#dont think im explainin this all too well but

[cherry-shipping]

o i think i realized why i was suddenly embarrassed talking about me and sans. while getting used to talking abt my ships publicly i decided itd be easier to talk about him in a half joking post dating kinda way (i.e. “hes my boyfriend and i love him”). but that means that my favorite part in our relationship to think about (pre dating stuff) is still embarrassing as hell

[tschulijulesjulie]

TW: SA/ rape

a way too long (sorry) analysis of the SA scene in Captive Prince, or my thoughts on aforementioned quote

so people keep criticising how Laurent SA'd Damen and then later they become lovers and that is obviously a valid concern.

tbh ive been struggling to explain this scene for quite some time. the lashing scene is explainable (which is not the same as excusable!) once you know Laurent knew of Damens real identity - hes trying to get his revenge in that scene.

so what is the SA scene about? is he still trying to get revenge? was the lashing his punishment for killing Auguste and the SA now is to punish Damen for the SA Laurent had endured from the regent?

i think in a way it is, metaphorically - BUT it also isn't because Laurent actually doesn't want it to happen (which i will explainin a second but it makes such a difference!).

the lashing was clearly planned and orchistrated by Laurent (i already talked about the bath scene in more detail) - the SA isn't.

he takes Damen to the garden to make an impression on Herode and also so he learns about the Akielon slaves (if i remember correctly).

he gets surprised by Vannes, Berenger and Ancel turning up. until then, there no problem.

So Vannes would like to see Damen perform. she is imo the only one out of the people present who actually wants that. im not entirely sure but i do think she kind of doesn't understand the concept of slavery. Veretians dont have slaves and relationships - or rather contracts - with pets are mostly consensual (i say mostly because yk Nicaise and so on)

so then there is Berenger, who... well, i feel like he kinda doesn't want to be there at all and is totally uninterested in Damen and the entire proceedings of this situation lmao (maybe even a little displeased or alienated but he doesn't show it and thats whats important here!!!)

and then there is Ancel, who is a very ambitious pet as we learn in his short story. and as such he obviously trys for the princes attention (why wouldn't he? and i mean - it works in a way, doesn't it?) and the only way he knows how to get attention like that is to sell himself sexually - like he even only got to the palace because he was daring and cunning in the ring and made an impression on the most influential person present. hes just trying to do that again.

and last but not least theres Laurent. (well theres actually also Erasmus present and obviously Damen, but thats not important rn because neither of them has a say in this situation, again thats an entirely different problem but we know Laurents standing on slavery)

so what Laurent is currently dealing with is his lack of alliances. his uncle has the support of most of the court and Laurent is desperately trying to get some people (back) on his side. we see (or not see) him trying to "recruit" Herode just moments before.

i feel like after the lashing for now hes done with Damen. like, yeah he still has to deal with that guy one way or another, but he has already gotten some hatered out of the way through the lashing and now he can concentrate on more important things (yes, Damen, youre not that important at all rn)

but now Vannes expresses explicitly her desire to see Damen "perform" and Ancel is insisting so he must also desire to perform with Damen and if he does, so must Berenger - thats the way Laurent must see it at least.

and we know that Laurent has (understandibly) not the best understanding of sexual matters. i feel like he would see sex as some type of transactional good (in a way it might actually be in the Veretian court tbf)

so he contemplates. he has no desire to make Damen perform, despite the things he said at the ring (i feel like his need to punish/hurt Damen might have significantly decreased now that he has already done that with the lashing) - you could even read his reluctance as resentment of the idea tbh: he might be uncomfortable with sexuality in general as an result of his trauma but its also clear how much he openly dislikes sexual acts that are even slightly dubious consent (e.g. the ring, you can clearly see his dislike of the entire thing once you know what youre looking for)

but his main goal rn is to get more alliances and strengthen the ones he already has. and here are three people that are one of the few ones he has rn or that he wants to have (like Ancel) and they all seemingly want Ancel do perform with Damen.

So Laurent buries his displeasure about the whole thing and does what he thinks will have the best outcome for him - he literally only wants to please these three people (not to mention out of whom only one actually does want the actual "performance")

going even further - yes, im not done yet - he "whores himself out", too, through Damen because thats actually one of the very few ways he knows how to get people to be on someones side.

the thing is: he will be the one actually performing during the scene. Damen literally doesn't do anything the entire time (fair). Ancel might be the one actually giving the bj but its with Laurents instructions (if i remember the short story correctly hes very annoyed about that lmao). its even Laurent who only gets Damen hard and its Laurent Damen is looking at when he cums. Ancel is the instrument through which Laurent performs.

so does that make it any less of SA? no obviously not - it even raises the question where does it end?

Ancel initialtes it, but he doesn't actually want to suck Damen off, its just the only way to get the princes attention in his experience. hes a pet with limited power and limited ways to make the best of a situation. and even tho technically consensual, the entire pet thing is still super weird and sketchy (thats an entirely other topic tho).

Laurent allows it and "helps" with his instructions and is objectively the most powerful person out of them all. but at the same time he is actually just as powerless or even less powerful than Ancel. in a way hes just a pet in that situation too.

the people that actually do hold the power in this scene are Vannes and Berenger and i dont think they know it at all.

so, whos actually to blame? whos assaulting and whos assaulted?

but to cut this very long story short, what im trying to say is, that saying Laurent SA'd Damen is not really accurate and making it extra easy when the entire thing is decidedly not.

[justalilpearlie]

hi guys dont mind me being insane again

im not tagging this too much cus its more of a personal ramble cus idk im feelin silly today and the BPD hits too hard. i wont be explainin what BPD is either so if u dont know either look it up or ignore this post,,

man i. have you ever loved someone so much you cry? /pos

like man i. its not romantic, may i clarify. most of my fps, except for my main one, are platonic. one of them is familial even

but i just. i feel like such a parasocial freako but i genuinly feel so intensely. its so positive too. if you ignore the crippling paranoia i always have abt my fps hating me or me being so intense they get uncomfortable...

but i just??? im not. normal about them.

i dont wanna sound creepy but they make my world so much better. id take a bullet from them. if give anything for them to be alright. i genuinly just REALLY enjoy their company and knowing theyre having fun with me aswell. knowing they enjoy me as a person. that im not a nuisance for the people i love the most.

and gosh i really hope they dont see this. i would feel so ashamed and embarassed if they did.

