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I am not a fish: Introduction
"Looking at their work I would be expecting 8s or 9s"
My biology teacher said that when I was in year nine. It was not the first time someone had said something to that effect, and it was not the last.
The fact of the matter is that I spent most of my time, up until year 11, being told how far I would go, how high my grades were expected to be and how I could do anything that I wanted. People have said that, I just about nudged into the gifted category(though that is a nuanced discussion for another time), not like some of my friends who passed everything with their eyes closed, I definitely had to work, but I was honestly doing well.
My first set of mock GCSEs in year eleven came back and I was broken. Not one of my grades was above a six. This continued through year 11, I was not living up to the expectations that were set. This all came to a head on results day when I discovered that I had only just scraped a 6 which was not enough to do maths A-level, and without maths, I couldn't do physics. This was an issue. I want to be an astrophysicist, however, I have always been in a complex "situationship" with maths, and honestly, I think we might need couple's counselling, but I'm stretching this metaphor too far so suffice to say, I was not too proud of my performance.
So here I am, the day before my first day of college and getting set to do Biology, Environmental science, and Geology. And I will be the first to admit, I am still bitter, I am still upset, I am not over it, but if I could do all the subjects I wanted too, they would be next on my list after physics and maths. The idea is that I will retake my maths GCSE and then go back after college to do physics and maths, so really, in essence I am just taking the scenic route, and maybe, I will end up somewhere wonderful that I could never have dreamed of.
take it easy and good luck to everyone starting this new year
written: 03/09/2024
posted: 03/09/2024
#you will be okay#it will work out#Gifted#taking the scenic route#education#learning#student#memoir#college#new year#start of term#uk#personal#life is strange#geology#environmental science#biology#gcses 2024#gcse student#gcse results#a level#grades#college student#didn't go to plan but it's ok
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#kyoshi#rangi#kirima#rangshi#it's rangshi cause they're in the frame together and Rangi is a bit possessive uwu#i don't make the rules#legend of korra#lok#silly edits#ok ok Rang's edit was from FMA:B I needed a funny chibi face#and i WASN'T gonna edit Rangi outta Tenzin I already was dying TT0TT (that's beyond my abilities atm)#got a diff background from Lok cause I was having issues with that damn bison#I did this whole thing to do Kirima and she ended up being the one I'm kinda eh on TT0TT I blame my struggle with hair. orz#(really I literally didn't plan on doing Kyoshi or rangi fljdasflkj and I like them more here TT0TT)#i like the other kirima I did (not posted yet) tho her hair is kinda bland in it#there is not a thought in Kyoshi's head baby girl go home and sleep#silly colors#blame pema for Kyoshi's expression#but kyoshi really just looks like she doesn't know where she is ever man TT0TT thank god rangi and lek have the map cause girlie is LOST
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i believe that to some extent Andre knows he's fucked up and this headcanon is one of the hills I will die on in the farewell tape, Cal says that “you can’t cure somebody who has nothing wrong with them.”
Andre, on the other hand, admits they might be seen as hypocrites. he's not gonna back out, he still thinks it's the right thing for him to do, but he seems to acknowledge that people will not perceive it the same way. he tries to explain that no matter what it’ll look like, it’s not murder for the sake of murder - not in his eyes at least. there's a (sick and twisted) lesson hidden in this tragedy.
to some extent, Andre is aware of what’s going on with him, what exactly shaped him into who he is now. he sees the cause and effect of being bullied, of feeling rejected and alienated, and not being able to do anything about it because that's just who he is. he can kick and scream and shout but he will never change who he is at his core and this realization is crushing for a 17/18-year-old. this and all the implications of a missing sense of belonging.
he knows he’s messed up. he knows what would fix him and he’s convinced it’s out of his reach. he looks at other students and he thinks: it’ll never be me. and he's angry that they have something he will never have.
his awareness doesn't help though. if anything, it fuels his frustration. what adults know to be a temporary problem (high school) seemed like an insurmountable obstacle, the end of everything.
