#despitethecold

[tacticalhimbo]

HAPPY HOLIDAYS @despitethecold ! I come bearing a gift for you, courtesy of @gtafest !

Your prompts were GORG and I loved them all, but I saw your suggestion of a very Lester Christmas(tm), and decided to give him some love because he's underrated imo <3

Also because complex holiday feelings and complex feelings surrounding disability... felt 😔✌️

But I promise this has a happy ending :} Hope you enjoy it!

WORDS: 1.1K FANDOM(S): Grand Theft Auto 5 WARNINGS: Mentions of Internalized Ableism, Post-Game Plot (Ending C/Deathwish)

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Let me know if you’d like a more permanent copy of this, too! I’m always happy to provide a PDF version of the writings I do!

[NEOCITIES MIRROR]

Life keeps ticking. That’s what everyone says, isn’t it? That life’s some great climb; you only get one, so live it to your fullest! Hell, he brought into that ideal briefly–thought it would make things in his personal life better. But it didn’t. And now that the snow began to fall in the once tropical streets of Los Santos, and the neighboring homes began to glisten with multicolored strings and twinkling lights, Lester realized that yet another year had rushed by.

He was just another year closer to the inevitable.

It hurt when it’d hit him. Punched him in the gut as the realization sunk and kept sinking. It was going to be harder to get out of the house now, more than it already was given the crumbling steps in front of his home and the lack of reliable transportation now that… he was alone. Back to ol’ reliable: Solitude. Isolation. The status of a ghost, as everyone else had to go off the radar after The Big One™. What was done was done, and it was done for good. Michael and Trevor seemed to have made up enough to not kill each other in the end–truly a Christmas miracle, if one was to ask Lester–and Franklin decided that he was done with this sort of life. He struck gold, and decided after all the shit he’d been through… enough was enough. He wasn’t going to throw it all away because he got a luckier break than his counterparts. Or so Lester had thought, until he’d caught a glimpse of movement outside the door. A blip on the security screen. Tired hands reached up to adjust thinly-framed glasses, eyes squinting to account for the change in focus. When they did, a finger slid to enable the microphone.

“Franklin? What are you doing here?��

The bundled-up man outside looked around, then up to the corner. His head tilted until he’d noticed the camera staring back at him.

“Hey! Lester. What’s good man, was wonderin’ what you were up to. I was in the area and… you know, figured I’d drop by.” 

Not a lie; not the whole truth. The fact of the matter is… Franklin missed the camaraderie, despite the intense arguments and the chaos that often ensued. He missed the opportunity; the feeling of being busy and having a purpose beyond everything he’d settled into. One thing was certain enough, though: There was no way in Hell he was going home for the holidays. Denise would have his head if he’d suddenly shown up after fucking off to his new home in the hills–after all, she’d finally gotten what she wanted: peace and quiet and a home to herself. Lamar and him were still on rocky terms after everything, too. Sure, they’d more or less made up, but there was still tension in the air; a stiff sense of betrayal that’d left a bitter taste on their tongues. And beyond that… The Unholy Trinity were all Franklin really had. With them gone their separate ways, the best option–besides spending the holidays miserable and alone–was with the one connection he knew he had.

And it went both ways.

“Alright, fine, come in.” A few button presses. A click. The door unlocked and Franklin was more than happy to step into the warmth that’d awaited. Hands finally left his pockets, rubbing together rapidly to take it all in. The friction alone generated enough heat to warm his palms, whilst the interior’s stiffness brought the backs to an equal temperature.

“Surprised nobody else stopped by. Woulda thought…”

Lester wheeled himself from the computer and to the cluttered living area. When he got to the threshold, he felt along the wall until the hilt of his cane fell into his hands. He took a moment, adjusting the placement, before using it to pull himself up and lazily push the chair back.

“Michael’s been handling things with his family, and Trevor… well… he’s doing his own thing I’m sure.”

“You doin’ your own thing too?”

“Something like that. You know, I’m… surprised you’re here. Figured you would have found some chaos to dig yourself into.”

A lighthearted, albeit stilted, laugh from Franklin. “Nah… Flyin’ solo for now.”

