#dont let them goad you into doing something stupid

[aspiringwarriorlibrarian]

So Trump is adding 700 Marines onto the 2000 Guard he’s sent to quell the protests.

Just so you know, the original “quartering” acts that led to the Third Amendment referred not just to shelter, but to providing supplies, food, fuel, and transportation to soldiers. While the third amendment only refers to housing in text, a general boycott is a long and well established right in American law.

Shut them out. Refuse any service to the occupiers. Make them sleep on floors and streets, make them eat only rations. They’ve come prepared for active aggression, not passive aggression. An army marches on its stomach, so make them starve.

[homophyte]

the idea that i have purposefully avoided doing anything in public so i could, idk, get away with something, is really odd considering that i have archived public conversations with you on my blog where you wiped this entire blog youre messaging me from of all my, again, public, replies to your post but like, okay. also a really weird way to frame me repeatedly saying to you 'i dont want anything to do with you' and trying to not be involved but you continuing to antagonize and talk about me, as youre literally doing here, causing me to go back on my word to not reach out to again tell you what youre doing is fucked up. anything ive said to you in private i will stand by in public. i do not think i have said anything disproportionate to you, if anything ive been exceedingly sentimental trying to empathize about a shared issue while you are literally right now throwing that fact in my face super uncool-ly!! especially in light of the fact that youve kept this stalking and harassment campaign going, again, longer than you were ever friends with any of us to begin with.

but you wanna make this public? okay, lets make this public.

a close friend of mine (who is remaining anonymous and has already deleted their blog literally today because of this) made a tumblr a few months ago on my advice to check it out and see how they liked it. they used this tumblr really scantly, but during the time they had it, liked a grand total of two posts ever. wanna see em? theyre these.

youll note that second post mentions dante by name, and my friends liking of that post is its only note. youll also note that the only two posts on their blog are these interactions:

the first of which was sent only days after they liked the post mentioning dante.

that blog, despite never posting besides this, never liking anything but two personal posts i made, and following exactly three people all of whom were friends, is somehow blocked by both the disgustedorite blog and asterineae.

so pretend youre me and my friend, who had long ago written off this interaction as random and odd only to discover today while trying to access the post you tagged me in, screenshotted above, from their computer that you had mysteriously had them blocked, despite never having had an interaction with them or even cause to know who the hell they were. pretend youre me, faced again with evidence that you meticulously watch and catalog everything i say to the point you hunt down anyone even tangentally related to dante, by a single like, on a single post i made, mentioning them offhand.

and then you tell me which of us has a problem to deal with. because i spent today not reading your long ass stupid ass rant, not block evading to look at what youre saying about me, not obsessing over the smallest details of people who you were barely acquaintances with, over two years ago.

im not going to read your long ass rant post. ive made it abundantly clear that i dont give a shit what you have to say or the narratives you invent to justify your actions. those actions are, as far as im concerned, not fucking justifiable, and you need to keep inventing more to get even close, and even then you still have to change the subject, because everything you have done has been that far out of proportion. again: stalking and harassment for longer than you were ever on friendly terms with us. im not going to let you goad me so you can pretend that im starting it, so that you can screenshot it and whine about me attacking you in private where nobody can see. the gambit is fucking laughable. here it is! you want people to see!

i spent today with a good friend of mine, and for an hour at the end, we went 'damn, what the hell is wrong with her,' deleted a barely-used tumblr blog, and went about our way, which is evidently something you have demonstated that you incapable of fucking doing. so im gonna ask you again to leave me the fuck alone, and im again gonna block you on asterineae, which i already had done, because i know youre gonna block evade to see this shit anyway. piss off you fucking mega loser and stop making what you choose to jerk off to my goddamn problem via repeated harassment. jesus fucking christ

[azonewithu]

I like waking up every morning snd say fuvk this useless day. On this piece of rat shit planet. I hope uou all die by the rnd of this day. Podiyive? Youre postively stupid hows that? Shit face go sell something. Our lksn is to wipe your ounk gasses out not help you in anyway. Uesh yeah religios n jesus said a lot of dimb shit mist if which snyine dmsrt ignored. Look at them. They always end fucked no matter what. Hiws that jesus. I dont put. Big J because im Azriel and im hogher up on yhe totem pole. Michael kill snyone sbd their rat ass goof bag tiny lik peopke if theyvwanja argue whose inncgwrge again. Without us youd be nofhing dead murdered long ago. Without you wed just gace less religio fyck offs to tell to fuck off. Whis the truth comes yo town and they dont lije it in betle hsm sandwich land. Whstever you say dumb asses. I fibt pray to your momkey ass zgod im the one who kicked his ass. We re better without him around. Get back to fuckn wirk bwfore i get angry. We ll kill you in dtoves thats wgst we ll do. Get back to wirk n shit the fuvk ip supersticious liwer levrl rat monkey. Wheres your dueler tgen? No? Uou stullvwant my wespons though. Ok then shit tge fucknip religio fuck ir youll be getting them at yhe wrong end of yhe barell. Get bsck to work bitch its not a joke uou n your people are. Ahd uourevthe butt of another obe. Wheres this fag Gid of youes ilp durl the bitch ill gduel anykne. Here lets wsit o God of the fuckn spes appear so i can fycon kill you. Tspn my feet lookn sround. Norhu f your God is nithi g eembwr just like you ge didnt show up when chalkenged. He faiked thw test his scistence is nillified see yas. Watch hiw uiue stupid monority asses walk on my planetbthis Christmas. I asked wround nkbidy likes your people. No eonder my people ha e yo run everything peopke djuat do not like or want to lusten to you people. Yiu peopke as in scum bags my peopke run thus fuckn earth i havent seen kne other peipke they dint jyst start running when we show up. So we re in cgarge is what that neans. Yiud be dead in a week allmof uou without us. Tell uiur lil faggit goof beat to shit friends ftom hollywoid shut the fucknip no one cares dont mehe ne randomly jyst kill morenif uoy. That guy ftom briadways in 100 pueces youvwanna end up like that keep talking. I did a poll nobidy likes or wabts to hear much out of uou peipke anymore. Thats not even the lead si ger. Tv peopke you jniw ehst uoure fyvon stupud nit real only goof bags tske you seriousky. And ur women aint sexy caked up in naheup liokn so fyckn stupid beat burbed up byrned out not ine can hokd court with me. Wow Emna yhese arupud kneot moron fucks just want ne to ounch their stupid fucon ugky made faces in again. Close up tgey look like shit. Ive anihilated their reputations they font revover eitger. Its a dying art literally like this is dyi g lkanet. Abd nevwr ever try yo lie to je and tell me theyre any goid. Theyre slated fir removsl aa it stabds now. Theyre good gir no kne and nithing im goad i huet them do fuckn bad. The judgment is theyre scum i just dispatched troops. Watch some peopke in csli are about yo get murdered again. Yeah yeah uou si t dhit rat moniey. Lets furl griw done bslls. Look not kbe of ygem has sny courage to sieak if. Hollywood actirs are the biggest goodf rat cowards on earth. My troops are hi ting fien dkne mire intterest. Find keaton im do t wanna hear themat guys sluve anymore.

