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siriussslut ¡ 2 months ago
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I was wondering if you could do a regulus x reader smut. Where they're in a relationship and one night they're chilling in his dorm a bit drunk and regulus like sketching and drawing reader and she offers to be anatomy refference which leads to him edging her and sketching her while she's laid out infront of him while he's in her. And then after it's like ON.
this turned into sub!regulus which i wasn’t planning but is so 🤤🤤🤤
warnings: unprotected sex, praise kink, anal fingering, cutie sub regulus
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you take another swig of the bottle and then toss it back on regulus’ pillow. the two of you are lounging on his bed, drunk and giddy. he’s sketching you in the journal in his lap, glancing at you every few seconds as he draws.
you stick your face over his sketchbook.“how’s it going?”
“well, i’m drawing you, so beautifully.”
“you’re such a dork,” you giggle, glancing down at his page. your eyes stick to the way he drew your cleavage, obviously one of the parts he focused on the most.
“you only ever draw my top half. why don’t you draw a full body picture of me?”
“i need anatomy practice, i’m rusty,” he answers, continuing with his drawing.
your brain is fuzzy from the alcohol, stupid, so you push your tits above the neckline of your top. “draw my tits.”
his head snaps up. he flips to a new page, sketching the soft outline of your breasts.
you sit mostly still, slowly scooting closer and closer, bringing your chest nearer his face.
when he’s finished with his drawing of your breasts, he shows it to you, pressing a kiss atop one as you study it.
“it’s really good, regulus.” you look up at him through your lashes. “maybe i could help you with more anatomy?”
“yeah. why not?” his voice is breathy, a little too high. you remove your top completely, and then slip out of your skirt and your panties, tossing your clothes to the floor.
“you’re so pretty,” he whispers, staring as if he hasn’t seen you hundreds of times before.
you roll your eyes. “draw!”
he flips to a new page and begins his rough sketch, lining up your body parts. you’re sitting on the bed, legs spread wide, your dripping cunt on full display.
you slide one finger inside of yourself, moaning. regulus is now looking at you more than he’s drawing.
“i told you to draw, reg,” you say, breathy.
“can i… please can i touch?”
you nodding, pulling your fingers out.
he runs a finger through your folds, collecting your slick before pushing his pants to the floor. his cock is inside you in seconds.
you push his head back, hands on his throat, feeling his heart race beneath your fingertips. “draw, baby.”
his cock is quivering inside of you as he continues his drawing. you play with your clit, moaning and dripping on his erection.
you can tell how hard he’s resisting to fuck the living daylights out of you.
hours later, you’ve came more times than you can count, and he’s still waiting inside of you, drawing.
“i’m finished!” he suddenly exclaims.
you circle your fingers around your puffy clit. “show me.”
he turns the sketchbook to face you. you gasp. “oh, regulus it’s beautiful.” his cheeks color.
on the page, you’re finger fucking yourself, eyes shut tight, face screwed into a moan. your pussy is glistening wet, dripping on his cock.
you push his sketchbook aside, pressing an open-mouthed kiss to his lips. “i have never been more turned on in my life.”
you run your tongue along his face, licking. you want to devour him whole, there is simply too much love and desire inside of you for one person.
you mumble against his slippery jawline. “you’re such a good boy, reggie. i know that was hard for you, and you did such a good job.” you grab his balls as you speak, tugging.
he gasps, cock twitching against your walls. “i love you,” he whispers, looking at you with blown out pupils, eyes foggy with lust.
you kiss his lips, pushing him down to the bed. “i’m gonna treat you so well,” you mumble between kisses and tongue. “you’re gonna come so many times.”
you fuck yourself on his cock, thrusting up and down. you pump lube onto your hand and slide it beneath his ass, grabbing onto a cheek before slipping into his hole.
he screams, arching his back. you fuck him with your hand, sliding in and out to the rhythm of your thrusts on his cock.
his ass clenches around you, cock jerking.
you don’t stop fucking him as he comes, instead grabbing his balls with your free hand, adding more stimulation. he shoots hot ropes of cum inside of you. it drips out onto his dick, thick and creamy.
you slip off of his cock, letting go of his ass. you slide down the length of his bare, sweaty body. he’s lying and panting, completely boneless. you pull his soft cock into your mouth, sucking.
he gasps, but bucks his hips into your face.
you grin around him, ready to make good on your promise.
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always-a-king-or-queen ¡ 1 year ago
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The Pevensies are foreign when they return home.
The streets no longer know them. They do not seem to fit in their own bodies as they stroll the cobbles, Lucy’s hand tucked carefully into Peter’s, Edmund trailing watchfully behind Susan like a shadow. Their eyes are sharp, their smiles crooked, and those who see them cross to the opposite side of the road, afraid of the ancient gleam they see reflected back at them that does not belong in the eyes of a child.
Water murmurs to Lucy when she flits past, and lamplight follows her wherever she goes, even in broad daylight when the lamps are unlit. Their flames sputter into existence when she walks by, flickering at her in a way that seems to whisper I know you. Lucy looks at them with feral teeth and smiles, and vines twist from the cobbles at her feet. She laughs like a wild thing, eyes glowing, but a moment later she blinks and it is gone. Her feet hardly seem to touch the ground at all as she darts through the alleys.
The sky is clearer when Peter walks the streets, clouds vanishing like they were never there at all. His eyes are too much like a lion’s, struck through with gold and filled with a brooding fierceness, yet he laughs as he twirls Lucy around, and claps Edmund on the back as they share a stupid joke, and smiles with Susan when she tells him of the bow she plans to carve. He is all warmth and friendliness, but there is something about his eyes. There is something about all of their eyes.
The sun caresses Susan as she moves about, and she is graceful, too graceful, her hair seeming to be alive of its own accord as she steps lightly along the streets. Her skin is pale like ice, and sometimes her gaze appears almost silver as she stands by the river, gazing into its depths with a distant, siren-cold smile. She is gentle, but her fingers look a little too long sometimes. Her laugh is a little too unsettling.
Trees lean towards Edmund when he walks past, branches scraping his clothing, leaves showering around him. Books and journals and pages covered in notes perpetually fill his arms, spilling from his grasp but never quite falling. His voice is even-keeled, quiet, but there is something wild about it, something unhinged. He speaks of things none have ever heard before, dark hair falling into his eyes, mouth unsmiling and hands perfectly still, and for a moment he seems to be someone else, fangs beneath his lips, dirt on his tongue. He tilts his head just a little too far, sometimes.
The Pevensies are foreign when they return home. They do not fit their bodies. They do not fit the streets. People who encounter them cross to the other side of the road to avoid them, terrified of the oldness they see in the children’s faces. Such depth does not belong in the gaze of a child.
And yet four sets of eyes, ancient and deep and flickering like candlelight, stare out from the children’s faces, and their smiles are sharp, too sharp. Their laughter is a little too wild as they walk, the oldest and youngest hand-in-hand, the middle children trailing each other like shadows.
There is something about those children’s eyes.
There is something about those children.
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featherandferns ¡ 5 months ago
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daylight - three
jj maybank x fem!reader | part 3 of the daylight series | read part 2 here
content warnings: alcohol
word count: 2k.
blurb: after finding a box of memories, you jump at the chance to go fishing with JJ. There, you open up a little more about your life in Vancouver.
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You come downstairs at the sound of your dad calling your name. You find him standing by a stack of cardboard boxes, labelled with marker pen scribbles. 
“Can you take your stuff upstairs? That other delivery van finally arrived. Only a God damn month late,” your dad grumbles. 
“Sure thing,” you say.
It takes about ten minutes to lug your boxes upstairs. Closing your bedroom door, you begin to unpack. Most of them are full of clothes and accessories: caps and bags that you probably don’t even need, since you didn’t miss them in their lack. Another box has school things, in case you need your old notes for the next year of classes. The final box is full of miscellaneous items. Childhood memorabilia and wads of photographs and photo albums. Stupid dress-up gear from costume parties you and Mimsy had attended. You snap a selfie dressed in the get-up and send it to Mimsy.
A shoebox at the bottom has you taking pause. You take it out and set it on your bed, opening it. Your heart stops when you see what’s inside. 
How could you forget?
The box is piled high with various things, and at the top is a journal. It's frayed on the corners from excessive wear and tear. It was the journal you had kept when dating your ex boyfriend, Tyler. You take it out and promptly put it to the side like it’s coated in anthrax. There is absolutely no urge to flick through the pages and relive every moment of that tumultuous, tortuous affair. Below the journal is a t-shirt that belonged to him, then an impressive stack of photos. Happy photos. Smiling photos. Photos that are mostly of just the two of you, always in one or the other’s bedroom. Any photos taken in public have the two of you standing apart, acting as though you don’t know the feel of the other’s skin. There's a birthday present he gave you; a card; a ‘love letter’ that had made you so happy at the time, and only bitter in the aftermath. In fact, all of it made you bitter. All emotions led back to anger, and betrayal, and hurt. 
And yet, you couldn’t find it in yourself to get rid of it. Even now, even still, in a different country, on a different coast: you feel the need to keep it. Treasure it like a cursed artefact. 
You’re happy to be taken out of your nightmarish thoughts by the ping of your phone. You pick it up, expecting a text from Mimsy, only to be surprised at finding one from JJ. 
I’m bored.
Smiling, glad for the distraction, you reply. 
Hi bored. 
Nerd. Srsly tho. I wanna do something. 
You turn your back on the box of memories.
Wanna go to the cinema?
Hello I’m poor??? U acting mad expensive rn
Laughing, you roll your eyes and offer something that you know JJ would never refuse.
Fishing then?
Dope. Pick u up in 5.
You kill the time waiting for JJ by tidying away the last few belongings. The items are returned to the shoe box and hidden under your bed following the philosophy out of sight, out of mind.
The honk of a car horn outside has you grabbing your backpack and heading for the door. JJ sits behind the steering wheel, staring off into the distance as he mindlessly taps along to the beat of the Kendrick song he’s playing. You whistle as you approach and he smiles when he spots you. 
“Where we fishing?”
“Found a good spot the other day,” JJ says, setting off once you’re in the passenger seat. “Caught some good bass and stuff. Spotted bass too.”
“Sounds good,” you hum. You kick your feet up onto the dashboard and pick at the peeling nail varnish on your fingertips. 
There’s no need to fill the quiet of the campervan as JJ drives. You eye him in your peripheral as he concentrates on the road.
His resting face sits with a set jaw and you suddenly imagine him to clench his jaw in his sleep. Lips somewhere between a frown and smile, his eyes are somewhat hooded. His neck is so attractive. You never thought necks could be attractive before, but seeing it tense and relax when he swallows and sighs, the way the skin teases over the Adam’s apple...it's tortuous. You can just picture stretching your hands around it, scratching against the skin of his jugular with your nails, marking his pretty flesh with love bites…
“What’s up?”
“Huh?”
“You lookin' at me. Something up?” JJ asks in all his innocence. 
Your dart your eyes to the road ahead. “Uh, no, no. I’m good.”
“A'right,” he says. Back to quiet. You don’t dare spare another glance at him for the rest of the ride. 
JJ parks up on a quiet country road. You both get out of the car and load up with fishing gear and snackage. JJ takes the cooler, biceps flexing, and the fishing rods. Lugging two collapsable chairs on either shoulder, you follow him with a box of bait and your backpack in hand. He guides you up a dirt path, overgrown with ivy and stinging nettles. A dilapidating jetty comes into view and you’re happy to see it empty. You both take to setting up shop. You weren’t lying to him, the first time that you met: you didn’t much care for fishing. But honestly, you’d take any excuse to spend time with JJ. It’s pathetic to admit to yourself that he could ask you to help him drain a sewer and you’d say yes without a second thought. 
Cracking open a beer, you offer it to JJ. 
“Thanks,” he smiles.
You open your own and the two of you cheers before taking a swig. It’s crisp and cooling in the muggy summer sun. He hands you a prepared fishing rod and you lean against the shaky railing beside him. He’s dug out his cap: the red one that he wore the first time you met. It shadows his face beautifully. You look out to the water and admire the calming view. A sea bird darts across the sky in the distance and you half want to grab for your camera. 
“You have good fishing in Vancouver?” he asks. 
“S’alright,” you reply. “My uncle loves fishing. He used to take me to this spot where you could catch trout as long as your leg.”
“Fuck off,” JJ laughs. 
“I’m serious! Swear to God, I thought this thing was gonna eat me!”
The two of you laugh. Your smile turns solemn at the memory. It hurts to think about your life in Vancouver. It feels like it was years ago, hazy like a lucid dream, distorted with nostalgia. Never before have you been more grateful for facetime or else you might forget Mimsy’s voice.
The day stretches on with the two of you passing drinks and chips and refreshing bait. The bucket starts to fill with some catches. Nothing impressive. Somehow you both end up sitting in your chairs. One hand remains on the rod, waiting for a bite and holding it steady. JJ is reclined in his chair somewhat precariously, feet up on the bannister, weighed down by heavy, black boots. 
“I don’t think I ever asked,” JJ says, catching your attention. He looks to you. “Why’d you move to Kildare anyway?”
“Well, you know the old saying,” you reply. “If at first your marriage fails: pick up and move country, eh?”
“Ah,” JJ replies, chuckling a little. “Is the marriage fixed, then?”
“Hell no,” you snort. “They fucking hate each other. Hardly talk. I think my dad just wanted an excuse to move back to North Carolina.”
“He from here?”
“Yeah, he was born here. I have a ton of family out here too. Well, not in Kildare but in Carolina.”
