#ditto : cheshire

[wonk1s]

♱ 𓂃 (＞ｍ＜) ⋆ ﾟ ⊹

♱ 𓂃 (⌒▽⌒) ⋆ ﾟ ⊹

@hearts4pixxie ♡

[trivijoy]

@hearts4pixxie

[dewyrka]

๑ › ˖ let's fly like fluffy clouds ✦࿐ °

[haewrin]

❀ siren ೃ

[miss-beep-beep]

Messenger

Pairing: Carmen Berzatto x bookstore!(Viet)reader

Notes: Fluff and some cursing. This will be told in the (somewhat) perspective of Marin, the reader’s friend. There will be mentions of the reader being Vietnamese, hence the parenthesis. I actually wanted to include this for a while as I am also Vietnamese but I was worried I would alienate you all. Please enjoy!

Hi everyone, it’s 2023 and I’m back to post something as I was gone for months. Apologies for the long wait. Lots of stuff were going on IRL so I had to focus my energy and some of my creative brainwaves to that. If I make any mistakes, please let me know.

✅ Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3

Part 4 -> Part 5 TBA

P.S. Hi @wittyno​ ! When you commented “Any chance for a tag?”, do you mean a taglist? Or do you mean something else? Like tagging “Carmen Berzatto x bookstore!(Viet)reader”? Or a different type of tag? I really want to know. 👀

“You have a lot of explaining to do,” Marin gleams with twinkling eyes and a Cheshire smile.

Her co-worker continues to stare at the back of the receipt in disbelief. Their left thumb brushing the words “To Ditto” above the message.

“I- I don't know how this happened.” Marin’s co-worker said warily.

“Oh come on, I’m sure stuff like this is normal for you.” Marin retorts.

“I wasn’t popular back in Vietnam and it’s still the same here in the states.” The co-worker retorts back with rolling side eyes. They slapped the receipt down on the counter before the two loom over it. 

“How did this happen?” Marin asks.

“Why are you asking me?”

“You two are on nickname basis!”

“No we’re not! I only met the guy once and that was on your Spaghetti Day.”

“Well there has to be a reason.” Marin states as she takes out the styrofoam boxes from the plastic bag. 

“Maybe you got to retrace your steps.” 

Marin closes her eyes as she flashbacks to minutes ago.

“Okay, I’ll be right back, you grumbling monster!” Marin said as she closed the bookstore door behind her. 

The grumbling monster that is their co-worker stuck their tongue but smiled and waved good-bye. 

A few skipping steps later, Marin swiftly entered The Bear which is still under construction. A tall man with a scruffy beard was watching over the counter. 

“Hi, I’m here for a pick-up.”

“Name?” 

“Marin.”

He swiftly walked to the kitchen before walking back to the counter in a brisk stroll with the sagging plastic bag.

A short wavy-ish haired guy from the kitchen then approaches the tall one from behind. “Hey, Richie, cousin.” 

“Yeah, one second.” The tall one, presumably Richie, mumbles before looking over at Marin. “Two spaghettis?” 

“Yep.”

“Wait, you’re Marin?” Richie asks.

“Yeah? Why?”

“Uh...Your name just looks familiar, that’s all.”

Marin slowly reaches for the bag.

“I mean, I’ve seen your name in the receipts.” Richie blurts out.

Marin doesn’t let that simmer in her brain for a moment. Her stomach let out a mid-growl.

“So, you work somewhere?” Richie said as he slowly placed the food on the counter.

“Cousin, just give her the food.”

“What, Carmy? Can’t make some rapport with our frequent customers?”

Carmy glances at the clock before looking back at his cousin.

“Wait, didn’t your break ended like a minute go?”

“Yeah, but I’m watching the counter for Fak while he’s taking his break at the back. You know why? Because I’m a great boss.”

A girl with a bandana peeks her head out of the doorway, holding a tray of steamy delectables under tinfoil. 

“Dude, Fak’s not even here.” She said before disappearing further into the kitchen.

“What?!” Richie shouts.

Realizing a customer A.K.A Marin was still standing there. He immediately apologizes. “My apologies, ma’m, for my tone! Please excuse me.” Richie storms around the counter and out the door. 

Carmy pushes the bag towards Marin. “Hey, sorry about that.”

“No worries, thanks for the food.”

Carmen notices the logo, Let it Rip, on Marin’s shirt. “Your shirt...” He trailed off.

Marin looks down at it. “What? Is there something wrong?”

