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Right. Let's get this REAL clear here, yeah? For as much as I hate diving into the clusterfuck of bad takes surrounding Nandermo, I gotta say something real loud and clear;
There is NO universe, none at ALL where I give a flying kaleidoscopic fuck if Nandor and Guillermo ""go cannon"". Or get together in some sort of idealized monogamous soulmates situationship. None.
What I DON'T like is how throughout the entire show run, the IDEA of Guillermo and Nandor as a couple was never explored. (other then as a joke once or twice)
PLEASE feel more then free, feel OBLIGATED (if you want them to be platonic) to bring up IN TEXT that they simply aren't interested in each other in that way. There are ten thousand ways to do it!
My kingdom for in the next episode (there is some weird... last episode thing still right?) it's mentioned that they got together for like a week before they both decided that just wasn't what they wanted. Or that they used to fuck when Guillermo was new to the vamily but it low key sucked.
My hand in marriage for a mention of Guillermo having, or specifically not having for whatever reason, a crush on his super cool idealized REAL VAMPIRE boss man when they met, but getting over it the longer they spent together.
My heart for ANY acknowledgement that these are two queer men deeply interwoven in each others lives in a show where the entire rest of the cast is constantly hitting on each other and having chill low key background sex on the reg, and if they are platonic (completely fucking fair) acknowledging in any way in text the idea that they could not be platonic if they wanted, but that they do not want that.
I DO NOT care about ~""shipping""~. There is a history far older then the medium of censoring, or even just being really fucking weird about, queerness, vs the decade or so of increased visibility we've just had. And all I need is simply to see the possibility actually acknowledged and then discarded in text if that's what the writers prefer. I need to see... actual explicit character development and acknowledgement of who these two are, what they mean to each other and why. Not this string along shit (with a side of making fun of the fans, because THAT doesn't clearly shoot any claim to good intentions/ignorance in the foot and lay out what kind of people are in charge) unless you ARE planning to pay off the "will they won't they" tension. (INCLUDING with a "they won't and here's why"!!)
#expecting a bevy of “piss on the poor” takes on this one boys#wwdits#wwdits s6#wwdits season 6#wwdits spoilers#nandermo#don't expect this to get notes because I'm actually being blunt as fuck here but i also dont care#I saw someone say they were “blocking people” for “calling nandermo queer bait” and i'm just like#ffs why are you doing the corpo's job for them?#I have my own feelings about “shipping wars” or what the fuck ever but like come on.#its not queer bait in the traditional sense but look#there's still something weird and a little fucked up going on here#AND thats before we talk about the shows early fatphobia but WHOA BOY we dont have time to unpack all that#but my god does that ever contribute to my feelings on how they treated guillermo (i.e. gross and entirely unsex'd) early on#they were and are still weird about him.
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So I read A Stitch in Time and one result of that which I was certainly not expecting was that I feel so much sympathy for Enabran Tain. Garak's life is a tragedy, but Tain's is a fucking black comedy.
I mean, he's a terrible person and an absolute shitbag, but can you imagine? You have this kid. You go to all the trouble of arranging for him to be raised in a family situation where he won't be rejected from society for being your bastard. You get him into the nicest indoctrination school where he can hobnob with plenty of uppercrust kids. You get him a job in your Order and all the proper training. And he's actually, like, really good at it. But he has this fatal flaw of being completely incapable of not making stupid, short-sighted, emotional decisions.
A scene I imagine has to have happened just prior to Garak and Tain's confrontation at the end of part II:
Like goddamn. When Tain asked "what's your plan for getting rid of her husband?" and Garak's just like "plan what plan." Dude. I'M disappointed, I can only imagine the guy who's job it is to know and plan for everything isn't at least as disappointed.
I know he didn't actually, but do you think there was ever a time when Tain wanted to be like, You know what. Just go back to Tolan and become a gardener. Join that illegal hippie cult. It's fine.
