#detransition dni

[ftmdilfmode]

Thinking about superfetation and extended pregnancy...

(this post is about trans men, with he/him pronouns, getting pregnant. Please don't add female, misgendering or de-trans tags)

Tw: tmpreg, ftm birth, sewing cervixes shut, birth denial, multiple pregnancy, fetuses of different gestational ages, breastfeeding, breast pumping, lactation, extended pregnancy, medically inaccurate

The idea of getting pregnant and my partner not being able to keep their hands off of me, fucking me constantly. They're obsessed with my bump, especially when we get to the second trimester and I start getting bigger fast. He jokes about it being twins, but the scans from my first trimester only showed one, so I convince myself he's wrong.

I go to my 20 week ultrasound and find out that there's a 20 week baby in the lower part of my womb with a 6 week fetus above it. It's a rare case of superfetation, getting pregnant while already pregnant.

Despite the risks, my partner is thrilled, and my doctor is convinced that I can deliver the older baby when it's time, and they can keep the other baby inside for the extra 14 weeks. I'd be pregnant for anywhere from 52-56 weeks total, but they convince me to try it.

I struggle with the rest of my pregnancy, full and stretched from the awkward way both babies are sitting in my womb. My partner barely lets me get out of bed, constantly rubbing and worshipping my body and inviting his friends over to see what a miracle we're experiencing, making sure that I let them fuck all my holes while they're feeling my bump.

My due date approaches and I can barely stand, severely swollen with a ten pound 40 week baby and a two pound 28 week baby stacked in my womb. The doctors are adamant that I can't deliver the second baby yet, and they'll do anything to keep it inside me until it's ready. The pressure mounting, I wonder if I can just keep them both in longer so I can deliver them together...

My body betrays me, however, going into labor at 40 weeks. I cry and beg for the doctor to stop it as I start contracting hard and fast, but it's time for the first baby to arrive. There's nothing they can do but rub my sore cunt and tdick as I labor on all fours and push, screaming in pain as I feel my cunt lips thin and stretch around the head, the shoulders popping out shortly after as they pull the baby out of me.

I try to relax but I feel my doctor shoving her hand up my cunt, pushing the second baby farther back into my womb before grabbing a large speculum. She shoves it inside my cunt, stretching it open as wide as possible. I try to ask what she's doing before I feel a repeated sharp pain as she used a needle and medical stitching to sew my gaping cervix shut before removing the speculum.

"there, another 12 weeks at least." She smiled, handing me my first baby to breastfeed.

Even with the new baby, my partner just couldn't keep his hands off me. That's why I wasn't surprised when I went to get my stitches removed and get an ultrasound for the remaining baby, now 40 weeks along, and we found another 8 week fetus above it in my womb.

I cried, knowing that I was going to be pregnant for literally years at this point, constantly giving birth and having my cervix sewn shut over and over again. Then I rubbed my swollen stomach and put on my breast pump, feeling my babies moving inside me as I leaked milk into bottles, and I started rubbing my tdick.

Maybe this is just my fate, maybe I can learn to love this...

Maybe I can stay pregnant forever?

[toddfoxglove]

Not trying to be rude, I respect your DNI and boundaries and I'm not into the stuff in your DNI but I'm cis and don't understand. Don't you have to detransition if you're FTM and get pregnant? At least medically? I'm not being rude or mean. I'm just curious.

So, I guess I get this misconception, because people can't take testosterone during pregnancy, but pausing testosterone doesn't equal detransition.

Usually whenever people talk about detransitioning, generally, they mean going back to living as your agab or going through the process of undoing social, medical and physical transition. This is a concept that is absolutely horrifying to me and I cannot engage with it without becoming extremely distressed.

Lots of trans men, including myself, get pregnant and have children while still identifying as men and socially presenting as men. That's what my whole deal is about.

Personally, I have gone through a pregnancy and C-section while living as an out trans man, and that was enjoyable and empowering for me. So that's the vibe I keep on my blog.

Also, since you're cis, I think I really need to stress here that being on hormones or getting surgery is not what makes somebody transgender. I was a man even before I started taking testosterone, I will continue to be a man even if I have to pause my testosterone for any reason in the future.

I'm not 100% sure how I feel getting this question from a cis person who is following me. I really don't know if my blog is what you're looking for based on your question. I'm not going to block you, but I really think you should reevaluate if you want to follow my blog because I am a trans man, who posts about being a trans guy with a breeding Kink, and I post heavily about my enjoyment and fetishization of my own transition.

