#divine rambles. ` 🕊

[divine-construct]

honestly i dislike the words ‘transmasc’ ‘transfem’ ‘transneutral’ ‘transneumasc’ ‘transneufem’ ‘transfemmasc’ ‘transneumascfem’ and, if there’s more, those too. they imply that you transition to a binary masculinity/feminity/neutrality/mix of those, and many trans people i know don’t.

the male body i want is not inherently masculine. even if i want a male body, i don’t actively want to dress masculine. transmasc and transfem are just new words to reinforce the same male = masculine, female = feminine binary again. my little brother (amab) has long hair and a sidecut, wears ‘masculine’ clothes, and still keeps getting read as a girl because he’s short and has a rather high-pitched voice (because he’s a kid!). not even a masculine presenting amab person is inherently masculine.

in the end, my transness means that i want a male-looking body, but not neccessarily a masculine one. and, apart from that, i as a whole am not and do not wish to be masculine. i am neither only masculine or only feminine—i am both—but if i had to choose just one? then i’d be transfeminine. i enjoy dressing mostly fem, appearing mostly fem, looking mostly fem. in a male-looking body. but i cannot call myself transmasculine for the wish of a male body, if there is no masculinity i am transitioning to.

[cringecannon]

hi ok im assigning myself as ur dove anon so that way i can just ramble at u constantly but anyways first of all may i just say your writing is phenomenal…?!?!?! 🖤 and i offer this wonderful little thought for us to ponder together spurred on by some of astarion’s labyrinth inspired quotes: being astarion’s most precious, well kept possession; he cherishes you in the way that one covets a prized pet from show lines. you are so well taken care of & well maintained, draped in flimsy finery. delicate lace and silk, short & sheer so that no piece of you is ever kept hidden from him. but that’s just it: you’re his pet. you don’t know how to care for yourself, of course. he speaks to you like one might a puppy, or even, maybe, a child. he treats you as if you don’t know any better, that you simply can’t protect yourself, can’t be trusted to make decisions without his guidance. treats your fits of rage as little more than a hissy fit, like you just need a nap, something to eat, or time out. so long as you’re good, however? oh. he’ll bend heaven for you, and if that doesn’t work, he’ll absolutely raise hell. so long as your whims align with his own, or at least settle within that grey area where giving you what you’re asking for is of little consequence to his goals, of course. — 🕊

You’re a bird in a cage to him. A beloved pet, sure, with a beautiful gold cage and all the expensive things you could ever want inside… but still a pet.

He shows you off like one, too. Whether dancing at an extravagant ball or sitting on the floor with your head against his leg as he doles out orders to his spawn, you’re dressed in the finest money can buy, jewels and gold draped everywhere.

He tells you he loves you. Isn't it enough that he believes it? Does it really matter that real love isn't suffocating, degrading?

You make the mistake of asking what love feels like to him. He pauses, confused. You've caught him off guard. He stalls for a moment, clearly looking for your angle. When he finds none, he pulls you against him, slender hands cradling the cold skin of your jaw as he coos his answer. Love is... everything. Warmth, enveloping. It's the morning sun against your skin. His thumb brushes your cheek and he smiles down at you before pulling you into an embrace.

Wrapped in his arms you find a divine cruelness in the notion that love to him is the sun, seeing as he has doomed you to never see it again.

[coff-in]

UGH!! /pos i LIVE for ashley praising the reader and complimenting her appearance!! ＼(^_^)／ i have a weird think for any sort of praise (in smut writings, of course but i always gravitated towards praise in my everyday life and grovel easily because of it (〃´▽`))

the smut was yummy as well!! ^^ i can't help but see ashley as a switch, rather rough dom and bratty bottom, yk? though if reader had to dom i can see her struggling to do so... i mean, she's likely never had so much control in her life!! she's probably so overwhelmed by suddenly having that sort of control! Σ(*ﾟДﾟ*)

idk what your stance on futanari is but i don't entirely see it as too unrealistic(?) can probably be a temporary or perma thing as a result from some sort of demonic offering. i won't go too much into that if you're uncomfortable with that topic though, since i know futa isn't for everyone! i mainly use it due to a (well, fictional) breeding kink and since my preference is women, you can see how that one spawns (;^_^A

ahh at this point i'm just rambling more now!! (´Д` ) though i did write this ask with the intent to ramble i did not expect to ramble that much! watch me regret this one in the morning, lol ｡･(つд`｡)･｡