#dont mind me im just thinking how so many high school problems seem like the end of the world#and then you grow up and you're like 'ok that was some insane shit and I didn't deserve most of it'#and then you process it and heal and go on with your life because the world is too wide for you to dwell on all that stuff#alternatively you're shocked that you really let yourself wallow in sadness over shit that now just makes you laugh and seems so trivial#my point is that if he had decided to drop the zd plans and then graduated and grown up he could have been happy#he could have made it but he didn't give himself a chance#high school is not where your world ends#in fact it's barely even a beginning its a fucking prologue#and when people are so down that they can't grasp it - this is what leads to tragedies#zero day#zero day 2003#andre kriegman#cal gabriel
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Sweet Dream & Bitter Nightmare
Based on Pure Vanilla's China-exclusive costume; it's only fair that his counterpart gets a matching one too!
design details under the cut
ugly lil sketch. throw him at the wall
PV has bear elements, so SM has a jester hat shaped more like bunny ears. Pajama/onesie and slippers because of the dreamy theme. Strawberry (because Pure Vanilla has a cherry) & hair shaped like whipped cream to with the dessert motifs. Pure Vanilla's staff in this skin looks kiiiinda like a spoon, so I gave Shadow Milk an answering fork!
I actually have no idea what Pure Vanilla's costume is even named, but if anyone does play/understand the Chinese version & would like to share, then I'd love to learn more about it! This was mostly just guessing work and going off of the themes and vibes lol
#Hi guys ressurecting for a minute to bring you this#ok that's all back to the dungeon I go#shadow milk#shadow milk cookie#shadow milk fanart#shadow milk crk#shadowvanilla#pure vanilla#pure vanilla cookie#pure vanilla crk#pure vanilla fanart#cookie run kingdom fanart#cookie run kingdom#Fun fact: the 'bitter' part is bc I originally planned to base Shadow Milk more off strawberries in dark chocolate#but the color scheme didn't fit him very well so we went with more purple/blue hues#blorbo-time
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if it has not been suggested already and you are okay with drawing it-- maybe Odile teaching Bonnie how to make onigiri??
the duo ever!!
#in stars and time#isat#didn't expect to draw this much for them! aaa i love em#I imagine Bonnie was kinda insistent for the party to take them along. they're angry and sad and lost and they want revenge against the kin#since their only family (and town) is currently frozen the party reluctantly lets them tag along for now#while initially the party was hesitant to bring bonnie along (maybe even planning to entrust them to someone else to keep them safe?)#they always try their best to contribute to the party and soon bonnie grows on them (also they're an amazing cook)#And once they obtained the last orb Odile decides to entrust it to Bonnie#Officially making them a member of their party#maybe that's a little basic but it's ok I just like thinking about found family#isat odile#isat bonnie#might combine more asks if they're similar! Hope that's fine cause I don't think the inbox is ever going to be empty at this rate#day 14#2 weeks! Nice!
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There's a lot to be said about flaws in the US education system but I think some of you just weren't paying attention in class
#yes that post about addresses came around again#'my school didn't teach me the US wasn't the only country in the world :( :( :('#'we never learn anything about other countries besides their GDP'#ok first off what on earth school did you go to where you had to learn other countries GDPs#second of all. literally what.#did your foreign language classes never make you do 'cultural' assignments#bc I had to plan at least 3 fake trips to somewhere in Latin or South America#did you never talk about current events in social studies#was the family of every single one of your friends from the US#like#what#op
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I would say that, considering his history, he's not that wrong, but even I have doubts as to whether that would be right. But at the end of the day, this is just a joke that's been in my head for a while, sooooo…eh.
Oh hey, an attempt at a comic? Made by me? That I didn't give up during the process or lost all motivation? What was my only attempt at this, 2019? Damn, it's been a long time.
I thought about leaving this here without editing or any colors, just the natural ones from the paper and pencil. But something in my head said "HAHAHA, no" so I went back to work. I had to put this idea down on paper this time (literally). If another year passes without me being able to execute this idea, I would lose my mind.
This scenario was inspired by this video by Jehtt, inspired by the original meme by Windii. Credits to both of them.
For a long time I wanted to joke - especially on the anniversary - that I wanted Sammy to only have less than 5 seconds in the next game (or in other words, take his screen time in DR, and shorten it even more). You know, just for the funnies (unless..?) But,thanks to the news released at the beginning of January this year about The Cage, I legally can't do this joke anymore…this year. Don't worry, after that comes out (and finally gives Sam the screen time he wants,hopefully) and we start to crawl into the Bendy 3 production era, I'll make this joke when I can.