“Damn,” JJ mumbles. 
“It’s typical of my dad though. He's selfish like that. I mean, it's kind of messed up, don't you think? Dragging me away from my friends. From my life.” Your anger sparks suddenly. “You know, he didn’t even ask me if I wanted to leave. Because why the fuck would I want to leave? My entire life was there! Everything was there!”
JJ doesn’t speak. You catch yourself. Taking a shaky breath, you close your eyes, embarrassed for the outburst. 
“Sorry,” you mumble. “I just…I haven’t really talked about it to anyone yet.”
“You’re good,” JJ says. You look at him to find a small, reassuring smile. “I get it. Parents suck.”
You laugh, shaking your head. Leaning your head back, eyes slipping closed, you agree. “Yep. Parents suck.”
“I’m sorry, by the way,” JJ quietly adds. You open your eyes on him. “That you had to leave Vancouver.”
“Thanks,” you smile, eyes sad. “I know I’ll find a way to be happy here. But right now, I just miss home. I miss Mimsy.”
“Mimsy?”
“My best friend,” you clarify. “She’s the fucking best. Completely unhinged. Obsessed with true crime and conspiracy theories. Zero filter.”
“She sounds like fun.”
“She is. She’d get along with you guys great,” you say. “It’s hard though. The time difference and everything sucks. And we talk a lot now but I’m just worried about the future. Like, what if it gets too much, with the distance, and we get busy and drift apart. She’s been in my life since I was like six years old. I guess it freaks me out to think about her not being there, you know?”
JJ nods. “Guess that’s like me and John B. We’ve been best friends since kindergarten. I can’t imagine how it would feel being, like, six hours apart.”
“It sucks,” you chuckle. “And it’s not just that, either. I feel like I have unfinished things in Vancouver. It’s like I left before I could close the book, if that makes sense.”
“What kind of things?” JJ wonders. He shifts in his seat to face you better. Neither of you are paying much attention to fishing now. 
“Romance things,” you say with a joking roll of your eyes. 
JJ’s brows raise. “You leave a man behind or something?”
“Man is a generous word,” you snigger. “But yeah, sort of. We weren’t together anymore - I mean, maybe we weren’t together ever - but I never got all the answers I wanted…I don’t know. It’s complicated.”
“Most things are,” JJ hums. You have to agree there. Nothing is ever clear-cut, black-and-white. At least not in your experience. “So, what’s the story? He cheat on you.”
“No. Least, I don’t think so,” you say. Shaking your head, you shoot him an apologetic smile. “Sorry. I don’t think I really wanna talk about it.”
“You’re good,” JJ says for a second time that day. He looks down to watch his thumb stroking the condensation on the side of his can. Tactfully avoiding your request, he then asks, “where you, like, in love with him?”
“Yes. God knows why, but, yeah,” you reply with a self-deprecating laugh. “Have you ever been in love?”
JJ squints against the sun as he looks out to the horizon. “Dunno, really. I guess you’d know if you had been in love, right? Like you’d know what that feels like.”
“Yeah, you would,” you return. 
Looking at you, JJ only hesitates a moment before he asks, “what does it feel like? Being in love?”
Smiling wistfully, you reply honestly. “It’s the worst feeling in the world.”
read part four here!
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mandalhoerian ¡ 14 days ago
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⸺ ada wong x reader, 28K
⸺ gothic horror, historical (19th century), vampires, blood, angst, hurt no comfort, tragic romance
⸺ summary: An invitation to curiosity is extended to you, a female historian struggling in the burgeoning 19th century, by the newest heiress of an elusive and basically undocumented, influential family, whose centuries-old secrets are waiting for you in the shadows. As fascination deepens into something darker, you unravel truths that will bind you to Ada Wong’s world forever—and a dangerous question emerges: how much of Ada’s story will become your own in the end?
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The storm begins before dusk, a faint rumble that rolls up from the distant hills, as though the world itself is sighing out its sorrows. Outside your window, the last threads of daylight slip behind a layer of thick clouds, and the streets below are soon swallowed by shadow. The air is damp and cool, the kind of cold that creeps in under doors and through cracks in the window frames, settling in the lungs like a long-awaited visitor.
The room is a mess, cluttered with the debris of years spent chasing stories that never quite coalesced. Stacks of brittle, yellowing paper are scattered in every corner—old manuscripts, some worn with the creases of too many hands, others forgotten altogether, pages untouched, waiting for eyes that never came. Beside them, books—leather-bound tomes with frayed edges, their spines cracked from years of abuse—are piled precariously on top of one another, threatening to collapse under the weight of your obsession.
Your desk is no better: a mess of open journals, maps drawn with ink that’s starting to smudge from handling, clippings of old newspaper articles pinned haphazardly across its surface. In one corner, a quill sits in a well of ink, the dark liquid rippling slightly in the low lamplight. Your hands, stained faintly with ink, rest wearily atop the pages of a forgotten journal, its contents half-scratched out. You’ve been at this for hours, though it feels like days.
Your eyes flicker toward the clock, its hands ticking away sluggishly. You know it’s broken, that time here has lost all meaning. It’s been this way for weeks, maybe longer—an endless cycle of poring over documents that never quite lead where you hope, of chasing shadows that dissipate just as you reach for them. You lean back in your chair, the wood groaning beneath you, and rub your eye sockets with the heels of your palms, willing away the dull throb that has settled behind your eyes. It’s always there now, this ache, a constant companion.
The walls of your room close in around you, heavy with the scent of old paper, ink, and something damp that lingers in the corners. Outside, the storm picks up, rattling the windows as the wind claws at the glass, demanding to be let in. The soft flicker of candlelight casts shifting shadows across the room, shadows that seem to move of their own accord, stretching and curling in a dance that seems almost sinister. Or perhaps, you think, you’re just tired. Tired and frustrated, the kind of fatigue that seeps into the bones, weighing them down until each step, each breath is a struggle.
With a sigh, you turn away from the window and focus back on your desk. You sink into your chair again, the leather sighing as it takes your weary form. Your fingers brush against the edges of the papers strewn across its surface, a futile gesture. There's nothing here, nothing that leads anywhere. Not for your sex. You've seen men come and go, boasting of their exploits and discoveries, while you remain trapped in the mire of half-truths and conjecture. It's enough to drive one mad, this endless chase, the frustration of being so close to the truth and yet always falling short, being blocked or mocked, or worse, simply ignored. To be a woman in a man's world, especially one of such prestige, is to be invisible, despite your brilliance. And you are brilliant. If only they would give you the chance to prove it. But no, you are relegated to the sidelines, forced to watch as lesser minds take the credit for discoveries that should, by rights, be yours.
It is a bitter pill to swallow, the knowledge that no matter how hard you work, no matter how much you learn, you'll always be viewed as less than, as an afterthought. The injustice of it stings, sharp and deep, a wound that refuses to heal. Some days, when the despair threatens to overwhelm, when the futility of it all becomes too much to bear, you find yourself questioning everything, wondering if the pursuit of knowledge is worth the cost, if the price of greatness is a lifetime of solitude and scorn. Those are the days when the darkness whispers to you, tempting you with thoughts of surrender, of giving in to the void and letting it consume. Just marry a man. Any man. Throw your pen away and settle in a kitchen. Leave the mysteries of the world to those deemed worthy of solving them.
But you can't, not yet, because somewhere, buried beneath the layers of bitterness and anger, lies a stubborn determination, a fierce will to prove everyone wrong. You will not be defeated. You will not fade quietly into the night, a forgotten footnote in the annals of history. A woman that gave up is worse than a dead woman. So on, you will go, chasing the next clue, the next scrap of information, hoping that this time, this time it will lead to something real, to the breakthrough that will silence the doubters and elevate you to the status you deserve. Until then, you will continue to toil in the shadows, a solitary figure hunched over dusty books and faded scrolls, seeking answers to questions that others dismiss as foolish or irrelevant.
A loud crack of lightning illuminates the sky outside, making the window shake and rattle.
There is a knock at the door.
It is soft at first, almost tentative, but it cuts through the quiet, pulling you from your thoughts. You don’t move at first, listening to the silence that follows. Then, again—a knock, more insistent this time, echoing through the small space.
You push yourself to stand, joints cracking in protest, and pace the cramped confines of your room, the floorboards creaking softly underfoot. You pause at the window, drawing back the thin, moth-eaten curtain to peer out. There’s nothing to see, of course, just the dark, empty streets and the shadowy outlines of buildings in the distance, their windows as dim and lifeless as the eyes of a corpse. The rain has started to fall in earnest, fat droplets that splatter against the glass, distorting the view even further. They race down the pane, joining together in a desperate attempt to escape before eventually succumbing to gravity and sliding inexorably downward. The lamplight outside barely cuts through the gloom, illuminating only the vague outline of the cobblestones slick with water.
Opening the door, you’re greeted by a figure standing in the doorway, a silhouette more than a person. The rain hides their features, masking them behind the veil of the storm. Without a word, they extend an arm, and you notice the envelope clasped in their hand, its edges slightly damp from the rain. The wax seal catches the light—a deep crimson, its surface glossy despite the weather, and the crest pressed into it is unfamiliar to you.
Before you can speak, the figure is gone, swallowed by the night as swiftly as they appeared, leaving you alone with the envelope still held awkwardly in your hand. You stand in the doorway for a moment longer, staring into the rain, trying to discern the shapes of buildings and streets through the torrent, but everything feels distant, obscured by the gloom. A sharp gust of wind pushes against you, forcing you back into the warmth of your room, the door creaking shut behind you with a dull thud.
The envelope feels strangely heavy in your hands, its paper thick and textured under your fingers, the seal unbroken. You turn it over, studying the crest pressed into the wax—a swirling, intricate design that you don’t recognize, though something about it sends a faint prickle of unease up your spine. You bring it closer to the lamplight, tilting it slightly to catch the way the red wax gleams, as though it were fresh, untouched by time.
Sitting back at your desk, you place the envelope carefully in front of you, letting your fingers hover over it for a moment before finally reaching for the letter opener. The metal is cold in your hand, the tip slipping under the seal with a soft snap. The wax breaks cleanly, falling away in small pieces onto the desk, and for a moment, the silence in the room holds its breath, the sound of the storm outside muted to a dull hiss.
You pull the letter free from the envelope, the paper softer than you expected, curling slightly at the edges where it was pressed inside. The handwriting is elegant, the ink dark and precise, the words flowing in neat, looping lines across the page. You begin to read, your eyes tracing the curves and angles of the letters, the sounds of the words forming in your mind, the meaning unfolding slowly like a flower in bloom.
My Dear Historian,
The greeting feels personal, too personal for someone you’ve never met. Yet the title fits. It’s what you are, what you’ve dedicated your life to—digging through the remains of the past, searching for truths buried beneath layers of dust and time. But there is something more in those words, something that makes the skin on the back of your neck tighten.
I trust this letter has reached you at a time when your search has led you into dead ends, and the world has shown you its cruel, unforgiving face. Know that I understand the burden of isolation that comes from being different, from having a passion that sets you apart from the rest. It is a loneliness that few can comprehend, but one that I am intimately familiar with. This shared solitude is why I write to you today.
The handwriting loops and curves, elegant yet strong, and you can feel the confidence of the one who penned it—someone accustomed to holding power, someone who knows they are in control of more than just the ink on the page.
My family's estate, hidden from the prying eyes of the world, is a treasure trove of secrets, a labyrinthine archive that holds within its walls the history of centuries. It is a legacy that I wish to share with the right person, someone who can appreciate the significance of what lies within, and who can help me safeguard its contents from those who would seek to destroy or exploit it.
I offer you the opportunity to be the guardian of this knowledge, the first one to ever explore and document what has circumvented the world for so long. This invitation is not without its conditions. Discretion is of the utmost importance. You will have to stay here, at the estate, until the work is done. There can be no communication with the outside world until the work is completed. Once our arrangement is concluded, you will be free to return to your life, a wealthier and wiser historian.
Consider this a challenge to your skills, a test of your intellect, and a chance to leave an indelible mark on the field of historical research. But if you are the historian I believe you to be, the decision is already made. If you accept, a carriage will arrive to collect you at the next new moon, when the night is darkest. All arrangements have been made. Come alone, and bring nothing but your expertise and an open mind.
The name at the bottom of the letter stirs something in your memory—Ada Wong. A name you’ve come across in fragments, hearsays on the edges of off-the-record conversations, a ghost in the archives. She's a recluse, some say, an eccentric heiress who lives in a castle nestled in the mountains, far from civilization. Others claim she's a witch who has robbed the family she's come to inherit from, of their fortune. And still, others, the most serious and scholarly, insist that she's simply a rich, bored noblewoman who has taken up an interest in the obscure, a hobby that has earned her a certain notoriety among those in the know.
For a moment, the world outside fades entirely. The rain, the wind, the cold—all of it seems distant, as though the letter has created its own bubble of reality, separating you from everything beyond its ink-stained words. The idea is seductive, an escape from the drudgery that has become your life, a chance to prove yourself in a way that matters.
And then the spell is broken. As quickly as it had formed, the illusion shatters, leaving you once again in your cramped, cluttered room, the rain battering at the windows and the clock ticking away mockingly. The letter is a fantasy, an impossible dream. You are a nobody, a struggling scholar scraping by on the generosity of strangers and the kindness of a landlord who has seen too many like you. Why would someone like Ada Wong reach out to you? What could she possibly see in a woman whose name has never graced the pages of a prominent journal or earned the respect of her peers?
