#don't be do stupidddd

[ssa-atlas-alvez]

I’m so sorry I accidentally submitted the last ask not anonymously 🫠 I’m so sTUPIDDDD I’m sorry

Hi don't worry, please don't worry! I watched the tiktok and I agree that's such a cowboy reader thing to do! Please don't worry it's happened to me before too :)

I was going to save it and add it here so others can see the video but this was yonks ago and I forgot to do that I'm so sorry :')

[sisterssafespace]

Is it haram to make fake scenarios in head?? I mean even if they're negative?!! Like......uhh how do I explain😭😭

I always make some fake romantic scenarios in my head before bed and yess yess after making wudu and praying duas n all like...... It's like a play going in my head lol 😭 but for some scenes I get scared like.... What if this scene gets true 😭 I know I sound stupidddd!!!! But. . I guess it's okay just to THINK some things or?? Should I stop bro helpppp.

Assalamualaikum beautiful!

I just wanna say no? 😅

So the thing is, as stated in the bio, we don't give fatwahs on this page, I can't decide if something is halal or haram, I can only lay the pieces of information I have before you. But I am here to make you feel heard and feel that you're not alone. So about your scenarios, sübhanallah I,too, have always had this thing! Since I can remember. But when you say you get scared.. what do you mean? Are they scary scenarios? Are they about something bad happening? Because if so, that might be coming from something called " catastrophic thinking" which is related to anxiety. And when you asked should I stop, honey we can't stop our thoughts.. you can learn to control them, not to let them go further, distract yourself but you can't stop them from popping in your head especially if you happen to be going through a stressful period of time.. So, you should really figure out what is the origin of these thoughts.. and most importantly, you have to remain calm because the more you try to repress your thoughts or guilt yourself about them, the harder they'll push back and the stronger they will prevail.

I hope this helped sweetie!

May Allah swt grant you the peace of mind you need. Ameen.

- A. Z. 🍃🤍

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary243

5/17-18/24

friday - saturday

one more day then one day off.

worked on 3 songs today! very happy with that and the pace i'm on rn for completion. everything is sounding a lot better and the snares + bass and guitar-y sounds + synths are all really cooperating now. i think finally the "sound" of the record is like, becoming coherent, getting put down, the atmosphere and location has finally appeared in a way it hadn't before. so that is super awesome and cool. very happy about that.

that is 13 out of 32. gosh!!!

too tired to write a lot, unfortunately, or maybe fortunately. keep my thoughts to myself a bit, see what comes out later.

but i do need to write. i need to get to work on finding shorter poem-ish things i've written, or fragments i like, and work them out into something to submit to my friend, beside that longer stranger thing i did, which i really do like but it could be too long or something.

one thing, is that reading the impossible at work, this book is so strange, very odd feeling for bataille, it is maybe the most indebted to de sade his writing has ever felt to me, though also written in such odd fragments, as if at the limit (lol) of illness and consciousness, which feels like the point, very important point to reach and evoke, the characters are all in funny relation and at blurry distances, love animates and desire too, but it's all in this void, this constant rattling in the chest, reaching and failing and expecting, and by expecting something surfaces or one de-surfaces, one plunges, the plunge here is accurate but only in small measure i think, or odd measure would be the better word, it is never full, complete, it is always in progress and progress is... to what, it's mounting and falling apart, consummation is instead redirected, wolves chase their tales in medieval forests in the 20th century, history haunts and is dissolved by the bile of the mad.

which is to say i am liking it a lot, curiously written thing though, the oscillation between the philosophical - thought-forming moments and the plot, or rather, each abandons itself to the other, the story does move and there is a story, the story though is almost non-narrative, beyond delivery even, the protagonist for the first section of this book (i cannot tell if this character remains the center or not honestly, entering certain later chapters (perhaps i am stupidddd)), is so bedridden and away from action, that you get his fantasies of what takes place which is truthfully not what occurs, and upon uncovering what occurs, he is still bedridden. this is so curious, he is so ill, the novel's existence is some kind of sputum almost.

anyhow, i am glad to get thoughts out on this book, helps solidify it in memory. i am about half of the way through the book, it will end and then what... maybe i stick with bataille, bring his essays to work next. or do i got back to gary indiana?? who knowsss. i know i will quit soon. worried about the potential for my reading to dissipate. would be sad for me. but i can't keep myself there, it wears on me horribly, honest. i do not like psychology as an apparatus, and i think the way health is spoken of generally can be freaky, if one thinks about all the assumptions it develops (though, it is hard to discard it. i feel guilty for that) and with the admission of guilt, i will say, a rather obvious thing i guess, but i really have not been doing well with this job, i am doing well at it but my internal life is getting to be a fucking mess and i hate it. i don't know how it does this to me but it's really hellish spending a lot of my days in an actual state of being triggered by the insects at home and then at work barely existing at all. i snuff myself and when i return to, i am just frazzled and maybe even losing it a little more than i know.

