#don't try and tell me what im experiencing bc i know that's not it

[ame-to-ame]

there are things that you don't do for a year or more and pick up just right where you left off and these days i fear loving you might be one of them

[trans-leek-cookie]

post. Post-posting clarity where you're like "wtf was I talking about". But also post-posting confusion where you're also like "wtf was I talking about" but it's less about your mental state While Posting and more about "okay. I've written many words. I remember. Approximately 20% of them. What the fuck are the rest of these?"

[nerd-at-sea5]

are u pro palestine... we have the same interests but i dnt want to follow u if ur weird

honestly this blog is for silly little thoughts about lesbians and such and the occasional personal story or opinion but it’s about time i got one of these. so buckle up long post ahead and it’s not gonna be a cut and paste yes/no answer bc yeah. just read the thing

first of all: im jewish. raised jewish and will forever be jewish. i'm proud of it. i'm not super religious and don't really believe in god but that doesn't mean i'm any less jewish.

second: i believe in a 2 state solution. i don't like terrorists. i think hamas needs to be held accountable for the murders and horrors they've committed, because frankly i think they're a bunch of monsters and terrible people. i don't agree with a lot of the stuff that netanyahu does either because that stuff is also not ok. but overall: fuck hamas.

that being said, i believe that israel has the right to exist. i believe that the jews deserve a homeland where we can be safe. i believe that a 2 state solution is the safest and smartest option. but i will also say that as the correct and historically accurate definition of zionism is to believe in the movement and protection of the jewish state - i am a zionist and i am not going to shy away from what i believe in.

i am aware that people will not like this about me, and i am aware they will try to tell me things about myself that are not true. so i am going to set the record straight and go back to posting about my silly little tv shows.

israel has a right to exist and to defend itsself

hamas are terrorists and should not be in power

i am in favor of a 2 state solution

the people of gaza don't deserve to live in horrible conditions because of the terrorists in power

jews and israeli's don't deserve the hate and abuse that they're experiencing because of people who don't know how to fact check

the hostages should be home. this is non-negotiable, they should be home.

and again - im aware that this isn't the yes/no answer you want, but i can't give that to you because its much more complicated than that.

lastly, if you want to unfollow me for any of these things please go ahead, i don't care. i implore you to fact check yourself before sending hate and threats to people online or in real life (or assaulting/hurting people, seriously just don’t do that.)

if you pick and choose who to engage with online due to political opinions that's up to you, but a difference in opinions isnt 'weird' its just human.

[chocoqtelle]

pac — what's the drama? (ex edition bc that's all the messages were about 💀)

@ pile one

your words have HURTTTT someone. if this was someone you had to cuss out, I understand. it caused a lot of growth for them. this was like an awakening for them. they had to realize how they act isn't aligned with how they view themselves. you set boundaries to protect yourself and they weren't having it. they couldn't grasp the idea that you don't have to obey them and they aren't the main character. you went through some kind of heartbreak before this situation started but you actually learned from it. you realized you don't wanna experience that again and did better. you probably operate in a more logical way and hide your emotions until you're really comfortable with someone. after you experienced that heartbreak, you could have gotten into short lived relationships a lot and flings to protect your feelings. they see you in your power not worrying about them and it hurts them even more. don't go chasing them, let them enjoy the situation they put themselves in.

@ pile two

if you don't let your ex go immediately... there's nothing to like. the drama is that they're a piece of shit and you're still thinking about them. if they cheated once, they'll cheat again. if they used you, they'll use you again. if they replaced you, they'll replace you again. I need you to be so serious, do you really think someone like this is worth your time? you need to stop talking to people about this person and focus on yourself. a lot of people around you are lowkey haters too so you shouldn't be telling them much of anything. do you have any projects/goals of your own right now? besides things to do with them, of course. you're trying to rest but you're still worrying about your ex so how are you relaxing? 😭😭 you need to block them asap. ill tryyyy to be nice since I can see you're going through it but please have some standards for yourself and others. no, dating people like them will not fill that void. YOU need to fill that void by loving yourself enough that you don't need love from random losers to feel worthy. instead of being sad about the things you can't change, work on the things you can.

@ pile three

i wanna start off by saying this pile is not for everyone. then i wanna point out how annoyingggg you and your ex are 😭😭 ive been getting this piles energy all in the other readings even when it didn't make sense with the other piles messages. i swear y'all need to stop being stubborn. if you like them, you like them. I pulled the lovers and kept channeling let em know through this entire pac. i get you guys are all mad at each other but it doesn't even seem like the breakup was that serious. it seems like it was just a petty argument, moving homes, or a fight from way too long ago to still be upset about. you guys might not be realizing the things you did wrong too. im not gonna tell you to text your ex or anything though. just let things happen naturally. you have to maintain a balance. don't deny your clear feelings but don't be obsessed. you're independent but not overdependent. accept how you feel and do your shadow work. there's not a whole lot else besides that to do. if the same cycle is repeating with them then maybe try doing something different. i hate to be one of those "your ex is coming back" tarot readers but y'all are killing me.

[waddleonmywaywardducks]

Something I would just like to get off my chest...

Literally I just want to talk my shit. This is just SOME of the shit I'm tired of seeing in my community.

I grew up in a extremely god-fearing Christian home. Most of my childhood years where spent in a church or with my nose stuck into a Bible. It was horrible. When I was 10, I was opened to the world of magic and slowly I realized that what I was reading could be true. I began to research as much as I could and now here we are. But anyways, as I began to expand my craft, I start to find myself with people who also practice!

