#doing laundry right now!

[kingofmyborrowedheart]

Good morning!

[abisalli]

the sorcerer's apprentice by Paul Dukas starts playing in the background 🪄

[notbecauseofvictories]

I'm cautiously gearing myself up for a conversation with bff where I tell her that we need to recalibrate our relationship, and....I genuinely don't think I've ever had a serious, emotional conversation with someone I care about before.

I've never been a Conversation Haver; I tend to take the approach that people can't significantly change without meaningful reason, and since I am not and never have been someone's Reason, I cannot prompt change. Therefore, my choices are (a) live with what is; or (b) end/limit the relationship.

But....this is my best friend in the world. I do love her. I just can't keep on as we've been going, where it's less a friendship and more ten minute intervals where I talk about my life, after which the focus switches. I once sat in a bar for two hours waiting for her; afterwards, she asked if I wanted to stay in her hotel room like I didn't have to get up in another 5 hours and drive to work. She texted me during my recent trips, and when I said I was traveling she asked no further questions. Said nothing unless it was about what she was reading, what she was doing. I'm not even sure she realized I was traveling at all, just unavailable to her.

I can give a high-level summary of her PhD thesis. I'm not confident she knows where I work.

Truthfully, part of this is that we simply have different social styles....but still. Coming back from my family trip, I said I was tired and trying to get work straightened out, she should go ahead and plan something for the holiday! I was free! Only for me to text a week later....and promptly have her join me, for my previously standalone plans. Oh, and she asked me to bring my camera, because she wants headshots for her new job.

I still love her very much, but if this is the kind of relationship we're going to have? I need less of it.

[bottombaron]

Nandor should forget everything they said about his sex life and instead be embarrassed by the fact that he apparently wore the same underwear for over 50 years and now everyone knows it.

[moonchild-in-blue]

GUYS. BESTIES.

Why did I just now discovered Vessel performed a piano version of DYWTYLM??? None of you told me that. Million years dungeon.

Anyways, I'm crying right now.

[tofangirlonly]

If you forgot about your laundry this is @ you

[abirddogmoment]

Mr. Laundry went home a couple days ago and I already miss his squishy face.

[bonetrousledbones]

lil update post thats mostly rambling tbh

i'm feeling a bit better after a few days of not letting myself ruminate on everything so much. still don't have electricity tho </3 but things are getting better slowlyy. i even managed to draw a lil too

i've adjusted a good bit more to the routine at this point. a lot of people are still struggling out there and once i get my electricity back i'm gonna spread some more resources since wayyy more are available & up-to-date now than what's in my initial post about all this, but for now i'm just lettin y'all know i'm still truckin along 👍

also i wanna give another thanks to yall for spreading that post around so much, even if it's slowed down a lil by now. for those first few days it really felt like we were completely isolated from the world and nobody knew or cared, but i've seen a huge increase in people talking about our situation here since then and it's been surprisingly uplifting. one of the reasons appalachians are such hardheaded motherfuckers is because we're used to having to help each other rather than rely on folks outside the mountains, but seeing y'all expressing sympathies and wanting to help however you can, even if you don't live nearby, has made me feel so much better about our ability to come back from this.

[kraniumet]

hashtag making it through today and tomorrow

[survivingandenduring]

A sky like this is rarer than hens teeth in London

I’m putting it here so when it’s grey and wet again I don’t forget it actually exited

[hythlodaes]

6pm and i'm still in bed x.x

[gobbluthbutagirl]

told my brother i’d bake him something as a thank you for getting me the dunkin job and the thing is to get this guy to say or even figure out what he wants is like pulling teeth so you have to play a little game that goes like: “okay matthew i’m on sallysbakingaddiction.com right now…are there any categories such as cookies or pies or cakes or specific ingredients or flavors that you’re particularly interested in?” “uhhh…if there’s like a seasonal recipe maybe…” “yeah she’s got a ton of those. were you thinking apple, pumpkin, just spice in general…?” “uhhhh…probably pumpkin.” “now how about the format? cake, cupcakes, pie, cookies, bars, muffins…?” “uhhhh…a cheesecake sounds pretty good.” “there’s this pumpkin cake cheesecake i used to make all the time…do you remember that?” And then he doesn’t even remember it but you show him the photos and he agrees that he wants that. so anyway i’m gonna make a pumpkin cake cheesecake today. and i’m gonna make caramel sauce to drizzle on top as well. And then i’m gonna use the leftover pumpkin to make homemade pumpkin spice coffee creamer but that part probably won’t be today since the cheesecake part already takes about 100 years to do

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Anyway I got notified that I'll be getting a nice $$ bonus from work today and I wish that I could celebrate with someone in a way that didn't just feel like obnoxious bragging. Like beyond the financial aspect, it's just nice to be recognized for good work and I actually feel... good?? about this job??

But it feels so silly to say I want to celebrate when I just got back from what felt like my first real vacation in a very long time and am doing cool comic con stuff this weekend and am scheduled for a new tattoo next weekend. I am already doing lots of things to try to make myself feel good! It feels selfish to want more!

But I guess even with all of that, there's just still a hunger for external validation from trusted sources. Will I ever grow out of wanting someone to be proud of me?

[petrichorvoices]

hi Tumblr we FINALLY did our laundry after so long AND we even put most of it away please be proud of us

[uhlillie]

oh yeah back to back art posts maybe my art block is finally defeated 🙂‍↕️

[castielsprostate]

I'm proud of you, and I love you <3