#enabran tain#<tagging mostly in case anyone has him blocked bc i get it.#a stitch in time#elim garak#ds9 the garyalmor rewatch#(obviously not technically part of the rewatch but that's mostly a timing tag for organizing my opinions)#can't believe this is the second time i've compared tain to a character from teen wolf. BUT IT WONT BE THE LAST#I was reading apolesen's fantastic Love in a Time of Oppression and for some reason it made me remember a fic i read last year by#GoddessofBirth called There Are Many Names in History (but none of them are ours). which. yeah that's probably bc of the doomed nature of#a prequel romance. but also Chris Argent and Garak both win the 'i'm sorry your dad is the literal worst' award. Anyway I've always felt#like I *should* get a Tywin Lannister vibe off of Tain. like this is the guy who orchestrated the red wedding. who fucked up his kids so ba#he died from it. But I don't. I can definitely agree to a Gerard Argent vibe though. The 'you though you were laying out some kind of#dynasty but in actuality your son is a better person than you and everything you have ever striven for has been undone' sort of vibe#100
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I am here to tell all physical nonhumans and supporters to not engage with tumblr user ursacanid on any of his posts about physical nonhumans and perhaps consider blocking. He is not open to even tolerating physical nonhumans and will not change his mind. I ascertained this myself from a very long and frustrating conversation in which he kept rehashing very classic and familiar 'anti-thisidentity' povs. Namely:
He talks a lot about 'you can be tested and your DNA and blood etc would come back as human, therefore you are physically human' and won't accept any reasoning or arguments which oppose this as the one objective truth or suggest that the experience of being physically different even if it is all psychological perception warrants the use of the word physical or literally (blank) 1/2
Not accepting the personal happiness/euphoria of physical nonhumans and the fact it's harmless (except the issues he's invented) to be a good enough reason for the use of the word 'physical' and anyone saying 'I am literally physically nonhuman' due to above 'it's illogical' mentality. 2/2
'You're special snowflakes', although he didn't use that exact phrasing he may well have as he believes that physical nonhumans simply enjoy being more special than other nonhumans and enjoy starting fights by interjecting that they are physically nonhuman and accusing people of being ableist and exclusionary.
'I don't understand your labels, so you must be doing it to confuse me', he strongly believes that physical nonhumanity is a confusing term because of it's inclusion of the word 'physical' and that refusal to change it to something he deems is more fitting is being done because the community likes to confuse people and make communication difficult and unclear.
'You're in an echo chamber because you don't like it when I tell you that you're wrong', dislikes that most physical nonhumans won't and thinks they absolutely should debate him on their identity despite the fact that he won't accept any counterargument that doesn't result in you relenting that you've got a human body. Hates all that go 'Nope I am literally this though' due to feeling they do not have to justify their identity to strangers and can't seem to understand that hostility towards this behaviour is because it is rude and uncalled for and that no group enjoys it when people not in their group or even in their group tell them that they're not actually (blank). 1/2
Sees this as indication that physical nonhumans are a toxic group which exists in an echo chamber because wanting support for your identity, or at least tolerance, and to be included/considered in the wider community/communities language and disliking anti's who tell you you're not what you are is apparently wrong. 2/2
In other words, it's completely pointless and probably upsetting to try and speak with him on the matter. His posts are going to be inflammatory because he really wants to convince the community to go against physical nonhumans, or at the very least acknowledge that 'it's not physical, it's (blank)'. I have sympathy, he's Autistic and so am I and I know what it feels like when something doesn't sit right with your internal perception of 'real and logical' and how the mind makes a mountain out of that molehill because of it, so please please don't harass him, but I keep seeing his one post go around with different people trying to get something across to him and I'm telling you it's not happening. Here is all he has to say and will ever say, you don't have to engage with him further.