You flip to the second page where you'd seen her signature, and squint at the crest that's been stamped at the top. It's a bird of sorts, a crane, maybe, perched atop a shield. Below, two words, in a language you can't quite place. Maybe German, or Dutch. The stamp looks real. Real and ancient. Something that would cost a pretty penny to forge. Your finger traces its outline.
No. It's not possible. It's a scam, a hoax, a cruel joke at your expense. And yet, the letter is there, the paper soft and cool beneath your touch, the ink stark and undeniable. And the promise it contains is too tantalizing to ignore, a lure that tugs at something deep within, a need to know, to uncover, that has driven you since you were a child hunched over dusty tomes in the local library. The thought of a hidden archive, a repository of knowledge that has remained untouched, is almost too much to bear. To be the first to delve into its mysteries, to unearth its secrets and bring them to light—it's a siren call that is nearly irresistible.
But doubt lingers. How can you be sure this isn't just another wild goose chase, a distraction from the work that really matters, the work that could finally earn you the recognition you crave? You've been down this road before, chasing whispers and rumors, only to find yourself at dead ends, empty-handed and disillusioned. And to leave the city, to venture out into the unknown, into the home of a complete stranger—could that truly be worth the risk?
It seems that she's anticipated that question. Her reply, written in the same neat, flowing script, reads thus:
I understand that my request may seem strange, even outrageous. But sometimes, the greatest discoveries are made when we are willing to take risks, to step outside of the comfortable and the familiar. I ask you to trust in the potential of this opportunity, in the possibility of what we could achieve together. And remember, there is no reward without risk. History, after all, is filled with stories of those who dared to venture into the unknown and emerged victorious.
I have seen your work, and I know you are not one to turn away from the unknown. Your tenacity and intelligence are well known in the circles that matter. And while the path I am offering may seem uncertain, I assure you, it is not a trap, but a gateway. Beyond the door that I hold open, lies a world of knowledge and understanding that few will ever have the privilege to experience. The immortality that you seek is in my hands. Take the chance. Accept my offer, and let the new moon guide you to a future that is brighter than anything you could have imagined.
To be the one to unlock the secrets of Ada's ancestral home, to be the one to finally bring the truth to light... it's an opportunity that can't be ignored. And so, with a shaky hand, you pick up the pen and begin to write your response. Outside, the storm has grown in intensity, the wind howling and the thunder cracking like the anger of a forgotten god. But the sound is distant now, muted by the walls of the house and the roar of your own thoughts, a cacophony of doubt and anticipation that threatens to overwhelm.
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The road winds into the hills, narrow and uneven, flanked by trees that loom overhead, their branches arching together to form a dark canopy. The rain hasn’t let up since you began the journey, the steady drumming against the carriage roof becoming part of the background, a constant, insistent poking of the storm that follows you. The occasional flicker of lightning flashes through the gaps in the trees, casting the landscape in brief moments of stark, white light before plunging it back into shadow.
You glance out the small window beside you, but there’s little to see. The mist rolls over the hills in thick sheets, swallowing the path ahead. The horses’ hooves pound steadily on the wet earth, their steps the only other sound aside from the storm. The driver, hidden beneath his wide-brimmed hat and heavy cloak, hasn’t spoken since you departed, and you haven’t felt the need to ask him anything, the silence between you is a mutual understanding.
The estate’s name, etched into your mind from Ada’s letter, lingers at the edge of your thoughts, pulling you forward even as your surroundings grow more foreboding. Each mile takes you deeper into the unknown, into a place that feels far removed from the world you left behind. You shift in your seat, fingers brushing over the worn leather of your bag, your papers and journals tucked carefully inside. You feel their presence there, a small comfort of the world you know—structured, organized, and real, but everything beyond the window seems intent on dissolving that reality, turning it into something less solid, more ethereal.
As the carriage rounds a sharp curve, the terrain changes. The forest falls back, the tree line retreating to reveal the jagged peaks of the mountains, their summits lost in low-hanging clouds. Ahead, the road grows steeper, winding its way upward toward some unseen destination. At the base of the hill, you spot a village—a collection of old, weather-worn buildings clustered around a small, decrepit church. Its spire reaches skyward, a black finger accusing the heavens. There are no lights in the windows, no signs of life except for the dim glow of the street lamps. It has an aura of abandonment, of being left to decay and crumble, a relic of a time long past. As the carriage rumbles past, a shiver runs down your spine, a feeling of unease settling in the pit of your stomach. This is the last settlement you’ve seen for miles, a final outpost of humanity before the wilderness takes over.
The carriage jolts as the wheels hit a stone buried in the mud, and your hand instinctively reaches out to steady yourself, gripping the edge of the seat. The road is getting rougher, narrower, and you sense the climb as the horses struggle against the incline. The mist thickens, curling around the trees and spilling onto the road, wrapping the world in a damp, cold shroud.
And then, the trees break.
Without warning, the darkness gives way to a vast, open plain that stretches out before you, its edges lost in the swirling mist. In the center of the clearing, a castle rises from the gloom, its towers and parapets outlined by a pale, silver light that emanates from somewhere within, rising out of the mist like a sentinel watching over a forgotten land. Towers reach toward the clouds, their windows narrow slits that seem more like watchful eyes than places for light. Ivy clings to the walls, creeping up the stone in twisted vines, giving the impression that the building has grown from the earth itself, rather than having been built. There is a stillness here, a sense that the passage of time has slowed, or perhaps stopped altogether, leaving the estate trapped in a moment of eternal twilight, and even the rain seems muted, the drops falling in a hushed patter, a gentle murmur.
The path leading up to the entrance is overgrown, the stones cracked and uneven beneath the carriage wheels. As the carriage draws closer, the details of the castle emerge from the gloom. A massive, arched doorway, flanked by two enormous, iron torches that cast an eerie, flickering light, greets the travelers. The ironwork of the hinges is ornate, swirling and looping in repetitive patterns, hinting at an era long gone. Two gargoyles perch on either side of the arch, their faces twisted into grotesque, snarling expressions, their bodies crouched as if ready to spring to life. Their wings stretch out behind them, and their tails wrap around the columns they sit upon, their claws digging into the stone.
Beyond the door, a courtyard opens up, a large, cobblestone area that is silent and empty, save for the statue of a knight in full armor standing guard in the center, a sword held aloft in its raised hand. The fountain at his feet is dry, the basin cracked and filled with dead leaves. The sound of the horses’ hooves is loud in the quiet, echoing off the empty space, a steady, rhythmic thud that seems to reverberate through the very bones of the castle. The scent of rain is stronger here, mixed with the musty aroma of age and the sweet, almost sickly smell of dying flowers. Somewhere in the distance, an owl calls, its mournful hoot adding to the atmosphere of melancholy that permeates the entire estate. The driver pulls the reins, guiding the horses to a stop in the center of the courtyard. For a moment, all is still, the only sounds are the rain on the stones and the soft, panting breath of the horses. Then the door of the carriage swings open, its hinges squealing in protest, the sound cutting through the quiet.
You step out, a hesitant figure in the gloom, the hood of your cloak pulled low over your face. The driver doesn’t speak, only nods once, a quick gesture before snapping the reins and guiding the horses back down the road without a backward glance. He’s gone before you can even thank him, the clatter of hooves fading into the mist.
The wind picks up, sharp and biting, whipping through your hair as you look up at the estate rising in front of you, towering against the swirling mist and darkened sky. Its silhouette is sharp, angular, and unforgiving—an imposing structure that speaks of old wealth and forgotten grandeur. The walls are dark stone, streaked from years of rain and time, their surface etched with cracks that twist and spread like veins. Tall, narrow windows are set deep into the stone, their glass stained with a layer of dust that seems to keep the outside world at bay. They climb up the sides of the building, reaching for the shadowed heavens, casting long, skeletal shadows across the grounds.
At the center of it all stands the main entrance—a pair of massive wooden doors, each one banded with iron that’s rusted at the edges, the metal flaking and peeling away, and the large, metal knocker, its shape a twisted, serpentine dragon. There’s something about the way the doors sit, slightly uneven on their hinges, that makes them feel heavier than they should. You can imagine the groan they will make as they open, the weight of centuries hanging on every inch.
But beyond the decay, beyond the overwhelming sense of age and abandonment, there is something else—something that doesn’t quite belong. As your eyes wander over the architecture, you notice the small details that stand out against the design. The curves of the stone are interrupted here and there by subtle flourishes—carvings that resemble flowing clouds, delicate floral patterns that snake along the edges of the windows. It takes you a moment, but you recognize the influence—the style is distinctly Asian, its delicate intricacy weaving into the otherwise European structure.
The juxtaposition strikes you. It’s as if the house itself has been altered, added to over time by different hands, each one leaving its mark. The harsh Gothic edges clash with the soft, flowing lines of the more recent additions, creating a dissonance that feels deliberate, as though each resident had a vision that never quite fit with the one before.
The longer you look, the more the disjointedness of it all becomes apparent, the estate feeling less like a cohesive whole and more like a patchwork, stitched together by the changing tastes and whims of those who lived within its walls.
The rain rolls off the stone, pooling in small rivulets around the base of the steps where you're standing, and you hesitate, your fingers flexing inside your gloves as you tighten your grip on your bag, feeling the reassuring pressure of its contents, then take a breath, steadying yourself before you ascend the steps.
As your hand reaches for the iron knocker, cold and heavy beneath your fingers, there’s a moment—just a fraction of a second—where the storm quiets. The rain still falls, but its sound feels distant, muffled, as though the estate itself has swallowed it, pulling everything around you into a strange, unnatural silence.
The door opens before you can knock.
It swings inward with a low groan, revealing a foyer that seems to swallow the light, but you're too stunned, not from the timing, but because that there's nobody around to have done the opening. Your eyes scan the area quickly, looking for any sign of a person or a device, but there's nothing. Just the dimly lit room and the echoes of the door's creaking hinges. An uneasy feeling creeps up the back of your neck, a sense of being watched, or perhaps anticipated.
A gust of wind pushes you forward, and the door slams shut behind you, sealing you inside. The noise of the latch clicking into place is jarringly loud in the sudden, tomb-like silence. You stand in the entryway, heart pounding in your chest and hands pulled to your chest shaking, the taste of copper in the back of your throat. For a moment, the thought of fleeing crosses your mind. This is wrong, all of it, and you have the growing suspicion that this is a mistake, a horrible, irreparable mistake. But the realization that the carriage won't return, and the knowledge that the walk to the village would be treacherous in the storm, traps you.
"Hello?" you call out, your own trembling, meek echo in the vastness of the entry hall, "Lady Wong? Are you there?"
Your words hang in the stagnant, dusty, and mildew-scented space, the faintest of shuffles, the scrape of fabric, the drip of moisture, and the settling of ancient wood, becoming deafening in the wake of the quiet. It’s warm inside, but not comforting. The warmth presses down, thick and stale, wrapping itself around you like the remnants of a forgotten fire left too long to smolder.
There's an undercurrent of... something in the unmoving atmosphere, a kind of lingering dread that seeps into the pores and clings to the skin, the sort of unease that settles in the pit of your stomach and refuses to let go, a sensation that's difficult to shake, and even harder to dismiss as a mere figment of an overactive imagination. A single bead of sweat trails down the length of your spine, the source of which isn't the heat, but rather the chilling cold that's taken hold, a stark contrast to the stifling humidity outside.
The grand hall before you stretches into the shadows, its walls lined with portraits that seem to watch you as you move. The ceiling arches high above, almost lost in the dim light cast by flickering sconces. The flames sputter, casting strange shadows that shift along the walls, making the room feel alive in a way that the outside world no longer does. Your eyes are drawn upward, toward the high windows that let in no light, the glass stained with rain and grime, and then back down to the floor beneath your boots—polished stone, dark and glistening.
There’s something layered about the space. The same clashing of styles you noticed outside is present here, too, though it’s more subtle, more hidden within the details. The pillars lining the hall are carved in a style that speaks of European craftsmanship, yet the bases are adorned with delicate etchings of cranes and lotus flowers that seem to belong to another time, another place. The chandeliers above, too, are a strange amalgamation, wrought iron twisted into shapes that almost resemble dragons, their mouths open in a silent roar, their bodies curling in on themselves.
Your eyes drift over the portraits hanging on the walls, the frames gilded and ornate. The figures within them are dressed in the fashion of centuries past, their expressions solemn, eyes fixed forward in that unsettling way portraits have of capturing more than just a likeness. Some are clearly European, their features sharp, condescending, but others are a study in diversity of different peoples of the world.
There’s no rhyme or reason to the placement of the portraits, no clear lineage to follow. Some of the faces seem to blur together, their details lost in the dim light, while others are so sharply defined that they almost seem to stand out from the canvas. And always, those eyes—they follow you as you move deeper into the hall, a silent audience watching your every step. As you walk, the sound of your footsteps is muffled, the acoustics of the space swallowing the noise instead of reflecting it, the echoes that should bounce off the walls and ceilings are muted and distorted, creating a disorientating effect.
At the end of the hall, a grand staircase rises up, the banisters sweeping upward in graceful arcs, the wood polished to a deep, rich shine. You stop at the bottom step, your hand reaching out to touch the smooth, cold metal of the railing.
And then, from the upper landing, a figure appears. Dressed in a gown of crimson and black that ripples in the low light, the colors shifting and blending like oil on water, the woman descends the stairs, her steps a slow, measured cadence, her heels clicking softly against the marble. She moves with a kind of effortless grace that catches you off guard, as if the air itself parts for her, smoothing the way.
