#dean's favorite things

[mischieviem]

Just some things

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Destiel Pride - Day 21; Most faithful mirror

[zer0expektation]

how do some of you motherfuckers watch supernatural and end up hating one of the brothers??? how do you hate Dean Winchester for having a world dooming loyalty to his family? how do you hate Sam Winchester for having that justified rage that wants so desperately to come out? how are you not both of them at once, choking in understanding every time they hurt one another because they think they have to?

[bloodydeanwinchester]

🩸Bloody Dean Every Episode🩸 ↳ 5x03 || Free to Be You and Me

[thebeautyofspn]

10x09 The Things We Left Behind

[pleuro]

summer went away, still the yearning stays

[shinyboomboom]

Lia Zhang

"I heard Lia's ragged whisper "He put them in a hole'"

[babygirlwolverine]

cowboy angel

[strawberrryangel]

um. cas getting up every morning and making himself pb&j. every morning he does this and he sits quietly at the kitchen table and eats his pb&j sandwich with the same amount of delight as he does every morning. it’s his favorite food and he gets to eat it every day!! one morning dean comes into the kitchen while cas is eating his sandwich. he’s like can i have one too. cas is like sure dean :) would you like to sit with me dean :) dean is like yeah uh *trying not to cry because he knows how important cas’ pb&j time is* yeah i’d like that. makes himself a pb&j sandwich and sits across from cas. they eat in comfortable silence. cas is delighted that dean wants to join him for his routine and dean is delighted that cas feels comfortable enough to invite him in for this.

[millionsghosts]

Halfway through season 9 of supernatural and I think gadreel might actually be the funniest character. He randomly possesses Sam just to glare at Dean sometimes and maybe remind him to keep gaslighting people. He talks like depressed Shakespeare. He asked Dean how well he played Sam when he was pretending to be him. He killed Kevin and then immediately labeled him with a sticky note for no discernable reason. He listens on on everybody's conversations. He even made Dean kick his boyfriend out of the house somehow. This man is like a court jester to me and I am obsessed with him

[incesthemes]

as i've rewatched seasons 1 and 2 of supernatural i've been pondering and hypothesizing reasons why john was so adamant on not letting sam know about his destiny. why he was so intent on keeping this secret, why he didn't want sam knowing about monsters, why his role in their hunts appeared to be research-oriented and thus away from the action. my perspective on ignorance and censorship is that it enables further harm, so if john were going to effectively protect sam, it would stand to reason that sam should have a comprehensive understanding of his destiny and what he's up against: give him the tools to fight.

this is obviously not the route john went, so then i have to question why that is—what about censorship was so appealing to him that he thought it not only the best way to keep sam safe, but perhaps even the only way to keep him safe, based on how he begged even dean to keep sam's fate a secret from him in his final words?

so i got to thinking. namely, about the fact that azazel wants sam to be hunting: he killed jessica with the intent to drag him back into the life, which implies that if sam is hunting, he is going down the path azazel wants him to go—he's following his destiny. this aligns with the everpresent theme throughout season 1 that hunting is a monstrous lifestyle, that hunting turns people into monsters. if sam is destined to become a monster, then hunting is the most sure-fire way to get him there.

if azazel wants sam to hunt, then john would need to take the logical opposition and keep sam out of hunting—so, he wouldn't tell sam about monsters until he has to, he'd give sam more passive roles once sam is participating in hunts, he'd train sam in self-defense but not explain why. and importantly, he wouldn't talk about mary, who is the root cause of this lifestyle, the impetus for their revenge quest, more than he has to. if the goal is to keep sam as far away from hunting as possible, and if john is someone who thinks ignorance keeps someone safe, then this more or less explains most of how sam was raised: on the fringes of the family, excluded and sheltered.

but weirdly enough, it wasn't until i was reading east of eden the other night that i finally understood the perspective being presented: late in the novel, the character lee says "when the first innocence is gone, you can't stop."

it made me remember that sam picks. he is a character who wants to understand the world around him and his place in it. if something is bothering him, he turns it over in his head until it consumes him. dean places doubt in sam's head in 2x10 and it obliterates him by 2x11. he's convinced he's going to become some horrible monster because he never stops thinking and trying to figure things out. when his memory is wiped in 4x17 and normal guy sam wesson finds out his coworker is the guy from his weird dreams, he pursues him relentlessly until they're back hunting. when he discovers the wall death put in his mind to keep his hell trauma out in season 6, he pushes and can't stop until it starts crumbling around him. he's intelligent and clever and he wants to know everything. and when he doesn't know, he picks.

and the only way to stop a person like that from picking is to not let them know that there's something to pick at in the first place. that's what the quote from east of eden means: once you catch wind of something, you want to pursue it until you're satisfied. curiosity kills the cat.

and what john is up against is fate itself. something that isn't supposed to be messed with, something that's supposed to be unavoidable. so trying to thwart it is tricky business. he has to be careful.

i think working under that logic his response makes sense, even if it wound up being a self-fulfilling prophecy anyway—sam was always going to find out, and sam was always going to pick. there was nothing john could do in the end to stop it, and trying to keep sam ignorant only made him that much more desperate to know. but that's the great tragedy of it all: john was given an impossible choice, and he's a deeply flawed character. he did what he thought was best, and it only made things worse.

i like this interpretation because it ties all of john's choices together really well; it explains a lot about his character and gives a nuanced and rather reasonable explanation for why he did what he did: a dad who wants the best for his kid does what he believes will set him up on the path to success. when the first innocence is gone, you can't stop—so john does his damnedest to keep sam innocent, even to his dying breath.

the problem comes down to that someone's damnedest isn't always good enough, and that sometimes someone's damnedest ends up benefiting the enemy instead.

[xylophone888]

please ignore that the last one is grindr messages :praying_hands_emoji:

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Suptober - Day 14 | Favorite Episode

[flavored-soda]

i’m rewatching supernatural again (because of course i am) and i’m on season 5. i noticed something in episode 11, “Sam, Interrupted.”

the wraith makes them start to lose their wits and when it really starts to settle in sam is the one to get violent and lash out. he starts punching the air, thinking the orderlies and the patients are calling him names, and when they try to restrain him he fights back.

and dean, the notoriously violent and scarier of the brothers, falls into crippling panic and anxiety. he forgets how to fight, freezes in fear, and lets himself get beat up and basically gives up. i mean sam is taking swings at the air and dean is literally watching the entire thing happen, mumbling in a chair, and rocking back and forth.

and of course, because it’s supernatural, this drastic change in personality is never talked about again. but yea.

i just think it’s interesting that the brother that uses violence (and alcohol but thats for another post) as a coping mechanism basically forgets all of that as soon as his anxieties and problems are heightened and turns into a ball of panic attacks and fear. and brother who makes a big speech at the end of the episode about the wraith being right and him being truly violent and angry, turns into exactly that.

anyways just another small thing that isn’t so small that the supernatural writers completely ignore after mentioning it and acting like the boys’ issues don’t exist. :D

[bloodydeanwinchester]

random shots of dean’s tongue - 26/ ∞

11x04 || baby

[purplepicklejuices]

Dean meeting Adam is something I think about very often. Because up until then, he knew Sam was the favorite, but that was okay because Dean loved Sam more too. He understood.

Then, he meets Adam and learns that John loved him more than Dean, too. He took him to a Baseball game on his birthday. And that was the moment he realized it was never about Sam, It was Dean.

Dean was only good as a soldier, not a son.