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littlemoriflower · 10 months ago
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hii im new to mori kei and havent had much luck thrifting atm, do you have any keyword or search ideas to use when looking for skirts? im struggling to find one but i might just be picky .. thank you if you decide to answer 🍀
Heya there, dear! I hope you are having a wonderful day! (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)
For starters, I am so glad you are trying mori kei out! I welcome you to the community with open arms, and hope you find joy and happiness in mori ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶
Now, shopping online for mori can be tricky, because all you want to do is search up "mori kei" or "mori girl" and hope for the clothes to magically show up in front of you. ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ
However, soon you'll see very few people know of the style, let alone tag it, so here's some easy keywords you can use instead:
• Lace/Linen/Cotton/Denim skirt
-> Not all skirts used in mori need to be super convoluted! You can have some basics (and I urge you to do so) that you can use underneath other pieces to create that classic layered look. The fabrics I listed above are the most common in mori, but you can also find corduroy skirts, for example, that would work wonderfully with mori as well!
• Striped/Polka dot/Gingham/Plaid/Scandinavian skirt
-> The patterns I listed above are some of the most common to find in mori kei outfits. But remember: you are not limited to these patterns. Anything with "natural motifs" like animals, flowers, leaves, trees, etc can be and would fit wonderfully with mori! Like I always say, this part always boils down to personal taste, at the end of the day! (*^▽^*)
• Tiered/Layered/Patch work skirt
-> Sure fire way to find those cute, multi layered skirts with a bunch of different fabric and patterns on them! These skirts are usually "statement pieces", which means they are often used as an outside layer. Of course you can layer something else on top of them, like a dress or a tunic, but hiding these often beautiful skirts is a disservice to them. You could use a base cotton skirt underneath this one to create a more fluffy, layered look if so desired, for example!
• Boho skirt
-> This also works wonders if you are trying to find that lacey, often layered look for skirts. The boho style had a big boom some years ago, so there's a lot of variety not only for skirts, but for dresses, tops or tunics!
• Cottagecore/fairycore skirt
-> I know, I know. How dare I mention the Big Bads™, but truth is that mori gets often pilled up with these, and to those who don't really understand the fashion, they will tag these two bad boys in a very cute skirt you wouldn't find otherwise have you not used the tags.
I hope this little list helps you in whatever way possible, and if it didn't I hope I am able to help you even further if you wish! (⁠づ⁠ ̄⁠ ⁠³⁠ ̄⁠)⁠づ
But before I go...
Gentle reminder: Don't expect perfection in the beginning. The initial stage of slowly building up your wardrobe might be a little awkward, but the more you put outfits together, the less you'll want to take them off. (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡
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estinininininen · 1 year ago
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FFIV: Arm in Arm, Hand in Hand, ao3 link, ~2400 words
Rydia has a simple request for Cecil.
He'd do anything for her. She doesn't want to make it weird.
(He makes it weird.)
warning: unbearable cuteness
Cecil and Rosa agreed at once when Rydia asked for a private moment.
"Thanks for seeing me," Rydia said. "I know you're busy all the time."
"It's no problem," Cecil said. "I'd make time for you. Are you hungry? Did you have a good trip?" Taciturn King Cecil only babbled around people he liked. "Surely you must know I'd make time. Surely you know that."
"I know. I believe you. And I'm fine," Rydia said, even as Rosa brought a tray of tea to their table and Cecil jumped up to help her. Rydia stood up on court etiquette but Rosa shooed her back into the chair. "Really, I won't need more than a moment with you, but I wanted to ask you something."
"To ask something in private," Cecil said. "Are you safe? Are you in danger? What do you need?"
"I'm sure she's fine," Rosa said. She had an idea what Rydia might say, but it was important and Rydia should be the one to ask.
"I'm fine," Rydia said. "I'm more than fine."
"Right, right," Cecil said. "You wouldn't let anyone get the drop on you."
Rydia wrinkled her nose like she always did when teasing. "You should know that by now. No one gets past me if I don't want them to."
"Dear, have a little faith in her otherwordly magical abilities," Rosa said.
Cecil held up his hands. "Don't need faith. Seen it myself." He laughed. The stress of being King melted from his face. "I just worry about you, when I'm not looking." His expression blanked, and history for a moment weighed over their little table. Rydia and Rosa understood this was a truth that popped out before Cecil meant it to.
"That's alright," Rydia said. "I worry about you two, too." Then she stopped. Whatever Rydia had to say, she might need a little prompting.
Rosa covered the pause in conversation with pouring the tea. "How is Edge?" she asked.
"Speaking of people I worry about," Cecil said.
Rydia smiled and tucked her head down a little, to hide her glee. It was such a typical movement for a young woman in love that Cecil had to hold his surprise.
"Well. Edge and I. Um. We just got back from visiting the Feymarch," she said.
The Feymarch was a home to Rydia, and to everyone else it was the long-forgotten alien world of sentient monsters of legend. Even though Cecil and Rosa had been, twice, they still felt a thrill of awe when it was mentioned.
"And?" Rosa said. "It . . . went well? Asura and Leviathan are well?" she asked, stumbling and falling back on neutral politeness.
"Oh yes. I wanted to introduce them to Edge again, and for him to spend enough time for them to get to know each other. He managed to spend two whole weeks out of Eblan, got everything prepared and signed off. He gets so much more done when he's motivated. It turned into six months in the Feymarch. I think he really appreciated a long time away from the throne."
"Between us? Can't say I blame him," Cecil said. "And this . . . went alright? Edge in the Feymarch?"
"For half a year?" Rosa said.
"Yeah," Rydia said. When Rydia had started looking dreamy-eyed when talking about Edge, Cecil couldn't say, but it made his heart clench a little at his responsibilities drawing him away from friends. "Yeah, he and I had a wonderful time. I miss them all already," she sighed. "But, it also really is like Asura tried to tell me. I miss the surface, too. I'm glad now she told me to get out of the Feymarch more." She took a sip of her tea. "I don't think I'll be going back for such long periods anymore."
"Oh?" Cecil said. "Not that I'm not afraid when the next time I see you you'll have grown old, but are you sure that's what you want?"
"Mist is also my home," Rydia said. "And Eblan is too, now-"
"Oh," Cecil said, and Rosa thought, Ah.
"-and I've done what I set out to do with the new order of Summoners," Rydia continued. "There's not many, but there are some. My distant cousins, or random chance. They're doing so great, they study everything I tell them, and practice all the time," she said.
"Wait, but do you not still intend to keep them hidden? You don't need to tell us about them," Cecil said. "I still think you shouldn't. For their sake."
"I won't," Rydia said. "And I'm not. But I get to be proud of them, right? Let me brag a little! They're doing all the hard work but I like to think it's because I'm a good teacher, too!"
They all laughed.
She continued. "My point is, Mist is my home but it's not going to be the home of Summoners any longer. We're going to move around, stay separated for a time."
"That's a hard life," Cecil said.
"Not like wanderers," Rydia said. "Just a hidden group, our people in different places around the world. Living ordinary lives, as black mages or white mages. I might even have a Sage on my hand, if they can hold on to the balance. But I will be the only one who knows where all of them are," she said.
Cecil assumed this was what she needed help with. "What do you need? Anything I can give, I will," he said.
"Oh, no," Rydia said. "It's already done. The ninja skills have been of great help. Edge taught them the basics."
Cecil and Rosa glanced at each other. "He did?" Rosa said.
"He knows them?" Cecil said.
"He's the one who suggested all the subterfuge," Rydia said.
"But, he is . . . " A king, Cecil wanted to say.
"Ah," Rydia said. She sighed. "It really is unavoidable, politics."
"No. No," he said. "Not for this. It's too important. Does he understand that no one else can know? If, all the gods forbid, one day Eblan does as Baron did, then a record Edge leaves behind, even accidentally-"
"I don't think that will be a problem," Rydia said. "He doesn't know their names, or where they are. Give us some credit, please."
"Of course, of course," Cecil said. "But-"
"I don't think Eblan and the Summoners are going to be in conflict for a long time, unless Edge is taken off the throne," Rydia said, and shifted in her seat.
Rosa shifted. "Rydia, I know you've spent a lot of time with him, but he will always be the leader of his people before a friend," she said.
"I know. I know that!" She threw up her hands. "Next thing you're going to tell me is he has to marry some day," Rydia said, and avoided looking them in the eye.
"I'm sure that's hard to think about, Rydia," Cecil said, reaching out to touch her shoulder. "Whatever happens, Rosa and I will be here for you." He looked to Rosa for assistance, who was now being quiet for some reason Cecil couldn't fathom. "It - it might not even change much between you and Edge," he said.
"Well I hope not," Rydia said, "because he's married to me."
Cecil stopped rubbing his thumb over Rydia's scapula.
"What?" he said.
"I married him," she said. Her eyes twinkled and her nose was, very slowly, wrinkling again. "Edge. We got married. We decided in the Feymarch."
Rosa broke into a huge smile.
"Arm Lady and Daddymonster were really patient with him," Rydia said, using her private family nicknames for Asura and Leviathan from when she was a girl. "Daddymonster especially, while Edge figured it out. He was right, he needed time away from court."
Cecil said, "What?"
"Time away from court. To figure out that I am much scarier than Eblan court politics," Rydia said.
"Much scarier," Rosa said.
"No," Cecil said. "I mean, you . . . got married? You married Edge?"
Rosa giggled and stood up to cover his ears, laughing at him. "He needs a moment," she said.
Rydia was giggling now, too. "Why - why is he like this whenever anyone surprises him?"
"It's good news, Cecil," Rosa said, drumming his skull. "Don't think too hard."
"Hey, hey now," he said, grabbing Rosa and pulling her into his lap. "Of course it's good news! Con - Congratulations!" he said.
"Why are you wheezing," Rydia said, now laughing in full.
"I just needed a moment," Cecil said. "Oh, oh. Oh. You're married." He stood up. Rosa squealed in indignation as she was forced to stand up too.
"Cecil, what-"
"You're the Queen of Eblan, now," Cecil said.
Rosa dashed around and grabbed Rydia in a huge hug.
"I feel like - like this is very good but maybe a little bit rushed," Cecil said.
Rosa glared at him from over Rydia's head.
"Are you sure about this?" he said.
Rosa huffed. Rydia said, "Well, I sure hope so, because it's done! Yes, Sir Cecil, I'm sure."
Cecil blushed. Rydia had only ever called him Sir Cecil when first reacquainted as adults and unsure of mortal habits.
"She spent six months with him in the Feymarch," Rosa said. "That's plenty long enough."
"The Eidolons all like him," Rydia said.
"I . . . " Cecil said. "I don't mean about the Eidolons. Eblan has assassins, Rydia. Eblan is assassins."
"That's a negative stereotype, but yes. It is. But I'm not worried about them," Rydia says. "Or the old judgy Judys at court."
"Who knows?" Rosa said. This was what Cecil really wanted to know but couldn't assemble the words for.
"The Lord and Lady of the Feymarch, Edge's personal guard, and his seneschal. And now you two. For now."
"Oh, so we are still important to you," Cecil said.
Rydia and Rosa stared at him.
Cecil clapped his hand over his mouth.
"I didn't mean that," he said. "I didn't mean that. Rydia, I'm sorry, I don't know why I think I have the right-"
"Cecil," Rosa said, and having known Rosa for most of his life and been married to her for five years now, he heard the danger. "Are you jealous?"
Damn women and their damn intuition understanding him before he understood himself.
"No!" he said. "I'm not jealous."
Rydia muttered something under her breath. Unless Cecil's ears were also as muddled as his thoughts were, it very much sounded like, "And there he goes again with the guilt spiral."
"Cecil." The Queen of Baron crossed her arms. "You're upset she didn't tell you they were getting married when they were in the Feymarch," Rosa said.
"No, that's ridiculous! I wouldn't be so petty," he said, and hoped, oh how he hoped, that the political skills he gained as King were going to one day give him the ability to lie.
But not to Rosa. Never Rosa. Just because he wanted to avoid the consequences of his own stupidity right now didn't mean he thought it was a good idea to lie to his wife. She looked in his eyes. "You are," she said.
"That's absurd," Cecil said. I thought I stopped digging my own holes a long time ago. "I - I really don't know where I get the idea I can keep doing this to you, Rydia, but I am so sorry-"
"Keep doing what?" Rydia said.
Rosa stared him down too and Cecil felt almost nauseous.
"Keep doing what, exactly?" Rydia said.
"I - I -"
Rosa saw what he meant, saw him floundering, and finally gave blessed, stinging mercy. She uncrossed her arms and spoke quietly. "We're not your family."
"No," Cecil said. "We're not. I'm sorry."
Rydia looked between both of them, and no matter how hard Cecil told himself she was an adult - she was more than an adult, she had often walked the road between the sands of time and come out closer to Edge's age than Cecil's own -
- he still just saw a little girl peeking out from beneath the covers in Kaipo while he wiped his blade clean of his countrymen's blood.
"You're not?" Rydia said.
Cecil grew even more confused.
"So do you not want to be?" Rydia said.
Cecil and Rosa shared glances. "Huh?" Rosa said.
Rydia said, "I don't know a lot of people personally on the surface still. People that can come to a royal wedding. The Eidolons and my summoner students can't. Isn't it important for someone to give the bride away?"
"I'm confused," Cecil said.
"I am too," Rosa said.
"Oh. We're going to have another wedding," Rydia said. "I got scared and skipped ahead. Sorry. Do you . . . Do you not want to walk me down the aisle?" She tilted her head at Cecil. "It's more of a surface thing, Lord Leviathan already gave his blessing anyway. I thought it wouldn't matter to me but in the Eblan weddings I've been to - oh, oh no, oh Cecil don't cry," Rydia said.
Cecil reared back and touched his face. He was crying? Why had he started crying?
He blinked and was hugging Rydia. He blinked again and was sitting down in the chair sagging like a bag of potatoes. The weird noises coming from his mouth and nose were indecorous for a king of a sovereign nation to make, but wasn't he already among company that didn't care?
"Oh," he heard Rosa saying. "Another wedding. Oh, that makes sense."
"For the benefit of Eblan and everyone else," Rydia said. "Because it really is always about politics, isn't it? He's marrying the Summoners and I'm marrying Eblan."
"Politics," Rosa said. "Sometimes I think Kain had the right idea . . . "
"Is - is he alright?" Rydia said, eyeing Cecil.
"I think he will be, yes," Rosa said, and she squeezed her hand. Cecil realized it was wrapped in his. He squeezed back. "I've . . . never seen him like this, though," Rosa said.
"Cecil, sometimes I can't tell what's going on in your head," Rydia said.
"Oh that's alright," he said, sounding like he had a head cold. "Makes two of us."
"So . . . can you do it?" Rydia said. "Walk me down the aisle?"
Cecil burst into tears again.
"That's happy crying," Rosa said. "Yes. Yes, he will, or I will throw him in the dungeon myself."
"I'm glad I have you to translate," Rydia said.
"Well I - I really don't know what's happening. Cecil, honey, breathe-"
Rydia started giggling. "Oh, no, I've broken him again."