"Welcome." The word slips from her lips, soft but firm, carrying effortlessly through the hall. "You must be my guest."
Despite the warmth of her words, there's a certain coolness to her demeanor, an impenetrable aloofness that keeps her at a distance, a barrier that invites curiosity and defies intimacy.
Ada Wong stands before you in the flesh, not the half-imagined, half-fabricated version of her that you've conjured from her letters, but the real, tangible woman. She's taller than you'd expected, her frame deceptively willowy under the layers of her finely tailored dress—a hanfu, you realize. Its style and cut are unmistakable, its intricate embroidery and elegant lines a striking contrast to the Gothic architecture surrounding her, a living embodiment of the cultural dichotomy that seems to permeate the entire estate. In the dim, wavering candlelight, her eyes are a rich, deep shade of brown that borders on red in the right angles, the color of aged mahogany or a fine, well-seasoned wine. Short hair, a glossy, jet-black that gleams in the low light, frames her face, the strands falling in a neat, razor-sharp edge along her jawline. The severe cut only serves to emphasize the elegance of her bone structure, her features fine and delicate, the porcelain of her complexion nearly flawless. She moves with a controlled, fluid grace, each gesture precise and intentional. It's a mannerism that speaks of years of practice, a cultivated poise that hides any trace of effort.
You manage a nod, though your throat feels dry, and the words you had planned—the polite, professional greeting you had rehearsed—die in your chest. Something in her presence makes speaking feel unnecessary, almost redundant. Ada’s eyes flicker briefly, as though she’s aware of your struggle and finds it faintly amusing.
"I trust the journey wasn’t too difficult," she says, though there’s no real question mark at the end of the sentence. It holds the same quiet command as before, a gentle pressure that compels you to respond, even if you’re not entirely sure how.
"It was..." Your tongue feels too big, clumsy in your mouth, the simple act of speech a challenge. You clear your throat, trying to regain some semblance of composure. "It was uneventful, thank you."
She watches you for a moment longer, the smile still lingering at the corners of her lips, but something about her gaze sharpens, narrowing slightly as though she’s assessing you. It’s not scrutiny, not the kind that makes you feel judged, but something far more subtle—a kind of curiosity that feels too specific, too focused.
Her hand lifts, a slow, graceful movement that draws your eye as she gestures toward the room behind her. "I hope your stay here will be equally comfortable," she says, the invitation clear in the lilt of her tone and the arch of her brow.
There's a glimmer of amusement in her eyes, a hint of a smirk at the corner of her mouth that suggests she knows something that you do not, a secret shared only between her and the flickering shadows that surround her, and the paintings on the wall, their eyes seeming to focus on her, and her alone, like they have come to life and are paying her tribute, or perhaps watching her every move, ready to judge her at a moment's notice. You find yourself wondering which is the reality, and which is the artifice, and if either of them matter at all in the grand scheme of things.
"Thank you," you say again, the words coming a bit easier this time, but there's still a catch in your throat that you can't quite shake, a tightness that wasn't there before, a fear that's been planted in the soil of your mind, waiting to grow, and bloom, and strangle the rest of your senses, leaving only the bitter taste of regret in its wake. "For everything, I mean. The opportunity. All of this." You wave a gloved hand, encompassing the estate and its mysteries in a single, broad gesture. "Even stepping a foot in here is a privilege few can dream of. So, thank you, Lady Wong, for allowing me to be a part of that small percentage. I am in your debt."
"Come." She takes your arm with no effort, linking her elbow to yours, her grip firm yet yielding, as if her strength were a tide, ebbing and flowing at will. "Let us get you settled in. There will be plenty of time to admire the decor later."
The warmth of her palm radiates through the fabric of her dress, a heat that is at once startling and reassuring. Her touch is light, a feather's brush, and yet it anchors you, grounding you in the present, the solidity of her presence dispelling the lingering sense of unease that's followed you from the courtyard. With a gentle tug, she guides you forward, leading you up the stairs and down a corridor that seems to stretch on forever.
"Lady Wong, may I ask what prompted your letter to me? Of all the historians, why did you choose me?"
A beat of silence. Then, "Straight to the point, aren't we?" Her laugh is low, barely a rumble of sound, and yet it sends a tremor of something akin to anticipation through you. "Just like your work," her eyes flit to you and then away, her smile never faltering, "your reputation preceded you. Your work on the forgotten texts of the ancient kingdoms of China was... illuminating, to say the least."
As Ada talks, her fingers tighten on your arm, her grip a fraction stronger, the pressure a subtle warning. "But let's save that conversation for another time, shall we? We have so much to discuss, and I'd hate to bore you with business matters on your first evening."
She leads you deeper into the house, past rooms that are closed off, the doors sealed shut. The walls seem to lean in, the darkness thickening around you, swallowing the light from the sconces until it's just a distant memory. And still, her hand remains on your arm, a constant, guiding presence. As you round a corner, the corridor opens up into a wider hall, the ceiling stretching higher above, the shadows receding. At the far end, a set of double doors stand open, revealing a library that is unlike anything you've ever seen. Shelves upon shelves of books line the walls, their spines a riot of colors and textures, the scent of old paper and leather filling the room. A fire crackles merrily in a grand hearth, the flames casting dancing patterns of gold and orange across the floor. In the center of the space, a large table stands, its surface littered with papers and manuscripts, the evidence of a scholar at work, a kind of organized chaos that is both familiar and comforting.
Ada releases your arm, and the loss of her touch is a sudden, jarring absence, as though a layer of protection has been stripped away. "I thought you'd appreciate having tea in here," she says, her tone light. "A chance to become acquainted with the materials that will consume your days, and perhaps some of the nights, too." She smiles at that, a knowing look that hints at her own experience with the demands of research. "Please, make yourself comfortable. I'll return shortly."
With a swirl of crimson and black, she departs, the click of her boots echoing softly against the wooden floorboards. Left alone, you stand in the middle of the library, the enormity of the task ahead settling on your shoulders as you take off your coat and gloves, draping them gingerly on the back of a chair with your chin tipped back, eyes flitting around to try to figure out how big the library is.
The tea set she comes back with isn’t what one expects a woman of her stature to have. It’s the sort of thing that belongs in a museum, not a private collection, a relic of a bygone era when art and utility were considered two sides of the same coin. It's distinctly Chinese, that much is obvious from the elegant, sweeping curves of the ceramic and the intricate, stylized depictions of cranes that dance across the white and blue glaze. But there's something else about it, a feeling that goes beyond mere cultural appreciation. The craftsmanship is exquisite, every detail etched with precision and care. The paintwork is delicate, the strokes so fine that they almost seem to blend into the porcelain itself, creating a seamless, fluid motion that gives the impression that the birds are alive and in flight.
She begins by rinsing the cups. A small amount of hot water pours from the teapot into each of the tiny, delicate cups before being discarded into a small dish on the side. The water ripples and steams briefly before settling, and you watch as she repeats the process, warming each cup as though preparing it for something far more important than tea. She does this without explanation, and you don’t ask, unsure of how to break the silence without shattering the careful balance of this moment.
Her gaze flickers briefly to you, catching your eyes for a split second before returning to the task at hand. There’s no rush in her movements—everything she does is smooth and unhurried, as if time bends to her will, slowing under the weight of her attention. Ada’s fingers, long and slender, curl around the teapot as she prepares the first pour of tea. A faint wisp of steam rises as the tea flows into the cups, dark and fragrant.
It turns out, the first pour is not for drinking. Ada tips the tea into another small dish, emptying the cups entirely. It’s a cleansing, a wash, though she offers no explanation, and you can only watch, fascinated by the careful choreography of her actions.
When she pours the second time, it is different. The tea is measured, filling each cup only partway, just enough to be savored but never wasted. The cups, delicate in her hands, barely make a sound as they are placed on the table. Ada’s gaze lifts to meet yours once more as she carefully offers the first cup to you, her fingers steady as she holds the small vessel out, both hands cradling it in a gesture that feels as much a gift as a service.
You reach out to take the cup, your fingers brushing the edges of hers for the briefest of moments. Her touch is cool, a stark contrast to the warmth of the fire, and for a moment, the room feels charged with something unspoken, a current that hums just below the surface. You wrap your fingers around the cup, feeling its warmth seep into your skin, and though you’ve never participated in this kind of ritual before, there’s a strange sense of expectation in the air—Ada frowns at you for some reason, eyes remaining on you, as if waiting.
You hesitate, unsure, but follow her lead, switching to accepting the tea with both hands, mimicking her grace as best you can. Her smile curves slightly at the corner of her mouth, almost imperceptible, before she turns back to her own cup, pouring tea for herself with the same fluidity.
You bring the cup to your lips, inhaling the soft, fragrant steam before taking a small sip. The tea is rich, its warmth blooming across your tongue and down your throat, though it does little to calm the quiet unease that has been building since you entered the house. There’s something about the way Ada watches you that unsettles you—her gaze never lingers for too long, but it’s sharp, assessing, as though she’s reading something beyond what you can offer.
You snap out of your thoughts when a knocking three times on the table interrupts the quiet between you and her. Your brows knit in confusion, and you glance up at Ada who is already looking at you, the ghost of a smile playing on her lips.
"That's an old tradition," she explains. "One meant to convey gratitude to the person offering the tea."
You look down at her hand, formed into a loose fist where it rests against the tabletop, and nod in understanding, her words sparking a flash of memory, a snippet of knowledge that seems to echo from somewhere deep within. She notices, of course, a gleam of amusement in her dark eyes. "Ah," her tone is warm, almost affectionate, the word hanging in the space between you. "So, not completely unaware of our ways, after all?"
"Not... not fully," you stammer, caught off guard. Something about her presence makes it hard to concentrate, like a fog has descended over your mind, making it difficult to articulate, so you enthusiastically copy the movement, albeit embarrassing yourself by one too many knocks akin to that of an impatient toddler, earning a raised eyebrow from her, and a huff of laughter.
Your face burns, cheeks hot to the touch, and you quickly raise the cup to your lips again, using the tea as a cover to regain your composure.
She doesn’t call attention to the slip-up, but her smile widens, the edges of her eyes crinkling in a way that suggests she finds your awkwardness endearing, and that somehow makes it worse, a knot tightening in the pit of your stomach, the sensation that you’re being evaluated growing stronger, and the urge to prove yourself overwhelming, a desperate need to demonstrate that you deserve to be here, in her home, in her presence, to earn the trust and respect that is so clearly absent from her gaze, her posture, her every action and reaction.
"Now, I believe we have a great deal to discuss, such as your accommodations," Ada says, setting her own cup down, the clink of china against the tabletop unnaturally loud in the otherwise still room. 
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Your assigned room is on the upper floor, a dark, heavy space with a tall, four-poster bed at its center, its velvet curtains drawn halfway around the posts. The bed looks ancient, its wood carved with intricate designs that are nearly lost to the passage of time. The corners of the room are inked in shadow, despite the small oil lamp flickering weakly on the nightstand, its flame barely enough to hold the darkness at bay.
You set your bag down on the old wooden chair near the bed, the leather creaking softly under the weight. The floor beneath your boots groans, the boards uneven, worn smooth from years of footsteps. As you walk to the window, the room feels colder, the air thick with the musty scent of wood and damp stone. You glance outside, the rain still coming down in relentless sheets, turning the world beyond the glass into a blurry landscape of black and grey.
Something catches your eye, a small statue sitting on the windowsill. It's a simple piece, carved from a single block of jade, the green stone luminous even in the dim light of the storm. It's of a woman, her form draped in a flowing gown, her head bowed in silent contemplation, a stylized crane perched on her shoulder. There's a familiarity to it, a sense of dĂŠjĂ  vu that makes the hairs on the back of your neck stand on end. You've seen this figure before, or at least its likeness. Where, and when, eludes you, but the recognition is undeniable, a half-remembered fragment of a dream that refuses to come into focus. Your fingers trace the contours of the statue, the cool, smooth jade seeming to pulse under your touch, like a heartbeat, a faint, lingering memory of life that once was, or might yet be.
You realize that the exhaustion of traveling has settled into your bones, a deep weariness that pulls at your muscles and weighs down your eyelids. With a sigh, you turn away from the window and the statue, letting the shadows fall back over the small figure, obscuring its features. You sit on the edge of the bed, the mattress sinking beneath your slight frame, and remove your boots, placing them neatly beside the chair.
In the distance, a clock chimes, its melancholy tones echoing through the empty halls, marking the passage of another hour, another day, drawing you closer to the unknown future that awaits in the cold, rain-drenched countryside. The sound seems to fill the room, a somber note that lingers in the corners, clinging to the walls and the ceiling, a solemn companion for the night ahead. You lie back, the pillows swallowing your head, muffling the chime, and stare up at the canopy, the embroidered fabric a painting of faded colors and forgotten patterns, a story without an ending.
The dream comes quietly.
It starts with a song, a low, mournful melody that seems to rise from the very ground beneath your feet. The notes are discordant, jarring, and yet they resonate in your bones, sending shivers racing along your spine. You are standing in a field of white flowers, their petals stained red at the edges, their color a stark contrast to the dull grey of the sky above. The wind howls around you, its icy fingers pulling at your hair, whipping the strands against your face, a thousand tiny lashes that sting and burn. You lift a hand to shield your eyes, and when you lower it, the scene has changed. Instead of the flower-littered meadow, there are rows of gravestones, their surfaces slick with rain, the names blurred and illegible. They stretch on forever, a city of the dead, a metropolis of mourning. And in the midst of it all, a woman in white, her dress a cascade of lace and silk, her hair a waterfall of inky black that spills over her shoulders and down her back. She's facing away from you, her head bent, her hands clasped in front of her, and though you can't see her face, you know she's weeping. The song that haunts the dream grows louder, the melody more urgent, the notes climbing in pitch and volume until it's a scream, a wailing chorus that threatens to tear the fabric of the world itself. But then, just as the noise reaches a crescendo, the woman in white turns, and her red gaze locks onto yours.
