#don't worry about ranting i loved reading that so so much thank you!! xD

[aeternallis]

loved your meta about kim's fight in yok's bar! =D i re-watched the scene again last night, and i noticed details that i didn't before. i never placed much importance on the significance of when chay sees the dead bodies, so i was wondering if you don't mind going in depth a little more on that scene?? pplleeeaasseee

Thank you for taking the time to read that long rant of mine, nonnie! I’ll do my best to go further in depth for you! XD

Okay, so the thing is��I didn’t go too deeply into this scene in my original meta post beyond Kim's motivation, but I do have opinions on it, so I’ll do my best to be concise.

First, let’s start with the logistics of this scene. For one thing, BOC didn’t have to show Chay seeing the bodies because if you look closely at the little alcove where he was seated and playing his video game, there was a door there. I’m not sure if it was the bathroom or an alternate exit from Yok’s bar (I'm thinking bathroom because he would have needed to wash out his hair?), but either way, the director could have had Chay move in a different direction so he never sees the bodies to begin with.

Furthermore, there’s also Chay’s phone conversation with Yok to consider. During their brief conversation, Yok instructs Chay to close down the bar, with the teen replying not to worry, it’s already been closed and that he can be by himself. So in other words, Chay had no reason to actually go to the bar area anymore (except to exit the establishment); the place has been cleaned up and Kim himself reiterates this when he asks the goons, “Can’t you see the bar is closed?”

Maybe this reasoning is a bit excessive, but the point I’m trying to make is that BOC had a couple other ways of how this scene could have went, but they deliberately set up the scene (in so doing, establishes Kim's motive of purposely leaving his kills behind) so Chay would see the bodies afterwards.

Now, why would BOC do this—this, as in take their most innocent character / the motivation of at least one main character and one supporting character in the show and traumatize the hell out of him?

Was it for the shock factor? Maybe that's part of it, but I'm of the opinion that there were other reasons, nonnie. XD This show would not have resonated as much as it did last year if this drama was only made up of shock factors and not much thought into it, yknow?

Maybe Kim was trying to scare Chay away? That can be argued too, but it wouldn't make much sense in the context of the story. Chay doesn't need to be scared away, he's made it perfectly clear he's not happy being thrown into the world of the mafia. Lol The poor boy was kidnapped; he doesn't need a reminder that living a life in the mafia is a questionable existence.

The way I see it, the purpose of this scene was a way to establish that unlike Porsche, Kim is more than willing to commit violence in front of Chay. After all, we've seen a hint of it already in the club, when Kim punched a few guys to get Chay away from the booze and drugs.

Besides that, the scene also gives you that vibe, right? Think about the music that's playing when the camera zooms in on Chay's horrified expression, and then we cut to Kim, aka the source of Chay's horrified expression at that moment, lol. The music paints Kim...hmmm, not necessarily as a villain, but almost like an anti-hero. After all, despite the tone of the music, it's not as if Kim had hurt Chay; no, he saved him. But regardless, it also paints him as a source of danger, that's he's not to be trifled with.

As I said in my previous meta post, this scene elevates Kim to the same level as Kinn and Vegas in terms of how the Theerapanyakul men operate (basically, batshit insane).

If you think about it, this scene can be obscenely described as Kim taking away Chay's innocence—it may not be in the sexual connotation (although the inherent eroticism is definitely there), but regardless, it is tainting Chay's perception of the world in some way, forcing him to open his eyes to Kim's world and everyday reality.

I don't want to use a certain word to describe Kim's behavior because I just know it'll be taken out of context on this site, but in terms of the narrative and the direction it was headed, it makes sense.

From the moment Kim breaks up with Chay, we see two things happen simultaneously: how the initial façade he presented to Chay begins to break apart (aka WIK), but also how his control for his feelings towards the younger man start to chip away. The ultimate result(s) of these two things happening is thus, also two-fold: the scene at the bar, and their final scene together when Kim sends him the song.

I guess the one thing I would change from my meta post is that, it's not that the dynamic between Kim and Chay have changed, but rather this scene added a new dimension to their current one. That despite Kim's lack of hesitation in being violent in front of Chay, he can and still is tender with him.

There's a reason why their final scene together is the one in which Kim is singing to Chay and pouring out his feelings. That despite this added nuance into their relationship which may or may not be a good thing, ultimately what will bring them back together is the music that allowed their hearts and souls to connect in the first place.

[skyward-floored]

For your WIPs you're having trouble with, I'm willing to be a sounding board, if you'd like one! I don't know your writing or thought processes, and I'm in the middle of reading your recommendation from last night (but first they must catch you - really is absolutely amazing, thanks for bringing it to my attention!!) but afterwards I can reread brethren in a cradle, see if I can help figure out how to move it along? It was one of the very first things I read when I joined AO3 a few months ago (actually one of the top reasons I joined in the first place!), and I'd love to help it move along! ❤❤❤

Even if you just need to rant or talk things out, I'm open to listening!

I don’t even know my writing or thought process, so don’t worry about that XD

(And isn’t it!!!! I love it so much, I’m glad you’re enjoying it :D)

And thank you, I appreciate the offer! I don’t even know if talking it all out will help honestly, I’ve done that a few times and it hasn’t seemed to do much :/

I’m just not exactly sure what my problem is with it. Because like... I know the ending. I have my plan for the ending almost entirely fleshed out, and even some scenes written. I just don’t know what goes in the middle. I have several scenes I want to put in the middle worked out, but there’s all these huge gaps where I don’t know what happens and weird places where they don’t fit and a bunch of the stuff feels flat and some of it might not even work with the other bits and. Yeah. Ugh.

You can see why even though I started this fic more than a year and a half ago I’m only on chapter eight 😔

Anyway, thanks for offering :) It means a lot to hear it’s a reason you joined ao3 (partially because of lil ol me??), but don’t feel any pressure to reread it or anything.

...though I won’t turn down help 😅

[quinloki]

i so greatly appreciate all your kink content (esp. the kink headcanons). fics are fantasy of course, but as someone who indulges in kink irl, it concerns me how much misinformation about bdsm/kink there is in popular media and fanfic. fic certainly shouidn't be an educational tool for learning how to do kink safely, but if anyone IS going to replicate what they read (thinking of every woman i knew who suddenly wanted to be kinky after 50 shades with absolutely no concept of what that meant and no desire to do even a cursory google... >_<), they should be reading about safe/sane/consensual practices. TL;DR: thanks for presenting kink in a sexy AND educational way!

Oh gods, yeah - 50 shades of oh I can't believe she wrote that. [insert weary face]. This got long, so it's going below a cut XD.

I have a personal disdain for what that book did to real life kink, but! it's important to, to reach out to people like that and sit them down and talk. It's a lot of extra work for the "old guard" as it is, but better to have people coming in safely than being left to poor devices.

And also, like, thanks I guess, for making more of a market for kink gear, so you don't have to get it ALL custom made, but at the same time some of it just plain isn't safe - or even well constructed and it causes it's own problems.

Okay - personal mini-rant off - I do love fantasy and fics for the capacity to do and explore things that aren't strictly safe in reality (I also love not necessarily having to worry about who remembered to buy condoms).

But I've spent years dealing with people's misconceptions, so that's a large part of why I write the way I do. Sure I cut loose and have fun plenty of times - okay, I mean, for me I'm having fun the ENTIRE time, but I'm also passionate about BDSM and Kink and I *want* to be able to help educate people.

I would rather people write kinky smut wrong than not at all.

I just want people to practice kink and bdsm outside of fiction safely, and Fifty Shades of Yanderian Grey gave a whole rush of people uncomfortable misconceptions - that they didn't consider correcting.

Want some quick and dirty safety? Know where your scissors are, and HAVE them if you're using rope. Make sure your cuff keys are easily accessible. If you're stepping out, the sub should be able to free themselves, no exceptions. Safe words are absolute. You do not anchor any weight on someone's neck. DO NOT YANK ON A LEASH. for the love of the gods yank on someone's hair. Throats are fragile. Use rope harnesses, or body harnesses if you want to tug or have a lead. Bolt cutters keep the locksmith from seeing your pet in a cage. buy them.

I could go on xD but I'm not trying to turn an ask into an educational tirade.

One thing I will say, is knowing the limits and safety requirements of BDSM and Kink make it easier to push past those limits in writing. At least in my opinion. it's just like with drawing and animating - you learn the rules, and then you learn how to break them.

That's how you become a better creator.

(I'm not saying you have to have kinky sex, but there's some educational seminars out there that might be more help than you expect.) In the end though, write messy sex, clean sex, vanilla sex, spicy sex, monster sex, toxic sex, bad sex - have fun. Writing is about poking all the corners we don't want to - or can't - poke in reality ♥

[yors-truly]

Hello! This is your friendly inquiry to answer this ask with whatever you'd like to talk about right now! Whether that be a story you're working on, something you're excited or worried about, or just something random you happen to know.

All the love,

~ toribookworm ❤️

Ah, I guess I've been more on the lower side these past few days, so I'll spill the beans.

I've been slightly if not highly insecure about the progress of Beyond Time and Space recently. Things haven't really been stable since my family's been in the process of moving and, in the midst of that, losing Nygaard (my phone holding all of my important notes).

