#dont be mean to me about my image resolution lol

[xiapet]

Rhu'by finally got some swimwear ~

[toonbly]

Can you image the tension of sitting in the van driving back to where ever they hide out? They're sitting next to each other (Orchestrated by the other three) but are both staring resolutely in other directions, pretending it's all fine but Not Talking. Silence. Nothing. Not even music, since Coomer is driving, but likes to eavesdrop, and is also not subtle about it-

OH MY GOD YOUR M I ND....OKAY OKAY IMAGINE

Like they’re just sitting in ABSOLUTE silence and both Tommy and Bubby are getting THIS CLOSE to saying something like “CAN YOU GUYS JUST TALK IT OUT” but Coomer manages to keep them wrangled in

They stay quiet until they get back to home base- and by home base I mean, of course, Bubby and Coomer’s house. Usually they all reconvene and go over what they got from that days heist, but Gordon- ever the avoidant one- barely stays a moment before saying he needs to step out for a second, and he does! The Coomers have a balcony on the second story, so Gordon’s quick to retreat up there for some fresh, summer night air.

Benrey’s hesitant to follow him at first- His excuse is something about “stupid gordon lameman and uh- not. talking about shit. kinda cringe lol dont wanna deal with that” but Tommy manages to talk him into going to talk to Gordon about the fact that- well, they kissed during a heist. Twice.

Benrey makes his way up to the balcony and sure enough Gordon is up there, leaning over the railway and staring up at the night sky. He doesn’t notice Benrey come out, and Benrey almost doesn’t want to alert Gordon to his presence because he looks so...calm?

His eyes transfixed on the stars above, for once there’s no tension being held in his shoulders, there’s no exhaustion or frustration hidden behind his relaxed expression- perhaps there’s a little nervousness, given what’s just happened, but..He looks peaceful. For once in his goddamn life, Gordon Freeman seems at peace.

And, of course, Benrey is the one that ruins that peace- Not intentionally. That goddamn Sweet Voice of his goes off again (pink to blue- we all know what it means by now) which makes Gordon jump. He turns to Benrey and, for a second, doesn’t say anything. He just watches the colorful bubbles of the Sweet Voice float into the air.

Surprisingly enough, Benrey’s the one who talks first. He says some dumb shit like “so uhhh...we gonna like. talk about that. top ten gordon freeman gay moments? numbers one and two may surprise you? cause like they surprised me” and it manages to get a laugh out of Gordon. More Sweet Voice bubbles come out at that- much to Benrey’s dismay.

And, yeah, they talk about it. Benrey comes over to the railing and looks out over the sky with Gordon, letting the two of them stay in silence for a moment- for once in his goddamn life. It’s Gordon’s response that catches him off guard.

“I’m sorry.”

Wait- huh? What the fuck?

Benrey looks at him, “baffled” doesn’t even BEGIN to cover his expression right now. Gordon takes a deep breath and continues- “Look I- I know it was kind of weird of me to-” He pauses, vaguely gesturing with his hands- “Especially after...Everything that. Happened between us. I- I like you, a lot, I do but I- I dunno I feel. Shitty just- dropping that on you? We- said and did a lot of shit to each other back there, man- I said and did a LOT of shit to you that I- I probably...wouldn’t have if we weren’t in the middle of the literal fucking apocalypse right in the center of Black Mesa and- I don’t. Know. This is stupid- I’m kinda stupid. The shit I did is stupid. And I- I love you but it’s selfish of me to-”

Oh. Oh no, that wasn’t gonna do.

“bro. shut up. like- listen.” Benrey puts a hand on Gordon’s arm- It’s not lost on either of them how gently Benrey’s fingers brush over the scars just above where Gordon’s prosthetic connects, “i like. did a lot of...shitty things too, man. unepic gamer moments or whatever. i uh...i shouldnt have though. kinda dumb of me. real dumb of me. but like...shits? different now man. im not like. the bad guy anymore- code doesn’t make me do shit. you dont gotta be some big hero protagonist or whatever either so like...we can cut the shit. it all like, sucked, sure, but like. its different now, bro. we’re cool.”

Gordon blinks. Ah, yeah, there’s that smile again, “Y-Yeah? We’re cool..?”

Benrey rolls his eyes, “pfft i mean- fuckin. wouldn’t say it if i didn’t mean it. wouldn’t have kissed your stupid ass if i didn’t want to either. did that twice now. idiot. take a hint maybe.”

And before Benrey knows it there’s a gentle hand cupping his face, making him look up at Gordon- God. His eyes are so pretty. His smile is so soft. A few more of those Sweet Voice bubbles escape from between Benrey’s lips- fuchsia to lavender, you set my heart aflutter!

Before either of them can say anything, Gordon pulls Benrey into kiss- It’s soft, it’s genuine, it’s-

“IT’S ABOUT GODDAMN TIME!” Bubby’s voice echoes from the doorway.

 The two practically jump apart, Gordon letting out a startled yelp as they do. He shoots a glare to Bubby, “Dude! What the FUCK!”

“You were taking too long! We have loot to look over, you know! Quit being saps and hurry it up!” Bubby says, snapping his fingers impatiently. 

Two other figures pop up from behind Bubby- Tommy and Coomer, both with equally large grins on their faces.

“See Benrey I- I told you you could tell him!!!”

“Young love is beautiful!”

Gordon groans, leaning back on the rail with a hand covering his ever reddening face. Benrey chuckles a little.

“cats outta the bag. bro you gotta keep hiding your shame or are you gonna like. come count the loot with us lol.”

Gordon huffs.

“Y’know what. Sure. Fuck it.” He says with a small smile, taking Benrey’s hand and walking with him back into the home.

Benrey can’t help but stare as they walk. Gordon’s got the stupidest grin on his face, his blush is still somewhat present. It’s cute.

It’s nice to see him smiling again. too.

[khadgarfield]

vent/negative utc

TBQH, I havent been feeling very good lately about my work, or about being in the wow fandom generally.

I dont have any friends here, a small fandom where everyone has their own niche, and truthfully it feels very lonely. i cycle the same concepts and images and ideas over and over in my work, in the same way my irl anxieties are cycling through my head, because i think i am trying to process them but struggle to find any resolution. I fear everyone can see me flounder for any sort of meaning, or even on the most mundane level the development of the tools i might deploy to construct meaning, deeply couched in the bizarre tracts on sex and death and love and grief that could have been about literally ANYTHING in human experience but had to be some fucked up videogame for some reason (yikesssss). i am invisible in that particular way all people become invisible, when they are alone with their thoughts, and though i typically enjoy this kind of isolation theres no comfort in it at all right now. Everyone else seems to be having such a nice time and god, i wish that were me lmao. 

All of this begs the question as to what i ought to do next, or what direction my peculiar method of experiencing human emotion ought to next take. i still have so much unposted material, i still know that if i stop trying to express or process or create i will become completely dysfunctional. And yet!!!! Im miserable!!! what then? I will have to think on it i suppose. 

At this stage, im contemplating just dumping everything i have on AO3 then deleting everything, like how i did when i dipped from fan culture in like 2017. weirdly enough, i cannot for the life of me remember what i did in my spare time during that period, and i know for a fact that I kind of completely forgot how to write last time i did that so im hesitant to do it again. ive toyed with the prospect of writing kindle erotica, but i find the marketing, social media, publication process etc PROFOUNDLY daunting. dont even get me started on the guilt i would feel asking people to pay actual irl money for what is essentially my traumatised little autistic brain trying to descartes itself. 

wish i could be normal lol. 

[allbeendonebefore]

Random ask but been bugging me a bit. What do you mean when you scan drawings? Like I've seen artists always mention about how they scan traditional drawing and upload them to their computer but like how??? Again sorry for the random ask, my baby brain is trying to gain big kid knowledge and experience lol.

I wh--

wha

what are they teaching you guys in school I

first let me preface this by saying you don’t ever have to be sorry to ask a question and even though i’m having an internal crisis about my age it is absolutely not your fault for not knowing and i am happy to answer and happy to help and i am not in any way trying to embarrass or poke fun at anyone but myself and also good thing you asked this this year when i actually have access to my trusty old scanner again lol.

groovy public service announcement with hip and modern music in the bg: learn to use a scanner not just for doodling but also for life!! old people will be amazed and astounded by your command of technology in a professional setting, it’s a life skill at any age. Using it for doodles is a great motivator.

meet scanner-kun

Step One: Draw a Drawing

i’m using scrap paper because i’m lazy and because sometimes fitting a sketchbook in a scanner is a hassle because you might have to hold it in place. (There are sketchbooks like grumbacher which come with removable tabs that i’d recommend for stuff you want to scan but dont want to tear out of your sketchbook.)