With a gasp, you jolt awake, heart pounding, the remnants of the nightmare still clinging to the edges of your consciousness. For a moment, you can't remember where you are—the darkness that surrounds you is suffocuating, a cocoon of shadow that envelops the room, hiding the familiar landmarks of the waking world. Slowly, the shapes of the furniture emerge from the gloom, the outline of the wardrobe and the chair becoming solid, the ghostly apparitions of the dream receding into the recesses of your memory.
As the panic subsides, a certain ache settles in, a persistent, throbbing pain that emanates from the meat of your left shoulder, radiating outward in waves that seem to encompass your entire body, the source a burning point of discomfort that refuses to fade. You sit up, the covers pooling around your waist, and reach a tentative hand to probe the tender flesh, expecting to find the ridged lines of a recent scar, but there's nothing. Just the unbroken expanse of skin, smooth and unblemished, the pain an intangible thing that has no place in the reality of the early morning. You shake your head, trying to clear the cobwebs of sleep, and the ache begins to lessen, the memory of the dream slipping further and further away, until all that remains is the fading echo of the woman's cry, the last, haunting notes of a melody that should have ended long ago.
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It's been a week since your arrival at the estate, and the days have taken on a routine of sorts, a rhythm dictated by the ebb and flow of the hours and the demands of your research. Each morning, you rise with the sun, the pale, watery light that filters through the clouds and the glass of the bedroom window serving as a natural alarm, rousing you from the clutches of whatever dreams have followed you from the previous night.
You wash and dress, the ritual of preparing for the day a necessary one, a means of grounding yourself in the reality that is the house and its mistress. Ada has made her presence scarce during the daylight hours, leaving you to your work, the volumes of family history and the dusty tomes of the archives your only companions. Occasionally, a servant will appear, a silent, efficient figure in a plain, serviceable outfit, bearing a tray of food or a fresh pot of tea, but they are gone as soon as they arrive, leaving you alone once again, the silence of the library settling over the room like a palpably physical entity, a fourth wall that is both a comfort and a prison, a barrier between you and the world beyond the doors, and an embrace that keeps the past at bay, allowing you to lose yourself in the words on the page. The stories are of a people and a time that is not your own, but that calls to something deep within, an ancestral memory of a homeland you’ve never seen, and a legacy that is not your own, but that feels as much a part of you as the breath in your lungs and the blood in your veins.
The evening is a different beast. When the sun sinks below the horizon and the sky turns from grey to a bruised purple, Ada emerges from the shadows of the manor, a phantom in a crimson gown, the skirts trailing behind her like a pool of blood, her steps muffled, her approach heralded by the faint scent of the perfume that clings to her, a sweet, cloying fragrance that fills the space, a heady aroma that sends your pulse skittering, a wild, untamed thing that flutters in the hollow of your throat, a bird in a cage desperate to escape.
And then she's there, in the doorway of the library, a specter of beauty and mystery, her eyes dark and hooded, her mouth a slash of red in the pale canvas of her face. She comes to join you, a book in hand, a wineglass in the other, and together, in the flickering light of the fire, you read, a collection of manuscripts and open tomes spread before you. The text is old, written in a language that isn’t quite familiar, though its meaning is starting to come together as you decipher it. Across from you, Ada sits, poised and elegant, her hands resting lightly on the edge of the book she’s examining. The candlelight catches the sharp lines of her face, casting her features in stark relief, and for a moment, she looks like something out of a painting—timeless, otherworldly.
"Here, look at this," her words break the silence, her tone casual, as though speaking to a longtime friend rather than a relative stranger. Her finger taps the page, indicating a particular passage, the motion drawing your attention to her well-kept nails, the lacquered surface gleaming in the soft illumination of the candles that surround her. "The translation is incomplete.
“Are there any more passages?”
She slides the tome across the table, the pages rustling softly as she does, and points to a section of the text. It's a poem, a series of verses that speak of loss and longing, the ink faded with age, the characters blurred and smudged in places. As you lean closer, the scent of her perfume envelops you, a heady, floral blend that makes your head swim, the words on the page swimming in and out of focus.
“They’ve translated this word to mean ‘sacrifice,’ but they’ve misunderstood its context. It’s more nuanced—‘offering,’ perhaps, or ‘tribute.’ Something willingly given, not taken.”
You follow her index finger, tracing the line of text. She's right, the translation is flawed, the original meaning obscured by the translator's assumptions, their biases seeping into the interpretation. It's a common issue in historical documents, the meanings of words shifting and evolving over time, the nuances of language lost to the vagaries of history. “That changes the entire meaning of the ritual described here,” you say, thoughtful. “If it’s a tribute rather than a sacrifice, then it’s not about appeasing a force out of fear. It’s about… what, mutual respect? A covenant?”
Ada nods, her eyes bright with interest, and for a moment, the distance between you evaporates, the walls of the library falling away, and it's just the two of you, the books, and the knowledge contained within. "Exactly. The idea of balance, of reciprocity, is central to the culture of the region. It’s no longer about submission but negotiation."
You turn to another section, running your fingers along the margin of the page, the paper dry and brittle beneath your touch. "This word here—it means 'blood,' doesn't it? But not in the literal sense. More like... the essence of life?"
"Close," Ada murmurs, her gaze fixed on the page, her brow furrowing. "It's not just the physical substance, but the energy it represents. Life force, if you will. Blood is the carrier, the vessel, but it's the essence that matters."
"Blood is the carrier," you repeat, "I'll note those down."
You pick up the pen from the tabletop, its metal nib reflecting the flame's glow, and begin to transcribe the corrected translations onto a sheet of parchment. The scratching of the pen is the only sound in the room, the fire's crackle a distant accompaniment. Outside, the rain falls steadily, the droplets pelting against the glass of the windows, a steady drumbeat that underscores the quiet concentration.
“It makes me think about the way these rituals were perceived over time,” you say, not looking up. “There's always discussion about this, but it's always fresh to dig into it. How the meaning of the same act could change depending on who was telling the story. To one group, a willing offering, a sign of devotion and respect. To another, a sacrifice, an act of desperation or coercion. The same actions, the same intentions, but seen through the lens of a different culture, a different set of values.”
Ada leans back slightly in her chair, her fingers curling lightly around the armrests. “History has a way of doing that, doesn’t it?” she muses. “Turning the practical into the mystical. The rational into the feared. It’s easier to control people when you wrap truth in a veil of superstition.”
“I suppose that’s true. It makes sense when you think about it—rituals that were once about maintaining balance, reduced to something meant to inspire fear. Or worse, obedience.”
"Indeed," Ada says, her smile thin, her eyes glinting. "When power is on the line, facts often take a backseat. It's not about the truth, or even the tradition. It's about control. And control can be a dangerous thing in the wrong hands."
"Or the right ones, I imagine," you counter, a wry smile tugging at the corner of your lips, the words slipping out before you can stop them, a hint of unexpected challenge in your tone. "Control, that is. When wielded wisely. Like a scalpel, rather than a hammer."
"TouchĂŠ," she murmurs. "Perhaps you're not so green, after all."
"I'm glad someone seems to think so," you quip, the retort coming easily, the banter feeling oddly natural, considering the short amount of time you've known each other.
But instead of keeping it up, Ada's head tilts at that, a subtle shift that speaks of her interest, and the conversation takes a turn. She watches you closely, her eyes searching yours as if seeking to uncover something hidden, some secret that might lie behind the mask of professionalism that you've worn since your arrival, and the intensity of her scrutiny makes you squirm, a faint heat creeping up the back of your neck, a flush that's a blend of embarrassment and an emotion that's more difficult to define.
"I'm sorry," you say, trying to diffuse the sudden, charged atmosphere. "It's not a comforting comment coming from the person you've chosen to document the history of your family, is it?"
Ada’s hand moves toward you, and before you can process it, her fingers brush lightly against your wrist. The touch is fleeting, barely noticeable, but it sends a small shock through you.
“They’re fools,” she says quietly, her gaze locked on yours, her fingers still lingering against your skin. “To underestimate you. That kind of ignorance breeds contempt. They see a young scholar and assume that's all you are, not recognizing that youth and experience aren't mutually exclusive. You're not afraid to stand on the shoulders of giants and reach a little higher, are you?"
Her words strike a chord, resonating deep within, a tuning fork that hums in sync with your soul. The warmth of her skin lingers, a brand that refuses to fade, and it's only when her touch retreats, her fingers sliding from your pulse, that you realize you've been holding your breath.
"Thank you," you manage, the gratitude sincere, the simple acknowledgement of the doubt that has plagued you a balm to the uncertainty that has lurked in the recesses of your mind. In the wake of her praise, the doubts recede, replaced by a sense of determination, a renewed commitment to the task at hand, and a growing awareness that the woman sitting across from you is far more complex, more layered, than you originally thought.
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Some weird things have been happening lately.
A couple of times, you've walked into the study to find a book left open on the table, its pages turned to a specific passage that has nothing to do with what you've been working on. Then there was that strange incident a few days ago where the door to the library suddenly swung shut on its own, nearly catching the hem of your skirt in its wake. Just yesterday, a vase of flowers inexplicably appeared on the mantelpiece, its blooms a riot of colors and fragrances that seemed to permeate the room, an anomaly in the otherwise dusty, somber space. These occurrences are odd, certainly, but not enough to raise serious alarm. They're merely the kind of minor disturbances that can happen in an old house like this, the settling of the foundation, the shifting of the floorboards, and the quirks of the drafts that whistle through the ancient halls.
What does concern you, however, is the fact that the castle seems to have developed an uncanny ability to keep track of your location, almost as though the estate is alive, a sentient entity that follows you with invisible eyes, watching your every move. You've found yourself in rooms that should have been too far away to reach on foot, and in the gardens, the plants seem to bend and twist, guiding your path in a way that feels unnaturally convenient. It's as if the very architecture is bending to accommodate you, or, a more unsettling possibility, herding you along a predetermined course.
There's also the matter of the food that appears in the kitchen at mealtimes, the plates and bowls laden with delicacies that you've never requested or seen prepared, dishes that seem to cater to your tastes, your moods, and even the fluctuations of the weather. It's a level of attention to detail that borders on intrusive, and the longer you think about it, the more convinced you become that there's something—or perhaps, someone—behind it all. Someone who knows you, or is at least attempting to know you, in a manner that is both intimate and disconcerting.
Despite these concerns, the work continues, and the evenings with her in the library have taken on a new dynamic, a comfortable rhythm that belies the strangeness of the circumstances. As the days pass, the conversations grow deeper, more probing, and you find yourselves discussing not just the history and language of her family, but the nature of power, the intricacies of belief, and the fine line between fact and fiction. Her insights are sharp, incisive, and her questions are not the idle musings of a dilettante, but the considered queries of a woman who is deeply interested in the world and its workings, the sort of person you can't help but admire, and the kind of individual that can be incredibly, dangerously fascinating, and the sort of fascination that can lead to a whole host of complications. Not that that matters, of course. Your role is that of a historian, a scholar, a neutral observer. Nothing more.
It's during one of these late-night sessions, when the clock has struck midnight and the fire has burned low, that she brings up the topic of dreams, her eyes glinting in the dim light. "Do you believe they can tell us anything?" Ada asks, her tone casual, but her gaze intent. "About ourselves, or the world around us?"
"Dreams?" you ask, caught off-guard by the sudden turn in the conversation. You sit back, considering her question, the book in your hands momentarily forgotten. "Well, yes, I suppose so. They're a product of the subconscious, aren't they? An amalgamation of our experiences, our fears, our desires. But whether they're prophetic, or hold some deeper, cosmic significance, I'm not sure. Why do you ask?"
"Just curious," Ada demurs, though the slight upward tug of her mouth suggests otherwise. "I've had some... interesting ones, lately." She pauses, her eyes never leaving yours, and for a moment, the silence stretches, a thread of connection pulled taut between you. "What do you dream of, I wonder?"
"Oh, the usual," you deflect, not wanting to delve into the particulars of your nighttime wanderings.
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The usual is a lie, of course.
Before coming here, your dreams had always been abstract, amorphous things, a jumble of images and sensations that faded upon waking, meaningless and unremarkable.
But since your arrival, the landscape of your sleep has transformed, the nebulous terrain coalescing into a series of recurring visions, a narrative that unfolds in fragments, each episode picking up where the last left off, a winding tale always about Ada that draws you in, its tendrils burrowing deeper with each passing night. You've seen her in a hundred different guises, in a thousand different settings, her face a constant in a sea of shifting scenarios. In one of them she lives in the Han Dynasty, a noblewoman in silk robes of the deepest crimson, her hair adorned with jade ornaments that catch the light and throw it back in dazzling patterns. The next, a courtesan in the pleasure district of the capital, her beauty veiled behind a painted fan, her laughter a melody that entices and ensnares, a siren's song that lures men to their doom. Then, a spy in the shadows, a master of disguise and deception, her every move calculated, her true intentions hidden beneath layers of artifice. And in another, a priestess in a temple atop a mist-shrouded mountain, her prayers a balm to the souls of the lost, her presence a beacon of solace in a world of chaos. No matter the time or place, her essence remains the same—a force of nature, a creature of contradictions, a woman of infinite depths and unknowable secrets.
