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anyon-else · 2 years ago
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i’m doing midterms right now but i’ve been inspired this weekend i guess bc i started the next chapter of the red room from scratch bc i wasn’t happy with it at all and now i have 4k words so far. also i got over my writers block that was specifically targeted at the hunger games and figured out how i wanted to structure the next chapter. i apologize for how slow i am with getting chapters out. i also apologize for the fact that i am probably going to continue to be slow. BUT the fact that i’m slow absolutely does not mean that anything is being abandoned. it just means i want to give y’all the best content possible. mwah.
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demigods-posts · 4 months ago
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i'm one hundred percent certain that after percy and annabeth made out underwater. and he wanted to make their relationship official. the question was not "will you be my girlfriend?" but "can i be your boyfriend?" i don't care what the canon says. percy gave annabeth the space to take the lead in the relationship. because after a lifetime of being abandoned by everyone she dared to care for. and then watching her on the brink of a panic attack at the thought of losing him the last four years. he wanted to honor a new beginning between them by follow her lead and moving at her pace.
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grinsgrimmy · 24 days ago
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A G A I N .
ㅤᯓᡣ𐭩 𝖢𝖨𝖤𝖫 𝗑 𝖠𝖥𝖠𝖡!𝖱𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋
HOW TO REJECT MY OBSESSIVE EX-HUSBAND
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๋࣭⭑ֶֶֶָָָ֢֢֢𖹭 oneshot . (2064 words)
sum. ciel, haunted by the regret of his past life where he failed to love you, he showered you with affection in the second life, wanting you back.
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“wife.”
ciel purred. he wrapped his arms around your waist from behind, a serene and affectionate smile gracing his often cold face.
his nose pressed against the crook of your neck, you could feel him planting several kisses along your shoulder— as if he were worshipping you.
breathless his eyes gazed back at yours, sparkling with adoration. “talk to me, wife,” ciel pleaded gently, pressing a loving kiss to your cheek.
you could only remain silent, flustered. though a part of your being hated him to the core, you could not help but melt into his affections.
you refused to give him any ounce of reaction that could feed his excitement.
ciel was intentionally doing this. barging into your bedroom in the middle of the night, begging for your attention and guiding. when you refused, he opted to drown you in his affections, hoping to chop down that guard you put up.
there was an incredibly good reason why you refused to open up to him. even ciel respected that choice you made because he was aware of it himself.
in your previous lives, he never did love you the way he did in your second life. before, he was reserved, stern, and cold. he was flawed in many ways. he was restricted from loving you due to his circumstances.
though he loved you all the same and more when he lost you.
life really showed him how much he took you for granted when you were killed by a monster that one day. ciel could remember it clearly, haunted by it that memory.
ciel was not a part of that mission when you had profusely asked him to. he reluctantly had to refuse you since he was busy with other matters, unfortunately.
but how much he regretted refusing you that day.
everyone in your team returned safe. except you.
you, who was killed brutally by a monster after recklessly deciding to risk your life for another guide. the team came home with the devastating news that soon reached his ears.
the team did not bother to recover your body. they gave an excuse that your body was not recoverable. ciel refused to believe that.
he burnt down the entire building into ashes that day, out of grief and terror, killing himself and everyone in it.
when he woke up, he returned to his world. his original world. and in the past too.
regardless, he vowed to love you again if he found you in his second life. he thought he needed to go back to the other world to find you.
to his luck, you reincarnated into his world. it did not take him long to trace you.
how did he know?
ciel remembered you, you every being. from your expressions to the way you move, to your preferences, to your scent, the way your guiding feels— everything.
he is obsessed with everything about you.
at first, the reincarnated you gave tiny signs. you had expressions and a pattern of speaking similar to the past you, ciel noticed. then, it went to your talents and skills. eerily similar to you.
then, he was blessed to receive your guiding.
your guiding.
one of the reasons why he felt incredibly blessed to have met you, to have you as his only guide. undenying pleasure and comfort. that was what your guide did to him.
you became his home. his home that he took for granted. his home that he should have shown love despite his restrictions.
when ciel felt your reincarnated self's guiding, he knew it was you. his wife. his dearest wife.
as if the hollow soul of his was resorted, your guiding washed over him like the gentlest of waves.
he clung onto you ever since then, following you like a lost puppy. you never gave any confirmation that you were his wife from his former life, but he does not need any vocal confirmation from you.
