends on your country could be summed up to, XS, S and M. And what nobody ever talks about is that Japanese women are short! so clothes made in Japan for Japanese women, tend to be short. If you’re a western person like me, even if you’re not that tall, you might not be able to wear the clothes without exposing your belly or not having it sit prooperly on your arms. With such inclusivity I really do enjoy the freedom of using Shein for Jfashion. I haven’t actually ordered much from Shein, because I still cant splurge but from what I did see and try, it can be a hit or miss and with Jfashion it seems to be more of a hit.

[mmuffncakes]

SELF LOVE TIME BITCH

17, 6, 29, 25, 4

😘

17 ) fairy lights or LED lights

fairy lights 100%. i want to decorate fairy lights in each room to create a little twinkle and soft gradient of warmth throughout the entire home.

6 ) say three nice things about yourself (three physical and three non-physical)

first of all, thats six things. and how dare you do this to me. the three physical - my eyes are a pretty color? (hazel, technically, my mom always called them gold) uuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i like my freckles? and uhm... ive got weirdly nice legs? this was harsh, i dont like my body a whole lot so i struggle with this. the three non-physical - i do actually like the fact that i have a lower voice. i know lower voices arent super common in afab people so i do like that i have one and can force it lower. i actually dont know if that counts as a non-physical. uhm...... i like that i have one of those minds that can visualize an entire scene with 100% detail when it comes to items, stories, etc. and.... i guess.... i like.... mmmmmyyyy.... i feel selfish for saying these things. like, arrogant? but i guess i like my empathic connections. to the people around me, to the people beyond. i hated that. never make me do that again.

29 ) morning, afternoon, or night

i am an early bird. i think i answered this with someone else (i think it was eto?) about this. and my answer still stands:

25 ) what's the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc)

something i can use. i am a person of hands, textiles, use. a lot of the times i struggle with buying myself something now because i dont know what to *do* with it, as in tchotchke type things. if its something i can *use* then i know they care. because, again, im a person of doing things. so this could include like, a handcarved spoon or spatula, a custom painted ceramic plate or bowl, a quilt of different textiles that i can feel and connect with, a spun mug, things i can *use*, that will get *use*, that will feel the struggles and efforts of life and gain their own scars and mends and care for the things i do.

4 ) what flower would you like to be given

somewhere, i think i have my favourite flowers listed. i dont recall where (might be on the main blog), but my favourites are forget-me-nots and ranunculous. stars of bethlehem and canterbury bells. but ranunculous is probably what i would like to be given of them all as theyre the largest of the bunch. maybe with some hydrangeas. blood red sunflowers. black dahlias. fern fronds. lemon and orange blossoms. many a things.

[plushiekisser]

pinned

about me:

name: oz or ozzy

hoarde name: the cat cafe

objectum and posic

main: @lightboundhellhound

follows from: @lightboundsystem-main

dni:

racists, sexists, antisemites, islamophobes, queerphobes, exclusionists (i loveee mspec lesbians/gays and all kinds of men and all the neopronouns and gender hoarders 🥰 etc etc)

zionists/anti palestine/pro israel

proshippers/anti antis, HP apologists, dream apologists

terfs/people who say they hate all men (man haters don't pass the vibe check)

anti endogenic systems (just accept the fact that the human brain is capable of things you don't understand and move on)

pro life/anti abortion

maps/pedos & zoos + their supporters (including those who think these are queer identities. no the fuck they are not)

companions under the cut

companion list:

Claude

item type: thrifted build a bear bunny

pronouns: he/him

age: adult (older than me, that’s all i know)

info: our anniversary is june 19. he was in a rock band in high school, and can shred on guitar. has trust issues and doesn’t like talking about himself

Nat

item type: bluetooth headphones

pronouns: she/her, it/its, tech/techs, 🎧/🎧s, cy/ber/nets/cyberself

age: adult, i think the same age as me?

info: i lowkey have a crush on her 👉🏻👈🏻 its name stands for Noise-canceling Artistic Technology, and tech was a normal pair of headphones until 🎧 gained sentience. now cy wants to make nets own music