You will never find any mention on my blog of me wanting to go back to my agab. Ever. But you will hear mentions on my blog frequently of me wanting to be a pregnant man, and enjoying being a man and enjoying my transition.

I hope this answers your question because it was a weird ass question. Sorry.

[toddfoxglove]

Transphobia and misgendering are never sexy, you're just transphobic and need help

Breaking people's consent regarding transphobia is sexual harassment and a hate crime, and if you do so online, you need fucking help.

Trans people don't deserve to be abused just because you're a bigoted loser

Periodic kink blog reminder that:

Real sexism is not sexy.

Real sexual harassment is not hot, it’s awful.

Real women don’t owe you anything for simply existing.

If you’re doing anything without consent, you are objectively wrong, vile, and a predator.

If you disagree with any of the above, unfollow me and seek professional help.

[tyrianludaship]

Hey if you're trans, non-binary or intersex and have f/os that live in the past, I want you to know that they would support you. They would not force you to detransition or think of you as lesser because of it. They maybe wouldn't understand at first and might say something ignorant or dumb, but they will always try their best to understand and respect you. Because that's what you deserve. And nothing less.

Proship / Comship / RPF Do Not Interact or Repost Please !

[fakeboybimbo]

My daddy likes to have me edge and not cum for him. He also likes to give me periods of time where I'm not allowed to touch or use my pussy at all and making me an anal-only whore for as long as he wants. I absolutely love all of this. As part of my daily edging for a while I did it in the men's bathroom at work. As a part of this I have started bringing dildos and condoms with me to the office.

I've discovered occasionally a plunger is left in the men's room and I have begged my daddy to let me edge my ass with it and he has been sweet enough to grant me that privilege. I have been a fakeboy in the bathroom at work with a condom-covered used plunger handle up my ass edging and edging and edging like the nasty whore I am. Any of my coworkers could walk in and hear or see what I'm doing, my girly pussy absolutely dripping with how good it feels. I find myself constantly hoping the plunger will be back so I can fuck myself with it.

[caesthoffe]

Remembering and Fighting for Eden Knight

TW // Suicide, Transphobia, Forced Detransition

Eden Knight was a Saudi Arabic trans woman living in the United States, who on the morning of March 12th 2023, was discovered to have died by suicide after a twitlonger (which, upon reading, proved itself to be a suicide note) was posted to her Twitter account.

Her suicide note goes into detail, and explains the driving force behind her death. The manipulation by three people who lied to and betrayed the trust of Eden in order to force her into de-transitioning, all led by her influential religious conservative family.

Whether they want to admit it or not, they succeeded in what they did. As of March 13th 2023, her death has been confirmed.

(Note: This screenshot redacts her deadname, the original tweet both misgenders and deadnames Eden)

Eden gives the names of the people involved in, what is essentially her murder, so I will explain who they are and what they did to her.

Michael Pocalyko

Michael Pocalyko is the CEO of a company called “Special Investigations Limited." A business that claims they do “cyber security”, and “investigations."

Not only does Michael own this company, but he has also ran as a republican political candidate before, has sat on the boards of pharmaceutical companies, is tied to investment banking and equity firms, JP Morgan, as well as the Heritage Foundation.

He contacted Eden through one of her in-real-life friends, a self-proclaimed "fixer" who told Eden he could help mend her and her family's broken relationship. Michael, and his associate Ellen Cole, introduced Eden to (alleged) Saudi Arabian lawyer Bader Alomair.

Bader Alomair

Not much is known about Bader Alomairs background, but we do know his role with Eden. Bader told Eden he was a lawyer and got her an apartment in Washington D.C. He began to take care of her financially; Eden realized he was grooming her into de-transitioning, living in the closet, and she was now an illegal immigrant (her international scholarship, which she'd been using to go to school in America, had expired which meant she could be deported) who was financially dependent on him. Feeling she had no other option she caved to his demands and changed her physical appearance, along with discontinuing her hormone therapy. She even met with her father and got back into contact with her mother. At this point Michael and Ellen had ceased all communication with her, she had an emotional breakdown and “repented," as Bader booked her a flight to Saudi Arabia.

Final Notes and Thoughts

Eden Knight was failed by so many fucking people. Failed by her transphobic family who literally drove her to death because of their bigotry. Failed by the two American investigators who cared more about money than this poor girls life. Failed by the U.S. immigration system which should've provided her asylum and support.

