#del what are you even wordsing

[delcat177]

Have you ever watched the Hannibal series (the newer one)? It can be a little cheesy at times but you might dig Hannibal and Will’s dynamic. They remind me of Wilson and Maxwell in some sense

Okay, so here is the singular thing:

These two will always be my OG Hannibal OTP. Possibly unpopular opinion, I don't know. My God, how long I have loved them. Garage sale VHS long. Silence of the Lambs is a very favored movie by one of my OCs, and she was rather put out that Anthony Hopkins was not reprising his role at the time, in an expression of my own deep, deep longing for a full series of Iconic Murder Husband.

(She also eats people. And we all go ssst 'cause it's so hot good god damn Mr. Hopkins and Mz. Foster class! act! so! good! pecs jesus)

But once I got over that, I fully embraced Murder Husbands 2.0!

They ABSOLUTELY have the dynamic, except if my Maxwell brought Woundson food in his sensory-controlled autist den (A++++++ scene, life-sustaining, This Shit Everything About It), it would be dubiously cooked and also slung directly at his head with "EAT DAMMIT" and a snarky slapfight would ensue. Hannibal has endless restraint and patience, and Maxwell is more like Wilson than he likes to let on--he gets bored easily and is a curious man, and despite the chess mastery, he's impulsive, doesn't think too far ahead. He's not unintelligent, but, well...nobody's Lecter but Lecter.

(Lecter is on tier with Freddy, Mikey, and Jason for humanity. Maxwell retains more personhood by way of not having a body count, and by way of getting body horror'd for his actions. I Have Opinions About Killer Psychology, Excuse Me)

I will admit that I have only seen a little of Hannibal, I'm not even through the first season--this is because for awhile, I was watching it with my fiance, we ran into timing issues and started watching other things, that song and dance. That keeps me from claiming true ship status, probably, but it's something I'm working on remedying. I have deeply enjoyed every moment I've seen, and fully plan on watching the series in full, I just need to open up time for it.

It doesn't help that I started watching during what my friends/relatives call "the black hole period" after my describing it as such, an extremely affected span of years after my mother passed where I really wasn't taking in much at all because grief is able to block out many suns--even these dark stars.

(All of them. Like, damn these two are great, but I always loved Fishburne on CSI, Raul Esparza is incredible whatever he's in, I understand Gillian Anderson and Eddie Izzard I have yet to get to, just...Jesus this CAST)

I'd say I'll be ready for it once I finish hyperfocusing on the last AGDQ and once I get some words down on paper for my Maxwell/Woundson so I don't get character seep right when I'm finally seeing them straight on again, it's been a hot second but they're finally back IC, totally, in my head, and I want to grab that while I can. Then I can have precious reward of hot neurotic meets hot psychotic and oh god no why are there deer

(Three of my favorites!)

tl;dr: I love, I agree, I'm behind, I want more. Thank you for reminding me, I'm pushing this one up The Big Media List!

As a thank you:

From I think October? My Hannibal is the oldschool one, new one is my sister's, they both protect precious son.

Thank you for the great ask!

[delcat177]

An open apology

Dear Mismagius:

I'm sorry I have been viscerally disgusted by you since 2007 based on your sprite

It just seemed like such a horrendous thing to do, squeezing you into a weird amorphous hourglass when you evolve

Just a hovering wasp-twist of unbalanced wisp

It felt queasy and cruel and made you hard to look at

~*I had no fucking idea they gave you fucking arms!!!!!*~

Friends...?

Oh come on, we can hug now

[delcat177]

>settles into bed

>realizes

it’s because I forgot to mention for this particular commission he’s gettin’ that salt and pepper at the back isn’t it

damn me, my failure to designate how silver I want my foxes CLEARLY designates that these two idiots are small children, of course

imagine

[delcat177]

I don’t remember why I got on here now fuck

[delcat177]

Thanks @kaaramel! And yeah oof that’s a tough tid to suckle. This one is 1929. I wonder if the faces growing more apparently contented over the years represents acceptance and peace, or if I’m reading too much into it, or reading wrong. I’m trying to give myself enough trust to look at art and form opinions lately...it’s honestly tougher than it sounds. I dunno if it’s the inherent elitism art has held for the past (half?) century or if it’s the autistic fear of misinterpreting information and narratives or both, but I’ve had a tendency to not even try. Which...fucking sucks, man, art is great and interpreting it is great. Anyway yeah, being haunted by the obligation to softness to the point that you make a statement of it can’t be an easy ride. I’m fascinated by obligate/repeated shapes in art since realizing I have one myself—in the most accessible terms I can think of, boot up Google Maps and look at the marker and basically that, I’ve been drawing that bird-head shape in a million variants for ages without thinking about it. Not as an “everything is broken down into shapes” thing, but as an “I don’t know what to draw so here’s another fukken snoot let’s see what happens” thing, and as a shape I’m drawn to in design. I have no idea what this means or if it’s common or ANYTHING it’s AWESOME. idefk what I’m on about at this point BUT THANK YOU I feel more informed now and that’s always a good feeling

[delcat177]

Hey

If you don’t always manage self care well, try not to feel bad. If it wasn’t hard, there wouldn’t be so many posts about how to learn to do it better. Acknowledge to yourself that it’s tough and try to be kind like you would to someone else.

You’re not a bad individual or adult or worker if you can’t do things, or if they’re hard for you. You are important and have something special to give the world whether you have trouble with things or not.

Remember you have the right to ask for help, and again, try to be kind to yourself like you would to someone else if you do. Don’t assume you’re a burden.