My first experience with the shit talk in my community was from a witch who came from a long line of witches and claimed they were more powerful then me bc of that....I've never seen them practice or even attempt to practice....and their mother is a wiccan....ok yeah sure ☠️ like first off, literally I don't care, I don't care if your mother is a witch, I don't care that "you are the granddaughter of the witches they didn't burn" ☠️☠️ you can miss me with that. Second off, because they claimed to be a more powerful witch they said they could "mentor" me and teach me the "right ways" and when I said no they then told me I would never be powerful and that they would curse me....where's that curse at girlie???? I do not care for power. I do not care for control. I just want to find harmony with myself and the world.

The second experience I had, AND I KNOW EVERYONE. EVERYONE. HAD THIS HAPPEN TO THEM, was the "I've been practicing for x amount of years so....Im actually better then you" I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I do not give a fuck how long you have been practicing. Here's a real question, why do you, a "experienced" witch, feel the need to invalidate new witches, when your practice is all your own? Are you really practicing if you feel the need to scare and fearmonger newer witches? Why not help them?I remember I was at such and loss starting out because no one would tell me, they would be like "how could you not know that?!?!" Or "I would NEVER make that mistake" it's ok to make mistakes, fuck man 8 years later and I still make mistakes. Also, Witchcraft communities have always been about communicating, when looking for where to began, young witches would TURN TO THEIR ELDERS. Why have we driven away from that? Idk I just feel like if you feel the need to invalidate newer witches, you aren't actually secure in your own practice. So are you really better then me? Or are you just worried I'll become more "powerful" then you?

And I know we've all gone through the "I have the most expensive herbs so my spells are way more powerful" just say you love capitalism ☠️☠️ LMFAOOO the witches I see on tiktok are like the over consumption final boss like holy shit. I literally get everything I need from the forest outside my house, I literally haven't bought anything for my practice in like months because I put my time and energy into what I create for my deities, spells, and rituals. And honestly, Ive had way better results because of it. You don't need all this big fancy stuff, just get started with what you have. Make it your own.

Instead of doing all this, mind your business, stay to YOUR craft, and if someone asks for help you can give them what you can. Literally just be a nice person Jesus fucking Christ. Just be a nice person. The entire reason I made this blog was for witches who needed someone to push them in the right direction. This post was me talking shit, if you feel called out....then consider this a sign to try to be better, there's always a chance to start again. And also, in no way am I bashing witches who come from a long line of witches, that shit is cool as hell, I'm just saying when you use it just to be cool and not practice, bc i hate to break it to you but if you don't practice like at all, not even attempt to start, then you aren't a witch my guy im sorry being born into a witch family doesn't automatically make you a witch, you have to carve that shit out for yourself. But anyways it's 1am I'm tired I honestly have no idea why I wrote this. Ok bye.

[itsrlymine]

hey babes, absolutely love ur page. as a black girl practicing loa what advice would you give to someone trying to use loa to stop experiencing racism and bigotry? i know we must change our thoughts but i myself am not thinking these hateful thoughts about myself, it is others. i also have trouble with the everyone is you pushed out concept bc i think i always get royalty treatment but yet that doesn’t shield me from racial discrimination. do u think that has to do with collective consciousness or maybe i truly do have some have some underlying beliefs about myself that im not aware of? tyyyy <3

Okay so for starters, everything starts from the mind. You might not think bad thoughts about yourself but you think other people do, that's why they show up in that way sometimes. I recognized that we are God on earth walking, no matter what our vessels appear like. The princess treatment you get doesn't "sheild" you from racial discrimmination bc that's the story you are telling.

Abdullah the Ethiopian Rabbi was an infamous teacher of the Law and he moved to the United States during the 1920s, obviously a time in which everybody wasn't afforded equal opportunities yet he lived like a king. It's because he understood that no matter what rules are set in the outside world, his mind is the creator and generator of this reality. I would suggest you look him up.

Regardless, I have found times in the past where I might start to feel old stories about how people may treat me pop up but I immediately dismiss them and decide that everyone loves me in spite of everything and those are the results I get. This can apply to anyone and anything. At the root of it, if everything is God and the things of the world are just what we label them, then we should grow to understand that certain things we put at such a high regard become trivial. Racism doesn't effect me anymore because I decided it has no place in my world, for me and others.

You don't need to worry about trying to uncover underlying beliefs. Just uncover who you truly are and how that plays a role in everything. I hope this comes across sincere and not dismissive bc it was difficult for me to understand at a certain time as well.

[comikbook]

hope u don't mind me asking but as an artist online whose open about their experiences w schizophrenia, how often do you have people attempt to make it worse?

like trying to feed into it or make it worse somehow bc they think it's funny?

I'm an artist with delusions, and im usually weary of mentioning it because I'm worried people online will try to make it worse. I know there's a difference between the two, but I thought you might have some insight

unfortunately this is a really common thing to happen and it breaks my heart

people can and will try to use it against you because they think its funny. there are so many cases of these things happening.

im someone who has sought comfort in various spaces online for my psychosis and even in places with those who understand there will be people who invade that space just to cause harm. people telling me my delusions are real, trying to send cryptic messages or images to induce paranoia, etc

my main word of advice is to please keep yourself safe and be careful of who you tell, and if its something you want to be open about make sure you are in a place mentally that can handle that possibility of someone trying to fuck with you.

