#dearest anon: 👉👈

[1004tyun-archive]

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big big hugs to all the emoji anons and to crystal of course 💗💗🫂🫂

big big hugs to everyone~ 🩵🩵🩵🩵

[sharkinlovewithadolphin]

For the dessert anons: 🍩🍬🍯

Anonymously send me some desserts!

🍯 - You’re a really sweet person 🍬- I’d love to be your friend 🍩 - I’m always happy to see you on my dash

[the-lonelybarricade]

LB my dear dear! I have devoured all yours and MB's ao3 works till date ❤️🤌 and I am feeling pathetically ravenous for more 🫠. Although my question is- since I have seen people asking you for suggestions as to which blog and which writer to look to for more feysand/elucien content I would like to request the same only and only if you are comfortable and have the time for this pressing request. And thank you even if you couldn't for some reason im only scared since you are busy and wouldnt want to burden you with such an exigent task. . I'm sorry to bother you That would be it 🥺 👉👈

You want blog suggestions for Elucien/Feysand authors? And you think you're bothering me??? Anon, this happens to be my exact area of exertise and there is nothing love more than hyping up my friends!

To kick us off my lovely friend @velidewrites is an extraordinarily talented writer and artist, and also just an all-around ray of sunshine whose blog I cannot recommend enough.

There's also @writtenonreceipts who's every work is literal potery. Pick any of her stroies and you will come undone.

@belabellissima has a beautiful Feysand/Elucien series called the State of Grace and is also one of my favorite people 🥺💝

@azrielshadowssing also regularly feeds us with delciioiusly sinful Feysand and Elucien stories 🥰 hehehe definitely read the tags though!

Among a host of other incredible fics, @damedechance has an onlyfans series that will make you feral - Playgirl (Elucien) and darling.exe (Feysand) 👀👀 Come back to me once you finish losing your mind

@xtaketwox and @itsthedoodle come as Feysand/Elucien pair hehe. @xtaketwox has treated us to lots of goodies, but I wanted to highlight her modern soulmate AU which has a dedicated work for Feysand, Elucien, and Nessian! @itsthedoodle has written so many beautiful feysand oneshots and is the sweetest, most unhinged person you'll ever have the pleasure of knowing.

@asnowfern is so talented and writes for a lot of different pairings, including Feysand and Elucien! Right now she's working on a stunning Feysand AU inspired by a chinese legend called Till Forever Falls Apart

if you're a fan of next-gen, @areyoudreaminof has lots of adorable fics and headcanons centering around Elucien and Feysand as parents!

@witch-and-her-witcher again writes for many couples, including Feysand and Elucien! She recently wrote a Feysand and Nyx oneshot, The Little Tiger, that completely fractured my heart and put it back together.

@thegloweringcastle is another extremely talented writer who has a wealth of feysand and elucien fics! One I really love is the The Law of the Land which is a Feysand western AU with background Elucien 🤠

@darling-archeron has been in this fandom since 2016 and in that time has blessed us with so much wonderful Feysand and Elucien content!! (One day you really need to sit us all down and tell us the fandom lore we all missed out on from the acomaf/acowar releases 👀)

@iambutmortal has a lot of delicious Feysand and Elucien stories! For Elucienweek last year she wrote a really addicting story called The Honeymooners

@labellefleur-sauvage has written so many incredible Elucien fics! As well as a very delicious monster!Feyre fic called Meet Me In the Woods hehehe 👀

@foundress0fnothing always blows me away with her writing. For Elucienweek last year she wrote an Elucien sex cult fic titled Both Forever and Rather Die that lives in my head rent free.

@howlingcaptaincommando is working on a really amazing pirate AU, Never Shall I Die, centering around Elucien, Nessian, and Feysand!

@vulpes-fennec has so many lovely stories, including her Prythian Fantasia WIP which centers on the Archeron sisters and their mates 😍

@popjunkie42 has yet to dip her toes into writing Elucien but maybe one day we can convince her 👀👀 That said she has so many amazing Feysand works such as Hate Me Instead and her current WIP Blossoming In Winter.

Likewise my dearest friend @wilde-knight has only written Elucien and Nessian, but I can't recommend her works and blog enough!! She's working on an amazing Princess Bride AU called Burnished Gold

@captain-of-the-gwynriel-ship is a die-hard Feysand, Elucien, Gwynriel, and Nessian! Currently they're working on a Feysand fic Five Minutes to Midnight which also features background Elucien!