[pjinthestreets]

ok ok i know kubo sucks but hear me out. POST-[whatever arc ended the series it also largely sucked but i did read it. the quincy king situation]

this is a shipping headcanon post be ye warned

ichigo and orihime are married. they live w, and are simultaneously dating, ishida and chad. rukia and renji are married. they both hook up w the karakura ot4 but lets be realistic theyre dead and stuff so we’re talking weekend visits (rukia more often tbh)

NON-DEBATABLE: rukia and orihime obviously have a Thing thing. theyre in lesbians. rukia and ichigo are 100% soulmates, i think even people who dont Ship it recognize they love each other.

renji/ichigo goes without saying too i feel, the dick-measuring bro-yness does not stop from getting higher. im talking hooting and shoving each other up to and during buttsecks. when rukia is involved there’s a higher chance of serious vibes and tender momence but she does also laugh and goad them while they’re wrestling naked so you never know. shes been known to instigate mood-breaking silliness when shes nervous also

ishida/ichigo... same as w rengy honestly, the sexy rivalry is there. quite a bit closer n more tender w these two though the path 2 emotional honesty is paved with mutual avoidance lmao. the way they trust each other without understanding each other means a lot to me shut up.

i think ishida n orihime start dating each other before either of them confesses to ichigo lol, they bond over being into him and form a pact to get ichigo to notice At Least one of them. ichigo meanwhile doesnt even notice theyre dating much less trying to seduce him. ishidas making her cute dresses n shit hyping her up and martyrfully eating his heart out with gay yearning lmfao while orihime is like contriving situations for ichigo to hang out w them and be nice to ishida (which never work). i feel like ichigo kinda gets railroaded into going on a date w orihime which is like cool but confusing bc he... feels the same abt her as he honestly does abt ishida n chad so like?? maybe he doesnt Like Like her Like That? which, uh oh? and it takes orihime kinda spilling the beans abt the whole situation for him to be like oh. hell yeah then. can chad come too

chad and ichigo.... these guys were each other’s first love and you cannot change my mind lol. chad ichigo original otp chad ichigo for lyfe etc. while tatsuki was teaching orihime how to kiss these two were already emotionally bonded for life. you know ichigo saw him in a tank top for the first time and discovered his own dick the same night.

i think ishida has a big gay crush on chad thats not rly reciprocated, chad is  bemused by him although overall thinks hes pretty alright. that post thats like >i fell in front of a 6′2″ guy >he helps me off the ground >”silly little boy you should be more careful” >instant throbbing boner  yeah thats ishida

i do think renji and orihime have Done Stuff in the context of rukia and ichigo foursome, but theres not like chemistry there imo they just end up Horny and sitting next to each other like so do we kiss now too or? ishida similarly doesnt have Vibes with rukia but finds renji annoyingly hot for how otherwise insufferable he is. especially funny when his whole thing is like ‘im an elegant and strategic problem-solver (not true) unlike you who is a monkey-brained idiot (more true)’ and they both end up in the same stupid situations together. chad meanwhile doesnt even participate in the rukia/renji group secks events, hes like ‘yeah im gonna go to the gym or something for a few hrs text me when i can come home’ hahaha

[abraxos-is-toothless]

Undercover- Throne of Glass AU (8)

Um, this one is a shortened update, not even 2k words. Thats because I took some off an moved it into 9:) Ren and Connall’s ship name is now Renall. I might write content on these two in other AUs as well?

A/N: If you read Surprises, the chap will come but I messed it up and I’ve had to redo things. And I’ve also had a few issues at home but I’m promise to get it to you as soon as I can<3

Undercover Masterlist.

Full Masterlist.

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Gavriel, Vaughan and Rowan were walking through Hyde Park, coffees in hand. It was early morning, grass still covered in dew and their breath could be seen on the air. A few days ago, Aelin had told them that Arobynn had a few men who stayed in the area a lot and she needed people to come down to see if they could spot anyone, taking all of their findings back to her. Rowan had offered himself up for the job, along with Vaughan and Gavriel. The two of them had agreed but Gavriel knew it was just to get them alone, could see it in the way his Boss was very adamant that the three of them could do it. So here they were, silently walking, seeing absolutely nothing out of the ordinary.

Rowan nodded towards an empty bench, gesturing that they should sit about twenty minutes into their walk. Rowan and Vaughan sat, but he chose to remain standing, facing them so they were covering all angles. The former was fiddling with the lid of his coffee cup, sighing when the latter turned and raised a brow at him. “Come on Ro, spit it out. You know something.” Vaughan just stared, waiting, and he felt himself go still when Rowan finally opened his fucking mouth.

“She’s Rhoe’s daughter.” Oh, for the ever loving fuck. Oh gods.

“Tell me you’re joking.” He whispered it, knowing what the answer would be, but he was terrified anyway.

“I’m not joking, Gav.” Rowan was looking at him, worry etched all over his face, but he didn’t know what to say, didn’t know what to do. This was all so unbelievably fucked up. Vaughan’s only sign of being shocked was the way his eyes widened just a fraction. Despite that, he was probably running over everything in his head, trying to figure out how he missed something so important. “Rhoe Galathynius, the man who led this gang before her, had a daughter. There is no information on her anywhere, absolutely nothing. But she was around what, nine or ten when he was killed, so her parents must have set something up in case the worst happened, making it look like she never even existed.” He felt sick. If he hadn’t left, if he hadn’t listened to Eliana, then maybe he could have done something, could have kept Aelin from Arobynn. Could have kept her safe.