your guiding proved everything to him. you two are still linked, even after death.
you refused to open up to him. he understood why. he was never a good partner, or a good husband to you.
ciel was utmost cold to you, to everyone.
though no words could excuse his actions, but his coldness stemmed from the fact that he was taken from his real home and was forced to become a lab experiment and soldier due to how strong he was as an esper.
he could not show his emotions.
you could be in danger because of it.
you were, in every way, his weakness. his only weakness.
you died before he could even show you an ounce of his true feelings.
regardless, that was his regret. his only regret. never loving you the way you deserved.
therefore, he wishes to love you properly then. with you in this world with him. no one to force him around, no city to save— he could focus on you and solely you.
but you refused him. for months.
ciel refused to give up.
you were guarded, only to him. the unspoken pain clung onto you, the one that was haunted by the past. the one that made you incredibly wary of him, unable to trust him.
since in two of yours' first lives, you gave him the world.
ciel did not return it back then. he could not either way.
but he wished to give you the world now.
he longed for you.
with your every denial, rejection, and refusal, it only deepened his longing. it stirred the fierce and fiery need within him to protect you and to make amends for all those moments he had failed and disappointed you.
even if it takes years. or the next life.
he wishes to love you just as you loved him back then.
ciel began to grow desperate— obsessed. he used any means within his power to string you back to him.
he is a duke in his world. he had every power to create a lot of obstacles within your life that could end you back to him.
was he crazy for this? absolutely.
but ciel never saw it as something incredibly wrong when all he wanted to do was worship the ground you walked on.
he showered you with gifts—anything your heart desires, he could send it to your front door in a matter of seconds if he could.
anything.
but ciel never got mad over your wary heart. only hurt. disappointed, but he respected it. wholeheartedly.
in a way, he knew he deserved it.
ciel should have, at least, shown you how much he truly loved you back then. but he was a coward, until the end.
he was not going to give up on the opportunity anymore. even if he was going to be called insane, obsessed, and crazy by you. he would not stop.
ciel knew your heart beat the same speed as his whenever you two were together.
he knew, deep down, you still loved him despite everything.
because it is you. the sweet person that you are. a woman he never deserved, but his lives were blessed for him to meet you. to have you.
“i love you,” ciel whispered lovingly into your ear. a giddish grin on his lips, his cheeks flushed red as he continued to plant kisses all over your neck, hoping you would react.
you did not budge. you refuse to.
but your heart skipped a beat when he proclaimed his love to you.
until he decided to whisper into your ear, “wife, i love you, truly,” he repeated again, kissing your jawline, reverring in your warmth.
you could feel his heartbeat pounding against your back, the rhythm mirroring the emotions he was expressing. each of his words was a thread woven with vulnerability, regret, and a depth of longing that surpassed lifetimes.
he held you close to himself. “i will love you now,” he muttered weakly, gritting his teeth. “as i now have a chance to love you freely without any shackles,” his saddened yet loving eyes slowly met yours.
“even if it takes another lifetime for you to forgive me, i will love you until the next,” a promise that transcends the universe.
he hoped to peel the layers of past misunderstandings, showing the aching remorse he harboured deep within since his first life.
your chest clenched. you knew what he said was genuine. his eyes said it all.
you had spent a few years since you got reincarnated to nurse the wounds of an unreturned love from your past life— only for the man who caused it to return to you, holding you like a lifeline amidst a storm.
the memories, the loneliness, and the betrayal lingered, holding you back like invisible chains. but yet, you ended up accepting his love.
he pressed desperate kisses onto your shoulder, your neck, your cheek, then your forehead, but he never leaned to your lips.
he knew that needed to be earned.
ciel wanted to earn it.
ciel let out a shaky sigh, resting his forehead on the back of your head. he was falling apart at the seams.
a part of him wished you never remembered your shared past life. he wanted to sweep you away and begin a fresh new start with you.
but that would be absolutely selfish of him.
he would have never redeemed himself if so.
“i'll never let you go again,” he vowed, kissing the top of your head. “i'll wait for you, i swear,” he left a sloppy kiss on your neck, desperate. he could feel tears stinging the corners of his eyes as he gripped onto you.
you never gave him an answer; you could not.
your heart thundered painfully in your chest. you were torn between the past and present. you yearned to lean on him, to believe things could truly be different as he promised.
but your memories of your unreturned love held you back.