luckly i have better ways of copying with distress, attachment issues, jealousy, possesiveness, and all that other FUN (not) stuff that comes with BPD or rather specifically having an fp. A nice trustworthy psychologist (if u can afford it) does wonders to you, let me tell you.

its still hard sometimes but ive learnt to deal with it in ways that arent destructive to my relationships with those around me. i can cool down and such instead of lashing out or splitting for the most minimal things.

but now. for whatever reason. i went on a huge "positive" ramble instead. it was meant to be appreciation at the time, and still is, but i feel like its something that couldve scared them off. i showed some stuff to irl friends and online family, and everyone said theyd feel very appreciated if someone told them that stuff, but i cant help but feel is because they're my loved ones also and stuff. i really. really feel like i was too intense. i suck at showing affection in a normal way, a calm way, subtle way, like a normal person.

at this point i think. sigh i think its better if i just say nice things anonymously. i think if people, in general, not only my fps. but if people dont know affection comes from me they'll take it so much better than if they know its *me* in particular. and idk why! its just my brain being stupid again.

brains love doing that, dont they? being stupid. telling you everyone hates you oh so much no matter what you do. that theyre lying behind your back, and hate you in secret, theyre just being polite and allat.

well let me tell you, dear reader, whoever the fuck might read this, specially if its from the bpd tags: thats not true. sure, there might be assholes out there, but those people you think hate you despite how close you are, most likely dont. and i cant even get this through my own head but my sister repeats it to me all the time. "[name] talks so nicely about you and seems so happy seeing you". even then its hard to believe, i gotta stare at nice screenshots ive saved where i believe ive done something good, something worthy of appreciation, something that has not only meaning but an impact, a possitive one. and i know the chances of them actually hating me are low, but i still believe more in those chances than the proof.

i feel a bit delusional in a way. and i mean, i am, often times. but this is one of those thoughts- those god dammed thoughts where you're self aware yet- yet it doesnt shake the feeling away, you know? like no there is no proof, no logical proof at least, only what your mind twists into proof. but you still just "know it", yknow? even if you dont actually know shit and are very wrong. you feel like you do and it- it fucking sucks.

dont even get me started on splits and mood swings, highs and lows. Cause well. THATS NOT THE TOPIC OF THIS POST !! Lmao. i could go on for hours complaining tho. ough.

but yeah!! i just !! sorry, this took a turn. i just. needed to express myself idfk. i'll go back to posting abt minecraft men kissing soon or whatever, sorry normie followers /hj

i love them so much its overwhelming, yet i wouldnt change it for everything in the world, you know? not them. its hard but id rather endure it for them than have them not be THIS level of special to me anymore.

i really REALLY hope theyre not. uncomfortable by it tho. and wont dump me for it. i really wish i had a guide to how to and how to not mess up. so i could avoid doing dumb shit on accident.

and its funny cause theyre ppl that would absolutely tell me if im doing shit that bothers them, yet i believe theres smth else, stupid thoughts man. LEAVE ME ALONE FREDDY MERCURY!! UR SUPPOSED TO BE DEAD !! /ref

sighhhh anyhow yeah im dropping it here. bpd is a bitch. and to anyone out there dealing w it? godspeed. you can do this, i know life already sucks and this shitty dissorder doesnt help, but i know you can push through, mi gente bella.

Pearlo out. BPD hours rlly seem to be hitting at around 11-12 am, huh? /ij

[vacuousauto]

📃🎥🏳‍🌈

tysm for tha ask molli!! ill talk abt kny here bc its takin over my life rn qwq

spoilers ahead 4 tha whole series!!

📃 what is the plot of your hyperfixation? and is it a movie, game, show, etc?

kny is a manga w an anime adaptation thats had 1 season so far n a movies bein made of my fav arc!! (also this plot desc may not b perfect bc i havent read it in like 4 months)

its abt a boy called tanjirou whos whole family got killed by a demon, n his sister nezuko got turned into a demon (which fun fact: in kimetsu theyre man-eatin creatures w different powers called blood demon arts!!)

hes sent by giyuu (a demon slayer!) 2 join tha demon slayer corps so hell become stronger n mayb get a little revenge. as a treat (and also mayb find a way 2 turn nezuko human?)

as he trains he learns how 2 do water breathing (a sword technique taught by him n giyuus mentor, urokodaki) n his final challenge is 2 cut a massive boulder in half w his sword

its real hard 4 him (as u can imagine) so 2 kids in fox masks named sabito n makomo come n help him, but after tanjirou cuts tha rock n tells urokodaki abt him its revealed theyre dead???

@ final selection (basically a demon slayer entrance exam where u win by surviving on a demon-infested mountain 4 seven days) he learns from a real fucked up demon that hes exclusively been targetin urokodakis students n that not even sabito could slice its neck open?? (thats how him n makomo died)

after tanjirou kills tha demon n basically puts all tha water breath students’ souls @ peace he passes tha exam!! its been 7 days n now he gets his nichirin blade (the only kinda sword that can kill a demon, tha only 2 ways they can die is thru a slice 2 tha neck from a nichirin blade n sunlight)

turns out nezuko was turned by the strongest demon of all, michael jackson muzan kibutsuji, n so he sets out 2 hunt him down n try 2 kill him

but he aint so strong @ first so he needs 2 try 2 take down tha twelve kizuki first (the 12 strongest demons besides muzan)

another reason he needs 2 kill tha kizuki is 2 gather their blood for a demon named tamayo n her assistant yushirou!! tamayo can make a cure if tanjirou can gather blood samples 4 her (the stronger tha demon tha more of muzans blood they have so hes gonna have 2 aim high)

he meets a bunch more slayers along tha way, includin zenitsu (a scaredy cat thunder breath user who basically simps 4 nezuko n becomes a badass when hes asleep) n inosuke (a rowdy beast breath user who wears a boar mask n lived in tha mountains)

after lower moon 5 gets killed by giyuu, nezuko unlocks her blood demon art (exploding blood!) n tanjirou remembers how 2 use tha hinokami kagura, him n nezuko get captured by a slayer called shinobu qwq

turns out she n giyuu are 2 of the nine hashira, the strongest of all tha demon slayers!! but theyre all havin a debate over whether they should kill tanjirou n nezuko 4 goin against corps rules n travelin w a demon

eventually oyakata-sama (tha leader of tha slayer corps) comes in n tells em its ok, urokodaki sent a letter explainin that nezukos never hurt anyone n if she does, tanjirou giyuu n urokodaki all have 2 die basically

oyakata-sama also tells em that tanjirous met kibutsuji, at which everyone goes feral at (and understandably, none of em had ever even seen him before hes that elusive)

so they get 2 live bc theyre like. tha best hope the slayers have @ findin kibutsuji

the rest of the hashira are kyoujurou (flame), muichirou (mist), mitsuri (love), obanai (serpent), gyoumei (stone), tengen (sound) n sanemi (wind)

theres also kanao (shinobus pupil, flower breathing) n genya (sanemis brother, eats demons 2 gain power n basically become a demon temporarily, also He Has A Gun)

ive gone on a lot here so ill try 2 keep it brief now but i HAVE 2 explain infinity train or ill die (slight suicide tw but no one actually does that outside of dreams)

