#deleted my motivation to write him because everybody just ignored him or would interact up until i tried to actually do anything with him

[eterniityblooms]

it's Incredibly refreshing that aiden has been such a popular muse already on this blog, but it's been SO long since i've written him i'm gonna have to break out the ol fanfic writing in google docs to get back into the swing of how to write him so i can rp him properly again<3

[iaintyourbro]

As much as I ship Cloud and Tifa, I personally think that if Cloud didn't love Aerith, he wouldn't have beat himself up constantly about her death in Advent Children. I don't think it was just about guilt for being unable to protect her because he frets around so badly about Aerith to the point that he's unwilling to even LIVE anymore. Tifa loves Cloud, but I don't think that Cloud loves her back, and that sort of disappoints me.

Canon resources say otherwise.

Nothing ever confirms Cloud loves Aerith. Nothing. The closest you’ve got is her loving him - stated in Lifestream White - but nothing confirms he loves her. People can twist, erase, and ignore whatever they want, but it’s not there. The most I’ll give you is maybe he had a crush on her in the OG during his SOLDIER!Cloud time. Aerith tells us that any feelings he may THINKS he has AREN’T REAL in Remake. These are all part of the compilation. You can’t pick and choose lines, parts of scenes, and sentences to prove something as canon. It’s the whole picture. 

I think you missed the entire guilt thing that they’ve tried to clarify. The guy also has geostigma. He knows a lot about it. He’s spent a ton of time researching it. Tons. He knows there’s no cure. So on top of EVERYTHING ELSE he’s going to die now too. He doesn’t want to die. 

And look, even if he did - his BEST FRIEND and his BEST FRIEND’S GIRLFRIEND are there... sounds like he wouldn’t get too far. He also calls her Mom. Zack and Aerith also act like he’s a child that’s too big to adopt. I feel like they really tried to drive some of these themes home. 

Also - I’ve said this before. You all always forget about Zack. He’s got a lot of guilt and sadness over Zack. You all also forget that Zack and Aerith treat Cloud like a child that is too big to adopt. My husband immediately said during that scene that people must ignore this because clearly it isn’t romantic in the way they portray it.

Hell, I’d say his reaction not only to Zack’s death, but his reaction to Zack’s appearance in AC are FAR more emotional than anything regarding Aerith. 

Rationally, what you say makes no sense. Cloud tells us his feelings in the OG. In CoT he’s clearly happy and then goes down the path of guilt. People close themselves off in cases like this - not everybody talks about it and, yeah, that makes it worse. Top it off with a sick kid that - because you think you’ll get forgiveness - you really want to cure, then YOU get it, so in your mind, nothing can be done because the research you’ve done shows you this - it sucks. 

This isn’t romantic. Nothing about his relationship with Aerith in AC is romantic. If it is, then you need to say his relationship with Zack is too. Period. 

But you won’t, because for some reason, it’s only opposite sex people that get this treatment. Because I guess a guy and girl can never just be friends. 

And in that case, Clack wins. There’s more history and more of a relationship built between the two. I know people just hate to hear that, but it’s true. He knew Zack for longer and he knew him better than Aerith. 

Also, do you really think Cloud intentionally is going to shut off the woman who pretty much saved his life? Is he going to try and motivate her to keep going (early in Case of Tifa) if he really didn’t care for her? Would he freak out and stomp all over the flowers to get to her? Would he find out from Reno and Rude that the kids are missing and refuse to leave her side? 

The OG told us who he loves. 

I feel like a broken record here. I’m sure this is coming off as brutal, and I try very hard to keep my tone calm in some of these posts, but I’ve gotten WAY too many of these questions in the last few days and they’re all similar. 

Cloud is 21 years old. He is mentally 16 years old. Cloud has major trauma. He has amnesia and other shit going on in his head. He knew Aerith for a month. His focus was not just Aerith for that month. I know people for some reason think that’s the case, but I think they IGNORE everything else in the game. 

On top of it: ZACK WAS CLOUD’S BEST FRIEND.... I cannot in a million years think that once he remembers Zack and Aerith finds out he knew Zack that they’d be okay with getting together. I just don’t. 

They’re clearing up all this shit in remake. They’ve already made it clear that SOLDIER!Cloud also has a thing for Tifa. If you play Chapters 1-7 and 10-18, you’ll see a lot of that interaction. 

The devs have also said the characters are being portrayed as they were in OG. We just have the added features of voice acting and body language to make things even more clear. 

Please, next time you think about this undying love that he supposedly has... Ask yourself:

Would you be okay if your 21 year old son gave up on their life for a girl they knew for a month? When they were mentally unstable? Let’s just ignore anything past her death. Nobody would be okay with their kid doing that. Most people WOULDN’T do this on their own. Even Cloud I can say wouldn’t do it. Once he gets his mind back, it’s TIFA TIFA TIFA. There’s NOTHING that will change that. 

I’m not answering anymore of these questions that say Cloud doesn’t love or care for Tifa or that Cloud doesn’t deserve Tifa. I’ve answered enough. My answer will not change. You can believe whatever the hell you want, but going forward I will delete and block any of these types of ask. 

I didn’t write the story. If you don’t like it, don’t play it. It’s simple. 