Luckily in my case im fairly stable now, so i am not much bothered by when people do this to me bc i am heavily medicated and handling my condition, but it is still upsetting. during bouts of psychosis i stay away from social media specifically or at the very least do not post the specifics about what i am experiencing anywhere public just in case someone tries something.

this isnt meant to deter you from opening up, i just want you to do so in a place and time where it is safe to do so. just be cautious and always do what you need to protect yourself

[luvyeni]

i LOVED your last perv!bfjisung LOLLIPOP. could i request something similar but with an experienced needy!reader, just always so desperate and ready for jisung and of course he gives her it bc he loves feeding into her fantasies and desires?? also maybe a little mocking/humiliating??? thank you! i love you and your account!

JUST ONE KISS; PARK JISUNG

pairings. perv!jisung x needy!reader

wc. 824

warnings. oral fixation, finger sucking, thigh riding, mentions of oral, mentions of recording

i hope you like it💙!

jisung knows what you mean when you say 'just one kiss'

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"jisung please!" he smiled as you sat on your knees , begging for his attention. "just one kiss, i promise." he was never the one to deny you a kiss, but he knew the look in your shiny eyes, you didn't mean just one kiss— you were needy.

"just one kiss?" truth is jisung loved when you acted like this , all desperate and ready for him. he knew you'd do anything he asked you to do. "okay princess, come here." he pulled you into his lap, grabbing your cheek. "just one kiss okay?"

"just one kiss."

he pulled you into a slow passionate kiss, you didn't even try to fight for dominance , his hand traveled to your thighs , rubbing it softly as he pulled away , looking into your blown out eyes.

"oh baby." he tilted his head. , bringing his thumb up , dragging it across your swollen lips. "you said just a kiss." he said, but you were confused , he smirked seeing the gears turning in your pretty head , feeling your body moving against his thigh.

"pretty dumb baby , you've been grinding on my thigh ever since you've sat down." you genuinely didn't even realize. "it's okay , i know you didn't know, there's nothing in that brain of yours is there." you whined as his words.

"f...fingers, w..wan' your fingers." he nodded. "yeah? you want my fingers, where baby, where do you want them?" he knew where you wanted them, but he thought you were the cutest , hiding your face in his neck, face hot. "no baby , don't hide your face, tell me where you want them."

"m...my mouth, i...i want them in my mouth." he bit back a smile, he knew your answer, your oral fixation was something he was aware of, when you first started dating he would notice how you'd constantly have something in your mouth , it only progressed when you started having sex and you'd ask him to suck on his fingers while you were riding him.

or

his favorite thing ever, when your mouth was on his cock. he loved that, he loved having his cocked sucked, and to have a girlfriend with a oral fixation, and is horny 24 hours of the day 7 days a week... he was in heaven, countless of videos (some with you knowledge, some not) with you sitting on your knees, cock in his mouth, fingers in your leaking pussy, fucking yourself to orgasm.

jisung was pulled out his nasty thoughts , by you whining , softly hitting his chest. "why are you ignoring me?" he chuckled. "im sorry baby." he held two fingers to your mouth, tapping on your lips. "open up."

you let out a soft moan , as your lips closed around his fingers , sucking on them softly. "that's it baby girl, suck on my fingers like a good girl." his hands creeping up on your hip, moving your body once again.

"keep grinding on my thigh baby, thats right, make yourself feel good, use me baby."

jisung could cum at the sight alone, the way your eyes practically rolled to the back of your head , as you rubbed your wet clothed pussy across his jeans— his fingers in your mouth.

"baby you should see yourself right now." he brought you back to reality a little bit. "you look so nasty baby, the way your drooling on fingers, and look at the wet spot on my jeans from your wet pussy, your making such a mess." his low laugh sending more pleasure down below, you began to speed up your progress.

"should i take a video?" he teased. "show the boys how desperate you are?" you know he wouldn't do it, jisung hated sharing you with anyone, he wanted you all to himself at all times, he was just as bad as you are, probably even worse, but that still didn't stop a moan from coming out of your filled mouth.

"you told, you told me you just wanted a kiss, you tricked me baby, here you are rubbing your pussy on my thigh like a nasty slut."

"j...jisung." your words muffled by his fingers. "i..i c..can't- c..can't what baby?" he bounced his leg up, making you topple over , your body pressed against his chest as you felt his your high vastly approaching.

"you're gonna cum, make more of a mess on my thigh?" you nodded, resting your head on his neck. "good, be a good girl and cum on my thigh." you came with a loud moan, legs twitching as you slowly came down from your high.

"did that feel good baby?" he took his fingers out your mouth. "yes." you smiled lazily. "good." he grabbing the back of your neck bringing you into another passionate kiss, before whispering in your ear.

"but now you have to take care of me, be a good for me. get on your knees and suck my cock like a good girl."

©️LUVYENI

[rakkuntoast]

ok i got nothing else to do so here's a transcript of the whole trauma talk

philza stream july 22nd 3:26:06

Tallulah: if i think u were paranoid, he is even more. y'all need a break

Phil: i mean it's cuz we've like experienced some kind of loss with the eggs, right? so, we've had the nightmare, alright. Chayanne lost a life to neglect cuz of misscommunication. Tallulah, you lost a life to the code monster...

