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Okay but listen listen listen
They don’t summon Disney Hades
They don’t summon DC Hades
They don’t summon any modern media Hades
These fucks summon Actual Original Greek Myth Hades, who:
- does not give a fuck about killing people, everyone comes to him he can wait
- is about as destructive as a sleeping kitten
- barely fucking pays attention offerings were mostly to HIS WIFE and HER MOM to get favour from him
- is also the god of wealth, volcanoes, and diamonds
Hades pops through this portal in full “what the fuck where am I where did everybody go” to see a room full of cultists in pitched battle with superheroes, and also Danny, who is another death god
There are two options from here:
1) Hades spots Danny, locks in on him as “ah yes an adult I shall ask him wtf is going on” and is utterly befuddled when Danny kicks his ass but assumes it’s a challenge or something and fights back
2) Hades gives a version of “wrong number, sorry” and dips
Maybe the League freak out because Where Did He Go What Is He Doing The God Of Death Is Loose
And Diana has to explain to them (yet again) that Hades is not Satan, he’s gone fucking home because Zeus THOUGHT he gave Hades the shitty kingdom…
But he fucking gave him the one with all the wealth of the universe, and all Hades has to do is chill the fuck out and wait because even the gods will come to him in time
There is a reason you only really see him in myths as a passive observer someone else wants something from, with the sole exception of Persephone
He’s like the one guy who did not get Ouranos’ Dramatic Bitch Genes (even Persephone’s story was fucking tame as far as the Greeks go, he grabbed her, pulled her down, and offered her a snack, no animal transformations or shit)
Hell, if Persephone’s in the story she’s usually the one making the final call (holla Orpheus) Hades deadass is not an active guy
He doesn’t have to be
He’s a whale shark just vibing along and occasionally someone grabs his fin
(He would however be very grateful if Danny or Diana could spread the word and stop people from trying to summon him for destruction it’s embarrassing and Zeus gets pissy they didn’t text him
Mr Lightning Bolt would like to be considered)
Anyway sorry it’s just that the constant monotheistic lenses on polytheistic religions gets on my tits and it’s also funnier if Danny thinks he’s fighting to the death against a very confused upper level manager
Danny: I WON’T LET YOU DESTROY THE WORLD *big dramatic attack*
Hades: you what in my what in the where????
Some occult group thinks the Fenton portal is a great option for summoning Hades. Hades is lord of the underworld and Phantom is king of the restless dead, which would normally make them equals. Except Danny has home field advantage (deathplace/grave/lifetime focal location. He was probably born there too, given his parents). Wonder Woman was working with JL Dark to stop the cult from summoning Hades only to see him get curb-stomped by a tiny teenager, who is also apparently a death god.
the concept of just a tiny Danny kicking an ancient god's ass is incredible
#dpxdc#dp x dc#hades did nothing to deserve this slander#he’s just a wife guy#danny finding this out later from pandora: 😳🤯😱#he punched a grandpa#he just punched that poor grandpa#also danny being the only one present hades considers an adult#despite still being 14#cuz hey he a death deity
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I was reading the Orphic Argonautica last night and the author has mentioned the various methods of divination Apollo knows and guess what? One of them is prophesying by studying the entrails of organisms. As soon as I read that I was reminded of your headcanon of Apollo being into hepatoscopy for divination and I giggled.
Awww 😳😳It's so nice of you to think of me!
Hehe, so fun fact, the overall practice of divination by studying the entrails of animals (including blood, lungs, intestines and so forth) is extispicy while hepatoscopy is specifically using the liver in prophecy and divination readings.
If, like magic in old text exactly like the sort Medea is described as using, the types of divination spoken about in the texts are reflections of the popular divination cultures of the time, I much rather prefer ascribing those to Apollo than I do some vague, somewhat mysterious power which he uses to see the will of the fates, especially since it's mentioned a few times that he'll teach his sons the language of the birds and how to read their signs and so on and so forth.