the other day, i swear, i saw a couple ants in the bedroom, i killed them, on the wall in their place, there were over 10!! i killed them all. 2 returned. i killed them. i have seen no ants since, it resembled a dream, where you look away, and see your object of horror returned multifold. it was too narrative, it really does not feel real though maybe insects just have that about them. they are occasionally, or frequently maybe, holes in the 'real' we imagine. especially regarding cleanliness.

i wonder about if i have ocd somewhat often these days. though, do i even believe that these diagnoses should be treated as real and that any pathologizing of myself can do me any good? obviously not, but... it remains inside me. horrible.

anyway, anyway, anyway what. i dunno, i really just nneed to sleep so,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bambi-marquez]

did we not just have this conversation?!

[theoreticalli]

okay all mechs x tma crossovers are valid but the main reason I like "the Mechanisms are Grifter's Bone" more than "the Mechanisms are Jon's band from college" is that it means Jonny's OPPOSITE ENERGY self-inserts could possibly interact. like picture Jon getting his hands on a recording of Grifter's Bone and of course he can't keep himself from listening to it (he's assuming his powers will protect him). he's like Ulysses and the sirens, he has to know. but imagine his surprise and horror when he hears his own voice coming out of the speakers??? he probably drops his tea or whatever he's holding and has to pause it quickly before someone less immune comes to check on him. because a. he doesn't want them to die or kill him violently and b. no one can know he sings.

but anyways, at some point Jon goes on a little trip to track down whoever this bastard is that stole his voice and is using it to kill people (instead of, yknow, compelling them to tell him their traumas. w/e). and what do you know, eventually he finds a whole band of roving immortal space pirates and he doesn't even want to begin to try fitting that into his cosmology. they've been siding with the slaughter and writing nice music to die violently by for a few decades now.

in any case, he and their captain first mate don't look that much alike, but their voices are shockingly similar. unfortunately, none of them seem to be as concerned by this as Jon is. they're more interested in their next gig, trying to see if certain instruments or melodies can compel certain kinds of violence.

Jon tries to compel them to leave Earth and go harass another planet, but they just laugh. Marius tries to kill him (Jon stop angering people who are both stronger than you and prone to violence!!) but gets stopped.

"I like this one," Ivy says. "I respect his dedication to a good filing system. and anyways, it's about time we headed out."

the legend of Grifter's Bone fades out over the next few years. Jon never tells anyone about that encounter, because no one can know that someone with his voice was, for a brief time, using it to drive people to slaughter with weird steampunk scifi folk rock. he's already gotten into enough trouble with one of him running around. and more importantly, no one can know he sounded so good doing it.

[ncityzen]

i’m so stupid lmaooo

[reverse-moon]

Hhhhhh

One of the sides taking pain meds

And one of the others having to watch to make sure they don't do anything stupidddd

Characters: Logan and Virgil Logan takes a little more than he should of a dose of pain meds Virgil is reluctant to help Yep.

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How did Virgil get roped into this again?

Oh right. Logan, you know - the brain, had messed up and gotten really hurt. So, he had to take a pain pill.

Virgil knew how everyone reacted to pain pills. He made sure to know - Patton grew cuddly and sleepy, Roman and Remus just became tamer versions of themselves, and Janus somehow became more snake-like and sometimes got a fever. Virgil himself grew more anxious and also often needed more than one calming presence around him to even try and sleep it off.

But Logan never had a need. He never got hurt enough to need pain killers; he was too careful. So imagine the surprise when they all heard Logan ask for some.

Naturally, the choice for making sure Logan didn't have issues was Virgil. "What?! Why me?! I'm pretty sure I'm the least qualified!"

"Virgil, didn't you say you didn't have a list of how we all react to different pills and medicine?" Janus asked, reading a book.

"W-Well, yes... B-But-"

"Janus is right, Virge. Out of everyone, for something so sudden like this, you are a bit more ready for this." Patton said.

And thus, Virgil was in Logan's room, leaning on the wall as he waited for the effect to kick in. It had been about 30 minutes, around the time it usually would kick in normally. So...

He noticed Logan had been a bit quiet for a while... But there's a lot that could get him silent. "You good, Logan?"

"Hm? Oh, uh, yeah... I think... Am I supposed to feel fuzzy-headed when on things like this?" Logan asked softly.