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pomplalamoose · 1 year ago
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Heyyy!!!
whenever u have time if u could PLEASEEE write some more ANH Luke Skywalker hc 😍🥰
pls there is a a serious lack of Luke content 😪🫶🫶
Of course dear anon, here you go🩵🩵
We, as a society, need more Luke content in our lifes and I'm more than happy to deliverrrr
• Tatooine is a pretty shitty place to get to know or to date anyone, so I think the young people have their own way around that
• because you can't go anywhere without potentially running into someone wanting to rob/enslave/blackmail/hurt/kill you, I think spending time with Luke would consist mostly of doing your everyday chores together
• safety is in numbers and companionship makes even the most drab tasks seem bearable
• and nobody will notice if both of you take way longer than usual because you're so busy making googly eyes at each other
• (they do notice but Owen is mostly glad how your company keeps Luke from talking about leaving, so he doesn't mention it)
• so imagine cleaning up and sorting through the garage together
• just sitting by his side, sharing jokes while he works to fix his uncle's equipment or looks after his land speeder
• maybe, if that's your thing, you help out as well and then try your hardest to get the oil stains off your skin after while Luke laughs at your frustrated face
• probably the height of romance is going to the market together to buy ingredients for your meals with two of your fingers intertwined because it's too hot for holding hands and you're both shy
• or taking trips to Tosche station (because of course) and, with a racing heart, you slowly and carefully rest your head on his shoulder
• when he doesn't shake you off you're overjoyed
• he, on the other hand, doesn't dare to say anything, too afraid you're going to scooch away again
• so he drives more slowly than usual to have more time alone with you
• halfway there you have lunch together in the shade of big rocks and talk about everything and nothing, blushing and looking in another direction when one of you makes eye contact for too long
• and, my favorite: watching the two suns set together
• he'll bring you home after because Tatooine is even more dangerous at night
• he says goodbye with a small and polite kiss to your cheek, hoping your family won't see
• he'd notice your nervousness once aboard the Falcon
• while he isn't so sure about all of this himself he wants to seem cool and tough in front of you and does his best to keep up with Han and Chewie
• secretly he might be worried that you will end up liking Han more
• he's totally the type to get a little jealous when he sees you smiling at someone else other than him
• (there's no way Han hasn't outright flirted with you yet)
• so he does his best to keep the two of you separated and as far away from each other as he possible can
• like, no, you can't sit there, he's going to sit next to Han in the cockpit!
• no, you can't go looking for Han, he was just about to ask you a question!
• Han isn't even that funny, why are you laughing??
• he'd sulkily sit in a corner and throw looks in your direction whenever you're with Han too
• if you notice, he'll pretend to not care at all with whom you're having a good time
• but truth to be told, he's sad
• I'm not sure whether he's even aware that he's acting like that
• someone (Obi-Wan) could probably intervene at this point, but there's no way he's going to do that
• he's having the time of his life
• don't worry though, Luke's time to shine comes around when you declare how unbearably cold you are
• did you exaggerate to get his attention? Possibly
• either way it works immediately and he'll offer to sit next to you to keep you warm
• when you agree he's ready to burst with pride
• he waits until Han is looking and then drapes his arm around your figure, feeling absolutely superior
• it takes a lot of restraint to keep himself from grinning obnoxiously
• when Obi-Wan starts teaching him about the Force and lightsaber techniques however, he isn't so self assured anymore
• especially not when he's supposed to ditch or reflect blaster bolts while not being able to see
• underneathe the helmet his cheeks are burning red when he hears your laugh ring out alongside Han's
• he feels decidedly better when you start cheering him on and clapping loudly once he gets the hang of it
• you think he looks adorable when he finally removes the helmet and his hair is slightly sweaty and all over the place
• maybe, if you're feeling bold and the moment is right, you'd like to run your fingers through it under the pretense of tidying him up a bit?
• think of that scene where they hide in the Falcon's secret luggage compartment to make it seem like nobody is on board after being sucked into the Death Star
• because wo do you think you'll get pressed close to while waiting for the Empire's men to leave?
• sadly we never get to see how exactly they all fit in there but imagine half sitting half lying directly on top of Luke
• possibly he's even holding you very close, the situation totally requires it if you ask him
• you can feel his heart beating steadily but fast with how your head has to rest against his chest
• is it because he's afraid you'll get caught or can you dare to hope it's because of you?
• much later you can't take your eyes off him because he looks just a little too good in his new pilot uniform
• at this point it's probably your turn to be a little bit jealous as you are by far not the only one trying to check him out discreetly
• people shout greetings and turn their head after him wherever he goes
• (not just because he spectacularky saved their princess, although that's what you want to believe)
• and, because of the way Luke is, he'll reciprocate the attention happily, unaware of your feelings
• too bad you don't know he'd never chose anyone over you
I'm not quite sure whether you wanted just Luke headcanons or Luke x reader headcanons, hopefully I got it right😅
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not-a-space-alien · 1 year ago
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K&J x MMSS 4: Valen & Jim Part 3
Part three of the fourth crossover with @whumpsday!
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Warnings: Some dehumanization and references to abuse
In this chapter: Mutual emotional support
***
Valen thanks the store employee for their help one more time before running out, making his way back to his apartment quickly.
Jim is glad he doesn't have to deal with Valen's frankly terrifying driving on top of all this. And honestly, he kind of likes being carried when it's by someone he doesn't have to be afraid of. He rests against Valen's chest as they make their way back, trying to calm down.
He's steadier on his feet this time when he's set on the floor. "Guess I'll get started on my food, and... still the border after?" he asks tentatively.
"Of course, dear Jim. Or, if you prefer, we can rest here until morning and leave during the day, when we won't run into anyone else."
Jim has mixed feelings about the offer. On one hand, he wants to get home as soon as possible. But on the other, going out at night again sounds terrifying. But... "Would that be okay for you? You'll still be able to see, and won't get burned and stuff? I mean, you were fine earlier, I guess." He considers. "If you think it's safer. You’d know, I guess.”
"I do think it might be safer to hunker down here until dayfall. Perhaps I can just let you drive the car, since I won't be able to see well."
“Sounds good,” Jim agrees. “What can I use to cook this stuff?"
Valen sheepishly offers his very small kitchen for Jim to use. He has no stove–he hadn't made sure to get one that had such a fixture, not having any use for it–but he does have a microwave, and he does offer to let Jim use a Bunsen burner if he really wants open flame.
The image of using a bunsen burner to cook a meal is exactly what Jim needed to ease the tension after their encounter. “I think I’ll pass,” he decides. He’ll make do as best he can with the microwave.
Valen watches Jim prepare his food with fascination. He points to one of the apples. "Would it be all right with you if I tried some of this? I'm curious."
Jim grabs the knife he’s used to open his can of beans and slices off a bit of apple. "Knock yourself out." He tosses the piece to Valen, munching on the rest of it as he tries to figure out how to prepare the rest of his food.
Valen tentatively nibbles on the apple slice. It tastes a bit like eating dirt. He immediately spits it back out. "Oh...oh my. I do think you can have the rest of this. Consider my curiosity officially sated."
Jim chuckles. "Yeah, bet I'd be the same if I tried blood."
He eats his meal. It's kind of shitty by regular standards, especially compared to the exquisite things he'd been preparing for himself at Kane's, but after more than 2 days without food, it tastes incredible. He devours it ravenously. "This is so good. Thanks for the shopping. Sorry I can't pay you back or anything. I mean, if there's anything you need done before it's time to go, I can help around? Not like I've got any appointments to make."
Valen laughs. "You needn't worry about it or trouble yourself. I don't have to work a job, so I have nothing better to do than whatever suits my fancy."
The phone rings. "I wonder if that's your sister." He picks it up. "Hello?"
By the look on Valen's face, Jim can tell it isn't Liz. Valen’s face crumples. "Oh, hello. Yes, I understand. Yes." He does not speak much, just sitting there looking more and more morose, face getting darker and darker, occasionally interjecting a "Yes, sir," or "I'm sorry, sir." He's crying by the time he hangs up the phone.
Jim quickly grows concerned as Valen speaks. As soon as he hangs up, he approaches and grabs Valen's hand with a gentle squeeze. "Hey, what's wrong? You okay?"
Valen wipes his eye on his sleeve. "Yes, I'm okay. Thank you. That was just–that was just my husband, who isn't pleased I 'made a scene in public.'"
Jim winces. He can gather this whole “husband” deal isn't a happy marriage to begin with: one of the first things Valen said to him was maybe I should go by my maiden name, after all. "I'm sorry. Your husband sounds like a dick. You deserve better," he tries to console.
Valen smiles. "Thank you. I know. It's why I live here, instead of with him. I've been trying to convince him to finally just divorce me, but it isn't really working." He kneads his hands. "He insisted I return you to your 'rightful owner,' because if word gets out about how I 'stole' you, he's concerned the rest of the nobility will get it in their heads that the Kithrara family is going to steal their humans as well and tarnish our lovely reputation." He wipes his other eye, sniffling. "I told him I would, but obviously I'm not actually going to. By the time he finds out I lied, you'll be over the border and out of harm's way. I don't think he knows my new address anyway. I'm not sure how he got my new phone number." 
"Oh,” Jim says, suddenly terrified to his bones. "Are–are you sure we should wait until morning? Is waiting around here until then, um, s-safe?" He can't stop his voice from wavering, the idea of being dragged back to Kane implanting itself in his mind. "Thank you. For protecting me."
"Of course. I said I would let no harm come to you, and I meant it." He gives a heavy sigh. "If you would prefer not to wait, we can go now. That may be safer, given that word has somehow made it back to the Kithrara family already." He stands up and rifles through the closet for a water bottle. "Go ahead and pack whatever you'd like to take."
The only thing Jim has to his name is the last undevoured apple. He grabs it. "I'm good to go."
There's an insistent pounding at the door.
Jim's eyes go wide and he cowers against a wall at the sound. He looks to Valen, shaking his head, terrified. Whoever’s at the door, he doubts they’re here for anything good. Even if they are, they can’t see him, not when he’s stolen property.
Valen silently comes over and grabs Jim's arm, wordlessly dragging him into the bedroom and shoving him into the closet, under all his clothes amidst his boots, and pulls the closet shut. He quickly bundles up any signs that Jim was here and tosses them into the bedroom, then shuts the bedroom door.
He smooths his hair down, straightens his shirt, forces his gait to slow down, and approaches the door, cracking it open slightly. "Hello? Who's there?"
Who's there is a very pissed-off Kane de Sang, the first one Anton told. "Kane de Sang. You have my human," he announces with a glare.
Valen creeps slightly more behind the door. "I'm afraid I don't anymore. I took him straight to the border after your brother saw us. He's long gone."
"What? You've got to be fucking kidding me!" Kane shouts. "This is great. Just fucking great. You couldn't have tried your hippie bullshit on someone else's human? Your husband has thousands of them!"
"I apologize, Mr. de Sang, sir," says Valen. "But seeing as how we have no more business to discuss, I'll take my leave. Goodbye." He shuts the door right in Kane's face, praying that Kane will just take him at face value and leave.
Kane screams in fury, kicks the wall of Valen's apartment hard enough to leave a dent, and storms off. He knows that harassing a fellow noble, especially when Valen doesn't have his human anymore, won't get him any points with his family.
When Valen comes back for Jim, he's curled up in a little ball under a pile of clothes, shaking and crying.
"Sh," Valen says, taking his hand, crouching and offering him a tissue. "You're okay. He's gone."
Jim wipes his face with the tissue, gripping Valen's hand tight. "He was m-mad." he blubbers. "Never good. Always hurts when he's mad."
Vales smiles, gently stroking Jim's hair. "He can go be directionlessly mad out in public if he wants to. You're not at the whim of his moods anymore. He's already taken it out on the hallway wall, which I'm sure takes a beating much better than you do. I'll be informing the landlord who exactly it was who caused the damage. I'm sure he'll love getting a bill for repairs."
Jim shudders under Valen’s touch at the thought of Kane getting even angrier. "Haven't even gotten a full-on beating in like, a year. Used to get 'em all the time, but I've been good lately. Up until all this." He takes a deep, shaky breath. He likes the feeling of Valen petting his hair, not pulling violently like Kane does. "Your husband's got thousands of humans?"
Valen's face falls. "Ah...you heard that." He withdraws his hands. 
"Kinda hard not to, he was yellin' so loud. Only heard his part."
"Are you sure you want me to tell you about it? I think it would upset you."
Jim hesitates. "Maybe not, then." It’s not like knowing would change anything.
"Rest assured I want no part of my husband's horrid business. Well, I convinced Kane I already dropped you off at the border. If he'd stopped to think instead of just getting angry at the drop of a hat, he probably would have realized I likely wouldn't have had time to get all the way to the border and back in the time since Anton saw us at the store, haha... Well, do you still want to leave right away, or wait till daybreak?"
"I don't know. I don't know. I'm scared." Jim starts crying again. "M-maybe now? Unless you think it's not safe?"
Still kneeling on the floor, Valen pulls him close, hugging him. "Sh, sh, it's all right. It's all right to be scared, but you're safe. Tell you what." Valen crawls into the closet beside him, his jackets brushing against his head, and pulls the door shut. "I'll sit with you right here until you calm down, how's that sound?"
"Heh. Back in the closet for both of us, I guess," Jim jokes through his tears, resting his head on Valen's shoulder. "Just, I've just never been this close before. Only got 10 minutes out the first time, didn't even get out the back gate the second time. I've only got this one shot. I'm so scared of fucking it up and spending the rest of my life as his damn chewtoy."
Valen savors the feeling of Jim's head on his shoulder, letting the comment about in the closet sink in. After a moment, he gently strokes Jim's closest hand. "You're not going to fuck it up. I'll physically fight him off if I have to. You're going to get out of here if I have anything to say about it. My conscience wouldn't let me live with it if I let that happen to you. Everyone deserves to feel safe."
"Thank you. You're the best, Valen. Literally, meeting you is the best thing that's ever happened to me." Jim keeps taking deep breaths until they start to come out less shaky. 
Valen keeps his hand steady on Jim's until he seems a bit calmer. "There. Now would you like to talk about when we'll be leaving? I think it should be safe to either stay here or leave right away, but if we wait till sunrise, we know for sure he won't be lurking around."
"Let's wait," Jim agrees. "Better to not take chances and all. Thanks for helping me calm down and stuff."
"You're very welcome. Well, we have a few hours, then. Would you like to watch a movie or something?"
"Yeah. I really, really would."
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thetavolution · 11 months ago
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Greeting Dialogues
I did some for Minty, Laura, Ingrid, Bex, Paloma, and Tessa! I saw @vatyrie-avaris do it and now I'm copying.
Minty
Profile
Low Approval:
flatly "Oh. What do you want?"
"Isn't there someone else you could go talk to?"
annoyed "Just spit it out. I have more important things to do than waste time with you."
Neutral Approval:
"Hey, everything okay?
cheerful "What is it you need?"
"I hope everything's okay. Well, as okay as they can be under the circumstances."
High Approval:
happy, excited "Hey, you! If you need anything, don't hesitate to ask."
"I was hoping you'd come by. What can I do for you?"
"If you need anything, just say the word and I'll do what I can."
Romanced:
"Hey, sweetheart, it's so good to see you."
"Gods, I still can't believe how lucky I am. Look at you."
"Is everything alright, my love?"
Laura
Profile
Low Approval:
"Gods, what now?"
"Make it quick."
sarcastic "Oh great, it's the wondrous leader of our little troupe. I'm so glad you've decided to honor me with your presence."
Neutral Approval:
"I'm glad to see you aren't dead yet. I hope it stays that way."
"Everything good?"
"Need me again already?"
High Approval:
"Hello there, friend."
excited "Oh hello! I was just thinking about you."
"Whatever you need, I'm at your disposal."
Romanced:
"What do you need of me, my darling?"
"Hello, lover. Did that sound debonair? I really hope it did. I'm working on sweeping you up off your feet."
heartfelt, distracted by love "You are so beautiful."
Ingrid
Profile
Low Approval:
"Um... I didn't expect you to talk to me. What's on your mind?"
"Hm?"
sighs "Yes, what is it?"
Even if she is in low approval, she struggles to be mean. She just gets distant and doesn't say much.
Neutral Approval:
"Do you need me?"
"Oh, um, hello..."
"How can I help?"
She is very shy with people she doesn't know so she doesn't say much. You will barely notice a difference between neutral and low.
High Approval:
"A little birdie told me you'd want to speak with me. I mean, literally. A little birdie told me. Um... how can I help?"