But Eliana, his beloved Eliana had made him go, to keep him safe and their son, their Aedion. She had known who Gavriel was, why he was with them all of those years ago. It was his task back then to take down Rhoe and the whole organization, but she had shown him that they weren’t bad, not really. They were the ones trying to keep the city safe. Gavriel hadn’t meant to fall in love with her, but she was just so good, so pure and so fucking beautiful. He had left before it all went to shit, telling his bosses he was compromised, though Eliana would have never hurt him. He had walked away from the love of his love, his son. And now he was finding out he’d walked away from his niece. Which she was really, although Eliana and Aelin’s mother were cousins, they were sisters in all the ways that mattered. The realisation knocked the breath out of his lungs, his knees going weak, almost dropping to the ground before Vaughan was by his side, holding him steady. “Fuck Gav, what the hell is wrong?”

“She’s my niece.”

Rowan was confused; his tell was the way he scrunched his nose a little. “You fell in love with Eliana on that assignment we know, and she fell pregnant, but that doesn’t make Aelin your niece Gav.”

“It does because I married her.”

The sudden silence between them was deafening. He’d never told either of them this. Suddenly Rowan was glaring at him, slowly standing so that they were level with one another, face to face.

“I’m sorry; I thought you just said that you married her. This by the way would make you related to them, which would mean in the end, you’d go down with them.”

No going back now, the damage was already done. “I married her, Rowan. I took her last name and she had the marriage certificate. I didn’t think at the time and then everything happened...I didn’t think I’d ever be back here.”

“Fuck! Why have you never mentioned this before?!”

“I’ll always protect her, I’ll always protect them. Lia knew who I was, what I was there for. I told her once, that I’d leave it all behind, but she made me go, so that maybe one day I’d get to know my son. That they’d find me when the dust settled.” But it didn’t end that way. Rhoe, Evalin and his beloved were all gone and his son lost. It took him years to find Aedion and when he did, he was a coward, never approaching the boy, the man now, that he’d kept tucked close to his heart. Vaughan was now swearing, in multiple languages and Rowan was just staring at him, pine green eyes burning holes into his skull.

“One of them is going to piece together who you are eventually, Gav. Aelin asked how I hadn’t noticed how similar she and Aedion were. We need to start moving faster but I don’t know how to do that. They’re just so...” Rowan trailed off but he didn’t need to explain more. Gavriel understood perfectly, having been through this already. It was hard getting so close and going so deep undercover because the lines always blur one way or another.

You just have to figure out which side you’ll be on when it disappears completely, before it’s too late.

oOoOo

Aelin sat on the sofa in the living room, her legs tucked underneath her as she watched Lorcan, Elide, Manon, and Dorian play twister. She laughed as Lorcan, giant brute that he was, collapsed and began grumbling about how stupid the game was. “Oh come on, Lorcan. No need to be a sore loser.” Fenrys goaded him from his spot on the chair, bag of peanuts in hand. Lorcan simply flipped him off and Fenrys chuckled, throwing a peanut at his forehead. Manon had an unfair advantage, Aelin thought, considering how fucking flexible the woman was. She was somehow weaved in between Elide and Dorian and didn’t look bothered by the way she bent. Chaol flicked the spinner again, calling out a ‘right hand, blue’ just as Rowan, Gavriel and Vaughan walked in. All three men looked amused by the sight before settling themselves around the room. Vaughan moved towards Lorcan, still looking like a kicked puppy and Gavriel towards Fenrys, who frowned when the older man began stealing his snacks. Rowan however, he moved to sit beside her, a strong thigh pressed against her feet.

Aelin ignored the urge to press against him more and asked, “See anything interesting out there?”

Rowan shook his head, watching as the three idiots on the floor collapsed into a pile of limbs when Dorian moved wrong. “Nothing. It seemed oddly quiet though, I don’t know how to explain it.”

“We’ll just have to keep an eye out then.” All he did was nod. He seemed quite sullen and part of her desperately wanted to ask if he was alright but thought better of it. She still didn’t know what she felt about him and wanted to keep it between the two of them for now.

“Where’s Aedion?”

“Lys wanted to go shopping, again, and she took Asterin too. I made Aedion go so that he could keep an eye out.” Lysandra thought it would help Asterin feel better to get out of the house, to go and do something for herself. Manon had wanted to go with them but decided to let them be, to not overcrowd her friend. There was a rustling of plastic as the Twister mat was flattened again and Connall, Ren, Fenrys and Chaol started playing. Aelin didn’t miss the way when Gavriel called out ‘left foot, yellow’, Ren slipped just a little and brushed against Con, making the other man’s face flush. They stared at each other for a minute, abruptly looking away when the next move was called. Aelin let a little knowing smirk slip, just in time for Ren to catch her eyes. He had the balls to look at her dumbly, as if he hadn't a clue what he’d just been doing. They all forgot how attentive she was to things and thought they were being sneaky when they weren’t. She would be happy if they made a go of things, once they both stopped being idiots about it. Ren and Connall suited each other.

Yrene walked in from the kitchen with a small tray of food, murmuring gently to Rowan, Gav and Vaughan. It was now noon after all and they boys had been gone all morning. Vaughan walked to where she placed it on the coffee table, giving his thanks as he reached for one of the sandwiches. Yrene only smiled back at him and was just pulling herself back up to normal height when she let out a shocked, “Oh gods fuck.” Aelin stood instantly and Chaol abandoned the game, rushing to his wife’s side.

“Love, are you alright?” She nodded, one hand on her back and the other on her swollen belly. Everyone had stopped what they were doing now, all on alert as they watched.

“Yeah, yes, just fine. Uh, no need to panic.” Very reassuring. Aelin moved to stand in front of her, placing a hand on top of Yrene’s. The woman leaned back a little to look at her, wide eyes blinking a couple of times.

“My waters just broke.”

Oh gods fuck, indeed.

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[jamesrbailey]

former drummer attacked my character on facebook, like a child. hilarious film at 11.