The things I want to use are all packed away in a storage miles from here, which includes my sketchbook, my stylus, and many more (which, as an artist who often gets art block, it's very frustrating when the inspiration hits and you can do literally nothing about it).

Then there's the insecurity surrounding my age. I'm a teenager. With my birthday coming on the 20th, that status won't change. Maybe it's just the mindset of "kids wishing they were grow ups" or whatever, but as of very recently, it's been getting to me. I've been motivated and inspired by other indie projects like mine, who have all of these incredible people behind them, helping make a vision into a visual. I would love to do that! I'm already doing that!

The thing is, though, is that I lack connections. I'm pretty much going solo in this. As someone as young as myself (who also has diagnosed SAD and possibly ADHD, little to no experience in such a collaborative environment, zero experience in running a project, and lacking the money and tools actually needed), I'm worried no one will be willing to work with me to bring my thoughts to an audience, let alone allow me to help bring theirs to one. I've been trying to start out small, posting what I enjoy and hoping to make friends along the way, as it would be a dream to work alongside friends more than anything, but it's been doing my mental health more harm than good, in the way that me having SAD cranks my anxiety with in-person interactions to 200% with online interactions. For the longest time, I forgot social media existed (still do sometimes, and I think that's also an anxiety response: repression or something like that? involuntarily forgetting the things that make you anxious), so my activity hasn't been the best anywhere anyway, to begin with.

I guess all of this sums up to me saying "I wish I could do things on my own" in a slightly desperate way. If I had the money - heck, if I had a way of transferring money, because people have been questioning about commissions too (at least they used to; idk where my audience is now, since I've been so inactive) - that would be so useful! I want to be able to receive funds for my own hard work, and give funds to others for theirs! It's all so frustrating X[

(on an unrelated note: now that I've moved, I'll probably end up having to celebrate my birthday with my family instead of the people I love most.)

So, yeah, that's pretty much it. Beyond Time and Space is nowhere near finished, and I guess, in a way, I'm kinda glad I don't have extra hands at the moment. I'd like to have the entire first season written before making any progress on visuals (besides... you know... the ones I already have). It's just gonna take a little longer than I wished, and with everything moving so quickly, it's kind of overwhelming me a little qwq A beta reader or two (besides my brother who kind of just lazily reads through it most times) would be nice, though, but I take forever to write scripts so maybe not XD

Thanks for the opportunity to rant on! I really needed to get this out, I think, and this ask couldn't have been timed any better :star-emoji:

[covenofwives]

it has officially reached the point where i still can not stop thinking about this au but can't think of what else to ask or talk about asjdhflkasfh

so what about you? :0 is there anything you've been dying to rant about or gush over in your au or with any of the characters or about any plans? i wanna know what YOU'RE excited about :D especially since im willing to read about anything you share about this universe aksdfjhlak it's like a new special interest hahaha

emmadoodlewrites

Naawww don't worry Emma. You don't have to force yourself for questions if you don't want to/have any. There's definitely maybe more questions you'll have when the story progresses (if i can release it fast enough flhglhglhd)

As for what I want to talk about there's so much! T-T There's just a lot I'm excited to gush over. the biggest ones were PunzOP and HQ which I thankfully got to speak about. There just such important characters that I hope will entertain people.

As for plans I can definitely tell you what I am so excited to show without giving too many spoilers hehe So, in no particular order I'm really excited to show: The backstories for HD, 4K, XD, OP and HQ. How they became Gods and the war they had to go through for that. More stuff with the villain of the story. Ugh, his name is a "mystery" right now but the fans call him Mr Lanky Chompers and honestly, love that name Showing Punz' pov more and his interactions in the story. He's such a key role to everything and honestly Punz needs more attention. I love the character so much 4K meeting XD, I'm super hyped to show HD and George reuniting and 4K and Sapnap seeing each other again Punz' time and interaction with Mr Lanky Chompers. Their relationship is so interesting and eerie. Speaking of relationships, showing and delving into the relationship between XD and Prime, the God of Gods. The next fic in line for the timeline is about Dream and George's adventure to travel to the End and honestly I cannot wait to show that one (which leads into Dream and HD meeting which will be fun)

Honestly I think most of the stuff I was excited to speak over has come up in your asks ^^ the important ones being OP and HQ, how the God's work and the Godly Realm and small character detail stuff like XD learning to dance or 4K and HD's relationship. I have your asks to thank for that

And from the bottom of my heart you don't know how happy it makes me to hear you love my AU and consider it a special interest. Words cannot describe how happy that makes me and I hope I can keep bringing you that happiness.

[pushingdaisies1]

I'M FREE TO COMMENT!!!! My headcanons for Caleb, Essek, Mollymauk, and Fjord realising that they're in love with reader request is so good! I love that you said my request was marinating in your inbox XD I love this especially the night was peaceful when they got kidnapped, they thought that they could get away but couldn't, they never stop trying to escape, they only remember being beaten up, they were unconscious when the came, Caleb was worried but realised how urgent this is to him, he refused to acknowledge his feelings but decided to worry about it later, Fjord felt like he didn't have to put a mask on around them, he met them when they hitched a ride with Jester XD, they caught his attention, their bond grew stronger when they got to know each other, they assured that he will be loyal to them, his heart beats fast despite his calm expression, things finally become less hectic, he noticed how excited they are or how much they care or how friendly they are, everyone decided to go to sleep after a long day, he quietly listened to their rant, he reassured them when they apologized for taking up his time, he was just happy when he realised his feelings for them, he doesn't mind but he doesn't want it to blind him either, he embraced it, how different their first impressions were of each other XD, they're as competitive as Essek, he became more friendly as they listened to him for hours, he didn't realise how hard he was falling for them, he refused to acknowledge that it might mean something, it pained him when the thought of betraying them occurred to him, he felt ashamed when all of them found out, he was utterly shocked when they gave him a chance, what they said left quite an impression on him, they gave him hope even when he messed up, that's when he realised what his feelings were for them, Mollymauk is drawn to how strange they are like him & vice versa, they were by his side when he gained his peacock charm, they always indulged him in his card readings as they don't like to be bored too, both of them are troublemakers XD, both of them helped a bit before going to local tavern which led to an interesting evening, he was feeling buzzed but smiled when he saw how they're dancing happily, he usually wasn't up for loud & abrasive shows of charismatic whit, he isn't sure if what he feels for them is love, he felt excited & worried, they invited him to dance which he accepted happily, both of them teased each other before they danced, both of them were enjoying themselves before they kissed, he actually paused before he acted like it didn't affect him, they said it's a secret but they don't mind telling if he continues to dance with them which he did, both of them continued until the next morning, he would never forget that night as he's grateful that they're with him as they're the best thing to appear in his new life! Thank you so much for doing my request because I love it so much :)

Hihihihi!!! I’m really glad you liked them lol. I had them marinating for so long in my inbox cause I had so many ideas , just taking me a bit to execute them to my liking hehe. But I’m glad you enjoyed them, your request was definitely a fun write ❤️

[somedaytakethetime]

Watching match replays knowing the result already definetly sounds less stressful but not watching while its on would also stress me out so I guess remembering to breathe is the best option. 😅 But seems like you already had quite an ordeal watching Leicester and yes its exactly like that, two teams that you support playing against eachother can only go wrong, and even a draw wouldnt be satisfying. But having your team with your favorite keeper lose with three goals sucks extra bad I guess, hopefully it made them angry enough to take it out on Rome tho. 🤞

I'd love to dream of Paolo but in a different setting please! But how did you know Sandro's bubble butt was featured?? 👁👁 Because it was but I never got a grope because I was somehow monitoring surveillance camera video from there locker room, I hope this doesnt actually exist because that would be kinda awful! 😬 Anyways Olivier and Sandro were in there getting dressed in black and red lace panties and garter belts but I never saw the end result because it cut to Pioli arguing with some cops who wanted to take them into custody and that was the disturbing part. 😭😭 I'm so confused about this I fully blame Giroud because of the way he was holding Sandro after he scored that goal but I also never cared for lingerie and stuff like that before so I'm also blaming the stressful match & my f***ed sleeping schedule but atleast this would be a ’normal’ acceptable kink so I'm not reluctant to the idea. :D

Sorry for the rant I'm actually going to sleep now. 😅 Have a good day 💜💜

~S.A.

It's definitely less stressful to rewatch when you already know what'll happen alas one also needs the mood and energy to rewatch it and that's null lately 😅 I doubt it made them angry, if anything it made them more dejected... I can't watch this man get massacred day in and day out, I'll commit a crime. Defending him with words isn't enough anymore, I need a gun....

