#don’t reblog this i’m just venting cuz i wanna fucking die

[saipng]

we just keep on winning !

[arttrampbelle]

Personal post do not reblog

Some rant and thoughts of late. Lgbt issues and feelings. Queer girl problems.

Outer me is tired laying in bed wanting to go back to sleep but can't. Not because of anything but because brain won't turn off.

Inner me is with some wine pissed off at these biphobic and homophobic assholes and just waiting for one to say some shit so i can bash em in the head with said wine bottle.

"I guess today is the day bitches die"

I just really wanna beat some ass right now.

People say "oh you should calm down"

Motherfucker that is the last thing you wanna say to me right as of this moment.

Unless you know what its like to be queer during pride month and absolutely hate how companies treat us during this month let alone how we treat each other. You will never understand.

Being ostracised by people within the lgbt community. People that preach love is love yet care nothing for poc,disabled,bisexual,pansexual,acesexual, demisexual,trans,etc. They only care if your lesbian or gay or a drag queen/king. They care for nothing else.

You either have to be absolutely flaming sparkle dick fabulous no matter what

Or your not enough.

You have to always be talking bout your own dick or vag or nobody takes you seriously.

It hurts.

Because inside i wanna be more open with my sexuality outside my orientation. But these assholes. Wanna always be up in arms whenever i just wanna talk bout the important issues or just talk bout sweet things that girls or guys or people do that make my heart melt. Like damn.

We never talk about the actual connection of sex. Like the cuddles,holding hands while embracing each others nakedness. Not just in body but in soul.

Like nobody ever talks bout that!

All they care bout is doin the do. Thats it.

I love sex. And I'm a very raunchy person with the right people around. But sometimes i just wanna talk bout sweet things too. Like kissing on the back of the hand is so fucking underrated and people don't understand how much i fucking love that gesture. From any gender. Good God that is fucking amazing. It makes me feel wanted. It honestly does.

And if its not the hypersexualization of the queer community.

Its just being able to freely walk and be with your bae. Without judgment. Or questioning. Like people still judge others. Bruh leave them alone they ain't hurting anyone. -_-

These things i wanna discuss because its important to me because it doesn't just affect me but it affects the people I love dearly.

Sadly i don't expect the lgbt community to ever truly be United.

And i don't expect anyone outside that community to understand or help much. Tho some try.

Im not trying to say there aren't people who are good. Or advocate for us and stand by us.

They do. And i thank them for that.

But as someone who has seen this shit for herself for years. And someone who has had biphobic comments and had to deal with people who just don't get it. Even when you have done both the gentle and hard approaches.

It gets worse every time.

But i still keep moving on. And i will never give up what i believe in.

But i can't deny that there are so many problems in our community that people don't wanna admit.

Bruh i have seen so much racism and hate in this damn community it ain't funny.

Not to mention that a lot of lgbt couples are in long distance relationships,are poc. Some are even in interracial relationships.

I mean a bisexual trans black woman(at far as i know i could be wrong because there was a lot of people saying other things but i dunno if its true or not but imma stick with saying her or they for now out of respect)

They was one of the first people who started a revolution for the lgbt community.

And yet. All these groups they was in. Is being attacked by the lgbt community to this day. Ironic aint it?

Queer women of all kinds. Always had the short end in life.

This is a fact backed up by history.

Anyways I'm done venting for now.

I may make more posts later. But i can't stay silent on the matters that i care bout.

I may have my brain not like me at times. But damn it im not gonna let that stop me for standing up for what i believe in.

I don't care if i lose friends.

I don't care if i don't have people. Because i got me. I always had me.

Even when i didn't want to.

I'm not gonna let this bitter fucked up world change who i am. Even tho at times i break.

I'm still discovering things about myself and i feel like i need to Express them.

And I'm not gonna let anything stop me from being the best human i can be at the moment.

Yesterday i cried. But i think i needed to.

I say these things because they matter to me.

And I'm tired of being slient bout these things.

Or brushing them to the side for the sake of others comfortablity.

If me being an furiously passionate bitchy bisexual woman offends you. Good. Stay offended.