“i can't undo the past,” ciel muttered brokenly, grasping onto you as if you would disappear if he let go. “but i want to show you the love you deserved now and then,” he murmured quietly with honesty.
for the first time, it was you who looked at him, letting his words sink in. his eyes were shimmering, no longer cold and dead as you once knew. the sincerity, it was almost overwhelming.
ciel was different.
you could feel the weight of his regret, the depth of his untold love, and the weakness he had solely for you. all bare and vulnerable.
slowly but surely, your hand rested on top of his—
contact guiding.
you willingly gave it.
you willingly gave your guiding to him.
ciel gasped, his cheeks immediately flushed red as he choked up in pleasure at the overwhelming comfort of the feeling.
his heartbeat increased, and his hands moved from your waist to grip yours. his longing eyes, filled with love, met yours. “m, may i?” ciel choked out, his entire face decorated with a bright colour of red.
you knew what he meant.
despite the shackles of the past, you nodded. you allowed him.
because in the end, no matter what he did, you still love him so. you were a fool like that.
at your nod, ciel quickly grabbed you by your hips to turn you around. his hands gently yet urgently cup your cheeks.
his eyes scanned your face, as if searching for hesistance, any ounce of rejection— there were none.
he dived down to your lips, locking his with yours. the kiss was tender, as if ciel was pouring every lifetime's worth of regret and love into it.
his lips trembled against yours, fearing you would pull away out of regret. he held you close, his touch spreading a gentle warmth through you.
you tried pulling away from the kiss, but he dived back down to your lips. he intertwined your fingers with his.
the chains of the past, one by one, were beginning to lift, replacing that guarded heart of yours with hope of something new.
you could never forget the past, but maybe.
maybe he could be the partner you had dreamt of him to be.
that night, he whispered words of love and devotion into the quiet night that belonged to both of you.
you allowed yourself to love again. in his arms.
and for ciel, maybe one day you will say you life him again.
he awaits for that day.
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theladyofrosewater · 7 months ago
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So I was browsing the MCD wiki (which sidenote thank you @/lggy for maintaining the wiki you are a godsend) and I noticed that because of the sepia or whatever filter they used, Zianna and Aaron's wife Lilly look really similar so I thought "what if I made them sisters"
THINK ABOUT IT FOR A SECOND. If I make it so that Lilly and Aaron get married early that would effectively make Zianna the sister of the Lord of Falconclaw and a pretty valuable person to marry in terms of alliances so Zianna would make the decision to marry Garte and therefore O'Khasis would never move on Falconclaw and hey if Garte died early (most descendants of Esmund have a habit of dying young in my rewrite) that would effectively let Zianna rule O'Khasis as long as she had an heir that could wield Esmund's relic.
It also would make Aaron more involved in the plot because I will be honest, while I do not hate Aaron because I can separate him from Jason enough. Aaron feels like a character who would have been a one-off character or at least one who was a side character to the level of say Lucinda. I know the Divine Warriors and Irene are supposed to be the kinda main story but I will be honest with you the Ro'Meaves and their absolute chaos are way more interesting to me. Zane was the season one's villain, Garroth and Vylad were mysteries that we got to upwrap with both Ru'aun as a whole and some stuff about the Shadow Knights. In making Aaron Zianna's brother-in-law and the uncle of Garroth, Zane and Vylad to me, besides just making him more connected to the main plot, does two main things.
Aaron in current MCD canon is really only connected to two characters Aphmau and Zane. I'm changing his relationship to Aph to be more of a mentorship one because I think he sees the young daughter he and his wife wanted to have but never got too because of Zane. to me it makes the massacre at Falconclaw be that much more personal because instead of this random priest just killing your wife, child, and entire village for no real reason imagine this. You're a lord of a village and relatively recently two of your nephews have died and one of them quite gruesomely, you've got one nephew left and he requests a family visit and you accept because hey the kid has always been a bit weird but he just lost both of his brothers and he probably needs support right now so you extend an invitation for him to visit. He gets there and he somehow got to be the head of the major religion in your area and the kid's not even 19 yet and looks like he hasn't slept in days so you rush the tour and send him to your home, maybe your wife can get him to eat something, or your son might cheer him up for at least a little while. You think nothing of it and keep doing your job until you hear screaming and see so many dead. Your wife is dead, your son is dead everyone is dead and the only one alive is your nephew and when he looks at you he fucking smiles and says it "it was necessary but don't worry I'm sure you'll join them soon enough" before walking off leaving you to bury bodies for years. Making Aaron be related to the Ro'meaves in my opinion changes his story from just a fridging backstory to a classic tragedy because it becomes a betrayal bathed and forged from blood.
