#discussion of dismemberment cw

[victoriousfidelity]

Sigyn's eyes flutter closed for just a fraction of a second as Loki's Seiðr touches her cheek. It is still as familiar to her as her own magic, and the feeling of it is enough to confirm that her eyes are not playing tricks on her. They are here - not whole, but alive all the same. Eyes blink open again as she feels it pass over her entirely, and she almost opens her mouth to tell them that there's no need... But she knows the words would be a waste. Even now, her beloved puts her wellbeing first; the simple tenderness of that realisation is enough to make her heart ache - something which only increases when they drop their glamour.

What must they look like, to those on the other side of her magic? She knows that Thor is watching, but doesn't know whether the witch has even noticed what's going on, or whether the others who had fallen nearby have yet roused themselves. She knows that her actions could so easily be twisted into something far more sinister than what they actually are. Will they think she's been in on some grand scheme of theirs, this whole time? That she's put this barrier between them for a reason other than the simple fact that she is trying to protect Loki? Could they see Loki, the state they're in now, and still believe that this was all simply a play for power?

She does know that she doesn't care. Sigyn has weathered so much speculation as to her intentions in the past that she barely gives it a second thought now, even as she watches Loki lift the Gauntlet. Her trust is them is so implicit that the wary glance she shoots towards it isn't because she's concerned as to what they are using the Stones which adorn it for, but because the sight of it reminds her of the entire Realm which was destroyed in order for it to be created. That is a grief which she will have to find time to acknowledge, later.

Somewhere out of their sight, the remains of the Black Order are destroyed. All Sigyn notices is the pain it causes Loki to use the Stones; she knows them too well for them to be able to hide it.

"Stop," She closes the distance between them, discarding her bow almost as an afterthought so that both hands can reach for her husband. One covers their free hand, the Titan's blood staining her skin too as she threads her fingers between theirs. She lifts the other up to their face, and now that she's this close she realises with alarm that there is something wrong with the set of their jaw. Palm settles against their cheek with the gentlest of touches as her own Seiðr seeks to assess the sheer, horrifying extent of the damage done.

Broken bones which were not set correctly, countless burns and cuts littering their skin - each one is mended without thought or hesitation as Sigyn expends yet more power in order to heal as much as she can of the physical injuries her husband has been subjected to. But then she realises why Loki has not spoken yet, and she feels panic run through her like ice.

"This is barbaric," She whispers almost to herself, thumb running over the sharp line of their cheekbone as tears begin to burn her eyes, and the words which follow are stubbornly determined - even though she knows her capabilities may not stretch that far. "I have to fix this, love."

The gauntlet is cool to the touch, apparently having retained no warmth from the monster whose hand it had, until recently, adorned. It’s too big, of course – Loki could probably fit their whole hand into just the thumb if they tried – but a cautious spell shrinks the cursed thing, metal reforming and stones readjusting until they sit clustered together on the back of the now much smaller gauntlet. Experimentally, the god flexes their fingers. Fits like a glove. 

Loki. Oh. Oh that voice is familiar. They had expected to pass into the next life before hearing such sweetness again. They had expected to be abandoned, vilified – though not by her, never by her – and to die without redemption. But here they are, too broken to be victorious, but somehow a survivor. And now they must face those they discarded in the pursuit of their protection, in the pursuit of vengeance and in the feral thirst for revenge. Loki, ástin mín, look at me. Loki has never refused Sigyn anything; they don’t intend to start now. 

The blood-stained god turns, silent gaze passing over the warm magenta that surrounds them, that keeps the witch in her place and their brother in check, until it settles on their wife. It makes their heart ache to see her. She is marked by dirt and blood from the battle that rages, exhaustion in her eyes and grief in her lips, tunic fabric torn and quiver almost empty. She is so beautiful. 

Green eyes flash momentarily and a tendril of their own seiðr reaches out to curl around Sigyn, offering a tender caress to her cheek before washing over her completely, repairing clothes and cuts alike, washing her clean of blood and dirt and restoring her to how she should be. Black lips twitch in the ghost of a smile. Better. Except now it’s their turn. With an audible sigh, the god releases the tension in their neck and back, dropping their shoulders and their glamour with it. Glittering gold washes away the healthy flush in their cheeks and the cared-for appearance of their hair, leaving behind sallow exhaustion, gaunt eyes and poorly healed injuries. A younger Loki might have glared at the loyal goddess, challenging her to leave or step back in disgust, but this Loki is wise enough to know that Fidelity Incarnate will never shy away from them, no matter how far they have fallen.

Gaze locked on their wife’s, the trickster lifts their gloved hand and twists, several stones glowing as the god uses them for the first time to ensure the children of Thanos, those cursed creatures, are obliterated from existence. Searing pain webs across their body, across their skin and singeing their hair, but Loki merely grits their teeth against the pain and stands firm. They have experienced far worse at the Titan’s hands.

[virgil-anon]

I need help finding a fic, I have so many details but none that can help me find it (cw for minor discussion of dismemberment aka a head being removed from a body)

Harry potter fic, where Harry wrote some letter to Voldemort that he never intended to send, but Dobby found it and sent it believing he was doing a good thing for Harry, and in the letter Harry's complaining about everything Voldemort has done to him (its 5th year btw) so he also mentions how horrible Umbridge is and then Voldemort’s reply is sending Harry Umbridge's head in a box

It was a really short fic probably a one-shot but I'm not 100% sure and yeah I REALLY want to read it again so if anyone wants to help I'll love you forever

[1moremilgram-enjoyer]

A Theory on the Kayanos' Murders

CW Violent murder, blood, mention of dismemberment

Hello members of the jury! I'm currently writing a few posts regarding the prisoners' murders and forgiveness and all that, so I decided I would explain my full theory on what the Kayanos' murders are, since while it's nothing out of the norm (I think), my exact interpretation gets a bit specific. And thus, I want to put all the evidence I have for my claims in one post so I don't sound insane when discussing these two.

(Yes despite what my previous posts may imply I actually believe Twokoto now lol. I still think Trikoto is perfectly fine, I just think Twokoto makes a bit more sense currently)

Again, it's nothing too wild; I believe Mikoto killed someone on the side of the road, the trauma from that caused John to be 'born', and then John killed at least two other people because he knew they were causing Mikoto trouble.

Claim 1: John killed people

A big part of this post is going to rely on the windows in Double. In case you're not aware, it's generally agreed that white windows are related to Mikoto while black windows are related to John. It's easy to tell from the first chorus, the start of the second verse, and the second chorus. Mikoto to the left, John to the right.

Additionally, when the windows are white, the train seems to be moving to Mikoto's left to the right (perspective from the first chorus), while when the windows are dark it moves from John's right to his left. This gives the impression that Mikoto and John are sitting across from each other, with Mikoto on the left side of the train and John on the right side. Here, I made a graph to help with the perspective because it is a bit mindfucky.

(Clarification: when I say "Mikoto's perspective" I actually mean our perspective while looking at Mikoto. Same with John. Apologies for the confusion)

Of course, that's assuming they actually are on the same train, going in the same direction, but I don't think that's too wild an assumption to make.

It's important to note this doesn't have anything to do with the window colors, which are exclusively used to differentiate alters, with the exception of the very end where John is seen with white windows long story. Rather, this perspective thing is a surprise tool which will help us later.

Anyways, now that we know the window thing, it's not hard to see how John has killed at least one person.

I mean, yeah. He sure do be killing in that shot. Black windows, so this is John. There's also this:

Although the kill itself has white windows in the background, the train compartment it happens in has dark windows.

Plus there's the whole "I saved you, right?" in the past tense. It can't be referring to John taking the fall for Mikoto's murder (we'll get there), since Mikoto hasn't been saved from that yet. Instead, it sorta has to be about John previously killing people that were stressing Mikoto out. Especially when looking at other lines like:

[Double] You’re overdoing it, you’re already broken But if you persist, I guess it’s my job to keep things on an even keel Me, the other you I’ll take it all on

The use of present tense in "you're overdoing it" implies this is being sung at a time when Mikoto is overworking, and it's now that John will "keep things on an even keel." Combined with him picking up the metal bat here, it seems he's talking about killing to ease Mikoto's issues.

Which, speaking of, I should probably say why John would kill anyone.