i mean, he was REALLY gonna set me right. he had words to say and i was gonna listen cause everything that he said is valid. everything he thinks about me is completely right. i oppress women (tell my mother, my niece, my girlfriend, and my sister), i hate gay people (tell my friend Heather Hawkins) and i'm against transgender people (tell my friend Allie French). let's not talk about the intimate conversations i have had with these people i mention, and the fact that these conversations consist of me rooting them on and giving them kudos for being who they are and owning their shit. to even go after him, at this point, is pathetic. consider the source? i don't even have to describe him like i usually would. thats the beauty of it. i don't even have to mention anything about him because everyone already knows, except for him. he thinks the sun shines out of his assholes, and he's gonna be a political pundit and run for office! HURRAH! virtue signallng at it's most pathetic and embarrassing worst. he created an entire scenario in his head about me and went with it, like he knew all about me and was gonna show me what for, and NONE of it made any sense. none of it will stick to me. not one negative thing he said about me is true. i got a million texts from friends assuring me that they didn't feel that way about me. my niece even texted me to tell me that he is wrong. I literally spent a day and a half calming people down and telling them that I KNOW that they dont think about me like that. i got an inbox of messages from people that i wont even mention, because i don't want to pull them into anything, i will never share our conversations with anyone. one on one conversation is private and it stays that way with me to me own detriment. out of all of that. what i learned is that people actually do care about me enough to come to my aid and tell me personally that they disregarded his tangent as bullshit, and that i have a lot of friends. more than i thought i had, that share mutual respect with me, and that fact right there is bigger and stronger than anything he could possibly do to me. now he has to live with that fact that he stirred up a big pot of shit out of petty reasons and hearsay that i "talked shit about him" like i could give a fuck about him at all enough to talk shit about him. if i said anything, it was the cold hard truth, and it's so ugly that he doesn't like it and can't accept it, and thats what caused his reaction. the truth, i will say here and now that i have no stock in talking shit about people. i have better things to do with my life then care about the nonsense of other peoples stupid lives, and i think that if anyone knows me, they know that about me. im not much of a people person. why would i go out of my way to talk shit? for what purpose? his petty little jealous argument of "im jay bailey and i think im bigger and better at everything and smarter than everyone" is complete projection. those we're his words, not mine. i have never pretended to be better than anyone else. again, if you know me, you know just how down on myself i get a lot of the time. im the first person to disregard myself, thats the way it is with depressed people. we tend to not like ourselves very much, but we work at it, so i for sure do not think very highly of myself at all. its quite the opposite actually. better at everything? i refuse to stand court martialed for my natural talents. i never asked for any of this. in fact, i tried to hide it from everyone for a very long time OUT OF FEAR OF THIS HAPPENING. im not better at things than anyone. i just pick things up faster. i was born like that. ask my mother, i started talking early, started walking early, started reading early. my mother tells me stories of me talking in the grocery store as a child and women coming up to her and asking how old i am because i looked way too small to be talking that way. through the years. my family has used the term "gifted", and i never understood what it meant until going out into the real world and seeing other people. it still struggle with that term cause i don't feel like im any different or gifted from anyone else. i just do shit and i do it to the best of my ability. why all the jealousy? i don't understand why i'm being made to feel ashamed for this? my brain doesn't shut off. it's not my fault. this isn't something i'm trying to do to people intentionally. i don't know what to tell anyone, some things just make sense to me that doesn't seem to make sense to anyone else, and there's a certain disconnect there between me and other people. i can't explain it. i can look at a computer just by sight and know exactly whats going on. i can look at a circuit and trace the flow of electricity with my eyes. this stuff just comes natural to me, i don't know why, but i am done apologizing for it because it makes other people feel insecure and ill equipped. im tired of being the measuring stick. im tired of being the blame target. the best thing that came out of all of that is that he outed himself to everyone. for one split second, the real him came out and everyone saw him in all his disgusting glory just how petty, and manipulative, and cruel and conniving he is. what a worm. no one had been exposed to that side of him before, but i lived with him for three years and i heard him shit talk every person on the planet, always making himself the victim, the drama queen, always somebody did this to "me". woe is me. it was exhausting and pathetic, but i shrugged it off because i simply wanted to play music and have a band. i just wanted to write songs. apparently, you have to bring your entire burden of bullshit with you into a band. i had not realized this. this was new ground for me. so at this point, the damage was done to him all by himself. i certainly didn't experience a crack on anything from my side of things. he yelled a lot of words at a brick wall, and felt better about himself for 5 minutes before going home and pissing in his pants. even if i did confront him in public and have words with him, it would be so completely pathetic that it would just be ugly. no one would want to see that. nothing would come from that. it would just be another turd in a sea of toilets flushing down the drain. but all the little lemmings of the internet had to have their bite of the pie and put in their witty quips, and stoke the fires, and point out the obvious, OH LOOK EVERYONE! WE'RE ALL MAKING OBSERVATIONS! YAAAAYY!! and none of them had anything better to do but goad it on and provoke more bullshit cause they just HAVE to have a comment. your un-importance is still a constant. thanks.

[ryodan]

@bubblegalaxylove

Since you actually believe you can argue using the manga let’s go back to

Your words: uHh i doNt seE why anyone would shiP IT

me: invalid argument, it’s one of the most popular ships in history

you: TyPICAL SS, now LET ME HAVE A DICK MEASURING COMPETITION

i dont care who’s more popular dear you’ll notice I called sns an otp, what I keep telling you is to hold both characters to an EQUAL standard..which you clearly fucking don’t like,, what joke.

Anyways, last sns bash of the day, mutuals scroll past

A respectable woman is a woman who knows what she is fighting for, sakura is a respectable woman, a narrative pushed multiple times by the story but AGAIN selective reading. It was made by kishimoto? I am no fucking weeb i am a person fluent in Japanese and I don’t need no subtitles but if you’re so hellbent on it then go listen to it yourself in the anime, episode 109, 19:01. ‘koko ni ite’ Koko= here ni= a japanese particle indicating place or direction, itte= stay, be koko ni itte= be here, stay here. Kissanime has the most accurate translations of part 1, I can say that as a person who owns the triple viz volumes 19 20 21 and most the viz volumes and the panel you’re using is page 395...part of their earlier days where they made translating mistakes like the Ino vs Sakura chapters and the bad job they did to my favourite series Ranma 1/2 as back in the day Viz was smaller and still not held to the standard of accuracy they are held to today. She says IKANAIDE , Ikemasu = go, naide= don’t. Ikanaide = don’t go. But sure, you know better than me a person who’s studied Japanese since age 7 and in fact has Japanese friends and relatives living there. 

馬鹿は馬鹿だ.  仕方が無い

You really want to go objectively?

Who’s the character praised for selfless love by canon standards?

But you STILL don’t acknowledge both her and Naruto were doing the EXACT SAME THING. You calling her stupid but canon is here like knock knock 

I can list 3 other instances but i’m on data so oops

AGAIN with your selective reading and bullshit logic. Yes he protected Naruto for OBVIOUS fucking reasons they were one of the strongest people FIGHTING A WORLD WAR, he protected Kakashi and Sakura too MULTIPLE TIMES I don’t care what kind of point you are trying to prove about sasuke but lmao ok ur such a fan. He was going to kill Naruto right afterwards do you realize what backwards logic you are using right now???? 