"Hi! I'm so glad you came over to chat. I hope nothing's happened. Sorry. I mean that I hope nothing else has happened."
"Hello, friend, what brings you my way?"
She's just awkward forever. I'm sorry. She does get more talkative if she likes you.
Romanced:
"Hello, honey. Please, let me know what I can do for you."
"My joy! I really wanted to come talk with you, but I didn't want to bother you."
"My heart's root. I can't believe how lucky I am that you chose me."
Bex
Profile
Low Approval:
"Hey, asshole, you need my help? Screwing up that bad, huh?"
exasperated "The Gods must really hate me if they keep bringing you over here."
"Fucking what?"
It was so hard not to add "dude" to the end of "Fucking what?" for her.
Neutral Approval:
"Hey, what's up?"
"I was wondering when you'd come back around."
"Need my help again?"
High Approval:
playful "Hey, pal, lookin' for some help?"
"You're just in time! I just finished writing a new song I want to play for you. (laughs) Don't worry, I'm just messing around. Could you imagine if I was actually like that?"
"What can I do ya for, buddy?"
Romanced:
"Gods, you're amazing. You're only flaw is being attracted to someone like me."
affectionately "Hey turtle, what is it?"
"Hello, gorgeous."
I don't know why she calls her lover "turtle."
Paloma
Profile
Low Approval:
"Why are you talking to me and not one of your actual friends? Or does everyone dislike you just as much as me?"
"Does annoying me bring you joy?"
exasperated "Can I help you?"
Neutral Approval:
"Sorry, I was just taking time to meditate. What do you need?"
friendly "At your service."
"Looks like you've been surviving the horrors. For now."
High Approval:
"My dear friend, what is it you need?"
"I do enjoy chatting with you."
"Looks like you have something on your mind. Don't be afraid to tell me anything."
Romanced:
"Hello, my love."
after watching Tav, silently "Oh... sorry, I forget myself. It's so easy to do that with you."
"You make me feel like a school girl again. Is there something you wanted?"
Tessa
Profile
Low Approval:
"Look, you don't like me and I don't like you, so let's keep the talking to a minimum."
"You have a really punchable face.... Huh? Sorry, what did you want?"
gives an exasperated sigh "Yeah?"
Neutral Approval:
"How can I help?"
"Need something?"
clearly forgetting Tav's name, but being friendly "Oh hey.... you. How's it going?"
High Approval:
"Just the person I wanted to see! I'm free to chat about anything."
excited "Oh thank the gods you're here, I've been bored out of my mind."
"If you're looking for someone to talk to, I'm all ears, friend."
Romanced:
"Well hello, my love. Did you need something or did you just miss me?"
"I treasure every moment spent with you. I only wish I could make it last forever."
"Hi, honey bunny, can I help you with anything?"
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annachum · 1 year ago
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A time of Making Peace ( Cosette/Ghost Eponine Making peace )
Okay so on the night before Marius and Cosette's wedding
Eponine's ghost came to visit Cosette in her chamber
Cosette was happily preparing for going to bed for the big day tomorrow, when Eponine's ghost appeared before her
Cosette : * jumps in startlement *
Eponine : Don't be afraid! * pauses * I only come in peace.
Cosette : * heaves a sigh of relief and smooths her white night gown * Oh, bonsoir, Eponine
Eponine : I only come in peace. And glad tidings. Congratulations on you and Marius getting married. I really mean it.
Cosette looked at Eponine's face, which bore no fear or resentment. But one of peace and genuine congratulations
Eponine : And......* voice cracks * Thank you so much, for me and Gavroche to be able to get to Heaven, away from those MONSTERS.
Cosette : * smiles * So I presume....
Eponine : Yes. Damned to eternal hell. Your mother confirmed that to me
Cosette : My mother.....?
Eponine : She's like you, but with blonde hair. She's just.....she is an angel. * took a deep breath * Another thing is.....I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for all the times Zelma and I bullied you, so sorry for how I may get between you and Marius' happiness. Those monsters driven me and my siblings to the point of no return and you helped SAVED US. YOU are the reason why 3 of my siblings are able to have better lives, and I'm so sorry - can you ever -
Cosette : * softly * I already have
Eponine :.....What?
Cosette : Eponine dear, I understand that you have acknowledged our sad history together as little girls. However, I came to understand that you and your siblings are more misguided than anything else. It was those monsters who are evil, and I already knew they will be damned to Hell for some time. So I'm glad that justice is served onto those wicked souls. Why else would I help you and your siblings escape from those abusers? I do not care for our sorry history together - no one deserves such level of cruelty. Nobody does
Eponine : * labored breaths * So it is true! You also helped us! Some of your rebel friends also told us before! But....why I never heard anything from you about it before?
Cosette : I simply done such deeds out of good will. I do not ask for any repayment for such actions. Even with our sad histories, I cannot bear to see one another having suffered a similar cruelty as I did.
Eponine :......* shaking in gratitude * Merci infinitement, Cosette.
Cosette : And......I'm so sorry too. If I had known how cruel those abusers gave become to you and your siblings, I would have - I would have done something earlier! Those horrible 8 years - oh how come I never thought of that before? When I saw you again for the first time in 8 years, I knew what were you going through -
Eponine : I don't blame you about it. We were children then, and didn't know any better. But now we know. We are not little girls anymore. You and Marius shall be Wed tomorrow....
Cosette : And you and Gavroche found peace in Heaven, which I am very glad. * beams *
Eponine : * smiles * May you and Marius shall have the most blessed of days together
Cosette : * beams * And may you and Gavroche shall find prosperity in Heaven, and do send my regards to my mother. Tell her that I shall be Wed to the man of my dreams tomorrow.
Eponine : * nods in surety * You have my word
Cosette and ghost Eponine embrace
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talesfromsiteredacted · 2 years ago
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Serious Conversation
After my worst flare in history, I have a talk with my favorite medical expert.
Trigger warning: suicidal ideation due to chronic illness
It's a few hours later, and I'm back to roughly 50%. The pain is still there, but thankfully, so is my Doctor. He's holding me close. My head is on his shoulder, eyes half closed.
"You look a little more like yourself, but you're not there yet my dear. Is there anything I can do to aid your recovery?"
"Honestly, you're doing a great job so far. But... I'm not sure I won't do something stupid next time, like try hugging 173. The pain is so bad, it's hard to not want to end it some days. Abel says he has some of the same issues, he just takes it out on everyone else. I can get it, but I know it won't help. Sadly, very little does."
"I assume you have told the medical staff, yes?"
"And swore them to additional secrecy beyond HIPPA. Yeah. I'm talking to Dr. Glass, taking the meds, trying to cope... but it can be too much. Would you help me develop a plan for next time? If this happens again, I need to be ready."
"Just to be clear... are you sure of what you want?"
"Yeah, I have my reason to not go, I just need help staying, as it were. There's little hope I'll be cured, but maybe I need better strategies to manage."
"I won't insult you by suggesting the same things everyone always does. However, it might be beneficial to find distractions to your pain. I hear you and 053 are close. Excellent. Social connections are important in maintaining morale. A support group may be invaluable. I'm also pleased to hear both 076-2 and 073 are on your side. Family will be a blessing in this case, I know from reputation 076-2 would do anything for his sisters, and 073 knows a great deal about chronic pain. I suggest enlisting their aid."
"Done. Next on the list?"
"Hobbies. Preferably ones less... energetic than training."
"So, put down the stun baton, pick back up the sketchpad? I can agree there."
"I also suggest you also partake in the sitewide pastime of napping. I will of course be willing to assist you."
"Hopefully, you and I are on the same wavelength? No needles, maybe just cuddling?"
"Indeed. Not that I require much of an excuse to want you close to me, as you have a magnetic attraction I cannot resist." He presses his mask to the top of my head, and sighs. "On an unrelated topic... is that a new perfume? I am going to have a harder time keeping my hands off you if you keep wearing it."
"I'll have to order the rest of the batch then." I squeeze him slightly closer. "I'm glad you approve. So, rest and relaxation. Wonder how big a batch of cupcakes it would take 343 for a couple's trip to Calais, my mom's side of the family have a château there."
"I have not seen Calais in ages, please don't tempt me or I might encourage the idea."
"As you wish, my love. Back on topic, any other tips?"
"Ask for a hot tub. Trust me, warm water will relax your muscles."
"And sharing the tub with you will relax them more. Until then, bubble baths?"
"With extra bubbles. Capital idea."
"Going to assume alcohol is not advised, at least not in quantity?"
"Afraid so."
"Not big on drinking anyway."
We finish the plan, and as we do, I have to suppress a yawn. Back to bed I go, Doctor's orders. Like I'd disobey him, not when he's embracing me like I'm the most precious thing to him. Yeah, despite the flare kicking my ass, I am the luckiest woman in the whole damn Foundation. I got a family that I can count on, and the best man I could ask for. I could look for more signs, but right now that's more than enough.
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casspurrjoybell-27 · 9 months ago
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In a Heartbeat - Chapter 21 - Part 3
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*Warning Adult Content*
Simon
"Why, hello. It's nice to finally meet my patient's other half. It's a bit strange that you've been staying here for a few weeks and we still don't know your name."
I smiled at that.
"Simon."
"How are you feeling, Simon?" Sam replied.
"Considering I was hit by a truck, I feel pretty good," I scoffed.
He chuckled at that.
"Well, that's good to hear. If you feel any pain or discomfort, please don't be afraid to let me or the girls know. I'm sure you have a lot of questions for me."
Now that I could finally speak, I didn't know where to start.
There were so many questions.
"Well," Sam spoke.
"I'm sure you're wondering about your belongings. I managed to find your phone and wallet. I'm not sure if there was anything else you had but those were there by the crash. I have them in the office."
"Oh, you were there?" I asked.
"Was anyone else hurt?"
"Aside from my truck," he hummed.
"My heart did jump out of my chest at first. I was pretty frightened."
'Oh.'
He meant... Oh.
So it was his truck I ran into.
How embarrassing was that?
"I am so sorry."
"You don't have to be," he said with a warm smile then pursed his lips.
"I should be the one apologizing. I didn't see you in time to slow down."
He had run a nervous hand through his hair like he was seriously bothered by what had happened.
I tentatively reached my hand to touch his wrist.
"But you saved me."
He sighed, before looking out the window, the sunset giving the clinic an orange glow.
"Well, in a way I'm glad I was the one there. I've seen a number of animals, including rogues get hit on that road, only for drivers to speed off and leave them for dead."
"Well, thank you Sam," I smiled before the thought of the surgery and probably thousands of dollars the treatment was going to cost dawned on me.
"But um..."
"What is it, dear?"
"I-I'm not sure I can repay you," I mumbled, looking toward the ground to avoid his gaze.
"Oh," the simple oh was enough to make my mind race.
I wasn't sure what I could do to repay him, I barely could help out Aspen.
I could probably pay in installments but even then I don't think I could pay it off.
Maybe it would've been better if he had left me on the side of the road.
Then suddenly Sam let out a laugh.
Which was honestly more frightening than his simple 'oh.'
"Our clinic runs on donations. Most of our patients are strays, rogues, or pets of those who can't afford vet services. You don't have to worry about a thing and besides, your company here has been payment enough. You don't owe me anything, Simon."
My breath hitched.
"You're too kind."
He grinned, before ruffling my hair.
A knock at the door startled us, Clara walking in.
She stopped in her tracks at the sight of me.
She glanced between the two of us before giving us a pointed look.
"Is this who I think it is?"
"Clara, this is Simon."
"Oh, your beloved patient. The one you literally swept off his feet," she joked.
"Sorry, bad joke. Well, I'm glad to finally meet you, your human form I mean."
I smiled.
"It's nice to finally talk."
"I bet. Oh, Sam, he's a keeper," she made a face.
"Sorry to interrupt you two lovebirds but our pregnant patient is in labor. I would stay and help but it's date night with the hubby and he won't be happy if I miss another one."
Sam patted her shoulder.
"I'll take care of her Clara. Please, enjoy your night. Tell your husband I said hello."
Clara gave us a hug before leaving to grab her things.
"Well, I better go take care of the patient, feel free to eat whatever's in the fridge. It'll probably be a long night, so feel free to sleep on the office sofa. There are blankets and pillows in the closet," he pointed to the office closet.
"Oh and your things are in the second drawer in the corner. I should have a charger somewhere on the desk."
"Can I help?" I smiled.
"You've been working all day, I'd feel bad for doing nothing."
His face seemed to light up.
"If you'd like to. I'll need some supplies and towels if you'd like to grab them."
Being at the clinic, helping Sam was rewarding in its own way.
I felt like I could forget about everything that had happened before I got here.
I didn't have to worry about Aspen fretting over me.
Didn't have to worry about Michael and his deal and even though Sam liked to worry about me, I felt like it was different than with Aspen.
With Sam, I felt independent.
Free, even happy.
It was a feeling I didn't want to shake.
I really could get used to this.
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originalgenshinscenarios · 2 years ago
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I recall one request about a god reader Dumping Ei and Morax, because they didn't want to take part in the Archon war. I know there were already letter in the request after they found out that the reader was alive and well after the war
So I'm here for something diffrent
Morax writing an unsent letter to the reader during the Archon war, maybe him saying how much he misses you and regret letting you just leave? But not sending it. Perhaps him trying to justify his decision?
Idk, that's all I came up with
The purpose of unsent letters is for the person to find it so this is continuation from reunion ending!
~
You had a lot to get used to, but living in modern Liyue "as a mortal" was rather charming. But you still couldn't forget about how coldly Zhongli treated you back when you announced your departure.
His silence was cruel. While you know he apologized it just didn't sit right with you that he just accepted losing you without a fight and now pretends like nothing ever happened.
You were sitting at the table with Cloud retainer and you decided to bring up the issue. You weren't prepared for the adeptus' response "One is surprised on how clueless you are. Hadn't Rex told you about his letter for yourself? Not only that but upon your disappearance one had to witness him often looking into the distance almost as though he thought you shall manifest before him"
Now you were curious about that letter. But the thought of him missing you so much was rather... Sweet.
Once you came back to meet up with him you brought up what you had learned. He was slightly surprised but it didn't look like he tried to hide anything "I'm sorry, I wasn't sure if it was appropriate of me to show it to you for I thought we moved past that times... Give me a moment" Oh you know what 'a moment' means in his dictionary so you followed him with intentions to help him find the letter.
But his brilliant memory did make it so he immediately got it. Without hesitation he passed it to you.
Dear Y/N
Ever since you've left Liyue the only feeling that I've felt was regret. To be more precise: regret of not fighting for you to stay. I had just now realized that I may never see you again. I believe that's what it takes for that stone heart of mine to slowly crumble, for I care about more than anyone else in existence. I know I'm not the best at expressing my emotions but please believe me when I say that I love you.
At the same time, I can't give up on this battle. You may not like it and I don't plan on convincing you to take my side over your own. All I want is for you to understand it and make your own judgement moving forward. Perhaps once everything's over I could tell you about it in person. Or perhaps I'm a fool for even trying to reach out to you. Either way I will never let myself forget you.
I will wait for your response,
Morax
You stared at it for a moment "Why didn't you send it?" you asked "... Because I didn't think that I was worthy of you" he answered "I knew I hurt you deeply and it made me think a lot. So I suppose I was too afraid to send it, thinking I'd only further anger you" he added.
And here you thought he stopped caring, as you were now made aware of the reality you hugged him. You were glad it was all over and you have him with you again.
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helloalycia · 4 years ago
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The Wrong Lifetime – Nine // Wanda Maximoff
chapter eight | story masterlist | main masterlist | wattpad | chapter ten
author’s note: a bit late with the update today, my bad. I’m just very exhausted lol. Hope you like it though! bit beefy, just how i like it 😂
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I should have realised Wanda would be a handful after literally grabbing my arse less than a metre away from her fiancé.