BASICALLY the lower 6 moons have a meetin @ kibutsujis infinity castle, muzan decides 2 dismantle tha lower moons bc they keep fuckign dying

all of em get their shit wrecked except enmu, who avoided death by usin muzans “dont tell me what 2 do” rule against him n beggin 4 death basically

so he gets a metric fuckton o blood n goes off 2 kill tanjirou

turns out he keeps killin people on his train n kyos gone 2 investigate!! the main gang (the kamaboko gang as the fandom calls it) are there too bc tanjirou needs 2 investigate what hinokami kagura really is (turns out its sun breathing, the og form and ones that only folks w the same mark on his forehead can use) n if anyone knows abt the alleged “fire breathing” as they know it rn its the fire hashira!!

so they get on tha train (inosukes lovin tha experience bc hes Literally Never Seen A Train Before) n kyo basically adopts the whole group

they take some tickets n promptly fall asleep HERES WHERE ENMUS DEMON ART COMES INTO PLAY!!! DREAM MANIPULATION BABEYYY

BASICALLY he can make people fall asleep in a buncha ways (the mouths on his hands, his weird eye thingies, the tickets) n once thats happened he n his henchmen can access said dreams (he can even control em!!) n if they find tha “spiritual core” they can destroy it n essentially leave em as an empty shell thatll never wake up!! yaaaaaay /s

he fails bc tanjirou realises a way out n its by cuttin his own head off in his dream, eventually everyones awake again n tanjirou finds enmu on tha roof(?) of tha train

after a while he does manage 2 decapitate him but surprise!!! hes not dead

turns out he literally FUSED WITH THA TRAIN n is plannin on eatin everyone inside, includin kyo n the gang

but he doesnt bc Main Protags Cant Die(tm) n dies while complainin that he wants a redo (sorry enmu, ily but u cant turn back time unless ur yoshikage kira)

also sidenote enmus tha only kizuki w/o a canon backstory as far as i can remember and????? H??

ANYWHO after that whole debacle basketball akaza (UPPER moon 3) shows himself!!! FUCK

n after all that struggle against the 8th strongest demon of all time now they gotta deal w tha 4th strongest????? damn,

so yeah it goes how youd imagine, its a tough fuckin battle n its Not Fun but it turns out kyoujurou fucking dies n i genuinely didnt realise until he said “kamado my boy, lets have one final chat” bc i was so in denial n lets face it i still am now

long story short idk how im gonna manage 2 get thru the movie w/o breakin down @ the end

anyway after that horrible horrible time tanjirou goes n meets senjurou, kyos little bro, who gives him kyos sword guard thing (its shaped like a flame!!) n i havent read it in a while so i cant FULLY remember but i think this is where he learns abt sun breathing??

after that they end up goin on a mission in tha red light district w tengen, his 3 wives are there 2 serve as spies (theyre kunoichi, which i think are ninjas of some kind??) n the boys have 2 find em

they do manage 2 find em but not after runnin into upper moon 6, who are 2 twins called daki n gyuutarou

after that fight tengen has 2 retire bc he got fucked up p bad from that fight n he wants 2 make sure tha girls are ok above all

so after that arc tanjirou n nezuko go down 2 tha swordsmith village (bc the guy who usually makes his swords is fuckin tired of repairin it) n run into mitsuri!! she tells tan that theres smth in tha forest thatll make him stronger

ngl this is tha arc i remember tha least abt so this desc is prolly SO inaccurate despite havin 2 o my favs in it)

but muichirou shows himself too n hes mean 2 tanjirou >:/ (he does get nicer eventually but 2 him specifically)

a 10 y/o kid named kotetsu shows tan this 6 armed trainin robot called yoriichi type 0 (based on tha first slayer 2 use sun breathin) n tanjirou breaks it by accident qwq

but he keeps trainin thanks 2 kotetsu but tha kids a harsh fuckin trainer ill tell u that

anyway so we have a whole buncha demons 2 deal w here except most of em are 1 demon split into different parts

hantengu n gyokko, upper moons 4 n 5 respectively!! mui deals w gyokko while mitsuri genya nezuko n tanjirou deal w hantengu

in these fights mitsuri n mui get their demon slayer marks!! these are marks that they get when they surpass the limits of tha human body n they look like tha marks demons have (muis looks like clouds on his cheeks n mitsuris is 2 hearts on her collarbone)

next up is tha hashira trainin arc!! everyone gets trained by each of tha hashira 2 try n unlock their slayer marks

each have a dif trainin style that focuses on dif stuff (for example gyoumei focuses a lot on physical strength n stuff like that, obanai is more abt accuracy) n this is where giyuus backstory gets revealed bc he doesnt think hes worthy o bein a hashira :((

basically him n sabito were absolute besties!! they both trained together n sabito basically told him not 2 die ever

but it all goes wrong @ final selection- sabito manages 2 take down every demon on tha mountain but one of em, that bein the hand demon that exclusively targets water breathers (theyre easy 2 distinguish bc of their blue haoris n custom made fox masks)

he manages 2 save giyuu n everyone else from tha selection except 4 himself (this is why giyuus haori is like that- its made from his sister n sabitos haoris)

giyuu blames himself 4 both of their deaths bc he failed 2 protect em n says that he doesnt deserve 2 have passed tha selection let alone b a hashira,, but tanjirou convinces him otherwise!! ^^

then one day while giyuus trainin w sanemi disaster hits- oyakata-sama, his wife n two of their kids just died

the 2nd to last arc- the infinity castle!! thingsre gettin real n muzans revealed himself

in tha infinity castle EVERYONES there but can u really blame em theyve been workin up 2 this 4 millenia

shinobu runs into upper moon 2- douma, aka the bastard that killed her sister as well as inosukes mum

she is. justifiably pissed. n she gives it her all but he kills her :(( douma ily but also FUCK YOU.