Phil: Like we've felt what it's like to have you guys dissappear from our grasp, right? you've like- you've dissapeared from this world briefly, and we know what it's like. Like i-i've personally know what it's like, for you guys to fucking dissapear entirely like, the nightmare happened and i thought that was it, i was like "fuck well, it's done" and i felt so empty, right?

Phil: I-I genuenly felt like i lost a hardcore world, like- the 5 year world that i lost? that's what it felt like, i was like fucking miserable. And then bad uh- lost dapper like- like in a weird glitch type thing, and that got reverted. But when it happened, you can hear it in his voice like, he was distraught like- theres like a bond that we share even if is playing block game, you know?

Phil: we're just hanging out like, i wanna protect you guys with everything i can. everything i have i wanna protect you with, you know? but... i understand that i can't protect you for everything, so i just try to protect you from that i can, so... (and ooc out-of-character, i think everyone watching is incredibly invested also -laughs-, we're in the same boat)

Tallulah: It's understandable, thanks for sharing how u feel with us i'll be more careful

Phil: that's okay, you- you- you're very careful already tallulah, it's chayanne that fucking dives head first into danger all the time. He's- he's a bit more reserved now, you can do that chayanne when like theres more people, its fine, cuz then we can look after you, we can back you up. But when its just me and you, or me, you and tallulah.... we gotta- we gotta stick together, alright? we've seen all kinds of strange things happen

Chayanne: i mean, gosh i'm bad with words!!!

Phil: yeah, its alright. im just gonna throw some blocks out of my inventory

Tallulah: i gotchu brother

Phil: awww -laughs- gotta back eachother up, back eachother up guys

Tallulah: you show more with ur actions chay, that's more than enough

Chayanne: i dont want to die, i wont die soon, i take everything you showed us seriously

Phil: (overlaps) guessing "super seriously", yeah yeah yeah yeah.

Phil: You know what i think makes it more stressful? Is that us players can't see your health, right? So like, we don't iknow how close you are to danger, we can't- you can't talk to us mid fight, alright? like, you talk to us throught signs and books and stuff but like, we have to go through body language alone to figure out how in danger you are... You can't tell us, you dont have like a button to press, you don't have- there's like nothing to indicate that you're extremely low on health or in peril, alright?

Phil: So it makes it more stressful for the players and the people watching cuz we dont know, so i have to just be super fucking careful... And just treat it like you're on like barely any heart all the time, just in case

Chayanne: Thank you so much for that, when the giant squid grabbed me i was shaking-

Phil: -laughs- Oh god

Tallulah: Thank you for being such a good mentor (and father figure) i can't promise i might not die, but i will fight if i have to-

Phil: Oh i absolutely believe you'll do your absolute best to survive tallulah

Chayanne: When the giant squid grabbed me i was shaking bc i thought that was the end of it

Phil: Yeah- that was terrifying yeah, it's so- it's so like stressful

Tallulah: -to still be here with you all. i promised my papa and i make that promise to you

Phil: Aww, thank you Tallulah, thank you.

Phil: I feel like there's enough counter-measures in place that- realistically um it shouldnt be- nothing bad would happen like- you souldn't lose a life but.. You know me, and I- you know how im- I just I know that multiple bad things can stack on top of eachother and cause a really bad thing to happen, so like we have to be just careful of that, you know? You can be prepared for anything but there's always gonna be ways that you'll be unprepared for something, alright Phil: so- as long as we just prepare as much as we can and just be extra safe and not put ourselves in unnecessary danger then.. These situations that could happen can't happen. The only thing we can't prevent against really, or we can prevent it a little bit- but we can't really prevent it is when the code monster decides to take the life from an egg cuz.. You've seen it first hand, it does not give up

Chayanne: So yeah, it's not a good feeling ;_;

Phil: Yeah... I'm glad you guys are in the same page

Tallulah: In conclusion: we need to go to tio Roier's therapy sessions

Phil: -laughs- Is Quackity paying for it, yeah? Quackity got that on lock, it's like and insurance- it's like a company insurance, like a benefit you have for working with the server. its like "okay so uhh, who needs to book a therapy session today" everyone raises their hand at the same time, good god. Yeah, we'll go to family therapy together, we'll work it out, we'll work it out

edit: minor spelling mistake </3

[remcycl333]

Hi, I really enjoyed reading your indepth post today on how to fulfill ourselves. I really admire you and the “states girlies” a lot because you guys really know your stuff!

I have a bit of a scenario that i’ve been “stuck” in and in my own head about, if you have time i would really appreciate some advice.

So i’ve been “manifesting” my sp for a little over 2 years now using law of assumption, but in reality i’ve only TRULY been manifesting him using states for the last 8 months. I have a really good understanding of states thanks to you and twitter pages, edward art and neville. I promise I don’t focus on time (until recently when i was making plans for my future which i always assumed my sp would be here for) and I never intended that manifesting takes a long time. I’ve experienced many quick manifestations and I know sp is no different but im not sure where im going wrong. I always catch myself when im out of the state and redirect myself back and have been doing this daily for the last 8 months. I do feel fulfilled in my mind with him since I no longer have a “longing” for him nor do I expect him to take any action in the 3D because thats not my true world. I dont even feel bad/sad when “opposite” things seem to happen (such as him unfollowing me out of the blue) and I give stuff like that NO meaning because it GENUINELY doesn’t affect me since I know in imagination im happily married. I know you’ll tell me that im not truly fulfilled if the 3D is making me feel some type of way, but Im not sure how else to explain that I don’t know why not even the tiny bit of movement has happened (I dont want movement, I want my whole desire, just trying to say how in my physical senses there has been nothing experienced).