Your favorite of the dreams, or perhaps the one that troubles you the most, is the one that recurs with the greatest frequency. In this dream, Ada is a queen, resplendent in her finery, a crown of wrought iron and rubies perched upon her raven hair. Her throne is a towering monolith of black stone, its surface etched with symbols and runes that seem to writhe and twist in the flickering torchlight. She sits upon the cold, hard seat, her posture regal and commanding, her gaze distant and unfocused. A court of shadows surrounds her, their forms insubstantial and fleeting, their whispers and laughter echoing in the cavernous space. As you approach, the shadows part, allowing you passage, their faces a blur of malice and delight. When you are close enough, the whispers cease, the laughter dies, and a silence descends, thick and suffocatings, a blanket of anticipation that wraps itself around you, a serpent's coils squeezing the breath from your lungs. Ada's red gaze finally settles on you, and in those endless depths, you see a reflection of yourself, a mirror image that is not quite right, a distortion that sends a shiver down your spine. She smiles then, a slow, predatory curve of the lips that reveals teeth that are too sharp, too many, and the room begins to spin, the shadows dancing around you, a macabre ballet that threatens to pull you under, to drag you down into the abyss of her madness. You wake with a start, the taste of ashes on your tongue, and the echo of her laughter ringing in your ears. It's the only time her smile is terrifying.
But the other dreams, the ones where she looks at you the way she does in the study, the way her hand brushed yours the other day, the ones where she leans in and tells you how beautiful you look in the morning sun, the ones that make the blush creep up your neck because they're not nightmares, and in the dark hours of the night, alone in your bed, you're allowed to indulge in the fantasy of what it might be like to have her smile at you and call you her own...
Sometimes, the dreams are mundane, a repetition of the day's events, the echo of a conversation held in the library, or a memory of a shared pot of tea, the scent of jasmine and bergamot lingering in the ethereal space. Other times, the scenarios are more surreal, a collage of half-remembered history lessons and snippets of overheard gossip, a patchwork of stories that may or may not have a basis in reality.
Tonight, as you drift off to the sound of the rain tapping softly against the windowpane, the dream is vivid, a Technicolor film reel that plays out behind your closed eyelids, a movie of the mind that holds you captive, unwilling or unable to look away. In the dream, you are walking through a field, the grasses waist-high and swaying in a gentle breeze, the sky above a clear, cloudless expanse of azure. Ahead, on the crest of a hill, stands a structure—an ancient temple you've only ever seen drawings of in the books of the library, its marble columns worn and pitted, the stone steps crumbling at the edges. But here, in the realm of the imagination, the edifice is pristine, a relic from a forgotten age preserved in the amber of the subconscious, a fragment of a past that never was, or perhaps a future that has yet to come. From somewhere within the temple, a sound emerges, a haunting melody that seems to rise from the earth itself, a lament of strings and drums that reverberates in your bones, a call that is impossible to resist.
Drawn forward, you ascend the stairs, the music growing louder, more insistent with each step, until you are standing on the threshold. Inside, a figure waits, draped in black, a veil obscuring her features. It's her—you can sense her presence without seeing her face, an aura that is unmistakably hers. And then, the veil is lifted, and her red eyes are revealed, burning like embers in the dimness, a fiery, molten stare that sears into your soul. She beckons, a single finger extended, and despite the warning bells that clang in the recesses of your thoughts, you follow, a willing supplicant to the altar of her gaze.
You descend further into the darkness, the music swelling, the tempo increasing, the beat thrumming in your veins, a primal, ancient rhythm that speaks to something deep and unknowable, a truth buried beneath the veneer of civilization, a wild, untamed thing that hungers to be set free. At the heart of the temple, a chamber awaits, its walls adorned with symbols of a lost faith, the carvings worn smooth by the touch of countless worshipers, the names of the gods erased by the relentless march of time. And in the center, a pool of dark water, its surface mirror-like and still, reflecting the infinite vastness of the universe, the celestial dance of stars and galaxies rendered in miniature, a cosmos contained within a single drop of dew.
She reaches out, a slender hand dipping below the surface, and the liquid ripples outward, the reflection distorted, the constellations swirling in a maelstrom of color and light. When she withdraws her hand, it is stained crimson, the blood stark and shocking against the pallor of her skin. Then, her eyes lock onto yours, and her lips part, the words that spill forth a siren song that entwines with the melody, a harmony that is both beautiful and terrible, a chorus that echoes through the hollow chambers of your heart, a hymn to powers that defy comprehension. The meaning of her words is lost on you, the language archaic, the pronunciation unfamiliar, but the intent is clear, a plea that resonates on a cellular level, a summons that cannot be ignored. You take a step closer, the world tilting on its axis, the ground falling away beneath your feet, the abyss yawning wide to receive you.
And then, just as the precipice looms before you, the brink of oblivion stretching out to infinity, a hand grasps yours, a tether that anchors you to the present, a lifeline that reels you back from the edge of the chasm. Your eyes snap open, the darkness receding, the nightmare dissipating like smoke in the wind, leaving behind a residue of fear and confusion, a lingering sense of dread that clings to your waking thoughts like a shawl of cobwebs.
This is your usual now. This is what's happening to you. There's no one to share the burden, no confidante to divulge the grip Ada Wong has on your unconscious to place her in such a starring role.
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Your sense of time has blurred.
It's no longer measured in days, but in the number of cups of tea that you've shared, the hours spent hunched over dusty texts, the pages of the manuscript that have been painstakingly translated, and the nights that have passed in the grip of dreams that leave you disoriented and shaken upon waking. How long has it been since you arrived? A week, a month, a year?
Time has become a fluid concept, a stream that bends and twists, its course altered by the whims of the estate and its mistress, the rhythms of the seasons and the cycles of the moon. Days blend into weeks, and weeks into months, the boundaries between them eroding, the lines blurring until all that remains is the constant companionship of the woman who has become the focus of your existence, the object of your fascination and, if you are honest with yourself, the subject of your burgeoning obsession.
And it has led you down a path that wasn't originally in the plan. Instead of simply transcribing and translating the documents that have been provided to you, you've found yourself drawn to exploring your surroundings for a glimpse of what she has been doing before your arrival.
That's when you re-discovered the portraits.
You avoided them all this time, mostly for the jarring sensation of being watched the first time you took a step in the manor, and also because there's no need to go anywhere except the library, and to the dining area to eat. Now that the work is done, and the rest of the castle has opened to you, so have the paintings.
You don't know why you haven't noticed this before. It's a blend of men and women, but none of them look related. They all have different skin tones, and body types, and eye shapes, and hair, and the dates of their lives range widely. Instead of being family heirlooms, these seem more like paintings bought from a museum. There is no way this many racially divergent people can trace their lineage back to the same ancestor. Unless they're adopted, or the product of a series of extramarital affairs. But to have that happen over centuries, and in places where adoption wasn't really a widespread idea? That's very weird. And even then, the odds of having that many successful adoptions across the span of four centuries is...
Well, let's just say the chances are low. Really low.
So, you decide to ask about it at dinner.
"The portraits downstairs at the entrance to the castle. Who are they?"
"Family," Ada answers, not meeting your eyes, her attention fixed on the plate of food in front of her. "Ancestors."
"It's a bit odd to have ancestors that... look nothing alike," you remark, the words slipping out before you can think better of it. "I mean, I doubt any of those men and women were born of the same parents. Not unless every generation of the Wong clan had children that were, uh... out of wedlock." You give a small, nervous laugh, hoping to pass it off as an innocent observation, a harmless joke that won't provoke her ire. After all, questioning someone's heritage isn't exactly polite dinner conversation. But something about the situation strikes you as strange, a puzzle that doesn't quite fit together, and curiosity has always been a driving force in your life. "They're all from different places, and the dates are all wrong, too."
Her reaction is unexpected. She freezes, her fork hovering in the middle of the table, her gaze lifting slowly to meet yours, a hint of amusement dancing in the depths of her eyes. The corner of her mouth twitches, a suppressed smile that could easily be mistaken for a sneer, and then she lets out a soft, almost imperceptible sigh, the sound a prelude to the storm that is brewing beneath the surface of her carefully controlled facade.
"Does family all need to be related?" Ada asks, her tone light, her question deceptively simple. "Do we not choose our own kin, in the end?" Her words are like daggers, their edges honed to razor sharpness, their impact felt deep within the core of your being.
"I suppose," you reply, the uncertainty creeping into your response. "But that's not how things usually work. Most people stay loyal to their birth families, no matter the distance or the differences." The implication of her statement is clear—she considers the collection of strangers portrayed in the portraits to be her true family, a bond stronger than blood, a connection that transcends the boundaries of race and nationality, a notion that defies the conventions of society, and the expectations of her peers.
Ada's laugh is a brittle thing, a shard of ice that pierces the warmth of the room, a chilling gust that sweeps across the table and settles in the marrow of your bones. "Oh, my dear, sweet fool," she says, her lips twisting in a mocking smirk. "You are smart enough to find the holes, but not to fill them, are you?" Her laughter fades, replaced by a cold, calculating stare that pins you to the spot. "Or maybe, you've already filled them. Maybe, just maybe, you're playing a game with me, a chess match where you think the pieces are in your favor. A little cat and mouse, hm?"
The accusation stings, a barb that lodges itself in the flesh of your pride, a wound that bleeds the confidence that has sustained you thus far. You have never considered yourself a coward, not when confronted by bullies in the schoolyard, or the ignorant professors who sought to undermine your ambitions, or the skeptics who questioned the veracity of your chosen field of study. But now, seated across the table from the enigmatic, the captivating, the utterly terrifying Ada Wong, you feel small, insignificant, a speck of dust caught in the maelstrom of her will.
"I'm not—I didn't—" the denial falters on your tongue, the words crumbling under the pressure of her scrutiny. "I meant no disrespect. I was simply curious."
Curious. Such a benign word to describe the tangled knot of emotions that has taken root in the depths of your being.
Curiosity. Yes, that is what you will call it, the insatiable thirst for knowledge that has driven you from the safety of the familiar, from the embrace of the known, to the wild frontier of the unknown. Curiosity has brought you here, to this isolated estate, to this woman whose very existence defies explanation, to the precipice of discovery and the brink of insanity.
"Curious about the wrong thing," Ada says, the corners of her mouth curving upward, her teeth flashing white and sharp in the candlelight, a predator's grin that sends a shiver of trepidation down the length of your spine. "You want to know why, not how. Why a bunch of unrelated people are called 'family' by their owner, not how they got there. Isn't that right? Are you curious to know their stories, to hear their tales of woe and wonder? Or is it only the mystery that intrigues you? The riddle, not the answer?"
"You're the one avoiding questions, not me." It's a bold move, a gambit that could end in disaster, a taunt that dances on the edge of impertinence, a challenge to her authority, a gauntlet thrown at her feet. But the alternative is unthinkable—to concede defeat, to surrender to her will, to admit that she has seen through the veneer of scholarly detachment that you have cultivated, that the armor of intellectual curiosity that you have wrapped around yourself is nothing more than a flimsy disguise. "You've given me the invitation to curiosity, and now that I'm finally taking a bite of the fruit, you're trying to snatch it away. If you wanted someone to just sit pretty and follow your orders, you should've hired a scribe, not a historian."
A moment of silence follows, the world holding its breath, the balance of power shifting, the scales of fate tipping precariously between the extremes of triumph and calamity. Then, the stillness is shattered, not by the roar of outrage, or the hiss of anger, but the peal of laughter, the rich, throaty sound of genuine amusement that spills from her lips, a cascade of merriment that breaks the spell of her intimidation, a chink in the armor.
"Oh, I do love a fire," Ada remarks, her eyes alight with a new, a different kind of hunger. Not the predatory gleam of a hunter sizing up its prey, but the spark of interest, the glimmer of admiration that comes from recognizing a kindred spirit. "I've been waiting for someone like you."
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"Here, I found this. Thought we could try making it together." She sets a book on the desk in front of you and taps a manicured fingernail on the page. "I'm in the mood for something sweet."
It's a recipe. Simple. Easy to make, easy to eat, and apparently even easier to find ingredients to. Why a baking book has somehow made its way into her family's collection of records, journals, and historical texts, though, is beyond you, but it's not the weirdest or most disturbing thing to have happened since your arrival.
You don't say anything about why the two of you should venture out into this adventure instead of leaving it to the servants, or that the idea of a lady such as Ada with both hands in a bowl of dough is almost hilarious to you. They're inconsequential points in the grand scheme of things. Instead, you nod, a little dumbly at that, and agree. What else can you do? Refuse the first request she's actually made of you?
"You know how to bake?" the question is innocent, but the answer is not. You've always been the homely type, the kind of person who finds joy in the simple pleasures of cooking, of creating something from scratch. It's a side of yourself that's rarely seen, a private indulgence that you've kept hidden from the world, a secret pleasure that feels too vulnerable to share.
"It certainly would be inconvenient for me if I didn't," a self deprecating laugh follows your admission. "We aren't all born into luxury, after all."
Her smile is knowing, a hint of amusement playing at the corners of her mouth. "Well, not to worry, we'll have a professional baker on site if anything goes wrong. Now, let's get started, shall we?"
She rolls up the sleeves of her red blouse, exposing the delicate skin of her wrists, the blue-green tracery of her veins visible just beneath the surface, a map of life and fragility. The sight of her bare skin, so rarely on display, sends an unexpected thrill along your spine, a spark of electricity that dances across your nerves.