“No, no. Your shirt... reminded me of someone.” He smiles meekly.

“Oh, were you two close?”

He paused for a minute before replying back bittersweetly. “Yeah, he was family to me.”

“Oh, that’s sweet.” Marin said with a wide smile back before looking at the clock. “I got to go. Thanks again for the food!”

As Marin exited, she glanced swiftly to the window where she noticed Carmen with his arms crossed but not too tight to his chest. The same meek smile brushed on his face as he walks back to the kitchen.

“Wait,” the co-worker interjects while waving the receipt, “we still don’t know when he wrote the message on the receipt.”

Marin smacks her forehead with the side of a plastic fork.“God damn, I knew I forgot something. I got distracted again.” Marin said at disdain to herself. 

Marin then ponders as she opened her Styrofoam container. She was staring at the plastic bag and noticed the clear tape residue created a X-shaped mark. She then stared at the receipt. Only one short piece of tape was sticking up straight.

“Interesting,” Marin whispered into a sly grin. 

[llimerrence]

also, the list thing for @storybounded

Scott (strictly, platonic) // anything, i love scott. Gabby, Crevan/Bailey, Ellery!!, candy hearts (for mlp verse), Mica, Luca, fluttershy (mlp verse), Hook (pirate verse)

Ally // Crevan, Bo, Ava, Petal (for ally's dragonborn verse), cyra (!human), Marinette

Ian // Beck, Rita, Ava, Zeph (!human), Marco, Louie (!human)

Shawn // Crevan, Gabby, Nobody (!human), cheshire, hatter

Ben (strictly, platonic) // Crevan, Ava, Ellery, Scottt

Agatha // any owl house muse, Rita, Marisol, Ava, Ares

Deuce // Killian Jr, Darling, Draculaura, Frankie, Alistiar, Elsa

Douxie // Thomasin, Evelyn, Seine, Xia, Fox, Jack Frost, Draculaura, Hook (snorts),

Adrien // Gisel, Marinette, Lila, my adrien & urs should be twins, im sure theres more but im starting to fall asleep oops

Flynn // Ashur, Killian Jr, Alistair, Bianca, Feldspar, my eugene. twin verse. varian, rapunzel, hook, tiger lily

Lisa // Beck, Ava, Candy Hearts (horse meet horse girl), Sunny, Aamu, fluttershy (horse 2 meet horse girl),

Bambi (strictly, platonic) // literally anyone, everyone would love them. Sunny though is the one i want bambi to meet most

Bolt (strictly, platonic) // same as above

Tramp (strictly, platonic) // ditto. just. let sunny meet the animals lmao

also. alice. for everyone. but thats obvious lol

[stariikis]

@ashtxrie and @enwonz thanks for the tags!

bejeweled ; taylor swift my jaw dropped when i pressed shuffle and this intro played. i think i actually wrote a small drabble based on this before! don't remember who it was for but um, i can try to dig it up. hopefully it's not ni-ki :p

cheshire ; itzy criminally underrated. i don't care. i love the choreo, i love the mv, and yeji in this era >> she's so beautiful i can't 😻

attention, please! ; enhypen i will never recover from seeing riki dance the choreo for the first time. it was a few years back but i still remember half fainting! i have an emotional attachment to this song #1

nanana ; got7 i miss got7 so so much can they please have another comeback!! me and my cousin would go off and cry in a corner. where have they been all this time? is jackson wang only here to exist in every idol party au??

maniac ; conan gray one of my three favourite 'maniacs'! conan always has a special place in my heart, i love his voice so much.

after school ; weeekly 2021 would NOT be the same without this song. emotional attachment #2 because why did i take the title to heart and listen every day after school??

ditto ; newjeans autumn core ~ this song reminds me of when i still lived in america. the trees would go from orange to brown and i wish there were five pretty girls dancing down the corridor too but no! me and my friends stayed in during recess to play card games with the rest of the gifted-talented class.

secret ; joshua bassett I LOVE JOSHUA BASSETT hsdgshshhsdghsd i love him so so much. emotional attachment #3 with no explanation needed. 'yeah your secret's safe with me, and him, and everyone else who knows' had me gagged.

calling (run to you) ; iland three words. oh my days. emotional rollercoaster. i still remember all of them performing this in iland and my heart does a backflip. lee heeseung what the hell

one way ticket ; one ok rock nishimura riki why would you put this song and band in my life now i cry everytime i listen to them. or any of ur reccs. or like when i see you. that works too..