so perfect timing!!! heres her adopted sister!! as well as inosuke!!!! revenge battle time >:0

in the end shinobus poison is what kills him- her whole body is filled w wisteria poison thats deadly 2 a demon so he basically consumed her whole body weight in poison rip

but ofc word gets out via messenger crow that shes dead n its just a real sad moment tbh :( but theres no time 4 that bc giyuu n tanjirou just ran into akaza >:((

so tanjirous pissed as hell now n w their combined efforts they take down tha basketball lookin bastard (bastardball??)

meanwhile obanai n mitsuri (n yushirou iirc?? he uses his own art 2 control her @ some point tho i cant remember when) deal w tha new upper moon 4 (nakime, whos also shiftin tha rooms around w her blood art n makin tha fight super fuckign annoyin tbh) n muichirou genya sanemi n gyoumei deal w kokushibou (upper moon 1, also tha original sun breathers twin brother so he gets moon breathin >:3)

mitsuri n obanai fake their deaths w help from yushirou n muzan falls 4 it, which comes in handy later ;3

zenitsu also deals w his former bully, upper moon 6 aka kaigaku aka dickhead supreme who if zenitsu didnt kill i would personally kill w my bare hands

so after everyones taken down all thats left is muzan >:( muzan kills tamayo real early on n everyones goin all out on him

we also learn that he has multiple brains n hearts in his body eww

also the hashira have their marks now!! but all but sanemi n giyuu get killed n giyuu loses his arm :((((

genya also gets killed noo

eventually ofc the battle is won thanks 2 everyones relief, it took for fuckin ever bc the only way muzan can die is tha sun so they had 2 kill time n keep him out in tha sun 4 a long time

also nezukos been cured!! shes a human!! n shes comin 2 help!!

but OH GOD OH FUCK MUZAN TURNED TANJIROU INTO A DEMON N GIYUUS CRYIN N INOSUKES CRYIN THRU HIS MASK N ITS GOIN SO FUCKING WRONG but he gets tha will 2 turn back bc Fuck You Muzan, The Power Of Friendship Defeats All

the 2nd to last chapter is tha happy endin, the kamaboko gang visit tanjirou n nezukos house, giyuu cuts his hair n SMILES n tha hashira have their final meetin w oyakata-samas son kiriya

i cried readin it ngl their sufferin is finally over...... it cost a lot but now theres no more demons,,,

chapter 205 is set in tha modern day! kanao n tanjirous descendants are shown, as well as zenitsu n nezukos

everyone who died/never had kids get reincarnated (for example gyoumei is now a daycare worker, kyos reincarnation toujurou is besties w one o tans descendants n giyuu (giichi) is friends w sabito again!! makomos their friend too!!

ALSO KIRIYA IS STILL ALIVE hes the oldest man in japan!! this is huge bc the ubayashiki family dont usually live past 30 bc of a curse that was put on em when they had muzan

yushirou is still alive too but thats bc hes a demon n he paints tamayo for a living qwq

it just made me cry so hard bc waaah,,, everyone gets 2 live a demon-free life now,,, anyway typin this took me like an hour im sorry mint (as well as anyone else who read this)

🎥 do you have any favorite scenes from your hyperfixation?

tha infinity train arc as a whole tbh??? its basically enmu n kyoujurous big moment and. i care them sm. i cant wait 4 tha movie qwq except 4 their deaths ofc

🏳‍🌈 do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you?

i have a lotta headcanons really!! outta my f/os favs tho i hc:

giyuu is trans bi n autistic

kyo is gay n has adhd

muichirou is nb n pan

mitsuri is pan

douma is gay

enmu is nb pan n autistic

[caesuraeaesthetic]

