#did i just write trans Bee? i think i did

[moonlight-tmd]

Okay, i know i’ll explore more of this but i want to hear your thoughts on this too.

Femme frame bumblebee? He’s still a mech but he’s definitely built with the aft and curves of a femme and even has heel struts instead of regular pedes. He knows he’s built and his frame compliments his doorwings.

He usually wears a bulky over armor but it gets damaged in battle and breaks off revealing him in the heat of a battle that just stops?

His teams reaction?

Blitzwings reaction?

Before or after they start dating. If after blitzwing didn’t know b/c bee has trauma.

oooh i get it, like @toxxicpill design. I always imagined him a little feminine, just more blocky instead of smooth curves.

hmm, i mean, sure he would be a bit curvy, the doorwings are a nice touch for him cough happy flutters cough cough. I am a little disappointed that they decided to gender the robots but eh, 2000's cartoons i guess.

He is a bit curvy on top of the blocky frame, the heeled pedes are not uncommon, i mean Prowl has these- he kinda looks like Elita overall, his subspace is moved down to cover his aft in this since he has doorwings (yes it does look like earth bumblebee's abdonmen). Yes, he does wear additional armor to apprear more bulky over his chassis and shoulders, he doesn't like how everyone kept staring at his chassis. I always imagine Bee and Prowl are almost the same height, only that Prowl is few inches taller and way slimmer than Bee (I mean, he is a motorbike. They are rather small, even when compared to tiny cars). So without the top armor, Bee is almost half the width he was.

I imagine the only one who'll know is Ratchet. I mean, he fixes Bee all the time and there is no way he wouldn't know that the upper part of Bee's armor is not his original frame. Ratchet is a medic, he's not gonna judge anyone- well, unless you say or do something stupid. Then he's gonna judge you all he wants.

So yeh, bots and cons fight over Allspark shard- idk, maybe some stray blaster shot hits him on the chassis and the thing breaks, it's not completely broken but heavily damaged. Now, this is a battlefield. I don't think anyone would stop to look at Bee's badongahonkas, especially when there's such an important item involved.

After that, sure the team is surprised that Bee's frame is actually different from what they see so often but nobody hates him for it. They're not homo/trans/any lgbt+-phobic. And they don't have genders in the first place, everyone chooses how they want to portray themselves.

When his additional armor is being fixed, there's not much of a change. Sure, others throw glances at him more often but nothing else- the only one to have a visible reaction would be Optimus. Bee already reminded him of Elita when he met him, and seeing Bee look even more like Elita is weird, if it isn't raising some questions... he almost slips and calls him Elita.

Sari thinks Bee looks pretty, and may or may not be trying to get him more armor pieces like that so he can be a full-blown knight.

The repair was quick so no Elite Guard reaction- but if they were to witness this, Sentinel would be the first afthole to stare at Bee's chassis as if to take that armor off with his processor power. Jettwins and Jazz would have respect and try to keep SP away from the young bot- as they always do, just this time the reason is different. They all have no idea how Sentinel can be so awful and still keep his job...

Now you want Blitzy's reaction, alright.

That stray blaster shot might have been his and he struck Bee on accident. He does catch a quick look at Bee's slim frame before his team calls on retreat. If they weren't dating then he would be a little bit pervy in his mind, he wouldn't bring it up with the scout tho, he's not sexist.

If they were dating, he would wonder why Bee didn't tell him. He asks about it the next meeting they have- Bee's armor has been fixed by then. Sure enough, Bee confesses that he was forged a femme but decided to be a He. He wears additional armor because he didn't have credits for changing his frame type and had enough of other bots calling him and grabbing him rudely. Wasp was one of those bots, he harrased Bee with no mercy until Longarm saved him.

Blitz feels both sorry and hella ANGY. How could anyone treat his precious hummel like that?! And they say Decepticons are evil- if anyone is racist, sexist and disrespectful about such basic things as appearance and behavior, it's the Autobots. The 'cons murder everyone equally, not just the "freaks".

Once Bee gains enough confidence then he'd show Blitzwing his real frame. And Blitzwing will have some pervy thoughts he'd keep to himself only. He loves Bee, and seeing him even smaller than how he was already is adorable. Blitz is the only one that Bee lets grab him like that. And Blitzwing can't help but admit his hummel's chassis is a great pillow.

[solar4seekstron]

Chapter 4: Especially when he was unconscious!

Transformers One x reader: Awakening Chapter Four

Chapter One, Chapter Two, Chapter Three, Chapter Five, Chapter Six

Transformers One x Cybertronian!GN!reader

Introduction Movie Masterlist

Tw/Tags: non?? D trust reader a bit more, it was hard to add Elita and B scenes I’m trying. That should be all

(Chapter 4 is here! I had a little more fun for this episode I knew what I wanted to have happen between D and Y/N and yes he’s my favorite (Besides OP and B shut up) and i wanted to show the bit of change we witness in D before his fight with Starscream,. Figured it’ll be right to add it where I did.. I will go back to writing more for Elita but it’s hard to write without it taking out of the story much since honestly Elita feels a little too less developed then the other three. I’m trying guys. I did add that small moment with Shockwave and Soundwave with thee reader just to add something there with the two. Hopefully in the second movie that I’m sure we’ll get eventually will follow the]m and starscream a bit more so fingers crossed. Anyway that should be all I hope you all enjoy this long chapter.)

“They found us!”

The five looked around scared.

“Oh yes, time to fight back!”

”D wait we must-

“No! You must return to Iacon City and alert everyone! Embedded in this are the records I have shown you. Use it to reveal the truth.”

“We will.”

“This tunnel leads to the mountains. Cybertrons future is in your hands.”

“We’re out of time. We gotta move!”

The three of them start running. Orion would follow but then stop to look back at Trion

“Wait! Wait! We can’t just leave you here!”

”Come with us!”

“Your fight will come my friends. Primus has a purpose for us all. But this fight. This fight is mine. Now go!”

The five would then continue their run as Trion stands and waits for the fight. His back to them. Soon parts of the cave collapses and soldiers of sentinel appear with guns. Soon causing smoke then pointing their guns at Trion

“Stand down. Old timer.”

“Ah. Old you say?”

Trion would then use his powers. Transforming and attacking th the guards giving Orion and the others time to escape

“Not too old for you.”

But when he looks up he is then attacked by Airachnid who pins him down

“We need to hurry!”

“I still think we have better odds fighting than out running them.”

“Wait! We have cogs! We can transform now.”

“That’s right! Everyone ready?”

“I was born ready!”

“On three! One-“

From there they fall. The gang then struggling with parts of their bodies transforming. As the others struggled Y/Ns blades started spinning which caused them to trip and spin side ways because of the blades down the hill. Going up and down in short and hard bumps. Their body spinning along.

“Hey I got- woah! Help HELP!!!!”

“How do we use these things?!”

“I don't know! Just try!”

“It’s working haha! It’s work- My head. My head! Help! Help!”

“This is not faster!”

“Come On!”

“Aaaand- Transform!! Wheels! I need Wheels!”

Once in the forest deeper three guards would stop in front of them shooting. The five then keep running then once in mid air they all transform hitting the guards. Bee would then hit a rock breaking his stop being in vehicle mode still

“Oh yeah we’re alive!”

The four would then talk to each other super excited. Not noticing the guard behind Orion pointing their blaster until the guard is then shot and flown back. D coming in and landing on the guard as he laughs

“Yes!”

“Hey woah buddy. You ok?”

“I’m great! Are you kidding me? We can transform! We. Trans. Form!”

“Wait I-I- I know. I know.”

“We’re wasting time. We have to get back to Iacon.”

“Looks like the fastest way back to Iacon i-“

“Here I got it!”

“Woah hey what are you doing?”

“Don’t worry about it.”

“Yeah but our proof is inside and you’re spilling it everywhere.”

D would then turn to face Orion and in a low voice speaks as he stares Orion down and stares closer. Elita and B watching in shock as well.

“I. Got. It.”

“Ok.”

D would look at Orion for a moment more. Looking at the map and then the others. D and Y/N making eye contact. Y/N was unsure as they then look down and a bit of fear in their eyes. Then looking back at Orion. Satisfied with Orions answer before heading forth

“Follow me.”