The final straw came when we were sat together at a table, talking to a guest who wanted to know more about the wedding plans. Y/B/N had left Wanda alone for the remainder of the evening for God knows what reason, so I was left to babysit her and make sure she didn't do anything stupid. Of course, drunk Wanda was also disobedient as well as truthful and clingy.
As the woman we were sat opposite was talking about her own wedding – the first of three, apparently – Wanda's hand kept playing with mine under the table. I shot her a serious look before slapping it away gently. That wasn't enough though, as several times after, she continued to play with my fingers and intertwine hers in mine.
Not wanting to draw attention, I pushed Wanda's hand under her thigh with hopes she'd keep it there and stop fussing. I didn't think she was even listening to the woman and the story of her wedding dress debacle, as she was leaning on the palm of her hand and watching with boredom.
At one point, just when I thought Wanda was finally behaving, I felt her hand rest on my thigh, creeping up dangerously higher. Clenching my jaw to contain both the arousal and frustration I was feeling, I flicked my foot against hers before stuffing her hand under her thigh again. Glancing at her, she was smiling innocently in my direction.
"I'm sorry, are you okay?" the woman stopped mid-talk, looking to Wanda.
Wanda straightened up in her seat, flashing the woman a bright smile. "Yes. But if I may ask–"
"Oh, no..." I mumbled, already internally facepalming.
"–don't you think my almost sister-in-law is very pretty?"
My head snapped to hers as I attempted to disguise my panic with a nervous smile. The woman looked between us, waiting patiently for Wanda to continue.
"Good looks runs in the family it seems," Wanda said, stretching her hand out to caress my cheek, but I immediately caught it before she could, chuckling awkwardly.
The woman found Wanda's behaviour funny as she nodded in agreement. "The Y/L/Ns are a very good looking family indeed. Especially your fiancé, dear. What a handsome man he is."
Wanda hummed in agreement, but her eyes were only focused on me. Under any other circumstances, I would have appreciated how cute she was and been touched at her words, but now wasn't that time.
"My lovely almost sister-in-law is particularly drunk tonight I'm afraid," I spoke truthfully to the woman, offering an apologetic smile. "I should make sure she's okay."
"Of course," the woman said, nodding. "It was nice speaking to you both."
I smiled in response for both of us before leading Wanda away from the table and to an emptier-looking part of the room. Spinning around, I gave her a disapproving look.
"You can't say that," I said quietly, shaking my head. "Not here. Not now."
She licked her lips, wearing an enchanting smile, unbothered by our surroundings. "I can't help it. I'm so in love with you and you look irresistible tonight, milaya (darling)."
I sighed, my neck growing warm as she watched me with adoration. "Okay, I think it's time to call it a night."
"No, I want to stay," she whined, but I ignored her and turned around to think about how we could leave.
Once again, I felt her hand squeeze my butt and when I turned around to scold her, I saw my brother over her shoulder, approaching us. I forced a smile on my lips and glanced at her with a glare. She grinned in response before joining my side and facing my brother with me.
"Hey, how are you?" he asked when he stopped by us.
"Good," I answered for us both, afraid Wanda would say something suspicious.
He nodded, smiling a little. "Thanks for keeping Wanda company tonight."
Using that as my opportunity, I said, "Yeah, about that. She's kind of drunk, so I think I'm going to take her home."
"Oh," he said with realisation. "I don't mind taking it from here."
I pursed my lips, desperately trying to think of a reason to stay with her. Thankfully, I didn't have to.
"How scandalous of you to want to me somewhere after hours with nobody else around," Wanda poked fun, attempting to make him feel uncomfortable. It worked.
"Oh, no– I didn't mean it like that," he said quickly, flushing at her insinuation. "Never mind." Looking to me, he added, "You should take her home and make sure she's okay. Maybe stay with her until her family gets home so you don't have to head home yourself."
I nodded, ignoring the proud smile on Wanda's lips. "Okay, see you later."
As I led Wanda outside the house and towards the carriages parked outside, I gave her a grateful look.
"Good thinking back there."
She chuckled. "He's so easy to manipulate."
"Not nice," I said, but couldn't stop the amused smile from playing on my lips.
The two of us got in the back of the carriage after I gave the driver her address and settled in. Wanda was quick to tilt my head towards her and connect our lips, but I pulled back quickly, making her frown.
"You've been very frustrating this evening," I said with a warning tone. "We get home and you get to bed. That's it."
"Well, that hardly seems fair," she said with a shake of her head. "I believe I behaved."
I tried not to laugh. "In what world, love?"
She smiled widely, eyes darting to my lips. "Some alternate universe."
"Smooth," I played along, before facing forward. "Sober up, dear. The ride isn't long."
When we reached her house, it was a struggle getting her to her bedroom, but it was an even bigger struggle getting her dressed. I managed to get her dress off, but she kept trying to kiss me as I tried to put her nightgown on. Between fits of laughter, she pushed my hands away and made me step back.
Hands on my hips, I stared down at her with a ghost of a smile on my lips. "Are you done? You can't just sleep in your bra and knickers."
She laughed, sat on the edge of her bed and looking up at me with tired eyes. "One kiss and I'll let you dress me."
"Definitely no." I shook my head. "We both know what happens after one kiss."
"When will there ever be an opportunity where we're alone together in my home?" she tried to make a point, but her accent was especially heavy, entwined with her drunkenness and making it harder to believe her logic.
I rested my hands on her shoulders and leaned my forehead on hers, staring into her eyes with amusement. "My beautiful love, you are drunk. We will not have sex when you're drunk."
Her hands tugged me closer by the waist as she smiled up at me. "But I know what I want. And I'm certain it's you."
"Not now," I repeated, removing her hands from my waist.
She pouted and I chuckled before kissing it away. Her tantrum seemed to tire her out as I was able to get her dressed after that, managing to tuck her under the covers.
"Stay with me," she mumbled, fingers clawing the air as a gesture for me to join her.
Nobody would be back for a while, I realised, and nobody was home.
"Fine," I gave in quickly, before kicking off my shoes and jumping into the bed beside her.
She grinned, snuggling into my side and breathing out contently. "Ya tak sil'no tebya lyublyu (I love you so much)."
I kissed the top of her head, holding her close and hoping she couldn't hear the rate of my heartbeat pick up. "I love you, too, Wanda."
We stayed like that, in each other's arms, until I sadly had to get up and leave her. She was asleep by the time her family returned, her face relaxed and without the constraints of reality. I smiled to myself, feeling overwhelmed with how much I was in love with her. I was lucky to have met her, I knew that much, but I was also unlucky to have met her under our circumstances.
As usual, I couldn't help but wonder what could have happened if we weren't in the wrong lifetime...
I kissed her once more, whispering an 'I love you' to her, before leaving the room and wondering if one day I might be able to stay under the covers with her, cuddling until I fell asleep, too.
"It won't take long, I just need to give him this," Wanda said nonchalantly, referring to the notebooks in her hand. "Then we can grab lunch."
I nodded and the two of us walked down the street until we located the Maximoff Publishing House. I'd been here a few times when visiting my brother and it always gave me a fuzzy warm feeling, my brain formulating daydreams where I could be published, too. But that's all they were – daydreams.
Wanda held the door open for me as I walked in and I gave her an appreciative smile before she followed after. She led the way to her brother's office at the back of the building and we passed several desks – editors, authors and other employees alike – before reaching it. Through the window, Wanda and I could see Pietro sat behind his desk, pen working away at some papers.
"Piet," Wanda called, knocking on the door.
He looked up and grinned, instantly motioning for us to come inside. I followed after Wanda and closed the door behind us before stopping in front of his desk.
"Y/N, I'm so glad you came!" he exclaimed, standing up and stretching out his hands ecstatically. "I didn't think you would if I'm being honest."
I tilted my head, bemused. "Er... pardon?"
"Piet, she doesn't–" Wanda started, making me look to her. She cut herself off with a sigh, massaging the bridge of her nose and shaking her head. "Oh, God."
"I'm not sure what's happening here," I said with an awkward chuckle, before taking the notebooks from Wanda's hand and dropping them on Pietro's desk, "but these are for you. Wanda said you left them at home."
He chuckled, pushing the notebooks to the side, before reaching into his top drawer and throwing some pages before me. "These are genius, Y/N."
My brows creased together with confusion as I lifted the pages, looking through them to see what had got him all happy. As my eyes skimmed the writing, my heart dropped. This was my writing.
"H-how did you get this?" I stammered, looking up at him.
His eyes flickered to Wanda and I immediately put the pieces together, my gaze falling to her. She smiled bashfully before avoiding my eyes. She'd given him my work without telling me? And she'd tricked me into coming here for this?
"I want to sign you," he stated, clasping his hands together. "Your work is amazing, arguably better than you brother's. You really undersold! And the fact that these are just excerpts means your actual completed work is even better. And I want it here at Maximoff Publishing."
My palms were sweaty as I opened my mouth to say something, but I didn't know what. He wanted to sign me? Like, properly sign me?
"Y/N?" Wanda prompted, making me look her way. She watched with encouraging eyes, nodding to her brother.
I swallowed hard and looked to Pietro. "I'll have to think about it."
My family's reaction would not be kind, I knew that now. All my life I'd been hearing about how it was unladylike and unattractive for a woman to be a writer, how I should just leave the writing to Y/B/N. He was the writer and I needed to get over it because nobody would want to publish me. Yet, here we were.
"Y/N, what are you saying?" Wanda asked, resting a hand on my forearm to get my attention. "You've talked about being published for ages."
I was beginning to regret mentioning that silly fantasy to Wanda. If I'd known she was going to give my work to her brother, I never would have said anything.
"It's fine, Wan, she just needs time to mull it over," Pietro said dismissively, before smiling at me. "I do hope you'll decide soon though."
I forced a small smile his way before turning to leave. When I reached the empty hallway, Wanda was quick to run after me, tugging me backwards so I would face her.
"Why did you do that?" I asked instantly, frowning, feeling betrayed. "What made you think I wanted this?"
Her fingers touched mine gently as she looked between my eyes. "You've told me you wanted this. I know you want this."
I shook my head, letting go of her hand and stepping back. "I can't believe you took my work and gave it to him without asking. You shouldn't have done this, Wanda. You're making waves and–"
"You deserve this," she proclaimed sternly, silencing me. Her eyes were fiery as she stared hard. "You deserve to get the credit, too. Not just your brother. It's about damn time, Y/N."
My lips pressed together firmly as I held her stare, though she was winning as she told me everything I'd wanted to hear. Just once, somebody believed in me, but I was so used to hearing otherwise that it felt foreign.
"Pietro wants to help," she said, expression softening. "He recognises talent and you have it. Maybe I should have asked before giving him your work, maybe I shouldn't have. But I know that it was the only way to push you. You're so content accepting what other people want that you don't chase what you deserve."
Her passion and belief for my work warmed my heart to the core and I was certain that I'd never been more in love with her than I was now. She didn't have to care, but she did. For once, somebody did.
"Nobody will like this," I muttered, half-convinced but still worried about the drawbacks. "It could destroy your brother's career. It could backfire."
Wanda shook her head, stepping forward and resting a hand on my neck, thumb stroking the skin comfortingly. "He wouldn't take the risk if he didn't believe in you."
I placed my hand over hers, taking it between mine as I squeezed it gently, gratefully. I didn't know what else to say, since she'd countered all of my arguments. Everything apart from my family's reaction, which she couldn't control.
"I did this for you," she murmured, before wrapping her arms around my neck and pulling me in for a hug. "For you to finally get what you deserve. So that you can make your own money and nobody can take it from you."
She paused as I returned her hug, though I was pondering her words, not knowing she felt that way. It sounded like she'd given this some thought. More than she was letting on.
"Especially if you get married," she added after consideration, and I pulled away, ready to say otherwise, but she closed her eyes and shook her head. "No, I know you don't like talking about it, but it needs to be said." She opened her eyes and I realised they were glassy with unshed tears. "I need you to be okay when it happens. I don't–" She sucked up a breath, smiling to relieve the tension, though it was full of pain. "I don't want some man owning you."
"Any money I make will belong to him anyway," I said, knowing she knew the world we lived in.
A downhearted chuckle escaped her lips. "You wouldn't allow that, Y/N, we both know that."
She wasn't wrong. But the thought of even being married to somebody that wasn't her made my heart crumble in my chest.
"Just think about it, okay?" she asked pleadingly. "Promise me you'll think about it? Properly?"
I nodded, reassuring her with a sad smile. "I will. I promise." She sighed with relief, tense shoulders relaxing. I continued quietly, "Thank you, Wanda. For all of this. For everything."
She nodded, before laughing to distract from the tear that slipped from her eye. I felt bad, but there was nothing I could do. She was so concerned about my future without her and it pained me to see. We never talked about it – an unspoken agreement – because it was too difficult to accept.
"Come on," she said, changing the subject. "Let's go get that lunch we came here for."
I hadn't made up my mind about the publishing deal, but I was starting to veer towards a 'yes'.
A few days passed since Pietro made the offer and I hadn't told anybody of it. Only Wanda knew and she hadn't brought it up since, clearly not wanting to pressure me into a decision which I appreciated. It made me realise that I really wanted this for myself. I deserved this for myself, even if I'd been taught otherwise.
It was those few days later when the Maximoffs came over for dinner and it was the first time I'd seen Pietro since he made me the offer. When he greeted me at the door, he smiled brightly.
"I assume you haven't made a decision," he noted.
"You assumed correctly," I said with amusement, though I could tell he really wanted to know.
"Very well," he said with a shrug. "I guess I'll just have to change your mind."
I quirked a brow, wondering what he meant by that, but he simply walked past me and into the living room. Wanda smiled at me next, squeezing my hand and greeting me with a hug.
"You okay?" she asked lowly, a hint of concern in her eyes.
"I'm good," I promised. "Are you?"
"Yes," she said with a small smile. Just like her brother, I could tell she wanted to know what I was thinking.
After our two families conversed in the living room for a while, dinner was served by our servants and we all took to the table to continue our chatter.
"So, Pietro," my father started, looking across the table to him. "How is business going at the publishing house?"
I should have known what he would do when he glanced at me with mischievous eyes.
"It's going great," he answered my father respectfully. "We've actually sought out a new author to add to the list of names we represent."
My eyes widened when I realised what he was doing.
"Oh, really?" my dad asked with surprise. "Who is he?"
Pietro looked in my direction and I forgot how to breathe. "It's actually your daughter, sir."
All eyes fell to me as I locked my gaze on the cutlery beside my plate.
"Y/N? You want to sign Y/N?" asked my dad for clarification.
"I do," he said with a grin, and my face was heating up the longer this conversation went on. "Wanda saw her work and thought I'd be interested. I am. I think she'd make a great fit at our publishing house. And if she has a manuscript to show us, then I'd love to publish it."
"You did this?" Y/B/N asked Wanda with raised brows, jealousy intertwined in his voice.
"Yes, I did," she answered, unaffected by his irritation. "She's really talented."
I risked glancing up, smiling at Wanda appreciatively. She nodded in response, the corner of her mouth lifting adorably, making my heart flutter.
"She really is," Pietro agreed, before looking to my dad who still seemed taken aback. "She probably got that from you. Writing seems to run in the family."
My dad looked at me across the table, his eyes softening. All of our conversations flashed to mind where he claimed he was discouraging me for my own benefit. But now, everything he'd thought wouldn't happen was. Would he still be against the idea?
"D'you really think she'd sell?" he finally spoke, looking to Pietro, and I couldn't contain the smile from my lips.
"Yeah, don't women struggle with their first book?" my brother asked, and when I examined his expression, I saw the distaste.