@octobers-veryown creates so many wonderful moodboards for variuos ships and characters! I cannot recommend following them enough💕

And finally @rosanna-writer, @reverie-tales, @thesistersarcheron, and @starfall-spirit are my multishipping queens 🥰 On their blogs you'll find wonderful content for Feysand, Elriel, Elucien, and other ships as well!

[pdpenpals]

happy to have found your blog, love the concept!

could we maybe get a confession letter from pdh!travis? 👉👈

hi!! thank you so much, anon. hope you like the liberties i've taken with this request (you didn't specify what kind of confession it was going to be!! /silly), hehe. you'd wanna hear what this lil guy has to say, but he thinks it may be a little too much.

as expected, there’s another letter waiting for you at the usual spot. sure, it’s exciting, but you can’t help but wonder how fast it takes for your “secret admirer” (as your friends like to put it, even though you insist you're just friends) to send you a reply and leave it without you being able to catch a glimpse of him. maybe you should be scared instead. is it even possible to do that? who would have so much free time on their hands to go through the trouble of this anonymous (sorta) exchange? you two apparently.

the envelope as always is the plain white ones you can easily buy in bulk for cheap. there’s no seal, but you can easily tell it’s been shut tight by glue. you look around and find no one else within the vicinity, so you decide it should be fine to open it and start reading then and there. as usual, it's left unsigned.

My dearest cruel friend,

Re: your last letter, ouch. After how I’ve bared myself to you these past few weeks, that’s how you reply? As someone who’s been in Phoenix Drop longer than I have, I don’t think that’s very “bleeding heart” (I don't think that's the actual word they use but does anyone actually memorize the school's core values??) of you. Just kidding. Sorry.

I still wonder what life would be like if I never transferred to PD. So far acads and socializing have gotten better than expected but never easier. To be honest, what I have now isn’t exactly how I thought my high school experience here would be like. This year, I imagined going out with friends more, maybe even a nightly rendezvous with someone who’s caught my eye, but my words and I are falser than vows made in wine. 

My bad, practice has been way too fun to not quote this year's play. Seriously though…

I say all that, yet here I am, spending more time at school than I should, sticking around for a while longer on campus, checking every other hour for your next letter. Before I knew it, I’d spent the majority of this semester getting to know you. Now I do, and I am sure that there’s no one else like you in this world. I guess you could say I’m absolutely smitten by you.

My friend says I should just go up to you and reveal myself already, and as much as I want to say I don’t think it’s the right time yet, or that I prefer the intimacy of being your faceless penpal (free to quarrel with you all I like in pen without being judged), I’m honestly very very afraid of what you’d think of me when we finally meet face to face. No matter how hard I try, I'll never be like said friend, forward and confident and cool.

It is as clear as day that my fate is sealed.

You’d hate to hear this, but I’ve been meaning to distract myself from our exchange by choosing to hang out more with other people, hence my slower replies. But hear me out when I say that there’ll be this little something about them that makes me think all about you, and then I’ll get upset since they will never be anything like you. So there’s no way for you to tell me that don’t think of you every day.

PS. You’ve probably figured out who I am by now, haven’t you?

[cloudcountry]

AAAAA Congrats on 2.5k followers!! You deserve it!! >w< You’ve put in a lot of effort to get to this point! :D

For the event, may I request a letter from Lilia? The relationship milestone might be a bit specific, but I’m an absolute sucker for fluff,,, The letter is when the day of his and the reader/receiver’s anniversary comes around! For bonus points, maybe he and the reader have been together for a really long time,, 👀 👉👈

(On a side note, I’ve noticed that you seem kinda stressed with things lately, so please keep taking care of yourself in mind!! Take it easy, don’t forget to drink some water, and get lots of sleep 🤗 Take breaks!)

Congrats on the followers again! Keep up the amazing work!

