#don't talk to me i'm really confused right now

[thezombieprostitute]

The Prey

A/N: Follow up to The Hunt. Entirely written on my phone.

A/N2: Reader is big, tall and female.

Warnings: Implied smut, Implied violence, Self-deprecation, Stalking. Please let me know if I missed any.

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It feels like you've been on edge the entire week. Like you're being stalked, but every time you look, there's no one there. Figuring you could use a break you decide to eat at your favorite place for dinner. You're sitting in a booth at the pub, reading a book and eating some dinner when a man you don't know sits across from you.

"Damn you're cute," he says.

"No I'm not. And I really don't appreciate lying."

He gives you a confused look, "what do you mean?"

"I am, objectively speaking, unattractive. The way you said I was cute indicates a feeling of attraction and, let's be honest, that's not possible."

"You don't even know me but you really think I'm that shallow?"

"Look, it's not your fault society dictates attractiveness. Maybe it's just not something you ever had to deal with because you are very much an ideal. You've got beautiful eyes, a physique that is tall, muscular and healthy. And it just makes me wonder what's wrong with you that you're not already taken and you're slumming it with someone like me."

"Slumming it?" he asks incredulously.

"Yes," you nod. "All my curves are disproportionate to each other, too much here, too little there. I've got chin hairs and regularly get acne. My eyes are, at best, normal and boring. And let's not even get started on my hair. It's also a fact that men do not care for women as tall or taller than them. I am, objectively, physically unattractive. So when you call me cute, I have to believe you're lying."

"You are very weird," he shakes his head.

"I am," you agree. "Then again, you're the one who interrupted my dinner."

"Just trying to give you a compliment," he groans as he gets up.

"And all you accomplished was interrupting my reading."

You pick your book back up and pretend to read. Your eyes follow him as he heads back to his buddies. Your suspicions are confirmed when you see him hand some cash over to one of his buddies.

It's not the first time bets have been placed at your expense and it won't be the last. It's always a game of getting the ugly girl's hopes up. String her along and then break her heart while leaving her with the tab.

Maybe you'd have been nicer about it if you hadn't been so on edge lately.

Across the bar you don't notice Kraven watching you. It took all of his strength to not step in and punch the bastard so hard he'd never breathe right again. And when you kept talking down about yourself he quietly growled with rage. When you're his mate, he'll make sure you never feel less than gorgeous.

And you will be his mate. He's been following you, trying to find flaws, reasons to walk away, but he can't. You've picked up on him following you, indicating an alertness beyond most humans. Despite obviously being upset, you still helped anyone and everyone at the library without them even guessing you weren't feeling well, indicating your suitability for raising offspring.

And when you tried to release some of that stress in the privacy of your apartment? He breathed in the scent the next day when he broke into your apartment. It was all over your panties that now reside near his bed. It isn't quite "bitch-in-heat" but it still gets him going.

But first, he's going to follow those assholes who messed with you and make sure they never do so again.

Soon he'll have everything needed for your new home. He's determined to show his quality as a mate, as a provider, by building you a dream den. It'll have everything you've ever wanted and needed. Perfect for raising your children.

The only thing you might not like is his rule about no outside contact. At least not until you're fully his. But he's sure it won't take long. You're incredibly smart, kind and you'll know it's meant to be.

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[sunarots]

taste ━━━ suna rintarou & miya osamu

28. who looks bad now? ♡

"It doesn't look broken. I'd go to the dentist after the game's finished, though. Make sure your teeth are still intact." The doctor hands over the ice pack to Suna before removing his gloves. "Any reason for the attack?"

You sigh, leaning back against the chair. "Yeah, me."

The doctor raises an eyebrow, eyeing the damage done to Suna before looking back at you. "I've not seen that before."

Suna starts laughing, raising a hand. "No, no. She didn't hit me. Her boyfriend hit me. I kissed her."

The doctor nods slowly, clearly still confused. "Was it... Did you..."

"It wasn't assault, we were both drunk. I kissed him back. He's my ex-boyfriend," you explain, watching as the doctor slowly pieces everything together. "God, this is complicated. I wish I was five again. Life was easy."

"It was much easier," the doctor agrees. "I'll leave you both alone for a few minutes and come back to check on the swelling."

You thank the doctor on his way past, waiting for him to leave before turning back to Suna. "What the fuck am I supposed to do?"

"At least I never punched anyone. Or called you a slut in front of thousands of people." Suna shrugs his shoulders and smiles at you. "Just saying, I don't look so bad now, do I?"

"No, you just decided to stop calling." You flash him a smile before pulling your phone from your pocket to try and find the scores somewhere. "Is it still sore?"

"Yeah, it's fucking throbbing. Now I know how Atsumu feels." Suna sighs and leans back against the bed. "I think he's in the wrong sport."

You crack a smile, glancing up from your phone. "I'll suggest that to him. Well, that's if he ever talks to me again." You turn your attention back onto your phone, noticing that your team is trending. "Oh my god, are we winning?"

You jump from your seat and rush to Suna's side, clicking on the hashtag. You move your phone so he can see it, instantly regretting the decision. "Oh my god."

Suna takes your phone, clicking on the video of Osamu hitting him. "Are you fucking kidding me? That's great, that's just perfect. Now everyone's gonna know me as the guy who got punched."

"Yeah, and I'm forever known as the slut. This is great. There goes my career." You take the phone back and shut it off, stuffing it in your pocket.

"At least we go down together, right?" Suna smiles at you as you retreat back to your chair. "Look, when we go out there, I'll do my best to block. Hopefully not with my face, but I'll try."

"Is this you admitting that you don't usually try?"

"This is me admitting that I want to win our first match with only two sets." Suna shrugs his shoulders.

You sit back on the chair and sigh, looking around the room. "I was going to tell him after this. Like, when we're done so it wouldn't... So what happened wouldn't happen."

"Eh, it probably would've still happened," Suna points out with a smile. When you don't smile back at him, he rolls his eyes. "Don't beat yourself up. I'm more at fault. I didn't really ask first, did I?" Again, no response. He lets out a sigh, glancing at the clock before looking back at you. "If I asked, what would you have said?"

You turn to face him, furrowing your eyebrows to think. You go to speak, cut off by the doctor re-entering the room.

"Okay, how are we doing here? Has the pain gone down?" He approaches Suna and asks a few more questions before confirming he can return to the court.

You're out of your chair faster than he is, but he's at the door before you. You both call a thanks to the doctor before running down the corridor. You practically throw the door open, racing around the few people standing around the barriers to make it to your team.

You spot Sakusa preparing to serve, trying to get the ball from Bokuto. When Bokuto turns around and sees you, he immediately drops the ball. His hair perks up as waves at you, excitedly grabbing the ball and passing it to Sakusa.

You skid to a stop behind Iwa, grabbing onto his shoulder so you don't slip on your bag. "How are we doing?"

"We're down by six," he answers, lips pressed into a firm line. "Three service aces, two received and lost, another service ace. We needed both managers to sign off on Osamu going on the court."

"I sign off on it, we put Suna in first, then Osamu." You grab the sign with Suga's number, about to hand it over to Suna.

"Doesn't matter. I didn't sign off on it." Kuroo leans forward, watching the game intensely.

You feel your jaw dropping at his statement. "What? Why not? Kuroo, we're losing."

"And? He punched a teammate, he needed to be punished. Go tell the refs Suna's fit to be put in the game." He gestures for you to approach the man, not sparing you a glance.

You shrug him off, waving Suna to follow you. "We want to put him back in. The doctor signed him off and he's not in pain. If he looks like he's struggling, we'll take him out again. Is that okay?"

The ref nods and gestures for you to wait at the side of the court for the match to end. As your team scores a point, you turn back to Suna. You hold out the sign for him to take, hesitating to let go when his fingers brush yours.

"Wish me luck." He goes to raise it, stopping when you say his name. "What?"