Claim 2: John's Motivations

[Neoplasm] Es: Can I ask… why you killed them? John: They annoyed me. Es: Who did you kill? John: Just someone who was walking around nearby. Es: … How many did you kill? John: Can't remember. I was first born back then, you know. It's kinda fuzzy.

Now, these claims aren't the most trust-worthy, but we'll get there when we get there. For now, all we have as a stated motive is "they annoyed [me]" (no pronoun used, it's ambiguous who they actually annoyed) and "to save Mikoto." The good news is that we actually did sorta see a situation where John tried to kill someone, meaning we can get an idea of what his modus operandi is.

I'm referring to the point in John Doe where John attacks Es.

[John Doe] Mikoto: I became a murderer… without even knowing it…? There's no way, no way… Es: Let's give it some time. The threads of your memory might untangle themselves eventually. Mikoto:*Gasping* Es: A murderer without memory of killing… in which case, how should I think of you… Hey, Mikoto– John: AAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!

Es does absolutely nothing between the time John starts fronting and when John attacks them. And if you look further, Es doesn't do much else. That means either John has some idea of what was going on before he started fronting, or he can feel Mikoto's resentment even though he isn't the one fronting.

This is where I acknowledge I am not an expert in DID, I'm not a system, and because of that there is a high chance I get stuff wrong, please correct me if I say anything stupid!

Although I unfortunately can't find any better sources for this than some Reddit threads, from what I understand it's possible for one alter to feel the emotions of a different alter who isn't fronting. This means John could have known Mikoto was getting really frustrated with Es, and decided Es had to die for that. However, it's unclear how much John knew about the situation, since he never says anything too specific.

As a result, it's possible John is willing to attack people because he can feel Mikoto hates them, even if he isn't fully sure why Mikoto might be frustrated at them. On the other hand, perhaps John does retain memory of what Mikoto goes through even when Mikoto is fronting. Again, I can't find good sources on how this works, but from what I've seen some systems do have alters which can share memories to an extent. I really hope I'm not saying anything horrendously stupid lol.

Anyways, the point I'm trying to make is that regardless of how it happens, John's desire to kill his victim(s) comes from Mikoto's frustrations with those people.

[Neoplasm] John: …! … I think… I might be the person Mikoto wishes he was. The person who stubbornly stands his ground, who doesn't cry himself to sleep from stress, who gives people their payback.

The fact he's represented by the Devil card, which is associated with people's darkest desires, supports the idea his actions are an extension of Mikoto's wishes.

This can also be inferred from the "neuron" scene in Double. You know the one, the one that goes "Doesn't matter if you didn't wish for it, can't get rid of me now". I interpret those silver star things to be representative of neurons, and it's animated in the way it is to represent Mikoto's thoughts (the words in blue) reaching John's conscious at the bottom (the red). I hope that makes sense.

So in short, I believe John found out Mikoto was getting bothered by certain people, and that's why he killed them.

Claim 3: Mikoto killed a guy

Alright so now the harder one to prove. Let me add up all the evidence.

Point #1: Mikoto is the Milgram prisoner, not John

This one is pretty straightforward. Since Milgram doesn't gather every single murderer in the world, John not being a prisoner doesn't mean he didn't kill. But the inverse is potentially true; if Mikoto is a prisoner, then he must have killed someone. Unless there's more alters and one of them is the prisoner, this makes some sense.

The counter-argument is that Milgram is very clearly not designed for systems, so it's possible Mikoto is only the prisoner because he's the host and no other reason. Still, it's worth keeping in mind.

Point #2: A murder on light windows

Take a look at this scene from Double.

As you can see, the way this is framed, it looks as if Mikoto is running away from John. Down to the horror movie motifs of "victim running - persecutor walking." This time, the windows on both sides of Mikoto are white, while the windows on both sides of John are black, instead of there being white and black across from each other.

Looking at the scene, which I can't really show you with still images and will need you to confirm yourself, is that John and Mikoto are moving in the same direction as the train. You can tell based on the relative speed of the objects outside. And yet, there's body parts outside of the train, which move from the front to the back. On the white windows. Which represent Mikoto. And there's an entire window between the left of the screen (where for all we know the windows could change) and where the blood appears. Here's a diagram.

So, uh, Mikoto? Who the hell killed that guy? It certainly wasn't John, especially because the body parts are outside. John was the one who got onto the train (see: cigarette), so I would argue a murder outside could imply it was performed by Mikoto, who notably doesn't usually ride trains. Although I'm not sure that reasoning makes sense to anyone but me.

However, the body being outside presents a much bigger issue for Mikoto's innocence. When John swings, and apparently causes something similar to happen, he's inside. We don't see the mannequin he supposedly hits, and God knows how the pieces ended up outside. Not to mention he for some reason swings at where the legs would be, instead of at the head like all the other attacks we see.

My point here is that this murder makes very little sense if John is supposed to have caused it. Because of all that, to me, this represents John taking the fall for Mikoto's one kill. Unlike the other John murders, which show the "victim" and make physical sense, this one doesn't show the victim and has inconsistencies because John didn't do it. The murder was originally in the white windows, and John is scrambling to make it look like it happened on the black windows, even though that doesn't really work as shown by the diagram above.

Am I taking these scenes too literally? Maybe, but even symbolically, what does it mean if blood appears when the windows are white? Surely there's at least a chance it's Mikoto doing this murder.

Point #3: 3rd Anniversary artwork

Let's first establish what the 3rd anniversary art usually represents. It's been pointed out by many before me that these pieces are closely connected to the prisoners' murders. This is clearest with Muu, Amane and Kotoko.

Muu is wearing her school outfit, but she has a shoe off, just like she did when she killed Rei.

Amane is wearing her Magic outfit, but she's holding her thunder wand, which places this image near her murder. Specifically right before her murder, as she's still wearing her black bow tie instead of her cloud medal thing.

Kotoko is holding her Jacques Roulet cap, a hat she usually only uses alongside her blue and yellow jacket. The only exception is during her murder, where she's wearing the outfit we see in the anniversary artwork while the cap rests on the floor.

The others all hold up with this hypothesis. Yuno is wearing her yellow shirt, the one she's wearing in Tear Drop near the end when she lets out a tear, presumably representative of her murder. Fuuta is wearing the hoodie and mask he wears throughout Bring it On, and he's holding his phone, which does fit doxxing Killcheroy even though it's more generic. Kazui and Mahiru are wearing the outfits they wear in the scenes of their respective lovers' death. Haruka wears his Weakness plain white outfit, which could point to any moment of his narrative, including the murder. And the only times we see Shidou physically kill (cutting off flowers), he's wearing the floral jacket he wears in the artwork.

I want to be clear. For most of them, the relation to the murder could just be because they don't have many outfits in their MVs. However, Muu's, Amane's and Kotoko's feel extremely intentional, and the fact none of the other ones contradict this trend makes it feel like it could be universal.

Which gets us to Mikoto's artwork. And in his artwork, he's holding (what looks to be) a vape pen. John smokes cigarettes, so that's definitely Mikoto. In the murder artwork. So, uh. Yeah. That certainly feels like he must have killed at least one person.

The only small contradiction is that his beanie is nowhere to be found, which is why I don't consider this definitive. However, the fact they specifically chose to make Mikoto hold a vape pen when every other prisoner can easily be connected to the murder feels... intentional.

Point #4: Swing and a hit

More Double screenshots.

So a few weird things. For starters, let's get something straight: there's two murders depicted here. Notice how the first image shows a Kayano swinging with a right-handed swing, then the second shows John (black windows) doing a left-handed swing. The important thing isn't the type of swing, but the fact they're different.

(I know I made some posts at one point about dominant hands, but as my beloved and extremely smart mutual accirax pointed out a lot of the time Milgram characters switch hands because it looks better for the animation, so they're sorta ambidextrous by default lol)

It's not hard to realize if you try to follow the motion yourself. The only way this works is if he swings one way, then the other, which doesn't fit the fact all mannequins are usually destroyed after just one hit. And it's not like it's an animation issue: you can literally fix this by flipping the image.

... Okay it does look a bit awkward but I think it works well enough. It's less weird than the swing changing mid-way through.

To me, this is similar to what I talked about before with the white window murder. John's subconscious trying to convince itself this was John by thinking back to a different murder that has nothing to do with this one. I have no idea if that makes sense.