Jackdaw Anon 🐦

dearest love,

happy anniversary. i wouldn’t miss this date for the world.

i must confess, although you are not my first love, i want you to know that you are one of the closest people to my heart. at this moment, i think of nothing but you, and every moment after this will be spent thinking of you and my dearest family.

i’ve adored you for what seems like such a short time. i know it is far longer to you, however. to have someone pine and yearn for you for years must be so significant to a human, yet so fleeting for a fae...

and yet, that doesn’t make our time together insignificant. if anything, it makes your impact on me so much clearer. you love with all that you are, despite my flaws and shortcomings, and you care for silver and malleus with such diligence. i admire you for that.

fate smiled upon me the night we met. the moon had never looked more beautiful than when you were standing under its glow.

i love you, dearest. forever and ever, long after we both turn to dust, and even then we will find each other.

lilia vanrouge

[dazed-poltergeist]

hiii, call me 🍀 anon :D

can I get some relationship headcanons with Edward Kenway since the fandom is kinda lacking in those 👉👈 btw I love the pirate theme on your blog

Hhhhgysygddisdj dearest 🍀anon I feel the need to tell you that youre my first request and I feel honoured lol,, thank you for the compliment and for the request :DD

Idk if I did enough of them though ( TT0TT) you might be getting less than you asked for

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How did the two of you even meet? Or fall in love? That is a mystery up to your imagination :) There are so many possible scenarios here and I won't tackle any of them

After you two get together, Edward becomes more mindful of the activities he drags you into, whether you're capable of handling yourself or not

For example, he doesn't visit taverns that frequently anymore and makes sure to stay out of fights as much as possible whenever the two of you end up going.

That also applies to sailing out at sea with him. Ofcourse he lets you come with him since you insisted, but with you he tries to stick to waters where the ships aren't as formidable as a frigate or a Man o' War: Mostly some schooners and brigs.

But!! That doesn't mean he will become a pacifist towards enemy ships whenever you're on board. Hint hint wink wink

One time though, he did go into more dangerous waters near Kingston for harpooning, he caught a hammerhead shark to impress you

I don't see Edward as big fan of PDA, but whenever he does anything like it, it's subtle, like little kisses on your face and wrapping an arm around you. He prefers to keep everything more than that behind closed doors and away from prying eyes.

Besides physical affection, he likes to spoil you with gifts sometimes, like beautiful clothing or accessories if you're interested in these, or some treasures he finds from shipwrecks and convoys, or perhaps other kinds of trinkets that you like or that remind him of you.

You end up making some new friends out of his own friend circle, "mi amigo es tu amigo" [my friend is your friend], if you may. James, Anne, and Adewale are who I have in mind mostly, they appreciate your company and the impact you have on Edward. Although they would make you nag Edward a bit on not pirating as much as before lol

[ohbo-ohno]

Idea for the Conquerer!AU: When one of Ghost’s pets misbehaves or messes up, the other one is the one who gets punished.

Johnny maybe breaks something or doesn’t perform to Ghost’s standards for whatever reason and he’s being dragged by his collar back up to their shared room to be tied up and watch as his poor princess begs Ghost to be gentle with her, and then to stop, before she stops talking at all and can only sob :((( I’m thinking the most common punishments for her are harsh spankings or floggings that leave her shaking and barely there!!!!!

And then when she tries to act tough later on and misbehaves it’s Johnny who takes the fall and even though he’s enjoying it a little bit Ghost is WAY harsher on him than he is with his delicate little Princess so by the time it’s over she’s begging him to stop hurting Johnny, swearing she’ll be good, that she won’t mess up on purpose again, won’t he please just unite her so she can at least go and comfort Johnny? :(((( even when Johnny’s trying to break her for Ghost she cares so much for him and doesn’t want her closest and dearest friend to get hurt and especially not because of her!!!!!! And Johnny hates watching his poor Princess taking punishment for his mistakes, he can take it so much better than she can, but fuck if it doesn’t motivate him to be the best puppy he can be :(((((((((

~🦋

(also don’t think I didn’t see you calling me YOUR butterfly in the tags um. Hhhhhh. Mm. 👉👈)

all of my anons are MY anons ily all 💞

ghost not using physical punishment with johnny cause he's going for a love bombing type of brainwashing and instead punisher reader for johnny's misbehavior. oh my fucking god

even more incentive for johnny to behave, cause his poor princess suffers when he doesn't :( ghost dragging him up rocky stairs by his collar to force him to watch her take what should be his whipping, both of them sobbing and begging ghost not to do it :(

i think ghost edges johnny for punishments, but he'll do it to the point of pain :( nearly rubs his dick raw, jacks him off without release until he's sobbing and wailing and the princess begs for ghost to stop, apologizes over and over again because she's so so sorry, please don't hurt johnny anymore, she won't do it again :( (she's lying)

also gives johnny way more incentive to try and get princess to behave - he's being good so she doesn't get hurt, why isn't she doing the same for him???? she should behave too, because johnny thinks his dick might fall off after the tenth edge in one night

