#don’t mind the lighting it’s 12:40 where i am

[artfartt]

I think I made a world record

[dionysianivy]

Songs that reminds me of Dionysus ⊹ ࣪ ˖

Hello everyone🍇 This is my playlist of songs that remind me of the time I started working with Dionysus, or the songs that make me feel most connected to him. Maybe some songs don't have any Dionysian vibes, but they are important to me because they make me feel free, wild, and confident. They allow me to show my true colors and not be afraid to reveal who I really am, which is really important for my soul and for my Sag moon! >ᴗ< hope you like it♡

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1. My Blood - Twenty One Pilots | 3:49

2. This Charming Man - The Smiths | 2:42

3. Touch of My Hand - Britney Spears | 4:19

4. Electric Feel - MGMT | 3:49

5. Tarzan Boy - Baltimora | 3:50

6.  (Von Dutch Remix) - Charli XCX, Addison Rae, a.g. cook | 2:37

7. Phonography - Britney Spears | 3:33

8. Kill the Lights - Britney Spears | 3:59

9. Big in Japan - Alphaville | 4:45

10. Follow Me Down - 3OH!3 | 3:23

11. Affection - Between Friends | 3:55

12. Sadeness - Enigma | 4:15

13. My Prerogative - Britney Spears | 3:33

14. Karma Chameleon - Culture Club | 4:12

15. New Flesh - Current Joys | 2:47

16. Get Naked (I Got a Plan) - Britney Spears | 4:44

17. All I Need - The Frights | 2:54

18. Hotter than Hell - Dua Lipa | 3:07

19. Can’t Wait - Doja Cat | 3:55

20. Evil - Melanie Martinez | 4:06

21. Everybody Wants to Rule the World - Tears for Fears | 4:11

22. Follow Your Fire - Kodaline | 3:58

23. Hands Up - 6arelyhuman 2:14

24. Overcompensate - Twenty One Pilots | 4:16

25. Fairly Local - Twenty One Pilots | 3:27

26. Breathe on Me - Britney Spears | 3:43

27. Don’t Let Me Go - RAIGN | 3:51

28. Sexual Healing - Marvin Gaye, kygo remix | 6:08

29. Little Dark Age - MGMT | 4:59

30. Metamorphosis - INTERWORLD | 2:23

31. If I Had You - Adam Lambert | 3:48

32. Break the Ice - Britney Spears | 3:16

33. Just Dance - Lady Gaga | 4:02

34. Drunk Together - Jai Waetford ft. Allday | 4:25

35. Wonderland - Natalia Kills | 3:32

36. Gimme What I Want - Miley Cyrus | 2:34

37. Night Crawling - Miley Cyrus feat. Billy Idol | 3:11

38. The Greatest - Sia | 3:33

39. National Anthem - Lana Del Rey | 3:51

40. Miami 82 (Kygo Remix) - Syn Cole | 5:42

41. Alejandro - Lady Gaga | 4:34

42. Poker Face - Lady Gaga | 3:57

43. The Business - Tiësto | 2:50

44. Brutus (Instrumental) - The Buttress | 3:13

45. I’m a Slave 4 U - Britney Spears | 3:23

46. Champagne Problems - Nick Jonas| 3:13

47. Ecstasy - SUICIDAL-IDOL | 2:00

48. Blackout Days - Phantogram | 3:47

49. Hungry Eyes - Eric Carmen | 4:10

50. What’s Love Got to Do with It - Tina Turner | 3:48

51. Touch of My Hand - Britney Spears | 4:19

52. One of Your Girls - Troye Sivan | 2:59

53. Get Back - Britney Spears | 3:46

54. In the Arms of a Stranger - Mike Posner | 3:28

55. Piece of Me - Britney Spears | 3:32

56. The Answer - Britney Spears | 3:55

57. Acknowledge Me - Doja Cat | 3:15

58. Brother Louie - Modern Talking | 3:41

59. Cheri Cheri Lady - Modern Talking | 3:45

60. At the Risk of Feeling Dumb - Between Friends | 3:25

61. Where Is My Mind? - Pixies | 3:53

62. Wildcard - Miley Cyrus | 3:14

63. Thousand Miles - Miley Cyrus | 3:51

64. Often - Doja Cat | 3:20

65. She's Like the Wind - Patrick Swayze | 3:52

66. Heavydirtysoul - Twenty One Pilots | 4:12

[blindrapture]

SUNDAY JUNE 5TH, 2011 (WOMP WOMP)

4:30 AM I’ve slept plenty. Now I’m ready to go and do shit.

4:36 AM I’m gonna take a walk around this town, see what’s there to see.

5:29 AM Hello, handsome. I found a mirror in a shop. A big mirror. Y’know, I didn’t realize I looked so damn good in this white suit. The actual jacket is more of a light-blue colour, but I guess it’s to set me apart from most white-suit folk. I think Mistress really thought this outfit through. It’s like.. a proper disguise. After all this killing, nobody’s gonna recognize me because I’ll be wearing all black and carrying a guitar controller! I gotta try not to get blood all over the suit.

5:41 AM …no way. You have got to be shitting me, this can’t possibly be real. This is a fucking CD shop.

5:53 AM Sunsetters’ No Entry, Genesis’ Abacab, and I decided to give Bonnjo Vjonsped’s experimental years a try with Womp Womp. I dunno, it looks interesting. Luckily, in Rapture, there’s no worry about paying for shit. >w>

5:59 AM Went back to my car. Gonna listen to this shit on that music player, so I can play it super-loud and not wake people up. Let’s try Womp Womp.

6:19 AM WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP Take the bass Rock the place Kick the space In the face With a taste Of your case Of Bud Lite taste AND THE PARTY GOES WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP 7:10 AM Okay, that was about as close to the music of the gods as anything could get without being progressive rock. That was legitimately amazing. I’m tired. I’ve been dancing too much. I’m gonna go back to the hotel.

7:28 AM There’s that little kid again. He’s just sitting, cross-legged, in the hallway. He’s looking at me, and he’s smiling. It’s an innocent smile, but I can see something behind it. Like he knows something. And he’s just.. waiting. ..I’m gonna wait in the bar.

7:31 AM Bar’s fairly quiet, no doubt because it’s this early.

7:47 AM Ferdinando came in. He’s sitting nearby, minding his own. I don’t think I’ll use my crowbar for this. I’m gonna take a glass. Tall glass. ..fuck, I don’t know how the hell I’m gonna make it out of this. I do not look forward to it.

8:25 AM I was so barbaric He wasn’t a monster and I was so barbaric

9:56 AM Hiding. Found a house. Hiding. Oh god, I must have gotten the whole town after me. I think Ferdinando was the messenger they were sending to Manresa. I’m gonna.. I’m just gonna rest a bit. Just a bit.

12:03 PM ..motherfucker where’s my car where is my car No no no nooo oh god no, all my prog was in there I’m.. no. No, just no no, no please, I can’t do this, my prog. ._. Oh god.

12:07 PM …false alarm, I just remembered I took all my CDs into the house with me. BUT STILL. My car! Looks like I’m back to walking.

12:34 PM Like before, I have no idea where I’m going now. I mean, I know I’m going to Manresa, but I have no idea where that is. I guess I’ll just keep following this road.

3:01 PM God, it’s getting hot.

5:22 PM I’ve noticed that there have been a lot less crazy monsters ever since I left Blackpool. I almost miss them. It’s better than all this boredom.

8:49 PM I’m getting very tired. I’m just gonna.. stop in this house here. And sleep.

8:57 PM FUCK RUN RUN OH GODDD RUN RUN RUN

9:14 PM There were people there, oh my god. They answered the door with a shotgun. And said “Dios mio, el bufon blanco!” I guess that’s my name now. The white buffoon.

9:32 PM Another house. I’m gonna try this one.

9:40 PM Empty, completely empty. Perfect. I’m gonna get some shut-eye, then. Hopefully tomorrow will be better than today was.

(Attached: “While Womp Womp wasn’t the first instance of dubstep in the music world, it was probably the funniest. Bonnjo Vjonsped are the world’s dumbest metal band. Their name is pronounced ‘Bon Jovi on speed,’ a pronunciation that literally makes no sense when you look at the way it’s spelled and think about it for a second. They spent most of their years in obscurity, though Womp Womp was met on release with a warm reception since no one had heard of these guys so the critics assumed the album was a parody. The cheesy lyrics were quite serious, I assure you. I’ve met the guys.”)

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[dollsonmain]

Well, Son’s in a mood today. Ought to be a fun day with That Guy home...

I just remembered a conversation I had with That Guy a week or so back where he was asking if I want to go on vacation and I was like “No, I don’t like to go on vacation. It’s painful and exhausting and I’m already in pain and exhausted all of the time.” and I’ve been in pain since before we met which he really should have noticed. Or something.

He said I used to hide it well.

I was like, well no. I was in my early 20s when we met and were going to raves (do you know what’s exceedingly boring? going to a rave clean. what also sucks about going to raves as a disabled person was not being allowed to sit down because “the cops will think you’re high” like lady I’m the only person here who isn’t high I just need to sit the fuck down after standing up bored out of my gourd for 12 hours, leave me alone). Of course I’d be in more pain and more tired in my 40′s. That’s just life.