Eden was a beloved member of the trans community. People knew her as a sharp, witty, thoughtful person who wanted to make the world a better place. She said,

"I hope that the world gets better for us. I hope our people get old. I hope we get to see our kids grow up to fight for us. I hope for trans rights world wide."

It's been eight years since Leelah Alcorn died by suicide, isn't it fucked how we're still fighting for the same things?

Eden deserved to be happy. All of us do.

[boygirldykething]

just until it's safe.

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[emilythefeminiist]

It's hard talking about my detransition online bc people will automatically assume that must mean that you hate trans people.

Like, I get in a sense that it's important to showcase how essential that kind of support and healthcare is for some, but like where is the place where I can advocate for myself and people like me, without centring another group around that conversation? We never do this with any other demographic, and when people do they get called out for it.

I've been told to "keep quiet" when advocating for myself and others, I've been told that I speak in "bad faith," but why can't I just talk about my struggles and that of my fellow detrans people? What's so wrong with that?

[catocomet]

what makes me really sad about my one singular popular post is that it’s just me being an ally. actively doing the bare minimum. it shouldn’t be praised and it is

[ftmdilfmode]

The idea of being a trans woman's breeding toy and having her obsessed with everything to do with me being pregnant with her babies seems like a dream tbh.

She'd make me call her Mommy, not because she wants me to pretend to be little, but because she loves the constant reminder that I'm going to make her a mommy as many times as she wants.

She wouldn't let me have cum in any hole but my boycunt, and every time she'd fuck me, she would make me beg to carry her children and call me a good boy for taking her cum deep.

When we finally get that positive test, she wouldn't be able to help herself, kissing all over my tummy and telling me that she can't wait to be a mommy and how she can't wait to see me big and pregnant.

She would constantly have her hands on my bump as it grows, and they would inevitably drift to my chest, impressed and aroused at the way my body is changing because of giving her a baby. Obviously I'd take care of her excitement, sucking her beautiful cock and riding her every time she asked, I would kinda owe it to her for letting me be her pregnant baby daddy.

When I get nice and big, I'll just lay next to her for hours so we can just play with each other, just a soft mix of blankets, Mommy's soft titties rubbing against my swollen boytits, her fingers on my tdick and my hand around her cock, our baby in between us in my womb, kicking with every soft touch and every time it hears its Mommy's voice.

And when I go into labor, of course Mommy wants to watch the whole thing. It doesn't matter if I want to hold her hand, because she's staring at my boycunt as it stretches and spasms, drooling at the fact that she got a boy like me to go through this for her, just to make her a Mommy.

She would try to encourage me, rubbing my tdick and playing with my cunt lips as they thin and stretch. "Push out Mommy's baby, sweet boy, I know you can do it."

I'd push harder, looking down at Mommy's expression as I feel the baby's head eject, watching her cry as she catches the baby and holds it close. I would be so proud of myself for giving her that gift, something so beautiful and irreplaceable.

And of course, once the cord is cut and she's giving our baby a bottle, I'd look over at her, exhausted, and hear her ask, "when do you think you want another?"

"whenever you want, Mommy. Anything for you."

[horselesbo]

[did-i-mention-the-shirt]

it breaks my heart that the detransition tag is filled with radfems, terfs, and sexualization.

[impregnat-thisftm-girl]

DNI

Minors

Actual transphobes

Cis people who pretend to be trans for this kink

Israel supporters

Trump supporters

INTERACT

Actual trans people

Any religion

Palestine supporters

Respectful cis people

[oranaaa]

I want every detrans woman to know you’re not ruined. You’re not a lesser woman.

Time heals most wounds and I swear it will get better. You may feel like you’ll never be seen as a woman/AFAB but you will find your group that knows and that will be enough. Don’t let strangers dictate how you feel about yourself because you’re stronger than that!

It starts off very hard trying to learn all the secret languages of womanhood that you missed, but you’ll get them. And the women around you will help. Just be open and remember there’s no right way to be a woman.

The biggest thing for me was learning to set boundaries and protect myself from creepy men! I never had to learn to keep myself safe around men (I always felt a bit of fear around them, but I didn’t need to be when I was passing as one) and that ended up burning me later. If you do get burnt like I was, know that it’s not over and you’re not dirty. Some men can really suck and that’s not your fault. It’s his.