I keep up with your posts weekly and I know you’ll tell me that if im noticing the absence im not in the state, that im dominantly still in lack, etc but I truly felt like I was fulfilled. I never check the 3D, I never even have “opposing” thoughts (since thoughts are an indicator of my state) so I thought for months that everything is fine. Even now I am prioritizing my state because I know that by writing this, I am being in an unfulfilled state, but im not sure what else to do. After a while it gets a little weird noticing it hasn’t reflected even though im fulfilled within. Am I doing anything wrong? I dont have a strong desire for my sp anymore because I worked a lot on myself and no longer need him, but I do wish to be with him still.

Thank you rem.

hi love! so im not in your brain, so i don't know every little thing you think/do throughout the day, so im gonna give u some examples of things i was accidentally doing whenever i was manifesting an sp that was keeping my 3d from reflecting, even tho i was sure i was 100% fulfilled. maybe you'll realize you're doing something similar and be able to stop it?

i'd prepare myself for what i'd say to my sp when he finally reached out, or i'd daydream about yelling at him when he did bc i knew before we got back together we'd have to talk about our past issues. this was contradicting the fact that i was manifesting already being in a relationship with my sp. why would i be identifying with those thoughts when i was already with my sp?

i like to daydream in order to fulfill myself, but sometimes i'd stop paying attention and accidentally slip into a state of longing without even realizing it. like i'd be daydreaming about something bc i desperately wanted to experience it in my reality, not because i was experiencing it in my 4D, if that makes sense. what i like to do to combat that is while im daydreaming i just like to tell myself that im re-living a memory and that im so happy this thing already happened/is happening. it helps me think from my desire instead of thinking of it!

my friends have shared that one of their mistakes while manifesting an sp was still wanting their sp to be missing them/obsessed with them/constantly thinking about how badly they wanted to be with them, daydreaming about scenarios of them being jealous, etc. this was making them identify with separation, when they really wanted to identify as their sp's partner.

similarly, an issue i had was focusing way too much on how my sp was feeling about me, instead of focusing on how i was feeling about them. when i'd daydream or imagine, i'd imagine them loving ME or confessing their feelings to ME, but then i realized that how i feel matters more than how they feel, because this is my reality! so instead i'd focus on how much i loved them and how amazing i felt being loved by them. that's why, as i mentioned in my most recent post, i changed from affirming "my sp loves me" to "i love my sp."

while manifesting my sp, i knew the first step of us getting back together would be him texting me, so every time i picked up my phone and i saw he hadn't texted me yet id feel sooo discouraged. what helped me with this was telling myself things like "ofc my sp didn't text me, he's literally in the same room as me why would he text me lol?" this would help me feel like we were already together!

i was still PISSED at my sp. idk what your story is with your sp, but mine was an ex, and i was mad at him for breaking up with me still. i had to forgive him because i was constantly holding onto that anger and fantasizing about yelling at him over it. this one might not apply to u depending on your relationship with your sp idk!

similarly, i'd find myself getting mad at my sp for not "conforming" to my affs? even tho he didn't even know i wanted him back? so once again i focused on feeling positively towards my sp and imagining how much i loved him. once i started focusing on the version of my sp that was such a good and loving and attentive boyfriend, he started showing up that way in my reality. remember, there is NO ONE TO CHANGE BUT SELF! focus on changing how YOU feel about your sp instead of how he feels about you!

i know you say that you never feel negatively about your sp or your situation, but as i've mentioned in other posts, sometimes the feeling of knowing feels like nothing. so while you're noticing nothing is happening in your 3D, you can still be accepting the fact that nothing is happening without it giving you any negative emotions.

my advice would be to implement the distraction technique. this is what helped me finally manifest my sp. i had a favorite person attachment to my sp (bc of my bpd) so i was thinking of him ALL day long, and sometimes i wouldn't be paying enough attention to know if i was thinking of him from the state of the wish fulfilled, or from the state of lack. so instead, every time i thought of him at all (negatively or positively) i'd say "it is done" (which instantly shifted me into the state of the wish fulfilled) and then force myself to think of something else. so many of my followers have had success with this technique! this technique isn't necessary at all (you're 100% allowed to think of your sp) but i found it rlly helpful for my adhd brain. it can also be really helpful for you if you can't pinpoint what you're doing wrong!

i really hope this post was helpful to you!! <3 let me know if anything helped!

[ymirfritzistrolling]

just lend me an ear

GOJO IS IMPOSSIBLE TO WRITE

so in the following episodes you sense me skipping his speeches or his scenes bein awkward thats bc im not emotionally supported enough to go as deep as his character and come back to normal life after posting the said episode, thank you.

PART 1

PART 2 NEW EVERYDAY

The weekend passed by quickly. The days with Gojo at home were rare but never easy. At least not for Megumi. So on Monday after hearing the snow holiday, Megumi was at the edge of his life. Damn was he wondering if taping that man's mouth help him shut the - up for 2 seconds cause where did all that energy came from at that age?