In short: HEPATOSCOPY APOLLO IS COOL!! HE'S SO NEAT!! Apollo at the altar who predicts the coming droughts and famines from the entrails of his flock!! It's just such a neat little image (to me)!
Also the Orphic Argonautica bangs, genuinely I hope you enjoy it! Orpheus is an insane man and I do not think him along with the collective subspecies of mythical man known as 'sons of Apollo' get enough credit for how truly unhinged they are at any given point in time.
#ginger answers asks#It's so sweet of you to think of me uuuu#If we treat Apollo's prophecy the same we treat say Aphrodite's rituals in the Iliad#Where in Book 14 I think? Hera asks for her help in creating something that will ultimately help her seduce Zeus#And how that reflects on the very big enchantment and amuletting culture where people would use#cosmetics necklaces belts even knots that they hid in their pockets#together with words of affirmation and some ritualistic method like saying a spell three/seven times#in order to inflict some kind of effect on themselves or their betters#then I think it's entirely fair to ascribe the divination rituals of the day to Apollo in place of mystical visions that don't usually#follow any kind of process to induce despite the process of the Oracle itself being highly regimented#Or course the natural rebuttal is 'well Apollo is the god of prophecy why would he have to do any rituals to use his power'#and my answer to that is Apollo is the god of orating fate but he doesn't create Fate itself that's the work of his father and the Fates#So long as Apollo is appealling to powers older than himself the natural course of action is to pray and be supplicant imo#And well Apollo is nothing if not a filial son#Anyway it's still just a personal headcanon of mine I'm really glad <33#I would gladly be known as That one guy on tumblr that really likes making Apollo hold sheep livers#Everyone should have their Apollo hold a sheep liver at least once. For enrichment#greek mythology#apollo
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dallon weekes has a portrait that ages for him in his attic like dorian gray but it also still looks pretty good because he doesn't really do anything wrong
#text post#dallon weekes#stream what love by i dont know how but they found me#seriously ive been a fan of him for a full decade now. man does NOT age#i remember thinking he was old when i was like 14 bc he was in his thirties... boy#42 is still not old but he doesnt look a day older from the first time i saw him#WHAT is his skincare routine#also. yeah ive been listening to his music again (old and new) bc of idkhow's drama being in the news#IM SORRY DALLON THAT YOUVE NEVER HAD A BAND LAST DESPITE DOING NOTHING TO CAUSE THE BREAKUPS LOL#kaily told me ryan seaman was kicked out before reading about it and was like 'oh thats kinda ironic dallon would kick someone outof a band#HE STOLE 26 THOUSAND DOLL HAIRS??????? HOLY FUCK#stream the brobecks stream idkhow and stream all the boys from the nicotine ep by panic! at the disco#oh wait you cant bc br*ndon never put that song on streaming services#despite it being the one of the best twtltrtd era songs... dallon wrote it!#i love dallon weekes he is so handsome and talented
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Gonna go to bed but my Final Message. I do think abt cyborg!bf in the rgbfverse a lot (lets call him Cyber in this context) and honestly it would be hard to write anything until I 100% iron out his Deal but the idea of him latching onto YS as a big brother figure makes me. Very happy. For both of them LMAO
#he would probably be Very freaked out by the others i mostly imagine him spending time alone w ys#idk i guess i Do know what the deal would be it would just depend entirely on when YS intrudes on the timeline#bc if its early enough. bf would still be Violent idk if it would even be worth it for Herself to give him mirrorwalking#just bc like. even if he Likes ys he'd still be a risk to other people#but like. later in the timeline after he starts to regain some memories and the Human part of him starts to fight through the robot#hes really just like. a scared little kid. hes 14 but hes pretty regressed socially due to Insane amounts of trauma#maturity of a 14 year old. hides behind YS like a shy 6 year old when other bfs are over#cyborg bf is like. pre-apocalyptic. 'something very bad is Going to happen so we need to stop it'#and maybe ys cant help with the Actual Apocalyptic Threat but he can help these children recover from their own personal post-apocalypse#probably had a decent amount of angst about that not being Enough but when doesnt he#the fact that this kid trusts him and feels safe around him despite everything is enough to convince him to keep trying#....... anywayNDNQBSKQHSJ#BEDTIME. GN#💛#rgbfverse#cyborg bf au
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Finally got around drawing Aioros :D