It also was made exponentially worse by pregnancy, not helped by the fact that it was a complicated pregnancy and I was on bed rest for the later 6 months. He wouldn’t make me food or do any cleaning at all and then would yell at me if he came home and I wasn’t in bed. I couldn’t not eat and lay in bed with no entertainment for the 10 hours he was at work. Not moving much, losing muscle mass and strength, my hips and back which were already disabled being forcibly distorted from the inside, having to get up and risk the baby to eat, already tired way too much, and I came out the other end so, so much worse. I never recovered. The damage was permanent.

Anyway, that all came to mind again last night when the neighbors were setting of the big fireworks next door (the yard and street are covered in debris....) and I was already in bed at 8pm like always because I’m perpetually exhausted and That Guy was outside doing fire poi, blasting music (doing that toward someone else’s party that you weren’t even invited to is in poor taste...) and it made me think that he is a night person, and I am a day person.

He likes parties, booze, clubs, loud music, flashing lights, and being surrounded by people who are all focused on him.

I like quiet, gentle sunshine, coffee, calm atmospheres, and solitude.

I have so many regrets.

[ginger-that-acts-blond]

0-44

0: Height

- 6’2”

1: Virgin?

- You’re funny haha. No.

2: Shoe size

- 8-9 in men’s

3: Do you smoke?

- No. 🍃🍁sometimes 👀

4: Do you drink?

- Occasionally. But like maybe once a month max lol.

5: Do you take drugs?

- Prescription for my brain 🤪

6: Age you get mistaken for

- 22-27

7: Have tattoos?

- Yep!

8: Want any tattoos?

- So many more

9: Got any piercings?

- Yep!

10: Want any piercings?

- Yep yep

11: Best friend?

- That’s so hard because I have a lot of really important friends in my life

12: Relationship status

- Happily Taken 🥰

13: Biggest turn ons

- Wouldn’t you like to know, weather boy

14: Biggest turn offs

- Feet

15: Favorite movie

- Clue

16: I’ll love you if

- You spend time with me

17: Someone you miss

- My parents

18: Most traumatic experience

- Ooo. Couple car accidents for sure

19: A fact about your personality

- I am an introvert trapped in an extroverts body

20: What I hate most about myself

- Don’t really know tbh. I’ve done a lot of personal growing and healing that took a long time, but I’m truly happy with myself

21: What I love most about myself

- My freckles

22: What I want to be when I get older

- A performer

23: My relationship with my sibling(s)

- So wonderful!

24: My relationship with my parent(s)

- Also so wonderful!

25: My idea of a perfect date

- I’d have to say April 24th

26: My biggest pet peeves

- Slow drivers, being rude to customer service workers, meetings that could have been…nothing lol

27: A description of the girl/boy I like

- The biggest light in my life 🥹

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

- Which one

29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend

- Safety

30: What I hate the most about work/school

- I’m the punching bag 🫠

31: What your last text message says

- “Love you baby 💛”

32: What words upset me the most

- Don’t be phobic.

33: What words make me feel the best about myself

- Kind, compassionate, etc

34: What I find attractive in women

- Eyes, smiles, curves

35: What I find attractive in men

- So much lol

36: Where I would like to live

- Not the states

37: One of my insecurities

- My voice

38: My childhood career choice

- Astronaut

39: My favorite ice cream flavor

- Vanilla caramel waffle cone

40: Who wish I could be

- Myself

41: Where I want to be right now

- With my doggo, or by some water

42: The last thing I ate

- A doughnut

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

- Lady Gaga or my bf

44: A random fact about anything

- Did you know if a supernova occurred close enough in our universe we would be extinct? However, we wouldn’t know for how many light years it takes to travel to us, or until the wave of radiation hit us since that travels faster than light 🥰

[wheel-within-a-wheel]

Ask list I made!

Here are some fun asks to send people!

1. Please, policeman, is it a test?

2. Am I being detained?

3. Am I under arrest?

4. If I come home, baby, will you show your bones?

5. Is 80 enough proof for you?

6. Loose lips sink ships, but captain, will you go down?

7. How vile can you be?

8. My insides cry “try thy finest” - why, then, am I at my brink?

9. Where do you get off being so goddamn beautiful?

10. What can I say to convince you to slip back into my arms again?

11. Does not knowing the truth turn my words into lies?

12. What can I say to convince you or do to make you agree with me?

13. Whether it is or isn’t the end, who cares?

14. When will your shadows break?

15.  What’re you hiding behind that face?

16. Why can’t I take in what you’ve been dishing out?

17. Why do I reject, while you endlessly reflect?

18. And is it in the nightmare map of the cosmos up high?

19. Or is it in the signs?

20. Or stranger still, just in my eyes?

21. With an enemy like me, who would need a friend?

22. Is there anything left to escape but life?

23. Did you lose yourself?

24. Once I’ve lost it can there be a Mahaprajnaparamita?

25. What if the wind caught up with me, started to change when I did? Would I blow out like a light? Or like a kite fly away?

26. What if the fear of darkness gave way to the fear of color? Would you live in black and white? Or rest your eyes through the day?

27. And if dreams can come true, what does that say about nightmares?

28. So how many people am I?

29. Who's looking back?

30. Remember to forgive?

31. So, my God, what’s wrong with me?

32. What you feel and what you do, are those things really you?

33. And if not, then what is?

34. So, my God, what’s wrong with you?

35. Why I can’t see, that I am the me that I was born into?

36. And what’s the source of you?

37. Yes or no?

38. Isn’t it a silly question?

39. What myths must make us man?

40. What is “is?”

41. What is not?

42. What is “what?”

43. What’s up, party people?

44. What?

45. What I wonder?

46. What the fuck?

47. Bottle, well, or barrel?

48. When did I become afraid of the dark?

49. Are my eyeballs just yet to adjust to seeing the light?

50. Who else could I be when I can’t hardly see?

51. Was it when I left the cave and swore I’d never go back?

52. Why deny the color black?

53. Well, who should I be then, if I’ll never be the same?

54. Who else could I be when I can’t fucking see?

55. Well if winter comes and takes my life, will it be the death I had in mind?

56. Or will I be captured in the ice to preserve the way I died?

57. Well at 27 will I see that I was born to be the man I'll be?

58. And if I change my self can I still stay me? Or did I just change my mind?

59. What is he building in that painted lady? A participation trophy wife or blonde, blue-eyed baby?

60. Didn’t they want your blood? So why apologize for being blue and cold?

61. Were you Nabokov to a Salinger?

62. Jung to Freud or Dass to a Leary?

63. Were you mother, daughter, subject, and author?

64. Do you know the difference between blazing trails and slash-and-burn? Going against the grain and catching splinters?

65. How can I commit to reality, when my third eye’s open and I like what I see?

66. Have you ever died in a nightmare? Woke up surprised you hadn’t earned your fate?

67. Have you ever felt like Atlas, threw your back out on the axis and collapsed and threw the planet away?

68. Could you take a look at me?

69. Am I bad, am I bad, am I bad, am I really that bad?

70. Am I pretty now?

71. Am I pretty enough to lie to?

72. Am I pretty enough to love back?

73. Am I pretty enough?

74. Am I pretty enough to fucking die?

75. All identities are equally invalid, don’t you think that there’s a chance that you could live without it?

76. Baby, could you play along with me? Baby, would that be alright with you?

77. And when we find out what’s wrong with me, could you tell me how I’m right for you?

78. And if I’m still pretty?

79. If they could see the future back when times were simple, would they kiss your cheek or yank the bandage off, let you speak or take advantage of how if everyone’s sick, well then, nobody can catch it, and if everybody’s different, how could anybody match?

80. It's better to be lost than loved, now, isn’t it?

81. What’s so wrong about what’s wrong with me? I’m just trying to do what’s right by you.

82. Did you know that the hole in the apple didn't come from the outside in?

83. Who'd want to be human anyway?

84. Who pilots all these crude machines?

85. Why'd you come into this world or come out that way?

86. Isn't it funny? Well, not "ha-ha" funny, but y'know, funny

87. And if you're believers, then why would you grieve for the dead instead of a devil that you never prayed for?

88. Who’d want to belong to anyone?

89. I mean, what do people even do?

90. Five more minutes, please? You wouldn't believe the dream I just had.

91. For what? For what?

92. Why don't you take a seat?

93. Now, what's bothering you?

94. Well, why don't we start at the beginning?

95. Growing up, how was your relationship with the fundamentals of conscious existence?

96. Did you have xenon orchid sinews spilling down the outer center of your blooming Escher/Mandelbrot head?

97. And how about claustrophilic tendrils clapping caskets closed on seven-knuckle thumbs, did you get along well with the Gideon Bugler pineal glands, your projector eyes casting sci-fi’s on your STR’d strands?

98. Tell me about your nerve to steal nerves of steel from under Bacchus’ bloody nose. Did Namibian Himbas tie-dye you, your ears pierced with a Phineas Gage flagpole, did you die before your day?