#It's just funny to me because he's trans and a therian#and people regularly tell both those groups they aren't actually what they say they are#he says he experiences the world more like a bear than a human and#it would be so easy for me to say 'well that's impossible you're human so you don't actually know what being a bear is like and can't#experience the world as one. If you can't prove to me without a doubt that what you experience is actually 'bear' and not 'human' you shoul#call yourself a bear furry instead as that is more accurate to your experience'#but ofc I fucking wouldn't because that would rude and hypocritical of me#in the same way I could say 'but biologically you are female therefore you cannot be male in any capacity and I refuse to accept any answer#that involve gender and sex as seperate as I think gender ideology is intentionally confusing and non-literal when it should be'#which OF COURSE I WOULDN'T#but this would be using all the same arguments he is!!#anyway I blocked him but I hope he read my advice to just stay away from a community which he clearly gets upset over#physically nonhuman#physical nonhuman#physical therian#physical alterhumanity#physical nonhumanity#holothere
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Btw every so often i remember twst and that one rando who got like disproportionatelly pissed off at me bc i said it'd be interesting to explore morality in a world where the dominant culture is influenced by what are essentially machiavellian villains. Like it just pops into my head sometimes, whether they've figured out how to have fun and ignore headcanons they don't like by now
#bc they rb'd arguing with me but immediately blocked me so i couldn't even defend myself#but i still believe it. i still don't think those charas are like that just bc ''they're hs boys''#bc every so often while playing one of them says smth i believe is incredibly fucked up and i'll expect the others to call him out on it#but it just gets almost ignored or even agreed with#and also it doesn't necessarily mean they are evil or what have you. just that believe it or not morality is influenced by#culture and in a culture where the ideal is influenced by like maleficent and scar. morality might be a bit different than ours.
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in hindsight, when i first saw bad explaining lore to forever during that legendary 16 hour stream and bad had already, in the early days of brazil, previously established a routine of saying like "ok!" or whatever to the daily server restart message (a message that was early enough in his time zone that he definitely would not have slept and woken up to greet it) SHOULD have clued me in to the fact that this guy never fucking sleeps but holy shit can cucurucho non-canonically scare the fear of god back into him so his head touches the pillow for more than like thirty minutes like WHAT. i mean at this point i'd even suggest sending someone in the code monster skin to float there menacingly and then say in fuckin hatsune miku voice or like chipmunked audio just. "YOU'RE HALLUCINATING, BADBOYHALO. DRINKING WATER IS NOT ENOUGH. GO TO SLEEP."
#qsmp#for clarity: all non-canon actions. code monster would not attack nor spawn anything#literally just there to pop his adrenaline and then hit him with the unexpected so maybe he'll be like yea ok that's enough excitement#and GO TO SLEEP.#shut up vic#block game brainrot#like don't get me wrong i would be him if i were in his shoes#i am the exact same way#but i'm NOT in his shoes therefore i get to be concerned for his welfare all the hell i want#QSMP sends a message in chat: badboyhalo what sort of a time do you call this.#like please convince this dude to close his eyes for thirty seconds at least#chat was like 'bad how many subs to make you take a day off the smp' and he just LAUGHED
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#currently on the worst road trip of my whole entire life! well. i don't want to jinx it lmao but#today i popped TWO TIRES at once in the middle of the Katy Freeway in Houston TX (the widest highway in the US; 26 lanes btw)#managed to make it over to the shoulder without DYING but then had to sit there for like an hour? and panic called a tow truck because duh#I know how to change a tire but I was – again – sitting on the shoulder of the widest freeway on the continent so#anyway I called a tow; a guy showed up. I assumed it was the tow! turned out it was not. but he helped me put on the spare and then was lik#“follow me to my shop I can do the tires for you” and I was like okay! 👍 but then the ACTUAL tow called me and I realized this was#just a random guy (very nice up to that point but then I got scared about following him to a secondary location?) and so I didn't lmao#I just kept driving and didn't follow him but the guy on the phone was then mad at me because I wasn't where I said I would be because#AGAIN – I thought the original guy WAS the tow company that I called? but anyway guy 2 on the phone was like “YOU OWE ME $200!!!!”