#doesnt giving out your organs at random have like. consequences. or something.

[chainsawl]

ID: Bmo smugly quoting a discord screenshot by saying "they call me 007. 0 money 0 pussy 7 suicide attempts". end ID

ID: Bmo looking over Finn and Jake, who are looking at him concerned. He says "wow not even an lol. okay i see how it is". end ID

ID: bmo on the process of jumping from a window while saying "they call me 008". Finn, jake, or both are screaming "Wait-" . end ID.

[actualbird]

Hi Zak!! This is a pretty random ask but i was just wondering if you have any tips for starting a fanfic/story? I just keep getting stuck on how to start one (I really love your work/blog 🙏 feeds my tot brain rot fr!!)

hi anon, im glad you like the stuff i make ;w; !!! and ohhh, sure i got tons of tips for that!.....so many that i actually wish i cld get u back here to ask what specifically about starting a story u'd want tips on but for now, i'll go for a general overview :D!!

cuz....to me (i.e. based on my writing process, which i'll be drawing heavily from for these tips), the act of Starting comes in three distinct steps, one after the other:

Idea Generation (what is the story gonna be about and how do i get ideas for that?)

Concept Organization/Outlining (how is the story going to be about this idea and how will i be executing it?)

Creation (GAH, HOW PUT WORDS ON PAGE!?!?!?)

so i'll give general tips for all three!!!

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Idea Generation Tips

(this is the step that i personally have the least trouble with because my brain makes 5 new ideas every day. it's kinda a curse now because it leads to me having too many wips and concepts and only 1% of them gets to the Creation period jhvjhVJKSHFVHJS BUT ANYHOO, TIPS-)

Check Out Prompt Lists (super fun and easy way to get an idea! theres tons of story and fic prompts out there that you can search up here on tumblr, some of them being lists of lines of dialog or lists of AUs or scenarios. even if you dont follow a prompt exactly, they can be great at kickstarting ur brain into thinking of something related that you Do wanna pursue)

Open/Ask For Prompt Requests (if ur brain doesnt have any ideas, u can ask around and see if anyone ELSE has ideas theyre alright with you writing! my tot fics "reviews for Time's Antiquities, South Stellis | Average Rating: 4.8 Stars" and "but little do we know, the stars welcome him with open arms" were both inspired by anon asks i got!! to those anons who sent those asks, i owe u my life....but yea, maybe other people can give ideas to you! or, again, give Something that can inspire another thing in ur brain to take shape)

Just Ramble With A Friend (SO MANY OF MY FIC IDEAS started because i was just goofing off and playing idea volleyball with fandom buddies in our DMs (shoutout to sam samsspambox, z lukevonhagen, and beck beckthebeetle for being the main culprits of this). like, what started out as a joke conversation eventually makes go "oh no wait i actually wanna see that as a fic" and then boom, Idea Has Been Acquired. but fr, talking with another person makes your brain create things u never thought about before. it's both tons of fun to chat with a buddy as a sounding board, and it yields awesome concepts for stories!)

For Fanfic Specifically, Think About What You Want To See In Canon But Hasn't Happened And You Want It So Bad It's Driving You NUTS (this can be anything from missing scenes you wish were expanded on, scenes you wish went a different way, character relationships you wish you could see more of in canon, go nuts! the fun thing with fanfic is that it's a fertile playground for all the what-ifs, and a lot of my fics' ideas were simply found because i thought "man i know tears of themis is never gonna show me deep found fam moments/artem ptsd consequences after main story 6.2/mariluke, so imma make it myself" JHVSJDHF. ideas are hard to make sometimes, but brains are so good at desiring things. and all those desires? those can also be Ideas for a fic!)

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Concept Organization/Outlining

(very much skippable if your writing style/personality is more receptive to free-wheeling!! im just the type of writer who always needs an outline to begin something. it helps me structure a raw idea with no shape into something clearer that i can envision a story for)

Outline A Rough Chain Of Events Chronologically (this can be as simple as three bullet points, what happens at the Start of the story, the Middle, and the End. or maybe you can go list down the portions of your fic according to the Freytag's Pyramid Plot Structure: Exposition, Inciting Incident, Rising Action, etc etc.)

