#despite really really really not wanting that. the guilt that the both of them feel towards each other
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okay im going to try and do as many headcanons/ideas i have for this au(now named stone twin au because i cant think of anything else and im bad with being original obviously) most of these are about wukong since hes the one i think about constantly but i guess i have to start somewhere(also i have a few of my headcanons in here that dont just pertain to this au plus a few things from jttw but i didnt feel the need to have them on a separate post), this is mostly just about sunny's(wukong) relationships with others, not everyone but the ones i can think of for now. i also finally figured out how to do read more.
obviously wukong(sunny) would be the more monkey like of the two, hes about a few inches shorter then mk, he's very clingy, loved to cling to pigsys back growing up and still occasionally does especially when not feeling well, also clings to tang and mk and occasionally mei, when the twins were first found he couldnt speak human(he understood it just fine the same way any other toddler would) and while mk couldnt speak monkey he could understand it and played translator until they taught him how to speak human, he still slips into monkey speach when hes really sick or upset/distressed, he prefers it when others play with/style his hair for him(the whole monkey socialization), loves climbing and being in high places and has very high energy when his health isnt acting up, this has caused a few heart attacks
loves both his dads but is closer to tang(we know why even if he himself cant remember) loves to spend time with him learning new things, always begs for stories of tripitaka and what he can of macaque. tang is the one that taught the twins the basics of what was needed for school, and actually does a lot of sunnys lessons himself when hes to sick to go to school, i dont really have a set job in mind for tang yet but i was thinking a historian of some sort that can work from home especially since he has a sick child. its also because of tang that sunny as such a love of reading and learning
with pigsy he's still pretty close, mk being the one closest to him, but hes still loves spending time with him. sunnys not very good at cooking, but he loves clinging to pigsys back and watching while he cooks(as said above its something he never grew out of), pigsy has made sure that sunny can make the foods he actually can eat though. sunny also shares pigsys love of singing and they will have mini concerts when no ones watching.
mk and sunny are very close and slightly co dependent, mk has a lot of anxiety about leaving sunny alone for long periods, sunny has a lot of guilt about this and self blame for mk not having many friends outside of mei and himself, and while hes just as codependent as mk he does make an effort to encourage mk to go out without him. it used to be worse when they were younger, but they both started going to therapy around 10 at sandys suggestion, they still struggle with it but they do have lives and hobbies outside of each other. obviously since sunny doesnt have his memories he cant exactly teach mk how to use the staff and powers, his advice is more of the sibling "well remember when you tried *random thing thats similar to current situation* when we were kids just try that" sunny is the one that eventually pushes mk to try and find an actual teacher at least to teach him to fight properly.
both twins are very talented artists(a canon fact that i just cant get rid of), like i said sunny loves singing and acting/performing but he does have stage fright bad enough to prevent him from doing so outside of his small group of friends/family(this stems from the trauma that always seemed to happen in front of large crowds in jttw poor baby getting affected by everything even if he cant remember). sunny is also the one that gets the better grades of the two despite missing way more school. due to not being able to run off his energy a lot he channels it into his studies and art and writing, he wants to eventually become a professional artist.
mei is obviously just as close to sunny as she is to mk, both of them are chaos and adrenaline junkies, shes his partner in crime when it comes to pranks, she makes sure that he's not alone even on days he doesnt feel well enough to get out bed or hes in the hospital. they both love cute things, and if mei gets a dress she doesnt want she gives them to sunny, especially if its pink(he has a lot of them). she keeps sunny up to date on all the shenanigans that happen while hes in the hospital, including the stuff mk wont say in fear of worrying him.
sandy is the one sunny goes to when he's feeling suffocated and overwhelmed by his familys hovering and overprotectiveness, he finds him to be a very comforting presence and hes a good listener for whatevers bothering him. sunny also likes to help train the therapy cats.
sunny does have a mean streak, especially when its something negative being said about his friends/family, uses his pranks to get back at whoever wronged him, since he's to weak for a physical fight(hes tried once it didnt end badly only because the other person was to shocked to really retaliate sunny did end up breaking the kids nose and his own wrist). the pranks themselves are never cruel or outright harmful just enough to make the person think twice about doing it again
PIF actually manages to figure out who sunny is pretty early on having seen the small family out and about one day, she does assume wukong has reincarnated into a new life, and as much as shes upset with him over what happened with DBK thats still her husbands little brother and one of the ones that help her son, so she leaves them be, looking in from time to time
for DBK he's still got some lingering resentment for being trapped for 500 years. his first thought on seeing sunny is that wukong is just faking and toying with him, his wife does inform him that that is not the case. after that he cant figure out if he's happy about this of not. on one hand he gets to see sunny be the happy carefree person that wukong used to be though he's upset that it'sat the cost of his health, but on the other hand he's lost his little brother and never got to make up. sunny does feel oddly drawn to DBK though hes not sure why but he deems him as immediately safe(much to the concern of everyone else)
red son was obviously very young the last time he saw wukong, so he has no idea who sunny really is, after the initial being enemies thing and getting a few good pranks in on him, they actually get a long well, both being sassy and sarcastic enough to keep up with each other(everyone else is happy that sunny has a new friend even if that friend is kinda of an asshole). red son grew up to hearing stories about wukong both good and bad so he does have some complicated feelings about him, that does carry over to sunny once hes told hes wukongs reincarnation and further complicated when it finally comes to light that he is actually a sealed wukong, in the end red son decides tgat sunny is sunny and still his friend even knowing who he actually his.
the whole macaque situation goes mostly as canon except macaque thinks sunny is just playing around and pretending not to know anything. mk meets macaque the day before sunny is released from the hospital, he follows mk to the hospital to pick him up which is the first time he sees sunny. the fight goes mostly the same but not, in the fact wukong isnt there to fight him and protect mk, but sunny is basically used as a hostage and accused of playing pretend, its sunny being in danger that helps mk get the powers macaque took back. sunny doesnt really know how to feel about the situation at all, hes had a crush on macaque since he was a kid and that same person tried to kill both him and his brother and claims hes someone that hes not. continues to antagonize his his friends and claim he's wukong, and a large part of him still does have feelings for macaque even after all that. hes got a lot of complicated feelsing about it but he is still incredibly pissed that macaque tried to kill his brother and tried to use him to do so. macaque is in for a world of hurt when it comes to the eventual pranks. macaque for a while refuses to believe that sunny isnt pretending, since the alternative is accepting the wukong reincarnated and isnt coming back. overall its very complicated and the family disapproves.
as for sunnys powers and memories and immortalies, they are all under different types of seals and of those there are many keeping them all wrapped up tight. like he could unlock one or two powers but his immortalies and memories seals would be uneffected and vice versa. he does unlock 2 powers during the whole spider queen thing that being his strength and his cloud, however he can't use them for very long without exhausting himself. DBK was the first to notice that sunny had powers during their imprisonment with spider queen, he was able to trigger sunny into activating them which got them free. though DBK did get punched for his efforts, sunny broke his wrist again and immediately passed out, DBK getting them the rest of the way out and bringing sunny to his family
#ezzie writes#stone twin au#lmk#lego monkie kid#lmk sun wukong#lmk mk#lmk pigsy#lmk tang#lmk mei#shadowpeach
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Why Junmei is just 3 Qijius in a trenchcoat, a disorganized essay
As an avid lover of both of these ships, I've been wondering what about them makes me so sick to my bones and causes the same heart pain to flare up every time I think about them too hard. Over the time I noticed their similarities and how very very alike both pairs are and- regardless of shipping lenses - have a very similar base structure to them.
So at the risk of sounding more insane than Jun Wu, join me down below the cut.
The Core
At their core, both pairs' structure is the same:
A strong relationship/friendship/whatever-the-fuck-you-can-call-this-ship that is tested by a bad situation, and an utter failure to communicate after a failed promise and a betrayal. (And a divorce they proceeded to make everyone else's problem.)
For Qijiu, they were both slaves, fighting to see another day - torn apart by the horse incident, which lead to SJ being dragged off to the Qius. Yqy made a promise to him and left. The two reunite later, however can never reconcile as YQY is never able to utter the words SJ needs to hear, believing them to be excuses and beating himself up over his failure to keep the promise. Meanwhile SJ never cared about the fulfillment of the promise, just about the fact that he was not left behind, that he is not a monster or mudstain the other no longer wishes to associate with. He fails to communicate this, and YQY fails to communicate his side as well.
For Junmei this means they were prince and vassal respectively, growing up in a country with all but bright futures ahead. And then the mountain erupts, starting the long road spiraling downwards. Despite this getting Jun Wu banished, MNQ promises to stay, to not leave. Yet after JW sacrifices their 3 friends to Mt. Tonglu, once MNQ finds out, it tears them apart. JW tells him to get out and MNQ runs away, breaking his promise.
While you cannot project MNQ and JW on YQY and SJ 1:1, you can find similarities that were merely remixed.
Miscommunication leads to Divorce
Title is pretty self-explanatory. But both pairs are plagued by incredible communication issues and most importantly lack of communication. Qijiu cannot communicate their issues about the promise, and Junmei cannot communicate about the past. It leads them apart and to their frankly earth shattering divorce.
The Monsters
Both SJ and JW have one core desire in common - unconditional love. The desire to be seen and accepted in spite of the sins they accumulated. But neither is good at being able to read what they actually want particularly well.
For JW, he reads it as a desire to be understood, to have someone experience the same suffering and still choose the same path as him - to feel justified in his past actions, to be able to not feel like the monster the people painted him to be. It's this what leads him in part to torment Xie Lian so. (On this topic, I want to link this wonderful little comic. It captures this aspect of JW's story and character quite perfectly imo. Here is a translated version: part 1 part 2)
SJ meanwhile just spirals harder at YQY's perceived abandonment. He already hates himself deeply, and YQY's only serves as re-affirmation of his belief to be a monster. His paranoia feeds on the constant survival mode he runs on, he pushes everyone away. JW was able to secure himself a spot that is hard to rob; SJ never finds such comfort with his ruined cultivation. As such, feeling assured of how undesirable and unlovable he is, he drowns in his own loneliness.
Ironically they both project their issues on children. Just a funny side note really.
Soul-Crushing Guilt
One strong undercurrent of both relationships is guilt. YQY and MNQ both are the ones who carry this most obviously - YQY never recovers from not having fulfilled his promise to Xiao-Jiu, and MNQ regrets running when JW told him to disappear.
Meanwhile SJ and JW carry less guilt on their sides, although JW probably carries more. Junmei is guilt balanced like that :D
Loyalty
Neither SJ nor MNQ abandon the other despite the other's actions, and nor do the other two. They cannot forgive (themselves) but they also cannot separate themselves entirely from what was once a dearly loved person, or perhaps the only close person they had (SJ especially). In a way all of them are stuck in the past, a past they unconsciously may seek to return to. Easier times if you will.
Loyalty may not be the entirely fitting word (I'm not a native english speaker nor was I ever good with expressing myself correctly) but every party still clings onto the other in some shape.
SJ keeps saving YQY although he thinks he was abandoned.
YQY comes back to save SJ even though SJ kept pushing him away, telling him to stay away.
Jun Wu despite choking MNQ multiple times does never actually kill him, nor seems to be able to get himself to.
Mei Nianqing decides to stay in the end. He stops running for once to help take JW down if only for JW's own good. He still worships JW even though the crown prince of Wuyong is long since dead.
In a similar vein, YQY and JW are incredibly soft in their treatment of the other.
YQY all but showers SJ in gifts and keeps giving him lee-way and being more than a little indulgent towards him. This goes to the point that their martial siblings see this as a negative thing, and despite YQY's inherently good intentions, it hurts SJ's reputation and standing in the sect.
JW... honestly just look at the wild goose chase through locked down Heaven chapter. All his prisoners are treated with The Horrors, just look at what he did to Yin Yu. And then look at how he treated MNQ. MNQ was fucking sitting in his cell, comfortably and playing cards with his paper dolls. He let MNQ reveal him earlier, with little consequence too (a yank on the cursed shackle). He most likely also left MNQ alone to do his thing on the run. He kills others for far less infractions and yet here is MNQ, basically treated like a wife on house-arrest. I cannot make this shit up. Even XL and HC are rather baffled when they find him about this.
Devotion
Despite all their messy history, they are somehow still devoted to the other.
Despite all his words and rejections, SJ goes out of his way to repeatedly save YQY, even if it costs him everything.
YQY did not hesitate to rush to SJ, knowing full well it was a trap. It cost him him everything.
MNQ ran, ran and ran. Yet in the end he was the one to reveal JW, helped to take him down. It might not seem like devotion at the first look, but inherently the desire behind it was for the other to stop self-destructing, to get him back on solid ground.
In the end all it took for JW to stop, to finally rest it was MNQ telling him to. And in the end, MNQ decided to no longer, to stay behind with JW.
Their Fates
Now where they significantly differ is in how their respective situations end. Junmei are both alive by the end of the story, living together under the mountain JW was sealed under after his defeat. MNQ stated his intentions to stay, to not abandon JW again. But most importantly, they now have the time and opportunity to fix their relationship and untangle the mess that is their very long and traumatized lives.
Qijiu does not get this opportunity. As the events unfold, they are never capable of resolving their issues. In PIDW, SJ tries to warn YQY, push him away so he would save himself, only for YQY to end up dead anyway to Lou Bingge's trap, ultimately also being SJ's undoing and the only reason he broke despite all of LBG's futile attempts to do so. They pass each other by.
In SVSSS, SJ is dead from the start. He never gets to hear the confession about why he never came back from YQY at Maigu Ridge, long since replaced by SY. He is merely a specter that haunts the narrative at every step, a ghost never given a chance to be anything but what the narrative of PIDW demanded him to be. Whether YQY is aware of SJ being entirely gone is unknown, but in the end he is still left standing, on his own, with no proper closure either.
Where Qijiu is inherently doomed by the narrative, Junmei is given another chance, their fates changed by a kindness extended by Xie Lian when he chose not to kill Jun Wu.
And Now For the Silly
If you're still here, wow thanks and I am so sorry. Have a gold star: âď¸
Now let's get away from the serious stuff and talk about the absolute silly but equally essential parts of both Qijiu and Junmei.
- Divorced without ever having been married. This does not require an explanation if you know their stories.
- Make their divorce everyone's problem: Junmei divorcing might as well be the one core reason all of tgcf even happens in the first place. Qijiu divorcing is also a core reason for Pidw ending as it did. Namely JW and SJ made their divorces everyone else's problem.
- Give it up for Abandonment issues!!! Post canon JW probably can barely survive through MNQ going out for groceries without a breakdown, and SJ yearns for someone to come back for him and never ever abandon him.
- Freak4Freak. None of these people are fucking normal. Can they express their love in normal ways? Fuck no. Sadomasochism, atticwifing, unhealthy possessiveness, "my dear highness" while actively getting choked, YQY very obvious desire to be used by SJ like a doormat and be stepped on by SJ, you name it it probably fits.
- One party that is entirely too forgiving about the other. I'm looking at you Yue "Xiao Jiu did nothing wrong ever" Qingyuan and Mei "he's just a soft puppy" Nianqing.
- Atticwifing would have fixed them. That's all I'm gonna say.
- A party that has a thin face at least in public. SJ and MNQ respectively here.
- A party that looks all fragile and harmless but can and will absolutely wreck your shit if they wanted to. SJ had to have some skill in him for LQG to keep sparring him, and MNQ acts fragile but he's mostly just fucking lazy. Bro kicked a martial god and lifted two grown ass martial gods without big effort. And the other party is
- Eternal fucking Yearning. Oh my god.
- This is not exclusive to them but where are the Xianxia therapists when you need them.
- Both pairs are plagued by traumas that actively hinder and stop them from having conversations they desperately need.
- Weirdest way to say I love you.
- Junmei would actually thrive too in a weird codependency situation like Qijiu in my dual calamity AU. Just saying...
- Having had other lovers would be an insult. Possessive bitches.
There is most likely more, feel free to add on naturally. But anyway to conclude this:
FUCKING COME JOIN JUNMEI SHIPPING IF YOU LIKE QIJIU. How are there so little people into this ship oh my god.
#svsss#shen jiu#yue qingyuan#qijiu#original shen qingqiu#tgcf#heaven official's blessing#mxtx svsss#jun wu#mei nianqing#stfu leve#Both ships make me deeply unwell#fuck them not being normal I'M not normal about THEM#they drive me insane#i typed this up at 3am who finds grammar mistakes can keep them#watch me shove my faves into shared aus I dare you#i have so many silly ideas to shove Mnq and Sj together and watch what happens
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@felikatze OH nothing LMFAOO (not that I know of anyway haven't caught up) I'm just rotating them both in my mind and desperately attempting to illustrate the parallels đ
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#i really really REALLY want to write/draw a comic about the two of them navigating complicated family stuff#espp bc i think they both would be like. fascinating to see interact on an emotional level#almost like unstoppable force immovable object. triandra's catholic guilt vs alfonse's practicality#and outright refusal to let himself feel things sometimes despite having very big feelings. fight#they're like distant cousins to me now. i NEED them to get into some family drama#AUGH and more on triandra actually her tendency to let even the littlest things consume her completely.#like that cutesy short w all the fairies. she messes up and it's just INSTANT despair spiral#like i think they could get so ugly actually. i wanna see them fight SO fucking bad just go for the throat#but i also want them to find like. something. to make peace over. and ultimately support each other.#all of this said i'm still very early on in trying to capture triandra's character so like!#part of trying to capture the parallels is also trying to figure out how she is and how i can do justice to her character#fe alfonse#fe triandra
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once again can't sleep because I'm thinking of all the ways the x files could have been a better show. alas
#i will be getting 5 hrs of sleep max tonight :')#I'm just so mad that scully's internal conflict is introduced as her feeling guilt about following her ambitions to work at the FBI#instead of going into medicine like her father wanted. and they did one really good episode about this.#and then decided that her main internal conflict for the rest of the series would be Her Uterus.#like the whole theme of the show is that searching for the truth can make you feel even more uncertain about everything in your life#and i feel like her uncertainty about & commitment to following her ambition despite what authority figures want#would make a lot of sense both for her character and the story. it's crazy that they set all that potential up & then decided to ignore it#another thing that pisses me off is how little characterization Samantha gets. like she's just The Dead Sister.#personally i think it would be really interesting to have her only described thru Mulder's recollection because there's always a bit of#doubt over whether she was really abducted so i think it would make the viewer ask the same question as everyone else in the show--#am i really going to trust this guy? is he a reliable narrator or just crazy?#is he a reliable narrator of his own insanity but not necessarily reality?#auhg I'm so mad. they did such a good job of making interesting and compelling characters and didn't give them the storylines they deserved
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okay ill sleep now n answer asks tmr ^_^
#before i sign off completely i will mention i am Thinking about how cyno regularly checks in on collei at gandharva ville#but purposefully hides his presence bc he knows he makes her feel uncomfortable... + how tighnari's aware of these secret expeditions#but presumably keeps them a secret for cyno's sake (maybe for collei's too...)#& collei's voiceline about how the thought of cyno causes her Pain bc she ultimately still associates him w her trauma#despite really really really not wanting that. the guilt that the both of them feel towards each other#for being unable to face one another properly :-(#okay goodnight :D
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what happens when you don't use their pet name to call them?
⥠content: zayne/sylus/xavier/rafayel x gn!reader; more dialogue heavy; silly and cute
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ZAYNE âĄ
âCan you help me put this on, Zayne?â
From the reflection in the mirror, you tried not to react at the twist in his brow and the momentary confusion in his eyes. Wordlessly, he moved behind you, fingers taking the necklace out of your hand. With his gaze focused on the task before him, you could see him open his mouth, hesitating to speak.
âDid I do something wrong?â he questioned.
Zayneâs deft hands carefully laid the chain around your neck, centering the pendent between your collarbones.
You plastered on your most innocent expression, despite the twinge of guilt you felt at his question.
âHm? Why do you ask?â
Swiftly, he clasped the ends of the chain together. His eyes flicked towards yours in the mirror.
âYouâre calling me by my first name. I thought pet names were an important step in a relationship for you.â
You nodded. âYes, Zayne, I do think itâs an important step.â
His eyes narrowed at your continual uncharacteristic responses.
Folding his arms, he mused aloud. âIt took you some time to drop the title âdoctorâ for me and to just use my name. After we became official, you were quick to call me âloveâ.â
You fiddled with your necklace, trying to, impossibly, force away the heat from your face.
âSo, either I did something to make you upset, orââhe leaned in close to you, the side of his face almost touching yoursââyouâre playing a trick on me.â
You gave a mock frown. He cocked his head to the side, awaiting your response.
âOkay, okay, it was a prank.â Sighing, you surrendered to his deductions. âI wanted to see how youâd react, but you saw right through me,â you mumbled.
His lips quirked. âIâve known you for long enough to figure these things out.â
Wanting to wipe off the amused look he had on his face, you quickly planted a kiss on his cheek. His face turned into surprise. He chuckled, shaking his head at your triumphant smile.
âThank you for helping me, my love."
SYLUS âĄ
âSylus, could you play that new record you bought?â
You called from the sofa. Standing by the record player, he turned to face you. The offence on his face was unmistakable as he placed his hands on his hips.
âSylus?â he scoffed. âWe both know thatâs not what you call me.â
Your brows furrowed, feigning confusion. âWhat are you talking about? Isnât that your name?â
âSweetie,â he levelled a look of scepticism at you, âthat hasnât been my name for the past month weâve been together.â
âI still donât know what you mean, Sylus.â
He paused. Gears turned in his head trying to unpack what was happening, much like he would do when reading the truthfulness of a dealer during a bargain.
âY/N.â
Youâve never heard your own name being said in such a serious manner. Perhaps you got a taste of your own medicine.
âIâm not particularly fond of lose-lose situations.â The softness in his tone made you feel weak. âYou can tell me if Iâve done something to annoy you. I wonât be angry.â
âNot at all!â you quickly blurted out. Unable to hide it any longer, you confessed. âYou havenât done anything to annoy me. I was just trying to pull a small prank.â
All the tension visibly released from his body. A relieved sigh escaped him. âYou really do play some dangerous games, kitten.â
Playfulness returned to his voice. âNow then, how will you correct your mistake?â
âHoney,â you drawled out each syllable, making it sound as syrupy as the nickname itself, âcould you play that new record you bought now?â
Sylus couldnât help but laugh at your exaggeration. âWhy of course.â
XAVIER âĄ
âXavier, do you want to try this?â
Subtly glancing at his reaction from the kitchen, you saw his face immediately fall into a pout. The look was fatal, and it took all the willpower you had not to drop the ruse right then and there.
âThatâs not my name,â he answered.
âWhat do you mean?â you chuckled, continuing to put icing on the sugar cookies you baked. âOf course it is!â
âNo, itâs not,â he insisted.
Placing his book down, he walked to stand at your side by the counter. You avoided his eye contact, pretending that nothing was amiss.
Resting a hand under his chin, he began to think. âYou usually call me bunny, sweetheart, sunshine, or darling.â
Your jaw dropped in amused shock. âYou remember all the names Iâve called you?â
His mouth twitches. âThere are some more, but⌠they might be a bit embarrassing to say aloud right now.â
That was enough to make you look at him with wide eyes.
âXavier!â Your face turned pink as you slapped his shoulder. There was no force behind the hit, but enough to convey your embarrassment.
âYou did it again. You used the wrong name.â He stuck his bottom lip out.
You gently poked at his cheek, trying to lift the corner of his lip upwards. âCome on, donât be sad darling.â
Immediately, he brightened before you.
âIt was just a joke I saw couples do online. I wanted to see how youâd react.â
He nodded thoughtfully. âAnd was my reaction satisfactory?â
âI think it was,â you smiled at him, "but itâs a shame I didnât film it, it wouldâve made for a good Moments post.â
He shook his head. âBut, the nicknames we use are only for us.â
The finished cookie in your hand had a bite suddenly taken from it as Xavier leaned down to have a taste.
âI donât want anyone else to know.â
RAFAYEL âĄ
âAre you ready to go yet, Rafayel?â
He continued to hum to himself, completely ignoring you. You folded your arms as you watched him busy himself with something trivial. He flung open a random cupboard and inspected what appeared to be an assortment of spare art supplies.
âRafayel,â you called again.
He then turned his attention to the fishbowl in the centre of the room, where a small orange fish darted around.
âReddie, do you hear something?â he asked, gazing so earnestly into the bowl. This fish paused its movement and stared back at his owner.
âRafayel~â you sang his name aloud this time, extending the last syllable.
He gasped, apparently receiving some confirmation from Reddie.
âYou hear something too? Thank god. I was thinking there must be something wrong with my ears.â
Surveying the room around him, Rafayel intentionally looked past you standing barely a few metres from him, tapping your foot against the wooden floorboards of his studio.
âIt sounds likeââhe continuedââsome kind of voice. Someone familiar to me, but I canât make out who it is.â
âRafayel!â you shouted his name between fits of laughter. Only he could respond to your jokes with his own dramatics.
He sucked in a breath in puzzlement. âI wonder who this person is calling out to.â
âBaby,â you finally conceded, âIâm talking to you!â
It seemed like he couldnât keep up the act either, as he started laughing with you.
âTook you long enough,â he huffed, moving towards you and linking your arm with his. âOtherwise, Reddie and I would have been searching for this phantom voice for the rest of the day.â
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#odorawrites#love and deepspace#l&ds#lads#love and deepspace fluff#love and deepspace x reader#l&ds x reader#lads x reader#zayne love and deepspace#xavier love and deepspace#rafayel love and deepspace#zayne x reader#zayne x y/n#zayne x you#xavier x reader#xavier x y/n#xavier x you#rafayel x reader#rafayel x y/n#rafayel x you#l&ds fluff#zayne fluff#xavier fluff#rafayel fluff
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i have more than enough â s. reid x reader
in which the holiday season is achingly difficult to get through, when you are spencer reid, who believes he is no longer allowed to enjoy them.Â
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader genre: hurt/comfort tags: established relationship. post prison!reid. word count: 2k a/n: and for my final act? the parfaitblogs special (post prison reid fic to a searows song). merry christmas from australia because it IS the 25th here!!! this is the end of my christmas advent calendar!! i had soo much fun writing these stories thank you to all that requested âĄ
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He does not deserve a Christmas.Â
Perhaps that is the only thing that runs through Spencer Reid's mind the second the Halloween decor filtered out of the stores, reindeer mugs entered them; while candy canes and Santa hats adorned every little item, and Christmas trees lit up every corner of every mall.
No matter what state he traveled to, he couldn't escape the festivities of the holiday season. He's pretty sure he's the only person who wants to.Â
You waited for him. He feels immensely guilty for just how much waiting you've had to do all year. Waiting for him to go to trial, waiting for him to get out of prison, waiting for him to let you in again.Â
Waiting, waiting, waiting.
You're waiting again. A Christmas tree that blandly sits empty and undecorated in the corner of your shared apartment; a Christmas roast you aren't sure if you'll even cook takes up too much space in your fridge; gingerbread cookies you promised your friends weeks ago remaining unbaked.Â
He knew you were upset about it. His Christmas loving girlfriend forced to mute the celebrations of her favourite holiday because he couldn't find it in him to be excited about it.Â
He didn't know how to fix it, really.Â
You had tried everything to get him back into the Christmas spirit he's had for the past three years you've spent together. Baking with him, picking out the very Christmas tree that leaves the room smelling like a pine forest together, Christmas shopping for the presents he had no will to buy for his family and friends.Â
Nothing had worked.Â
"Spence?"
Sitting awkwardly at his â now â very minimally decorated desk, his head lifts from the papers in front of him, eyebrows frowning towards each other as his eyes land on you.
"Hi," he murmurs, putting the pen in his hand down in an effort to give you his full attention. He was getting better at that, these days.Â
"I finished dinner," you tell him, fingers fidgeting with one another; a recent habit he had noticed you'd developed in the months between his arrest and release. "If you want to come eat."
He doesn't, but then again, he never does. And despite how awful he feels, he feels even more so for what he's putting you through, and the guilt that chews away at him is enough to will him to do small things â like eating â for you.Â
"Yeah," he breathes out, and stands up from the desk, following you silently over to the meal sitting at the edge of the kitchen bench you had cooked for the two of you.
Silence overwhelmed you two as you ate, as it usually does. Sitting curled up beside one another on the couch, sharing a blanket and yet still feeling so distant from each other regardless.Â
"Did you call your mom?" you ask him, and his fork pauses in the plate.Â
Right. It's Christmas. The time for calling family members and sharing love for them during this supposed to be joyous time.Â
"Not yet," he shakes his head. "I'll... get to it. Before Christmas is over."
"You have a week," you remind him, though it isn't to be passive aggressive at all. You genuinely wonder if he's forgotten the date of Christmas that has quickly crept up on you both.
"I know."
You stare silently at the coffee table after a short nod to his words, and you wrack your brain for things to say, just to keep him talking.
"Can I give you your gift before Christmas day?"Â
He lifts his head, and you feel his eyes transfix on you.
"If you want."
You want him to want it too, but you aren't sure if that's a reasonable wish anymore.Â
"I do," you nod, and quickly finish up your food, before you stand, and leave the room altogether.Â
He places his plate next to yours on the coffee table â he'd remember to get to cleaning those later â just as you return, a square shaped brown paper gift in your hands, a purple ribbon tied in a bow around it.Â
"You got me a square?" he asks you, and your heart warms at the teasing tone in his voice. He's trying.Â
"Open it," you press, instinctively shaking his shoulder with both hands pressed up against it.Â
"Okay, okay."
He's meticulous in pulling the plain wrapping paper off, and you almost want to open the gift for him.Â
"Did you make this?" he asks you as he carefully pulls the square apart in front of your eyes, though he does already know the answer before you have a chance to start nodding your head.Â
A Victorian Puzzle Purse situates delicately in his hands. Hands that pull it apart ever so slowly, taking note of every little drawn and painted detail on the paper, opening it up to a letter that he spent two minutes reading through â confirming that he was not only reading it once through.Â
"Do you like it?" you ask him, almost hesitantly.Â
"Victorian Puzzle Purse's were how lovers would communicate for Valentine's day," he says, instead of answering your question directly, as he neatly folds it back up into the intricate origami square it was originally when he pulled it out. "Sorry," he quickly adds, his eyes landing back on you. "That wasn't an answer. I do. I like it a lot."
"I know it isn't much, but I don't want to overwhelm you with gifts this Christmas. I'm honestly not even expecting anything big. We can just order food in and watch movies or something this year, if you'd prefer. You just have to promise me you'll at least let me put mistletoe up outside our bedroom, because it's kind of become tradition and... sorry."
He's staring at you, half dumbfounded, half in awe, as you realise you were rambling instead of sitting in the moment of him enjoying something seasonal, but you can't even find it within yourself to be frustrated at it. For he is letting a small smile grace his lips, and you're leaning forwards with a smile of your own, and for a second or more, he is not the shattered prison man, and you are not his distanced girlfriend.Â
"You can put mistletoe outside our bedroom," he says, and you're breaking into an even wider grin.
"Really?"
"It's tradition."
You light up enough for there to be no need for a decorated Christmas tree in your apartment anymore, and you're threading your fingers through his hand to drag him up off the couch.Â
Your gift to him remains on the coffee table as you lead him over to your bedroom door, prompting him to stay still, as you disappear to find the piece of familiar fake greenery.Â
"Mistletoe!" you present it to him, and he takes it from you habitually, using the pin you also hand him and pinning it above your heads on the doorframe.
"I think we need to buy a new one," he says, hands dropping back by his side. His eyes are trained on you, but your own head is still tilted back, inspecting the faux plant.Â
"I think we need to buy a real one," you answer conclusively, finally dropping your gaze to him.Â
"Next year," he confirms. "Tradition complete?"
You shake your head. "The tradition ends with a kiss."
