#departing senior

[italovision]

My October

[prince-liest]

I'M FREEEEEEE

Yesterday was my last day in the emergency department for this academic year, and of course it was also the absolute fucking worse out of the entire two months of emergency medicine that I've done so far in residency. I didn't get so much as a ten minute break to eat the whole fucking day, I stayed nearly two hours after the end of my shift writing notes and playing phone tag with a bunch of specialists until my attending fucking left, and my attending kept telling me to go see new patients when I was already super behind on figuring out wtf I was doing for the ones that I had. One of my sign-outs literally ended up being, "As for plan, uh...sorry, I didn't even staff this one. I put in a CBC, CMP, and UA and then they called a code and I went to go do that. Sorry." and fucking bless the next attending coming on because he was so chill about it. I think he could see the stress in my eyes, lmaoooo.

On the bright side, I did get to successfully intubate a guy! This is an improvement on the first time I tried to intubate someone, which was a few days ago on a high risk patient who coded in the middle of it.

Anyway, saw my clinic patients today, and now it's time for my first two-day weekend in literally two fucking months. Happy November!

[perplexingly]

I’m so damn tired

[heardatmedschool]

“When you know the patient’s history, and also know enough physiopathology, you rarely ever get surprised by radiological findings.”

[cipheramnesia]

Trying to crack the "Diverse Slasher" formula for horror movies has been a thing for a while, sometimes riding it as a selling point (usually unsuccessfully), sometimes using at as angle to be edgy, and once in awhile someone comes right out and delivers a good movie with good characters, which is Departing Seniors (2023).

It's sort of the Chucky the Series model - take a good plot, cast more than just white actors, write some characters as queer. It's literally that simple, and time and again movies and other media just can't seem to figure it out. Racism and queerphobia run real deep.

Anyway, Departing Seniors doesn't have any trouble with its range, and it's really above and beyond when it comes to the characterizations. It's pretty common to have stock characters, the bully, the mean girl, the flaming gay, whatever. This movie takes a lot of run time to explore its characters as more than one note, and the consequence of the extra effort pays off in suspense and emotional attachment. It creates a better film, better horror, and even the conclusion feels more cathartic.

It's not perfect, and could be better in some ways, but for me it was a great film, almost an instant favorite. I adored every character by the end of act one, and felt like the writing didn't cheat me or disappoint me by the end. It's not a film with exceptional depth, and more or less wears its themes on its monologs, but just seeing a slasher movie that goes all in on character development and isn't just crammed with white guys (give or take one black person dying in act one) - its refreshing. The humor and emotional engagement was like a little extra treat on top.

I guess some cw for flashing lights, but it is light on gore and light on jump scares, making it a real solid pick for those many of you who hate those specific elements. It's fun, it's new, I hope the director does more.

[anonymolly]

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[slow-reader-reads-books]

Anyone wonder about a The Substance (2024) au for svsss?

I'm thinking it could work for either Shen Jiu and a quasi Shen Yuan, or with Bingge and a quasi Bingmei, but I think being able to birth via your spine and some green medicinal goop (created by an underground black market company called The System, perhaps?) an "ideal" version of yourself and inhabit it for 7 days, but having to then return to your original body for 7 days, and having to both vicariously live through your ideal self, and then being haunted by them when you can't be them anymore until you feel forced to artificially manufacture a way to stay in your ideal self because you hate your real self to the point of wanting to kill them, but that in turn killing you, so you end up injecting yourself with too much Substance goop until you're unrecognizable to even yourself all in the name of escaping a world you feel unloved by...

Idk anyone think of this au yet? Highly recommend the original movie if you like plenty of horror, gore, and dissections of body dysmorphia that more or less leave you feeling like a changed person by the end (do check out the trigger warnings tho, it is a horror movie)

[orcinus-veterinarius]

A little win... yesterday was my last day at the zoo. I had to give a half-hour presentation (to a much larger group than I'd anticipated), and I was extremely anxious about what I'd prepared. But it went very well, and several people told me afterwards how informative it was! Which I really needed to hear after struggling so much with my confidence this past month.

