#did i mention shes autistic shes autistic
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me: finally accepting theres a good chance im autistic and starting to work up the courage to ask my parents to see if i could get a diagnoses but being scared to
my mom: do you ever think you have adhd? if you want to do a screening for add next time your at the doctors you can
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#for context im terrified of being the person who sees stuff online and diagnosis themselves and then is wrong#which is why it took me so long to accept im —probably— autistic (bc now i have done research and stuff for it)#and id see adhd things that were relatable but i felt i related more to the autism + self diagnosing both felt weird (for me not in general#but now like. my mom is willing to accept i might have add??#(there was a long talk in between her asking if i ever thought i had it and her saying i could get a screening where we both agreed that#—if i did have it— i didnt have the hyperactive part. hence the add vs adhd thing)#and now that kinda through off my plans because like. what if i do also had adhd. or something#so yeah small crisis woo#i need to actually look i to symptoms and stuff for adhd though#because im not saying anything til i know more about it and if i actually do have a lot of the things#but this also gives me a chance go write about the autism things as well bc i told my mom i would look into the adhd#so now i can hopefully find a way to bring that up#ive mentioned that autism is a spectrum recently which i didnt think she knew before#so progress i guess#wow long rant in the tags whoops#jasper’s posts#moots have some jaz lore i guess
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allison’s grief of her daughter leading her to murder viktor’s son-figure and then make him the bad guy for also grieving the loss of a child is genuinely one of the most insane 180 character arcs i’ve seen from a show in years
#not to mention the fact that harlan was a heavily implied autistic man who was not at fault for what happened#and was murdered in cold blood#compared to claire who did not suffer and just didnt exist#like honestly i use to love allison she was always a fav of mine but her actions in s3 are disgusting not to mention disturbing#and fuck off with the “oh you just don’t understand complex characters” NO BITCH I JUST DONT LIKE HER 😭#tua#the umbrella academy#allison hargreeves#viktor hargreeves#tua seaon 3#harlon tua#harlon cooper
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i go so feral at even the most nonexistent mention of alex rider
‘oh i had an ear infection—‘ YEAH SO DID ALEX AS A BABY SO HE DIDNT DIE IN THE PLANE EXPLOSION WITH HIS PARENTS
‘my friends at a school in wimbledon are always the ball girls for tennis—’ ALEX AND SABINA CODED AAAAAA
these were actual irl conversations.
#sorry to my poor cousin who had to hear this#we havent seen each other in a year but i hadst to mention the alex rider#she did not appreciate my conversation topics#but too bad 🤭🥰☺️😍😌#alex rider#im too autistic for this shit
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Extra one for you guys, they’re eating blueberry pie and having a wonderful time :3
#Throws my autistic Cupid Headcanon at you#The headphones she wears for her mirrorcast are also her ear defenders#Guys I’m Mattel trust me#ever after high#eah#cacupid#cupid#blondielockes#blondie#cupid x blondie#heartlockes#clondie#Blupid#picnic#Did I mention Blondie’s scars btw#She gets mauled by bears#A lot!
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if anyone asks me why i love dovewing so much its because shes.. literally me. little ol' 7 year old me related to her so bad😭 the child prodigy, the gifted kid, everyone having really big expectations for you, people being so jealous of you to the point of hate.. i related to her because i saw her powers as being like my sensory issues, her troubles as being like my insecurities, i could see myself in dovepaw to dovewing. my first warriors book was fading echoes and my first favorite warriors character is dovewing. she was my favorite character and she always will be
#i headcanon her as aromantic and autistic for a reason#i love dovewing..shes 100% one of my comfort characters#i may or may not project onto dovewing#dovewing#i love dovewing#rambling about dovewing & how connected i feel to her and imply how important having a character like her was to me as a neurodivergent kid#did i mention having to mature fast and having a childhood that bares absolutely no resemblance to an actual childhood
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When the pookie sent you a tiktok proposal video and said "us" and she had you saved in her phone as
And here discord bio keeps going on about how she has a crush
#is just platonic righf#i actually cant tell im being drop dead serious#is she hitting on me???? im too autistic to tell#i mean if she asked me out#i wouldnt reject#shws very cute#and pretty#dhss funny and cute#did i mention shes cute#oh no am i falling in love again#god damnit#i call her baby but thats just platonic#we cuddle but its just platonic#we share a bed and snuggle but its just platonic right#is it#is it????#MOOTS TELL ME EHAT TO DO#PLEASE#I NEED HELP#shes 2 years younger then me but shes really mature and shss sweet and cute but idk if shes hitting on me#i swear#MOOTS HELPPPPPPPPP
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its very amusing to me when skilled horticulturists know fuckall about native plants
#personal#referencing the bonsai meeting earlier - i was complimented on my juniper and asked the species#species is juniperus virginiana. of which the common name is eastern redcedar. it is not a cedar.#i told her the common name to which she immediately said “nono... maybe nana juniper?” to which an onlooker disagreed#as did i considering i have a nana and they look nothing alike#and im like “i dug this tree up from my yard. its a seedling from our adult trees. the other tree i brought in today is the same species.”#she did not understand this and kept suggesting things#like this is a tree native to my area that i dug up from my yard. not a nonnative ornamental that was planted intentionally.#i didnt think to mention that it is in fact a juniper because im autistic and bad at thinking of things like that in the moment#anyway. funny in the moment sort of irritating in hindsight