#saint seiya#saint seiya fanart#los caballeros del zodiaco#sagittarius aiolos#I remember reading somewhere (either a post or some wiki page idk) how aioros is often revered as the perfect saint an almost divine figure#and I’m pretty sure aioros initially refutes being the next pope saying saga would be a better fit (it’s 4am so correct me if I’m wrong)#anyway I watched some of kotz for fun and saw that scene. he seemed rather upset at the news but a sense of distress I can’t really describ#even when keeping in mind that he was only 14 I don’t think it was the responsibility that comes with being a gold saint/pope successor#but more combining the first bit of being highly viewed. he seems like a rather humble guy who’s rather content with risking his life#or has at least excepted that fact. but when seem as more than a simple soldier it makes him uneasy. because he knows he’s not a god#yet is put in such position that when adding his sacrifice at an early age he’s practically legend. and despite the initial denial he will#always be obedient enough to accept the duty placed upon him. this is all to simply say I tried drawing him smiling but it didn’t look righ#so ye. (feel bad for just leaving the thought process to the sketch in the tags but it’s not my best wording so it stays down here)#a smol trivia nugget: I still don’t know how I want to draw aioros :p actually better trivia nugget: the pose/composition is from a photo m#they saw I had taken a photo but my angle was rather bland so they decided to absolutely blow me away with one heck of a photo#theres even nice lighting and everything. real glad I finally used the reference as reference :]
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My short tall lady
#final fantasy xiv#final fantasy 14#ffxiv#ffxiv wol#roegadame#roegadyn#hellsguard#despite being a Roe herself she still looks tiny next to a max sized Bro#Soft Sparrow is her name#no mods besides the hair#the hair was way too good to pass on
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i need to start putting misha in more situations, ive been too nice to them
#andro talks#gotta keep them humble#i say as drifter misha is currently having a god awful time in our timeline experiencing the continuous horrors of war#finally understanding why operator misha is so jaded despite being like... 14#drifter unfortunately still has too much empathy#you know its bad when you start missing being stuck in a timeloop
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Anyway, here's how I headcanon timelord ageing works.
Only applies to their first body:
From when they're loomed until they are age 8 they age like a regular human
At age 8 their ageing slows down to around 15 years equalling 2 years of physical change (this isn't because of the schism, its more that this is the age they look into the schism bc of this being the point of slower aging)
This continues until they physically reach the age of around 40, then their ageing picks up again to be probably only a little slower than that of a human (every 2 years would be 1 year of physical ageing)
Post-first body ageing:
Every body after the first gains longer and longer "life span" so to speak (which means how long they can have that body before succumbing to "old age" would get longer with each regeneration, even if they regenerated with an old body)
Similar to the first body, after a certain amount of time the body's ageing will started rapidly increasing in speed
#sorry if this doesnt make sense#it makes sense to me#kinda based on my observations from the show (like the 1st doctor dying from old age despite not even being 400 while the 11th lived for#over a millenia before succumbing to old age. being 906 when 10 regenerated and over 2000 when 12 finally cane around. i also remember 11#stating he was 1500 at some point while rory and amy were still around so yeah longer “life spans” with each regeneration make sense)#doctor who#doctor who headcanon#making this post made me realise that 10 was only around for 6 years (9 stating he was 900 and 10 stating he was 906 in his last ep) which#makes the “i dont wanna go” line hurt so much more since hes a later regeneration and so shouldve had a longer “life span”#i calculated it and this means theta & kos would be physically 14 when rock murder takes place which makes sense#we all had the urge to murder our bullies when we were 14