"Yes." You take a step back as the ref blows the whistle. "I would have said yes."

# fun fact !

kuroo knew you’d put osamu back in the game because you’d feel bad, so he said no to be the bad guy

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[sunnyie-eve]

58 | Quad Squad

Series: Unexpected

Paring: Matt Sturniolo x OFC Brock!

Word Count: 1.1k

Warnings: none

| MASTERLIST |

"Hello world. This is being prerecorded but you will see and hear this in October." Dani starts for future viewers.

"Welcome to The Quad Squad!" Nick claps his hands so the others join.

"This is my own little podcast I wanna try out for fun so it will be very random. I have no schedule for this. I'm lucky that the company I'm a part of has this little space for any of us to use. The company also has its own podcast and I've been on it in the past. But yeah." Dani laughs.

"I'm happy to be part of the first ever episode." Nick smiles clapping again.

"Yeah, these three aren't official members but anytime I do this there will always be three other people with me." Dani explains.

"Hits the name." Chris laughs.

"Now Sam, I know this is very out of nowhere." Dani smiles over at Sam.

"I'm very nervous about this. You said don't tell a soul." Sam points out what she had texted him.

"She was so sketchy, right." Nick laughs.

"She really was, honestly." Chris laughs as well.

"You could've mentioned Nick and Chris were a part of this." Sam tells Dani.

"I had to beg them to do this and they only agreed when I said what this was for." She lets him know. 

"Do you even know about the thing yet?" Nick asks him.

"Umm, what thing?" Sam says confused, "The accident?" He means at the restaurant.

"This is gonna be good." Chris chuckles.

"I-I'm surprised he didn't tell you afterwards." Dani was taken back.

"All I know was he was pissed. And I hope it's what I think." Sam puts his hands together like a pray.

"Involving Dani and Matt?" Nick questions.

"I'm honestly happy Colby didn't tell you what happened." Chris lets Sam know, "It's so much better hearing it in person than by someone else."

"Yeah, because Colby found out the other way." Dani nods her head.

"What really pissed him off more."

Sam puts things together believing what he wishes is right, "You and Matt are finally dating, right?"

"Yeah, kinda." Dani smiles.

"Kinda?" Sam gives her a look.

"Kinda of as in they didn't recently get together." Nick adds so Sam looks at Chris.

"Try for since late March." Chris smiles looking over at Dani.

"Yeah, so you can see why Colby was so pissed."

"No, shit!" Sam laughs, "Did anyone know before or was it a secret the whole time?"

"A few people knew." Dani tells him.

"Tara, Madison, our mom and brother." Nick looks aways from Dani to Sam, "Can you believe that shit? Tara before us!"

"I didn't just tell her to tell her she put the pieces together unlike you idiots." Dani laughs at them, "And Madison read our texts because you had my phone." She looks over at Chris.

"That's when she found out? When we went to the aquarium?!" He was shocked.

"Yes, she was the first person to know. Then your mom, Justin and Tara was last before you guys." Dani explains.

"What was the first date? I want to know everything?" Sam smiles sitting up straight.

"Dave and Busters. It was simple and I loved it." She gets a big smile across her face.

"When y'all dressed the fucking same..." Chris shakes his head.

"Again, that was totally unplanned." She laughs.

Something comes to Nick making him turn his body towards Dani, " First kiss. I have to know. Please. I know it's personal but please." He begs her.

"After we filmed the cooking video at my parents house." She says, and Nick squeals as Chris's jaw drops, "Yeah, then when we left the room Colby was outside the door and got on Matt for maybe liking me."

"Can I ask how it all started?" Chris asks her, "Like you both were big sissys so like how?" He laughs.

"Oh, I slipped up big time before we went to the store. I pulled a prank on him first by putting pink balloons in the backseat he didn't like it and said he doesn't mess with my car. And this is where it led to me slipping up. I told him no, he bets you wouldn't ask me out." Dani explains a bit.

Chris starts to laugh, "Yeah, so he apologized for that and we talked about how we were only awkward for a bit. And now I slipped saying, I feel like it would be completely different if it was like you who asked."

Nick starts to scream, "Dani! You really did slip up." He laughs at her.

"Yeah, I know I was embarrassed in that moment because I didn't realize till he repeated what I said!"

"So that how he asked you out?" Chris can't help but smile thinking it was cute.

Dani smiles, "He said; What if I say that I was too scared to ask you out because I didn't know how you felt about me and I didn't want to risk our friendship? That's why Chris did it because he knew I would never do it."

"Asshole." Chris laughs, "But he's not wrong that's why I did ask you out and then I told him if you didn't like me it was him you had feelings for."

"I'm happy you two worked out perfectly. I knew it since we first collab. I rewatch it just to study you and Matt." Sam tells her, "I feel like a proud big brother to see his baby sister find her soulmate."

Dani was happy to hear that from Sam, since he was like a big brother, but she wanted to hear the same from Colby, "I'm happy you were always there for me when I told you how I felt about him. Sorry Nick, but I feel like you would hint at Matt."

"Honestly, I say I wouldn't have but I think deep down I would've tried to give small comments.  So it's good you really didn't tell me how much really. Like I knew because you slipped up with me too."

"I did." She nods her head.

"Man, I was left out. I didn't no slip ups. Just rejected." Chris makes Dani laugh.

"Hey, now you're one of our biggest supporters. Especially to me and I love you for that. My hype man. You know what I mean since I told you how I feel." She gives him a smile.

"Yeah, those little talks are sweet moments." He agrees, "I always tell her how lucky Matt is to have her." Chris explains a bit.

"He's super lucky." Nick agrees.

"Hell yeah, and I've known Dani since she was super little. Trust me, he's super lucky and you guys are too. Just having her around and making her family." Sam adds.

"Oh stop before you make me blush." Dani laughs, "But I love you three so much. My best best friends."

[30somethingautisticteacher]

Fighting for his TK

Following the breakup, Buck gets support and advice from someone unexpected.

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Buck had never felt so numb after sex before. Objectively, the sex hadn't been bad—it had been pretty amazing if he was being honest. He and Taylor knew each other's bodies well, falling into an easy, practiced rhythm. Still, as his mind caught up to his body, all he felt was an overwhelming emptiness, a hollow ache where satisfaction should have been.

He felt his breathing begin to quicken as he lay next to Taylor's warm body. This wasn't right. None of it was right. He didn't want this. He tried to focus, tried to center himself, but it felt like he was sinking into quicksand, each panicked breath pulling him deeper.

"Buck?" Taylor asked, concern flooding her voice. "Are you ok?"

"It's—it's all wrong." He stammered, his chest tight with rising panic. "I'm not supposed... not supposed to... you're the wrong TK, Taylor."

Taylor began to rub his back gently. It felt nice, even as he longed to have strong biceps wrapped around him instead.

"So who is he?" Taylor asked quietly.

Buck's jaw dropped at the pronoun. "Wait. How did you...?" he trailed off, his voice barely a whisper.

"I've known since the first time we got together," she said with a shrug. "You were not subtle with the way you flirted with and checked out guys, but I figured if you didn't know, it wasn't my place to point it out."

"I was so blind for so many years. It wasn't even denial—I just never even thought it was an option for me," Buck said, his voice thick with realization.

Taylor nodded supportively.

"His name is Tommy and he's the best thing that's ever happened to me. I thought he was my endgame, my happily ever after, but after six months he just walked away." Buck's voice cracked. "I asked him to move in with me and he got so, so sad and said I was still figuring myself out, and that he was my first but not my last."

"First of all, you have got to stop with the moving in thing," she began exasperatedly. "And secondly, what happened when you chased after him?"

"I—I didn't," Buck said quietly.

Taylor's expression flooded with concern and confusion. "You didn't? Buck, that's crazy. You always fight for what's important to you. It's one of your most endearing qualities. You never give up."