Hesitation follows your words, and you instantly regret them.Â
It wasn't that you didn't kiss, or weren't intimate in any way. It's simply that it was on occasion now, and almost always motivated by something more important than a silly mistletoe tradition.
"It's okay," you cover your unwelcome disappointment with a smile.Â
He ignores your reassurance. "It does end in a kiss, you're right."
"But we don't have to," you mumble.
"Yes," his hands encase your waist to do nothing more than to pull you closer to him. "We do."
"Not if you don't want to."
"Did I say that?"
You open your lips to respond, but the words die on your tongue.Â
"What did I do to make you think I don't want to kiss you, angel?" he's frowning now, and you feel guilt settle in your chest.Â
"Nothing, really. We justâumâdon't kiss... as much. Anymore. Which is fine, by the way, and I can understand it. You're under no moral obligation to kiss me. Obviously."
His frown deepens. "I think we're experiencing a bout of miscommunication."
"What?"
"I thought you didn't want to kiss me," he explains, and suddenly, you're mirroring the confusion on his face.Â
"Why would I not want to kiss you?" you ask him, incredulously.Â
His shoulders slump at the question, and you force yourself not to fill the silence that follows.
"Prison," he replies, quietly. "I didn't think you'd really even want me once I got out of prison. You don't initiate anything anymore, either. I just assumed."
"I didn't initiate anything because I was waiting for you to initiate stuff."
"I can see that now."
"I didn't want to rush you," you tell him, as earnestly as possible. "I know prison was a lot, and you still haven't told me everything that happened, but I wanted you to not rush yourself. Or... us, I guess."
He swallows the lump of emotion that lodges in his throat. "I thought you were disappointed in me. Orâwell, scared of me."
"No," your heart shatters, and you're sure he can hear it in your voice as your hands instantly cup his cheeks, fingers brushing over his cheekbones. "No, oh my God, Spencer."
"You shouldn't use the lord's name in vain. It's Christmas," he jokes, weakly. The smile you give him is weak, too.
"I was terrified for you. I was so worried about you in prison, andâand what they were doing to you in there. But never of you. Not a single part of me will ever be scared of you, sweet boy."
"I'm scared of me," he whispers, and his voice cracks in a way that has tears welling in your eyes. "I think differently, you know."
"And that automatically means I should be scared of you? Or makes you any less deserving of love?"
His silence is enough of a response.Â
"I love you," you settle on telling him. "No matter what baggage you came back to me with. You deserve so much love, and I hate that you have been through so much. So much so that you believe yourself undeserving. You are not. You never will be. I will spend the rest of my life proving that to you, if I must. Or as long as you will let me."
"Forever," he replies, and you feel his hands close over your own on his face. "I will let you forever."
"Thank God. It'd be kind of embarrassing if I say all this and then you were to break up with me tomorrow," you say, and his cheeks stretch beneath your hands as he huffs a laugh.
"I won't break up with you."
"I wouldn't let you, anyways."
"Oh really?" his hands slide down to your waist once more.Â
"Yeah," you confirm with a small nod, your own hands dropping to his neck, interlacing behind it, as you draw his head closer to yours. "You're stuck with me."
"I have not a word of complaint," he replies, and he's close enough that you feel the words tattoo your lips. "I love you."
And then he's kissing you, and there is an overwhelming amount of neglected feelings you had been missing poured into you, from his soul to yours.Â
It was a kiss so unlike what you had grown used to in recent months. Fingers dug into your waist as a violent reminder of what you mean to him, and for the first time since May, you believed it.Â
When he goes to pull away, you barely give him time to get air before you're chasing his lips again, and he tugs you impossibly closer with a laugh that vibrates against your face.Â
You kiss him until your hands go numb behind his neck, and your legs begin to ache, and your waist is sure to have bruised in the shapes of his fingertips. Chest heaving and eyes full of more adoration than you think one human can have for another, you meet his gaze once more.
"Tradition complete."
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if youre asking about my writing for palina and irida in the timeskip one, its probably that they will never ever be as close as they were before. or its better to say they were never that close to begin with
#z rambles#idk maybe its just me but i really cannot see these two being chummy besties#which is even more funny when u realize theres a time when people like. legitimate ship them (and we fucking know why)#like its so weird like damn girl u cannot consume media without making mlm ships then make a half assed assessment for a wlw one#should stated that palina isnt a bad person. but she is a bad friend. shes not evil shes just misguided#and i really do blame how both of them are like and then be due to a lot of trauma inflicted by the elder#generational trauma momeeennnnttt#anyways despite their friendship not working out. i do think they actually like. fucking communicate this whole shit out#so in the timeskip despite them not being perfect. theyre doing a lot better and a lot more on equal grounds#what palina did to irida wont be forgotten. irida will feel the sting and palina will have the guilt#its really up to palina own decision to see pass her pettiness and consider her friends emotion as well#and knowing her. it will be pretty fucking hard but heres the surprise#both of them didnt have support systems when they were young. and tbh i do get where palina is coming from#but it still sucks how she choose to manifest her anger toward the person who admired and loved her#who really thought palina had her best interest at heart and with no explanation. no communication#that fiend just got up. yelled at you. left and refuse to elaborate to the point of scolding and humiliating you time and time again#and sure irida shouldve respect the whole dont call me lina bs but even then? its still rather selfish of her to not see iridas effort#call them bestfriends all u want. idk why yall mfs somehow could read their relationship as a fruitful one#cuz its bad. even in the timeskip irida had to go thru loops to talk to palina cuz palina still doubt her ability#it will never be good enough for her. it will never be good enough of a relationship so uhhhh hope this helps!#and yeah i dont usually shame people but if u ship these two. yeah im gonna need u to replay the game LMAO
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if i say, i love you
summary. after a long day, all you really want is to be in taesanâs arms.
pairing. han taesan x reader genre. fluff, established relationship word count. 0.9k warnings. n/a a/n. fun fact: this wasnât the original taesan fic i wanted to post for his bday bcs stms itâs easier to write sth in 3 hrs than finish a draft youâve had for the past 5 months đŠâ𦯠but as always, please enjoy this, and i hope everyone gets to have their own taesan in their lives :) masterlist
you and taesan have never been overly touchy with each other. itâs not that you both dislike physical touch; you just tend to express your feelings more often through quiet moments spent together.
today, however, you need taesan more than ever.
you trudge inside your shared apartment, your body feeling unbearably heavy. taesan is sitting on the sofa with headphones and his ipad propped up on his knees, a contemplative look on his face. itâs a familiar sight, one that occurs whenever a new idea for a composition strikes in his head and he has to record it down immediately, so you usually leave him alone to not disrupt his creative process.
seeing this, you force yourself to stand by the door, hoping for at least a greeting before you can retreat inside your roomâif your boyfriend was busy, youâd rather break down without him seeing.
almost immediately, taesan looks up and smiles, the kind where his eyes are squeezed into crescents and whiskers appear under them. but when he finally sees you, he instantly plants his feet on the floor, setting his ipad aside and ripping off his headphones.
ây/n?â his voice is soft and gentle. he always treats you like a delicate flower; it makes you feel like you can fall apart in his presence and heâll be there to pick up your pieces.
ây/n,â he calls again, and heâs about to get up before you briskly walk towards him and all but jump on him.
with your knees on either side of him, you wrap your arms around his neck and drop your head on his shoulder. noticeably, taesan tenses at the uncharted touch, and a moment of hesitation lingers. but his arms quickly shoot up to envelop you, hands resting firmly on either side of your torso as he holds you tightly against himself.
he remains silent, letting you take in his warmth as he gently caresses your back. you nuzzle against his neck, wanting to get as close to him as you can. despite his surprise at your touch, he doesnât make it known and mirrors your actions, nosing your collarbone as he pulls you even closer.
you thought you would break into tears immediately in his arms, but the more you lean into his touch, the more you feel your weariness dissipate, until the huge lump in your throat eventually melts as well.
sensing your breathing calm down and your body turning lax against his, he places a kiss on your neck and whispers against your skin: âiâm here.â itâs a simple declaration; two words that neither push you to speak nor stop you from sharing, but just to remind you that, whatever it is, heâs always by your side.
âi⌠had a bad day today,â you begin, and taesanâs hold on you never once falters. as you tell him about what happened, his fingers continuously draw idle circles on your back, and he hums softly to reassure you that heâs listening.
âhow do you feel now?â taesan, gentle as ever, asks after you stop talking.
â...a lot better,â you confess and nuzzle against his neck again, landing a peck there to emphasize your point.
âiâm glad.â the smile is evident from his voice alone, even if you canât see his face.
a few more moments of silence pass between you, the two of you simply relishing each otherâs company. itâs only when you catch taesanâs ipad light up with a notification from your peripheral vision that you remember what he had been doing before your almost-break-down.
you pull yourself away, but your hands remain on his shoulders, as do his on your waist. âyou were composing something before this, right?â your eyebrows are knitted in guilt, lips jutting out similarly. âsorry, i didnât mean to interrupt you⌠you can continue now.â
âno, donât apologise,â taesan replies immediately, shaking his head. he reaches up to tuck your hair behind your ears and smiles, fondness seeping from every pore, âiâll always put you before anything else.â
itâs strange how the emotions you initially expected to spill over from your negative experiences today are now threatening to escape from these seven words instead. with the lump returning to your throat once again, you donât trust your voice to speak.
instead, you move your hands to cup his face and lean down to place your lips on his, letting your body do the talking instead.
with every movement, your feelings translate from your heart to his. his grip on your waist tightens as he cranes his neck to capture more and more of these feelings, until both of you are rendered breathless from all the emotions filling your bodies, squeezing around your ribs, your lungs, and your hearts.
when you pull away, the dazed look on taesan is something that you want to carve into your mind forever. for someone whoâs never uncomposed, the fact that heâs been rendered like this, and because of you, makes your insides twist with something far greater than you can explain.
âi love you.â
for now, youâll settle with the word âlove.â
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fake dating
pairing: midoriya x reader
summary: Izuku really needs a favor.
wc: 2.8k
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You probably should have just said no.Â
Though it was so incredibly hard to deny Izuku of anything, it wasnât impossible. Difficult beyond belief, but not impossible. You only had yourself to blame, really, when you agreed to his request. You even had a few days to back out, but a part of you just couldnât get yourself to let him down.Â
But really, you wished you didnât sign up to pretend to be Izukuâs partner when all you wanted was for it to be real.Â
âAre you ready?â
No, you werenât, but you couldnât exactly tell Izuku the truth as you stood outside his family home, second away from attempting to convince everyone that you were dating. The very thought made you flush.Â
âWait, hold on,â You hesitated, grabbing his arm gently to stop him from opening the doorway. He followed your direction immediately, checking you once over to make sure you were alright. Just another reason why you were hopelessly in love with your friendâhe was just so good. âDo you remember the backstory?â
âYeah, do you? I wrote it all down if you need to review.â He nodded, and the fact that he had taken notes on your fake relationship made a grin form on your lips.Â
âNo, Iâm good. Itâs justâŚâ You trailed off, dropping your gaze from him in an effort to make the heat in your cheeks disappear. âWill your mom be suspicious if we arenât physically affectionate? We never really talked about that.â
From the corner of your eye, you watched the color rise up Izukuâs neck and take over his features.Â
âI donât think so? W-we could hold hands, but only if you want!â He hurried to ensure you were comfortable, just like he had from the moment his plan was brought up. He was just as nervous as you were, only you were doing a better job at hiding it.Â
Barely.Â
âOkay, yeah.â You agreed, sliding the hand that was holding his arm down until it wrapped around his own. You could feel the raised skin from his scars under the pads of your fingers. Subconsciously, you brushed your thumb over the worst of the damage on the back of his hand.Â
âS-sorry about my scars. I know theyâre weird.â He apologized, not able to look at you. Frowning, you squeezed his hand once in silent reprimand. He had led you to the front door and was seconds away from letting you into his childhood home, but you couldnât let him continue on thinking you thought his scars were weird.Â
âTheyâre not.â You murmured as he pushed the door open, sounds and smells of dinner cooking alongside lively conversation washed over the two of you and almost drowned out your words. âI donât think so, at least.âÂ
True to his nature, Izuku flushed at your words, but was kept from responding as none other than the Inko Midoriya raced towards the sound of the front door opening to sweep her son up into a massive hug. Izuku didnât let go of your hand as he hugged his mother back, an action you both didnât miss and felt incredibly endeared by.Â
âMom,â Izuku started, gesturing towards you with his free hand when he finally let his mother go. âThis isââ
âI know who this is.â Inko interrupted, pulling you into a hug just as tight as the one meant for your son. Instantly, you felt a wave of guilt for lying to this woman about the truth of your relationship with her son. Izuku hadnât said anything about it, but you knew that youâd have to fake break up after the dinner. You couldnât exactly fake date forever. âYouâve talked about them for weeks! Iâm so glad to finally meet you, dear. Iâve been begging Izuku to bring you over.â
âMom,â
âIâm glad I could make it,â Overtop Izukuâs whine, you managed to force the words out despite how flustered you were at discovering Izukuâapparentlyâtalked about you to his mother. So much so, that she had been asking about meeting you.Â
You were so screwed.Â
âThe foodâs almost ready. Everyone is in the other room.â Inko started herding you and Izuku towards the sound of chattering. He kept his hand clasped around yours, even as his mother nudged him around, but you couldnât help but realize that he was doing everything in his power to avoid looking directly at you.Â
Was he embarrassed? The whole point of the evening was to pretend that the two of you were dating to get his mother to give him some space on the matter, so why would he care that she believed your ruse?Â
âGo socialize, you two!â Inko gave you one final push into the sitting room, already dotted with Izukuâs various aunties and other relatives. You hadnât expected to recognize anyone, which is why you were totally surprised when you met a set of very familiar red eyes.Â
âNo shit. You actually went through with it.âÂ
âKacchan!â Izukuâs panicked voice filled the silence left by Bakugouâs crude and cryptic comment. All of the aunties in the room paused to glare at him, and Bakugouâs mother cuffed the back of his head in reprimand.Â
This was bad. Bakugou was the only one who knew about your crush on Izuku. It wasnât that you had told him, but more so that he confronted you about your feelings one sparring session and you panicked too fast to deny it. Since he was the only one who knew, you had thought it was safe to mention your fake dating plan to him.
Now, you were certain you were going to regret it.Â
âWhat are you doing here?â You asked, though you knew that the Bakugous and Mrs. Midoriya had been friends since the boys were in preschool. You just didnât know why he had to be there. If it had been a different situation, you would have laughed at the sight of Bakugou sitting on Mrs. Midoriyaâs small couch with neighborhood aunties surrounding him on all sides. But he was grinning far too smugly for you to consider the possibility that he would keep your secret.Â
âI was invited,â Bakugou shrugged nonchalantly, then dropped his attention down to your hand wrapped around Izukuâs, and you just knew he was going to make some teasing comment. It was bad enough he taunted you in private over your crush on damn Deku, but you knew you were in serious trouble in front of a crowd. âWhat are you doing here?â
You grit your teeth at the smug asshole, face burning so incredibly bright red. From the corner of your eye, you knew Izuku was in a similar state.Â
âIâm Izukuâs date,â You explained what he already knew. It was hard enough to pretend to date Izuku to begin with, but now to do it all with Bakugou watching?
âYeah, my date.â Izuku nodded. From the expression on his face, you knew he was thinking something similar to you. He was even closer to Bakugou than you were.Â
Bakugou smirked, but after a momentâs hesitation, he shrugged and went back to whatever conversation he had previously been in before your arrival. As he dropped the topic, you let out a breath you had been holding in due to nerves.Â
âThat was close,â You murmured in Izukuâs ear as he led you across the room to an empty seat.Â
âSorry,â He whispered back, close enough that you felt his breath brush against the shell of your ear. Shivering, you glanced at him out of the corner of your eye. âI kinda forgot that Kacchan would be here.âÂ
âThatâs alright,â You assured him, even though the way your heart was pounding in your chest was absolutely not alright. âI think heâs playing along for now.âÂ
A truce, it would seem.Â
You should have known you couldnât trust Bakugou when it came to matters of teasing Izuku.Â
At the dinner table, you sat beside Izuku, his hand still diligently holding yours. Of course, Bakugou had seated himself across from Izuku, shooting the two of you knowing, taunting looks as you ate. It was hard to answer Mrs. Midoriyaâs questions about yourself or follow the conversations around the table when you were just waiting for Bakugou to start something.Â
âHow long have you been together, again?â Inko asked politely as she served more of the food she had made onto your plate. You smiled graciously at her, trying to remember the story you and Izuku had created.Â
âA month.â You felt so guilty for lying, but Izuku had asked you for a favor and youâd agreed.Â
Though, it felt less and less like a fake date when Izuku refused to let go of your hand for a moment. Under the table, your fingers were threaded together and resting in your lap.
âUh huh. And howâd you get together?â Bakugou cut in, shit-eating grin on his face as he leaned forward, interested in the conversation about your relationship.Â
âKatsuki, youâre being rude.â His mother chastised, but you felt a sudden need to rise to Bakugouâs challenge. If you were going to fake date Izuku, then you were going to do it right.Â
âIzuku just asked me when we were hanging out one day.â You countered with a newfound bravery. It wasnât exactly a lieâyou had been hanging out with Izuku when he asked you to be his date, only with the caveat that it was fake. Bakugou grinned at you playing into his game, leaning forward on his elbows.Â
âYeah, Kacchan, you know.â Izuku stammered to back you up, and you smiled softly at him, brushing your thumb over his scarred knuckles once more under the table.Â
âWhat did he say, exactly?â Bakugou pushed for details, smirking.Â
âWhy do you want to know?â Your face scrunched in confusion. It seemed more like he genuinely wanted to know instead of just teasing the two of you.
âCurious,â Bakugou shrugged, though his attention suddenly was fixed on Izuku, who was flushed bright red. âWhatâd ya say, Deku? Anything dramatic when ya asked âem out?â
You turned to face Izuku with a confused frown. It seemed like Bakugou was having a separate conversation with Izuku right in front of you.Â
âOh, leave them alone, Katsuki!â Mrs. Bakugou ordered, and you realized exactly who he got his temper from. Scowling, Bakugou turned his focus from you and Izuku to argue with his mother. Despite your confusion, you managed to steal a glimpse at Izuku and found him blushing red and pushing food around his plate as if he was deep in thought.Â
Your secret was safe, for now.
Somehow, you made it through dinner without further comments from Bakugou, and before you knew it, Izuku was walking you home.Â
âI think it went well.â You hummed, breaking the tense silence that had fallen over the two of you the moment his front door shut. His hand had slipped from yours once the night was over, and with it went any disbelief about what the night had been about. âIâm sorry that I probably wonât get to see your mother again.â
You really were upset about it. Inko had been an absolute delight, and you knew exactly where Izuku had gotten all his sweetness from. But at the mention of your inevitable fake breakup, Izuku tensed from beside you, pausing on the sidewalk outside his building.Â
âAbout thatâŚâ Izuku muttered, trailing off in nerves. You frowned at him in curiosity, having to fight the newly developed urge to hold his hand. How were you supposed to go back to normal after a night of pretending everything you wanted was real? âI, uh, actually meant for this to be real.â
âWhat?â Your mind went blank as you tried to process what he said. It wasnât out of character for him to suddenly drop information on you out of nowhere, but never had it been something so serious as his possible feelings for you.Â
âWhen I asked you to be my date tonight.â He clarified, voice wavering. âI meant for real.â
You blinked slowly at him, barely able to keep your jaw from dropping in shock. How hadnât you realized? When he asked you, you had just assumed he meant fake dating, and he had never corrected you. But to know that he meant it as a real, actual date? You couldnât believe it.Â
âWhy did you let me think you meant to pretend?â Shock was the only emotion evident on your face as you watched Izukuâs face flush at your admonishment.Â
âBecause I didnât want to push my luck! Plus I thought it might have been your way of letting me down easy. But Kacchan kept teasing, and I thought maybe he knew something I didnât. And I donât know, Iâm really nervous right now. Please say something. Anything, reallyââ
âIzuku Midoriya.â You interrupted his rambling with a call of his full name, and it works a little too well, getting him to stop talking at the cost of making him go pale and freeze with wide eyes.
âOh no.â
âYouâre adorable.â Recovering from your shock, you grinned, reaching out to wrap your hand around his like you wanted to from the start. Holding his between both of your own, you made sure to brush your thumbs over his scars he had said thought made him weird earlier in the evening.Â
âOh?âÂ
âAsk me again.â You encouraged him, a smile gracing your lips as you watched every expression that washed over his features.Â
âWhat?â Ever oblivious to matters of the heart, his face twisted in confusion. âBut the dinner is over already.â
âIzuku.â You tugged on his hand, bringing him half a step closer to you. âAsk me again.â
It seemed to dawn on him what you meant, and a blush bloomed across his face while he gathered his courage.Â
âWill you be my date to my momâs holiday dinner party?â
âOf course I will.â You giggled, knowing it was a little ridiculous that you were making him ask you again but unable to go without setting things right. You had been too oblivious to know what he meant before, but now you could fix it.Â
âReally?â He asked, eyes wide, as if you werenât holding his hand between your own.Â
âIf you want me to.â You shrugged, feigning nonchalance.Â
âYeah.â Izuku nodded quickly, clearly excited. âYeah, I really do. For real, this time.â
You laughed, rolling your eyes playfully at his teasing jab. You were probably never going to be able to live down your misunderstanding.Â
You tugged his hand once more until he was so close you had to tilt your chin up to face him. With your sudden proximity, his teasing tone vanished, replaced by one of thinly veiled nervousness. A sweetheart.
âDo you kiss on the first date?â You asked, voice innocent despite the question. Izukuâs face went red, and you could have sworn you heard him audibly swallow.
âIâm trying very hard to be cool about this, but I canât lie to you. Iâve never been on a first date.â
Oh, now that you knew he wanted you, you were going to eat him alive.
âDo you want to kiss on the first date?â Rephrasing your question, you tilted your head slightly to the side to watch his reaction.Â
âYeah.âÂ
Gently, you set a hand on his cheek to guide his face closer to yours, taking the lead to press your lips against his in a short, sweet kiss. His lips were slightly chapped from the cold and how often he chewed on them, but you enjoyed the way he burned against you all the same.Â
âDid the nerd finally ask you for real?â
At the sound of Bakugouâs voice, you jerked away from Izuku. With the adrenaline of Izukuâs confession, and then your kiss, you had forgotten you were only standing outside the building he lived in. It was a miracle that only Bakugou had caught you.
âKacchan! I didnât see you there!â Izuku, as red as ever, greeted your mutual friend with a renewed energy he hadnât possessed when heâd been taunted with your fake date. Now that you had cleared the air about your intentions, his confidence had come back.
And apparently ruined all of Bakugouâs fun. Â
âI was just leaving.â The blond rolled his eyes, shoving past the two of you with a frown and his hands shoved deep in his pockets. Watching him disappear down the sidewalk, you narrowed your eyes suspiciously at him.Â
âDid he know this whole time?â You asked Izuku. You knew you had confided in Bakugou about how you felt, and if Izuku had done the same, then he had known the entire time and could have cleared the air.Â
âI⌠think so.â
âOh, Iâm going to kill him.â
if itâs not painfully obvious, this isnât proofread
also i feel like i could have done so much better
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SUMMARY: When Chris is starting to come to terms with the horrible idea that he will have to spend his birthday away from Y/N, a surprise takes him, literally, by surprise.
WARNING: Making-out.
REQUESTED?: No.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: That is my work, I DON'T authorize any plagiarism, copy, or "inspiration"! | English isn't my first language, so I'm sorry if there's any grammar error.
A/N²: A small story only to warm up for their birthday! I'm going to post more tomorrow đŠˇ
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The day before the triplets' 21st birthday in Boston was marked by a mix of nostalgia and melancholy for Chris. Despite the bustling energy of their family home, Chris couldn't shake off the heavy feeling of absence. Matt and Nick seemed to be in higher spirits, enjoying their time back home, but Chris felt an emptiness that gnawed at him relentlessly.
Chris had always been too close to Y/N, his girlfriend, who had remained in LA due to her college classes. And as he sat in the living room, watching his family laugh and share stories, Chris couldn't help but feel an overwhelming sadness. He missed Y/N's laughter, her presence, the way she made every moment brighter.
The fact that she couldnât be there for such a significant milestone made him feel both sad and angry, though he knew it wasnât her fault. College was important, and he respected her dedication to her studies.
The house was filled with the comforting smells of home-cooked meals and the familiar sounds of family. Chris held his phone in his hand, scrolling through old pictures of him and Y/N, trying to fill the void with memories of their time together.
His thumb paused on a picture Nick took of them at American Ninja Warrior, both of them grinning widely at the camera. It had been taken just a few weeks ago, during their filming. He could almost hear her laugh, see the way her eyes sparkled in the neons light. The longing in his heart intensified, making him feel even more isolated despite being surrounded by his loved ones.
Mary Lou noticed her son's downcast demeanor very quickly, and as soon as she got a little space, she went to sit beside him.
"Chris, honey, what's wrong? Youâve been so quiet all day." She said, placing a gentle hand on his shoulder, caressing the area.
Chris sighed, leaning into his mother's comforting touch.
"I just miss Y/N, Mom. I know she has classes and all, but it feels wrong to be celebrating without her." He tried to smile, lowering his eyes.
"I understand, sweetheart." Mary Lou gave him a sympathetic smile. "But remember, sheâs always with you in spirit. And youâll see her soon enough. Try to enjoy this time with your family. Itâs been so long since we were all together like this."
He nodded, appreciating her words but still feeling the weight of Y/Nâs absence. He knew he should be more present, more engaged with his family, and the guilt of not doing that weighted above him, but his thoughts kept drifting back to LA, to the love of his life.
That night, Chris lay in bed, staring at the ceiling. The house was quiet now, everyone else had gone to sleep, tired from the day's activities. He picked up his phone again, contemplating sending Y/N another message. They had exchanged texts throughout the day, but he didnât want to seem too needy or make her feel guilty for not being there.
Instead, he decided to call her. The phone rang a few times before she picked up, her voice soft and sleepy.
"Hey, honey." She murmured. "Is everything okay?"
Hearing her voice brought a rush of comfort and a pang of sorrow to Chris, a smile taking over his features automatically.
"Hi, babe. Yeah, everythingâs fine. I just... I miss you. I wish you were here." His voice sounded soft and lower than usual.
"Oh, babe, I miss you too." She said, and he could hear the sincerity in her voice. "I wish I could be there, Chris. I really do. But I promise, weâll celebrate when you get back, okay?"
Chris sighed, closing his eyes for a few seconds before reopening them, looking at her contact name glowing on the small screen.
"I know. I just... Itâs hard, you know? Being here without you. It doesn't feel right."
"I know, babe. But youâre surrounded by family, and they love you. Try to have a good time, for them. And for me." He almost could listen her sweet smile across the phone.
He nodded, even though she couldnât see him, breathing deeply.
"Iâll try. I just canât wait to see you."
"Me too. Get some rest, pretty boy. Tomorrow's a big day. I love you." She whispered softly, the sound of sheets moving around echoing in the background.
"I love you too, Y/N. Goodnight." He muttered quietly, biting his bottom lip slightly.
As he hung up the phone, Chris felt a mixture of emotions. He tried to focus on the next day as he drifted off to sleep, dreaming of the day heâd be back in Y/Nâs arms.
Unbeknownst to Chris, Y/N had been planning something special. She had spent the last few weeks organizing a surprise that she hoped would make up for her absence. She knew how much this milestone meant to him and his brothers, and she wanted to be a part of it in any way she could.
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The morning of the triplets' birthday dawned crisp and clear in Boston. Mary Lou was already in the kitchen, bustling about as she prepared a grand breakfast. The aroma of sizzling bacon, freshly baked muffins, and brewing coffee filled the house, a warm and welcoming scent that promised a day full of celebration.
Jimmy and Justin had gone to the grocery store to pick up some last-minute items needed for the big birthday lunch they were planning. The house was alive with activity, everyone playing their part in making this day special.
Matt and Nick had left early, driving to the airport to pick up Y/N. They had been in on the surprise from the start, eager to help bring a genuine smile to Chris's face. The drive was filled with excitement and a few playful jabs at how Chris would react, trying to imagine his expression when he saw Y/N in their home. Y/N herself was a bundle of nerves and anticipation, her heart racing at the thought of surprising Chris. She had barely slept after their call, her mind buzzing with plans and excitement.
As Matt and Nickâs car pulled up to the curb at the airport, Y/N spotted them and waved excitedly, a big smile on her face. They greeted her with warm hugs and excited chatter, filling her in on the plans for the day.
The drive back to the house was filled with lively conversation, Y/N asking about every little detail of their plan, wanting everything to be perfect. Matt and Nick reassured her that everything was set and that their parents were in on the surprise, ready to welcome her with open arms.
As they drove through the streets of Boston, Y/N suddenly remembered something.
"Hey, Matt? Can we stop by a flower shop?" She asked, a hint of urgency in her voice while her eyes kept watching the landscape moving quickly through the window. "I want to get something special for Chris."
Matt and Nick exchanged a glance, then nodded.
"Sure, we can do that." Matt said, turning the car toward the nearest florist he knew all too well from the times his father used to bring them there to buy some flowers for Mary Lou.
The flower shop was a charming little place filled with the vibrant colors and sweet scents of countless blooms. Y/N spent a few minutes selecting the perfect bouquet, a beautiful arrangement of Chris's favorite flowers. She wanted it to be just right, a small token of her love and the effort she put into making his day special.
When they finally pulled back into the driveway, Y/N's heart felt like it might burst from her chest. She took a deep breath, clutching the bouquet tightly, and followed Matt and Nick into the house.
Mary Lou greeted her with a warm hug, kissing her face with excitement and whispering words of encouragement. They placed her surprises in the living room, the bouquet taking center stage among the carefully wrapped gifts.
Y/N took a deep breath, looking at the family for a last time before climbing the stairs slowly, each step heightening her anticipation.
Chris's door was slightly ajar, and she peeked in to see him still asleep, his form cocooned under the heavy blankets. She slipped into the room quietly, closing the door softly behind her. The morning light filtered through the curtains, casting a gentle glow on Chris's peaceful face.
Y/N approached the bed, her movements slow and deliberate. She carefully lay down beside him, positioning herself so she could watch him without disturbing his sleep. For a long moment, she just observed him, taking in every detail. His dark hair was tousled, and there was a softness to his features that only appeared when he was at rest. She felt a swell of affection as she noted the faint smile on his lips, wondering if he was dreaming of something pleasant.
The room was quiet except for the rhythmic sound of his breathing. Y/N reached out, her fingers barely brushing his cheek before she drew them back, not wanting to wake him too abruptly. She could feel the warmth radiating from his body, a comforting presence that she had missed so much. Her heart ached with a mix of love and longing, overwhelmed by the sight of him so close yet so unaware of her presence.
After what felt like an eternity, Y/N leaned in closer, her lips hovering near his ear.
"Chris." She whispered softly, her voice barely more than a breath. "Wake up, pretty boy."
Chris stirred slightly but didn't open his eyes, better accommodating his position.
"Five more minutes, babe." He mumbled, his voice thick with sleep. There was a pause, and then his eyes snapped open. "Wait, babe?" He lifted his head from the pillow, and when he saw Y/N lying beside him, his eyes widened in shock, his body sitting up abruptly. "Y/N?"
She smiled, tears of happiness welling in her eyes, sitting up to be on the same level as him.
"Happy birthday, Chris." She said, her voice filled with warmth and love.
Chris blinked a few times as if trying to make sure he wasn't dreaming. Then, a broad smile spread across his face, and he pulled her into a tight embrace.
"Baby, oh my God! I can't believe you're here!" He exclaimed, his voice a mix of joy and disbelief.
"I wouldn't miss your birthday for anything." She replied, hugging him back just as tightly. "I wanted to surprise you."
Chris pulled back slightly, looking at her with a mixture of awe and adoration.