Eight

item type: thrifted skateboard

pronouns: he/him, xe/xem

age: adult

info: punk rock legend that i have a crush on 👉🏻👈🏻 we dont hang out often enough cos i still haven’t learned to skate 😔 i wanna hang out with xem i just dont know what i could do other than practice skating. which im bad at :,)

Snip

item type: thrifted beanie baby cat

pronouns: he/him

age: im getting older child, younger tween vibes? ten ish??

info: likes to hang out on my shoulder like a parrot haha. i think he has a brother but i can’t decipher the details (snip doesn’t communicate verbally but i can pick up small things like “hello” and “thank you” and stuff)

Florence

item type: thrifted music box

pronouns: it/its

age: definitely adult, probably older than me

info: plays Schwarzwald Mädel and sounds beautiful 🥰 it doesn’t communicate much in any way, but it’s a beloved companion regardless. if it did talk tho, i think the lid would be its mouth. that’s the vibe i get anyway lol. oh and this is another object i have a crush on (i may be aro for people but i fall for objects so easily lmao)

Waffles

item type: easter bunny beanie baby from like 2010 ish (“real” name is hoppity i think)

pronouns: he/him

age: child

info: the moment i saw him he said “hi!!! im waffles!!! :D” and i knew i had to keep him lmao. he’s very eager to please and wants to make friends more than anything 💜

Marigold

item type: build a bear

pronouns: she/her

age: early 20s

info: we don’t communicate a whole lot but i’ve got a crush on her just like with so many of my companions lmao. she’s got a heart of (mari)gold 💜

[ravio-rants]

11, 12, and 14 for the OC asks!

-11. Is there a specific physical feature or item that holds special significance to your character? Why is it important to them?

For my twili group: they have a special tree! its a secluded spot where the 4 of them hang out a lot. its in the middle of a field, out of the way of major roads and towns. they found it one day while just wandering around, and decided that it was Their Tree. if one of them isnt around their usual spots, they are probably relaxing at the tree. I'll probably draw it sometime!

adding a hobic option as well because its funny, his staff is probably a very significant item for him. i think he wouldve gotten it when he became a full fledged wizard, which was also around the time he transitioned and came out as gay, meaning its the first magical item he earned, and he earned it as his true self. thats significant to him, even if most other wizards dont get it.

-12. How does your character react to change or unexpected situations? Are they adaptable or resistant?

raide is probably pretty adaptable! shes a very "fuck it, we ball" type guy. whatever happens, he'll probably be fine with it, as long as nobody is hurt by it. they would probably just shrug the change off and continue on with their day.

calen on the other hand.. he would be more resistant. dont get me wrong, he's willing to accept change, eventually, but its Scary! he gets anxious about it! he wont admit that though, at least not to anyone other than raide. unexpected situations are generally Not Welcome when it comes to this boyo. he Will panic about it. (unless its one of his friends asking for help with something. he would give the world for them, even to his detriment.)

kalt.. hm. i feel like he'd be slightly anxious aboutt change and unexpected situations, but he trusts the people around them so they'd accept it. itll probably be okay, right?

vang would probably be very calm and collected about all of it. change? alright, give her a day to plan things around it and everythings fine. she can figure it out. unexpected situations? she can probably work out what to do about it, if you give her a moment. (she's most of the reason kalt is fine woth change.) shes very reliable when it comes to most things.

hobic would rather live in a house that actively hates who he is on a fundamental level than face change or unexpected situations. this is a very literal example. his house hates him, but he's lived there so long that he would rather just Not leave actually. at least the house is predictable about it, you know?

-14. What is your character's preferred method of self-expression? Do they have any artistic talents or creative outlets?

raide loves so many forms of art! if you took a peek into his house, you would find art supplies of every type all over. sewing and instrument playing and drawing and painting and crocheting and embroidery and sculpting and- (his fav is just regular old drawing though.)

calen prefers to play music or write stories! both are very calming and in the moment things, and he can just get absolutely lost in them. his preffered method of self expression is probably his music specifically. he loves how music can explain things without the need for words at all.

kalt likes painting! hes not very good at it, but they dont care. they'll paint whatever the hell they want and if someone doesnt like it? thats their problem, not his. (its usually landscapes.)