And then there's the fact the background in the first image is pure white. This doesn't have to mean the one fronting is Mikoto, but why leave it ambiguous if it would have worked perfectly fine with black windows in the background?

Hell, actually, who says we're on the train? This is the only scene in the entirety of Double (apart from the mom phone call) where it's unclear whether we're on the train or not. And as we established, if there is a murder outside the train, it would probably be Mikoto murdering.

And don't get me started on the blood, the eye, and the noise in the background.

First, the background noise in this scene famously has baby crying noises. Could it be we're witnessing John's "birth"? Because if that's the case, then either John was born during the phone call with the mother, which doesn't make a whole lot of sense if you think about it, or John was born during or after the murder on screen.

This actually fits with the close-up of the eye. Despite the fact that "right-hand swing Kayano" seems pretty chill as he attacks the mannequin, right as the scene end, his pupils become smaller as if he's surprised by something. But what would he be surprised about? To me, it feels like "right-hand swing Kayano" was perhaps dissociating (I think that's the right term, please correct me if I'm wrong), and then John is born. Naturally, John gets surprised by the fact the first thing he sees is a dead person, explaining the odd reaction.

Funnily enough, this is actually supported by the very strange blood behavior. It's hard to describe, so bear with me. You see how there's one big orb at the center of the screen? And it starts with one small drop, which enters the orb, and then three small droplets come out the other side? Uh... Diagram?

This isn't normal blood behavior, of course (<- not that I know what normal blood behavior actually is, but I know how liquids work and this ain't it). It's imagery of something splitting, which in the context of alters, fits alongside the baby noises and the weird reaction to murder. Although I fully acknowledge the blood thing falls into the territory of "am I reading too much into this or is Milgram just insane?", so you know. Take it with a few metric tons of salt.

(Funnily enough, it does split into three things. Trikoto win? It doesn't convince me, but the interpretation is valid)

To recap, we have a strange murder with a white background, possible misdirection by showing a completely unrelated murder performed by John, baby noises, imagery of something splitting, and a reaction to the murder which could support an alter being born in that very moment. All of this could imply this "right-hand swing murder" is the moment John is born, which would mean the actual murderer is Mikoto.

Point #5: The tarot spreads in MeMe

This one is very abstract, but it can definitely point to Mikoto murdering someone. Take a look at the two different spreads we see in the first chorus (the first one flashes twice but it's the same).

These things are really complicated, and I should probably do a post about them at some point, but I'm gonna focus on the main things, that being the changes between the two spreads.

For starters, we see that the "querent" card, the one in the middle of The Wheel, is the reversed Hanged Man. Since this is the portrait besides The Fool in the water world thing, it can be assumed the reversed Hanged Man represents Mikoto. Thus, these are his spreads.

Then, the Outcome card of the first spread is the Devil. Since the Devil card on its own also flashes after the second spread, it can be assumed the Devil is also the Outcome of the second spread, as that's the only card which is not visible. Then, as stated before, the Devil card is related to John. This means the Outcome of the situation depicted in these spreads is John. In other words, this is the situation which led to John appearing.

Now we have to establish how we're supposed to read these things. I've explained it in another post, but basically, the only way we can tell how we're supposed to read the cards in The Wheel is by knowing the order they're drawn, so we can determine if the meaning is based on position or draw order (long story). We can do this by looking at the final spread, where it appears the cards are drawn Bottom->Right->Left->Top. This doesn't exactly fit any common way of drawing them, so we read based on position. Aditionally, since this is Japanese media and the card to the right is drawn before the card on the left, middle row of The Wheel is Future&lt;-Present<;-Past. And based on the way the upright Page of Pentacles is placed in the final spread, if the name of the card is to the left the horizontal card is upright, if not it's reversed. If that doesn't make any sense to you, don't worry too much about it, I'll walk you through the important parts. You want a diagram? No? Well, you're gonna get one so-

After clarifying that, we can see that in these two spreads, while most of everything remains consistent, the Future and the Conscious change, the Challenge flips, and the Attitude is revealed. Let's take it one step at a time.

Let's start with the first spread. In the Challenge position (horizontal middle), we have the upright Queen of Swords. This card can represent anything you want tarot reading is so annoying a couple of things, including an authority figure. In the Challenge position, it could indicate there is a lack of communication, that the querent is being too "cold", in the sense they're not expressing their emotions correctly.

Then, in the Conscious position, the thing Mikoto is actively working towards, we have the Ace of Cups. This card can represent new beginnings, new relationships, good fortune, basically "good new things are coming your way." However, there is a slight change between MeMe's Ace of Cups and the IRL version, which could change the meaning a bit.

(No I don't know why MeMe calls it "Cup of Ace" that's just wrong lol)

As you can see, the IRL version has the water from the cup spilling on its own, while the MeMe version has the cup being intentionally spilt on top of a few mannequins. What I think this could mean: if you take the water spilling as a good thing (which is how it's usually interpreted, the idea is that spirituality is overflowing or something like that), the IRL version shows that new good things are coming no matter what, while the MeMe version has the water spilling intentionally because Mikoto is actively trying to cause new, good developments, such as new relationships (we'll get there). That's also why it's in the Conscious position, Mikoto is consciously trying to build a good new relationship.

After that, in the Future position, we have the reversed Wheel of Fortune. This can mean a lot of things, but it mainly has to do with a negative cycle in someone's life. In the Future position, then, this could mean a perpetuation of a negative cycle in Mikoto's life. Thus, in the first spread, if things continue as they are in that moment, the cycle of abuse Mikoto suffers at work will continue.

The Attitude card is obscured. I should note that this card can actually be read in a few different ways, but I think "Attitude" fits best here.

I'll also note the Subconscious card at the bottom of the Wheel ("so below") is the reversed Ten of Wands, which can represent Mikoto is feeling overburdened. Which we know certainly applies to his work.

Let's see here. Mikoto has a problem, possibly with someone in a position of authority, and feels overburdened. This could point to the Queen of Swords being a boss or a manager or something like that. It's upright because Mikoto isn't being direct enough in his desires; he's trying to 'play nice' and build up his relationship with the "Queen", that's what the Ace of Cups could represent. Not like I think his situation would actually improve if he told this "Queen" that he felt overworked, but still, the idea that Mikoto is bottling up his emotions definitely fits what we see of him. If he keeps it up, the cycle of (workplace) abuse will continue, represented by the reversed Wheel of Fortune. This would lead to Mikoto's darkest desires exploding; the Devil is the Outcome.

Let's move to the second spread. The Challenge is still the Queen of Swords, but reversed. This could imply the person giving Mikoto problems is still the same, but now the issue is that Mikoto is being too emotional. Again, there are a lot of ways to read these things, but I think that works.

The Conscious card is now the reversed Wheel of Fortune, which could mean Mikoto is actively aware of and possibly trying to break the negative cycle he's in.

The Future is now the Ace of Cups, which could imply there is a new relationship in Mikoto's future. This is where we acknowledge that the water can also represent consciousness, and in the MeMe version, it is being spilt over mannequins. And...

*sigh* The Ace of Cups can be associated with pregnancy, which fits the whole "newborn" thing John's got going on.

Indeed, I believe the new relationship in Mikoto's future is John, a "mannequin" receiving "consciousness." There is no other thing this could really allude to besides Milgram, which I don't think these spreads reference. However, if this really is about John, that would mean this spread is showing a situation before John's birth.

The Attitude card, which (according to most sources, there are conflicting reports on what the first card of The Wand is) represents how the querent is trying to achieve their Conscious goal, is the reversed King of Cups. This is most often associated with emotional repression, but it can also be connected to violence. Which is very interesting, because John has the same Attitude card in his spread. And we know how he approaches his issues (violence).

So all in all, Mikoto is having issues with an authority figure, and he's (possibly) being emotional about it. He's trying to break out of a negative cycle, and he's doing this either by repressing his emotions or by pulling a John (violence). In the future, this will lead to John's birth, which is why the Outcome is still implied to be the Devil.

This, by itself, doesn't necessarily imply murder. Again, the Attitude could be emotional repression and not violence. The weird thing is that the spread changed. And that means something had to happen to get the Future to change. The change can't have been John being born; that's still in the Future. And the thing we know happened is that the Conscious goal Mikoto was working towards changed, from wanting a prosperous new beginning or relationship to destroying an existing cycle.