"This is the best birthday present ever." He said, his eyes shining with happiness. "I was so sad you couldn't be here, and now... you're really here."
Y/N laughed softly, brushing a strand of hair from his forehead.
"I'm here, Chris. I'm really here, and I'm not going anywhere else." She whispered, her thumb caressing his forehead softly, traveling to his brows and cheek bones. "Okay?"
"I've missed you so much." He muttered, his hands snaking up her shoulders to her face, cupping her cheeks, his fingers threading into her hair, and finally brought his lips crashing down onto hers in a hard, heated kiss. The intensity of it took her breath away, her knees going weak as she clung to him for support, her hands lowering to his jaw.
Chris kissed her with a desperation that spoke of all the days they had been apart, his lips moving against hers with a raw, unrestrained passion. His hands moved to her waist, gripping her tightly as he pulled her onto his lap, settling her straddling him. The closeness sent a shiver down her spine, and she could feel the rapid thud of his heart against her chest, mirroring her own.
Y/N's hands tangled in his hair, tugging gently as she kissed him back with equal fervor. The kiss deepened, their tongues meeting in a heated dance that left them both gasping for air. Chris's hands roamed over her back, pulling her closer as if trying to erase the distance that had been between them. He groaned softly against her lips, a sound that sent a rush of warmth through her.
Y/N could feel the world spinning around her, her senses overwhelmed by Chris's touch, his taste, his scent. His hands were everywhere, touching, caressing, exploring, and killing all the bad feelings he felt away from her.
When they finally broke apart, gasping for air, Chris buried his head in the crook of her neck, his breathing ragged hitting against her skin.
"I love you so much, babe." He whispered against her skin, his voice thick with emotion. "You have no idea how much I've missed you. This is the best gift I could ever ask for."
Y/N's heart swelled with love and tenderness as she held him close, feeling his vulnerability and happiness. She could feel his tears wetting her skin, and she gently stroked his back, comforting him.
"Oh, honey, don't cry." She whispered, her voice soft while her hands traveled to his hair, massaging his curls. "I love you. So much."
They stayed like that for a long moment, wrapped up in each other, their hearts beating in sync. Eventually, they pulled apart, and Chris took a deep breath, his heart feeling lighter than it had in days.
"Come on." He said, his voice switching to one full of excitement. "Let's go downstairs, I can smell breakfast from here."
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hi,may I request some headcanons about Victor, Silco, Ekko and Jayce (and if you can Jinx?) about caring and being with a S/O with ED. thank you! i apologize if the pronouns are not correct, I don't speak english ((
Arcane men with an S/O that has an ED. | Viktor, Silco, Jayce, Ekko x Gn!Reader
Hello anon! I decided to only write about the four men you chose first because of the limit, so I hope that's okay for you! Thank you otherwise for your request, and I hope you'll enjoy this!<33
Content: TW!!EATING DISORDERS, some angst, established romantic relationships, hurt/comfort, fluff, sfw
Reader has no set pronouns.
((Not proofread))
ăVIKTOR
Viktor is the first person to immideatly notice the slow shift in your eating habits, yet doesn't confront you about it immideatly. Instead, he simply observes you for a moment to make sure what he was seeing was correct since he obviously didn't want to assume anything... but it was hard for him to ignore how unhealthy it was becoming.
You were trying your best to hide it from him, perhaps out of guilt or simply subconsciously, but it did little to throw him off. He would never outright tell you to your face that he knew and would try to correct your eating by making you have your meals with him. He always has an excuse as to why you should, and thankfully, you can never say no to him, but even that doesn't help in the long run.
When things get too out of hand and your methods become too self-destructive, he finally finds the courage to sit you down and stage an intervention. His approach is gentle and understanding, as he guids you through the next steps and comforts you as much as he can.
He'll compliment you and give you all the reassurance needed during your recovery. Viktor knows that you still have a long way to go, but he isn't going anywhere and wouldn't dream of letting you go through this alone. He's there for you and makes sure you know that as well.
ăSILCO
He only noticed that something was seriously wrong when you lost too much weight in a dangerously short amount of time. It wasn't unusual for people in Zaun to be a little malnourished due to their circumstances, but never this much. Especially not when you were dating a drug lord who could afford all types of food.
And so, he just bluntly confronts you about it, never the type to beat around the bush anyway. But he'll still be gentle and careful, the worry clear in his voice as he wonders if it's a physical issue. What he didn't expect, however, was you breaking down and telling him all about your problems, and thankfully, he listened and acted on them.
Your recovery is strictly supervised by him, and he makes it a point to take every meal together. The only way to leave the table is by eating every crumb he gives you. But that's not the only thing he focuses on. From what he understood, the issue came from deeply rooted insecurities inside you, which made him compliment and reassure you often. He may not be the best with words, but it's clear that he means it well which helps.
Silco doesn't entirely understand why you have an eating disorder, but he's nothing short of supportive and caring despite his reputation. He doesn't want you to hurt yourself, or even worse, die on him after all.
ăJAYCE
He noticed your self-esteem issues getting worse and worse as time went on, which immideatly alerted him. Jayce knew that there was definitely a bigger issue at hand than simple insecurities and, therefore, at first attempts to just uplift you with compliments and praise. But he isn't foolish enough to believe that that would make everything go away.
Eventually requesting to talk to you, the man sits you down for a long talk about your disordered eating habits and asks you if there is something or someone making you feel bad about yourself. All you really need to do is confide in him, and he'll take it from there, determined to make everything right again.
Jayce takes makes dinner for the both of you that you share together, even going as far as to carefully feed you himself when necessary. He praises you for every plate you finish and for every therapy session you complete. He's just so proud of you!
He definitely makes more time for you in his rather busy schedule, just to make sure that you don't fall back into your disorder. The man wants you to be healthy and happy no matter how much work he misses. You're worth that.
ăEkko
Due to how busy he is as a Firelight, it takes him a moment to notice anything wrong with you. He's become so secure in knowing that nothing could hurt you under his wing, without realizing that it was you who was the "enemy" now. Or rather your disorder. And so when he does come to that said realisation, his heart drops and he immideatly takes action.
He immideatly intervenes you by making you sit down and talk out about what exactly triggered this extreme shift in eating habits. Hearing you mention your struggle with your appearance and weight made his heart ache, as he reiterates how much he loves you and thinks you're perfect. Ekko promises to help you, too, one way or another.
Due to your lack of proper medical resources, however, he comes up with a makeshift plan that helps with your recovery. He takes every meal with you and makes sure you know you're loved and appreciated by everyone in the hideout. You're allowed to take space and wants you to know exactly that.
Ekko is proud to see your progress and praises you every chance he gets. He wants to be at your side forever, no matter how you look like.
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dbf!Joel headcanons
warnings: big, though unspecified age gap, 18+ (as always)
note: Uni has been kicking my ass, so Iâve only had time for some headcanons lately. This Joel is very sweet, but Iâm open to writing sleazy or dark Joel, too! If you have requests for any headcanons, I will be able to write them even during this stressful time. Full fics will take me a while longer. Enjoy reading, my loves <3 and feel free to add stuff!
He doesnât really know how to cook well and mostly eats his faves every day but when you stay over more and more he makes an effort to learn and actually finds out he really likes it
Whatever pressure your parents put on you, he relieves it by accepting it rather than trying to fix it for you â you can just exist around him without expectation
He worries the age difference means you donât have much to talk about, so he watches your favourite show that you mentioned and although it certainly wouldnât have been his first pick, it lets him unwind. He likes watching something he knows youâve watched and loved when youâre not around, it makes him feel closer to you
When he first starts looking at you differently he blue balls himself so as not to disrespect you â when he has sex with someone to relieve himself, he accidentally says your name to them
He keeps a polaroid of you in his wallet and cashiers wonder why he smiles at his debit card so much
He finds it hard to stay friends with your dad, because it makes him feel weird about this dynamic with you. He distances himself from your parents after they react badly to the news of your relationship, not because of guilt or cowardice, but because he doesnât tolerate how they treat you
He thought he would hate the gossip after the two of you go public, but when you do, he finds himself imagining knocking you up just so everyone knows what he does to you. He opts for lots of hickeys until kids might be a possibility, but that doesnât stop him from pretending you donât have an IUD when he finishes inside of you
He loves when you wear his clothes, but when you forget your scarf at his place he wears it and enjoys that just as much â it smells like you and he likes the idea of people being able to tell itâs somebody elseâs
When he figures out how much you like him talking to you during sex, he starts using the same voice/phrases in public to get you flustered & wet for him
He keeps everything that reminds him of you, like parking tickets etc. He doesnât do anything with those things, doesnât put them in a box, so they linger around his house, reminding him of you the way photographs would, except more privately
He starts âputting in an effortâ for you when you start dating: styling his hair & wearing clothes he thinks you would prefer, until you tell him you like nothing more than his flannels and band tees and jeans, and although he doesnât tell you, heâs beyond relieved. He realises you like him for him
When you tell your parents, Joel asks your father to hit him because âhe knows he deserves itâ. With time he learns he also deserves your kisses and smiles. Those things coexist within him, he thinks both are true
Despite completely supporting you in your pursuit of a degree & career, he likes when youâre on holiday, waiting around for him in his house wearing nothing but a pair of panties he bought for you & one of his hoodies. During those lazy weeks, he fucks you morning, afternoon, and night: before he leaves, when he gets home, and right before you go to sleep
He buys you a ring during the first week of dating because you mentioned how much you like it. He doesnât give it to you until he knows you feel certain about him â he doesnât want to freak you out. Still, even before that, he sometimes looks at it in its little black box and envisions it on your finger
During your first couple of âpublic datesâ (neighbourhood barbecue where your parents are present etc.) he refrains from touching you much, although everyone knows about your relationship. You have to take his hand and initiate small touches for him to feel more comfortable
It takes him a short while, but then he loves being able to touch you in front of people: a hand on your lower back, an arm across your shoulder, his fingers lacing through yours, him pulling your back against his front and wrapping his arms around you. People stare sometimes (your Dad breaks one or two wine glasses in his hand), but Joel stops caring when he sees how happy it makes you
He tells you that you can change things about his home, that it should feel like your place, too and asks if you want to go shopping for âcandles and stuffâ, but you love being in a space that feels completely like him. Itâs not how your apartment looks, but it makes you feel at ease, like youâre somehow living inside of him
Before he tells you he loves you, he whispers it in your ear when youâre sleeping, hoping your subconscious will somehow pick up on it. When he does tell you while youâre awake for the first time, itâs during breakfast. You stub your toe, and let out a string of curses you must have picked up on from him, and while he presses ice against your foot, kneeling in front of you, he smiles up and tells you: I love you.
The first time you sleep over at his house after he spent the night in your apartment, two brand new bottles of the shampoo and conditioner you use are in his shower. You thank him and jokingly ask why he didnât buy your shower gel, too. He kisses you and tells you he likes when you smell like him.
He likes making you come more times than you thought you could â something about moving in and out of you while you tell him you canât do it again, that youâre done, and then watching you fall apart on his cock anyway, thrills him to the bone. It makes him feel powerful, but part of it is knowing you let him fuck you without expecting an orgasm, that him being inside of you is enough for you to feel good
He doesnât tell you, but he adds your name to his car insurance, so that you can drive it whenever you want
When you figure it out you give him road head every time the two of you drive somewhere â until he almost crashes the car and he forbids you to tempt him while heâs behind the wheel
Heâs so nervous he asks Tommy for help when picking out a birthday gift for you â Tommy goes overboard and the gift turns out to be something completely ridiculous like a pair of huge earrings you would never wear. You tell Joel you donât need a big fuss to feel loved by him. At night, he gives you a present heâs been wanting to give you for a while: he plays you a song he wrote for you on his guitar. Itâs quiet and simple and so perfect you cry for half an hour
He doesnât sleep well when youâre not around, and loves being close to you at night. If he could, heâd sleep nestled inside of you after a round of lazy midnight sex every night
As much as Tommy annoys him, it makes him happy to see how well you two get along. When you become actual friends with Tommy and hang out with him on your own, heâs more than pleased: the two people he loves the most in the world have become close
He would never ask it of you, but when you tell him you have stopped masturbating because he fucks you so often, it pleases him deeply. He likes being the only source of your pleasure. When you are apart for a while because of work/collage etc., he buys you a toy he can control from his phone
He tells Tommy he thinks heâs going to marry you during the first month of dating, which you find out about only on your wedding day during Tommyâs speech
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Save You
Summary: You are the first woman to be racing in Formula 1 and you and Max are already best friends. To Jos' dismay. Part 2
Song: Me and Your Mama by Childish Gambino
Part 1 - Part 3 - Part 4 Authorâs note: This is the longest part I've ever written but I had so much fun written it! CW: sexist comments, domestic violence (not from Max). I'm still salty about Daniel Ricciardo's exit to Formula 1 so I decided to add him a little here. PS. I yapped a bit too much in this one so the third one is the last one!
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MASTERLIST - F1
You remember the moment vividly, as if it were a whirlwind that spun you around until you were disoriented, lost in the chaos of emotions and shouts.
It all happened so fastâone moment, you were trying to reason with your boyfriend, caught in a tense exchange that escalated rapidly, and the next, he was storming out of your driverâs room, slamming the door with a force that rattled the walls.
Your heart raced with confusion and fear, leaving you breathless as you tried to process what had just happened. You could hardly grasp the gravity of the situation when Max appeared, his presence a sudden calm amidst the storm.
He moved swiftly, wrapping his strong hands around you, lifting you from the ground with an ease that almost felt surreal.
As he gently placed you on the sofa, the urgency in his movements made it clear that this was no ordinary momentâit was a protective embrace wrapped in an unspoken promise.
Sobbing uncontrollably, you buried your face into the crook of Max's neck, allowing the warmth of his body to comfort you as you fought against the tide of panic swelling within.
The tears came in waves, fueled by both fear and the overwhelming relief that someone was there to protect you. You could feel Max's heartbeat steady against your cheek, a rhythmic reminder that you were no longer alone in this moment of crisis.
You let your emotions spill forth, whispering broken apologies through the muffled sobs, feeling as if you were somehow to blame for the chaos that had just erupted in your life.
"Iâm so sorry, Max. Itâs all my fault," you managed to choke out, your voice barely a whisper between shaky breaths.
âShh, schat,â he murmured softly, his breath warm against your ear, trying to soothe your spiraling thoughts. The Dutch term of endearment caught you off guard, making the moment feel strangely intimate despite the turmoil around you.
âYouâre going to be alright. He wonât hurt you anymore,â he assured you, his voice steady and reassuring, cutting through the fog of your fear.
Yet, somewhere deep inside, uncertainty gnawed at youâcould he really promise such a thing?
You felt Maxâs grip tighten slightly around you, an unyielding reassurance that made you cling to him even more desperately, seeking refuge in the strength he offered.
It was as if he could sense your doubts, your swirling fears, and was determined to chase them away simply by being there.
In the background, you could hear Max yelling for security, his voice rising in urgency. âGet someone here! Find him! I want him arrested!â
You pulled back slightly, looking into Max's eyes, searching for the comfort that his words promised.
âWhat if he comes back?â you asked, your voice trembling as the thought caused fresh panic to swell within you.
Max shook his head firmly, his expression serious but his gaze softening. âHe wonât. Not with me here. Iâll make sure of it,â he assured you, each word laced with a fierce promise that began to ease the tension within your chest, if only just a little.
âBut⌠I didnât want any of this,â you protested weakly, feeling a mix of guilt and fear wash over you again, drowning out the sense of safety that was slowly starting to seep in. "I just wanted everything to be okay."
Max's grip around you tightened, anchoring you in the moment, and he pulled you closer, as if shielding you from the world outside. âYou deserve to feel safe, schat. What he did was wrong, and you donât have to apologize for his actions,â he said earnestly, his voice low yet commanding, creating a cocoon of support around you.
You could sense his determination, the adamancy in his words echoing deep within you, and slowly, you began to believe him.
As the sound of footsteps pattered in the hallway, Max's attention shifted, his protective instincts kicking in. âStay here. Donât move,â he instructed firmly, and you nodded as a sense of urgency pulsed through him.
His presence was a bulwark against the storm of fear that raged just on the other side of the door, and you wanted nothing more than for him to stay, to shield you from any lingering shadows of doubt.
The door swung open, revealing a security guard with a concerned expression that mirrored your own internal turmoil. âWhat happened?â the guard asked, eyes flicking between you and Max, who was still in protective mode, grounding you in a way that felt sublime yet strange.
Max responded immediately, his voice steady once more. âHer boyfriend just stormed out, and he was abusing her. I want you to find him and arrest him,â he insisted, his tone brooking no argument as the security man nodded and rushed out.
You could feel yourself trembling as the grip of fear lingered just beneath the surface, the weight of what had transpired embedding itself deep within your mind.
âMax, what if they canât find him?â you whispered, dread pooling in your stomach as the thought conjured images of your pastâof moments you desperately wished to forget.
He turned back to you, kneeling in front of the sofa now, his intensity softening as he searched your face.
âShh, just breathe. Even if they donât, I wonât let anything happen to you. Youâre safe now,â he said earnestly, and you could see the determination etched into his features, lending you strength even amid your anxiety.
Despite the dim light casting shadows around the room, you could feel Maxâs warm hands cradling your face, his touch careful as he scrutinized the bruises marring your skin, remnants of a confrontation that had spiraled out of control.
As he gently brushed his fingers over a particularly sore spot, you winced involuntarily, a sharp pang of pain shooting through you.
You caught a glimpse of concern etched on his face as he muttered something in Dutch under his breath, a language that sounded both melodic and heavy with emotion, making your heart ache more than the injuries themselves.
âShould I call Sarah for you?â he asked softly, those deep-set eyes pleading with you for a response, and, feeling powerless, you nodded ever so slightly, sinking deeper into the cushions of the sofa, your mind swirling with anxiety and despair.
In a matter of moments, Max turned his attention to one of the team staff members who were hanging outside the door, his tone firm yet controlled as he instructed them to fetch your best friend, Sarah, as well as Christian Horner, the team principal.
The mention of Christian sent a jolt of apprehension through you, freezing your body in place as dread washed over you. âWhy?â you whispered, your voice barely above a breath.
The gravity of the situation threatened to engulf you, and in that moment, the realization hit that the repercussions of this incident were far beyond what you had initially imagined.
Max, however, maintained his reassuring demeanor, placing his hands on your shoulders. âSchat, Iâm not going to hide this from our boss. He needs to know, we need more help to find him,â he reassured, the endearment slipping off his tongue even as your heart raced with panic.
Yet, instead of feeling any measure of comfort from his words, terror surged through you, knotting your stomach into an anxious ball.
âWhat if they fire me because Iâm weak?â you blurted out, the breath escaping your lips in quickened gasps, your thoughts spiraling uncontrollably as you considered the very real possibility.
Hiring a female driver had already been a gamble for the team, and to wind up as a broken shell so soon into the season felt like a crushing defeatâa silent condemnation from the very people who had taken a chance on you.
Your mind raced back to conversations you had overheard, the doubts lingering in the air whenever someone spoke about female athletes, and you could almost feel their judgment pressing down on you like a heavy weight.
âHey,â Max replied gently, his voice dipping into that soothing tone that always seemed to ground you amidst chaos, âYouâre not weak; youâre brave.â His words sliced through your fear momentarily, lifting your spirits just enough to remind you that you weren't alone.
The tenderness of his gaze fortified your sense of resilience, tempting you to believe that maybe, just maybe, you could face whatever awaited you outside of this safe haven of the sofa.
However, the momentary calm shattered with the abrupt sound of a knock at the door, and you felt your heart plummet, your stomach twisting into knots.
âY/N? Can I come in? Sarah is here too,â the unmistakable voice of Christian echoed from the other side, and dread nestled itself firmly in your chest like a coiled spring.
âIâll handle it,â Max promised softly, reading the anxiety radiating from you. With a firm resolve, he reluctantly released your grasp and walked towards the door, each step amplifying the tension pulsating through your veins.
The door opened just a crack, and you could see him standing there, maintaining that familiar air of authority even under these dire circumstances
âOnly Sarah can come in for now, I need to speak to you,â he said to Christian, letting Sarah in before effectively shutting the door behind him once more, blocking out the world, at least momentarily.
Your heart raced as Sarah rushed in, her eyes darting over to you, disbelief coloring her features as she took in the scene.
âOh my God, Y/N!â Sarah exclaimed, brushing past Max and enveloping you in a tight hug. The sudden rush of affection felt overwhelming; the warmth and concern radiating from her made your heart ache in a way that was both comforting and painful.
âWhat happened? Are you okay?â She pulled back slightly to examine your injuries, her own fear evident as she took stock of the damage. In that instant, you could see her brave façade begin to crack as she tried to process the sight before her.
âIâm fine... it's just Jake,â you replied, though the tremor in your voice contradicted your words. âIâI donât know how it got to this point,â you confessed, your voice shaky as fragments of the earlier confrontation flitted through your mind like uninvited ghosts.
"I didnât mean for it to escalate. I just wanted to talk.â The regret began to seep into your words as you struggled to make sense of the chaos.
âDonât worry about him now,â Sarah said, her voice straining to maintain a calm facade. âRight now, we just need to focus on getting you healedâphysically and emotionally.â
Her words resonated deeply with you, yet the reality loomed heavily like a storm cloud, and Maxâs earlier statements replayed cautiously in your mind.
The responsibility of the team rested heavily on all of you, and as malfunctioning pieces of a machine, you knew well that one weak link could cause everything to fail.
As she hurried to gather the first aid kit, you watched her hands tremble; that slight betrayal of her otherwise calm facade spoke volumes of the chaos swirling around you both.
Sarah wasted no time; she grabbed the disinfectant and began to clean your injuries with gentle yet urgent hands. Each time the cool liquid touched your bruised skin, you flinched, a reflex of pain that seemed endless.
âY/N, you need to breathe,â she instructed softly, her voice steady despite the circumstances, her focus unwavering as she meticulously tended to the wounds.
You nodded, trying to do as she said, inhaling deeply, but it was difficult. The weight of what had just transpired clung to you like a heavy shadow. You couldn't shake the memories of anger and betrayal; the accusations echoed in your mind, each word more cutting than the last.
âI thought we were coming here to celebrate... I never meant to upset him,â you whispered, more to yourself than to her.
With a soothing focus, Sarah replied, âYou have nothing to be sorry for, Y/N. You deserve to feel safe and happy.â As she continued her work, the knot in your chest shifted slightly, though the fear of what was brewing beyond the walls of this room still loomed ominously.
After a while, just as your world began to settle a bit, a knock on the door jolted you back into a state of hyper-awareness. âY/N? Can we come in?â
The familiar voice of Max floated through the air, tinged with an unspoken worry that wrapped around you like a comforting blanket. You responded without lifting your gaze, murmuring a soft, âyes.â
As the door swung open, the heaviness inside the room somehow increased; you sensed that Christian was there, and the atmosphere shifted even more.
As Max stepped in, his brow furrowed with concern, you felt Christian kneel in front of you, his presence larger than life.
âY/N, I already heard the situation from Max, but I want to hear it from you,â he stated earnestly, his eyes searching yours for somethingâtrust, perhaps? You could hardly look up; the ground beneath you felt like a safe harbor amidst the turbulence of the moment.
You took a shaky breath, feeling your heart race as your thoughts collided chaotically in your mind. âI came here to celebrate with him, but he was mad at me for... hugging Max,â you began, your voice barely above a murmur, fragile as glass. âHe said that I didnât love him, and then he... he started hitting me.â
The admission crawled from your lips like a reluctant confession, and the tremor in your voice did not go unnoticed. You could see Max's expression darken, his shoulders tensing as he processed your words.
There was a silence that followed, heavy with unspoken emotions. You could feel Christian leaning closer, his concern palpable as he gathered himself to respond, and you desperately searched for the courage to continue.
There was a weight in your chest that begged to be released, and you pressed on cautiously, âThis isnât the first time,â you added quietly, the finality of those words sending a chilling wave across the room.
The realization hung in the air, a bitter truth that seemed to fracture the space between you. Max looked at Christian, his eyes ablaze with anger, while Christianâs face turned somber, understanding the gravity of your plight.Â
Everyone remained quiet, their eyes wide with shock and concern, but you felt an overwhelming urge to glance away, to escape their gaze that seemed to search for answers you couldnât provide.
âIâm sorry for causing the team trouble,â you said, your voice barely above a whisper, hoping to mend the fragile atmosphere, to shift their focus away from your pain and back to the celebrations that were meant to mark the day.
You wanted every trace of the confrontation with your boyfriend to fade into oblivion, telling yourself it wasnât a big deal, that this situation had been your fault all along, and there was no reason for anyone else to be burdened by your turmoil.
Yet, despite your desperate attempts to shield the room from your hurt, Christian remained kneeling in front of you, his expression locked in a mix of concern and determination that made you feel both vulnerable and cared for.
âY/N, you didnât cause trouble; you were put in a situation that no one should have to endure,â he said, his tone unwavering and assured, carrying a weight of authority that made you question the narrative you had spun in your mind.
You didnât reply, your thoughts replaying like a broken record, insisting that you were to blame for everything that had transpired, and that perhaps his anger was justified.
Christian leaned even closer, his gaze piercing through your defenses, as if he was trying to communicate an unspoken truth that resonated deeply.
âY/N, what he did to you is not love; itâs control, and you deserve so much more than that.â His words struck you like a lightning bolt, its intensity shattering the delicate veil you had cloaked your heart in.
You felt a rush of conflicting emotions; anger, shame, and the desperate longing for validation collided within you. Christianâs bluntness was perhaps harsher than he intended, yet it pierced through the fog of denial you had wrapped around yourself for so long.
You could feel tears welling up in your eyes, too powerful to be contained, and before you realized it, you were crying, your hands instinctively covering your face as if to hide the vulnerability that was now exposed to everyone in the room.
Just as the moment became overwhelming, a sudden knock on the door jolted you from your despair. âSir, the podium ceremony is about to start, and we canât find the two drivers,â a voice called from the hallway, breaking through the dark cloud of tension lingering in the air.
You froze, the harsh reality of the upcoming ceremony crashing down on you. For a volatile moment, your mind flickered between the desire to stay hidden in your grief and the urgency of your obligations to the team.
The celebration you had come to cherish now felt like a distant memory overshadowed by the weight of your turmoil.
Without warning, you felt strong arms wrapping around you, patting your back in a comforting gesture. You recognized Christian's warm presence immediately; it felt safe and secure, something you so desperately needed at that moment.
âMax, go to the ceremony. Iâll pay for the fine of Y/N not being there,â Christian asserted, his voice firm and resolute, leaving no room for argument.
You glanced up just in time to catch Maxâs conflicted expression, a combination of concern for you and the demands of his role come alive in his eyes.
Max sighed deeply, the burden of his decisions evident on his face. âIâll be back soon,â he promised, his gaze lingering on you for a heartbeat longer before he turned to dash out of the room, leaving you and Christian surrounded by the remnants of a conversation heavy with unspoken emotions.
In the silence that followed, a myriad of thoughts coursed through your mind, battling against a newfound understanding of the reality you faced, the strength and comfort that Christian had extended towards you.
As the door clicked shut behind Max, you turned your attention back to Christian, who remained kneeling beside you, his presence steadfast and unwavering.
"Y/N," he said softly, his eyes reflecting concern and warmth, "you donât have to go through this alone."
At that moment, as you glanced into his earnest gaze, the burdens you had clung to began to feel just a little lighter, and for the first time, a flicker of hope ignited within you. . . .
As you stepped into the sterile environment of the medical office, the fluorescent lights dimly illuminated the white walls adorned with various health posters, each outlining a different aspect of well-being.
Christian, with his serious demeanor, turned to you before leaving, stating, âWhen youâre finished, you can go to my office to stay until I come back.â
His voice was firm, yet filled with an undercurrent of concern, which only heightened the weight on your chest.
You watched him walk away, his silhouette vanishing just as the doctor entered, clipboard in hand, wearing a reassuring smile that struggled to dissolve the tension enveloping you.
Deep down, you felt ashamed for taking up the womanâs time, as though your presence here was an inconvenience that disrupted the flow of her practiced routine.
You were here because of the circumstances that had befallen you, yet as she gently guided you to the examination area, the overwhelming reality of the situation became more apparent, pressing down like a heavy blanket.
As the doctor began her examination, her focus was both professional and compassionate, yet every question she posed felt like a dagger, pricking at the fragility of your emotional state.
âHas he ever sexually abused you before?â she asked, a serious note underpinning her words, thickening the air between you.
You hesitated, processing the gravity of such a termâbefore shaking your head softly, âNo, he has never.â
She nodded, her pen swiftly dancing across the tablet in her grasp, writing notes as though it were a casual affair. Yet, you could sense the importance of her record-keeping beneath the surface; this was far from casual.
Her next question pierced through the relatively calm atmosphere, âHas he ever abused you before today?â
You felt a lump rise in your throat, and with a small, defeated whisper, you answered, âYes.â A heaviness settled around that one word, a truth that had wrapped its icy fingers around your heart.
âWould you be able to tell me what happened today?â The doctorâs tone shifted slightly, filled with a careful urgency. âThis can be used during court when he is arrested, so please be truthful.â
As the implications of her words washed over you, you felt your eyes widen in disbelief. âCourt? Arrested? I donât want that for him,â you blurted out, the panic creeping into your voice.
The weight of advocating for justice felt immeasurable, and silence hung in the air as you contemplated the meaning of those words.
âY/N, he needs to be held accountable for what heâs done to you,â the doctor stated, her resolve unwavering as she searched your gaze for understanding.
But even as the truth of her words resonated deep within you, your mind rebelled against the possibility, âBut maybe heâs sick; he was never like this,â you said, the words tumbling from your lips in a desperate rant.
âYou have a right to feel safe, Y/N. This is your chance to reclaim that safety.â Her voice softened, yet the gravity of the statement stirred a newfound resolve within you.
The desire to protect him clashed violently with the instinct to protect yourself, and you felt torn between two worlds. Eventually, the stories spilled forth, rolling out like an uncoiling serpent, with each recollection revealing the depths of your pain.
With each word, the doctor wrote meticulously, capturing the moments that had led you to this very room.
âNow what happens to him? To me?â
Her gaze focused intently on you as she replied, âAfter hearing your story, you will either probably go to witness protection, or your boss can arrange security for you until he is arrested.â
The reality of that world sank in, even as you nodded numbly, realizing that this was the pathway to reclaiming a sense of safety you had long forfeited.
Feeling emotionally drained and physically exhausted from the events of the day, you were dismissed with a gentle nod, your body moving almost on autopilot as you left the examination room.
The sterile scents of antiseptic and anxiety lingered in the air as you navigated the corridor, heart pounding in rhythm with your swift steps.
Each stride took you closer to Christianâs office, a sanctuary amid the chaos that had engulfed your life so suddenly.
Arriving at his office door, you hesitated for just a moment, recalling his serious expression and the weight of his concern for your well-being.
When you finally pushed the door open, relief washed over you like a warm embrace, but fatigue quickly crept back in. The room was quiet, with just the faint hum of the air conditioning filling the empty spaces, creating a cocoon that felt safe.
You glanced around, taking in the familiar decorâframed photographs of successful moments, a comfortable sofa nestled against the wall.
Your eyes settled on the sofa that beckoned to you, promising a brief respite from the emotional rollercoaster you had just endured.
Nervously, you wondered if Christian would mind you taking a nap in his office, but the exhaustion was overwhelming, and your body ached for rest.
Slumping onto the sofa, you closed your eyes, wrapping your arms around yourself in an attempt to shield your thoughts from the world outside those four walls.
The events of the day replayed in your mind, like a film reel you could not rewind, each moment etched vividly in your memory.
What would happen when Christian returned? Would he press you for more details, or would he allow you the time to sift through your own feelings?