(its edward prince of the magpies)

Step Two: Pop it in your All in One Printer/Scanner that you totally definitely maybe have (or borrow someone else’s, you can do this for free at your local library and tbh their scanners are probably bigger) And Make Sure It’s Facing the Right Way Please

Step Three: Find the cables for your all in one printer/scanner that has been in storage for 3 years and actually hasn’t met your computer and needs to be introduced to it and thus you need to download the scanner app and oh my god this took slightly longer than expected aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

(a newer printer/scanner would be easier but mine is an oldboi and my computer has had some issues in the past so it’s a few apps short of a brain) (Oldboi scanner connects to laptop-kun via a USB cable because it pre-dates wireless printers that are much more common these days)

There is a button on the scanner I could press, but it’s probably actually better and easier to do it by opening the scanner app on the computer because you should preview your scan first in order to crop it and make sure it all fits and isn’t at a weird angle etc etc.

Step Four: Preview your image and make any adjustments necessary. I’ve cropped it but I’m not messing with the settings (the resolution would be important if you plan to print the image later and you might want to change it from colour to greyscale, but if you forget you can still do this in your editing program of choice really easily.

Step 5: Hit that scan button

and voila, your scanner has created an image that you can save, put on a usb stick, email to yourself, print, or whatever.

The scanner did a pretty good job of ignoring the big smudge i’d made by accident near his face, but I will want to open this up in an editing program like CSP to make my sketch easier to see. Scanning tends to wash things out a little (and with reflective material it doesn’t always show up well)

My guess is that fewer people have printer/scanners these days because so much “scanning” can be done with a phone - there are scanner apps you can download to your phone that are a little more precise than just using the camera app and can take scans of things larger than would fit in a printer/scanner, I just don’t have patience for them and haven’t really used them.

Step 6: drink and contemplate your own antiquity

am i really that old does everyone just use their phone these days

Step 7: Editing your drawing

I won’t go into this because it depends on what program you use to edit but It usually helps to adjust the brightness/contrast of the lineart layer (I have this under Edit > Tonal Correction but it might be in a different spot in other programs)

and if your program also has level correction that’s really helpful with cleaning up lineart

as you can see it’s picked up all the gross smudges - so i move around these arrows to try to get them as clear as possible : ) I think the arrows are for white, grey and black respectively (or at least, bright, midtone, and dark).

in csp what I would do is hit “convert brightness to opacity” which should make all the white areas transparent so you can colour under the line art. You can usually achieve something similar by changing the layer to “Multiply” in other programs.

voila! Now you can use the sketch as is, draw over it or under it, make copies, whatever you want.

[philip-seville-archive]

BDRP 2021 Resolutions

Write your RPer Resolutions for 2018! (What are some goals for yourself as a writer? Improve descriptions? Plot with more members? Etc.)

A silly goal but I would like another female character lol

More one-shots! I always have these ideas for them but because I let them grow too large in my brain or I feel like I need to turn them into a proper ‘short story’ I intimidate myself out of doing them and then let the opportunity to slide. So this year I hope to fix that and once again be more chillax with myself. (Though here is a shoutout to me bc I published some one-shots last year I was happy about, like Nemo’s “Breath,” Berlioz’s parentage reveal, and my John Darling stuff!) 

Do One Task Every Month. Another small but very doable goal 

Learn how to say no: ahaha this seems a weird thing to put here but its actually about events and i feel this is a safe space to admit that i love love events but they like, truly take a toll on my arthritic hands which means i really can only do two characters probably. But i feel bad only rping with just two ppl etc esp if other people hit me up, or if there are other people i WANT to rp with, so i end up not doing it at all because i get overwhelmed and feel like no one will believe me about my shitty hands (which is of course silly but man chronic illness anxiety am i right). Sooooo i need to find a better way to enjoy events and manage my own health! 

Finish some of the fairy lore stuff i got in the works lol 

Write at least one resolution, or “goal,” that you have as an RPer for your character(s)

These vaguely feel like spoilers but oh well i love spoilers 

Berlioz: Find His Daddy. Also groove room stuff. 

Hades: Pokevolve his emotional intelligence! Also would like to do more Board things with him actually, esp bc he will have to run for office so: focus on his political aspirations

Merida: Integrate into society! She is doing it more but I really hope her friendships with the knights will let her fully embrace herself again. ALSO ALSO alpha Merida! 

Charlie: Greater control over his magic and more confidence in himself. We gettin there bb

Ashleigh: Entangle her further with the knights/Henry and eventually reveal she’s a mara bc i would like that for Henry it will be horrifying for him

Nemo: embrace dance as a career option and therefore overcome the systematic factors that have convinced u that u cant! YOU CAN 

Jun: Date. (Horrifying for him. Not his goal.) Also just more hijinks, I love love hijinks, would love business-related hijinks. 

Olaf: Get more involved on campus!! More uni plots for him would be great esp when it comes to figuring out if he’ll stay on campus after this year (and also like how this affects his friendship with Sindri) 

Atta: QUEEN STUFF. This is first on my list so we’re gonna make you happen. Blow up Atta’s life, really make her deal with that imposter syndrome. Love it. 

Pip: Put the mortifying fear of being known into Pip. aka open up about his mum a bit with like, someone. Or just admit that the people he says are his enemies are actually his friends.

Write at least one resolution IN CHARACTER for your characters. What do THEY want to accomplish or change in the New Year?

Note that I love seeing which characters echo my goals and which ones don’t at all. It’s just fun and neat. Probably says something about each one’s emotional self-awareness. (Mostly pointing out how Hades is extremely self-aware i love that for him) 

TW: weight 

Berlioz: Literally nothing. Sorry he just thinks resolutions are stupid and life is pointless (he is in a state). 

Hades: Prepare for his election next year, raise his children well, help Belle in her recovery 

Merida: Assist King Arthur. Become a good alpha to Alice specifically (not u lou i mean like she is but she’s like that bitch doesnt need me) 

Charlie: Reup his certs! Figure out a specialty! 

Ashleigh: Revenge against Romeo, revenge against John Darling + company for destroying her tree 

Nemo: Get an apprenticeship this year. Work on Hangul. Lose seven stone. Work on wing sprints. Be better son. Be more responsible and help Appa. Get job again? ...Quit dance? 

Jun: something nerdy about increasing the overall revenue or something of the market i dont know im not a business person. Also something nerdy about Animal Crossing, maybe he wants to add a new room to his house. Jun’s goals have nothing to do with himself personally. 

Olaf: Get involved in uni! Learn more about his talent and practice it intentionally, including how to control it better so he is not overwhelmed in situations like the nightmare fog. 

Atta: Help Dot with her apprenticeship!! Learn more stuff about clumsy culture. Pass her petition about water fountains. 

Pip: Grow SSIC followers by 100+; grow Spill engagement by 20%; arrange guest speakers for SSIC and maybe help SSIC write a petition together?; get a solo for the spring concert; get a lead role in the summer musical; read 50 books in a year; drink less coffee (he will fail this last one) 

List one or more characters you have never interacted with that you would like to do so

Ferb. Technically I did interact with him but it was just ONE gif chat when he first got here and I would like to do more!! I think he’s great, i love all of Sid’s characters! 

Bianca: HOW HAVE I NOT RPED WITH BIANCA! I don’t know but I want to. Maybe Merida and Bianca would be interesting bc of RAS things! (Also I have interacted with Kristoff but I want to do stuff with Kristoff and trolls please message me bee if u want to do troll things...i love. them.) 

Rita: In a similar vein, I think Rita/Ber or Rita/Pip might be interesting. Pip totally looks up to Rita and sees her as a role model so i dunno that could be cool. 

Rose: Whitman: Kit, we need to have Rose and Merida interact. Fighty ladies. I am sure with the knights this can happen! 

Pacifica: Hello Lins, Pacifica and Ashleigh should be Best Friends Of Course. I could also maybe see Pacifica and Jun if Pacifica wants to do some kind of business philanthropy for her image etc. Or Olaf and Pacifica! Sounds like a wild time, that. 

Tod: Olaf/Tod would probably be very fun, I love Pixie friendships! Also maybe Ber bc i think Ber knows Tod from way back when maybe? 

Edward: Z PLEASE. PLEASE. Pip and Edward bc they are from the same movie and no other reason!! But I will also throw literally anyone at him. 

Plotting Exercise! Pick one of the resolutions/goals in #2 and plan a rough guideline to how you could accomplish it. Here’s an example.

