#don't sue me because i made it a little angsty

[frostkisseds-a]

Eri be honest, when did you realize you had a crush on Jonas?

“BE HONEST” ─ accepting !

“Probably a little bit after his first year with my family. It was quite the feat, actually,” she stated, a hint of laughter coloring her tone. “Our relationship then was rather...tumultuous, but once I realized I was stuck with him for the unforeseeable future, I had to calm down. At first, I antagonized him out of boredom and spite, annoyed that my parents continued to ignore my wishes and assign babysitters, but that backfired because it seemed he was more resilient and stubborn than my previous guards. And to make matters worse, my hick of an older brother took to him pretty fast, too! Jonas was inescapable. Since we often spent a good portion of our days with each other, it was only a matter of time before I developed a major crush. And as much as I pretended to dislike his levelheadedness and his innate ability to maintain his composure, deep down I had truly begun to admire him and cherish the time we spent together. My feelings would only continue to intensify with the more that I learned about him, and it seemed like we had finally reached a mutual understanding. For a few years, things were good and we were good. Looking back on it, I miss the simplicity of us back then; things are far too complicated now, but I will gladly take this over not having him in my life.” 

@sunlitaura

[tan1shere]

Friends

Billie Eilish x female reader !

A/n: as a bit of an apology for that other fic... LMAOO THIS DOES HAVE A HAPPY ENDING ! I've been obsessed with this song. Like if my future gf doesn't confess her love to me with it I'm gunna sue

Summary: none of you had any idea just how inlove you guys were.

Warnings: a bit angsty at the startish ? But happy ending 😁 this ended up being so so cute eeee - also listening to the song helps near the end when they're in the rain. Makes it more magical hehe

Masterlist

It was another day. Another cold, rainy day. It had been like that for a few weeks now. But you weren't complaining, you loved this kind of weather. Drinking hot drinks, wearing cute clothes, the sound of it on the roof. Even going to cute little Cafes with friends, which is what you were on the way to do now. Your best friend Claudia, Finneas and last but not least Billie. Billie, Billie. Billie. She was beautiful, always teasing you about something but you loved it. Yes you had a crush on her. But you had to stop that.

You had been friends with Finneas first for years, and your crush developed quite quickly when you met Billie for the first time. Only a matter of days and you were drooling at the sight. She'd never see you like that though. Then you introduced Claudia to them, your long time best friend. She knew about this crush and she was the only one who did. It was only natural when she insisted you say something the day Billie came out. You had known for awhile before she publicly announced it. You were a lesbian and open about that, so she came to you when she thought she might be into girls.

It only made things worse. Making you want her even more when she confirmed she wanted to be with a woman. You so desperately wanted that woman to be you. But you doubted she saw you in that way. Causing you to push those feelings aside, and bury it deep within. The looks you always gave her go unnoticed by Claud, she tried time and time again to encourage you to just say something and that..

"You never know what could happen" She says as you and her wait on the other two to order. "Claudia there's no point, it'd just ruin things." "You don't know that!" She insists, but shuts up seconds later as they come back over. Her words always sat with you, replaying over and over in your mind. But you couldn't do it, you had to let it go. Just some silly crush you developed as a kid. It'll go away.

... It's been nearly 7 years. 7 long years with a burning crush for her. A massive secret. Who were you kidding you weren't getting over it. They come back with the drinks in hand. "Matcha for you." Finn says, handing it to Claudia. "Your favorite for you." You smile as Billie says that. She always knew. She knew exactly what you liked and what you didn't, and vise versa. Which probably made you love her even more. If anything you were certain you were inlove with her. Which is why you needed to make this stop somehow.

Few months had passed since the coffee shop. You were sitting at home, scrolling through your phone when you see tiktoks of Quen, Odessa, and Billie in one. You knew she was close with them but you had no idea just how close. But that wasn't even the icing on the cake. Your phone dings with a text from her. "Hey you!" It read. You try to ignore the pit in your stomach after seeing that stupid fucking tiktok. You couldn't let it bother you this much. "Hii Bills." - "Craziest thing right, I mean not so crazy because I've kissed her before. But i love how casual it is, Quen was just saying a joke and kissed me mid way."

Your heart stings for a bit as you read those words. That poison. "Oh really?" - "Shes honestly so funny though, just wanted to text! See how you were doing and all." You bite your lip. How's awful? "I'm fine!" You were glad this was over text cuz boy were you a bad liar. So you're glad she hasn't caught on at all to your crush. Lying your way out of that one would be a mission. Or maybe it wouldn't be. "Good! I'll talk to you later, byeee." You sigh. "Bye.." You say outloud.

Some more time passes by, and very slowly. You had been focusing more on yourself. You even got a promotion in your job. But you weren't sure if you would take it, seeing as you had to move to New York for it. It had been eating at you recently on what to do. You can't bear the thought of not seeing your friends everyday. Even if they could visit but they had busy lives too. It wouldn't be the same. And you weren't sure if you could leave her. Or maybe that was the exact thing you needed.

Maybe you needed to get away so this silly little crush could go bye bye. But once you think it over some more you come to a decision. You couldn't possibly say no to this. This was huge for you after all.

Flashback.

Another rainy day, you two were chilling in Finns basement as Billie works on a few things. She stops for a moment. "Hey, I've been working on this song for a bit. It's nothing major but can you have a listen?" You nod, leaning forward excitedly. As it plays, you fall immediately inlove. Even if it was just a snippet. "Billie! That's beautiful." You beam at her, loving it so much. She blushes slightly at the words. "It's really special. I was thinking of putting the rain in the background if I can manage to. It's so noisy tonight." You nod as she says that. "I love the rain, it brings me such a comfort. The cold weather, snuggling up into blankets. The sound!" She smiles as you talk. She always listened, especially when you rambled. "I know." She says, more so to herself seeing as you hadn't heard her.

"Hey, early like always." Claudia says to you as you enter her house. You greet Finneas and the dogs aswel. "Well you know me." They were currently throwing a small get together, something common for them to do. But you loved it. You were going to break the news tonight. It was decided. Billie had only just arrived shortly after you, coming in and saying hi to everyone. You look at her, wondering if you really should go through with this. She was your best friend. It made you wonder how she's going to take the news. Out of all of them you two were the closest. Hanging out regularly, talking on the phone. So this without a doubt would be hard.

You were all sitting around at the table, talking, eating. When a friend asks Billie if she's done anything new recently music wise. "Well, funny you should ask. I've been writing this song, it's incredibly special to me. It's about this girl, and I think I really like her." You swallow as you hear that. Was it who you think it was about? Was it that same song she got you to listen to? "Ooou Billie liking someone?" Rat pipes up. "I may do." "If you're writing a song for her you must be pretty inlove." She blushes slightly. It had to be about Quen, it just had to. You look down at your food contemplating. That whole situation just made everything easier. So you begin to speak.

"I uhm, I have a small announcement." Everyone then looks at you. Your eyes land on Billies for a split second. "I- got a promotion a few weeks ago." They all start congratulating you, even Billie. But that dies down with your next words. "It uh.. Id have to move to New York though." Things fell silent, saddened faces all around. "That sucks. But we are so proud of you, are you going to take it?" You think for a moment, you look over to Billie but her eyes were on the food on her plate. "Uhm. Yeah, I am." Cheers were then to be heard. "To Y/n!" Rat then says, raising his glass. "To Y/n!" Everyone follows. Everyone but Billie...

Flashback.

Summer time. It was almost your second favorite to winter, but nothing could ever beat your love for it. You and Billie had gone out to a meadow, it was one of her favorite things. Going out to rejoice in nature. And when you had suggested it she couldn't of been more happy. It was better than sitting around in the boiling heat in the house, even with the fan on it was scorching. There was a warm breeze as you two walked through it. Enjoying the sun and grass. Billie was behind you going to grab your wrist. "This was an amazing idea. You know me so well." You smile wide as she says that. "I also know how much energy you have. I'll race you to the end." She chuckles. "Oh please you know I'd beat you-" "Go!" You abruptly say, running off as soon as your sentence finished. "Hey!" She yells running after you.

The whole paddock was huge so it took you a little bit. Along the way you both give up, but as you were about to stop your body's being tackled to the ground. "Gotcha!" She says pinning your arms down. You laugh. "No fair!" Her brow raises. "You know what's not fair? You getting a head start you little cheat." You laugh even more. "I have no clue what you're on about." It was her turn to laugh. "And a liar!" Her hands move to tickle your sides. "Billie!" "A bad one at that." Now your laughs were uncontrollable. She kept going until something sparks. You hadn't realized how close she was. Both of your eyes locking. Everything stills. Her movements. Your breathing. Maybe even time did too. You look at her lips for a second and that's when you look away. Her hand gently grabs your jaw. "You still lost." Your eyes roll going to push her off. "Har har."

She falls beside you as you both lay on your back. Taking in the sky silently. "Everything is so beautiful." You breathe. "Yeah." Billie replies. She wasn't looking at the sky.

The time was nearing. You were packing up your things a few days earlier. Honestly, you were so excited. This could be a brand new start, a refresher. After a longish day you were driving over to Finneas and Claudia's, wanting to spend as much time with them as possible. Wondering why Billie wasn't mentioned? Because she may not even be there. She hasn't been there. Ever since that night, nor had she texted you since then. Which is something she did daily. It broke your heart. But maybe that just made it even easier to leave. Maybe..

"Got most packed?" Claudia asks. You nod, seemingly distracted. "Hey, everything alright?" You look at her. "Oh yeah, just thinking about missing you guys- when. I leave." She had known you for longer than they have, even if you were a bad liar she saw right through you. "Spill." You sigh. "We haven't spoken in weeks.." Her brows furrow. "You and Billie?" You just nod, kinda wanting to avoid this whole thing right now. "Ever since I announced it she's shut me out." Claudia's features softened. "Maybe she just needed time she's your best friend it'll surely hurt-" "But as a best friend she should be here for me. Even if that is so."

Things grew silent, not the horrible kind. "I'm sorry." You shrug. "Guess even in friendship she doesn't want it." - "That's not true." You shrug again. "Even before I mentioned this whole thing she had grown distant. Its like I didn't even matter anymore. She was too busy focusing on this girl." Maybe you hadn't realized how much it upset you. You didn't want it to. But it finally got to you. Claudia notices and brings you in for a hug. She soothes you, trying to not make things seem worse. After a bit you both pull back. "You're going to call me everyday ok? And we will talk about anything and everything." She wipes your slight tears.

Feeling her own fall. You nod, planning on doing so. "Im going to miss you guys." She brings you in for a final hug. "We are going to miss you more."