Somewhere deep within, you hoped he would understand, giving you a moment to breathe before confronting the complexities of your feelings for him, for the man who had hurt you, and for the healing journey that lay ahead.
As you drifted into a light sleep, fragmented thoughts flitted in and out of focus, mingling with the soft sounds of the officeâthe distant murmur of voices in the hallway, the rhythmic ticking of a clock that reminded you that time was both a friend and a foe.
You felt during that fleeting moment of unconsciousness an odd sense of being caught between two worldsâthe one that had once felt safe, and the other that now lay battered and bruised, promising change yet filling you with trepidation.
You started to think about Max. How shocked he looked when he saw him put his hands on you? How gentle he was with your injuries and how he handled the situation.
âYou deserve to feel safe, schat. What he did was wrong, and you donât have to apologize for his actions,â
From what little Dutch you knew, you remembered that schat meant darling or used when speaking to a loved one. Why would he use it for you?
You woke up feeling an unexpected warmth enveloping you, a stark contrast to the coolness that had cradled you to sleep just hours earlier.
The gentle pressure of a hand rubbing your arm slowly stirred you to consciousness, the soothing motion coaxing your senses awake. Blinking your eyes open, the familiar sight of your team principal, Christian Horner, focused on his laptop filled your vision.
It seemed he had draped a blanket over you during your unintentional slumber. Puzzled, you thought, Who was keeping watch over me?
âHey, schat, you awake now?â came a soft voice from above, pulling you fully into the present. You looked up to find Max standing beside you, a warm smile gracing his features.
âMax!â you exclaimed, attempting to sit up but feeling momentarily ensnared by the blanket that enveloped you. âWhat happened? I thought you were celebrating with the team.â
âI was,â he admitted, still smiling. âBut I wanted to check if you were okay. When we found you in Christianâs office, he said to let you sleep. You looked too peaceful to disturb.â
âDid I really doze off for that long? I didnât mean toââ
âHey, donât worry about it,â Max interrupted, leaning down so your eyes met. âWe had a long day out there, and youâve been working hard. Besides, you looked really cute all curled up.â
âCute?â you echoed, raising an eyebrow with playful skepticism. âYouâre calling me cute? You must still be half asleep.â
âAbsolutely not,â he replied with a convinced grin. âI only speak the truth. You should know by now that sometimes I have my serious moments too.â
You rolled your eyes, trying to suppress a smile. âOkay, Mr. Serious. What time is it? And what about the rest of the team?â
âItâs just past 10,â he explained. âEveryoneâs pretty much had their fill of the day. They went back home, but Christian stayed behind to do some paperwork for tomorrow and I wanted to keep you company for when you woke up.â
âItâs actually 11,â Christian corrected from his desk, looking over with a warm smile.
âWhy didnât you wake me up? I could have gone homeââ you began, finally unraveling yourself from the blanket.
âThatâs the problem, Y/N. You canât go home for now,â Christian said, turning his full attention to you.
âWhat do you mean?â you asked, a knot of unease forming in your stomach.
Christianâs expression grew serious, his brow furrowed slightly. âWe donât know where he could be. He might be at your home right now, waiting for you to come back and... continue what he started.â You shuddered at the thought.
âSince Iâm sure you donât want to draw any attention, Iâve thought of some options,â he continued. âYou can either stay at a friendâs house or stay at Maxâs apartment until I prepare a room for you in mine and Geriâs house, and sheâs alright with you living with us for a couple of weeks. OrâŚâ he paused dramatically, letting the gravity of his last suggestion linger, âyou can go into witness protection.â
âIâll stay with Max,â you decided quickly, feeling a mix of urgency and safety in your choice.
Maxâs eyes lit up, relief flooding his features. âIâll make sure youâre comfortable, donât worry.â
âThanks, Max, I appreciate it,â you replied, feeling grateful for his presence.
Christian nodded approvingly. âGood choice. Iâll take care of the logistics for your transition in the meantime. Just focus on feeling safe.â
As the conversation unfolded, the sense of camaraderie between you and Max eased your anxiety. The world felt a little less daunting with him by your side.
He nodded, his expression turning more serious as he added, âJust remember, youâre not alone. Youâve got me and Christian in your corner.â
âYeah,â you said softly, reassured. âYeah, I know.â As you and Max exchanged glances, an unspoken understanding passed between you, solidifying your newfound alliance in the face of uncertainty.
After Christian went into minute detail about the anticipated events to come, unwinding the tension that had gripped you, he finally allowed you and Max to leave, his voice still echoing in your mind like a soft melody lingering long after the music has ceased.
Max, with a protective grace only he could possess, instinctively drew closer to you, ensuring you felt cocooned in warmth and safety, even amid uncertainty.
As he walked you to his car, the cool evening air felt alive with the subtle electricity of unspoken promises, and the distant hum of life resumed around you.
With an elegant fluidity, Max opened the door for you, his focus unwavering as he ensured you were settled comfortably before he closed it, sealing you momentarily in a world of sanctuary.
The click of the door echoed softly, granting the illusion that nothing could intrude upon your brief escape from reality. Glancing up at him, you couldnât suppress the small smile that spread across your face, a mixture of gratitude and affection shimmering in your gaze.
âMax, you donât have to act like my bodyguard,â you say, a small smile ghosting across your lips, a playful challenge against the fortress of concern he has erected around you.
The faintest hint of a smirk appears on his face, but thereâs a deeper sincerity in his blue eyes that speaks volumes beyond mere banter.
âBut I want you to feel safe when youâre with me, so you donât have to think about that⌠kontol,â he mutters that last word. You knew enough curse words from Max to know what it meant.
Settling back in your seat and casting your gaze to him, youâre struck by the intensity of his focus as he maneuvers the car through the quiet streets, each motion deliberate and serene.
The way his fingers wrap around the steering wheelâthe casual strength reflected in his postureâinvites you into a realm where unease dissolves into a calming rhythm.
âYou really donât have to worry so much, you know,â you venture softly, your voice mingling with the hum of the engine, finding a tender spot nestled within the palpable tension of the moment.
You sense the tightness in his shoulders as his grip on the wheel tightens even more, betraying the concern he is trying to mask for your sake.
âI just canât get that image of you looking helpless with him,â he whispers, the vulnerability dancing in his words palpable and raw.
Your heart lurches, feeling the weight of his worry press upon you, like a stark reminder of just how deeply your experience has affected not just you, but him too.
âI feel like I should have known something was wrong, I should have been there quicker to help you,â he adds more to himself than to you, the burden of âwhat ifsâ clearly heavy on his shoulders.
You want to reach out and ease that weight, to let him know that heâs not responsible for the shadows of your past, but the moment feels too fragile for such heavy revelations.
âYou were there for me today, and thatâs what matters now,â you counter, placing your hand gently over his in a gesture meant to soothe, to bridge the distance that feels all too real between you.
The warm flush creeping into his cheeks ignites a warmth within you that offers a fleeting sense of relief; a flicker of connection that momentarily overrides the heavy past.
âThanks,â he mutters, his gaze flitting away to the road, trying to mask the sweetness of the exchange with quiet humility. But you see itâthe way his heart races beneath the surface, mirrored in the subtle blush that graces his skin.
The drive to his house preserves a unique atmosphere, woven through with a quiet intimacy forged from shared vulnerability. Every beat of silence flows with unspoken words; your thoughts cascade with reflections, and the knowledge that you are safely ensconced in his world lightens the heaviness that clung to you only hours before.
Maxâs home appears on the horizon like a promise, a sanctuary that beckons you inâwhere the walls may shield you from the storm outside, and where you both can catch your breath, suspended in this precious moment away from the chaos that once clouded your existence.
When he finally parks the car and steps out, you find your heart racingânot from fear, but from a deepening connection that you canât quite explain.
Max rounds the car and extends a hand to you, his expression earnest and inviting as he helps you out.
Maxâs apartment was a reflection of his personality, cozy yet sophisticated, steeped in a warmth that seemed to welcome you the moment you stepped over the threshold.
The spaces unfolded before you like chapters of an intimate novel, with the large kitchen on one side glimmering under the soft glow of pendant lights, whispering promises of shared meals and laughter.
The rich, wooden cabinets contrasted beautifully with the gleaming surfaces, their handles reflecting a playful charm that hinted at culinary adventures waiting to unfold.
âWelcome to your second home for now,â Max teased, his voice a light melody that danced through the air as he locked the door behind you.
The living room, adorned with plush couches and a vibrant rug, beckoned you to sink into its comforting embrace, where the scent of fresh linen lingered, mingling seamlessly with the warmth emanating from the radiator, creating an atmosphere that felt almost like a hug.
As you scanned the apartment, a sense of trepidation washed over you, chasing away the remnants of your earlier turmoil.
âYou sure about me staying here with you?â you asked, your voice a fragile whisper, betraying the vulnerability you felt.
The holiday break promised you two weeks away from the chaos that had blurred the edges of your reality, yet the thought of being in someone elseâs space, especially Maxâs, made your heart flutter with an unsettling mixture of hope and fear.
âOf course, I really donât mind it,â Max replied, a soft smile illuminating his features, his confidence anchoring you amidst the storm of your emotions.
With your heart racing, you glanced at the clock: 11:30 PM. An array of thoughts flooded your mind, but most pressing was the clinging stickiness of your race suit, a constant reminder of the dayâs events and an unwelcome discomfort that left you yearning for solace.
âIs it okay for me to take a shower?â you asked, your voice barely above a murmur as you moved towards the clean, bright bathroom that was nearly the embodiment of serenity.
The tiles sparkled under the muted light, promising a refuge where you could shed not just the sweat of the day but also the weight of your recent memories.
âSure, oh and Christian said to give this to you, itâs medicine for your injuries,â he said, handing you a small bag filled with care.
The thoughtfulness of this gesture warmed your heart, though you could feel the physical wounds from the past echoing painfully in your veins, a bitter reminder of how low you had felt just weeks ago.
âThanks,â you replied, the simple gratitude punctuating your quietude as you slid into the bathroom, letting the door close softly behind you, the world beyond fading into a gentle hum.
As you stripped off the remnants of your race suit, every article of clothing felt like a shackle clattering to the ground, freeing you inch by inch from a past you desperately wanted to escape.
The steam began to rise around you, cocooning you in a veil of warmth that offered both comfort and clarity. You stepped into the bath, allowing the hot water to envelope you, a baptism of sorts that washed away not just the physical grime, but the emotional scars that had festered for far too long.
Yet, as you sank into the soothing embrace of the water, a wave of humiliation surged through you, twisting your stomach in knots.
Memories of your now ex-boyfriend's cruel words and actions replayed mercilessly in your mind, reminding you of the darkness that had lingered. You had been reduced to less than you were, every blow shattering pieces of your spirit, leaving you questioning every facet of your worth.
In the confines of that bathroom, you confronted the painful truth that had been so easy to bury beneath the adrenaline of racing and the busyness of life.
âPeople say relationships suffer,â you thought, reflecting on the misleading normalcy of abuse, entwined deeply with the deceptive narrative that the pain could be survived, that love was somehow worth the bruises and scars that persisted long after the physical encounters had ended.
Your heart sobbed at this realization, the weight of confusion heavy upon you as you grappled with the fallacy of loyalty served on a platter too often mistaken for love.
You had thought that the resentment would be fleeting, that it would dissipate with time, yet here you were â raw, exposed, and painfully aware of the truths you had tried to ignore.
Just as you closed your eyes to soak in a moment of tranquility, a sharp knock interrupted your reverie. âY/N?â Maxâs voice, warm and inviting, floated through the door.
The sound wrapped around you, making your heart flutter. âYes?â you replied, trying to hide the slight rasp in your voice, wishing it didnât betray your feelings of vulnerability.
âYou didnât bring any clothes with you, did you?â
A question that sent a rush of embarrassment to your cheeks; of course, in your haste, you had forgotten the very essential clothing that was supposed to accompany such a spontaneous shower.
âUmm, no,â you managed to utter.
Silence lingered for a brief moment, a lull filled with unspoken thoughts. Then, as if sensing your apprehension, Max responded, âOh, okay, I have some clean clothes that I havenât used in a while if you want to wear them.â
His voice was light, making the proposition feel effortless, caring.
âThank you, Max,â you replied, mentally shaking off the embarrassment as you drew the bathwater to a close and readied yourself.
With a nervous slight tug on the towel, you opened the door just enough for Max to pass the clothes over. As he held them out, you couldnât help but notice the fabricâs soft texture, fine enough to catch the light yet sturdyâalmost like it had absorbed pieces of him.
As you inhaled, the faint scent of his cologne enveloped you, mixing with the steam, leaving your senses dizzy with fondness.
You quickly finished your bath, a smile spreading across your lips as you donned the shirt, the scent lingering, almost wrapping you in an embrace.
The fabric felt like a gentle caress against your skin, a reminder of his presence as you gleefully caught another whiff.
Once you draped the outfit, you noticed your race suit lying crumpled on the floor like a forgotten promise of adventure. You picked it up and folded it, placing the race suit on the empty cabinet.
After applying the medicine on your injuries, you stepped out of the bathroom, your feet grazed something soft; you looked down to find cozy hotel slippers waiting for you, an unexpected but welcome touch of warmth.
A grin crept onto your face as you slipped them on and padded out in search of Max.
Max wasn't like Jake. Max could never be like him.
Finding him nestled comfortably on the couch, the dim light casting a soft glow over him from the TV, you felt a flutter in your chestâa magnetic pull toward the easy way he carried himself, like royalty in the thick of an enchanting evening.
He looked up at you and smiled, an expression that radiated genuine interest coupled with an undeniable charm.
âFeeling better?â he asked, his voice low and inviting, making the smile dance on your lips that much wider.
âA bit,â you admitted softly, your voice a mere whisper yet laden with sincerity.
You settled onto the couch opposite him, heart racing as the anticipation of conversation thrummed in the air. Max's warm smile seemed to wrap around you, making the atmosphere in the room palpable with familiarity and comfort.
The air was thick with an unspoken connection, and sitting there in his clothesâyour heart oddly buoyed by the fabricâs softnessâmade you feel like you were wrapped in his affection in a way that words could never convey.
âCan I ask you a question?â you muttered, your gaze fixated on the flickering images dancing across the TV screen. The showâs plot blared loudly in the background, a mere soundtrack to your swirling thoughts, but you barely registered its presence.
Your knees were drawn up to your chin, an instinctive posture reflecting your vulnerability as you hugged your legs tightly, seeking comfort in the familiar embrace of your own warmth.
âOf course, go ahead,â Max said, his voice steady and inviting as he shifted on the sofa to face you squarely, the cushions barely creaking under his movement.
There was a glint of curiosity and concern in his eyes, a warmth that sent a ripple of comfort through your chest, yet the uncertainty that loomed was undeniable.
You hesitated for a moment, the words lingering in your throatâa mix of trepidation and hopeâbut the longing to understand what had pushed the two of you into this chasm of silence propelled you forward.
âWere you ignoring me before?â you asked, your voice barely above a whisper as you turned your head to gauge his reaction.
You searched his face, studying the way his brows knitted together in confusion, wondering if the curiosity in his gaze could dispel the cloud of doubt that had settled over your hearts.
âWhat?â he exclaimed, his eyes widening with an intensity that startled you.
You could see it in the way he leaned closer, his body language eager and open, as though he was reaching out to bridge the distance that had subtly grown between you.
âWhy would I ever ignore you?â he added, urgency creeping into his tone, and you felt a flicker of relief. Perhaps there was hope yet.
âFor a few weeks, you were quiet and not really speaking like you were ignoring me,â you explained, the words tumbling out of your mouth as if they were long-buried treasures surfacing for the first time.
âDid I do something before this?â
The vulnerability of the question hung in the air, heavy and poignant. Your heart raced as you revealed your insecurities, clinging to the fragile hope that there was an explanation beyond your own anxieties that had distorted your perception.
Maxâs expression shifted, a concoction of surprise and remorse weaving through his features. He inched closer on the couch, and the warmth radiating from him was a balm to your aching heart.
âNo, no, no,â he said earnestly, shaking his head almost as if the very notion were unthinkable. âYou didnât do anything, I promise⌠it was my father. He said that you were a distraction, and I stupidly believed him. Iâm sorry.â
âNo, heâs right; I am a distraction,â you muttered, feeling the all-too-familiar sting of tears pooling in your eyes, blurring your vision. Each word felt like a dagger, more painful than the last, ripping through the fragile walls you had built around your emotions.
Why were you crying so much today?
A thousand thoughts cascaded through your mind, each one vying for attention, each one whispering doubts that clawed at your heart.
You felt raw, exposed, and achingly vulnerable as the tears slipped down your cheeks, staining your skin with reminders of your fears and frustrations.
You could see Maxâs silhouette in front of you, but everything felt so far away, contorted by your swirling thoughts.
âYouâre not a distraction,â he said softly, his words brushing against your cheeks like gentle summer rain, coaxing the tension from your shoulders and momentarily soothing the raging storm inside.
âThen why didnât you talk to me? Why didnât you tell me what was going on?â you asked, the tremor in your voice betraying the courage you tried to summon.
When he looked at you, his deep eyes seemed to hold the universeâs secrets, hinting at vulnerabilities etched into his soul.
âI was afraid,â Max admitted, his voice dropping to a confessional whisper as he held your gaze steady.
âMax, youâre the strongest person I know,â you whispered, the words slipping from your lips like a prayer, a plea for him to see himself through your eyes.
But he shook his head gently, a bittersweet smile dancing across his lips, which felt like a fragile shield against the haunting thoughts that loomed in the back of his mind.
âNo, Iâm not. It would be you, Y/N. Youâve been so brave today,â Max reassured you, the sincerity in his tone wrapping around you like a warm embrace on a chilly evening, reminding you of the delicate threads that tied your hearts together.
âYou know, my dad was abusive when I was young. I used to look at how he would yell and hit my mom and think that isnât love, and I promised myself that I would never treat a woman like that,â Max said, his voice betraying a hint of vulnerability that sent ripples of emotion through you.
You could feel the weight of his past, heavy and burdensome, and it carved deeper channels of understanding between you.
âWhy was I so stupid?â you muttered to yourself, resting your head in the crook of his neck, seeking solace in the warmth of his presence as the flood of memories began to wash over you, tainted by regret.
âYou arenât stupid. You thought he could change, but he didnât,â he replied, his gentle reassurance sending waves of comfort through your body.
Max rubbed your back softly, a rhythm that felt like a heartbeat, steady and reassuring, anchoring you both in the moment.
As you found yourself drifting off, nestled comfortably in the warmth of Max's embrace, you couldn't shake the feeling that safety wrapped around you like a soft, familiar blanket.
Just as your eyelids grew heavy, you heard his teasing voice cut through the tranquil silence, âAlright, itâs already past your bedtime; youâre falling asleep now,â he chuckled, a playful lilt in his tone that made your heart flutter.
Though you felt a twinge of embarrassment for being caught in such a vulnerable moment, the warmth of his arms cradled you securely, and you silently reveled in the vertiginous rush of emotion, wishing you could tell him just how safe and cherished you felt in his presence.
Awakening slightly to the realization that you needed to move, you slowly extracted yourself from the embrace of his strong arms, the warmth dissipating like a gentle breeze as you asked, âWhere am I going to sleep?â
Your voice was laced with a hint of drowsiness, and you felt your heart skip a beat, wishing you could cling to his presence just a little longer.
Max, ever the gentleman, looked at you with an endearing smile, as if the world outside had faded and all that mattered was the moment shared between you two.
âYouâre sleeping in my bed while Iâll sleep here,â he replied, gesturing to the sofa, a hint of mock seriousness lingering in his face.
âWhy canât I sleep there? Iâm the guest, after all,â you said, crossing your arms with playful defiance.
âExactly, as the guest, you have the bed,â he said with a grin, the twinkle in his eye making your stomach do somersaults.
With a resigned sigh that went hand in hand with your smile, you said, âAlright, goodnight, Max,â as you rose from the plush sofa, the coolness of the air brushing against your skin making you long for the warmth you were leaving behind.
You turned to stroll towards his bedroom, taking in the sweet scent that lingered in the air, mingling with the soft glow of the lamp lined with shadows.
As you entered the sanctuary of his bedroom, you were greeted by new sheets that exuded a tantalizing freshness, yet the unmistakable hint of his cologne clung to the fabric.
You slipped under the sheets and instantly felt a wave of comfort envelop you, a serene cocoon that embraced your body as you sunk into the softness.
A smile crept upon your lips, and as you lay there, you could almost imagine Max right beside you, the warmth of his presence lingering like a comforting ghost.
The very thought of him there calmed your mind, and you allowed yourself to indulge in a colorful daydream, your thoughts conjuring up scenarios of what it would be like if he were to join you, sharing whispered words and laughter that floated across the room with the gentleness of a lullaby. . . .
As you stood there, the air heavy with a palpable tension, your mind raced to comprehend the scene unfolding before you.
Max was positioned a few feet away, his expression nothing short of disgust, but it was the biting words that cut deeper.
âMax?â you stammered, your voice trembling with confusion. âWhat are you talking about?â In that moment, his features twisted into a scowl, and he spat out, âWhy did I even save you? You deserve to be beaten.â
The sting of his accusation made your heart race painfully, leaving you frozen in a whirlwind of disbelief.
The world around you blurred into insignificance as you tried to grapple with your friendâs betrayal; the very person who had once stood by you now stood glaring, with an expression that twisted your gut in knots.
Before you could formulate a response, another voice sliced through the air like a knife, colder than the steel that usually bound your friendship with Sarah.
âWhy are you so weak? Iâm so ashamed of you,â she declared, her tone laced with venom. Your best friend, the one you had confided in countless times, now seemed like a stranger draped in a veil of contempt.
You felt your insides churn as you processed her words, each syllable echoing in your mind like taunts. Memories of shared laughter and whispered secrets felt shattered, like fragile glass scattered across the ground, leaving only a raw sense of betrayal behind.
âWhy are you even saying this?â you managed to blurt out, your voice wavering as confusion morphed into anger.
You looked between Max and Sarah, searching their faces for any semblance of the friends you once knew, but all that reflected back were harsh judgments and scorn. Max folded his arms across his chest as if to shield himself from your desperation.
âYouâre just a disappointment,â he sneered, eyes piercing into yours with a coldness that felt like ice.
Each word from him and Sarah chipped away at your spirit, leaving you feeling exposed and vulnerable, as if you were standing naked in front of a relentless crowd that reveled in your humiliation.
The desire to fight back surged within you, but the fear of losing them completely had your heart in a vice grip, caught between the impulse to defend yourself and the dread of being utterly alone. . . .
The stillness of the night enveloped you like a thick blanket, lulling you into the deep embrace of slumber, when a sudden jolt shattered its peace.
Your eyelids snapped open, and the dim light casting shadows across your room revealed Max, his face a canvas of distress.
The anxiety etched on his brow stirred something deep within you, pulling you from the remnants of dreams into the stark reality of your fears.
You could see the way his eyes darted around, seeking solace yet seeming so lost.
The moment hung heavy as confusion washed over you, and without thinking, hot tears pooled in your eyes, spilling down your cheeks like unrestrained streams.
"Max, please donât leave me, Iâm sorry," you whispered, the vulnerability in your voice trembling like a fragile leaf in the wind. The apology escaped your lips almost instinctively, the weight of the words heavy with desperation.
As his gaze bore into yours, you could see the confusion radiating from him, like a puzzle piece that didnât quite fit. "What?" he asked, the question hanging heavily in the air, reminding you of the helplessness that was tightening its grip around your heart.
In that moment, time felt suspended, and all the doubts and regrets swirled around you, amplifying the emotional chaos you were desperately trying to convey.
Grappling with the fear of losing him, you grasped Maxâs hand tightly, your fingers interlocking in a grip that felt both grounding and desperate.
âIâm sorry,â you muttered again, your voice barely rising above a whisper, as if the enormity of your feelings couldnât bear the weight of louder tones.
You didn't want to plunge back into the darkness of sleep, where nightmares thrived, and instead, you clung to this fleeting moment, scared yet hopeful that it could anchor you.
"Why are you apologizing?" Max pressed, his brow furrowing deeper as he tried to decode the underlying emotion behind your tears.
With an instinctive urge to pour out everything bottled up inside, you took a shaky breath. "I donât want to lose you⌠Iâve messed things up so many times," you confessed, your voice trembling as you navigated through the fog of your thoughts.
âI justââ the words caught in your throat, but the honesty behind your despair painted a vivid picture for him, illustrating fears and insecurities that had no measure of expressiveness until this moment.
As the silence enveloped you both, you could see the gears inside Maxâs mind turning; he was trying to bridge the chasm of misunderstanding that loomed between you
"Youâre not going to lose me," he assured, and in that very promise, there was both comfort and resolution.
It was a promise that somehow had the power to lift the weight of anxiety off your shoulders.
When you finally calmed down, Max then asked you, "Did you have a nightmare?"
You nodded, feeling the heat creep up your cheeks, embarrassment washing over you.
This was the second time today you had let your emotions spill over in front of him, and it felt like a cascading waterfall of humiliation.
You had already cried five times that day, each tear representing a different worry or fear that consumed you. It was exhausting to feel this way, especially around someone like Max, who always seemed so put together.
âHey, itâs okay,â he replied softly, his voice a gentle balm to your frayed nerves. He leaned in closer, his silhouette warm and reassuring under the soft glow of the lamp in the dim room. âCan you tell me about it?â
You hesitated for a moment, unsure if you wanted to expose that part of yourself, the vulnerable part that was torn apart in your dreams. But something about his genuine concern urged you to speak.
âIt was about you and Sarah,â you finally muttered, glancing down at your hands. âYou were both saying that I deserved to get beaten up and that I was a disappointment.â
Maxâs eyes widened in surprise, a mix of concern and disbelief flashing across his face. âWhat? I would never say anything like that, you know that, right?â His brows knitted together, revealing the depth of his worry for you.
âI know that,â you sighed, feeling a sting in your throat as tears threatened to spill over again. âBut in the dream, it felt so real. Itâs like I could hear the words echoing in my mind, and it just made everything feel worse. I didnât want to feel that way about myself⌠I swear.â
Max nodded, sensing the weight of your distress. âDo you want to go back to sleep, or do you want something to drink?â he suggested, his voice laced with a gentle concern that always managed to soothe the edges of your anxiety.
âI just want you here until I go to sleep,â you replied, your voice barely above a whisper, feeling shy and grateful for his presence. It was comforting to know that amidst the chaos in your mind, you had someone who cared.
âI can do that. Let me go switch off my sim race first.â Max said, jumping off the bed with a sense of urgency. His warmth left a chill in the air, but you appreciated the brief absence.
His passion for racing was contagious, and the thought of him returning filled you with a faint sense of anticipation.
You patiently waited for him to come back, allowing the quiet of the room to settle around you. It wasnât long before you heard the familiar sound of his footsteps padding back towards you.
He climbed back onto the bed, a soft smile stretching across his face as he settled into place beside you. âOkay, Iâm all yours. So, about yesterday⌠your first win?â
You perked up a little, the memory of your victory igniting a spark of joy. âYeah! I still canât believe I pulled it off. The thrill of crossing the finish line⌠it was unreal!â
Max chuckled, his eyes shining with excitement. âI remember my first win! I was so ecstatic, I nearly jumped out of my seat! But oh man, do you know how many technical problems I faced beforehand? My car almost didnât even start up! I had the entire team sweating bullets. But when I finally got that checkered flag⌠whew! Talk about the sweetest moment.â
âI can just imagine you doing your victory lap,â you teased, a smile dancing across your lips. âDid you dance in the car?â
âOf course! I had to celebrate! I mean, who wouldnât?â Max laughed, closing his eyes momentarily as if reliving those exhilarating moments.
âBut then, as soon as I got out of that car, I was hit with all the pressures that came with winning. Everyone was expecting more.â
You listened to him intently, his words lacing with both excitement and the weight of responsibility that success brought. As he recounted the finer details of that day, his passion was contagious.
You could feel your eyelids growing heavier, each word weaving a cocoon of comfort around you. The rhythm of his voice was like a lullaby, slowly drawing you into slumber.
â...and then I had to deal with the media,â Max continued, his tone still animated but softer now. âThey all wanted to know my secretââ
You couldnât help it; your eyes fluttered shut, and soon, you surrendered to sleep, comforted by the sound of Maxâs voice and the warmth of his presence.
In this moment, as you drifted off, the worries that haunted you began to fade, replaced by the assurance that you werenât alone.
Youâd face whatever demons awaited in your dreams, but for now, you were safe, cocooned in your shared space with Max. . . .
You woke up to the tantalizing aroma of Spanish food wafting through the air. The smell wrapped around you like a cozy blanket, beckoning you from the warmth of Maxâs bed.
With a yawn and a stretch, you slowly got out, your sleepy mind still not fully processing the delightful scent.
As you tiptoed down the hallway, you couldnât help but notice Max in the kitchen, diligently sorting through grocery bags.
He was dressed in a casual grey shirt and black shorts that highlighted his toned calves. His tousled hair suggested he had just rolled out of bed moments before, and there was a charming disheveledness to him that made you smile.
âMax, why is there so much Spanish food?â you blurted out, your curiosity piqued. âI didnât know you liked it.â
âMorning to you too, Y/N,â he replied with a touch of sarcasm, not looking up from the bag. âI actually bought them for you since you like it so much.â
âReally?â Your eyes widened in surprise as you stepped closer, the kitchen now filled with the rich scents of chorizo and spices.
âYeah,â Max said, finally meeting your gaze. There was a playful pride in his voice. âYouâre staying here for two weeks; might as well treat you the best.â
A grin spread across your face. âSo, whatâs on the menu for today? I hope thereâs paella!â you exclaimed excitedly, catching sight of a bottle of saffron nestled among the colorful array of groceries.
âOf course! Paella is a must,â he confirmed, his enthusiasm infectious. The way his eyes lit up made you feel like a kid on Christmas morning. He began pulling out pots and pans, navigating the clutter of the kitchen like a seasoned chef.
âAnd I thought we could make some tapas as well. You know, make it a proper Spanish feast!â he added, his excitement bubbling over.
âWow, youâve really outdone yourself,â you laughed, moving closer to help him. âI canât believe you went shopping just for me.â
âAnything for my favorite guest,â he said, winking playfully as he handed you a cutting board and a knife. âHow do you feel about preparing the veggies while I handle the seafood?â
You laughed again, the sound of your amusement filling the kitchen. âI can handle that. What do you need me to chop?â
âLetâs see,â he said, rifling through the bags. âBell peppers, green beans, and you canât forget the garlic! A Spanish dish is not complete without garlic.â
âGot it!â You carefully selected the vibrant veggies and began chopping them. There was a rhythm to the kitchen as the two of you worked in tandemâMax stirring pots with one hand while the other tossed fresh seafood in, the air turning more fragrant by the minute.
âDo you really think we can eat all of this?â you asked playfully, glancing at the massive amounts of food filling the counter.
Max chuckled, âYouâd be surprised at how much we can devour. Spanish food is meant to be sharedâjust like this experience!â He looked over, sincerity mingling with mischief in his eyes. âAnd donât worry; I can always use leftovers for the next week.â
âLucky me,â you teased. âYouâre always looking out for your guests, arenât you?â
âOnly the special ones,â he said with a teasing grin, before focusing back on the sizzling pan. âSo howâs your family? You mentioned they were planning a big gathering for Thanksgiving?â
âThey are! My mom has already started prepping,â you started, your excitement growing as you thought about home. âSheâs trying out a few new recipes this year, hoping to impress everyone. My uncle can be pretty critical.â
âSounds like a challenge,â Max chuckled, sprinkling spices into the mix. âYouâll have to tell me all about it once you get back. But for now, letâs focus on our Spanish feast. I think this will be just as memorable.â
With the wafting aromas of saffron and spices enveloping you both, you realized that, for today at least, there was nowhere else youâd rather be.