#and I said for what? also how would I pay you? and he tried to get me to cash app him lmao?? I didn't. I hung up on him#he called me like 6 more times yelling at me until I finally just blocked his number 💀#however NOW at this point I'm driving on one spare tire and one rapidly-flattening second tire and I still have 3 hours left to get where#I was going for the night and to top it all off I'm in the middle of a city I've only been to one time before? so I manage to get to a hote#like a nice-ish one where I'm like “okay if I get stuck here this won't be the end of the world”#because keep in mind today is a national holiday so basically everything is closed!!!! btw!!!!!#but eventually I'm sitting there and it's literally 100F outside and I remember oh right lol I have car insurance which pays for a tow#(a normal one; not a random one I panic-found on google who calls me screaming at me to cash app him $200)#so anyway I call my insurance and the guy on the phone is very nice and is like “it's okay; we'll have someone to you in 45 min”#and I'm like okay. OKAY. 🙌💪 I am a strong independent woman who is figuring this out and no longer on the side of the highway#but instead in a nice calm neighborhood and all I have to do is wait 45 min and everything will be okay#one hour goes by. I call back. get redirected to the tow company that was dispatched. guy says oh! is my guy not there yet?#I say no. he says okay – I'll have him call you. hangs up.#okay. 20 more min go by. guy finally calls me. says “I'm 20-25 min away” at this point I've been waiting about an hour and a half#I say. okay? okay. 30 more minutes go by. I try to call the guy back. straight to voicemail. three more calls. three more no answers.#I call my insurance back. sit on hold for 15 min. eventually get put through to a different person who's like “okay let me check on him”#get put on hold. eventually she comes back and says “okay he says 15 minutes” I've been waiting over 2 hours at this point. I have to PEE#I just... burst into tears. on the phone with this poor random woman from Geico Insurance. I'm bawling my eyes out.#she was trying to get claim info from me but I'm crying so hard she's like “oh baby no. okay. okay. we can get that from you tomorrow.”#when you cry so hard that even the insurance company is like “you know what we're just going to let this one slide”#anyway guy eventually shows up. he's very nice even though I hate him a little for being so late. he drives me to an OPEN TIRE SHOP
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#not gonna make a real post but i gotta vent a little#there was that one poll abt which DA man has the most annoying fans#which i did not vote in bc as someone who values my own sanity i don't hang out in tags of characters that get on my nerves#but i'm just dumb enough to have looked in the notes and apparently solas was sweeping i guess#which by itself is whatever#but then the tags were just dozens of ppl complaining that solas fans were annoying bc they *checks notes*#post about solas a lot???#and 'flood the lavellan tag'? you know...the only character you can romance him with w/o a mod???#and they hate that we're 'acting like DA4 is going to only be abt him'...you know. the game originally called 'dreadwolf'#idk my guys i get that if someone jumps on your post and makes it abt a character u hate that's annoying#but it sure sounds like ur just bitching abt ppl having fun in their own fandom space#this sounds very much like a YOU issue#like i remember someone literally made a post like 'UGH why do Solavellans even like him?!' that ended up on my dash#and I answered in good faith not feeling like i was being mean or aggressive#and i promptly got yelled at for 'not staying in my lane'#my brother in Christ YOU asked MY part of the fandom a question#Not saying there aren't Solas fans w/ Rancid Takes but i swear half the complaints i see are people just mad that we're having a good time#curate your own online experience guys it's not that hard#i waited 10 years for closure with this dumpster fire man#and no one is going to spoil my fun about it#block me to the moon and back idc
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half of his bodyweight is gonna be hair alone
#Homestuck#Dirk strider#you're all gonna get subjected to periodic updates to this project sorryyyyyyy#I simply must post#I'm just blocking out major shapes rn#starting with the hair bc I know it's gonna be the most difficult part :/#Homestuck hairstyles just... do not like translating to 3d#also I ran out of super sculpey (non-firm) so I need to go get some more of that before I can block out the rest of him#I'm just gonna get a base down that looks good from.. most angles. maybe not all angles but at least some of them#I don't like the hair too much yet bc it's not dynamic enough#I need to take a knife to it and make the.. idk would you call them bevels?? I just need to make it look better. bevel it.#add some oomph to those spikes and swoops#also I did get to trickster mode in my reread tonight#oh that... part of the comic. you son of a gun#oh I did get to the bit where they all god tier too#love dirks little outfit#so pink <333333#I debated sculpting him in that fit but have no idea how to do the puffy pants ahfkajgkkakfka#fluffle sculpts#WIP#fluffle art