Curiosity. “And your first thought was to come here to resolve that?”

Well, when Lester put it like that… it sounded pathetic. Sad. Bitter. And perhaps it was. The subtle disavowing of his own worth, and the subtle chiding of Franklin’s loneliness. There was recognition in it. An intimate understanding of what it felt like to be alone while the world around you kept moving. Franklin sighed and shrugged, finding himself skirting around the question in an attempt to guide the conversation elsewhere.

“Well, it’s on the way up to Mirror Park. When Lamar and I were kids, we’d always walk up that way and look at all the decorations people put up–’course I drove down here and parked somewhere else. Wasn’t about to haul my ass down from the Hills–but he’s got his own thing going, and sometimes walking alone’s just… you know, relaxing.”

“Can think as much or as little as you want, that it?” A subtle vulnerability; an acknowledgment of understanding.

“Exactly.” A pause. “You wanna come? Could be fun laughing at all the tacky blow-up Santas and shit.”

And as much as Lester wanted to say yes, he knew all too well going out in the cold and walking was not an option. Nowadays, walking was hardly an option as is; everything fucking hurt and the more he lingered on his feet idly chatting about the prospect, the more he felt like just laying down and trying to sleep it off. Was it the best way to manage the pain? No, but it beat the amount of medications he was taking just to ‘stay functional’ while overseeing the Unholy Trinity’s shenanigans. Now, it was down to the bare essentials, and even then…

“Look, Franklin, I appreciate the gesture. Really. But… Ah, fuck it.” 

It wasn’t worth rehashing. Not to him; Franklin, however, noticed the hesitation backing his words. The subtle but visible discomfort as Lester pressed on toward the door.

“Hey–hold up. Let me go get my car.” A pause. “Does your chair fold?”

He paused.

“That old thing? Never got around to getting one that could. Figured most of my work was done in-house and I’ve never been interested in going around the city and witnessing all these… whiny West Coast douchebags.” A subtle smile followed by laughter from Franklin.

“Man, fuck you–this whiny West Coast douchebag’s trying to be a good friend and this is the thanks I get?” A lighthearted jab–Franklin was already in the midst of pulling out his keys and stepping out the door. “Listen. I’ll go get my car, ride us up to the little lot by the park, and we’ll take it from there, yeah?”

“... Alright, fine. Only because you twisted my arm. And, uh, thanks Franklin.”

[yank-a-ton]

Commission for @despitethecold!

[nevergonnasimpyoumikey]

21 trikey or framar x

"... so she nearly overdosed, that stupid bi-atch..."

Franklin hadn’t been properly listening to Lamar — he was too high and tired to care about what the Ballas had done this time — but the mention of an overdose pulled him out of his thoughts.

He wished he could have stayed there.

But he was already thinking about his mother who he hadn't gotten to know, and how Aunt Denise blamed him for everything that had happened even though he was just a baby then and he knew it was stupid to feel guilty over something he'd had no control over.

Lamar kept talking but Franklin didn't listen.

He didn’t hear his name being called.

He did feel his arm being punched.

"Why you looking all girly and shit, fool?" his idiot of a best friend sneered, and Franklin told him to fuck off, but he didn’t, only continued, "What, you feeling bad for a Balla now? She brought it onto herself, dog."

Franklin, not very eloquently, told him to fuck off again and stormed out, swallowing and staring the night lights glimmering in his pool until Lamar followed him much later and wrapped an arm around his shoulder, a rare quiet apology.

[miranita]

spicy trikey doodles inspires by @despitethecold latest fic

full here

[polkaraton]

What's in your bag? Wasn't gonna post this until I saw those crumpled receipts lol. Tagging @despitethecold , pass it along!

[despitethecold]

Finally published the piss fic 🥰 Go check it out: https://archiveofourown.org/works/56265295

[trevorbabygirlism]

genuinely. yall need to read this!!! this is so mindblowing, SOOOO WELL WRITTEN

[d-u-s-t-9379]

Thanks so much for tagging me @merryandrewsworld

Were you named after anyone? No. My dad pulled it out his arse in the delivery room. But I do have a godmother who has the same name, which confused everyone because they assume I was named for her, but it was just a coincidence

Do you have kids? No and I don't think I will. I love kids, I think they're funny and creative and amazing. But I don't want one myself. Never say never though, I might change my mind. But right now I'm happy being an aunt!