Flashback.

Parties were something you aren't sure you're use to. But it was quite a frequent thing. Seeing as who you were friends with were in that scene. "I hope this isn't boring like some of them." You sigh, watching Billie come out of your bathroom. She was wearing a loose black button up shirt and some very laid back pants. Another thing you loved about her, she didn't try to be fashionable. She was just always comfortable. "Oh come onnn, it could be so fun!" Even she didn't believe that. She agreed with you, parties like these were just an excuse to drink or get high and you hated it. Everyone could enjoy themselves when they are actually themselves instead of being intoxicated. "I'll make it fun." She then says, striding over to you. Billie had always been flirty in anything she did. Whether it was her tone or actions it'd always be noticeable. Which sure as hell didn't help with the fucking crush.

And delicate touch to your body had you shivering. It felt like she did it on purpose. Maybe she was? "And how do you suppose you'd do that?" She shrugs, getting closer. "Just by being me." Your brows raises, trying so hard to not let show how much of an effect she has on you currently. "If you say so." But that whole night was something else. Sure she could be touchy, and never in a bad way. It was her love language after all. But something about the way you danced together, the way each moment felt. Sure as hell didn't feel like a just friends thing. But ofcourse you were delusional. Because the next day, things were back to the same friendliness. It hurt, all you wanted was to be hers but she didn't feel the same. And you had to accept that.

It was the last day before your move. "This is for Y/n." Finneas says on their couch. It was just him, you, Claudia. And ofcourse Billie. You doubted she even wanted to come at the way she's been acting lately. It upset and angered you. What was wrong with her? "Our best friend. And cheers to the new chapter she's starting!" He finishes. "Here here!" Claudia chimes in. Your heart just sinks as you turn to look at Billie. She was on her phone. Probably texting the mystery girl. You look at your drink, sighing internally. Finneas and Claud just look at one another. "Congrats Y/n." Finneas then concludes.

A slight sadness in his voice. You nod slowly as you 3 drink to it. The night goes on, you wanted some more blue cheese so you get up and go to the kitchen, Billie happening to be there. Things were awkward. You really didn't want them to end this way. "Can't believe it's tomorrow." You say, breaking the air. "Yeah, came by fast." There was more awkward silence. God you felt like crying why was she being like this. But that anger comes back as shes on her phone, again. The last night you have together and she's texting some bitch. "Really?" You manage to get out, after what felt like ages of bottling up whatever it was inside you.

Her eyes move to look at you. "Huh?" You grit your teeth. She sees your eyes gloss over, opening her mouth to speak. "You haven't spoken to me in weeks." You snap. She doesn't say anything, unsure of exactly what she could say. There's many things, but choosing was tricky. "Just forget it, I'm going to go home and rest. Got a big day tomorrow." You say to everyone as you grab your bag, heading out. Remembering you had taken an Uber, grabbing your phone but struggle as the pouring rain shoots down. "Wait!" You then hear behind you.

"No Billie." You really didn't want to speak to her after all she hadn't, all month. All night for fuck sakes. "Please let me talk." You ignore her trying hard to call this damn Uber, but the rain wasn't helping in the slightest. She grabs your phone making you look at her. "Hey!" You say, feeling tears flow. It was hard to tell mixed with the rain. But she notices. She notices everything. "I'm s-" You push her away. "N-no." You shiver. "You hurt me." She stands there dumbfounded. That's not at all what she wanted. Far from it. She's reized how much she's hurt you.

"Please, I really am sorry I shouldn't have iced you out. I was just shocked and a little hurt you hadn't mentioned this to me." You fold your arms not looking at her. "I hadn't told anyone." She scratches her head. "Yeah but, out of anyone I thought youd atleast tell me." You turn to her. "Why? Why do you think that? You haven't been the best friend to me recently. Hell i don't even know what to think anymore." She shakes her head. "Don't say that, please I'm sorry." You stay quiet for a moment. "Just give me my phone."

She was hesitant but with a sigh she does. You soon get fed up, going to walk. "It's freezing, you can't just walk home." - "Why do you care all of a sudden Billie. It's not like you've been so caring lately?!" Another bit of silence. You just shake your head. "Well?" She thinks for a moment. "This morning. I woke up from a dream. Where you and I had to say goodbye." You had no clue where this was going but you were growing inpatient. Wanting a proper answer. "And I don't know what it all means... But since then I realized. Wherever you go that's where I'll follow."

You roll your eyes a bit, not even sure you're getting where this is going, patience growing thinner. "Im tired Billie, goodnight and goodbye." You say walking off again. She started to panic. Frantically thinking. "Y/n!" When you wouldn't stop she sighs. "I love you!" Your feet come to halt at the words. "Or rather, inlove with you." Your eyes widen. Was this a dream too? Were you dreaming? You slowly turn around to look at her. "W-what?" You look at eachother, feeling as if time had stopped again. "If the world was ending I'd wanna be next to you."

You feel tears again. This is all you've been longing from her. "Are you serious?" You question. "Serious as anything." You smile, more tears coming down your cheeks. You run over to her, she instinctively picks you up. And finally something else you had been longing for, happened just like that. You felt eachothers lips. Molding together perfectly. It lasted for what felt like eternity. Neither of you wanted to pull away, you knew you needed to though. The rain pours more over you. Making both of your hair sticks to your faces. She moves yours out the way.

"I'm hoping you feel the same?" You laugh. "Yes you idiot. For over 7 years." She smiles wide, so happy that this could finally happen. "Wait- what about the girl- the mystery one?" She chuckles. "We really were blind huh?" Your brows furrow in confusion. "The song was about you. But I never said anything because I was worried I'd ruin things." Your head shakes. "Oh thank God, I honestly thought it was Quen." You breathe out relieved. "Oh goodness no, she's just a friend. Even if I had kissed her it was more of an experience." You nod, understanding everything more now.

"So the song was about me?" You beam. She reflects the same actions. "I thought the lyrics would've been obvious to be honest. Especially with the rain part." - "Guess it just flew past my head." You lock eyes once again. "Well since I know how much rain means to you. What if I asked you a very special question while we're out here in it." Your head tilts. Her hands grabbing your own. "Will you be my girlfriend?" You smile. "I thought you'd never ask." You seal the deal with a kiss. You fell first. But she fell harder.

"No seriously I thought you'd never ask." You both laugh, heading over to her car so you can get home.

[kurokens]

In The Middle | Satosugu

anime/manga: jujutsu kaisen

character: gojo satoru & geto suguru

words: 798

pronouns: they/them

request: none

notes: probably an overused prompt but idc sue me, i needed to write one of my own. im a sucker for misunderstanding. i haven't written anything in such a long time, it's been a while im sorry, satosugu have been on my mind for a while, and i needed to write something with them because i love them so fucking much. it's gonna be a series, so hopefully i dont disappear after one part lol... later on it might be specific on some insecurities bc i need it and i thought well let's just share it with the world and other who might need it. sorry for any mistakes T-T

not proof read

song rec: SHE'S - In The Middle

genre: hurt comfort, fluff, slowburn, a little bit angsty, poly?

warnings: bad english not my first language, satosugu are in a loving relationship, misunderstanding, pinning, a lot of pinning on satosugu's end, reader is so oblivious (is that the right one?), insecure and self conscious reader

You've always told yourself you weren't the type to live with anyone, you liked your quiet and your peace. Alone in your little bubble, without a soul to disturb it. And yet, here you were awoken by your roomates lover quarrel in the room next door, for the hundredth time this week.

"Don't you love me anymore? Am I not enough for you?" a whiny voice whisper-screamed "Satoru, my love, it was a dream, it was all in your head." an exhausted voice replied

"So what?? It doesn't mean anything? Are my feelings not valid?" Gojo huffed.

"How are you so dramatic so early in the morning? Let's go back to sleep come here.", Geto carefully lifted the blanket so his boyfriend could go back exactly where he belonged, asleep and quiet in his arms.

Such occurences weren't new to you, you could even say there were your daily life, that's why you laughed hearing the bickering couple, and turned around in your bed to try and fall back asleep while their muffled voices could still be heard in the background. This was without counting on what part of their conversation your brain decided to pick up on next. "I dont know for how much longer I can do this Sugu.." Satoru sighed. "Me neither love, but there is nothing much we can do about it.They live with us." His black haired lover replied. "I know, ugh I know, but it's getting so much harder everyday. Seeing them is becoming unbearable. I can't stand it anymore, we need to do something." He went on. "Shh, I know, I feel the same. But we can't just drop this on them all of the sudden and expect it to go well." The oldest reasoned.

Your heart shattered on the other side of the wall, now sitting against the headboard, an unstoppable flow of tears falling down your face. You were a bother? You thought the three of you were friends, shit, scratch that, best friends. And yet, yet, this was how they felt about you. Fuck fuck FUCK You needed to calm down, it's okay, you're okay. It must have been a nightmare, yeah that's right, a nightmare. Your brain loved playing tricks on you, waking you up in the middle of the night with the most vivid and realistic nightmares ever, enough to send you into full blown meltdown. Nothing to worry about, it was just a nightmare, nothing else. That's what you told yourself and yet when you woke up you couldnt shake this weird feeling in your stomach. You contemplated staying in your bed all day and avoid your roomates but that would be silly to ignore them for something that was potentially just a dream. So you shook the silly feelings away and got out of your bed, made your way to the kitchen to make some breakfast. Your two roommates were already there, being lovey dovey in each others lap and the weird feeling made its way back into your stomach. "Hi there." You greeted tiredly, only to be met with an echo of short hms, and not even a nod to accompany the cold greeting. The lack of acknowledgment not helping with your already overthinking mind, you decided to take a quick breakfast and just leave them be. It could just be a coincidence, nothing to worry about haha, right? Or so you thought, because you were back in your room mindlessly scrolling through tik tok when you once again hear the muffled voices of your roommates. Your brain screamed at you to put your headphones on and drown out their conversation, but you couldn't get yourself to do it, and you decided to listen to them, to at least finally be able to know whether or not you dreamed what happened last night. And maybe you shouldn't have, but what else could you do now but listen to the cruel words of the ones you once considered your best friends. "Suguru, we need to do it soon. I can't even handle looking at them in the eyes anymore, let alone utter a word to them. We can't keep going like this." Satoru complained. "I know 'Toru, I know, but you need to understand it's not as easy as you think it is." You heard the black haired man answer. And it was enough for you, you needed to get out of there. You obviously were no longer welcomed here, and the sooner you left, the better it would be, for both parties. So inbetween tears you picked up a bag and threw some spare clothes and anything that you could think of in your frenzy state before you ran out of there, determined to never come back, at least not for a while.

here u gooo!! sorry i've been away for a while, i've been finding it hard to write and staying focused, but i missed it so much, especially for these two. i'll try not to take too long to write AT LEAST a second part, but would love to do more than this bc i want it to be extremely slown burn and a little bit angsty krkrkr

part 2 is here!!