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i have been thinking about that person who rb'd my post about hating yotasuke's mother who is, imo, neglectful at best and actively emotionally abusive at worst, with a huge rant about how actually she's a good mother because she *checks notes* buys clothes for her teenaged son and at one point in a manga extra looked vaguely confused at him engaging in an activity he enjoyed that wasn't art. Because i clicked onto their blog to see if maybe there was some context i was missing for this and the next 6 posts were all about how much they hated that everyone was "treating hikaru ga shinda natsu like it was BL, so gross". the manga that opens with the protagonist talking about how his best friend who he was in love with Came Back Wrong but he loves him too much that destroying his impostor feels like killing the only part of him that is left and he cannot bear doing that.
#not to mention just their insane ableism talking about autistic people who do need outside support to survive and how this disqualifies#their caretakers from being abusive because it's so HAAAAARD to take care of your autistic son he should be grateful she did it at all#which i do not even think yotasuke is i think he is just sort of an awkward person who is. again. a teenager for 90% of the manga.
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Art therapy is so fun because today I just drew pathologic fanart, and my therapist was like, "Awesome, so tell me about it"
#pathologic 2#pathologic#artemy burakh#мор утопия#my post#art therapy#i spent a couple hours playing on my birthday recently and it just made me so happy#i had to explain to my therapist what the game was#at first she was like “are you sure you should be playing that?”#but then she started to get really excited when i told her about how ive been using it to help manage stress n shit#plus hyperfixation mode activated#my stress tolerance and ability to break down tasks has improved so much because of this game#its literally my favourite#sobbing crying#did i mention i love this game?#anyway she said it was very insightful and im so happy because all i had to do was be autistic for half a session#also no. you may not see the image#i didn’t have a reference so its off model lmaooo#may redo the concept on digital ::3
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very very personal, just insight into where im at w my family and things that bother me/have encouraged me to move out
"i know youre moving out so im just gonna say no ones kicking you out and if you feel like this is something you have to do then ok"
thanks! i know im not being kicked out! but yknow i kinda yet a weird vibe when your out of touch husband takes me to a cemetery to yell at me, tell me im just like my father/dont give my father "the time of day", and that im "mean to people who care about me" in front of his dead mother's grave in a poor attempt at guilting me out of speaking my mind. but no yeah thanks for stating the fucking obvious that im leaving on my own terms
#problems!#people seem to underestimate how quick i am to make moves#the job market is piss. cant believe yall two would blame me for being unemployed when all i do from rise to slumber is hound ppl for jobs#im not going to stay in a house where i will be 'scared straight'. that shit doesnt work on me. in fact it has the opposite effect#i respect yall even LESS now#and youre so so fucking lucky one of my goals for next year is to make things right with you it would be easy to cut you off forever#same way i did with my abusive transphobic dad.#my mom is someone i know can do better and can actually listen to reason instead of being stuck in her generation's mentality of#'x is easy if you just do y. you kids have it so easy the world is at your fingertips' blah blah fucking blah#i am autistic i do not keep jobs easily. i am trans jobs do not want me. i am black and perceived as a woman. every customer at all of my#past jobs thinks i am rude or mean or have an attitude when i do nothing but treat others the exact way i would want to be treated#customers dont like what i say? i stop talking. customers dont like when i dont talk? i talk to them. rinse repeat#like i know im the problem here but all of my problems circle back to my autism and the fact that because im not a supergenius or#someone whose special interest is capitalism i fail at every avenue i try to jam myself in.#but yeah no i need to work harder i need to be taken to a FUCKING CEMETERY and yelled at by YOUR HUSBAND for wanting to go to the bathroom#in front of his mothers grave. god rest her soul and yall know im no christian so i actually mean that shit#because in his mind all i want to do is smoke and party. when i smoke because i have fucking migraines and g to shows#(two out of three of them being free and for the purpose of their willingness to 'get me out of the house')#bc i like music and i like engaging w my scene. but no its all violent noise theres no actual purpose or activism behind moshing. nope#its just one big party right. im just wasting my time right. because i like sleepin on a couch every night with no doors to close. yep ok#anyway heres to me getting my meds getting the fuck out and being somewhat far from my scene now that im moving#hows that for smoking and partying all the time huh?#if any of yall read this i am so so sorry. bitching about my stepdad will become a thing i think#hes one of those bible thumpers that are totally boring and indifferent to differences around them and thinks my mom is just like him#in some ways? she is. but she is a people pleaser and will never take her wants or her feelings seriously#because she had the unfortunate upbringing in being brainwashed into thinking her feelings/wants are sinful#shoutout to my christian or catholic mutuals who are fucking normal and dont let some old fantasy novel control your life. peace#religion mention
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I may enjoy redeeming characters that seem like they have a very plausible chance that gently nudging them in the right direction would solve their problems and make them a “better person” and more emotionally stable.