I think it would give him a better motivation to risk his life to get Garroth back and it would make him interact with the other characters because he wants to know what kind of man his non-evil nephew turned into. That causes him to be more and more social with everyone. Maybe he spars and trains with Katelyn, He teaches Dante and his kids how to fish because Aaron never got to teach Jacob how, but still wants to pass on that skill. Maybe he knows things about shadow knights that most people don't, and he promises to teach Laurance in case he might help him. Maybe he takes Travis hunting because Travis never got to go on hunting trips with a parent. And then he sacrifices himself. Katelyn ignores the painful feeling she gets when she looks at the spare chalk and wrappings she has for spars. The fishing poles in Dante's house get covered with dust and cobwebs, the strings rotting away and snapping. Laurance and maybe Vylad struggling with being shadow knights as the call gets stronger and wondering if Aaron would have known how to deal with it. Travis out of anger snaps his bow in half before realizing what he did and breaking down. I want Garroth to be horrified when he finally is home and realizes just who they lost to get him back. I want them to care about him and I want his sacrifice to be more than love triangle fodder
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triglycercule · 16 days ago
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HELP I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING HELP!!! HELP!!!!! its not don yet,,,,,, eoaugh. shoutout to like the 20 coloring/rendering tips and tutorial videos i watched you all did NOTHING to help. GOD. how hard is is to get a tutorial and help for something that actually ISNT naturally intuitive to me???
waaa waaa lineart hard 🥺🥺 waaa waaa sketching hard!!! ok man how about you struggle with figuring out basic color palettes (color is my absolute worst element of art ive yet to even improve on. this backfired on me i shouldve done more coloring pages when i was younger)
#ok but after like 30 minutes of fighting with the colors i do really like the color scheme i did with this..... like#i tried to keep everything desaturated. but also yellow warmish toned#yellow is supposed to be joyful happy yippee but this is NOT a good moment (for killer at least)#so i desaturated it. idk if that got the intended look but i wanted it to be a bit of like a twisted feeling moment#and then the red against the black of his dt vomit is like to show a contrast between the yellow#which could be calming if it was just left on its own to portray intensity and pain and yadayada#can you tell i love color psychology. can you tell. but i cant even apply any of the stuff ive learned at all#I HATE COLOR I HATE TEXTURE!!!! I HAVE ART OPPS AND THOSE TWO ELEMENTS ARE THE OPPS BRO#im glad i chose killer's as first since compared to horror's and dust's in this series his is the most normal ish#i dont know how to improve this anymore but i'll figure something out i guess idk.... art man#i think i deserve to eat a poundcake to congratulate myself for this. at least i got colors down#the tutorial lady said i should figure out color palette and placement first on the piece#and then i should do the actual thing afterwards and kinda clean things up after i figured everything out#worst feeling when you understand a concept in your head but you can't depict it on paper UGH#i have no idea how to draw buttercups btw. in fact any flower. i cannot draw nature#maaaaan i suck ass at this art shit bro i should just give up#nooo noooo..... lifelessly reanimates my disappointed body...... ink would be sad if i gave up#that stupid little skeleton is lucky he's a cool enough concept of a character to motivate me. thank you ink........#tricule rant
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batfossil-fr · 7 months ago
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I’ve been really thinking of reopening my art shop soon… I’ve been taking some practice doodles (hence all the posting lately) while I shake off my rust and I’m finding things I enjoy working on again. I miss trying my hand at more dragons/OCs and colors. my shop’s so broken rn lmao but that’s a problem for a later date it’s just nice getting back into art
#my mental health is starting to improve a bit#took a couple years but I found some meds that finally work better for me#ofc things aren’t 100% but I was really in a pit for a while#like ‘did not leave my house in months and slept 14 hours a day’ kind of pit#so. any improvement is better lol. but nah I’ve been making real improvement and im doing better. a lil shaky sometimes but that’s expected#diagnosed with chronic fatigue too. which is unfortunate but not unexpected. i am indeed god’s sleepiest soldier#i feel like a raisin slowly rehydrating but considering i was in a desert before any hydration is welcome#just learning how to enjoy things again overall#one thing I just couldn’t get myself to do (and enjoy) was art. doodles here and there but nothing to post#and it’s kind of funny because I feel like that downtime actually gave me a chance to think about what I wanted to work on#even when I wasn’t actively practicing#just paying