ATTA’S ROYAL TALENT AWAKENS 

Attendy: Atta goes ice skating with Wendy and has to stop bc of a headache and faints on the ice!!! 

@: Directly after attendy, Dot panics about Atta’s health and wants her to come clean. They fight! 

Full Moon Event: Atta faints again in front of everyone. MARLIN helps heal her and Dot/Sled confesses to Queen Clarion what’s going on. 

Clarion/Atta: Oh Honey You Got A Big Storm Coming

[bisexualthors]

All of the odd numbers for the ask meme?

1. First things first, did you have agood year?: it was an okay year i guess, bad things happened, good things happened

3. Doyou feel your age?: my back says im 80    

5. Post your favorite selfie: i rather not haha im not having a good body positivity day rn

7.Which fashion trends did you love?: chunky shoes, even tho im too broke to afford a pair lmao

9.What was your favorite article of clothing this year? Post a pic if possible?: my good ol’ red flannel

11.What album came out and has been on heavy rotation since then?: shawn mendes by shawn mendes lol the deluxe edition came out this year so it counts

13.Did an actor/actress catch your attention for the first time this year?: daniel d(b)ae kim, daddy david harbour, goddess maya hawke, travis van winkle lol hes super hot ok

15.Which new ship/fandom has taken over a lot of your time, attention, and tears?: uhhhh the hopper fandom lol obviously also the fat thor fandom, which is disappointingly small? or so i feel? where are my fat thor stans at

17. Did you make any big permanent changes this year?: mmm not really lol i mean i tried to go to the gym, which i did like march-june but then i changed work places and i couldnt go anymore so i ended up cancelling my membership

19. What was one nice thing you did for yourself?: i got a tattoo! its a small thunderbolt for my og boi thor lmao i love it. i may fill it up all black with white sparkles and then get a mirror image on my other wrist but just the silhouette

21. Did you vote?: uhh my country didnt have elections in 2019, but we have one coming up and i sure will

23. Did you get a job?: yea! actually the biggest change i think? i got a semi-permanent-semi-freelance job

25. Do you regret not doing anything?: saving money lol

27. Have you done anything that scared you?: i applied to grad school lmao

29. Did you lose anyone close to you?: no

31. Did you fall out of love?: no

33. Did you go through a break up?: no

35. Who was important to you this year but wasn’t important last year?: some friends

37. If you could have a do over on one thing you did, would you take it?: yea, definitely

39. What was the worst?: not starting grad school this fall, but hey i got a job so thats nice

41. Did anything happen to you that you were sure wouldn’t change you as a person but it did?: warning!!! body image talk next up so skip this one if u dont want to read it!! --------------- i started liking more my body regardless of the constant reminder that im fat or whatever, i dont think i can pinpoint an exact thing that happened, but it def happened this year

43. What have you learned about yourself this year that you didn’t know in the years prior?: i can be consistent on something if i really put my mind into it

45. Did your opinion of anyone change for worse?: uhhhh yea lmao so. many.

47. If you make resolutions, what will your resolutions be for the coming year?: get healthier! eat more plants and less meat, do my stretches/yoga routine more consistently and incorporate a short workout after, drink more water, walk more, read more

49. What do you wish for others for the coming year?: corny as it sounds lol happiness and health, ive come to learn that those two are some of the most important things u can have and ive been lucky enough to have them lately and i hope everyone can be happy and healthy!

ur a real trooper if u read all the way lol ily

ask me stuff!!!

[polyesthher]

7/8/17: buy paramore’s after laughter

lol this is mostly me being emo tbh but support paramore ok

i’ve been itching to buy several things lately and idk if i really want them or it’s my depressive state that wants to feed the void with material possessions. i wanted to get a record player bc im definitely buying paramore’s after laughter on vinyl bc aesthetic and the actual record means a lot to me. since i listened to after laughter, i’ve become hooked on paramore tbh and all i want to do is lay around with hayley’s vocals singing into my ears and maybe cry a little. i only started getting into them during their self-titled phase so i’m not remotely attached to the “old” punk version of them. Fake happy is what really sold me on this album btw. It’s everything i want to say to people i’m no longer really close with. It does make me think about how i never want to see certain friend groups again because i’m just embarrassed about my whole existence and feel ok wit it. the line in fake happy that goes “please don’t ask me how I’ve been, don’t make me play pretend” is something that really gets to me. I have nothing in my life right now, other than family and one or two friends, that i genuinely care about and i feel like im at a dead end tbh. having to tell acquaintances/ old friends abt my sad ass life makes me want to scream and i feel like i hate myself even harder. and i always find myself telling half-truths, pretending like im not a failure. Hard times is another relevant jam that’s on repeat. It was the first song i heard off the album and made me check out the whole ep. even if it didn’t feel relevant to me, i’d still bop to it. the overall idea of the album to have cheery synth vibes with depressing ass lyrics gives me life. anyway, i’m not gonna ramble on about this anymore since no one’s gonna read this and i already know my own feelings abt this. 

but yeah, i also want the told u so t-shirt and cd bundle so im gonna wait for the vinyls to be released bc that pink marble record is calling out to me. and a tattoo, which i have a general vision of but im scared of the $$$. + i’m thinking abt moving to ny sometime next year too even tho im not going to FIT bc nj has nothing for me and i need to start living on my own, which means i need to save up. there’s also the last class that i need to take so that i can at least have an associate’s degree, which will def be a couple hundred. there’s also some skincare stuff i want like the eradikate spot solution and the boscia black luminizing mask (best in terms of peeling).

other meaningless tidbits in my mind:

ive been hating my art style even more lately but i still feel compelled to draw

bought a couple books to read even tho my commitment issues extends to reading as well

book related: i read motor crush vol 1 and i like it. babs is always great with the art and the writing is more exciting imo compared to the batgirl comics. snotgirl returned with issue 6 and the art is always pretty even if the plot is still a lil murky and unsatisfying. the plot of vol 1 was kinda messy and i disliked how it ended bc i dont even know if the arc was resolved or still continuing.i like bryan lee omalley’s writing so the writing isn’t something im not used to, i just feel like there’s so many mysteries building up and nothing that really resolves. there are some threads that were resolved in issue 6 (such as what happened in the bathroom with caroline) but another thread shows up in that resolution that has me going ??? Anyways i’ll still buy anything leslie hung does the art for so lmao my gripes aren’t dealbreakers

i went back to watch oitnb even with how pissed the ending of season 4 left me and i did not hate season 5...that much

kesha’s new song makes me so happy

watched baby driver today and i luv it. makes me want to watch more edgar wright and listen to the soundtrack 

i bought 5 bags of flamin hot ruffles bc im paranoid that it’ll be discontinued like the buffalo wing ruffles, which is the definition of overkill

i’ve been looking into gym memberships bc i want to start working out and lose weight seriously now. this is hilarious bc my diet is shit rn (see above). but im sick of not fitting into my old clothes and some new cute stuff i bought online (that i thought would fit). also i really want to lose the baby fat on my face bc seeing my potato face in the mirror really kills the confidence i have left

another thing that’s nagging me is the idea that i want to buy some things just bc those things would add into the image of a person i want to appear to be. it sounds weird but i feel like i want this costume of a person who’s cool for having hipster shit like a record player or colorful sunglasses. it doesn’t help that ppl on instagram make me insecure asf and want the things they have.

ive been trying to stop stalking certain ppl on instagram bc its v pathetic and tends to exacerbate my anxiety and spiral into a depressive hole. its not even like celebrities or anything, just ppl i used to know, which is extra creepy and sad.

this was mildly enjoyable and i think i might write more diary entries on here from now on. it’ll probably be under the polyesthher talks tag, if i remember bc im the worst with tags.

bye       

[nardaviel]

For the fanfic questions meme - 8, 15, 23, and 51?

thank you, anon!!!! im going to answer these now bc im procrastinating on ficwriting….. orz. ill do yours later myst after ive written

fanfic questions meme

8. How did you get involved in your latest fandom?

thru tumblr. someone reblogged a set of subbed screenshots of season 1 episode 1, just after the defense club transforms for the first time. aslkjdfasdf i have no idea who reblogged it because obviously i wasnt following all these boueibu blogs at the time but i laughed a lot. i remember specifically “we look like a third-rate idol group :\” and “the chikuwabu monster has lost his temper! he forced his way into the conversation!” the caption for the image set was “if you only watch one anime this season please watch this one” and i was having a rly bad time and i wanted comedy so i was like sure ok. at that time only 2 eps had been aired