[idkfitememate]

I am very very much late but...I LOVE THE NICKNAMES YOU HAVE FOR MEEEE😭😭😭😭 IAM SO SO SORRY THAT IM LATE, I WAS DOING SOME BACKREADING WHEN I SAW THE NICKNAMES YOU HAVE FOR ME😭😭😭😭 DARLING SEA STAR IS SO CUTE AND CORAL REEF AND TROPICAL PARADISESS PLEASEEEE I LOVE THEM HUHUHUHUHUUUU *ahem ahem*

Hulloo its me Otter anon, but you can me Darling sea star, coral reef, tropical paradise or little pearl, Thats how I'll starting introducing myself from now on whenever we have a new anon on the list.

ALSO ALSO GREAT NEWS, *SLAM BOOMING SOUND* HAVE POSTED THE LITTLE SKITTTTT!!!! please do tell me if you like it 👉👈 so I can make more😖😣😖

Otter anon🦦

One, I am very glad you enjoyed the nicknames my dearest sea star, and don’t worry!~ I don’t mind that it took you a moment to respond, I want you to worry about your life over me.

And two… Like it? LIKE IT?!?!? I LOVED IT MY DEAREST PARADISE!!!!!

It was great, wonderful!! I would love to see in more in the future!! Don’t force anything of course, go at your own pace, but I will most definitely be looking out!~

[moonchild-in-blue]

Firstly, when you get this, you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)

🥺👉👈 I'm someone's favourite? Fankss anon 💖

5 things I like about me? Whoo boy-

My eyes - they're inky black, so dark that you cannot tell the iris and pupil apart unless you shine direct light on them (please don't). They're also really big and expressive. Someone once told me they hated them for being so dark, and even though it was in a joking manner, I still carry that with me. I love my eyes - they're shiny and dark like the night sky!

My brain - love-hate relationship with this chemically imbalanced fellow, but he's trying. I take pride in my intelligence. I'm not a genius or anything remotely similar, but I am smart. I've always been academically proficient, and quite successful at it, despite the circumstances. I'm that one annoying friend that spends way more time on Wikipedia than it is necessary, and always has a "fun fact" (that usually it's really only funny to me 😬).

My ability to make pancakes - I make, like, really good pancakes. I've perfected my recipe throughout the years, so they're always 10/10 delicious. They're my sister's favourite.

My skin - another love-hate. My skin is incredibly sensitive; I have eczema, allergies, acne scars that won't fade, you name it. But it is also beautiful - when I get enough sunlight, it's a beautiful golden shade of caramel brown. And when I don't, it's a nice shade of light brown, like boba tea! There was a time in my life I thought it looked wrong. Different. But now I could never, ever imagine myself without it. It bears the colours of all my ancestors; my heritage.

My resilience - I won't get into details, but there have been many times where I was very close to the edge. For many, many years since way too young, I had avoided making real plans for the future, because I simply thought I would never get this far. And yet, I still stand. I wish I didn't have to go through so much to become like this, but at least I'm still here.

Well, I struggled so hard to make it 5. Let this serve as a reminder to myself and to you - embrace yourself. Be proud of who you are, of what you do. No matter how seemingly small or insignificant - you are here. Living, and breathing, and kicking ass. So show yourself some grace, and maybe a hug.

Thank you dearest anon, I love you very much 💖 smooches a little nap for you 😚

[wrestlezaynia]

i’ve recently become a fan of sami zayn and i can confidently say i am a hardcore advocate for zowens, also i love your blog

Let me be the first to welcome you to the ship dearest anon.