"Oh, I love cherries!" You gush, plucking one from the pile, popping it in your mouth and biting down on the firm flesh, the sweetness exploding on your tongue, the flavor a burst of sunshine in the dim, candlelit space of the kitchen. "They're my favorite!"
Ada's chuckle is warm, her eyes twinkling in the flickering light. "Then we'll have to make sure there are plenty of them in our pastry."
As you work, the two of you fall into an easy rhythm, and you're more than surprised to see that the lady of the house swarmed by servants is better than you at this. It's almost amusing to watch her expertly crack eggs, separate yolks from whites, and measure flour and sugar with precision. And yet, there's something oddly comforting about the domesticity of the scene, the shared labor and laughter a balm to the isolation that has plagued your stay. Her presence is a salve to the loneliness, a warmth that spreads through you, a feeling that is both welcome and disconcerting in its intensity, and the realization hits you like a bolt from the blue—you're enjoying this.
Enjoying her company, her wit, the way her eyes crinkle at the corners when she laughs, and the softness of her touch as she brushes the errant strands of hair from your face. You're not supposed to feel this, not towards her. She's a subject, a puzzle to be solved, a historical artifact to be studied and understood, not a woman whose proximity makes your pulse quicken. Yet here you are, standing in her ancestral home, a stranger in a strange land, and the only thing that feels familiar, that feels right, is her.
She even lets you have her share, a kindness that's rare in the world you've known, and the gesture touches something deep within, a wellspring of emotion that has lain dormant for too long. In the wake of the storm, as the last crumbs of the tart are consumed, and the final drops of wine are savored, the silence descends once more, a cloak of intimacy that envelops the two of you, a moment of connection that transcends the boundaries of station and circumstance, a fleeting instant where the barriers that separate the scholar from the noblewoman are lowered, and the truth of the matter is laid bare—you care for her, deeply, irrevocably, and the realization is a revelation that steals your breath, a dawn breaking over the horizon of your heart.
"Thank you for indulging me," she begins, the words a gentle intrusion on the stillness, her gaze meeting yours with a warmth that belies the formality of her tone. "It's been ages since I've baked, and I must confess, it's a pleasure I've missed."
"It was my pleasure, I mean, I ate everything," you reply, a faint tremor in your response, the depth of the sentiment catching in your throat. "I'm... glad you asked."
"Perhaps we could make this a regular occurrence," Ada suggests, her fingers tracing the rim of her glass, the gesture absentminded, her focus squarely on you. "I'm sure the library won't mind relinquishing us for an hour or two each day. Besides, a bit of cooking might provide some insight into the daily lives of the people of the estate, wouldn't you agree?"
"That's an interesting approach," you acknowledge, the thought piquing your curiosity. "I hadn't considered the anthropological aspect of culinary pursuits, but you're right—"
"—it's a great excuse to spend time with me. Isn't that what you were going to say?" She interjects, her smile mischievous, her eyes dancing with mirth. It's a playful challenge, a veiled invitation to admit to the growing attraction that hovers between you, a silent acknowledgement of the sparks that leap and crackle in the charged atmosphere of the kitchen.
"I wouldn't presume to—"
"Of course not," Ada cuts in, her laughter a bright, musical cadence that fills the space, a melody that wraps itself around you, drawing you deeper into her orbit. "You're a scholar, not a poet, after all. Leave the flowery words to the romantics and the fools."
"Right," you manage, a half-hearted retort that rings hollow in the face of her charm, her effortless ability to disarm and captivate, a power that she wields with the same finesse that she employs in all aspects of her life. "I'll stick to the books."
"That would be a shame, though."
But she just said...
Ah, well. Who are you to argue?
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You've been feeling like the work has sucked the life out of you these days, and that's not a metaphor.
There are bags under your eyes from exhaustion despite getting more than enough sleep, and the headaches that come and go are starting to become debilitating. You've found yourself struggling to concentrate on the tasks at hand, the words on the page blurring and shifting, the sentences coalescing into a murky soup of letters that refuse to resolve into coherence. Even the simplest of translations, once a second nature to you, now require a Herculean effort, a battle against the fog that has settled in your brain, a relentless foe that saps your strength and will, leaving you depleted, a shell of your former self. There's this ache that moves around in your neck and shoulders that no amount of stretching can fix. And the nausea. God, the nausea. Sometimes the room spins, and sometimes it's hard to keep food down, and sometimes a wave of dizziness will suddenly knock you down. All signs of a terrible, awful problem: the fact that the source of your illness is a mystery to everyone, including the staff physician.
"Physically speaking, you're fine," he's told you. That's the bad news. The good news is that the cook has learned to prepare meals that won't upset your stomach, and that the servants have gotten used to keeping their distance. Nobody wants to catch whatever it is that's ailing you, especially when the symptoms are so elusive and the prognosis is uncertain.
If you could, if the choice was yours, you'd send yourself back home and stay until you get better. But the castle is not a place that's easily departed. Not to mention the unfinished task of translating the rest of the Wong family archives, which is still incomplete.
Your employer, who's also your host, has other plans. Ada has decided that the best course of action is to allow you to rest. This isn't the first time someone has fallen ill in the manor, and they've developed a routine for dealing with these situations. You're confined to your room, with the exception of supervised trips to the library to retrieve materials, and even then, they're not happy about it. A nurse has been assigned to tend to your needs, and while her ministrations are appreciated, the constant scrutiny and fussing is grating on your nerves. You're not a child, and you resent being treated as one. Nevertheless, you resign yourself to the confinement, hoping that whatever has taken hold of you will pass soon and that you can return to the world beyond the four walls of your sickbed.
The boredom is the worst part. You're stuck waiting for Ada's daily visits, the only distraction from the tedium of the hours spent staring at the ceiling, listening to the sound of the wind rustling the leaves outside.
Today, as the clock strikes noon, the door to your chamber swings open, and there she is, a vision in red silk, a splash of color against the muted tones of the wallpaper.
"You don't look any better," she comments dryly, her gaze sweeping over you, taking in the pallor of your skin, the dark circles beneath your eyes, and the slumped posture of defeat that seems to have become a permanent fixture. "Have you eaten anything at all today?"
You want to answer her, to explain that the mere thought of food turns your stomach, that the idea of swallowing even a morsel is anathema to you, but the words stick in your throat, a stubborn clot that refuses to budge. Instead, a hoarse croak emerges, a pitiful approximation of speech that only serves to underscore the depth of your infirmity.
Her sigh is a gust of impatience, a blast of frustration that ruffles the edges of the pages of the book that sits on the nightstand, a forgotten relic from an age when such diversions were not beyond the realm of possibility.
She strides to the bedside, her heels clicking on the polished floorboards, and the butterflies on her skirts move in tandem with her. With a fluid motion, she reaches for the silver tray that rests on the table, the contents of which—a plate of cold, untouched soup and a piece of bread gone stale from neglect—bears witness to the ravages of your ailment. She lifts the lid, her nose wrinkling in distaste at the sight of the congealed broth and the floating bits of vegetable matter that bob like tiny life rafts in a sea of grease.
With a deft flick of her wrist, she discards the offending meal, the dish clattering to the floor, the remnants of your failed attempt at sustenance splattering in a greasy arc across the pristine rug, a Rorschach blot of culinary failure that mirrors the chaos in your mind.
"There was no need for that," you protest weakly, the effort of forming words a monumental labor that leaves you breathless and shaking, the exertion of your body a cruel mockery of its former vigor. "It's food."
"Worry about yourself rather than spilled milk," Ada counters, her tone firm, brooking no dissent. "A bowl of soup is of little concern in the face of a guest in ill health."
She leans in, her scent filling your nostrils, a heady blend of jasmine and spice, the aroma at once soothing and intoxicating, a balm to the frayed edges of your consciousness. Her fingers, cool and smooth, brush against your forehead, a gentle caress that erupts shivers all over, and for a fleeting moment, the pain recedes, the pounding in your temples subsiding to a dull throb, an ebbing tide of misery that leaves you gasping in relief.
"Would you want me to take this away?" she whispers, her breath a warm, sweet breeze. "All of that suffering, and the sickness, and the pain. Would you want that to stop?"
"Are you secretly a nurse, by any chance?" Despite the haze that has enveloped your senses, a sliver of humor survives, a defiant spark that flares to life, a small victory in the face of the overwhelming odds that have arrayed themselves against you. "Or a doctor? If so, that would be very helpful."
"I am neither, though I do have some experience in the healing arts." She pulls back, her touch retreating, the comfort of her presence replaced by the gnarled grip of discomfort. "A couple drops of my blood, and that will end the worst of it."
An ugly snort makes you cover your mouth at the end of a weak chuckle, you've forgotten laying on your back means laughing can lead to choking.
"This is not the time for levity," Ada admonishes, her gaze sharpening, her lips thinning into a severe line, the mirth that once danced in the depths of her irises extinguished, a candle snuffed out in a sudden gust of disapproval. "This is a serious matter, and a serious offer. One that could save your life, should the illness prove to have fatal consequences."
"But—" you begin, the protest half-formed, the words a jumbled mass of disbelief and suspicion, the rational part of your brain—the scientist, the historian, the skeptic—rejecting the notion outright.
But the plea dies on your tongue at how quick a touch of her nail to the pad of her finger is enough to draw blood, the crimson drop welling up, a perfect sphere of carmine brilliance that catches the light, a miniature sun.
"Go on," her urging is soft, yet insistent, a command that cannot be ignored. "It's not a gift I bestow lightly. You are the first, and likely the last, to receive it."
Oh I'm sure, you think to yourself, touched by the lengths she would go to keep up the bit, and moved to help, in spite of everything. How much has she spent to pull off these tricks for your benefit? What a strange woman.
"I'm honored," you quip, a feeble attempt at humor in the face of the absurd, a final act of rebellion against the forces that have conspired to bring you to this juncture.
Your face crumples up in a grimace the moment she actually goes through with the gesture and puts her bleeding fingertip between your parted lips. Your teeth click together in a vain attempt to ward her off, to reject her intrusion, but it's too late. The taste is coppery, salty, and unpleasantly thick, and you gag, the reflexive spasm of your throat a desperate bid to expel the foreign substance, to reject the intimacy of her offering. But Ada is relentless, her finger probing deeper, smearing the essence of her being across the surface of your tongue, an inescapable invasion that sends a shudder of revulsion rippling through your frame.
"Swallow." The directive is a hiss, a sibilant demand that pierces the veil of your resistance, a dagger thrust into the heart of your defiance. And, to your horror, you obey, the muscles of your throat working in concert to draw the noxious liquid down.
You expect the immediate onslaught of nausea. Yet, to your astonishment, and not a little trepidation, the sensation that sweeps over you is not the familiar wave of repulsion, but a flood of warmth, a suffusing glow that radiates outward from the epicenter of her touch, a sunburst of vitality that banishes the shadows of lethargy, a surge of energy that reinvigorates and rejuvenates.
It's not just a placebo, or a trick of the mind. It's a tangible, measurable effect that defies explanation, a miracle that cannot be dismissed. For as her blood courses through your veins, the malaise that has plagued you for weeks dissipates, a fog lifting to reveal a landscape transformed, and in the wake of her intervention, the world comes alive anew, a riot of color and sensation that fills you with awe.
"Better," Ada remarks, a satisfied smile curving her lips, a subtle triumph evident in her demeanor.
"What did you do to me?" The question spills from your lips, unbidden, an involuntary exclamation of wonder and confusion, a need to understand the impossible. "How could that possibly work?"
"A secret," she demurs, her tone playful, a coy evasion that only serves to deepen the enigma. "I'm afraid the particulars of my family's medical practices must remain confidential. But rest assured, the effects are quite real, and will not fade. You are cured, if not completely healed. A few days of bedrest should see to the remainder of your recovery."
"You're telling me," you say, struggling to wrap your head around the concept, the incongruity of her actions, the absurdity of the entire situation. It's like something out of a fairy tale, a storybook ending that feels too neat, too convenient. And yet, the proof is undeniable, the pain in your joints receding, the fatigue that has dogged your every waking moment evaporating like mist in the morning sun. You are, impossibly, getting better. "That a drop of blood, a single drop, and that has magically cured me of what's ailed me for the past two weeks."
"Magic has no part in it, I assure you." Her laugh is a rich, resonant sound that seems to reverberate in the confines of the chamber, a melody that echoes in the hollows of your bones. "Just an old remedy, passed down through generations. Consider yourself fortunate to have been on the receiving end of it."
"I consider myself confused! Curious!" you retort, the fire of indignation kindling in your breast, a flame that refuses to be quenched. "What is this, Miss Wong? First the invitation, the isolation, the mysterious documents and the ancient lineage that doesn't add up, then the weird things happening all around the castle, and the—and the dreams—"
"Dreams?"
"The blood!" A deep flush creeps up your neck and horrifyingly, her gaze follows it before you go red. "The portraits, and now a cure that's too good to be true, and you won't even tell me the truth of why the hell you invited me to stay here!"
"Curiosity," her reply is a silken caress, a verbal embrace that encircles and ensnares, a whispered promise that lures you closer, a moth drawn to the flame. "The same reason that led you to accept my invitation. We are alike, you and I, driven by a hunger that cannot be sated by mere sustenance, a thirst that demands more than water can provide. Knowledge, the pursuit of understanding, the unraveling of mysteries—that is the currency we trade in, the coin of our realm. Is that not enough for you to stay?"
