#delete later??

[robogart]

Feel cute might delete later etc etc.. ✨

Been trying out shorter bangs bc stress haircut but I’m still not sure I’m 100% on them 🤔 But they’ll grow out so it’s no biggie I guess 🤙✨

Also going through a bunch of clothes for donating and found this skirt I forgot I had and it’s very cute! 10/10 love a good short skirt let’s goooo!! 🥰✨

[the-ace-with-spades]

Hi people, I'm a bit fed up rn so just a short reminder that authors can see what you write in your bookmarks on AO3

And like I've recently been struggling with writing more than usual and had a bit of a dry-up in comments (which happens, fair enough, you don't have to like my fics enough to comment, etc) so I looked into the stats and bookmarks to cheer myself up/fight the imposter syndrome and had just been met with two separate users using their bookmark notes to not only rant about how horrible and not up to their standard my fic was, but also, in one case, to make some 'subtle' transphobic remarks about me, the author.

Both users are now blocked on my AO3 but if you're using bookmarks to rank your fics and didn't like something, please at least have the decency to make it a private bookmark if you're ranting about someone's writing skills or plot or just plain calling their fic stupid and bad

I've seen users putting fics (mine and other's) in bookmark collections called 'absolutely nope' or '0/10' or whatever, which is not nice but tolerable but recently I think people are getting a little too comfortable about being negative in a space that never asked them to be

Like most people, I write fic either for fun or as a form of self-indulgent expression and I share it because I think someone might also enjoy it or appreciate it. So many authors struggle with motivation as it is and I'm not an exception - yes, I write fics for myself primarily but I wouldn't be posting or writing them down if it was just for me, they could just stay as daydreams in my head and spare me the frustration the writing process and notes like the ones I've just mentioned bring.

To put it shortly, please remember AO3 authors can see your bookmarks and the notes/collections you use (unless you make them private) and that AO3 authors are human beings not souless content creators

[nicosraf]

what could this mean

[babacontainsmultitudes]

*breathes in*

[havockingboo]

my birthday is next month orurorughihh what the fuck

[hewwocopter]

SPOILERS FOR LEGO MONKIE KID SEASON FIVE BELOW

yeah so it would take a miracle for me to finish this

[thedndgoblinwholivesinyourwalls]

Ya boy just learnt a thing about himself (i think). Gonna now project it onto fictional characters. (Literally all the kiddads but in all honestly mostly either sparrow or glark. JOSH BECKETT OC BELOVED YOU CAN’T ESCAPE MY PROJECTION)

[brainworm-blitz]

if you ever wanna go somewhere for something, arrive like six fucking hours earlier than you think you would need to. This will save every nerve in your body.

[killingg-eve]

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I was watching a rly good fancam (or whatever you want to call it), yesterday, on Twitter. And it brought back all my emotions about KE for the first time since the finale (// soon after the finale).

I realized that at some point, without meaning to, i blocked out KE and became numb to it. I kno it sounds really dramatic and whatever. But for the past 2 years, I've been wondering why I couldn't feel anything or write anything anymore. Yet, i knew i had to still have these characters around me somehow? So i have stickers in/on my planner, i have stuff on my work desk, i have art hanging in my bedroom. I needed them around me but I couldn't feel anything anymore.

It's also weird bc i know the whole story of the show after watching it 5-6 times, but it feels like lost memories at the same time.

In conclusion my brain is weird, the finale was associated with more pain than i anticipated or perceived of immediately after its airing, KE is actually like a giant wound even tho that sounds dramatic and unreal, and it's like a source of actual irl grief that has gone latent in my mind even tho i love it and would rather continue to engage, write, etc..

I'm not even necessarily mad anymore that they killed Villanelle, but i do wonder, what was the impact of the fact that we all watched that blindly?? Based on everything I've written here, it's Not looking good. Plus i had IRL trauma the day before it aired, so........💀

[kaioshin-kai]

Changing Rubis' hair color for a better color harmony! (I may experiment with the colors quite a bit but the magenta tones look way better!!)

All my OC's (+ few OC's of my beloved friends!) will have their DBFZ model for the VRC & rendering fun ^^ But I need my time/energy... getting there!!

When I finished some bases -> Much faster progress in models!!

Sadly I'm very tired rn.

[creepycrawlycreature]

any advice on how to stop self abandonment, people pleasing, low self esteem and a general lack of sense of self or identity? asking for myse— a friend

[onesingularbean]

[the-ace-with-spades]

At this rate I'll never fucking finish it (I've messed up Bradley's face 2 times now, one more layer of paint and the paper won't hold... should have drawn it bigger) but will post it here as a means to try to be accountable with myself

So, the firefighter calendar pic of Bradley from my hangster firefighter Bradley AU fic, ignition, would be this pic

[emoclone]

yeah i'm not gonna lie, this shit really sucks and i am hanging on by a fucking thread

and the thing is, it's just not fucking fair. i'd be thrilled to be here if there wasn't a literal public health crisis that everyone is actively ignoring. like somehow it's MY problem that i don't want to catch covid?? because everyone else is apparently chill with the roulette wheel of "getting a bad cold" and/or "getting lifelong disabilities" and you don't know which one you're gonna get??

but my real point is that it's fucked up that *i* have to make the decision to withdraw from the best creative writing program i could've gotten into, and miss out on a shit ton of opportunities, because i don't feel safe. and i'm being told that i'm crazy for not feeling safe when a TON of people are getting sick (with covid and various colds that might also just be covid that didn't show up positive) AND ITS NOT EVEN COLD/FLU SEASON

i'm gonna start strangling people. this shit is genuinely not normal or okay but everyone treats you like a conspiracy theorist if you point it out.

[babacontainsmultitudes]

(Whoever happens to see this) I made that Nicky web weave a little while back, and I have a Glenn one I still need to finish- but after that, are there any specific characters (or even ships!) any of y'all would like to see a web weave done for? I was thinking maybe Grant but I'm pretty open!

[bone-plant]

jack wont shut up about strade, a thread

I love strade but not in a "i want to kiss him" way, more in a "i want him to make me cry and regret this" way ❤