Because of that, to me, it feels like the change between the first spread and the second is that Mikoto decided to let his emotions take over (reversing the Queen of Swords) and killed (reversed King of Cups) the authority figure who was causing him trouble, and this caused John to be born.

The final thing to note is that John's Past card is the Wheel of Fortune (upright). This could be read to mean the situation leading up to John's current situation is the destruction of a cycle, which fits the idea that Mikoto tried to destroy it before John was born.

Is this definitive evidence? Hell no! Tarot readings are so ambiguous that I'm pretty sure you can read these to mean whatever the hell you want them to mean. This is just my take on it, I don't even necessarily consider it good evidence because again, if you just take different meanings from the cards you can get whatever. But it's still something.

Point #6: John's insistence

Let's see what John says about the murders again.

[Neoplasm] Es: Can I ask… why you killed them? John: They annoyed me. Es: Who did you kill? John: Just someone who was walking around nearby. Es: … How many did you kill? John: Can't remember. I was first born back then, you know. It's kinda fuzzy.

So, as stated, John may have killed people without fully knowing why Mikoto was angry at them, but that doesn't mean this makes perfect sense. We know their victims weren't just "someone who was walking around nearby". Unless Mikoto regularly carries around a metal baseball bat for some god-forsaken reason, there must have been some kind of premeditation at play. John has to at least be hiding the real reasons for the murders, possibly because Mikoto might consider them shameful (more on that in a bit). This opens the door to the possibility he's hiding more than just that, and that makes a lot of his other claims seem a bit... desperate.

[Neoplasm] John: From [Mikoto's] point of view, he's being blamed for a crime he can't even remember. Es: If that's the truth, then… you're the one who committed the murder? John: Yeah, it's me. I killed them off. Es: … John: So Mikoto really didn't do it. Es: Is this really something that works that conveniently? John: Just put yourself in Mikoto's shoes for a moment! He was bottling up all his stress! He kept dealing with it all by himself the whole time, until it exploded! It's not like he just decided that he wanted to hurt somebody! Es: … John: He's not the type of person who could do stuff like that! He always looks out for others, always reads the room, always tries to get along with people around him! He can't do stuff like that… He was on the verge of exploding! That's why I was born. It's terrible, isn't it? My other self didn't do anything! Es: Even if that's true… Even if it wasn't what Mikoto wanted – someone's life was still lost. [...] John: I'm the one who did it! Mikoto didn't do it! You know that because of MILGRAM! I don't care about the law, I want to know what you think! Es: … John: Please… forgive Mikoto. I'm the one who did it.

The amount of times John tries to take the fall for every single murder is so insane it makes it sound suspicious. Why does he say it so much?

Still, I'll be honest, this might just be confirmation bias, as a lot of these lines can still absolutely be read with the interpretation that John is the only killer.

John: If I, the "John" personality, hadn't been born, I'm sure Mikoto would have reached his limit and fallen apart. Es: John… you… John: It's true that I was the one who wanted to destroy everything… and the weakness of Mikoto, who couldn't stand up for himself all alone, might have been the origin of that. But… that's all there is to it. Is that a sin?

So I don't consider this evidence at all, frankly. In fact, Neoplasm is one of the things which make me doubt the Mikoto-killer theory a bit, but I don't think it outright deconfirms it or anything. I'm just including this because I know some people think he's extremely suspicious here.

Point #7: Small visual stuff

1- The first time we see victims in Double, John's bat doesn't have any blood on it, which could imply the one who killed the mannequin(s) beside him was Mikoto.

2- The mannequin standing in for Death in the Death card is blue, a color most associated with Mikoto.

This one isn't great because you can read it more symbolically, with Mikoto being the main force of change in the system's life instead of someone who brings death. Though I'd argue the mace thing sort of implies something more violent.

3- At the start of Double, we see this:

The guy is shown as a blue and red mannequin, but what's interesting is that the blue part has a skull and the red part has a map thing. I don't consider this very important, but the blue with the skull could be indication of Mikoto having killed someone.

4- In Double, Mikoto is represented by antlers (I think that's what they are) in the same way John is represented by a crown of thorns ("savior", etc).

Antlers mainly represent strength, which feels a bit weird for Mikoto. I'm gonna be honest, I'm not confident on what these represent. But one possible interpretation comes from the fact they are always paired with the lyric (written on screen) "All I did was dream, so you find me INNOCENT, it’s that simple right?". The connection of the antlers with Mikoto's dream could imply Mikoto tried to use strength to fulfill a dream, which could imply he murdered someone to achieve something. Additionally...

*sigh* Antlers fall off after mating season, which could be connected to Mikoto "losing his antlers" after John is born, since Mikoto doesn't have to kill anymore.

I'm sure there are other interpretations, but I don't think this one is too bad.

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So, all of this, is it conclusive evidence of anything? I wouldn't say so, it's all still pretty vague. However, I believe all of it together points to Mikoto having killed one person, and this is what explains all this in the best way. Thus, I presume Mikoto did kill someone.

Claim #4: Mikoto's Motivations

CW for this section: potential stalking

I've sorta alluded to it in the tarot section, but I believe Mikoto killed someone in a position of authority over him as a result of workplace abuse. In particular, Mikoto was heavily overworked, possibly to the point this authority figure was somehow monitoring his home life and possibly even stalking him.

Let's start by the workplace abuse thing. This is an extremely important point in Mikoto's narrative; it's referenced in his Undercover silhouette shot, it's shown in the messages from "Chief" at the start of Double, the neuron scene from Double, his interrogation questions, etc. Mikoto is being overworked, to the point his boss/manager/whatever talks to him about work past midnight. It would be very strange, narratively speaking, if all of this didn't have anything to do with the murder. Also the whole "Queen of Swords is the Challenge/problem" could allude to an authority figure, which also fits this idea.

So then, what about the monitoring/stalking? Well, there's a lot of camera imagery in MeMe, for one. Most notably in the scene when Mikoto comes home and leaves his bag to the side as he breaks down, relating his stress to the idea of being watched. There's also an abundance of eye imagery in Double, especially in relation to Mikoto. This is also included in the MVs version of the Hanged Man card, which has a bunch of eyes around the mannequin. This alludes to some form of judgement or pressure, (<- Fuuta reference?) which could be connected to either societal pressure or, what I find a bit more likely, the judgement of Mikoto's higher-up(s) in his workplace.

Because of this, I believe one of Mikoto's higher-ups was heavily monitoring Mikoto's life even outside of work, which drove him to the point he felt he had to get rid of them. All he did was dream... of a better life.

This could also be why John hides the reasons for the murders. Even if he is actually aware of the full situation, he could be trying to hide that Mikoto felt tired from work, because in a way it's possible Mikoto would consider that shameful. I hope that makes sense.

Claim #5: Which is Mikoto's kill?

Assuming Mikoto only killed one person before John started taking over murder duties-

(I think that's a fair assumption, I think it would be weird if John only split after like three murders. Like, oh the first two weren't stressful enough to cause a split, but the third one is too much? What? There's something else that makes me think John split after just the first one, we'll get there)

-that begs the question: which one was Mikoto's? Well, since Double isn't exactly reliable for what the murders looked like, I'll only take MeMe's versions into account. There are at least three murders in MeMe: the Subway Murder, the Streetside Murder, and the Trash Bag Murder.

We know the Trash Bag Murder is different from the other two because the murderer isn't wearing a hoodie in that one, a fact which took me an embarrassing amount of time to notice. Unless he went home, changed, went back to dispose of evidence and still had the beanie for some reason (since he throws it away), it has to be different. And probably on a different day, too. Because of that, I'll henceforth call it the No Hoodie Murder.

Let's run through what we have. We see the Subway murder almost in full at the beginning of MeMe, where Kayano swings around his bat flippantly before killing a blonde dude with a simple overhead swing. However, right in the middle of that scene, we quickly cut to the Streetside murder, where we see Kayano hitting the victim with a right-handed swing.

After that we have a scene of John (because at this point it would be John) coming home and taking off his shirt. Since there is a Fool card portrait in the background, I'll call this the Fool Portrait scene. Notably, we never see John take off a hoodie or a beanie, meaning this is probably related to the No Hoodie Murder.

