#dayonehundred

[faintest-first-starlight]

149/365 Not sure what sort of tree this is but it gives me swamp vibes. #springphotochallenge #dayonehundred https://www.instagram.com/p/CQXZnzNFAVC/?utm_medium=tumblr

[teapartyforthewitches]

Look how small and cute my little Chino used to be! #dayonehundred #totallyswitchingtonumbers #cat #catsofinstagram

[elle-stevens]

It’s been the 100th day since I broke up with X.

Huh.

I thought there would’ve been more of a fanfare to it.

Guess not.

I don’t know, I’m just feeling depressed today.

There’s no logical or legitimate reason.

My colleagues were great today. Even my students were pretty good and less trollish than usual.

It’s just me.

I’m being an infernal grouch for no reason.

Naturally, X’s proverbial ghost visited me throughout the day, torturing me with good memories of what we had before.

That sucked a lot.

I’m still trying to find a new job and pretty much nothing’s panned out yet.

I’ll try not to read too much into everything I’m feeling. It’s honestly just a bad day and it’ll probably be A-ok again tomorrow.

So I’m gonna let myself be miserable till I fall asleep.

I sent the bare minimum of texts all evening. I don’t really feel like talking to anyone; don’t want to pass on the negative vibes.

I’d rather be alone and have a lovely sulk.

Hopefully, X’s proverbial ghost will take the rest of the night off and let me sleep in peace at least.

G always said that when I’m having a bad day, I should let myself feel everything’s that’s bad without trying to fix or change anything. And after one day is past, I have to let it go and move on.

That was pretty sound advice from my older sister. Now I live by that rule every time I’m having a bad day, and it actually seems to help.

In South Korea, couples celebrate their 100th day together of being in a romantic relationship. I don’t remember if X and I did anything special for our 100th day together once upon a time.

Chances are we probably didn’t.

I guess I’ll just celebrate my 100th day a little differently: by accepting that I’m single and on nights like this, it’s definitely going to suck hard. But after the night ends, I might actually be thankful that I’m single and not still stuck in a loveless relationship with X that made me more depressed than I feel right now.

So I guess...cheers to me?

[ayearinthelife365-blog1]

#AYearInTheLife365 #PhotoChallenge #Hands #DayOneHundred #DayOneHundredOf365 #handsandpaws #paws #handsandpawsarethesame #furbabies #dog #Skyy #dogpaws #sand #sinkinginthesand #gsd #gsdpuppy #gsdstagram #gsdofinstagram #gsdpaws

[the-bright-side-of-the-darkside]

I didn't make a post yesterday because of Easter, so I'm going to combined day 99 with day 100. On top of that, today will be the last day I count the days since he's left here. Not because I don't think it's important, but I should be counting the days until he's back here. Sometime in the next few months we'll most likely be moved out together and if rather count the days down instead of up. So here's to Day 100 and all the days we've spent apart over the last 5 years. Time to turn the negative into a positive 💙 #LoveYou #MissYou #DayNinetyNine #DayOneHundred