Outline A Rough List Of Stuff You Just Want To Happen In The Fic (if your brain is like mine and isnt too great at chronological thinking, make a list of just all the plot points and events or even dialog exchanges u Want to see in the fic. you can organize it in the order u want later once uve put everything down)

Outline The Themes (moving away from plot, many stories are more focused on feelings or characterization or themes. so make a list of the Concepts you want to tackle. this is something i do for my fics that are more introspective, so i outline shit like "EVENT THAT MAKES LUKE INTERNALIZE SELF-LOATHING followed by EVENT THAT MAKES LUKE'S VIEW BE NOTICED BY ANOTHER CHARACTER")

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Creation

(the worst part of writing....is the writing JAVFJVSDKHFDJHJ but nah fr this is the part i have the hardest time with, so here are tips that help me kickstart the word engine)

You Dont Have To Start Writing The Fic From The Beginning Of Its Story, Start Writing Wherever (confession: a good 75% of my fics are ones where the first scene i actually wrote down was not the start. instead, i just wrote the scene i was most excited to write. and usually thats somewhere in the middle! i do this cuz it makes my brain happy, and a happy brain is much easier to pull words from than a sad brain. plus, when i see the scene I Like Best already written, it gives me motivation to do the rest of the fic because oh my god i want everybody to sEE THIS ONE DANG SCENE!!! start writing the fic at whatever point you want, in whatever order comes most naturally to you, is my point. you can fill the rest in later, but hey, starting to write where you Want has gotten you Started. now you just gotta finish, and finishing when you already have something down is much easier than starting from 0)

Set Tiny Wordcount Goals. And When I Say Tiny, I MEAN TINY!!! (writing is intimidating but if you set a goal of say, 100 words written for a wip per day, at the end of one week, you'll have 700 words. at the end of two, you'll have 1400 words. at the end of a month, 3000. small goals help since it makes you do Something, and that Something will inevitably compound, no matter what goal uve set. and let urself be proud of the goals uve achieved!!! writer brain gets happy when you tell it it's done a good job at reaching a wordcount goal, and like i said earlier, happy brain is much easier to work with than sad brain)

Give Yourself All The Time You Need (i know this sounds counterproductive but sometimes....the best thing you can do for the part of your brain that wants to start creating....is waiting til it's ready. dont pressure yourself, cuz brain will get sad. dont be too hard on yourself, cuz brain will get sad. start when you want to start in the way that works best with your brain and see where things go, but be patient with yourself. sometims Starting is actually the longest part of writing a story and thats fine. it will happen. trust)

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thats all the tips ive got! and of course, what will work for me wont always work for other people, so please feel free to take what you think applies to you and discard what doesnt resonate.

i hope some part of this can help! happy writing :D

[arcanigenum]

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#5

@vyrulent

    “Hey, Liz?” he called out. The pale creature gurgled on the floor and waved its once chubby hands at him. Benjamin was supposed to check the upper floor of the house for dangers, but had stumbled upon something way more entertaining. Besides, he didn’t hear or see anything else  suspicious in the other rooms, thus he assumed it was fine. 

    For being so small and worthless, the undead baby crawled its way quite fast to Benjamin. Compared to other undead, it was in good condition with no organs or bones exposed. He stepped over to it, gave it a gentle, sweeping kick so it slid over the hardwood floor and out to the corridor. 

    “Y’think it’s the same for the dead when ya find a baby? The mommy being somewhere near.” He grinned and held out a boot to the baby who tried to bite it with its toothless mouth. 

11 notes • Posted 2021-06-24 12:33:20 GMT

#4

you know what’s not okay?

making people think everything is in fact okay, you chat a lot, you have plotted threads, active threads, and then out of the blue unfollow and soft block

11 notes • Posted 2021-07-28 08:23:25 GMT

#3

benj as an insane little shit kid could beat any other kid up. fite him. everyone fite him. he pushed his mom down the stairs. he probably stapled a teacher. he can fuck up other kids. he provoked others until they got mad and created a fight and then fucked them up. fuck you and fuck you. he’s the ALPHA. 

flash forward to like college however and benj is not an insane little shit kid anymore, but a slightly calmer adolescent who has been doing yoga for a couple of years and has found some zen. so far from a jock. so far from someone going to the gym. disgusting. he’s still a bully. he still provokes people. it’s his biggest hobby. he goes for the biggest alpha boy in the football team.

 benjamin can not fuck this guy up. benjamin is tiny in comparison. benjamin does not care. biggest alpha football team guy fucks benjamin up. benjamin has a broken nose and LAUGHS.

and does he learn??? does he perhaps pick another victim?

of course not. he’s benjamin. it’s not that he doesnt learn - he doesnt care. he doesnt give a shit about consequences. he knows fully well what will happen. he just doesnt care. but he probably has a knife this time or some other type of weapon and might go back to his insane shit kid temper and scare everyone that way. football guy probably doesnt want to die. benjamin wins. fuck you. he’s the alpha. big guy is now his bitch because benjamin is fucking scary and insane. 

11 notes • Posted 2021-11-05 19:33:53 GMT

#2

vigrim the mountain troll 

11 notes • Posted 2021-07-17 00:15:14 GMT

#1

Starter call?????????