Then we have Kayano doing... something to the Streetside victim. It's unclear exactly what that is; I've seen some people say he's burying the victim, but to me that always looked like he's dismembering them to put them in trash bags. It's not too important, though.

An important fact is that in this scene we see his left cheek is blood-stained. This is consistent with the following bath scene, where we see John brushing his teeth with blood trailing down from his left cheek.

In the middle of those scenes, we see the clean-up for the No Hoodie murder. Trash bags and the beanie are disposed of in an illegal dumping ground.

Finally there's the bathtub scene, but frankly it's not very relevant to this discussion.

So, which one is Mikoto's? I'll start by ruling out the No Hoodie murder. There is an argument for it, though. It's definitely the most hidden of the murders, which makes it suspicious. Since the Fool represents new beginnings, you could argue the Fool Portrait scene shows John's "beginning". And since I said it's probably related to this murder, you could argue that means the No Hoodie murder is the first one.

However, that doesn't really convince me. Unless the Kayanos have multiple beanies (which is possible, but I'd find it weird narratively speaking), this would have to be the last murder in the sequence, while Mikoto's would have to be the first. The fact it was done without a hoodie also contradicts the 3rd Anniversary artwork reasoning, since Mikoto wears a hoodie there, but to be fair the lack of beanie makes the outfit somewhat inconsistent anyways.

Meanwhile, you could argue there's a symbolic implication that John and Mikoto have already split by the time the Subway murder happens, in the way the towers close and behind Kayano have lighting split down the middle between red and blue light.

(Yes this is one of the reasons I'm keeping the red and blue color scheme despite no longer believing RGBkoto)

No, I believe the Streetside murder is Mikoto's. It's technically the first one we see, but more importantly, the location matches Mikoto's prisoner card image, and the swing fits the Undercover kill-shot.

Since Mikoto is the Milgram prisoner, these two things would probably be related to his murder, not Johns'.

Funnily enough, you can also argue that this murder is too expressionless for John. Which sounds odd, considering John is usually the less expressive of the two, but funnily enough, the only times we see John express emotion is when he goes to do a violence, either because he's frustrated at the person who hurt Mikoto or because he's happy to protect him.

[John Doe] John: SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!! Es: *Gasp* John: YOU KEEP BLABBERING ON AND ON... I'M GONNA FUCKING KILL YOU, YOU PIECE OF SHIT! *John continues to beat Es* John: GOING ON, AND ON, AND ON... ALL HIGH AND MIGHTY... LIKE YOU AREN'T JUST A KID! SERVES YOU FUCKING RIGHT! Es: …emember… John: HUH-!? I CAN'T HEAR YOU! YOU'RE NO MORE THAN JUST A KID. YOU UNIMPORTANT BRAT! Es: .........I'll remember you… you murderer…! John: HUH?! *Laughter* YOU PREFER IT WHEN IT HURTS MORE, HUH? Es: ......! John: THAT'S FINE... I'LL CRUSH YOUR FUCKING FACE. Es: Go ahead… and try… John: YOU DON'T NEED TO TELL ME TWICE! *Screams* [...] Kotoko: His technique is definitely that of an amateur… John: SHUDDUP!!! Kotoko: ...! *Sighs* I can't imagine that power from his muscle mass. John: ANNOYING... YOU'RE ANNOYING...! ARGH...!

This even fits the lackadaisical twirling of the bat in the Subway murder. It's one of the reasons I believe that one's John's.

Meanwhile, the one time we see a Kayano swing a bat without emotion on his face is the right-hand swing in Double, which as we established is probably Mikoto. Thus, the idea that John shows more expression than Mikoto when it comes to murdering holds up. The punch at the end of MeMe doesn't count because that's John attacking Mikoto, which is only metaphorical.

Still, this isn't exactly great evidence of anything, since John is still usually less expressive than Mikoto in general.

Anyways, which murder is Mikoto's isn't too important anyways, this section was more to satisfy curiosity than anything else.

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And that's it! Again, this is just my interpretation and theories, it's perfectly fine if you believe something else. I know it isn't anything new, but I wanted to put it all in one place so I can reference back to it if, say, I'm answering an ask about whether or not I forgive the prisoners' murders (I swear I'm working on it lol). Anyways, take care!

[jacenotjason]

THE DEEP END - PART ONE

A/N: HEyy this is my first time writing fanfic in a lONG Time! I decided to do a sort of part one/prologue to warm up let me know what you think! ill do part two if this is received well

cw: discussion of murder

Inspired heavily by “The Lamb” by ItsJustHedy “Have you ever thought about it?” The neon lights of the Candy Club buzzed a quiet metronome for their conversation. The four of them sat in a booth in the back, milkshakes on the table. Roy sat next to Robert, Ross sitting beside Susie on the other side. Roy's question hung in the air, a palpable tension enveloping the booth. The lights flickered momentarily, casting fleeting shadows on the quartet's faces.

Susie, unsure of why she was invited to this clandestine meeting, blinked in surprise. She fidgeted with the straw of her milkshake, her eyes darting between the three members of the HatZGang. They weren't exactly her friends, but Robert had promised to treat her to a milkshake, and she was eager to escape whatever eldritch horror Pump would bring home that day.

As Susie sipped her milkshake, she realized the question had been directed at her. "Thought about what?" she asked, trying to feign nonchalance. She had been listening to the conversation, of course, but she asked in hopes that the question wasn’t related.

"Murder," Roy said, his voice low and almost playful. The word hung in the air, heavy with a tension Susie hadn't anticipated.

Susie's eyes widened, and she almost choked on her milkshake. She glanced around nervously, as if expecting someone to pop out and reveal this was all some strange prank. "Murder? Why would I think about that?"

“How would you do it?” Ross explained, “Just hypothetically, of course,” his eyes darted between his two friends, then to Susie as he repeated himself. “How would you do it?”

“...How would you?” Susie replied instead, attempting to direct the attention of the conversation away from her.

Ross looked away from her, looking down at the milkshake in front of him. His calm demeanor belied the gravity of the topic. "I’d do something untraceable, something that could be considered an accident. Like exploiting an allergy and poisoning them… Something that could be written off easily-”

“That’s so boring!!” Robert suddenly shouted, making Susie flinch.

Ross, undeterred by Robert's outburst, continued, his gaze still fixed on the swirls of his milkshake. “But it's effective,” He said, finally looking up from the cup, “A slow-acting poison, too, so there's no immediate connection. Just a sudden, unexpected end. It’ll be treated as a mystery or an accident. The person is dead, and I don’t go to jail.”

“That’s so lame! You don’t even see them die!?” Robert exclaimed, astonished that Ross wouldn’t want to witness the victim’s end. “The whole point of murdering someone is that everyone knows they’ve been murdered!”

“The whole point of murdering someone is that someone dies!” Ross, his patience tested, spat right back.

Robert wasn’t deterred. “You gotta do something gruesome!” Robert insisted, “Something people remember for decades! Something they’re not allowed to forget!!”

Roy, wearing a misplaced grin, interjected, crossing his arms as he addressed Robert. "Okay, what would you do, then?"

Robert's eyes gleamed with excitement as he leaned back, clearly relishing the opportunity to share his grand and macabre ideas. He pushed his milkshake towards Roy and leaned over the table to explain. Susie felt the knot in her stomach tighten, growing uneasy at the conversation.

"You lure your victim to someone that's going to be visited soon, like a school on a Sunday. Then, you kill them simply and easily, with a slit of the throat or head trauma, or something, it doesn’t matter. Then," Robert punctuated each word with a tap on the table, "full body dismemberment."

Susie cringed at the macabre imagery, her discomfort evident on her face. "What?"

"Dude, what?" Ross raised an eyebrow, his initial interest waning into something else. Not unease, but annoyance, as if he’d heard this before.

“Listen! Listen!” Robert continued, his smile unmoving. “You cut the body up into pieces and string them around the gymnasium! Like a fucked up wind-chime!” 

“Robert, do you have any idea how long it takes to saw through bone?” Ross spat.

“Yeah! Dude, plus, where would we get a saw?!” Roy motioned between them, “We have like 20 dollars put together.”