Also omg, thank you so much! 🥺👉👈

[1004tyun-archive]

sending hugs back my favorite tyun’s noona

👉💗👈 see now my fingers have a heart

you’re too sweet :(( 🫶🏾🫶🏾 the additional heart 😭😭😭 so cute

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

HSHSHSHJD I know I already have another ask in ur inbox but I’m just. Super curious rn and I NEED to hear ur take because I trust you will give the best answer ever but. What music do u think stsg listen to? I know teen sugu listening to mitski has been talked about…. But….. what else !! Me personally I see gojo (teen and adult versions) being a biggg Bruno mars fan…. Occasionally listening to gaga…. Maybe some Beyoncé… Katy perry… you get the vibes :3 very upbeat songs that u can just vibe to I think. But DARE I SAY I think gojo would enjoy listening to songs from musicals. At first I think he would be like “musicals??? U mean like theatre??? Boring🤨🤨” (< envisioned teen gojo saying this all arrogant and cocky my little loser <333) but then you catch him screaming the lyrics to some Hamilton song when nobody else is around. He was trying to be cool infront of sugu okay. (He’s my little meowmeow) BUTTTT also. Aside from listening to sadgirl themed music (Mitski, laufey, pheobe Bridgers, etc etc) I feel like suguru would like “older” bands a bit? I know you mentioned him reading classics so it made me think. Maybe a bit of the smiths, the cure, etc…. Part of me wants to say he might listen to modern baseball but. Sigh,… would that be a controversial take chat….. is that just me projecting….. What do u think!!! This got way too long don’t look at me…. Curls into a ball in the corner of the room — stsg anon \(^ヮ^)/

STSG ANON MY DEAREST <3333 i put a bunch of cushions in the corner so you can curl up comfortably!! make yourself at home :3

goshhhh literally every single one of these are so real……… 😵‍💫😵‍💫 gojo listening to upbeat pop music so true, sugu listening to The Classics SO true……. i think he’d absolutely loveeeeee the smiths oh my god. he’s also 100% the type to wear those white tees w some band cover on the front…. oversized and a lil faded….. he’s so babygirl <3333 AND MODERN BASEBALL GODDDD YOUR BRAIN IS SO BIG i always think of him and toru when i listen to tears over beers :((( he would love them…. also can i just say . the mountain goats 👉👈 the front bottoms 👉👈 sugu loves them all !!!

with that being said . SOOOOO REAL SO TRUE SATORU WOULD BE A MUSICAL LOVER THERE’S NO DOUBT IN MY MIND …… technically i KNOW he’s more of a stem kid but in my heart he’s a theatre kid. it just makes sense. AND OFC YOU GET IT STSG ANON ……. ohhh he would love singing along 😔😔 he wouldn’t be able to help himself!!! i feel like he’s sort of embarrassed abt it in high school (”he was trying to be cool in front of suguru” CANON BTW!!!), but when he’s all grown up? COMPLETELY unabashed. he loves musicals so much. his favorite would 100% be the legally blonde musical no i don’t take criticism…. he stans elle woods as he should!! also plays the songs on repeat loudly and it irritates everyone else <33

sadly i feel like sugu would be the boring type :/// who doesn’t like musicals ://////// very disappointing but that’s just who he is . satoru would make him see the light though!!! i can see suguru really enjoying my personal favorite musical of all time…. the guy who didn’t like musicals (WATCH IT IF YOU HAVEN’T ALREADY IT’S SO GOOD IT CHANGED MY LIFE 😔😔😔) <333 bc of the meta commentary!! and i think he’d like the humour too. usually he just indulges satoru in whatever musical he forces him to watch but when they watch it he genuinely chuckles a couple times and looks interested so satoru gets SO hyped …… cuties

as you can tell i’m Normal abt musicals (i love them so much i would die without them) BUT ANYWAYYY your asks can never be too long stsg anon…. pls don’t worry….. you could write a whole essay and i would simply eat it up <33 THIS WAS SO FUN TO THINK ABT AND I AGREE W ALL YOUR PICKS!!!!

