#did I make this more heartbreaking???

[javierduffy]

different.

[amaranthdahlia]

i leave him to you. | i got it ... my hero.

[purplecatghostposts]

*Holds up Félix and Chloé* It’s not obvious because it’s all WIPs and very little has been posted but I care them so much. I love putting them in a room together and locking the door to see what happens. They’re two somewhat territorial cats who are fighting one minute, then totally chill the next. They’re judging each other. They like to hang out and judge other people. They’re mocking each other one minute and then planning each other’s parents’ (Andre and Audrey’s/Colt’s) murders. Amélie invites Chloé over and treats her like a daughter. Chloé is breaking down crying in Amélie’s arms because she feels loved one moment, then smirking at Félix because she’s stealing his mom five minutes later. Sabrina knows Félix by his full government name due to Chloé’s ranting but has never formally met him. They both love Adrien so much but they’re not the greatest at remembering to tell him. They both have so many issues. They complain about each other. They have blackmail material for days. They would kill for one another if it came down to it. Do you feel me. Do you get me. Did any of that make sense. I know I’m taking a five second interaction and allusions to what their relationship was before and blowing it up out of proportion but they interest me so MUCH and I WILL make headcanons about it.

[starheirxero]

No but actually if I can stand on my little soap box here for a moment. This post is genuinely deeply what happened to Lunar and I have feelings about that.

Except, I have both actual blorboing thoughts and also meta thoughts about how that mindset may have influenced the choice of Lunar's sendoff and how it explains why people were so proud of Lunar for running themselves through the machine that gave them panic attacks over and over.

Lunar was basically conditioned to feel like they're basically less than dirt, to feel like they're inherently unlovable to the core because they hurt Earth. They were put in the mind grinder and then Moon would randomly guilt trip them here and there. They got used to hating themselves because they became a "bad person" who doesn't deserve good things–a fucked up mentality is something Pollux has pointed out!! She's mentioned twice that she feels like Lunar hasn't actually "healed", they just ran themselves deeper into self hatred.

Because that's the thing!! Lunar never got better!! Lunar made some big strides, yes, but they ultimately ended up throwing it all away because they're serving an astral court that will kill them if they ever backslide like that again. They do not have the room to heal and they never will again! So, what's Lunar's old reliable method? You guessed it!!! Masking and repressing it all!!!!!!

So they're out there hiding their feelings again and they're being told it's the basically the Morally Good Thing to do after they hurt Earth. This was an idea pushed both by the family (I still have a burning rage over everything old Moon told them) AND BY THE FANDOM.

Comments encouraged Lunar to go in the mind grinder and were even proud they were "taking initiative." Posts were made about how entirely irreedeemable Lunar is now and how they don't deserve to be with the family anymore.

People encouraged Lunar to punish themselves for their mistakes–to the Correct and Good thing afterwards–rather than give them kindness and patience and proper healing.

Head in hands. Not like they would have found a good support system outside of maybe Sun but. Ugh. That's another post. It just fucks me up man... No one told them that they aren't inherently bad or unlovable because they made a horrible mistake. No one told them they still deserve basic kindness and consideration. No one told them they're still a person at the end of the day.

[calmlb]

Odasaku’s orphans & the meanings of their names

aka let’s suffer together 💔

kousuke: to help bring happiness (9 years old)

katsumi: to overcome oneself (8 years old)

yuu: outstanding kindness (7 years old)

shinji: genuine leader (5 years old)

sakura: blossoming happiness (4 years old)

disclaimer: i don’t speak japanese so there may be some mistakes— feel free to correct me! this is just what i found from my research & if you look at how harukawa depicts the kids in her art, i think it’s probably roughly accurate :’)

[good-beanswrites]

My thoughts on how the Milgram mv machine works based on the evidence we have:

(I know there’s been discussion about where exactly the interrogations take place, but wherever they are,) the prisoners are made to sit in a specific chair near the wall that houses the machine.

It’s ordinarily hidden, but the wall panels shift aside to reveal it when the mechanical sounds play in the dramas. As well as the walls moving, the chair transforms to restrain the prisoner and attach whatever it takes to access their brain. The fact that none of the more frightened prisoners try to run or break it makes it seem like they physically cannot. This is why Fuuta sounds so panicked, and why Amane is suddenly helpless in front of Es in their T1 vds.

(My mind conjures very classic sci-fi mad scientist machines with wires, pipes, lights, nodes, needles, etc, but I’d love to hear how other people visualize it.)

In some vds (maybe all? I’d need to check,) you can hear Es take some steps right before their iconic line -- it would make sense that for safety reasons, the power mechanism is placed across the room. Once again it could be anything, but the sound effect makes me think of one of those giant wall-mounted levers you have to pull down.

The voice dramas don’t really provide the type of crime details that an actual interrogation would reveal, and it’s odd that they’re placed before the extraction rather than after Es gets to see the new details. This leads me to believe the machine functions with priming. All Es needs to do is get them talking about their murder, so it’s on their mind.

