#destitute

[whitewolfstracks]

Hey, I never thought I'd find myself in this situation, but after some of you offered help, I decided to set up Buy me a coffee. Well, in my case it's Buy me a meal 😅

You can find me there @whitewolfsoul

I'll never be making any exclusive content or offer membership, this is based on strictly voluntary one-time support. Though, once I get my tablet fixed, I can make you a commission as a thank you gift at least xD

For more info, you can either read the last post about my situation, or I'll also share my profile info from Buy me a coffee below. If you decide to donate, know I'm really extremely grateful!!!

I would also really appreciate, if you could share this post. Thank you! ♡

I wouldn't be doing this if I wasn't absolutely desperate, I've always had issues with accepting help.

"I never thought I'll be doing this, but I've reached the most desperate time of my life.

For two years now, I've been unable to work because of extreme exhaustion. I've gone through multiple tests, which proved nothing, so the doctors ruled it's a result of my mental health.

Thanks to my multiple mental health disorders, I've been found elegible for disability pension, but just the lowest level. Right now, I'm living from state benefits that barely cover my rent, I get my food from food banks.

The problem is that for the past year, I've been suffering from worsening joint pains. Again, multiple tests that proved nothing yet, but I can't walk at this point. I can't even go to the shop or pick up my post, and food or medicine delivery is expensive.

It will take three more months for my disability pension to come, but that won't even cover my rent. Due to all of this, my mental health is deteriorating, and I'm also losing things all the time that I need to replace, making mistakes that cost me money because my brain is just so overwhelmed.

If you would find it in your heart to make a small donation just so I could buy some food, I would be extremely grateful. I don't share much about my condition online, but if you wanted to contact me to make sure I'm a legitimate person, below is my blog address."

Thank you! ♡

[27paperlilies]

Destitution Its taste is rather unpleasant, dry and stale it weighes heavy on my tongue. I could streatch it all around me, cling to its feeble bones. But there in lies the agony, of holding on with little hope. If you could shed that weathered skin I hear someone implore, my answer is I wouldnt let my heart leap at the chance to explore, a life without such a suffocating chore. Hope is far more brutal than this suffering has ever been, to see it glinting in the heavens but for it to be so far out of reach. I watch the lucky ones sometimes, in thier joy and indulgence I see what could have been, food to fill my empty shell, and a smile with happy memories to tell. Even in my misery, I take pride in all I have, for there are certainly some that would think me spolt, in my richly stained rags. So I offer what I can, and that is these words I share, I hope they bring you something, because I have found in them little if not nothing.

[galaxy--drifter]

Don't you see love in my eyes Like I see nothing in yours? You have proven once again I know not what is in store

[williamdecade]

Friday December 6th 2024 it's already been a horribly bad day for me and it's only noon. It's been several weeks and that the muscle spasms all over haven't really slowed down like they do I usually get a break or a period that they subside but not lately and it was really bad today I could barely move at all, it's a cold day with a slight wind and the chance of a storm and I'm feeling worse than usual. My neighbor came to help me for a few minutes to fill 12 water bottles outside for 12 gallons hopefully that will last me the week, it's been 2 years since I haven't had any running water from the Super Freeze that we had that busted the pipe. Normally it would be something that I could get done somehow on my own but I just don't the money or have the energy or the physical ability anymore to do much. Being destitute is a horrible situation, I'd like to rinse off just in case it gets very cold but even that is very difficult more than usual since I have to pour water into a small bowl out of the gallon container heated up and then pour it over me to rinse off and if I lift my arms it triggers spasms just like any other movement right now so I'm just laying down for the rest of the day that's pretty much all I can do. It's Times Like These that I really am sad that I don't have money for a doctor or medication, and I know there are millions out there in the same situation. But they do have help a lot of them hopefully family Maybe Neighbors, that's just something I don't have anymore. I know these posts are Doom and Gloom and I'm sorry for that but that is the reality for many. It's good to know about other people perhaps it will make others appreciate their lives much more especially if they're doing better than most. It's still shocking to hear the stories about how all these illegal criminals running around are getting full benefits of everything that this country has to offer when they're actually citizens here that are suffering. It is a shame all the way around. I hope you have a good day and a better weekend Wherever You Are I think that's all I have the energy to say for now. Take care and be careful as many of us know the world can be a dangerous place. And once again if anybody out there can help me you can donate through PayPal using my email. williamdecade1@yahoo.com be safe out there......

[poetrythreesixfive]

Hereditary

How does it feel to be fully destitute, to

know that no matter how hard you work,

you will never own land, or buy a house,

never pass it on to your children, ever

I look at the eyes of the peasant in the

painting as he toils in the dirt, behind him

a shadowy hill upon which rests the castle,

and I’ve seen that look in the homeless

In the eyes of the girl at the drive through

who works two jobs and still can’t afford

to buy a car to go to work so she can buy

just enough food to keep from starving

As I complain about how I didn’t get my

my French fries, then pull away while she

closes the window to my exhaust, thinking

about her grandmother who can’t breathe.