[swissboyhisch]

You're My Favourite

Pairing: Auston Matthews x Reader

Summary: A visit to your family goes wrong when Auston meets your Aunt

Word Count: 1451

Warnings: Family drama and fat comments

Request: From Anon Can you please write me an angsty imagine with Auston Matthews! Have such a thing for that man 🫣

A/N: I don't know if this is truly angsty but I'm quite happy with this. Sorry if it isn't what you wanted

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Today was the day Auston was meeting your family. It happened to be your mum’s birthday and she was having a family dinner. Auston had already met her and your half siblings, but he was yet to meet your aunt and nana.  The pair had travelled to come visit for her birthday. Something you weren’t looking forward to. Well not your grandmother because you love her. Just your aunt.

She was known in your family for favouring your oldest sister. Everyone knew it; all your siblings, your mother, your nana. Even your closest friends. Your sister was the daughter she never had yet you couldn’t make her proud… Despite being a world champion in your own sport. She on the other hand was an academic turned personal trainer. She is married now with a kid, your niece Chloe. One that your aunt adored as well. 

You and Auston pulled up to your childhood home in the outskirts of Toronto. It was a quiet area that you enjoyed growing up in. By the amount of cars in the yard, you two were the last to arrive. Auston grabbed out your container of homemade brownies plus the birthday present before the pair of you made your way inside. 

“Mum!”

A variety of footsteps were heard. Included the pitter patter of your niece. The 4 year old rounded the corner, running straight at the two of you. “Uncle Auston!”

The man besides you laughs as he lifts up Chloe into his arms. She was quick to wrap her arms around him, starting to tell him about her first few weeks at school. Your mum hugged you first while Auston was busy with your niece.

“Happy birthday Mum.”

“Thank you baby,” Mum smiled, “I’m glad you and Aus could make it. I’ve missed you both.”

Auston passed Chloe to you before getting a hug from your mum as well. They had been close over the years of your relationship with the hockey player. He loved being close to your family, coming over for dinner whenever the pair of you could. When his schedule allows it that is. 

“Happy birthday,” Auston grins, handing her her birthday present. The pair of you had gotten her a bottle of her favourite perfume bottle and some other bath products. Oh and a voucher for a day at her favourite spa. “I’m looking forward to the pizza for dinner.”

“Well now you two are here we can get started on making them.”

Everyone gathered in the kitchen, around the dining table where the pizza making station had been set up. Both you and Auston greet your siblings and the couple partners. Then your nana walked in. She was your typical grandmother, short, grey hair with a warm smile. One that was always a welcomed sight.

“Hello sweetheart,” Nana smiled. You had to lean down to hug the woman. “How have you been?”

“I’ve been good thanks. Nan, this is my boyfriend, Auston. Aus, this is my Nan, Sue.”

Nana brought Auston straight in for a hug. “It’s lovely to meet the boy who treats my little girl like a princess.” 

Then came your aunt. She stood beside your mum. Just like every other time, she didn’t hug you, no smile. “Hey darl.”

“Hey, this is my boyfriend, Auston.”

She nodded in return. One you got a lot. And one that Auston knew pisses you off. After years of treatment, you were used to it but it still made you mad. Your Aunt’s eyes looked you up and down. The judgy look all too familiar. Her eyes in particular came to stop at your prominent scar running down your abdomen. It was one you were proud of as well. Auston spotted this and was quick to pull you in, hand resting on the scar. He had worked hard to get you to finally think it wasn’t ugly. He wasn’t going to let a judgy family member make you think otherwise.

Without so much as another word, the rest of your family started talking again. Making the pizzas was easy. Auston and yourself agreed on a simple pepperoni pizza. You snuck to the garage to grab yourself and Auston a drink. Well you shotgunned one before grabbing two cans and heading back to the kitchen. 

Whilst waiting on them to cook, everyone sat around the table on the patio. Your Aunt sat beside your eldest sister. Asking her about her life and everything in between. You watched on as no-one asked you about your life.

“How’s training been?” Nan asked you. Someone finally deciding paying your attention.

You explained what’s been going on recently with your sport. Talking about your up and coming competitions. Everyone else was listening but your Aunt. Auston noticed this. Watching how while you talked passionately and excitedly about your passion, your Aunt just scrolled through her phone. He knew this was also the first time in a year that she had seen you. 

Mid sentence she cut you off, directing the attention of everyone to your sister. Auston saw you deflate. Your confidence that he loved is gone before his eyes. He slipped his hand through yours, leaning over to press a kiss to your temple. You leaned into him for comfort. 

“I’ll help you mum,” You spoke up when your mum went to pull out the pizzas.

Auston watched you go back into the kitchen with both your mother and nana. Leaving him with your siblings and your aunt. 

“She’s put on weight, yeah?” Your aunt pointed out, looking at the woman beside her.

Your sister hadn’t ever seen how you were treated. Or never realised. Sure, you had spoken about how she was the favourite. But never had she heard your aunt so blatantly speak like that about you.

“She’s been working hard during her training,” Auston replied. 

Your aunt shrugged, “She’s always been fat.”

He couldn’t believe it. Someone who definitely was classed as obese had the audacity to make a comment about his active, healthy girlfriend. 

“Aunty…” 

“I’m just looking out for her,” Your aunt dismisses. “How is she supposed to keep her superstar boyfriend if she can’t look after herself?”

A pizza was slammed down on the table in front of her making her jump. To Auston’s horror, you had heard her comment. Something that he knew would trigger you. Especially after the issue of all the fan comments you had to contend with mentally. All the hate comments. 

“I just can’t please you, can I?” 

“Oh please, stop complaining.”

Your mum had come out of the kitchen to the sight of you seething off to the side of your aunt. Auston was on the edge of his seat. Everyone else around the table looked uncomfortable. 

“You okay?” Your mum asked you. 

You shook your head, “I’m sick of being the disappointment.”

Without so much as another word, you sniffled and left. Probably to go hide in your old bedroom. Everyone just watched you leave the patio. Auston stood up to follow. Not before turning to your aunt. 

“She’s known she wasn’t the favourite since she was 15. But she still never spoke badly about you. And yet you can’t be nice to save your life.” He looked around at your siblings, all sitting quietly. He knew that you and your oldest sister were the only one blood related to your aunt. Your other siblings were through your sister’s dad’s side. “She puts up with you because of your family and is told to respect her elders. But I won’t let you talk about her like that.”

Auston left everyone outside and followed in your footsteps. He could hear your sniffles from down the hallway. He knocked on your bedroom door. Once he got a quiet come in, he opened the door. Your bedroom was so you. It was the only way he could explain it. You were sitting on your bed,  a pair of airpods you had found in your room in your ears. It was your way of escaping your feelings. 

“Hey,” Auston whispered, pressing a kiss to your forehead before taking a seat beside you. 

You didn’t say anything, only handed him a bud. Your favourite song was playing. Auston pulled you onto his lap, wrapping his arms around you. Letting you snuggle into him for comfort. 

“Thank you.”

Auston chuckles, “How do you know I did anything?”

“I know you Aus,” You mumble, pressing a kiss to his lips. 

“I’ll always be on your side. You’re my favourite and that won’t ever change.”

“What about your mum?” You ask. You know he and Ema are close. 

“She’ll be happy knowing I found the girl I want to marry.”

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[hanna-kin]

Mutal pining top ten ranking

There were so many good moments of pining this season. Painful lovely pining. I used the term fairly liberally.

I could have used alot of other moments to but here we are.

10.

Slightly less angsty but still beautiful. They are starting to understand eachother more. They are still very much pining though. Their small smiles are so cute and after all the heartache they experienced it's so refreshing to see them smile around eachother.

9.

Again it's the small smiles for me. Even if they are not together they are still drawn to eachother. They still instinctively search for eachother and when their eyes meet you can sense so much longing.

8.

Oh wille, my lovely boy. All he wants is to have Simon back but he realises it's too late. That he needs to respect Simon's boundaries but it's so hard.

7.

This is like the capital P of pining. The way he's watching Simon at the piano, thinking about everything he's lossed. And before Simon can notice him stand there he walks away so Simon won't know he was there. And yet Simon looks up as if he senses Wille standing there.

6.

Oh boy. Simon and the sweater. The way he inhales Wille's scent and burries his whole face into it. He's just as obsessed with Wille as Wille is with him and if you think otherwise you're blind.

No but seriously. And this after their kiss. We know he feels guilty about it as she tells Sara but there's something about him bringing the shirt out again just so he can smell Wille.

5.

This scene is one of the prettiest scenes of the season. The music and Wille looking through the few pictures he has of Simon. The fact that they are so few breaks my heart. They had barley a chance to be normal boyfriends. I mean they never got to be boyfriends in the first place but they don't have any normal moments. Yet they are so strongly connected. And this is when he's starting to give Simon up. Because at this point he thinks he no longer means anything to Simon

He thinks Simon is happily moving on. And here he is getting ready to let Simon go.

4.

I don't know what made me choose this sniffing before the other. I love that we got to see Simon turn to Wille's shirt twice. I just think this hit me more. It was early in the season and before we had kinda seen Simon very determined to move on from wille. We saw him ask Wille for space and be pretty firm and hold his ground.

Yes he said it was difficult to see Wille but he was also listening to his friends and it felt like he was pretty adamant on moving on.

He went out to meet Marcus and seemed to enjoy it.

Therefore it hurt alot to see him be so affected by Wille getting removed from the school. And even if Wille got to stay in the end Simon was ready to fight for him. And it shook him to the core to realise that Wille has so little control and that he could have lost Wille forever.

And then see him in his room as he brings out Wille’s shirt and just sniffs it.

3.

My beautiful boys. Looking at eachother with so much longing in their eyes. Simon noticing Wille’s hair, taking in his beauty and Wille giving Simon such a painful look.

This scene. Perfect. It says so much. Just before they were smiling pretending nothing happened. But when the other is not looking they let their real feelings show.

And then they go back to pretending again. Wille tries to be casual and Simon is endeared by him. He can't help it. Even if it lasts for only a second.

But deep down they are struggling so much.

2.

Does this count as pining? Surely it does. Wille is so proud, so happy for Simon but also so touched by Simon’s voice.

