#dont know how i feel ab it

[lemongogo]

they should get to kill each other at least twice .i think

[sprolden]

why does actually reaching out to your friends when you're not feeling great feel sooooo embarrassing like hi please hang out with me (so i can stop crying all the time). im kind of miserable and probably not that fun to be around btw. like a total mood killer. let's hang 😃

[buwheal]

We can't hear it Spam, but it's real to you. I get auditory hallucinations a lot, and usually what helps me is a distraction. Maybe... name 5 things you can see? Or make paper airplanes with old messages, or draw some pictures. Otherwise, I'm sure someone has a crossword or story they can send you to help you out!

[fizzysgayassposting]

Simeon, the saint, on his pillar of stone

[fujobritta]

weird storytime and an abed analysis (abednalysis ?)

in s1e17, physical education, abed says that he didnt mind changing for other people because hes comfortable with who he is . a season later, in s2e19, critical film studies, he says instead that he doesnt like change . and now i realize what he really meant when he said that he didnt mind changing .

when i was younger, around 11-12, i would pretend to be other people online . more than five different separate identities in one discord server . because i wanted people to like me more . i made these alt accounts and assigned each one a personality, a different typing style, a reason for joining, a region, and a timezone . and for the most part, they were people who were nicer and just generally likeable . because im not someone who is any of those things . i am not a nice person . i dont even think im a good person . and god i am not likeable . at all .

so i played these characters . most of them only being active for short periods . i would have full back and forth conversations with these alt accounts to sell it . i had these weird insane elaborate plans . a 16 year old former drug user, lives in manitoba, somewhat parental . 13, california, liked minecraft and drawing -- completely different artstyle (and different software) too . etc .

i would let these accounts bake (make them and then not use them) so that it didnt seem suspicious with a brand new account joining the server . then i would spend a week making the account and forming a character to go with it, sometimes asking people to help me out . it was so fucking crazy . i was insane . might still be .

…yeah i probably still am .

i was such a better person on those different accounts . because i didnt know how to change on the inside, i just started over and over again . different account, new me . like i was experimenting with who i really wanted to be like . formulating the perfect person to act like when i finally decided that i wanted to become a better person .

i gave up eventually obviously . im not a tween anymore . i was a really weird tween . obviously . but i think about it a lot .

honestly i only went back to being myself because it was comfortable . i felt better being a fucking douche . and i still am a douche . im not a good person . i dont think ill ever be a "good person" . what the hell is a good person, anyways . all i know is that im fine with myself like this . even as much as i not-so-secretly hate myself, and deny it out of fear of seeming like an "edgy attention seeking loser" .

its not that abed doesnt mind change, he just doesnt mind changing the persona . he doesnt mind changing the person showing on the outside . a separate identity . but ultimately, he wouldnt ever fundamentally change as a person . because hes fine with who he is, even if other people might not like him for that . and i want to be like him . i want to be someone who is fine with who they are, even if that someone is a socially inept ass who learned tenth grade math at age ten but cant figure out when their own face is making a smile or not .

[sixosix]

thawed readers im curious what do u think of rosalie

[night-triumphantt]

Kiara x Yazan

@cashweasel Happy 2 year anniversary to my blorbos of all time, i didnt have time to actually draw but yk what I couldn’t let it go w nothing so.

[jrmblob]

i yearn for jlud in a way where its like a sad song. when they look at each other it hurts but the burn feels good and when they touch their blood runs cold but it feels warm.

[lemongogo]

sry i dont know what 2 draw anymore T_T . elendira portrait #999

[stupidrant]

i think the most we will get is PC release (if that) this year but that means we gotta deal with those trolls bc changing angrb0da’s skin color is such a big deal to these mfs and i still dont understand that sweet baby inc shit bcuz all the information im seeing is just bundled bullshit LMFAOOO i feel like her actual character gets overshadowed by the made up problems and no one actually talks abt HER as a character or even analyses her fr (outside of here ofc) lol sms abt to make a banger with her and atreus istg

[camzverse]

wish some of u were into typology id love to know how youd type some fnaf chars so bad

[theadorableundead]

YAOI AND YURI FLAGS

these flags are mostly jokes, if you want to ascribe a meaning to them go ahead idc. viva la yaoi and yuri

these flags are f2u, though if you use them in any edits i would like to be linked back to.

[buwheal]

wip of the thing im working on for something. Sped up to 10 fps because theres a lot of extra frames. it will be 8 fps later so it might look a little weird and fast in the gif rn.

this is going to kill me actually i have so much left to do and ive only got the hand movement/computer jostle mostly done. A lot of it will be him just typing with a graphic but damn. i gotta do him blinking and shit which is somehow harder than the body movements because its so small and an accidental thick line makes it look stupid.

the things i commit myself to because of the tism

[synthetic-sonata]

i need to be more autistic ab my ocs right NOW

[ok4ru]

Isa met both Ven and Skuld before being controlled by their relatives for years…

[bunnyb34r]

I miss wearing lipstick :( I had a huge collection of liquid lipsticks before covid :(((