I'm so sorry but.... SCREAMING!!! 🤣 Not you getting the show of a lifetime with those two putting on sexy lingerie and then getting a demonic jumpscare of Pioli arguing with the police!! THE POLICE!! 🤣 They really wanted to arrest two guys for being too sexy I can't, coppers can't see a bad bitch winning.... I'm loving this dream more than anything because I love the visual of Sandro in a garter belt.... I, too, have strange kinks 😏😌😂

[spell-cleaver]

hey there! read one of your fics, checked out some of your others and marked them for later, and wanted to check out your tumblr, and then noticed that it says ‘teenager’ in your bio. not to be weird - i’m so sorry, feel free to delete this if it comes across as weird, but how do you have the time? i mean this literally - i’m also a teenager writing Star Wars fics, but, gosh, I use a lot of my free time writing them and most of them are about a thousand words long (1/2)

(2/2) and they already take up so much of my time. I also deleted my tumblr because it was taking up too much of my time, but you seem to be doing great with both platforms, and also being a teenager - so I just wanted to ask how you manage to manage your time so well/have so much time? I would love to write longer things, but between school and family and extracurriculars and community service i just don’t have the time. I’m so happy for you that you’re living the time management dream🤩💛 /gen

Hi there!! No worries, I don't find this weird at all :D And thanks for reminding me that was in my bio, it's been there for years but in a few weeks it'll no longer be true and I'll have to change it XD

I have been writing this much (if not as prolifically) since I was 14/15 though, and that's mainly because it sounds like I had an advantage compared to you. I was actually talking to my sister this morning about different types of school we have in the UK and long story (and angry rant) short, my secondary school was really, really chill. I had homework. There were a few clubs I went to. But it finished every day at 15:05 and I went home at 17:00 at the latest and I had the evenings and weekends free. Compared to a lot of my friends who went to different schools to me, that was a lot of free time.

Plus, I was lucky to be a fast writer. When I started out I could write about 1k in an hour. Now, if I'm working at average speed and writing consistently, I can do 1k in 20 minutes. Plus, I retrained myself a few years ago with online typing games so I could type faster (and properly. I used to online type with my index fingers, and that was both slow aaaand I was starting to injure them). So I just happen to have that speed advantage which meant I could take advantage of my spare time.

And finally, you mentioned school and family and extracurriculars and community service. I had one or two volunteering roles, and one or two ECs, but they took maybe 4-6 hours a week max. Writing was my main hobby. My friends mainly met up at the weekend, and I wrote in the evenings. My family knew that and didn't bother me during writing hours (and I was also lucky to be in a household that didn't need me 24/7. When my parents had illness or operations and such, my writing time was affected! They needed me around the house more). Contrast this with my time since September, which was my second year at uni but the first where stuff is actually on, post-lockdown. I was running around like a headless chicken trying to figure out what I wanted to do and what time I wanted to keep for myself and was all around exhausted - and though, bc I'm a fast writer, my output didn't necessarily show it, I didn't spend much time writing! Which was frustrating, because writing is a super important way of relaxing for me. But I didn't have the time for the first time ever, and that was stuff I'd chosen for myself, let alone actual commitments.

I am a strict timekeeper - I love planning my days to the minute - and I am fairly good at self-discipline, so when I was 15 and said "my new year's resolution is to write every single day", I did it. Saying to myself that the evening from about 7pm to 9pm was my writing time was really helpful, and I defended it. But overall, I was in a lucky situation in that I was able to have that time to defend at all. (Moving away and having to cook for myself, which could take all evening, made it difficult as well.)

TL;DR: Basically, I write fast, and I was lucky. I did have the time, because there was plenty of other stuff I was lucky not to have to do, and so when I set myself a daily challenge I had the time to do it. It was circumstantial just as much as it was time management skills. Though I do pride myself on timekeeping, and it was useful, it wasn't super important. Not everyone has the time to write every day - I don't anymore, not during the semester, though thankfully I'm on holiday now - and that's alright.

[amindofstone]

Match up, No. 9

@starlightbydaybright hat gefragt:

Hello! Saw you were taking match-ups and I was wondering if I could request one. Only done one before for another fandom, and I was wondering who I’d align with for One Piece ^^

I'm an INFP and generally an introvert, finding it difficult to express myself when I'm around people I'm unfamiliar with or just not close to. I can be both quiet and shy; quiet when I have no interest in making good impression on that person (a stranger I'll see once and never again) and shy when I'm genuinely trying to make myself acceptable to them. But, I do trust easily, so it's not hard to get close enough with me that I'll open up about almost everything, so long as they understand have my boundaries (that'll shift depending on how close). I'm also very affectionate with people I'm close with, particularly through physical touch, since I've been pretty touch starved. If you're close friends with me, you can find me constantly looking for a hug, but I can respect boundaries since not everyone enjoys contact.

The situation would be a bit different romance wise, since I’d revert a bit back to my introverted side, but also very affection-seeking at the same time. I say affection seeking as in I’d crave time and activities spent together with them, but I’d be afraid to ask/initiate, at least during the early beginnings of the relationship. I’d be constantly seeking affirmation of their love, and since I’ve never been in a relationship before (but desperately wanted one), they’d be constantly receiving my love too ❤️

While being an introvert in reality, I find it much easier to speak with confidence online. as I actually have time to contemplate what I can say. It's when I'm either with close friends or on the internet, that I can go on passionate endless rants or show my passive aggressive side. I'm usually pacifist, but if something irks me enough, I can and will pitch in snide/sarcastic remark or two, or if it's more serious; I will write out whole sophisticated and well worded paragraph that'd sound all polite with a hidden snarky tone.

I'm pretty much a hopeless romantic, so there's lot of couple things I want to try when I find someone. Back hugs, bridal carry, tickle fights, you name it. While I do enjoy these displays of affection (comes with the happy kind of embarrassment aka. I feel embarrassed that others sees it but I’m happy because I know they’re not doing it out of maliciousness and because they truly love me), small gestures are appreciated too; a gentle squeeze of the hand, a passing smile, etc.

As for hobbies, I enjoy reading, writing, (occasionally) drawing, but most of all; probably singing. I enjoy a wide variety of songs, depending on what mood I'm in, but I particularly like songs about love. Looking for someone to sing the duet love songs with me, doesn't matter how good or bad they are at singing. They can be tone deaf for all I care, it's the thought that matters 😊

I'm very emotionally sensitive, and can both laugh and cry easily. A random stranger online wished me good day? I'll be in good mood for awhile. Watched a 'mildly' sad movie? (Extra emphasis on mildly) I better have new box of tissue on the side just in case. It'd be nice to have someone that can either comfort me or at least tolerate my emotions, so I wouldn't be irking them 😞

I don't really have a type when looking for significant other but being an INFP does make the romance thing complicated. It'd be nice to have someone that's far along on the extroverted side (just not happy go lucky and can be serious) since, despite being introverted, I like to experience new things. I'm just too afraid to try alone and prefer it if someone else recommends it first. Someone to prompt me and nudge me to do something, but won’t take it too far if I really looked uncomfortable. (I’m also a procrastinator so they gotta find out the right ratio between pushing vs. taking it too far 😅) In relationship, I'd value trust and loyalty the most, since both are important in keeping the healthy relationship. If both sides could equally trust and be trusted, then there wouldn't be place for insecurity or fear. This ties in with another part of me being an INFP; I want a relationship that lasts forever. While it's weird to decide how long lasting the love will be early in the relationship, I don't think I can fully commit myself to someone, knowing that it'll end (through the other side falling out of love with me, finding interest in someone else, etc.) (natural causes like death are fine, even though I will still be sad 🥲)

As for appearance, I’m a 5”4 female with slightly wavy black hair that reach nearly to my waist. I don’t think I’m particularly short, but then again, every anime character seems to be straight up giants XD (Man, I was born with the wrong genes) I’m overall very plain, with black hair, brown eyes, but I’ve always been told I had pretty long eyelashes and big bright eyes. Average weight for my height, and flat chested :’)

As for the preference for gender, I’m mainly attracted to guys. I had some (very few) crushes on a small selection of female anime characters, but that were very rare, like 3, compared to my (insert large number) male crushes

Thank you in advance and sorry for how long this is 😔

P.s. I feel like I need to emphasize I’m still an introvert, since the personality I described is only limited to my very small friend group

a/n:

Hey there? How are you doing? Thank you so much for requesting. First off I should be apologizing for making you wait so long. I hope you´re not mad at me but lately there is a lot happening in my life. In my private life but also in my college life. But let´s put that aside and get to your request.

I have to thank you for the detailed info about you because that helped me to choose a match up for you so much. Like I instantly could think of someone. Not only did it help me to match you up with someone but also to come up with a plot. So I came up with this little imagine/hedcanon… I really don´t know what to call my work for the imaginies so I go with work. XD Anyways I really don´t know what to do at this point. Your request and your personality gave me such a good idea for a plot that I tried my best to keep it short because I decided to turn this request and my ideas and thoughts that are flying around in my mind to an actual FANFICTION! AHHHHHHHH. I can´t stop thinking about it. The idea sounds so damn good in my head that it makes me smile like an idiot right now! Uff I can´t wait to find time writing it down. AHAHH, but I fear that I already gave aways so much with this!!!! *pouts Doesn´t matter I´ll do it anyways. AHHHHHHHHHHH Thank you so damn much for requesting!

Anyways! Back to my work now. If there is anything that bothers you or you simply hate please make sure to tell me so I can change it and give you whatever you´d like. Other than that happy reading my dear!

Match up rules can be found HERE.

Warning(s): Maybe grammatical or spelling mistakes since English is my third language and I´m still improving in every aspect (Please have mercy on that.)