Orion and the others would start follwoing him after a second

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As they continue to walk as the sun starts to set. Orions face shows that he’s worried about his friend. Elita and B can tell as well. Y/N then gets the idea walking past Orion and stood next to D who was a lot further ahead then the others.

”Hey D look when we get back we will take down sentinel.”

”I don’t want to kill sentinel i want to-“

”I know what you want to do. I know how you’re feeling because I am feeling it too!” This catches D off guard bit as the two keep walking. Y/N would then sigh

“I want sentinel to suffer just as much as you do. But we must also think smart. If he has been in power for this long then surely we’re just walking into a trap. A web.” The two wold stand and face eachother. D grumbling and sighing as he looked to the side. The three stoppping and just watching staying at the same distance.

“Then I guess I’ll just have to stay stronger. With th help of the people I know I can only trust.” D would put his hand on their arm as he stepped a bit closer with a smile that isn’t as in concept as it use to be. Y/N looked at him still unsure and looked down for a moment

”D strength isn’t always-“

”I can trust you to be there….right?” His hand squeezing their arm a bit and pulling them a bit closer

”….Always.” They say finally looking at him. His smile still there and he pats their back and starts walking forward again. Leaving them there as the others start walking to them

”You tried…Thank you.” Orion stand next to them. They would pt their hand on his shoulder and just nods. Orion, Elita and B start walking as Y/N Stoof there for a second. Their expression changing from sort of sad to angry then to unsure

*Back at Sentinels Tower———————

“Alpha trion! You are still alive? Won’t you look at that! You look horrible.”

“Traitor. You are a disgrace. Primus will surely-“

“Uh-huh yes shut up. I seized an opportunity to take control of my future. Anything to get out of working for you and that boring council of elders. Seriously I would watch you primes spend half the day losing a war and the other half sitting around waxing poetic loyalty and honor. But now look at you.”

“Hear my words! You will fall and a new prime will rise-“

“There you go again. I don't want to listen to any more speeches. There was others in the cave with you. Who are they?”

“They are to be your undoing you’ve lost Sentinel. Nothing can-“

From Trion would kill Trion

“Ugh didn’t I just say no speeches. You heard me right? This is what I’m talking about. Unbelievable. All of them were like that. So disrespectful. Given that friend of the miners Y/N didn’t visit. My money is it has something to do with them and whomever else with them. A real shame really.” He would then sigh then look over at Airachnid

“Ok hunt down the others.”

“With pleasure.”

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*Back to the others-

The group are walking after transforming. Y/N having sitting on the end of Orions truck. Their helicopter would make too much noise. Once they transform Y/N made sure to get off to let Orion to transform as well.

“Hey buddy!”

“Yo.”

“Hey…You've been a little quiet. Are you alright?”

Orion walks next to D as the other two stay behind

“All I can think about is Sentinels' smirking face. He must pay for what he’s done. Someone has to do something.”

“We are! With Alpha Trions proof inside that device we will show everyone the truth.”

“You honestly believe it’ll be that easy? Iacon doesn’t want to hear the truth. They worship sentinel. There’s got to be a better way to bring him down.”

“We just have to trust that everyone will believe what we show them-“

The two would stop for a moment

“I trusted sentinel! With everything! I will never trust a so-called leader ever again. There’s only one bot I know I can-“

The five are then attacked and knocked out cold by a device

“All right. Wake them up!”

Orion and the others would then wake up. Orion closer in the front as D was beind him on the right. And D and Elita on his left a bit further. Y/N was in front of the two but a bit further from Orions left

“Now. Are you spys? Or just incompetent lackeys?!”

“We’re not spys.”

“But he is incompetent.”

”Elita.”

“Scanning electrical impulses. He’s telling the truth.”

“That just means he believes himself! Like any spy would.”

B would try to speak

“Uh why is he gagged?”

“He wouldn’t stop talking!”

“Even when he was unconscious?”

“Especially when he was unconscious!”

“Enough! Two options for you! One. We slowly dismantle each of you one bolt and screw at a time. And really make sure you feel it. Or two. An exchange for a quick death you give us and tell on the energon trains. Access to mines. Or anything else that could hurt your boss' sentinel prime!”

“Who exactly are you guys?”

“The Cybertronian high guard!”

“I told you it wasn’t tight enough!”

“Prestigious defenders of Iacon!”

“Prestigious?”

“Wait, he's right. I read all about you in the archives! You were the most legendary warriors of all of Cybertron.”

“Look! Look! Look! There’s Starscream and you’re Shockwave and Soundwave! Guys raise your hand if there’s a wave is in your name there’s a lot of waves.”

“Silence! The yellow annoying one is correct.”

“WOAH!”

“We were once the high guard. We witnessed sentinels betrayed. Saw the primes fall. Since that day we’ve been fighting from the shadows. Doing whatever we can to sabotage sentinel.”

“That’s great! We’re-Oh ok ok! We’re good! Everyone relax. I’m just saying we’re allies. We were on our way back to Iacon and now with your help. We can unify Cybertron against sentinel prime.”

“The idea of a unified Cybertron is a myth. All that counts is the strength of one bot over another!”

“Ok so these- these guys are a little intense.”

“Yeah. Just a little.”

“Hey! What are you doing?”

“I'll tell you what I’m not doing. I’m not cowering inside some busted ship playing king of the throne. I’m not pretending like I’m making a difference by throwing in one punch and then running away to hide! I found out that sentinel is rotten today and I’m going to make him pay for it. Today!”

“You think you can insult me and just walk away? No one leaves here unless I say so.”

“Is that right? Well how can you say so. With my head in your teeth?”

“D!”

“D would hit Starscream with his head. Causing Starscream to get irritated and fly in the air to kick D. Only for him to block it. Starscream would then fly and grab D. Flying him to the ceiling and punching him only for D to transform his leg and kick him. Starscream would fall back D landing on his feet over him and starts throwing punches at Starscream face

“Hit me! Do it! Come on! Hit more!”

Shockwave would then be seen taking a step to walk to them but Soundwave would stop him. The two looked at each other before looking back at the two. D would then notice the other bots cheers causing D to look around surprised, confused, but now given with pride

“You want to see the strength of one bot over another?!”

“Is that all you got, tough guy? Lets go! Come on! “

D would then gain a canon. He stops to look at it for a moment before looking back at startscream. Orion and Y/Ns face shocked

“Please! I beg you!”

“Stop! D! He’s not the enemy!”

“Bare witness! This is the last time I show mercy. Decide right now! You can stay here in hiding. Bowing before your pathetic leader or follow me as we march on Iacon and I take down sentinel once and for all!!!”

From there D shoots up as the other bots cheer and walk to D. Shockwave and Soundwave doing the same as the bots walk around Elita, B, and Orion as D is soon surrounded. Orion would then look at D as everything seems to slow down. D would look back but his eyes only passing Orion as he looked at the other bots around him having an angry look. D would then make eye contact with Y/N you looked at him with worry and sad eyes. The stare going only for a second as Y/N grows scared but more so worried. From there, there’s a huge explosion causing many to fly back. The hidden base now attacked my sentinels guards

“B! Come on!”

B and Orion fight together shooting at the soldiers. Y/N and Elita join together and start fighting showing off their fighting skills.

“Engage all hostiles. I got the bridge.”

The fight would commence and after a minute the fight was over. B and D were taken as Elita and Orion are left behind. During the fight, Y/N would be cornered. They would then look at the blades of their alt mode and sigh.

”Well better then nothing.” Choosing to use them as swords until they realize most of the blade was a cover up for their swords. They then start fighting at their swords were like sabers and they start slicing up the guards. The fighting continueing

”Elita get down!”

Y/N was thrown by an explosion to the side behind the ship. From there they would grab a gun and wait to ambush one of the soilders. Only to hear one of them com Airachnid that Orion and Elita were gone. With everything Y/N starts to panick saying quiet. Then hearing they got B and D-16. They would then wait until the soilders to leave then once they’re far enough. They are successfully able to get away transforming into their helicopter not noticing the remaining guard. Y/N was so fueled with anger and sadness. That all they can think about is to just save their remaining friends being D-16 and B-127.

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*Later that morning-

“I feel like someone dropped a cliff on me. Where are the others?”

“Sentinel troops took as many prisoners as they could carry. They got D-16 and B….there’s a chance they could’ve taken Y/N but when asking one of the captured guards he said they didn’t tale Y/N and their body. Isn’t anywhere….”

“Oh no.”