99. Holistic ballistics, you got a better idea?

100. What, you think ideas spread because they’re good?

101. Why to thine own self be true when it is you who are the problem, not the things you do but something sick inside?

102. There’s no more looking back, and why would you want to look back?

103. How many years have you been on that couch?

104. You draw a line in the sand where it ends and you begin, but the tide rolls in, so who knows?

105. How many milligrams of you are still left in there?

106. Who makes the call what’s a symptom, what’s a flaw, can it be both?

107. Would you give up your humanity for just a touch of sanity?

108. What’s my prognosis if the studies show that disease is in the eye of the beholder?

109. Could you run another test?

110. Ain’t your you-dentity at stake?

111. Does aspirin kill you with the pain?

112. Is it courageous or escapist to leave the quarantine when you’re contagious?

113. I was nothing before, so I couldn’t have asked to be born. I'll be nothing again, so what am I between now and then?

114. Is there nothing to fear? Cause shit's getting weird.

115. Your life never mattered, so who cares if it's a waste?

116. I've read the writing, how do these things lock?

117. What killed the dead end?

118. Can you read between the Morse code lines?

119.  I could take your life, if you're done with it, sweetheart. You still picking at that?

120. Are we on the same page yet?

121. Come on, don't you get it? What the heck?

122. Aw, what the hell can I do to have a little more heaven with you?

123. And you really ain't got no idea how much of this orbits ya, now do you, honey?

124. Am I supposed to call this flagellation?

125. Am I missing the message?

126. Didn't you say you need space?

127. Did I shout or think I could save you this way?

128. How dare you love me when you should despise me?

129. We'll meet in the middle like pistols at dawn, turn our backs, who's counting pace?

130. When the smoke clears arе we friends, or strangers again? Just a familiar facе.

131. Well, aren't we "us?" sharing pronouns now?

132. So how could we separately heal?

133. God, I don't get it, I really don't get it. Could someone tell me how to feel?

134. Alright, who shoved me?

135. Who wants to fall, can't we just take the stairs?

136. Is therе cheese in the great bеyond?

137. Do I belong in right and wrong?

138. I’ll make it through again, I have before, c’mon, now, what’s one more?

139. My stomach starts to turn with thirst, why does it hurt?

140. Was that all there was to this? What’s for the best?

141. What’s the moon made of?

142. One dies alone, and why?

143. Wow, can you believe we really made it?

144. Can we be just like my parents?

145. Oh, can we be just like my parents when I was young?

146. Why can't we be just like my parents?

147. But what do I know about forever when so far I've been so fleeting?

148. I've seen home videos, I was there back in the 80's, and if I'm just them and they back then could do it, why can't I?

149. I'd have forgotten all their names, so why should you remember me?

150. If we grow old together, will you talk to my headstone?

151. I mean, otherwise, how am I to believe?

152. Did you ever build with those endangered bones?

153. Here at the end of days, my god, what have I done?

154. To whom is it I talk?

155. Would or could the impact kill me?

156. What do you know of control?

157. Why? Why? Why?

158. Why not? Why not? Why not?

159. Well, I cry on skies of blue linoleum, clouds o’ spilt milk, but am I the cup?

160. Here comes the sun, am I falling up?

161. Did I earn this stupid hat?

162. Is now really a good time for a new tattoo?

163. oh my god, what’s wrong with me? And the wife of Walter Keane, whose name right now’s escaping me.

164. Oh, are you at all like me?

165. Do you know what I mean? Or am I too close to see?

166. Someone, anyone?

167. I love you so much it scares me half to death, I'm not used to this, how did it happen, baby?

168. Could you be the light my X-rays need?

169. What have I done? Don't know what I've said

170. Oh brother, man, you call that recovered?

171. Ignoring me's bad enough, where do you get off?

172. Did I really have any of that gravity?

173. How did I cause so much harm?

174. What kind of living legend would only want a living wage?

175. Can I sell this?

176. Is there room for me in your cage?

177. Does it cure cancer?

178 Do you believe in the power of silence?

[witchern]

fanfic writer 20 questions.

i was tagged by @tuometarr, thank u bb!

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

40. the way i had to look it up alksjdfh

2. What’s your total ao3 word count?

224,796

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

6 fandoms – supernatural, teen wolf, bbc merlin, the walking dead, dead poets society, i am number four (don't ask lmao).

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

that'll be the day (teen wolf), if i die young (dps), i saw daddy shooting santa claus (spn/twd), with a whimper (spn) and come on get higher loosen my lips (spn).

5. Do you respond to comments? why or why not?

i do as often as i can! sometimes i genuinely get struck speechless from how kind some of them are and i eventually forget to reply, and then too much time passes where i feel dumb replying to it months later. i really do try to reply to all of them though lol.

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

originally i was gonna say tripwire but then i remembered of tar and rust so i think that one takes the cake. both are midam.

7. Do you write crossovers?

i just have the one, and that was for some sort of secret santa gift exchange, otherwise i don't normally write them.

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

nope!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

only occasionally – usually if there is smut, it's sprinkled in with a longer fic that has an actual plot. i only have three pwp fics from waaaay back in the day and i'm honestly afraid to look back and see how bad they are in hindsight lmao.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

as far as i know, nope.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes! someone once asked to translate one of my midam fics into russian :)

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

back when i was in middle school, yes! i co-wrote my chemical romance rpf with a friend on a proboards forum where we'd take turns with each chapter (words that truly show my age).

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

midam. obviously. lmao.

14. What’s a wip that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

honestly none because i 100% intend to finish all the wips currently on my ao3 account! yes especially what will follow!

15. What are your writing strengths?

i think my dialogue is really solid! unrealistic dialogue is a massive pet peeve of mine in both original works and fanfic, so i'm more careful with the dialogue in my own stuff.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

i'm not really good at keeping track of things like how much time has passed in a fic, or where people physically are in relation to each other, so i guess paying attention to those little details is a weakness altogether.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in another language?

i don't mind reading it! i probably wouldn't write it though, unless it was something i had passing/personal knowledge of, like hebrew or tagalog.

18. What was the first fandom you ever wrote for?

like i said earlier, my chemical romance rpf my beloved.

19. What’s your favorite fic you’ve ever written?

i never would've expected that adjust to the light would become my favorite fic i've ever written, but damn. it is. i'll be honest: sometimes i don't think i'll ever be able to top that one.

20. Who do you tag?

idk man! who's got stuff they wanna talk about?? no pressure though: @mycenaae @fandom-space-princess @midamdotlivejournaldotcom

[thegirlintheshadows101]

1. Oof I have a lot but I would say Rhys, Feyre, Cassia ,Christian Harper, Silas, Enzo(Does it hurt?), Enzo (Heavenly Bodies), Percy, Annabeth, Lana,  Vicious, Gabe, and many others that are currently slipping my mind.

2. Matches 100%

3. It depends on the weather

4. idk but it would be cool if there was a real hippocampus

5. Brown I guess they have like some weird yellowish specks in them

6. That’s none of your business 🤨

7. I can only use scrunchies since I have curly hair

8. Literally zero I need to drink more water 💀

9. Evaporated I literally only like the smell of coffee and that’s it 😬

10. Uhhh I mean…

11. It has to be between reading, writing and painting

12. Uhh it’s been one of those days where even taking a deep breath won’t calm my mind 😀

13. Literally just 30 minutes ago

14. YES RAIN IN GENERAL IS THE BEST THE SOUND THE SMELL HOW IT NEVER FAILS TO MAKE ME WANT TO READ WITH A CUP OF HOT CHOCOLATE BY A FIRE

15. I am basically my twin siblings third parent I have helped raise and take care of them since I was 15

16. Yup!

17. Idk all I know is I can see perfectly from book reading distance and everything else is a blurry mess

18. Damn a lot I have two hair oils one from my scalp the other to break the cast when my hair is dry, gel, and three curl creams that I mix together. Curly hair can be a lot of work

19. Hell yah what color do you want?

20. Soda obviously 🤨 I am not from the south 😂

21. Uhhhh jewelry really is the only thing I have divorced parents so I couldn’t really get attached to much since I had to leave things behind often

22. I guess I am a pretty stoic person for the most part unless I am really close with you even then my friends would say I mainly show my anger.

23. I love it winter is my favorite!

24. Star gazing and listening to some music

25. Roll on perfume it more controlled than perfume and more potent then some lotions

26. Ooo I have a few. The first is laying in a flower field with an imaginary SO. The second is waking up in the morning with the sun light coming in threw thin white curtains looking at my again imaginary SO. The last one is arguing with you will never guess my imaginary SO about something stupid and then kissing them mid fight.

27. I fell asleep at 3 and woke up at 10 so 7

28. Yup I barely go out so mainly at school.

29. Warm I don’t like boiling hot water like some people I don’t think I ever will cause I actually used to main take cold showers when I was younger and only started liking warm showers when I moved since the water was either freezing or warm so I chose warm.