"I actually think she'd do really well...," Pietro began to explain, before going into a long rant about numbers and sales and past examples.
As he spoke, my brother got progressively more frustrated and I frowned, wondering why he couldn't be supportive like our parents were being. Did he want to be the only author in our family that bad? Or was he just afraid that I wouldn't help him with his own books anymore?
"Thank you for explaining all of that," my dad said once he was done. He smiled, impressed, looking to me. "I actually love the idea."
I felt lightweight when he said that. Things were actually starting to look up for me. My dad was actually supporting my passion and it was all I'd wanted to hear since I was a kid. Trying to hide my elation behind a smile, I took a sip of water. 
"Maybe Pietro is just trying to sweeten Y/N up so he can propose," Y/B/N suddenly said, making me choke on my water.
Looking to him with disbelief, he had a friendly smile on his lips, but I saw right through it.
"Y/B/N," Wanda scolded beside him. "Don't joke about that."
"Yeah, I can assure you that's not the case," Pietro added with a chuckle, unfazed by my brother's bitterness.
"I know that," I said reassuringly, before glaring at my brother. "You don't need to dignify him with a response, Pietro."
Changing the subject, my mother spoke up with a laugh. "Well, I think this is delightful. Y/N has always loved to write and I used to think it wasn't an appropriate future for a young woman, but if you are saying it could be, then I'm fully supportive of the idea."
I smiled at her, unable to believe she'd actually said that. She was the last person I thought would approve.
"Pietro has a good eye with these things," Oleg pointed out. "If he thinks it'll be successful, it will be."
My parents began to talk about how writing was something I'd loved for a long time, but I wasn't really listening because I felt overwhelmed with happiness. Pietro caught my eye, winking playfully, and I hoped he knew how grateful I was at what he'd done. Under the table, Wanda's fingers laced through mine and I didn't let go. Giving her a sideways glance, I thanked her with my eyes. She smiled widely and I tried very hard not to kiss her.
"...it's not the conventional route, but Y/N deserves it," my dad said, and I perked up with realisation.
"Maybe Wanda could break the conventional, too," I said, wanting to repay the brunette beside me.
"What do you mean?" she asked with furrowed brows.
I gave her a smile of disbelief. "Wanda, your art. It's stunning. Everything you create could easily sell for hundreds of pounds."
Her lips parted with surprise as she struggled to find words.
"That's not a bad idea, you know," Iryna said with thought. "Especially if Y/N's signing goes to plan."
Oleg groaned playfully, looking to my father. "This is happening so quickly... our girls are growing up, Y/D/N."
My dad chuckled alongside him as I stroked the top of Wanda's hand with my thumb. She squeezed it gently and I smiled to myself.
"You'll make tons of money," I said with certainty. "Your work is incredible, Wanda."
"I'll make enough money to support the both of us," Y/B/N said, doing a terrible job at hiding his frustration.
I looked over Wanda and to him with a hard stare and fake smile. "It's not even about the money to be honest. Maybe it's just about Wanda doing something she loves."
He nodded in agreement, though his eyes glared daggers at me. "I agree. And I won't stop her. But there's no need to sell her work. She can still practice her craft as usual. Heck, I'll even get her a studio."
I quirked a brow challengingly. "And what if she wants to sell it?"
Y/B/N clenched his jaw behind a forced smile. I ignored the warning look Wanda gave me in my peripheral and didn't dare look away from my brother's gaze. This was a side to him that I definitely didn't like.
My mum suddenly laughed to clear the air, but it was nervous and concerned. "Ah, sibling rivalry. Such playful nonsense."
"I believe the dessert is coming out now," my dad added, stealing the Maximoffs' attention away from my brother and I. "We're having soufflé."
With a final glare to my brother, I returned to eating. Any chatter of Wanda and I's potential careers ceased and my parents attempted to make the rest of the meal worthwhile.
As much as I wanted to be excited at the possibility of accepting Pietro's deal, especially since I had my parents' support, I couldn't help but think about what just happened with my brother. What was his problem?
When the meal ended, we all had some tea in the living room before bringing the evening to a close. At the door, we said our goodbyes to the Maximoffs and I was sure to thank Pietro.
"You didn't have to do that back there," I said as we shook hands, "but thank you. I think I know my answer now."
"Anything for my sister's best friend," he said with his signature charming smile. "And I hope it's what I think it is. Though, I suppose you won't tell me now."
I chuckled, shaking my head. "Not now."
"Soon, I hope." He nodded conclusively. "Have a good evening, Y/N."
Wanda shoved him out the way before I could respond before pulling me in for a hug. Pietro didn't seem offended as he gave me a knowing look over her shoulder. I stared back inquisitively, but got distracted when Wanda broke the hug, finding my eyes.
"You okay after what happened?" she asked gently, eyes subtly gesturing to my brother who was bidding her parents a goodbye.
"I'm okay," I reassured her with a smile. "Thanks for tonight."
She returned my smile. "Thank you. I think my parents actually took me seriously for a change."
"It's the least I could do," I told her, fully aware of everything she'd done for me.
Her smile widened, eyes flickering to my lips conspicuously. I shoved her gently, knowing what she was thinking and reminding her that we were in front of both of our families right now. She rolled her eyes playfully before stepping back.
"Such a handful," I mumbled jokingly.
When they left, the first thing Y/B/N did was storm off to his study. My parents exchanged glances before looking to me.
"Be nice," my mum warned.
"We'll see," I muttered under my breath, looking in the direction he'd gone.
Oh, was he about to get a piece of my mind.
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These Books Of You Part 2
Xingqiu x Reader
Part 1
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Sypnosis: A boy of noble blood and disciple to the Guhua Clan, Xingqiu has been reading books of the heroic adventures of an elusive adepti, [Y/N] ever since he was a little boy.
Now a bit older, he sets everything aside in a journey to meet you.
Xingqiu was scolded harshly when he returned but he could hardly focus. Xingqiu could think of nothing but you and how he kissed-
He burries his face in his hand in embarrassment.
"Stop that. What's wrong with you?" Chongyun asks, sitting cross-legged on Xingqiu's bed.
"Oh Dear Chongyun, I kissed their hand." He replies in a muffled voice.
"Disgusting."
"You are not helping!"
Chongyun snickers, "What are they like?"
"Perfect." He responds, almost instantly.
"You'll have to be more specific than that."
"They saved me."
"You have a broken arm." Chongyun points out.
"I fell down while climbing though it should heal in 8 weeks at most."
"Foolish."
"Worth it."
Chongyun slouches on the bed as Xingqiu continues to ramble about you.
The following day feels as if it was the longest for Xingqiu. He could not bear the anticipation for nightfall and made sure to check the clock in his bedroom every ten seconds.
Now, you've been at the statue of Pervases since afternoon, paying your respects.
Xingqiu knew where the statue was. The traveler, Aether informed him of this but also told him to be careful as there were lots of hostiles in the path.
Xingqiu encountered none. There was this tugging feeling at the back of his head saying you cleared them all just for him. Which you did.
He arrived at the area and saw you, sitting near the statue with your eyes closed. The young man stared at you, contemplating about how peaceful you looked.
"Are you going to keep staring or will you sit down?" You ask, not looking at him.
"Apologies. My liege- I mean (Y/N). I was merely captivated by your beauty once again."
You open your eyes, taking in his expression.
He was dead serious.
You feel your cheeks heat up and in an effort to maintain your composure, you abruptly stand up and turn your back to him. You've come to terms with the fact that Xingqiu is a man of impulse. This, you could admire.
He is confused but decides not to bring it up.
Silence.
When the awkwardness becomes uncomfortable, he speaks again, "Would you like me to read these books of you out loud? I mean they're very interesting but it's fine if you don't considering that you already know what has happened-"
"Do as you wish."
The swordsman finds a comfortable place to sit and pulls out a heavy book.
Well this was gonna be a long night.
Once he starts reading, you find yourself unable to tear away your focus from his soft voice. You've lived these memories in your own life, and some you didn't even want to relive but still, you're drawn in by his sweet, sweet voice.
The night is mostly like this. There is occasional small talk like 'that is not how it happened.' Or 'May you please explain this part to me in detail? I want to know how you felt during this battle.'
You find if difficult to hold your tongue when he asks. Even the painful memories become just nostalgic when you explain to him. Xingqiu also tries not to overstep the boundaries despite wanting to know every single detail.
Weeks pass enough so that his arm eventually heals. And even more. Though he only gets to see you one night out of seven moons, he feels as if you two grow a bond, an unbreakable one. And you felt it too.
"-So I paid for all the damage dear Chongyun caused!"
You chuckle at the story, pitying his friend.
Silence.
You look at Xingqiu, confused as to why he stopped telling his story.
"You... you laughed," He points out, amazed. "I made you laugh..."
His cheeks were tainted with a blush. You could almost swear you saw his soul ascend to heaven.
"Hmmm... perhaps it's because I find it easy, tolerating your company. Maybe at times, I enjoy it," You say to stroke his ego a little .
"How did you get your vision?" He asks, eying the vision you had.
"Well... I used to be a mortal," You start, staring off into the distance.
The boy's eyes widen with curiosity and amazement, "I never knew of this! It's not mentioned in any of the books..."
"I never told anyone... Except now."
Xingqiu felt honored to be the first one you'd share your story with in thousands of years.
Suddenly, you question yourself.
Why were you so comfortable with him? Did he do some sort of sorcery on you? Why were you so important to him? Why was he so important to you? These thoughts raced in your head you could not think straight. Eons of slaughter did this to you. It broke you. Maybe it's just paranoia or all the lives you took finally taking a toll on you, giving you your own demons that prevented you from having nice things.
"How long will you stay with me?"
"Forever."
Liar
"No... Nevermind," You say, once again building your walls around yourself. The walls he tried so desperately to tear down.
Xingqiu frowns, "Why?"
You stay silent.
"(Y/N), you should not bear all your burden alone forever," He says, reaching out for your hand as if asking for your trust.
You don't accept it.
"It's not your place," You say in a stoic tone.
"But I'm your friend aren't I?"
His question is once again returned with silence.
"(Y/N), please I know how you feel-"
You feel yourself snap and say things you didn't even mean, "You know nothing of how I feel and you aren't my friend. You're merely an annoying mortal who wants to befriend me because you... you pity me. I disappointed you! I was not as heroic as those books say but you're too afraid to tell me-"
"(Y/N), none of that is true!" He grabs your shoulders, forcing you into eye contact, only then Xingqiu notices the tears, streaming down your cheeks.
He wonders what happened for you to be this reserved. Everyone always has a turning point. How long must you have yearned for someone to share the pain with you? How many times did they fail you? He was here now. You could trust him. He was prepared to wait. If you could just give him a chance, show him a sign, he would do anything for you because he
"I love you," Xingqiu whispers, wiping your tears away.
It was beautiful. The night, how the stars perfectly reflected in his eyes. The way he cups your cheeks with his slender hands. The way you felt as if you could just melt in his touch. The quiet. The moon. The relationship-
But every relationship had it's problems.
And in this one, it was you.
"You mean nothing to me. Just a face I'll forget after five hundred years," You say coldly, looking him straight in the eyes before vanishing from his sight.
"Forever."
Liar. Liar. Liar
Reality hits Xingqiu like a bucket of cold water. Of course. Of course he was just a human waving his fancy little sword around. He tried so desperately to gain your approval, pathetic as a clown. The Archons were probably laughing their heads off at how foolish he had been.
Xingqiu scoffs at himself, first he starts laughing, though that quickly turns into full blown sobs.
He's glad you left so you would not have to witness him in this shameful state.
But you didn't leave. You were still there. Just invisible to him. You wanted to make sure he got home safely. Quite ironic considering the only one that had posed real danger to him, was you.
Weeks pass with no sign of Xingqiu. You grew more and more restless and empty by the day. The adeptus noticed. Morax noticed.
"(Y/N), do you wish to become a mortal again?" He asked you one afternoon.
"You... you can do that?"
"You can," He replies. "Your vision was given to you along with your immortality when we made the contract."
Then suddenly, you understood what had to be done.
The other adeptus were surprisingly supportive of your decision. Even Xiao mentioned how he envied you for having a choice.
It felt weird to walk in the streets of Liyue Harbor. You have not visited this place since the time it was nothing but a wasteland of vengeful gods yet now the city was lively. Their were children running around and playing, street vendors attracting customers, lovers walking hand in hand. All this was fruit of your victories of war, was it not? Would it be such a sin to enjoy it?
Your thoughts are cut short when you feel someone grab you and harshly pull you into an alleyway.
"Xingqiu?" Was your first thought.
"We couldn't be more different."
You turn to the voice and find a light haired male, matching the description as someone in Xingqiu's stories.
"Chongyun."
He nods, seemingly unamused, then he glares, "What did you say to Xingqiu?"
"Hurtful things I shouldn't have," You admit, wincing at the memory.
Chongyun sees the glint of guilt in your eyes, "Well you better fix it."
"Where can I find him?"
You shock him with your eagerness. Perhaps... you weren't so bad Chongyun thought.
He brings you to Xingqiu's residence.
"Climb the window," He says. "I'll wait here. He won't talk to me."
Xingqiu mentioned a strict household once but you never expected that the only way out was sneaking through a window, though.
You, despite eons of combat training, quite clumsily stumble into the room.
There was no sign of Xingqiu... other than the uneven lump, the shape of Xingqiu under the blankets.
"Go away, Chongyun." He says, in a rather raspy voice.
You feel extremely guilty again. You caused this. This was your fault. Maybe he was better of without you-
No. No. These were the kind of thoughts that put you both in this situation in the first place. You were no longer going to listen to them.
"It's me, Xingqiu," Finally announcing yourself.
You here a small gasp but after that, nothing more.
Not knowing where to start or what to say, you settle on continuing the conversation that got cut off by your paranoid thoughts last time.
"I was once a mortal."
"Why are you still here? Don't you have someone else's heart to break?"
Well... at least now he was talking.
You decide to continue talking.
"I had a lover."
A yaksha. A strong and kind yaksha. A most gentle and lively man who never failed to save lives and vanquish foes. He always told you of his dreams to serve the geo archon and bring peace to the land.
"How long will you stay with me?" You ask, playing with his hair.
"Forever."
But he lied.
He fell victim to corruption after all the blood had been spilled and all the sins had been sinned.
He went on a rampage, destroying everything he came across and killing anyone who stood in his way. Innocent or sinner.
Except for you.
So you were the one to put an end to it all as you quite literally pierced an arrow through his heart.
And you regretted it. Inconsolable, you were.
Morax took pity on you and offered you what had been your lover's dream to serve, his powers, and eternal life.
"This vision isn't mine, Xingqiu. It's his," You finish the story, grasping the electro vision tightly.
"Xingqiu, I owe you an apology. I'm not exactly stable. I thought I didn't deserve nice things. I thought... I thought that by loving you, I would doom one of us to infinite suffering while the other, death," You admit, tearfully. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I-"
His arms wrap around your waist. It's almost scary how you didn't notice him get up and make his way toward you how low your guard was.
"I love you, Xingqiu."
"I love you too, (Y/N)."
"Miss (Y/N)," Chongyun calls out, when he passes by you in the street one day.
"I don't know if this means anything to you... but your vision seems to be at peace. I cannot explain this either. It has an aura as if it were alive."
You hold the hilt of your sword, aiming it at the vision that was currently on the ground.
Xingqiu places a kiss on your cheek before stepping back. "Whenever you're ready."
Months past after your reconciliation with him. The both of you have been happy together ever since.
The only way for you to become mortal again was to destroy the thing that bound you to immortality. The vision.
When you first told Xingqiu, he was hesitant. To think you'd give up your powes and eternal life just to grow old with him. But this was your choice. You spent years taking lives and saving them. Now you just wanted to take back your own. To live your own.
You inhale sharply and with all your force, bring the sword down.