"I was hurt and confused and so caught off guard. I thought he needed space and would come to his senses and reach out to me. I think my friends and family thought so too because they told me not to call him. I think they thought he would contact me once he worked through some of his baggage," Buck said, his voice tinged with regret.

"I've wanted to call him so much," he continued, staring at the ceiling. "But I tried to push it down. I took up baking as a distraction. Every time I wanted to call him, I baked something, and soon I had enough pastries to open up my own bakery."

"You want to know what I think?" Taylor asked, shifting to face him fully.

Buck nodded.

"No offense, but you and Tommy are both idiots. You broke up because you both desperately wanted a future together, and then you've both been too cowardly to try and fix it," she said, her tone gentle despite the harsh words.

Taylor had a point, regardless of how much the truth stung.

"It's been months now. I don't even know how to reach out to him at this point," Buck said, running a hand through his hair.

"Why complicate it? If everything you've told me about him is true, he wants to fix it too and he's just scared. Go to him and ask to talk, and then sit down and be vulnerable with each other," she said, squeezing his shoulder.

"You really think that will work?" Buck asked, hope creeping into his voice.

"Trust me," she said. "And I bet you'll get some mind-blowing make-up sex out of it."

Buck blushed. "Thanks, Taylor."

"Go now, before you lose your nerve," she said, giving him a gentle push.

"O-Ok," Buck stammered, visibly nervous. "I can do this."

"You can," she said firmly, conviction in her voice. "And keep me posted."

"I will," Buck promised, already heading for the door with renewed determination.

A few hours later, Taylor's phone buzzed. She opened it to find a picture of Buck and a gorgeous man snuggled together in bed, both beaming at the camera.

Buck: The idiots are back together.

Taylor: I'm so happy for you. Now don't screw it up again, Buckley.

Buck: I wouldn't dream of it.

And looking at their faces in the photo, how they seemed to fit together so perfectly, Taylor knew he meant it.

[mistfallenmemes]

𝚃𝙰𝚂𝚃𝙴

"Oh, I leave quite an impression."

"You're wonderin' why half his clothes went missin'? My body's where they're at."

"Now I'm gone but you're still layin' next to me."

"I heard you're back together."

"You'll just have to taste me when he's kissing you."

"If you want forever... and I bet you do."

"He's funny now? All his jokes hit different? Guess who he learned them from."

"Every time you close your eyes and feel his lips, you're feelin' mine."

"Every time you breathe his air, just know I was already there."

"You can have him if you like; I've been there, done that once or twice."

"I know I've been known to share."

𝙿𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙴 𝙿𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙴 𝙿𝙻𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙴

"I know I have good judgment."

"I know I have good taste."

"It's funny and it's ironic that only I feel that way."

"I promised 'em that you're different and everyone makes mistakes."

"I heard that you're an actor, so act like a stand-up guy."

"Whatever devil's inside you, don't let him out tonight."

"I tell them it's just your culture and everyone rolls their eyes."

"Please, please, please, don't prove I'm right."

"Don't bring me to tears when I just did my makeup so nice."

"Heartbreak is one thing, my ego's another."

"I beg you, don't embarrass me, motherfucker."

"Well, I have a fun idea, babe, maybe just stay inside?"

"I know you're cravin' some fresh air, but the ceiling fan is so nice."

"We could live so happily if no one knows that you're with me."

"Don't prove I'm right."

"Heartbreak is one thing, my ego's another. I beg you, don't embarrass me."

"If you wanna go and be stupid, don't do it in front of me."

"Don't make me hate you prolifically."

𝙶𝙾𝙾𝙳 𝙶𝚁𝙰𝙲𝙴𝚂

"When I love you, I'm sweet like an angel."

"I'm drawin' hearts 'round our names, and dreamin' of writing vows, rockin' cradles."

"Don't mistake my nice for naive"

"I don't waste a second, I know lots of guys."

"You do somethin' suspect, this cute ass bye-bye."

"Baby, you say you really like it; being mine?"

"Let me give you some advice."

"It's not that complicated."

"You should stay in my good graces."

"It's not that complicated. You should stay in my good graces."

"No one's more amazin' at turnin' lovin' into hatred."

"I'll tell the world you finish your... chores... prematurely."

"Break my heart and I swear I'm movin' on with your favorite athlete."

"I want you every second, don't need other guys."

"You do somethin' sus, kiss my cute ass bye."

"I won't give a fuck about you."

𝚂𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙿𝙴𝚂𝚃 𝚃𝙾𝙾𝙻

"I know you're not the sharpest tool in the shed."

"We had sex, I met your best friends!"

"A bird flies by and you forget."

"I don't hear a word til your guilt creeps in."

"You left me with a lot of shit to second-guess."

"Guess I'll waste another year on wonderin' if."

"If that was casual, then I'm an idiot."

"I'm lookin' for an answer in-between the lines."

"You're lyin' to yourself if you think we're fine."

"You're confused and I'm upset, but we never talk about it."

"All the silence just makes it worse."

"We never talk about how you found God at your ex's house."

"You always made sure that the phone was face-down."

"Seems like overnight, I'm just the bitch you hate now."

"You guilt-tripped me to open up to you!"

"We don't talk about it."

𝙲𝙾𝙸𝙽𝙲𝙸𝙳𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴

"The second I put my head on your chest, she knew."

"She's got a real sixth sense."

"Without her even being here, she's back in your life."

"Now she's in the same damn city on the same damn night, and you've lost all your common sense."

"What a coincidence."

"Last week, you didn't have any doubts. This week, you're holding space for her tongue in your mouth."

She's sending you some pictures, wearing less and less, trying to turn the past into the present tense."

"You told me the truth... minus seven percent."

"What a surprise, your phone just died."

"Your car drove itself from L.A. to her thighs?"

"... but who's by your side?"

"Damn it, she looks kinda like the girl you outgrew."

"At least that's what you said."

𝙱𝙴𝙳 𝙲𝙷𝙴𝙼

"I was in a sheer dress the day that we met."

"We were both in a rush."

"Your friend hit me up so we could connect."

"What are the odds?"

"And now the next thing I know..."

"I manifest that you're oversized... I digress."

"Who's the cute boy with the white jacket and the thick accent?"

"Maybe it's all in my head."

"But I bet we'd have really good bed chem."

"How you pick me up, pull 'em down, turn me 'round, oh, it just makes sense."

"How you talk so sweet when you're doing bad things, that's bed chem."

"How you're looking at me, yeah, I know what that means, and I'm obsessed."

"Are you free next week?"

"Come right on me... I mean camaraderie!"

"Said you're not in my time zone, but you wanna be."

"Where art thou? Why not uponeth me?"

"I see it in my mind, let's fulfill the prophecy."

"Who's the cute guy with the wide, blue eyes and the big, bad mmm?"

"I know I sound a bit redundant."

"It just makes sense."

"You talk so sweet when you're doing bad things."

"You're looking at me, yeah, I know what that means."

"And I bet we'd both arrive at the same time."

"And I bet the thermostat's set at six-nine."

"And I bet it's even better than in my head."

𝙴𝚂𝙿𝚁𝙴𝚂𝚂𝙾

"He's thinkin' 'bout me every night."

"Isn't that sweet?"

"I guess so."

"Say you can't sleep, baby, I know."

"I can't relate to desperation."

"My 'give a fucks' are on vacation."

"I got this one boy and he won't stop calling."

"When they act this way I know I got em'."

"Too bad your ex don't do it for ya."

"Walked in and dream came trued it for ya."

"Soft skin and I perfumed it for ya."

"I know I Mountain Dew it for ya."

"That morning coffee brewed it for ya."

"One touch and I brand newed it for ya."

"Holy shit."

"I'm working late..."

"He looks so cute wrapped around my finger."

"My twisted humor makes him laugh so often."

"My honey bee, come and get this pollen."

"Isn't that sweet?"

"I guess so."

𝙳𝚄𝙼𝙱 & 𝙿𝙾𝙴𝚃𝙸𝙲

"You're so dumb and poetic."