The video produced is much like a (non-lucid) dream. Even if the prisoners figure out that this is how it works, they can’t control it just by thinking really hard about something else. The murders produce the strongest emotional affect, and that’s what it picks up on. If someone else used the machine, it would default to whatever gave them the strongest emotional reaction in the ~15 minutes beforehand, hence why Es’ video focuses on their daunting task ahead. (The Undercover theory is still a bit loose, though, given the private shots that Es wouldn't have known about). It’s why the videos are usually closely linked to the vd topics/beats. I also like to think that the reason their prisoner colors appear so much is because they’re looking at those colors on their uniform 24/7.

The bell rings to inform Es that it’s the optimal time to use the machine -- the prisoner has been thinking about things for long enough that the video will be about their crime, and if the conversation lasts much longer they’ll start thinking of other things. It’s at a different time for each prisoner because it’s based on the specific conversation. I guess Jackalope is listening in to the interrogation, timing it perfectly. (The only one that kind of messes with this theory is Yonah, because they just keep talking afterwards lol, but it could just show that the interrogation is still in Es’ control.)

Their “Sing your sins” is the final priming nudge to get them to think of their actions as a sin, revealing their guilt.

Once activated, the prisoner enters a sort of trance/sleeping state. It’s very much like REM sleep, with the machine forcibly activating neurons and recording the output. The prisoners have asked Es what they saw, meaning they don’t remember the mvs. I like to think the prisoners do experience the mv in real time, acting as the major version of themself that appears, but can’t remember it afterwards. It’s when you experience a dream, but as soon as you wake up you’re just left with fleeting emotions and memories right on the tip of your tongue.

The video plays immediately upon extraction -- whether on a huge projection or little screen depends on which room it’s in. It simultaneously saves the memory so that Es can rewatch it later (on those old TVs in the jailbreak mix). The machine downloads the song and video together, but requires special parts to retrieve them. The technology is pretty new and fragile, so if one is broken, there might be a delay between when Es can hear the extracted song and see it with the video. (That’s my justification for Kotoko’s delays -- after 9 prisoners the parts wear out, or maybe Mikoto himself overheats it with his complex situation.)

Based on the lack of conversation we get afterwards, I picture Es leaving before the prisoner wakes from the trance. The machine adjusts their brain back to normal before they awaken, restraints freed and able to return to the rest of the prison.

It’s very much like a dream, so it’s not harmful despite the amnesia/head injuries the prisoners have. It does, however, exhaust them. Brain activity alone takes a lot of energy, so forced brain activity with added emotional strain would cause them to feel pretty drained the rest of the day.

[woolly-aph1d]

Just finished 2nd vol of 2ha and i want to officially bet that the the mystery man who wiped Mo Ran's memory is either Shi Mei or Shizun.

[mysticfemme]

it's been a year and recently I keep having really vivid dreams about my ex and the stupid part of my brain wants to unblock them and see them again but I know it's because I miss who they were and not the person they became

[wewontbesleeping]

The through line of windows as avenues for yearning in Taylor’s discography (All i really want is you to stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming "I'm in love with you!" / I tapped on your window on your darkest night. / I look in people's windows in case you're at their table. / I peered through a window. / Headlights pass the window pane, I think of you. / I look through the windows of this love, even though we boarded them up. / I'll leave my window open. etc etc!!!) culminating in “the woman who sits by the window has turned out the light”… she isn’t just closing the window on Peter. She’s turning the light off entirely. She’s giving up hope for ever finding true love. The shelf life of those fantasies has expired.

[gayson-voorhees]

It does genuinely impress me how little faith ANYONE had in the live action Snow White. Not a single playline doll for that movie. Do you all understand how damning that is??? The only bit of merchandise I’ve seen for it is a funko pop. And trust I have been looking for merch!!

[misfitlele]

Last season of heartbreak high has officially ended their production, im gonna cry, i didn't expect this to end so fast

[quatarisprite]

Hey nonexistent uglies by Scott Westerfeld fandom what’s up

[eyra]

a little while ago, a two headed calf was born and I instantly thought of beneath a big blue sky Wolfstar and how excited Sirius would be because “Remus!!! A two headed calf?!?!?” And Remus is just so heartbroken because he knows how the situation will play out and he doesn’t want to tell Sirius

no stop that immediately because this can happen with lambs too and I had the same thought when I saw that story and it devastated me then and it devastates me to this day. I can’t even think about any of that without getting choked up like I may sob I may fully break down because what if a two-headed lamb was born in that damn barn.

you know sirius would be staying there all night long with that lamb even when remus tells him it probably won’t live to see the morning. and remus would stay too and watch sirius care for it and wonder how it’s even possible that he falls more in love with him every single day.

anyway I’m going to go drink myself into oblivion now so I don’t have to think about this. x

[sciderman]

You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.

But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?

because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)

[realian]

???????????????????????????????why

[dyingnerdyprude]

finally watched spy another day and it feels like the tin can bros ripped my heart out of my chest, put it in a blender, made a smoothie out of it, and poured it back into the gaping hole where my heart was.

i am forever changed by this

@curtmega