!!! Please do not steal my idea or work. Credit me if this is shared or published in any other platform or any other way. Please respect me as the writer and my work. Picture is not mine. Credits to: I sadly don't know. Please tell me of you know so I can give credits. Thank you in advance. !!!

· I decided to pair you up with KILLER

· Like am I the only person that thinks that he is not getting the screen time and appreciation he deserves? Because that is the damn case! ODA GIVE THIS MAN THE LOVE AND APPRECIATION HE DESERVES. And while we´re at it I wouldn´t mind if I would get a bit more of Eustass Kid too… Thank you in advance. <3

· But that’s not the point. Please dear requesting beautiful human being give this man and me, your hopelessly dreamy author a chance. Thank you, I really appreciate. <3

· aNyWaYssssS.

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· “y/n? Are you still awake?”, asked the blond man softly. “No worries I won´t make you carry me to bed again.”, you said with a giggle. You couldn´t see his face but you knew that he was smiling. “I don´t mind that you know? I like having you close to me without having to fear to see you hid under the blanket for who knows how long.”, you rolled you eyes and hit his arms. “That only happened because that idiot captain of yours annoyed the hell out of me. That was embarrassing Killer.”, you slowly put one leg over the railing and then the next one. Making sure you don´t fall down the ship. “What happened? Didn´t you drag me out our cabin to watch the stars?”, asked the muscular man who held you close to him while making sure you didn´t fell. “I did but now I´d like to look at something different. Something even more beautiful. Something that gives me warmth and happiness. Something that keeps me alive and always makes sure I am doing fine.”, talking to the blond pirate while sitting at the railing was one of the rare moments you were close to an eye level with him. “You mean my mask?”, asked the man with a tiled head that got you to roll your eyes and hit his chest. “Great you destroyed the sweet moment. I hate you. Make a step back so I can get down. I want to go back to bed and drown in regret of dating you.”, you tried to push him away but he was obviously stronger and threw you over his shoulder. “Of course you hate me. That was also the exact same thing you were moaning a while ago. Let´s go back to bed nerd.”

· As sweet and loving your relationship was now with the pirate it also started like that. Wanna know how? Alright let me get comfortable in my bed and get started. Story TIIMMMEEEE!!!

· An island well known for their universities and scientist. An island full of top ranked doctors.

· Physics, chemistry, biology, astrology was well thaught in the schools of the island. An island well known around the world. An island ruled by a powerful devil fruit user.

· An island in which every civilian had a talent in another field. And you? You sadly had an impressive talent for languages.

· Why sadly you wonder? Well the amount of times you had to run for your dear life because some pirates could come and kidnap you and make you read the poneglyphs is immense.

· Once even the infamous Red haired Shanks came and asked you with the hope to have someone who could read them. But sadly you couldn´t. You told him that you were done with pirates coming for you or your best friends. You regretted learning all of that and hated yourself for that. Shanks and Beckman to whom your were talking to really felt bad for you and claimed the island as their territory after they had a chat with ruler and made a deal.

· That was that saved you and your friends for years and made you happy. You were thankful to the red hair pirates and always treated them with meals and drinks when they came visiting the island. You were happy for 5 years. 5 years until these stupid reckless pirates came.

· And now? Now you hated yourself all over again

· You knew that not every pirate was like the red hair pirates. Nice and respectful. They didn´t kill innocent people and destroyed civilizations only to get some gold and diamonds. But these? These were horrible. Cold and cruel.

· “Someone make this btch talk otherwise I´ll do it by cutting her into pieces only stropping when IT actually starts to answer my god damn questions!”, screamed a tall and guy with red hair.

· You were scared. Tied on a mast on their ship, you feared for your life. Screaming for help was not an option since you were already on the sea since a while now.

· The man that was yelling at you none stop was now holding a blond man with a mask at his collar and growling at him. The man might have a mask on but you somehow had the feeling that he was talking to the man with the red fur coat. “Clear the deck! NOW!!”; yelled the man before he left inside the ship. Slowly every man on deck was leaving you alone. You wanted to ask them were or why the left but you knew that they wouldn´t give you an answer. You were a prisoner. A captive. A pathetic human they took on board. With the last pirate leaving you behind, a door that was located behind the mast you were tied on closed while the need to cry grew inside of you. How long am I here by now? One hour? Two or three? Was anyone missing me back at home? Were they already looking for me? Thoughts that occupied your mind were blurring your vision. You were looking right in front of you but also not. Your eyes were wide open but your vision was back at home. Home were you belonged.

· “Hey. Hey can you hear me? Hey you alright, woman? Hello?”, a man was squatting in front of you and waving with his hands in front of your face. You were deeply lost in your thoughts that you neither heard him coming nor saw him sitting right in front of you.

· But the moment he touched you tight you screamed and got back to reality. “Please don´t touch me. Please don´t hurt me. Please I beg you. Please.”, fear was written all over your face. You saw yourself death with a huge puddle of your blood. “Alright I won´t touch you. It´s just that I´ve been sitting in front of you for 5 minutes now and the only thing you did was breath and say no. Anyways here is something to drink. You´ve been her for four hours now. Half of the time unconscious and the other one either basically mute or in a trance.”, the guy in front of you was the same one who got the mad man to leave and clear the deck. It made you wonder who he was that he had such a power but you didn´t dare to ask. “Here I hold it for you and you drink.”, the glass was put on your lips and you drank. You didn´t knew how thirsty you were until your lungs were wetted by the water. Finished drinking he put a blanket over your legs since the position your were in didn´t allow you to cover yourself properly. And the fact that you were wearing a dress wasn´t helping at all.

· “Alright. You had something to drink I got you a blanket now tell me are you able to talk to me and answer my questions?”, you nodded. “Good. Now listen to me. There is this language that is called Krisanasy. As far as I know there is a tiny amount of people who are able to speak that and you are one of these. Am I right?”, you nodded. “How well are you in it?”, you gulped and looked at the man with the mask “I know the most important basics. I remember basic grammar rules and a good amount of vocabulary but I´m not that good in it. I didn´t worked with anything that included this language since years now.”, the masked man nodded and fully sat down now. “Would you be able to get back in it if you had some books and scripts to work with?”, slowly you understood where this was supposed to lead. You knew that if you said yes they would keep you as their prisoner and make your work for them. And if they had everything they would kill you because there would be no more use for you. But if you said no now and refused to talk to him he would probably also kill you. You were in a dilemma. You didn´t wanted to die but also didn´t wanted to die after you helped them. They were criminals. Feared and hated by the government and any human around the world. You looked down on your lap and let your head fall forward so your long black hair covered your face. “Hey I asked you something. Would you be able to do that?”, his voice was deep and rough but in the same time soft and gentle. That irritated you. it make you realize that him being nice to you now was just a way to get under your skin and make you do whatever they wanted. And then they simply would kill you in the most brutal and cruel way. “Hey, woman. Are you listening?”, you felt helpless. “I don´t want to die. Please let me go. Please. I beg you. Please.”, tears were streaming down you cheeks you couldn´t hold back anymore. He came closer and lifted you face. “Listen here you are a smart woman. Stop crying for fcks sake. If I would be you I would have made these pirates work for me. Use your damn brain and stop crying. Do you really think anyone in here would kill you? Heck no! They need your help. They need your brain because all of them are basically stupid. Like damn I need you to answer all of my questions before my captain with anger issues comes and beats the sht out of me. Now answer me woman. Are you able to get back in it if we got you some scripts to work on?”, you nodded while more tears streamed down you cheeks. You felt pathetic. You felt worthless and used. Helping them would turn you into a criminal too and ruin everything you worked on. Everything the emperor did for you and the island would be wasted. “See wasn’t that hard to answer.”

· The questioning went on for a while you didn´t know for how long but you knew that a long time passed since the sun stared to set. “Alright. Now I give you two options. One, stay here. Tied up on the mast no matter what kind of weather we face. Two you swear to obey me no matter what kind of order I give you and you will be able to sleep on a bed. You will get food and tomorrow you will start working on the scripts we give you. You choose.”, with your head hung lowly you said number two and instantly got released from the chains and handcuffs. He helped you stand up and covered you in the blanket before he led you into his cabin. “Wait here. Sit there and don´t do anything stupid as long as I´m not here. If you do anything stupid I won´t be able to help you. Got it?”, he didn´t even wait until you answered or gave any reaction he simply left and closed the door after him. So you waited while sitting with a lowly hung head. Minutes passed and he came back. “Your clothes are dirty. The bathroom is empty so you can take a bath or shower. Anything you want but I´ll be in the room with you. Because of one I have to make sure no one is coming in and secondly to watch over you and make sure you don´t do anything stupid. Got it. Fine. Take this towel and these clothes. We don´t have any female crewmates so you have to be wearing with my clothes until we dock on another island and you get to buy clothes.”

· The man with the mask took care of you for the rest of the day. He took you to shower and gave you fresh clothes. You had dinner with him alone in the kitchen when no one was around and got back to sleep. And no matter what you did he made sure to keep a respectful distance towards you. Whenever he had to come closer or touch you to take care of your wounds he would warn you. The day kept going like that. Nothing else was said about the following days and the thing they wanted you for. Only necessary things were said that were needed at the moment. And you only gave short replays or only answered with a head movement.