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i spend a bit of time on twitter for fandom stuff bc there are some really talented artists and writers but oh my god i have to limit my time on that app so much compared to tumblr bc one tiny thing will happen and suddenly there'll be the most despair-inducing discourse ever and i genuinely want to die
#honestly twitter definitely wants people to get angry bc angry people tweet more#this is mostly abt sttwt but ig it applies to other fandoms too#like one person will say one thing and suddenly everyone sees it on their timeline and everyone and their mother is talking about it#when it really isn't that deep#and also some people are just so rude?? like the ship wars are awful and people just make stuff up and say the most horrible shit#and it's so easy to find hate accounts like i'm not opposed to being a hater of things occasionally#but today i found an account called smth like 'why people hate st*ddies' (not censored)#and it was literally just someone screenshotting all the petty drama from one niche subset of the fandom#like i just don't understand how people can have fun on twitter if they use it like intended??#i have to turn on notifs for people i like and use the notifs as a dashboard bc the timeline will randomly show you the most rancid shit#plus i feel like twitter is actively trying to make it hard to see anything older than a day#i hate the way it's all about new new new and content content content oh my god shut up shut up shut up-#obv tumblr can have awful people too but i feel like it's so much easier to avoid stuff like that if you curate ur own experience#like on tumblr i can just block someone bc i don't wanna see their posts but on twitter blocking someone is a personal attack#and someone will write a thread about how you're a toxic bitch making the fandom worse and you hated them bc they drew b*lly h*rgrove once#and that means you're against discussing harmful topics in media and are pro censorship or smth idk#girl maybe i just don't like him and don't wanna see fanart of him ugh#i feel like maybe i'm really sensitive bc seeing people argue abt things really upsets me?? but idk i thought that was universal#but apparently people love being mad??#anyways uh. steve/eddie nation 4 eva yass#how to be cringe 101#i feel like i need a tag for my beef with twitter uuh#twitter hate#there
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#so i just finished s1ep2 of the bear (i don't really get it so far but ok)#and there's this scene where the main character calls up his sister and tells her about the mental shit that has been happening with him uk#and like even though this feeling is always there but lile i can't help but feel like my life would have been so much better with a sibling?#like one id have good relationships with uk???#and ik ik found family and forming meaningful relationships outside is an option but like in this capitalistic individualist society? is it?#anyways that's not the point it's that there's always stuff no body in the world would get except people who grow up with you innit?#be it school or hometowns or families and it would have been nice to have someone help me not feel this complete overwhelmness all the time#and without me feeling like im exaggerating or thinking that the person would judge me or having to keep telling everything repeatedly#but then i think would that even matter when I am the one who's the problem and like can't work to form that connection with anyone?????#like i for the life of me cannot share anything beyond the surface level or without making a joke out of it#and it seems funny but i trivialise so much of the fucking shit that happens so obviously no one takes it seriously not their fault right?#and like how fair to my friends that i literally almost always been superficial and lowkey untrue with them in exchange for their honesty???#at this point i feel like i don't even know what i truly feel or truly am because whenever i look back at my past self im like wtf#idk most of the times it just feels like being 'stuck' in a glass container and me not 'letting' anyone in if that makes sense?#ik im being very annoying about it but im just so tierd of feeling like this its been a decade & its way too long to constantly feeling dead#and im so fucking stubborn in my sadness that i won't even go get help after years of crying about wanting it & now finally having resources#it's like this mental block which i can't seem to remove and i feel like even if i do get help ill still be untrue so what's the point!???#yeahhhhh anyways i'll delete this later i don't journal so tumblr will have to make do#vi.txt
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Are you FUNKING kidding me with this? Why don't you have any posts about it? I've been following you for a while, but i didn't realize you selfshipped too! Why don't you have that in your pinned? hwy can't you warn people about your characters? Astarion is MY Major comfort f/o, and you ship with him too. "pretty boy" "Pretty boy" Pretty funked of you to not warn anyone. Blocked, this is absolutely heartbreaking, he's mine! I'm genuinely crying, you complete arse. Warn people.