Yes I watched a movie from 2005.
Yes I saw one of the “bad guys” and immediately thought, “oh! You poor traumatized child! Lets get you some help immediately!” Because clearly, he just has mommy issues/severe childhood trauma perpetuated by his mother and could very possibly have gotten a redemption arc after the movie was over.
(I also do this with a lot of other characters from various media, including characters that did bad things trying to be good. Yes Joey Drew from Batim/Batdr is on that list.)
#robots 2005#robots#yes this post is mainly about Ratchet#phineas t. ratchet#phineas t ratchet#I’m autistic. I’ve been conditioned to be constantly hyper aware of bidy language and tone of voice.#phineas t ratchet looks terrified if his own mother at times and there are a lot of scenes where either she does some abusive behaviour#towards her son (her husband/ratchet’s dad too. she even uses what she did to him as a threat) or he passively mentions some abusive stuff#Am I over analyzing this? ABSOLUTELY! will my brain stop? nope!#(I’m still very much primarily fixating on SPG don’t worry guys. but Robots(2005) is similar enough for me to latch on temporarily)
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I need to stop being sad about someone who got mad at me and gave me the silent treatment all night because I said I read the wikipedia article for a movie I googled. ok. I hate being sentimental.
#first of all before I looked it up I had no idea they had even seen it?#like at the time of looking it up I wasn't even sure what the movie was called. how could I have asked them instead of looking it up#they had literally never mentioned it#but I was like yeah maybe I'll watch it it seems gross#and they were like yeah there are these gross things and I'm not sure if I liked the plot twist or not#so I said yeah I read it and that I'd need to see if they actually executed it well#because maybe it was cool or maybe it was shit#and they ignored me until like noon the next day & said I hurt their feelings by knowing#ok. ok. what did you want me to do then.#everyone wants an autistic boyfriend until she has to google movies before she watches them because she wants to know what's going on
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What’s the vampire lore for your book then?
Vampirism is an infectious blood disease that changes you at the cellular level.
Vampire society is hierarchal and based on personal ability. The stronger special abilities get special treatment while the rest are servants.
Lotte and her husband (a vampire, a very weak vampire) live in a castle where the servant vampires revolted and had their powerful Master killed, and since the castle was built in a magic forest that makes the castle incredibly hard to find, they live in peace in communal living separate from larger vampire society.
#also the more autistic lore from me is when i did research on how much blood a vampire would have to drink to be sated#which is like 3/4 of a person#because i estimated caloric intake#my cowriter is a med student can you tell#(boyfriend is not my cowriter)#(this lore precedes him by many years)#if you see really old posts mention a partner/girlfriend thats my current cowriter shes still my bestie
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my cyclical joker moment is that every few years i remember how good the gone series would have been if michael grant didn't hate disabled people
#max.txt#*i'm exaggerating but like. the way the autistic character is treated in that series is truly vile#not to mention whatever the hell was going on with mary [bulimic] and penny [briefly paraplegic]#also the whole 'what if the christian girl got sosososo tormented until she detroit became atheist because christianity is stupid'#which like. it is . but man cmon#also one of the forms of 'torment' is that she tries to throw her autistic toddler broteher to the man eating bugs because for convoluted--#--reasons this seems liable to stop the plot but then it doesn't so she's just like oh my god i gave him to the bugs#and everyone is like . yeah you did do that.#absolutely unreal series. the joker moment is happening right now
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Something I love is my mom's romantic relationship. Like her partner and the ways they interact are both so wholesome and amazing. So you guys are gonna unlock some lore here.