Simon really was ridiculous when he suggested Marcus as the one who liked his singing.

And the fact that their eyes meet and linger on eachother. Their eyes say it all. They have so much love for eachother.

They've just kissed again so of course they couldn't be more happy. Again it was such a refreshing scene after all the pain. We deserved it and so did they.

1.

Maybe this is cheating. Sue me. But you can't tell be they are not full of love and pining for eachother here. Even if they are finally together. It's like they can't wait to be together. For the rest of their lives.

After everything I'm so happy it got to end with them looking at eachother like nothing else matters.

It's the bright colours, it's their happy smiles. They are surrounded by people but it's like they are the only ones there.

Simon is so happy and proud. Wille is so happy and full of life. He finally did it.

It's them, no matter what happens. It's Wille and Simon against the world.

[h3k3t]

I love seeing all these attumaxreaderxnamora anons! I've been hyperfixating thinking about those two for a while now 🤪😵

Just wanted to share a lil idea I've had lately about how the whole thing could start

For some context, I've always seen Attuma and Namora as frenemies, thus some sort of 50/50 between agreeing/tolerating each other and competing/bickering

1. So I feel like the first time they both saw reader they were both star-strucked by her; they both were left speechless by her beauty and strength

2. Being as blunt and possessive as he is, Attuma probably went after reader first; something clicking in his mind and making him go all mine, not caring about anything nor anyone else in the world; probably didn't even notice Namora also staring at her, he was just blinded by that pull

3. I have a feeling Namora is way more reserved and diplomatic? composed? than Attuma and as soon as she saw him charging towards reader, she could only roll her eyes at how much of a brute he could be (guess Namora is more sensual and gentle so she could be a "gentleman" like that lol)

4. Since Namora is not as blunt as Attuma, I imagine she kept her distance and observed, trying to gather as much information about reader as possible; however, that also made her lose leverage as she basically gave Attuma enough room to woo/court reader

5. Sensing defeat, I imagine Namora taking a rather harsh stance against reader every time she would be around with Attuma but only because she doesn't know how to approach her and also doesn't want Attuma to notice her having a big ol' crush on her; her being so distant and rather dry towards reader also comes from how jealous Namora actually feels, she's also possessive and she also saw reader first and she very well knows she could do a better damn job than Attuma

6. Sparring with reader would probably be the few times Namora has a chance to be near her, like physically near her; she would be so distracted by the way reader moves, her scent, the way her skin feels against hers whenever they clash against one another, and most importantly, by the way reader sounds; oh Namora would pay close attention to every huff or whimper or groan that would escape reader's mouth and would wonder if that's how she sounds whenever she's with Attuma...or if she could make reader sound even sweeter if she had her way with her

7. Eventually Attuma connects the dots and realizes Namora's harshness and distance/coldness towards reader is not because she doesn't like her but because she feels the same pull as him; being the cocky asshole that he is, I'm pretty sure he would tease Namora endlessly about it until she snaps at him and bickers about why would reader choose him over her

Anyways, these lil snippets have been driving me insane lately so I thought I might as well share them here hehe

And yes, I like drama and angsty stuff like that sue me

Also, I apologize if this ended up being too long or if it sounds stupid I promise it looks better in my head

~🦈 anon

HOW DARE YOU LEAVE ME WITH SO FEW CRUMBS, BESTIE?! Do you have any more ideas? Because I would really like to hear/read them.

Don't apologize if the confession is too long, literally every confession I read is, and indeed I read them with pleasure and curiosity❤️

How Namora and Attuma would approach the reader is absolutely accurate! ASDFGHJKLKJHGFDS I mean, in my opinion Attuma is kind of the guy who would start looking for the reader almost like a predator goes after its prey (I think he would also use his size to put more emphasis on it, I mean we looked at it all the mask scene with shuri yeah?)

Namora would literally watch him from afar already understanding what plan he has in mind, and click her tongue at her palate in annoyance. In my opinion Namora thinks Attuma 'plays a little too much' with things, if I'm not mistaken she herself in the film tells him "Stop playing Attuma" after he kept challenging Okoye.

In my opinion, yeah, Namora would feel a little put off by Attuma's way of doing things, believing that there is no room for her in your heart. However, I don't think she's the type to drop the bone so easily. I think she would wait patiently (even without jumping for joy) for the right moment where you and Attuma have an argument or something goes a bit wrong between you two, to be able to jump in and support you in that difficult moment. Namora would support you at any cost, even if you are wrong to Attuma in the argument and I think she would say things like: "I would never have done that to you…" or "I would never have told you…"

Obviously your relationship grows stronger knowing that I would always have support from her and it is at that moment that in my opinion the challenge really begins between Namora and Attuma: who will be able to win your heart.

[x-i-l-verify]

20 Questions For Writers

Was tagged by @kuraiarcoiris and decided why not. :V

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

35. I have more on other sites, but since I've made my AO3 account, that's how many I've posted there.

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2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

656,547. Give or take a couple thousand.

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3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently? Dream SMP. But I also have an Inscryption WIP and a couple Kpop WIPs that I really should get back to one of these days. orz But I've written for all sorts of fandoms over the years.

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4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

5) Its Suffering Was Real [Inscryption]

This is the one that came as the biggest shock to me when I went and looked at my kudos count in preparation for this write-up. Like, really? People like the fic where I torture the sassy robot trapped in the body of a stoat for 7k words that much??

4) A Shoulder to Lean On [Avatar: The Last Airbender]

WHERE did all these people come from, I have like 6 comments on this thing (not counting my replies)??? I mean, I'm flattered, but ??!!?!

3) Accepting Amelioration [Voltron: Legendary Defender]

I mean, it's a Voltron fic posted back when the fandom was in full swing, it doesn't really surprise me the kudos counter is considerable, though I am still surprised it got that much traction considering the fic is gen and not shippy. Am still proud I made the first daemon AU in the entire fandom, though, if this is my claim to fame, then I'm ok with that. :p

2) Temporary Shelter [Astro / VIXX]

I seriously have no freaking clue how this little self indulgent Kpop crossover fic became so popular, I really don't. I mean, Kpop crossovers are niche at the best of times, and these two groups aren't exactly the most popular Kpop fandoms on AO3 if you know what I mean. It basically started as "wouldn't it be fun if my two favorite Kpop groups were secretly friends all this time? How would I have that happen, tho?" and then snowballed from there. I, uh. I'm glad so many other people like it, ig? 0_0

1) Paved with Pawprints [My Hero Academia]

Of course it's the MHA pet AU fic. Of course. OF COURSE-

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5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Absolutely. It's only fair I reply if someone takes the time to read on my work and actually give me feedback about it, wouldn't you say? Plus, like most authors, I enjoy talking about my own work, so sue me. >:p

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6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't usually do angsty endings; I prefer happy or at least bittersweet ones. I guess by default, it has to be the fic where I slowly killed off America and China from Axis Powers Hetalia for 13k words, while the rest of the cast had already been dead for centuries at that point. So yes, the entire cast of that series was dead by the end of that fic. :))) IN MY DEFENSE, ok, I was actually trying to give them a bittersweet ending by reuniting them with all of their old friends and family by finally letting them rest after so long alone, but it still turned out really sad. TT TT It's basically my only fic where I can't go back and reread it more than once every couple of years, because I still end up a sobbing mess by the end.

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7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Well, I guess that's what you define "happiest" as. The most cathartic? The one with the least amount of trauma and extreme bodily injury incurred by the characters? 🤔 I guess by the latter definition, it would Kaleidoscopic Perceptions, a very fluffy USPH college AU that I actually enjoyed writing a lot despite me not usually enjoying romance or college AUs.

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8. Do you get hate on your fic?

No, thankfully. I've gotten a couple kinda weird comments, and of course the obligatory "It's been X months since you updated were you aware?????" comments, but no outright negativity.

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9. Do you write smut?

LMAO. Absolutely not.

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10. Do you write crossovers?

Yes! I really love crossovers. I have a few common fallbacks that fit with a lot of fandoms (daemon AUs, Firefly AUs, etc.), but I also enjoy fandom-specific crossovers when I can figure out how to pull them off.

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11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No idea. I hope not!

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12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Just once for this Gravity Falls fic.

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13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

Yes. It had a few ups and downs, but it was overall a really positive experience, and I think it turned out really well!

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14. What‘s your all-time favorite ship?

idk that I have an ALL TIME favorite ship, especially since I hardly ever ship anything, but Frobin is pretty choice, I gotta say.

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15. What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Er, none of them, hopefully? I hope that I eventually get to finish all my WIPs at some point, even if it might take me awhile. >.>; But I suppose if I had to pick ONE to abandon, I'd probably pick Written In, my D&D Inscryption crossover AU. I like the IDEA for it, but writing it out is like pulling teeth, and after the first installment where the party gets together, I don't really have a lot of ideas on where to take the plot. :/ Like I have the general overarching idea but no plot structure or anything but small disconnected story beats.

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16. What’s your writing strengths?

I like to think I do a pretty good job with descriptions while not bogging the story down too much with too much detail?

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17. What’s your writing weaknesses?

Uuuuuuuuuuhhhhhh, staying motivated ig. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ if you're asking my weakness about mechanics, though, uh... exposition, I guess? Dialogue in general, sometimes.

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18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

If there is actual information included in the other language, then you better provide a translation. If it's just for flavor, though, have at it.

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19. First fandom you wrote for?

TMNT, specifically the 2003 show. It's never been posted anywhere on the internet and never will. :)

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20. Favorite fic you’ve ever written?

Becoming Real, a Kpop fanfic based on VIXX's Voodoo Doll MV. However, it can easily stand on its own as its own original work. I consider it the most accessible story I've ever written, and it also was just very easy for me to write. Writing is often like pulling teeth for me, but not this story.

Tagging: @breezy-cheezy, @quicktothebatjalopy, @hiding-in-the-vault, @variablememory, @bleue-flora, @theriu

[kelliealtogether]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you, @cheeeryos for the tag. 💕

How many works do you have on ao3?

71+

What's your total ao3 word count?

1,130,187

What fandoms do you write for?

The Raven Cycle/The Dreamer Trilogy. I have hoped another will come along that will entice me enough to write, but, alas, nothing else has yet. 

Top five fics by kudos:

Boxes on the Lawn

Open Door

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What It All Could Be

Going Back to These Origins

(I find it interestingly hilarious that 3/5 have titles from Damien Rice songs.)

Do you respond to comments?