Cuz i ain't changing for nobody.

Im gonna try to get some rest.

I might make a livestream or video bout stuff later.

[starlitdoodles-blog]

omg for a moment i freaked out bc i couldnt find ur rotoa blog wtf im sorry what happened dawg

i cant believe u freaked out over being unable to find me

its a dream come true

i am blessed

ur still my art senpai ok shut up let me squee in peace

and OKAY SO 

ITS TIME FOR YA’LL TO KNOW

THE STORY

OF WHAT HAPPENED

WHEN I LOST MY BLOG.

tbh im just gonna copy/paste what i sent to a friend because I’m too lazy to write it in coherent paragraphs and honestly, the way i said it was hella funny

so yeh itll be under a cut cuz its long

SO ME AND @ashenemberrs RIGHTwe’re talkinand I’m telling him how I wanna watch the Emoji Movie onlinebecause i dont wanna waste my money on seeing it in the theatressony doesnt deserve my fucking money for that shit moviei’ve seen the reviews, and i know its shitbut i’ve got this morbid curiosity about mei need to see how bad it is with my own two eyesso he links me to a place to watch it righti open the link, but dont watch, cuz i wanna be funny and make a post about it, saying if i die, thats whyAND THEN IT HAPPENSI GO TO TUMBLRTRY TO POSTAND THEN I’M FORCEFULLY LOGGED OUTIM JUST “????????”SO I TRY TO LOG BACK INIT SAYS IT NEEDS ME TO VERIFY MY E-MAIL“??????????????” INTENSIFIES, BUT I DOIT SAYS IT NEEDS TO BE VERIFIED BECAUSE THERE’S BEEN “SUSPICIOUS” ACTIVITY ON MY ACCOUNTCOOL, WHATEVER, I DID THE VERIFICATION THINGYTHEN IT JUST TAKES ME TO THIS ERROR PAGE, SAYING THERE’S A PROBLEM OR WHATEVER“???????????????????????????????????” INTENSIFIESASH SUGGESTS I MIGHT NEED TO CLEAR MY COOKIES/BROWSING DATA, SO I TRY THATBUT IT JUST PUTS ME THROUGH THE WHOLE VERIFICATION PROCESS THINGY AGAINSO IM JUST??????????SO I TRY TO SEE IF IM STILL LOGGED IN ON MY PHONEBUT IT FORCEFULLY LOGS ME OUT THERE TOOTHIS IS WHEN THE PANIC STARTS TO SET INI GO TO THE EMR SERVER TO FREAK OUT ABOUT IT IN THE VENT CHATAND THEN I GET PPL TELLING ME THEY CANT GET TO MY BLOGIVE DISAPPEARED FROM FOLLOWER LISTS, AND WHEN HOVERING OVER MY NAME FROM REBLOGS, IT SAYS I’M DEACTIVATEDI TRY TO GO TO MY BLOG PAGE MYSELF, AND THEYRE PROVEN  RIGHTYEAH NO I’M HIGHKEY PANICKING AT THIS POINTand trust me, I’d been checking my e-mail, and there was just nothingnothing but the verification e-mails i’d received to confirm my e-mailSOI GO TO TUMBLR SUPPORT THINGY AND E-MAIL THEMAND THEN WONDER WHAT THE FUCK IM SUPPOSED TO DOit was my home boi @snoteleks-milk who suggested i make another account my new main to spread awareness and for just in case my blog doesnt come backbc they said they’ve seen some people get their blogs back, while others don’tso i’m just sitting here, drawin my awareness thingyand trying not to d i ewhen ash suggeststhat losing my blogwas cosmic retributionfor trying to watch the emoji moviecuz the universe knewit was so horribleit could kill a godand apparently i’m not allowed to dieso yeahmy blog got shanked because i wanted to watch the emoji movie >B((((((

that just about sums it up.

i know this explanation is a mess but its the funniest version of this explanation that i’ve given and i am unwilling to not have it on the internet forever

so take it

satan’s blog was erased because he tried to watch the emoji movie