It’s okay to not share your story. It’s also okay to vent to others and allow yourself to trust them.

It’s up to you.

Just know that nothing anybody says will change the fact that you are a woman. People are more accepting of detrans people than you’d think. As long as you don’t try to force other trans people to change.

Read. Write. Do something active. Do something creative. Find a community of women.

You will survive this.

[fakeboybimbo]

My daddy told me to get fucked hard by five men this weekend in honor of international women's day. Last night I managed to get 4 of the five!

I went out dancing like I do. A guy was there with some friends and I decided to just be forward and say hey I'm really looking to get fucked hard. It was my first time behind some dumpsters near a small parking lot. It was three of them and I barely able to hold myself up I was so weak in my legs. At one point one was fucking me up against this gross brick wall, but holding me up with my legs around him. They all took turns and it was amazing. My pants and panties were off and and they pushed my shirt up over my tits.

So eventually a security guard came over when one of then was taking a second turn and they scattered. I couldn't run around without pants on. He was berating me and I was like if you want you could fuck me too?

He called me a disgusting bitch, but he fished his dick out and I got on my knees and sucked him and told him to please fuck me once he was hard. And the security guard fucked me too! After he came he said he better not catch me out doing this again.

I don't know if it was the fear or not but the security guard was the best fuck of the four. He could have easily fucked me and then kept me with me in even more trouble.

I have hickies all over my tits from those guys. It'll be fun tonight when I'm trying to get at least one guy to fuck me if he sees them he'll know I'm a slut.

Thank you daddy @dangerousrubbersoul for the privilege of getting railed by 4 men last night!

[cozbunny]

a piece about my journey with womanhood

I used to identify as trans. I was confused about my gender ever since elementary school, and I used to never feel feminine. I didn’t fit in with other girls in my grade, and I felt I got along more with the boys in class. I would look at the girls sitting together and gossiping about who’s dating who, talking about makeup, hair, and new clothes they’d gotten over the weekend, and I found it boring and dull. Then I’d look at the boys, who were swearing at each other,  roughhousing, and just being “boys”, and I’d get jealous of them. I always wished that I was one of the boys.

In middle school, I started playing with my gender identity and trying new names, pronouns, and labels, to see what would stick. It was an incredibly uncomfortable time. I was surrounded by friends who didn’t take me seriously at the time and thought that me changing my name and pronouns a lot was me faking being trans. It was incredibly hurtful when my friends would ignore me or say I was faking it all, because I knew my feelings were incredibly real. 

At the end of 7th grade, after playing with my identity for what felt like forever, I finally settled on identifying as nonbinary. That label was the only one that made sense to me at the time, and it felt validating to be able to put a name to what I was feeling. I continued to label myself that way all the way until 10th grade. 

During the summer between 10th and 11th grade, something in my identity shifted. I suddenly felt more “binary” than in previous years. I wanted to wear makeup, jewelry, and even dresses. For God’s sake, I wanted to wear dresses for the first time since I was four! I wanted to be just like the girls that bored me in elementary school. I wanted to be a girl for the first time in my entire life.

At first, I was embarrassed. How could I have been so wrong? I felt like an idiot. Then, I felt anxious. All of the friends I had made over the years were all part of the LGBT community, so how on earth was I supposed to tell them I want to de-transition? I felt like they’d make fun of me and stop wanting to be my friend. 

I attempted to suppress my feelings. I tried identifying as nonbinary but presenting as a girl, I tried to say I was nonbinary and a girl at the same time, I even cut my hair and tried to look as masculine as possible. All of it made me feel worse, and I was depressed. I hated myself and just wished I had the courage to actually be myself.

After a while, I admitted to my boyfriend that I wanted to de-transition. I felt ashamed, but he supported me wholeheartedly. I asked him to start calling me she/her pronouns and referring to me as his girlfriend, and when he did, it all made sense. I was a cis girl!

My boyfriend gave me the courage to begin de-transitioning. I was embarrassed at first, but with time I got more comfortable with it. My friends from before did make fun of me, and even came up with crazy theories as to why I changed so much, which I was fine with because I wasn’t friends with them anymore. And for good reason. 

It’s safe to say that I’m much happier fully embracing myself for who I am, instead of trying to appease other people, and being ashamed that I was wrong in the past. It’s okay to change, and those who tried to shame me for that were stuck in the past and weren’t worth my time. I’m glad I’m me now, and not someone people want me to be.