"It's just what I fall for, I like the aesthetic."

"Every self-help book, you've already read it."

"You cherry-pick lines like they're words you invented."

"You get a gold star for hi-brow manipulation."

"You try to come off like you're soft and well-spoken."

"You jack off to lyrics by Leonard Cohen."

"I don't think you understand."

"Just 'cause you talk like one, it doesn't make you a man."

"You're so sad there's no communication, but baby, you put us in this situation."

"You're running so fast from the hearts that you're breakin'."

"You're so empathetic, you'd make a great wife."

"I promise the mushrooms aren't changing your life."

"You crashed the car and abandoned the wreckage."

"You fuck with my head like it's some kind of fetish."

"Just 'cause you leave like one, it doesn't make you a man."

𝚂𝙻𝙸𝙼 𝙿𝙸𝙲𝙺𝙸𝙽𝚂

"Guess I'll end this life alone."

"I am not dramatic, these are just the thoughts that pass right through me."

"All the douchebags in my phone... if they're winning, I'm just losing."

"A boy who's jacked and kind. Can't find his ass to save my life."

"It's slim pickins."

"If I can't have the one I love, I guess it's you that I'll be kissin'."

"Since the good ones are deceased or taken, I'll just keep on moanin' and bitchin'."

"Jesus, what's a girl to do?"

"This boy doesn't even know the difference between "there", "their", and "they are"."

"He's naked in my room."

"God knows that he isn't livin' large."

"A boy who's nice, that breathes? I swear, he's nowhere to be seen."

"Since the good ones call their exes wasted, and since the Lord forgot my gay awakening, then I'll just be here in the kitchen."

𝙹𝚄𝙽𝙾

"I don't have to tell your hot ass a thing, you just get it."

"Whole package, babe, I like the way you fit."

"God bless your dad's genetics."

"You make me wanna make you fall in love."

"Late at night, I'm thinking 'bout you."

"Wanna try out my fuzzy pink handcuffs?"

"Oh, I hear you knockin', baby. Come on up."

"I know you want my touch for life

"If you love me right, then who knows? I might let you make me Juno."

"You know I just might let you lock me down tonight."

"One of me is cute, but two, though?"

"Give it to me, baby."

"I showed my friends, then we high-fived. Sorry if you feel objectified."

"I can't help myself, hormones are high."

"You give me more than just some butterflies."

"Wanna try out some freaky positions?"

"Have you ever tried this one?"

"If you love me right, then who knows?"

"I might let you make me Juno."

"Adore me."

"Hold me and explore me."

"Mark your territory."

"Tell me I'm the only one."

"Adore me, hold me and explore me."

"I'm so fucking horny."

𝙻𝙸𝙴 𝚃𝙾 𝙶𝙸𝚁𝙻𝚂

"Don't swear on your mom that it's the first drink that you've had in like a month."

"Don't say it was just an isolated incident that happened once."

"There's no need to pretend."

"I've never seen an ugly truth that I can't bend to something that looks better."

"I'm stupid, but I'm clever."

"I can make a shitshow look a whole lot like forever and ever."

"You don't have to lie to girls."

"If they like you, they'll just lie to themselves."

"You don't have to lie to girls. If they like you, they'll just lie to themselves."

"Don't I know it better than anyone else?"

"All of your best excuses don't stand a chance."

"It isn't ideal, but damn."

"You don't even have to try."

"You don't have to lift a finger."

"It's lucky for you I'm just like my mother."

"We love to read the cold, hard facts and swear they're incorrect."

"We love to mistake butterflies for cardiac arrest."

"You don't have to lie to girls. If they like you, they'll just lie to themselves. Don't I know it better than anyone else?"

"Girls will cry and girls will lie and girls will do it 'til they die for you."

"Girls will lose their goddamn minds for you."

𝙳𝙾𝙽'𝚃 𝚂𝙼𝙸𝙻𝙴

"Don't smile because it happened, baby, cry because it's over."

"You're supposed to think about me every time you hold her."

"My heart is heavy now, it's like a hundred pounds."

"It's falling faster than the way you love to shut me down."

"I think I need a shower."

"My friends are taking shots."

"You think it's happy hour, for me it's not."

"Don't smile because it happened."

"Cry because it's over."

"I want you to miss me."

"I stay in, and when the girls come home I want one of them to take my phone and lose your number."

"I don't wanna be tempted."

"You can fake it, but you know I know."

[astrylx]

Supernatural S.5 Ep.4 - The End - Liveblog

This episode appears to be a zombie episode. I am intrigued. I'm a very hit or miss person when it comes to zombie type stories. When I like them, they typically either satirize the genre or expand on science behind it. I'm expecting neither from Supernatural.

The demons have the Colt. Interesting. I'm curious how this is going to play out. I love Cas on the phone by the way. Is Castiel actually going to wait there all night?

SAM! He's telling Dean everything, is he? Fuck. The way Dean treats it too, I can't tell how he actually feels. If he's masking his emotions or he's just come to not be able to fully care because of everything that's happened. Or if he's shut himself out of feeling. I can't tell. But them acting like this with one another doesn't feel right.

"Stay away from each other for good." You can't mean that. You don't... actually mean that, right?

Is this Dean's way of protecting Sam, as he always has, as he has always done? Or is it his way of protecting himself?

Now is Dean going to see what it's like when he doesn't have Sam? Is this the Trickster again? Ngl, I kind of hope it is, because I absolutely adore the Trickster and want more of him. He's one of my favorite characters.

Croatoan... Whelp. That helps explain it. Makes sense too. I should have expected it, but I'm not going to lie, I kind of forgot that episode even though I really liked it. Probably because I watched it while sick. I wonder what this means for Sam though, because as previously established, Sam is immune. I also wonder if Dean is immune since even though he doesn't have demon blood, he is the vessel of Michael. I also wonder what demon released the virus. Setting my bets on either Lucifer or more likely, Meg.

Holy shit- the fucking military arsenal-

It's Zachariah, not Trickster. Fuck. Fuck that man, I hate him.

In this world Bobby is dead, isn't he? I hate that. I know eventually in this show Bobby will die, and when he does, that will probably be when this show actually makes me cry.

Castiel is in the photo? I'm confused. This episode is confusing me.

Dean just knocked out Dean? I am so confused.

As I proud hater of time travel (in almost all circumstances, Kurt Vonnegut with Billy being stuck in time, you are an exception), I am already not that big of a fan of this episode. It's two things I tend not to like in one: time travel and zombies. Yet we persist. So it goes.

So Sam is dead. Didn't Lucifer say he would revive him, though?

"You weren't with him?" Dean you literally hung up on him a few hours earlier. You said it was better off apart. No shit you weren't with him. Not to be a hater, of course. I understand how you're feeling. I can see the realization hitting your eyes. I'm assuming by Dean saying they haven't talked in five years that the call from earlier is the last time they talk. Which. Wow what a last talk.

CHUCK! I like Chuck. I don't fully trust him, he gives me odd vibes. I think he's more than we've been told. But I like him! Actually scratch that, idk if I like him because he talks to Becky and I fucking HATE Becky.

Cas sticking by Dean... Curious.

WTF HAPPENED TO CAS- WHAT- W H A T - I AM AGOG - I CAN'T- ORGY? I FEAR I HAVE TOTALLY LOST THE PLOT- I feel bad for him though because I can imagine everything it took to get him to that point.

The Colt.

Okay I think I'm getting it now. Sam isn't dead, Lucifer is in him, future Dean is going to use the Colt to kill Sam.

"Are you coming?" "Of course." Castiel... Oh Castiel...

I was right. Sam is now hosting Lucifer.

Future Dean does care. He wants current Dean not to repeat his mistakes. He wants Dean to say yes to Michael. Me personally, I don't think that's answer and I don't think that's what the priority should be. But hey, that's just me.

Hearing Cas talk like this is so weird to me.