Anyway, happy birthday Sammy Lawrence. You may not be my favorite character in this franchise, but there are some things I can actually appreciate about you. Plus, you made me laugh a few moments before (you know what I'm talking about) so there's that.
And happy 7 years to Chapter 2, and by extension, Susie, Norman, Alice, the Searchers, (Johnny????), and Beta Ink Bendy. (I would mention Jack too, but he was only introduced with the release of CH4, so technically it's not his birthday yet, but I'll consider him here).
And now? May I be able to do something for CH4's anniversary. Wish me luck,cus I'll need it.
(it might be really late now, but it's still the 18th where I live, so it's still his birthday, so I still won)
#bendy and the ink machine#batim#bendy and the dark revival#batdr#sammy lawrence#porter batdr#batdr porter#crookedsmileart#another fun fact: I thought of this comic with Wally in mind instead of Porter#Problem is I don't have any designs at the moment of Wally as his ink counterpart;and I didn't want to have to think of a design for him no#So I switched to Porter;I think it still fits#my relationship with Sammy is complicated#Sammy; as the human director of the music department? He is ok. He's not my favorite of the human cast; but I don't dislike him. He's fine#Sammy; the prophet? Eehhh. I prefer the human.#Like there are things I can actually appreciate about him.#Certain details that I find interesting. And his appearance in CH2; for what it is; it's not bad at all.#But in general? I'm not very interested in this guy (at least;this version of him) And his post-CH2 appearances don't really help his cause#I still believe they had no plan to bring Sammy back later in the story#but because of his popularity they decided “yep;let's bring him back”; problem is: I don't think they knew what to do with him after CH2#and one might argue that they still don't know#Hopefully;The Cage will finally give Sammy the screen time he so desperately needs.#and maybe; then; I can finally start to like him a little more (okay; let's not go that far now)#Maybe his deaths in the franchise aren't his happiest moments; but they were definitely mine#HAHAHAHAAHHA (/j.....unless)
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EMILIA ROMAGNA GP 2021 - Fabio Quartararo & Marc Márquez celebrate their respective World Championship and Grand Prix win with a burnout
#motogp#motogpedit#fabio quartararo#marc marquez#enea bastianini#emilia romagna gp 2021#*gif#*#i don't think anyone gifed this moment yet so here you go. for archiving purposes#i need to know the story behind this like. marc was waiting and fabio literally stopped and put his front wheel in front of marc's#did they actually plan this did marc say alright fab mate imma defeat the ducatis by the power of c*nt i win the race and you win your wc#then we do vroom vroom to burn some rubber together!!#also enea is like the one guy you didn't invite to the party but still shows up and that's ok
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my radiant beam in the night / i don't need no light to see you.
carat revival '24 ↳ create content that revolves around your bias/es in seventeen OR a flipped prompt about which member/s you could take in a fight ⚔️
#vernon#choi hansol#vernon chwe#seventeen#svt#svtgifs#svtsource#caratrevival24#heymax#maddieblr#userhev#usermery#jennalook#userbexrex#xanblr#userfairy#(ok so this didn't exactly go to plan but i don't hate it. so it's getting dumped and i am going to bed)#(broke my nyr to Stop staying up past midnight on weekdays to finish this so please someone love me. thanks)#(bye)#*mine#my gif
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Process gif for the [ last piece ]! It was a bit of a rough ride.