attention to things I guess. enjoying art styles#i genuinely think my experimenting with stained is helping me learn colors#i spend hours in the scryshop im glad it’s paying off lmao#i want to tackle bigger things but i just gotta ease myself into the hang of things again#for now im having fun and that’s coooool. thank you all for your nice comments#i read all tags while kicking my feet and giggling. thank u all#that’s the update on Me tho. more to come hopefully#starting next month/julyish I will have a significant amount of time to dedicate to drawing which i intend on doing#so who knooowwwsss#rambles#funny enough coloring has become my favorite part of the process now. it used to be lineart. now lineart annoys me LOL#i also feel like i kinda lost my ability to write which has been frustrating but im focusing on art first#anyways that’s a whole different tangent rant over
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teatitty · 5 months ago
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Honestly your takes on Iruka are so refreshing this fandom treats him like he’s not a ninja and it’s so weird because he has quite a few A ranks under his belt along with being noted as having great potential I kind of wish it was explored more but who knows
You're so welcome because I've read many a fic where people act like he'd clutch his pearls over killing someone like guys. Fellas. He's been on multiple B and A rank missions. He's absolutely fucking killed many people before, not to mention all the times lower ranked missions simply Go To Hell or a client lies about how dangerous a job is etc. Shit happens. He's literally training kids to be killers he would not be doing that if he had some uwu innocent civilian mindset
And he has three chakra natures! Fire, Water and Yin, as taken from his actual databooks. There's so much you can do with that alone just by looking the various jutsu in those three categories! We know he uses strong barrier seals so it makes sense for so many of us to have him as an excuse to create Seal Jutsu lore but you can expand outside of it too!
His basics would be fucking flawless given how often he has to teach them to kids, his aim with a kunai or shuriken is probably immaculate, like sure in a 1V1 taijutsu fight he's not beating Gai because Gai is a literal expert at that style but that doesn't mean he can't do decent hand to hand against other shinobi and bandits and fighters!
I saw someone complain once that some fans make him overpowered enough to "break the canon" and that has me going tch because like. Kishimoto broke his own canon powerscaling all the time. The Sannin. Sasuke and Naruto. Pain. Madara and Hashirama. Kakuzu and Hidan. Obito for a long while. Fucking Danzo even. If canon is allowed to break itself multiple times then so are we
Cringe is dead make your faves as overpowered as you want for the stories you want to tell. For instance: me making Sakura the hokage in my canon instead of Naruto and having Ino and Hinata as her ANBU guards. Yanno
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haifischkivenchy · 2 months ago
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hate when like some of the best stories ever told is in a robot franchise bc nobody will ever take them seriously
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charmac · 8 months ago
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i don't think people hcing charlie as transfem are trying to dismiss the transmasc charlie hc! i think it's more of a projection thing for a lot of people, since i know at least a few of the main people who enjoy the headcanon are transfem themselves!! i don't think you have much to worry about in terms of people dismissing the tmasc or other genderqueer charlie hc anyways, since it's already much more popular! i think you're perhaps being a bit too critical.
I've literally never said anything like this at all, I think you've either misinterpreted something else I've said or have the wrong blog.
All of my Charlie gender-based posts or reblogs I've stated/tagged that I think any interpretation of Charlie's gender can make sense, be it transmasculine, transfeminine, nonbinary, agender, whatever you want.
I am one of the ~3 blogs that has access to The Bathroom Problem script and who posted and pointed out that you can make out/slightly hear the Joyce cuts in the episode itself. I would not have excitedly shared that for open-interpretation if I was "worried" people are "dismissing" transmasc Charlie headcanons. (Which, again, I've literally never said, but in any case, I believe it's valid for anyone to dismiss a headcanon they don't agree with, fandom is a sandbox.)
What I personally don't care for are genderbends and, almost by extension, analysis/meta on canon scenes that rename/re-gender the characters with no basis (or, one that comes off wrong). Both topics I've literally never publicly spoken out against here, nor have I said anything bad/negative to everyone who personally enjoys these things, so there is no way for me to possibly be "too critical" in that regard. I keep most of my opinions to myself and my close mutuals, almost exactly for what you're saying: I personally don't want to harsh or dismiss anyone's headcanons.