“And half of those high guard nut jobs.”

“Our proof. It’s gone.”

“So what do we do now?”

“D was right.”

“About what?”

“Everything! Look at it. Look around. This is a disaster. It’s all my fault I should’ve stayed on protocol.”

“Listen to me, I really want you to hear this. Are you listening? I’m better than you.”

“Yeah ok. I’m hearing you.”

“I’m better than you in every way except you have hope. You always have. You went into the mine to rescue Jazz. You snuck up into the surface to find the Matrix of Leadership.”

“Yeah, and how did that work out?”

”My point is that your instincts tell you to break protocol for a reason. This blind optimism that you have is why you make such bold and courageous choices. That are extremely stupid.”

“First time giving a pep talk?”

“You’re inspiring. You can envision a better future that no one else can see. And if we ever wanna see B and D-16 and possibly Y/N again. That. That is the Orion Pax that we need right now. Listen to me, we can do this.”

“Those energon trains will be heading back to Iacon. If we intercepted one-“

“Hell yes. I can reroute it. What else do we need?”

“Well my bold instincts tells me we have to recruit some nut jobs.”

“I was afraid you’d say that.”

“Uhh Shockwave, Soundwave. You in the back. In order to save our captured friends we have to act now.”

“How about I blast you back to Iacon- Ugggh she punched me in my eye!”

“Everyone shut up! All of you! Listen to him!”

“Most likely our friends are being held captive at the top of sentinels tower. A surprise attack will give us a chance to rescue them.”

“Impossible. We do not have enough soldiers or a way inside.”

“Elita will get us in. And I will get more troops.”

‘Why should we follow you?”

Elita threatens him again with the show of her fists

“We will follow you.”

“Attention High Guard. Prepare for battle. What is our first move?”

“We roll out.”

“What?”

“Louder.”

“Transform and Roll Out!”

I couldn’t really find a right place to add anything for the high guard with the reader. But that’s what my other series Before and So Forth is for lol. Hope y’all enjoyed this chapter

[anonmousegosqueak]

Y'all- I'm Having A Moment

*throws at you* have 141 sexuality headcannons.

(btw I could literally make a point for all of 'em as trans, while I didn't include any in this post please know I live for ftm 141)

Uhh- this is long and there are mentions of sex? Be warned? Tbh I'm not in a proper mental state (not depressed or anything, just feeling wack) so none of this is proofread. I also actually swear in this so that's fun and new.

Price (the og bear)

Gay man

Took him 'till Nikolai to come out properly (mostly to himself), while he did sleep around with other men when he was still young, once he joined the army he promptly shoved those thoughts into a small box and buried it under work. Nowadays he's much more open to himself, allowing himself to fully realize just how much he loves Nik and that it's okay if he's not straight.

He once pulled Simon aside, clearly anxious (something more rare than... Idk something really rare) and was like "Son... I'm gay." Ghost basically responded with "You've been fucking Nikolai loud enough for the entire base to hear. That guy is your husband and *my* other dad. I know you're gay."

Ghost (Angsty Mc. Angster Face):

Speaking of Ghost- we've got our second gay man!

Ghost is honestly... 100% sure how he identifies. He likes his Johnny! And that's about it.

As we all know, our favorite depressed meow meow had a not great childhood. The very idea of even being into men wasn't on the table. Then he joined the military. And that was that.

The most 'exploring his sexuality' this guy did was occasionally having a sad drunk wank on the few weeks he actually took off, often to nothing but his empty imagination.

And then a certain Scottish idiot came along...

And then Las Almas happened...

And then that night in the bar...

And before you know it, Ghost was laying next to a passed out Johnny (clinging to Ghost like a koala obvs) realizing that 'holy shit- men are *hot*'

Obviously he never fantasized about a relationship, he never liked women like that. But men? Yeah, yeah that's... Muscles... Hnnngghhhhhhh *dies*

(poor baby didn't understand until he basically had a 'bees and the bees' chat with Nikolai)

Soapy Boi:

Man whore- (+silly gender stuff??)

So, Soap doesn't exactly have a firm label. Call him Bi, call him Pan, he doesn't care as long as he gets in ur pants.

No but actually-

Johnny grew up pretty religious, I'm talkin' prayers before breakfast, lunch, dinner, and bed. Big family too, not only did he have four sisters (and was the only brother, bless his soul) but other relatives were always around.

He might have had a crush on the Jesus painting at his church...

One day, at the ripe old age of six, he remembers mentioning something about how he liked the way the other boy at the church looked, and that he wanted him to be his boyfriend (he wasn't old enough to fully understand what that meant but he'd heard his older sisters talk about it and it sounded right)

And y'know what? His dad took it surprisingly well! Basically responded (in a Scottish accent too thick to write) "that's nice son, as long as you invite us to the wedding. Just be safe, alright?"

Mr. MacTavish proceeded to spend the night trying to find out what to do if your son comes out to you.

And wee johnny lad had no fucking idea.

So yeah, he wasn't exactly ever in the closet. He'd talk about the pretty boys and girls in his class, not really thinking about it too hard until highschool hit. Surrounded by teenage homophobia, y'know what he did? He didn't give a fuck. Yeah he banged Mike from the football team last night, made out with one of the cheerleaders as well. Kids would be like "omg gay" and he'd be like "okay? I get more action than any of y'all, from both girls *and* boys. Sounds like a skill issue on your part."

And then he joined the military, twords the end of DADT in America.

He didn't exactly talk about his sexuality, no one did, but that doesn't mean he was in the closet. It just... Didn't come up? Not as FNG at least- he'd definitely had a few conversations with Gaz about some 'shithead guy he brought home last time they were off work' (and maybe Soap kissed Gaz once or twice but they both had socks on so it wasn't gay or anything)

And then this fucking brick shithouse of a man roles around calling himself Ghost and wearing what Soap can only describe as Halloween incarnate.

Yeah, he was determined to wife this man up.

He definitely helped when Ghost was going through his whole 'HOLY HECK- MEN' era. Having someone who was so comfortable with his sexuality around, didn't treat it as if it was a secret or a bad thing, just... Was. It all really helped.

And you might remember, I said gender. Why? Because he has a pretty similar view of his gender that he has of his sexuality. He's just *Johnny.* Yeah he doesn't wear makeup but it's not because he's got a dick, it's because he's got sensitive skin and hates the way makeup feels. Yeah he tends to wear masculine clothes but 1) it's a warzone he's not gonna wear heels and a dress. 2) he's a big boy! It's hard to get cute clothes in his size 😔

(it helps that he comes from a place where men prance around in skirts and play a sack that looks like it's been impaled by a primary school's collection of recorders)

MY HUSBAND (Gaz)

Hngggggghhhhhhh- need... need to bite him... need to shake him around like a rabid dog...

What were we talking about?

OH YEAH-

My boy Gaz is a pretty pansexual virgin.

Okay not actually, but he's definitely rizzing up all the boys, girls, enbys, EVERYONE at the bar.

And then he takes exactly none of them home.

As we all know, Gaz is the most forgotten, meaning we don't have shit about his childhood. Not even a common fandom opinion. It makes me sad because I want nothing more than to make this the longest section (that's why it's at the end, I have these in order of how long I'ma yap about it)

I like to believe he had a stupidly average childhood.

Price and Ghost are talking about their shithead dad's respectively, Soap is talking about how he loves his Ma and Pa and how him and his oldest sister are going shopping this Christmas and Gaz is just ":)"

Smart kid, grew up somewhere in the UK (I refuse to study anything about the British), mom, dad, his grandma on his dad's side, and a fucking turtle that's somehow still alive (named him chompy) in a middle class house. Didn't really do sports, was in debate club, but also still went to the gym after school.

He also never showed any interest in romance. Period.

Listen, Gaz was always a pretty boy. I'm not saying no one didn't go after 'that hot guy in my science class', no quite the opposite, but he just never really went that path.

He once got paired with one of the cutest girls in their year for a history project. Took her to his house, went to his room... And promptly knocked out the assignment (and got an A).

When he got a bit older he definitely became more of a playboy. Went to a lot of parties and flirted, never got into anyone's bed though.

Frequently goes to a bar and flirts with men to get a free drink, only to turn down any other advances. (Soap saw him do this once, proceeded to hound him for the next three months about it)

He knows he's hot. He knows what to wear to get attention. He just doesn't really wanna fuck someone unless he knows them well. He's actually fallen into bed with Soap on more than one occasion, only after they became the best of mates. It's more of a trust/friendship act than something you'd do with a random stranger you met an hour ago.