· Slowly the day passed by and the night took over with the moon putting the world alight. You were back in his cabin with him sitting on an armchair and you lying in bed sleeping with one hand tied up on the bed.

[racebox-of-higgars]

//plops down at table with three notebooks//

Good evening.

You shall now be the subject of my rambling and info-dumping, seeing as you have recently reblogged a post about invading your ask box to do just that.

So, buckle up, my beloved mutual, for I am about to talk your damn ears off.

We all know historians are heterosexist shabuire, yes? Yes? Good. So I've taken it upon myself to send an f-you to all of them and collect evidence for one of the historically accurate ships they so desperately try to erase. The one in question here is, of course, Alexander Hamilton x John Laurens, or more commonly known as Lams.

I've done... a lot of research, to put it mildly. And yes, as a matter of fact, I do consider reading letters from the late 1700s and screaming because I can feel my heart MELTING as research.

Anygay, there's a lot that I have right now so I'll just hit the highlights, because if I go completely in-depth with everything I've found, this'll be thousands of words longer.

The year is 1779. The month, April. The date... unknown. Which sucks. Alexander and John have fought together for years at this point and are very close... friends. This is the first time they've been truly separated. The letter open with:

"Cold in my professions, warm in my friendships, I wish, my Dear Laurens, it might be in my power, by action rather than words, to convince you that I love you. I shall only tell you that ’till you bade us Adieu, I hardly knew the value you had taught my heart to set upon you. Indeed, my friend, it was not well done. You know the opinion I entertain of mankind, and how much it is my desire to preserve myself free from particular attachments, and to keep my happiness independent on the caprice of others. You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent. But as you have done it and as we are generally indulgent to those we love, I shall not scruple to pardon the fraud you have committed, on condition that for my sake, if not for your own, you will always continue to merit the partiality, which you have so artfully instilled into me."

So pretty much what this opening paragraph is saying is this: "*Sexual innuendo* And I'll keep telling you that until you die. So you know I hate everyone and don't want to have any attachments to anyone. But you've managed to worm your way into my heart, even though I didn't want it. So now that you've done it, please keep doing it, for you if not for me."

Now that's just hella gay. Like, hella fucking gay.

The middle paragraphs are mainly talk about the war, so skipping those for the end because that's when things get spicy as FUCK.

Alexander asks John to find him a wife and goes into great detail about exactly what he wants in a wife. I saw a theory somewhere (I can't remember where) that Alexander was actually describing John and yeah, it pretty much checks out. Keeping in mind deliberate irony is a thing.

So then he goes on to say: "...mind you do justice to the length of my nose and don't forget, that I ⟨– – – – –⟩." 'Nose' is a slang term. And the - - - - - are crossed out words. We'll get to those later.

The last sentence of this letter is: "I have gratified my feelings, by lengthening out the only kind of intercourse now in my power with my friend." and I find this. So. Sweet. He's pretty plainly missing John. And just- he uses the word intercourse. How- how is that platonic? This is gay. They're gay. It's gay.

In almost all the letters that survived, they're signed with "Yours", "Affectionately Yrs.", "Yrs most sincerely", "Yr affectionate", and "Yrs forever" from Alexander. "Adieu, my dear boy", "My love as usual", "You know the unalterable sentiments of your affectionate Laurens", and "Yours ever" all came from John, with the last being the most common. That's... also not terribly straight. Something additionally interesting is that John's father, Henry Laurens, called his wife, Elenor, "Dear girl." That would make it explicitly romantic in his eyes. John also called his wife that in the only surviving letter from him to her. Oh yeah, he's married and has a kid, btw.

So pretty much how that happened was John's boyfriend Francis Kinloch broke up with him, he banged Martha probably 'cause he was sad and pissed and had a lot of feelings, she got pregnant, then he married her out of pity. Alexander knew none of that. And they were really close. The only reason he found out was because he happened to stumble upon some stuff he shouldn't have, and he was pissed. The whole paragraph about him detailing the wife he wanted? Pretty much petty payback.

Devoted is an interesting word, isn't it? Stronger than it's synonyms, such as caring or loyal. So if we skip ahead a few years, Alexander is engaged to Eliza. He tells John about this, John responds, and in his next letter he says: "...as if after matrimony I was to be less devoted than I am now." He's telling him, "Don't worry, I'll still love you as much as I always have. Just because I'm getting married, it doesn't change my feelings for you." Again. Heterosexual explanation? None.

" I hate Congress—I hate the army—I hate the world—I hate myself. The whole is a mass of fools and knaves; I could almost except you and Meade." Keep in mind that at this point now, Alexander was married. And he didn't include his wife in the exemptions. Only John and one of his closest friends, Richard Meade. Dunno 'bout you, but that seems rather telling to me. He also says at the end: "My ravings are for your own bosom." And I can't. His ravings are for John's heart I can't.

These are just some of the highlights of my nearly six thousand word book on this subject. I would happily copy/paste it all, but I'm not gonna subject you to that XD For full viewing the link is here, should you wish to listen to me ramble and rant in more detail.

Thank you for allowing me to dump this all on your lap, and I shall now bid you adieu. //vanishes back into the shadows//

HI, sorry it took me so long to answer this, I’ve had a pretty full-on day. 

This was actually super interesting to read. I actually did a little bit of research into this about a year ago, when I was writing Lams fanfiction, so I knew about the ‘cold in my professions, warm in my friendships” letter, but not any of the others, so thanks for this!! It was a really fascinating read, and I definitely learned a lot from reading it. Have a good day :)

[fahrenheit-not]

I don't know why, but I have a thing for angry Brian so I'd love to see something where he surprises the rest of the band by being the one to go off on something for once xD

A/N: Hello! Thank you so much for the request love! I decided to make this into a little head canon thing with little blurbs of how it would be. I hope you enjoy and remember to leave me requests in my inbox! If you’d like to be tagged in my future writing posts let me know!

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How it happened:

• Brian didn’t get angry much, typically he was very good at keeping his cool. That is until something flips a switch and pissed him the fuck off.

• It would happen quite suddenly while you sat in the studio with the boys as they recorded. As usual an argument about a chord progression, riff, or lyric came up.

• But for some reason this time Brian completely snapped and shouted at Roger who had criticized the new guitar riff he had put together for the song.

• Typically Roger would be the one to get mad and perhaps even throw something at the others, but now the tables had turned.

• Brian would go on and on about how Roger shouldn’t be criticizing his musical abilities and how the riff was plenty good. On and on and on and on until he was red in the face.

How the others react:

• Roger would be shocked of course, but when fights broke out it was usually him and Brian so it wasn’t that new. But this time it was completely different and much more intense. This caused Roger to back away slightly which was something he never usually did. Most of the time he’d fight back, sometimes even violently. But when he could tell Brian was seeing red he just backed off.

• John was always the one who stood off to the side lines. The levelheaded babysitter type of band mate who did his best to keep everyone at bay but ultimately failed in the end. This time was no different. The cutie would be sitting off to the side most likely running through some new bass parts in his head when the arguing erupted. He butted in to try and calm the two down but immediately stopped when Brian shouted at the top of his lungs, almost violent with his words. John rubbed the back of his neck and tried to ignore it happening, giving you a glance of worry.

• Freddie would be the instigator on the sidelines, encouraging the one to fight a bit more. Of course if things did get way too heated he would take on a more responsible role and try to separate them. When the first fight arose Freddie would chuckle which only fueled Brian more and more until his outburst at which Freddie would stop with shock on his face and try to calm the guitarist down to no avail. Brian would only continue on, ignoring Freddie. Then he’d give up trying to fix it just like John had.

How he would calm down:

• There was no question that the only person in the world that could calm Brian down was you. It just so happened that on some of the most frustrating days you were invited by the boys to join in.

• The boys knew exactly what they were doing. You were a calming presence in the studio when anyone was riled up, especially Brian. The eye of the hurricane if you will.

• So when anything too aggressive began to happen you would sigh and walk over to anyone who was getting too worked up.

• Today was one of the days where you would be extremely useful. You would get up form your spot on the couch and head over to Brian who was seething with anger, finally silent though you could tell he was about to break out in another rant once more.

• You would reach up your hand and gently place it on his shoulder. The guitarist would quickly turn, ready to fling the hand off his shoulder until he saw it was you and his eyes immediately softened.

• Your hand would reach to the side of his face and brush some hair to the side. All you had to say was a small “it’s alright love” and you could feel him calming underneath you.

• You’d glance at the boys who were staring at you with the most thankful look in the world, like they had been blessed by an angel.

• Soon enough the tension in the room seemed to slowly fade away and Brian calmed completely.

• Your job was done and Brian gave you a peck on the cheek as a thank you before returning to working on the music like nothing happened and you sat down on the couch.

• The three once petrified boys would give you a soft smile before returning to their work as well. You really were a miracle worker. Absolutely brilliant.

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A/N: Thank you for reading! And once again if you have any ideas for writing with the bo rhap boys or Queen send them in my inbox, and if you’d like to be on a tag list for future writings let me know! Much love 💕 ~Ri

[dolliedarlin]

Hehe thank you. And yep. The facility wanted him to work there since he also has powers but he's being forced and wants to get out as soon as possible with the kids

İ don't know if there'll be a Mira x Rowan thing but I'm down for it

We wanted Adam and those two to meet so we made em friends so Mira probably hates everyone but Adam and Rowan while those two argue like a married couple

You know that one scene in gumball where he makes fun of darvin's voice? I'm %100 sure that actually happens between those two.