Over the course of the two weeks you spent living with Max, it was almost as if a new world had opened up for you.
Each day unfolded with a comforting rhythm that wrapped around you two both like a warm blanket. It started with the little thingsâlike the way Max would invite you to join him in sim racing, which was way different from the ones you've used in the past.
âCâmon,â heâd say, his eyes sparkling with that competitive spirit he always had, âyouâll get the hang of it. Just donât crash my favorite car!â
âHey! Watch the road, not me,â he teased, laughing as your car veered off course again.
âEasy for you to say,â you replied, grinning. âThe controls are the problem!â
On days when you seemed overwhelmed or lost in thought, Max would gently remind you, âDonât forget your medicine.â
It became a tender ritualâhe would hold out the small tube to you, a knowing smile on his face as if he was protecting you from the weight of your own mind.
âRemember, Iâm looking out for you,â he would insist, and you couldnât help but blush at the concern in his voice.
He didnât particularly enjoy going outside, but when you mentioned needing to stretch your legs, heâd roll his eyes and say, âFine, but only because Iâm convinced you might spontaneously combust if you stay in that long.â
Together you'd take walks around the neighborhood, his pace steady beside you, even though you knew he would rather be curled up on the couch with a gaming controller in hand.
âLook at that tree,â you said one afternoon, pointing to a large oak with brilliant leaves. âItâs got to be hundreds of years old.â Max shrugged, but you could tell he was intrigued despite his usual disinterest in nature.
âYeah, yeah. Still prefer the virtual cars though,â he teased, nudging you playfully.
When you two were back home, you transformed the kitchen into a whirlwind of culinary experimentations. âYouâre a terrible sous-chef,â
You laughed one day as you caught him unceremoniously tossing ingredients into a pot. âI think the recipe clearly says âdiced,â not âchunked.ââ
Max smirked, âItâs called ârustic.â Ever heard of it? Besides, no one can mess up spaghetti, right?â
âHow do you mess up spaghetti?â you joked back, and you both burst into laughter as you stirred the simmering sauce.
It wasnât just the cooking or the racing or your endless binge-watching of movies that grew your bond; it was the unspoken comfort of simply being together.
There were nights where you would fall asleep, only to wake up moments later to find yourself nestled against Maxâs chest.
Youâd remain there, still as a statue, listening to the slow, steady rhythm of his heartbeat. It was reassuring, like a metronome keeping time to a song you never wanted to end.
âHey,â Max murmured one night, sensing you were awake. âYou could move, you know. I wonât bite.â
You chuckled softly, âIâm okay just like this.â Your eyes wandered over his face, the silhouette of his strong jaw against the moonlight illuminating the room.
He smiled, genuine and warm, and said, âYou know, I wouldnât mind this every night. Sleeping like this⌠itâs not so bad.â
Your heart raced at his words, and panic briefly washed over you. A small voice in your head warned your to push the thought asideâthat this was just a temporary arrangement, and you shouldnât read too much into it.
But how could you, when every little moment felt so domestic, so right?
âYeah, well, donât get used to it,â you replied, playfully nudging him. âWhat if I start snoring?â
Max laughed, âThen Iâll simply have to learn to embrace it.â You both lay there, in the gentle silence, your heart pounding in a rhythm that matched his.
Those two weeks were more than just a temporary living situation; they were a chapter in your lives that you feared might close.
But in that moment, with your head on his chest and his heartbeat echoing in your ears, you dared to hope that maybe it didnât have to end after all. . . .
As you settled into the plush leather seat of Max's private jet, a mixture of excitement and unease fluttered in your stomach like an errant butterfly escaping its cocoon.
The rhythmic hum of the engines and the lavish ambiance of the aircraft surrounded you, yet your mind drifted back to the fleeting two weeks spent together. Those days had slipped away faster than the blink of an eye, drenched in laughter and shared clandestine glances that held more meaning than words ever could.
Disappointment lingered like a bittersweet aftertaste as you recalled the warmth of his hand grazing against yours, each touch igniting sparks that made the world outside seem pale and distant.
You gazed out of the expansive window, watching the clouds float by like cotton candy, while a soft tone pulled you back to the present.
âYou nervous?â Max's voice cut through your reverie, a playful lilt embedded within. You turned to face him, observing the way the sunlight danced in his hair, making it shimmer with golden flecks.
âKind of,â you admitted, your voice a whisper tinged with uncertainty. âI really want to race for the rest of the races this year.â
It was both a declaration and a plea, words hung on the edge of hope. You could feel his gaze, steady and unwavering, as if he were silently supporting your dreams and aspirations.
The stakes felt higher than ever, the anticipation of not knowing whether Christian would allow you a seat in the car making your heart race faster than any Grand Prix.
Yet alongside that fear was a flicker of determination; you inhaled deeply, channeling every ounce of courage into your reply, as the jet soared toward the neon lights of Las Vegas, a city that pulsed with energy and life.
When the jet finally touched down on the private runway, the world outside transformed dramatically, an explosion of vibrant colors and thumping bass reverberating through your body.
Max stood up, pulling you from your seat with a gentle tug of your hand. âLetâs make some memories,â he said, his eyes sparkling with mischief, a smile playing at the corners of his lips.
Even in that moment, you couldnât help but wonder if this was just another distraction, a temporary escape from the looming decision set to unfold in Christian's office.
As you descended from the jet, your heart beat in tune with the rhythm of this electrifying city, but the weight of uncertainty loomed like a thundercloud overhead, always threatening to release its rain.
You and Max navigated the bustling streets in the car, clarity fading as the dazzling casinos and extravagant shows surrounded you like a whirlwind of possibility.
However, each step closer to Christianâs office felt heavier, like an anchor weighing you down, pulling your spirits into the depths of apprehension.
âWhat if he doesnât let you race?â Max asked, slipping his arm around your shoulders as you walked.
The worry etched into his brow was softened by the warmth radiating from his embrace. You shook your head, biting back the tide of fear welling inside you.
âI canât think like that. Iâve earned my place, and Iâve worked too hard to just let it all go,â you replied, your voice steadying as a semblance of confidence took root within.
"Good, I hope he knows he can't replace you," Max grinned at your confidence.
When you finally reached Christianâs office, your breath caught in your throat as reality kicked back in with full force.
The opulent office, adorned with trophies and racing memorabilia, felt more intimidating than you ever remembered. You were ushered in by Max, who gave you an encouraging nod, though you could sense his concern, hidden just behind that confident facade.
âLetâs get this over with,â you murmured, trying to steady yourself as you took a seat before Christianâs imposing desk.
He looked up with a pinched expression, a man heavy with responsibility, and for a moment, the air was thick with silent tension, the kind that overshadowed every unspoken word you both shared.
âSo, youâre all healed up?â Christian finally inquired, his tone neutral, betraying little of what lay beneath the surface. You nodded, straightening your back as you gathered the fragments of your courage.
âYes, I am. Iâm ready to compete again,â you replied, infusing as much conviction into your voice as you could muster.
For a brief moment, silence hung in the air, and you could practically feel the wheels of his mind turning as he weighed your words against the reality of the season and your past challenges and wins.
Max shifted in his seat beside you, perhaps sensing the rising tension as you waited for Christianâs verdict. Time felt like molasses as it stretched into something insufferably long. Finally, Christian looked up, his expression unreadable as if he were gauging the contents of your very soul.
âAlright, I want you back on the track this week,â he declared, the words echoing in your mind as your heart surged with adrenaline at the realization that your wish was coming true.
You caught Max's eye, and in that shared look, a symphony of emotions played between you; relief, excitement, and a silent promise.
"Y/N, can I speak to you alone?" Christian's gaze was intense as he fixed his eyes on Max, who was leaning against the nearby chair, a protective aura surrounding him.
Max caught the hint. He patted your thigh reassuringly, his eyes never leaving Christian's. "I'll be outside if you need me," he said, his voice friendly but firm, before stepping out of the room and closing the door softly behind him.
The tension in the room shifted slightly, and you could feel the weight of Christian's presence. "I wanted to talk about your housing situation. I can assume that you had a safe and good time with Max?" he stated, his expression serious.
You nodded, feeling a surge of gratitude for Max. "Yes, I feel safe with him. He's been⌠really supportive."
Christian leaned back in his chair, scrutinizing you with a look that seemed to search deep into your thoughts. "You know staying with Max is not an option anymore. It would eventually cause rumors, and you donât want that kind of attention, especially not now," he stated, as if giving you a warning.
Swallowing hard, you felt the weight of his words. "What do you suggest then?"
Christian leaned forward, his elbows resting on the mahogany desk. "You have two options: you can come live with me, Geri, and the kids until heâs caught, or you go into witness protection," he outlined, his voice steady.
Your heart raced at the mention of witness protection. "Witness protection? Do you really think things are that serious still? I mean, I appreciate the concern, butâ"
"Y/N," he interrupted, his voice firm yet filled with care, "itâs not just about safety; itâs about you having a life free from fear. You deserve that. I know it sounds extreme, but this is a serious matter. You're too important to risk being caught up in something that could put you in danger."
You fidget with your fingers, trying to process everything. "Living with you? With your family? That's a lot to ask. I barely know your kids. What if theyâ"
"Will see you as part of the family," Christian reassured, a softening in his features. "Geri and I have talked about this. We want to protect you, truly. The kids would love having you around. They need the company, and you need a safe place to stay."
The offer was tempting. A warm household, laughter, and safety. "But what about Max?" you questioned, a pang of guilt pressing against your heart. "Heâs done so much for me. It feels unfair to leave him, especially if he might be in danger too."
Christian sighed, a hint of understanding in his gaze. "Max is capable and smart. You two have built a bond, but he knows the situation. If he thought it was best for you to leave, he would support your decision, even if it hurts him to see you go. Your safety has to come first."
The thought struck you hard. Did you really want to give up the comfort of Max's presence? "What if I chose to go into witness protection?" you asked, testing the waters.
Christian raised an eyebrow, his expression neutral. "That would mean leaving everything behindâyour job, your friends, your life as you know it. Itâs a complete reset. Are you ready for that?"
You took a deep breath, glancing back at the closed door, imagining Max waiting just outside. The two of you shared so much in the past weeks. But as you weighed your options, the gravity of your situation settled in.
After a moment of silence, filled only by the distant hum of the city outside, you finally spoke again. âIâll stay with your family until heâs caught,â you said, the decision resolute but still thick with uncertainty.
âGood choice,â Christian replied with a reassuring smile. âYour room is almost ready; it will be finished by tomorrow, so you can come by then.â
âIs that all?â you asked, stifling a yawn that threatened to escape. The long flight had drained you, and adrenaline was wearing off; fatigue was creeping in.
âYes, that is all. Good night, Y/N,â Christian said, his voice gentle. âAnd tell Max that I can see him staring at me from outside, and itâs not intimidating.â
You turned around just in time to see Max quickly avert his gaze, a hint of pink dusting his cheeks. You couldnât help a small smile as you thanked Christian and stepped out of his office, the door clicking softly behind you.
As you and Max walked down the hallway, the weight of the situation hung heavy in the air. âSo, what did he say?â Max asked curiously, catching up to walk beside you.
You hesitated, looking down at your trembling hands. âJust that everything is going to be okay⌠that I can stay with his family untilâŚâ Your voice trailed off, the weight of the unspoken hanging over you both like an ominous shadow.
âUntil heâs caught,â Max finished for you, his own voice subdued. âI donât like this, you know. I donât like that you have to hide. Itâs not fair.â
âI know,â you replied softly, feeling a pang of guilt mixed with fear. âBut itâs not about whatâs fair. Itâs about whatâs safe.â
You paused, glancing at Max, whose brow was furrowed with concern. âThe last thing I want is to put you in more danger.â
Max looked down, his frustration evident. âBut I am in danger. You being around me is a risk, too. I canât just stand by and let you go through this alone.â
He stepped closer, his hand lightly brushing against your arm, a comforting gesture amidst the chaos. âPromise me youâll keep your guard up and be careful.â
âI promise, Max,â you said, forcing a smile to lighten the mood. âHe also mentioned that he could see you staring at him and that itâs not intimidating,â you added with a playful lilt to your voice, hoping to diffuse the tension.
Maxâs eyes narrowed playfully as he rolled them. âYeah, right. Like I could ever not find him intimidating,â he said, unable to completely hide the nervous laugh that escaped him.
âWill you continue being my bodyguard in the paddock?â you asked jokingly, a playful smile gracing your lips as the sun dipped low, casting a golden hue over the bustling scene around you.
Max looked up from where he was adjusting his cap, his smile widening as if your lighthearted question had brightened his entire afternoon.
âI thought you would never ask,â he replied happily, his eyes glimmering with a mix of amusement and something deeper, something unspoken that danced just beneath the surface of your banter.
âYou know,â you continued, your voice softer now, âitâs not just about the races. Itâs about feeling safe with you around.â
Maxâs smile slipped, replaced by a seriousness that made your pulse race. âThen Iâm honored to be your shield,â he declared, stepping closer, the warmth of his presence wrapping around you like a comforting embrace.
As you settled your suitcase on the floor of Maxâs cozy apartment, a wave of nostalgia washed over you. âIt looks nice,â you muttered, taking in the familiar sightâthe warm hues of the walls, the bookshelf crammed with books, the couch that seemed to beckon you for a rest.
It reminded you so much of the last place you two lived together, a shared sanctuary filled with laughter and late-night conversations.
Part of you was sad that you was only staying for a day, feeling the weight of past moments pressing against your heart.
âWhat do you want to do?â Max asked, closing the door behind us, his voice tinged with hope as he leaned casually against the frame.
He looked at you with those bright, contemplative eyes, and you felt a pang of longing.
âI really just feel like sleeping until tomorrow,â you replied, turning to face him, unable to hide the weariness in your tone.
Just as you said it, you noticed the disappointment flicker across his face, a fleeting shadow that made you second-guess your words. You wanted to be with him, to wrap yourself in the comforting familiarity of your bondânot to just shut down for the night.
âHey,â he said softly, taking a step toward you. âYou donât have to force yourself. If youâre tired, we can just chill here. You know we can always catch up.â
Your heart swelled at his understanding. âI know, itâs just⌠I didnât plan to stay, and I didnât want it to feel like an imposition.â
âItâs never an imposition. Iâve really missed having you around.â His gaze softened, and he reached out, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. The simple touch ignited something deep within you, a longing that had been simmering beneath the surface.
âMax, we just live in a house together for two weeks,â you asked, a shy smile creeping onto your lips. âHow did you already miss me?â
âOf course I miss you! Who else will I binge-watch terrible reality shows with?â He chuckled, and the sound was infectious, momentarily easing the tension that had built between you two.
âTouchĂŠ,â you smirked. âI do bring a certain charm to mindless television.â
âExactly,â he said, returning your smile. Your eyes locked, and in that moment, you could feel the air thickening with unspoken words. The space between you two seemed to shrink, the familiar safety of your friendship morphing into something more tangible, more raw.
âDo you want to lie down?â Max asked, gesturing to the couch. âI mean, we can watch something or just⌠talk.â
âTalking sounds nice,â you replied hesitantly, yet the thought of lying next to him on the worn couch sent butterflies fluttering through your stomach even though you've done it several times by 'accident'.
As you two settled down, you curled up against him, resting your head on his shoulder. The warmth of his body enveloped you, softening the sharp edges of your weariness.
You two spent a few minutes in a comfortable silence, yet you could feel the tension crackling in the air.
You found yourself leaning in, drawn to him in a way that felt both right and utterly wrong.
It was a stark reminderâonly weeks ago, you had closed the chapter on a relationship that had once defined you.
You shouldn't rush something so fragile; the memory of your past still loomed large, casting a shadow over this budding connection.
âSo whoâs getting the bed tonight?â you asked with a playful grin, tilting your head to meet Maxâs gaze, those eyes of his truly captivatingâyou could often describe them as âshimmering sapphiresâ or âendless oceans,â each glance drawing you deeper into their depths.
Max smirked, the corners of his mouth curling up in that infuriatingly charming way that made your heart race, âWeâll just have to fight it out.â
Before you could reply, his hands slid under you with effortless strength, lifting you up bridal style.
Instinctively, your arms wrapped around his neck, the warmth of his body enveloping you like a cozy blanket on a chilly evening.
"Hey! That's unfair!" you said, slightly squirming before giving up and relaxed into Max's arms.
"That's the whole point schat," Max chuckled, the sound low and playful, your heart beating a little faster as he gazed down at you, those enchanting eyes sparkling with mischief.
As Max carried you down the hallway, you couldnât help but feel a sense of belonging in his arms, the playful teasing blurring into something deeper, something that lingered in the space between you. . . .
Max's frustration hung in the air like an uninvited guest, refusing to leave the room. "Why can she stay with me until he's found?" he demanded, his voice trembling with a blend of desperation and confusion.
Christian, unfazed, leaned back against his desk, arms crossed and brow furrowed. "Because, Max," he stated calmly, as though revealing an irrefutable truth, "first, you know that the two of you will eventually be seen together, and rumors will start to swirlâtrust me, Y/N doesn't want that attention right now."
He continued, watching Max's expression twist into shock and embarrassment with each revelation.
"Second, itâs kind of odd, isnât it? You're both just cohabiting there as if youâre already a couple, yet havenât taken that step. It makes things unnecessarily complicated." Christian paused for just a moment, truly considering Max's feelings.
"Lastly," he added gently, âI just donât want her to feel pressured or frustrated by your feelings toward her. Itâs a heavy weight to carry, especially now.â The words, while protective, sent an uncomfortable chill down Maxâs spine as he grappled with the reality of his emotions.
Caught off guard, Max sputtered, "I don'tâ" but Christian cut him off.
"Look, I don't want to pry into your private life more than I have to," he interjected, his tone firm yet understanding, "but if you two are truly dating and make it public, then all of this changes. Only then would I feel comfortable allowing her to stay in your house.â
The implications of his Christian's words hung heavily in the room, echoing with possibilities. Max's heart raced, torn between wanting to shield Y/N from the chaos of their intertwined lives and admitting the depth of his feelings for her.
As he searched for the right words, he felt the weight of what Christian suggested: making things official.
Could he really bear the thought of Y/N mingling with rumors, or worse, being pulled away from him in this tumultuous time?
Max helped you carry your suitcase to Christian's car, his gentle hands guiding the weight of your belongings as if they were delicate treasures.
âBe safe, okay? Call me when you get there,â he said cautiously, a glimmer of protectiveness in his blue eyes, aware that Christian was watching the two of you from his car, a hint of impatience growing in the tense atmosphere.
The moment felt suspended, the unspoken feelings between you and Max hanging in the air like the golden thread of sunsetâbeautiful, bittersweet, and entirely unresolved.
âOkay, Dad,â you teased, your voice light yet your heart heavy as you caught the faint flush of color bloom across Max's cheeks. âBut really, Iâm going to be fine, Max; Iâm in good hands. I promise Iâll call you when I get there,â you insisted, trying to soothe his worry while feeling a warmth well within you, realizing how much his concern meant.
âYeah, yeah, I know Christian has a good track record,â he chuckled lightly, brushing aside the earnestness of his previous concern, the easy camaraderie that had defined your friendship shimmering just beneath the surface.
âGood, now give me a hug, ex-roommate,â you joked, the playful tone dancing lightly on your lips.
You stepped closer, wrapping your arms around his neck, breathing in the familiar scent of himâclean and comforting, a temporary home you were reluctantly leaving behind.
There was something timeless in that embrace, a moment suspended, as if you were both aware that it could be one of the last times you'd feel this way.
âPromise me youâll call, alright? I donât care what time it is,â Max said, a seriousness flickering beneath the surface of his vibrant smile.
You felt the walls around your heart crack just a little, the vulnerable parts of yourself laid bare under his earnest gaze. âYeah, I promise,â you replied softly, your voice barely above a whisper, and you could see the corners of Maxâs mouth twitch upwards, a flicker of relief dancing through his features.
âAlright then, off you go. Donât keep Christian waiting,â he urged, that playful glint in his eyes returning as he took a step back, releasing you to the world outside the cocoon of your shared memories.
As you turned to head to the car, you paused for a moment, glancing back at him.
âSee you tomorrow at the meeting, donât be late,â you called out, your smile lingering in the air like the last rays of sunlight slipping below the horizon.
You waved goodbye, your heart stuttering with the weight of the unsaid, the emotion swirling around you like autumn leavesâbeautiful but fleeting.
Getting into the car, you looked back at Max, now a silhouette against the sun, your heart full of unexpressed emotions tumbling through as you nestled into the seat.
With Christian beside you, the door to a new chapter beckoned, but the shadow of Max lingered, whispering secrets of familiarity and warmth.
Just as you settled into your new world, a sudden longing surged through you, a need to hold onto the closeness you shared as friends, both exhilarated and anxious about the journey ahead.
As Christian started the engine, turning the key with an eager spark, you stole one last glance at Max, his waves dissipating into the distance as the car rolled forward.
The road stretched aheadâunknown and promisingâa direct reflection of the confusing emotions dancing in your chest. âYou okay?â Christian asked, glancing over at you, a genuine concern etched onto his face.
You blinked, momentarily caught in the juxtaposition of your feelings; how could you articulate the whirlwind of heartache and excitement that coursed through you?
âYeah, just⌠thinking,â you replied, your voice trailing off, filled with layers of meaning, laced with thoughts of the boy left behind, forever entwined in your heart.
âMax is a good guy,â Christian commented, trying to coax a smile from your lips as the gentle hum of the carâs engine enveloped you.
âHe is,â you admitted, a wistfulness threading through your voice.
Both of you understood that your past and present existed in a delicate dance, entwined in a tapestry of emotions too tangled to unravel.
Yet, with every mile that passed, the unyielding desire to forge ahead built a crescendo in your heartâstill, the ghost of lingering glances and gentle hugs could not be so easily dismissed.
As you parked the car alongside Christian's extravagant home, your heart raced with a mix of excitement and anxiety.
The house loomed before youâa sprawling, modern marvel that boasted large floor-to-ceiling windows, elegantly framed by rich mahogany trim. It was painted a soft gray, showcasing neatly manicured landscaping that whispered of meticulous care.
The front door, a bold shade of navy blue, stood out against the neutral facade, inviting yet imposing. You took a deep breath, trying to quell the butterflies in your stomach.
âCome on, Y/N, Iâm sure Geri has already made dinner,â Christian said, his voice pulling you from your contemplations. His confidence was reassuring, but doubts still lingered in your mind.
What if his kids hated you? What if Geri changed her mind about you staying?
With your heart still thumping, you hopped out of the car and grabbed your suitcase from the trunk, noticing the gleaming exterior of the house reflecting the soft glow of the evening sun.
Christian walked over, pushing the door open with a flourish. âAfter you,â he said, gesturing grandly with a smile.
You stepped inside, and the interior left you momentarily breathless. The open-concept living room was filled with plush furniture arranged around a stunning fireplace adorned with a collection of family photos.
A delicate chandelier hung from the ceiling, casting a warm ambiance. It felt like a scene from a magazine, yet you couldn't shake the unease fluttering in your chest.
Just then, the sound of small footsteps echoed through the hallway. A rush of energy burst from around the corner as a boy and girl, Montague and Olivia, appeared, their eyes wide with excitement.
âDaddy!â they yelled in unison, rushing to greet Christian before halting abruptly, taking in your presence. The air thickened with anticipation.
âMontague, Olivia, go greet Y/N like I taught you,â Christian urged gently, nudging them forward.
Olivia, the older of the two, looked up at you, her big eyes sparkling with curiosity but tinged with shyness. âHi,â she squeaked, her voice a small whisper.
Montague, her younger brother, clung tightly to Olivia's side. âAre you staying for a long time?â he asked, his tone innocent and hopeful.
âYes, I am,â you replied, crouching down to their level, eager to break the ice. âI hope we can have fun together.â
Olivia nodded slowly, the nervousness still evident in her expression. âWhatâs your favorite color?â she inquired, her curiosity overcoming the initial surprise.
âPink!â you answered with a smile, seeing a flicker of interest pass between them. âAnd what about you?â
âPurple!â Olivia chimed happily, and Montague added, âI like blue!â
Christian chuckled softly. âWell, it sounds like we already have a creative team here.â
He pulled his daughter and son into a gentle hug. âNow, letâs head to the kitchen and see if your mom needs any help with dinner.â
As you followed them into the next room, the warmth of the moment began to wash over you. The smell of roasted chicken and fresh vegetables wafted through the air, inviting and homey.
Geri stood at the counter, her face lighting up as she spotted you. âY/N! Iâm so glad you made it!â she called, her voice warm and welcoming.
âThank you for having me,â you responded, feeling a wave of relief.
âHave you met the kids yet?â Geri asked, turning her attention to them with a motherly smile.
âYup! Weâre talking about colors,â Montague responded enthusiastically.
âColors and fun. That sounds like a great start,â Geri laughed. âWhy donât we all sit down for dinner together? I'll go get Blue and Iâve made plenty for us to enjoy.â
You felt a gentle tug on your shirt, a small but unmistakable gesture that drew your attention downwards. There, with her big, expressive eyes peering up at you, was Olivia, her demeanor a blend of shyness and anticipation.
As you knelt to her level, your heart warmed by the innocent enthusiasm radiating from her, you noticed a light blush coloring her cheeks.
âYes, Olivia?â you asked, your tone inviting, eager to hear what she had to say.
âCan I show you to your room?â she whispered, her words barely audible yet filled with earnestness.
This simple request tugged at your heartstrings, and you couldnât help but smile at the prospect of her eagerness to help.
Looking back up, you sought the assurance from Christian, who stood just a few feet away, an encouraging nod of his head affirming that it was indeed okay for you to follow Olivia.
âOkay, Olivia, you'll have to give a tour of the whole house so I donât get lost,â you replied, smiling to ease her nerves.
The sound of her giggle was like music to your ears, a bright melody that resonated with the warmth of her spirit. Olivia's face lit up as she grabbed your hand with surprising confidence for such a young girl, embodying a sense of purpose that you found endearing.
Balancing your suitcase in your other hand, you set off with her as your guide.
The house was a charming blend of cozy rooms and sunlight that spilled in from large windows, and you felt excitement bubbling within as you anticipated each stop on the tour.
First, she led you to the kitchen, her small hand pulling you gently through the archway. âThis is where we eat!â she declared, her eyes shining as she pointed toward the rustic wooden table laden with colorful placemats.
âMy mom makes the best cookies here,â Olivia said proudly, prompting an immediate response from you.
âI canât wait to try them! Do you help her bake?â you asked, genuinely curious about this little chef.
Her face beamed, and she nodded vigorously, âYes! I mix the flour and sugar!â
As you turned your attention to the living room, Olivia continued to pull you along, her enthusiasm palpable. âAnd this is the living room!â she said, ushering you with an exaggerated gesture, as if revealing a grand prize.
The room was adorned with plush sofas and scattered cushions, with a massive bookshelf crammed full of colorful stories waiting to be told.
âThis is where we have movie nights!â she informed you, her voice filled with a sense of pride.
âDo you have a favorite movie?â you inquired, hoping to catch a glimpse of her interests.
Beaming, she replied, âI love Frozen! I can sing all the songs!â
Next, she led you to the bathroom, where she pointed out the whimsical shower curtain decorated with dolphins. âMine are cute!â Olivia exclaimed, delighted by her own taste.
You smiled, appreciating how keenly she had chosen items that reflected her personality. "Dolphins are great," you said, letting her take the lead as she explained the significance of each nautical detail, her words bubbling over each other with the excitement of a storyteller.
Moving forward, Olivia was keen to show you her own room. âThis is my special place!â she announced, her voice filled with an unmistakable pride as she opened the door.
Inside, the walls were painted a soft lavender, enhanced by an array of colorful drawings she had created and pinned up.
She pointed to a large stuffed bear propped against her pillows, âThatâs Mr. Cuddles! He protects me at night.â
You chuckled softly, recalling your own childhood companions. âDoes he keep all the monsters away?â you teased, and she immediately nodded, eyes wide with seriousness.
âYes! Heâs very brave!â she declared, and you could see the fierce loyalty she had for her stuffed friend.
After her room, you finally arrived at the guest room where you would be staying. The door creaked open to reveal a bright room, adorned with a subtle decor that felt both welcoming and serene.
âThis is it! This is where you will sleep!â Olivia announced, stepping back to give you a moment to take it all in.
You placed your suitcase down gently, feeling a wave of gratitude wash over you for her thoughtfulness. âItâs perfect, Olivia! Thank you so much for showing me around,â you said, genuinely moved by her eagerness to ensure you felt at home.
Feeling adventurous, you sat on the edge of the bed, and she joined you, her curiosity piqued as she surveyed the room.
âWhat do you think? Is it what you wanted?â she inquired, her expression earnest. âHonestly, itâs more than I expected! I think Iâm going to love it here,â you replied, your heart full.
She giggled again, the sound infectious and bright. âWe can have sleepovers! You can sleep in my room!â Olivia suggested.
The innocence of her proposal struck a chord within you, and you smiled warmly, touched by her openness to share her world.
âOlivia, Y/N, it's time to eat!â Geri's voice echoed up the stairs, breaking the serene silence of your room. In an instant, Olivia sprang from your bed, her enthusiasm infectious as she tugged on your hand.
âCome on, Y/N, itâs time to eat!â she chirped, her eyes sparkling with anticipation.
You barely had time to collect your thoughts before she led you down the stairs, the aroma of home-cooked food enveloping you like a warm blanket.
âThank you for being such a great tour guide, Olivia. I wonât forget this day,â you assured her as you both made your way back to the living room, already dreaming of making memories in this new haven.
Descending the wooden steps, you could really smell the enticing aroma of Geriâs cooking wafting through the air, stirring your appetite.
Upon reaching the dining room, you were greeted by the lively scene: Geri was bustling about, dishing out bowls of steaming pasta, while Christian leaned casually against the counter, scrolling through his phone.
Montague, perched in his highchair, was animatedly babbling, his cherubic face smeared with remnants of whatever colorful concoction was served earlier.
You took a seat at the table next to Bluebell, who was lost in her own world, absorbed by her phone. The moment the chair scraped against the floor, her gaze shifted towards you.
âHello, Bluebell. Iâm Y/N. Hope you donât mind me staying here,â you introduced yourself, trying to break the ice with a gentle smile, aware of how teenagers could be a bit apprehensive at first.
She looked up, her brows slightly knitted as if deciding whether to engage. âHey. No, itâs cool,â she replied shyly, her demeanor softening as she put her phone down, curiosity flickering in her amber eyes.
âJust wasnât expecting⌠company, you know? Itâs usually just me, Monty, and Geri.â
âMonty?â you inquired, glancing over at the three-year-old, who was now energetically waving at you, pasta sauce dripping down his chin in a comical display.
âYeah, heâs really a handful,â Blue said with a chuckle, her shyness fading as she began to talk animatedly about her younger brother. âHe thinks heâs a superhero and tries to save the world. Itâs adorable but exhausting.â
âHe really seems like a little ball of energy!â you responded, laughing as Montague attempted to climb out of his highchair, his laughter ringing through the room.
Olivia joined in, her giggles mingling with her brotherâs, creating a harmonious chorus of childhood joy.
âY/N, you should come play with us after dinner!â Olivia exclaimed, her eyes sparkling with enthusiasm as she gave you an earnest look.
âYeah, totally!â Blue added, a hint of a smile breaking through her usual teenage facade. âWe normally play hide and seek or make up stories. Just donât let Monty be âitâ too many timesâheâll end up chasing you until your legs fall off.â
As the dinner progressed filled with laughter, playful banter, and the delightful chaos of family, you felt an unexpected connection blooming around the table.
Geri, with her motherly warmth, ensured everyone was well-fed, while Christian chimed in with witty commentary, balancing the atmosphere beautifully.
By the end of the meal, you realized that being here with them, amidst the laughter and shared stories, felt like a stitch woven into the fabric of a new beginning, one filled with cherished moments yet to come.