[loneliestlimes]

Off my chest

I feel as if I have to write this down. I don't know how to tell the people around me about this.

I went to this birthday party held by a longtime friend. My car is out of commission for some time so I haven’t been able to leave my house too often, much less socialize and I was super excited to be able to go. The host was accommodating enough to find me a friend of his to drive me to the party. 

This friend picks me up and the first thing he says is “Wow you’re really really cute.” Ok, weird way to start an interaction with a stranger who’s car I'm getting in to, but harmless. The whole car ride is spent with this kid basically giving me an elevator speech on himself. Starts off with normal where he works type of information and ends with why he's “not like other guys”. Big sigh but hey we have arrived at the party so no stress.

The whole party is basically dudes at first, and one other girl who's in a relationship. So I'm like fresh meat to all these dudes, but surprisingly enough everyone is relatively sweet and normal. Except driver dude who is becoming increasingly jealous from any attention I receive. Even actions that are less flirty and more normal human interactions has him making faces and counter moves. Friend sits next to me? Driver goes out of his way to tell friend that clearly I am super uncomfortable and he needs to move. I explain that I'm perfectly content and nobody listens to driver dude but the whole night is these tiny interactions.

It is so hard to verbalize these actions. Like the actions in themselves could be innocuous but the way he did them? I felt as if he was being possessive over me but he just met me so that couldn’t be true, right? It was the way he sat and the way he interacted with me and everybody else. It was how he would put down all the other people in the room to make himself look better. It was a million other things, but at the same time nothing.

We played a drinking board game, and as luck would have it half of the team landed on squares that got them out of the game without taking a single drink. So those unlucky ones of us left got wasted. It was a super fun board game and the alcohol didn't hit me until the game was over, but oh boy did it hit. At this point all the lucky souls are ready to take the party elsewhere, while I'm sitting down trying to keep my head from spinning. Driver dude stayed sober the whole time as he was supposed to be my designated driver, so he tells everyone to head out and he’ll take care of me. 

I remember everyone leaving and inviting me and my only complaint being not knowing the cover to the club. From other’s retelling, apparently driver dude was making a big show of having me stay and not go and he would make sure I was ok. Wow how nice that he would make sure my intoxicated self made it through the night.

I remember laying in bed with driver dude next to me, and I can’t tell you how long but for what felt like eternally, it was just me rejecting his advances. I distinctly remember him asking me straight up to have sex with him and just repeating “I don’t want to. My head is swimming. My head is swimming.” It was such an effort at first to even turn my face away from him, push him away, anything. I felt like my whole body was underwater and my head was swimming. He proceeded to ask and ask and ask. “Is it because you think someone else’s dick is bigger?” “Just for five minutes?” I just kept pushing him away and repeating that my head was swimming. 

Once I was able to get my bearings I remember turning away to text my original friend. I told him that driver dude wouldn’t leave me alone. He was there in two minutes, I got away from driver dude and told my friend what happened. He kicked driver dude out and I slept over in a safe environment. I thought that was the end of it.

But no.

The next day driver dude had created this big drama about since he had been kicked out he had to sleep in his car, blah blah blah. I could care less buddy but whatever. He was allowed in to the apartment with an apology to me and a promise I wouldn't be alone with him. Acceptable, I still need to get home somehow. We spent the day hanging out in a big group until it was time to take me home. Everybody had work except driver dude and not being in the financial capacity to pay for an uber, (Jesus those are expensive!) I accepted a ride. 

The ride was uneventful. If you count having to hear all the worst traits about every person you interacted with, uneventful. Driver spent so long trying to convince me how awful everybody was as if I wasn’t dying to get away from him. Then came a super long and sincere apology. It seemed like it came from a place of understanding why I was upset and how he had fucked up. I was actually really pleased that he would even give me that and felt ok ending our interaction positively. Big mistake. Instead of running out the door I thanked him for the ride and apology. 

And I proceeded to be spammed with texts from this dude about his sob story life. Yeah, you met and assaulted me two days ago, clearly I am the perfect person to place your emotional burdens on. After an ignored text led to a sarcastic “Wow thanks for caring” I called my original friend to let him know that driver dude was apparently in a bad situation but I wasn’t going to do anything about it. There I learned that driver dude was “in love” with me and telling everybody that would listen about our wonderful night making out.

excuse me? 

And since he apologized to me he clearly had another chance with me now. After hearing that, I sent him a text to the effect of, “If the apology was genuine it wouldn't come with strings attached. Lose my number, I’m not your friend.” to my face he responded with a polite, sorry I made you uncomfortable consider it deleted. To my friend? Oh boy. There was a whole speech that began with what a bitch I am and ended with how I broke his heart. It was honestly hilarious to see but also so sad that this dude would think that. It was textbook Nice Guy. 

I also later learned that driver dude sent snapchat videos of us making out to a friend. So not only do I not remember ever consenting or making out with him but he thought it would be a great idea to send videos of him kissing a girl so drunk she couldn’t say no? 

It was just such a disgusting experience, but honestly the most heartbreaking part was thinking that for a second a person like that would even genuinely apologize to me. I’m smart enough to know there had to be ulterior motives but for once I wanted to think there were people good enough to understand what they had done wrong. All I can hope is the next girl is able to do more than I was able to.