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real talk its so fucking Difficult to have been raised by someone who moralized food down to the molecular level like I know it wasn’t done with intent to hurt me (in fact it was done with intent to save me which is more irritating bc i feel guilty for being so angry bc they really were doing what they thought was right) but being told from basically birth that i must be resilient against any food i found alluring and that not giving into things with any sugar or fat was a sign of strength is actually quite insane whenever i think about it. Being like 5 years old in the supermarket asking if we can get the off brand honey nut cheerios instead of the plain ones and getting a lecture in the middle of the aisle that sweet things are addictive and bad for me and im only going to trap myself in a dopamine cycle and that even the fact that I asked should be a lesson in how dangerous and tempting food can be and im like. Ok. I am a literal child and the what im taking away from this is certain foods are Evil and Evil Foods Taste Better and Feel Good For Your Body and Brain and that once you start indulging you can never stop like. bro i rlly never stood a chance 😭😩
#Vent#I didnt try McDonald’s until i was 14/15 despite being a latchkey kid at 11 and living right across from one in the middle of a food desert#Bc i was genuinely actually afraid my dad would somehow know if i had a burger and/or that god would send me to hell if i got french fries#Most fast food places are still extremely novel to me bc i only tried them now in my 20s. This is also bc we were extremely poor but thats#It’s own whole separate thing lmao. Fast food will forever be a modern luxury in my eyes to some extent even if everything else heals#Almond dad shit hits different especially when hes an immigrant trying to set you up for a better life and live through you. Double whammy#When they give up everything for u whats giving up a few calories for them amiright#Especially bc he came from an overweight family that does have severe health issues so. TFW u give ur kid an 3d out of love or something ig#Anyway. Back to aesthetic posts in a bit im just thinking some thoughts tonight
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It all feels like a retcon starting from the first look at toga’s backstory because it doesn’t sync up when you put all her actions together. I thought maybe hori was trying to say toga’s quirk became unfortunately linked to arousal after years of suppressing it and it being triggered by her feeling of admiration for her crushes. But yeah that would have been too mature to tackle for my hero though I could maybe see it with chainsaw man. So I don’t know get what’s going on right now except toga’s mentally ill because of her parents and society and he keeps trying to make last minute parallels between toga and touya.
I think the issue is that Hori never spent as much time or effort on Toga as he did with Shigaraki and Touya. Even now her backstory is rather limited in comparison. We got full chapters worth to explore what happened to Touya and Tenko but Toga's is a couple pages or panels here or there with everything being rather vague.
Hori likes using her for sexy pictures and drawing suggestive stuff with Ochako, but she ultimately isn't given as much thought as her male counter parts. Which given the already bad implications of her character has only made her even worse.
Take this latest chapter. We get this page for Quirk counseling.
It's just 2 panels that are honestly really vague. It also comes after her drinking blood from a bird her parents think she killed. Toga says it fell on the ground but that doesn't mean she didn't kill it (baby birds are often on the ground until they fully can fly, or it could have been injured), so that's not helpful either. On top of that it makes sense her parents would find the behavior bad regardless because it either means she killed an animal or picked up an already dead one and proceeded to eat it. Neither of those are great and both are harmful to her.
We just don't really get a good look at how the Quirk counseling worked. They say that they'll make her 'normal' but that doesn't mean they abused her. They could have just explained why it was wrong for her drink blood, like the health issues it could cause. On top of that Hori drops the 'it happens all the time in our current society' line, but we have never seen anyone else like Toga. Not even Stain was ever hinted at being like Toga despite their similar blood based powers.
This is like if we reduced the Touya chapters to a black screen with Enji commenting that he can't train him anymore and we didn't get to see how much Touya struggled with what he perceived as rejection, or how Enji completely ignored him afterwards. Or if we cut Shigaraki's father's abuse to just him yelling at him in black panels before he accidentally killed his family.
Then we get this. This honestly makes Toga look worse, not better in my opinion. We see that she drank blood from someone before she snapped at school. She says they got hurt so she kissed it better, but if you look at her, she is covered in quite a bit of blood. Maybe her friend did get hurt but they were either really badly hurt and bleeding a lot and Toga did not help them and instead started licking them, or she might have even made their injuries worse to get the blood she wants.
