#do i want to maintag this ummm. sure why not

[marshmellowtea]

when i first started conceptualizing chris's mommy issues i envisioned celia's coldness toward him as a result of genuine apathy/disinterest in him but tbh the more i develop her in my head the more i start envisioning the opposite--she's fucking obsessed with him but given that it's not out of the love she's supposed to feel for the son she never really wanted but rather resentment and a compulsion to check in and make sure he's not ~embarrassing~ the family she puts on a facade of disinterest in him to cope with the cognitive dissonance. she'll never once step foot in the theater but she damn well watches his show every week. she rarely answers his calls but when she does she holds him hostage for potentially hours on the line. she'd be fucking devastated if he died before her but she'll never ever appreciate him while he's still breathing. she'll never hug him ever in her life but she can't help but hover close whenever he's around her, never bridging the distance between them but never letting him forget her looming presence either. ouugggghh