vang likes to sing, she loves all sorts of music, but if it has lyrics? you bet she's going to be humming or singing it around the castle randomly. she does write her own lyrics sometimes, and then asks calen or raide to help her add a tune to it. (or vice versa, where one of them makes a song and then asks vang for some good lyrics for it!)

do spells count as a form of art? because if so, thats hobics choice. he also writes but he really just likes casting spells. or coming up with new spells. or fucking up spells-

[my-lunaberg]

Ive accidentally reached the post limit so Ive basically been doing my liveblog in my notes app, i wrote all of this while watching the February 4th 2022 vod

Oughhhhhhhh the way Sams literally begging

Oh the "present" is gonna be a clock isnt it

Oh nvm its a cake, which is just. so evil man, cakes have terrible saturation but Sam doesnt have anything else so ofc hes gonna be grateful even though its shit

Actually, now that I think about it, I think I was definitely wrong about Dreams manipulation tactics changing with his goals. Like, i still dont think he wants to work with Sam or be 'friends' with him like with Tommy during the exile arc, but he is still doing the thing of breaking people down and then building them up with a fascimile of kindness so that theyll listen to him

Im assuming the time passed irl is the same as the time passed in-universe which means that Sam has been alone in the prison for 4 days but Dream is a lying motherfucker whos telling him that its only been one day

Okay now hes saying its been 2 days but hes still lying

HE DID GET HIM A CLOCK IM GONNA LOSE IT

Okay he wants to compare hkmself and Sam, Im very curious bc this will hopefully grant us some insight into how Dream like, actually percieves himself and his actions

Okay, two things:

1. Dream being like "[the evil bunker full of everyones sentimental items] was just theater" has some serious Wilbur vibes ngl

2. Dream is sooooooo obsessed with Tommy istg

Dream is asking Sam what bad things hes done aside from manipulate Tommy and be dramatic and Sam is like "uhhhhh idk tbh......" as though Dream isnt the guy responsible for Lmanberg blowing up thrice

Sam is basically asking Dream if the things Dream did were wrong/bad and its like, you cant do that, you cant cushion your opinions on someones bad action in this kind of insecurity, especially if youre talking to someone known to be manipulative!!

Ouhhghhh the way Dream can basically make up anything he wants about Tommys time in exile because barely anyone, but esepcially not Sam, visited him

"How was it my fault that Tommy was exiled" I dont even have anything to say, Im just kinda enamoured by the realization of how little people other than Tommy and maybe Wilbur actually know about the exile

Dream just mentioned the Egg and 1. I had already basically completely forgotten about that and 2. The timeline of Drea involvement with the Egg is like, he briefly checked on it back when everything was still kinda kicking of, didnt worry about it for weeks or even months and then he was in jail for a year and he basically completely missed all of the Egg Lore like damn, I hope Punz properly explained all that bullshit to him lol

God, Im projecting so hard rn but Dream weaponizing his own genuine suffering in order get what he wants which also shields him from having to confront the ways it was made him suffer and how it actually affected him is so relatable

Ive been spoiled so I know theyre gonna try and make c!Dream more sympathetic later on and i know a lot of people really hate that and honestly, I think a lot of it comes down to the fact that he didnt get his own POV/only got it very late which gives people less opportunity to sympathize or empathize with him and also really dehumanizes him. Idk this is kinda complex and I'll probably make a seperate post about it

Im going to lose my mind, Dreams monologue about how everyone is the hero in their own story and a villain in many others literally sounds like a thesis statement, like if the Dream SMP had a kids show-esque "message" like so many people inexplicably want it to, it would be this more than literally anything else

OHHHHHHHH the double meaning of Dream telling Sam that he built the prison for him. mwah, perfection

"Dream said he wouldnt lock anyone up in the prison" WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU CAN TRUST HIM

Ooooooooooo Sam grouping himself in with Dream..........

HES TAKING SAM OUT OF THE PRISON

Hes giving Dream full access to the prison theres no way this could possibly go well

Sam as the users manual for the prison vs Dream as the revival book...........

👁👁 HES KILLING SAM??

SAMS DEAD VOD OVER