#ok short tags b/c for some reason firefox is using 70% of my memory to up- oh hey its done#that means long tags !#uh. this was a three day kinda thing#the first two were done in one day#the next two in one#and then the last one was one day in it of itself#was really trying to go for the 20/80 rule and i think it worked out? (it didn't. lack of planning led to a lot of changes down the line#that would have otherwise easily been resolved had i thought about it more than 2 minutes)#but in my defense the worms got me and i could do nothing but paint else id die#uhhhhh yeah no! if you saw my favourite brushes post youll see them in here HAHA#mostly lasso fill oil paint hardsoft and palette knife for this one#if anyone has questions or anything id be happy to answer! tho i feel it's fairly self explanatory
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It's pretty wild how I was just wondering if today was the day I was going to get hit by a car while walking to wherever I was walking to and then I ended up getting hit by a car but luckily I didn't die but I did scream a lot and that was kind of cool I don't remember the last time anything ever made me scream like that I'm pretty sure I broke my wrist though
#future me coming back to add the context that i posted this 25 minutes after the fact#THE FIRST THING MY ADRENALINE RIDDLED BRAIN DID WAS SAY 'HEY TUMBLR NEEDS TO KNOW ABOUT THIS' ASDFFSDDFSFSDVCDSVD XDDD#I WAS STILL PLANNING ON WALKING IT OFF and ngl it would've been a much better use of my day if i had but I KNOW I KNOW IKNOWWWWWWW#going to the doctor was the right thing. i did it OK. i didn't want to do it but i DID and no one had to convince me i did it ON MY OWN OK#but i wish i wouldn't have XDDD coulda slapped a brace on meself and popped some ibuprofen in no time#and not wasted the whole day haha#'but then you would've lied awake all night worrying' yeah whatever i did that anyway
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#fifth doctor#ainley!master#doctor x master#dwedit#dw#*#ainley's really like. oh damn my first plan of killing him by sending him back to the big bang didn't work? it's ok i've got a backup plan:#i'll make a lil town for him to rest and recover from his regeneration sickness and i'll make sure he gets enough sleep and tuck him into#bed and give him a kiss goodnight and#(pls ignore the black lines on some of these i am not going back and recropping ty)
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Tagged by @soyouwinagain to post 6 photos from my camera roll in the past week, thank you comrade, I was hoping someone would tag me 🫡🫡 except then I had to go back a couple weeks otherwise all six photos would have been my dog at a cocktail garden.
Ivan Fedotov and Erik Johnson at Flyers training camp, Fedotov in full Russian saint mode; a flower outside of an Indian restaurant; Yankees outfielders running away from each other and I'm so mad I only got them running back to position bc they were being SO cute while a reliever was warming up; Keats at the aforementioned cocktail garden, he was sweatin'; giant rotting boat outside of Ikea; boxes containing all of my earthly possessions.
#having a good day 😭 went to rittenhouse to hang with sierra while they did work then went to a flyers rally and got free stuff#heroically refrained from asking flyers reporters about danny briere's plan for eetu mäkiniemi during the q&a#took the bus all by myself!!!! an actualy achievement lol i'm so scared of buses and i was so worried i would end up in like delaware#but i did not i ended up at my house#so now i feel much more confident about taking the bus..exposure therapy LMAO#went to a pizza place near me i have not been too and it FUCKS#my new favorite thing to do rn is if i can eat anything on the menu and its super slow in the restaurant is to ask#what the cashier or server recommends. way better than if i were just panicking and ordered cheese pizza#i need to start unpacking my art supplies and bathe my dog but overall...VERY good day so far#if the padres and the phillies pull through we'll be in good shape#OH!!!! AND EVERYONE BEING SO SO BRAVE FOR TEAM LIFT FEST!!!#ME N MAX ARE SOOOO PROUD OF EVERYONE AND I'M SOOOO EXCITED TO SEE WHAT THE NEXT TWO WEEKS BRINGS!!!!#i've been having some frustrations with myself bc there was a lot of stuff i should have scaled down and didn't#and my ethos running this w max is way different than fth but none of the sign up materials reflect that#which i'm frustrated with myself for not thinking through more carefully and conscientiously#even tho going into this we knew so much of the fest was going to be us throwing puddy at the wall and seeing what sticks#but i have been frustrated with myself for not thinking through how materials like the sign up form don't reflect the like spirit of how we#wanted to run it#so it's really nice to see that people are being really brave and getting excited for each other and getting excited for what's#being offered#i'm sooooo excited!!!!!!!!!#ok i'm done lol i have to finish this soda and face the disaster that is how i packed my art supplies#when i can do art again. know.#fresno oilers.txt
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#ok ramble time#classic this feels too intimate to share with anyone so everyone gets it#essentially last week there was a suicide on campus#he was not one of my students or in our department#I'm pretty removed from it#ans i really didn't think it affected me#but i guess it has#bc like i thought i was over#✨this✨#Like ok i have had active plans in the past#one of those this is how this is when this is where#just waiting for the final straw#but i clearly never did#and that plan would no longer work due to changes in circumstances and living arrangements etc#which is honestly probably for the best#bc i refuse to make a new one bc i know i do not want to go there#but im just TIRED and ANXIOUS#its not even the depression its the anxiety of living#i stay up until 3-4 in the morning bc i cant stand the idea of going to sleep#and i secretly hope each sleep will be my last#bc im not going to DO anything bc that would not be it#too many ppl care about me (unfortunately)#and then ive stopped eating (again)#and it's like idek if its bc i dont want to or bc i forget#its like i see myself self destructing but cant make myself stop#and I have not done anything physically stupid in quite a long time but ive started biting to stim#and i dont even know im doing it half the time it just helps#and skin picking. which none or this is the same as true s/h but it does scare me to a degree bc i dont mean to i just do it#anyway i don't expect anyone to read all of this i just had to get it out ot my head
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I'm so happy for you guys and your ugly fucking boyfriend I'm serious.