 Had Sakura and kakashi fallen into the genjustu trap it would not have been a huge issue since the 2 people with the sage of six paths power and yin and yang release were what is needed to seal Kaguya. But even SO he saved them, and Naruto pointed out THAT HIS BODY MOVES ON IT’S OWN FOR THE PEOPLE HE CARES ABOUT. Sasuke was trying to come off heartless as he was immersing himself in darkness, this is nothing new to his character but you don’t know it do you

YOU ARE USING A FALSE TRANSLATION HONEY THAT IS NOT WHAT HE SAID

But okay, sasuke protecting them multiple times, warning them, looking out for them STILL doesn’t matter for your bullshit preception 

I don’t fucking know what point you are trying to argue since you can’t type

But it does not change the fact that sasuke had in fact made sure they were safe before saving Naruto so idk what point you getting at, you reaching for shit that is so far idk if you are getting it from your anus or uranus. The reasons for battle were stated THROUGH the manga in my post not some badly made sappy edit.

Sasuke attacked to attack he had shit to do with wanting to understand naruto, it was naruto who wanted to understand sasuke what the fuck are you ON

USE THEIR BATTLES 

i did use their battles fucker? I also used CONTEXT something you can’t for the life of you understand. 1st battle THEY WERE ABOUT TO KILL EACH OTHER OVER PETTINESS AND GOADING. 2nd he almost BURNED his ass to a crisp for interfering, then fought for the mangekyo..feelings were involved because they are BEST FRIENDS ofc they would be but the reason he stopped was because as he said TWICE to HIMSELF and to naruto was that killing his helpless best friend to obtain power was too much of an Itachi like thing to do, stop reaching it’s PATHETIC admit the faults of your ship before attacking peoples views.

You really REALLY want to have this dick measuring competition of who sasuke cares about? He was willing to give up his revenge for BOTH because sasuke loves BOTH he is not a one dimensional shallow shit like you want him to be

AND AGAIN

All sakura got was a soRRY!!! she NEVER realized he was WRONG 

she HERSELF realizes the DEPTH of the situation and even tho heartbroken decides to kill him? but she could not because despite all she had hope for him?

Sasuke and Sakura have BOTH attacked each other, she went on to fight him when he STABBED HER TEAM CAPTAIN because she realizes he is wrong..him fighting back is abusive? okay lmao sorry i forgot naruto is a shoujo about fairy princesses, ninjas don’t fight here. If anything I respect that when they met as fighters they MET as FIGHTERS. And these were not her last moments, they were flashbacks that caused her resolve to falter because she had hope for sasuke

and sasukes last words would have been about him wanting to kill his brother, but he let it go because he would never let a comrade die in front of him, not after sharing memories together lmao reach further

cry me a river over the genjutsu scene that she woke up from the same way she wakes up from sleep, but remember this: while sasukes IMAGINARY hand went through her boob naruto got MUCH worse luck

But it’s okay because he did not kill him when he was on the floor : ) despite having FULL intentions of doing so

I take it back. Let the boy speak WITH CONTEXT.

Nobody is trying to deny sasuke’s lonely ass seeing another lonely kid  reaching out made him feel relieved and happy, that is a GOOD aspect about sns, but there is a bitch ass trying to deny his feelings for all of team 7. ‘thats why’ ‘dakara’ in Japanese, you can’t move that stone.

I own the sasuke shinden novel that ended with him going back once sakura triggered a flashback, and where in the anime the scene he is thinking about naruto is actually him thinking about his ‘friends’ but you know what fucker? That novel, and sakuras shitty novel are NOT canon, they are not written by kishimoto. If you want to start considering this crap canon then you better consider this piece of garbage novel canon too. if you don’t, don’t try and argue with a filler novel. Canon sakura gave sasuke his space in 699 when he asked for it to come to terms with himself.

You mean sakura blushing? The thing a sane fucker would consider she is embarressed to tell her kid about her intimate relations with her dad? If i asked my mom such a thing her arab ass would slap me, get familiar with it: some cultures are conservative. Kishimoto said seeing naruh*ina kiss made him embarrassed so what you getting at. Sakura: never seen ur dad wear glasses lmao but he aint around so im not sure. Naruto: lol yea he never wore em. 

You: OH MY GOD HE KNOWS HIM SO WELL OH MY GOD 

You: out of context panel saying they are connected by fate

Do you REALLY want to play that card? This card makes your house of cards blow 50 shades of destroyed.

You mean how they were chosen by fate as brothers to end the cycle of hatred started by Indra, Ashura and Kaguyas ninshuu ignoring ass?

CONTEXT motherfucker ever heard of it

when kiba asked why he did not take him down and it was revealed why through slight dispositions, best thing about eidetic memories is that you dont forget this shit

Sasuke felt the need to apologize to her and regain her as part of his life and you are discrediting the scene like it does not have 2 pages in the manga yet hold on to a blurry ass panel of him protecting naruto to save the world

Anyways lets finish this bullshittery with showing ON PANEL who sasuke cares about

What? Thought it’d be only Naruto? Lol no I love canon sasuke enough to acknowledge all of his bonds. I am a sinner, guilty as charged shit sasuke cares about more than one person how awful.

Anways i’d LOVE to see your next reach, use better manga panels next time I like mentally stimulating things not sad scrapes of dead arguments 

P.S your abuse jokes are STILL fucking bullshit

never trust a str8 bitch

[samtheflamingomain]

welcome to death note, where the plot makes no sense and the rules don’t matter

Unless you've been living under a rock the past few months, you're aware that there's a live-action American Death Note movie on Netflix.

I wasn't going to watch it because I knew it would be bad and I am a MASSIVE DN fan. I didn't want it to ruin one of my favourite things.

While I wouldn't say it did that, I will say that it was, without exaggeration, the worst screen adaptation of anything I've ever seen.

I went in with low expectations and knowing they'd have to change the plot around to fit into 90 minutes. The bar was so low and yet they managed to disappoint me at every turn.

So let's get into the details. Spoilers ahead, but who cares this movie is garbage.

I'll break it down into several aspects: acting and characterization, pacing and plot, visuals and sound, and finally, the sheer amount of nonsense and bullshit this film vomited into my face.

Okay. I hated every single character's personality. NONE of the characters were even remotely similar to the characters in the manga/anime. Light is a stupid, naive teenager who thinks with his dick. Mi(s)a is a sociopathic, manipulative cunt, Light's father is EXTREMELY stupid, Ryuk is not a neutral character (which is extremely important), and, finally, L. Oh, lord, L.

L is a cold, detached, calculating super genius detective. In the original. In the movie, he's a ballsy, irrational, emotional mess who somehow knows how to drive and wield a gun - unthinkable of OG L.