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notes from coff-in: you're alright 🕊 anon, i'm fine with futanari. i'm not too familiar with how it works though (my understanding of it after looking it up is that it's a woman who was born with a penis). i'm glad you enjoyed my last response! :D

[fem] reader-insert, [afab] reader-insert, NSFW, some genital switching shenanigans, pet play??? (i refer to [reader] as a puppy and mention 'pet' again later), mentioned free use kink

speaking of demon summoning :3 do you think ashley would be into roleplay? i could definitely see her acting out as a succubus being summoned by a devote cultist ([reader]) and maybe putting [reader] in her place for, idk, tampering with the dark arts. such a fucking loser, having to summon a succubus to actually get laid. she's so lucky that ashley finds her to be cute!

is ashley had a penis she'd be pretty rough fucking [reader]. i think she's like positions that have her looking at [reader] face-to-face, keeping that eye contact. her rhythm is off a bit but she makes up for it with her equal mix of praise and degradation and her scratches. if [reader] had a penis ashley would praise it so much! "aww, what a cute cock you have! look at it, blushing and drooling for me. and so hard, too! i bet it's happy to see me huh?" she'd suck [reader] off sloppily (so so sloppily) and fondle her balls. giggling at the fucked out face [reader] makes, along with the whimpers and moans she lets out.

it'd be funny if [reader] or ashley were bigger than andrew. idk but i just chuckle at the thought of andrew being jealous at [reader] for not only (sort of kind of) dating his sister but also being bigger than him (or thicker, idk)

live love ashley, i suddenly got a thought of her calling [reader] puppy in the bedroom once. i mean--- she's not wrong, no? [reader]'s an obedient little puppy, wagging her tail whenever ashley talks to her, humping her pillow or just fucking breeding into ashley when they're horny AUUGH 😩 they're such a couple together i love that for them

this makes me think of andrew and ashley having [reader] around as a little free use pet to have sex with whenever but that's an idea for later you know? you know, you know

it's such a wonderful day whenever you come visit my inbox and grace us with your presence, 🕊️ anon. your brain just blesses us with it's divine visions, thank you thank you!! i hope you enjoyed this as much as i did :)

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coff-in

[hexcraze]

my practice and what i focus on:

lunar/cosmic witchcraft; mainly astrology, horoscopes, the zodiac, and things focusing on the celestial aspect of witchcraft.

divinity; somewhat similar to lunar witchcraft, incorporates different types of divination like scrying and tarot.

green witchcraft; mostly the botany/herbalism aspect. collecting and using herbs in my practice. potions, elixirs, essential oils, etc.

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[virtuouscandlelight]

{ OOC }

Gabriel art by Evan Järvinen ~

since we’re all on the topic of family here’s an in depth ramble on how these two interact because it’s not all pretty and loving as you’d think

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🕊 𝑴𝑨𝑱𝑶𝑹 𝑫𝑰𝑭𝑭𝑬𝑹𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬𝑺 🕯

• The most striking difference is their importance in the choir hierarchy. Regardless class, Gabriel is an archangel — one of the first of four angels ever created to battle pure darkness, making ‘ her ‘ { Keep in mind that angels are realistically just balls of intense, divine energy, therefore they do not possess actual appearances nor sexes. Because of this, they can be called an ‘ it ‘ — or simply whatever one perceives them as. In Eleanor’s tale, Gabriel is a ‘ she ‘ and based off of the elements in magick. } an intimidating opponent and figure of great importance.