I have never said, and have never meant to imply, that anyone interpreting Charlie as transfem is attempting to dismiss anyone else's headcanon (which again would be a non issue to me anyway).
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im-a-bit-deranged-me-think · 3 months ago
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Now, you who has set foot in this world. Your journey has reached its end, but one final doorway remains. Step forth, if you have understood the meaning of your journey. Defeat me, command me to step aside, show me that you are worthier than I to rescue her. Then, the threads of all fate will be yours to re-weave. My memory has all but faded completely... But I will always remember how much she too, loved these flowers.
—Dainsleif, Teyvat Chapter Storyline Preview
BITCH NO. DAIN IS THE FINAL BOSS??? I AINT COMMANDING YOU TO STEP ASIDE SIR. I AM DYING. I WILL MEET MY DEMISE. DID YOU SEE HIM PUTTING THAT PROTECTIVE BARRIER AROUND US DURING THAT QUEST??? WHAT THE FUCK? I CANT FIGHT DAINSLEIF. HE TOO STRONG (and hot-) I WILL DIE.
anyways soo. who is she? lumine? she has inteyvats (“these flowers”) in her hair so is it her? also, the final quest of genshin should be called “The Sea of Flowers in the End” (did i capitalize that correctly?) who does dain wanna rescue? WAS DAIN IN LOVE??? his last sentence makes it seem like he may have loved “her”. My memory has all but faded completely… But I will always remember how much she too, loved these flowers.
it sounds like “she” may have been his lover or smth. dain in love? im actually kinda here for it tbh. or i might be overthinking cuz i know shit about the lore. i had to read about every. single. damn. thing. in every. single. archon. quest.
i wanna actually skip the entirety of natlan jus for snezhnaya cuz like, yess??? i want snezhnaya. i wanna infiltrate a few fatui strongholds (maybe meet pantalone i simp-) i wanna see the tsaritsa cuz we know what mauvika (pyro archon) or smth looks like. dont know bout you but i dont actually really like her design. idk why i dont like gingers (childe is an exception) her and aloy just arent it (nobody likes aloy anyway) also, arent her (pyro archon) and zhonglis japanese voice actors married? i will pull for her JUST to put her and zhongli in one team*. unless shes strong, ofc. if shes like, alhaitham level strong then bitch ill main her (ill just switch between her, alhaitham, and scara. simple.) but besides that, if she isnt strong and/or doesnt make exploring easier then i dont see a reason to main her. the archons should be strong, theyre fucking gods if theyre weak thats wrong. for ex, zhongli drops THE FUCKING MOON ON YOU for his burst, ei whips out an EYE??? and slashes you with the ELECTRO-LIGHTNING-POWERED-BOOBA-KATANA-SWORD, venti summons a LITERAL BLACK HOLE as his burst, nahidaaa… nahida, gives you… free housing? with furina you can turn into JESUS and WALK ON WATER (idk if this counts but neuvilette kills ANYTHING and EVERYTHING within like oh, i dont know! THREE SECONDS???)
*if guizhong ever becomes playable somehow (ik shes dead but still) then scratch that i will pull for guizhong and put HER and zhongli together just because, lovers shouldnt be seperated.
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rollercoasterwords · 2 years ago
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I have, a genuine question for you. Do you acknowledge the racism in the original AYTD or at least know about it? Like how MsKingBean uses slurs and racist stereotypes?
hey, so, i'm a bit apprehensive about answering this because...it doesn't feel like a very geniune question to me, if i'm being honest. "do you acknowledge x thing" is a question that is inherently set up so that i'm meant to answer "yes, i acknowledge that x thing is true," because the alternative is saying "no, i don't acknowledge that x thing is true," which is already framing this interaction as if to disagree with you would be a kind of failure on my part to do some due diligence of engaging critically with a text. and the fact that you say mskingbean89 used slurs in atyd shows me that you haven't even engaged with the text, because that simply...isn't true.