tags (no need to do!) ; @nishimurasone @jikepi @hwangism143 @jlheon @mewhenwonbin

! "10 on repeat shuffles" tag game !

rules: shuffle your on repeat playlist and post the first 10 tracks, then tag 10 people

tagged by: no one but started by @galaxycunt when i saw the post on my dashboard. thank u hellsite algorithm~

will include a little excerpt of explanation on why it could be in my on-repeat playlist + not include an artist repeat

obstacles - syd matters (last song from the sub homesick alien playlist + notable time wave vibe songs cause it is also in the life is strange game)

tinnitus - txt (part of my audiophiles' eargasm playlist where i wanna hear a godly-produced song with my best headphones)

duvet - boa (i think it has been in my on repeat since 2021 when i watched serial experiments lain and has never left. a notable song for terra incognita)

this is why - paramore (just heard the whole album last month and every time i listen to this song, i'm in a state of catharsis cause I CAN RELATE)

tom sawyer - rush (having been particularly obsessed with the iron claw movie, this song is stuck in my head and i swear i love prog rock even more + i'll be learning the bass line of this song hopefully)

euphor - novo amor, lowswimmer (heard this for the novo amor concert i went to last week (even though they didn't perform it). part of the beomgyu time wave's spinoff playlist)

solsbury hill - peter gabriel (another addition to my audiophiles' eargasm playlist cause it sounds so odd that it's so interesting)

weird fishes/arpeggi - radiohead (the song that embodies me as a person + have been putting it on repeat during my bday because it's the day that i just embraced my self of being a pisces which includes hearing this playing in the car and a solo date to the aquarium)

follow you follow me - genesis (the song that reminds me of soobin idk why. it's also in my sub homesick alien playlist)

do hot girls like chords? - knower (heard this from micthesnare and it's my introduction to indietronica and jazz-funk (cause i've already know acid jazz from jamiroquai)

tagging: (based on the last 10 moots that show up on my dash) @boba-beom @stardragongalaxy @lovejoshua @txt-yaomi @euphor1a @junniieesbby @itz-yerin @pyeonghongrie @dido-of-the-endless @robin-obsessed and anyone who wants to join! (new songs to listen to yes pls)

[teukiechicken]

I did it @solaarflaree

Yes I have SRR as my top song. It is my anti-driving song for the moment.

Lie Again gets me in my feels and I scream the lyrics.

Cheshire, Ditto and OMG are my filler songs until I can find what I want to listen to.

The others I just like a lot I guess??? I’m honestly surprised HOT or Cheers aren’t on here.

PSA: STAN ITZY AND XG PLS

[daisyachain]

VnC starts off and you go ‘well there’s clearly Vani/Noé and Domi/Jeanne subtext but it’s MochiJun so it’s par for the course and she never ever explicitly confirms a relationship unless it’s bizarre fucked-up and not reciprocally romantic’ and then you hit vol 8 and you go ‘oh so this is the real bait’

[thewholecrew]

@headstrongblake: kassy & octavia. / verse: all american.

     both the girls laughter seemed to carry across the waves, kassy's dark eyes reflecting the white caps in the distance along with the moon, a light returning to her gaze that had seemed lost for the months she hid in her apartment. nick might have seen a glimpse or two during his time with her but, not like she is with her girl. her grin grew into her signature cheshire smirk at octavia's suggestion. "oh, i have no problem with that," she agreed, "might learn a trick or two," she teased playfully with a wink. it felt natural, being here with octavia, chatting about mundane things as they should as if tragic shit hadn't completely derailed their entire summer.

     her grin grew when octavia whined her name, rolling her eyes at the dig towards grant. "hey, i'm serious," she urged with a laugh. "who knows, might do him some good -- hell if you don't want to i'll do it," she continued to joke even though she was completely serious. "okayyyy, okayyy, good, yes, i agree. fuck whatever that was, there's a whole plethora of new, and hopefully, hot faces in our classes and around campus," she declared with a nod. though kassy liked her circle small, and those who really knew her even smaller, she enjoyed the feeling of being surrounded by people at parties, everyone drinking and dancing and mingling. shallow conversations, party invitations, a way to relax after a most likely horribly long and busy school week -- or hell, even day. and if she found some cute boys to have her way with, she was okay with that too.