I do my best to, yes.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Even when I get angsty, I still try to have a hopeful ending (at least in my opinion). However, the ending of Somnium is probably the most melancholic of my (self-identified) hopeful endings.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

This is tough because I always try to go for the HEA, so I'll say the most satisfying and hardest won HEA is probably Boxes on the Lawn.

Do you get hate on fics?

Not usually, but it has happened. 

Do you write smut?

I do. 

Craziest crossover:

I've yet to write a crossover, and I'll never say never, but I don't see any crossovers in my future. Fusions, though… I'm all about fusions. 

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not to my knowledge. 

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not yet, no. 

All time favorite ship?

I think it's obvious. 😌 Pynch. 

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

In all honesty, probably The Rearview.

What are your writing strengths?

I think I keep my writing interesting. I intentionally try to vary my sentences so they're not all "Adam did X. Ronan did Y," change up length, and have gotten better at not using filter or filler words. Basically, I try to mirror what I like reading in my writing, and do my best to not bore a reader. I also think I'm pretty funny. Or I at least make myself laugh a lot upon rereading my own fics.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I have a tendency to rush endings. I get them to the happily ever after and call it a day. There's no savoring it or relishing in it. Letting them breathe a little and finally have some peace on page. It's climax, then boom, the end. I'm trying to get better at this. I also think I never include enough dialogue. I don't think I'm as bad at dialogue as I once was, but reading back through my fics, there's never a significant amount of talking going on. 

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I mean, for assholes who use Latin as their love language, I think it's fine. It has its place. 

First fandom you wrote in?

First first was Mary Sue self-insert Flyers RPF. The one that grew legs and ran was Pierre and David from Simple Plan.

Favorite fic you've written?

*** **** because of the way I wrote Pynch's relationship. Uncensored, Vital Pieces, because cannibalism because I really like my writing in it and some of the scene choices I made. Ask me next week and this will change. 

Tagging @emmerrr and @werewolffeelings if either of you are interested. 🥰

[magicallymeta]

Alright, folks, I've got a slightly melted cocktail (Blue Hawaii Ramune, a few drops of orange bitters, a healthy dash of this locally made spicy pear shrub, and two shots of tequila) and episode 6 of Wednesday to get through:

1) love the circular mirror visual so much; they have a lot of fun iwht it in shots, but I still feel like they could have used it more. It reminds me of when Chloe becomes The Watchtower on Smallville and they both used the set a lot and never enough. (And yeah, I'm going to fucking mention Chloe and Smallville in 2022, okay? That show is important to me, contrary to what has become of certain people who were once involved with the show. The characters are not their actors and vice versa, unless you're Jensen Ackles/Dean Winchester. I don't make the rules!)

2) ENID IS SO FUCKING CUTE ALL OF THE TIME. GIve me her entire wardrobe. I mean, I want Wednesday's, too, but I think that's the difference in emotional expression: Rachie sees a Wednesday look and thinks "that's so stupid and cool, whatever, fuck off" and Dawni Rae sees Eni and thinks "OH MY GOD WHERE DO I GET THAT IMMEDIATELY?!" It's all about the balance, baby.

3) This surprise party for Wednesday is so fucking cute, and I love her for reacting to all things Manic Pixie Mary Sue about her in annoyance. Blessings.

4) I'm loving Jenna Ortega's balance between Wednesday and Goody. I love a good "same actress/different characters" in a story, especially when it's a "hey look, my ancestor and I happen to look almost EXACTLY the same!" Amazing.

5) The music shift when Enid gives Wednesday her snood. MY HEART. Everythning about that scene was a gift, specifcally, for me.

6) Angsty white boy scenes are so annoying, good god. I can't wait for that part to be over when I've finished.

7) Obsessed with Bianca/Lucas now. Don't know why, but I love that she immediately was honest with him and then admitted that she knew exactly who he was. I think because I've found myself liking them seperately that it means them together has a better chance for both of their character's extending throughout the story moving forward. I hate it when there are good characters just randomly floating on the sideline of the main storyline. Like, those people are where it's at, man! Don't walk away from them!

8) Ugh, more of the Well Intioned White Boy scenes are just as annoying as the Angsty White Boy scenes. it's annoying that some of Wednesday's best moments come when she's against he worst scene partners. This includes the Sheriff. Especially when she's opposite the Sheriff.

9) It's all coming together, more or less, and I'm so excited for it to finish. The fireplace in the Principal's office is so fucking sick, and again, I love Christina Ricci.

10) "Take the win Enid" "Two Best Friends!" I'm so in love with them, be still my little heart.

11) Wednesday is like, "For my birthday, I want a bisexual creepy date with my boy/girl love interests to who is more deserving of my affections." The answer is Enid across the board, but it's cute that Tyler is still sticking in the game for hetero storylines.

12) I love that the "pretty" boys get "sexy scar scratches" and the other boys get mutilated in some way. Seems about right. Very CW.

13) Enid blowing up and leaving her pastel side of the room to haunt Wednesday while she curls up in a ball. WENESDAY. GIRL. Shatter my heart. I feel so alive.

If I wasn't so set on following through on writing up my thoughts on every episode, I would have for sure finished by now, but I'm proud of myself for following through on this. It's like, every little step leads to a bigger things at some point, even if some of it you have to slog through.

On a side note, I was really excited to have the house to myself this weekend and to get so many of the things I'm constantly trying to get done, done, and I've been putting in a lot of work, but it doesn't feel like I've accomplished as much as I was hoping to. It allows the voice in my brain that tells me if my dreams were important I would be doing this all of the time, but I'm not because it must not be. I hate that voice, because it sounds like very Boss Bitch and Capitalist Christian that's ever made me feel like I'm broken or lazy for not being able to "hit the grind" or whatever the fuck.

I keep wanting to stop writing these post and just enjoy the show. It's an argument I'm constantly having inside my head -- do I want to enjoy and consume, or do I want to consume and create? These are entirely different ways to do things, but they're both equally important and I struggle to find the balance between them or when to initiate which roll when I'm dealt a circumstance of life. I share this hear because it's on my mind and I want to and it's my blog and I can do what I want, but also because this is what it's become for me for awhile -- where do I put my time and how do I use it? I constantly feel as if my time is not my own, and all I want is to get it back.

Okay, I only have 2 episodes left of this show and then I can go to sleep. I doubt I'll get through both of them tonight, I can feel myself waning (see above philosophies), but I'll set alarms and finish it in the morning with my coffee. I won't have the house to myself for very long, but I bet I could get through this and then move into my mirror project, which was the one thing I wanted to have completed by the time this weekend was offically over. Depending on my schedule this week, maybe I'll take Monday off and give myself an extra weekend day to finsh up everything on my list! Wish me luck, friends!

[c-hrona]

I STILL HAVE TO RANT A LITTLE BECAUSE I HAVE TO SCREAM SOMEWHERE.

Careful of the spoilers.

First things first.

WOLFWOOD AND VASH RELATIONSHIP.

*collapses at the ground and dies*

MY GGGGGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDSKJGFDKJGNDFGFDBGFDGDFHG.

They relationship is so fucking good. Wolfwood story matches Vash's in such a tragic and beautiful way (OBV I HAVE TO FALL FOR THE TRAGIC WET BOIS, DON'T I). Their relationship, however you want to read it, romantically or platonically (I read them romantically, fucking sue me I dare you), is so.. wholesome. I have no words to describe the way I feel for them. The way they click together like the pieces of a puzzle. Their constant little stupid fights and the way they sacrifice themselves for the other SO. MANY, FUCKING. TIMES.

"That is why, after all was said and done, I wanted to share my tomorrows with him".

ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!?!?!?!

The 98 anime did such an act of cowardice to go with the Millie "relationship" thingie. I mean, it was cute and all but. C'mon. eVEN IN THE ITALIAN DUB THERE WHERE PHRASES LIKE "And you are even more special" LIKE COME OOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNFJKGFDGDFKGJDFKGDFNG.

I'm watching you Orange, I'm watching you VERY HARD.

And in all of this.

Wolfwood.

Wolfwood character is one of my favourites E V E R. He's so incredibly well written that you just have to emphtize with him.

Vash in my opinon is easier to love. Obviously you love him, because he's kind, and lovely, and absolutely one of the best protagonists of this tipe of shonen. TriStamp went all the way down and made him EVEN MORE LOVELY which is like, cheating (don't jump at my throat, I love him and TriStamp version so much I could explode). And his backstory is one of the worst out there: he's been beaten, again and again, they tried to fucking destroy his heart to kill him, and yet he smiles and is the gentler soul you'll ever see. But, you see, it's his choice, the choice of someone that can make this kind of choice. When he talks to Knives about humans, he talks about them as an adult would talk about a toddler. He CAN chose to protect everyone and suffer the consequences of his actions. And I think it suits him very well, the stubborn, self-deprecating lovely idiot.

But Wolfwood. Wolfwood is human. He didn't chose ANY OF IT. He had NO LEGACY in his demise. This man has gone through hell and bejond and yet the first thing in his mind is the orphanage from were he was taken away. He was just a fucking teen, and an hostage, and he kept being an hostage till the very fucking end. His death made me cry out my whole entire soul, I couldn't touch the manga for some days after because I was so shocked. I can't even begin to explain what it caused in me. Maybe is because I tried very faintly to overlap TriMax and TriStamp, and the scene of his "transformation" absolutely crashed me, and then he dies. He dies after suffering, hoping just to return home. Fucking HELL. I'm SO AFRAID of how TriStamp is going to treat him, because, if the general vibe is more angsty of the manga, I'm quite sure they are going all the way and actually carve our hearts out with him. Ohhhh boi it will hurt. It will hurt SO BAD.

Finally.

The fact that Wolfwoods words resonates till the VERY END, within Vash and Livio, the two persons he loved the most. The way he appears in some panels, like the ghost he is, to show them the way, to praise them, to remind them of how much he (and them) have sacrificed to end the fear and the agony. The way I actually crumbled after Vash kills Legato to let the memory of Wolfwood (impersonated by Livio) live on, going against every single fiber of his being. Going against what Rem, HIS MOST IMPORTANT PERSON,told him.

Christ.

Sweet fucking Christ.

Give me a break.

Just finished TriMax and, my God.

What a fucking masterpiece. I'm not even sad or crying, like I usually do for this kind of stories.

The way the end embraces you... The way it says "is finished, is ok, life goes on, be happy, love and live in peace". The utter calm of it all.

I'm so fucking enamored and full of feels.

And so, so, so happy.

[lilliths-httyd-blog]

Why not watch Race to the Edge? We have:

The neurodivergent guy who's just so tired. Threw himself off a cliff once or twice. Likes dragons soooooo much and everyone just rolls with it. His entire life revolves around his hyperfixation (dragons) and it kind of bleeds into everyone elses life.