if what you're referring to when you say "slurs" is the anti-romani stereotypes--this is coming from an extra chapter in the bootleg tapes focusing on greyback, where there is a slur used to describe his living situation + he + his family were portrayed as nomadic irish people in a way that was insensitive. people who read that chapter and then went back to the canon story with that characterization in mind rightfully pointed out that it was fucked-up. mskingbean89 addressed those criticisms by adding this note to the beginning of that bootleg chapter:
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personally, i think this was a good way to take accountability + acknowledge the mistakes she made with that portrayal. she was a human being who made an ignorant mistake, which then just happened to get absolutely blasted to millions of people--she did not have sensitivity readers or editors looking over her fanfiction, because she did not write it expecting it to reach the level of popularity that it has. to be honest, i am not really sure how she could have better acknowledged her mistake, aside from just....not having made it in the first place. she explains her intentions without acting as though that intent cancels out harm, owns up to the fact that the stereotyping was harmful regardless of intention, and provides resources to learn while also committing to be more mindful + educate herself moving forward. honestly, that's exactly the response i would hope to see from someone who makes a mistake like this one.
i agree with you that people reading atyd should acknowledge + understand the racism regarding romani stereotypes stemming from that bootleg chapter, which is why i think it's great that there is a note literally built into the beginning of that chapter acknowledging it! but i feel as though there's been this like...game of telephone happening online when it comes to atyd, where there are now people who have never even read the story talking about things that quite literally do not appear in the base text itself. i've also seen people acting as though mkb herself did not address these issues when they were raised to her, which is just...patently false.
and so what i'm wondering here is what you're looking for from me when you ask a question like "do you acknowledge the racism in atyd." anyone who actually reads the texts has to acknowledge the racism in that bootleg chapter, because mkb puts that acknowledgment front and center at the beginning. and also like...in the part of the fandom i'm in, in the conversations i've listened to or taken part of regarding atyd, people have acknowledged the issues with that bootleg chapter and the ways it reflects back on the main story. so what do you mean by "acknowledge" when so many people, including mkb herself, have already... acknowledged it? what action are you calling for, and who are you calling for it from?
because like. if what u actually want to say here is that atyd is Irredeemably Problematic and we should all like....shun it? universally agree that it's Bad? then it's just like. it is up to each individual reading the story to decide whether that specific portrayal of greyback in the bootleg chapters is something that ruins the story completely for them or whether they still think the story as a whole holds worth. personally, i feel like i can acknowledge that there are issues with mkb's portrayal of greyback and i need to be mindful of that when reading the story so as not to internalize harmful stereotypes while still finding atyd to be a masterpiece that really beautifully deals with a lot of nuanced issues regarding class and disability and systems of power. this is just part of thinking critically when you read; many famous and beloved works of fiction contain the biases of their authors or have mistakes or issues in the way they portray things that are a product of ignorance. and i know everyone reading marauders fanfiction should understand this, because if u genuinely think that a character being negatively stereotyped means u should throw the entire work in the trash, then none of u would be touching harry potter fanfiction with a five foot pole in the first place.
so, anon - if you have actually read atyd, and there are issues with racism that you have found that i am unaware of, and not just telephone-game twitter posts of people taking shit out of context that you're accepting as truth without bothering to engage with the work yourself--if you want to have a real conversation about it, i would invite you to come to me as an actual person and not an anonymous ghost in my inbox. my dms are open, but when it comes to talking about serious issues, i tend to find it more genuine if the person coming to me actually cares enough and believes in what they're saying enough to say it as themself. and if you haven't read atyd and are just parroting things you've heard other people say online then i would invite you to actually sit down and read the work and form your own opinions on it before getting back to me. i know that might sound harsh, but honestly i'm just completely fed-up at this point with all the bad-faith takes and misinformation that i've seen people spreading about atyd just because they think it's cool to dislike a popular thing.