Also Rowan stomping on the ground might cause an earthquake because that's how he got his powers. I'm sure the ground splits in half once in a while

We also have an mc now but we haven't talked about her for that long. She's the love interest of Adam but it's kinda toxic-ish? She's the daughter of the facility's owner and also has powers but wants to get out

Adam tries to get her on his side

A sent me this video and told me this was their conversation and i couldn't agree more lol

There's another oc named miranta? İ think but owner went poof so I'm not sure lol

We do plan on writing it eventually (and if they don't, i will) unlike our other stories and I'll let you know if I ever publish it :)

İ love ranting about my interests for absolutely no reason at all sorry 😅

Also i got 70 notes on one of my fics (i have 6 published currently) and got 2 reqs (that i also published) this feels too good to be true

And because i feel like I'm talking about me all the time : what do you like doing in your free time, Dollie?

the rowan x mira romance can be a cute side story to have with the main plot but i understand how it can be hard to achieve the right balance for that sort of thing, i don't even write like that

i like the chemistry you're going with for the three, they make a good trio!

i'm curious about the powers, are they in the facility to learn how to control their powers or make their powers stronger? what is the goal of the evil scientist organisation??

ooo~ miranta and adam could have a really cool first meeting scene if that is their first conversation with one another - this'll be such an interesting story once you begin writing it!

don't worry about that! i love it when people rant to me, i get to know them better and the topic is always thought provoking in some way and i like how it makes me think <3

and look at you! that's amazing! you're doing wonderful, dollface!

haha! feel free to talk about yourself however much and for however long you want, i don't mind and love getting to know you -^7^-

recently i've been obsessed with playing animal crossing on my switch, especially since i haven't played it in so long and it's so relaxing, it's like therapy to me XD i also like baking and sharing them with my friends and family, obviously i love to write fanfiction and i love to read <3 oh! and i love buying/collecting cute stationery XD

what about you, dollface? any fun hobbies?

[ellena-asg]

I love when people call their very serious and very wonderful meta post "ramblings" hah, it's so adorable ❤️😁 Oh, I enjoy your meta very much and I'm so happy that my post gave you all these feels. And that you wanted to share them (thank you again, I love interacting with other h50 fans so much and you, sun, are always so outgoing 🥺💕).

Hah, I feel you! Tumblr can be such a hellsite sometimes and there's always something new to learn (geez, did you hear that there's something like a second dashboard? *shock*). But I believe that there are worse places than this ^^ By the way, I like your new dash!

Okay, I feel bit better (but still am depressed by the damn snow 👿) so a few words about McDanno:

You know, when I was reading your thoughts I smiled cause your view... It's very close to my heart. And I think that many people in the fandom also feel the same. I mean that wonderful "different but not really different" Steve and Danny. Yup, Steve is often that goofy and crazy one, danger-lover (what is unfair sometimes but yeah, sometimes other characters see him in that way) and Danno is that 100% responsible and careful one. Hah. But as you said, that scene with Chino, these episodes you mentioned and many other moments in the series show us that in Danny's heart there are sometimes they both: angel and demon. And the same is with Steve but... yeah, Danny's rage mode is... THAT wow.

Danny is like a walking surprise, indeed. We know that he's very open-hearted and he often shows his emotions, much, very much, he loves justice, his job and he wants to see people being safe but sometimes he's soooo much emotional, too much? That he's a walking tornado. A berserk. And then all people are like "Hey, Danny, boy, you rant about Steve's behaviour and now you are doing the same, hell, you are even more neanderthal!" 😉 Other characters know that he can be like that but still, they always look like they're worrying about him and they still look surprised with his tornado mode (well, he's their sweet angel, golden-hearted "sarcastic but gentle" boy so yeah, it's so hard to be ok with his sudden changes). And Steve sometimes is in awe (that episode with suspect tied to their car xD) but sometimes it's too much even for him - when Danny is too much blinded by emotions, when Danny is hurt as hell. I mean, Steve feels him, always. He knows why Danny reacts in such way and I believe that in some moments he's like "I would help him to kill X, oh yeah, X hurt Danno so he deserves the worst". But Steve tries to not do too much. When Danny is in his Berserk Mode Steve needs to be that responsible one. He needs to protect Danny. He needs to save Danny from... Danny. He needs to make Danny safe so he's like "ok, Danny, beat him, I know you need this, I know you're in pain and he deserved it" but he also is like "ok, now stop it, Danno, stop it, let's go, you don't need the troubles". I love the episode with Marco Reyes' death. Danny is Berserk so much (oh, I don't like Matty Williams and I think that Danny is too good for this disrespectful younger brother but well... I get that Danny loved him and was hurt, ok...). Danny has a moment of "Calm, Williams, be calm..." but he can't. He just can't. Cause it's not fair. Cause the case is the emotional one, the personal one (oh, Steve knows something about that 😉). Cause the victim was his Ohana. And Ohana to Danny Williams means Sacred. You hurt Ohana = you deserve to die in pain. And it doesn't matter that Matt was a black sheep, that Matt was the guilty one too. He was a brother. So we have berserk!Danny and Steve letting him to do what he want (oh, not that Steve enjoys seeing Danny's pain, he just... knows what Danny needs). But we also have Steve being scared and totally worried about Danny's mood. And we have Steve being in the end like "Danny, stop, enough, please, let's go". So Danny kills Reyes and then is like "ok, let's go".

So yeah, Danny is a Care Bear and a hidden Tiger/Lion/Dragon hah. And Steve is right - it's painful to watch Danny in this mood but on the other hand... I can understand Danny. He's like a... "I need to save all this world" type of person. He knows that it's impossible but... He wants to save as many as he can. And he hates when he fails. When it's too late. And the worst comes when the victim is a) Ohana b) innocent person c) very innocent being like children or animals. Danny is a Guardian, Protector, he is always like "how, how x could hurt y, MONSTER!". The weakest beings and his family are his very sacred zone and he will never let anyone to hurt them. I know that sometimes he's like too much berserk but... I feel him. And I understand his rage when a guy kidnaps Gracie, when a CIA guy says he'll shoot the plane with Steve inside, when Wo Fat kidnaps Steve all the time, when someone kills a child or dog, when his brother is cutted in pieces... I understand when he kills in self of someone's defence and... when he thinks that killing the monsters is like killing in defence, in world's defence. I don't say that killing is good. No. But I agree with Danny that this world would be better without the monsters. I feel his anger, his "it's not fucking fair", his "where's now the God ha? Where he was...". Being a Protector is nice but sometimes it sucks so much. Especially on this planet.

Oooops, sorry for such a long babbling hah. I just wanted to say that I appreciate your observations. And I totally see that, I see Danny behaving like Neanderthal Animal Super Seal and I see Steve behaving like "Daniel Williams, remember about the law! At least be careful, you can't leave me and go to jail. And don't do this alone, the hell". Hah, they share so much, it's so funny that sometimes they forget about it 🤭

You mentioned episode 5x17, oh, I love it too. I love it for showing how much they both share. I love Danny being like "you see, Steve, I'm not that different, I'm not a Golden Boy, I have similar traumas, similar pains... anxiety... let's start with losing a brother, you - Freddie, me - Matty...". Gosh, I just love how much they share, how much they understand each other (cause they do, carguments are just for fun, for realizing some things, for making a fire - oh, they love the tension, they love to argue and to make a peace 😂). Damn adorable soulmates.

I also want to say that I really love your views about Zodiac 🙂 Confession: I don't believe in Zodiac, I mean... I'm not a hater (oh no, please, don't think that I am), it's nice to have a sign, I really like my Aquarius/almost Pisces but I generally don't believe in "all people from group X are/behave..." That's why I was sceptic about f.e. sorting hat in Harry Potter's world. I just believe that people are what they are... because they are who they are. Gosh, I don't know how to explain that in English so I will say: I believe that people are like... creators of themselves. It depends on them (and their emotions, minds) who they are, how they behave. BUT. It doesn't change the fact that I am in love with your meta and I'm totally bewitched by your astrology lines 💕 (cause, well, astrology IS fascinating). As an empath I can feel that and I can imagine that, I mean, I can feel your POV (and respect it so much). Oh, Danny as Leo! A Lion. Yeah. It fits to him. To his golden hair, yeah 😁 To his lion-heart. It fits generally, as a symbol of Danny. Cause he's like a lion. He's a lion when his Ohana is in danger. He's protective like a papa lion. He's Ohana's Mufasa 😊

And in general, it was so interesting to read your ALL thoughts, sun!