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DP: 2o iin ca2e anyone mii22ed iit DP:you two are jealou2 of each other'2 2hiit and don't want two rii2k ruiiniing thiing2 by tryiing two fiix 2hiit 2o you have a more 2table friiend2hiip DP:probably becau2e one or both of you can't cool your fuckiing jet2 for two 2econd2 and have an hone2t 2eriiou2 dii2cu22iion about anythiing DP:two the fuckiing poiint where 2omeone el2e completely unrelated ha2 two 2tep iin and drag you iintwo a conver2atiion by the fuckiing horn2 DP:2o DP:the que2tiion ii2 DP:ii2 thii2 friiend2hiip worth 2wallowiing priide and defen2iivene22 two fiix? TA: 2ee ii wa2 pretty 2ure we were fiine but of cour2e ii want 2hiit two be better iif iit2 bad? CA:ivve got it made in the shade -- wwhen to comes to askin for handouts.  things wwhich, for the record, i am pretty fuckin sure you could get outta most a our friends too if you evver for some reason couldnt buy them wwith your infinite money generator.  wwhat i dont havve is any wway to Earn anythin in life. CA:i mean, im a seadwweller, ill get the fuck by, but im not goin anywwhere.  im not goin to amount to anythin durin your lifetime.  my ancestor quadded his wway to the top and has been wwanderin around havvin opinions evver since.  wwhat IS his profession, you knoww him, can you think of one? CA:theres nothin to fix im just frustrated. TA: Hes on my board of directors, and was until this point the CEO, as well as being the founder and CEO of that library of his, and owning the titles to various intellectual properties. He was also one of the advisers to the court of miracles, I believe is the official title. TA: You have time. You can be anything you want to be and do anything you want to do, all you have to do is decide you want that and its within your grasp, and you can fucking change your mind as many times as you need to to 'find yourself' TA: Maybe if you weren't so busy trying to make yourself Caesurae 2.0 you'd have better luck. CA:ha ha, thanks. CA:an maybe then ill get a real job DP:ii hope you can hear me 2iighiing from over here becau2e iit'2 2tarted TA: I offered you a job CA:wwas it a job or a pity handout TA: A fucking Job. I want that movie made. CA:yeah an ill fuckin wwork on it TA: so get paid for your time you asswipe DP:OII. DP:diid you fuck2 forget about the panty twii2tiing part?? CA:i fuckin wwill just not the fuck tonight TA: you're fucking sulking CA:halt the fuckin presses are you sure DP:do ii have two put you fucker2 iin tiimeout liike the grub2 you're actiing liike or are you two gonna take a fuckiing break two chiill out 2ome. CA:first you wwant us to talk, noww you wwant us to not talk CA:im gettin mixed signals here TA: This is what us talking looks like DP:ampora 2top playiing 2tupiid iit'2 embarra22iing two watch DP:captor thii2 2topped beiing /talkiing/ ten miinute2 ago and turned iintwo 2hiit 2liingiing and don't play dumb eiither DP:calm the fuck down je2u2 chrii2t. take a moment two dii2engaged. /breathe/ 2low iin 2low out. DP:brii2tliing at each other doe2n't /help/. iit miight be 2omethiing normal but thii2 ii2 a 2eriiou2 dii2cu22iion between two people who giive fuck2 about the other DP:2liingiing kniive2 at each other'2 button2 ii2 counter productiive and only get2 temper2 flaiiriing and logiic jumpiing out a fuckiing wiindow DP:2o /breathe/. take a few miinute2. then you can 2tart talkiing agaiin when the momentum ii2 gone. CA:you keep tellin me to stop playin stupid, an i think at this point youre just callin me stupid TA: 2top tryiing two 2tart a fiight wiith hiim two deflect CA:oh my god.  really guys? CA:both of you noww. DP:/calm ampora/. TA: ii need more coffee for thii2 DP:then go get iit iit'll giive hiim tiime two fuckiing chiill. TA: iif my 2iignal drop2 iit2 becau2e thii2 thiing 2tiill ii2nt completely out of te2tiing yet CA:please tell me more about howw im doin an wwhat my lines are DP:iif you're gonna piick a fiight wiith me two get out of puttiing effort iintwo your relatiion2hiip2 liike you 2hould be could you plea2e u2e 2hiit that wa2n't old when ii wa2 four. CA:wwhat fuckin effort CA:wwe wwere talkin DP:when you have a 2ociial connectiion wiith 2omeone be iit friiend2hiip clade quad ally whatever problem2 are goiing two arii2e DP:iit'2 not a 2merch agaiin2t you and your actiion2 iit'2 ju2t what happen2 when two people iinteract DP:problem2 eat away at a relatiion2hiip untiil iit get2 two briittle two 2urviive a fiight and the relatiion2hiip ii2 de2troyed DP:2o what you and the other per2on have two do iit maiintiinance on the relatiion2hiip DP:talk about problem2 fiind 2olutiion2 and compromii2e2 DP:that'll keep iit goiing and the more you do that the ea2iier iit get2 'cau2e you get u2ed two each other DP:what you're 2nubbiing your no2e at ii2 2iimple friiend2hiip maiintiinance DP:there'2 ten2iion between you two over 2omethiing that'2 not goiing two go away any tiime 2oon DP:2o you need two fiind a compromii2e and an2wer2 two what problem2 you /can/ fiix DP:pretendiing everythiing'2 fiine and 2ulkiing iin your piile of problem2 ii2 doiing none of tho2e thiing2 DP:and ii2 2ayiing p clearly after 2o many tiime2 that you don't actually care about the health of thii2 friiend2hiip DP:'cau2e you'd help fiix iit iif you diid CA:an there i wwas, explainin wwhy i wwas """sulkin""" TA: he2 ju2t brii2tly lay off hiim CA:god.  him or me TA: ii wa2 talkiing two hiim diickwad DP:hiim beiing brii2tly ii2 the problem. DP:when are you two gonna iiron thii2 out iif all he ha2 two do ii2 brii2tle a liittle and you drop iit? DP:or iif he hone2tly doe2 brii2tle every tiime anyone get2 near a feeliing? DP:then what? DP:you guy2 are gonna iimplode DP:you can be pii22ed and 2tiill have a ciiviil dii2cu22iion DP:ii 2ure the fuck am TA: ii'm not even pii22ed? TA: look ii cant make hiim pay more attentiion two you or giive you a cool iinheretence, ii'm not the bo22 of hiim, and ii would have been an iidiiot two refu2e the legacy my ance2tor left two me, what do you even want me two do eriidan CA:eridan ampora, bristly, newws at 11. DP:of cour2e you're not pii22ed you don't 2ee any rea2on two DP:he ha2n't done anythiing other than refu2e two talk about hii2 problem2 and make a hole iin the ground two 2ulk iin DP:and you're not gonna get pii22ed whiile he fiill2 iit up wiith biitterne22 and jealou2y and 2narl2 untiil he 2nap2 DP:and ii have no fuckiing iidea what that'2 gonna look liike wiith you guy2 but iif there ii2n't at lea2t one fataliity ii am gonna be /2hocked/ CA:your faith in me is amazin.  im flattered. CA:is that wwhat this is?  you think im unstable enough to fuckin snap an start killin people for no goddamn reason? CA:sol, if fuckin anythin, seein as this wwas his idea an its you twwo sayin im fuckin sulkin, maybe lay off about the real job shit an howw much better i obvviously someoww havve it.  ivve got enough problems wwith wwhat im doin wwith my future right noww. DP:no ii don't DP:ii'm 2ayiing ii've 2een thii2 before DP:and ii would giive a hell of a lot two have had 2omeone 2tep iin and 2mack u2 and tell u2 we were beiing 2tupiid and two ju2t fuckiing /talk/ DP:iit'2 not goiing two be for no rea2on there'2 alway2 a rea2on DP:but DP:yeah DP:ii don't want you two two go through that iif ii can help iit TA: maybe 2top actiing liike you dont have anythiing goiing for you at all and wankiing two your own mii2ery TA: al2o iit wa2 a fuckiing joke about how you 2pend all your tiime iin the liibrary fuckiing 2hiit CA:"theres alwways a reason"? DP:no one 2nap2 for no rea2on there'2 alway2 2ome underlyiing cau2e that 2piider2 out iintwo a 2tre22ful tangle of ten2iion DP:...and that iinclude2 every eriidan 2ollux hornlockiing that exploded that ii've ever 2een TA: ii'm pretty 2ure the wor2t thiing ed2 ever goiing two do ii2 wriite horriible friiendfiictiion about me and hiim fuckiing and get iit publii2hed CA:no, itll be if i let arlequin pay me to wwrite it about him an my ancestor. TA: ii want two 2ee gz'2 face iif you take hiim up on iit CA:yeah... wwell fuckin see. CA:thats a career choice im dodgin right noww. CA:hes offered. CA:that is wwhat my future looks like.  wwritin porn about peoples ancestors, For The Ancestors DP:yeah and that'2 the 2ort of thiing ii thought about miine and four people diied. DP:but fiine DP:iif you're all hunky dory and iin magiical moonbeam land and don't want any 2ort of help for the problem you're both 2o iintent on iignoriing for a2 long a2 you can ii can't make you take iit TA: ii mean ???? thii2 ii2 talkiing, what are you lookiing for u2 two 2ay here TA: al2o beiing a wriiter can be pretty po2h, you could get famou2, werent you talkiing the other niight about doiing 2ome hii2toriical drama2? CA:im glad im not the only one confused here. CA:... i might, sol.  im still figurin it all out. DP:you guy2 take the broad defiiniitiion2 when you want