And to touch briefly on the acting: Nat Wolff is the only one I really have a problem with. He wears a constant look of confusion the whole movie and acts like a troubled child, not like a fucking serial killer.

Now, to your immense surprise, there is one character that I found was nearly spot-on: Watari.

And finally, the movie lacked in sheer number of characters. The ones I listed are, quite literally, the only ones in the film who speak. I get it, they didn't have time to do the Near, Mello, Takada, or Mikami plots. But I guarentee this movie would've greatly benefited from a Matsuda character, a Rem character, and Light's mother and sister.

Onto pacing and plot.

Again, I know they only had 90 minutes, but within the first ten minutes, Light has the notebook and hooks up with someone he barely knows (Mia), shows her the notebook, and they’re instantly dating and having some creepy murder sex. Within the first 30 minutes, nearly everyone knows Light is Kira.

Now to the main problems with the plot itself: there is no reason to give Light more motive to become a killer. It's his personality and his worldly outlook that causes him to take up killing. In the movie, they sloppily throw in some bullshit about his mom being killed, but they don't make that the actual motivation for killing. How do we know this? Well...

In the movie, his first kill is a bully at school (something OG Light was smart enough to realize is fucking stupid) and when told to add a cause of death, he immediately jumps to "decapitation" - revealing instantly that he's a sick fuck. Sure, bullies suck, but do they deserve to be fucking decapitated? Light Yagami only killed actual criminals (until he has to kill people investigating him).

This might seem petty, but it's actually super important: Ryuk shows up before Light kills anyone. In the original, Light needed no prodding from a Death God to begin his murder spree. In the movie, it's Ryuk that goads him into his quest. This goes back to the fact that Ryuk is supposed to be neutral. It takes away Light's agency and makes it feel like Ryuk is controlling him.

L makes WAY too many guesses with little logic or evidence. It takes a lot longer for L to deduce Light is Kira in the original. Movie L makes some very uncharacteristic leaps of logic just for the sake of driving the movie on.

There's a scene pretty early on that mimics a similar scene in the original with Light and L sitting in a diner together. In the original, it’s not super important. Movie version involved L outright accusing him of being Kira on flimsy-at-best evidence, and then, in what might be the worst event in the movie, Light readily admits to being Kira and taunts him about not knowing how he kills.

After some bullshit about Light mind-controlling Watari (more on that later) to try and get L's name and Watari dies, L goes on a destructive car/foot chase with Light. In the original, it's important for L to figure out how Kira kills before killing him. This movie L doesn't seem to care about anything but revenge and being proven right.

I keep saying this, but another horribly-written thing happens that might be the worst part: L has Light cornered with a gun on him and someone randomly comes and knocks L over the back of the head, the very epitome of a Deus Ex Machina.

Then we get to the climax, which is an extremely long scene where Light and Mia hijack the Seattle ferris wheel, take it to the top and fight over who should own the book. They've both written each others' names down and the pages need to be burned by midnight if they want to live (groan, unnecessary race-against-time). They spend a good 5 minutes dangling from the wheel when RYUK causes it to collapse; something OG Ryuk would have NEVER EVER DONE, because, as the movie fails to explain, Ryuk’s motivation is supposed to be boredom. I’ll touch more on why this happens in a bit. Mia falls to her death, Light falls into the water, into a coma, and wakes up two days later.

Okay, now I do have to give the movie a bit of credit here: it seems at first like a bunch of ridiculous coincidences that lead to Light outliving Mia. Turns out he saw all this coming (somehow) and had quickly used the book to ensure that: the wheel collapses, Mia falls from the wheel and dies, the page with his name is burned so he will live, that he's rescued from the water after his fall, that he's in a coma but murders continue via a random criminal writing in the book before delivering it back to Light just as he wakes from the coma. I'll pick this part apart in a minute because there is just so much wrong with this sequence of events that I can’t even.

And finally, the ending, if you can call it that. The writers were VERY clearly trying to be clever and leave us with a cliffhanger.

L is "proven wrong" about Light being Kira because the murders continued while he was in a coma, and is supposed to go back to Japan, before he suddenly remembers that Mia has a page of the book at her house. He gets there and finds the page she used to kill invesigators behind Light's back. The movie ends with L, shaking in uncharacteristic anger, about to write Light's name. Fade to black.

Finally, one last thought on the plot before I touch on other elements: this is a terrible adaptation, but an even worse movie. As a stand-alone movie, viewers new to Death Note would no doubtedly leave feeling confused and like nothing important was said in the movie. It does nothing to touch on the ambiguity of Kira's actions vs. L's. It has no underlying takeaway besides "Hey look at this cool book!"

Okay, quick thoughts on visuals and sound. Visuals are great (minus whatever bullshit paper mache project that is Ryuk). They dont' shy away from gruesome depictions of murders. I'd cite the incredible series of events that lead to Kenny being decapitated as the best example.

Hated the audio. Random songs start playing where score would've been better.

Okay, now onto the nitty-gritty details that make this movie absolutely fall apart.

Most of them are to do with the mechanics of how the Death Note is supposed to work. The original only has one page of rules and no names in it yet. Movie Book has pages and pages of rules and names filled in. There are rules that don't exist in the original (like the burning of the page to save the life of the victim, the fact that Mia can't see Ryuk after touching the note*, and most deplorably, the rule about "must be physically possible" being shattered into pieces at every turn.

*When Light first shows Mia the book and has her touch it, he assumes she’ll be able to see Ryuk WITH NO REASON TO BELIEVE THIS. In the original, Ryuk has to tell Light about this rule. In the movie, Light GUESSES that that’s how it works. And he’s wrong: unlike the original where Mia would’ve seen Ryuk, Ryuk claims in the movie that only the owner of the book can see him - super convenient for Light, who walks around school with the book in full view.

But there's a lot of other bullshit that ruins this monstrosity. There's a turning point in the movie where Mia tries to convince Light to kill his own father. The prompting event doesn't happen in the original, but I have no doubt that OG Light would've killed him without hesitation, as he outright says in the original. Because OG Light would be smart enough to know that leaving his father alive in that situation would immediately implicate him.

Here's one of the worst offenses (again, I know): Light writes the name "Watari" in the book. And it works. Watari is not his real name, and even if it were, who only has one name?

L does the whole "taunting Kira to kill him on TV" as in the original, but this event leads him to the conclusion that Light needs a name and a face - something that makes absolutely no sense for him to instantly know after one test.