     again, kassy's eyes shined, softening in a way they usually only did around her best friend, smile small and genuine as she was gently jostled. hearing that had lifted a weight she hadn't even realized was still there if she was honest. "ditto bitch," she agreed with a happy hum as she continued to nuzzle her cheek against o's shoulder, hugging her arm a little tighter. the mention of nick once again had her scoff, shaking her head with a roll of her eyes. "yeah and they better be i'm sorry," she huffed.

     her smile returned though, wiggling her brows with a soft chuckle, "ouuu miss mastermind, i like that," she mused before humming with a small shrug, "well, we have all the classics; bunch of drinking games that i think the others are currently participating in inside," she murmured only for a handful of shouts to come from the house from what she imagined was for a beer pong shot or something. "we got uno, we got cards against humanity, we can set up the tv in there and put a movie on -- there's a new summer action comedy i got monty to get his hands on for us." she playfully nudged o once more as she reached for the joint to take a drag, "if we do we should try to push all the couches and bean bags together in one big bed formation," she grinned, "easier to share snacks if we're all close."

     at the mention of chase, kassy hummed, "oh good, hope he's bringing us something -- last time i talked to him he said he was going to share a snippet of his new songs too, maybe we can get an exclusive listen, add it to the dance mix," she suggested with a shrug, "any of that sound like somethin' you wanna do? we could also just stay here, or of course, cause some trouble and destruction -- it has been a while." kassy winked at her best friend, her other half as she shimmied her shoulders. there was also the fireworks of course, but that was a surprise she and nick had set up and she did not want to ruin the surprise for her bestie.

@thewholecrew: kassy & octavia. | all american universe.

when octavia’s with kassy the world is just simply better. her laugh is lighter. her green eyes sparkle more. after a summer where everything around her has been dull and numb, it’s as if kassy had been the missing piece of octavia’s summer all along. it’d been a tense few days, but now, sitting here with kassy, teasing each other, and talking about college like no time had passed at all was like taking a breath for the first time after almost drowning. as kassy’s arms lingered around her, for the first time in weeks octavia felt the call of herself begging to return to the surface.

as octavia brought the joint back to her lips, she quickly extinguished the voice inside her before offering a playful smirk, "baby, i’ll just live through all your delicious details okay?” with kassy’s promise to let her help next time, octavia felt a weight lift off her chest. unable to bear another time like this with kassy again. no, she needed kassy in her life, & if there was ever a next time, though octavia seriously hoped not, she’d never let a distance grow between them again. “kaaasssy,” octavia shook her head at the not so subtle grant comment, rolling her eyes playfully. “this sounds to me like a whole day, lunch, a little shopping, you can show me all that i need cause maybe i don’t need to swear off guys entirely…just whatever the hell that was.” relationships? entanglements? most definitely love on her part.

octavia scrunched her nose with amusement as kassy playfully nipped at her finger, shoulders rising with a little shrug. she’d forever be grateful that above anyone else, kassy always had her best interest at heart. if she didn’t want grant around…she knew her best friend would have no issue sending him away. but as kassy gave her the option, it occurred to her that she didn’t know what she wanted. despite giving him mostly a cold shoulder since she’d seen him, every time her high lifted she felt her pesky heart yearning for him all over again. “it doesn’t matter what he does,” octavia decided on instead, eyes watching her best friend in the moonlight, “this right here,” she gently jostled her shoulder against where kassy nuzzled, “is what matters to me, so long as i have you? the rest of my summer is made.”

“who knows maybe if the boys can figure their own stupidity out, nick’ll actually say two words to me.” octavia added lightheartedly. already this beach house had brought the two girls back together, surely that meant there was hope for them all. “so, miss mastermind, do you have plans for us tonight?” octavia asked, wiggling her brows at her bestie. “chase texted that he’ll be dropping in late tonight.”

[miss-beep-beep]

Not the First Time

Meeting up again?

Pairing: Carmen “Carmy” Berzatto x bookstore!reader

Notes: I actually written out a scene for this blurb and saved it right after posting Sharpie Pens, but I was hesitant on continuing it because I didn’t know how this would fit within the story I had in mind in terms of pacing and whatnot. If I make any mistakes, please let me know so I can correct them. But other than that, enjoy this blurb! 

✅ Part 1 - Part 2

Part 3 -> Part 4

It is about noon on a Monday. You are in a state of blandness: a mental smoothie of “the Mondays”, waking up earlier than your usual shift due to a co-worker calling in sick today, and your stomach weeping in hunger.

Fortunately Marin went to pick-up the food at a new place she ordered from. Unfortunately you were left to watch the bookstore as your boss left to get her own lunch.