and the narrow one2 when they fiit better and tbh iit'2 fru2tratiing a2 hell DP:all of thii2 ha2 been incrediibly fru2tratiing a2 hell TA: are you 2ure you dont want any company twoniight ii could briing 2ome really chee2y 2hiit over two watch TA: ii hone2tly dont under2tand what we're 2uppo2ed two be doiing wrong? CA:do you still think im sulkin TA: ii mo2tly thiink you're up2et and miight benefiit from company DP:you two have 2kiipped completely over the part where you actually prod at the underlyiing problem2 DP:remember? DP:the part where you two can't acknowledge there wa2 hurt happeniing? DP:or fiind a way 2o that doe2n't happen agaiin? DP:and now you're on goiing back two beiing perfectly normal friiend2 liike there wa2n't thii2 gapiing hole iin thiing2 that neiither of you wanna touch DP:and iif you're fiine wiith that ii'm out DP:fuck ii'm halfway out now eiither way DP:ii get enough of thii2 2ort of 2hiit from enough other people ii don't need iit from barely friiend2 two TA: dude ii liiterally dont know what you want me two do TA: you have thii2 expectatiion of 2omethiing happeniing but liike TA: you've forgotten two 2hare what iit ii2? TA: we're not beiing avoiidant, iit ii2nt a 2iituatiion we can change TA: horriible thiing2 2tiill happened two hiim, ii 2tiill got more lucky than any troll de2erve2 two be? TA: liike. what are we 2uppo2ed two do? DP:ii liiterally cannot thiink of a way ii haven't already freakiing phra2ed iit DP:ii never 2aiid magiically fiix the external 2iituatiion ii 2aiid p flatly that you're 2tuck wiith that DP:2hiit happened between you two toe2 got 2tepped on iit 2hould take liike ten miinute2 two fiix iit but iit'2 taken fiive hour2 an extra per2on and you /2tiill/ haven't gotten /anywhere/ clo2e DP:you can't even briing up that a joke hurt wiithout iit turniing iintwo a productiion but 2omehow thii2 ii2 perfectly normal and everythiing ii2 fiine CA:im overreactin an "sulkin" about nothin apparently, an evvery time the convversation heads that wway you shut it dowwn cause wwere assholes an you think im a hairs breadth awway from snappin an takin half the block wwith me, wwhich is flatterin ivve got to say CA:an evvery time i try to fuckin let it go you start harpin on me about talkin about it? DP:you keep 2hoviing tho2e word2 iin my mouth and you're gonna lo2e fiinger2 ampora CA:an evvery time i ask wwhat you expect me to say you call me stupid an say im tryin to pick a fight CA:ah, right, my mistake CA:some a those wwords wwere for his mouth, by the by TA: ii'm 2orry the thiing happened, and that your ance2tor thiink2 he need2 two toughen you up for beiing a 2ea dweller or whatever he2 doiing DP:oh 2ure they were DP:'cau2e he'2 the one you're iin2ii2tiing thiink2 you're goiing two take down half a block iif he breathe2 wrong DP:yeah ii'm fuckiing out DP:ii'm done wiith your 2hiit for an entiire liifetiime and then 2ome DP:take your wiiggler ankle niip2 and fuck off -- deterministpalindrome [DP] has left the chat! -- TA: well that ju2t happened CA:yep TA: anyhow your ance2tor makiing you do everythiing the hard way ju2t becau2e you liive longer ii2 kiinda bull2hiit TA: and pretty hemii2t CA:... thanks TA:..but liike you al2o act liike you want two do everythiing the hard way? TA: iidk TA: ii really do want the re2earch TA: and the offer for chee2ey moviie2 ii2 2tiill up CA:yeah, an it sounds fun to do CA:im just pissy tonight CA:an still debatin the movvie offer TA: 2ome niight2 are liike that, ii know ii want two biite everyone who come2 near me 2ometiime2 TA: ii'd offer you a board po2iitiion but you liiterally dont know anythiing about electroniic2 liike TA: at all CA:if the entire noble court wwas an underrepresented market i could vvoice all a their terribly fuckin important opinions that they just dont havve the money an influence to spread, evverywhere, all the time TA: oh god2 TA: 2pare me plea2e TA: ..ii'm 2orry the navy diidnt work out TA: you've alway2 been a fanta2tiic 2tratagii2t and you would have done well CA:arlequins said he understands, but hes also said hed be disappointed if i flunked out CA:but hey you knoww CA:maybe nobody too important wwill think im a wwaste an a cowward for that CA:ww/e TA: ii'm pretty 2ure thii2 doe2nt count a2 flunkiing out CA:shrug CA:if i dont go back wwhats the difference CA:listen.  ill lay off talkin about howw wwell off you are if you do the same. CA:an you maybe dont gotta rub it in howw much you an me as a thing isnt happenin, unless im activvely hittin on you CA:i mean, i knoww.  trust me, i knoww. TA: ii ju2t get really exciited TA: what am ii 2uppo2ed two tea2e you about iif iit2 not gettiing a quad wiith me? TA: .. ii'm 2orry TA: ..do you actually hate me or are you ju2t liike TA: really enamoured wiith 2erendiipiity CA:i wwouldnt a kept tryin if i didnt TA: ..ii'm 2orry ed TA: ii ju2t. ii dont hate you, you're a great friiend and ii ju2t TA: ii'm 2orry CA:yeah i knoww, thanks TA: ii could 2top playfiightiing all the tiime? CA:maybe ill be eqs fuckin rebound someday, can you imagine CA:"you hogged all the sollux" "fuck you" "wwell, if you insist" CA:an then he inducts me into the space program CA:by wwhich i mean throwws me into orbit. TA: god2 TA: he wouldnt though, he2 a paciifii2t TA: gettiing hiim two fiight wiith me ii2 a paiin iin the a22 TA: ii've been tryiing two te2t the liimiit2 of the new p2ii triick they were talkiing about onliine but ii'm pretty 2ure he2 goiing ea2y becau2e he2 afraiid ii'll break CA:a lot a people wwould be real put out if he snapped you in half TA: that2 not why he doe2nt do iit CA:includin him TA: ii put my fii2t through the punchiing bag ed CA:... CA:did you hurt your hand TA: no CA:usually that hurts your hand a bit dependin on the punchin bag CA:you need to vvideo that shit for science TA: 2ure ii could do that, ii'm not 2ure iit2 a2 iimpre22iive iif you cant 2ee all the thiing2 ii can 2ee TA: waiit ii know 2omethiing that wiill completely 2um up the new triick let me get iit 2et up > Bee: Is anyone going to question you trying to hang a huge metal ball on a chain from the ceiling in the gym or stop you, the ceo of this company, from doing it? > Bee: No, probably not CA:alright > Bee: Time passes CA:you can cmon ovver if you still wwant, sol > Bee: You are convincing someone to video tape this and someone to stand at the other end and swing the ball at you vigorously. Yes this is going on grubtube. > So much uncertainty.  It's a higher up blue that decides to help make it happen. > The bodyguards are not sure about this plan unless they've seen him practicing on the punching bag. TA: [video link] >Video> Sollux stands there just below the anchor of a chain connected to a wrecking ball. The ball is being held high by the blue. Sollux holds out a finger- the ball swings down moving fast and touches the tip of his claw and shatters as he stops momentum incrmentally rather than absorbing all of it at once, it falls at his feet as it deforms and splits and goes to pieces. CA:sol wwhat the fuck TA: ;) TA: ii hope that goe2 viiral CA:wwhat the fuck CA:thats some photoshop shit right there TA: nope CA:of fuckin course its gonna go vviral theyre wwatchin all our accounts TA: let me clean up here then ii'll be over CA:shit.  alright, ill let you knoww wwhen you hit each digit mark on your vvideo. TA: bo22 :) > Bee: help clean up this mess, thank everyone .. give a couple of tips just for putting up with his nonsense. > Bafflement but good humor abound.  Just another day at Goldtech. > Bee: tell your guards you want to go to the castle and hang with ed > Everyone can probably arrange that, if the docterrors allow it.  They are sufficiently used to highbloods -- and Eridan is good enough at strategic moping -- that it can probably get put together. > Sharp: The face scar is healing well, but uncovered.  He's tidily put together enough that it and the sling are the only sign something is wrong with him, and he'll sit on the side that doesn't force Sollux to stare at the scar in his peripheral vision all evening.  He's tired and low-key, but definitely ruefully impressed by the video. > Bee: He may have brought some things specifically for Ed to chew on to help with itchy teeth coming in, and he definitely brough movies for them to tear apart and laugh at. > Sharp: They are sorely (ba dum tsh) appreciated, and he ends the night in a decent enough mood to sincerely thank Sollux for coming over. > Bee: Sollux enjoyed himself :) it was fun, and he can probably use a break now and then anyhow > Sharp: Sooo..... the thing he did to the wrecking ball.  Can he do that to People? > Bee: people are probably too squishy to shatter? > Sharp: Probably.  .. ... .. Squint. > Bee: .. hit his hand, go on do it. > Sharp: Hahahahaha, No?  No.  Bye sol, g'light. > Bee: Big grin. Good light Ed. > Sharp: Rude gesture and noise. > Bee: snickering.