15. Is there an obscure ship which you love?

tumblr and ao3 would have me believe that kinatsuen is an obscure ship but i think whats actually going on is that lots of people like it well enough but there are other ships they prefer

so the real answer to this question is ibuatsu. i fucking love ibuatsu. i could write paragraphs and paragraphs about the beauty of ibuatsu. whenever i have an enkin au, its also an ibuatsu au. (kinchan needs to be with en and/or atsushi tho if its not supposed to be a sad tragic au) anyway yeah it kind of snuck up on me bc i knew i liked the ship ok but then i absentmindedly paired them off in an enkin au and that made me think about it more. and then the more i thought about it the more i was like … holy shit … this ship is amazing

23. Name a fic you’ve written that you’re especially fond of & explain why you like it

im proud of a lot of my fics… though not all of them, by any means. but two of the ones i like the most are path to the stars and grace. im listing them both bc i love them for the same reasons. …and of course i like the least popular ones the best lol thats how it always is

the short version is probably that 1. i adore the AUs that they come from (actually the fic im procrastinating on is from the same AU as grace) and 2. i think i my best writing is the sad introspective stuff. certainly that kind of writing is the easiest for me. i literally got up one morning like “you know what i want to write a merman AU fic for cerulean week” and then i wrote the entire rough draft of path to the stars in 4 or 5 hours. whether theyre the kind of fic i would want to read is another question. i think id like them if i knew i would get some sort of resolution later… and luckily for yall there is resolution coming, although, in the case of path to the stars, not for some time. STAY TUNED

i also love spindle for p much the same reasons. and some others, for other reasons. and then there are the fics that i really want to edit, and the ones i would take down entirely if multiple people hadnt said they liked them

51. Rant or Gush about one thing you love or hate in the world of fanfiction! Go!

i dont like the lack of feedback but other people have complained about that at length. i also dont like the lack of appreciation for long chapters because now that im writing multichapter things it turns out that i write long chapters and i honestly dont see why ppl avoid them. if you dont want to read it all at once then you can just save your place ???? how is it different from more than one short chapter ?????? ill tell you how: the chapters break in better places, theyre long enough to each have a recognizable arc of their own which is more important in serialized work imo, and the flow isnt constantly interrupted

i think i might end up bending to the will of the people with this one because i get sad when people pass over my fics but it frustrates me.

..im trying to think of something nice to say abt the world of fanfiction but those two things have been making me mad lately ;; but i love the fact of fanfiction. i love that its a thing. i love all the things you can do with it. fanfiction is like one big confession of complicated kind of messy love for canon. and i love writing but i dont have the energy to plan and write the original novel series that i can kind of dimly see in my head, and anyway i love fandom more than i love that hypothetical series so its more satisfying to make stuff with these characters and contribute to the fandom

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May 17th, 2018 CTP Archive

The archive for the Comic Tea Party chat that occurred on May 17th, 2018, from 5PM - 7PM PDT.  The chat focused on Super Galaxy Knights Deluxe R by snuffysam.

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✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

COMIC TEA PARTY START!

Good day everyone~! This week’s Comic Tea Party is now officially beginning~! Today we are discussing Super Galaxy Knights Deluxe R by snuffysam~! (http://sgkdr.webcomic.ws/) For those new or in need of a reminder, discussions about the comic are freeform, so please feel free to bring up whatever you wish. However, every 30 minutes I will be dropping in a discussion question to help those who would like a prompt. These questions are totally OPTIONAL to answer, and you can pay them no mind if you wish. If you miss out on any though, they’ll be pinned for the duration of the chat once they’re posted~! Remember, constructive criticism is allowed, but the primary focus here is to have fun and appreciate the amazing comics that the community makes~! As a bonus, each chat a top comment will be picked and featured in the archives and on an ad for CTP! All that being said, let’s get started and have a great discussion!

QUESTION 1. What is your favorite scene in the comic so far and why?

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Oh hey I heard it's CTP time

snuffysam

think i'll kind of sit back for this one~

hey justin

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Hey there

Especially since this comic is super huge

snuffysam

yes, i know lol

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Nothing wrong with that, but it kinda makes it hard to binge

snuffysam

yup

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I'll just go on and say I like the idea of a comic that uses 3D graphics

it's not something you see too often

snuffysam

thanks!

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

You're welcome. :D Also huge props for inplementing browsing through the arrow keys

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

lets see. lets see. i think my favorite scene is actually the one where zofuhu tells everyone to back off because love is the greatest weapon. and then demands poetry. i really enjoyed the comedic value about how much he believed in his message of love being the greatest weapon.

snuffysam

i seem to recall him needing a knife to enforce that

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Made it. ^^

It's hard to pick out any one scene. I rather liked the "Boxing Match", both for the pun and the dynamic gif animation stuff really came into it's own. I was first impressed by it with the apple from the tree.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Oh hey Math

snuffysam

hey math

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

oh yeah i really like the animated stuff in general. that sort of stuff definitely takes a lot of work

glad you could make it math~!

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Seconding the GIF's

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Zofuhu knows when he's licked.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

The comic's got that "early 2000's video game graphics" style and I love it

snuffysam

i'm glad! the animated stuff took a lot of doing, both in 2D and 3D, so i'm glad that pays off!

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

If you're REALLY going to pin me down though... I may have to go with the cop just spilling his backstory to Pejiba. It's like, great, resolution to that plot so she can join the party.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

http://sgkdr.webcomic.ws/comics/326 This page was a pretty nice one, if i had to pick one from skimming through Chapter 8

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

yeah i really liked how that played out and how it fit too since he already made it obvious from the start he was perhaps not the greatest cop

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Snuffy: I am blown away by how much effort you've put into this thing. Not just the animated effects, but going back to re-do earlier images, including musical links, an update schedule that looks insane... I mean, damn, when do you sleep?

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

An update every other day is perhaps the fastest I've seen an actual webcomic get updated

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Yup. Cop doesn't know about separating the witnesses even. Mizuki's really good at pointing out the obvious.

snuffysam

the cop scene was one of my favorites to write, yeah.

and i'm glad you like the brutality on that chapter 8 page, justin

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Favorite scene. HMM. I really liked the battle with king Zebugu, quite honestly. He's such a gigantic ass, BUT I can't help but love how Mizuki took what everyone else saw as a weakness and beat his sorry butt all over the place.

snuffysam

also, not sure what you mean by "actual webcomic", but there are webcomics that update every day. mostly gag-a-days, if that's what you're referring to.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Oh about that

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

http://sgkdr.webcomic.ws/comics/156 Also this page made me laugh quite a bit. Sam, you write accents really well!

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I should have said actual comic, since I've seen newspaper comics that update every day

My bad ^^;

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

yeah the fight with zebugu was overally pretty rewarding. i liked how mizuki kept turning everything on its head

snuffysam

the final battle was a lot of fun to write, because it involved going through the whole comic and coming up with uses for all the powers that have shown up so far

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Maybe not "actual" anything and instead focus on the fact that daily comics are closer to syndicated?

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Also wow, the difference in art style between the earlier and later pages is like, night and day lol

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

'cause webcomics ARE actual comics

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Okay I'll take your word for it @Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Speaking of that page, I'm going with the cast page fakeout explanation that the Captain is actually an elder God.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

:3 I also really liked the integration of animation in pages. It was well done!

snuffysam

i honestly don't know what's up with the captain

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

>:3 All the better. Better not to know, I mean. like

he spends some of his time traveling to a city with a death rate of 100%

snuffysam

maybe his magic ability is just immortality

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

logic is kinda out the window there

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

he did take a bullet to the head

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Poor Capt'n just has amnesia. Doesn't know he's got powers to rival those of everyone else.

Arrow, technically.

snuffysam

maybe he's part of a secret cult of sea captains that uses their hospitality to gain unlimited power

nobody knows

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

GASP

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

they hired him for his immortality. its the only way to have a reliable boat service to the death island.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yea

snuffysam

this is true

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Nice job playing with the math too, speaking of 100% death rate.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Oh Snuffy, have you ever considered updating the Cast page with updated mugshots/portraits in the newest art style?

snuffysam

my plan is to update the cast page the first time a character shows up in each book

so at the end of book 2 chapter 1, at the very least mizuki's portrait (and description) will be updated

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

The characters are all recognizable in either style so it doesn't matter too much

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

You mean she'll lose the hair? O.o

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

yeah the designs are really iconic so they're super easy to recognize

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

(I noticed a new style in Book 2.)

snuffysam

the hair will still be there in our memories

and who knows, maybe she'll go big again someday

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

and like this?

http://sgkdr.webcomic.ws/comics/349

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i like to think she decided to save the environment and stop killing the ozone at last

snuffysam

the latest page has her individually bagging a customer's purchases...

so not great for the environment

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i forgive her because i dont think id be able to fit those products into the same bag

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Pffft

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

She's using paper, not plastic.

snuffysam

does the village have plastic?

it is just a rural farming town, after all

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

There's elevators in this world. Maybe they export plastic. shrugs

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

instead of blaming mizuki, should blame that customer for not having reuseable bags

snuffysam

people probably regularly purchase large items in this village, i suppose

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Hmm

Is that so?

snuffysam

i mean farms r we is a farm equipment store

farm equipment is big

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Gotta sell those hoes too.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

wait so cows are considered farm equipment XD

snuffysam

don't be mean to mizuki

they're oxen

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

wait so oxen are considered farm equipment XD

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

inb4 you buy pigs and chicken

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

So, like, did the king's mage not take the food from the governors? Or were they superior and able to steal it?

