#deeeeeep breaths

[lesless]

It fatigues me heavily when I notice a person’s foul mood & bring it up so we can both accommodate it & instead they get defensive & deflect like I’m the problem for saying anything at all. It also exhausts me when a new person enters the equation & suddenly my playful banter is taken as criticism instead because they are triggered by someone else.

Today at dinner with friends I realized that my feelings of despair when others, especially those closest to me, travel without me aren’t mere FOMO but a deep sense of abandonment. When I was a kid my mom & I lived with my great grandparents in a room with a bunk bed & she moved into an apartment without me for a time to get established before I moved in & I felt so deeply alone in that time.

This compounds with the possibility that my health issues may be from endometriosis, & not mere food intolerances. I’d always kind of excused my severe depression as a very young kid as well, of course I was depressed I was sick from everything I was eating. But if it’s endo, that doesn’t typically flare & cause issues until adolescence. I’m having to begin to swallow that maybe I was just emotionally neglected & alone & that’s why I was depressed. I’m not mad at anyone, least of all my mother who was struggling to keep us afloat, but it does make me sad.

I’m also having to wrap my head around the shift from food focus to reproductive health focus. This is a huge severance from my mindset for years on years. It is very hard for me to shift perspectives so sharply & drastically, after years on years of being told those organs are in tip top, or even better than average shape for my age.

& I won’t even be sure if that’s the problem until I’m opened up & peered at. & surgery scares me, & my partner seems skeptical that that’s the issue, & all of this change feels very hard & isolating right now despite being surrounded by loved ones who I know support me & care about me. The feeling of alone from childhood never seems to purge itself fully from my core, & that too scares me. That this feeling of alone will always eventually find me again, & loom over me, & I can’t do anything to stop it or curb it but must instead sit with the terrifying vastness of it.

& too I am trying very hard to feel all of this as it comes instead of push it away, which has been my default & survival mode for as long as I’ve lived, & that is challenging when my partner too shrinks from discomfort for similar reasons of survival & aloneness & rejection in childhood. & I know we are both trying, but it’s hard for me to be level headed with his growth as much as it is hard for him to be level with my own. It is his default as well to make better instead of feeling negative emotions when they rise up in him, & I empathize with that deeply, but when I’m working on this actively it brings up these deep feelings of alone in me like a sour in the back of your throat when you’re going to vomit.

I do see him trying, & I appreciate that on a level I can’t express with words. His efforts through discomfort resonate in me, but my own feelings are still ultimately mine to sit with & process.

I had the doctors visit yesterday & she did say it sounded like endometriosis but can’t diagnose until surgery. Today I had a productive day at work & a really really lovely comped dinner with friends & my love & spending time with some of my favorite people was so so so nice. The warmth of loved ones thawed some parts of me & made them tender & vulnerable to this sadness, which I am grateful for. It takes a certain kind of safety among loved ones to be able to access these deep pains that otherwise would be walled off as a means to simply survive. I feel very fortunate, that my life is now this Eden which allows me to lance old wounds & purge the thorns in them. Regardless, I found myself with hot tears & a sinking that rose & fell as quickly as a sharp breath & as productive as a ripe fruit, bursting from a thin skin & leaking out old aches.

It is easy to lose sight of one’s fortune amidst such deep feelings of despair, & transformation, & general change. I can’t ever dwell in it without seeing the good luck & fortune I’ve stumbled into, not any more, any way. It is not a full month into 2025 & I feel my chest opening in a beautiful way. I wish you all solace & peace in your hard times, too. May we never lose sight of our fortune that we have this capacity to feel sorrows, as they are a lovely pedestal on which to display our happier times.

[uhzuku]

who are you... I don't recognize your smell....

huff harder bestie, it’ll come to u

[flamingo--ing]

and like. im okay. its okay.

[reddy-for-more]

The hill I will die on is that people who eat fish but not other forms of meat should call themselves pescatarian and not vegetarian

Or they can say "I eat fish but not OTHER FORMS OF meat."