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THE WINGS TOUR ANAHEIM DAY 2 RECAP

-FIRST, I GOT PLENTY OF PHOTOS AND I FILMED ALMOST EVERY SONG (not the whole song for some of them) SO IF YOU WANT ANY PHOTOS JUST MESSAGE ME!!

-so i was pretty close up: section 225 row E

-pre-concert, they played all their MV’s and no one was really hyped for like 2013-2015 MV’S BUT THE MOMENT YOUNG FOREVER CAME ON EVERYONE WAS SCREAMING OK EVERYONE WAS HYPED LIKE BRUH

-they started with not today and let me tell you, the moment they appeared on stage, they looked unreal. literally. they looked like perfectly sculpted wax figures istg

-i couldn’t believe i was actually there; i still can’t.

-they did silver spoon next and the beat was kinda different but it made it more lit so i wasn’t complaining and boi those hip thrusts i dropped my phone

-everything went downhill after that- not downhill like failure of the show, but failure of my heart and mind to process my emotions

-all the songs im gonna recap are gonna be out of order from this point down

-so they performed dope and of course jimin ended with that cute ass heart thing

-lost hit me like a truck

-they did this mashup of old songs- n.o, danger, boy in luv, no more dream??, there were others but i honestly can’t even remember i was too hype

-ok

-cypher 4

-c y p h e r  4

-i am willing to kill to watch that performed live again

-i don't usually say these things but THEY LITERALLY WORE THOSE RICH ASS SUGAR DADDY COATS OK HOSEOK WORE THOSE FUCKING SUNGLASSES AND NAMJOON IS SO FUCKING TALL AND YOONGI JUST FUCKING SLAYED MY EXISTENCE OK

-speaking of daddy, this bitch sitting near me wouldn’t stop screaming daddy throughout the entire concert and i nearly smacked her 

-but yes, cypher 4 made my existence whole again

-SOLO SONGS

-jeongguk that talented ass fucker who can do anything and do it perfectly i can’t with that boy he performed begin so well thaT DANCE BREAK THOUGHT OMF so much talent i-

-jimin was a whole king. a whole king. when they lifted him up in the last chorus in Lie, i almost chocked and died

-yoongi. yoooooonnggiiiiiiiii. ok so first love. they played this vvv emotional video before he performed and it fucking crushed me and then yoongi comes out and slays the entire human race .here was an orchestra and i was so weak ok