(doesn't realize he's demi romantic/sexual until waaaayy later)

When I scoop him up and marry him and we move away to a small cottage in the woods and I peg him and

Uhhh- I guess that's it? Idk man, I'm most likely gonna delete this later. I've been going through so many mental things (I'm fine, just confused) that I think writing fifteen thousand paragraphs about how the characters in a videogame known for his toxic lobby are all gay and they all smooch each other.

Whatever, life is short, post my sleepy ramblings to the Internet where it will forever reside and I can never fully remove it.

JFuck it- if you want more comment and I'll add the characters in a later post.

[omg-levian]

I just want to write something about the "Horn and Halla at the Hilt" quest because the more I think about it, the more I need to find closure about this entire situation.

I know that the quest, as the whole Taash quest line, has already been criticised by many players, and I can only add my voice to those people who felt... frustrated, to say the least, by the in-game "trans representation".

(please don't bother yourself if you are pretty satisfied with the way such themes were presented in DAtV; this post is just not for you.)

but this is not what I wanted to talk about. my main complaint is the plot itself, which made the scene looks like a typical school bullying scenario. is there any reason why the quest was directed that way and not any other?

firstly, why is Bellara even there? she is not a closest friend of Taash, as far as I can tell, and not a big fan of Lords, so why she is the one who was invited along with Rook? why not Harding for example? not Davrin?

this is literally the first and the last time when we actually see Bellara and Taash "befriending", and for me it seems that logical explanation lies just OUTSIDE the scene, because for the plot Bellara was the only fitting person. can we imagine Neve following that stupidiest "oh I messed up so much by eating that food!" scenario? Lucanis? Davrin? Emmrich? no, because literally everyone else has enough teeth or spine to opposite the group. but Bellara hasn't.

why did I mention some school bullying case? because it's actually what's happening here.

we have a typical bee queen (Isabela), who demonstrated her domination over the group by playing out the whole pulling a Bharv scene, where there was absolutely no need of it. she uses (also very typically) her low-emotional-intelligence-but-ah-sooo-treasured friend (Taash) as a pretext to show a necomer bee queen (Rook) that she is in charge here. she is not feeling guilty for misgendering, she is not making "excuses", she is simply showing the rules of her little game.

(it's important to understand that it has nothing to do with genders at all, only with social roles and behavior patterns.)

and, what saddens me most, as a player you have no choice except accepting that rules by throwing Bellara under the bus.

no needs to say that this is not OK when a person has to make such a ridiculous apology for eating some shared meal, and it's definitely not OK when a person has to endure phisical pain discomfort just as a proof that they are "sorry" and by doing this "worthy" to be in group.

of course, one may say that nobody made Bellara do push-ups, but alas, do we actually believe she would do that if not the fear of doing something wrong and becoming an outcast?

bah. I hate that quest.

[specific-dreamer]

not out/they don’t know it yet t4t bevbrill short story. this was meant to be bev’s pov idk how brill took over but you go girl more power to ya.

um disclaimer: i am not trans. i think i left it kinda vague enough trust i didn’t but if i did write anything that could be offensive or just #wrong don’t hesitate to lmk!

enough yapping, the title is below and under the cut is the story! enjoy!!

embers falling from the sky (not an asteroid just a shooting star)

it’s 2am they snuck out to some once popular but now frequently deserted make out spot and are sitting on the hood of brill’s car leaning on each other and watching the stars. talking about everything and nothing all at once, then they fall into a peaceful quiet for a moment.

bev’s got old tights on that are starting to grow a hole but she’d be caught dead before she wears a dress without tights. the compensate for it she’s got brill’s jacket laid over her lap.

speaking of which, brill’s got his head in her lap. it’s his favorite but they usually switch when they’re hanging out with the other couples. once though, they didn’t bother switching, and once melvin’s stupid tiny ass made a joke saying it looked like brill was the girl in their relationship.

brill had laughed it off and shoved the kid, because obviously he’s not the girl, but then again. then again, hes thought about that joke a little too often. and he can’t deny the funny feeling he gets in his gut when he thinks about it either. he can’t deny that most times when he thinks about being the girl the feeling is warm and fuzzy

all the other times though the feeling is anything but fuzzy; it’s warm in a way that makes him nauseous and not wanting to look in a mirror for a few days. when he gets these feelings, he usually ends up having to call bev so he doesn’t get stuck in his head.

he has yet to figure out what these feelings mean, but the way his eyes always linger and the pain he feels in chest when beverly shows off her really pretty dresses and extravagant jewelry, brill has a hint. he thinks he knows that’s wrong with him.

he doesn’t plan on saying anything, but he must’ve tensed or something because beverly stops rubbing his back. “are you alright, clark?” she asks.

he tries really hard not to, he’s usually good at it but it’s late at night, so he really can’t be faulted for flinching when she calls him that. he’s not sure why; he’s never had a problem with her calling him clark until melvin opened his big mouth.

“baby?” great, now brill’s really made her worry. he heaves out a faux laugh, that he hopes fools her, and turns to face the stars completely.

he’s trying to avoid looking at her, he doesn’t want to see the anger or disappointment or disgust, when he asks. “would you—“

“yes, i’d still love you if you were a worm.”

he blinks in surprise and snorts out a laugh. brill should’ve seen that coming, he’s asked her that everyday for the past two months now. “thank you; inquiring minds were wondering.”

“oh i’m sure,” she says twirling a peice of his hair around her fingers.

god he loves her, he thinks with a sheepish smile. he risks a quick glance at her, just to get one last picture of what she looks when she loves him, then he swiftly turns his gaze back to the stars.

“did you have another question?”

“ma’am?”

“did you have another question?” bev repeats. “you’re still tense; i can feel it.”

god. he hums in fake thought. “no. im good; all questioned out.”

beverly hums in response and they sit in silence for a while with nothing but the crickets and the hum of the engine to keep them company.

brill was never any good at remembering constellations but he’s pretty sure there’s one shaped like a…

“um, bee-bee?”

“yes, honey?”

alright here goes nothing.

“would you still like me if i were a girl?”

brill counts to thirty before getting an answer.

“only if you’d still like me if i were a boy.”

brill blinks once then sits up to face beverly incredulously. “of course i’d still like you! i wouldn’t i, im in love with you!”

there’s a smile on beverly’s face; one of those smiles that says brill has just made beverly entire day. beverly leans forward and puts both heads on brills cheeks while leaning in for a kiss. “then you have nothing to worry about, do you honey?”

“no?” brill always gets a little ditsy after a kiss from beverly. brills lays back down, a lot more content, before popping right back up. “wait, s-so, so, so you wouldn’t—“

“youre stuttering,” bev interrupts. brill can only hums response. “take a deep breathe, baby.”

it takes a second before brill is actually able to do so. brill takes a second deep breathe, for good measure, before trying again. “s-so, you wouldn’t mind if i, hypothetically of course, this is so totally not real or anything—“

“it’s just us up here, honey. what are you trying to say?”

god this is hard. with a harsh nod of acknowledgment, brill lays down and looks back up at the stars. “so you wouldn’t like, like mind if- if i said i wanted to be the girl in-in-in, sorry,” she pauses shuttering clenching her eyes tight. “in our relationship?” brill stuttered again, but she finally asked! that has to count for something right?

this time brill counts to ten before bev responds. despite the tugging, she doesn’t dare risk a look at bev’s face.

“baby?” bev doesn’t sound nearly as upset as brill thought.

“hm?”

“honey?” this time bev sounds a little more firm.

“yeah?” and it totally breaks brill. god what if this was the last time bev called her honey? what if bev wanted absolutely nothing to do with her now? what if—

“you can be the girl, if i can be a boy and wear all the nice sweaters and vests i bought you.”

oh. there’s that warm and fuzzy feeling again. “yeah?” she asks with wide eyes turning to bev. her voice cracks a bit, but it’s okay.

bev nods a confirmation and, with a quick once over, pulls brill into a much needed hug. “for sure, honey. besides, i bought all my jewelry with you in mind anyways.”

a laugh bubbles out of brill and there’s a huge grin on her face that she can’t shake no matter how hard she tries. even when bev starts yawning, signaling the end of their little “date”, brill can’t shake her smile. “you ready for me to take you home?”

there’s a pout on bev face when he stops yawning, but despite it he says, “yeah. my parents have been missing you if you want to spend the night.”