Specify muse or you will get vigrim or azazel being gross

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[thoughtsintheether]

Fear of Failure

I have lived the majority of my life in a cloud of fear. Fear of embarrassment. Fear of people finding out I'm not that smart. Fear of failing. That's my big one. Afraid of failing. I can't tell you how many things I simply haven't attempted because I was to afraid that I would fail.

We are all kind taught that our lives are these special, important things from a very young age. Everyone is always pushing this idea that everything is very important and the decisions you make will have these long lasting consequences and you better think about what you are doing. So I find myself often paralyzed by indecision. Convinced that if I make the wrong choice I am going to destroy my life.

Fear.

Fear by design.

I have begun to suspect that the fear of failure, of looking bad, of embarrassment, is a purposely integrated factor of our every day lives.

Now the idea of fear as control is no new concept. Nature has been using fear as a survival trait since pretty early on. Probably right after the first living organism consumed another living organism.

I'm getting distracted. My mind follows winding pathes. Points get lost in the mist. If there ever was one.

I guess what got me started on this thought process was a comment from someone. They said something about contemplating how much time they had wasted and I started thinking about the idea of wasted time.

If one is to waste time then we have to assume that time is something finite. We know that is true for the bodies that we inhabit but without a clear understanding of our own existence then it becomes harder to determine. If I am this body and I end when it does then you have a clear concept of the limitedness of time but if, as many believe, there is some kind of after life than the concept of how much time is available to us becomes less clear. Indeed, if we are immortal beings of energy like most religions teach than we unlimited time and thus, it can't really be wasted.

Another thing to take into consideration is purpose. To waste something it must have A purpose different from what you used it for. Therefore to waste time that time must have a purpose.

I find this particularly interesting as it requires one to consider the idea the very meaning of your life. If you can waste your time then there must be an ultimate goal you are supposed to be using that time to work towards.

So is there some kind of ultimate goal? Is there a bigger purpose to this existence? Who knows?

If there is than the danger of wasting time is real. If there is a goal and a timeline then that feeling of wasting time, of having something else to do that eats at you is valid but without any solid idea of what that ultimate goal is than all of your time is wasted. How can you ever meet a goal that you dont know other than accidentally?

The other side of this is that there is no goal. No purpose. We are all just here and it's all random and arbitrary. Nothing really means anything and there is no reason to our existence. Therefore your time has no purpose. No meaning. So it can't be wasted. What you do has no meaning so it doesn't really matter what you do.

Now most people recoil at that thought. The very idea of a pointless existence is terrifying. Why? I assume it comes back to fear. If this life has no purpose and there is no meaning and there is no afterlife then every moment of your life is just a tick towards that moment when you will cease to exist. Not move on to another realm or cross over into a bright light. Just stop. Stop thinking, stop feeling, stop growing, stop breathing. It's just a hard stop. And that can be terrifying.

But I think that idea can also be beautiful.

Like I said at the beginning of this I have lived a life of fear. But I've lived that life because it was taught to me. It was taught to me by my parents. It was taught to me by my environment. It was taught to me by my DNA.

Engrained into our being is survival and fear is part of that. Fear makes you run from danger. Fear stops you from walking into fire. Fear can keep you alive.

Fear can also keep you from trying new things. From telling people what you feel. From growing as a person.

I've let that last one happen more than I admit. I worry sometimes that I've held myself back because I was afraid of leaving people behind, or being judged for trying to be something else.

It's also that fear that can keep you in your place. You go to your job every day, most of us hating it every step of the way. Why do we do it? Whether you want to admit it or not its fear that keeps you going through that door every day. Fear of not having food and shelter not to mention all the other comforts of this modern life.

And so for the most part it often seems like we are pushed through this world nervous and afraid, trying desperately to do the right things to survive. Hoping to find our way to eternity.

I'm tired of it. Tired of feeling afraid all the time. Tired of agonizing over every decision as though the consequences will somehow be earth shattering.

So I'm going to try to not worry about wasting time. If there is a point I dont know it and I'm not going to spend my time guessing at a goal that may not even exist. I am going to try new things and not give a shit if a fail. I'm going to dance in public and not care of people laugh or think I'm an idiot. Becuase maybe it all doesn't matter. Maybe this is it and in a hundred years no one will even remember I existed and all these fears and worries and concerns are just another pointless electrical impulse that means nothing. And maybe that's a good thing.

Will I be able to let go of all these things? Probably not but that doesnt mean I'm not going to try. Imagine how much lighter you would feel of you could let go of half the shit you're holding onto.

I'm not even going to proof read this and (hopefully) not obsess about it.