30. Nope!

31. Music that keeps me grounded ummm I would say anything that the main background instruments are piano or violin that always soothes me

32. Yes it’s a navy blue one

33. On my birthday I went with my best friend to a haunted trail at night it was a new moon too so it was dark as hell and we barely walked 10 feet through it since we were scared someone would come murder us and it was freezing but the stars were really pretty I was disappointed that my phone camera wasn’t able to take a picture of it.

34. Yah a few touch tank, lose yourself (I might be a little rusty) and quite a few others I tend to memorize music pretty quickly

35. Pacific Standard Time

36. Literally never

37. My two best friends I have known since third/fourth grade.

38. There is this mango one from Bed Bath and Body that’s really good. Also the pink soap that’s always at movie theater bathrooms is the best smelling soap in my opinion

39. I use Vaseline but I forget to use it a lot but when I don’t I have the softest lips it’s literally the best 😌

40. Just an apple after dinner

41. In the air I literally only like the smell

42. The Books app on my phone 😂

43. I am Latina so a lot of the stuff I eat is spicy and I literally love it I can eat spicy food every day of my life

44. Uhhh I plead the fifth

45. Yup… for the most part 💀

46. The SpongeBob one! Not the cartoon one the one were SpongeBob saves everyone with fruitcake I absolutely love it and I can’t find it anywhere and it makes me so sad 😭

47. I sent a text to my friend telling her I couldn’t go to the mall with her after we go to see our old teacher.

48. I was 12 and it was on accident I thought my cousin who was 16 still had apple cider in her glass and I asked if I could have some and she said yah but didn’t tell me it was champagne she thought I knew 💀

49. Yah I am a little rusty I haven’t done it in a while.

50. Sure why not!

here’s weirder asks

who is/are your comfort character(s)?

lighter or matches?

do you leave the window open at night?

which cryptyd being do you believe in?

what color are your eyes?

why did you do that?

hair-ties or scrunchies?

how many water bottles are in your room right now?

which do you prefer, hot coffee or cold coffee?

would you slaughter the rich?

favorite extracurricular activity?

what kind of day is it?

when was the last time you ate?

do you love the smell of earth after it rains?

are you a parent? (all answers qualify)

can you drive?

are you farsighted or nearsighted?

what hair products do you use?

imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails?

do you say soda or pop?

something you’ve kept since childhood?

what type of person are you?

how do you feel about chilly weather?

if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing?

perfume/body spray or lotion?

a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times?

about how many hours of sleep did you get?

do you wear a mask?

how do you like your shower water?

is there dishes in your room?

what type of music keeps you grounded?

do you have a favorite towel?

the last adventure you’ve been on?

is there a song you know every word to by heart?

what’s your timezone?

how many times have you changed your url?

someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years?

a soap bar that smells good?

do you use lip balm?

did you have any snacks today?

how do you take your coffee?

an app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site?

what’s your take on spicy foods?

you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

can you remember what happened yesterday?

favorite holiday film?

what was the last message you sent?

when did you first try an alcohol beverage?

can you skip rocks?

can i tag you in random stuff?

[sylvyviolett]

“Nggggh…”

A small figure rustles underneath a thick layer of blankets on a bed in a small, but modest bedroom. The room is cluttered with various trash, such as water bottles, juice bottles, various junk food, and crumpled sheets of paper containing random scribbles. The bedroom is also furnished with a desk, and on it is an alarm clock, a laptop, a stack of notebooks, a lone, unopened journal, and an empty mug with a tea bag still inside. Finally, near the desk is a shelf and a body-length mirror.

The small figure makes its way out of the mountain of bedding, and reaches for the alarm clock which reads 11:40 am.

“Oof… it’s almost noontime already?” they groaned in dismay, in a soft, high pitched voice.  They then walk to the door, saying, “Oh well, I guess I gotta get myself some food-”

They stop to look at themselves in the mirror, and see a lithe, feminine figure that of a 12 or 13-year-old with long, lush light brown hair, complemented with a soft, youthful face. The round, wide eyes had chocolate irises and black, shiny pupils complemented with thin eyebrows. Their nose was small and their lips tiny. Below the shoulders is a small but growing bust. Their arms, hands, and legs were thin, smooth, and delicate, as if they were silk. The whole body was covered in a gray, baggy shirt that hangs past the elbows but just above the knees.

“No way…” they say in confusion and excitement as they look at themselves more closely. “Is this… really me?” They run their fingers through the soft locks, and immediately felt a sense of euphoric bliss that they never experienced before. They then examined the rest of their body all over, until they heard the bedroom door open.

“Jamie!” an older girl says from behind the door. She had a physique that was appropriate for a 20-year-old woman. She had dark brown hair tied up in a bun, with brown eyes that complemented her sisterly look. She was wearing a simple red blouse and a modest skirt, laid over by a white lab coat.

“Jamie, it’s about noontime already, so why don’t you get up and-” She is cut short by the sight of their sibling innocently feeling their body in the mirror, and admiring the changes.

They looked at their sister in a mix of surprise and embarrassment. “J-Jaiden! I was just, um… checking myself?”

Without a word, Jaiden checks her sibling from head to toe, taking note of the changes in a tablet computer she was carrying inside her coat. “Yep, looks like everything’s going great! You sure got a lot cuter though, you look like a middle schooler…”

They look in bewilderment as Jaiden makes her way to the mug on the table. She picks it up, and remarks, “It seems that my formulation worked better than I thought…”

It didn’t take long for them to put two and two together and realize that their sister drugged them to turn into a girl. “Wha-what was that you put in my tea last night?” they demanded.

“It’s an experimental drug of mine. I decided the test subject should be you, since I have no one else willing to try…” Jaiden answered.

“But… why? What do you think you’re doing with that?”

“You’ve been a lock-up for two years now! You don’t even go outside for a simple neighborhood walk! That’s why I created this medicine to show you what it would be like to…”

Thoughts ran into the newly-transformed girl’s mind as their sister was rambling. “No way… My younger sister… did this for me? Jennifer, a locked-up and closeted loser, given a second chance at life? This feels like a dream! Now I can do what I always wanted to do: be the girl I always wanted to be! I wanna try on some girl clothes, make some friends, get a girlfriend, and-”

Jennifer’s train of thought was interrupted by Jaiden catching her daydreaming. “Jaime? Were you listening to me at all?”

“Y-y-yes! S-so, um… Where were we?”

“I got brunch for you at the kitchen table. You haven’t eaten properly in like, forever! And after eating, can you please clean your room? It looks like a petri dish in there!”

“S-sure thing! I’ll clean it up later!”

Jennifer made her way downstairs to the kitchen and dined on what is possibly the first great meal she had in a while. Maybe it’s because she’s been living off of junk food for months or that her new body makes the food taste better, but whatever the case, she’s enjoying every second of it.

After a great brunch, Jennifer went back to her bedroom and cleaned up three years’ worth of garbage, all while musing about what her new life will be like. Three hours later, the room was tidy, and she opened up the blank journal she was saving to document her first day as a girl.

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Hey guys! I hope you liked this little idea for a novel I'm planning to write. Basically it's my interpretation of a manga I love which has helped me crack my egg. What do you think of the story so far? Please let me know!

- Violett

[australiablog]

26/7

Once again I woke up at 5:30, I’m starting to dislike these early wake up calls especially when I don’t even have anything planned today. I mean it is my own fault for falling asleep pretty early in the evening. I lounged in bed a bit scrolling through social media. Check out is at 10am so I busied myself with repacking my bags. I have an extra bag with me just in case I would buy too much and look and behold, I did. So I packed my sleeping bag, Uggs and pillow in that bag so now my backpack only holds the souvenirs I got. I am wearing my jeans but soon regretted that when I went to find a place for breakfast. There isn’t a cloud in the sky at 21 degrees so it’s definitely too warm to be wearing long jeans. But I know myself and I will get cold on the airplane this afternoon so I’ll just suffer a bit now. I saw a cute breakfast place in my wander yesterday so that’s where I went. I ordered a flat white coffee and bacon pancakes with maple syrup. I sat there reading my book and enjoyed watching people. On my way back to the hotel I stopped to get some new souvenirs since they had been on my mind. With the bus pick up they said it would be around 12 but that they would send a confirmation text so I turned on my Belgian SIM card on and the message was that pick up was 13:25. Which is good and bad, good so I had plenty of time but bad since that meant there wasn’t really much I could do in the meantime. If I had known this I might have done a small tour or something, but it is what it is. Sitting at the beach is not so bad after all. The bus driver was a little bit early so it’s a good thing I am always as well. It was only a half hour to the airport. I am flying with skytrans and they only had two check in desks, no one was there yet but I’ve got 2 hours still and this is a tiny airport so I’m not worried. The Jetstar and Qantas desks are filled to the brim. When I checked in I told the girl I had an extra bag and was absolutely fine with paying extra, I was expecting it to be honest. And then she surprised me by saying that since my bag was so light I could just take it with me on the plane, on top of my backpack. Was definitely not expecting that. Security was super fast as well. A girl could get used to all these fast airport things. The flight is at 4pm and there was still no boarding call by 15:40. By now the very busy airport was practically empty, I soon found out why. There are only like 30 people for this flight and the plane is tiny!! It’s like the size of a private plane, I was doing a selfie video with switching cameras and wanted to take a picture but the guy told me not to. I guess he didn’t see me take the video so I obliged. The plane only had about 15 rows of two seats, an aisle and two seats again. The engine was like something out of an Indiana jones movie, it had loose propellers. I was genuinely gobsmacked by all of this, leaving it to Australia to still have something like this. The flight itself was not that fun, it was really loud and I had pressure in my ears the entire flight. The overhead bins were really small and I couldn’t fit my bags in it, but to my very big surprise, there was plenty of room underneath the seats in front of me. I had row 2, seat D. Like what! During the flight the flight attendant made announcements that I had no way of understanding, I assume it was the seatbelt thing and welcomed us to cairns since I could see his mouth moving but had no idea what he said.