Now, about the ending sequence at the ferris wheel and the hospital. The police are chasing Light and Mia, the two threaten the wheel's operator with a gun to take them up. And then he's later "officially" exonerated because the murders continued while he was in a coma, but because Light killed his mother's killer, his father "knows” he's Kira, which, of course, Light admits. If he's "officially" not Kira, why did he run from the cops and hijack a ferris wheel? L knows the power of killing can be transferred to another, yet doesn't explain this fact to anyone when the killings continue during Light’s coma.

And the biggest shitshow of nonsense? The way Light kills Mia and ensures he lives and ends up with the book again. Waaay too much of it is contingent on luck, along with some great rule-breaking.

Light writes: Mia takes the book, the wheel collapses, she falls to her demise, and the page with his name on it is burned. That's not how it works. There cannot be a passive action in a Death Note murder. He would've had to write: Mia takes the book, burns Light's page, then falls to her demise.

He also writes that he himself falls but goes into a coma, set to wake up in two days. Also impossible. You can't create a sequence of events that affect someone other than the murder victim. And you especially can’t use it to (directly) save someone’s life.

Essentially, Light is writing things he'd like to happen in the book. It's a Death Note, not a Life Note, and certainly not a Wish Note.

He also writes that criminal number one retrieves him from the water and revives him. The criminal would have to know there's a kid in the water, where he is, and how to revive him. Possible, but not foolproof because of the "physically possible" rule. If dude didn't know CPR, Light would've died.

Then, he has criminal number two retrieve the Death Note and continue writing names in the book for the two days he's in the coma, and then return it to him in the hospital. This is less about "physically possible" and more about somehow being able to brainwash him. The events leading up to his death have to be something he could conceiveably do on his own. See also: the brainwashing of Watari.

Let me explain a bit more: in the original, Light experiments with the "physically possible" rule. In one test he writes: (criminal) draws a perfect likeness of L's face on his prison wall before dying. This isn't physically possible because the criminal doesn't know what L looks like, so it's inconcievable that he could, under any circumstance, draw L's face.

Similarly, there's no way that Watari would think of going back to the orphanage to get L's real name, nor is there a conceivable way that a criminal would think to go to Light's specific hospital room and leave him the book. It has to be something they could potentially think of themselves.

Now, I know these are a lot of extremely fine details, but to people who know how the book is supposed to work, it all looks messy and contrived.

Finally, let me leave you with one last gripe/thought. Death Note is an IP originating from Japan. I get that it's a purposely American adaptation meant for American audiences, but something in the movie happens that kind of pissed me off:

Light chooses the name Kira (instead of his fans choosing the name) largely because it means "killer" in Japan, then decides to try and throw people off his scent by focusing his murders in Japan. I have no doubt that this was meant to be a nod to its Japanese origins, but it comes off as... kind of like kicking the original when it's already down. You're taking a Japanese IP, taking it to America, then using Japan as a scapegoat for American Light. Maybe it's just me, but it really made me think, "Haven't they suffered enough just by the fact that this movie exists?"

I'm sure there's a bunch of stuff I've missed due to repressing the memory of ever seeing this terrible movie, but those are my major (and minor) problems with it.

Don't see it. It's bad.

And DEAR GOD, PLEASE DON'T MAKE A SEQUEL.

Stay Greater.

[teddy-the-queer-wizard]

My dads a bully and an asshole. I cant raise my voice when excited and talking to mom about something without getting yelled at for yelling. Mom tells dad to hush im not yelling just empathic - actually true. Dad yells back that he doesnt care if its mothers day or that she has a broken leg - she needs to shut the hell up. Just for Christ sake if you can raise your voice and growl and throw things that displease you onto the floor - and expect me to pick it up - then you can deal with me being happy talking about shit you dont give a shit about a little but louder than my " inside voice " . For god sake you expect me to talk to you about anything? Like the other day we go out to dinner for whatever fucking reason - i dont want to go but i get told to stop complaining because theres something in it for me (i e the food I'm not hungry for and would rather not eat rn when there are left overs) - and we start talking about star wars. I like TFA better than Rogue one. Even aside from the fact they tanked all the cannon outside the movies (dad is all the salt about btw) he doesnt like TFA because to him its the SAME story, at least Rouge one was NEW. I disagree. "Defend yourself" like he LIKES arguing about fun stuff too but I mean not liking i dunno fandom drama online let alone irl aside this man has made damn sure throughout my entire life up to present day making sure I want to cry ( reguardless of intention thats what he did ) when i THINK hes upset let alone disagree or back talk or be disrespectful... So you really think I'm going to get into even a "friendly debate" with you when you ROUTINELY tell me my opinion is wrong, that other people are stupid or ignorant or... Just not no but hell no. I mean seriously just since Friday anytime we've disagreed with something he's said its "when are you going to learn I know what I'm talking about" and moms "lied" to him by ommission which IS a thing I grant you but you know what lies take fucking intent and mom was a bit distracted what with feeling stupid over falling down a mountain and breaking her god blessed leg. Maybe she SHOULD have thought more before letting herself be bundled into an ambulance when we could have gotten her but again kinda not at her best right then - more to the point I'll bet you dollars to donuts youre REALLY more mad at yourself you didnt ask more questions when she said she fell. And now youre TRYING to start fights for me Im honestly assuming because Ive somehow managed to strike a lovely balance of "im tired and letting your bs sweep by me as I treat you like an obstacle" attitude without actually quite crossing into being disrespectful. I mean we both know that by your standarda im being disrespectful but i havent given you anything to really work with so go me and heres hoping i can keep it up. I mean seriously. Moms dresser is coveres in things to be put away. Dad calls me cause moms legs broken and he's on the bed with hed cause back pain. So i pick up a sweater. Mom: that gets hung up Dad: well how tf fuck are yougoing to do that when you have no hangers Me: thats what you think **leaves to get hangers from my closet** Dad: when the fuck are you people going to learn I know what I'm talking about **leaves in an obviously upset state** A) had hangers. Maybe mom didnt but i did. B) isnt it YOU always on about asking stupid questions and thinking before i speak and paying attention? C) WHAT DO YOU MEAN HOW AM I GOING TO HANG UP THE SHIRT OBVIOUSLY ID GO GET ONE FROM THE LAUNDRY ROOM IF THERE WERE NONE UPSTAIRS WHY ARE YOU PICKING A FIGHT WHEN I'M DOING WHAT YOU WANT And its like that with EVERYTHING. We are all hard headed and stubborn and want our way. Welcome to the fucking Hyde family. But its only okay when its YOURE dumb ass pride that gets us into trouble? Fuck that. Youre a grown ass man. Youre married which is a partnership not a DICKtatorship. But fine. Youre both adults and if mom doesnt want to fight and let things slide FINE thats yalls business. But I'm a grown ass adult how you treat and act and speak to me and my mother is disrespectful as hell and im tired of being threatend everytime my tone and temper get away from me. Im tired of you saying my shits unacceptable when its only a fraction of your own behavior thrown back at you and not only did i learn it from you youre the one driving me to it with your bs. I am tired. And yeah I'm not in a good place financially rn. But I've been homeless before and did paasibly well for myself. And I've noticed that since I've come back you havent said a word about your house and the door. You do and I'll leave. You grab me ever fucking again and I'll leave. Your behavior gets a smidge worse and maybe Ill fucking SHOW you yelling and then leave. Hell the only reason I'm putting up with you is because of mom and I DO want a functioning relationship with my family. And i know thats what you want too so why the fuck are you doing everything possible to.make me hate you? Why cant you pull your head out of your ass? I CANT fucking tell you what youre doing to your face because youve ensured youre never fucking listening when ive tried and turned it into a lecture about something else. Or gotten a stick up your ass about my tone when YOURES is what goaded mine. Youve made sure i feel weak for getting upset and crying or having any issue at all with you. I feel guilty because I should "know better" than to get upset and show it or tell you anything because youll turn it around and use it against me. I didnt magic up these fears and issues. Im not playing the victim. Im not making them out larger to be than they are. No you havent actually abused me. Yes youve helped me out. Yes youre not charging me rent or anything and let me live here and just need me to help out. But youre attitude and behavior and just... I get sick, literally nauseous with anger and upset and fear and guilt and everything just being in the same room with you for too long - especially if there isnt an active chore to be done. Im so fucking done. Youre a grown man you need to fucking act like it.