Use sarcasm a lot? Nooooooooooooo...

First thing you notice 'bout people? Their outfits. I'm not good at looking at people's faces. Gets me in trouble when I don't recognise people I've met before

Eye color? Blue

Scary movies or happy ending? I love both! But if I had to pick, scary movie

Special talent? I always struggle with this question. I don't feel like I excel at anything, just dabble in a lot of things. I guess I should say designing, since that's ma job lol

Your hobbies? The obvious - writing, reading etc. But also I do crafts like knitting, cross-stitching, embroidery, sewing. I play video games (GTA obviously), and go to the cinema a lot. I also work out quite a bit.

Any pets? A cat ❤️

Playing any sport? No sports, but I work out quite a bit

How tall..? 5' 7"

Favourite subject in school? English lit 'cause I'm basic

Dream job: Designing book covers (partway there!)

Tagged people

@lifeinrhyme @imperial6scum @tigertofu @n0tafish @minabluelove @despitethecold @verbo-volant @jynxclunk @rreskk @sinisterexaggerator @j3st3r-13

If you fancy and you haven’t already been tagged ❤️

[ebonyyelliss]

not very safe 🤔

thanks for the tag!

tagging: @imperial6scum @despitethecold

the og post was way too long so I'm making a new one

thanks for the tag @lombolica !! :D

You're stuck in a room with the last character in your gallery how safe are you

very safe

the worst thing that could happen is him being clumsy, so I think I'm alright (unless monsters find him I guess)

tagging (no pressure): @flaretheidiot @lemonic-whimssyy @wibbly-wobbly-blog @cryptidanathema @virtualunease @aurlworthfightingfor @angrysheep @sugarplumanderson @time-travelling-chaos @fateisnotafactor @monstrousmaws @sinfulauthor @idkaguyorsomething @vampireopossum and anyone who wants to do this!

[tdutchartist]

A very merry happy gtavfest to @despitethecold !! I have been your secret Santa all along, here with your present!

I hope you have a fantastic holiday and a beautiful 2023

[santademikey]

i now have a wattpad!!

[deborondi]

Merry Christmas to you all #primavera #spring #wtfisgoingon #snow #cold #happythursday #smile#despitethecold #sofaymantapls #nieve #igersvielha #instapirineos #igersvaldaran #hat #sombrero

[sad-kiersten238]

Thanks @laviedavantgarde !!!

I really love collecting all kinds of pictures actually! And this is no exception!!

I tag @cattyonvhs , @despitethecold , @saatecoart

if you want of course :)

rule: go to Pinterest, search “[your name] core aesthetic” and create a mood board from the first nine images. no need to mention your name!

thanks for tagging me ily @sylvies-chen ❤️

I tag @death-in-tight-pants and literally any other person that wants to do this!!

[nevergonnasimpyoumikey]

“Oh, no, I know nothing impresses Mister Tough Yugoslavian Guy. I wouldn’t even dare try, Niko boy.”

Niko smiled a little mischievously at that. “Not nothing. There are ways to impress me.”

“Yeah?” Packie lifted his eyebrows suggestively, and Niko’s smile widened at that. Packie glanced toward the corridor, making sure no one was looking at their cell, then nudged Niko’s leg with his foot and purred, “Maybe I’ll impress you with my mouth when the lights go out.”

More Moments in Ao3

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Commissioned @thenoman-sland for this scene from mine and @despitethecold 's roleplay and then turned the scene into a small ficlet because <3333333 Yeah. In love.

[thequeenscue]

💭 I define joy as a sustained sense of well-being and internal peace - a connection to what matters. 💬 #oprahwinfrey #beautifulday #Despitethecold #fall #stylezsession #snappic

[despitethecold]

I posted the fic I wrote for the zine, if you wanna read it on AO3 and leave a comment please do I’m desperate 🥰