The neurodivergent guy's best friend cat. Does not like it when neurodivergent guy puts himself in dangerous situations and frequently sasses him for it. Is often seen batting around balls of paper for fun. Has killed an unfathomable amount of people and will kill again.

The token girlfriend who wasn't actually a token girlfriend in the show and had an actual personality and hobbies and insecurities and stuff. Has anger issues and will take it out on the twink at the slightest provocation. Probably more worthy of being chief than the chiefs own heir at this point in time. Secretly feminine. The superior version of this character and everyone loves her.

The twink. Used to be one of the jocks in high school and turned out to be the most flamboyant and feminine of the squad. Wrote a book once. Probably to impress the nerd like he's so gay for the nerd. Loves baby dragons like sooooo much he will cuddle them all day. A little sassypants who pouts and complains a lot. Is not good at following instructions. Will sacrifice life and limb for his friends and almost died for them several times.

The twink's self insert oc. He larps as a Coachella kid. Once fooled the smartest man in the world into thinking he was actually a Coachella kid. Deep in his heart he is just a misunderstood rich white boy.

The nerd. Reads books to the point where the universe decided every almost single one of his spotlight episodes would be a parody of a book. He made dragon trading cards once because he's a fucking nerd. Is probably a licensed doctor and if he's not then nobody's noticed yet. Is a total helicopter parent over his fucking dragon who spews lava and has a tail-bludgeon so who knows whats going on in his head.

The twink made a self insert OC for his boyfriend the nerd and then there were some hypnotism hijinks. I want to see God Complex and Coachella Kid interact so bad.

The resident drag queen. A scholar, philosopher and fashionista who would do a dramatic reading of Dante's Divine Comedy for fun. Has a pet chicken who he has a... questionable relationship with. Has a mace who he also has a... questionable relationship with. Doesn't know how to do math.

The resident pyromaniac. Has literally no fear and will actively dare people to kill her. Has not once been killed so it seems to be working. Will be captured and spend her entire time in captivity mercilessly bullying her captors. Could probably make Ryker Grimborn cry. Made Snotlout cry. Way smarter than she looks and is considered the smarter twin which is insane considering Tuffnut is a known genius.

The incredibly angsty Mary Sue. You either love her or hate her and I love her. Fits every single Mary Sue trope in existence to a T to the point where I feel like it was on purpose. Don't get me wrong though, she's a genuinely compelling character. Emo. I think that she should date Astrid.

[enluv]

enhypen finding out/meeting your idol!brother

— hyung line x fem!reader

warnings: a bit angsty but like it quickly becomes fluff and they're long (I'm so sorry I got carried away!)

coco's note: this is a two parter and you can find part two here! i hope you enjoy this birthday present from me to you <3 (yes I'm the girl who gives others presents on her bday sue me😡✋🏼)

◜heeseung◞

brother – jeon jungkook (BTS)

Heeseung is smart, and he prides himself on that fact but when it comes to you, his brain becomes filled to the brim and he loses some common sense, but that's what loves all about...right? Wrong. The moment he sees you running into his seniors arms with the biggest smile all common sense is flying out his mind and he's being visited by the big bad green monster (jealousy — not the jolly green giant pea guy). A million thoughts begin to run through his mind, "How does she know him? And why does she look so happy? What are they talking about? Wait why are all the members of BTS walking up to her and hugging her? WAIT WHY ARE THEY LOOKING AT ME-" Poor guy was way too lost in thought to even notice that you're staring in his direction with the biggest smile, as you drag the group of his idols seniors towards him. Firstly he can't really hear what you're saying to him because his minds still spinning with a million and one possibilities, he's just so lost. When you explain that Jungkook is your big brother he finally allows himself to calm down and then he realizes, "holy shit my girlfriend is related to THE jeon jungkook." Needles to say he finds it really cool and asks you a bunch of questions when you're alone later on in the night!

◜jay◞

brother – johnny suh (NCT)

Jay swears up and down that he isn't the jealous type, and part of it is true, but when he sees you on the phone laughing and smiling at incoming texts while hanging out with him on his day off, he's gonna be a bit jealous. He'll try his hardest to get your attention but after he strikes out for the third time, he'll give up. Thinks to himself, "Fine! If she wants to ignore me then so be it, I'll do the same." He knows it's childish but man he does not care whatsoever. Little does he know that you're texting your older brother Johnny trying your best to make plans so that he can meet Jay finally because your brothers opinion matters a lot to you and you'd appreciate it if he met him, but Johnny keeps jokingly saying he'll bring the rest of the 22 (23 including himself) NCT members as well since technically they're all your big brothers. This of course makes you laugh because the image of all 23 idols piling out of a van to meet your boyfriend is funny to you. This situation of you (accidentally) ignoring Jay and him purposely ignoring you continues until he's fed up and straight up asks you who you're texting. You pass your phone over to him suppressing a laugh as he reads the conversation. His face literally goes 😡😐😦 and he'll ask of you're serious or playing with him, and when you reassure him that you're dead serious he's freaking out, because hello your brother is THE freaking Johnny Suh the man, the myth, the NCT legend! Later when Johnny actually meets Jay, they get along well and he fanboys to you after about it :)

◜jake◞

brother – bang chan (stray kids)

Jake goes around the dorm bragging about how well he knows his girl blah blah blah all that sappy stuff, and Sunoo is like okay sure bestie so can you tell me why she's all over twitter hanging out with Bang Chan from Stray Kids? Now that stumps Jake because what the hell are you doing with him, and why didn't he know you'd be with him? When you arrive at his dorm later bearing food and gifts the boys are excited but they feel the tension between you two so they back off a bit, opting to hide in the living room rather than their usual dining room area (because one, it's close to the kitchen and two they're so nosey omg they want all the tea). You're pretty amused that he hasn't broke yet because you know your boyfriend and you know that he's seen the pictures, you're just waiting for him to ask so you can explain. Eventually Jake grows irritated and just straight up asks you why you were with an older artist and how you two know one another. You smile and grab your phone off the counter, while he's watching over your shoulder. "Wait why are you calling him-" "Hush look," you'll reply and as Chan picks up the facetime he can here a faint "hey sis" being shouted at you, which of course leaves the poor boy stunned. Once you're off the phone with your brother, you explain to Jake that Chan is indeed your older brother and that fans just happened to take pictures of the two of you out on your monthly brother-sister day. When Jake and Chan meet later that week (he begs you to introduce him) they bond over being aussie bros and also their love for you!

◜sunghoon◞

brother – jung wooyoung (ateez)

Sunghoon knows that you're a friendly person, and he knows that being an idol yourself (one whose been in the business a bit longer than him) you've met and made friends with other idols. So he isn't too bothered by the fact that the entirety of Ateez has just walked over to the two of you bearing smiles and hugs. He is however, bothered by the fact that you haven't introduced him to them and that one has his arm wrapped firmly around your shoulders as if you were his. He'll grab ahold of your hand offering it a squeeze, which immediately grabs your attention and you'll pull yourself out of the members arms and into his, much to his satisfaction. This of course earns an eyebrow raise from his seniors and immediately you'll start by introducing him as your boyfriend, meanwhile the eight boys will hear this and freak because when did their little sister get old enough to have a bf and why didn't they know? Honestly Sunghoon is just as confused as the boys so you'll have to explain that Sunghoon is your boyfriend and Wooyoung is your older brother, along with the rest of the members since you've known them forever now. Eventually it clicks in all their minds and they'll get well acquainted. Sunghoon asks later why you never mentioned that Wooyoung was your brother but all he'll get is a quick "it never came up" and a shrug.

coco's final note: hi! i hope you all enjoy this as much as I did when writing them :) and don't fret! the maknae lines will be out as well! thank you for reading <3

[mx-barnes]

Summary: You wake up from a nightmare to an empty bed because your boys are gone on a mission and so you reminisce on the before you all got together.

Word Count: 1.7k

Warnings: Swearing, mentions of the winter soldier programming, insecure Sam and Buck, polyamorous relationship, yelling a bit, nightmares, mentions child abuse and endangerment (no details), government being shitty to the reader, mentions of parents selling kid to the government for testing, kinda fluffy but also kinda angsty. I think that's it.

A/n: One I hate writing summaries, two I wrote the at 4 am be kind, three not edited. So this came about cause I need some comfort but also some like angst even tho it's not really angst. Not my characters Marvel don't sue me.

Masterlist

You wake up from another nightmare again thrashing, twisting and turning. Only to find your bed empty. All three of your boys are away on a mission. The compound seems lonely once again. This reminded you of a time before Sam, Bucky, Steve and you all got together.

You had just got to the compound after years of endless torture from the government. You had been passed around different states needing you for different reasons. Your mother and father (15 and 16 at the time) weren't ready to raise a child so for a handsome sum of money you were given to the government for testing. Turns out you had some sort of enhancement that made you valuable to the US government. The Avengers at that time was nothing more than a twinkle in Nick Fury's eye.

So although almost everything about the experiments that were conducted on you was public record not everything was. This lets the government away with a lot. Like child endangerment, and child abuse. They performed all sorts of surgeries on you to make sure you could never have children of your own.

Most people didn't understand that you were forced into this life. You didn't choose this, you wouldn't choose this. You were tormented by the memories. You thought you were a monster.

The nightmares never ceased. You thought they never would. Your mind told you that you deserved this. You killed those people in cold blood with no feeling whatsoever. So when one day Director Nick Fury found you living in your remote little cottage and offered you a place with the Avengers. You jumped at the shot. You had heard all about their great works and how Natasha Romanoff was clearing the red out of her ledger you thought you could do the same.

Only one of your boys was a part of the team at this time. When you had finally got settle in the compound on the same floor and wing as America's golden boy you thought he hated you because he avoided you at all costs. Anytime you entered the room he would stop talking and just stare at you. So you pulled away from him and everyone else. If the captain of the Avengers hated you how were the rest of them suppose to like you. So you told Fury that you couldn't handle being an Avenger. Of course, Fury convinced you to stay on the team and that they would warm up to you eventually.

It wasn't until another one of your boys joined the team that you finally felt like you belonged at the compound.

Sam joined in 2014. Nearly two years after you had. When he saw you he didn’t see you for your past, no, he saw you as someone who was hurting and made it his mission to make you smile each day. As you became friends with Sam you and Steve started your friendship as well, mending the rough patch you had gone through for the first little bit of knowing each other. Of course, later you realized he never hated you it was just he didn't know how to talk to you. You intimidated him.