If Hori cared more about her character he would have been shown what happened here. Or in the very least put less blood if any on Toga, which would show she didn't hurt this person or ignore helping them with a serious injury because she can't think of anything but blood.
As it is we have no idea if her friend got really badly injured and Toga ignored helping to just feast on them, or if her friend told her to stop, or if she made the person's injures worse. Yes, her parents are wrong for saying Toga's not human, but if she's attacking injured friends that's a huge problem.
One of the biggest issues with Toga is that she is both portrayed as so obsessed and desperate for blood she can't comprehend why anyone might not like her shoving a straw in their neck, but at the same time she was and is at times able to be perfectly fine. She can't understand why Ochako or Izuku, in desperate situations caused in part by her might not be happy with her, but can also turn around and comfort Twice and understand that he feels responsible for the death of a team mate.
It's impossible for me to feel bad for her because when I read her chapters I just see a drawing of an offensive stereotype that does what ever the author wants them to do. Toga just doesn't feel like a person at all. She's nothing but the sexy shell of a teenage girl that Hori doesn't seem all that invested in past her being cute and giving him an excuse to have two girls being all touchy and hot.
#ask#thanks for the ask!#bnha spoilers#bnha#mha#anti himiko toga#anti villain#bnha critical#shes just impossible to take seriously#cuz idk how she can be the most emotionally mature of the LoV#but somehow not get consent#like girl have you ever tried asking to drink someones blood before using them as a juice box?#did it really not occur to you that maybe people don't like being stabbed#i mean she never tries to attack any of her friends despite saying she loves them now#the only time she pulled a knife on Shigaraki was to threaten him#which means she does get that knives are threatening#yet she still throws a shit fit when Ochacko and Izuku are not happy with almost getting stabbed#like im sorry but that makes no sense even if she is really mentally ill#and if she was that mentally ill she never would have been able to pass as 'normal' until she was 14 or 15#i also don't believe that neither her parents of the councilor ever explained why she shouldn't attack people#and just told her don't do that#even the abusive horrible gay conversion camps give people reasons they shouldn't be gay--even if they're all wrong#i just don't believe that they didn't tell her that it was at least dangerous for her after the bird#or say don't drink blood from people because they won't like it or that it hurts them#idk her character just drives me insane#and i legit don't get how there are people who think shes great#both as bi rep and as a well thought out character#she doesn't have a brain half the time and makes zero sense#and complains about people not liking her for very valid reasons#like shes just a whiny incel whose upset she can't attack people whenever she feels like it
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I just had to share this video because holy shit, it hits the nail right on the head! So well spoken. This stuff needs to be circulated more, esp with the growing number of people thinking they have this because of misinformation, or just outright faking it.
#it's painful because i knew someone who personally faked this stuff (or has convinced herself she has it i can't even tell)#she had spent all her time on tiktok and i know for 100% sure that's where she got the idea. it's TRAGIC how fast things went downhill#i'm legit horrified at how many people (esp young kids of 13-14) think they have this too. or are just pretending#i've been neck deep in hardcore research (and i'm talking pubmed sciencedirect etc only) for months#and those kids definitely don't have did.. if they have trauma and are dissociating it's going to be something else like dpdr etc#the number of stupid 'you have did' answers i see for totally basic questions like 'i got dizzy what's wrong w me' is insane too#it's like googling 'muscle twitch' and then thinking you have some rare 1/billion familial cancer thing despite other obvious explanations#but worse.. in these cases the information is being fed to them. they don't have an opportunity to explore other possibilities#and the worst part is they don't even know to CHECK THE VALIDITY OF WHAT THESE PEOPLE ARE SAYING. they don't have info literacy#like i'll say this once: did is so rare that it's STILL contentious about whether it even exists#and it only happens in the most unimaginably traumatic experiences. think of the worst possible things you could do to a child#where even just thinking about it makes you uncomfortable. THAT'S the kind of trauma that leads to did. the truly evil stuff.#i'm not even gonna start on the BITE model shenanigans that are happening in the 'did' communities either#or how the people who used to be in them (and got out) always equate them to self-harming cults that celebrated not finding real answers#they got told they were 'perfect the way they were' despite having OBVIOUS psychological issues they needed help for#(it just wasn't did)#they were assured their 'did was valid no matter what'. toxic positivity ig? it just delayed their real diagnosis and ability to get help#but now you have gluts of people like in the video 'talking to themselves' and people on tumblr posting one-liners of 'alters' talking#one after the other within seconds. and i want to fcking cry because it's the same exact shit my friend did before she cut ties#the did/tourettes/ftlb stuff has literally been called a 'mass sociogenic illness' in multiple academic studies#but like qanon believers they seem to immediately discredit anyone who mentions this with 'you're just ableist' so anything you say is poo#aka you're part of the problem you're an 'ableist' so your legit info even though legit isn't valid/acceptable/real/whatever. i'm tired fam#did#dissociative identity disorder#osdd#ddnos#munchausen syndrome#mass psychogenic illness#ableism
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Not to say one can't consume media they don't 100% agree with (I do the same so like), but you talk a lot about how the core views of TPN vs BSD change your entire way of enjoying these two, and I was wondering what drew you in into BSD if there are so many aspects of it you disagree with?