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

So why is Mizuki charging for them? I thought you got all-y all-y oxen free.(edited)

snuffysam

they pull things

good question, kabo. there is a specific explanation as to why the twins didn't lose their food... which i think i'll get into in book four? lol

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Oooo

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

on a different note i appreciate the details on the products being sold. like i noticed the store sells manure and stuff.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Possibly because the Governors were Galaxy Knights. They can put up magical barriers and stuff.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

The king can't even compaaaaaaaaare to them

snuffysam

but in general it's difficult to sneak something by two former galaxy knights

^ ^ ^ ^

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Unless they let you, because they're nice about not using their flying ability.

snuffysam

but yeah the explanation is that when you join the galaxy knights, you learn how to put up magic barriers

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

stealing a whole kingdoms food would be difficult so yeah, i probably would just magically skip over the magical fighters food and say not worth the effort

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

also he'd probably want them on his side

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Unless they had strawberry ice cream.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

It's all a conspiracy.

if he left them alone, they wouldn't come in and beat him up

kick him around

make him bounce 'round the room

snuffysam

fun fact: there are current members of the galaxy knights in the comic, as seen on the cast page

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Gotta be the Ferryman.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

speaking of zebugu for a moment, i liked that part where mizuki asked him how the kitchen gets food to the dining room and he was just like "nah dont question it."

snuffysam

there's a lot of "don't question it", i feel

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Actually, I really like that about your comic tbh

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

(Okay, it's actually the Wizard, I see now.)

snuffysam

like the ferryman, mizuki's muscles, the fact there's just a tree that can talk...

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

lol

snuffysam

yeah, the wizard is a galaxy knight.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

there's a lot of authors who play it up like they've got an esoteric explanation and well NOPE, DON'T QUESTION IT - IT JUST IS

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I like how there's callbacks to some of that. Like the "we don't elect kings" thing.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

QUESTION 2. During the course of Book 1, it becomes more apparent that magic is a key component of combat in the larger setup of the world. Thus, Mizuki takes a keen interest in learning it. Do you think Mizuki will be able to unlock her unique ability, or is there a reason that prevents her from learning? What do you think her unique magical ability might be? Alternatively, is her unique ability to use the abilities of others? If Mizuki continues to be unable to learn magic, how do you think she’ll adapt to this fact? Speaking of magic, though, Cahe does find a unique ability of his own during an intense fight to save Pejiba. Do you think Cahe will develop the skill more? Or, is it possible Cahe will struggle without the intense emotional motivation to manifest his magic?

snuffysam

to be fair, i do have an explanation for the talking tree in my head, but it's not really important enough to get into lol

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Mizuki's ability is her ability to copy. :3

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Mizuki gained the ability because of Holoclone, gasp!

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

mmm copying~

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

And Cahe.... Iunno. I'm shocked there wasn't more sword throwing tbh

snuffysam

combination technique

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

(but the subversion of expectations was amusing)

snuffysam

thrown sword beam

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I liked the subversion there too, Kabocha.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i did kind of wish hed thrown the sword and then it got stuck.

i feel theres a lot of subversion in this comic in general. which is awesome cause i like not getting what i expected

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Though daaaamn, the slashing was kind of brutal. He's racking up quite the head count compared to everyone else.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

But the subversion worked!

snuffysam

i like to imagine the monty python salad days sketch whenever i write cahe

in terms of the body count

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Pffft

Next thing we know, he'll have a castle, and deny people access because they smell like elderberries

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Maybe Mizuki's power is the ability to give others the ability to copy her.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i do think for the moment it seems like her speciality is to copy other ppls powers. whether its her unique ability or not i feel is irrelevant. i actually like that shes using this technique that everyone lets there guard down for.

snuffysam

http://sgkdr.thecomicseries.com/comics/237/ pejiba does talk about copying powers like it's something anyone can do - but perhaps it's something that only mizuki does well

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Also possibly the ability to catch and rotate objects thrown at her.

🎵Tenor🎶

(Couldnt get the time to READ but loved the new hair so wanted to attempt it, sorry for any inaccuracies! /yay phone drawings HOPE YALL HAVE A BLAST)

snuffysam

you say she's good at that, but has that ever ended without the object exploding in her face?

yo thanks tenor!

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Snuffy: She obviously needs to perfect that ability magically, rather than physically.

Wow, nice one, Tenor!

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

very cute tenor~!

snuffysam

(tenor, do you have something i should link to when i post that art on the site?)

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

In all honesty though, it seems to be her final "go to". The rubber/glue thing was kind of a rotation away as well, in a sense (even if it was someone else's power).

snuffysam

i suppose that is true, in a metaphorical sense

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Even metafiveical.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

t!cookie

That was an awful pun and I love it

snuffysam

it was a very good pun

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i liked how that fight ended cause i 100% forgot that was an ability we had seen. so i kept wondering what ability she was going to use to win. and then it was an oh yeah this was an ability O_O

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Speaking of, I like some of the music puns in titles and stuff.

Rebel: Same.

snuffysam

i think pretty much every chapter title is a pun? and both book titles

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Puns are good tho

🎵Tenor🎶

( shinavar.weebly.com I think lol, and tyty ffff )

snuffysam

(ty~!)

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Mizuki's power is puns.

snuffysam

actually i'm not sure if she's said a pun the entire time

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

She just attracts them, doesn't produce them. Like magnetism.

snuffysam

ah

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

that is her special ability

she attracts puns

mystery solved

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Gotta say though, Pejiba is best girl. I ship her and Mizuki. (Big surprise, I know...)

snuffysam

to be fair, that one's intentional

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

her special ability could be more subtle in that its an ability to remember all the magical techniques shes seen. cause as i said i forgot about the rubber glue ability until she used it. so maybe she was get a brain filled with abilities she can access at anytime with no trouble

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

In all honesty, after the blushing bits, I thought maybe Mizuki was going to get a scene where love helped her find her way. But then it ended up being Cahe's scene. (Subversion?)

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Sam, I did have a question! Did you design the 3d models yourself? (That is a skill I do not have so it's like... daaaaaaaaaang)

snuffysam

cahe bites his cheeks rather than blushing

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Rebel: Like super memory? Hmm.

snuffysam

yup, made every model myself.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Dang! That is some good work

snuffysam

oh, and not to spoil anything - but you'll learn the nature of mizuki's magic at the start of book 2 chapter 4.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

thats pretty soonish then

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

She can change her hair colour at will!

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

hopefully mizuki has learned meditation is bad and you should go out and dance with your love interests instead O_O

snuffysam

anyone can change their hair color at will with bleach, yes

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Pejiba/Mizuki slow dance. Make it canon.

snuffysam

maybe if mizuki gets that self confidence she's looking for

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

(I'm now thinking about how high Mizuki will be standing in front of Pejiba...)

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

that Q&A where we saw mizuki's confidence issues made me a bit sad. the one about pejiba

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I heard stuff about hair color

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

wanted to give mizuki a hug

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Rebel: Yis. Nice to have things confirmed, but too bad.