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fairy-ganj-mother · 2 months ago
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managing your parents emotions is so exhausting
#eldest daughter#lol#my stepdad made me yell and cry and now i'm 16 years old again and scared and confused#he insulted me unprovoked publicly/on my front lawn and in onslaught and my mother did nothing to defend me#probably been happening my whole life and I haven't been able to figure it out until it was on my turf#yelled at me that i had no common sense and was stupid because i didn't put down grass seed#i have a degree in soil science and a fucking plan but he didn't want to hear any of that#just wanted to insult me loudly on my front lawn unprovoked after raking up all my leaves without being asked to#(i intended to mulch and leave them as ground cover... to protect the soil.........which he was yelling at me because the soil is uncovered#then he mowed the weeds down to the soil#and yelled at me that my bare soil was all going to blow away#BRO YOU MADE IT BARE#yelled 'it screams lack of common sense'#becuase I didn't plant grass FIRST THING when we moved in#our house wasn't livable INSIDE when we bought it and now it's great and we worked hard so we had other fucking priorities#also I seeded cover crop and it didn't germinate bc it needed more water than I could give it in CO#like grass lawn is the past and unsustainable and I'm not interested and I'm planning on seeding clover but not 2 days before the frost????#so annoying#and like he's still a parental figure right so that's like just an awful layer to have in this bc he's such an immature bully#and I forgot to have my trauma senses turned on to know his emotions before he does in my own home so he got me#didn't even get into the whole my moms lack of defense of me part#fuck this shit#t#at least ranting in my tags usually helps me stop crying
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ask-andante · 8 months ago
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Would you say you've ever rewritten plot? Or have you always known how you wanted the story to go?
I've rewritten the plot so many times BSDBFBSDFB. Originally the plan was that everyone was gonna die but I didn't know how , and then months later I had a dream about a giant Uxie by a stone wall, the seas stretching behind them, and their eyes were pure black... I designed the Mythics based off of it.
A lot of key points I had planned since around then but things have been tweaked a lot over time, and a lot of things were improvised. I think the askblog format sort of encourages improvising, there's a lot of unpredictable asks/interactions, and for some blogs they'll do things comboed with other blogs that weren't planned for initially (like the thing with Deva wasn't planned for right away).
imo, I think making shit up as you go between key points is fine and fun. Do what you want, shitton of super popular anime are defiNITELY made up as they went. Entertainment is entertainment, like sure strive to do your best, but long as you have fun yanno?
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sevenangrybees · 8 months ago
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Sometimes things bother me
#and i 100% dont say them out loud on the internet cause i dont wanna get crucified#but people distilling shit around chillchuck to just being “shotacon” pisses me off for reasons i know they dont intend#like i relate to chillchuck because im a disabled person#specifically a wheelchair user#ryoko kui did a perspective study of the party from chilchuck's perspective#and of where his eyeline is at on everyone's body#and i haven't felt more seen by anything in a long fucking time#like god chilchuck would understand how fucking awful it feels to be crammed in an elevator right at stomach and crotch height with everyone#and more than just that gut personal relation#half-foots like disabled people live shorter lives and its not clear if thats natural#or if its because they're seen as disposable#and the infantalization is so fucking textbook ableism#like yall thats a whole ass man#next people are gonna be saying its not okay to ship mithrun because he needs a carer#this is what people mean when they say shipping rots people's brains#it goes both ways#and it makes it impossible to really explore the complex topic of relationships in fiction#the portrayal of those relationships and how they interplay with the wider story#and you just flatten everything to Ship Good and Ship Bad or Shippable and Not Shippable#it makes it impossible to talk about actual problems in fan communities and point out actual dangerous behavior#because everyone's pointing fingers over shit without having proper discussions#and talking about characters like the#they're real people#while ignoring the things real people do do other real people#because they're treating people like characters#chilchuck is a blurry fucking line and because of that the devil is in the details#twitter ruined the internet with it's character limit by eliminating nuance#and all the algorithms eliminated context by shuffling shit out of chronological order#and this whole little mini rant is disjointed as fuck cause im doing it in tags#so i can only see half of my previous thought
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aria0fgold · 27 days ago
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Just been in a daydreaming mood and I ended up accidentally making a pretty neat AU for my dearest sons, Alec and Ray. But now that I'm writing it all down, my brain suddenly came into a screeching halt as I got into the deep philosophies of it and I'm like: hwat--
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entropy-sea-system · 1 year ago
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While g3 is a lot better about including different body types, I feel like ppl are applauding the bare minimum just bc they made Draculaura's doll have a pear shaped ish body but like. Thats just an average body type?? Sorry but thats not far from the body type of our body and we are not considered fat. The rest of the characters are often simply at least a bit skinnier than whats actually average. I feel like Iris Clops and Tundra Bominable are probably the only humanoid body characters whose bodily types even diverge a bit from the norm?? And I feel like they made Clawdeen in the show (and practically every character ofher than Draculaura) very skinny compared to her live action counterpart.. It feels like media franchises want to be lauded for just having a doll and character with an AVERAGE body type and that being "body diversity" for them. Media in general makes it seem like average is "skinny but not so skinny that your bones show"
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