That being another reality show's question, the winter holiday somehow came to an end. The Thursday starting the week all the students were clearly way off their sleeping schedule. In the first period, Megumi was already off to sleep. Maybe his sleep was deep enough for him not to realize the girl who was seated next to him for the rest of the school year. Last bell rang, waking up many students-but not Megumi-I mean, who could be a light sleeper while living with Gojo??

one tap

another tap

two aggressive taps on his shoulder

and he was up, grabbing the hand with a tired look

"Geez man, the school's over. Didn't want you being locked in for the night. Not much that I know of but I heard Tokyo's pretty cold at night."

His eyes not even half open and Megumi was already sending off glares to this unknown girl.

"Also I'm signed up to the same club as you are so I'm hoping you'd take me to the teacher of the club?"

His eyes widened. That was it, she was the girl Gojo was rambling non-stop bout! He eyed her head to toe. How her eyes shining like she never experienced sadness, lips curved to a half smile as if she weren't next to a grump ass teenager, standing so straight as if she has her back against the wall...

She was, nothing like he expected.

He stood up from his desk, getting his jacket and backpack as he told her to follow him. His mind flooded with many ideas. Was she loud, was she kind, would she mind if he didn't keep a shirt on on weekends? He wasn't excited or any of that. He was just weirded out by how he was drawn to this girl. She wasn't so different that, he could tell. But her differences among her similarities to every other person, he couldn't choose.

His steps slowed down, almost going backwards as he reached to the teachers' room. Pointing at the desk near the window he said:

"Gojo Sensei, the club teacher. Also our science teacher. Ironic, isn't it."

Girl nodded before stopping and looking at him with her head tilted to the side.

"What's ironic bout him?"

"He is crazy and a scientist. Combining these two and ending up with a crazy scientist, you don't expect a muscular man or someone sportive. But he is the most sportive person in world I don't know how the fu-"

Nanami interrupted him with his cough, standing behind them.

"Evening Megumi, you still haven't turned in your essay from two weeks ago so I suggest, instead of walking around and following Gojo you could try to focus on your studies."

He said in a monotonous tone. He walked in the room, Megumi's eyes shifted to the girl who looked like she had on 20 shades of pink exhibited on her cheeks. Gojo finally stood up from his desk, Saying somethings to Nanami and getting his things,

"Heyy, kiddos. Oh hey, you found a girlfriend already? Lady just so you know, he doesn't know how to fix his tie."

"That's okay, I know how to do mine and one another's."

She says, smiling widely. Megumi rolls his eyes at the given chance of them both staring at him and his weirdly hanging tie.

"She isn't my girlfriend. She's your niece, she just appeared to know we were in the same club and asked me to bring her over to you."

Gojo eyed her up and down before nudging and dropping his arms on both teenagers' shoulders.

"I'm starving. McDonald's?"

"I prefer KFC."

"McDonald's it is."

Megumi pushed his arm back at the answer of that man. Why ask if you ain't even gonna consider. They got in his car, the girl sat in the backseat.

"What was your name by the way?"

Gojo asked while fastening his seatbelt.

"She is your niece whom you take into your house but you don't even know her first name?"

Gojo nudged once again making Megumi roll his eyes. The girl chuckled and replied.

"It's Y/N."

"Isn't that Japanese? I thought you were from Russia."

Megumi asked, his brows furrowed.

"Yeah but mom gave me 2 names and told me to use one in Russia and other in Japan. Says it's protecting me from those name based spells."

Gojo started the car, eyes fixate at the far. He took a deep breath and they left the school.

"This is pretty much your everyday with Gojo when he's home. Which he isn't. But that's okay because I at least know how to use an air fryer."

"He burnt down the fryer four times, kitchen twice and the living room once while learning so I didn't bother."

Gojo defends himself while Y/N laughs at their conversation. They eat some and head home. After seeing the house, Y/N is convinced Gojo likes fast food because she is for sure that someone with a house like this can easily afford a maid or two with some cooks.

part three

[velvetvexations]

like i guess mostly i want to talk about things that apply more to us nonbinaries because of statistics? like how binary usually means presents as a boy or a girl ans nonbinary usually means doesn't, but if i try to talk about problems with no4 fitting into the binary at all people get really mad because nonbinary people can look and act exaxtly like binary and binary people can look and act exactly like nonbinary people basically. like you can be nonbinary and use binary pronouns and transition in a binary way, and any person you think is binary could be nonbinary even if they like i.e. inly use he/him and present masculine and have no problems being categorized with men, so it's invalidating to claim there's special nonbinary problems.

which i get, so i dont want to claim im special or different than binary people, i understand its invaldiating and transphobic and im obviously nb trans so i never wanna be transphobic. i just don't have good words to describe the problems i face because it can't be about being nonbinary or binary but the problems are things like never wanting to use binary pronouns or be categorized by a binary gender and being rally visually different than the binary on purpose, like getting dysphoria from having anything other than boobs and a beard at the same time. this stuff makes you a big target here in ways people who present and categorized themselves with binary genders don't even if theyre trans, like for example Dr's treated me worse and thought i was lying and hysterical a lot and even just didnt treat me, until i decided to start lying and calling mysslf binary trans at the drs and wearing more binary clothes and using binary pronouns. now they treat me better and i have gotten really good medical care and even a necessary surgery after years of failing to even get a diagnosis. and im not talking about hrt or gender affirming care im takking about getting a diagnosis of a long term health condition and surgery to treat it. there's other stuff like that too for example i have to pretend to be a binary trans person while trying to get government housing because when i didn't they called me insane and stuff and i wasn't allowed in any of the shelters or the housing programs. so i pretended to be binary and i could get housed with the men and apply for programs and stuff and eventually i got into subsidized housing but i just wasn't allowed when i wasn't lying about myself. if i told the truth id be kicked out which for someone who saying they were a man or a woman wasn't lying wouldn't experience even if they were also nonbinary as well as man or woman. and it would also hurt for a binary person who wants to have long hair and tits and a beard and dress fem to be forced to not do that and be totally masc and bind instead so they can be in the program so it's not about binary or nonbinary.