Particularly given all the "ugly" stuff from when they met.

snuffysam

yeah, this bit here: http://sgkdr.thecomicseries.com/comics/188/

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Yis. By the way, nice style on the reactionary thoughts, shifting the colour palette. I've noticed it a bunch, though it happens 3 times on that page.

snuffysam

but yes mizuki + pejiba is kind of physically awkward on top of everything. pejiba is over 6 feet, and mizuki is under 5.

yeah i try to mix up the color palettes on occasion to make things more ~dramatic~

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

That's not a problem the way I was picturing it.

snuffysam

slow dancing i'd say it's a problem

for ~other things~, i suppose that's better for mizuki's knees

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i like how much taller pejiba is in general than a lot of people. cause its not something thats always on the peripheral but then you have those moments like her just grabbing mizuki and cahe and its like "dang girl youre tall"

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Tall and well proportioned.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

QUESTION 3. The comic is not without romance, as Cahe and Pejiba seemingly get together in Book 1. Do you think the two will be able to maintain a relationship, or was it something that only worked because of the dire situation? If the two do continue to have a relationship, do you think this will cause tension with Mizuki considering it makes her a third wheel? If you do think there will be tension, do you think it will arise from Mizuki being cut out of the relationship, or is it possible there will be issues of jealousy? In general, while the blooming relationship helped in Book 1, do you believe it well help or hinder Mizuki in Book 2? In what ways might it help or hinder her? Lastly, do you think Mizuki will find her own romantic partner?

snuffysam

that's something i was drawing from experience, lol

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I think... Mizuki will be alone for the time being. While she likes Pejiba... Eh, she and Cahe are cute together.

snuffysam

i will say - there is somewhat of a time skip between books 1 and 2 (as evidenced from the hair), so we'll see how cahe and pejiba's relationship has progressed over the course of that gap soon enough.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I kinda hope they split, because I ship the ladies. Besides, when I did the "Valentine's Day" quiz, I got Cahe. A sure sign that the guy is really gay.

snuffysam

i dunno, cahe might be bi. the only relationship i really cared about with him was with pejiba, so anything else is up for grabs lol.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Cahe has a thing for the tree. We saw that when we first met him. nods

snuffysam

i... he does?

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

He knealt down and prayed to it. Obviously infatuated.

snuffysam

lol

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

math has to believe to sail that ship.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

He likes the wood.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

clearly just ship the threesome of pejiba/cahe/mizuki. best of all the worlds

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I will have King Zebugu use his wind powers to send the ship on a good sail.

(Hmmm, maybe Zebugu and Cahe? )

snuffysam

zebugu is like the only character i have specifically listed as straight in my notes lol

him and suzigu ludi

gynu is totally gay though

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

im gonna shed a tear for math if it turns out that pejiba and cahe got married during the gap

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I don't think the threesome's in the cards. They had separate girls/guys rooms at the hotel.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Looking at that link

Kinda hard to look at these older 2D pages after seeing the 3D stuff

IMO

snuffysam

to be fair, the city chapter is 3d

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Nice pic!

snuffysam

yo nice!

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

That looks excellent~

snuffysam

(do you have a link too, kabo?)

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I like how you handled the hair.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yeah, that hair is seriosuly awesome(edited)

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I'll DM ya! :3 But yes. Ahaha, sorry, that's why I went quiet.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

ah man thats awesome kabo so beautiful

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

lol

snuffysam

perfect!

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I'd make ya some fanart too but I'm kinda on an art block rn

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

It boggles my mind that people can do art in less than an hour.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Cahe looks way too cute

I know right?

It takes me weeks/months just to finish one full pic but I digress(edited)

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

on a more serious note assuming pejiba and cahe are still together theres gonna be tension. cause being a third wheel sucks and combined with mizuki's low self esteem i think shes gonna self fulfill the being left out prophecy no matter how much the others try to include her.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Maybe Mizuki's left them and is totally over it by now. Or the King is trying to date her.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Rebel: 'Tis true. She's probably also feeling down, being back in her hometown after fighting a king. (Maybe she'll take up leaf delivery?)

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

http://sgkdr.thecomicseries.com/comics/206 plz no bully the Cahe

snuffysam

but yes, it would be quite sad for math/mizuki if cahe and pejiba got married during the timeskip, and if they had a baby, and if they didn't invite mizuki to the wedding or the baby shower or anything

that would be sad

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Snuffy: That was way too specific.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i hope they name the baby cahe jr.

snuffysam

or maybe it's just been a couple weeks and they're not even living together yet

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

YET?

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Maybe instead of a baby they figured out how to combine magic

for an extra special couple ability

and Mizuki gets more jealous

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

that would be too adorable

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Seriously, I'm fine. I just really liked the Pejiba character and like when my shipping of the ladies can be considered canon.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

lol

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Maybe jealousy opens her magic ability?

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

And filled with all sorts of pun potential, too?

snuffysam

if i remember my notes correctly, the next two major female characters introduced are both lesbians

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Ooohhh~~~

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

So. ...romantic potential for Mizuki

snuffysam

unless they're both trying to kill her, sure

well, not that it would stop y'all

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

.................... Even more shipping fodder

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Also if they're, like, 80 and already married, that'd be a bit of a downer.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

All them ships!

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

all it takes is for them to stop trying to kill her and learn the error of their ways

very easy

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Time to set sail~

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

mizuki vs. 80 year old lesbians sounds like something id want to see

80 year old lesbian assassins

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Same

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

One "homing arrow" later...

snuffysam

or say, if one of them is related to someone who hates mizuki and refuses to let her anywhere near her~~~

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

It's cool, Mizuki has an "in" with the King.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i feel like thats specific but im also pretty sure mizuki racked up quite the enemy count during book 1

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

it's the monster that possessed the tree

snuffysam

i'd say one of the women i'm talking about has a bigger "in" with the King...

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S HIS EVIL-ER TWIN SISTER

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

or his wife O_O

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

wait, crap, that crack theory doesn't quite work because it might be accurate in this comic

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

OMG. The "leaf bringer"! Mizuki punched her out offscreen.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

!!!!

snuffysam

man that would suck if you didn't get to be queen because of a five minute difference

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

MATH! You've cracked it.

snuffysam

also, i seriously doubt king zebugu has a lesbian wife

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

darn it

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

It's called marrying for politics.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i super want to know about this leaf delivery business.

like

is this common

is it profitable

cant they just grow trees

snuffysam

it's a leaf of the month club

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

mostly is it profitable cause i will take a job as leaf delivery person

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

It's not fun delivering the poison ivy leaves.

snuffysam

each month a new leaf from a new (new to the club, at least) tree

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Is that so

snuffysam

not sure if there are any other members of this club besides zebugu

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

mizuki can join

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

So, when do we get to meet the King's sister

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

they can be leaf buddies

snuffysam

book 2 chapter 2

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Zebugu's all, "Why dont you make like a tree, and get outta here".

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

"Why don't you make like a tree, and die"

(that's for anyone that's tried to raise a bonsai tree :'3)

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Poor bonsai.

I wonder how bonsais stack up with Pejiba.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Well, they didn't get shot in the leg so

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

That was so sad!

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

it was sad but also awesome imo. cause again subversion. was like "oh i guess these abilities suck. oh nevermind actually sucks to be pejiba."

snuffysam

i'd say about 20 bonsais stack up with pejiba

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Yep. Gotta watch out for those bank shots.

snuffysam

one of my goals with the comic is to subvert expectations with the abilities in particular. so it's like "my ability is complete control over space and time!" guy will get beaten in a minute but "my ability is to make your toenails grow faster!" guy will kill three main characters

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Cahe: "How are you today, Pejiba? ... Pejiba? Hey, wait, this is just 20 bonsais in a trenchcoat. Where did Pejiba go?"

Pejiba: "Mizuki, I think he's onto us."

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

That sounds nice.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

PFFFT

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Cahe: "Then again... I do like the trees..."

snuffysam

BLEASE

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

cough oh dear

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

coughs

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I'll try to be good. Really.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

QUESTION 4. Book 1 ends happily with the food shortage being solved and Mizuki walking off triumphantly with Cahe and Pejiba. However, this leaves Book 2 wide open for many conflicts. Why do you think Mizuki is working at some store in Book 2, and where are Cahe and Pejiba? Do you think Mizuki will be able to live such a mundane life, or will the call of adventure get to her again? Assuming Mizuki goes on another adventure, what characters do you want or think we’ll see again? Give the title of the webcomic, what role do you think the old Galaxy Knights might play in Mizuki’s future? Overall, how do you foresee Book 2 going?

snuffysam

to be clear - the comic is fairly SFW as far as sexuality is concerned, so outside of characters orientations i won't really go into much. with that said, cahe's sword? undercompensation.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I think the current Galaxy Knights might be starting to look at Mizuki, what with her defeating the King and a couple of them working for the King and all. So maybe they'll set up some kind of tests for her to overcome, to see if she's worthy of joining them.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

"Your branches are lookin' nice and supple if you know what I mean" (sayeth Cahe in an image)(edited)

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

:dissolves into laughter:

snuffysam

huh, a series of nine tests, with the nine most important galaxy knights creating challenges that demonstrate their personalities, establishing them as characters for the future?

seems unrealistic

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

OH GAWD

This doodle

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

cahe plz. that ancestral tree was a jerk.

snuffysam

and lazy

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

that is a suspiciously specific thing to say

about tests

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

HMMM

snuffysam

is it now

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

All the tests are multiple choice and must be completed with an HB pencil.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Mizuki will clearly never be part of them. Or lead them.