Oh, this, for example:

the subtle but persistent split between what we are told about Steve and Danny as people, by themselves as well as by others, and what we are shown through their behaviour in canon

Oh, yes! Some time ago I even talked about it with @falle-ness (❤️). Mostly about Danny - it's like... writers hate him and wanted to show him as clown sometimes, a jerk, playboy etc. And as a parody of cop sometimes too. Not to mention Grumpy Gremlin Williams. Damn. But what Scott showed us... It's complex. It's beautiful. It's Danny who yes, sometimes is grumpy BUT Scott shows "you know, it's just a mask, it's a cover for Danny's pains". Hah, writers showed us Lou calling Danny "the weakest part of Five-0" (Lou, I love you, man but please... DON'T). But do we believe that Lou really thinks that? Do we believe that they all are bigger Heroes than Danno? (oh, I definitely not).

I agree so much. There is a real difference between what sometimes character says and what does. Be it f.e. something silly like Danny saying "I hate pineapples" BUT eating pineapples and being like "yummy" (or general: Danny hates Hawaii vs he loves that place, it's his home) or something more serious like Steve saying "I wanna marry Cath" and showing he wanna marry Danny instead (hah, is it possible to NOT ship McDanno? 😉 You know... I'm 100% (demi) hetero but... I just couldn't see Steve with Cath or other girls, it was like... naaah, not believable at all. Who you wanna lie to, Lenkov? And I never shipped him or Danny with any girl. Or any man. I just... from the very beginning was very sure that Danny and Steve belong to each other. That they're each other's Zings (hah, have you seen Hotel Transilvania? 🤭). At first I was in love with their greatest friendship and soon I was in love with their love too (can you believe that before McDanno I wasn't a shipper type? xD Yup, I was into platonic/family relationships and still am, McDanno is just... McDanno is amazing, McDanno is life, there's no ship like McDanno, McDanno - you just wake up one day and think "Damn, I ship them. So hard").

Oh, Chino-Sang Min scene, yes! Sang even mentions that YEARS later hah. Huh, because of Chin Sang has to wear glasses! (maybe it's not a total loss of sight BUT still...). Hah, I can't write more in this topic cause I love both Chin and Sang (I mean post-Pilot Sang) and I wanna forget about Sang's dirty past. But yeah, Steve was the calm one there. And the one who saw something good in Sang (his love for family, his fear about wife coming back to Rwanda) 😉 Oh yeah, Stevie CAN behave, he CAN be calm.

and which keeps giving me endless fanfiction ideas

I'm keeping my fingers crossed for all your projects! I would love to read your stories so much! ❤️

Ok, I think I should finally stop babbling 😆 Let me just say the last thing: thank you ❤️ (cause there's never enough thank you - and your thoughts, Chao, really made my (yester)day and (to)day and your presence here and your friendly heart means a lot).

I'm so happy that I have you (and other sunshines ❤️) here (you can call me a weirdo but seriously, to me you all are like rays of sun and I'm grateful that I have you all and that you share your precious thoughts and that you want to talk with me hah). Mahalo 😘

I love Danny in episodes 1x24 and 2x01 when he's like a Knight coming to rescue his Prince. Yeah, I'm saying about this:

But you know what I love as much as this above? I love the scene in 1x24 where Danny is talking with Chin. Haha, talking? NO! Danny is yelling. Danny is like a barking dog. Danny is sooo pissed off. So hurt.

And maybe it's just me... but I think that at that moment it's very close to "Friends to enemies". Yup, Danny and Chino are great friends, I know. Ohana and all that jazz. But it's about Steve. And we know what Steve means to Danny 😉 And Chin arrested Steve and... Danny thinks that Chin is against them. Danny thinks that Chin betrayed. Chino isn't now behaving like a friend, like Steve's friend (in Danny's eyes) so... It's like "you hurt Steve - you're Danny's enemy no 1". Oh, just look at Danny's face:

His cold cold cold eyes. His madness. His anger. His irritation. His eyes "of the killer" 😉 His teeth, clenched jaw... The fire inside him...

It looks like he's going to kick Chin's ass, at least to punch Chin in the face veeery hard. Oh, not only Chin, Duke too, hah:

All for Steve.

But Danny can stop himself. And it's for Steve too. Yeah, Chin and Duke are Ohana and deep down Danny may still believe in that but... I believe that it's not about "you're friends so I won't punch you". I believe that he's trying to behave cause they're cops and he doesn't want to make things worse. He can't be arrested together with Steve. He has to help Steve, he's the only one who can help him so he needs to be free now. His Prince needs him so much.

Only his Prince matters now (and Danno will always choose him over other people).

[with-love-anu]

Yellow, Magenta, White and Silver! on another note I like wanna pm you but I'm a lil' anxious bean and cause you're really sweet I don't wanna be a dumbass and say the wrong thing aah, sorry I'm ranting I'll stop, ok bye!

Heyyy there! Thank you so so much for sending this in and please don’t be anxious ;) Don’t worry about being a dumbass, we’ll be dumbasses together XD You can always rant to me whenever you want :) 

White: I’m really shy to talk to you, but I would like to write with you sometime!

Don’t be! I would love to read your work if you’ve posted any. Talk to me about it?

Yellow: Your writing us great! Keep it up!

Thank you!

Magenta: I aspire to write like you.

Ahhhhh.... If I blush even a little more, I’ll be a tomato. Thank you so much!

Silver: How are you not famous for your writing? O_O

You know what makes it okay not being famous? Sweet people like you :) You made me smile a whole lot today!

[21tailsofwoe]

Well, since you asked me for all, Imma do the same XD... (If you don't wanna do all, then just 3,19,26,43,56... and if possible maybe 1? :D )

lol i knew asking all of that from you was gonna come bite me in the ass. i’m gonna try and answer all of them. *takes in deep breath* 

let’s begin.

get to know me, pick some numbers.

1. selfie

Neither do I like selfies, nor do I like my face (the latter is mainly the reason for the former) so here’s a pic of my cockatiel instead

His name is Cookie and he’s the spawn of satan.

2. what would you name your future kids?

My first-born will be called Naruto Naruto and my second-born will be called Hououin Kyouma.

I honestly haven’t given much thought to this fjgsdhgdjfhs

3. do you miss anyone?

My will to live. Itachi.

4. what are you looking forward to?

Finishing all of my WIPs lmao. They’re just sitting there. Waiting…

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?

I make myself smile all the time hahahaha

hahaha

hah

I need friends

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?

Not really. 

7. what was your life like last year?

Extremely depressing tbh

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?

Yeah, a lot of times.

9. who did you last see in person?

My cousin sister.

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?

Very.

11. are you listening to music right now?

If my screaming Cockatiel counts as music then yeah I’m listening to music.

12. what is something you want right now?

My assignment to complete itself on its own pls.

13. how do you feel right now?

a’ight.

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?

Last December LOL.

15. personality description

I seem shy at first but once approached, I am one of the coolest people you’ll ever meet. Okay, not the coolest, but like somewhere between cool and yeah-i-think-i-can-stand-your-presence-for-more-than-two-seconds. I am sarcastic to a fault and I have the weirdest sense of humour. I never ‘like’ anything, I become fully obsessed with it. I am sort of a perfectionist, so that keeps me from doing stuff. I am kind of an introvert, but I do love meeting new people and visiting new places.

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?

Yeah I want to tell my bird to SHUT THE FUCK UP, but I can’t ‘cause he has a bird-brain and he doesn’t understand shit. (but i love him so much)

17. opinion on insecurities.

Ooh boy I’ve had a lot of insecurities in the past (and still may have some) but like none of that is real and sometimes it happens to be all in your head and it doesn’t really matter what others might think of those insecurities when they see you. All you need is some fake-confidence to carry yourself around, and before you know it, that confidence becomes real very and you start to accept the things you don’t really have control over. Insecurities mean shit.

Too hipster for you?

18. do you miss how things were a year ago?

Absolutely not.

19. have you ever been to New York?

Haha I wish.

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?

All the Naruto and Naruto Shippuden opening songs. I’ll Be Good by Jaymes Young

21. age and birthday?

do I have to?? and 24th Jan.

22. description of crush.

Tall-ish, Dark, long hair. Really talented and was super smart as a kid. Has eye bags. Killed his entire family, slaughtered innocents, and tortured and manipulated his younger brother. Was a member of a criminal organisation. Thought like a Hokage at the age of seven. A work of art.

23. fear(s)

Oh boy do heights freak me out.

24. height

5′8″

25. role model

Don’t really have one.

26. idol(s)

him…

don’t really have one 

27. things i hate

I won’t be saying any names but Donald Trump, if you’re reading this…

28. i’ll love you if…

you fit the description in answer 22 above.

29. favourite film(s)

Koe no Katachi (changed my life tbh), the Star Wars series, that latest Tom Holland superhero movie idk if you’ve heard of it :\, Dead Poets’ Society, all Marvel movies except the second Avengers movie  which sadly doesn’t exist :(, and Chris Nolan’s Dark Knight trilogy. I am not much of a movie person tbh.

30. favourite tv show(s)

not to be the epitome of mainstream cringe culture but Supernatural, Doctor Who, and Sherlock lmao. Also, I absolutely love Brooklyn Nine-Nine, Friends, Breaking Bad, the first two and the only seasons of Arrow (the rest don’t exist for me sorry jfskdjh), Daredevil, and there must be more that I’m missing but for now I’m gonna stop here.

31. 3 random facts

— As a kid, I thought every animal was a car. A dog? Weird cat. A cow? Big, fat cat. A fish? Cat that can breath under water.