but i don't have good words to talk about it because it can't be related to nonbinary or binary but i feel like im hurting all the time and when i try to describe the hurt people yell at me bc it's transphobic to related it to anything about being nonbinwry or binary. so i get it but i just want WORDS to use to describe the stuff i talked about because it's a difference it's just not about the binary. i UNDERSTAND but i wish people would explain better what words to use instead and what the concepts are because they never explain they just tell me it's NOT what i said or thought it was so i know it's not that but i want someone to tell me how tot alk about what im experiencing bc it hurts so so so bad and I want to communicate the hurt without hurting anyone else or being wrong.

Heyyy, it's okay, it's alright. <3 If you've not encountered the word "exorsexism" before, a lot of people seem really happy with it.

[stateswscarlet]

Good morning Scarlet, I hope that you're doing amazing!

First of all, I wanted to thank you for all the amount of time you put in explaining the law to all of us and seeing all those success stories, we all know how good of a blessing you are in our life.

So, I've been working on manifesting my ex back for a few months now, more than a year actually, and it's kinda embarrassing to me. I'm naturally a visualizer and have inner convos, but when envisioning scenarios like us hugging, holding hands, and being together again (what I've always done before knowing the law and being in love with him) it feels too good to be true, even if I have a deep understanding of the law conceptually. I know part of this process involves letting go of attachment to the 3D and recognizing that my outer feelings (anxiety, fear) and thoughts (how will he change his mind, he doesn't love u anymore) don't define my true self (the inner man that is being happy and in a rs with him). However, despite this understanding, I still encounter challenges when I attempt to engage my imagination regarding these scenarios. I often feel unfulfilled or disconnected from the vision of us being together.

Furthermore, I've been feeling doubtful about all that lately. Different sources offer conflicting advice - some suggest focusing on feelings, while others emphasize decision-making. I've even studied materials from authors like Edward and watched Tom Kearin (BSW), and while I understand the concepts intellectually and have applied them before with success, I haven't seen significant movement. The only time I experienced progress was when I wholeheartedly believed in my ex's return, even if I wasn't necessarily thinking from the end (focusing on the 3D aka he is going to come back). However, now, as I try to embody the version of myself with him already, I'm starting to lose faith in the possibility of him changing his mind and coming back. Have you ever experienced a similar struggle or doubt in your manifestation journey?

I feel maybe my issue is linked to the "feeling" that I do not understand, do you have maybe some recommandations in terms of source, or YouTube channel or else ? I feel like I'll never succeed in this specific manifestation while I succeeded in others for instance my job and travels... it was so hard for me too bc for more than a year I was jobless and so focused on that, that one day I decided I am going to get a job no matter what and not thinking from the end and it happened while I didn't focused on how I felt, I wasn't like "I need to feel I'm already employed", so I am lost in all of that ..

thank you so much for the kind words!

“working on manifesting my ex back” im really hoping you only worded it like this for simplicity sake to tell me, but please stop identifying with manifesting (at all) or seeing anything as a process bc there is NO PROCESS. there is no work to be, no point A or point B, and no one is coming “back”.

the reason you feel disconnected is because you’re still dominantly believing the 3D as a fact/seeing it as unchanging/dont understand youre SHIFTING TO A DIFFERENT REALITY/STATE and not changing the current one. figure out which one. in other words, youre being accidentally 3D oriented.

“i havent seen much movement” excuse me? wym movement? eradicate that word from your loa vocabulary please theres no such thing as movement. do you HAVE IT OR NOT?

stop looking for more material. no coach or video or book can change how you feel internally if youre just looking for results and refuse to completely drop the outer man and their reasoning.

your sp isnt changing his mind, you SHIFT TO A STATE where you and them are together. the one in the current 3D is NOT the one youre in a relationship with nor will ever be, you have to fully drop that version of him.

if just deciding you have something fulfills you, then so be it. do whatever you enjoy.

[zebulontheplanet]

Hello

I am so sorry if this not good to ask/ the right place to ask (idk how tumblr works yet). Please lmk if so and i will not do it again /gen.

I am concerned I may be exhibiting signs of catatonia. I know it is not smth to be self dxd and is very serious but I can't find a huge amount of useful things online and idk what to do so i thought id ask you so i can get a better idea of whether to seek professional help seeing as you have lived experience with it. I hope that's okay

I have slowly been losing skills over the past year (not in burnout). Ive lost a lot of maskjng ability, I find speaking harder and often talk like a younger child despite my advanced vocabulary as a result, I get stuck on tasks and now need physical or verbal prompting to do a lot of tasks like bADLs i didnt need this for before (not counting iADLs bc i dont need to do those because im 15, nearly 16, altho i doubt they would be better). My sensory issues have worsened and so have my meltdowns and shutdowns (which were already not great). I have episodes where I feel like I literally cannot move and my body won't move or will only move very slowly or jerkily. It is like it won't process what my brain is telling it to do. I also stim more often and far more noticeably. Idk who to go to. :(

What other overall areas does catatonia cause decline in - for example does it cause social skills to decline, etc? I've noticed my social skills worsening quite a lot too which is why i ask.. the stuff ive found online can be a bit vague/ confusing or not what i want to know.