Whenever I hear the sentence "I don't eat meat I just eat fish" the devil possesses me once again

[sophiethewitch1]

Not the perfect disabled today

[salemlunaa]

ꨄ VOID STATE REMINDERS ꨄ

since i get so many asks on certain things here you go:

1. you don’t have to focus it’s not a must, distraction isn’t a bad thing don’t see it as such

yes, you can listen to music if it helps you distract your mind from the 3d, distraction can be a great way to induce pure consciousness, it’s a myth that you need to be focused, if focusing helps you, go for it, if you’re bound to be distracted by your thoughts and imagination, immerse yourself in that.

2. You don’t have to follow bloggers and successor’s methods down to the minute details

yes that persons success story may look so effortless but you don’t have to do it exactly like them

yes that one method may have a million success stories coming from it but you need to understand that all those people did not follow the method EXACTLY, they tweaked some things along the way to make it more natural.

The key common denominator is that they all believed that everything they did was correct. They didn’t sit back up five minutes in to check that one method or that one success story for the hundredth time.

you also do not have to be in a certain position or stay still, scratch that itch, lay on your side or your stomach.

3. You don’t need anything but YOU

methods are cute but a little breathing some “I AM” affirmations and focus/distraction will have you in the void state if you believe it to be so. If you assume a lot of effort is needed, a lot of time is needed then that’s what will happen

you don’t need it to be nighttime, you don’t need a challenge or a method, you don’t need to saturate your mind for the whole day in advance, all you need is you.

4. Intent is instant, everything is effortless

You are the ruler of your reality, what you say goes IMMEDIATELY, if you intend to induce the void state your inner man doesn’t experience time or the 3d so nothing is stoping your inner man from entering the void this second.

If you assume it takes time it will. If you assume you need to be on a “void state journey” of trial and error to induce then you will {if only society didn’t instil a mindset that we need to put in effort to gain a result *deeeeeep sigh*} you don’t need to try and struggle with some challenge for you to result in inducing the void. Assume it’s all instant for you and it will be.

i think that’s all for now

thanks for coming to my TED talk, now go get your dream life!!

[vamptizm]

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP

yeah.

[mordacitatis]

age gap discourse has rotted the brains of people on this website i cannot lie

[pyxxiestyxx]

Don't Worry, Fragile Flower

"What's the harm, little one?"

You had been invited to a bit of fun. One of your old friends was celebrating her Domestication Day, and you had agreed, thinking it was a small little get together where you shared a few drinks with her and her Master (a lovely old fellow that gave you fantastic advice).

When you got to her place and saw they had temporarily removed her house and installed a pavilion, you realized you may have assumed a bit too much.

"It's just a little bit of fun, you know. Class A xenodrugs like this one are rated for you, I already checked with your Vet."

You were one of the few independents there, with the rest being an absolute gagglefuck of florets and Owners…and quite a few affini looking for a meet-cute. Including the one currently boxing you in a corner, all four of her eyes trained on one thing: you.

"It will be a quick little prick, and then you get to feel everything so much….brighter. So much more. Does that really sound so bad?"

You shift uneasily at the vine she held between you, the pale yellow flower on its tip seeming to glow gold in the setting starlight. She was apparently a friend of a friend, or something. Maybe she was just a random affini who had wandered to the commotion. There really wasn't any way for you to check, unfortunately.

"Is something wrong? Plenty of respectable independents enjoy a bit of fun, you know. Unless…" She leans in closer, pressing the vine against your stomach and chest. You can't look at both her and the flower anymore, so you keep your eyes trained on hers.

"Unless you're one of those." Her voice drops to a whisper that rolls over your ears, as if it was a secret to share between you, as if you weren't complete strangers.

"Unless you're a floret, and just don't know it yet. It happens, oh yes. Far, far too often, really. A silly little sophont sees their friend enjoy a new life, and gets an uncomfortable knot in their stomach. Anger and sadness and jealousy. Because deep deeeeeep down, they want it sooooo badly. But they don't know how to say it, so they wrap it up all snug in a blanket of denial."