“have they?” brill asks excitedly, helping bev off the car. “i love our you’re mom and dad; they’re so cool!”

running to her side of the car she can hear bev scoffing. she’s putting her seatbelt on and shifting gears when bev replies, “to you, maybe.”

“sure thing, honeybee. all im hearing though, is ive got their blessing.”

“oh really?”

“mhm,” she hums pulling up to a stop sign.

“i think,” brill jumps suddenly feeling cold hands pulling at her neck as she’s forced to turn her gaze to bev in the passenger seat. “you forgot to ask someone.”

“did i?”

“yeah.”

“what if i don’t want to ask anymore?” brill say with a smirk as she snakes bev’s hand to her letterman pocket.

bev rolls his eyes and pulls his hands out of her pocket. “guess i have to do everything myself around here, even as a man.” right. does this mean brill has a boyfriend now? the thought makes her feel kind of giddy. “honey?” bev asks holding a ring in hand.

“yes, bee-bee? she replies excitedly.

“after a long engagement, will you marry me?”

just to make bev antsy for once, brill counts to thirty before asking, “would i be your wife?”

“yes of course, honey.”

“then yes i will.”

[sancta-seraphina]

HI IT'S ME AGAIN

today I have a question, maybe a few actually ^^

really, what made you write the Divine Tragedy? what about Lucifer in particular that made want to create something more based of his Paradise Lost counterpart? What inspired Lucifer's romance with Beelzebub?

not sure if you answered these before but I wanna hear more about it!! ^^

also, since you shared a sketch with my last ask, here's my own Lucifer!!!! (but he's a warrior cat and trans and gay) for your troubles :)

Well if I've answered these already, then I have forgotten that I did. So I am happy to answer them again! <3 Although this got long.

What made me write TDT?

This is a more difficult question than I anticipated because the stories have been in my brain for so long. Like, I read PL and started making my Lucifer in 2007, because I'm old (I was 15 at the time, I am now 33).

By 2009/2010 I had the basic story that is now Holiest in my head, and much of the lore for Heresiarch was also forming (since I needed that lore to write Holiest) (side note: the gap between me coming up with the story and me writing the story was due to the six damn years of art school that I did)

If we want to get really personal, a lot of the things that Lucifer deals with in Holiest are directly inspired by my own experiences with mental illness—the depression, the hallucinations, like, all of it. In particular, three of his hallucinations were literally my own (and I am aware that they'd probably have most people running for a confessional). So the story is also an "own voices" novel. I really needed a place to write about and deal with all of that, so I used my favorite thing: my angel characters.

For TDT itself, since I had the Revelation-themed novel, and a planned novel based on PL, it only made sense to have a third, to bridge the time gap between the two. So I focused on one of my other favorite events: the Harrowing of Hell, which I learned about through the Divine Comedy (I read that not long after PL)—and the Divine Comedy was both what inspired my Hell and also what TDT's title references.

As for me writing the rest of it: I just really love my characters and I really love angels and their lore.

What about Lucifer in particular made me want to create something based off his PL counterpart?

Well I think this is also a bit of a reflection of me. Something that drew me to the Satan (and/or Lucifer) archtype was the idea of an angel who was supposed to be perfect, who then rebelled, and was cast out. Because that was something I could relate to: I had eldest daughter (TM) responsibilities which I hated, I was always forced into being this 'golden child' that I was not, and I was punished if I tried to speak up about it.

These were things that I realized about myself when I read PL, and they're what made me attach myself to the idea of an angel who was supposed to be perfect, but became evil.

That and I just adored PL. I wanted a Satan character, and I wanted him to be beautiful but ruined (spoiler alert: my Lucifer's true name is Satanael). I wanted a Beelzebub character (who we lovingly call 'Bee') but I wanted him to be a fiery and angry crow. I desired SO strongly to have a Mulciber character—I still adore the idea of an angelic architect. I loved the subplot with Satan and Abdiel, so that's featured in Holiest profoundly.

Not sure if that answered the question, but hopefully it provides context (yes I write elaborate PL fanfic or something)

What inspired Lucifer's romance with Beelzebub?

Well admittedly, I thought there was a bit of homoerotic subtext between Satan and Beelzebub in PL. And as a young queer person at the time, it was one of my first encounters with homoerotic subtext in literature (or at least, the one that left the most impact). The concept of them literally became my ultimate OTP.

Anyways sorry for all of that. But thank you for sharing your Lucifer with me! 🥺 I love cats SO MUCH and I love how he looks here.😭

I gave my own Lucifer a white fluffy cat companion in Holiest. c: So I spent some time today fixing up this old linework:

[rodolfoparras]

You have so much patience with everyone and you just don’t understand how much I deeply admire that about you, bc sometimes I’m just like “yeah Im not gonna go back and forth with this person…block”😭🫶🏽 one day imma get there cos I know I need more patience with people😂

Sugar bee you don’t know how much I appreciate that! I try to be mindful when I respond especially in this situation since the person is coming from a good place and because of that I do try to level with them

But don’t me wrong I pick and choose my fights! There are a lot of asks I’ve gotten throughout the year that I just go on and delete because they’re silly

When I first started this blog I made a post asking why cis ppl don’t like the word cis. Now back then I had such a small following and hadn’t even recived an ask before and my first ask turned out to be something along the lines of why aren’t trans people considered mentally ill clearly that person isn’t trying to level with me they’re just trying to insult me

But I was happy to have addressed the piece. I didn’t think to address it first because when I see someone write about heavier topics or “dark themes” I just assume there’s a reason behind it and move on with my day. But by addressing it I hope I did give some insight to the anon and to people in general. Being a victim of something does significant impact to your development. You don’t view your trauma the way others do. That’s why so many people make jokes about the things they lived through because to them that was their every day life they haven’t known anything different while someone who hasn’t experienced such things can be absolutely appalled at the jokes. If you care for victims and fight for a good cause you also have to accept the ugly parts that are more than the words “poor me”

[bonesandthebees]

im alive (questionable) and im finally back (real) and gods does it feel great to finally read the new rose chapter

I did NOT realise just how MUCH I missed it but DAMN

the crimeboys bonding is going great and theyre doing good in their surviving, im so proud of them

poor phil has to deal with the one thing he cannot control and so he ofc focuses on what he can control, control freak

im enjoying reading about him A LOT, hes so intriguing to me, like yeah so far hes a good character id say, but we get a peak at what he could be capable of and are slowly learning where his priorities and loyalties and limits lie and oh gosh is it fun to watch

and ofc THE BIG MOMENT OF THE CHAPTER: friendly nicknames privileges

and like its a really important and sweet moment in itself and ive been excited for it ever since learning there will be different official names like nikanna and willum and oh did it NOT DISAPPOINT like yesssssss letsgo they are FRIENDS and they let the other call them by their NICKNAMES and it shows how much CLOSER to got and the TRUST and just AHSHSHJSDHBSBSHS YESSSSSSS

and it gets even BETTER bc thats not all, this is a recurring theme with you, whether its a fae name that carries power, a mermaid name that signals family like in last years mermay, knowing a name that reveals the secret identity in superhero aus coming with trust but also responsibility, official and personal names of royals like rose and stars showing friendship or in the other way loss of it, and in glass the reclaiming of self identity thru the reclaiming of name and letting go of a title (which btw the coolest and most genius work with narration ive ever read) you just keep on giving names value in your stories and especially the act of sharing them, the one close to you, with others as a sign of love, even just a little bit and it gets me EVERY SINGLE TIME and the fact its a recurring theme gives it even more meaning, makes it get to me even more

and like its something that happens even in real life in some ways but we often overlook just how much love is hidden in it and I love that it gets to shine like this in your stories

I know we talked about your love for giving names more meaning like this before but I just needed to scream about it again bc IT STILL GETS TO ME

it feels so good to have you back in my inbox (and my ao3 comments) with walls of text like this jiksvokrat

they're doing shockingly well!! shoutout to tommy's survival knowledge wilbur would've been dead by morning without him

I'm so glad you're enjoying the phil pov. I love showing his control issues and how his mind works. he's such a calculating character and I have so much fun writing him

I'm so glad you like my recurring thing with names. I really don't know where it came from, I never had this whole thing with names before I started writing mcyt fic. I think I just really liked it both when I wrote that first fae au fic so many years ago and then when I was writing clinic and there was obviously the whole secret identity thing going on that I just realized I liked the theme and decided to use it where I could.