It shatters the vision into a thousand glistening pieces. Sorrowful yet calm and beautiful. You had long forgiven the yaksha. And it seems he, you.
Xingqiu snakes a hand around your waist and  pulls you so that you're facing him. You inch your face closer to his and kiss him, it was a long kiss that left you out of breath. The kind of kiss that told you everything would be alright. The kind you read about in books.
"How long will you stay with me?" He asks.
"Forever."
And there were no lies this time.
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seonghwa-is-babie · 4 years ago
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Soft kitten
Hybrid! Seonghwa x male reader
Warning: mentioned abuse, crying, angst
Note: I think this the fastest I've ever redone a fic😳😳
Hope u enjoy!
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"get up, pet" the guard said as seonghwa's cage opened, stepping out with his ears and tail hanging low. not really sure where he had to go, only knowing to obey orders, or he'll get even more beatings than just the daily torture of malnutrition.
Seonghwa lost hope ever since they kidnapped him from his home in the jungles and brought him to this prison like building, he had tried escaping many times, but every one of those failed. and the punishment for them was even worse than a failed attempt at freedom
They stopped in front of a curtain, pushing the boy through it. He fell to the ground, only when he looked up did he realise what his situation was. It was an auction, selling hybrids for a lot of money
"now up next as you can see, this beautiful white tiger hybrid, only 22 years old" prices were being shouted through the room, building up price little by little, until "$100,000,000" a voice said, this shocked everyone, including seonghwa. who'd give out that much just for a hybrid? "sold! You may come and get your hybrid after the auction"
After the auction, they put him back in his cage. He secretly hoped his new 'home' will be better than this one, though, he doubts it'll be anything different from his current life. Footsteps started coming to his cage and stopped in front of him
"get up" said the man who sold him. Seonghwa had trouble with it due to his wounds from the previous beatings "I'm terribly sorry for his lazy attitude sir" he said as the boy got up to face his new owner "it's fine" said the man who bought him. he was handsome, but seonghwa wasn't one to be fooled easily by appearances. he wore a fancy velvet suit and had (h/c) hair that was styled neatly
The older man did the leash on seonghwa's collar and handed it to the other "it's all yours now" the man nodded and left the building, seonghwa's ears still hanging low. He was glad to be out of there, but what will happen after this?
They got to a car that was parked relatively close, the other opened the door for him. Seonghwa didn't ask anything and stepped inside, the other went to the drivers seat and started driving "so what's your name?" he looked up shyly and said "s-s-seonghwa, sir." "that's a pretty name, and you can drop the sir or any formalities, just call me y/n." seonghwa blushed "thank you si- y/n, sorry" y/n shook it off.
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The rest of the ride was quiet, seonghwa being too afraid and shy to start any conversation. "you don't talk much, do you?" y/n asked, seonghwa tensed up afraid he did something wrong
"it's alright, I get it. Your previous home must've been rough and laid down a lot of rules" y/n looked at seonghwa through the mirror of the car "I'm sorry you had to go through that, but don't worry, you won't have to go through that ever again, I'll make sure of it"
was his luck finally turning around? he didn't wanna get his hopes up too high too soon though, after all the man could just be lying to him "actually, I already have 7 hybrids I take care of already, they're like family to me." this made the smaller relieved, yet still nervous and frankly, a bit scared, what if the other hybrids don't like him or beat him like some of the others did back at his now old home.
They arrived at a big mansion, to seonghwa, it was a bit terrifying. When they got out of the car, y/n gestured seonghwa to come closer, the other obeyed but got extremely nervous when he felt hands around his neck, he flinched, pulling away "oh, I'm sorry, I was just gonna take your collar off since it looks a bit uncomfortable" seonghwa calmed down a bit, enough to let y/n finish taking his collar off. The older then gestured to take his hand, which the other took
Y/n opened the door, hoping the boys didn't mess up the house too bad, only to be met with no damage whatsoever "huh, that's new. Nothing's broken or damaged" seonghwa looked at him confused, but decided against asking, since he was still a bit on edge
He heard multiple pairs of feet come their way and hid behind y/n "hyung! You're home!" multiple voices said, they must be his other hybrids. All of them ran up to him to give him a hug, and that's when they noticed Seonghwa "hyung, who's that?" San, a cat hybrid who was currently in the older's arms, pointed behind y/n, eager to know the strangers name
"right, boys could you all please calm down a bit, I have some important news" that made the boys perk up "I've decided to bring another friend home, this is seonghwa, I hope you'll be kind to him like you are to each other. Now if you'll excuse me, I have to show seonghwa his room, you can ask him questions after that"
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It's been about a month since seonghwa was introduced to the house, and he felt like he was in heaven, many friends, a loving owner that helped him get over past traumas, who he might be starting to like a little more than just his owner, and the freedom to finally chose for himself.
but not everything was all sunshine and rainbows. After a few weeks he started to question why he was even brought into this house, why y/n wanted him so badly that he spent $100,000,000 on him alone. how could seonghwa ever even try to pay him back, at this point he just feels like a burden to the man
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One evening after dinner, seonghwa headed to his room early , claiming he was tired. When he got to his room, he started thinking 'why would he take me in, it seems like he has enough hybrids already, so why bring home another mouth to feed. He should have just left me there, where I won't be a burden to him' thinking more and more of these thoughts, he started to silently cry into his sheets
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"boys, I'm gonna check up on seonghwa ok, I'll be back in a minute" the youngsters gave him quick 'ok' and went back to the show that was playing. As y/n was walking towards his room, he couldn't help but feel worried about the tiger hybrid, something seemed a bit odd when he went to his room so early.
He opened the door to seonghwa's room, only to find the latter seemingly sound asleep. y/n smiled at him and went to close the door, until he heard a quiet sniff coming from seonghwa's direction "seonghwa?" he didn't answer "seonghwa?" again, he didn't answer, but the older went in because he knew that he wasn't just hearing things.
He crouched down on the younger's bedside, but he had already covered his face with his blanket "seonghwa, could you please lower the sheets, I want to see your face for a second" y/n spoke in a gentle tone. The younger shook his head "please seonghwa, I want to make sure you're alright, and I can't do that without looking at your face
Seonghwa hesitated, but slowly lowered the sheets, revealing his red eyes and tear stained cheeks, the older immediately became worried, but tried to keep his calm "kitten, what's wrong? Did someone hurt you? Is it-"
"why did you get me?" y/n was shocked at that "you already have so many, so why bring in another mouth to feed. You could have easily left me to get bought by someone else. So why?! Why did you buy a stupid tiger that's nothing more than a burden to you?!?!"
he couldn't believe what he was hearing, to him, seonghwa, though having only been here for a short time, has become one of the most important people in his life. He couldn't let seonghwa think about himself like that
"seonghwa, i got you because from the first time I saw you, I knew you needed someone, someone that loves you and respects you, and I thought, I could be that person. It doesn't matter to me how many hybrids there are in my house, I will take care of all of you no matter what. And trust me, you're not a burden, you already help so much around the house, and the others already love you to death, I love you to death. Please, don't think that about yourself, I know you've been through a lot of stuff, but right here, right now, I'll promise to keep you save until I draw my last breath, you're save with us, with me"
Seonghwa cried, but these tears were those of happiness. He engulfed y/n in a hug, wrapping his arms around the olders neck while putting his head in his his chest "th-th-an-k you, thank you so much!" y/n stroked the younger's back, carefully lifting himself on the bed "it's alright dear, you're safe with me, no one's gonna hurt you"
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After a while of comforting y/n realised he hasn't told the boys to go to bed yet "sweetheart, I have to go see the boys for a little and make sure they go to bed, is that alright with you?" seonghwa didn't let him go "can't you stay here?" he chuckled at the younger clinging onto him as if his life depended on it
"I'll only be gone for a few minutes, then I'll come straight back to you" the younger continued his whining "nooooo, I wanna stay with you" y/n lifted him up so he was wrapped around his chest, clinging on him like a koala "then you're coming with me"
"boys, it's time for bed" y/n said as he came downstairs, the others looked at him with a questioning look "what?" he asked, the others gave knowing looks to each other "hyung?" San asked "yeah, what is it?" the next words, y/n definitely didn't expect to hear "do you like seonghwa hyung?"
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The question had stuck with him since the others went to bed 'maybe I do like him, he brings a smile to my face just by existing, he's a true sweetheart, not to mention he's the most beautiful person i've ever laid my eyes on' " umm, y/n?" the older turned his head to seonghwa "I ummm, might have heard what you and San talked about" y/n sighed, sitting up from the bed, already knowing where this was going "I understand it if you felt uncomfortable about that, but he wasn't wrong actually, I've found myself quite fond of you actually, but I completely understand if these feelings aren't the same for you."
the two stood there in complete silence "I guess I should go I probably made this extrem-" "no wait!" y/n looked back at seonghwa who's face was completely red "umm, I umm, I also like you, the feelings' mutual" he almost stuttered out completely. The older smiled softly at him, crawling back into bed with him, petting his ears "You're so soft, kitten."
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ikemen-girl · 4 years ago
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Hello, sweety! I don't know if you're currently taking up request or not (please don't mind this ask if you're not doing it right now ^^). I'm a teacher and seeing how Mitsuhide teaches MC in his route, may I request you for a HC of Mitsuhide finds out that his MC is a teacher as well in her future life? I really want to know how he would react on that. Thank you for visiting my blog beforehand and hoping you a wonderful upcoming weekend! ✨🍀
Hellooooo dear 😍😍♥️♥️, thank you very much for this interesting request 🥰💗! I am also aspiring to become a teacher in few years so I am very glad to meet you😍😍! And I would like to say that you are an amazing artist👏🙌! I hope you also have a great weekend💃🌹! So, here we go😉~
Ikesen Headcanon⚔💗
Mitsuhide reacting to a MC being a Teacher👩‍🏫:
You loved teaching children😍❤ but you ended up in the sengoku era while travelling to Kyoto on a school trip with your students & other teachers leaving a very good life in the modern era😩 & accidentally saved Nobunaga's life to your surprise & Mitsuhide took a special interest in you👀 & his mind-reading skills used to freak you out😨.
You were honestly terrified after stepping on the battlefield for the first time in your life😱 when you have been always surrounded by the laughter & twinkling eyes of children and you were missing it terribly😭, to top it all, the shock of seeing a man die infront of your eyes was too overwhelming, so you fell unconscious😵 & Mitsuhide carried you back in Azuchi Castle.
"Starting from tomorrow, I will be your teacher, little mouse, for the subject matters, I think, tactics, equestrianism, self defense, firearms seems a good start😏!", said Mitsuhide with a huge smirk on his face.
"I hope you will be a good pupil, little mouse🐭!", said Mitsuhide as he stood and gave you a head-pat.
"Pffffttttt, I am waiting for that moment", you murmured, chuckling to yourself🤭.
"Did you say something?", asked Mitsuhide turning back to look at her.
"I am looking forward for tomorrow, Mitsuhide-sensei, goodnight😅!", she straighten up with a slight bow. Mitsuhide smiled at her🙂 and goes outside the room.
"His smile creeps me out, well, nevermind. I am excited to see the surprise on his face tomorrow😁", she let out a huge grin.
"Before starting up on the actual studies, I would like to test your knowledge base, here is your questions sheet, fill it up, little mouse📝!", said Mitsuhide as he gave her the question paper with a smirk on his face😏.
You took it, pretending to be afraid of the test making him amused, "Go on, little mouse, it's not that difficult, I assure you!", he said with a amused grin on his face😄. As you look down at the questions on Japanese literature, history & general knowledge, on the inside, you were so happy 💃while on the outside, you kept a face of a child who is horrified at the thought of giving an exam😱.
You submitted your answer sheet to him and as Mitsuhide scanned it, his eyes went wide with shock😲, he was NOT expecting this at all. You honestly wished that you have a camera 📷 to capture his expression which was so funny to say the least. Each & every answer was correct💯.
"How😳?", it's the only word that came out his mouth. You couldn't control anymore & burst out laughing loudly🤣. "Because I am also a teacher, Mitsuhide👩‍🏫", you said with a proud look on your face. "What😳?", he was left speechless once again which only made it harder for you to control your laughter.
"You really surprised me there, little mouse😅!", Mitsuhide laughs along with you to hide his flustered expression. "So, what do you teach🤔?", he asked, curious to know about you.
"Let's see, I mainly teach japanese literature & history, apart from it, I am well versed in general knowledge, english literature, I love art, psychology, etc, so if any child wants to learn it, I teach these skills to them as well with full excitement as being around them & seeing them grow in their lives makes me so happy🤩❤!", you said with a biggest smile on your face🥰 & eyes shining with happiness since you came to this era👀✨. Mitsuhide was, to be very honest, awestruck seeing your genuine happiness☺️.
As much as Mitsuhide didn't want to interrupt you, but he grew suspicious of your origin as being this educated in this era was surprisingly rare especially in something like english literature🤔. "Who are you & where are you from, mysterious little mouse? Tell me all your secrets, little one", he asked, narrowing his gaze at you👀.
You froze for a moment😳 as you knew very well that you have raised his suspicions when you were rambling non-stop😬 & you couldn't lie or else you will be in huge trouble😓. "Why should I tell you when you are also a potential "traitor" in Oda forces infront of everyone, hm?", you asked jokingly trying to avoid the question😅. "Little mouse, I am used to prying out the secrets and I would not prefer to use the same techniques on you", he said with a frown on his face🤨 unknown to him but you noticed the discomfort in his expression & sighed.
So you showed him your purse👜 and told him everything about yourself as Mitsuhide listened patiently. "So our little mouse came from 500 years in the future, it's hard to believe but you have proof with yourself, now I can see the reason how you are so innocent & untouched by the realities of this time", said Mitsuhide with a amused smirk😏.
"I have only told you the truth, rest is up to you to believe in me", you said with a pout☹.
"Don't pout, I believe in you, little one, as you have been a very nice girl, I will treat you with tea & sweets🍵🍡 as a reward, little mouse", Mitsuhide said caressing your cheek with his thumb😏. You honestly couldn't stop yourself from smiling after hearing the offer😍.
Mitsuhide was overcome with affection for her as she believed in him as a person despite having her doubts and confided in him with everything, he made a secret vow to himself to protect her from everything❤.
You both went to the teahouse together & suddenly Kyubei called Mitsuhide for giving some urgent information. Mitsuhide excused himself for a moment while you were happily eating your sweets😍, but then, you heard some men were talking bad things about him behind his back & you couldn't stand seeing & listening something wrong so you strongly defended him infront of them😡, not caring for the fact that you had no weapons on yourself, one of the men tried to hit you but Mitsuhide arrived in time to rescue you from them😎.
So this started the strong feeling of love in heart of Mitsuhide towards you😍💓💞 as nobody has ever done something like this for him, he was so impressed by the fact that you strongly stood for your values proving your strength of sense of justice as a teacher & a good person by heart☺️💯.
He continued training you in survival skills like self defense, horseriding, shooting as you were already were well-versed in theory. In exchange, you would definitely teach him english literature & tell him about many fascinating things about the human mind & everything you know about future along with many other things😍, you both loved spending time with each other and always look forward to such meetings everyday.
Once, you were well trained in these skills, you gave your gratitude towards your "teacher" Mitsuhide by gifting him a very beautiful portrait✍❤ of him playing with his pet fox, Chimaki🦊. He couldn't resist hugging you tightly the moment, he laid his eyes on it🤗💗. You yourself was the biggest & the most precious gift for him in his life but your gift made him the most happiest person💓😢, he would definitely try to hide his happiness with a amused smirk & headpat but you can see through his facade that he is genuinely happy🥰. He would definitely put the portrait in such a place where everyone could see his little mouse's amazing skills😎😏.
After facing many difficulties together, you both confessed your feelings towards each other💐 and you both were a lovely couple infront of everyone😍👫💗.