I don’t think I’ve ever had my checked baggage arriving before I even stepped foot in the terminal, but with so few people I’m not surprised. It was so warm in my jumper but I couldn’t be arsed to take it off. I did sneak a few pictures of the plane since they are all tarmac boarding and deplaning. I had checked beforehand how far the airport was from the hotel and it was only 5 min so I got a taxi, which was 20$. So not that bad. You could book a shuttle evening bus at the reception to go to a market but I was honestly too tired so I just got my suitcase empty for my last stay this trip. I’m going on a rainforest tour tomorrow and it said to bring swimwear, a towel, a change of clothes and a raincoat. All of this didn’t fit in my backpack so I emptied out my big one. I tried to order room service but the line kept running so I went downstairs and ordered a pizza at the bar. Even bad pizza is usually still good so I tend to have that if I’m not sure about anything else. I still had a small bottle of wine from the other day that I’ve been bringing so I had that with the pizza. Was pretty fun having wine and pizza in bed.

[princeofgod-2021]

LIGHT OF LIFE 522

John 1:4

DIVINE ORDER 87: God Seekers 16

Gen 4:26 And a son was also born to Seth, whom he named Enosh. AT THAT TIME PEOPLE BEGAN to worship the LORD. NET

The Altar And The Sacrifice 2

Again, I want us to look closely at the book of Romans 12:1.

Rom 12:1 I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye PRESENT YOUR BODIES A LIVING SACRIFICE, HOLY, ACCEPTABLE UNTO GOD, WHICH IS YOUR REASONABLE SERVICE. KJV

Our “reasonable SERVICES” are the SACRIFICE of our LIVES unto God. Think about it a bit: your [foundational] Service is not church activities but the total surrendering of your life.

Whatever you have to offer God resonates better when founded upon your life as sacrifice.

Psa 40:6-7 IT’S NOT SACRIFICES THAT REALLY MOVE YOUR HEART. BURNT OFFERINGS, SIN OFFERINGS—THAT’S NOT WHAT BRINGS YOU JOY. But when you open my ears and speak deeply to me, I BECOME YOUR WILLING SERVANT, YOUR PRISONER OF LOVE FOR LIFE. So I said, “HERE I AM! I’M COMING TO YOU AS A SACRIFICE, for in the prophetic scrolls of your book you have written about me. TPT

Why would God institute burnt offerings when He has no pleasure in them?

It’s simply a “shadow of things to come”, where we will be required to offer our very lives to Him instead.

Whether it was during the presentation of LAW or GRACE, the same requirement holds.

Moses clearly presented this factor to Israel, not as a Law but as a Counsel.

Deut 4:29 But if from there you will seek (inquire for and require as necessity) the Lord your God, YOU WILL FIND HIM IF YOU [TRULY] SEEK HIM WITH ALL YOUR HEART [AND MIND] AND SOUL AND LIFE. AMP

If a Man can only find God by seeking Him with all his life, and he indeed does so, then he has totally sacrificed that life in the “quest” for God.

When we [all] start seeking God in this mode or context, everything about Christianity changes drastically for the better.

Psa 27:4 HERE’S THE ONE THING I CRAVE FROM GOD, THE ONE THING I SEEK ABOVE ALL ELSE: I want the privilege of living with him every moment in his house, FINDING THE SWEET LOVELINESS OF HIS FACE, FILLED WITH AWE, delighting in his glory and grace. I WANT toTO LIVE MY LIFE SO CLOSE toTO HIM THAT HE TAKES PLEASURE IN MY EVERY PRAYER. TPT

When a Man would desire “only” one thing, which is to DWELL in God’s presence just to keep looking endlessly at His face, then that man has given up his life just for that.

But sadly, what are men seeking God and labouring hard for please?

Joh 6:23-25 some boats from Tiberias sailed near the place WHERE THE CROWD HAD EATEN THE BREAD for which the Lord had given thanks. They saw that Jesus and his disciples had left. THEN THEY GOT INTO THE BOATS AND WENT TO CAPERNAUM TO LOOK FOR JESUS. They found him on the west side of the lake and asked, "RABBI, WHEN DID YOU GET HERE?" CEV

Many still come to Church today to “sow” and “challenge God”, and dedication is become simply all about collecting from God.

When we don’t get what we want after a time, we change Church or ultimately backslide.

Jesus properly described such people.

Joh 6:26-27 Jesus answered, "I AM TELLING YOU THE TRUTH: YOU ARE LOOKING FOR ME BECAUSE YOU ATE THE BREAD AND HAD ALL YOU WANTED, NOT BECAUSE YOU UNDERSTOOD MY MIRACLES. DO NOT WORK FOR FOOD THAT SPOILS; INSTEAD, WORK FOR THE FOOD THAT LASTS FOR ETERNAL LIFE. THIS IS THE FOOD WHICH THE SON OF MAN WILL GIVE YOU, because God, the Father, has put his mark of approval on him." GNB

Meanwhile, it is encouraging to know that even Cain & Abel knew that seeking God wasn’t really about collecting from Him but about Him ACCEPTING THEM, then their offerings.

Gen 4:5-7a BUT HE DID NOT ACCEPT CAIN AND HIS OFFERING. Cain was sad because of this, and he became very angry. The LORD asked Cain, "Why are you angry? Why does your face look sad? You know that IF YOU DO WHAT IS RIGHT, I WILL ACCEPT YOU. ERV

If you had a Donkey, would it ever ask for food or anything? No!

They rarely even make noise or react to anything. You always have to use your initiative to feed and care for them.

When we’ve become “Living sacrifices”, we will realize that, other than our most basic needs, nothing matters much anymore than seeking to know God all the way.

May your [whole] life as sacrifice, be pleasurably acceptable to God, IN JESUS NAME.

See you on Friday, as we proceed with this Subtopic.

Brother Prince

Wednesday, June 12, 2024

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[scribeforchrist-blog]

Benefits of Righteousness 

MEMORY VERSE OF THE WEEK

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+Proverbs 18:10 The name of the LORD is a fortified tower; the righteous run to it and are safe.

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VERSE OF THE DAY 

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+ Romans 6:21  What benefit did you reap at that time from the things you are now ashamed of? 

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** SAY THIS BEFORE YOU READ; HERE’S SOME CHRISTIAN TRUTHS **

I AM LIVING FOR JESUS 

I AM RIGHTEOUS

I AM ANOINTED

I AM LOVING  

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THOUGHTS:

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  It's no benefits in the life of sin; there are no benefits in denying the goodness of God; it’s no benefit in it, friends; a lot of this world will tell you what they have and what they own, where they have been, and how they traveled, but if they aren’t doing anything for the glory of God it's no benefits, we have to start understanding that its benefits in seeking God, its benefits in believing in living in the light and not of our sins. We will have people saying to us that how we are living is boring or that living the quiet life is boring; no, my friend, God tells us in his word how to live our life, and one of the ways he wants us to live a quiet life is by minding our business.

  1 Thessalonians 4:11-12 11 and to make it your ambition to lead a quiet life: You should mind your own business and work with your hands, just as we told you, 12 so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.

     See, it says here, lead a quiet life, mind your business, and work with your hands; it tells us here what God wants of us, but what happens is we all listen to people, and we hear them say what we should do and what we shouldn’t do but what did the word of God say, it says it benefits us to mind our business and living a quiet life; we stay out of trouble, and we won't be mixing with the author of confusion. 

    Many people don’t like to hear this, but this keeps us out of confusion and chaos. See, Jesus didn’t go around going to this person's home or that person's home. He didn’t whisper to this person or that person. He lived a tranquil life. He even said the Son of man has nowhere to lay his head, so his business wasn’t into causing chaos. It was into saving souls, and if we want to be image bearers and do what he did and walk as he did, we will do the same,

  Romans 7:5 For when we were in the realm of the flesh, the sinful passions aroused by the law were at work in us so that we bore fruit for death.

    The Bible clearly states here that we used to be people who walked in the realm of the flesh doing anything of our passion. We bore fruit for death because that’s the road we were on, but now we are workers of God; we are walking in the spirit; we do not need to do anything opposite of that; we must always ask God what he wants us to do. What are our benefits in walking in the will of God? The Bible tells us to

•           1 John 5:14 This is the confidence we have before Him, that, if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us.