(Not meant as an attack or as a questioning of you enjoying it, I always am interested in your analysis so this is just out of curiosity, and also I am planning to pick up TPN again sometime this year)
#I've probably already mentioned it somewhere but this was the exact picture that made me start liking sskk wwwwww#And by extension made me stick around bsd#That said do I really talk a lot about t/pn???? To think I was doing my best to keep it at minimum‚ sorry‚ I sincerely didn't realize 😭😭😭#In the end sskk is just a ship I particularly enjoy consuming (and producing I guess) content of in this particular period of my life-#about that I know for sure I would definitely have hated the pairing when I was 14-18 ahah.#And tbh I hope next I'll hyperfixate on healthier ships#But I just. at this time of my life I find the idea of someone loving you despite you not being a good person strangely comforting.#The idea that even the most evil of people can be loved is oddly reassuring#Besides I like the fandom! I mean‚ in the perfect world at this point I would still be in the p/p fandom... But my p/p hyperfixation ended–#up burning out sooner than how it would have done organically because the fandom was nearly non existent and the canon content was–#untranslated and extremely difficult to access. With bsd the monthly chapters release is ideal in the way it’s both a constant influx of–#new content without it being overwhelming. And it's enjoyable to be part of an active fanbase!#I like receiving asks. And celebrating character birthdays together.#sskk#people asks me stuff#That being said please read t/pn if you can!!!! It's really a fabulous story with incredibly insightful themes.#But also remember not to watch the anime since it's not a good adaptation!!!!!!!#As for the physical reason why I got into bsd: it was to impress a girl. duh
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..... but he knew he was right is a good show huh...
#{10martha antis are getting worse because rtd after a decade of getting dt back as the role STILL NEVER SAID THOSE WORDS AS THE ALIEN}#{despite 14 being the face THE face to vocalize openly and unabashedly about his thoughts and feelings bare STILL NOT SAYING IT}#{even he can say i love you sarah jane i love you donna noble but it took 15 (a black doctor) to vocalize it}#{something that rubs them the wrong way because now they are forced to see that their racism was their driving force of 10rose}#{because now they were trying to push ruby and 15 as the new 10rose but then the next companion dropped as poc love interest}#{and now relatability is called into question when its clear those comments stem from the very tenrose stans than fans}#bw: out of ethos#{yes it stems from self projection on their part of what they will never be}
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ren'py is definitely the best choice for this game but i am mourning being able to use rpgm assets for real
#bobtalk#what ever#and still & forever fuck visual novel maker that was ass and now i am here porting all that shit to a superior engine. slowly. on and off.#over years.#god i'm gonna have to come up with a better name for this thing if i'm ever actually going to release it.#it started as a test game when i was 14 man. there are so many design decisions that i would do differently...but i'm attached.#to a lot of things.#you've gotta kill your darlings and all but. lmao#average bob bobzora solo project (which is every bob bobzora project)#guys the sprites are literally ms paint doodles. from middle school. and here i am 3d modelling backgrounds.#and making high effort but still ugly UI. this is where we are.#the funniest part is that despite being Like That this is like the only Non fanproject i've made pretty much#like i could charge money for it if it ever released if i wanted. is that funny or what#sigh. i want to talk about the shit i make!!!!! grah!!!!!