You would both use knowledge of english as a medium for infiltration as spies together in other territories🧐. Surprisingly, a language, i.e., english, became a special kind of exchange & secret code between you☺️ and Mitsuhide😏 as you both would often converse in english infront of other warlords much to their surprise & confusion🙄😳🤔.
As you were always willing to stay by his side, he used to take you along to infiltrate certain places, your skill of art would definitely come as a big help for Mitsuhide💯, as you could easily draw the suspects making his workload way more easier than it was before✍😌.
In exchange, Mitsuhide would always make sure that you were not uncomfortable in such investigation trips, he would always give you tips in dancing, singing, acting, etc 🤗 and also expect loads of teasings while he is at it, fufufufu😘.
You both being the best teachers around in Azuchi would definitely use this opportunity to teach as many children as possible who don't have access to proper education without asking for anything in return as you both did it for your own self-satisfaction & happiness in your free times💛. Mitsuhide generally taught the skills of self defense🤼‍♂️, weaponry🔫, etc while you would educate the kids in literatures, general knowledge & art👩‍🏫. Children would also always look forward to meeting both of you everyday🥰❤🤗. It became one of your most favourite & productive ways to spend time with each other❤. Children also ships you both together, mind you👀❤🤭!
Mitsuhide loved the way your eyes sparkles with happiness👀✨ whenever you are around the children🥰😘❤ and can't help falling more deeply in love with you😍💓.
He would always praise you infront of everyone, everytime he gets a chance😏. Cue warlords- We know that already, Mitsuhide, you just told us🤦‍♂️. Mitsuhide: Hooooh~But not that...😏 endless praise begins & he shuts up only when you take him outside the council room dying of embarrasment😳🙈🤦‍♀️ to which he only laughs loudly🤣😏.
Mitsuhide would often call you "my brilliant little mouse💯🐭!", as his way of showing affection towards you💗😏. Cue you blushing deep shade of red tomato and running away from him😳🙈🍅.
Extra~
"You really love her, huh?", asked Hideyoshi as he was walking down the hallways😆. "Obviously, I love her with all my heart💗, she is the brightest star of my life🌟!", said Mitsuhide, his eyes filled with love and a beautiful smile on his face.
"Was that a genuine smile on your face, Mitsuhide?!", exclaimed Hideyoshi, shocked😲.
"My, My, Hideyoshi, I don't have any idea what you are talking about😏", said Mitsuhide as he realised that his facade broke their for a moment out of his love for you. Hideyoshi *eye twitch* : whatever🙄!
Mitsuhide then went looking for you to tease and shower you with all his love & affection❤😏.
Hope, you all enjoyed it❤😍🤗. Comments are appreciated😇!
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giorno-plays-piano · 5 years ago
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Savior
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Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Warnings: yandere, obsession, kidnapping, mentions of COVID.
Words: 2633.
Summary: Nothing goes right in the middle of pandemic while you try to come back home. Luckily, Bucky is there to give you a hand.
P.S. Basically, I typed all the story on my phone, so please forgive me for any mistakes. Hope you'll enjoy!
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You knew something would go wrong. You had that nagging feeling the whole day right after you woke up and prepared your bags before arriving at the airport. Today you had a flight back to US right in the middle of pandemic. You needed to get back to your sick father as he had no one but you to take care of him, and the urgency made you disregard all the risks related to your travel. You needed to get home at whatever cost.
But nothing was as easy as before, and now you were almost crying, staring at one of Sokovia Airlines officials who blankly stated you simply didn't have enough documents prepared by the Embassy for your travel. Basically, they were implying that instead of taking a transit and flying back home you might stay in Sokovia - of course, you had only a transit visa that didn't give you any right for a long stay. Both company's representative and you knew you only planned to return home, but he simply couldn't let you pass without full set of documents.
"God, honey, how long are you going to stay there?" You heard someone's grumpy voice behind you and turned back to see a huge man with long dark hair advancing towards you.
Who was he? You had never seen him before arriving at the airport. Then you spotted him in the line - his muscular built draw your attention immediately, and your cheeks were flushed when you saw him looking back at you. The crinkles in the corners of his eyes showed you he was smiling at you. But what was he doing now? Did he take you for someone else?
"I'm sorry, who are you?" The representative asked, watching the man suspiciously.
"I'm her fiancee." The stranger barked and took a look at you, his light blue eyes strangely comforting. You weren't sure, but did he just... winked at you for a second?
The man behind the counter didn't look pleased.
"Then why weren't you standing together?"
"Because we had a big fight this morning and were mad at each other when we arrived here." The stranger furrowed. "With all due respect, it's none of your business. Would you tell me what is the issue with her papers, please?"
You gulped, your arms shaking slightly. Although the stranger probably wanted to help you, you weren't sure it would work out - the representative only needed to ask if you knew this man's name to figure everything out. Was he actually travelling to New York as well? Would the officials ban you from entering US at all for your lie? God, anyway, it was too late to confess.
"I'm sorry, dear." You whispered, looking at you shoes and hoping no one would suspect anything.
The stranger let out a sigh tiredly and scratched his head. Instead of answering you, he gave his passport to the official. 
"Your fiancee doesn't have the form WS-21, Mr. Barnes. We cannot permit her crossing the boarder of Sokovia without it, unfortunately. Do you have your own form?"
"I'm sure I do." He passed the man behind the counter a pack of his documents and carefully took the papers you held in your arms. Flipping through them, he gripped the phone in his other arm.
"Yes, your forms are alright, but..."
"Just a minute, please."
You watched him dialing some number and shivered at the thought of being trapped in the airport. The only thing you wanted was to come back home, to your father. You prayed to stay healthy and was supposed to take a test right after your arrival. Of course, you knew perfectly you were most likely to stay two weeks at home, but it was way better than staying thousands miles away, nonetheless. 
"Hi Steve." The man's voice almost made you jump. "Yes, I'm good, but my sweetheart has an issue with one of the forms... Yeah... Well, you know her, always forgetting one thing or another... The Embassy, of course. Hey, could you?.."
You saw him walking away to the next few counters, keeping his distance from other travellers with their huge bags. His large bulky figure looked scary, his face concealed with a black mask, and you suddenly wondered who this man was. A complete stranger, he was eager to help you. Why? Was he truly a Good Samaritan? If not, what was his motive? Nervously tapping your hip, you felt your eyes watering - your anxiety was getting worse.
The official huffed and puffed, visibly irritated. You saw people passing around you with the boarding passes in their hands, looking for the right direction, and asked yourself why you were not as lucky as all of them. Could that mysterious Mr. Barnes help you? Watching him pacing across the airport hall, you chewed your lip to bits. 
'I'm so, so sorry." You whispered to the man behind the counter. "Please, just a few minutes more." 
He didn't answer, and you were left to your own dreary thoughts.
However, your frightening savior showed up soon with a smile hidden beneath his mask. Judging by the way he looked, things might be not as bad as you expected them to be.
"Don't worry, honey." He said confidently and gave all your documents to the representative. "Consul will be here in 10 minutes."
You gaped at him, trembling at his words. What? Consul? Consul was coming to save you? This man was able to convince him to drive all the way to the airport just to help you with this goddamn form? You couldn't believe it. It sounded insane.
You realized you were crying only when the man in front of you shushed you gently and rubbed you shoulder with his gloved hand. Thinking it looked odd, you decided you had to say something convincing and mumbled, "I'm sorry for all the things I said in the morning. I was... I was..."
"It's ok, honey." He said softly, his icy blue eyes warming up at the sight of your flushed face. "It doesn't matter now. Everything gonna be alright, let's just relax and wait a little bit." 
He was right, of course. Once Consul had showed up and came to speak to the officials, it turned out you didn't even need the form WS-21 because you had the other one to replace it. Bucky - that was your handsome stranger's name - chuckled quietly once he saw the red face of Consul walking to you to offer his sincere apologies. The company's representatives looked like someone just splashed a bucket of cold water over their heads. It didn't matter to you, though, as you got the only thing you wanted from the start - your right to come back to US. 
You were the last one to go through customs - your flight was delayed for 15 minutes just to give you time to board after this hussle. Bucky was with you all the time, always keeping the distance. He even gave you one more mask since yours was drenched with tears. It's unsafe to wear a wet one, he said.
It was still hard to believe all this happened to you. Now you were sitting close to Bucky and looking out the window happily. God, you thought you would have a heart attack before this kind man showed up to save you as if he were a prince charming. You were ashamed of yourself for thinking he was frightening. Well, he looked beefy, but Bucky was a former Navy SEAL, and it wasn't surprising he wanted to keep himself in shape. Listening to him trying to make a small talk, you smiled. He was a good man, and you were lucky to meet him.
"Thank you... for taking care of me." You said in a tiny voice. "If you weren't there, I'd never leave this place."
His eyes sparkled with joy at your words, and he laughed a little through his mask. 
"I'm glad I was able to help." Smiling at you, he watched the flight attendants coming closer to your row and offering drinks to the people in front of your seats . "I understand how important it is for you to come back."
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The rest of your journey was as stressful as its beginning, but Bucky was always there for you. Still pretending to be your fiancee, he dealt with your new issues so fast as if he had a magic wand, and you couldn't express your gratitude for everything he had done for you. Apparently, meeting someone as good-natured as him was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
In the end, exhausted from your long journey - you spend more than 20 hours travelling - you fell asleep on the way back to New York. Bucky was next to you again, and you finally felt safe. All was good if he was close.
Thinking of the ways to repay him for the kindness he showed you, you closed your eyes and dozed off in a matter of minutes. Everything was going to be okay.
Or so you thought before you woke up in a place you didn't recognize, all you belongings gone. They even changed you clothes! Feeling hazy and tired, you shifted uncomfortably on the bed and looked around a plain room with only a few pieces of furniture. What had happened? Did you fell sick during the flight? But it didn't look like hospital. Why no one had woken you up if anything serious happened? Why didn't you wake up yourself? Surely, it was loud enough when you landed. You weren't even a heavy sleeper!
Still a little groggy, you got your feet on the floor and walked to the door next to the white Ikea drawer. You hoped your were back to US, at least. If you were in Sokovia... God, you didn't even want to think about it.
"Excuse me, is anybody here?" You asked once you entered the corridor, looking for people.
Although you saw no one at all, you heard someone's footsteps and froze, suddenly feeling afraid to move. Why were you so sure it was safe to raise your voice? You didn't know where you were, why you were kept here, and who was the one who brought you to this place. Did you break any laws? Were you confined? 
Before you freaked out, you saw Bucky emerging from one of the doors and advancing quickly towards you with a wide smile. He had no mask covering his face, and you saw how handsome he was with his soft chapped lips and a three-day beard. Was he really here with you? You saw his grin and felt relieved. Thank goodness it was Bucky, you thought. If he was here, you two would definitely figure something out. 
"Morning, honey." He smiled and stretched his huge hand towards you. "How are you feeling?"
You laughed at his words: he was still playing your little game. 
"Hi Bucky. A bit tired, but otherwise I'm pretty good. Um, where are we now, actually?"
He looked at you dumbfounded and helped you walking into the closest room - a nice spacious master bedroom with lots of photos on the walls, a huge king-sized bed, a closet and a table. The room looked a bit unfinished, but better than the one where you woke up. 
"We're home, honey." Bucky answered softly when you landed on the comfy bed.
"Wait, your home?"
"What do you mean? Our home, of course."
When you looked at him with wide eyes, he simply gestured to the frames on the wall, and you saw yourself kissing him on the cheek. The other photo was a selfie where you were depicted sleeping on Bucky's shoulder. One more had you two dancing. You couldn't believe your eyes and jumped from the bed to have a better look at the photos, but it was really you there along with him. How could it happen? What did you miss? You could swear you had never seen Bucky before. Was it Photoshop or anything like that? It would be more realistic, really.
"Didn't we... m-meet yesterday at the airport?" You whispered, horrified to the core.
"Honey, we met two years ago." Bucky frowned, coming closer and looking at your face intently. "Listen, I'm going to call the doctor again, ok? I see you didn't recover from your fall yesterday, so let's have you checked one more time."
"What fall?"
"Your bike. Yesterday's evening. You lost consciousness for a few minutes, remember? The doctor said you had nothing serious, but I see he was wrong. Give me just a few seconds to call him, ok?"
You stared blankly at him, unsure of what to do. Was it all true? You felt like you were going mad, watching Bucky walking out the room. Did you really lose your memories because you hit your head? Maybe it sounded quite logical, but you just didn't feel it was right. 
When Bucky was talking to the doctor in the corridor, you quickly searched the room but didn't find your cellphone or anything that could confirm your suspicions. On the other hand, you didn't remember anything after you fell asleep during your flight. Anything at all. There was no memories of your father even, although you cared about him more than anyone else in your life. How bad did you have to hit your head? It didn't feel real.
Sighing, you walked to the closet and opened it, finding there just a bit of Bucky's clothes and a few pieces of your own old one. If he didn't know you, how come your clothes was here? Surely, he couldn't bring your unconscious body through the customs, then come to your house, fetch your clothes and bring you here. How was that even possible? 
You looked in the mirror, watching you face growing more wet with tears streaming down your cheeks. You needed to calm down. Whatever had happened, Bucky was not your kidnapper, obviously. He only wanted to help, nothing else. Maybe you really hit your head too hard. 
Scratching your temple, you looked closely at your face to see if something had changed. As far as you could see, you were the same as before, but you had never been keen on changing your appearance, anyway. Maybe it was all true. Maybe you were now living with Bucky in your new house as a couple.
You sighed again and touched your shoulder with your palm. You were safe. Regardless of what had happened, you were back in US, visibly unharmed - well, almost - and living in a pretty decent house. It was silly to think that Bucky was here to torture you. He was probably no less concerned than you: his honey couldn't even remeber those two years they spent together.
But then you suddenly saw a little blue line on the back of your palm. It was hardly visibly since you tried to rub it off your skin once you accidentally marked yourself with a pen while filling some documents in Sokovia, yet some ink was still there. You looked carefully and saw that it was the very same curved little line. It wasn't a coincidence. It couldn't be.
When you heard Bucky's concerned voice somewhere from the corridor, you backed away to the bed, watching the door with horror. It was all a lie. Those pictures on the walls were really photoshopped, and the clothes... if he could make the pictures in such short time, maybe he had someone to take care of your clothes. Maybe he had never been a Navy SEAL in the first place. Was he a hitman? A serial killer? You didn't know for certain, but one thing you knew for sure: Bucky wasn't your savior. He was your captor.
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turinn · 4 years ago
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Naive
Ray Blackwell x M!Reader
Summary: An invitation at a party reveals that Luka had no idea you’re gay, and brings up a concern you hadn’t had before. Tags: Crack, fluff, secret relationship, mention of homophobia, alcohol consumption A/N: This is based on a dream I had where Luka and I had this exact conversation and when I woke up and remembered it I nearly threw up laughing. I did actual research for the girls outfit and hair bc im a fashion history nerd. the pocket watch i just thought was cute. Fenrir calls the reader fruity but its okay bc hes gay too god bless Word Count: 1.5k
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The party was the usual affair expected of the Godspeed's, an air of elegance- present but not too overbearing- hanging over the large hall. Music drifted gently to your ears as you took everything in, a small smile settling on your face.
You couldn't help but feel a little underdressed. The officers had, of course, kept their uniforms on, but everyone else present was dressed to the nines. You'd thought the suit you wore was lovely when you and Seth had seen it last week, dark blue with a white trim, paired with a pale cyan tie and pocket square. The gold watch that settled comfortably in your pocket had been a gift from Blanc, supposedly made by Oliver to look similar to his own, to commemorate your decision to stay in Cradle. Compared to everyone else, it felt rather simple now, but you pushed the thought aside. Nobody was judging what you were wearing, they were here to enjoy themselves same as you.