•           John 6:40 For this is the will of My Father that everyone who beholds the Son and believes in Him will have eternal life, and I will raise him on the last day.”

•           Proverbs 16:3 Commit your works to the Lord, and your plans will be established.

    The benefit we have when we follow the will of God is that we have eternal life. Every plan we have will be established because we are doing the works of God. Whatever we ask of the lord, he will hear us; this is our benefit of letting go of the realm of the flesh and holding on to God. 

     Satan can't show us any benefits in committing to him; I hear so many stories of people who would say that Satan promised them this and promised them that if they do this and do that, they have gained all the riches and success of this life because they followed Satan. They are usually so miserable that they are not filled with joy; they say something is missing because they allowed themselves to accept what he could give them now and not look at what they were losing, which is eternity with their maker. 

    Still, the benefits of following God are always great. Love and peace are what we all need, and we can have that when we follow God. Don’t allow what Satan lies to you and say, be what you look forward to ; Satan can't promise us anything because he has only temporary things to offer, but God has all the lasting benefits.

   ***Today, we learned the benefits of being a child of God, how the things of the flesh could leave us, and how Satan's lies can never fill us. I won’t lie to you: friends living in this life drinking, smoking, all this stuff can make you feel like you're on top of the world and make you feel this is where you should’ve been the whole time. 

    When the dust settles, and you are left with just your thoughts, the liquor stops pouring, and the smoking ceases. You are left with just you; you will see that the world isn’t offering anything good and what God gave you; it’s tough to live a Christian walk; it’s tough to deny the flesh; it’s tough to walk away from things you once knew it is, but the benefits of trusting and relying on God is the best feeling in the world. He won’t leave you; he will fill in and direct you. Don’t allow things here to be what keeps you in sin, but allow what God has for you to lead you to Him and STAY WITH HIM. ©Seer~ Prophetess Lee

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PRAYER

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Heavenly Father, we thank you for mercy and grace; we praise you for everything you have given us; we ask you to forgive us of the sins we did. Father, if we aren’t on the right path, let us know and show us. We don’t want to rely on this world, but we want to rely on you, and you alone; lord be with us; show us your ways, and we will follow. Lord, we love you, and thank you for everything! Thank you for never leaving us or forsaking us! We thank you for being who you are and always being patient and kind; we deal this prayer in your precious blood; in Jesus' Name, Amen 

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REFERENCES 

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 + Romans 7:5 For while we were living in the flesh, our sinful passions, aroused by the law, were at work in our members to bear fruit for death

+ Proverbs 14:12 There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death.

+ Daniel 12:2 And many of those who sleep in the dust of the earth shall awake, some to everlasting life, and some to shame and everlasting contempt.

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FURTHER READINGS 

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 Proverbs 30

Romans 7

Leviticus 10

Nahum 1

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[blindrapture]

WEDNESDAY MAY 25TH, 2011 ("world with empty eye sockets")

12:24 AM I think they’ve passed. I think we’re safe. ..I think I’m going to fucking sleep.

3:30 AM Donnie woke me up, she couldn’t sleep. Guess we’re heading off already.

3:41 AM Okay, I’ve put my CDs into one of those CD folder things. This is much easier to carry. I’ve got bags, I’ve got Tiger Stripes, I’ve got my Pot Noodles and my soda; I’m completely ready. Donnie, still tired, has got her share of snacks and drinks. She’s got a steel frying pan, too. And a T-shirt from something called “Bloomsday.” Isn’t that a department store? ..anyway, uh, we’re setting off now. Good luck to us?

3:45 AM Out of the neighbourhood. No sign of spidercats or anything yet. God, it’s bright for 4 in the morning.

4:18 AM We’re going towards the motorway. It’s the fastest way to London. ..I think. The high street is quiet, as always.

4:30 AM We’re nearing the motorway. Donnie’s quiet. Tired. I can hear a faint cawing noise. Like a crow.

4:42 AM The cawing seems to be getting louder.

4:59 AM Okay. I’m hiding behind a car. I don’t think the Big One saw me hiFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

5:01 AM It stopped. It’s turning back. What the fuck. YEAH YOU’D BETTER RUN. Okay, where’s Donnie, there she is, she’s behind that car, got it. We got everything? Good, good, good.

5:32 AM We’ve been walking down this motorway for a while now. We haven’t seen a single soul, just miles and miles of busted cars. I admit, I was kinda expecting to run into some other travelers or something.

5:50 AM Getting light. Very light. No sun, though. Just red.

6:13 AM We played “I Spy.”

6:38 AM Found a car, a big SUV, filled with good food and drink and whatnot. Time for a picnic!

6:40 AM “So why do you wear that.. outfit, anyway?” Good question. I dunno, really. I like to look distinguished, I guess. Makes me feel comfortable. And cool. Kinda like the Doctor or something! “Looks more like the Blues Brothers.” Yeah, there’s a bit of Blues Brothers influence, but that was really more of a coincidence. I wear the coat because of the slender man, and the hat’s inspired by Yahtzee Croshaw. But it’s all just influences, not really that important. “I think I’ve heard of Yahtzee. What’s the slender man?” Oh! Haha, the slender man! Goodness. It’s an urban legend, this tale of a man who’s seen in the backgrounds of photographs. He’s tall and faceless and wears a business suit and tie. Hella creepy when you read all about him late at night. Left a big impression on me. “Sounds cool. What does he do?” Nobody’s really sure. Usually, the people in the photographs with him go missing. Sometimes they’ll turn up later, disemboweled and strung up on trees. Sometimes they’ll turn up insane, sometimes wearing masks and being violent and unstable. Sometimes they simply won’t ever be seen again. ”..he’s not real, is he?” He’s not supposed to be. He’s entirely fictional; his creation was well documented on a Something Awful thread.

6:45 PM Moving out again!

7:02 AM We’ve still got a long way to go. I’d forgotten how tedious and monotonous motorways were. We’re probably gonna stop and rest soon. Maybe.

7:37 AM OH GOD NO WAY NO FUCKING WAY NO NO NO THAT’S IMPOSSIBLE THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE oh, it’s just a dead guy in a business suit. Never mind. Hahahaaaa, never mind. Nothing, never mind!

7:45 AM Donnie’s getting tired. I mean, she seemed pretty tired when we first set out, but now she just looks exhausted. And I admit, I’m pretty tired, myself. We’ll stop soon.

8:11 AM We just passed Croydon. We’re closer than I thought. We’ll rest iHOLY COCK

8:13 AM WHY THE HELL DOES EVERYTHING WANT MY POT NOODLES

8:16 AM OHHHHHHHHHHHH GOD THIS IS BAD THIS IS VERY VERY BAD WHERE’S DONNIE OH MY GOD WHERE IS DONNIE There she is, next to me, never mind.

8:20 AM …it’s gotten quiet, so I’m going to write. You’re not going to believe this. …actually, you might. We were walking along when all of a sudden, BAM. All the cars on the motorway started to move. They moved into one giant mass, and they have formed a giant motherfucking cobra. Made of cars. I’m going to call it the Carbra. Getting past this thing isn’t going to be easy. We’re hiding behind a tree.

8:23 AM Maybe we should try talking to it. “….you want to try talking to it.” ..okay wow that was stupid.

8:27 AM Okay. Okay. I’m going to make a mad dash for the next tree. Tiger Stripes, give me strength.

8:28 AM fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckmade it.

8:31 AM Okay, now Donnie’s got the courage. She’s gonna make the dash.

8:32 AM YOU MOTHERFUCKER EAT PLASTIC GUITAR

8:35 AM OKAY WELL EAT POT NOODLE

8:38 AM EAT MORE PLASTIC GUITAR YOU MOTHERFUCKEasdfgh I just got smacked in the face with a tire

8:43 AM We’re running we’re running I got Donnie and we’re running we’re running oh my god AHHHHH

8:47 AM We’re hiding. Behind a truck. I sure as hell hope this isn’t, like… the Carbra’s penis or something. I hope it’s just a truck. Either way, we’ve got more problems. Motherfuckers can fly now. The zombies. The motherfucking zombies can motherfucking fly. They have wings now. ..motherfucker.

8:49 AM God, the sound of their wings flapping where the hell can we go

8:50 AM Donnie’s got an idea. I’m following.

8:51 AM FUCK YOU FLYING ZOMBIES FFFFFFFFFFFFFFF RUN RUN RUN RUN

8:52 AM I WISH I HAD A FUCKING GUN

8:55 AM Donnie led me to a shed on a hill. She’s locked the door. I like where this is going. >w>

9:01 AM Sitting by the door, listening for the flying zombies to go away. Yeah, this isn’t quite where I thought it was going.

9:05 AM We’re both yawning several times a minute. I don’t know how much longer we can stay awake.

9:07 AM Now that I’ve gotten a chance to really listen to those damn things, I’m less annoyed and more.. unnerved. The sound of the wings, that is. The flapping.. it sounds like.. swishing. Liquid swishing. But it also sounds like breathing. I’m gonna try to zone it out.