#cytherea.txt#constantly being oppressed by bioware for not caring very much about solas#like i don't even hate him I'm just completely indifferent but ig now i have no choices worth importing into the fourth game#WHATEVER. whatever.#(this is quoting a meme i don't even think he's ugly he's just not for me)#(don't murder me please)#ok but also people going “ohh the sol/avellan reunion is gonna be so emotional#“ and it's like YEAH BUT WHAT ABOUT EVERYONE WHO DIDN'T#like you had to play ONE RACE AND GENDER to romance that guy!!! in a game with more romance options than any prior da game!!#sorry that i didn't do the One thing that bioware clearly planned their next game around#WHATEVER#but i'm soooooo happy for you guys!!!!! love and light
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Oh ok. I get now why a lot of people didn't vibe with the ending.
All and all: excellent manga, overall very good final act, too rushed final 2-3 chapters but weak and honestly mediocre epilogue, which makes the high of the ending kind of leave a bitter taste. I think Noda had a good steed and suddenly he had to finish and had to rush all. So the ending in the sense of the final arc was good but the ending proper (final couple chapters) + epilogue......... Not so much
#i liked rhe ending (though made the mistake to read comments so now I'm like 'yeah you are right that did not make sense' when on my own i#probably would not have noticed. but ok. I'll work my suspension of disbelief. HOWEVER the epilogue WAS indeed very lackluster#i get it's an epilogue but it was so rushed. we barely get a closure for ume and saichi and tanigaki did not get to#take asirpa back to uci as he should have (though he was instrumental for that). overall it was super rushed#like we did not even see how Sugimoto was rescued. the epilogue was faaaar too rushed tbh and also too vague in parts#siraishi not really saying goodbye.... also sugimoto and asirpa living together that's cute idc and i think the line into nastyness was not#crossed but oh boy is it a thin thread... i still choose to believe they are platonic soulmates lol but i want to see an official#translation of the volume that's all i say. what else... oh yes. the way the gold never got to actually be distributed doesn't sit right#with me at all but the worst part was definitely the sugimoto/ume thing oh god that was BAD#we did get to see osoma which was cute#OH AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON VASILY??? We didn't even see him. the epoligue for him in particular was great though but his ending was not#like he just hanged around ogata gor chapters and chapters on end and we don't even get a glimpse of him during the final showdown??#tbh i think noda wanted to do something more with him but realized he did not quite fit into the story and in the end got#caught up with all the main lines he did have to close and he obviously had planned and probably combined with his own exhaustion well#did not go nice for vasily! i also would have liked a more proper epilogue for tsukishima and koito. they deserved it#I don't like how pre-epilogue the tsukishima-tsurumi-koito tension seems to reach a breaking point only to kind of not get resolved because#they have to keep fighting lol.#laura reads#also i get the sentiment of the ending regarding the ainu and i think noda did his best but it seems like a rather soft thing for asirpa to#do like... sure. museums and stuff. i GET it but it goes a little too soft in the actual colonialism that went on from the japanese. i feel#noda starts off fairly critical of that but in the end softens his stance which is a shame but ok. the bar is in hell so this is actually#much better than average from what i can personally gather of my little knowledge#golden kamuy#gk spoilers
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