It didn't feel as nice as staying with Max but you didn't ponder on that thought for long as Olivia was telling you how her tooth fell out and she got 10 pounds under her pillow. . . .
The echoes of giggles and competitive banter from Christianâs children danced lightly in your memoryâOlivia and Montague were familiar companions in this whimsical world of imagination, but it was Bluebell who had truly captivated your attention.
You realized that her spirit, fierce and competitive, was a mirror of her fatherâs unyielding drive; it had been a surprise to find her enthusiasm so captivating, her laughter ringing like chimes, propelling you into games that were blissfully exhausting yet heartwarming.
As the sun elongated shadows around the room, you took a deep breath, the air laden with remnants of last nightâs popcorn and the sweet aroma of cocoa, feeling a warmth in your chest that settled deep, a gentle reminder of the magic shared.
Reluctantly, you peeled yourself from the confines of your cozy haven, looking forward to the day ahead.
Christian was set to drop you at the paddock where you could let go of the previous nightâs laughter and embrace a new day of potential adventures.
Getting up early felt like a delightful challenge, a rare chance to be productive before the world started its hectic pace, and you moved about with a sense of purpose that felt thrilling.
After a refreshing shower, you felt the warm water wash away the fatigue of the day. The steam enveloped you, creating a soothing atmosphere as you took a moment to enjoy the tranquility.
Once you stepped out, you wrapped yourself in a soft towel, feeling the gentle fabric against your skin. As you moved to your vanity, you laid out your makeup essentials, each product a small tool in your routine.
As you admired your reflection, you felt a sense of confidence wash over you. The transformation was complete, and you were ready to take on the world, feeling empowered and beautiful.
You then went downstairs to pour coffee into a mug, enjoying the steam that curled like tendrils of warmth into the cool morning air. As you sipped, images of last night danced in your mindâeach hide-and-seek episode, each playful shriek of victory from the kids.
How amusing it was to see Christian, usually so composed, getting caught up in their competitive spirit, cheering and teasing in equal measure.
Before the clock struck midnight, you had called Max, almost forgetting in the rush of the evening. The moment you heard his voice, you were instantly transported back to warmth and familiarity.
âHey Max, you werenât sleeping were you?â you asked, tone light yet filled with the anticipation of sharing your escapades with him.
âNo, no, I was waiting for your call of course,â he replied, and you couldnât help but smile, feeling a soft flutter at the thought that he valued your chatter enough to stay awake.
âHow is the place?â he continued, genuine curiosity dancing in his words.
You chuckled softly as you recalled the previous hours filled with whimsy. âEveryone is so nice here but Christianâs kids have me running around this house more times than I can count for hide and seek,â you said, lying back on your bed, the soft sheets cool against your skin.
You could hear him laughing on the other end, a sound that filled you with warmthâa gentle reminder of the connection you both cherished deeply.
There was something charming about sharing those mundane yet magical moments, and it felt good to let him in on this little slice of your life.
âSeems like youâve had quite the workout,â Max teased lightly, his laughter mingling with your own as you could just picture his playful smile, the way it lit up his eyes.
âSo which company do you like better? Mine or theirs?â he asked, his tone light, but a hint of seriousness lingered, as if he were genuinely curious to know where your heart lay.
Without a momentâs hesitation, the words slipped from your lips, âWell, Iâd rather cuddle and watch a movie than chase three kids around, so Iâll pick yours,â you said, unabashedly.
You could almost hear the playful gasp echo through the receiver, as if you had thrown a gleeful gauntlet over the endless banter between you two. âSo, Iâm the cuddly one now, huh? I always thought I was more of the adventure type!â Max quipped, his voice dancing in the space between you, filling you with an easy warmth.
You grinned, theyâre playful exchanges a lifeline reaching across the distance time and again. âMaybe both, but right now, I think Iâm just all about the cuddles,â you replied, your heart fluttering at the thought of cozy evenings spent together away from the chaos.
âI canât wait for that,â Max breathed, the earnestness behind his words brushing against your heart like a gentle caress. âIt does feel weird not having you beside me,â he confessed, that hint of vulnerability beneath his bravado softening the air between you.
You were still thinking about the phone call with Max when Christian was driving you to the paddock. His voice echoed in your mind, a mixture of concern and warmth that made you feel both comforted and anxious.
As Christian navigated through the busy streets, you could almost hear Max's laughter as he playfully teased you about your nerves, and it made you smile despite the lingering thoughts.
âAre you going to be okay?â Christian broke the silence, glancing over at you with that serious look he always had when he meant business. âShould I get someone to escort you?â
âNo, Iâll be fine,â you replied, giving him a reassuring smile that didnât quite reach your eyes. You unbuckled your seatbelt and opened the car door, the rush of energy from the paddock filling your senses.
âThanks for the ride!â you called out, waving as you stepped out.
Making your way into the paddock, you felt a mix of excitement and anxiety flutter in your stomach. The roar of engines and the chatter of mechanics surrounded you, but your mind was focused on one person.
You headed straight to Max's garage, where the familiar sight of him in his race suit brought an instant smile to your face.
When Max noticed you, his expression lit up like a kid on Christmas morning. âThere you are!â he exclaimed, brushing off his hands and running towards you. âI was wondering if youâd make it before practice,â
You couldnât help but return his infectious smile, feeling a weight lift off your shoulders. âSorry I couldn't come earlier; Christian was so insistent on driving me here.â
âGood! I was worried about you after the call yesterday. Did Christian give you a hard time for your first day in his house?â He raised an eyebrow teasingly, clearly aware of how protective the team principal could be.
âJust a bit,â you admitted, playfully rolling your eyes. âHe asked if I needed an escort.â You crossed your arms, leaning against the wall of the garage, watching as he fiddled with his helmet.
âWell, thatâs a bit of an overreaction, but itâs not surprising given what happened,â Max muttered, glancing at the camera crew that was trying to record your conversation.
He pulled his helmet down, the expression in his eyes serious for a brief moment. âI mean, youâve seen the way he looks out for the team, right? Especially after that ordeal the other day.â
You nodded, remembering the tense atmosphere that had enveloped the paddock after the incident. âYeah, I guess he just wants to make sure Iâm safe. But I can take care of myself,â you said defiantly.
Max chuckled softly, and there was a flicker of pride in his eyes. âI know you can. Thatâs one of the things I admire about you.â He leaned closer, lowering his voice. âBut sometimes, it helps to let others look out for you, especially when weâre all so deeply invested in this world.â
âTrust me, the last thing I want is to feel like a damsel in distress,â you replied, your tone more serious now. âBut I also appreciate the concern. It just feels a bit overwhelming, you know?â
He nodded, understanding glimmering in his bright blue eyes. âI get that. But your presence here means youâre already part of this family. And I promise, weâll look after you.â He grinned, the playful Max returning. âEven if Christian is a bit overbearing!â
You laughed, the tension easing further. âAlright, I guess Iâll keep the whole âbeing escortedâ concept in mind,â you countered, your tone lightening.
Max took a step back, his hands resting on his hips as he surveyed you with an affectionate gaze. âGood! Now, letâs focus on the practice.â
âOf course! Just donât crash or anything,â you called back as he dashed off to prepare, your heart racing with a mix of excitement and admiration.
As you watched him get back into the groove of his pre-race rituals, the worries began to fade, and all that mattered was the electric atmosphere of the paddockâand Max, with his vibrant energy, ready to take on the world.
As you stood in the hushed moments before practice, the air thick with anticipation, you meticulously slipped into your race suit, its slick fabric hugging your form like a second skin.
The scent of fresh tires and gasoline mingled in the air, awakening a fierce adrenaline among the buzzing crowd of crew members. Your heart raced as you checked the data on your device, numbers bouncing around your mind like your thoughtsâeach lap time, tire pressure, and weather condition swirling together in a delicate balance that only the fiercest competitors understood.
Just as you prepared to slide into the cool cockpit of your car, a sudden tap on your shoulder jolted you from your racing calculations.
You turned around slowly, your heart caught in your throat, only to find a shadowy figure standing behind you, a mask concealing all but the curve of his lips, and a hat pulled low enough to obscure his eyes entirely.
Instinctively, a thin veil of fear wrapped around you, tightening its grip as you momentarily froze, feeling vulnerable and exposed in this electric environment.
In a heartbeat, the figure revealed himself, peeling back the mask with a flourish that sent a rush of relief and disbelief cascading through you.
It was Daniel Ricciardoâyour idolâstanding mere inches away, his warm smile illuminating the tension that had momentarily gripped your chest.
âHey, Y/N! Can I have a hug?â he asked, his eyes sparkling beneath the brim of his hat, disarming you with both his charm and genuine enthusiasm.
You found yourself unable to respond in words, instead, your body acted on its own, arms wrapping around him in a spontaneous embrace that sent your heart racing in a completely different way.
The echo of his presence was oddly soothing, yet even in that moment of comfort, a lingering thread of fear tugged at your heart, the petrifying thought of Jake lurking like a shadow in the back of your mind, reminding you that danger was never far away.
As you clutched onto Daniel, savoring the warmth of his embrace, the panic that gripped you earlier continued to simmer just beneath the surface, whispering unsettling thoughts and fears that made your stomach roll.
You knew the truthâyou were still afraid, unable to shake the haunting reality that Jake was still out there, a ghost from your past threatening your present. The very thought of him stepping through the crowd, isolating you in a sea of engines and cheers, sent a wave of nausea crashing through you.
Almost in a daze, you stepped back from Daniel, desperation clawing at your throat as you raced towards the nearest restroom, fighting the overwhelming urge to succumb to the panic that threatened to spiral out of control.
Once inside the solitude of the bathroom, you felt the walls close in, your breathing becoming shallow and labored. Your heart still raced from Danielâs unexpected arrival, but now, it beat in rhythm with the anxiety bubbling within you.
You pressed your forehead against the cool tiles, your breaths coming in shaky gasps as tears prickled at the corners of your eyes.
You felt pathetic, the weight of your feelings crashing down like a heavy wave, your body betraying you in what should have been a victorious moment.
Then, a soft knock on the door jerked you from your thoughts, halting all movement in your panic-stricken state.
âY/N, are you okay? Can I come in?â Danielâs voice broke through the tumult in your mind, filled with warmth and concern.
You instinctively held your breath, reluctant to let him see you unraveling; the revelation of your raw, shaky vulnerabilities felt too overwhelming, especially in front of someone you admired so deeply.
âY/N, Iâm not going anywhere! But seriously, if you need anything, let me know,â he continued, his voice laced with genuine concern.
It was endearing to hear him use your name, pulling you back from the abyss of your spiraling thoughts. âI really appreciate it, Daniel. I justââ you spoke quietly, caught between the urge to confide in him and an innate desire to maintain your façade.
It felt impossible to lay bare your fears and the scars of your recent past to someone who was supposed to remain an untouchable beacon of inspiration.
âJust take your time,â he said softly, his words acting like a balm against your racing heart. âIâll be right outside if you need me. I swear I wonât tell anyone.â
Somehow, the reassurance in his voice made the knot in your stomach loosen, even if just slightly.
Taking a moment, you swallowed hard and focused on your breathing, allowing Danielâs comforting words to envelop you like a protective cloak. When the storm in your mind quieted to a gentle swell, you gathered your resolve and, with a deep breath, opened the door.
Daniel leaned casually against the wall, friendly smile still gracing his face, the tension of moments ago melting away as he teased, âHey, look whoâs alive!â He lifted his hands in mock surprise, his tone lightening the atmosphere. âWelcome back to the land of the living.â
You found yourself chuckling, the sound foreign yet comforting, as if his playful spirit had chased away the shadows of your earlier fears.
âThanks for waiting,â you responded, your voice steadier than before. âHonestly, Iâm so sorry about that.â
Danielâs expression shifted slightly at that confessionâhe looked concerned yet compassionate as he said, âI... heard about the accident.â
Instantly, your heart sank; Jakeâs actions felt like a stain on your mind that refused to wash away. The fact that Daniel knew about him was both embarrassing and terrifying.
âChristian told me but only because he didnât want me to startle you when we first meet... seems I did it without thinking, sorry about that,â he admitted, sincerity dripping from his words, making the weight of your fears feel heavier.
âItâs not your fault; itâs been a month now, and I havenât gotten over him,â you muttered, the truth slipping from your lips, baring a piece of your vulnerable self that you wished to shield from the world, especially from Daniel.
Daniel noticed the tension in your shoulders and without hesitation, pulled you into a warm embrace.
"You know what? For giving you a scare, why donât we go out after? Anything will be my treat, promise," he said, his voice steady and reassuring. You could feel the heat of his body against yours, a stark contrast to the raging storm inside your mind.
You nodded into his shoulder, grateful for his presence. It felt safe, comforting. "I should get back to my car for the practice," you muttered, though you didnât make an effort to pull away.
There was something about the way Daniel held you that made you forget the fear, if only for a moment.
Daniel chuckled softly, pulling you back just enough to look into your eyes. "I'll give you more hugs later, just beat Max is my only request," he joked, a playful grin dancing on his lips as he wiped the tear stains from your face with his thumb.
The gesture made you laugh a little despite everything.
"Deal," you smiled, feeling a flicker of warmth suffusing your chest. Support from Daniel felt like an anchor, grounding you even amidst the emotional tempest swirling around you.
Together, you left the bathroom. Daniel walked closely by your side, sharing small stories and light-hearted banter that somehow managed to lift your spirits. As you approached the garage, you felt lighter with each step, the looming dread receding little by little.
He watched you get into your car and waved enthusiastically as you turned the engine on.
"Remember! Just focus on your laps! You got this!" he shouted, a mixture of encouragement and playful irony in his voice, reminding you of the countless hours you had spent pushing yourself to the limit.
As you drove towards the track for practice, the familiar scenery rushed past, but this time, there was hope mingling with the anxiety. You could still hear Danielâs laughter in your ears, a sound that promised solace and support.
The memories of the mask and the man who had startled you began to fade, replaced by a determination not just to conquer the track, but to reclaim your peace of mind.
Arriving at the track, the adrenaline started to kick in. The engine roared to life as you prepared to hit the track, and with each lap, you left a little more of your fears behind, driven by the support that Daniel freely offered.
"Let's do this!" you whispered to yourself, feeling a surge of confidence. . . .
As Daniel stepped into the paddock, the adrenaline still coursing through his veins, he took a deep breath, savoring the thrill of the race.
His heart was still pounding from the excitement, but he knew he had something more pressing on his mind. He darted through the paddock, weaving past busy crew members and engineers, his eyes scanning for Christian.
After a few inquiries with the staff, he finally spotted himâleaning against the wall, headphones on, immersed in conversation with a couple of mechanics.
âHey! Christian!â Daniel called out, waving as he approached.
Christian looked up and a wide smile spread across his face. He promptly removed the headphones and wrapped his arm around Daniel in a quick embrace, giving him a friendly dab.
âI heard you met Y/N! How was it?â His curiosity was evident, the playful grin never leaving his face.
Daniel's expression shifted slightly, a hint of seriousness clouding his features. âIt was worse than I thought,â he started, his voice dropping to a more somber tone.
âShe thought I was⌠Jake. She looked terrified, man. I genuinely felt awful. I think she almost threw up from fear.â He paused, the weight of the moment hanging heavy. âBut, I made sure she was alright to race.â
Christianâs brow furrowed, concern replacing the lightheartedness of the previous moment. âDo you think I should get her a therapist?â he asked, his voice tinged with worry.
âHonestly? Itâs probably the best option,â Daniel responded. âBut let her agree to it. We donât want to push her into something sheâs not ready for.â
Christian nodded slowly, processing the gravity of the situation. His gaze drifted to one of the nearby TV screens, where you were racing across the track.
âShe looks strong out there, but I hate that she had to go through that. We need to make sure she feels safe here,â he said, his eyes still glued to the screen, watching her maneuver skillfully through the corners.
âYeah, I know. Sheâs tough, but that doesnât mean we can ignore what happened. Itâs a lot, especially for someone new to all of this,â Daniel replied, glancing over at Christian to gauge his reaction.
Christian sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. âItâs just hard seeing someone go through that, especially when she's part of this team. We want everyone to feel like this is a safe space.â
Daniel nodded in agreement. âYou know how it is, Christian. Racing isnât just about speed; itâs also about the mental edge. If sheâs distracted by fear, it could really affect her performance. Weâd be doing her a disservice by not addressing it.â
âTrue,â Christian said, shaking his head slightly. âMaybe I should just have a chat with her, see how she feels after we get home. I donât want to overstep, but I donât want to ignore it either.â
âThat sounds like a good plan. Just keep it casual; let her know you care,â Daniel encouraged.
âRight. I think sheâll appreciate that. I just hope she opens up,â Christian admitted, his brow still furrowed with concern.
As they spoke, Daniel couldnât help but admire Christianâs sincerity. It reassured him that they were all in this together, determined to support each other, especially when it mattered most.
With a renewed sense of purpose, they turned their attention back to the race, both feeling a bit more resolute about ensuring you felt supported as you settled into this high-speed world. . . .
The roar of the crowd still echoed in your ears as your car was wheeled back into the garage, the adrenaline of the day coursing through your veins.
You had just finished first in practice, a thrilling outcome that put you ahead of Max, who had come in a respectable third. As you stepped out of the car, you caught sight of Daniel, just as he had promised before racing commenced.
A grin spread across his face, the kind that could light up the darkest days.
"You really took my promise of beating Max seriously," he laughed, giving you a high five that resonated with the excitement of victory.
You accepted the high five, your heart swelling with pride. âOf course! I expect to get what I want later,â you joked, a playful gleam in your eye as you made your way towards the scale for your post-race assessment.
Daniel chuckled, shaking his head. âJust get changed; I have a busy schedule,â he replied, the feigned seriousness in his tone contrasting with the light-hearted atmosphere.
âAlright, just let me get this done,â you called over your shoulder and waited for the team to finish taking data.
Once freed from the technicalities, you slipped away to change into your casual clothes.
Meanwhile, Daniel was already on the move. He made his way to the adjoining garage where Max was still unpacking his equipment, grinning with mischief. The sight of Daniel took Max by surprise.
âDaniel! What are you doing here?â Max exclaimed, rising from a crouched position and dapping him up, clearly thrilled to see his old friend.
âWell, I came to see who the new star is, who is also a big fan of mine. Doesnât that remind you of someone a few years ago?â Daniel teased, a knowing look in his eyes as he referenced you.
Maxâs cheeks flushed a light shade of crimson. âWhy did I ever tell you I had a man crush on you back then? You just wonât let it go, will you?â he retorted, a mix of embarrassment and amusement evident in his tone.
âNot a chance! Plus, Iâve become the chaperone for Y/N today; gotta fulfill my duties to the new star,â Daniel added with a wink.
Maxâs expression shifted, disappointment flitting across his face. âYouâre going out now with her?â he asked, as if the words physically pained him to say.
âYeah, sorry I stole your crush away. You can have her tomorrow though,â Daniel whispered teasingly, watching Maxâs face turn an even deeper shade of red at the implication.
âSheâs not myââ Max began, but Daniel interrupted him with a knowing smirk.
âNot your crush? Max, Iâve known you for years now. I think I can tell when you love someone; your eyes canât hide anything,â Daniel continued, his teasing tone unrelenting.
âBut anyways, Iâve got to go. See you tomorrow!â Daniel winked and turned to leave as he headed back to you.
As you finished putting on your casual outfit, you re-entered the garage, feeling like a weight had lifted from your shoulders. You hadnât just met expectations; you had surpassed them. Just as you stepped out, Daniel was waiting for you with an enthusiastic grin.
âWeâve got plans, superstar.â he exclaimed, pulling you into a celebratory hug.
âYeah? Where to?â you asked with a playful twist of your mouth.
âSomewhere you can bask in your gloryânot to mention, thereâs ice cream involved,â he replied, the excitement palpable in his voice.
âNow youâre talking!â you laughed, matching his enthusiasm.
As the two of you headed out of the garage, Daniel turned to you more seriously. âYouâve shown everyone what youâre made of today. Just keep believing in yourself.â
âI wonât let you down, Daniel. Just donât forget my ice cream,â you shot back with a wink.
As you walked past Max's garage, the atmosphere was thick with the scent of motor oil and burnt rubber. The engines hummed softly in the background, a symphony of machinery that echoed the excitement in the air.
You turned to Daniel, who was bustling beside you, his playful grin a stark contrast to the urgency of the moment.
"So, you thought of a place to go to?" you asked, curiosity bubbling over as you approached the sleek silhouette of his car parked just at the edge of the paddock.
"Well," Daniel began, his eyes sparkling with mischief, "since you can't have too much before your race tomorrow..." He trailed off, his smile widening as he leaned against the driver's side door.
"I thought we could keep it chill. What do you say to a little drive to that beach cafĂŠ? They have the best smoothies!"
You chuckled, shaking your head. "A smoothie? Is that your idea of being 'chill'? You know that if I drink too much, Iâll be a jittery mess for the race!"
"Exactly! A little caffeine shouldnât hurt." Daniel teased, feigning innocence as he opened the door for you. "Come on! It'll be fun, and I promise I won't let you have more than a few sips."
Sliding into the passenger seat, you rolled your eyes playfully. "You always say that, but your idea of 'just a few sips' usually turns into an all-out feast!"
He laughed, the sound warm and contagious. "Only because you keep insisting on trying everything on the menu! But hey, for the record, I look out for you. Tomorrowâs the big day, and you need to be properly fueled on adrenaline and good vibes, not heavy meals."
You nodded, feeling a spark of excitement at the thought of getting away from the intense atmosphere of the garage, if only for a moment. "Alright, you win this round. Lead the way, CafĂŠ King."
As the engine roared to life, you felt a sense of relief wash over you. As Daniel kicked the car into gear, the landscape blurred past, and you took a deep breath, letting the tension slip away.
"So, what's your strategy for tomorrow?" Daniel asked, glancing at you with genuine interest as he navigated the winding road.
"Just keep it clean and smooth. I need to stay focused, avoid any unnecessary risks," you replied. "Itâs a long race, and I canât afford to let my excitement get the better of me."
Daniel nodded, his expression turning serious for a brief moment. "Thatâs smart. Just remember to enjoy it, too. You work hard, and youâve got the skills. Have faith in yourself."
You turned to him, gratitude swelling in your chest. "Thanks, Daniel. I appreciate you looking out for me."
"Always," he said, a smirk returning to his face. "And besides, if you crash, I might never hear the end of it from Christian!"
With laughter bubbling between you, the tension of the day eased away.
The bell above the door chimed gently as you and Daniel stepped into the cozy cafĂŠ, a hidden gem nestled on a quiet street corner. The rich aroma of freshly brewed coffee mingled with the sweet scent of pastries, creating an inviting atmosphere.
A few scattered tables were filled with patrons enjoying their afternoon indulgences, their laughter mingling with the soft background music.
âIsnât that Daniel? I havenât seen you in a while!â yelled the bartender, a lively woman with curly hair and a warm smile, as she waved enthusiastically from behind the counter.
âYeah, long time no see!â Daniel replied, his face lighting up as he made his way to the bar.
Your curiosity piqued about who this friendly bartender was, as you admired the countless bottles lining the shelves behind her.
âI see youâve brought a friend,â she said, glancing your way with an inviting smile.
âHi,â you responded shyly, feeling a mix of excitement and nervousness at being in this vibrant cafĂŠ.
âAnd a lovely friend at that!â The bartender winked at you before turning back to Daniel. âItâs great to see you again. Itâs been what, a year? What have you been up to?â
âOh you know, the usual. Work, travel, and trying to eat my way through every cafĂŠ in town!â Daniel chuckled, leaning against the bar. âBut I had to bring her here. I wanted to show her the best smoothies and ice creams in town! I had to come here!â
âGood choice! Our mango smoothie is to die for,â the bartender replied with a grin, her eyes sparkling with enthusiasm. âAnd donât even get me started on the chocolate fudge sundaeâit's a crowd favorite.â
âChocolate fudge sundae, huh? I might have to try that,â you chimed in, feeling your mouth water at the thought of such a decadent treat.
âAbsolutely!â she exclaimed, grabbing a menu and handing it to you. âYou just have to order the sundae with extra fudge. And Daniel, you know I make your favorite coffee, right?â
Daniel nodded, his eyes gleaming with fond memories. âOh, the caramel macchiato? You know it.â
âComing right up!â She turned towards the espresso machine with practiced ease, her hands moving swiftly to craft the drinks. You turned to Daniel, feeling a warmth settle in your chest.
âSo how do you know her?â you asked, curious about this unexpected reunion and the connections Daniel had in this small town.
âWe met a couple of years ago when I first came here,â Daniel explained, resting an arm casually on the counter. âShe was working at this cafĂŠ, and we hit it off immediately over a shared love of desserts. Ever since, itâs been my go-to stop for sweet escapes.â
âSounds like a great friendship,â you said, glancing around the cafĂŠ. The walls were adorned with local art, and the light fixtures hung low, casting a warm glow across the space.
âIt is,â he replied, his expression softening. âAnd now I get to share it with you. Youâre going to love it here!â
The bartender returned, placing Danielâs drink in front of him and yours beside it. âHere you go! One caramel macchiato and a refreshingly fruit-filled mango smoothie. Let me know what you think! And are you ready for the sundae?â
You exchanged glances with Daniel, both of you bursting with anticipation for the dessert you couldnât resist.
âAbsolutely! Bring it on!â Daniel exclaimed, almost like a child at a candy store.
With a laugh, the bartender nodded and disappeared into the kitchen while you and Daniel toasted your drinks and settled into a comfortable conversation.
"So what's been happening with you and Max?" Daniel said in a teasing voice, a smirk playing on his lips as he leaned back in his chair.
You almost spit out the smoothie you were sipping. "What?" you said, trying to play it cool but failing miserably as your cheeks flushed. Daniel was relentless, his eyes sparkling with mischief.
"Don't try and deny it," he continued, leaning in closer, clearly enjoying your discomfort. "I'm just curious."
You rolled your eyes, feeling the heat rise in your face. "Daniel, I just broke up with my boyfriend a month ago."
"And?" he replied, a knowing look in his eyes. "Max treats you way better than that guy anyways."
You sighed, knowing he had a point. The memory of your previous relationship was still fresh, filled with moments that made you realize how much you deserved more.
"I guess you're right," you admitted reluctantly. "But it's complicated. I just need some space to figure things out."
"Complicated how?" Daniel pressed, tipping back in his chair with a grin that suggested he was enjoying this way too much. "Itâs just Max. Heâs fun, heâs sweet, and he clearly likes you. Whatâs there to figure out?â
You stared at him for a moment, contemplating your next words. âI mean, heâs great. But everything feels so... rushed. Iâve just come out of a long relationship. I donât want to jump into something new too quickly.â
Daniel chuckled, "Well, from what Iâve seen, advice from someone in a committed relationship should be taken with caution, huh?"
You laughed, knowing exactly what he was referencing. Daniel had been with his girlfriend for years, almost to the point where you suspected he might not know what it's like to date casually anymore. âTouchĂŠ,â you replied, taking another sip of your smoothie to buy yourself some time.
"But look at it this way," he continued, leaning forward, the teasing glint now replaced by genuine concern. "You deserve to be happy, and honestly, Max makes you laugh. I canât remember the last time you smiled like that."
"Maybe," you conceded, biting your lip. "Itâs just difficult to let go of all the baggage. I feel like Iâm constantly carrying it around. It gets heavy sometimes."
"I get that," Daniel said more softly. âBut isnât it okay to give yourself a chance to let someone in again? Just take it slow with Max. No pressure, just see where things go.â
You thought about that for a moment. The idea of keeping things light and fun did sound appealing, especially considering how fun it had been hanging out with Max lately. âMaybe I will,â you said finally, a small smile creeping back to your face. âBut if it gets messy, Iâm blaming you, you know.â
Daniel laughed heartily, the playful banter returning. âDeal! Just keep me updated on this 'epic saga' of you and Max. Iâm all ears for the next smoothie chat.â
You shook your head, still chuckling at the absurdity of it all. âYouâre incorrigible, you know that?â
âAlways,â he replied with a wink, raising his smoothie in a mock toast. âTo new beginnings, then!â
âY/N, can I talk to you for a second?â Christian asked, his voice pulling you from the carefree playtime with Olivia and Montague. You blinked up at him, a little surprised by the serious tone in his voice.
With a gentle nod, you gestured for Olivia and Montague to continue their game without you, watching as they remained engrossed in their imaginary adventure.
âYes?â you replied, trying to keep your voice steady despite the unsettling knot that had begun to form in your stomach.
Christian hesitated, his gaze shifting to the ground before he met your eyes again. âDaniel told me what happened before qualifying,â he said slowly, carefully studying your expression for any signs of distress.
A rush of anger welled up inside you. Of course Daniel had told himâyou couldn't believe him. He promised he wouldnât say anything to anyone.
âDonât blame him; heâs only looking out for you,â Christian continued, his voice softening slightly. âBut I wanted to suggest you go to therapy.â
You felt your heart plummet. Therapy? The world seemed to tilt on its axis at the suggestion. It felt like a gaping chasm had opened before you.
Counseling or coaching was what the âcrazyâ people went to, right?
âWhy? Iâm okay, I told you,â you argued, the defensiveness creeping into your voice.
Christianâs brow furrowed ever so slightly, his eyes piercing. âY/N, you thought that Daniel was Jake because he looked mysterious. Itâs okay to not be okay.â
His statement hit you like a slap across the face. You crossed your arms defensively, feeling exposed and vulnerable. âThat doesnât mean I need therapy,â you retorted, your voice tinged with desperation.
âI was just a bit confused. That doesnât mean Iâm... broken or whatever.â
âConfusion is a sign,â he replied, surprisingly gentle yet firm. âYouâve been through a lot lately, and you canât just brush it off. Itâs more than just a mix-up with Daniel and Jake; itâs about how youâre processing everything. Therapy can help you untangle those thoughts.â
You looked away, watching Olivia and Montague, their laughter filling the air and pulling at the corners of your lips despite the heaviness in the pit of your stomach.
âI don't need a stranger telling me how to feel,â you said, though your voice lacked conviction.
âMaybe you donât,â Christian conceded, his tone softening. âBut sometimes an outsider can see things you canât. They can help you make sense of whatâs going on in your head and heart. I care about you, Y/N. Iâm not trying to push you into something you donât want; Iâm just worried.â
The sincerity in his gaze made you falter. âWorried? Why?â You found yourself searching his expression, looking for the real reason behind his concern.
âYouâre my friend as well as one of my drivers,â he replied simply, and the warmth in his voice made your heart ache.
âAnd I can see youâre struggling, even if you canât admit it to yourself. Finding someone to talk to could be the first step towards clarity. You donât have to carry everything alone.â
The thought lingered in your mind, swirling around like leaves caught in a whirlwind. Could it really help? Did you want it to? Your silence seemed to stretch, time slowing as you mulled over his words.Â
"No thanks, I'm really okay," you said, diverting your attention back to Olivia and Montague, who were playing with a pile of colorful blocks on the floor.
Christian exhaled softly, his gaze shifting from you to the two kids. "You canât keep pretending forever, Y/N," he murmured, concern etched deeply across his features. "Itâs okay to not be okay. We all go through tough times; it doesnât make you weak."
You paused, watching as Olivia stacked a block high enough that it wobbled precariously. "Iâm not pretending, Christian. I genuinely feel fine. Just... busy, you know?â You couldnât meet his eyes, focusing instead on the childrenâs laughter.
"Busy?" he echoed, the skepticism evident in his voice. "Or is it that you're afraid of what you might uncover if you take a moment to actually look inside? Sometimes a distraction is easier than confronting the mess in our heads."
A pang of irritation surged within you. "I know it sounds clichĂŠ, but I really am fine. I just have a lot on my plate." You forced a smile, the kind that felt like a mask rather than a reflection of your true feelings. . . .