9:13 AM ….she fell asleep and is now across my lap. Shit. I’ve never, uh.. looked up what I’m supposed to do now. Do I.. do I feel her up? Do I kiss her? ..why am I writing in my journal when I could be doing all sorts of— fuck it, I’m just gonna sleep, too.

5:59 PM Note to self: “You have nice pants” isn’t a good compliment. It’s a bit weird.

6:14 PM This place has a stove. Had a Pot Noodle. It was tasty.

6:32 PM Fucking shitcrabs, they’re still out there.

6:38 PM There’s a basement door in this shed. It leads to a long staircase. I think it’s a rabbit hole. I brought this up to Donnie, and I think she wants to check it out. She’s nervous, though. Never been down one of these before. Then again, it’s hardly like I’ve been down more than once.

6:43 PM Led us to a shed that looks pretty similar to the one we were previously in, though the front door is now large and steel. I’m gonna break it down.

6:44 PM We’re in a small blue room. There’s nothing in here. WHERE’D THE EXIT GO Okay, we might be trapped. I’m gonna see if I can break the walls down OH GOD FLOOR OPENED UP

9:40 PM awake ow hey donnie Eah. Hi. We seem to be in a void. A black void. In front of us, a good five or ten feet away, is a lone door. But directly in front of us is the void; there’s no floor. Well, there are, uh… patches? Patches of floor here and there. I don’t know how safe they are to step on, though. NO NO NO WAIT DONNIE DON’T oh. Kay, the ‘patches’ are very safe to step on. Kay, we can easily cross, then.

9:42 PM The door led to a small office. There are several doors around us.

9:44 PM Upon trying a door, I was presented with a long corridor. At the other end of the corridor, I could see a giant screaming face approaching me at terminal velocity. I quickly shut the door. I hate this place. It’s all so typical horror shit but I hate it all the same.

9:45 PM Donnie opened a door and found some rotting corpses. She wants to open any more doors, either. So what are we gonna do?

9:48 PM We’ve looked all over. There aren’t any other options. We’re gonna have to open another door. Fuck.

9:49 PM We drew straws. I got the shortest one. Okaaaay here goes.

10:01 PM We climbed out of a manhole. In a street.

10:05 PM LONDON WE’RE IN LONDON OH MY GOD

10:12 PM We found a stationery store! Oh my god, they have tons of journals! I am so taking one. Perfect timing, too. This journal was just about to run out of

10:20 PM I got myself a new journal. Fancy. Pretty. Huge, too. Nobody’s here, so Donnie and I thought we’d just.. take stuff. We’re gonna look for a map. HMV’s gotta be close.

10:24 PM This street’s pretty weird. I can hear the laughter of little children. YEAH I HEAR YOU GUYS, THIS STUFF WASN’T SCARY IN THE SHINING, IT WILL NEVER BE SCARY

10:27 PM Found a bus station. Had a map. It says we’re at the wrong side of the Thames. Fuck. I can see Piccadilly on here, though. Should be there in an hour, I’d say.

10:31 PM Donnie’s been awfully quiet. Then again, so have these streets. Where is anybody?

10:35 PM We’ve hit the Thames. Bridge nearby.

10:39 PM Donnie says she’s been seeing things. Strings around corners, nearby, moving. Personally, I’m pretty sure that strings are the least of our concerns right now.

10:40 PM Hit the bridge. Crossing the Thames.

10:42 PM God, the Thames is a huge river.

10:45 PM I just heard a splash. Donnie’s here, she’s okay. Looked over the edge, nothing.

10:47 PM strings everywhere in the corner of my eyes

10:49 PM Past the Thames, we’re on the wrong other side of London now, no strings anywhere.

10:55 PM …gotta admit. This sure doesn’t seem like the right side of London. At least we know where everybody is now: They’re all inside the buildings! Looking out at us from the windows! Most of them look like zombies. Let’s.. keep our eyes on the road. <:D

11:00 PM Graffiti says “HMV this way.” Thank you, hoodlums!

11:03 PM The zombies are definitely very creepy. They’re all standing in the windows, staring out at us. 11:07 PM Hit Trafalgar Square. I know this place. We’re close.

11:11 PM Did I say “close?” I meant “halfway.” I wish it wasn’t so far away, dammit. Hey, where’d that door come from? urp

(Attached: “I live in a world with empty eye sockets. Countries grope for light switches, assisted by no one. Nature calls this ‘politics.’ I call it 'aftermath.’ Then again, I’ve been called much worse. I carry, in my hands, a book larger than life itself. A god handed it to me as a sort of graduation present. We’ve passed the final exams and now it’s time to leap blindly into the real world. I have seen this book time and time again in my travels– one could almost say my coming of age, if one so ancient as I am could have a definite age– but never have I had the chance to read it. Now that I finally have it, my eyesight is long gone. It was taken in one of my moments of passion, a rare time where I dared step up to nature. Back then, I had only one name: Derek Taylor, the name I was born with. Now my names could fill a book of their own. If ever they did, and for all I know they might, I’d keep it here in my library for others to see. And if they ever asked me the time of day, I’d say to them the same thing I said to the gods when they dared call me 'eternity’s historian:’ Nothing at all. There is no time of day, not now that the apocalypse has come and gone. There’s only the sound of rain to assure us of our existence, and the faint approaching red shapes in the void that even we the blind can see.”)

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[orthodoxadventure]

Hello, I am the anon who sent the last message, In my community and household mental health is considered a taboo subject. It is nearly impossible for me to seek help, especially as a women there will be lots of stigma. I hope I can join a community but at my Church there isn’t a group for people in their 20s since they don’t participate or go to Church. There are groups for children or people in their 40s. I’m sorry if this is a personal question, but do you know how to deal with no motivation at all? I want to join groups, but most days I don’t have the capability of doing anything. It’s been like this since I was 12 years old. I don’t know what else to do. I’m sorry for dumping this all on you, I don’t have a Sister, but sometimes I imagine if I had a Sister she would be like you. I find great comfort and peace with your account and words. Thank you so much for it

I'm sorry that you're having to deal with so much stigma. I do know that there are subreddits where people can discuss mental health struggles that they're encountering, and these places might also be particularly good for being able to direct you to some resources that you can access privately to be able to get help without having to endure the stigma.

Youtube has a lot of videos on Cognitive Behavioural Therapy and Dialectical Behavioural Therapy. I would recommend seeking out these kinds of resources - they are often shortened to CBT or DBT. A lot of these resources are made so someone can do them individually, so you would be able to do them in the privacy of your bedroom or wherever else you feel safe enough to do these things.

The problem with motivation is that it's almost like a resource. It can be used up as a result of other factors - such as struggling with our mental health. And so we need to try and shift away from using motivation as our energising factor and instead turn to discipline. Which is tough. It's not always the most fun way of approaching things. It involves a lot of force on our part. For example, someone that is depressed might have no energy to make or eat food, but they do still need to eat - so they have to force themselves in some way to consume something, even if it's just a light snack.

So to, we have to nourish ourselves with things even if it can be hard to get there. And over time, we will find the energy and the motivation comes in and can help us maintain this - but sometimes we have to give ourselves a little starting push. By pushing ourselves to do things, we reinforce in ourselves that we can approach and do tasks. And this can help us with our self esteem.

Here are some DBT Resources:

https://dialecticalbehaviortherapy.com/

https://dbt.tools/index.php

https://www.therapistaid.com/therapy-worksheets/dbt/none

Here are some CBT resources:

https://positivepsychology.com/cbt-cognitive-behavioral-therapy-techniques-worksheets/

https://www.onlinecbtresources.co.uk/

https://thinkcbt.com/think-cbt-worksheets

What I would consider doing, is taking a little time to go through these resources and setting yourself a worksheet for the next few days. Perhaps you could try doing one of the DBT ones in the morning and a CBT one before you go to bed. These worksheets shouldn't take too long to fill out, and you can absolutely just type out your answers into a word document or wherever else. You don't need to print them out. They can be really good resources for reflecting, but they can also be really good at directing you towards other resources. Perhaps a worksheet on mindfulness really resonates with you - now you know to spend some time looking into other mindfulness resources.

Please don't worry about filling these worksheets out incorrectly. They're about getting you to think, and they're about steering you towards the correct path. And it can be good to give yourself some time each day for a little reflection and to get a load of anxiety off of your chest by articulating some of your thoughts and experiences.

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Another thing I would recommend you do, is look into volunteering opportunities in your area and send out a few emails saying you would be interested in learning more about volunteering for them. This can enable us to make that first point of connection, without stressing that we're committing to something. Hopefully, their response can be a motivating factor for us to get involved. But even if it's not, we can still try and push ourselves to attend even just volunteering for an hour or two one day. The great thing about volunteering, is that it's very not committal. You can volunteer as much or as little as you want, so by starting off small with one hour a week we are able to both a) push ourselves out of our comfort zone and b) not push ourselves way too far out of our comfort zone to the point of burning out.

