#delete later i guess

[chechula]

random comic diary from Finland, sorry for spaming. It was public sauna in Tampere. I forced my friend to go to Tampere since I wanted to see Muumin museum(which he didn't care about at all). But he really wanted to go to sauna, so I went with him :D

[aicosu]

Man I miss when tumblr meant messages and asks about fandom and lore. I miss when fandom itself was more connected. It may just be me, but it feels as though over the years fans have become more insulated and isolated. We don't share or collective hive mind anymore. I know thats because of a shift in so many different aspects of culture and society— but it sucks to live in the golden years of messaging people daily sharing art and prompts and ideas, recklessly making new friends just cause they posted an art you like— trying to continue that culture making discords and arts and hosting events, but it never being like that again.

Lame.

[katanasonata]

I NEVER KNEW I HOW MUCH I NEEDED THIS SHOW IN MY LIFE

[kyuhu]

I don't draw Ed and Lat as often as I'd like to but at least I can share a screenshot of the pinterest boards I made for them.

[hogs-whole]

This sucks I was gonna go to this kink event but it turns out it was canceled but there was NO indication it was canceled. I even put on my kinky books.

This is my fit btw, if anyone cares

[solidcarbon]

with 1999 update i'll be legally allowed to put uranus into some industrial leather club chick clothes. my GOD

[un-perro-vago]

I really do wish to be a confident person

If I was super confident in my self and in my abilities I would be so fucking unstoppable guys, you have no idea… but no, I have my self-esteem shattered in to dust at this point, it seems irreversible

I guess I always have to sit with the feeling that I will never be good enough for the rest of my life, no matter how hard I put my heart and soul into it. No matter how hard I try to be better.

I will never be good enough.

I will never be good enough.

I will never be good enough.

[vera-simik]

Sometimes I'm like

"is my art even worth showing?"

[rusty-keys]

the thing is that I don't inherently hate my adhd. By virtue of simply existing it has both caused me stress and given me things to be joyful about.

the real issue is when I'm forced to perform at the level of someone who doesn't have adhd, because I like it or not, it is a disability that affects my executive function first and foremost, and then messes with my memory on top of that. I could think I've been handling my shit pretty well only to be hit over the head with something important that my brain just decided to delete on a whim. Or, on the other extreme, I could remember everything I need to do to the last detail, only to find myself paralyzed to do anything at all, including the things I want to do.

I think that's why being called lazy feels like such an insult. I didn't choose to wake up at 7 and think "I need to have breakfast" yet not move for the next 3 hours just because I felt like it. I don't choose to not do things just like I don't choose to forget to take the medicine that keeps me alive.

[myewt]

Wtnv is so good when they stay a fiction podcast and don't hit you in the head with some really shitty derealization episodes

[deathclassic]

i feel like the absoulte disbelief when someone knows i exist should be studied. every single time i get an ask or someone actually says my name im like WH A T THE F UCKK and then im more surprised someone actually remembers who i am

[zaldrizdoron-darilaros]

im sitting my driving test in about 3 hours ugh... i really hope i pass

ETA: i passed!!

[lemontreesims]

Curious to know when will Tumblr get back to me about being shadowbanned... I really don't know if that's it, but I wanna send asks and have my posts show up in tags, etc tetc

[skywarpie]

I really don't want to be alive anymore

[barlee--mars]

I have not legitimately wanted to off myself for a few years which feels like a very long time but today might be it I think I hit my limit I just. whatever.

Its supposed to snow and the roads might ice over so maybe it'll happen anyway whether I'm feeling it or not

Im good.

[peppenispizza]

Yanderes are fine, we're fine. I don't get why you hate us

you. think. and. treat. all forms. of. abuse. all of them. sexual abuse. stalking. domestic violence. rape. violent possessive behavior. and. other. forms. of. violence. or abuse. in. a relationship. as. an acceptable. and sometimes. sexy. etc.

you. are. a. horrible. abuse. fetishist. you. should. be. able. to. figure. that. this. is. toxic. on. your. own. as. a. person.

get off my blog.