[theyellowhue]

Rain after he had the time of his life the night before.

[scary-friend]

💔

Every day I remember that my dog won’t be here next year.

One year from now he’ll be gone, and there’s nothing I can do about it.

At any moment it could be the last time I see him,

Tell him I love you,

Hug him good morning,

And kiss him goodnight,

I want to turn back time,

I want things to be like they used to,

But that will never happen.

It’s been fifteen years together,

All this time I’ve never imagined a world without him,

Now it’s going to become a reality.

I can’t stop it,

I don’t know when it will happen,

and I don’t know if I’ll ever recover…

I remember the day we bought him home,

he was so sleepy all the time.

As he grew I watched him become the wild, energetic, explorer I’ve always known.

But now he’s almost become a puppy again,

He stumbles when he walks,

He can’t use stairs,

And doesn’t seem to interested in anything other than sleeping.

He’s not the same,

He’s losing fur,

I can feel his spine when I pet him,

I can’t even take him for walks anymore.

I’m watching him fall apart,

And I can’t help…

💔

I love you Koda, forever and always. Please just stay a little longer, please…

[the-lesbian-orpheus]

I hate searching for colleges. I’ve never felt more mabel pines coded in my life please make it stop

[eretzyisrael]

As Andrew McCarthy writes:

It’s telling that the Justice Department chose to proceed by criminal complaint rather than an indictment. An indictment can be a “speaking” instrument, reciting a narrative framework for the charges, but often it just states the statutory offenses alleged. To get an indictment, the Justice Department has to present the case to a grand jury — which might ask nettlesome questions, like: “Why are we charging a dead guy?” Because an indictment is a necessary step before a defendant can be tried, it usually conveys a seriousness of purpose, a readiness to proceed with prosecution. By contrast, a criminal complaint is just a sworn affidavit by a law-enforcement officer (here, as in most federal cases, it’s an FBI agent assigned to the investigation) attesting that there is probable cause to charge various offenses. 

In short, it is literally meaningless.

But could it be perceived as a strong anti-terror statement? Perhaps there is some symbolic value that might frighten Hamas?

Not at all. Especially since there was another similar action taken against another Hamas terrorist, and the US did not do anything to enforce it.

From the same Department of Justice in March 2017:

A criminal complaint was unsealed today charging Ahlam Aref Ahmad Al-Tamimi,.... a Jordanian national in her mid-30s, with conspiring to use a weapon of mass destruction against U.S. nationals outside the U.S., resulting in death. The charge is related to the defendant’s participation in an Aug. 9, 2001, suicide bomb attack at a pizza restaurant in Jerusalem that killed 15 people, including two U.S. nationals. Four other U.S. nationals were among the approximately 122 others injured in the attack. Also unsealed today was a warrant for Al-Tamimi’s arrest and an affidavit in support of the criminal complaint and arrest warrant. The criminal charge had been under seal since July 15, 2013. ... “Al-Tamimi is an unrepentant terrorist who admitted to her role in a deadly terrorist bombing that injured and killed numerous innocent victims. Two Americans were killed and four injured. The charges unsealed today serve as a reminder that when terrorists target Americans anywhere in the world, we will never forget – and we will continue to seek to ensure that they are held accountable,” said Acting Assistant Attorney General McCord.

The US saying that they will continue to seek to hold terrorists responsible means nothing when it has not done nearly enough to extradite Ahlam Tamimi from Jordan - a country that is heavily dependent on US aid yet has not experienced any real pressure to send Tamimi to the US.

[kindred-spirit-93]

story idea im never going to write (horror?)

every safety rule and regulation is written in someones blood.

its set not too far into the future nor too deep in the past, somewhere in the middle, somewhere familiar. the worlds nations have unanimously agreed to centralise global databases and archives & universalise regulations and law criteria to ensure better and more sustainable livlihoods for its citizens after what was recorded as humanities most disasterous decade.

it was to be a fresh start, a new page for the greater good of our kind, they all smiled and agreed. no one can know of the corners that were cut that lead to catastrophes far and wide. opposition was shut down and a false sense of peace befell all. save face. save lives. move on.