I just think the act of sharing your name, your identity with someone else can be so vulnerable and full of trust!! I guess this translates to every day stuff as well. like when one of my childhood friends came out as trans to me I felt so happy when she trusted me with her new name and identity (I was one of the first people she came out to). or as a less intense example, part of why I like having an online nickname is that it feels strangely nice to have a name that you guys here can use that's me but also a bit separate from me, but then I have my real name which is reserved for the people I'm closest to (though of course most of my internet friends who know my real name still use bee for me which I don't mind at all). I guess it's kind of like having a public persona vs a private persona. idk, I guess I just really feel the importance of names so I like including it as a theme in my writing.

I'm just very glad you guys aren't getting sick of the whole name giving thing yet lol

[bestbeeking]

tell us your SpongeBob headcannons (I’m doing this so that you’ll be busy and leave me alone)

YOU CAME UP WITH THEM WITH ME BUT OK LMFAO[im just gonna copy and paste the list from the website]

squidward is nonbinary but was bullied for it so they just preetend they're fine being a man and is very depresso

SPONGEBOB IS AROACE AND VERY DEPRESSO (but he doesn't want other people to be sad by him being sad so he act not sad)

spongebob and squidward are married for tax benefits[mr krabs doesnt pay them enough]

Patrick is a cult leader and is secretly a billionare

Patrick uses patrick/star pronouns

MR KRABS AND PLANKTON AND KAREN ARE MARRIED FOR TAX BENEFITS[mr krabs wants to pay less]

Plankton is bullied for being short (also his human form dresses like a steampunk evil villan) (think the guy from lorax plus more steampunk and minus height) (see: (link tothe musical thing)

Sandy is bi and left texas becasue her parents kicked her out

gary is gary[<3333 -bee]

Squidward likes dresses because theyre the only clothes they can wear without having to alter them to fit their four legs ok so squidward was born male but came out as trans[nonbinary] in second grade, but then he was bullied horribly so he pretended to be cis and thats part of why he’s so miserable. so in the story we were going to write and never did squidward attempts suicide but fails and is in a coma for a while and during it his hair grows out and when he wakes up he’s like ‘oh i kinda like how my hair looks now’ so he decides to go to work with it but SpongeBob/krabs like teases him for it so he cuts it again and then SpongeBob grows out his hair for squidward sorta idk this isn’t well planned and then SpongeBob is like ‘wow I’m nonbinary’ and squidward is like ‘oh me too’ and they get a happy ending. alternatively, squidward could get teased by SpongeBob and attempt suicide again and succeed and then everyone is sad idk

…….what am i doing with my life

[allthecastlesonclouds]

10, 17 & 32 for writer questions?

oooo thanks for the ask!! link to ask game

10. Has a piece of writing ever “haunted” you? Has your own writing haunted you? What does that mean to you?

When I was. like. 8. i wrote this original story about five girls and a boy. it was, in short, very bad: none of the character traits were consistent, the plot moved along terribly, and scenes were messy. every chapter was in a different font and Oh Dear God was it unreadable.

and i fucking loved it. i was so proud of it. i still kind of am? 35 pages for an eight year old isn’t bad. but there are printed copies i still find around my house, and my mom still talks about it to this day, and every time i read it i wince.

i’m not sure if this is the definition of haunted, but it follows me around to this day. you maybe thought this was gonna be a fanfic, but this story. Oh God.

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

Gotta talk about fight or flight baybee!! okay so when i started this it was basically because i had many thoughts on the fact it was kristen’s siblings who convinced her to go during family in flames and not. her parents. and also the fact her parents names combined were McDonalds. that cracked me up. also actually i was talking to a lovely irl about this and they said “wait a character is Christian Applebees??” and i went ally beardsley how dare you. the google doc is titled ‘the mfing MacDonna Applebees’

i brainstormed a rudimentary layout for Mordred for this fic, as in i thought about the first floor and went ‘everything else doesn’t matter’. the chapel is canonically disconnected from the house but kristen also canonically has a secret passageway to tracker’s room, so i decided all the secret passageways link up and let people just. into the walls. kristen and riz are the only ones who have any semblance of confidence in there bc they sneak around so much. kristen uses the passageways mostly for tracker’s and bee’s rooms, but she knows how to get to the kitchen and about midway up the tower staircase.

bee is trans. i debated for a while whether her name was spelled Bee or Bea, but i decided on Bee bc i know a Bea and the vibes are. Different. kristen’s nickname for bricker is bricks, and bee calls him rick or ricks, and when they’re a bit older on their Fantasy Discord she Nicknames him Dick and kris doesn’t let Bricker change it back. bricker is bi; he kissed one of the luckstones under the bleachers and that’s what McDonalds was angry about. he’s also religious (bee goes i know the gods are real but i think i’m taking a step back please); he probably becomes a cleric of helio and does something similar to tracker in the sense he worships his own version of helio, not the widely accepted version.

they’re all two years apart: if kristen’s going into jr year, bee’s going into freshman, bricker’s going into seventh, and cork’s going into fifth. this means cork was seven or eight when kristen left, and you know, third graders are Little and have the object permanence of baboons, so. he’s fine. he’s not really in this fic sorry. when i listen to songs, i like to imagine animatics, and so fics are based around them often, and this one is no acception; the first line of the song is ‘i think it might rain today’ and a separate 3+1 line i was debating was ‘3 times kristen found her siblings in a storm and the one time she had them’.

also kristen needs therapy. she Will Not Get It.

32. What is a line from a poem/novel/fanfic etc that you return to from time and time again? How did you find it? What does it mean to you?

really any line from ‘For Everyone’ by Jason Reynolds. it’s such a good book. my boss at a camp i worked at gave it to me a couple years ago, and i cried reading it. if i had to pick a section: (id in alt text) (it hits different when formatted like it’s read aloud)

[bees-tornado]

about me/blog info

introduction, before you follow, fandom stuff, etc. below the cut!

(star dividers courtesy of saradika)

hi everyone, i'm bees! here's some info about me/my blog:

i usually go by bees (he/him). please feel free to call me by name or whatever silly little nicknames you can think of.

if you know me irl no you don't. this is my happy little cringe fandom habitat <3

i love video games (mostly Nintendo and especially Pokemon/Fire Emblem) and anime (mostly Shounen and Shoujo), and most of the things i reblog are fanart and posts i think are funny

Fire Emblem: Three Houses is my favorite game of all time, and i post about it incessantly (more about this later)

Bernadetta von Varley is my favorite character of all time and i love her dearly and also she is my wife 💜

you can learn more about my favorite things here!

it is very difficult for me to come out of my shell and be myself (even in a space like this), but i returned to tumblr because i want to try to have fun and be cringe and be free, and i'm trying my best every day <3

PLEEEAAASE feel free to send asks/tag me/etc., especially if we're mutuals, and especially about my favorite things! i am far too anxious to initiate anything but i like interacting with people :)

on that note please be patient with me sometimes it takes me a long time to respond to things but I INTEND TO I PROMISE

i don't post art much but when i do you can find it under #my art

taken <3

before you follow (it's not too long i promise)

please don't follow me if you're a minor. i'm hesitant to mark this blog explicitly as 18+ because i don't really post nfsw stuff here besides joke text posts, but i don't want minors here regardless, sorry!

this is a 🏳️‍⚧️ trans friendly blog 🏳️‍⚧️

i don't do DNI's, but i do block/softblock/unfollow/blacklist/filter freely

i tend to avoid fandom discourse, including proship/anti/etc. discourse. my policy is that if i'm uncomfortable with a particular type of fandom content, i will fall back on my previous bullet point as necessary. the same goes for when i see people engaging in bullying and harassment over fandom stuff

this is not a spoiler-free blog, especially for FE3H and Naruto. i will occasionally tag spoilers (usually for jjba and xenoblade), but not consistently

FE3H-specific stuff

please please PLEASE talk to me about Fire Emblem: Three Houses for the Nintendo Switch you're not bothering me i promise

Bernie and Sylvain are my favorite guys i think they're neat

i'm too old and tired for fe3h lord discourse. i have my own favorites and opinions, but i tend to avoid following blogs that post aggressive or uncharitable takes about the main lords

i came from twitter where Bernadetta would only really trend for negative reasons, so please understand that i'm sensitive about the way people talk about her and her fans. no hard feelings if you don't like her, and i actually agree with a lot of criticism about her writing, but i try to keep anything too mean out of sight

That's it for now! Thanks for reading/skimming/whatever you just did, and I hope you'll stick around!