And thus here you are, hungry and suddenly remembering--

You were walking down to The Beef to meet a date set up through a dating app. The meeting spot was chosen by the date, let’s call them Bob, but around five minutes before the time to meet up, they decided on something new.

Bob: Hey, sorry to text you last minute but something came up. Rain check?

You stopped at a corner where you could see the sign across the street.

You: Oh okay. Let me know when you want to meet up.

Bob: Yeah, does next Saturday work? Same time and place?

You: Yeah, that works. 

The next week, it was rescheduled due to a work meeting.

You: You work at 8 pm?

Bob: Yeah sorry. Very last minute. Rain check?

You: Yeah.

The week after that, something new came up.

You were in bed resting when you saw your phone light up in the dark. You unlocked your phone to see what

Bob: Hey, sorry to bother you at like midnight but I think we should see other people. It’s not you. It’s me. It was nice chatting with you though.

That was the last text you read of his before you chucked your phone against your blanket and groaned loudly in your pillow.

And that was that. It felt like an experiment to see what would happen to you. Disappointed is what happen. But now isn’t the time to think about failed “dates”, it’s food o’clock and your stomach is rumbling.

You pulled out your phone to pull up Marin’s number. Just centimeters from reaching the call button on the contact card, Marin comes strolling at the door. The door jingles as it opens.

“I’ve come bearing gifts!” Marin shouts triumphantly.

You jump up and clap rapidly with cheers. “Yay! Thank you, Marin!”

“Oh don’t thank me, my dear compatriot,” she said.

She unzipped her bag while staring with wide unblinking eyes. “Or should I say DITTO?” She shouts the name at me while waving a receipt at my face.

You grab the paper from her hand before reading what was written on the order receipt with black Sharpie. “Hi. Can you come by tomorrow during lunch? Carmy.”

“You have a lot of explaining to do,” she gleams with twinkling eyes and a Cheshire smile.

[majorblinks]

What are your favorite K-pop songs of 2022?

anything and everything released by newjeans/le sserafim/ive this year - most favorites were hype boy, no celestial, impurities, love dive, my satisfaction <3 and ditto is so good too!!!

itzy music is usually somewhat hit or miss for me lol but i LOVE cheshire/snowy/freaky

twice between 1&2 and nayeon's solo album

seulgi's 28 reasons (both the album and the song)

pale blue dot/pose/need u from loona

EVERYTHING by stayc but the entire young-luv.com album is incredible

tally by blackpink/hard to love by rosé

girls/illusion/icu from aespa

everything from the feel my rhythm album by red velvet plus bye bye/on a ride/zoom from birthday

miyeon's solo album/everything off of (g)i-dle's i never die but ESPECIALLY never stop me/villain dies/liar/escape and change/dark (x-file) off of i love!

there are prob some i'm forgetting too LMFAO. for bg songs i really liked stray kids & txt's releases this year as well!!! <33

(also yunjin's solo song raise y_our glass which is brilliant and also not available on streaming so. also honorable mention to chaewon's covers of pov and bambi which are not HER songs [and pov isn't kpop lmfao] but like. idc they're amazing i've probably listened to them a million times)

[briankang]

nayeon on bubble live rn singing the chorus of moonlight sunrise and omg & ditto by new jeans and dice by nmixx and cheshire by itzy and antifragile by le sserafim oh she’s doing this for me specifically for real

[whatdoesshedotothem]