One day you had caught Sam and Steve cuddling up with each other and although you were happy for them it broke your heart. Somewhere along the way you had fallen for Steve and Sam alike so to see them cuddled up hurt. You know you had no right to be hurt they could love whoever they pleased and if that meant each other you would be fine with that. Except after that interaction, it seemed you never seen them like that ever again.

It wasn't until 2017 that your last boy had joined the team. Bucky was finally clear of the winter soldier programming that plagued his mind. His first night at the compound you had been up once again due to your nightmares and you heard him screaming out. You rushed to his room to help soothe him. Although he didn't know you very well or you know much about him you had heard his cry for help and felt compelled to help him. You helped soothe him with your powers radiating calm energy and finding things in his mind that would help comfort him. Eventually, you coaxed him out of his nightmare and he slowly stirred. Scanning the room he found your face and asked what you were doing. You explained what happened and how you felt the need to help him, you then realized you were probably overstepping your boundaries and apologized and left quickly. Bucky had watched you walk out dumbfounded at how kind you had to help a complete stranger.

After that night you and Bucky had grown closer to each other. Soon you found yourself falling for yet another man. You felt ashamed while you had heard of polyamorous relationships and you were fine with them you worried what the men you had fallen in love with would feel about them, and if they were ok with it what would the media think of you. PR already had a hard time trying to get a good image for you this would just trash your name all over again but you couldn't handle it so you planned to confront them.

One Wednesday night or as Bucky had oh so graciously nicknamed "the day I am forced to watch crap movies." Truly they weren't crap movies it's just he had always preferred older 40s movies which you understood but you knew he had liked some of the shows Sam had chosen such as Bad Boys. You had come up with a foolproof plan you would ask each of them who they like.

So before you got up to get the popcorn you had asked them as a group. Who they liked. They all glanced at each other almost scared to answer.

"Why you asking sugar?" Sam is the first to question.

"Well, I was just wondering if you don't want to tell me it's fine. Just know I am an ex-government spy so I will find out eventually," you said with a wink walking away to get the popcorn.

Sam immediately turned to the other two men "Ok why the fuck are they asking us that. Did someone tip them off that we like them?"

"I sure as hell didn't," Steve responded.

"Me either," Bucky defended.

"Ok well someone has to of. I know I didn't Steve you are hopeless with people when it comes to romantics are you sure it wasn't you?" Sam accused.

"Yes I'm sure," that's when you came in.

"Sure of what Stevie?" Steve blushed hard at the use of the nickname.

"Nothing sweetheart."

"Fine keep your secrets."

It was Sam who finally cracked. "Fine ok so we may kind of like you. All of us. I know I have liked you from the first time I met you I'm not sure about these two idiots. I was scared to fucked up our friendship that's why I didn't say anything. I'm sorry I understand if you don't feel that way about me but do feel that way about the other two they're super soldiers after all."

"Sam shut up you are just as good if not better than us at least better than me." Bucky sort of shouted to stop Sam's rambling.

"Both of you shut up. You both are worth so much," Steve scolded ending that argument. "It's Y/n choice if they want to date us or not but I know I won't date them if they don't accept you two as well because I can't imagine my life without you two. So I know this is kind of sudden but we need to know your thoughts?" Steve now looked at you and asked.

"That is not what I expected I thought you guys were just gonna say each other. I mean. Wow, this is overwhelming I never thought you guys would actually like me back. God, I didn't prepare for this but I'm saying yes."

"Yes to who doll?" Bucky's insecurities coming out.

"Yes to all of you idiots. You guys make me so happy I couldn't imagine my life without you."

They all took a collective breath. Bucky then spoke up again "Are you sure about this doll I mean I know this is probably a lot?"

"Jamie I've never been more sure of anything in my life," you assured him, making a point to use the nickname only you, Steve, and Sam were allowed to use so he knew you were serious about this.

Pulling out of your flashback you returned to the dark and empty room you were in before. At least you thought it was empty until you heard someone clear their throat. Then the person spoke. "Nightmare sweetheart?" the smooth timbre of the man's voice relaxing you even if it sightly startled you at first.

"Yeah, then I guess a flashback to before. Can you come cuddle me, Stevie? I miss you and the other boys," you confessed.

"Well then good thing we are home as well," said Sam from somewhere in the room. Then you felt a body bounce onto the bed hearing servos firing as well indicating it was Bucky who had jumped onto the bed. Reaching out for him you found his hair and began playing with it.

You felt the bed dipped twice more as Steve and Sam crawled into bed. Steve was on your right while Sam was on your left and Bucky was resting his head on your thigh as you laid back into the soft pillows. Steve's and Sam's arms wrapped around you and Bucky allowing for everyone to be touching.

As you were drifting off to sleep once again you heard all of your boys whisper their I love yous to each other and you. You had found peace in your boys. You had found a family in them. You loved them to pieces. All the bad in your life, all the terrible things you had witnessed and had done to you didn't matter as long as you had them and you promised yourself never to let them go ever.

<~>

Also, I don't know why I thought of this for this one I definitely think Sam is always on everyone's left just to remind Steve of all the times when they would go running and stuff. I mean they still do morning runs but like I don't know there is only one time when Sam was no not on your left and instead of him saying on your left you said it instead and he kinda just squealed and was so proud of you.

[radioromantic-moved]

9, 10, and 11! :)

(@marshall-maximizer)

@marshall-maximizer thanks dude! :)

9. which is your most ‘evil’ s/i and/or s/i’s who are villain aligned? i mean. i Guess this would be antigone?‏‏‎ ‎because in the context of‏‏‎ ‎fe3h‏‏‎ ‎at least they're on the "villain's" side and they kind of have their aesthetic down but also i'm an‏‏‎ ‎Edelgard‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎Was Right person (but we will not get into that because oh god the discourse) so they don't really count to me. HOLY SHIT I FORGOT it's‏‏‎ ‎my‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎epithet‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎erased‏‏‎ ‎s/i‏‏‎ ‎actually they're much more actually evil.‏‏‎ ‎i mean they're still like "team‏‏‎ ‎rocket" evil where they like making nasty plans but don't want to like. permanently endanger children or anything but they staged a jailbreak so it counts. gives them a ribbon for being the most evil

10. what was your first s/i? i don't know if this was my Very first one but it's the one i remember most clearly.‏‏‎ ‎sparki‏‏‎ ‎koopa,‏‏‎ ‎who i made at age like. 11 or 12. she was bowser's‏‏‎ ‎adopted‏‏‎ ‎daughter‏‏‎ ‎(yeah this was‏‏‎ ‎mario‏‏‎ ‎bros.) but while koopas are normally half dragon and half turtle (something i literally just made up) she was 75% dragon and 25% turtle. because she was special like that. super rainbowy magical mary sue but i have a soft spot for her now that i've gotten over my cringe culture phase.

11. choose a song to apply to your s/i !! since it doesn't specify which i'll do 3 of them :) the two i'd consider the most developed plus an extra for‏‏‎ ‎psychonauts!nyx‏‏‎ ‎since i've been spending a lot of time on them recently. i assigned cyril a song a very long time ago and it still works for them but i actually have a second too. worst case scenario. poor miserable little space dystopia worker with their icky yucky boyfriend. i hope they're doing okay. (i literally created them so they can be if i want them to.) ANTIGONE GETS THIS!!! i also have a more. angsty song for them plus they're a‏‏‎ ‎classic‏‏‎ ‎weird‏‏‎ ‎science‏‏‎ ‎type i just love to imagine them jamming to‏‏‎ ‎necromancin‏‏‎ ‎dancin. and psychonauts!nyx‏‏‎ ‎gets‏‏‎ ‎destination‏‏‎ ‎moon because i'm obsessed how well this crazy specific song fits them. lover of space, neglects their own health to get into the field (which is depicted as being an astronaut in their mind), at a disadvantage because of a chronic illness. i Will project my insecurities into the insert in the game about mental health, thanks.

[akane171]

I wouldn't ever argue anyway😂 Obi-Wan as a whole and his relationship with Anakin was the best thing ever (Well, until TRAGEDY!😭😭🙈) and there's no denying that😍💃🏻 And Yup, it totally was destiny!!😁

Yuuup, yet another angsty af fave, I didn't even expect anything other than pure angst at all😅🤦🏻‍♀️

Huh, well, at least you spent your time well? Fairy Tales are awesome to read☺ (Eh, why do you hate it? Because of the Fairy Part? Cause then I'd agree, I never understood why it was named that when most don't even have any fairies in them😅🙈🤦🏻‍♀️)

1. ...you made Mon-El pass out in a dream world?🙄🤨 ...And Kara hide for months that she is in love with him?🙄😖😖 WHHHYYYY?😭😭  2. Mhm, suuuureee you don't 🙄 (note the sarcasm)

...Dead Parade? What the HECK are you coming up with, Kat?!?!?😱😱 😖😖😅

Haha, thanks for the point I guess?😂 And well, firstly, I did already stumble upon that ehh "headcannon", soo🤷🏻‍♀️ And secondly, uff, I've read waaaay too many fanfics for that to make me scream and puke (tho it certainly is disgusting, but nothing I wouldn't be surprised by if Rhea actually did....🙈)

Aww, okay😅😔 And Yeah, don't stress it, thanks anyway!☺🙈

 HAHAHA well-written sometimes seems even harder to come by than no romance😂😂🤷🏻‍♀️😅 

Oh god, that sounds so boring😅🙈 Did it at least have interesting conversations?

...Good point, yeah, no, let's be thankful they mostly get to live their lives however they want instead of being followed everywhere🙈

Their bullshit was the best😭 Just J2 repeatedly smashing cake into Misha's face is golden enough😍😂

Aww thanks☺ And nah, all good, just very stressful and too much "must-do-as-soon-as-possible" kind of shit with too little order🙈

Oh, really? You didn't like Katie?😂 Why?🤔 

...Reporter falling out of a helicopter onto Jake? Whaaat? Okay, shut up and take my money, I'd TOTALLY watch that!😍😍 Have you thought farther about that?🤔

Ohhhhh, you ABSOLUTELY need to watch it, the psychological brainfuck confusion is just too great to pass on😍😍😍🙈🙈😂😂 

Yeah, credit where credit's due tho, I didn't come up with that, just remembered it as one of my brother's old gaming nicknames 🤷🏻‍♀️😂 

HAHAHAHAHAHA 😂😂 

Yo, don't stress it☺🤷🏻‍♀️

☺😁

xxx

I liked the after tragedy relationship too, they went from bros to vulcano of hatred in like one day xD That was INTENSE. Also, obi-Wan was the only bright thingin the second EP. The rest was *drowning noises*

I can deal with angst, just please, no romance.