I'm scared because idk what is happening and it's really confusing. You don't have to respond to this and I'm sorry for rambling.. is it worth going to a professional? Can this kind of thing be caused by other stuff? If I were to go to a professional it would probably take ages because the waitlists are so long here. I'm just really confused and kinda scared and I dont want to lose more skills :(

Hello, so regular catatonia is different from autism catatonia with regression. Catatonia is very serious, and if you believe you are having it then PLEASE seek out medical attention. Autism Catatonia is usually regressive, and gets worse with time without treatment. Which, I am personally experiencing and it’s the reason I’m on medication for it.

Catatonia is a very serious condition, and can be life threatening in some. So it’s important to know the warning signs and contact a professional. Do NOT wait and contact someone as soon as possible.

Regression is hard, but regression doesn’t mean catatonia. So if you think you’re experiencing regression then that doesn’t automatically mean you have catatonia, if that makes sense. Catatonia for me is episodes of complete freezing, and episodes of slowness. Even outside of tasks I have catatonia. Although tasks are a huge trigger for my catatonia.

Please don’t try and self diagnose it and seek out medical help. I hope you have a lovely day and get the help you need. ❤️

[friend-crow]

hello! ive always been kind of an armchair practitioner, and ive recently had a not very good conjuring experience, and i dont know what to do?? I just wanted some advice in the sense of, a lot of people when they tell stories of conjurations and encountering spirits they speak of feeling a lot, and since i am a little bit more sensible towards energies i was thinking that i too would feel. i think?? it went alright bc in the end the candle wax formed a lion which was cute (the spirit is associated w griffins), i could feel a small energy shift and im having a headache now. but like. i cant explain?? i feel like this isnt enough to say that im not just making up a bunch of stuff, and what i felt was real and the candle wasnt just doing candle stuff 😭....i also asked something to the spirit, which for as far as i could tell they agreed to help me, but i have no idea if this was just in my mind, so if i knew if it didnt work i would try again, but i have no clue if everything went alright or not???? i think im overreacting but i wanted to ask someone who actually has experience....

First of all I just want to say that verifying spirits (or that you've even had a real interaction that wasn't just confirmation bias) is hard. So don't feel bad.

I'm not sure quite what you mean about it being a not very good experience. I'm guessing you're referring to the uncertainty involved, but if you think it might have been somehow unsafe, I'd suggest looking into banishing techniques (which honestly is just a good thing to know before you start trying to deal with spirits).

As for verification, it can be a slow process. One thing you can try is requesting information that you don't currently have, but which you can verify as factually true or false. This unfortunately isn't helpful if communication isn't really happening in a clear way (or at all).

I must inform you that I'm not the most experienced either. I've only gotten more into spirit work in the last couple years, and as previously mentioned, it's a slow process getting into it. I don't know that it's for everyone, but if you're interested in pursuing it, try not to be discouraged! It takes a lot of patience and practice.

I'm going to tag in @windvexer and @stagkingswife who are much more experienced in this area than I am, and might have more solid advice for you.

[spacelazarwolf]

i just keep thinking abt how that guy said "its transphobia and misogyny. let your experiences unite you with cis women, trans women, and enbies, not separate you"

and like idk its like we can't use transmisndry/transandrophobia/atm/etc bc its transmisogynistic. but we also cant use transmisogyny bc thats only for trans fems and trans women. but we cant use misogyny either bc we're not women. like you said it doesnt matter what word(s) we use or even if we don't use any words at all, they still get mad at us.

but also, why does us trying to give a name to our experiences separate us from those groups? all of those groups can experience atm in various ways. why is it that using the term transmisogyny does not separate trans fems from those groups? why does using the term exorsexism does not separate enbies from that group? (assuming these people even agree exorsexism exists, some of them dont)

and the assumption that all of those identities listed are completely separate really bothers me. all of those can and do overlap. how can i as a transfemmasc multigender enby, separate myself from those groups by describing some of my experiences, when i AM those groups?

(im not going to even bother with the fact that cis men weren't included, we already know why)

imo it's because the idea that women (and people they can group in with women) forming separatist groups and separating themselves from MenTM is actually feminist and girlboss and just Protecting Them From Their Oppressors, whereas any other group doing it (not even just men as a group, but i see this shit happen to jews, black people, indigenous people, people with closed practices, etc.) is just trying to make themselves feel special or they think they're better than everyone else. also people just still straight up do not believe trans men are oppressed.

also it's particularly hilarious bc like. so much conversation around anti transmasculinity is about the fact we share a lot of experiences with both cis women and trans women. i can't tell you how many butch cis women, intersex people, and trans women and femmes have expressed to me that they have experienced something similar to what i describe in my posts. and the thing is, we have been talking about this kind of thing in queer circles for forever. we've talked about how butches are demonized because of their masculinity, we've talked about how trans women are forced to present as feminine as possible so as not to be seen as a threat, we've talked about how nonbinary people who were assigned male at birth and choose to present more masculine are demonized and stripped of their identity. but putting a name to it means there's a systemic problem in our community, not just Problematic Individuals Who Are Bad Who Are Totally Not Us So We Don't Need To Unpack Any Of Our Biases Uwu.