[arsuns-ramblings]

hii thanks for the tag! i love doing ask games in their entirety yinstead of how they were meant to be done lol

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen? i'm on pc rn but it's a picture of some minecraft bees :]

🍫 Cheese or chocolate? probably cheese i prefer salty foods and will sometimes eat cheese even after i had my dessert. I do love chocolate tho

✨ Do you have any nicknames? Max, Sunny and Sun

🎵 Last song you listened to? Infinity Edge by Pentakill i love listening to metal while working

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction? oh gods yes shamefull things when i was a kid. I still am but i struggle to write so i don't post much :((

😏 Are you on discord? Yup username is arsun_ send me a dm if you wanna add me or i will probably refuse the ask TwT

 💛 Do you have any piercings? Yup snakebites

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person? How they treat other people

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be? the granola soft heart cookies their the best

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person? cat, i love my dogs but cats are better

🎧 Headphones or earbuds? headphones, earbuds hurt

🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud? "In it? TOMMY INNIT??" i am not obsessed okay? (yes i am)

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know? there's a type of sea slug that shoots their genitals to the female to reproduce and then dies.

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl? night owl i hate waking up

🧸 Favorite place to nap? classic but my bed

🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community? Yup! trans (demiboy nonbinary) gay and polyamorous

🦋 Describe yourself in three words. gay hyperactive bitch

👖 Jeans or sweatpants? jeans i hate how i look in sweatpants

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order? i don't go othere ew

🧡 A color you can’t stand? in the right context i like any color tbh

💎 What’s your most prized possession? my glerch probably andeveryy drawings and notes/ birthday cards my friends gave to me

☕ Coffee or tea? tea but only iced

🦖 Favorite extinct animal? i don't think i have one-

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr? since july 2023, not that long but i did not realize that much time had passed

🌴 Desert island item? if i have the basics for survival then lots of paper and pencils

🐸 Describe your aesthetic. emo/ punk but i don't have the motivation or money to do much with my appearence so i look more basic alt

🔮 What’s your dream job? book seller like please let me be surrounded by books/ mangas all the time

💙 Relationship status? painfully single

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit. any shirt i really like with shorts, long socks and my red shoes

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to? so many i love musicals and i love to sing so like yeah

🤎 What color is your hair? dark blond kinda

💌 Do you talk to yourself? all the time

💄 Do you wear makeup? not really except for crayon and sometimes nail polish bc i'm emo lmao

🌸 Best compliment you ever received? "you look like the lovechild of will solace and nico di angelo"

No pressure tagging for funsies: @atlantis-just-drowned @ace-cat-nerd @aceof-diamond @red-hoods-left-sock @yeathisworks @i-dont-know-i-just-like-dragons @plaguethewaters

~ 💖 ASK GAME 💖 ~

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen?

🍫 Cheese or chocolate?

✨ Do you have any nicknames?

🎵 Last song you listened to?

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction?

😏 Are you on discord?

 💛 Do you have any piercings?

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person?

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?

🎧 Headphones or earbuds?

🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud?

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know?

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl?

🧸 Favorite place to nap?

🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community?

🦋 Describe yourself in three words.

👖 Jeans or sweatpants?

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order?

🧡 A color you can’t stand?

💎 What’s your most prized possession?

☕ Coffee or tea?

🦖 Favorite extinct animal?

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr?

🌴 Desert island item?

🐸 Describe your aesthetic.

🔮 What’s your dream job?

💙 Relationship status?

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit.

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?

🤎 What color is your hair?

💌 Do you talk to yourself?

💄 Do you wear makeup?

🌸 Best compliment you ever received?

💞 @ your favorite blog.

Reblogs are appreciated!

[tootyfruities]

honeypie i hope you know you are the only person who can get away with calling me bbg unironically and make me feel all giddy and hair twirly 🤭

but i’ll be patiently waiting for whenever you choose to write me~ 🤭🩷 and yes i know it’s been 2 years but i still haven’t stopped lip biting and i probably never will !!!!!

IM CONSIDERING PLAYING COD JUST FOR THE NEW NICKI MINAJ SKIN LMFAO but i know nothing abt nothing so you let me know what i should do cuz i trust you 😇

also how was your day today?? read: ramble to me right neow 🤬🩷‼️ i hope it was a wonderful one :> we’re currently watching hamilton for english class and tee bee aitch i never really cared for the historical context (not anymore thanks to collegeboard 😍) i just liked the songs lolll

also smoochy poo is so cute oh my gosh I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ACTUALLY BITING YOUR FACE (affectionately <3) MANIFESTING ALL THE GOOD THINGS IN THE WORLD FOR YOU MY LOVABLE DARLING FROOT <3

p.s. i feel kinda bad for clogging your blog w/ my foolishness and obsession for you (🤭😋😍😻😘💕🫶🏽) so feel free to hop into my inbox literally anytime i post like periodically once every month anyway 💀💀

IT'S BEEN 2 YEARS WHAT!!!! THAT'S CRAZY!!!! i lose track of time so quick frfr... UM HAPPY 2 YEARS MILOVE? also i will call you anything you please j 2 make you giddy and hair twirly teehee 🤭

^ me 2 you during every other breath i take in the past 2 years (i think this is the small version of the gif but that's SO fitting)

COD!!! cod mobile i would kiss on the mouth actually. takes up a lot of space on my phone and updates ALL the time but it's great 2 pass time. always has events going and lotta in app purchases, i don't really touch either of those and assume you would havta do smth or another to get ms nicki 😞😞 BUT it is fun, always has new mini game sorta things (prop hunt once, currently doing some kinda zombie game)

MY DAY OML!! uh uh school was ok math was a breeze(4 once!!! we talked abt triangles and i truly did Understand the Assignment), there was one Weird down where my drama teacher got at me for making a trans woman pun??? (she said the boy next door became a mummy what was i SUPPOSED to say besides being proud abt her having a child!!) definitely got my opinion uhhh interestingly changed about her. we've just hung out since i got home, went on a walk and my ✨poor poor directionally challenged self✨ was able to actually lead for once! i got us to a place AND back and i am SO cool for that. currently waiting to get some chinese food bc we got picky eaters(what was available to make wouldn't work for them) and leftovers didn't sound good for some of us(SADGE i wanted to play around with the queso...)

the songs for hamilton are so good! lin manuel miranda, love his songwriting, hate when it like... has guidelines, if that makes sense. i once read a thing about how he should just be left to make music in a garage somewhere and that's how to get his best music (which is real and accurate, btw. source? uhh just trust me)

no need to feel bad abt clogging my blog! it's mostly j reblogs nowadays, getting some personal talk in there is PERFECT frfrfr!! but i will abs take you up on that offer and drop by your inbox whenever!! by the wayyy... do you perhaps have a current favorite fictional character? :3c <3

[microknifeyuri]

If this "hcs, first impression and character development" thingy is still on

Can you do either Trophy or Suitcase 🛐

Trophy:

First Impression: Before I saw the series, I actually thought that Trophy was a girl. Mostly due to one of his popular headcanons. I saw him as an somewhat passive aggresive jock before doing so, judging solely from his scenes, but he really only got to that after arriving to the Hotel.

Character Development: We all know that he could have been a pretty graté character if he only had more time, so I would have liked to see him become an passive aggresive jock who's soft to those who we cares about and tries to help but is much more of a dick instead, and probably make him grow as a person thanks to Cheesy and Trophy. You know the whole "every character in II are stereotypes in a way" thing? Imagine Trophy becoming a better person for the comedic relief and the weakling. Him getting attached and being vulnerable. I would have liked to see him become one of the final contestants too. In terms of development, he could have definitely been like Knife. In my interpretation he's just an jock who's tired and kind of a dick but genuinely tries to become a better person at the end.