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i think it says a lot about the people saying these things, that "misandrist sentiment" is usually accompanied by "you're not actually oppressed, you just got your feelings hurt." especially when you consider i've been internalizing that since age 13, when i first identified as a trans boy. that's a hell of a long time to be exposed to "just getting my feelings hurt." even adding more insult to injury that i wasn't even privileged and i'm also marginalized (also. a POC.) like.. do you really think a young teenager is gonna be able to emotionally handle "just getting their feelings hurt" on the basis of their identity. at what point would you consider maybe being kinder and being more compassionate cause that's what gets actual progress. like maybe if i started seeing that bullshit now, i'd be tired of it, but i wouldn't have internalized that i'm irreversibly a terrible person and it wouldn't have had such a lasting mental impact on me, wouldn't have taken me so much frustration to try to unlearn it and work it out.
and from what i've seen, especially for younger generations raised on the internet, this is.. kinda a decently common experience?from transmascs to even anyone who was AMAB, including cis guys -- we want to be progressive and help people but we're exposed to a lot of "lol men suck" even just jokingly, it's pervasive, it gets into our goddamn brains and makes us question everything and hurts us a lot, especially when it starts young. it makes a lot of trans people question if they're even supposed to be in the spaces that are supposed to support them. and hey, maybe that's what you actually want, for us to experience the "same" misogyny cause it will never be "as bad." but it's kind of really sucky cause a good number of us also experience misogyny on top of that so it's not like you're doing anyone any favors really. and even for cis guys it's just generally... not good. of course if you just enjoy making other people suffer out of revenge against misogyny in general, i guess that's your own thing and you can do that; if you genuinely want the power structure flipped on its head than have actual equality. but it is kinda stupid tbh.
and it also sucks that feminist spaces and society at large is not at ALL prepared to fully address all the ways that men suffer under the patriarchy, albeit differently from women it's still suffering. like. there's still a lot of cis men out there who think even the most basic things are gay, unmanly, feminine, not "real men" behavior. having a range of emotions, basic hygiene, the type of clothes you wear, your mannerisms and your lifestyle. and then there's a lot of feminists who think that men have nothing to suffer from and it's just so easy to "undo/unlearn/unpackage" a lot of this shit. and it sucks only trans people discuss this aspect a lot because it has affected all of us and shaped our experiences, but the deeper nuances of trans voices and experiences are not that heard in society.
i just. it's one of my hopes this is a subject that gains more importance in society within my lifetime. liberation for all or liberation for none ok.
#antimasculism#transandrophobia#long#personal#i know its maybe not the same but i actually legit do feel for cis+het people who feel a lot of that#maybe im just like. i don't like being a mean person#like lately i saw a 14 y/o cishet be super upset that they felt out of place bc of how common LGBTQ is in their fandom#and how they saw a lot of#lol cishet sucks#i kinda really feel bad for kids like that?#when it comes to white people it's a slightly different story but i still feel iffy on it#i think one of my friends is white and young on the internet and feels guilt for not being able to do much to help despite being a minor#and not actually having the capacity to do so#to help that is#i think all i gotta say abt this is like.#vengeance is an easy emotion#idk.#im literally trans + POC so im uhhhh idk
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i want so badly to be able to Function on my own without relying on drugs despite having Executive Dysfunction Disorder so i keep not taking my Functioning Drugs and then getting frustrated with myself when it results in me Not Functioning Executively. why do i keep thinking maybe this time will be different
#.#i just still have this ingrained fear of meds from when i was a kid#despite being on various prescription meds consistently since i was 14#and this med in particular makes me nervous even though it helps so much
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