She wields a spear and has fought in many battles, possessing great knowledge on strategy. Despite her fierce armor and demeanor, she is still primarily a messenger and caretaker for the humans — representing emotions and balance, the water elements. Candlelight on the other hand, is a virtue in charge of blessing and guiding the humans rather than balancing their emotions and tribulations. She is a devoted lover and not a fighter, hardly possessing any will nor strategy in battle, even when completely necessary. Because of this extreme hesitance in harming a human, she is often seen as a pushover and doormat, much to Gabriel’s disliking.

• During the years when Eleanor hadn’t been tasked to the Caribbean she was only occasionally sent down to Earth with actual coordinates to perform a miracle. Gabriel would cross paths with her frequently and, because of her basically shadowing the archangel, the two grew closer and Eleanor ended up clinging on with an admiration toward her motherly nature and easy interaction with the humans. However, she ended up believing that’s how all humans behaved — kind, in need of assistance, grateful, easy to take care of. This would prove to be a rare occurrence in the Caribbeans later on. Gabriel never bothered to teach Eleanor how to use her own abilities in self defense because the virtue had no interest in fighting — nor did she need to be in the line of danger when any sort of violence called forth the archangels over any other rank.

• Gabriel is a forthright, honest guide. Eleanor will occasionally sugar coat and be more gentler. If something is horribly wrong or there’s impending doom that will frighten and cause distress to a human, Gabriel gets straight to the point with a warning and provides the tools necessary without giving an exact answer. Eleanor gently leads into it and offers assistance. Gabriel also has no issue ridding of anything or anyone in the way of one’s higher path — regardless if the person asking for help wants the thing/person gone from their life. An angel’s job, nonetheless what ranking, is to do everything necessary to ensure the human’s safety and greater good, even without permission. The human asks and the human shall receive. Eleanor immensely struggles in this category, knowing it could cause more grief than needed.

The key difference between these two is hesitance and confidence.

• The two never really interact due to their busy schedules. More specifically, Gabriel is constantly too busy to pay a visit to Earth. Though she is more often than not on Earth already, she tends to answer more than five humans at once, giving her hardly any room to do anything else — and has faith Eleanor is fine by herself. Despite carrying a defacto mother - daughter role, it’s more like kicking a baby bird out of the nest after teaching them a few vital things and hoping they fly. There’s love — but also take no shit, I won’t coddle you when you’re an angel of all creatures. The humans are seen as the weakest links in need of coddling, not one another fellow angel who are in charge of keeping the humans from killing their entire species off.

• Doves are usually seen around Eleanor anyway — who are Gabriel’s messengers and eyes. In a way, even though she doesn’t physically watch and wants Eleanor to figure shit out on her own, Gabriel still always has back up to keep tabs. Also has her write letters to document the progress of duties on Earth.

• Though this isn’t until later on in her tale, Eleanor eventually consults Gabriel and tells her she wants to officially be assigned to the Caribbean instead of going back to heaven in order to permanently watch over the region during the golden age of piracy. To this, the archangel admired her tenacity and courage — but still doesn’t believe the younger one is capable of handling so much by herself without knowing how to fight tooth and nail. The elder informs the angel that there will be times where she must fight with her entire essence just to protect even a single human being — without killing another in the process and breaking the angelic code. Being drafted to an area riddled with violence, the demented, and pirates, it’s more than likely to occur more than once.

This is when their relationship turns from tough love to brutally tough love.

• Gabriel offers her an accord — win in a single match against her, spear against tallowed rapier, and she will give the virtue the blessing to be the Caribbean’s guardian angel with well earned wings. { Note the first few facts. Gabriel is forthright and a designated warrior. }

It is nearly impossibly difficult for Eleanor to defeat her.