Yeah, exactly because of that. Plus in Polish we have two words for them. Bajka aka something you tell children before their sleep, something light and nice. And Baśń (that sounds cool in my language and very distinctive) and it's all the old folk tales with dark themes and quite brutal. Sometimes we can call some tales both (like Sleeping Beauty can be bajka and baśń), but FAIRY? From where the fuck they got it.

No, I mean, it was all what LW did in PIAD. That's why she is the angst queen, but you are not so far behind her =='

We will see. On the other hand your dead kangaroos probably could make a parae already :)))))

What can I say, I read grim fantasy books, the "oh, they are siblings they are not going to fu...... nevermind" and smilar things in this genre.

i seriously wonder how some books are published. Like sometimes EVERY SINGLE sentence should have been edited and i simply CRINGE when i read. Also? Who the fuck created first-person narrtive? WHO? And in the PRESENT TENSES?!!!! Like, it's worst than romances. Do i look I want to know every single thought of some idiotic dumb MAry Sue???? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

No, there was nothing interesting. I thought there was going to be a non-consent - a step father the main character didn't like -, but it turned out she just didn't like him and he was a good person. Beside that, NOTHING. Even her love interest was bland and just happened. I read it all, because I bought it in a second-hand shop and it was really cheap and in English, so at least i could polish (lol) my English a little.

Amen *sobs*

Yeah, they were the best cast ever. Still I'm pissed off how they treated female characters and actresses (glares at the fandom) but in general, they were my safe place.

STAY ALIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

*sigh* I didn't like her becasue she looked (that fucking cloooothes) and behaved like a homeless librarian? I think they made her a stereotypical "LIKE ME CHARACTER". Traumatic past? Checked. Single mother with a cute kid? Checked. Taking care of other kids? Checked. Horrible clothes that made her like i mentioned like a 20 years old librarian? Checked. So called strong female character? Checked. Past-addiction? Checked. Like they wanted me to say that if i won;t like her, I am a horrible human being and guess what :))))))

Also, she pissed me off a few times, especially when Jake was ya know, burning dead bodies of kids and his friend shot himself and she was "put your crap together!!!" and i was, bitch???? And that gross kiss TT and the whole romance was rushed and i just didn't feel it and bleh, no thanks. Sue me?

I think it would be something like, she would be in a helicopter hovering over the contaitment zone, covering freshes news, and something would happen (helicotper failure?) that would allow her to just jump from it (not high of course) and fall on Jake's head *cough* arms *cough*. Of course, it would make their relationsip rocky, plus him thinking she is another annoying reporter hyena, just being there for sensation and following his every step and her thinking he is stuck-up asshole, not allowing her to do her job. Together uncovering some more major shit and warming up to each other. Nothing more. Maybe some scene where they are stuck together in some room for some time or something.

Will watch. Someday....

LOL, i didn't see that coming xD

[arsenicolada]

I have seen that 'story' go around a lot and I still don't know what it is. WHAT is My Immortal??

Ok buddy get yourself comfortable cause this is gonna be a long one:

Let’s go all the way back to 2006, when the internet was just becoming a thing to young people. Back when a majority of the websites we know today were either just starting out or just starting to pick up in popularity, including fanfiction.net. A lot of fanfictions had already filled the archives, both bad and good, but one fanfiction in particular caught people’s attention almost immediately. And it was ‘My Immortal’ by “Tara Gilesbie”, or ‘XXXbloodyrists666XXX’ as was her username on the website. Supposedly taking place in the world of Harry Potter, this particular fanfic gets to a point where, had it not been for the actual characters’ names being present, you can’t really tell what it’s supposed to be referencing as it has very little acknowledgement of the source material’s canon. The story’s main focus is “Tara’s” self-insert OC, Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Raven Way. Also known as Enoby, Egogy, Evony, Ibony, or just Tara. To anyone who has only heard of ‘My Immortal’, it just sounds like your typical run of the mill “mary sue” fanfiction. But what made ‘My Immortal’ stand above the rest were three things: the butchered grammar, the author’s seemingly obsession with the gothic subculture, and the mary sue herself.

The grammar is terrible, there is just no other way to put it. “Tara” had a very distinct way of writing, which was better exemplified in her ‘author’s notes’, her little thoughts that she always puts at the very beginning of each chapter or sometimes at the end. And other times in the middle of her story, to either talk back to the ‘flamerz’, go on about how much she loves a band she mentioned, or point out a pun she made. And it all greatly resembles someone sending a text message:

“AN: STOP flaming! if u flam it menz ur a prep or a posr! Da only reson Dumbledeor swor is coz he had a hedache ok an on tup of dat he wuz mad at dem 4 having sexx! PS im nut updating umtil I get five good revoiws!”

That kind of style is present throughout the whole story. Granted the actual chapters have better spelling, but the way it’s put together is all the same. And it actually worsens the further it goes to the near point of illegibility. In fact, legend has it that the story’s grammar was apparently so bad that fanfiction.net deleted it due to the sudden drop of intelligence on the site. No one knows if that’s true, most likely not as that seems like quite a stretch. However, it was actually deleted, perhaps by Tara herself, though she later reposted it.

But the real kicker is exactly how the fanfic interprets the source material. Hogwarts is no longer a school of wizardry divided by bestowed houses, but is now a more high school-based setting where everyone is divided by cliques, though only three are present. Goths, preps, and posers:

•Goths are the good kids. They’re the only ones who understand this dark and depressing world better than anyone else, and shows their individuality by shopping at Hot Topic together and listening to the same exact bands. They’re also half vampires for some reason. And they’re all part of Slytherin even if they’re originally from another house in the actual story.

•Preps are the mean kids. They just like, totally don’t understand goths so they’re like so mean to them and call them scary and stuff. They’re all just bitchy and are like totally jealous of the goths and only shop at stores like American Eagle and only listen to crappy music like Hilary Duff. And all those stupid preps are in Gryffindor.

•Posers are just goth wannabes who listen to Avril Lavigne and probably don’t even know who Good Charlotte is. What houses are they even in, no one knows and no one gives a shit. They’re mostly there just to show the reader what being goth is really all about.

And above them all is the only true goth, the queen of Mary Sues herself, Ebony. Now the definition of what makes a “mary sue” has been drastically skewed over the years, and probably shouldn’t even be relevant anymore, but if you at the very least want a true-to-heart example, Ebony is the way to go. Tara’s obsession with being goth is greatly reflected in this character. She loves bands like My Chemical Romance, Good Charlotte, Simple Plan, and Evanescence (who wrote the song ‘My Immortal’ which this fanfic is named after). She shops at Hot Topic and wears the type of clothing that any 13 year old goth wishes they could. In fact, Ebony’s outfits are always described in great detail and takes up to almost paragraphs in every chapter:

“For example today I was wearing a black corset with matching lace around it and a black leather miniskirt, pink fishnets and black combat boots. I was wearing black lipstick, white foundation, black eyeliner and red eye shadow.”

And trust me when I say they only get longer. It isn’t just the outfit descriptions though, the whole entire story is written in Ebony’s favor. Like a Hot Topic being in Hogsmede despite it being a nonmagical store (not to mention being an american chain) and a club where Ebony’s favorite bands just happen to be playing concerts in despite being muggle bands. And how cutting, underage drinking, and smoking is glamorized as being “dark” and “beautiful” and has no repercussions whatsoever. And how there’s no uniforms so Ebony can show off her over the top wardrobe.

Since Ebony is the main character and this is a fanfiction, all of Tara’s favorite characters from the Harry Potter world are Ebony’s gothic friends and accompany her in Slytherin, even if they’re canonly in other houses as I’ve mentioned previously. And all of Tara’s hated characters are Ebony’s enemies, and are depicted as either nasty preps or a bunch of posers that belong in Gryffindor. It doesn’t stop there though, as all the male characters have a thing for Ebony because she is just so sexy and looks exactly like Amy Lee. But Ebony only focuses on her two main love interests, Draco Malfoy and Harry Potter, who now goes by Vampire Potter because he likes the taste of human blood.

This is all just the very basics of the fanfiction, there are plenty of more absurdities you’ll stumble upon the further you read. Like Voldemort and the Death Eaters disguising themselves as My Chemical Romance, Snape video taping Ebony taking a bath, characters from different sources making cameos like Marty Mcfly, the list goes on.

But what truly, TRULY made ‘My Immortal’ such a phenomenon is that no one knew if it was legit. There were two sides to how people felt about it, those who thought it was a real story and Tara at the time was another young angsty teen who had just been introduced to the internet (which would explain the terrible grammar and botched sex scenes), and those who thought the story was one big joke written by a genius troll who made Tara up as a persona, which was extremely plausible since everything about the story was so wrong and completely blown out of proportion that there was no possible way someone could’ve come up with it and been completely serious. But people on the other side have argued that they’d have a very, VERY dedicated troll.

One of the biggest factors to their argument was Tara’s friend Raven, who not only had her own OC named Willow that was featured in the story, but also had a helping hand in writing it. She even had her own fanfiction.net account called ‘bloodytearz666’. Raven was Tara’s creative filter, as she was in charge of spelling and grammar and came up with some plot points in the story. At least until chapter 16 when the two apparently had a falling out and Tara killed off Willow, but later brought Willow back as an apology. So this troll would’ve had to not only make Tara, but also make Raven as a means to support their persona, unless Raven was created by a second troll. But both of those trolls would’ve had to write other stories pre and post ‘My Immortal’, as well as manage several social media accounts, which is a whole lot of effort just for the sake of making a joke.

Since the story was made, many people have come forward claiming they are the mysterious Tara, with promises of more material and continuations of the infamous story. So no one knew for sure who Tara is or her whereabouts. Until now.

After years and years of shrouded mystery, “Tara” has finally logged back into her more than decade old account and revealed herself to be Rose Christo. As it turns out, she co-wrote ‘My Immortal’ with Raven, who was actually a real person and her friend, during a very hard time in her life. And it wasn’t for a reason most might have thought. She revealed that she purposely made it as bad as possible so she could gain enough publicity to find her younger brother that she had been separated from.

She even wrote a memoir about it that is set to be published in 2018, which you can read about here.

You can also read the fanfiction itself if you’re interested here. Even if it did turn out to be a fake, it’s still a very humorous read, and very interesting since we now know its backstory.

EDIT: So as it turns out the whole thing with Rose was a hoax and the real Tara is still out there. Waiting, longing, in a dark alley with her hand stretched out so that I may one day shake it.