She peers at your face, searching for something in your eyes. You hold your breath, thoughts sparking out in bursts of energy, nothing useful or usable.

And then you feel the sting of a needle, though not the one resting on your chest. It was, you belatedly realize, just a pretty distraction.

"Don't worry about all that anymore, petal. You can't hide from meeee~ now then."

Her eyes pulled you forward and down as if gravity itself had changed. As you tipped onto your knees, she caught you by the throat, letting your knees dangle just slightly off the ground. Her smile was everything at the moment, a blazing star of emotion that smoothed all the worries in your brain.

She giggled, triumphant. "Say 'Thank You', dear~"

[nottsangel]

Picture this: sex w/ Harry in the Prefects bath. You're relaxing in the tub together, and soon you're straddling his lap w/ him inside you. And there's cockwarming involved; you want to sit & feel each other for a few minutes before you start riding him. Stroking each other’s faces & giving each other open-mouthed kisses on your skin w/ the warm water & bubbles lapping around you as you pleasure each other. There’s just something about sex in the water, you know? And I just want Harry 🥰

oh jesus fucking christ this is hot i had take a deeeeeep breath. i just wanna hear him moan n whimper so bad… also whenever you ride him he tightly grabs your hips, fingers digging into your skin, to compose himself or he will cum within a second :’)

[yanderelinkeduniverse]

Yandere Sky Headcanons

Sky is, without a doubt, a hopeless romantic when he’s in love. We’ve seen him swoon and sigh dreamily when thinking about his loved one, he’s THAT kind of lover boy. Naturally, when adding a layer of insanity tinged love sickness to that adoration, he’s prone to becoming very affectionate.

Unless you are as dense as a rock, it will be no secret that the Hero of the Skies is head over heels in love with you. He basically has heart shaped pupils whenever he looks at you, cartoon heart bubbles magically appear around his head when in your vicinity and his face turns so red you’d think he had a high fever.

Sky is a devout yandere, obsessive in every way, shape and form, and protective to a fault. Even when not around you, you occupy his thoughts and daydreams to the point where it seems like he’s never not thinking about you.

He’s got a masters degree in yearning from Pining University.

And while he hasn’t lost that many people like some of the other mentally unstable chosen ones in the Chain(namely Wild and Legend), the fear of losing them is very real to him. He’s known the blood chilling terror of being a few steps too slow and a few minutes too late with the only thought in his head being “what did I do wrong?”

Following the conclusion of his first and only journey, Sky has come to accept that he made his mistakes and that he must move on in order to grow, but that doesn’t stop him from taking those lessons to heart when falling in love with you.

We’ve seen multiple times throughout the various installments that one of Sky’s favorite hobbies is playing his lyre. It’s a simple pleasure he indulges in whenever they have a moment of peace and the sound never fails to remind him of his home. But he’s found another reason to love it and that is the attention you end up giving him whenever he plays a song.

He isn’t the best musician in the group, but there’s no denying that the simple melodies he strings together are pleasing to the ears, so it’s no wonder you’d take the time to sit down, listen, and compliment him.

Sky doesn’t see it like that, though.

In his deluded, love hazy mind, all that registers is that you’re there giving him your attention and your praise; two things worth more than gold in his eyes. He’s like a drug addict who just got hit with another dosage. If he had a tail he’d be wagging it so hard it would thump against the log he’s sitting on, so he better consider himself lucky that Twilight is the dog of the group.

Though, if would please you, he’d willingly let you collar and leash him. Tell him to sit and roll over, he’ll do it on command without any shame whatsoever. He’ll even walk around on all fours if you want!-

Anyways-

THIS! 👏 MF! 👏 STEALS! 👏 FROM! 👏 YOU! 👏

I mean, technically it isn’t for long, he won’t permanently take something that belongs to you without ever giving it back(in secret so you never find out it was him), but he WILL swipe something of yours from time to time. Most commonly he’ll take a tunic or shirt from you, something you won’t immediately notice is gone.