Christian drove you to the paddock again, the familiar sound of the tires rolling over the gravel a comforting twist of routine. As you stepped out of the car, your eyes immediately sought out Daniel, who was waiting for you, a look of sheepishness plastered across his face.
"Hey, Daniel," you said, crossing your arms and leveling him with a knowing look. âAre you my escort after yesterday?â
âY/N,â Christian interjected, shooting you a wary glance. âBe nice and remember what I said, okay? Iâll pick up later.â
âYeah, okay, see you later,â you replied curtly, as you slammed the car door shut. Your heart raced, not entirely sure if it was from the adrenaline of the day or the unsaid tension hanging in the air between you and Daniel.
You walked past him, straight into the paddock with purpose, though you could feel Danielâs hesitant footsteps trailing behind you. âY/N, Iâm sorry, but I was worried! You canât blame me for telling Christian,â he insisted, his voice laced with concern.
You held your silence, striding purposefully until you reached your garage, the familiar smell of rubber and metal welcoming you in. Only then did you turn on him, arms still crossed.
âI trusted you,â you accused, narrowing your eyes. âAnd you just went behind my back and told Christian. Did you tell Max too?â
âWhat? Of course not!â Daniel shot back defensively, running a hand through his hair in frustration. âI only told Christian because of what happened. You threw up because you thought I was someone else; thatâs not normal!â
âNormal? What is normal in this life?â you replied bitterly, shaking your head. âYou donât understand, Daniel. That wasââ you hesitated, the words catching in your throat as a wave of embarrassment washed over you. âThat was an incredible low.â
As the air between you was thick with lingering tension, Daniel stepped closer, his brow furrowing deeply with concern. The way he gently searched your eyes seemed to awaken something buried within you, a mix of frustration and vulnerability that caught you off-guard.
âI get that youâre upset,â he said softly, his voice steady and reassuring like the calm after a storm. âBut you have to understand where I was coming from. I thought you mightâve needed help, or I was worried about you.â
His words hung in the air, an earnest plea wrapped in sincerity, yet all they did was amplify your irritation.
Staring back at him, you clenched your fists as you struggled to wrap your head around the very idea that this guy, who had just walked into your life barely a day ago, felt entitled to share concerns about your well-being.
âWorried?â you shot back, disbelief coloring your tone. âYou just met me yesterday!â The words tumbled out harsher than you intended, but the sting of his earlier actions still stung, like a bee that wouldnât let go.
You felt your heart race, torn between anger and an inexplicable sense of connection that made it hard to let go of the moment. Without missing a beat, Daniel regarded you with those soulful eyes, the corners of his mouth curling into a feeble smile that tried to break through the cloud of discontent hanging over both of you.
âYet I know mostly everything about you,â he argued, scratching his thick curls, a nervous gesture that betrayed his own unease. âNow can we stop arguing? Iâm really sorry. Can I give you a hug as an apology?â
There it was, the soft invitation wrapped in a tentative offerâthe kind that made your heart flutter and your thoughts race, even as your mind battled against the rising tide of anger.
â...Sure,â you muttered, the word escaping your lips almost as a whisper. The warmth of that fragile agreement filled the space between you for just a moment, but the storm of emotions still raged within.
As he pulled you close, feeling the steady rhythm of his heartbeat against yours, you found yourself caught in the tangle of bittersweet sentiments. Daniel settled his chin atop your head, engulfing you in the soft security of his embrace.
A wave of conflicting feelings washed over you, compelling you to melt into his warmth and yet holding you firmly anchored in your discontent.
âYouâre still angry at me, arenât you?â he asked, his voice low and comforting, a stark contrast to the chaos brewing in your chest.
âYep,â you replied with a half-hearted chuckle, surprising yourself with the softness of your tone.
The honesty in that simple acknowledgment lingered between you like a thread spun delicately between two hearts, each pulse echoing the otherâs unspoken fears and hopes.
âThatâs fine,â Daniel replied, his voice unfaltering, âas long as you can speak to me, then Iâll wait for you to forgive me.â This resolute patience struck a chord deep within, igniting a flicker of warmth against the cold betrayal of misunderstanding.
"Also, Max wanted to speak to you this morning; I wonder what it's about," Daniel teased, swinging you gently side to side in the warm embrace you shared, the sunlight filtering through the windows and casting a golden hue around you both.
His laughter, light and infectious, seemed to dance in the air, wrapping around your hearts like a forgotten melody, one you wished to hold onto a little longer. But despite the playful banter, your mind drifted like a leaf on a gentle breeze, caught in the weight of unspoken words and lingering glances from Max.
You felt the soft fabric of Daniel's shirt beneath your cheek, the scent of his cologne mingling with the crispness of the morning, giving you a momentary comfort, yet something gnawed at the corners of your thoughtsâthe urgency of needing to see Max, to understand whatever was troubling him.
"Daniel, you know itâs never going to be like that; heâs worried for me because of what happened," you muttered into his shoulder blade, your voice muffled by the emotional turbulence that threatened to spill over.
You felt the thump of Daniel's heart against your cheek, steady and reassuring, as if he were a solid anchor in a sea of uncertainty. But in that moment, the weight of your words hung heavy between you.
The morning breeze whispered secrets outside while you remained tethered to the collision of your thoughts and feelings, clinging to a fragile hope that perhaps, just perhaps, you could bridge the gap that the past had carved between you and Max.
"Are you sure?" Daniel's question broke through your spiraling thoughts, his tone steeped in a knowing warmth, as if he possessed insight into your heart that you yourself had yet to uncover.
In an instant, your gaze flickered to Daniel, seeking reassurance, yearning for affirmation that your feelings were not just fanciful dreams but a deeply embedded reality.
"Yeah," you replied softly, yet a flicker of doubt lingered behind your words, coloring them with a complexity you wished could be as simple as the glances shared between you and Max.
You pulled back from the comforting embrace, the cool air catching your breath as you noticed the question hanging unspoken between you.
It was as if the moment stretched beyond reality, each subtle shift in Daniel's expression illuminating the bond that had blossomed amidst the chaos, a bond that was both fragile and resilient.
"Well, just in case you go alone, in case I ruin his big confession for you," Daniel quipped lightly, a spark of mischief igniting in his brown eyes that seemed to bubble forth like champagne in celebration.
It offered a reprieve from the heaviness of the moment, painting a smile across your lips, albeit reluctantly. You could almost feel the warmth radiating from his presence, calming the whirlwind of thoughts in your head.
You took a step back, allowing a gentle sigh to escape your lips as you released the tension in your shoulders, yet your heart raced with anticipation.
"See you soon Daniel," you said, brushing your hair behind your ear, unwilling to linger any longer in this uncertainty.
Your feet carried you toward Red Bull's hospitality room, each step embedding the mix of hope and trepidation deeper into your core.
The vibrant energy of the working teams around you drifted in and out of focus, but your thoughts were solely consumed by Max and the unanswered questions that hung between you like a fragile thread waiting to snap.
The vibrant colors of the teamâs uniforms blurred into a watercolor of emotion, each shade whispering tales of romance and camaraderie that resonated with your own heart.
When you reached the hospitality room and inquired with the staff, you felt the fluttering of hope as you searched their faces for familiarity.
"Hey, have you seen Max?" you asked, your heart racing as each voice faded into uncertainty.
The words rolled off your tongue, infused with both urgency and a hint of naivety, yet your heart sank slightly at their vacant expressions.
They exchanged glances, uncertainty casting shadows over their eyes, and your heart quickenedâa thump louder than the crowd, resonating with the anxiety that had begun to inch its way into your mind, echoing louder than the chaotic atmosphere surrounding you.
As you wandered through the empty corridor, your mind was ablaze with mixed emotions. The silence was deafening, only interrupted by the soft shuffling of your own footsteps.
Suddenly, you spotted Max's father, Jos, leaning against the wall with an air of arrogance that set your teeth on edge.
Your history had been less than friendly; ever since he had pressured Max to ignore you, labeling you as a 'distraction,' your encounters had been fraught with tension.
Each time your paths crossed, you felt his death stare piercing through me, a reminder of the barriers he had tried to instill between his son and you.
You hesitated for a moment, weighing your options. It would be easy to just turn back, to retreat from this confrontation, but your resolve had strengthened since Max and you reconnected.
There was nowhere else to go, and you had no interest in prolonging this awkward moment. You decided to focus straight ahead and walk past him, deliberately avoiding any eye contact.
But your silence seemed to aggravate him.
"Verdomde teef," Jos muttered under his breath, convinced that you had either not heard him or that your grasp of Dutch was limited to pleasantries. Fucking bitch.
However, thanks to Max, you recognized the phrase all too well.
You spun around, your heart racing yet emboldened. "Een paar laten groeien," you fired back, a smirk creeping onto your face as Jos' jaw dropped in shock. Grow a pair.
"Your son teaches me Dutch, klootzak," you spat, relishing the way the insult rolled off your tongue. His face contorted in anger, a deep flush creeping up his cheeks.
"What did you just call me?" he seethed, his hands balling into fists at his sides, knuckles whitening with barely contained rage.
You leaned in closer, meeting his gaze with defiance. "A âklootzak,â it means bastard if you didnât know. That's right, Jos. Just what you are. Your little choice to push me away from Max wonât work. Heâs not a child anymore, and neither am I."
"Stay away from my son," he warned, stepping closer into your personal space, a smoldering intensity radiating off him like heat from a fire. âIâll do everything in your power to keep you out of his life.â
âYou donât get to dictate who is in his life, Jos. Heâs made his choice, and you will learn to respect it. Iâm tired of your intimidation tactics,â you countered, matching his aggression step for step as you took a firm stand.
âIntimidation? You think you frighten me?â Jos scoffed, but you could see a flicker of doubt in his eyes. âYou are nothing to me, just a fleeting annoyance.â
Your eyes caught the glimmer of a security camera mounted in the corner of the corridor, a hidden witness to your escalating confrontation.
You knew he couldnât do anything too drastic without putting his own reputation on the line.
âMore like youâre nothing to your son. Youâve already failed as a father,â you shot back, your voice steady and unyielding.
That seemed to be the final straw. Josâ face twisted with anger, and without warning, he raised his hands toward me. Your breath caught in your throat.
Time seemed to slow as the memories of your ex-boyfriend's violent outbursts invaded your mind, sending a chill through your spine.
You instinctively raised your arms to shield your head, every muscle in your body tensing in anticipation of a punch.
And then it happenedâa sharp pain surged through your body, a strong punch that sent a jolt of adrenaline coursing through your veins. You stood there, breathless and bewildered.
The world around you faded, and you concentrated on the looming dread of what could come next.
But your moment of despair was cut short as you heard hurried footsteps approaching, followed by a gasp.
You lowered your arms cautiously and was greeted by the sight of Max standing defiantly between Jos and you. His expression was intense, protective, and full of authority.
"I suggest you get out of here before I call security," Max's voice cut through the air like a knife. "Thereâs already a camera on you, and I could charge you for assault if she wants to." His hand reached back toward yours, a silent offer of protection.
"She started it," Jos lied, glancing nervously at the camera, but his bravado was starting to falter. "That bitchâ"
"If I see you near her ever again, I will press charges myself," Max warned, his grip firm as he took your hand. He led you away toward his driverâs room, taking strides that seemed to echo in the charged atmosphere.
You couldnât find my voice, your mind still racing from the events that had just unfolded.
Once inside, the door clicked shut, and you finally felt a momentary sense of safety but still held in a bubble of disbelief. âAre you okay?â Max asked, his voice softer now, like a balm on a fresh wound.
You let out a shaky breath. "Iâm sorry," you muttered, as tears pricked at the corners of your eyes. âThis is all my fault.â
âSorry for what?â Max pressed gently, his expression shifting from concern to something warmer, softer. âYou didnât do anything wrong. You were defending yourself.â
His words wrapped around you like a safety net, but still, the guilt gnawed at your insides, sharp and unyielding.
âI justâI donât know how I let it get so out of hand. I should have walked away. I shouldnât have let him provoke me,â you admitted, staring down at your trembling hands.
Max stepped closer, his presence a mix of strength and warmth. âTrust me, heâs been like this for all of my life now. I⌠I just didnât think he would hit you. Iâm so sorry,â he said, his voice dropping to a whisper.
The sincerity in his tone made you glance up, meeting his gaze. âYou donât have anything to apologize for, Max. You didnât do this. Iââ
âBut I wasnât there to protect you,â he interjected, frustration creeping into his voice. âThis is the second time now this has happened to you. I promised to protect you. I should have seen it coming. I should have done something.â
You took a breath, cupping his face in your hands. The warmth radiating from his skin contrasted sharply with the chill of the night air.
âMax, you are not like your father. You are not Jos,â you reassured him, searching his eyes for any flicker of understanding.
He shook his head vehemently, anger and sorrow dancing in his expression. âHow can you say that? Iâm his son! I carry his blood. Just the thought of being anything like him⌠it makes me sick. I thought Iâd left that behind, but these moments prove I canât escape it. What if I end up hurting you too?â
âStop it!â you urged, your voice breaking, a mix of frustration and concern. âYouâre not him. Youâre nothing like him. You fought against that legacy every day, Max. Youâre kind, youâre protective in a good way⌠and you care! Thatâs the person you are, not your father.â
Maxâs shoulders slumped, the weight of your words settling between you. âIt doesnât change the fact that he hit you. I should have done something. I should have warned you, warned everyone. I need toââ
âMax, listen to me!â you interrupted, desperate for him to understand. âYou canât control what he does. Youâre not responsible for him. All you can do is be the person you choose to be. Youâre not to blame for his actions; you didnât pull the trigger on that.â
He looked away, his jaw tightening as he processed your words. The weight of the situation wrapped around him like a heavy fog, fogging his mind with guilt and concern.
He finally nodded, a reluctant acceptance of your words, though doubt still clouded his expression. âI just want you to be safe.â
You placed a hand on his shoulder, grounding him. âI am safe, Max, because of you. You saved me, thank you,â you whispered, wiping the sweat that dripped down his forehead.
Maxâs gaze flickered to the ground, and you could see the internal struggle painting his features. âCan... can I see where he hit you?â he asked hesitantly, bravery faltering in his voice.
âOnly if you donât tell our boss,â you teased lightly, trying to diffuse the heavy atmosphere with a little humor. âI want to race today.â
But Max remained serious, his brows knitted in concern. âThis isnât a joke. You could have been seriously hurt.â The intensity of his voice sent a shiver through you, and you couldnât help but notice how fiercely protective he was becoming.
âOkay, okay. Just donât make a big deal out of it,â you replied, lifting your shirt slightly to reveal the bruise forming on your side.
The marbled skin was a mottled combination of purples and blue, evidence of the altercation. You winced slightly as the cool air brushed against the tender spot.
Max slowly lifted his arm, his fingers hesitantly reaching for your waist where Jos had struck you. âTell me if it hurts,â he instructed, his voice low and filled with a mix of concern and determination.
âIt stings a bit, but Iâll survive. I promise,â you assured him, trying to maintain a light-hearted tone. As his fingertips touched your skin, you couldnât help but feel a rush of emotions.
Conflicted feelings about how one moment could shift between fear and gratitude, anger and affection.
âI donât know how to handle this,â Max confessed, his brow furrowing deeper. âI keep replaying it in my head, imagining what I should have done differently. If only I had been faster, if only I'd been there soonerââ
âMax, stop,â you interjected softly, placing your hand over his to stop his gentle probing. âYou canât keep torturing yourself with âwhat ifsâ. It was out of your control. You canât guard me from everything, and you shouldnât have to. Just be here with me now, okay?â
He sighed heavily, pulling his hand back but leaving a lingering warmth behind. âI know it sounds selfish, but I just canât bear the thought of something worse happening to you. Iâd never forgive myself.â
You took a deep breath, attempting to bridge the emotional gap. âMax, youâre here now. You donât know how much that means to me. You fought for me. You stood up when it mattered. Thatâs something to hold onto. Iâm lucky to have you by my side.â
His gaze softened slightly, a flicker of hope igniting behind the ocean of doubt. âJust promise me youâll be careful,â he pleaded, his voice barely above a whisper.
âI promise,â you replied, sealing the promise with a firm nod. âAnd if I need help, Iâll tell you. I wonât keep anything from you.â
For the first time that day, a smile broke across his face, albeit shaky. âOkay, letâs get ready for the race. Weâll leave all this behind for a few hours. Just put some ice on it before racing.â
As you raced around the track, a sensation of freedom mingling with the adrenaline coursing through your veins. Yet, beneath that thrill, the agonizing throb in your waist from the punch you had received earlier.
You chose to suppress the discomfort, your focus locked onto the track before you. Each turn demanded your complete attention, the adrenaline pushing you to ignore the pain gnawing at your side, a sharp reminder that in this high-octane world, every moment counted.
With every twist and turn, you felt the strain deepen, but you pressed on, knowing that the ice pack you had applied before getting in the car had dulled the worst of it.
Crossing the finish line, the satisfaction of securing third place in the qualifying round briefly overshadowed the agony that surged anew with each hard turn you had navigated.
As you leaped from the vehicle, your heart still pounding with excitement and effort, you caught sight of Max standing there, his hair disheveled.
He had taken off his helmet, revealing the genuine worry etched across his features as he approached you, his footsteps purposeful on the polished asphalt.
âAre you okay? I heard you were having trouble in the car,â Max asked, his voice laced with concern, eyes sharp as they searched yours for any sign of pain.
There was something about his presence, an unspoken bond that connected the two of you, making the ache in your side seem both distant and immediate at the same time.
He stood there, a pillar of strength and support, and you found that you couldnât lie to him, not after everything you had shared.
âJust the hard turns were bad on the bruise,â you admitted, acknowledging the discomfort that swirled within you like the dust from the track.
Max stepped closer, the warm glow of the afternoon sun casting a golden light on him.
âYou really gave it your all out there. I saw how you handled those turns. Itâs no easy feat, especially with a bruise like that,â he said, admiration lacing his words.
A shy smile tugged at your lips, his praise wrapping around you like a cozy blanket, easing the pain, if only for a moment. His presence was comfort, a balm that quieted the storm of thoughts racing through your mind.
âDo you want to rest for a bit after this? We can grab something to eat, and I can help with the ice again if you need,â he suggested, the offer hanging in the air between you, filled with unspoken understanding and a desire to protect. . . .
"Y/N, I need to show you something," Christian's voice drifted through the air, drawing you away from the laughter of the two children, their joy briefly flickering out as they realized your attention had shifted.
Excusing yourself with a gentle smile, you made your way to the living room, heart already quickening at the serious tone that laced his words.
Standing close to him as he sat on the edge of the sofa, you felt a rush of concern wash over you; there was a gravity in the air that seemed charged with unspoken tension.
"Yes, Christian?" you inquired softly, your brows knitting together in worry as you searched his eyes for answers. He looked up at you, his expression unreadable, and you feared the weight of what he was about to reveal.
"Jake has been arrested."
The words landed between you like a stone, and shock coursed through your veins, quickly morphing into a reluctant relief that you couldn't quite wrap your head around.
His words hung in the air, and for a moment, you simply stood there absorbing the implications. Jakeâyour former boyfriendâarrested? It should have felt like liberation, but the way Christianâs face twisted into an expression of outrage puzzled you.
âSo why do you look angry? Isnât that a good thing?â Your voice was hesitant, unsure, as you sought to make sense of this unexpected news.
Christian didn't respond directly; instead, he reached for the remote and, with a click, unpaused the television. Instantly, the familiar hum of the news played, and you leaned forward, drawn into the screen as the reporter's voice echoed ominously throughout the room.
"Breaking news! Y/N L/N's boyfriend, Jake was arrested this afternoon. We havenât received any reasons why, but someone recorded the interaction and posted it on social media."
The words wrapped around you like a shroud, and you felt your heartbeat quicken once more, your palms clammy against your sides. The screen changed, and there he wasâJake, looking not like the same person who had once held you with love, but rather a fragment of a nightmare that you struggled to awaken from.
His eyes, once filled with warmth, were now dark and hollow, filled with anger and bitterness that sent a shiver down your spine.
The police were gripping his arms tightly, their expressions stoic as he struggled against their hold, but all that struck you most was how lost he seemed, how desperate his plea was.
"Iâm innocent! I was cheated on by Y/N with Max Verstappen! She left me for this other guy. Itâs all her fault. She slept with him when we were dating! I'm innocent! Please!"
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Hi! First of all I *love* your guidelines. Iâm just recently getting into Stray Kids and while I will read smut about 2D men, smut about real people is off putting to me, so that was really cool to see. Anyway, I love love love your angsty shots. Theyâre so good! Could I put in a request? I was thinking like how they would all react like, they were out on a date and paparazzi get too aggressive with Y/N and it causes her to get hurt? (I had a dream where I was on a date with Bangchan and we were trying to get into the back of a car and once I got in a paparazzi went to the other side of the car and yanked me out and Bangchan was BIG mad at them, especially cause when I fell out of the car I broke my wrist from landing on it) ANYWAY SORRY FOR THE RANT Iâm just big in my feelings about these guys now and since itâs just new I know Iâm in for a ride. Thank you!
When Paparazzi Gets Too Violent
OT8 x Fem!Reader
Warnings: Slight cussing
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Bang Chan
The night had started off perfectly- just you and Chan enjoying a cozy dinner in a quiet restaurant. It had been a while since you two had some time to unwind, since he had been busy with a comeback, and he looked so relieved to just be in your company. You loved watching him let down his guard, his tired eyes softening as he smiled at you across the table.
But the peace didnât last long.
As soon as you both stepped out onto the street, the flashing lights and swarm of paparazzi descended. You heard your boyfriend let out a deafening sigh.
"Let's just get to the car," Chan whispered, his hand firm on the small of your back as he tried to guide you through the crowd of photographers, questions flying at both of you.
Despite his calm facade, you could feel his body tense under the pressure, his jaw clenching tighter each time someone shoved forward for a shot. You could tell he was on edge, trying so hard to keep his cool.
But then it happened.
You were just about to step into the safety of the car when a paparazzo grabbed you by the arm and yanked you backward. The sudden force threw you off balance, and before you knew it, you were crashing to the pavement. The pain in your wrist was immediate and sharp as you braced yourself on the concrete. The gasp you let out sent Chan into a rage.
"Y/N!" His voice was frantic as he rushed to your side, but the second his eyes landed on the man who had pulled you, something dark flickered across his face.
Bang Chan was not one to lose his temper. He was the leader, the level-headed one, but seeing you hurt because of someone elseâs carelessness was his breaking point.
He stood, stepping between you and the crowd, his entire posture shifting from protective to menacing in the blink of an eye. "What the hell do you think youâre doing?!" His voice was low and dangerous, and you could see the tension in his fists, knuckles white as he held himself back from doing something drastic.
The paparazzo who had grabbed you shrunk back under his icy glare, but the cameras kept flashing, people still trying to get closer.
Chan shoved him back, hard. "Get. Away. From her."
It was only when he heard your voice again, a weak "Chan, I'm okayâŚ" that he turned his attention back to you, his anger melting instantly into concern. His eyes softened as he knelt down beside you, his hands gentle as they reached for your wrist.
"Does it hurt?" he asked, his voice shaky, filled with guilt. "Iâm so sorry. I shouldâve-"
You shook your head, biting back the pain, not wanting to make him feel worse. "It's not your fault."
But he wasnât having any of it. "Weâre going to the hospital," he said firmly, scooping you up into his arms as if you weighed nothing. "And I swear, I' wonât let them get away with this. I'm ruining that bastard. "
Lee Know
You and Minho were just trying to enjoy a quiet evening stroll through the park- nothing fancy, just some much-needed alone time. Minho had been busy lately, so this was your chance to reconnect, to talk, to be close. The air was crisp, the city lights reflecting off the pond as you held hands, walking slowly. It was a short escape.
Paparazzi had a way of ruining even the quietest moments. You didnât notice them at first, but Minho did. His grip on your hand tightened subtly, his gaze shifting as they began to close in, cameras ready, questions already being flung at both of you.
He didnât say anything- just kept walking, his jaw set, but you could feel the tension in his steps, the way his body became a shield between you and them.
"Ignore them," he muttered under his breath, pulling you a little closer. His voice was calm, almost icy. Minho never gave them the satisfaction of a reaction.
But then one of the paparazzo's got too close- pushing past Minho to get a better shot of you. The sudden shove caused you to lose your footing, and before you could even process what was happening, you were on the ground, a sharp pain shooting through your knee.
You winced, your hands instinctively reaching for your leg, but before you could even say a word, Minho was already in motion.
He froze, his eyes narrowing in on the photographer who had knocked you down. The air around him seemed to grow colder, his usual composed demeanor unraveling in the blink of an eye. "Are you out of your mind?"
His voice was so calm it was terrifying.
Minhoâs eyes were dark as he stepped toward the paparazzo, and though he wasnât yelling, the quiet, seething rage in his voice made everyone around stop in their tracks. "Youâve got five seconds to leave before I make you regret it."
The man stammered, backing away, but Minho didnât even spare him another glance as he knelt down next to you, his hands surprisingly gentle as they inspected your scraped knee.
"Does it hurt?" he asked, his tone soft and completely different from the menacing one he used just moments before.
You nodded, wincing as he brushed some of the dirt off your skin. "Itâs just a scratch though, I'll be okay."
His eyes softened, though you could still see the anger simmering beneath the surface. "Iâm sorry," he whispered, more to himself than to you. "The night's ruined now..."
You shook your head, knowing it wasnât his fault, but Minho wasnât easily reassured. He stood, lifting you in his arms as he headed toward the car. "Letâs go home. Iâm not letting you out of my sight again."
Changbin
Being with Changbin was always full of fun, laughter, and energy. Tonight was no different as you both walked hand-in-hand down the street after attending an small festival and grabbing a bit to eat. The air was light, and Changbin was chatting animatedly about music, making you giggle as he recounted a funny story from practice earlier.
But the night took a turn for the worse when you two were spotted. At first, it was just a few cameras, nothing unusual. Changbin was good at staying composed in these situations, but tonight, the crowd of photographers seemed to multiply within seconds, blocking your path as they shoved their cameras in your faces.
Changbinâs expression shifted instantly, his playful smile fading as he moved protectively in front of you. "Stay behind me," he muttered, his voice low and firm.
You did as he said, gripping his arm as he tried to push through the crowd, but the paparazzi werenât letting up. One of them shoved past Changbin, aiming for a close-up shot, and in the process, they knocked into you hard.
You stumbled backward, tripping over the uneven pavement and hitting your head against the side of a parked car. The impact sent a sharp pain through your skull, and you gasped, your hand flying to your head as you tried to steady yourself.
That was all it took for Changbin to snap.
His usually calm and playful demeanor was gone, replaced by a burning fury that made everyone around stop in their tracks. "What the hell do you think youâre doing?!" His voice boomed through the crowd as he stormed toward the man who had hurt you.
Changbin wasnât usually one to raise his voice in anger, but when he did, it was enough to make even the bravest person shrink back. The photographer stammered, trying to backpedal, but Changbin was already in his face, his fists clenched as he loomed over him.
"You touch her again, and I swear-"
"Changbin," you called out softly, trying to bring him back to reality as you cradled your head. "Iâm okayâŚ"
Hearing your voice, he snapped out of it, his expression softening instantly as he rushed back to your side. "Are you hurt? Let me see."
His hands trembled slightly as he gently brushed your hair away from your face, his eyes filled with guilt and concern. "Iâm so sorry," he whispered, his voice cracking.
You shook your head, trying to reassure him. "Itâs not your fault."
But Changbin wasnât convinced. He helped you into the car, his jaw still clenched as he muttered, "Iâm never letting them get near you again."
Hyunjin
Hyunjin had always been good at keeping his emotions in check when the paparazzi were involved, but tonight they seemed particularly aggressive. You two had just finished a late-night art gallery visit, one of Hyunjinâs favorite ways to unwind, when the paparazzi caught wind of your location.
At first, Hyunjin tried to ignore them, his arm securely around your waist as you both headed toward the car. "Donât look at them," he whispered, his voice calm but with an edge of anxiety. He hated the way they intruded on your private moments. Especially when you weren't too keen about having your face all over the internet.
But as you got closer to the car, the crowd surged forward, one of the photographers getting too close. In the rush, someone shoved you hard from behind, causing you to trip and fall forward. You reached out trying to grab Hyunjin- accidentally bringing him down with you, which caused the cameras to snap even more. Hyunjin had somehow landed on top of you; while you landed awkwardly on your elbow, pain shooting up your arm as you let out a soft cry.
Hyunjin had already gotten up but upon hearing your cry his entire body froze. His gaze shot down to where you were on the ground, and for a moment, he didnât move, the shock registering on his face. Then, something snapped.
His eyes blazed as he turned to the photographer who had caused your fall, his usually soft expression darkening with anger. "Why the hell would you think it's okay to get rough?!" he spat, his voice shaking with fury. Hyunjin wasnât one to yell, but the way his voice trembled with suppressed rage was even more terrifying.
He stalked toward the man, his entire body tense as if he was ready to lash out at any moment. "Do you have any idea what youâve done?" His voice was quiet, but the threat in his tone was unmistakable.
The photographer backed away, stammering apologies, but Hyunjin wasnât listening. His focus was on you now, his anger dissipating the second he saw you holding your elbow in pain.
"Y/NâŚ" He knelt down beside you, his hands hovering over your arm as if he was afraid to touch you in case he made it worse. "Where does it hurt, love? Iâm so sorryâŚI didnât see them coming towards you, it's my fault.â
You winced, trying to smile through the pain. "Iâll be okay."
But Hyunjin wasnât having any of it. "Weâre going to get your elbow checked out." he said firmly, his voice still shaking as he helped you to your feet. "And then we'll deal with the idiot who pushed you."
Jisung
Jisung had always been protective of you, but he wasnât one to confront others unless he absolutely had to. Tonight, however, the situation forced his hand.
You and Jisung were leaving a small cafĂŠ after a quiet date, enjoying the peace that came with being together without people around. But that peace was shattered when a swarm of cameras appeared out of nowhere, crowding around you both as you tried to make your way back to the car.
At first, Jisung tried to keep it together. His grip on your hand tightened as he led you through the mass of flashing cameras and shouted questions. His heartbeat raced, anxiety bubbling in his chest as he tried to remain calm for your sake. You could easily tell he was anxious by the way his hand shook in yours.
But then it happened.
One of the photographers got too close, bumping into you as she shoved her camera forward. The force of it sent you stumbling, your knee hitting the ground hard as you let out a sharp cry of pain.
Panic surged through Jisung. His breath caught in his throat, and for a moment, he froze, his wide eyes darting between you and the crowd around you. He wanted to lash out, wanted to yell, but his anxiety made his words catch in his throat.
Instead, he knelt down beside you, his trembling hands hovering over your injured knee. "Y/N, are you okay?" His voice wavered, the fear and guilt evident in his tone.
You winced, trying to smile through the pain. "I think Iâm okay, just a bit scraped up."
Jisungâs mind raced. He knew he should say something, do something, but his usual anxious thoughts were louder than ever. What if he made it worse? What if he couldnât protect you?
But then he saw the look on your face- how you were trying so hard to stay strong even though you were in pain -and something in him snapped. His fear was replaced by a surge of protective anger.
Jisung stood up, his usually anxious eyes hardening as he faced the paparazzi. His voice was shaky, but there was an unmistakable edge to it. "Back off," he said, his voice barely louder than a whisper, but firm. "Youâve done enough."
The paparazza who had bumped into you tried to offer an apology, but Jisung wasnât listening. His focus was solely on you as he crouched back down, gently helping you to your feet. His hands were still shaking, but his grip was steady as he held you close.
"Iâm so sorry," he whispered, his eyes glistening with guilt and worry. "I shouldâve done more."
You shook your head, placing a hand on his cheek. "Itâs not your fault, Jisung. Iâm okay. And there isn't much you can do about them."