Oh, good lord...

"Depending on the pill, it can do things like that. You took what again?" Virgil rubbed the bridge of his nose as he asked.

"Ibuprofen, about 450 milligrams."

...What?

"Logan, the recommended max dose is 400 milligrams within 4 to 6 hours. How even did you get a 50 milligram dose added, most tablets are 200 milligrams." Virgil said, moving from the wall to Logan.

"That might be why my brain is fuzzy..."

"You're LOGIC, how did you not know that you shouldn't take more than 400 milligrams?!" Virgil said, rather anxious. "You are way smarter than that!"

"In my defence, Virgil, I was - still sort of am - in a lot of pain. I took was I thought was needed." Logan said, looking at the anxious side. "... Why are my glasses not working-"

Virgi groaned. It wasn't exactly a high off of the pain killers, per say. But it was close enough. "You took them off ten minutes ago because you were planning on laying down. You know, 'cause you're in pain?"

"I did- Right... However, I have work, so I should get that done." Logan blindly looked for his glasses, worrying Virgil. Once Virgil spotted them, he sneakily hit them in his pocket.

"Logan, I don't think it's a good idea for you to be doing work right now. Maybe that laying down is the better option while you're fuzzy in the brain and hurting." Virgil said. "I mean... What if Thomas suffers in production because of a small mess up. We don't want that, right?"

"Virgil, I assure you... As soon as my glasses are back on my face, I'll be alright." He said. "I can't fall behind." Logan hummed a little. "How did we even start saying the phrase 'fall behind'? I mean, yes, if someone falls while in a group, the group may continue on their path. Which in turn, leaves the fallen behind. But from my understanding, at least one person from the group will care enough to backtrack and help whoever fell. Right? This means that no matter if they fell or not, someone kept them from 'falling behind'. Correct?"

Virgil shook his head, confused. "I don't know. Just lay down, you're head isn't-"

"And how did the term 'head on straight' and its variations come to be? Technically, every head is straight, but it also can change how it's oriented. But it is attached to the human body in one way, therefore, it's 'on straight' no matter what." Logan continued.

Oh, good fucking lord...

"That wasn't what I was going to say, but again, I don't know. I was gonna say your head isn't wanting to cooperate. So you really should lay down." Virgil said. He was really getting tired of this high-like trip Logan was on. "Can you j-" He looked over from the bed to find Logan right in front of him. "When did you-"

Virgil was cut off by Logan moving closer, his actions pushing Anxiety into the wall. He blushed, confused and probably causing Thomas to have way higher anxiety than planned (he'd have to apologise later). "L-Logan?" He managed to get out, looking up at the tall nerd.

"Did you know how special you are, Virgil...?" Logan's tone was deeper than normal. "You're amazing... And honestly..."

The next few minutes had to be a blur. There was no way Logan, of all sides, had leaned in. There was no way Logan kissed him for three minutes, pulled away from Virgil a little then flung himself and Virgil onto the bed before falling asleep in less than 30 seconds. There was just no way.

Worst part? He wasn't even sure if Logan would remember that. So he couldn't even ask, because it might just become an accusation at Logic.

...At least Virgil could still feel the joy from the kiss...

[aquagustd]

SO i'm back with my english. :'')

when i did say i want someone to stand by oc, i mean, i know she does it by herself. i just don't want her to suffer anymore /cryingariver. but i know yoongi & tae will be there for her, to help and take her away from the past and old wounds from time to time. i think i forgot HOW FCKNG BADASS she truly is.Now she is a mother and her son is her life, so ofc she will be more afraid and cautious about everything; but doesnt mean she cannot kick some ass if she needs.

in my defense, i never was team jk. even on the drabble, i realized that his ways to deal with things are not good & tae treats (& fuckssajfiocdsoijfefijffu) her much better. OK i give some credit do jk OK he is good awesome fucksniiiiice, but yet he doesn't seem to know limits & HE IS MUCH WORSE NOW omgggggggggg honestly honestly honestly i cannot save him. EVEN WITH SOME ASS GOOD EXPLANATION how is treating her, i dont care. we might forgive him and yet want he is out LITERALLY OUT. leave oc with junho being happy alone, or with tae cuz he will be the best father. no mores. yk whatever happened during or before or after yoongi’s wedding is no good for sure and/or life changer.

as i said, i want to be 100% team tae. but with the whole fic’ styles and your amazing writing ability, it is kinda hard. bc oc has been going through hell her whole life, with sparkles of happiness that when, as yuri said, a prince charming appears, everything seems too good to be true…ofc jk is balancing things out (THAT STUPIDDDD JERK) yet…