[hardwarevent]

Life is a drag sometimes

So I skipped the stupid dim sum thing I mentioned earlier and went to the mall instead. I picked up an extra workout outfit and concealer for the bags under my eyes. And when I got home I wished that I wouldn't have to meet C's stupid crush, and wished even harder that it wasn't C bringing home just him after this thing. I did not get either of these wishes. There is a plus side, though. The guy is... let's just say he's non-threatening. He's shorter than me (and also C), he's got kind of a pudge, no noticeable muscle in his build, a pencil mustache that's barely noticeable. The first things that came into my mind were things like "wow this dude is so beta" "I could beat this guy's ass no problem" and "if it wasn't for the furry fandom this guy would get no romantic attention at all". But maybe me thinking all these things was just me being lonely and jealous. I got goaded into driving these two to a local park to go birdwatching. I think the guys main feature, and the one that probably hooked C, was that he went to college to study birds, and they are both really really into birds. So I kinda wandered around 3rd-wheeling it while these 2 birdwatched for like 2 hours. It was boring, and perhaps a little humiliating. He then left a little while after we got home and watched like a 1/2 hour of bird videos on YouTube. I don't know how the fuck these sperglords can be into birds and do bird stuff for so long with such fervor. Like, I like birds, but these 2 LOVE birds. And you know, something actually occurred to me while dicking around in this park. I get that C and I have a physical attraction and the same type of humor, but this guy just matches them so well on an emotional and interest/hobby level. And, like, I can't really give C that. The dude is a pussy, physically, but otherwise they match. And like, I think it's sweet, a little bit? C was really perky during this whole birdwatching thing... and I guess... I hope that I'm happy for them. They deserve happiness. They deserve someone better than me, who is scum and looks down on them sometimes, honestly. This guy would treat C well, even with all of their non-heteronormative quirks. I don't know. I just don't. I guess I'm unhappy that they found someone else, but if they did find someone else, I'm glad it's someone like this guy. At least he doesn't make me feel emasculated too, on top of everything else. Whatever. So after all this I go to bed and end up having, like, a combination sex dream and nightmare? Like in the dream, it was the closet light flickering and acting weird, and I knew something was up, and I made a mad dash into C's room and we ended up, like, messing around with their dragon dildo and making it cum on my face after they used it and stuff (man that's some freaky stuff, and also a lot of nice shit C has, I bought them or helped buy them) but then I was back in my room with C and I tried turning off the closet light but as I did that the door went ajar and I'm like aaaaah and try to ignore what's happening but I feel something creeping along my bedroom floor and then I wake up? After all this I get the creeping feeling that I'm living in a waking nightmare that I just can't wake up from. I feel like everything is falling apart in my life, no matter how times I'm trying to frantically glue and tape the pieces together. I feel like I'm not living up to my potential, but at the same time i'm not good enough at anything to warrant anything nice. I don't think I can ever really be happy. I'm just, like, an unhappy person. You know what happened Friday at work? The senior people talked to M and I about if we were passionate about the project that we were working on. The answer is honestly no, but I tried my hardest to convey the opposite (I obviously failed, because if I did care I wouldn't be so shit at my job and I wouldn't be having this conversation) and then they asked me what I wanted to do. I still don't fucking know. I've been going 25 and a half years strong without figuring that out. What was interesting was that when one of them was like "well do you want to make games?" I almost lashed back like "No I got a masters in game design and development so I could be a fucking electrician". Like of course that was my main goal. Of course that would make me happier. Well, maybe not, but it would be closer to my initial plan. I dunno what the fuck I'm doing anymore. I'm so done with all this shit. Outside of the standard shit I should be thankful for, like having my own place and a spot to sleep and money and a steady job that I fucking suck at and a family that cares about me, I don't really feel like anything is going well right now, at all. Except P90X, only I think not eating the things I want to eat and taking hours out of my weekend to prepare food and waking up at 6am to work out only serves to make me more fucking miserable. But I am still doing it. Maybe I should quit. 12-13/90 is better than nothing (I'm a day behind because I was super fucking depressed and tired on Friday). I don't know. I need someone to talk to about this. Like actually talk to... you know... I guess if there's one thing that today's birdwatching adventure has taught me, it's that even though you may be fucking ugly and short and have no muscle, you can hook someone way more attractive than you as long as you match interests and personalities really well, and don't care about their weird flaws. I know because I'm seeing it happen before my eyes. You know, probably. Maybe they try to bang for the first time and he has no stamina and his dick is tiny and C is like "ugh I need to get (me) or someone else competent at fucking to bang me". And then they break up. Or they dont, but I get to cuck the dude. That's the best case scenario, though I'm guessing it's not gonna happen. Not totally implausible though. Aw well.