Dean willing to use people as sacrifices... Yike.

SAM AS THE DEVIL HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT

I love that they have him in all white. Such a good touch.

This scene is done so incredibly well so far. Lucifer in all white, with the red rose between his fingers? If I had any faith in my art skills I'd draw that honestly. I'm loving the use of colour and framing.

Part of the reason to love humans is for their flaws in my humble opinion. I could go on a whole rant on this, I could. I won't. But I could.

The tears in Dean's voice, the look in Sam/Lucifer's eyes ACK.

"You will always end up here" see I could go on a whole theological/philosophical rant here, bring up topics of free will versus fate, quote some Nietzsche, quote some Calvinism, quote some Aristotle or the Mishnah, but y'all ain't here for that so...

"Nah" I love you, Dean Winchester.

Castiel pulling Dean out. Castiel in this season I could honestly write so much about, he's so interesting to me.

HE'S CALLING SAM HE'S CALLING SAM! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

I always forget just how fucking tall Jared is. Him getting out of the car genuinely shocked me. Like I'm 5'6, he's terrifying to me.

That was a great ending to the episode, them reuniting. Having each other's back. Yea, they are each others weakness. That's part of being a sibling though. They're stronger together.

In all, this episode was not my favorite. Aside from Castiel, and the scene with Lucifer and Dean in the garden (which did give me garden of Eden vibes, I see you Supernatural show writers), I wouldn't watch this episode. I don't like zombie stories or time travel, and this episode did not break that trend. The last 10 minutes are okay though. That's what I'd watch again. That's what was important to me.

I'm done with Supernatural for today. Maybe I'll watch some more tomorrow. It's supposed to snow overnight, I don't believe that. It basically never snows here. Anyway. Have a great night y'all.

[myymi]

The war was over. It had taken six long, painful months, but they won. The Resistance managed to pull through. Sonic was saved, Eggman was defeated, and Infinite was, strangely, nowhere to be found.

There's celebrations breaking out all over the world from humans and mobians alike. Everyone is throwing a party of some kind, singing praises to the heroes that managed to save the world once again. They can all finally rest. So why isn't Tails happy? The fox frowns at the thought as he slumps over his desk, his elbows knocking away the stray parts of his current project. It's going to be a new elevator for the Tornado. The plane had been destroyed alongside his workshop in Mystic Ruins, and he's only recently been able to start trying to rebuild her. It's going to take forever, but he has to do it for Sonic. Tails sighs as he thinks about his brother. He has no idea what happened to the hedgehog while he was trapped on the Death Egg, but he knows it was bad. Sonic didn't even stick around to check in on everyone. As soon as the fight was over he was gone. Off to finally stretch his legs after being confined for six months. Tails didn't even get a chance to talk to him. Not that he's upset with Sonic about it. He more than deserved to run off and see the world again. Tails would never dream about keeping that from him, but it still hurt. He wanted to at least apologize for failing to save him. Something in the main house clatters against the floor, causing Tails's brow to scrunch up in confusion as he looks over his shoulder at the door that leads inside. There's no one else home besides him. The fox sighs as he stands from his chair, grabbing the laser gun he hangs on the wall next to the door as he makes his way out of the workshop. It's probably just a stray badnik that somehow found its way inside. He just hopes it hasn't made too big of a mess.

His ear flicks as he makes it into the living room, listening for the normal sounds Eggman's robots make to try and pinpoint where it's at. But, instead of hearing the sound of metal scraping against the floor or the quiet hum of a wheel rolling, he hears footsteps. Familiar footsteps.

"Sonic?" Tails asks almost hesitantly, lowering his laser gun now that he knows there's no threat. He sighs and sets it on the coffee table, making his way towards the silhouette in his kitchen. He stops when he hears his brother grumble a quiet "Of course." His ears flatten against his head as the hedgehog sighs heavily, continuing his search through the fridge. He really is mad at Tails. The fox starts toying with the cuff of his glove as he quietly watches the teenager for a few seconds. "Are you okay?" "Fine." Sonic huffs, still not turning to look at the younger even as he finally closes the fridge. He never grabbed anything out of it. "Are you sure?" Tails asks, chancing a couple steps closer. He doesn't miss the way Sonic's quills bristle. "You just.. seem mad? Which I don't blame you for, obviously, but I just—" "Do you think I'm stupid?" Tails blinks at the interruption. Sonic almost never interrupts him, especially not to ask a question like that. Part of Tails wants to say yes specifically because the question was idiotic, but he doesn't think it's the time for smart remarks right now. "Of course not!" He says instead, his eyes trained on the older's body language. He still won't look at him. "Why would you ask me that?" "Coulda fooled me." Sonic grumbles as he leans onto the counter. Tails has never seen the teenager look so defeated. It tugs at his heart as he watches his hero hang his head. "What are you talking about?" The kit asks carefully. He was expecting Sonic to be upset with him for not saving him, not for this. "Did I do something to make you think that?" "Yeah, this." Sonic scoffs, gesturing back towards Tails. He still won't turn around. "What?" Tails asks quietly as he curls into himself, feeling insecure in front of the older for the first time in years. "Sonic—" "Just stop!" The hedgehog snaps, finally turning around to send a glare towards the fox. Tails flinches away as green eyes full of hatred lock onto him. Sonic's never looked at him like that. "Don't you think you've made your point?" Sonic snarls before the kit has a chance to even think of a response. "You've kept it up, good job. Are you expecting a gold star or something?" "No! What?" Tails's brow furrows as he racks through his brain to try and figure out what the hedgehog is talking about. What point? "Kept what up?" "Don't play dumb." The teen frowns as he stomps towards the fox. Tails steps away on instinct. "I get it. War's won, I'm home, it's all gonna end up fake, whatever. Get it over with."

"Fake?" The younger asks, growing more confused by the second. "What do you mean? The war is over." "Yeah right." Sonic scoffs, rolling his eyes. "You didn't even get the right workshop!" He gestures around the living room, spinning in a slow circle as he takes in his surroundings. "Sonic—"

"His main shop is in Mystic Ruins. Do you really think I'd believe he'd let it get destroyed?" The hedgehog huffs out a laugh and shakes his head. "No. Not my little brother. Eggman wouldn't be able to even dent it." Tails stares at his brother with disbelief. Is Sonic okay? He's definitely mad, but with the way he's talking it doesn't sound like he's mad at Tails. Doesn't sound like he thinks he's even talking to the fox right now. It doesn't make any sense. Sonic's standing right in front of him the next time he blinks, causing him to stumble backwards a few steps. He trips on something behind him and falls backwards, nearly hitting his head on the coffee table. He blinks up at the hedgehog that's now towering over him.

"And my brother is not a coward." Sonic spits at him, his glare even harder. Tails swallow's thickly, using his paws to scoot away from the older. "This has gotta be one of your worst performances." He didn't understand what was happening. Why was Sonic talking about him like he wasn't there? Why is he acting like he's still on the Death Egg? Tails gasps as the realization hits. Sonic still thinks he's on the Death Egg. "Sonic, wait!" The fox scrambles onto his feet, his paws held up defensively. How was he supposed to convince him that this is real? That he's real? "You're home! Infinite's done! You're—"

"I already know!" Sonic yells, causing the younger to flinch. The hedgehog's paws are curled into tight fists that shake with anger, eyes glossed over with tears he's doing his best to keep from falling down his face. "Just get it over with!" Tails whines at the expression on his brother's face. He's never seen him look so angry and so.. defeated. "What did they do to you?" He whispers, his heart heavy as he tries to imagine the awful things Sonic had to endure while he was in space. All because his little brother was too useless to save him. "Sonic—" "I've got your whole bit figured out already." The teen says angrily, his body language tense. He wasn't going to listen to anything Tails said. He has to figure out a way to get close enough to prove he's real, but will Sonic even let him? "Tails finds me, I think I've finally reunited with my little brother, then you kill him. Explode him, shoot him through the heart, electrocute him, or something else. Then you drag me back to my cell. Every. Single. Time." "Sonic, please just listen—" "I'm not waiting for it anymore." Sonic says, shaking his head as rolls his shoulders. "I'm ending this stupid illusion now." "Sonic, please! I'm not an illusion!" Tails begs as he steps away, looking around the living room for something he could use to try and convince his brother that this is real. "You have to—"