I hate to tell you this, but I'm saying "Pretty Boy" in an almost entirely derisive way.
#look.#it doesn't matter if i was to be selfshiiiiping with him#this is completely uncalled for when I don't post about that stuff on main#my calling a character a nickname like that is no reason for you to get so defensive and upset#and i hate to say this too? But he's the fandom pretty boy#If i'm making someone uncomfortable it's better to block and move on#Especially for a reason like this#he's a very derisive character. i think it's funny to give him a derisive nickna#me. and i happened to start calling him that one#he thinks he's sooo fucking pretty
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me, having just learned a science fact that i gotta share: and- and did you know that cows and orcas are more genetically linked than cows and horses-???
jackie, having already known this cuz he's the biggest science geek ever: woah, bunny, that's so cool!!
#ashton is talking#jackieboy man#self ship#if anyone's got any ideas for self ship jackie posts let me know so i can use them#that way y'all have a tag to block so you don't get annoyed#i've probably told him the same fact a bunch of times yet he still gets excited about me getting excited about science#we're just a couple'a science dorks uwu#also yes he calls me bunny#literally just cuz bunnies are my favorite animals#and cuz one of my stims is thumping my foot like a rabbit#you'll never hear me complaining though
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#You have to be willing to be vulnerable and willing to take chances to experience real connection and intimacy#but Frollo doesn't know how to sheath his claws#My Frollo goes his entire life with his back safely in the corner#There was this one time one of Lucy's date recommendations actually lasted almost two months#But She said I love you too fast and scared Frollo so much that he ghosted her#GHOSTED HER#Like blocked her#and the girl was super upset#and they ran into each other at some point and Frollo tried to be civil#and she straight up called him the scum of the earth and made Frollo feel absolutely terrible#and don't even get me started on his childhood crush#She was all over him and they had this super tense friendship and they bickered all the time#but they like obviously liked each other#and then one day she just flipped out and told him that she deserves a friend who is actually going to be compassionate about her feelings#like she vents to frollo about her parents getting divorced and she might have to choose where to live and she's super upset and Frollo#doesn't know what to do so he is just his stoic self#and she gets pissed at him#he immediately quits the dance lessons they were taking together#and just never saw her again#until they also run into each other when she visits paris after frollo and esme are already dating#and Frollo is just deer in the headlights cuz he thinks he's gonna get chewed out again or something#Frollo just thinks he has this knack for upsetting women#Which is true#but he always feels like he is incapable of providing what women want from him#Since Frollo finds it difficult to be caring and supportive because he has also never had that he doesn't really know how to SHOW he cares#Like he will cancel plans. vacations. etc. if Lucy even needs a baby sitter#LIke this man would do anything for you he just doesn't know how express that because his love language is acts of service#My Frollo has this whole complex around women way before esme was even born lmao#He always runs away when his little protective barrier is threatened#either because he gets spooked or because he doesn't want to deal with the rejection of them doing it
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Gave him the boot
Ended it with my fwb today bc the steady realization i have been in love with my ex best friend who i blocked and ghosted a year ago is too much for me to bear, even tho Johnathan was going to be a lot of fun bc he was into the exact same kinks as me in the exact same way and matched my freak to an eerie degree
So im gonna just kinda settle into maybe becoming one of those professional yeaners who still pine over their homoerotic object of affection like 70 years later. Wish me luck, I might become a published poet in like 5 years if i can channel whatever this is constructively!