Remember also to reward yourself - no matter how small the task. You sent some emails? Reward yourself by watching a funny Youtube video. You tried one of the CBT worksheets? Reward yourself with listening to one of your favourite songs. These things might sound silly, but they are a good way of establishing connections between doing things that are actually for our benefit and fun. Whereas right now, chances are our connections see a lot of things that are for our benefit as being connected to something negative.

When it comes to groups also, sometimes a lot of that anxiety and trouble can really lessen up (or completely vanish!) when we actually get into the group. Once you find yourself in the group, you might find it's a lot more fun and less scary than your anxiety is telling you. It's just about pushing yourself to get your feet through the door. Remember, a lot of these groups are about participating as much as you want - so you can go and participate as much or as little as you feel comfortable doing. And sometimes just going there and not really doing much, can still be of great benefit to us. As we still get some of that nourishment from being around people even if we aren't as involved as we might like. And over time, we will see that we are able to become more and more involved.

God bless you!

[darkdepthsdiscovered]

1. First kiss? High school (way too long ago)- it was meh

2. First time masturbating? I was 7 or 8

3. First sex toy? I had a lightsaber keychain. I wanted to see if it would light up inside of me… 😅

4. First kink tried? Nipple torture (clothespins)

5. First time doing oral? College boyfriend 18 years old

6. First time having sex? Consnensual- same college bf. Non consensual - 16 yo in high school


-Turn Ons

7. Biggest turn on? Hands touching me sweetly (and then turning rough once I’m allured)

8. Biggest turn off? Whispering/licking my ear

9. Quickest way to get horny? “Good girl”

10. Weirdest thing that ever turned you on? Watching a man piss

11. Top 3 places to be touched? Neck. Boobs. Pussy.

12. Ultimate fantasy? Have my Master. Place at His feet. Serve with his other pets and sluts. No more solo pup.

13. Do you like the idea of a three or moresome? Lovelovelove

14. Do you send nudes? Do you like receiving them? It depends on who is asking…


-Preferences

15. Sex or masturbation? Sex

16. Spit or swallow? SWALLOW ONLY

17. Cut or uncut dicks? All dicks yummy

18. Rough or sensual sex? Yes

19. Oldest person you’d sleep with? Idk that I necessarily have a limit.

20. Loud or quiet partners? Loud

21. How much foreplay do you like? I can take lots or jump right in. Go with the flow!

22. How much teasing do you like? A lot

23. What is too big for you to take? With practice there is no limit

24. Do you do hookups or only sleep with a partner? It depends

25. How much kissing do you like during sex? A bit if they’re good at it.

26. What’s the most attractive part of the body? Hands


-Location

27. Would you have sex in public? Yes

28. Last place you had sex? My bed

29. Where would you most like to have sex? Ocean or top of mountain

30. Do you like spontaneous sex, or do you need to be in the mood? I’m always in the mood

31. Could you go through with a hookup at a strangers house? Yes


-Kinks

32. What’s your biggest kink? Puppy play

33. Are you okay with name calling in bed? Yes

34. Would you do any BDSM? Absolutely

35. Do you prefer to tie somebody up or be tied up? Be tied

36. Do you like orgasm denial/forced orgasm? Yes

37. Do you like overstimulation? Yes

38. Do you like having pain involved? Yes

39. Do you like biting/being bitten? Yes

40. Have you ever been made to/made somebody beg for it? Yes

41. Do you have any strange or extreme kinks? I dunno do I???

42. Have any roleplaying preferences? I just am me. I am also puppy. And sometimes secret little.


-Masturbation

43. Do you own sex toys? How many? Yes! Oh… I has to count???

44. What do you masturbate to? Tumblr!! And my own thoughts.

45. How often do you masturbate? Whenever I can.

46. How often do you use sex toys to masturbate? When I’m told to.

47. Do you masturbate with penetration? If I feel like it but not typically.

48. Do you go for multiple rounds or settle at one or no orgasms? I edge mostly. 


-Oral

49. Do you enjoy giving oral?LOVE

50. Do you prefer giving or receiving oral? Giving

51. What makes you orgasm the fastest when receiving oral? I don’t know. I think deep, long strokes with finger help.

53. Can you deepthroat? Sometimes…?


54. Do you like playing with your clit? If so how do you prefer to do it? Yes. Circular rubbing…?

55. What’s your breast size? 36 C

56. How often do you go braless? All the time

57. Do you finger yourself? Yes

58. How familiar are you with your g-spot? It’s in there

59. Do you squirt?SO much 


-Sex

60. How often do you do unprotected sex? Always

61. How loud are you in bed? Depends

62. Do you enjoy having nipples played with? Yes

63. Do you like/dislike cum? Love it

64. How good are you at dirty talk? Eh not so good

65. Do you get sleepy after an orgasm? Yes! Haha


66. Do you trim, shave or leave pubic hair untouched? Shave

67. How do you prefer partners pubic hair? I don’t mind it in any way

68. How many orgasms can you have in a day? There is no limit

69. How many other people know your bra size? All of you now….

70. What do you wear to bed? Nothing

71. Any funny sex stories? I reset my disjointed nose in a threesome once

72. What food if any would you use during sex? Sushi

73. Would you give somebody a sex toy as a gift? Sure!

74. What’s the weirdest porn you’ve ever seen? Missionary homemade vanilla

75. Do you often get horny in public? Always

76. Ever used something that isn’t made for sex in the bedroom? So much. Especially in hotel rooms with my last Sir…

77. Have you ever walked in on somebody or been walked in on? Oh for sure. I have kids…

78. Do you have any friends you’d sleep with? 🤐

[chimielie]

hii 1- 44 for your ask game pwease

fine. im gonna do it.

under readmore to respect people’s dashes HAHAHAHAH. bear warning that there’s like 2 things that could be considered nsfw (but not rlly i don’t think) and like 3 questions abt substance usage!!

1 age: 20

2. shoe size: us 5.5, which is an eu 36 i think?

3. do you smoke? cigarettes very rarely and only socially

4: do you drink? yessir

5: do you take drugs? nope

6: age you get mistaken for: like 23? it's usually not far off but always older

7. have tattoos? no

8: want any tattoos? yes i think so! but that's for a later date when i have the funds

9: got any piercings? yep! the usual ones in my earlobes and i also have my nipples pierced :)

10: want any piercings? i'd like to get my doubles done, but i'm pretty happy with what i have now

11: best friend? my irl bestie: i've known her since we were 7? she's basically family. on here it's definitely my beloved mika

12: relationship status: down bad for my boyfriend (11 months next week!)

13: biggest turn ons: glasses, light biting, nice arms and back, athletic trainer, 27, iwaizumi hajime,

14: biggest turn offs: answered here

15: favorite movie: crazy rich asians (the wedding scene...)

16: i’ll love you if… you understand me?? i feel like all the people i've loved the most felt like they really could see me which is a pretty general answer but i love so many people so much

17: someone you miss: my little sister :(

18: most traumatic experience: i don't want to answer this seriously but sometimes i remember that iwaizumi isn't real and that's very upsetting 😞

19: a fact about your personality: i'm so eepy rn

20: what i hate most about myself: not applicable i don’t want to do that to my brain!!!

21: what i love most about myself: good with words :)

22: what i want to be when I get older: an accountant!!

23: my relationship with my sibling(s): my little sister is one of my best friends she's incredible i'm so proud of her

24: my relationship with my parent(s): i’m an eldest daughter soooooo

25: my idea of a perfect date: answered here

26: my biggest pet peeves: answered here

27: a description of the girl/boy i like: answered here

28: a description of the person i dislike the most: my best friend's ex-boyfriend 👎

29: a reason i’ve lied to a friend: said i was gonna go do homework and then took a nap

30: what i hate the most about work/school: it stresses my boyfriend out and cuts into my naptime

31: what my last text message says: “tell her you don’t have any more storage on your phone” to my roommate bc her mom wants her to download life360 LOL

32: what words upset me the most: probably not the Most but i think really cynical statements like “love isn’t real” or “healing is impossible” or stuff like that make me not want to talk to someone so much bc those are like. fundamental parts of my thinking yk? ofc jokes don’t bother me

33: what words make me feel the best about myself: “you do everything right all the time” HAHAHAHA

34: what i find attractive in women: glasses

35: what i find attractive in men: glasses

36: where i would like to live: i’ve always wanted to live in san diego… someday 🤞 i also daydream about ireland a lot

37: one of my insecurities: perpetually terrified of seeming mean by accident

38: my childhood career choice: estate planning lawyer 😭

39: my favorite ice cream flavor: honeycomb!!

40: who i wish i could be: someone who always has a lot of friends visiting :) and hosts a lot of dinner parties

41: where i want to be right now: san diego

42: the last thing i ate: i am currently right in the middle of eating prosciutto on toast with roasted red pepper tomato soup!!!

43: sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately: answered this earlier but it bears repeating: iwaizumi hajime i need u

44: a random fact about anything: answered here but here’s an extra: i have a little marcel the shell figurine on my desk and i pick him up and talk to him whenever i have writer’s block and it’s really helped boost my productivity hahahahahah