Friday 21 December 1832

8 ¼

11 ½

Damp wet morning F47° at 9 ¾ at which hour breakfast – had got up on receiving note from Mr Jeremiah Rawson to say he could not come this morning - will be here if possible at 9am on Monday if not on Wednesday to let him know if either of these days will suit me - then looking into Horace which also delights me - how have I lived so long without another little pocket Horace? (my old one was somehow lost in London on en route last year 14 or 15 months ago – staid talking to my father till 10 ½ - Letter from Miss M.T. Bolland containing her receipt for £12.10, due, as she will have it, to herself and her sister E.S. Graham, 20th December – to direct to her at ‘Mr. Grahams’, Surgeon, 17 High street, Stockport, Cheshire’ – told my father of this letter – he agreed that he, if in my place, would certainly get done with them and throw the manner into chancery as I have nearly made up my mind to do – talking to my aunt till 11 ¾ - had John in the drawing room and read him Miss Norcliffes’ letter respecting his son – out at near 12 – found Pickles who had finished digging west arbutus slope, and made another little drain in the low part of Lower brook Ing wood, just come up to ask what to do next – went with him and set him to begin stubbing the hedge (cut off by the Lower brea breach road) in Wellroyde upper brow, and staid with him till 4 ¼ when he went home it being too dark to do much more – he had lastly planted a goodish thorn close to the new footpath sleps [steps], a thorn that he got up in stubbing – sauntered in my walk – came in at 5 – some time with my aunt – dressed – wrote the following note to ‘John Waterhouse Esquire Wellhead’ and sent it by John – ‘Shibden hall Friday 21 December 1832. Dear sir – I shall be much obliged to you to pay my navigation dividend into Messrs. Rawsons bank, to be placed to my account – my kind regards to Mrs. Waterhouse and the youngers of your family – I am, dear sir, very truly yours A. Lister’ – Dinner at 6 ¼ - Marian came to me, and kept me talking till 8 when came to my room and wrote all but the 1st 4 ½ lines of today the plasterer here all the day doing the underdrawing in the entrance passage which Wilson knocked down in laying down 2 new board in the library passage, and finishing plastering all about the library passage stove since its being reset - letter 2 pages from Dr HSB- no date, but post mark 21 December - saying he had last night (yesterday) received a letter from Mr Sunderland ‘giving me a slight account of Miss Walker and recommending some tonic medicines, as she seems to have recovered from her attack of catarrh’ - Dr B- answered immediately and sent ‘a prescription for a slight chalybeate which is to brace the nerves’........... Mr S- had mentioned the medicines being made up in York - Dr B- said very properly this was on account of Miss W-‘s anxiety not to have it known she was an invalid - ‘are you tired of nursing or do you hope you may do some good - I trust you will not yet desert your post, as I am convinced you are more likely than any of us to be eventually beneficial - pray let me know your proceedings’ - poor Steph he little dreams the real state of the case - then till 11 20 wrote notes to go tomorrow morning to ‘Messrs. Parker and Adam solicitors H-x’ dated tomorrow to ask for the coal lease as I should want it at 9 on Monday morning and our servant should call for it in the evening - and said I should be glad to know what was at the Godley road meeting this morning - note, too, to ‘Jeremiah Rawson Esquire Shay’ to say I should be glad to see him at 9 on Monday morning or, if prevented that day, at 9 on Wednesday morning – tolerable morning tho’ a little small driving rain ditto in the afternoon about 1 for ½ hour then tolerably fine at least quite fair – F54° (fire in my room all day) now at 11 25 p.m.

Mr. Mitchell sent back the plan of Park farm (Pickersgills’) this morning with his valuation

D. r. p.

48.0.15 at £87.6.11 per annum rent –

6.2.11

41.2.14 exclusive of Bairstow and Far ditto  

Buildings valued at £15. per annum

Bairstow 3.3.19 at 8/. per D.W. = 1.11.6

Far Ditto 2.2.18 at 8/. per D.W. = 1.1.4

5 ½ square yards x 5 ½ = 30 ¼

square yards 30 ¼ = 1 pole or perch

square perches 26 = ¼ D.W. = 786 ½ square yards x 4 = 3146

But 1 D.W. at H-x = 3136 square yards

[d4myeon]

my 2022 top kpop songs list ✨

1- nayeon pop

2- le sserafim antifragile

3- twice queen of hearts

4- twice talk that talk/ newjeans ditto

5- gidle nxde/tomboy

6- ive after like

7- stayc beautiful monster

8- nmixx dice/cool

9- itzy cheshire

10- newjeans hype boy

[skgway]

1823 Aug., Tues. 5

7

11

In the stable etc. 1/2 hour – Read from page 71 to 83 on “the letters and life of Ninon de l’Enclos” volume 8 (No. [numero] 15) Retrospective Review – I agree with the reviewer – some fastidious readers may possibly object to the publication of such an article thro’ such a medium –

Dissatisfied with several passages of the letter I wrote last night to M– [Mariana]. Wrote it over again in 3/4 hour in a hand so much less close, that in spite of the great deal left out, made it fill 3 pages and a few lines of crossing on the 2nd page – There seemed some appearance of annoyance and displeasure in my 1st letter which I entirely avoided in my 2nd –

Went down to breakfast at 9 40/60 – At 11 took George in the gig and set off to Haugh – Put a letter into the post for my uncle, and got to Haughend in 50 minutes – All the party at home with the addition of “Captain” Butler, a very grood sort of, vulgar, quondam Captain of an Indiaman – The young people did not appear till luncheon –