That’s all. Stay frosty out there.

[delcat177]

Living well is the best revenge.

The ancestor of ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[delcat177]

It was the summer of '87.  2-car pileup on the highway, 837 dead.  My God, the first responder thought.  My God.

God didn’t answer.  He was the original, the biggest of all, the most learned and nuanced of their trade.

God was the first clown, and He was laughing.

Daniel Whiteface, the sheriff of the Orange County Clown Beat Division, grimly holstered his .45 Super Soaker as he

[delcat177]

Me: faceblind to the point that I have to have someone there during live-action movies to affirm that someone is the same character if a scene passes and they change clothes/hairstyle/lit. anything about their appearance

Also Me: spots a character in the background of a cartoon for two slim seconds and immediately nails identity, origin, and artist

People Wondering Why Furries With Autism Seem So Common: hiya

ok I was gonna leave it at that as a joke post, but honestly, I feel like this needs to be recognized?  Live action movies bored the hell out of me as a kid, including kids’ movies, not because of presentation or subject matter but because I could NOT keep track of what was going on.  I wasn’t dumb or not paying attention, I literally could not keep track of the characters because I couldn’t tell the difference between them.  TV was ok because they gave you enough time to learn the difference between characters by memorization, but movies were oneshot deals, and they missed more often than hit.

There were exceptions, and looking at them, they had common elements--they had distinct costumes, nonhuman characters, or distinctly telegraphed locations.  This meant a lot of fantasy and sci-fi, both of which lend themselves to furry characters by coincidence.  It’s also unsurprising that anything that came out of Jim Henson’s Creature Workshop fit into my world, since that was another sector that hit all of those criteria.  I may not have been able to recognize cameos in Muppets Take Manhattan, but I sure as hell knew who Kermit was, so it worked. 

I’m digressing a lot here, I dunno.  tl;dr there are a lot of reasons the furry community and geeky communities are comfortable for autistic folks, but I think the luxury of “thank God finally a movie where I can tell what’s actually happening” to a child can’t be understated in terms of development in interests.

I prolly should’ve left it as a joke post sorry

[delcat177]

I hate that “schizoid” is this big scary word associated with DANGER and DARK MYSTERY when actually what it means is a friendship with absolutely zero bullshit

I have been jerked around by so, so many people, all this drama, all this bullshit, fleeing forums, et al, and one of my oldest friendships (15+ years!) is with a schizoid person who has never once fucked with my emotions because they see no reason for social bullshittery

Like, it’s difficult living like that because “social bullshittery” also includes things like little white lies and stretching the truth and pretending to care when you don’t and for some reason these things are more or less essential to getting by in society, so I don’t envy them at all, and it says something that complex, layered, terrible lying is the social norm

basically I’m just glad they exist and they like existing around me and I’m like three grains of salt right now which is the closest I get to a pillar idefk

[delcat177]

Does anyone. Fuckening know of a tycoon game like the not dying parts of Freddy Fazbear Pizzareia Simulator because I super enjoy that part but I suck at the not dying + there is only so much of it

recs blease??? thank

I’ll answer replies and asks and stuff tomorrow I volunteered and shopped today and I’m at the point where I’m softly singing to Tumblr like The Witch except it’s “Trash website, trash website” instead of “Black Philip”

[delcat177]

I have a long list of things I hate right now, including Maxwell, Maxwell, Maxwell, Maxwell’s stupid fucking clothes, Maxwell’s goddamned stupid complexes, Maxwell, Woundson, trees, color palettes, several spoilers I can’t talk about (SO FUCKING MUCH ON THIS ONE FORREAL), not butter because butter is pretty cool, the concept of non-linear narratives, the fact that I pledged myself to same, this fucking desk, this fucking keyboard, and THIS.  FUCKING.  DOOR.  I AM RICHARD.  FUCKING.  CHEESE.  SO FUUUUCK.  YOOOOOOU.

wait what

anyway “myself” isn’t on that list and I’m making progress (I hate progress) and I’ll prolly be doing this again next chance I get (NOW I hate myself)

important: The first I ever saw of the song No Children by the Mountain Goats was a meme and while it’s come to be super important to me, for a long time I thought two lines from it were an exchange between two super Done people ex: “I hope you die”/”I hope we BOTH die” and that is equally super important to me in a super different manner

super

tune in next scene when I hate Woundson because it’s his damned turn to talk again

[delcat177]

I have a coronavirus

This explains why I can’t seem to kick it, it’s about out but coronaviruses have more teeth to them than rhinoviruses.  I’ll be okay in a few days.  In the meantime, I’m getting baked because fuck it if I’m gonna be useless I might as well be useless and happy about it

I really have too many bad health day reaction shots

[delcat177]

Normal days:

”God I’m not getting anything done in my life I have no accomplishments I’m going nowhere I should be cleaning the house more often and have a job no 4 jobs and I should be writing a novel and”

Sick days:

“Ah, yes, in this, the darkest hour of my country, I have succeeded in eating three of the eight saltines presented to me.  Clearly, there is no greater warrior-god in all the land.  My mission here is complete.”

[delcat177]

Top: Antique plague doctor mask Bottom: The Groke

Wake up sheeple

[delcat177]

strexosaurus said: That was magnificent

Not entirely sure you aren’t being sarcastic, but I’ll take it, thank you!

FUN FACT: I honestly had to stop after the diversion into the specifics of the ECHO-eye to remember what the hell my point was to begin with.  I am a professional gdi.