Susie, desperate to steer the conversation away from its dark trajectory, interjected. "I mean... it doesn't really matter, since... This is all hypothetical," she forced a smile, hoping to diffuse the tension that lingered in the air. “...Right?”

The three boys suddenly silenced, looking at Susie. There was a beat of silence. Then another. Then another. Roy exchanged glances with Ross and Rober, the boys sharing an unspoken understanding. Susie's forced smile faltered, her attempt at lightening the mood falling flat in the face of their unsettling silence.

“Right,” Ross finally broke the silence, his tone casual and friendly, but Susie detected a lingering tension beneath the surface. She took a breath, grateful for the respite at least.

“Yeah, duh!” Roy rolled his eyes with a smile, “I mean look at Robert,” Roy grabbed Robert's arm and lifted it, “You think he can kill someone with these?”

“Hey!” Robert took his arm back with a laugh, breaking the tension momentarily. Ross and Roy joined in the laughter, and Susie awkwardly chimed in, the sound hollow against her inner turmoil. There wasn’t anything funny to her, the boys she sat with could very well kill her. 

She let out a breath, allowing herself to breathe as she rationalized her thoughts. The gang wasn’t violent. Sure, they were jerks, but they weren’t murderers. Their bullying was never violent outside of shoves or foot-stepping.

Susie watched as the boys traded playful insults and laughed together, the conversation slowly returning to their previous topic. It was still jarring, but Susie continued to try and see the same playfulness they must be seeing.

“Susie,” Ross returned the attention to her again. She paused mid-sip and looked up at him, her eyes darting to the other two now watching her.

“Hm?” Susie blinked.

“You never answered.”

“...Answered what?”

“If you wanted to kill someone, how would you do it?” Ross asked her again.

“Oh I…” she shrugged. “I’m not.. I wouldn’t kill anyone..”

“Yeah, neither would we! It’s just for… curiosity’s sake.” Ross shrugged.

“I…” Susie fidgeted, looking between them all. “I guess… I-I’d do something simple. A mix of both of your ideas!” She gestured to Ross and Robert. “Uhm… something… easy to clean but… not boring?” She shrugged.

“Like what?” Roy pressed.

“Uhm…” Susie itched her neck, thinking. She tried to remember some more macabre books she’d read. “If.. I wanted to do something big.. Big enough to get on the news… I’d… probably do it in school. Just… stabbing someone is pretty easy…” She kept her eyes down on the empty milkshake in front of her, mixing the last bits. “You could... Slit someone’s throat and throw them in the pool?” She suggested, finally looking up at the boys. They looked like they had been waiting for her answer all night.

“I like that,” Roy responded.

“It’s clean,” Ross nodded.

“And violent,” Robert smiled.

Susie awkwardly smiled at their shared reactions. She felt a strange validation, having not received a negative reaction. She looked down at their empty milkshakes and stood up, “I’ll get us another round.”

“Oh, sweet, thanks!” Robert slid their glasses towards her, allowing her to take them up to the counter where Kevin finally looked away from the glass door to meet her. She set the glasses on the counter and requested refills.

The boys watched her leave before slowly turning to face each other again. They glanced at each other, attempting not to smile at the dark irony.

“That was so fucked, Roy,” Ross finally spoke.

“Yeah, that was dark. Bringing her here in the first place was bad, but making her choose?” Robert said, his words not correlating with his excited smile.

“You think she has any idea?” Ross asked.

All three boys turned to look over their seats, seeing Susie leaning against the counter as she waited for their drinks. She saw them looking towards her and waved. Robert kindly returned it.

“No.” Roy smiled, the two other boys smiling after him.

[hexesjinx]

𝘐 𝘉𝘙𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘈 𝘉𝘖𝘔𝘉 𝘛𝘖 𝘈 𝘍𝘐𝘚𝘛 𝘍𝘐𝘎𝘏𝘛 . . . an independent selective, and mutuals only jinx from arcane. shimmered by persephone / ronnie. ( 22, she/they )

𝘈 𝘚𝘛𝘜𝘋𝘠 𝘐𝘕 : sisterly love, hurting the ones you love, mad genius, duality, desperately wanting to be loved, found family, violence being an act of love . . . guidelines + credits under the cut.

affiliates : @hextrusted , @vilence .

✱     one.         i’m oc, crossover threads & au based friendly. i just need some sort of bio for the first two, & when it comes to verses, you can literally just dm me about it. i am safe to ramble to. not having a rules page will have you soft-blocked.

dark && possibly triggering topics will be brought up on this blog, such as:

death, guns, dismemberment, murder, self-hatred, suicide, && suicidal ideation.

THESE WILL NOT BE TAGGED, please follow at your own risk. anything not listed here will be tagged with trigger cw.

✱     two.         typically, i don't go out of my way to do exclusives. however, i'm alright with doing them, so long as i'm friends with the mun & we've threaded or plotted extensively. if you want to be my main, please don't be afraid to ask or of me saying no.

✱     three.         i tend to outright block people that i simply don't want to see or interact with for my own comfort. please do not take this personally, as it's simply a way to keep my little corner of the internet to myself.

✱     four.         i really do not like "going with the flow" when it comes to a first interaction or first thread. i love plotting out at the very least, a dynamic between two muses before actually writing a starter or anything like that. if you aren't big on plotting, that's fine, just please know i need some sort of discussion to go off of first.

✱     five.         i honestly know little to nothing about jinx in lol proper, so even w/ other lol muses i will use arcane lore and arcane lore only in interactions. i am very up to plotting if that throws anyone off!

✱     credits.         icon border is silk and steel by somresources, header template is by yellowhelper.

[ordinorultor-if]

What's the age rating for this? And do you have a list of content warnings?

Howdy, thanks for asking, I totally forgot and will put those in the blog desc. in a second! So sorry for forgetting, everyone!

Age rating will be 18+. Content warnings include violence (including mild gore such as dismemberment), rape/SA and discussion thereof, and religious conflict.

Any further CWs will be added as needed. I don't want to the type of asshole that exposes people to content they don't want to see, and I am again very sorry to everyone for forgetting.

[arp1033]

Oh shit, new podcast episode! It's about Nimona!

[ashyronfire]

Red Sky at Morning || Chapter 56: Just Blood, Nerve & Bone

Title: Chapter 56 - Just Blood, Nerve & Bone Rating: M Characters: Grimm, The Grimm Troupe (including OCs), The Radiance Warnings: Introspect-Heavy, Found Family, Pre-Canon, Time Travel Fix-It Adjacent, Grey-and-Grey Morality, Torture, Aftermath of Torture, Dismemberment, Graphic Depictions of Violence, The Author Likes Gore

Summary:

He heard it, then—memories like echoes, phantom voices that resonated through his mind, for him and him alone. Ghosts of the past sang a melancholy requiem for a life left behind. Secrets unraveled across the dream for Grimm’s eyes alone: the past, a mother entrusting a small and sickly millipede child to a far-too-young Deimos, still a mere hatchling himself—It will be okay, my sweethearts; look after each other, love one another, I love you—and then she was gone.

Author’s Notes: CW on this chapter for mentions of suicide. This fic doesn't usually deal with those themes, but it does come up here and is discussed rather frankly though not depicted on screen. Be advised.

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[corpus-incorporated]

my oc’s

CW for discussions of: murder/cannibalism/drowning/undead/terminal illness/etc

Nathaniel “Nat” Corpus (he/it/she)

the son of a billionaire and the heir to his father’s fortune and company as the youngest of six but the only “male heir” available. Nathaniel is unfit in every way to meet his father’s expectations and will always find himself failing whenever he tries.

nat struggles to control his impulses, one of them being his tendency towards violence. when he does allow himself to unleash himself he will go as far as to commit cannibalism in the process of dismemberment since he likes to use his teeth. he is not human no matter what he looks like, and it is at moments like this that it is the most apparent.

he is not human, but he is also divine. he does not work from our moral framework. he feels no remorse for killing a man, just shame that he lost control and fear for how he might be punished next. should we shame him for a nature he cannot change? what does it mean to be loved when who you are is unforgivable?

could you love yourself?

could you bear it?

diagnoses: autism, schizophrenia, anxiety, substance use disorder

gender: none

orientation: homosexual

(6’4 muscular build 24-31) art

Anthony “Tony” Wolff (he/him)

tony was forced to become friends with nat when he was a child in order to help his father integrate into the corpus family with their companies’ recent merger, although he grew to become fascinated with him. he is also the son of a billionaire, but one who made his billions rapidly within his lifetime, which comes with its own social realities their family and tony himself is compensating for.