When he has a moment of privacy, he’ll take out his little treasure and press it against his face, taking in a deeeeeep breath, and sighing lovingly. He’s got it bad for you and he knows it. If he could he’d use your tunic as a pillowcase whenever he went to sleep, but there’s no way he wouldn’t get caught.

Despite all this sugary sweetness, Sky isn’t solely a soft and gentle boy. If he is provoked, or if you’re being bothered, Sky doesn’t hesitate to step up and glare down the nuisance, all the while keeping a calm smile stretched across his face. This is where his surprisingly deep voice comes in handy, people aren’t expecting a voice like his to come from such a soft face.

Out of all the members of the Chain, I actually think that Sky would be one of the most patient when it comes to people trying to mess with them or you respectively; he’s dealt with Groose’s bullying for a few years, I think he’s a natural at letting nasty comment slide right off him like water off a duck’s back.

However, even then his patience is dangerously thin regarding people. If provoked he won’t hesitate to begin plotting the fool’s demise, whether it be a swift cut to the jugular or a slow, agonizing demise is up to the person in question.

And finally, just a hint, do not try to run from him, it won’t work.

If Fi’s ability to dowse objects and seek them out is based on Sky’s own desire to find them, then if you were to try and run away, he’d be able to track you right down to the exact spot you’re standing in. Because there is nothing and no one alive that Sky wants and needs more than you.

Hide in the woods, in a cave, in a dungeon, in a mountain, it doesn’t matter. He will hunt you down, find you, and drag you back home in his loving, suffocating embrace.

[hatterofthelabyrinth]

The last time I was trapped in a labyrinth, I was told to shoot up red sparks. Could you send up a signal somehow?

Was the labyrinth you were stuck in another dimension? A pocket reality? A living society where everything seems normal enough besides the fact that you're slipping away? If it was, then sure, yeah, I'll send a flare. Question, who the heck would I send a signal to?? This isn't a corn maze where the admin can just see your sparks and pick you up to show you the way out! Even if it was, who the heck would be the admin?! I- (deeeeeep breath.)

I've got no one but myself to rely on here.

[slashingdisneypasta]

Incorrect Quote

Chucky: *deeeeeep breath, seeing something Freddy's done that pisses him off*

Chucky: ... I could yell,

Chucky: I could scream,

Chucky: I could call you names,..

Chucky: But one of us has to be the mature one,

Freddy: (:(:(: Oh yeah?

Chucky: And it...

Tiffany: 😊*standing there like yes, thats her husband. her controlled, sexy-as husband*

Chucky: -AINT GONNA BE ME.

Freddy: 🤣🤣🤣

Tiffany: 🤦‍♀️ *like oh yeah. thats her husband alright*

[majesticfaba]

Your head is shaped like a lima bean and anonymity is for cowards

down with Aether

💢💢 You dare slander the good name of the Aether Foundation…? (Deeeeeep breath). (Exhale). Of course. I’m not surprised, you’ve already shown yourself to be an ignorant fool. I can hardly expect an idiotic Team Skull member to understand the highly valuable work we do.

[lenorelovesgirls]

lessi, less, our stargirl, bubba. I'm going to need to take a deeeeeep breath and score ❤️

[chancloud8]

It’s injured anon, whoever wanna fight the person who reported the master list instead of that let’s burn down tumblr headquarters cause who fucks with the best blog gets the 🔥 let’s plan out who’s bringing gasoline and who brings the matches

Ya'll are so violent lmao 🤣

I feel very loved tho, so thank you for the support ❤️

While I feel it's ridiculous that it happened, it's thankfully a pretty easy fix, and I'll be making sure the new masterlist post is safe and following all the tumblr guidelines.

No fire or matches needed (you are giving me a fire fighter au idea tho STOP) darling, just deeeeeep breaths and hide the pitchforks before tumblr comes after you too 🤣

Big smooch <3