They'll be graded by a scantron fwiw

snuffysam

yeah, you're right, that'd be dumb. she'd need people to compete with for it to be interesting

like the galaxy knights' leader's gay daughter, for example

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

The first thing she must defeat is the Ancestral Tree.

snuffysam

the tree is level 1 every time

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

GASP!

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

the Ancestral Tree is secretely the mastermind

snuffysam

like whispy woods in kirby games

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

The Galaxy Knight's daughter and the King's twin sister?!!?!?!!

snuffysam

i did say two lesbians, yes

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I THINK WE FIGURED OUT WHO MIZUKI IS GONNA DATE

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Though I'm okay with the first thing Mizuki defeating being the gay daughter too.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

(joking)

So, with the Galaxy Knights, is it leadership by might? Or nah

snuffysam

it's leadership by the old leaders thought you were qualified to lead

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Mizuki's gonna date Knifeman? Too farfetched.

snuffysam

actually, i don't think knife man shows up again. a lot of other seemingly one-off characters do, but not him

he might have died actually

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

So, who is Mizuki gonna beat up next

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Oh. Well, it's been a slice.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

is she going to punch someone in the store?

snuffysam

that sounds like a fun way to get fired

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

The "store"? Is that what the kids are calling it these days?

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

to be fair its retail and when you work retail, 80% of customers deserve to be punched

cant wait for this person buying oxen to argue about how taxes arent real and the store is trying to cheat them

snuffysam

she's pretty old. that seems like something she'd argue

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Next arc: Mizuki fired. Tries many odd jobs.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

yes. and then mizuki tries to explain, the manager is called, and the manager says the same damn thing and the customer is like "oh youre so right wise store overlord"

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

how many jobs has mizuki been fired from :3

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i might have some retail ptsd

snuffysam

this is actually the only job mizuki's ever had

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

is that so

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

patpats Rebel

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

pats too

snuffysam

or, well, this store's the only place she's worked. when she was six or seven her dad probably just had her sweep some things to keep her occupied

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

that I can relate to

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

and then mizuki beat ppl up with the broom and her dad was like "never again"

?

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Ahahahah

I think putting her on register would be more of a liability

unless she's loss prevention

snuffysam

mizuki isn't THAT violent

though i suppose giving herself a reputation as the town bruiser would be better than her current reputation?

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

ahahaha

She could have an "enforcement' gig

"Oh, you... want me to stop this guy from bugging you? All right, but you gotta pay me"

and before she knows it, she's fighting another gang

every territory overlaps with 3 other gangs!

100% murder rate!

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Lol

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Mizuki's town is.... a shambles.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Mizuki can try waitressing. Maid outfit and all. Speaking of, nice detail in places on the comic! I liked the menu -- "Pink Stuff", a couple hundred barrels appeared in our basement, we're trying to get rid of it.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I read that as wrestling

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Crossover with CHAMPS?

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

lol

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Who will be Mizuki's Tala to her Jane

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I would be down for that

snuffysam

i wonder who would win that fight...?

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

one character i really hope we see is zofuhu. i need more electric zebra in my life

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I bet we will. He seemed to have a rivalry with his subordinate that's rife for expansion.

Also there's the title opportunity, "Tanks for the memories".

snuffysam

cahe broke their only tank

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Now they fight with water tanks.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

why well see him again

hes gotta write a song about the tank

and how it served them well

but was cut down

snuffysam

it was a weapon of war though

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Ooooh

snuffysam

zofuhu hates war

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Don't we all?

Except those crazy addicted to fighting

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Zofuhu may be in the wrong line of work.

snuffysam

i suppose it does help keep the country at peace though

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

In peaces, you said?

snuffysam

if the leader of the army is an anti-military musician

maybe that was zebugu's plan when he appointed zofuhu

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

He takes good notes.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

hey now, even weapons of war are harmless if they arent used for their intended purpose

snuffysam

or maybe he needed a general and just appointed the first guy he saw

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I'm now waiting for the King to pull a CSI: Miami or something.

snuffysam

has anyone straight up told a pun, actually?

except the demon possessing the tree, of course

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i dont know i sadly do not keep a pun tally O_O

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Hm. Someone should read through and do the math

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Did someone say Math?

snuffysam

oh, just you all wait until you get to book 2 chapter 4

there's a reason very few people we've met so far tell puns

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

ahahahah

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Math and puns. Yeah, you'd think I'd be on that. Pejiba's just so distracting.

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

All dem maths

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

is it because someone's magical ability is to be the only human who can tell puns in a certain mile radius O_O

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

O_O pun power

snuffysam

The Gang Visits A Penal Colony Of Pun Addicts

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

A punal colony.

snuffysam

correct

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Journey to the puniverse

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Where are the names from, incidentally? Is there hidden meaning there?

snuffysam

the character names? mostly randomly generated.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

oh no, a punal colony

t!cookie

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

t!cookie

snuffysam

You All Think I'm Joking About The Punal Colony(edited)

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Oh no, I'm not thinking that at all

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Sadly, no. I take you very seriously Sam. XD

I've read your comic, I know what you're capable of!

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i dont think youre joking this seems like the world thatd have that

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

hence why everyone'names sound ridiculous

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

And I am afraid.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Joe King? Is he the King's half brother?

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

and creative

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

PFFFFFFT

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

since we only have a few minutes left does anyone have some last minute thoughts they want to share?

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Yeah, I'm still shocked Mizuki was like "What's a shirt"

like, MIZUKI COME ONNNNN

you're sorta wearing one

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

The whole comic is just a powerhouse. Of productivity and creativity. Like, wow.

snuffysam

she's wearing a shirt in the latest page too, so that doesn't really track

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Ahahaha

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Well I'd like to say, keep doing what you're doing, @ snuffysam. You got the makings of a great story on your hands unlike any other.

snuffysam

maybe it's just a short tunic

thanks everyone!

Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

You're welcome

Pleasure to be here and chat about your comic. (edited)

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

yes. i really enjoyed the sheer creativity in everything about the comic and it was fun to read

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Looking forward to meeting Pejiba's twin sister that was adopted away at an early age.

snuffysam

if you all want more, there's short side stories based on the comic that are coming out in StArt Faire magazine

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

COMIC TEA PARTY END!

Unfortunately, the scheduled Comic Tea Party time is now up~! Thank you everyone so much for reading and joining this week’s chat~! We want to give a special thank you to snuffysam, as well, for making Super Galaxy Knights Deluxe R and volunteering it for our reading queue. If you liked the comic, please be sure to support snuffysam’s efforts however you’re able to. All that being said, if you would like to continue discussing this week’s comic, we highly encourage you to do so~!

For next week, Comic Tea Party will focus on Nwain by Terrana Cliff. As always, please use the next several days to read as much of the comic as you would like. We hope to see you next Thursday on May 24th from 5PM to 7PM PDT for the chat~! Until then, happy reading~! Comic: http://nwain.com/

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1. What’s one thing that’s happened to you that has made you a stronger person?

I think being in relationships and friendships were I was constantly belittled and didn’t even know it. It took me years of realization to find out my worth. It’s still a process but I am slowly getting there.

2. What’s one thing that’s happened to you in your life that made you feel weak?

I think in my life there hasn’t been one specific situation that has made me feel weak. I think there are constant little situations that make me feel weak rejection, heart break, and feeling judged. This really hurts my soul.

3. Where is one place you feel most like yourself?

I think when I go to a music festival or am surrounded by like minded people it really helps me feel the most like myself.

4. Where is your favorite place to escape to?

I love going to beaches or warm locations.

5. Who do you think has had the largest influence on the person you are today?

I think my parents even though we have such different values. I can see why I am the way that I am because of them, but also why I am the way I am -not caused by them. Does that make sense?

6. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?

I think sometimes i overthink way too much and focus on the wrong things. This really sends me down a spiral whole. I constantly focus on the wrong people and things that won’t help me succeed in life. I need to learn how to say fuck it more and not dwell on things that wont matter 5 years from now.

7. If you had one day left to live, what would you do first?

I think I would apologize or reach out to people I haven’t in a while and tell them how much I care. And just try to have the most craziest night ever.

8. What decade do you feel you most belong in?

I always say like the early 90s. I would love to be my age around then or the disco era NYC.