Tony will do anything for the upper-hand, and yes, that means killing someone if it’s as convenient as asking your lover to do what he wants in his heart to do anyway. he may regret it for a moment but it never stays long. he’s doing what he needs to survive.

gender: male

orientation: aromantic bisexual

diagnoses: npd

(5’9 thin & bony 24-31) art

Anatole “Toli” Lamarque (he/him)

i have four different versions of this guy so he’s hard to explain. he’s a liar and a thief and a survivor to the core. he is a sewer rat. he has a genie deadbeat dad. in one version he was raised in a cult where children are human sacrifices to save their parents’ souls and he escaped after seeing his crush die trying to escape. he stows away on ships. he owes mountains of debt to the mafia. he is constantly coming up with scams. he’s a fire genasi that looks like embers and smoke. he’s french. he smokes weed.

names we call him: marq, lam, the mark, lame mark, lam R Q

diagnoses: adhd, ptsd

(5’7 very slim but athletic 18-19) art

Octavian Ghens (he/him)

human clone doomed to not survive to adulthood, wether he knows about it or not. he was made by a scientist in her hubris, competing against her lover and rival in their field of research, and due to his “mother’s” deception, she was able to keep his clone identity a secret even from her lover, who knew it couldn’t be her’s either.

octavian has big dreams of changing the world and the drive to do it if the world would just let him. he is persuasive and measured but persistent and driven. he was raised by academics and has a profound love for philosophy and the natural sciences.

he fell sick when he was 12, his time running up and a man approached his mother with a bargain. more time and all he has to do is write his name in this book. so he did. six more years. his time is running short and the more his body starts to decay the more magic it takes to keep him upright the more it spills out of him by spells he is able to cast. he is rotting and he doesn’t know it.

he wants to run for president when he grows up.

gender: male

sexuality: bisexual

diagnoses: bipolar 2, probably also npd i’m not gonna lie. with his everything.

(5’5 average build 18) art

Bitter Sweet (she/they)

pink teifling loves the swamp loves her mom loves her friends the undead she accidentally summoned. wants to be best friends with everyone, trusts everyone, and is easily fooled. she was thrown overboard by her traveling group for being too much of a bother, and is only still alive because she was revived by her underwater patron. they are the embodiment of a stuffie left on the playground, trampled and covered in dirt but still with an unyielding smile.

gender: sort of a girl

orientation: [INCORRECT BUZZER NOISE]

diagnoses: autism, adhd

(5’4 average build 16) art

[darkx-the-dragon-kn1ght]

Pokémon Reborn Screenshot Let's Play: Chapter 25

Hello hello, dear readers! It’s that time again, I hope you’re all ready to read about some more fascinating Pokémon hijinks, because that’s what this chapter is very much going to entail! We’ve had our fun, we had a sorta-kinda filler chapter last time, but that’s all done with. Now, it’s time to get serious again- it’s time to refocus! My plan is to prepare for and challenge Shade in this chapter, and I’m not gonna let anything get in the way of that!

But, even though the last chapter was partially filler and exploration, there was still stuff that happened, and it wouldn’t be good form for me to just skip the recap, so let’s get into that before anything else.

With Rock Smash in tow, Xera explores Beryl Cave. In doing so, she finds a very familiar Nidorina trapped in a Nuzleaf cage. She frees her and takes her in, giving her the name Selene.

Xera finds Beryl Caves leads out to a new area in Rhodochrine Jungle. This area has a strange-looking totem pole, which her Ill-Fated Doll reacts to. This causes an Elgyem to appear, who Xera catches and names Cephalon.

After completing her Beryl Cave exploration, Xera pays a visit to the Abandoned Power Plant, where Shade awaits. Nearby, she found the entrance to an entirely new area: Citrine Mountain.

Early on in exploring the mountain, Xera finds something frozen in ice in a wall. With an Ice Heal, she melts the ice and frees the Amaura trapped inside. She decides to take him with and names him Crystal.

Wandering the mountain’s slopes, Xera comes across a familiar-looking Croagunk. Though wary of her at first, the Croagunk calms upon seeing the Silver Ring of its former Trainer, and Xera is able to catch her and give her the name Dart.

Xera comes across a cave further down Citrine Mountain. Inside, she finds a very angry Beartic attacking a Smoochum. The Beartic proves to be very strong, and it takes the power of Crystal (who evolved into an Aurorus) to defeat it and drive it off. After this, the Smoochum becomes very attached to Xera and insists on going with her; Xera names the little one Yuki.

Exiting the cave after defeating Beartic, Xera encounters a blue-haired man who suspiciously resembles Cal, who was apparently sent to take care of the Beartic himself. He remarks about the coldness and cruelty of nature and survival, but still commends Xera for her ability to stand up for others before leaving.

Xera explores the Grand Stairway next, able to access more areas with Rock Smash and even receiving a Mining Kit from a hiker in the caves. She also uses Rock Smash to find a wild Solrock down in the caves, who she catches and names Zon.

While testing out her Mining Kit, Xera finds a Shiny Stone, which she later uses on Bloom to evolve him into a Roserade.

So yeah, the most plot-relevant things that took place last time were getting the Mining Kit and Bloom evolving. But hey, having more Pokémon is always good, so I’d say last time as highly productive. And it’s gonna be even more productive this chapter, because we’re gonna get ourselves even more Pokémon! And then we’re gonna fight an eldritch being! It’s gonna be great!

*CW: brief depictions/discussions of suicide, dismemberment, and death

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

Part 7

Part 8

Part 9

Part 10

Part 11

Part 12

Part 13

Part 14*

Part 15

Part 16

Part 17

Part 18

Part 19

Part 20

[fateskhan]

ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ꜱɪɴɢʟᴇ ᴛʀᴜᴛʜ ɪ ꜱɪɴɢ ᴏɴᴄᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ ᴀ ʟɪᴇ​ ;           independent, private, and mutuals only kaeya alberich of genshin impact, written as an original character. temp rules under the cut.                ɪ ᴘʀᴏᴍɪꜱᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ'ᴍ ꜰɪɴᴇ. ( ɪ'ᴍ ꜱᴏ ꜱᴏʀʀʏ. )

                                ɪ. [ ᴅᴏᴄ ] ɪɪ. [ ᴘʟᴀʏʟɪꜱᴛ ] ɪɪɪ. [ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ʙʟᴏɢꜱ ]

✱     one.         i’m oc, crossover threads & au based friendly. i just need some sort of bio for the first two, & when it comes to verses, you can literally just dm me about it. i am safe to ramble to. not having a rules page will have you soft-blocked.

dark && possibly triggering topics will be brought up on this blog, such as:

death, guns, dismemberment, murder, self-hatred, suicide, && suicidal ideation.

THESE WILL NOT BE TAGGED, please follow at your own risk. anything not listed here will be tagged with trigger cw.

✱     two.         typically, i don't go out of my way to do exclusives. however, i'm alright with doing them, so long as i'm friends with the mun & we've threaded or plotted extensively. if you want to be my main, please don't be afraid to ask or of me saying no.

✱     three.         i tend to outright block people that i simply don't want to see or interact with for my own comfort. please do not take this personally, as it's simply a way to keep my little corner of the internet to myself.

✱     four.         i really do not like "going with the flow" when it comes to a first interaction or first thread. i love plotting out at the very least, a dynamic between two muses before actually writing a starter or anything like that. if you aren't big on plotting, that's fine, just please know i need some sort of discussion to go off of first.

✱     five.         like said earlier, i'm stealing kaeya and doing what i want. i have not played most of fontaine, i am not going to finish it or catch up with genshin. please interact with me knowing i am never caught up with the story, i will never be and i will change kaeya's canon lore as i see fit.         see also: i'm still running with the "kaeya is khaneri'ah's prince" theory because i don't get why hoyoverse would have just changed a tiny detail jsut to make it untrue for no forseeable reason.

✱     credits.         my icon psd is by adearly.

