#different facets of resentment and dissatisfaction

[psychedeliclulu]

Thinking about transposing Adachi's character into the omegaverse...he would be a super resentful beta 🤣

Hatred towards omegas 'who just have to open their legs to have an easy life' and hatred (and envy) towards alphas who have the key to success from birth.

While betas, even if they try hard, are not successful either in the sentimental hierarchy or in that of society.

Obviously he wouldn't objectively perceive the difficulties that others have. Especially the omega ones 🙂

Omega!Adachi is really great for horny purposes...and to exponentially increase his self-hatred 🙂🙂

He would be the biggest omega hater despite being an omega.

He would also hate alphas of course! And envy betas, cursing the fact that he wasn't born as one (🤣)

Having said that...I'm writing a Doada alpha/alpha fic 🙂🙂🙂📝📝📝👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

[ask-mortarion-the-death-lord]

thoughts bouncin around my head, figured i'd write it down, but an important thematic throughline of the traitor primarchs is in general the need for approval / validation. lorgar want to be validated for his religious and philosophical beliefs and when that not only doesnt happen but hes actively refuted he heel turns into chaoses embrace. horus despite his suave confident facade is desperate for the approval of being daddys special number 1 big time boy, so much so that when negged on the prospect that the emperor probably doesn't actually love him even a little he goes off the god damn walls and starts the haralds hairdressing.

now, one can definitely blame this in part on how the traitor primarchs are made out by the narrative as inherently flawed from the start well the loyalists get flights of angels and glowing stars signifying their descents onto the world. as a consequence of that the loyalists end up being almost totally self assured and self actualized as characters right from the get go, occasionally questioning things but always within the context of whether or not they'll lose that sense of self actualization [hence why i'd say guilliman has been baby girled to heck and back by the fandom since his return to 40k, because baby girl guilliman doesn't have that sense of self actualization he has in 30k when hes in the 40k time frame].

this brings me to the curious case of mort and pert.

now, if [some] 40k memes are to be taken as factual morts a crybaby loser who got pissed dad stole his kill well perts an anal retentive crybaby who acted solely on his grudge against rogal. in essence the popular layman vision of the traitor primarchs has it that only perturabo and mortarion are desperate for approval [or more commonly they disregard mort and focus solely on pert] despite all the traitor primarchs being clingy and desperate for approval in some respect.

i dont think its inaccurate however to say that pert and mort both evoke that theme of validation the most out of the traitor primarchs. they both betray the emperor out of dissatisfaction with the job, but also importantly they join up with horus because horus offered them any degree of approval for who they are at all, and they both get drawn further into the clusterfuck of the heresy because of feelings of gratitude to horus for that validation. and importantly they both 'justify' their decisions through rather threadbare reasons despite the actual reason being that gratitude to horus for saying 'ya did good son brother' [perturabo justifying it through his rivalry to rogal and mortarion justifying it through the emperor stealing his glory].

where they ultimately differ however, is that mortarion is entirely wrapped up in that desire for validation, well perturabos desire for validation stems from the massive chip on his shoulder of resentment hes been carrying his entire life.

and to explain what i mean by that, id like to point to an important fundamental difference between the two that highlights exactly what i mean by the assertion that mort is number 1 on the desire for validation of the traitors well pert is number 2 due to his primary motivation being a heaping load of resentment.

namely that well mortarion is always described as having chosen to throw his legion into the thickest and most dangerous of warzones, chosen to specialize in trench warfare, well perturabo is always described as being burdened or forced to take on that role of trench warfare, being tasked with it instead of choosing it.

and that i think speaks to the heart of what im getting at here. resentment is an important facet of mortarions character, but its so heavily tied up in his desire for validation that said desire is what i would classify as more important to identifying his character. the blow of the emperor 'stealing his kill' is so galling not [entirely] because of the wounded pride but because it invalidates a lifetime worth of suffering and struggle, and its a wound that entirely snowballs into dire consequences for mortarion. and similarly that horus out of all of his brothers shows any extent of approval to mortarion for his efforts and struggles of him and his legion during the great crusade is what secures so much of his loyalty during the horus heresy. it also nicely explains why nurgle corruption specifically is what mortarion fell into, because what nurgle ultimately offers is validation for suffering.

perturabo by comparison well similarly so desperate for approval that he jumps on team horus the minute horus shows any degree of sympathy to him and his plights, is so tied up in his resentment towards everyone and everything that if nothing else leaving in the middle of the siege because everyone pissed him off enough is a perfect sample of characterization for him. well mortarion desires validation to make meaning out of suffering and misery, perturabo desires validation because he specifically feels hard done by and left out to dry by the powers in play, which he projects into his rivalry with rogal dorn the praetorian whos constantly validated for talents perturabo shares and views himself as superior in. its also why i would argue hes nonaligned despite using the power of chaos for his own ends, not because hes some cool badass but because well... what have the powers at play ever done for him other then pass him up for reward and approval well dumping their gifts onto other people? its about time he got something back for his efforts and by golly he'll do it by force just to show em.

[coming in at third would be mangus as well his desire for validation for psykers and his and his legions research are important, whats more defining about him i'd say is his conviction in proving hes the smartest guy in the room at all times.]