Sir John A– [Astley] franked my letters to Mrs. N[orcliffe] (Langton hall, Malton) to Miss Marsh (Micklegate York) and to M– [Mariana] (Lawton hall, Lawton, Cheshire) and they went in the Haughend letter bag in time for yesterday’s post – Nothing particular in the conversation way –

Sir John somehow or other inquired if I believed all Homer’s stories, or that there ever was such a place as Troy, or such a siege – I saw he had read Bryton or some sceptic on the subject and was very gentle in what I said in support of my historical creed – At last Sir John (after some flimsy observation) tried to shew that women were as much respected in ancient days as now – Briseis as much respected by Achilles, as wives were respected by their husbands now – Woman as well treated then as now – He (Sir John) would have treated lady A– [Astley] as well at that time as he does at this – I did not say much, not wishing to appear to have too much the better of the question argument for none said a word about it but ourselves, and Sir John is evidently looked up to as an oracle by them all, tho’ his responses will never set the Thames on fire by their wisdom –

He complimented his wife exceedingly – In fact, she is pretty enough, stylish enough, sensible enough, everything enough for him – Speaking of their place of family, she observed she “always thought the Astleys were an envied family in Wiltshire” “My dear” said he “they envy me for having got you” –

It is plain enough to me from their manners etc. etc. that they not exactly comme il faut with the Wiltshire county society – They have had the house in London that Sir Jacob Astley and his family had had, and many calls were therefore made upon them by mistake – They returned some – Were admitted at one house, the manners of the ladies shewed they were not expected, and the A– [Astley]s took their leave – A party was soon afterwards given by the family, and they (the A– [Astley]s) were not asked – They do not get on in London society – Nor as yet perhaps are they likely to do – Nor will Miss A– [Astley] even after “she has been presented” (at court) –

Lady A– [Astley] has not worldly nous enough to keep all these things to herself – Thinks Mrs. William Henry Rawson very ladylike, Ditto Mr. Christopher Rawson – The manners of the Society here suit the A– [Astley]s very well – Captain Butler it seems has had 1 or 2 premiums from the Doncaster society (I know nothing of this society) for feeding horses – Kept his draft-horses throughout the winter at 3/5 a head on chopt straw and line-seed – His saddle horses only cost him about 5/. [shillings] a week having nearly the same as the cart-horse with the addition of a little hay and corn –

Boils down the linseed to the consistence of cream – Perhaps about 2 quarts water to a pint of lineseed – Mixes this with their oats or chopt straw to a proper  (a mashy?) consistence, and gives them as much as they will eat – A chopping machine at Doncaster 7 1/2 guineas – Try our horses with about 2 wine-glasses full of linseed at first – Merely pour on boiling water – and let the seed stand till it is mucilaginous –

This plan is good for feeding cattle – It is the way in which dealers fatten up horses – But it wont do for hunters, or horses from which speed is required – The linseed works away to greasy perspiration – Runs out of the anals like melted fat – They must have good hay and corn for speed – But cart-horses do uncommonly well on this food – 

They all like Caradoc – Think him “a very likely horse” – His toes turn in a little: this is best for a gig-horse – If the toes turn at all outwards, the gig horse can scarcely ever keep his feet – He cannot hold up up hill and down – 

Staid till about 3 – Called at Saville hill to ask Miss P– [Pickford] whether, when she called with me at Haughend, she meant to call on lady A– [Astley] or not – Not – Asked her to come to Shibden to see Caradoc’s long switch tail cut – She would meet me at the library in 1/2 hour –

At 4 1/4 – drove thro’ the town, past Northgate, and Crosshills, and turned up by Greenhill, stopt at Furnish’s, and got a pair of new reins 10/6 – Left George to drive the gig home from Northgate, and without going into the house, went to the library – Shewed Miss P– [Pickford] the article respecting Ninon de l’Enclos (vide the 1st line of today) and the points of Humour (vide page 79) – She agreed with the retrospective reviewers, and with me that the soldier and his chére amie was the best print –

She walked home with me to the top of our little lane, but must there return for the children who would come to meet her – We walked about on the top of the bank – My aunt joined us – She left us in about 20 minutes (at 6) – 

We then walked to H–x [Halifax] – Miss P– [Pickford] returned with me up the old bank even to xxxxxx. I walked back again with her a little way up the Cunnery lane, when we met her party of children – 3 Wilcocks, 2 Paleys, and Miss Jones the governess, and we parted –

Our chief conversation about Miss Threlfall and my entreaties to see her last letter. Nothing could prevail till at last I asked if she feared its telling me anything I did not know before. On finding this the case, I said I would soon sooner move this fear by proving that I was not as still suspected in any degree of uncertainty. 