OK i think tae is sus but not in a bad way. Since the beginning ik there is something there however does not mean it is bad, could be actually a awesome thing. Bc all the characters have some mystery in them until now (saving oc & yoongi..cuz EVEN JUNHO HAS SECRETS) and tae is much more into oc’s life than she is into his (ok, is a important person we know). so,the mystery is still there (doesn't mean he wants something more than is showing right now). ALSO he is opening about his childhood! lovely! my heart is out <33.

and we don't about this, but ***the voices in my head**** say that there is the possibility of jk being this whole mess cuz he thinks oc had abandoned him when decided to have a normal life or she is not a woman from him anyway cuz now she is a normal person ??? or something very crucial happened… idk, i think yoongi’s wed. moment has the key. etheir way i am almost sure he wants junho, as he first (and only) child to be the one to assume his “”””family business””””. which makes me hate him EVEN MORE (is it possible at this point?) just to think of it. PLUS so “”funny!”” how he decided to appear when oc is having the time of her life with tae. LIKE “””everyone knows you are already here so why now??”””. honestly: jk is the hell and now he changed and became empty.

ps: i am sorry for the ass essay here! AAAAAH JIMIN APPEARED and i already want to hug him!...that’s why i dont read a lot of fics with him cuz i am sooooooooo biased when he steps in :’’’’’’)

YESS OC IS BADASS & can fight her own battles. i get what you mean !! she does need some help from time to time but that doesn’t make her weak.

😩😩 you’re so right about jungkook. no matter what happened at yoongi’s wedding, we know that it wasn’t good because look at the way jungkook is behaving now ??

aw yes 🥺 we’re learning about tae in bits & pieces. i’m glad you spotted it ! oc is so into her own shit that she doesn’t have time to spend with him 🥲 tae is a bit mysterious, but that’s not his fault at all.

oh my god??? that is literally amazing. are you a writer??? “jungkook is the hell and now he is empty” i never thought of that myself 😭 & your theories???? he thinks that she left him for a normal life like WOT you are one smart bean. and thinking that he might want junho because he’s the next heir to the family business 👀👀👀 can i kiss you ???

don’t apologize about your essay!! valid points were made 😤 and jimin yes 😭😭 i had to cut out so many scenes because he was being too flirty with y/n and there was too much tension. thank you for reading bb <3

[medievalraven]

Okay I don't mean to be an asshole but i feel like the writing team is really just continuously dropping the ball with Beth. They make her look soooo stupidddd. She literally never learns, and her plans always fail!!!! I cannot understand how Rio at this point has any trust in her whatsoever; I understand that he can't kill her, but she throws a wrench in everything all the time! I'm not feeling it this season

Hey I don’t think you’re being an asshole at all!  Your opinion is completely valid and I know a lot of people share your sentiments about Beth and season three in general.

And I completely agree with you, anon - Beth doesn’t always learn from her mistakes and her plans are often lacking.  

But I also think that’s the point?  At least in a way.  

Beth (and Annie and Ruby) aren’t seasoned professionals like Rio arguably is.  They’re still learning and gaining their footing in this completely foreign world that they were thrust into during season one.  They’re still negotiating amongst themselves what they are and aren’t willing to do.  Because it’s one thing to wash some fake cash through a big-box store and a completely different thing to “handle” someone who’s talking to the FBI.  And I think a lot of their problems come from these self-imposed limits they put on themselves so they can still feel like “good people.”

But we’ve also seen how with time the girls have been learning more and getting better!  Look at their counterfeit money scheme in season three - that wasn’t something Rio ever taught them, they figured that out on their own and it seemed pretty successful to me.  

And maybe it’s just me, but I would be highly critical of the show if Beth (and the girls in general) was just a super successful criminal?  It makes more sense to me that there are ebbs and flows to what they achieve even if it can be frustrating to watch.

I also don’t think Rio trusts Beth at all at this point.  She’s just a means to him getting more money and while I’m sure there are still complicated emotions in Rio surrounding Beth, trust definitely isn’t one of them.  And it’s going to take something big for these two to trust each other again.

[uglyseason]

bruv don't u dare reblog this but I feel so cowardly whenever I'm faced with a situation of coming out and i feel so stupidddd and I'm like I wish people wouldn't treat me a certain way but I'm too scared to come out and just tell them so that they would even be aware to change their behavior!! do ykwim

[sastheforestspirit]

me, 25yo: *watching metabots ep16* ...this is like 3rd or 4th episode about love, what the actually heck do I watch shonen 10-14 or something else?? I wanna robofights and drama, why there is so much falling in love topics aaaaaaaaaa don't wanna it's stupidddd aaaaaa