[wave2tyun]

I tried looking through some of my old reblogs and some fics I remember really liking were Stay stay stay, Strawberry kisses, Sweet, Make your heart stop, and Stuck by glue :)) though I can't really read them anymore, since the read mores don't work😅 Would it be possible to maybe request one of them next?👉👈🥺💞

Also, do you think you'll restart/continue Crash course in romance? I really loved it and it was a super promising series!!💞😽

Aaah!!!💞💞💕💗💞💗❣️💕💓 I'm! so! excited! you're! back!! You're genuinely such a good writer and I can't wait to get to read more wonderful stuff you put out😽😽💞❤️🥰 I'll also be sure to start sending you more of my incredible™️ kitties on the drawing board😼

-🐾

AHHHHHH yes of course :DD<3 those are gonna be right up next on my list❣️😼😼 i want to repost another fic today as well, do you want to pick a specific one from these or should i choose whichever one?? :0💞

i have such a weak spot for academic tyun so i'd love to give crash course in romance another go!!🥹🥹 i still have the breakdown of each part for it in my notes and maybe i'll rewatch the kdrama to kind of get into the zone again👀 i don't think i've ever made a fic that elaborate so i'm super happy to hear that you loved it and that i'll have your support if i continue it:(<3💘💞💓💖💓 if it goes well i'll make sure to post an update about restarting it🫶🫶

comforting kitty anon my dearest I LOVE YOUUUUUU🥹🥹🥹💓💘💞💖💞 thank you so much!!!!🫂🫂🩷 your enthusiasm is getting to me as well like i'm! so! excited! to be back!!!! rather than feeling fear about not being able to write well i'm just feeling joy thinking about all the endless opporrtunities that come with writing😔✊🏻 i NEED to put out something that will pull at all your hearstrings!!!! i'm so grateful for all the love and support you're giving me, truly, thank you :(<33 i'll make sure to be on the lookout for your lovely kitties!!!😼😼💞💓

[flowersandbirdsflyingfree]

hi...i'm sorry for anoning, i'm actually a mutual of urs (very shy) but i just wanna say i really love your art + positive reblogs/personality 👉👈 your blog is very comforting to me <333

i hope you have a nice day and a wonderful holiday season ^w^

Thank you so much, my dearest anon! It truly warms my heart to know I can bring hope and comfort to you in more ways than one

I also think I've rested enough to finally bring back more writing to the table! Mostly CoD Zombies but I am open to new ideas if they occur

I hope your holiday season and week goes swimmingly!

[jimilter]

Hey my lovely..hope your doing great... i just wanted to ask tiny little smol question.. are perhaps thinking about the possibility of updating TKITLY?🥺👉👈

hiiiii dearest anon!!! i actually am doing really well <333 been studying, working, staying well-fed and healthy and alsO writing a lot and having fun w it! 🥺

about tkitly bestieee, it's finished up from my end 👀 it's a happy-ish ending, too, so i don't really have any plans of doing anything in that universe anytime soon! 👀

[crimsonophelia]

hey can you perhaps write some shy submissive Xiao ? 👉👈 i need some soft xiao rn

featuring: xiao x gn!reader

warnings: slightly suggestive material, soft submissive xiao

published: july 22, 2021

form: headcanons

a/n: yes, of course anon <3 this is short and sweet, hope you like!

shy isnt necessarily the most accurate term i would ascribe to xiao when it comes to intimacy. i think perhaps “reserved” is the best way to describe his demeanor

he is by no means averse to intimacy and affection, especially with you, someone he cares deeply about, but is rather overly aware of his own inexperience, and therefore, is never very forward

however, he is lucky he has you to initiate any act of affection with. which is why, most times i don’t think xiao would refuse your advances, save for when you two are in a very public area

if you reach your hand to massage his upper thigh under the table when you sit next to bim in a restaurant, xiao will simply accept it, but not without turning a bright shade of pink

when you leave him kisses on the cheek, and perhaps playfully nip at his earlobe, xiao will actually pull you in closer, his face pressed against your chest tightly, mumbling “[y/n]… there are people here, you know…”

to which you respond, “that’s the whole point, xiao. i want everyone to see how much i love you, and how you’re mine.” and as you press another kiss to his temple, you tell him, “plus, youre the cutest when youre flustered.”

in private, xiao is no less shy and needy. he constantly requires your guidance—where to put his hands, where you’d like him to kiss you, what pace he feels the most comfortable with.

and of course, you are always happy to oblige. taking care of your dearest xiao is a pleasure like no other. to see him so dependent on you, looking up at you for approval when he is drowning in his own desire lights a fire in the pits of your stomach

in the moments when he needs you the most, when he’s crying out for you, when he relies entirely on your guidance and your touch, is when you truly realize how much you love him, and how much you need him too