"Believe you?" The hedgehog scoffs and rolls his eyes. He turns away from his little brother, looking at all the pictures hung along the walls. "I almost did, you know? Being at The Resistance, helping take you and Egghead out, all the celebrations, coming home. You almost had me." There's a ghost of a smile on his face as he recounts the last few weeks of the war. Has he really thought it's been fake this entire time? It would explain a lot.. "What really tipped me off was Tails." Sonic's expression darkens as he looks back towards the fox. "Me?" "Tails." The hedgehog growls. "If I was actually home he wouldn't have left my side for a second. He would've made me come home so he could make sure I'm okay, make sure I've eaten and had my injuries checked over. He would've been so annoying about it, and I would let him do it. It's one of my favorite things about him." Tails's ears perk up as he listens to his brother's rant. "He gets so worried anytime I get even a paper cut. Goes on a thirty minute lecture about all the infections I could get from it as he wraps a band-aid around it because he knows I won't. He wouldn't let me run off after however long it's been without making sure I'm not actively bleeding out."

"I thought you wanted space." Tails admits, his ears lowering in shame for letting the hedgehog run off. Was it really the right thing to do? He thought it would be good for Sonic to see the world after being stuck in space for so long, but now he's second guessing himself. "and that you were—" He yelps when a picture frame flies past his head, the glass shattering as it crashes against the wall behind him. He turns around to look at it, wincing at the damage. It was one of the first pictures they took together, back when Tails's coat was still predominantly brown. They each had an arm around the other, their free paws holding up peace signs as they gave their biggest smiles to the camera. Sonic is still intact, but there's a shard of glass piercing Tails's chest now. Straight through his heart. There's a rip at the bottom of the picture between the brothers that travels up to Sonic's waist. It would've torn them apart if it continued through the entire photo. "Five seconds." Tails turns back around, silently panicking as he racked his brain for ways he could convince Sonic he was safe now. "Sonic just let me talk—" "Four." "I don't know what Infinite did to you, but I promise this is real! You're not going back to the Death Egg!" "Three." Tails bit his lip as the hedgehog's eyes darken. He won't be able to convince him like that, will he? But what else can he do? "Two."

Tails takes a deep breath as he looks around the room. There's an old picture on the wall that catches his eye. It was him and Sonic eating chili dogs together four years ago. The little brown fox is wrapped in a light blue blanket, leaning his body against the hedgehogs as they enjoy lunch together. It was taken right after Eggman had built robots that pretended to be Tails's parents. It was the day they first called each other brothers. The first time they said I love you. Tails can't help but smile at the memory. "One." Everything began moving in slow motion after that. Tails watches in horror as the hedgehog drops into a crouch, curling up into a ball to rev up a spindash. He knows he's not fast enough to dodge the attack, and if it's a full powered spindash then he probably won't be able to absorb it either. Or, if he can, he'll have some serious injuries. He has one last chance. Sonic can either stop himself or divert his attack before it hits the fox, but Tails has to be fast. Faster than the speed of sound. A lot easier said than done. But there's no other choice. Sonic's already releasing the attack, spinning towards the kid like a loose buzzsaw. Tails bites his lip as he plants his feet to try and hold his ground, throwing his arms up to protect his head and torso. "I love you!" He yells as he braces himself, eyes screwed shut as he waits for the hit. It takes long enough that Tails almost starts to think he got through to Sonic in time. But as sharp quills rip into his arms, no doubt spraying blood everywhere, he knows that it's too late. Despite having his arms up for protection, Sonic easily pushes past them and makes contact with the fox's chest. Something in Tails snaps as as the hedgehog's body crashes into him, sending him flying back against the same wall the picture was thrown at. He cries out as his body slams into the wall. There's a sudden, sharp pain in his chest that makes it almost impossible for him to breathe. Something wet drips down his face and chest as he falls to the floor. His vision blurs and he knows he's losing consciousness fast, but he doesn't know how to stop it. Doesn't really know if he wants to. He is kinda tired. He coughs and blinks up at where Sonic is now standing. He doesn't look angry anymore. Was he actually angry? Did Tails make that up? He looks scared. Tails doesn't like that. "Big bro..?" He calls out, wanting to comfort the teenager, but he coughs out the rest of the air he managed to keep in his lungs. He couldn't breathe. His eyes fall shut despite his protests and, no matter how hard he tries, he can't get them to open. He's really tired now. He hears one more quiet word from his brother before he slips away, unable to fight off his sudden exhaustion. "Tails..?" ------ part 2 by @0vergrowngraveyard <3 thank you for collabing w me :]] ao3

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

What do you think has been the most telling lyric from each of Taylor's albums? Not necessarily the best summary of the album, but the most honest blurt out.

Like I'd say "We're happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time" is a great line to summarise Red, but the most telling lyric imo would be something like "I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it"

Anon, this is SUCH a good question!!! I love it!!! I loved it so much I've been thinking about it all day since I first saw the ask this morning! This is totally my jam but it definitely required some thought, which was hard to do between work and the plague eating away at my brain right now.

Debut: "And you're tied together with a smile, but you're coming undone."

Fearless: "'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them." Not just when you're fifteen.

Speak Now: "Wish I'd never grown up."

Red: I completely agree with "I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it." If we're including the vault tracks in hindsight, I think "will you still want me when I'm nothing new?" may be a close second.

1989: "The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing." I think "If they call me a slut, you know it might be worth it for once" is also a close second.

Reputation: "It was the great escape, the prison break, the light of freedom on my face / But you weren't thinking and I was just drinking," although I concede that that one is slightly fictionalized. So if we're going with more overtly diaristic lines... "And I know I make the same mistakes every time / Bridges burn, I never learn / At least I did one thing right."

Lover: "And I cut off my nose just to spite my face / Then I hate my reflection for years and years."

Folklore: "Pulled the car off the road to the lookout, could've followed my fears all the way down."

Evermore: "And I was catching my breath, barefoot in the wildest winter catching my death / And I couldn't be sure, I had a feeling so peculiar that this pain would be forevermore." I've actually got a few other considerations for evermore but it's going to be too long and in the weeds.

Midnights: This one was really tough because there are a few excellent options but I think, "You wouldn't take my word for it if you knew who was talking" might take it, although "When my depression works the graveyard shift, all of the people I've ghosted stand there in the room" is a close runner-up.

TTPD: This one I think is impossible to nail down lol. I'm going to ultimately say "I dreamed about it in the dark the night I felt like I might die." Because I think that's probably the most all-encompassing of the album as a whole and the experiences she had. But "She thought about how he said since she was so wise beyond her years everything had been above board, she wasn't sure" I think almost tops it because I think it recontextualizes not just the events of TTPD but sooooooo much of her discography in a way that feels like a watershed moment in her understanding of herself. Also "Don't want money, just someone who wants my company" because it also explains a lot.

This was awesome anon! Thank you!

[mewwccury]

it's obvious, but bakugo katsuki is never one to take a rejection in a—dare i say—mature way. not like you were gon' reject him, anyway.

"hey, needa talk to you fo' a sec." calls out the upcoming explosive hero from behind you. you turn around, your bag slung over your shoulder like a sling bag. your hair swaying at the warm summer breeze, the sunset illuminating a gradient of orange, pink, purple, and blue as the afternoon turns to night. UA stood proudly behind katsuki, his hair dancing with the breeze as well.

"sure, what's up?" you walk over to him, and you could swear you saw katsuki flinch before he cleared his throat.