Over two years ago my dad cheated on my mom and she said their relationship was over, because that was a rule she's always had for herself, once a cheater always a cheater. After that she started dating her current partner in a long distance relationship. They are an enby who lives in Norway and the two of them met on tiktok because they both cosplay the marauders era from Harry Potter.
In the two years they've been together my mother has gone and spent several months visiting them and meeting their family twice, once for summer and once for winter. Their family loves her and regularly invites her to things even though she can't attend. They video chat pretty much daily and text constantly. They've seen eachother at their highs and lows and been there through it all. An extremely funny fact is that my mom started learning Norwegian from a 6yr old with a very specific dialect and a speech impediment, because her partners son mostly speaks Norwegian with a bit of English.
Anyways the reason I was thinking about this is that yesterday I was in a voice chat with my bsd cosplay friends and my mom was across from me talking about the paperwork for getting citizenship through marriage with her partner. And I'd said she doesn't have to be engaged for a long time before getting married, which very much confused my friends and I had to explain. So it's been on my mind lol.
I love that they've talked about the steps needed for all of us the get citizenship, and how to get my sister and I onto disability there. And they even told my mom they might get a bigger house just so we can all still live together. They also send us Norwegian candy from time to time (sending things to the US is super expensive so it's not very often). They also send all her kids presents both randomly and for birthdays and Christmas. I have a crocheted pokemon plushie from them that I absolutely adore.
But yeah despite my mom being completely done with my dad he spent a year and a half trying to "win her back" but in like a really semi toxic roundabout way that all of us could see would never work except for him. And he only this year finally moved out of the house. Divorce papers FINALLY got filed and we all know he's going to drag it out and fight for full custody just to spite her. So because of that my mom and her partner are only dating, but mom has said the moment the divorce goes through she wants to take a small trip to Norway so we can all meet them in person and she wants to propose in person. Her partners son (again he's six) insists he's planning their wedding (they've never said anything about getting married to him), and he collects rocks and shells every time they go to the beach to use as center pieces for the tables.
Another thing is that with the safety of trans people quickly fading here they've also talked about how if things get bad enough that we are in danger here, we can all go to Norway. Like they told my mom if she suddenly said hey we're getting on a plane and will be there at x time, they will get their family together to get large enough transportation and housing for us (I have 4 siblings so there's 6 of us in all).
And and and!!! They are also disabled and have been since they were a kid. They don't have the same issues my sister and I do but they do have joint problems and chronic pain just like us so its been amazing to be getting first hand advice for a lot of things. They are so amazing i can't wait to meet them in person and give them a hug honestly.
#long post#story time#i love my moms significant other soooo much#sorry i just wanted to ramble about this but didnt want to bother anyone so its a tumblr post instead of a dm aha#to anyone whos heard me talk about the whole physical abuse trauma from my dad id like to clarify here that my mom didnt know about that#i didnt acknowledge really to myself that i had physical abuse trauma and that it wasnt all normal until last year#and he never did anything as extreme when she was around so she never saw it happen and i guess we all assumed she knew so never said much#but after they separated and she would talk about stuff with the oldest two kids (my brother and i) we mentioned something about it and#she was very upset about it and it is a huge part on why she wants full custody of the kids#anyways yeah#someday i will go to Norway and if im really really lucky i wont have to come back#the US government is not good and would rather i was dead so im very much not interested in staying here aha#being trans autistic and disabled was not a good call here but alas it was not my choice#sorry for the rant#crab says words#im completely normal :D
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So, my mother (who is awesome and whom I love dearly) has been kindly listening to my Worm Infodumping for the past, oh, six-ish months. Today, I mentioned "the main character's bugs". Cue her response: "the main character's what?"
Cue the realisation that, during 6 months of worm rambling, I had not mentioned that the main character (of hit web serial Worm. Named Worm. After, among other things, the worms Taylor can control.) had bug powers.
#I had also not mentioned that her name was Taylor#world's least informative autistic#(me)#(username is apt)#she did however know abt the Butcher. and trigger events#I am Oriented on the wrong Details#worm#wormblr
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