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plenty of career paths could lead you to becoming an employee of the great archives. it has been dubbed as the worlds second library of alexandria, housing the entirety of human knowledge in every field imaginable. it was a grounding and deeply humbling occupation and a very honourable and much sought after position. yet it wasnt a job many could handle.

new intern at the archives, fresh out of university having placed the highest in the admission exam, applies for the hazard control unit of the workplace safety division. story starts off with them being shown around by one of the elder 'safekeepers', a dean if you will, who supervises several departments according to industry & occupation.

*world building and stuff*

over the course of the story said intern files throught what feels like millions of documents and protocols and union meeting minutes and more, all as part of their accreditation & quality assurance job.

the lore isnt too clear but in essence the read every horrific incident in the history of human kind and truly understand the extent of written in blood.

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ofc our intern here is starting to have mixed feelings about it all. on the one hand they had no idea so much of the work would require handling and closely examining content this graphic, but at the same time they cant shake of the silly baseless feeling that theres something really sinister at play. how can they not when time and time again theyve seen how meagerly companies and governments handled tragedies in the workplace, bending all sorts of rules and finding more loopholes than fitting fineprint on their contracts.

unfortunately these discoveries are the culmination of over two years of grueling hard work, uncovering the darkest most damning secrets of industries new and old. and its high time for a well earned promotion. theres no turning back from here

*several moral dilemmas and identity crises all at once*

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blah blah maybe a timeskip or something idk its pretty vague lol but the more le intern researches and follows up on leads and looks up restriced files & tracks down survivng families of victims if any, the more they start to find out their hunch was indeed correct...

long story short bc my brain is peacing out already, the "its all written in blood" is more literal than you would think. turns out that many tragedies are secretly staged to maintain the status quo of the higher ups, and in the advent of a law suit that actually works in you favour compensations paid are undisclosed and more often than not return to the offending parties. anyone who disagrees or dares to oppose is wiped off the census (this is where the universal archives really comes into play; sure every nation has its own heavily controlled copy of the world archive, but some things stay in the capital ig)

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the safekeeper from before is a seasoned assassin essentially, they make sure everyone follows the rules and eliminates anyone who toes out of line (every department/ unit has their head hitman lol). the intern had managed to keep their head down for so long bc they were secretly compiling copies of evidence and was too busy questioning their life choices and ethics theyd stuck around for long enough to get promoted, which gave them access to their inner circles which opened another somehow worse door(s) of hell.

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tl;dr intern at universal archives starts investigating serial offences across many fields and lines of work and learns the ugly truth about just how dispensible big corporations they think people are.

after the shock wears off and intern gets promoted the more sinister side of things are revealed and it turns out that osha is the source of all evil and wont just wait for accidents to happen; they will actively set them up and write their laws using the blood of the innocent to enforce restrictions and slowly seize control over every industry ever. also thanks to astronomical pr budgets the general public is none the wiser :)

and our not-intern is horrified beyond comprehension with this knowledge and has 3 crises about it at once lol.

story ends with the nice elderly safekeeper smiling at intern and covered in fresh blood :)

the end

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i feel its important to let yall know i had visions for this while also thinking of a story where the titular character is called jack monterey.

[leselemens]

dont know what im doing with my life don't know what i want to do as a career don't know how to change careers dont know how to get over my crippling anxiety about making changes in my life aaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh

[liesonthefloordramatically]

sorry, I will keep kvetching about work to a minimum, but the extent to which everyone in my department is like, "we love and support you as a junior scholar <3" without doing anything to materially support me and ADDITIONALLY I have to chase them around to make sure that things are actually being done is. unhinged.

[citrusitonit]

early in the morning some kid in the canteen looked me up n down n said "Erm, today is PE uniform day." and walked away n we bust out laughing at him