The two spar every day, every day with Eleanor being slammed mercilessly into the ground and wall, decorated with bruises and blemishes and gashes, bleeding and wheezing, sobbing in agony and frustration, furious swinging turning to lousy aim and in turn causing her to get slammed harder in an open spot to attack — with Gabriel never once going any easier. She will tend to her wounds — but not a bruised ego. Gabriel treats Eleanor like one of the darkness in sparring.

As brutal as she is, Gabriel is well aware if she lets Eleanor win or lessens her attack then it’s cheating. Cheating and letting the virtue win and become an assigned rank means she’s not fully prepared to tackle the darkness alone — which could result in not only Gabriel’s punishment, but kill Eleanor in a losing battle.

Letting her win is suicide.

[divine-construct]

i think that no one is ugly btw. genuinly. the ‘worst’ someone can look is just. neutral. not my type. but that isn’t bad at all, just not my thing. so. everyone is beautiful. maybe not to me, but i know everyone is beautiful to at the very very very least one other person in the world. the world is full of people and full of people that think you’re beautiful. don’t worry

[divine-construct]

random but i LOVE soulmate aus but only really if the soulmates in question do NOT want to be soulmates. not neccessarily in an enemy way but certainly in a way that they wish they were soulmates with x instead or with anyone instead or whatever. just not with each other. i only really like soulmate aus if they’re not soulmates and still work out or if they’re soulmates and desperately wish they weren’t (and hopefully still work out in the end)

[divine-construct]

currently i have three posts drafted which are all just me saying ‘guns are so fucking hot’ in different words bc i’m too scared to horny post on main lmao

[divine-construct]

i love being an artist because i started seeing every day objects as great art references and then i started seeing strangers on public transport as great art references and then i started seeing the way the light falls into my bedroom every evening as great art reference and then the way my roommate’s hair curls in humid weather and the way my qpp looks when he’s asleep and the way my friend laughs at me when i accidentally do something stupid and. eventually i found that everything is a great art reference. everything is art. the mere existence of the universe is art! and isn’t there nothing greater than being able to be part of this all? to be able to live and experience everything? to be art?

[divine-construct]

might be a hot take but i believe in fat rosaria

[divine-construct]

worst thing in the world is making up the most perfect german warrior cat oc names and then having to translate them into english because you decide to write your story in english instead and suddenly they are all so ugly and half of your prefixes don’t even exist as english words

[divine-construct]

had a very short relationship talk with one of my alloroallo cishet friends bc he was talking abt his first date so i asked him if he’s ever dated anyone and then he asked me if i did n when i said yes he asked ‘‘did you ask him out or did he?’’ and when i said ‘‘i asked HER out’’ he just went ‘‘oh!’’ and i explained that my ex is now genderfluid n uses any/all pronouns and. he simply said ‘‘they’re liquid?? lol’’ and. actually that was a good reaction. he told me that there’s between 60 n 80 neopronouns and i told him it’s p much an infinte amount of neos bc of noun prns n that i think they’re funky. we agreed on not agreeing on whether they’re funky or not. all in all he used to be lowkey homophobic n highkey transphobic last year so. nice devlopment i think

[divine-construct]

now that we have noise canceling headphones and can blast kpop in a way in which we truly experience no exterior sounds it’s so easy to dissociate or forget reality exists when on public transport ajfkgjshdjdkhs

[divine-construct]

we write a lot of sad poetry stuff but i think this one is my fav :)

[divine-construct]

as promised, fat rosaria :3 two versions bc i wanted to draw hands/smth a bit interesting but i also wanted to show her belly so. yeah. was lazy so i just copied her outfit + color dropped but maybe one day she gets a proper redesign, who knows

also part of the sketch bc i’m pretty proud of it tbh... plus it shows her proportions even better ^-^

[divine-construct]

as promised, fat rosaria :3 two versions bc i wanted to draw hands/smth a bit interesting but i also wanted to show her belly so. yeah. was lazy so i just copied her outfit + color dropped but maybe one day she gets a proper redesign, who knows

also part of the sketch bc i’m pretty proud of it tbh... plus it shows her proportions even better ^-^