I wondered she did not know this already, but I had wrapped up my meaning too much and she should now have it so clearly that no doubt could possibly remain in her mind. Upon this I said I considered her connection with her friend a marriage of souls and something more. That if they were on a visit and their friend provided them separate rooms it would be unnecessary and they would presently defeat this arrangement by being together. 

Under other circumstances it would have been a wonder that with beauty fortune etc. etc. Miss Threlfall did not marry but now it was no wonder at all. Asked Miss P[ickford] if she now understood me thoroughly. She said yes. I said any would censure unqualifiedly but I did not. If it had been done from books and not from nature, the thing would have been different. Or if there had been any inconsistency first on one side of the question, then the other. But as it was, nature was the guide, and I had nothing to say there was no parallel between a case like this and the sixth satire of Juvenal. The one was artificial and inconsistent the other was the effect of nature and always consistent with itself.

At all events, said I, ‘you remember an early chapter of genesis and it is infinitely better than the thing alluded to there,’ meaning onanism. ‘This is surely comparatively unpardonable. There is no mutual affection to excuse it’. Miss P[ickford] did not say much but seemed satisfied. 

‘Now,’ said I, ‘the difference between you and me is mine is theory. Yours practice. I am taught by books, you by nature. I am very warm in friendship, perhaps few or none. Moreso, my manners might mislead you, but but I do not in reality go beyond the utmost verge of friendship. Here my feelings stop. If they did not, you see from my whole manner and sentiments I should not care to own it. Now do you believe me?’ ‘Yes,’ said she, ‘I do.’ 

‘Alas,’ thought I to myself, ‘you are at last deceived completely.’ My conscience almost smote me but I thought of π [Mariana]. It is for her sake that I fisrt [first] thought of being, and that I am so deceitful to poor Pic, who trusts me so implicitly and at last turned no objection to my seeing the letter. I said perhaps there was not another in the world she could trust so safely. Perhaps not Miss Caroline Renouard, she was not read or liberal enough tto [to] think as I did. She would condemn unqualifiedly. Pick agreed. 

I owned my manners might mislead people, particularly before I knew as much as I do now, before I read Lubinus’s Juvenal, before I first knew Miss Brown of whom she has heard reports. But now I knew how to be more careful. Yet still, my manners might mislead Miss Vrelfall [Threlfall]. She said, ‘yes they would’ –

I ended by saying I was now satisfied that she thoroughly understood me and that I had had an opportunity of telling her my sentiments, for she must often have wondered and not known what to make of me. We parted mutually satisfied, I musing on what had passed. I am now let into her secret and she forever barred from mine – Are there more Miss Pickfords in the world than I have before thought of –

Came in to dinner a little before 7 – Had ordered George to have the gig ready a little before 9 in the morning to go to Huddersfield to speak to Pontey about coming over to plan our new road to the house, etc. – But finding my uncle against it contrary to my expectation – (I had always thought all he said against it in joke) – I immediately countermanded the order very quietly determining never to mention the thing again – Nor to mention planting or otherwise improving the place –

I told my uncle very quietly I certainly would not teaze him any more on the subject; and I shall indeed change my mind, if I do – The thing absolutely did not annoy me at all – I immediately thought to myself, ‘perhaps it is best as it is – I incur no responsibility – etc. etc.’ Perhaps I may save my money in future instead of laying it out on the place and leave things as they are –

Barometer 1 3/4 degrees below changeable Fahrenheit 56º at 9 p.m. – Rainy morning till between 10 & 11, afterwards a shower or 2 which I escaped and otherwise a toleraby fine day i.e. fine afternoon and evening – Came upstairs at 10 25/60. E [two dots, treating venereal complaint] O [three dots, signifying much discharge] Missed washing just before dinner –

Miss Pickford called this morning and sat a little while with my aunt – She brought me Samouelle’s system of Entomology to read –

[sideways in margin] Major P– [Priestley], speaking of horses that went near the ground, called daisy-croppers – i.e. going so near the ground as to crop or strike off the tops of the daisies – Drove along the new road today for the 1st time

“the soldier and his chére amire“– Points of humour; illustrated by the designs of George Cruikshank [x]