[foxesvindicta]

𝘐'𝘔 𝘎𝘖𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘛𝘖 𝘊𝘖𝘔𝘌 𝘍𝘐𝘕𝘋 𝘠𝘖𝘜. . . indie headcanon based michael afton of the five night's at freddy's franchise. sideblog to @katokosmos.

𝘈 𝘚𝘛𝘜𝘋𝘠 𝘐𝘕 : hurting the ones you love, desperately wanting to be loved, sins of the father, you are your father's son, burning the house down to feel it's warmth. . . guidelines + credits under the cut.

✱ disclaimer: i know A LOT of people really hate fnaf or are uncomfortable with the fandom, so i won't be following anyone first for that reason. mike's a sideblog for that reason, instead of being on the multi where i know i will forget to tag his posts for filtering. if you are unsure if this will make you uncomfy, feel free to block mike's blog here, i will not blame you. ( it took me years to come back to fnaf after the fandom ruined it for me. )

✱     one.         i’m oc, crossover threads & au based friendly. i just need some sort of bio for the first two, & when it comes to verses, you can literally just dm me about it. i am safe to ramble to. not having a rules page will have you soft-blocked.

dark && possibly triggering topics will be brought up on this blog, such as:

death, guns, murder, child murder, dismemberment, self-hatred, suicide, && suicidal ideation.

THESE WILL NOT BE TAGGED, please follow at your own risk. anything not listed here will be tagged with trigger cw.

✱     two.         typically, i don't go out of my way to do exclusives. however, i'm alright with doing them, so long as i'm friends with the mun & we've threaded or plotted extensively. if you want to be my main, please don't be afraid to ask or of me saying no.

✱     three.         i tend to outright block people that i simply don't want to see or interact with for my own comfort. please do not take this personally, as it's simply a way to keep my little corner of the internet to myself.

✱     four.         i really do not like "going with the flow" when it comes to a first interaction or first thread. i love plotting out at the very least, a dynamic between two muses before actually writing a starter or anything like that. if you aren't big on plotting, that's fine, just please know i need some sort of discussion to go off of first.

✱     five.         i am not a fnaf lore expert, i literally am basing my michael timeline off of dualprocesstheory's "we solved fnaf and we're Not Kidding." video, and i'm just having fun w/ this little revenge driven dude. the basic rundown for mike rn is: he's the protag from one to pizza sim. (except 2, hi jeremy), with 4 being nightmare gas experiments thanks to dear ol' dad. (hello any william writers, please write w me. i need the post-sl/fnaf3 interactions.) i also do believe mike is working w/ william to a certain degree until he gets scooped. it takes getting SCOOPED and POSSESSING HIS OWN CORPSE for michael afton to turn against his dad. who knew? anyway. this is rambling now, but please love my boy!

✱     credits.         fanart by fnafluffy & klitunka, pinned graphic temp by honeyriots, icon border is by ariapsds.

[harteofthehart-ayyy]

//They probably mean the discussion of dismembered corpses

//I SEE. How should I tag it? Is there anything specific? Just like…cw dismemberment? I’ll go with dismemberment cw for now

[summerroseart]

Gonna make this the Final Space AU masterpost under the readmore!

• Season 1

- Full Comic

- Chapter 1

Part 1: Prologue [cw: images/discussion of death]

Part 2: Opening Scene [no warnings]

- Concept Sketches

Part 1 [no warnings]

Part 2 [cw: heavily implied/discussed character death]

Part 3 [cw: amputation/dismemberment (not actively shown. But like... that's what's happening)]

Part 4: [cw: minor blood]

I have a habit of overdoing stuff sometimes :)

[bledgacy]

gonna expand upon this at a later date, but here's some ground rules:

my name is solar, they/them, 25+. this is a blog for my saw oc, blaire sullivan, who is the niece of john kramer, the jigsaw killer & the inheritor to the title that's continually fought over by john's apprentices amanda young and mark hoffman. she would have eventually been tested by mark hoffman, if it weren't for jill tuck's noble sacrifice to ensure that she could escape from the metropolitan police department. this allows her to run like her life depends on it to saint eustace hospital where she demanded to be seen by dr. lawrence gordon and finally gain the reassurance that her life will be safe for now thanks to him. i'm not sure how active the saw rpc is on tumblr, so i'm more than willing to plot out these dynamics beforehand! i'm always open to discuss plotting and the like and will never just outright assume that my muse will have the same relationship that she does with another's muse.

i'm fine with blaire being underestimated by your character, but i won't tolerate her character being insulted oocly. constructive criticism is fine, and is also encouraged!

as far as my dni criteria goes, it's the usual: no racism, lgbtq+phobia, ace erasure, etc. i will also make it abundantly clear that i, in no way, will tolerate proshipping in any form, so if you do support this, then please do me the favor and kindly hardblock me. i do not want to hear your justification as to why proshipping should be allowed on this platform.

due to the nature of how gory saw is as a series, i'll tag for things such as dismemberment, gore, etc — however, as the series tends to has gallons upon gallons of blood, i won't tag for things like blood, violence, etc. i tend to tag things as word cw.

i must ask for my own comfort, however, if you would like to follow me, please be mindful and tag for the following: adultery/cheating/infidelity, domestic abuse, gaslighting, sexual harassment and alcohol abuse/alcoholism (i am completely fine with casual drinks in threads. this is mostly stemming from angry drunks!) thank you for keeping these in mind when we're interacting — it does mean a lot!

besides that, please be mindful that i am only here to have fun. this is a hobby and will be treated as such. please do not badger me for replies (a small reminder here and there is fine, though) as i suffer with chronic fatigue and pain and also have to be my mom's caretaker. i also suffer from adhd, major depressive disorder and general anxiety disorder. please do not use me as a meme/aesthetic resource, do not like every post i make, etc. shipping requires both chemistry and effort as i do not want to be the one solely expressing interest in continuing said ship. if no interest is expressed within a couple of months, i will consider the ship to be dropped. it's unlikely that shipping will happen given the nature of blaire's character, but just wanna note this as a general rule.

also, please do not drag me into drama. i don't care for it. i don't have time for it. i don't have spoons for it. lastly, please don't use my tumblr ims or discord dms as your personal venting space. i'd prefer to be asked beforehand if it's alright to vent to me because my spoons are always low.

another thing that i would like to emphasize is if you interact with or condone the actions of the following, then please, hardblock me as well: aku, damon / omen / rxgelord (eyesofbluebitch/burnyoubastard), hearty, zero / kign typo, myers, loke / neku, second callout here, star / usa, miles, shannon / pink. this list will be periodically updated should further callouts emerge.

graphics on this blog have been made exclusively for me by wren / @lostfables aside from the post break, which has been made by @evansyicons!

[mikkeneko]

per your shen jiu haters cant nuance post. Was Shen Qingqiu arms ripped off at legs time, such that he'd be unable to write a letter in any case? This would mean Luo Binghe wrote the letter but then, why send only the legs if he had arms to? Or, Shen Qinqiu was down legs but not arms? In which case he could have written the letter but I kind of don't think he would unless controlled by blood parasites? He was mentioned as not breaking until the shards of Xuan Su were placed before him. Or, Shen Qingqiu hadn't been delimbed at all at the time of letter writing, and he wrote it sure that disloyal Qi Ge would never come for him anyway thinking that the danger was not as great as sit was for people not himself.

In any of these cases, Shen Qingqiu wouldn't have been intentionally inviting Yue Qingyuan into a what could have been a trap. But no one gives this man a single inch of shrift so

You know, I don't know what the exact chronology is (between when Original SQQ lost his various limbs) and I suspect that Airplane Shooting To The Sky doesn't either.

There are a lot of ways that the letter-writing sequence could have gone down, none of them pleasant; Luo Binghe could have forced it with the blood parasites, he could have forced it with torture, he could have written it himself and added the limbs to emphasize his point. Or SQQ might have written a letter saying "fuck off, don't come" but YQY came anyway because he would, literally, rather die than abandon SQQ again.

I am personally inclined to agree with you that Shen Qingqiu was so full of spitin' juice that he would never have cooperated with Luo Binghe willingly, whether he thought that YQY would actually come or not. But, yanno, nobody can hold out against torture indefinitely. That's why I said that the least charitable interpretation you can possibly take from it is that if Shen Qingqiu did actually write the letter, it was absolutely under coercion from Luo Binghe.