-reflection. ok so you see, kim namjoon is my whole heart and seeing him in person was actually so surreal and absolutely unbelievable. sure, call him my bias but he means a lot more to me than a label. anyways, this boi, so fucking tall. he looks so much taller in person. like i have friends that are 5′11 but kim namjoon i dont know why he looked so damn tall maybe because he’s a glowing bean but still i dont understand why he had to look so damn perfect i screamed i love you kim namjoon at the top of my lungs about 67 times. OK AND BACK TO RELFECTION ok you know the whole “i wish i could love myself” part?? well after we started chanting “we love you” he started changing up his lines and i dont know why but they hit me so damn hard just him singing in english and being able to speak from his heart while he improvd in front of 20,000 people was heart breaking and heart warming at the same time

-stIGMA ok taehyung and namjoon swithced places so basically at the end of reflection, namjoon runs inside the telephone box and then taehyung comes out of it. here’s all i remember from stigma: kim taehyung hit those high notes yes he fucking did

-MAMA MAMA MAMA OHMYFUCKING GOSH ok hoseok is pure gold, he couldn’t stop smiling, ohmygod. everyone was hyping him up and he couldn’t stop smiling he’s so ethreal god bless. basically he sat in this chair with the backup dancers around him and he sings mama and all that. and you know that pause before he goes “hello mama” OK LOOK HE STARTED WALKING BACK TO THE STAGE AND HE PUTS HIS MIC ON A STAND AND STARTED SINGING/RAPPING ACOUSTIC OHMGOD BEST MOMENT OF MY LIFE HIS “HELLO MAMA” FUCKING KILLED ME OK YES IM A 94 LINE ENTHUSIAST COME@ ME also during mama thre were videos of fetus hoseok playing on the screen and i sobbed my little boi i lava him so much

-AWAKE WAS MY SHIT I SWEAR OK JIN HIT ALL THE FUCKING NOTES GOD FUCKING BLESS HE’S A KING AND THEN DURING THE PAUSES IN BETWEEN LYRICS HE WOULD JUST LOOK AT THE CROWD AND HE LOOKED LIKE HE WAS GONNA CRY EVERYTIME HE WAS SO SINCERE AND SO THANKFUL AND GRATEFUL I CAN’T THANK THE LORD ENOUGH FOR KIM SEOKJIN

-okok so they performed save me and i shit myself

-they performed run and i was like MY SHIT dude they kept throwing water or whatever that action is called but boy was it a beautiful sight they were so happy i’m so happy

-well fire. um. threw me under a bus and crushed every organ in my body HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EVEN PERFORM THAT SONG SO WELL AFTER PERFORMING LIKE 15 SONGS BEFORE IT BITCH THEY WERE SO IN SYNC I CAN’T BELIEVE

-21st century girl was so cute they were so free and so themselves ive lived

-i need u. wow tears fell from my eyes

-favorite part of every song was when they would just stop singing/rapping and the entire audience just chanted the lyrics tey looked so happy i can’t

-whEN YOONGI AND HOSEOK TOOK OUT THEIR EARPIECES YOU KNOW YOU DID WELL

-OH AM I WRONG WAS SO LIT OK

-they played this really emotional video and it basically was saying how its 7 boys but 1 heart & 7 hearts but 1 boy and i honestly didn’t think it could hit me that hard it was just explainin their journey and how they’ll always walk togther i swear to god i’m whipped sadly i didnt get a video of this video but ohmygod

-everyone served fuckin looks wowow blessed

-seokjin told us that he felt born again and i lost it AND THEN HE GOES “ARMY YOU ARE MY HEART” AND HE HAD A FUCKING PAPER HEART TAPED TO HIS HEART I CANT WITH HIM OHMYFUCKING

-THEN TAEHYUNG TAKES IT AND STARTS MAKING CUTE FACES WITH IT

-ok someone threw some flower plushy i believe on the stage and seokjin picked it up and pretending like he was pikachuing with it god i cant him 

-kim namjoon started thanking his mom for everything hes done and accomplished and ohmyogod i screamed “thats my baby” so many fucking times at all 7 of them im so whipped 

-he started talking about the rainbow and then got all philosophical and i couldnt stop crying hes all “after rain theres always sunshine and thats where rainbows come from” aand im pretty sure he connected us to being his rainbow somehow ohmygod im melting

-did i mention kim namjoon is so fucking tall hes so ethreal i cant even begin to describe how much i love him ok all of them look so fucking good in person they look like gods tbh ohmygod KIM NAMJOON IS SO FUCKING TALL CAN I HAVE HIS HEIGHT IM ONLY 5′6 GODDAMN

-seokjin’s intense waving at the end made my life

-JIMIN FUCKING JUMPED LIKE 6 TIMES OK HE WAS JUMPING FOR JOY AS IF HE WERE JUMPING FOR A JUMPING PHOTO GODDAMN I OVE THAT BOY SO MUCH I CANT CONTROL MY EMOTIONS HES SO PRECIOUS

-HOSEOKS SMILE IS ALL I EVER NEEDED TO LIVE

-also your ears are literally plugged in there from the amount of screaming and hype so all of them sound perfect and have the voice of gods then once your ears are okk you can actually hear reality

-spring day got me so emotional jimin’s dancing man

-2!3! i cant begin to explain

-ok BOY MEETS EVIL HOSEOK IS A MOTHERFUCKING GOD I NEED AIR OK HE SLAYED THAT SO FUCKING HARD OK THANKS

-blood sweat and tears man. blood sweat and fucking tears: a song title that sumed up my entire concert experience. ok but it was so good ok, they were all so into it. DURING YOONGI’S FIRST RAP VERSE HE HELD OUT HIS MIC AN EVERYONE CHANTED HIS ENTIRE RAP OHMYGOD BEST MOMENT HE LOOKED SO SATISFIED I LOVE MIN YOONGI

-oh yes during that really emotional video they played you never walk alone and i lost it

-i probably forgot a shit ton of stuff but i hope this gave you insight on how to die and live at once

-one of the best nights of my life-i cannot begin to thank bangtan for their wonderful performance and ability to hype up 20,000 people and get them all to scream “i love myself” and to get a crowd to scream lyrics in a language they don’t understand or speak

-all 7 of them asked if we will walk with them forever, so here’s my answer amongst the 20,00 people screaming, crying, and hype: bangtan,  i will never fail to support you and i will never fail to stop loving you. thank you for proving that dreams come true, even if those dreams seem like a reality because we’re numb to believing the nearly impossible. thank you for letting me stick by you and thank you for bringing the freshest sense of life and love and reality. so yes, i will walk with you, out of pure love and inspiration.