— I am super bad at playing the piano even though I’ve been learning* it for years.

— I have always been fascinated by stars, for as long as I can remember.

* : In this context, the word “learning” refers to going for classes for a month and then dropping it for a year, and then starting classes again just to give up, and then looking up tutorials on YouTube just to cry over the piano keys because you suck so much.

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?

Girls. But I find it easier to befriend guys for some reason.

33. something you want to learn

The fucking piano.

34. most embarrassing moment

Not gonna say much except these few words: first time periods, school, white uniform skirt, seniors.

35. favourite subject

Physics and Economics.

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

Have a paper published, have a book published, and just learn about stuff. Idk, any stuff.

37. favourite actor/actress

I have had only one favourite actor since I was a child and that’s Will Smith.

38. favourite comedian(s)

I don’t really know many comedians, but I really like Russell Peters. He’s hilarious af.

39. favourite sport(s)

Volleyball (thanks to a certain anime), basketball (even though I gave up the sport), and lawn tennis (even though I have hardly played this).

40. favourite memory

Don’t know her.

41. relationship status

Don’t know her either.

42. favourite book(s)

Any and all Dan Brown books, any and all Stephen King books (even though I’ve read like three of his books lmao), the Harry Potter series, books by Murakami.

43. favourite song ever

Don’t really have one. My favourites keep changing over time.

44. age you get mistaken for

Never had anyone do that so I wouldn’t know.

45. how you found out about your idol

My brother told me about this never-ending show about ninjas running around in colourful clothes and I was like K. Little did I know that I was gonna meet…him…

46. what my last text message says

“lol no way”

47. turn ons

Refer to answer number 26. 

48. turn offs

It’s called the ending of a never-ending series about ninja running around in colourful clothes

49. where i want to be right now

Up in the mountains or some shit.

50. favourite picture of your idol

51. starsign

Aquarius

52. something i’m talented at

Procrastination. 

53. 5 things that make me happy

Anime, books, writing (not on laptops or phones or computers, but like, writing), hanging out with me friends, shitposting on Tumblr

54. something thats worrying me at the moment

This assignment that’s due tomorrow. 

55. tumblr friends

ooh ooh ooh there’s the mutuals I love talking to and ranting with aka @fineillsignup, @thefewthemerrier, @teenagetreepatrol, @narusakuloverforever, @obsessed-lass and then there are the mutuals whose ship(s) I don’t agree with but they’re literally one of the most awesome people I’ve met on this @sasukeuchihayas, @mycherryqueen. Then there are the mutuals I don’t “talk” to but we always like/reblog/comment on each other’s stuff and send each other asks sometimes like @uzumakura, @winter-serenade, @asiantwinkies. There’s @hanaita who is too good for this world. And then, of course, there is you @mirai-no-yume sending me asks and have nothing but the nicest things to say. 

56. favourite food(s)

Starts with piz ends with za.

57. favourite animal(s)

Any animal except this screeching monster in front of me (jk cookie ily 2)

58. description of my best friend

Pure, hilarious, one of the most emotionally strong people I know, living embodiment of a shitpost, I would give up everything for her tbh (well, maybe not everything that’s a stretch. maybe like, one or two things. or maybe half a thing.)

59. why i joined tumblr

Really frustrated with the Naruto ending so I needed a place to vent. 

60. ask me anything you want

Yeah, whatever. I’m tired now.

[midnight-in-town]

I don't like the 2Ct either, but if it was true. I really have the feeling that Lizzie wouldn't stop loving OurCiel. I would maybe even say she'd favour OCiel over the PastCiel, mainly because OCiel has been incredibly supportive of her, and never did anything hurt her. Besides the almost slap bc of the ring, and he openly apologised. I don't know other's views, but I don't get the feeling that Lizzie would just abandon OCiel, if PCiel came back, and maybe, if given the choice she'd chose OCiel.

Hey Anon :) Oh Gosh, I hope I won’t ramble too much but… well, lmao I might as well go all the way out since you launched the subject. Forgive me if that sounds rant-ish somehow. xD

Okay so, I spend probably a lot of time speaking about the 2CT more privately than publicly because it can be a little hard to vouch for my peculiar point of view about the 2CT to people who really like this theory (not that I blame them, I can be really annoying, @dorkshadows​ can confirm), because it’s not just about whether I like it or not.

First of all, do I like the 2CT? Like you, still not really for different reasons, but do I think it’s likely to happen? At this point yes, I do. 

However one thing that really tends to make me dislike this theory more than I usually would (since I generally shrug at theories I don’t like) is people making shortcuts about what the 2CT becoming canon would mean.

Basically, the 2CT is a private matter having importance for… 3 people out of the entire cast: 

Ciel himself + it’s linked to his trauma and what happened with the cult

Lizzie of course

Tanaka maybe because he’s an important part of Ciel’s childhood (and maybe the rest of the Midfords)

So, in case it turns out to be confirmed in canon, people gotta stop thinking that there is going to be a giant sign glued to Ciel’s forehead saying “btw I stole my bro’s identity DO YOU BELIEVE WHAT AN AWFUL PERSON I AM?” And no, the whole London won’t throw rocks at Ciel, because it might be that the only two characters who will discover about what happened will be Lizzie and maybe Tanaka.

Heck, there is even a chance that we will never know Ciel’s “real name” in case the 2CT is canon, because as Ciel said it himself “if you believe in a lie for a long time it starts becoming the truth”, which is why “Ciel” is now his name as much as it was his brother’s until the twin died. 

Anyway, back to your question after this huge digression, another shortcut I really hate is people saying that (if I had to summarize roughly) “Lizzie loves the true Ciel and doesn’t give a damn about our!Ciel” because:

No

read the damn manga

Still nope

reread the Campania arc

First of all, “love” at ten and “love” at fourteen/fifteen aren’t the same thing + don’t you ever try and tell me that Lizzie didn’t love her other cousin (our!Ciel) even if she was engaged to real!Ciel. She always was a kind and loving girl, so after the tragedy that happened 4 years ago she would have been happy at the idea of getting anyone of her family back, especially after believing they were all dead. 

But okay, the 2CT is a thing and our!Ciel made her believe he was his twin (her original fiancé) and it’s a big lie from his part… however 4 years passed since then, and even though it’s a lie that’s definitely going to hurt her, she’s not stupid and shallow to the point of forgetting about the 4 years she spent next to our!Ciel, trying to make him happy, supporting him and revealing to him what she really was about. 

In fact, I’d just like to remind anyone thinking that Lizzie would just discard our!Ciel for his twin at the first opportunity she has that her life before and after the tragedy 4 years ago also changed, because…

when Vincent and Rachel were still alive, she was a normal little girl, she went to the manor to play with her fiancé/her cousins, she didn’t have to worry about anything besides showing her strength

now whenever she visits it’s because she’s worried about Ciel feeling lonely or unhappy (ch14 is a good proof of that) and she wants to be by his side to support and protect him. 

So I know she didn’t suffer from Vincent’s and Rachel’s murders as much as Ciel did of course, but one thing people seem not to understand is that she also had to grow up because after Ciel came backshe realized that to support him…

…She would also have to change (and she was 11 at the time). 

And finally about the campania arc, if the 2CT is true that means that…

…Real!Ciel is the one who triggered many years of self-loathing when our!Ciel…

…put an end to that by completely accepting her true self. 

TL;DR in the 2CT, Lizzie’s relationship to Real!Ciel (aka when she was a kid, before the tragedy of 4 years ago) doesn’t have much in common with the current relationship between Lizzie and our!Ciel because :

she’s older and she’s now one of the only sources of support that Ciel can get

she also had to change after the tragedy of 4 years ago in order to be by our!Ciel’s side, to support and protect him 

what happened on the Campania between them is extremely important to both their characterization 

what’s happening in the current arc will also probably turn out to be important for a few aspects of their relationship.

Obviously, were she to find out about all this, I’m not saying that Lizzie would immediately forgive our!Ciel for his lie, but her choosing Real!Ciel “because the one she always loved was her true fiancé” is beyond nonsense when Lizzie’s life (and feelings) now is different from her childhood. 

So to anyone dismissing all that happened between our!Ciel and Lizzie over the last 4 years under the pretense that she loves the real Ciel, well, way to make an annoying and useless shortcut because, if just when it comes to love, the human heart tends to go a little deeper than just names. 

Once again, I know it’s not something every 2CT supporter believe in (thank God), but still, it’s because of shortcuts like this that I find it quite tiring to discuss the 2CT and I just wish some people would consider the canon characterizations when they talk about the 2CT instead of inventing fanon characters and spreading confusing ideas like “Lizzie only loves the real Ciel anyway”. :/

Also, maybe now is a good time to say that personally I don’t think the real twin will come back, because as I was saying it’s a private matter that’s mostly important to Ciel and Lizzie only + because he died and his body most likely burnt…

..which is why (since Vincent also can’t be brought back apparently because his body also was burnt) I don’t think he’s Lord Sirius (+ UT having such a perfect timing when those kids were locked there for a month would kill the whole plot twist).

Sorry for all the rambling Anon, I hope it made sense somehow. ^^ Also as always that’s just my opinion and I’m not asking for anyone to agree with me. 

Have a nice weekend. :)