-GeorgeFilip

[dk-thrive]

it’s hard to love when you’re tired, it’s hard to love when you’re afraid you’ll lose everything

We’re passing a Staples store and a Courtyard Marriott and then a Target, corporate franchises that remind me of some larger narrative of this life that I’ll never be able to control, that this country of ours is a cold commercial machine, one that asks us to feed it and feed it, and whatever time we have left for our families we better use well, but it’s hard to love when you’re tired, it’s hard to love when you’re afraid you’ll lose everything.

— Andre Dubus III, Such Kindness: A Novel (W.W. Norton, June 6, 2023)

[fiercerthanyou]

Weegee, "Couple in a Bowery Bar," c. 1945,

Gelatin silver print,

Image: 71⁄4 x 91⁄8 in. (18.4 x 23.1 cm.) Sheet: 91⁄2 x 107⁄8 in. (24.1 x 27.6 cm.)

Courtesy: Christie's

[onlyhurtforaminute]

NECROTIC PESTILENTIA-COWARD

[emptythoughtsssss]

Don't you see love in my eyes Like I see nothing in yours? You have proven once again I know not what is in store

[rightnewshindi]

मनरेगा कामगार विधवा, बेसहारा और दिव्यांग महिलाओं को घर बनाने के लिए मिलेंगे तीन लाख, अधिसूचना जारी

Hamirpur News: हिमाचल प्रदेश में मनरेगा में 100 दिन का कार्य दिवस पूरे करने वाली विधवा, एकल महिला, परित्यक्त और दिव्यांग महिलाओं (वार्षिक आय ढाई लाख तक) को घर बनाने के लिए तीन लाख रुपये की आर्थिक धनराशि दि�� जाने की अधिसूचना जारी कर दी गई है। सीएम सुक्खू ने बजट में इस सिलसिले में घोषणा की थी। इसके लिए बजट का भी प्रावधान कर दिया है। ऐसे में इन श्रेणियों की महिलाओं को यह बड़ी राहत होगी। ग्रामीण…

[thecrystalcrux]

Christ Is Among Them

I used to write poetry when I was younger but got away from it.I still don’t write it very often.But every once in a while, when the moment hits, I feel inspired to try based on something I heard or read.“Christ Is Among Them” is a Free Verse poem.Let me know what you think. Remember, I’m not well-practiced at this art. What if I told you, Christ is among them?Those weary eyes, those chattering…

[whitewolfstracks]

Another little rant:

(okay not so little in the end)

I'm sorry for the number of vent posts lately. I wish everything wasn't going to shits, but this is literally my life rn.

So, I was waiting a month for state benefits, which is the only source of income I have these days. I no longer have money on my account, even to buy food. And they sent me a letter asking for a bunch of documents THAT I ALREADY SENT!

I'm so tired of this. I've been waiting so long and it's supposed to be easier since it's online, so I don't have to go there physically, which is a huge problem for me rn. But apparently it doesn't work, because this is the second time it has happened.

I'm so tired that because of their issues with the system, I'm not getting the help I'm literally dependent on. And they can't be contacted. There are no email addresses shared publicly, and I was literally told that the phone number is impossible for me to reach, it's just there, so when they call me, I know it's them.

So, now it will probably take more time to set things right and get the financial help. And I know I'm not entitled to it, but I've been getting it for a while without an issue (since the last time), and my livelihood depends on it. So, what am I supposed to do?

I wish like, at least one thing in my life worked. I wrote to the neurology where I went last time, asking if they do LP, because my GP sent me to get one, and they were just confused why am I contacting neurology for joint pain, that I should get examined by an orthopaedist, and said if I need an LP I need to contact a hospital. So, I wrote back to my GP and asked about it, and now I got her response and she didn't answer the question, it's like she didn't even read that mail, her response didn't make sense.

I'm so tired of being failed by doctors and the state and people who were supposed to help me. Like, I need help. I really need help. And all I keep hearing is that they don't know how to help me, or they can't help me, or they don't actually listen to me. Like when I was trying to reach urgent care when I was in the crisis: they told me they don't know how to help and then I was put through the phone bunch of times and everyone just told me they don't deal with that.

I'm just so tired...

I'm getting paranoid at this point, thinking if father with his esoteric beliefs is right and I'm somehow creating these issues for myself with my bad energy or whatever...

*sigh*

I never used to ask for help. Now I have to, because I really need it. I really need help, okay? Like, can anyone actually help me?

(as I am desperate again, I'm linking this post once more)

[mukha-ni-rozepurl]

[theperplexedpoet]

time to decide...

Our latest short film has hit the Tubes! destitute III (2023) is the final poetry short of the Pawn's introductory trilogy of films! The Pawn's journey of self discovery continues in this newest chapter! Watch it for free on our YouTube channel at the link below (link also in bio):

https://youtu.be/JbAb_jf_zt8

[jonathanmoya1955]

The Dry

My heart’s voice cries in the sand, oceans of mourning lost in the dry, lying, not listening, not understanding, as my end fire burns in the western sky, perpetually and always ahead of me, waiting for the last grain to pour from my side.

[subtlesolitude-tailoredtaste]

Destitution: UK

Jonathan Pie

Destitution: UK

Jonathan Pie

At least the Bankers are out the woods.

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