"Would you like a drink?" Ray asked, voice soft enough not to startle you too much. This wasn't too effective, as you'd gotten lost in your thoughts, and sort of forgotten there were people around you, but it was kind of him to try. "Oh, yes, please." You smiled at him and a moment later he'd walked off, talking to Sirius about something, leaving you alone with Luka. Fenrir had disappeared to greet his family when you'd first arrived, and Seth was who knows where, but you didn't mind it being just the two of you. Luka rarely came to these, in fact this was the first he'd been to since you'd arrived in Cradle, despite it being your fifth, and you decided someone should stick with him so he didn't feel quite as nervous.
As you turned to say something to him, you noticed a lady making her way over to the both of you, looking rather flustered. Her fists were clenched at her sides, and she seemed to be muttering something to herself, but it was clear she had intent to speak to one of you. Perhaps she wanted to talk to Luka? He was cute, it wouldn't surprise you. What did surprise you, however, was when she walked up to you instead.
"Um, excuse me if this is far too forward, but... would you be interested in dancing with me?" She sounded so nervous, and you almost wanted to say yes. Any other man would have been lucky to get such an invitation- she looked stunning. She wore her hair in curls, gathered at the back of her neck, with a hairpiece of pale blue flowers was pinned at the front, a necklace donning the same type of flower hanging just above the neckline of her gown. The gown in question matched the colour of the flowers well, though the width of the crinoline supported skirt would have made you concerned about the logistics of dancing with her- if you'd had any intention of saying yes. Her cheeks were tinted pink as she chewed her bottom lip and waited for your answer, avoiding your gaze. A hand on your chest and a sincerely apologetic look on your face, you began to respond. "Oh dear. I'm terribly sorry, but you seem to have gotten the wrong end of the stick. You're a very attractive young lady but I'm afraid... how should I put this," You glanced at Luka for help, but he seemed to have no idea what you were trying to tell her, "I'm afraid I don't tend to set my eye on the ladies, so to speak." "You're... gay?" A sympathetic nod. "That's the ticket. Sorry, love." "Oh, it's not a problem! I'm really sorry to have bothered you!" She suddenly looked much less nervous, though a little embarrassed, and scurried off. You sighed. "I feel a little bad. I really hope she finds someone to dance with." Luka looked at you quizzically. "Why did you lie to her?" A confused laugh escaped you. "I'm sorry?" "You told her you were into guys. Why lie?" As he said this, Seth and Fenrir came up behind him, and hearing his question their eyebrows shot up. So did yours. Was he kidding? "Luka, sweetie, you have got to tell me what part of my personality made you think I was heterosexual, so I can set about changing it immediately." Seth choked on his drink, and though you flashed him a grin, you weren't entirely kidding. Going from Victorian London to a world where being gay was perfectly acceptable had been quite the change, but you'd been certain all of your friends had known. It's not like you were quiet about it, and sure, Luka was naive but... come on, now. "Wait are you... you were being honest?" "Yes?" "Luka," Fenrir began, stepping next to you and resting an elbow on your shoulder, "How have you seriously not noticed that he's gay yet?" "Well- there was no reason for me to assume!" "You watched me drunk make out with at least 2 different Black Army soldiers in my first month here!" Luka looked flustered, and utterly dumbfounded. The expression was one he wore often, usually when people insinuated that someone was in love- but somehow about five times more confused. He was unfortunate enough that Ray and Sirius returned at this moment, just in time to hear both your last remark, and his next one.
"I thought that was just something you did when you were drunk?" In another moment you were on your knees, legs shaking so much from laughter that you couldn't hold yourself up any longer. Fenrir was right there beside you, practically convulsing. Everyone else was laughing too- except poor Luka. You felt a little bad, truly you did, but this had to be the funniest thing you had ever heard. "He's completely straight, but watch out! Get a couple drinks in him and he turns fruity!" Fenrir managed to get out between cackles, and Ray was glad to have put your drinks down when Luka had last spoken, because he too nearly fell to the ground at this.
"Luka- Luka I'm sorry." You pulled yourself to your feet, wrapping an arm around his shoulders. "We aren't laughing at you." Another fit of giggles overcame you. "Okay we kind of are, but it's not malicious or anything. That was just... hands down the funniest thing you've ever said." It took most of you 5 or so minutes to fully calm down from what he'd said, and anything that jogged your memories of it would bring you back to a state of uncontrollable laughter for the rest of the night. Luka came round to it being pretty funny after you talked him through the dozens of times you'd mentioned your sexuality to him since you'd met- every one of which had gone over his head.
Hours after the party had worn down and you'd all made your way home, you lay in bed, your head pressed against a familiar chest, and sighed. "What's up?" "I just... D'you think anyone else just hasn't realised?" Ray cocked his head, confused. "I'm gonna need a little more info than that, kitten." "I suppose I just... Back in London, it's not even legal to be gay, and I don't know if it ever will be. When I first came out to Fen, he told me that it was fine here, accepted and even celebrated. So, I guess I just thought that people wouldn't make the automatic assumption that I'm straight, y'know? I mean I talk about it a lot among you guys but- when I’m out and about... where do people think my final destination is? When I pick up a silly cat themed gift for you does the shopkeep think I’m buying it for my wife? It shouldn't be a big deal, I guess, but I'd never been able to be myself until I came here, and now it's like I can be me but... people will still only see who I am if I tell them. It's just weird is all. I dunno. Maybe I'm drunk." "You're not drunk. It's an understandable concern. I guess I've never thought about it, because whether or not people would accept that part of me has never been an issue, but the fact that you've had to hide it for so long and now that you're able to be open people still aren't seeing it must be hard. If you want we could... come out, so to speak?" Your eyebrows raised, and you moved back, propping yourself up on your arm so you could look your partner in the eyes.
It had been decided at the very start of your relationship, which had officially begun a few months after you'd made the choice to stay in Cradle, that the two of you would keep it under wraps for a while. Being from the Land of Reason was more than enough reason for people to take an unwanted interest in you, and you didn't need the extra attention being the King of Spades' partner would garner. Plus, anyone with a grudge against Ray would see you as a target the second you announced it. It had been a sensible suggestion on his part, one you hadn't hesitated to agree to, and as far as you knew only Sirius and Fenrir knew about your relationship. Fenrir because he had walked in on you sitting in Ray's lap while he worked late one night, and Sirius because- well, can anything get past that guy? And now, Ray was offering to tell the entirety of Cradle you were his, just so that you didn't feel like you were hiding your identity anymore? You could feel your eyes starting to burn, and you cursed the late hour and the alcohol in your system for making you cry so easily, but... "I don't think we need to be that drastic. You were right when you said it would keep me safe for us to not be in the public eye, at least for now. I'm sure Seth can come up with some better way for me to tell the whole world I'm gay." "I don't doubt that at all." Ray grinned, placing a gentle kiss on first your forehead, then your nose, and finally on your lips. "Tomorrow, though. You need your beauty sleep." "Ah, yeah, can't risk getting ugly. My boyfriend might not want me anymore." You quipped. "Exactly." He smirked at you, turning out the light and pulling you into his arms.
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Good Old Days - JJ Maybank
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Summary: you and JJ meet once again after a harsh break up.
Word count: 1,982
Warnings: cheating, angst underage drinking, implied sex at the end. I do NOT condone the action of going back to someone who cheated.
You sat alone in a booth at a local restaurant, diagonal from where your friend Nicole sat with an unfamiliar boy. You had offered to 'be a look out' for the girl when she brought up how her friends had helped her get a blind date. Nicole had the fear that she might embarrass herself or something might go south, so you decided to lend a helping hand to calm her down.
You subtly flicked your eyes up and down from the menu to your friend as a waitress came up to you. "What can I get you hun?" 
"Just a vanilla milkshake and fries please." The lady nodded and took the menu from your hands. You reached inside of your bag and pulled out your notebook. Finding a pen, you began to mindlessly draw little doodles of whatever came to mind. 
You were actually enjoying the peace and quiet until the front door bell chimed. Before you could react, JJ Maybank took the spot right across from you. "Can I help you?" You scoffed, closing the notebook. 
"Nope. I'm helping my friend out and it looks like you happen to be doing the same thing for your friend too." JJ said, looking behind his shoulder to see his friend give him a thumbs up. You rolled her eyes, defensively crossing your arms.
"Okay, well how about you move to the other booth where you can 'help' by yourself." JJ dramatically put his hand to his heart, "does Y/F/N Y/L/N not want to spend time with me?" "The last time I was near you it didn't end well." You hissed. JJ immediately got quiet as the waitress came up to deliver your order.
"Oh! Would you like anything dear? On the house for the couple!" The waitress smiled, "oh no we're not-" "actually I would love a hamburger and a chocolate milkshake please!" JJ grinned. "Coming right up." 
"Seriously JJ why can't you just sit somewhere else?" You asked as you dipped a fry into the milkshake. JJ furrowed his eyebrows as he watched you take a bite. "What? It's good." You defended.
"See I could, but Steve made me promise to help him out. And now I get to talk to you which is exactly what I want to be doing on my Friday night." Sarcasm dropped from his voice as you bite your tongue.
"Well you can leave. You never were good at keeping promises anyway." You seethed, taking the cherry out of the milkshake and popping into your mouth. JJ became quiet once more as the sudden flashback hit him.
Flashback:
2 years. 2 years was all it took for something so positive and bright, to turn into something dead. 2 years was all it took for JJ Maybank to own, and then break your heart. 
You two had been dating for a full two years, both of you guys admitting you were in love. Making promises that you two couldn't keep. One of them being, 'I'll always love you.' 
JJ broke that the minute his lips touched some tourons at an end of the year school party. You had lost sight of your boyfriend in the middle of the party after telling him you were going to the bathroom. It took you 10 minutes to find him with the unknown girl. 
"Have you seen- oh." Your words slipped your mind as you saw a boy and girl break away from a kiss. Only to reveal that face that made your heart break. "I better... I better g-go." You stumbled over your words, your legs moving as fast as they could out of that house and far away from JJ.
You didn't know what to do, what to think, how to act, what to say, everything just became numb. Like someone had just ripped your heart from your chest, and dangled it in front of your face as if it were mocking you. So you just ran, and ran all the way to your house. Dried tears stained your face as you were panting, on the verge of passing out. 
Your mind felt fuzzy, as if it were an old TV and an antenna was knocked loose, like all you heard was static and a ringing. You shook your head frantically as you paced in the living room. A rapid knock echoed in the silent room as you let out a sob. You slowly walked to the door, your hand shaking as it hesitantly reached out.
You twisted the handle and pulled the door open to reveal a frantic JJ. "Y/N please let me-" "Don't even fucking start JJ." You said, cautiously backing away from the door. JJ walked into the house as he tried to grab hold of your wrists. 
You pulled your wrists back from JJ's grip as you began to have trouble breathing. "You fucking kissed some random girl. Who knows what the fuck would've happened if I didn't walk into that room." You mumbled to yourself as your head began to ache.
"Y/N you know I wouldn't do that!" "When you're in a relationship you don't fucking kiss somebody else! I didn't think you'd do that yet here we are!" You raised your voice as you paced again.
"Open your fucking eyes, it's so obvious I'm in love with you!" JJ yelled back, causing you to flinch, his breath smelled of alcohol. Your eyes suddenly fell to the ground, afraid to look at him without breaking down.
"You need to leave," your voice wavered, "you need to leave and not come back. You can't look at me. You can't speak my name. You can't have anything to do with me, Maybank. We're fucking done." You breathed out, feeling as though you had a boulder crushing your body.
"Y/N. I made you a promise that I'd love you, please let me keep going with that promise." JJ begged, his eyes burning harshly with tears. "You broke your promise, you can't come back from that."
JJ let out a sigh as his head slumped down, forcing his legs to walk out the front door, and out of your life.
Memory over.
"Look, this isn't a guilt trip: I just genuinely want to know if you dislike me so I can stop bothering you." JJ said, fidgeting with his fingers. You sighed as you swirled the straw around the milkshake. "I don't dislike you as a human, I fucking despise what you did to me." You admitted.
"I've changed Y/N. I haven't been with any other girl, I haven't spoken with that other girl since then. Please just give me a break. I've been busy trying so fucking hard. I'm doing the best I can. Please, please don't ask more of me." JJ frowned, his leg now anxiously tapping.
You let out a scoff, but you couldn't lie to yourself. You missed being with JJ, you missed him so damn much, but you didn't want to admit it. Your eyes flickered to your friend who was standing up and giving Steve a kiss on the cheek. 
Their date was over, but you and JJ sat firmly in the booth. "Let me just drive you home like the good days, just hear me out." JJ begged. You cracked your knuckles, a habit you gained after the break up. "Fine. But so help me Maybank if you fuck it up you will never, I repeat ever come speak to me again." JJ let out a breath of relief and thanked you.
You couldn't help but feel the tiniest bit of luck when he offered, glad that you chose to walk to the diner. You two sat in silence for a bit of the ride before JJ turned on the radio. 'Wonderwall' by Oasis played through the sound system, memories of this song hitting you in the face like a brick.
JJ began to obnoxiously shout the lyrics like he would when you guys went on drives together. He would roll the windows down, blast the volume and just let it all out.  At first you were annoyed with the boy, but as soon as he nudged you with his elbow you began shouting the lyrics as well. At that moment, things felt normal. Like nothing bad happened between them, and that scared you shitless.
When the song ended, JJ turned down the volume and began to speak, "you know, I never took your school photo out of my wallet. It's still there. And every night after... we broke up, I would just look at it and cry. Because I drank and I ended up losing the best thing I ever got in life. And believe me I know drinking is no excuse for what I did. I lost the one person that understood me more than my other friends, than myself. And I fucked it all up. And I know I can't take back what I did. Saying sorry won't change the hurt I made you feel. But I want you to know I'm truly trying my best to be a different person than who I was before." His voice was shaking as he found it hard to look at the road.
"I can try to forgive you Maybank, but that night has been burned into my memory. And it's gonna take a lot of time before I can forget it." You mumbled, looking out the window watching the trees zoom by.
"I'd wait 100 years if it meant that you would talk to me again." JJ muttered as he pulled into your driveway. "Do you.. want to come in? And like, catch up?" You wanted to punch yourself in the face for your offer, but again you couldn't deny how much you missed him.
JJ was shocked at your words, his mouth slightly open as he nodded his head. You walked into your house and to your luck, nobody was home.
You guys sat in your room, silence filling the air once again. You walked over to a picture frame on the desk and picked it up. The picture was of JJ after he had fallen asleep with his head in your llap. "Remember this night?" You asked as he looked over your shoulder.
"Yeah. I came over to make cupcakes for John B's birthday but we ended up just throwing flour and eggs at each other." JJ laughed loudly, remembering how he would find flour in his hair and ears for days after. "Then we sat on the couch and you laid your head in my lap. I played with your hair until you fell asleep and you snored so loud." You smiled at the memory.
"God I fucked up." He whispered. "Yeah. Yeah you did. When you sat across from me in the booth I wanted to flip my shit. I wanted to go off on you and say something like, 'oh fuck off you piece of shit. You think I care about you? That I give a damn about your feelings? Fuck off.' I wanted to hurt you like you hurt me." You confessed. 
"Damn Y/N. I- I don't even know what to say." JJ said as you faced him. You couldn't help but stare at his lips, the lips you craved so desperately. You hated yourself for this. You hated yourself for making this move, but you leaned in anyway and kissed him. You were taken back at your actions, but your knees nearly buckled at his touch.
JJ gently held the side of your face as he pulled back. "I don't want to hurt you." He said, his words echoing in your head. "I'm desperate. And I'm pretty sure you are too. This is a one time thing until you gain my trust back. But for now, just shut up and have sex with me."
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