9. Who are you closest to in your family? Why?

I think my sister and I are pretty close or are closer now. We are very up front and honest with each other. It has taken a while but we are pretty much there.

10. Who is the one person in this world that knows you best?

I think my sister. But sometimes I feel like no one really knows me.

11. What is your favorite quality about your best friend?

I have a bunch of good friends and pretty much some best friends. I like how they accept me for who I am.

12. When you were younger what did you think you were going to be when you grew up?

I never really thought about like who I was going to be who i was going to marry or shit like that. It never crossed my mind. I never had this future image of myself. Is that bad?

13. If you could identify with one fictional character (from a book, show, or movie) who would it be?

I have a couple and I am going to reanswer this question in a while. But I was recently watching Shameless and can relate to Fiona. To be honest I am not as much of a hard worker and family person as she is. But the way that she deals with pain and being hurt is just like me. She honestly holds everything in until she cant take it anymore and just self destructs. And I do that a lot.

14. Do you easily accept compliments? Or do you hate compliments?

I hate/love compliments sometimes I take them dont believe them. Or sometimes when I’m not getting complimented im just like wtf is there something wrong with me. Do they not find me attractive, pretty, blahh.

15. Is your favorite attribute about yourself physical or non-physical?

I mean i don’t have a particular favorite attribute about myself. I’m trying to learn to accept myself for who I am, and realized this is the body that I am going to be with my whole entire life so might as well deal with it ha.

16. What is your favorite physical attribute about yourself?

I like my skin, and I do have a proportional body.

17. What is your favorite non-physical attribute about yourself?

I try to be very un judgemental and open minded. Because I hate judgemental fucking people.

18. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Um sometimes I feel like it can happen depending on the person and people. I think when it comes to love it happens to some people, but some people it will never happen to them unfortunately. To me like some people with become rich and some people wont. Some people will fall in love and live happily ever after and some people it will never happen to them.

19. Do you believe in soul mates?

This kind of goes with the question from above. I think some people have “soulmates” like the ones you see in the movies. Like that guy or guy that sweeps you off your feet and you live happily ever after. I feel that anyone you really connect to with your soul is a soul mate. This can be a family member, friend, hook up, or random person on the street. Anyone that has touched my soul has been a soul mate to me.

20. How seriously do you take horoscopes?

I don’t believe in horoscopes in like i’m a Taurus so the month of February is going to suck for me. But personality and relationship connections I do believe in it. I just feel like everyone that I’ve met when I find out their zodiac sign I’m just like fuck that is you.

21. Have you ever been in love? How many times?

I feel like I have but then I have not. Because once it ends I realize woah that shit wasn’t even real I was just blind as fuck. I feel like at the moment i thought it was love but confused it with lust or someone manipulating me, which sucks. Because I would love to have genuine love one day, but at the same time I feel like I am not prepared for it. 

22. What makes you fall in love with someone?

For me it is a combination of things attraction, compatibility of souls, sexual connection, and a free soul. To me the most attractive thing is when someone doesn’t sugar coat themselves and is free to be free. I think sometimes I like or am attracted to people that are too free. You know speaking about my current situation right now. A couple of weeks ago I hung out with two guys- one guy was super nice took me out to eat picked me up from my house, very sweet did the whole proper thing. I wasn’t feeling it.

The other guy from the moment I saw him - I was just enamored by his demeanor his fucked up soul because I felt like I could see beyond it. It made me angry with myself because I’m like wtf why don’t I like that person that really likes me back. And I realized something about myself, for me there is something about pain that I love. Also that guy was super nice to me but I felt as if he was trying to hard to do everything so right so perfect that it was a turn off to me. Because I myself know thats not who I am. Like he spent so much money on me trying to show me hey this is what you can get with me nice ass things. But to me those things matter, but at the same time it doesn’t make a difference. Because like you trying so hard doesn’t show me who you really are idk if that makes sense. Lol I’m just fucked in the head.

23. What does vulnerability mean to you? What has the ability to make you vulnerable?

Vulnerability means letting that ego down and just surrendering yourself completely. That’s my problem I fucking hate being vulnerable. Fuck that shit it fucks me up so bad. Because once I am vulnerable bad stuff happens to me and I fucking hate it. But VULNERABILITY is key to living your life. When you are not vulnerable you miss out so much on what life has to offer whether it is accepting a job half way across the world, moving far away from friends and family, traveling, or being in a relationship. 

Men/Relationships make me very vulnerable and I hate it. Because when I really am into you I give me 100% all. And I hate it cause I always am vulnerable for the wrong things/people.

24. What’s one thing you’re scared to ask a man, but really want to?

I’ve never been afraid to ask a man anything. Because I’ll just ask one of my guy friends or a guy and I feel like they give me an honest opinion. But I will be afraid to ask men I am interested in certain things....

25. If you were a man for a day, what would be the first thing you do?

Have sex with a woman to see what it felt like. I feel like when you have a dick sex feels 100000x better.

26. What do you find most attractive about each sex?

I think girls are super attractive I would love to get with girls, but emotionally there is nothing like a man’s embrace. There is something warm and comfortable about a man. I just think its unfair that there are way more attractive woman on this earth than there are attractive men. Am I right?

27. What’s one thing you’d love to learn more about?

I don’t know because i feel like I am constantly learning new things! I would love to learn something new and interesting though.

28. What is something you’ve never done that you’ve always wanted to do?

I think scuba diving or anything extreme underwater. I’ve always wanted to do things like that or travel around the world.

29. Why haven’t you done it yet?

I am a horrible swimmer water freaks me out. Maybe that should be my new years resolution become a better swimmer!

30. If money didn’t matter, what would your dream job be?

I always say this I would love to be a porn star. If it wasn’t for my family I think I would have started to do it a long time ago. I don’t even think I would care about what people would say about me, but I know how disappointed my parents would be and I’m just the type of person that couldn’t do that to them.

Also deliver babies, or just have a job where i could travel all the time.

31. If you had off from work today, what would you do?

Sleep watch tv/netflix #rainydayz

32. What was the last thing that made you cry?

I was just frustrated on why things were the way that they were. How my head can be so fucked up sometimes it frustrates me.

33. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

I think I was watching a funny video.

34. What is your favorite memory?

UHHH tooo fucking many memories. I’ve had a lot of favorite memories. Can’t choose one.

35. What’s the last thing that REALLY embarrassed you?

I don’t really get embarrassed easily, so I don’t really remember.

36. What is your biggest fear?

Not being able to leave my hometown or home state. At least for a little while, it literally fucks with my head how much I keep setting myself back.

37. Do you have any regrets? What’s your biggest one?

I try to not have any regrets, but my biggest one is to stop letting my inner demons get to my goals.

38. Have you ever broken a law? If you haven’t what is one law you’d love to break? YES i’ve broken a couple. And I have no idea.....

39. What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done?

I’ve done way too many crazy things I can not just name one.

40. Would you have a conversation with a stranger?

I always do, I am that person.

41. Would you tell a stranger they have toilet paper hanging from their shoe? Or their dress tucked into their underwear? (Or anything else that is embarrassing to be seen in public)?

YUP, thats me I’m a pretty quite shy persons sometimes. But I am always that person, because I would want someone to tell me if that was me.

42. What’s your favorite joke?

Don’t have one. Anything on a meme.

43. Are you a dog person or a cat person?

I would like to say both.... but catz all day

44. If you could be any animal, what animal would you be?

I think I would like to be a cat, dolphin, koala bear, or my fave an OCTOPUS

45. What’s one show, movie, or book, you’re embarrassed to admit you enjoy?

that show are you the one on MTV so fucking embarrassing its so stupid, but i love watching it whenever its on

46. How do you think your parents would describe you as a child?

They said I was super outgoing, caring, lovable, always laughing thats why they were so confused when I changed

47. If you could go back to any age or time of your life, what age or time would it be?

I think I would have done high school completely different. I was very obnoxious and just so oblivious on things, I think I would have made way more genuine relationships if I was different. But I feel like it is the reason why I am the way that i am today.

48. What’s something you believe in that not everyone else does?

I really don’t know. Treating people with respect.

49. What’s one thing you would say that makes you unique from other people?

I think I am not afraid to express myself and  be who I am

50. What is one thing you feel your life is missing?

I feel like where I am supposed to really belong is what I am missing. I feel like me being in my hometown is disabling me from living life how i really need to live it. But change needs to start within myself. So that is my goal to find where I belong and try to leave here.

I am telling myself I am going to repeat this a year from now and see how my answers have changed. I am kind of excited to see what will be different. Because I know how much shit can change in a matter of a year.