"y-you don't gotta be so close!" he takes a step back, the back of his hand covering his mouth as he averts his gaze somewhere else. the fuck's up with him?

"katsuki, you're acting real weird. spit it out, it's almost curfew in a few minutes." you tilt your head in confusion, his actions were giving out signals yet your dense block of a head was too hard to notice.

"you're so impatient! gimme a moment to fuckin' recollect myself. i don't even know why i'm like this, i'm not usually like this. god i sound like deku, i keep on ramblin' like some nerdy bastard, what the he-"

"spill it out, dude!"

katsuki shuts up. he pursed his lips into a thin line, his hands slightly shaking. he took a deep breath before the words fell out of his mouth.

"i like you, real lots."

your heart aches a lil' bit.

"oh.. kats, i'm sorry.. i'm not ready for a relationship-"

"okay, i'm gon' need you to shut the fuck up. don't really care if you ain't ready, well actually i do care, but like- fuck i don't know- i don't really know what to do with this shit." katsuki lets out a breathy laugh, yet his hands were now visibly shaking, and his breath was heavy and shaky.

"uh- i-i'll court you! i'll do real hard work to win your heart. gotta do it right to gain you. can't have everything in the world without hardship, y'know?" he lets out a shaky laugh.

"sure." you gave him a faint smile.

his eyes widen, "the fuck you mean 'sure'?"

"i mean, sure. i'll let you court the fuck outta me. better do a good job, i'm kinda bitchy at times." you giggle.

"fuckin' liar, you're always bitchy. crazy ass woman." he lets out a real laugh, showing that he's relieved.

"better come with me to school from now on, every damn day. gotta bring me back to the dorm, too." you let out a cheeky grin. katsuki laughs wholeheartedly.

"don't i always do that? i'll do you good shit from now on, better rely on me now." he snatches your bag from your grip and swings it to his shoulder.

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dawg ion know how to do ts shiiittttt LIKE I HAD THIS IDEA BUT I CANT PUT IT INTO THE DAMN STORY?????? my story has its like own flow that i cant control dawg what okay I MIGHT DO A TAKE TWO FOR THIS OS but ynk right THANKS YALL

[acourtofthought]

What’s your take on people saying that Elain and Lucien have no chemistry. I see that a lot in the fandom and I always feel confused it almost feels like I don’t know what I am reading cause I can remember when I read that first scene with them in ACOWAR my heart was bursting with all the angst. I read it over and over again but then people say they don’t have chemistry and I don’t know how to feel.

I think your reading experience and analysis is just as valid for you as theirs is for them and if you feel something while reading Elain and Lucien then who are they to tell you otherwise?

I might differ from E/riels when it comes to who Elain's endgame is and who Sarah has clearly set up as being the right guy for her but that doesn't mean I would ever tell them they're wrong for thinking Sarah was also building for something (whatever that may be) to have existed for Elain and Az, just like Sarah was building for something to exist because Chaol and Celaena even while she was kissing Dorian, or building something for Rowan and Aelin even while she was laying in bed beside him missing Chaol.

I think E/riels tend to take look at this book with a very simplistic lens (she wants to kiss Az therefore she must end up with Az even though her book hasn't even been written!) whereas I think Elucien's tend to look a little deeper, "just because this is what's written on the page right now I believe Sarah is laying the clues for a different path for Elain". So we don't necessarily need to see fireworks for Elain and Lucien right now in order for us to believe that's still coming.

As far as Elain and Lucien having no chemistry, I guess it depends on what someone's definition of chemistry is. Are we talking sexual chemistry? Banter? Heated arguments?

I wouldn't say their chemistry is jumping off the page right now but there are many valid reasons for that. I don't think Az and Elain's chemistry jumps off the page either, I would have never known he was harboring such lusty thoughts for her until we got his POV in the bonus. Remember the scene where Mor is wearing a white dress and Feyre looks over to see Az hungrily staring after her? Or when he looked at her with heat and yearning on Solstice while Elain sat in the room with him? His desire for Mor was blatantly obvious for anyone to see but the only thing anyone ever noticed for Az when it came to Elain is his kindness and later one charged look. After the blatant yearning he had on his face for Mor over multiple books, "charged look" is pretty anti-climatic. Not to mention his "soft voice, gentle hands, etc." when he's around Elain. To me that reads more like he's trying not to scare a frightened animal or child than having any real chemistry with his future wife that's supposed to be his equal.

With Elain and Lucien I think there is a lot of tension right now. When her eyes spark upon looking at him, when she felt him tug on their bond, when she locked eyes with him before he left to find Vassa. I think Elain is keeping her thoughts of Lucien hidden (Feyre confirms Elain is better at secret keeping than Az), therefore there's no way to get a sense of any chemistry between them because Elain has not really dropped her guard. Not to mention Elain was in love with Graysen and severely depressed the only time we ever witnessed Elain and Lucien alone together, he was struggling with his guilt over Jesminda's death and sadness over having no home. These are two people who were weighted down by some pretty heavy issues and now dealing with a completely unexpected bond on top of it so I'm not sure why anyone is looking for them to be laughing and carrying on. Az sat there listening to Elain talk about gardens, Lucien was sitting there listening to Elain talk about the loss of her humanity and Graysen. Elain gave Az gag gifts for Solstice, Elain is now suddenly ignoring Lucien. Frivolous might be fun, but it's not real so yeah, there might be more scenes where Elain and Az are in more relaxed scenarios which could translate to "chemistry" for others but these sorts of books typically prefer drama and tension for the endgame pairings which Elain and Lucien do have. Not to mention both Elain and Lucien are extremely polite and well-mannered, often hiding what they really want to say behind civility, so I think we are going to need scenes where everyone isn't staring them down to see what they're going to say and do. We finally had a scene like that for Elain and Az in his bonus and to me, it was cringey. Her hands were shaking, they shared no banter, Elain's mouth only "twitched" into a smile, he "left the rest unspoken" which means they're still not having any real conversations. Yes, they were down to hook-up but it felt empty and shallow to me, I don't consider that meaningful chemistry.

Do you remember in Pride and Prejudice, where Jane really did like Mr. Bingley but Darcy thought he was protecting his friend by telling him that she did not feel as strongly for him as he did for her so they left? And Elizabeth later yells at Darcy claiming that her sister hardly talks of her own emotions with her? I think that's a little of what we're seeing with Elain right now when it comes to Lucien. Not necessarily that she's in love with him but I think she's more intrigued by Lucien than anyone realizes. Just like we later found out Feyre wanted Rhys even UTM (then went on to accept Tamlin's proposal), just like we found out Nesta wanted Cassian from the first moment she met him (but went on to sleep with other guys), I think we'll see that Elain was equally as effected by Lucien but has been fighting it this entire time.

It seems purposeful that Sarah chose to have Elain completely ignore Lucien in the novella and SF. Chemistry cannot be determined if two characters never talk, barely even look at each other, and that to me means that now that Graysen is out of the picture, Elain and Lucien's chemistry would be much more difficult to hide so rather than give anything away she just chose to have them not interact. And I think just like we had the line in P & P where everyone is shocked at Elizabeth accepting Darcy's proposal because everyone thought she hated him, we'll see something similar for the other characters when it comes to Elain with Lucien.

[shiuefha]

We got tricked.😅

So, the focus in chapter 91 is Millie, and now we know her full name, Millie Myers... We also get to see Melinda who unexpectedly came to the veteran event.

Yeah, usually we see Millie as someone who just talked about her boyfriend, protesting about Yor boarding the cruise ship in the cruise arc... She usually didn't share about her family, but now, here she is, talking about her deceased father and blaming Donovan about the war.

Speaking of Donovan Desmond, now it's revealed that the former prime minister who started the war at the beginning wasn't him, but it was the prime minister before him. Even so, the war happened mostly when he was the prime minister, so like what Melinda said in the chapter, it was logical for Millie to blame Donovan like that.