#I found the real sufferers tweet. real. i knew i was gonna end it as soon as it began bc i love to self sabotage.#i was talking about it yesterday like lol I'm gonna blow that up but today has been suckerpunch after suckerpunch of reflection#and examination and just being like damn okay. but yknow! i love to turn my pain into art#so ig since i don't feel like writing about my anime beau I'll just write some poems about whatever the hell the mess i call a heart is#there's a few other guys i still need to turn down gently but lol idc maybe i should blow up#did stupid impulsive shit like sending an email like omg can we talk but tbh. its not healthy. pretty much since i left i wanted to go back#even though i blocked everyone bc i was mad at him i wanted to just run away somewhere only to be with him#anyways last night i was so intp Johnathan and then it clicked the terms he was using and how he was using them were just like my ex bestie#i think the worst part of being intensely jealous and anxious and acting out when you feel threatened is when you know you're doing it#but can't stop. i like to leave in those situations bc i hate who i become#not only is it healthier for me to leave but i do it out of protection of others too. especially if ik im asking for more than i should or#want something that isn't mine to ask for.#i don't think i regret it though. i don't really regret any of my choices these days bc for better and for worse i need to learn these#lessons. but ig when i realized it last nov i kinda just tried to obsess + fuck it out of my system but now as I'm examining the true depth#of my emotions a whole year of no contact later im just like. ah. so that's why it feels like half of my soul has been severed#and then having to look at my own hand holding the blade. there's a detachment from myself but nobody to blame but me#man the poems just write themselves! here's hoping i get some coin from it ig.
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talking about impenetrable accents/dialect just reminded me. when I was in Milan a couple of years back I was staying in this little rathole hotel and I had the biggest fucking migraine, so I was like non c'è problema I'll just go buy painkillers. of course every pharmacy on the map in a three block radius was closed, so my stupid ass just starts wandering around trying to figure out on the fly if you can get OTC from supermarkets in italy.
I walk into this little everything store (to my foreign eyes the kind of place that back home could sell you a bunch of carrots, a 6-pack of beer, pantyhose, bleach and a screwdriver set) and I see some household basics in the back but not what I need. with the confidence of a person who is only in the city for 3 days because he got bored and packed a bag and booked the cheapest flight available the week before (<= MENTAL ILLNESS), I was like no worries I know some italian, I can just ask.
I grab a bottle of water, walk up to the counter, and I'm like Ciao, hai il paracetamolo? And the guy is like che, and I'm like paracetamolo. Per la mia testa. And he's like che?
This is where I would have said 'aspirina' except I can't take aspirin for medical reasons, or 'antidolorifico' except I don't know that word and I've got no phone data for google translate and also I'm stupid. So in my fucked up leith-glasgow-italian accent I'm like paaa-ra-cetta-mollll-ooo. He's like ohhh bene, bene, and he calls another guy out of the back and asks him to go get something. Other guy then walks out of the store into the street, and before I can be like hey, che la fuck, he comes back and hands me a huge bundle of herbs.
At this point I'm like okay this entire interaction has been a bust, but these guys have been very nice and patient and they're both smiling happily at me because they've been of service, so I'm like ahh perfetto, grazie, pay them a couple of euros and leave.
EVENTUALLY I find a pharmacy that's open, and my head is fucking killing me, and my phone still isn't connecting, and now I have this small shrubbery poking out of my coat pocket, so I don't even bother looking around the shelves. I just walk straight to the counter and I'm like uhh ciao, scusi. And hearing my nightmare of an accent the guy answers in english and I'm like thank christ, do you please have paracetamol. Not aspirin, I can't take aspirin. And he's like yeah yeah hold on, goes into the back, comes out with what I need.
Only when he comes out he gives me this look, and then he starts laughing. And then he pretends he's not laughing and rings me up and I pay, and as I'm leaving I can see him losing it. But I don't care, my head is going to explode, I'm going back to the rathole to close the blinds and fall comatose for four hours.
When I get back to my hotel room I take off my coat and remember the huge bouquet of herbs in my pocket. They smell amazing, and I'm like I'm pretty sure this is parsley in which case I can just get some tomatoes and mozzarella later and make it work. but since I have no idea what that interaction was, I want to make sure. I bring out my phone to get a visual reference of what parsley leaves look like, and because I was using it for google translate earlier I put 'parsley' in the wrong box like a dope and translate it to italian.
prezzemolo
I wish I could have been the pharmacist in the moment he looked at my tired pissed off anglophone ass, heard me say 'paracetamol' in my fucked up accent, and turned around saw what was in my pocket. I'd have lost my shit too.
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