Headcanons: He's a jerd. A jock who's a nerd. He's awfully smart in things he likes/finds interesting. He knows everything about photography AND flowers. Knows how to cook pretty well too. He likes butterflies a lot, but finds ladybugs to be more charming, and bees are his favorite insect. He's generally pretty chill nowdays, just doing his thing but still has some of that ol' anger issues but he genuinely wants to get better for... Tissues and Cheesy. And Soap, maybe. When it comes to sexuality/gender headcanons, I actually don't know what's going on with him! But I think that he would be Parosexual to me! Polyamorous too! And meanwhile I hc him as cis and GNC, I find the hcs of him being trans (both transfem + transmasc or anything) pretty cool too!

Suitcase:

First Impression: "Oh baby, how much trauma can you hold before you realize that you didn't have to?". She looked so... sad. I had a vibe with her I don't know. She just got me in the way that Mic did but differently.

Character Development: Now, don't get me wrong. I absolutely love Suitcase's arc and her whole story with the Grand Alliance, and how realistic was the way she was portrayed since she's someone who cares deeply about her friends and just wants them to be okay with eachother and suffers from paranoia... but. I would have liked to see her go completely apeshit at Nickel AND Balloon because they kept on fighting and kept on dumping their stuff on her (even though Balloon had his reasons of course, she was already stressed enough). This is much more on BB's side but. Them actually standing up for eachother too. Suitcase building character thanks to Knife, maybe. Her putting Nickel in his place and make him realize that he was in fact, messing up. Them reworking their friendship. Suitcase being more confident on herself as well. Let her scream a bit. And hug her best friends. And talk things out with Nickel. As a treat.

Headcanons: She keeps stickers inside of her. She can chirp or hum like a bird. She likes to be held. She paints as a way to cope and process her own feelings. Ironically enough, I think that her favorite fish would be a golden fish. Thought of writing Nickel a letter but didn't since he should be the one apologizing/bringing it up. Has tried reconnecting with Knife. Likes to write poetry, isn't necessarily great at it. In sexuality/gender headcanons... Pansexual moments. Polyamorous too. Me thinks. I do like the hc of her being trans too, both transfem Suitcase and transmasc Suitcase!

[trilies]

That he lived through the Satanic Panic and yet still uses the argument of

"this fictional thing causes REAL LIFE HARM"

is kind of embarrassing tbh.

"DND causes satanism!" "Video games cause violence!" "Yaoi makes people gay!" "This niche area of fanfiction causes grooming!"

Like it's just a smokescreen to ignore the actual issues behind grooming and what would help stop it. Much like how "video games cause violence" ignored the terrible state of mental health help and how bullying works, so to does this do nothing for the actual issues at hand.

As for your tags:

(1) #bro people saying its a slippery slope to censoring everything#and that itll lead to censorship of everything like gay stuff in general

It's only a "slippery slope" argument when we haven't seen it happen.

A conservative Christian alt-right group called "Warriors For Innocence" once looked at a sited called Livejournal and got really angry about a lot of the people there. So they contacted LJ to say "hey, you have a lot of pedophilia on your site, here are the groups and users that are a problem".

So LJ deleted those groups.

....Except those groups turned out to be majority innocent. Like slash writing groups. And lolita fashion groups. And groups where rape and CSA victims could comfort each other. Many others besides.

So we know that flagrantly misusing "pedophilia" as a cudgel has had negative effects.

And that's not even going into everything else that's wrong with that argument.

(2) #my dude did you just admit you cant tell the difference between a gay person and a pedo? because thats what they imply wheb they say that

No. But we have eyes, and we can see that -for example - Republicans sure seem to like calling a lot of things "pedophilia" that they just don't like. Anything to do with gay couples, whatever boogeyman they decide "critical race theory" is, accurate history books...

So you could see why some people would have a problem with people like bogleech recklessly calling anyone who disagrees with him a pedophile.

....Especially when one of those people was trans (you know, one of the groups that gets called "pedo" just for existing) and they were discussing how censorship affects queer media.

Bogleech is actually doing what you're accusing everyone else of.

(3) #this is exactly what im saying i dont think people should just be able to look on the surface web for this stuff…….. like you shouldn't#you shouldbt be able to fucking google cp even if it's fiction???? why is this an issue???

Here's the problem - okay there's actually a few problems

First of all, as I've stated multiple times, there's no factually based connection to icky fanfic and, like... actual harm. This may shock you to hear, but there's effectively no difference between vanilla porn (used WAY MORE to groom people) and niche icky fanfic.

Additionally, you do realize that, by doing this, you're helping silence survivors, right? Because this means we can't talk or write about our trauma at ALL.

I've heard from people who wrote very serious and sincere fiction to do with CSA, but still had comments from people talking about the eroticism. There's an entire article that talks about how only certain kinds of survivors are allowed to write, and anything that isn't picture Perfect Victim is.... stoned in the town square.

It's this article, by the way. "Who Gets to Write About Sexual Abuse, and What Do We Let Them Say?" by Erin Spampinato on Electric Literature.

(4) #theres a difference between pokemon is secretly making kids satanists and hey normalizing child x adult relationships has had tangible#efftcs on people#LIKE MEEEEEE! :D#i really wish! people didnt act like child and adult was so hot! because i fucking did it as a kid because of that you fucking freaks

First of all, you have my sympathies, but.... You're not going to like to hear this, but your groomer would have used anything. If it wasn't that kind of fiction, they would have used something else (just plain vanilla porn has been cited as one of the most common things) or they would have TWISTED something else.

(Many other CSA survivors who've criticized bogleech have pointed out that his "solution" wouldn't have done anything for them, because their abusers just used their interests and fandoms, no matter how SFW and tame.)

So, yeah. What would have helped you - what will help plenty of other people if we can just push for it more instead of playing blame game on other CSA victims - is better sex education. Better internet education. Better education on the red flags of grooming.

Because it focuses on the method, not the unreliable and ever changing tool.

it fucking sucks bc i genuinely enjoy his creative content, awful hospital specifically is very good, but his weird insistence that Certain Immoral Art has a unique, direct effect on real actual life that other dark art lacks has just ruined it for me

Yeah, i was never a follower of his, anon, but it sucks he was ruined for you.

It's just weird how some of the people who should get how Satanic Panic this all is (horror people, furries) suddenly get blinders on. Oh well.

[ollibeuu]

enorace masterlist (ao3 fics only, i’m still working on ff.net and wattpad) 

an enorace masterlist starting with (in my opinion) the best fics! the only ones completely filtered out were chatfics, non-con, or omegaverse. KEEP IN MIND: this is MY OPINION. i’ve read very nearly the entire tag so i thought i’d share some of my favourites. if you’ve authored one of these and want me to delete it from this list, you are welcome to dm me and i’ll take care of it right away :)

edit: part two, three, and four of the list!

Looped - icannotevenhhh: MVP of the enorace tag like number one there is nothing better; first person; oneshot (4446) words; emma bloom wingwoman

Sous le ciel de France - sterrenkijker: one of the four genuine long fics in the enorace tag (27674 words); a tiny bit OOC at times but i think it’s because they’re aged up; no powers au

After the Tears - Dark_Days: one of my FAV fics <3; trans enoch; most likely still active n publishing

Eighty Years - dragonsdendoodles: oneshot (3305 words); my favourite fic by dragonsdendoodles; let me say that the writing in this fic hits exactly where it needs to, like this shit is SO GOOD

till death parts us—and it did - accio_schokolade: oneshot (1628); this one makes people cry; battle of devil’s acre fic

This Isn’t A Long Titled Fall Out Boy Song, It’s High School by Ransom Riggs - yassifiedjimkirk: one of the OG fics; one of my favs; most likely discontinued (so it’s unfinished); high school au; wingwoman emma bloom

(to the tune of Mr. Sandman:) Mr. Bee Man, Here is Your Drink - putyourpantson: oneshot (1558); main fugh, side enorace; god this one feels so so so underrated; coffee shop au

Opre, roma! - nr1enochkinnie_miha222: oneshot (410); POC enoch (he's rromani); mostly just mentions to enorace; another one of my fav fics <3

Strangers - Birdiesflying: active fic; drunk horace; aged up; no powers; wingwoman emma bloom

There Would Be Other Boys - fiona_apiston: oneshot (285); [SPOILER: QUOTE] nah but the line "He would get over Jacob, and there would be other boys. Boys who actually liked boys," always hits me like a firetruck

tumblr's being weird so imma reblog this with the rest of the list