Overall, this chapter is okay, but there's something that bugs me here, especially from the fact that all of Yor's coworkers are totally not aware that it's possible for Yor to know about Melinda. Well, I can accept if it's just about Millie, Camilla, or even Dominic, but... Sharon?

Or maybe her son doesn't care at all about Eden students who aren't his classmates, so Sharon herself isn't aware that Anya and Damian are classmates, hmm...

However, now I wonder if we'll have anyone's backstory or not in the next chapter... Things are getting mysterious for me now...

[wild-at-mind]

In all seriousness, when I was in my 20s I spent way too much time reading tumblr and trying to figure out the right opinions to have on everything. It was pretty soul destroying now that I look back.

[sanderssidesthehouse]

Sanders Sides is really annoying (affectionate?) to me bc when we talk about 'canon' most people in the conversation are all going to have different ideas of what 'canon' is from each other. For example, for me (and I'm making this post bc I wanted to clarify what I in particular am talking about when I talk about canon) canon is the mainline canon videos, asides (and videos that were previously asides) as well as other dedicated videos (such as the grwm) are supplementary but not canon, and nothing else is canon. But then there are people who take clarifying tweets as canon. And that's fine! It just makes it a little confusing when people are talking about 'canon' but everyone is talking about a different range of information.

Like I'll personally admit I'm a little snobby about what I consider canon. I'm the type if person that thinks if the creator wants something to be canon, it should be stated, implied, or possible to extrapolate from the canon work. For example with Dungeon Meshi, I don't take Daydream Hour as canon information, but rather supplementary. (Not that I need to bc Ryoko Kui does put everything you need to know into the manga, seriously if you haven't read it, I can't recommend it enough.) But there are some people who do. And that's ok! I also don't take her tweets or interviews as canon. This is a general rule I have in what I take as canon across all fandoms.

And I think I've not been clear enough about what I mean by 'supplementary' and I mean like, for example in Ace Attorney I am again, a total snob, and I only count canon as AA 1-4 and AAI 1&2 and this is not an incredibly unpopular opinion but it's still... y'know. Not considering 2 main line games canon. And there are loads of reasons for that which we don't have time for in this post bc we're not actually talking about Ace Attorney, so to get to my actual point. I don't consider the audio drama CDs to be 'canon' but you bet your ass Mikeko is showing up in my fics (a CD only pet cat for Apollo) and I also just stated I don't view AA5 as canon, or at least the same canon (it's complicated) but I love playing around with Clay's concept and several of the other characters from 5+6. I'm just not talking about them when I'm talking strictly about canon.

Idk if I explained that well enough (and if I didn't, please ask me to clarify). I just feel like everyone should have access to the information that I am a snob with unpopular opinions and I love you even if you're less of a snob than me. In fact that would probably be a plus. You DO NOT have to agree with me, I love when people have their own opinions, 'it takes all sorts' and all that, yeah? I just wanted to clarify what I'm talking about when I mention canon.

[humanmorph]

PALISADE 18 SPOILERS

the next saddest thing about baldwin home getting shot aside from. The whole situation. is that it cuts Austin off from doing more intros with him when they were sooooooo fucking good

Like I had this on repeat the other day (thank you FatT fans who make AMVs your service is invaluable)

[youremyonlyhope]

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[tearlessrain]

please help me- i used to be pretty smart but i’m having so much trouble grasping the concept of diegetic vs non-diegetic bdsm!

gfkjldghfd okay first of all I'm sorry for the confusion, if you're not finding anything on the phrase it's because I made it up and absolutely nobody but me ever uses it, but I haven't found a better way to express what I'm trying to say so I keep using it. but now you've given me an excuse to ramble on about some shit that is only relevant to me and my deeply inefficient way of talking and by god I'm going to take it.

SO. the way diegetic and non-diegetic are normally used is to talk about music and sound design in movies/tv shows. in case you aren't familiar with that concept, here's a rundown:

diegetic sound is sound that happens within the world of the movie/show and can be acknowledged by the characters, like a song playing on the stereo during a driving scene, or sung on stage in Phantom of the Opera. it's also most other sounds that happen in a movie, like the sounds of traffic in a city scene, or a thunderclap, or a marching band passing by. or one of the three stock horse sounds they use in every movie with a horse in it even though horses don't really vocalize much in real life, but that's beside the point, the horse is supposed to be actually making that noise within the movie's world and the characters can hear it whinnying.

non-diegetic sound is any sound that doesn't exist in the world of the movie/show and can't be perceived by the characters. this includes things like laugh tracks and most soundtrack music. when Duel of Fates plays in Star Wars during the lightsaber fight for dramatic effect, that's non-diegetic. it exists to the audience, but the characters don't know their fight is being backed by sick ass music and, sadly, can't hear it.

the lines can get blurry between the two, you've probably seen the film trope where the clearly non-diegetic music in the title sequence fades out to the same music, now diegetic and playing from the character's car stereo. and then there are things like Phantom of the Opera as mentioned above, where the soundtrack is also part of the plot, but Phantom of the Opera does also have segments of non-diegetic music: the Phantom probably does not have an entire orchestra and some guy with an electric guitar hiding down in his sewer just waiting for someone to break into song, but both of those show up in the songs they sing down there.

now, on to how I apply this to bdsm in fiction.

if I'm referring to diegetic bdsm what I mean is that the bdsm is acknowledged for what it is in-world. the characters themselves are roleplaying whatever scenarios their scenes involve and are operating with knowledge of real life rules/safety practices. if there's cnc depicted, it will be apparent at some point, usually right away, that both characters actually are fully consenting and it's all just a planned scene, and you'll often see on-screen negotiation and aftercare, and elements of the story may involve the kink community wherever the characters are. Love and Leashes is a great example of this, 50 Shades and Bonding are terrible examples of this, but they all feature characters that know they're doing bdsm and are intentional about it.

if I'm talking about non-diegetic bdsm, I'm referring to a story that portrays certain kinks without the direct acknowledgement that the characters are doing bdsm. this would be something like Captive Prince, or Phantom of the Opera again, or the vast majority of bodice ripper type stories where an innocent woman is kidnapped by a pirate king or something and totally doesn't want to be ravished but then it turns out he's so cool and sexy and good at ravishing that she decides she's into it and becomes his pirate consort or whatever it is that happens at the end of those books. the characters don't know they're playing out a cnc or D/s fantasy, and in-universe it's often straight up noncon or dubcon rather than cnc at all. the thing about entirely non-diegetic bdsm is that it's almost always Problematic™ in some way if you're not willing to meet the story where it's at, but as long as you're not judging it by the standards of diegetic bdsm, it's just providing the reader the same thing that a partner in a scene would: the illusion of whatever risk or taboo floats your boat, sometimes to extremes that can't be replicated in real life due to safety, practicality, physics, the law, vampires not being real, etc. it's consensual by default because it's already pretend; the characters are vehicles for the story and not actually people who can be hurt, and the reader chose to pick up the book and is aware that nothing in it is real, so it's all good.

this difference is where people tend to get hung up in the discourse, from what I've observed. which is why I started using this phrasing, because I think it's very crucial to be able to differentiate which one you're talking about if you try to have a conversation with someone about the portrayal of bdsm in media. it would also, frankly, be useful for tagging, because sometimes when you're in the mood for non-diegetic bodice ripper shit you'd call the police over in real life, it can get really annoying to read paragraphs of negotiation and check-ins that break the illusion of the scene and so on, and the opposite can be jarring too.

it's very possible to blur these together the same way Phantom of the Opera blurs its diegetic and non-diegetic music as well. this leaves you even more open to being misunderstood by people reading in bad faith, but it can also be really fun to play with. @not-poignant writes fantastic fanfic, novels, and original serials on ao3 that pull this off really well, if you're okay with some dark shit in your fiction I would highly recommend their work. some of it does get really fucking dark in places though, just like. be advised. read the tags and all that.

but yeah, spontaneous writer plug aside, that's what I mean.