But Jisung wasnât convinced. He gently wrapped an arm around your waist, helping you limp toward the car. His voice was quiet, filled with an anxiety-fueled promise. "Iâll protect you better next time, I swear. I wonât let them hurt you."
As you both reached the safety of the car, Jisung finally let out the breath he had been holding, pulling you into a tight hug. His body trembled slightly, but his arms were firm around you, as if he was holding onto you for dear life.
"I love you," he whispered, his voice barely audible, but filled with sincerity. "Iâm never letting this happen again. Never."
Felix
Felix had always been the softest, sweetest soul youâd ever met, but even the kindest person had their limits. Tonight, you found out exactly what that limit was.
You and Felix were on your way to a late-night movie when the paparazzi caught wind of your date. It started with a few photographers, nothing Felix couldnât handle. He just kept you close, his hand in yours, trying to keep the mood light as you both walked toward the theater. If anything, some cute and candid photos of his love for you would be broadcasted to the world. Nothing too bad about that, right?
But then the crowd started to grow, and they werenât just taking pictures- they were yelling questions, getting closer and closer with each step. Felixâs grip on your hand tightened, his steps growing faster as he tried to get you away from them.
"Just ignore them," he whispered, his usual bright demeanor gone as he focused on getting you to safety.
But then, in the chaos, one of the photographers reached out, grabbing your shoulder to pull you back for a better shot. The force of it caused you to stumble, your ankle twisting painfully as you cried out in surprise.
That was when everything changed.
That limit was reached.
Felixâs usually bright eyes darkened, a storm brewing behind them as he turned on the photographer who had dared to touch you. You had never seen him like this- his entire body radiated fury as he stepped toward the man, his voice low and dangerous.
"Touch her again, and I swear to God, I'll end you." Felixâs voice was a quiet snarl, each word laced with venom. He didnât have to yell to be terrifying. The photographer shrank back, clearly not expecting this reaction from the usually soft-spoken Felix.
But Felix didnât stop there. He took a step closer, his eyes narrowing. "You think you can just push her around like that?" His voice trembled with rage, his fists clenched at his sides as he held himself back from doing something he might regret.
Despite Felixâs usually soft-spoken nature, tonight, seeing you hurt pushed him beyond his breaking point. The paparazzo who had shoved you continued to cower as Felix approached him, his eyes blazing with a fury that you had never seen before.
No one had, really. You now understood why the members had once said Felix might have been the scariest one of them all, when he was truly angry.
"You think this is a game?" Your fiancĂŠ's voice was low, almost a whisper, but it was filled with a deadly calm that sent chills down your spine. His usually gentle demeanor had been replaced by something darker, more dangerous.
The paparazzi stuttered an apology, backing away, but Felix didnât move. He took another step closer, his fists clenched at his sides. "You donât get to touch her," he growled, his voice barely above a whisper but carrying an unmistakable threat. "You crossed a line, and that was a huge mistake."
The photographer muttered an apology, scurrying away, but Felix wasnât interested in anything he had to say. He turned back to you, his expression softening instantly as he saw you clutching your ankle.
"Oh, love," he whispered, his voice full of guilt and concern as he crouched down beside you. "I don't know how I got blessed with someone like you. The fact you put up with all of this is insane."
He helped you up. "Is your ankle, okay?"
"Yeah, I think I just landed on it weird I'll be fine..." Your voice was a bit shaky- not because you were in pain but because an angry Felix was...scary, to say the least. "I can walk- woah!"
Felix scooped you up into his arms effortlessly, the pure rush of adrenaline giving him a strength that you figured could rival Changbin's in the moment. His eyes still blazed with anger as he shot a look towards the rest of the paparazzi who left without another word. "They'll never bother us again." he promised, his calm. "I swear."
Seungmin
Seungmin was always calm under pressure, the voice of reason when things got chaotic. But even he had times where his rationale would fly out the window.
You and Seungmin were walking through the streets after dinner, enjoying a date night together when the paparazzi found you.
Or someone else for that matter. As you two quickly realized they were focused on a different idol who had happened to be in the same area. So, Seungmin just kept his arm around you, his posture relaxed, guiding you through around crowd without a word- without so much as a look to the cameras.
And you almost got away.
That was until more photographers joined in, pushing and shoving to get closer, to the other idol. Seungminâs calm demeanor began to slip. He tightened his hold on you, his eyes flickering with irritation as he tried to get you through the growing crowd.
"Just pay no mind," he muttered, his voice low, but you could hear the tension in it.
You nodded, staying close to him as you reached the end of the crowded space- but then another swarm of the pap came in and in the midst of chaos, someone pushed you from behind, causing you to stumble and fall against the pavement. Your hands hit the ground hard, scraping your palms as you let out a small whine, trying to get up but nearly stampeded in the process.
That was when Seungmin snapped.
His usually calm eyes darkened as he turned on the photographer who had pushed you, his entire body radiating fury. "What the hell is wrong with you?" His voice was low and controlled, but the anger in it was unmistakable.
One of the paparazza's turned to see Seungmin, who in the middle of the commotion had somehow lost his hat.
Seungmin wasnât the type to raise his voice, but the way he looked at the photographer made everyone around stop in their tracks for a second. The woman stammered, trying to back away, but Seungmin wasnât letting her off easily.
But the second the words left his mouth, he felt the cool breeze ruffle his hair and he knew he made a mistake. He mutter a curse under his breath and he rushed to your side blocking you from the paparazzi as their cameras started flashing in his direction. His hands were gentle as they reached for yours, inspecting the scrapes on your palms. "Are you okay?" he asked softly, his voice full of guilt.
You nodded. "Iâll be fine."
"I'm sorry I drew attention to us." He murmured.
"It's okay."
But Seungmin's mood was ruined. He helped you to your feet, his eyes still flickering with anger as he glared at the paparazzi over his shoulder. "No pictures." he said firmly, his voice trembling with barely restrained fury as he guided you to where he had parked the car. It was no use, since they never listened. But he continued chanting it as he hid your face.
"I'm sorry, Y/N." He said once more. "They're the fucking worst."
Jeongin
You and Jeongin had been trying to enjoy a quiet day out, just the two of you exploring the city. Heâd been excited to show you some of his favorite spots, and the day had been perfect, but the inevitable happened.
Jeongin tensed the moment he saw the cameras approaching, his hand tightening around yours as he tried to keep his cool. "Just stay close," he whispered, his voice calm but a little shaky. "It hasn't happened to me yet but sometimes they can get rough..."
You could tell he was nervous, but he did his best to protect you, stepping in front of you as the photographers got closer. They started snapping pictures, throwing questions at you both, but Jeongin just kept walking, his arm securely around you.
But then one of the paparazzi got too close, pushing past Jeongin to get a better shot of you. The sudden shove knocked you off balance, and you tripped over the curb, falling hard onto the pavement. You cried out as you landed on your tailbone.
Damn that hurts.
You felt blood seeping on the back of your leg too, a shard of glass seeming to have cut through your pant and wounded your thigh.
Jeongin froze, his eyes wide with shock as he saw you on the ground and the bit of blood. For a moment, he didnât know what to do, his usual calm demeanor slipping as panic set in. "Y/NâŚ" he whispered, his voice trembling as he crouched down beside you.
"Where are you bleeding from?" he asked, his hands hovering over you as if he was too scared to touch you, afraid of making it worse.
You winced, in annoyance, since the fall was painful but not unbearable. "I think that there was a broken bottle..."
Jeonginâs eyes filled with guilt as he glanced back at the paparazzi, his usually soft expression hardening for just a moment. He wasnât the type to get angry easily in front of you, but seeing you hurt because of someone elseâs carelessness made something inside him snap.
He stood up, turning to face the photographer with a look of quiet fury. "You shouldnât have done that," he muttered, his voice low and steady, but there was a fire in his eyes that you had never seen before. "Get away now before I call the police on all of you."
When the paparazzi didn't listen his voice raised.
"I SAID LEAVE!" His voice was sharp and threatening. So much so the group immediately dissipated.
He quickly turned his attention back to you after making sure everyone was gone, his hands trembling slightly as he helped you up. "Iâm so sorryâŚ" he whispered, his voice thick with guilt as he wrapped an arm around you. "I didn't think they would do that..."
You shook your head, trying to reassure him. "Itâs not your fault, Innie."
Jeongin frowned, pulling you closer to him. "Next time we can bring one of the Hyungs. Then I can protect you better."
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mom's fiancÊ/bf! joel miller x f! reader ⢠part one here
Summary: Your mom's new fiancĂŠ, Joel Miller, is the kind of man you could never shake out of your mindârugged, rough, and embodiment of your long-buried fantasies. He's been your next-door neighbor for years, and the crush you harbored through your teenage years never really faded. Now, he's with your mom, and they're planning to get married. You should want her to be happy, but you can't ignore the tension growing between you and Joel. It's something that was never meant to happen. But as you uncover Joel's true motives for being with your mom, you realize maybe your feelings weren't one-sided after all. And maybe, despite everything, youâre the one he really wants. tags: stepcest kind of, age gap (reader is in her mid 20s and joel in his mid 40s), forbidden romance, emotional conflict, slow burn, sexual tension, complicated family dynamics, heartbreak, Joel being an emotionally complicated bastard, ANGST, cheating, infidelity, nsfw, head f receiving, p in v unprotected, breeding kink, cum eating & fingering for like a sentence. /á - Ë -ă⊠authors note đŻ âż you asked, and i delivered. PART TWO IS HERE YALL. i hope I didn't let you down :( 5.52k words of pure wrongness, but hey, it's joel, so it's okay (haha, not). not proofread, so if you see any errors, just close your eyes pls thank you.
The weight of that night lingered in every breath you took. The memory of Joel's touch, his hands tracing every inch of your body, had seared itself into your skin, refusing to fade. It wasn't just the physicală
Ą it was the way his voice had trembled when he whispered your name. The way he'd held you like you were something sacred something he couldn't afford to lose. But you both knew that after last night, everything had changed. There was no going back
The secret you now carried inside you was heavier, pulling you further into an abyss you couldn't climb out of. And the worst part? You wanted more. Now that, you had tasted what it felt like to have him, the craving for him was worse than ever. You were addicted. The first morning without him felt empty wrong. You should have been able to bury the night, to bury the guilt, but instead, it gnawed at you, weaving into the longing that wrapped itself around your chest like a vice. You scrolled through your phone again, reading the last text he had sent.
⢠miss you, baby. I can't stop thinking about you. Wish it was you here with me.
your heart twisted in your chest as you read it again, your fingers hovering over the screen, aching to respond. He was gone. He had left early that morning with your mother, whisked away on a honeymoon that was supposed to be filled with love and joy: A honeymoon that, in a cruel twist of fate, was meant to celebrate his new life with her.
But here he was, texting you and you couldn't help but answer the pull that tied you to him. You could practically hear his voice when you read his words, feel the roughness of his hand brushing against your skin in the way your body still hummed with
the memory of him, and your cunt still felt him deep inside of you. Your fingers shook as you typed your response:
⢠I miss you too.
You stared at the words, hating yourself for them, but unable to stop. You hit send before you could think twice. A sick sort of thrill coursed through you as you imagined him reading it, imagined him lying next to your mother, his phone lighting up with your message, pulling him back to you even from miles away.
You had woken up in his arms, tangled in the sheets, the air between you still thundering with the afterglow of the forbidden but impossibly sweet. You had watched him get dressed in silence, his eyes lingering or you with a mixture of longing and regret before he had leaned down, kissed you hard, and whispered, "This changes everything." that it had. You hadn't stopped thinking about him a second since. But the worst part was, neither had he. Another message came through, lighting up your phone, pulling you from your thoughts.
⢠I need you. Being here with her feels wrong, baby. don't know how I'm gonna survive his week without touching you. â¤ď¸
your breath caught in your throat as yot read it, heat blooming low in your belly. He missed you. He wanted you. Even while he was supposed to be with her, on their honeymoon, he was thinking about you.
You hated the way it thrilled you, how the hought of him being with your mother didn't make you sick with jealousy, but instead only intensified the twisted longing that had wrapped itself around your heart. You knew it was wrong, god, it was so wrong, but now that you'd had him, you couldn't stop wanting more. You typed back, your fingers moving quickly, not giving yourself a chance to reconsider.
⢠need you, joel, I dunno know how to do this.
the truth of those words settled over you. you didn't know how to do this. how to navigate this mess of secrets and lies, of immense guilt. All you knew was that the need for him hadn't gone away: it had only grown stronger. As you waited for his response, you lay back in your bed, staring up at the ceiling. you mind replaying every moment of the night before. Your phone buzzed again.
⢠ill find a way for us to be together.
it was insane. It was dangerous. But he means it. And so did you. this impossibly tangled knot that you couldn't unravel, no matter how hard you tried. And part of you didn't want to. You wanted him. Still. More now than ever.
Your phone vibrated once more
â˘When I get back, I need to see you. Alone We'll figure this out, I promise.
You were already too far gone
Joelâs name lit up your phone screen, the buzzing pulling you from your thoughts. It was a shock, seeing him call. You hesitated for a moment, your thumb hovering over the screen, before finally answering. âHey,â you said softly, your voice shaking slightly. âHi, baby.." Joelâs voice came through low and rough, like gravel under your feet. There was a pause before he spoke again, the silence thick. âI couldnât wait any longer. I had to hear your voice.â
Your heart plummeted at his words. The sound of his voice alone sent a shiver through you, bringing back everything from the night beforeâthe touch of his hands, the way heâd kissed you like he couldnât get enough, the feeling of him filling you up. You swallowed hard, your voice barely a whine. âIâve been thinking about you all day,â you confessed. There was a soft sound from him, almost like a groan, the tension in his voice unmistakable. âIâve been thinking about you too, baby. I canât stop. You under me like that, full of my cockă
Ą itâs all I can think about. I keep replaying it. I miss you so much.â
Your breath caught in your throat. Hearing him say it made it all so real, the intensity of it, the wrongness, and yet how much you both wanted it anyway. You squeezed your eyes shut, the memory of his hands on you still fresh, your skin tingling. âItâs been so hard," you whispered. â I hate that youâre there with her...â The words slipped your lips before you could process them. He exhaled deeply, like he was struggling to hold himself back. âI know,â he muttered, his voice tight. âIâm trying to be here, I really am, but all I can think about is you. Youâre all I want. I wish I was with you right now, not here.â
What he was saying hit you hard. He was supposed to be on his honeymoon, with your mother. But here he was, calling you, telling you how much he missed you, how much he wanted to touch you, hear you moan his name again. It was twisted, but you couldnât deny the way it made you feelâdesired, important, needed. âJoel...â You didnât even know what you were asking for. You just wanted to hear him say more, to fill the aching silence between you. âI canât stand being away from you,â he said, his voice cracking slightly. âBeing here with her⌠itâs all wrong. 'm thinkin' about you the whole time. I want to be with you, not hidin' this.â The admission made your heart race, your body responding to the urgency in his words. You sat up on your bed, the phone pressed tight against your ear, needing to hear more.
âI need you,â you whispered, not caring anymore about what it meant. âI donât know how to stop wanting you, Joel. I made everything worse. I donât know what to do.â Joelâs voice came through soft but strained. âI donât want you to stop. I donât want this to end. I need you too, baby. Iâve needed you for so long, and now that Iâve had youâŚâ He trailed off, breathing heavy on the other end of the line. âI canât stop thinking about it. About us. I donât know how Iâm going to survive this week without you.â
Your heart ached hearing him say it. You imagined him there, lying next to your mother, feeling the same torment that was tearing you apart. The thought should have made you feel worse, but all it did was make you crave him more. âWhen you get back...â you began, your voice unsteady. âWhatâs going to happen?â There was a pause, tension .â I don't know, little girl. But I need my hands on you again, feel you around me, kiss yaă
Ą we'll figure it out."
Before you could respond, you heard a faint sound in the backgroundâyour motherâs voice, calling for him. Your stomach twisted, the weight of everything crashing down on you. You felt like throwing up. He was still with her, still living this life he didnât want, while you waited, caught in the middle of it all. âI have to go,â Joel said quickly, his voice urgent. âBut Iâll call you again. I miss you, baby. Weâll figure this out.â
And then the line went dead.
You stared at the phone in your hand, the silence deafening. Your mind raced, thoughts tumbling over one another, but all you could think about was himâhow much you still wanted him, even knowing how wrong it was. The pull between you was too strong, and you didnât know how to stop. his last words were ringing in your earsââWeâll figure this out.â But would you? Could you?
Your hand shook as you placed the phone down, the weight of everything suddenly pressing down on you with crushing force. The room felt colder, emptier, like all the air had been sucked out the moment his voice disappeared from the other end of the line. You had been holding it together, balancing the edge of something dangerous and intoxicating, but now, in the quiet of your room, the dam finally broke. You pressed your palms to your face, feeling the burn of tears already welling in your eyes. You couldnât stop it. The guilt, the longing, the impossibility of it allâit came crashing down like a wave, and you were powerless against it.
A sob escaped your throat, low and broken, as you curled into yourself, hugging your knees to your chest. The tears came hot and fast, spilling down your cheeks in heavy streams. You didnât even try to hold them back. You wiped at your eyes, but the tears kept falling, your breath coming in sharp, uneven gasps. You hated thisâhated how torn you felt. Hated that, despite knowing how wrong it was, you couldnât stop wanting him. It made everything feel impossible. You wanted him so badly, it ached. But the guiltâit clung to you, wrapped itself around your heart and squeezed, suffocating you with its weight.
The sobs came harder, your body trembling as you rocked yourself, trying to find some sort of release from the storm inside you. The image of Joel lying beside your mother, on their honeymoon, gnawed at you, twisting the knife deeper into your chest. How had you let it come to this? How had you fallen so far, wanting something you knew you could never truly have?
But even through the disgust, through the pain, you couldnât stop thinking about him. His voice, his touch, the way he had looked at you. It had felt real. Too real. And now it was like you were caught in a spiral, unable to pull yourself out. You cried harder, the sound of your sobs filling the quiet room, your heart breaking under the weight of it all. You pressed your face into your knees, feeling the dampness of your tears soak through the fabric of your jeans.
It wasnât supposed to be like this. You had wanted to make your mother happy, to stay away, to be the good daughter. But Joelâhe had always been the one thing you couldnât resist. And now that you had crossed that line, there was no going back.
The phone buzzed softly beside you, the screen lighting up with a new message. You didnât need to look at it to know who it was. Even now, your heart still reached for him, wanting more of the thing that was tearing you apart. But you couldnât. Not right now.
So, you sat there, curled up in your bed, crying alone, knowing that despite everything, despite the pain, you were already too deep. And you werenât sure how to climb out.
the time slipped through your fingers.
The sun had barely set when you heard the familiar sound of tires crunching on the gravel outside. Your heart raced in your chest as you glanced out the window, the bright glow of the headlights cutting through the dusk. Joelâs truck. They were back. He was back. you hated that he had to go away for work so often. even though the honeymoon ended early, he had to leave again for something regarding his job, so this was the first time you saw him in weeks.
The past week had felt endlessâlong days filled with quiet moments where you found yourself staring at your phone, hoping for a message that never came. After that phone call, everything had felt suspended, like you were teetering on the edge of something you could never go back from. You had tried to keep yourself busy, but every time your mind wandered, it drifted back to himâthe sound of his voice, the memory of his touch. The longing, the guilt, the jealousy... it was all there, swirling together in a storm you couldnât control.
You stood by the window, watching as Joelâs truck pulled into the driveway next to your motherâs. He climbed out, his tall figure silhouetted against the setting sun, a bag slung over his shoulder. You saw him exchange a few words with your mother, who was already standing on the porch, a wide smile on her face as she rushed over to greet him.
You blinked, shaking off the sudden wave of jealousy that washed over you. Stop it, you told yourself. Sheâs your mother, and heâs with her. You pulled away from the window, trying to steady your breath. But it didnât help. The pit in your stomach only grew deeper. You couldnât escape the feelingâthe weight of what had happened, the shame that gnawed at you. You had always known this day would come, but that didnât make it easier to face.
The doorbell rang, sharp and sudden. You froze for a second, your heart thudding against your ribs. Your mother called out, âIâll get it!â But you knew it wasnât her who he had come for. it was you. so you rushed in front of her, muttering a soft "i got it." When you opened the door, you saw him standing there, looking every bit like the man you had spent the last weeks fantasizing about. His dark hair was tousled, his eyes still shadowed from the exhaustion of travel, but there was something elseâsomething hungry.
He was wearing a simple flannel, sleeves rolled up to reveal strong, calloused forearms. He looked worn, but somehow more real than before. More him. You could feel your nipples harden at his sight. âHey,â he said softly, his voice low.
You nodded, feeling the tension coil tighter between you. For a moment, neither of you said anythingâjust stood there, caught in the gravity of what had happened, what you both knew but werenât quite ready to speak.
Your motherâs voice interrupted the silence. "Come on in," she called out from the living room. "I was just looking at the pictures from the trip. Joel, why donât you show her the ones we took from the beach?" Joel glanced at you, his eyes searching your face, but you forced yourself to smile, hiding the turbulence inside. You could already feel itâ those pictures, the idea of him sharing his time with her, touching her, laughing and smiling while you were here, waiting, stuck between two worlds.
As you stepped into the living room, Joel followed, and your mother handed him a small photo album that just came in the mail with a beaming smile. "Look at this one, Joel. Itâs from the sunset on the beach. I swear, the sky was never so perfect!" she exclaimed before heading to the kitchen to make some drinks for the three of you. Joel opened the album, flipping through the pictures. There they wereâJoel and your mother, side by side, arms wrapped around each other, smiling as they stood by the ocean. You could see the joy in your motherâs faceâthe happiness you had always wanted for her, but it still stung. The sight of them together made your chest tighten with something you didnât want to acknowledge. were you jealous?
Joel glanced up at you, sensing your discomfort. He cleared his throat, his voice lower than usual, as if he was trying to say something that hadnât quite formed yet. "I missed you," he said quietly, glancing back at the pictures.
You stared at the photo of Joel and your mother standing on the beach, their hands intertwined. The image of them together, so carefree and happy, only deepened the ache inside you. You clenched your jaw, feeling the jealousy flare upâjealous of the way they had spent those days together. Jealous that he had touched her, laughed with her, shared moments you had longed for. He caught the shift in your mood, the way your eyes narrowed at the pictures. You couldnât hide it. Joel stepped closer, his tone more serious now. "Hey, donât look at it like that. babyă
Ą"
You blinked, feeling the sting of unshed tears. "Like what?" You asked, trying to mask the hurt in your voice. "Like Iâm..." He paused, his eyes searching yours, his hand hovering, almost as if he wanted to reach out but stopped himself. "Like I was with her, and not with you."
"But you were." You blurt it out.
Your heart hammered in your chest. The way he said it made the jealousy bubble up even more, but there was something else in his voice tooâsomething like regret, like he was just starting to feel what had happened between the two of you. "I just..." You swallowed hard, your throat tight with emotion. "I canât do this, Joel. Seeing you with heră
Ą it hurts."
Joelâs face softened, and he took a step closer, his hand finally finding yours. His touch was grounding, reassuring in a way you hadnât expected. "Hey, look at me," he said softly. "It wasnât like that. Iâm with her, sure. I promised her, and Iâm tryin' to be a good man for her, but itâs not the same. Youâre different. Youâve got a hold on me, baby. on my soul and heart. I canât explain it.." You stared at him, your heart a mess of confusion and desire. His words sent a wave of relief through you, but it didnât erase the pain. You wanted him, but he was still bound to your mother, and that fact ate at you from the inside out.
"I canât pretend," Joel said, his thumb brushing the back of your hand. "itâs not something I can just ignore. And I wonât let it destroy you or me. Itâs just... hard to figure out where to go from here." Your breath caught in your throat. "I donât want to lose you," you whispered. "But I donât know how to do thisâhow to live in this space between whatâs right and what feels so damn wrong."
Joelâs expression darkened for a moment, the weight of the situation pressing down on him as well. He lifted your hand to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss against your knuckles. "I know itâs messy," he murmured. "But itâs not goin' anywhere. Iâm not goin' anywhere."
There was no easy answer, no clear path to walk. But in that moment, as you stood in the same room as Joel and your mother, no matter how hard you tried to fight it, you knew that whatever happened, you couldnât walk away from him.
Not now. Not ever.
The early evening sun cast a golden glow across the kitchen as your mom stood in front of the mirror, giving herself one last look before grabbing her purse. She hummed to herself, the excitement of her night out with friends clear in her every movement. She was still glowing from the wedding, from the honeymoon. The happiness on her face felt like a knife in your chest.
"You're sure you'll be alright here?" she asked, her voice light, not really expecting a different answer from you. " I won't be too late." You nodded, trying your best to keep your smile steady. "Yeah, Mom. We'll be fine. You deserve to have fun." Your mom turned to Joel, who was leaning casually against the kitchen counter, his hands tucked into his pockets. "And you.." she teased, stepping closer to him and pressing a kiss to his cheek. "I know you're not much of a party guy. Try not to be too boring while l'm gone."
Joel chuckled lightly, a smile twitching at the corner of his mouth. "I'Il behave,"' he promised, though his eyes flicked toward you for just a moment. a brief, loaded glance that made your heart flutter.
Your mom laughed, oblivious to the tension in the room, as she slung her purse over her shoulder. "Alright, don't wait up for me. I'll be back later." She waved, her heels clickingsoftly against the floor as she headed out the door.
The sound of the car starting up, the engine humming, and the tires rolling down the driveway were the last reminders of her presence before the house fell into silence. The quiet between you and Joel was immediate, heavy, as if the very walls of the house knew something had shifted. You stood there, not sure what to do. "Guess it's just us now," Joel said, his voice low, rough around the edges. He knew what he was doing. You swallowed hard, trying to keep your voice steady.
"Yeah... just us." You could feel his eyes on you, the same gaze that always seemed to see right through to the heart of you, the gaze that made you feel vulnerable exposed.
Joel pushed off from the counter, taking a few slow steps toward you. His movements were deliberate, careful. "You alright, baby?" You looked away, trying to gather your thoughts, trying to pull together some semblance of control, but it was no use. "I thought i could handle it, being here with you..." Joel's jaw tightened, and he stepped closer, his eyes never leaving yours. "It's been hard for me too," he said quietly, his voice strained. He reached out slowly, his hand brushing your arm, the touch so soft it sent a shiver through you. "This whole thing," he muttered, his eyes dark, intense, "it's not what I thought it would be. Not with you here. It ain't easy for me either."
Your pulse raced as you looked up at him, your eyes meeting his. "I don't know how to stop," you whispered, your voice trembling. Joel's hand moved to your waist, his grip gentle but firm. His touch was warm, grounding, but the fire between you was undeniable. "I can't stop." he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. "i've tried, but..."
He trailed off, his eyes flicking to your lips. You could feel the pull between you growing stronger, the tension wrapping tighter around you, making it harder to breathe. "Joel.." you gasped, not sure what you were asking for. "I know, baby.." you couldnât bring yourself to pull away. "I need you." you finally muster some courage. Joel's eyes darkened at your words, and before you knew it, his lips were on yoursă
Ą soft at first, tentative, but when he felt you respond, the kiss deepened. His hand moved up your back, up into your hair, pulling you closer, his touch igniting something inside you that you had been trying to keep buried.
The kiss was everything you had been wanting, everything you had been denying yourself. It was soft but intense, slow but deliberate, and it left you breathless. But even as you kissed him, even as his hands gripped your waist, pulling you into him, the reality of it all lingered in the back of your mind.
you pull back for a second. "We shouldn't be doing this." Joel's grip tightened on you, his eyes searching yours. "i know, darli'. we shouldn't." He pulled you in again, his lips finding yours, and this time there was no hesitation, no second-guessing. It was raw, intense, and everything you had been craving. His hands moved over your back, your arms, as if he couldn't get enough of you, as if he had been holding back for too long. You let yourself forgef everything. He picks you up and places you on the cold kitchen counter, your legs wrapping around his middle. "Need'a taste you, sweet thing." You moan as he undresses you from your flimsy shorts, pulling them down and getting on his knees in front of you. "No panties, baby? filthy little thing." Though it wasn't on purpose, you can't help but blush at his reaction. Joel inched closer, rogh beard rubbing against your plush skin, making you jolt. finally, he sticks his tongue out, dragging it through your dripping folds. you grab onto the counter, leaning back on your hands as you try to bite back moans. "Look at ya, dirtying your moms counter. don't you feel bad?" he teases. you don'tă
Ą for anything. it all fades away. the moment he digs into you, your eyes roll to the back of your head. joel circles his tongue around your swollen bud agonizingly slow. you try to push his head further, signal him to go faster, but he's adamant that he takes his time.
it doesn't take long until you feel yourself unraveling, that pit forming into your tummy as your muscles tense up. Just then, Joel pulls away with that, leaving you gasping for air. "Not yet, baby. want you to come on my cock." he was so vile, wiping his face with the shirt he had on before undoing his pants. they fall to his ankles and he scoots closer so that he's between your legs, his lenght resting snug between your puffy lips.
"Please, joel, don't do this to me.." You whine, unable to resist longer. "Pretty desperate thing. 's okay, I'll give it to you." With that, he pulls you closer and aligns himself with you dripping entrance. even if it wasn't the first time with him, it still stings, the stretch deliciously painful. "Fuck, baby, look at that. this pussy was made for me, yeah? say it baby. say this pussy is mine." he grabs you harshly by your face, as he pushes in fully. " 's all y-yours, joel, 'm all yours."
"damn right you are. my little girl, so eager to take my cock.." he deliberately snaps his hips, the tip slipping past your cervix. the pain was taking over your body, and you let yourself sob as joel holds you close while he starts moving. " 's okay, sweet thing. i got you. you're alright, you can take it." you are alright.
Joel leans down to capture your lips into another kiss. His lips are warm and inviting, igniting a spark within your core. The kiss deepens, filled with an intensity that speaks of desire. His hands slide down to your waist, pulling you closer as his fingers trace delicate patterns on your skin. The world around you blurs as he pushes inside of you faster, harder, and you hiss softly through the kiss. he's moving his hips the same rhythm as your heart that was pounding against your chest. "I can never get enough of you.." he growls through broken grunts as he moves into you, your walls clenching around him. "Joel, godă
Ą" he leans down again, planting soft pecks across your collar bones and down to your breasts. "yeah? c'mon baby, tell me how good it feels."
"feels so good.." Your moans echo through his head like a melody, and you can feel Joel's grip onto your waist growing tighter. the familiar pool into your lower belly makes its presence known as your back arches against his hold, one hand slipping under one of your thighs as his lips write kisses from your neck to your pebbled nipples "I'm so closeă
Ą" Your little cries are enough to send him over the edge. "I love you so much, baby, shită
Ą 'm gonna come some deep in you. feel me in your little tummy?"
your heart almost stops. he loves you. joel loves you. he said he loves you while he's drilling into you on your mom's countertop. and he's your mom's husband. as he's fucking deeper into you, the words slip out without warning, no second-guessing. "I love yă
Ąou, Joel!" he closes his eyes, forehead resting agains yours as his hips buckle from releasing white ropes of warm liquid inside of your velvet walls, the feeling overwhelming and suffocating. you wait for him to calm down a bit before you bring your hands to his face and pull him up for another kiss. You both catch your breath. finally, he breaks the silence, while taking his shaft out of your pulsing cunt.
"fuck, baby... look at the mess you made. you bad girlă
Ą lick it up now." you whimper as you try to move your limp body down the counter, bending yourself over to lick up the juices and come that dripped from you. joel licks his lips, watching as his seed trickles down your thighs. he takes two fingers and with no warning sticks them up in you, as you still lick the cold surface. "Want it all in you." you feel his warm, thick fingers swirling around your cunt, pushing back in any come that may have slipped out. "You'll look so pretty with my baby in you."
Joel loves you.
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