"Except you don't trade with me. You hoard. You hold back, and lie, and tease, and taunt." Your accusation is pointed, a barbed arrow aimed at the heart of her duplicity, a challenge to her motives, a demand for the truth. "Why is the portrait gallery filled with people that can't be related to each other? Why is the history of the Wong clan so convoluted and fragmented? What are these secrets that you guard so jealously, that you refuse to share, and yet, expect complete fealty from those who serve you?"
"Sometimes, the cost of knowledge is too high," her rejoinder is a slap in the face, a stinging rebuke that brings you up short, a sobering reality that dampens the fires of your righteous anger. "There are some truths that are best left buried, hidden from the prying eyes of the world. Some doors are locked for a reason, and to pry them open is to invite disaster."
"Then what's the point of having a historian under your roof?" you counter, refusing to yield ground, to capitulate in the face of her evasions. "If the past is to be sealed away, the history of your family entombed in the dust and cobwebs of a forgotten archive, then what purpose do I serve?"
She doesn't answer, at least not immediately. Instead, she turns her back to you, a gesture of dismissal that speaks volumes, and strides to the window, her figure outlined against the backdrop of the twilight that has swallowed the sun, a crimson shadow that stands sentinel at the boundary between light and darkness.
Then you remember what you have been told. You're asking the wrong questions.
"Miss Wong." You call her name, not the formal 'Lady' or 'my lady', or any of the titles that others have bestowed upon her. It is a direct address, an acknowledgement of her presence, a recognition of her individuality. "Ada," you amend, the name feeling strange on your tongue, an intimacy that has not been earned, a familiarity that is both presumptuous and electrifying. She doesn't correct you, and in the silence, a tacit acceptance hangs, an allowance that grants you a measure of equality, a concession that levels the playing field. "What do you want from me here?"
She doesn't hesitate, doesn't prevaricate, doesn't deflect. Her response is a single word, a syllable that encapsulates the entirety of her intent, the core of her agenda. "Company."
It's a simple statement, a declaration of desire that rings true, a need that transcends the superficial trappings of wealth and power, of class or station.
She's lonely.
"You have a whole house full of servants. Surely, someone is willing to talk to you."
It's an observation, not a criticism. There's no judgment, no censure in your words, only a genuine curiosity, a desire to understand the motivations of this woman. After all, the halls of the estate are filled with a veritable army of retainers, a host of individuals whose sole purpose is to cater to the whims of their mistress. To suggest that solitude could prevail amidst such a throng is almost absurd.
But then, Ada laughs—a harsh, mirthless sound that echoes in the room, filling the space and lingering in the corners like the remnants of a bitter aftertaste.
"Servants are not friends," she says, her tone sharp, her eyes cold and hard. "They are paid to be here. Their loyalty is bought and sold, their devotion a commodity to be bartered. They do not keep me company. They attend to my needs, they fulfill their duties, and then they retreat. They fear me. And rightly so."
"What do they have to be that afraid of?" You lean forward, the blankets falling away, exposing the bare skin of your arms and the swell of your breasts to the cool night. It's not seductive; it's an unconscious act, a reflexive response to the gravity of the conversation, a physical manifestation of your engagement, a willingness to expose a bit of vulnerability in the hope of eliciting a reciprocal openness from her.
She doesn't respond, not right away. She just looks at you, her gaze penetrating, searching, as though trying to peer beneath the surface of your flesh and into the deepest recesses of your being, a scrutiny that is both intimate and uncomfortable.
"I've revealed enough to you for today," she finally responds, her tone flat, her words a barrier that shuts down further inquiry, a wall that rises between the two of you, a boundary that is not to be crossed. "Rest. Regain your strength. When you are well, we will speak again."
With that, she leaves, the door closing behind her with a soft but resolute click, the sound echoing in the emptiness of the room, a period at the end of a sentence that remains unfinished.
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After that incident, the dynamic shifts. Not dramatically, not in any overt, seismic way, but subtly, imperceptibly, like a fault line deep beneath the earth's crust that grumbles and groans. Gone are the elaborate pretenses, the carefully constructed façade of the lady of the manor and her humble historian. In their place is something raw, unvarnished, a connection that is as fragile as it is electric. There are no more games, no more elaborate ruses, no more contrived tests of will and wit. Instead, there is an uneasy dÊtente, a truce that is held together by the tenuous strands of mutual curiosity, and a growing, inexplicable fascination.
Ada's visits become less frequent, but also longer in duration, each encounter a delicate dance of push and pull, a tug-of-war between her desire to maintain the upper hand, and her obvious, if begrudging, interest in you. It's an odd, disorienting sensation to have her in close proximity, the heat of her presence a constant, low-level buzz of awareness that prickles at the edges of your consciousness, a persistent, distracting itch that cannot be scratched.
You talk more freely, now. With the need to prove your intellectual mettle no longer hanging over your head like the sword of Damocles, you find yourself able to engage her on a variety of topics, from the esoteric to the mundane. She proves a surprisingly erudite and thoughtful conversationalist, her mind agile, intellect razor-sharp.
A friendship of sorts begins to bloom, a tentative, tenuous thing that hovers somewhere in the liminal space between professional courtesy and personal warmth. It's an undefined, nebulous creature, a chimera that defies categorization, a hybrid of trust and mistrust, affection and wariness.
But it's the most honest relationship you've had in ages.
So, subsequently, the revelation of her immortality unfolds in a similarly understated fashion. It's not a dramatic confession, no tears or accusations or grand declarations of eternal life.
You'd been talking about history, the passage of time, the inexorable march of years and the fleeting nature of human existence. You'd mentioned, in passing, how strange it was to stand on the precipice of the new century, to look out at the vast expanse of the future and wonder what lay ahead, to contemplate the possibilities and perils of a world on the brink of transformation. And Ada, in her characteristically blunt and incisive manner, had cut to the heart of the matter, laying bare the truth that had always hovered just beyond the fringes of your awareness.
"Yes, that must be a curious position to be in," she'd said, her gaze fixed on the landscape visible through the bay windows of her study, the rolling hills and verdant fields a tableau of natural beauty that seemed to stretch on forever, an endless panorama of green and gold. "To exist in a state of perpetual anticipation, never quite sure of what lies ahead, but certain that the only constant is change."
There'd been a moment of silence, a pause in the conversation that had felt pregnant with possibility, an opening that begged to be explored, and before you'd known it, the question had slipped past your lips, the words spoken before you could think better of them. "You speak as if it doesn't concern you. But surely, the prospect of a new era affects us all, does it not?"
"Does it?" Ada had turned to face you, her eyes gleaming in the fading light of dusk, her features cast in the soft, golden glow of the dying day. "For some, perhaps, the dawn of a new age holds the promise of a fresh start, a chance to reinvent oneself. For ones like me, however, the turning of the centuries is merely another tick of the clock. The world changes, yes, but I remain the same. An anachronism in an ever-evolving universe. Do you understand?"
And suddenly, in that moment, you do. You do understand. It's almost as if she's whispering the answer into your consciousness.
All the little hints, the cryptic references, the subtle suggestions—it all crystallized in your mind, puzzle pieces of clues that resolved into a coherent picture, an image that was both startling and oddly comforting in its clarity.
"You're not mortal, are you?" you'd asked, the question a rhetorical one, a statement of fact disguised as an inquiry. "That's why the archives are so extensive, and the family history is a convoluted mess. You've lived long enough to see generations come and go. But—"
You were about to ask how. But again, the thought of asking the wrong question comes to the forefront of your mind, and instead, you say:
"—why do all of this? Why hire someone to chronicle a story that doesn't actually belong to you, a history that is nothing more than a fabricated fiction designed to obscure the truth of your existence?"
Ada had smiled, then, a wry, self-deprecating twist of her lips that held a hint of bitterness, a taste of the loneliness that she carried within her, the burden of an eternity spent watching the world pass her by.
"You'll find out soon enough," was all she'd said, her eyes glittering with a light that seemed to contain the wisdom of ages, a lifetime's worth of secrets and regrets compressed into a single, piercing glance. "Now, shall we continue our discussion of the Habsburgs, or would you prefer to delve into the intricacies of the Ming dynasty's economic policies?"
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You figure out she's a vampire when you notice it's not wine that she's drinking.
The glass itself is a beautiful, curlicued piece of crystal, its facets catching the candlelight and refracting it into a spectrum of colors that dance across the table. The liquid inside is a rich, deep crimson, almost black, and it coats the sides of the glass in a thick, viscous film that seems to cling to the surface. You'd assumed, at first, that it was a particularly full-bodied vintage, a rare and expensive libation reserved for special occasions. But as the evening wears on, and the level of the substance in the glass remains stubbornly unchanged, a creeping suspicion takes root in the back of your mind, a nagging doubt that refuses to be silenced.
"That looks too much like blood," you point out, the words slipping from your tongue before you can stop them, a verbal slip that lays bare the direction of your thoughts.
Across the table, Ada's eyebrow arches, a slender, elegant arc that conveys a world of meaning in the subtlest of gestures. Her lips twitch, a suppressed smile threatening to break free, and she inclines her head, a gesture of acknowledgment that simultaneously confirms and dismisses the accuracy of your observation.
"It is," she states, her tone matter-of-fact, devoid of any hint of surprise or defensiveness. As if the admission were no more remarkable or scandalous than a preference for a particular type of cheese or vintage of whiskey.
Your brain stutters, momentarily overloaded by the implications of her confession, the logical consequences of her statement clanging around in your skull like a cacophony of discordant bells. Visions of stakes and garlic and sunlight flash through your consciousness, a litany of half-remembered folktales and myths that seem woefully inadequate in the face of the woman seated opposite you, sipping calmly from her goblet of what is undoubtedly the lifeblood of another living being.
"How..." the question emerges haltingly, your mouth and throat dry, the sound of your own pulse thundering in your ears, a deafening drumbeat that drowns out the rational, analytical part of your mind. How is she here, in front of you, a creature of legend and nightmare made flesh and reality? How can she sit there, so composed, so assured? "Is the... Is the word I'm looking for vampire?"
"Among other things, yes," she says, a trace of amusement creeping into her inflection, a note of wry humor that serves to underscore the absurdity of the situation, the surreal juxtaposition of the mundane and the supernatural that has somehow insinuated itself into the heart of this refined, aristocratic dining chamber. "I suppose that's the most convenient label. A bit pedestrian, perhaps, but serviceable."
"And you're not going to... drink my blood?" It's a ludicrous thing to articulate, a sentence that should never have to be spoken, an eventuality that should exist solely in the realm of fiction and parlor games. And yet, the query lingers in the space between the two of you, an unspoken fear given form, a possibility that refuses to be ignored or dismissed.
"Only if you want me to," Ada responds, her gaze locking with yours, her eyes twin pools of obsidian that seem to swallow the candlelight, a darkness that beckons and entices, a bottomless well of mystery and temptation. "But that's not what I invited you here for. I have plenty of... volunteers. From the household, and from the town below. Mortals who seek a different kind of immortality. You, on the other hand, are a scholar, an intellectual. Your value to me lies in your mind, not your veins."
"I'm glad to hear that, at least," you murmur, a shaky, uncertain laugh escaping your lips, a release valve for the pressure building in your chest, a safety mechanism to prevent an emotional implosion. "I'm guessing the word not getting out means you have other gifts than that healing blood of yours."
She lets the silence be the answer to that.
"Do they know? The servants, the people in the village. Do they understand that their protector is also their predator?"
"Predator. Predator," she repeats, the syllables rolling off her tongue as if she were tasting them, savoring their texture and flavor. "An interesting choice of words. Yes, to some extent, I am a predator. I hunt, I feed, I survive. But no, they do not know the entirety of the story. They see me as their benefactor, their patron, the source of their prosperity and comfort."
Your mind goes to that one little translation error you two had discussed way back when you first arrived here. Not sacrifice, more like an offering meaning mutual exchange.
"Huh," you say, the sound a non-committal grunt, a placeholder that fills the space until the next, more important question can emerge. "How many of them are willing, then, or is that really none of my business?"
"I only take the willing ones," Ada replies, her tone matter-of-fact, her posture relaxed and open, a study in confidence and assurance. "It's not difficult to find volunteers, especially among those who have grown weary of their mortal coils, or harbor a secret, desperate longing for something beyond the veil of death."
"I guess I'm in no position to judge," you concede, a rueful smile tugging at the corners of your mouth. After all, who are you to cast aspersions on the choices of others, the decisions that have led them to this strange, secluded estate in the shadow of the Carpathians, to willingly offer up their vital essence in exchange for a semblance of companionship, a shared intimacy that transcends the merely physical. "To each their own. So, the cat is out of the bag, or the bat is out of the coffin, or however that saying goes... I think I understand why you had me learning and documenting everything about the made-up you and this made-up family. You can't very well have historians and genealogists poking their noses into a lineage that doesn't actually exist. Better to give the curious a version of the truth, a carefully curated fiction that satisfies their questions and keeps the real secrets buried."
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It doesn't take too long for you to start questioning her about vampirism, the concept of it, the actual practice of it, the culture of vampires and the lore surrounding their existence. She indulges you, answering your queries with a patient, amused tolerance, her demeanor that of a seasoned instructor guiding a particularly precocious pupil through the intricacies of a new and unfamiliar discipline.
Some of what she reveals aligns with the popular mythology, the familiar tropes and conventions that have been woven into the fabric of human storytelling for centuries—the aversion to sunlight, the preternatural strength and agility, the haunting beauty that seems to emanate from the depths of her being, and the thirst, ever-present and relentless, that drives her to seek sustenance from the veins of the living. But there are surprises, too, details that deviate from the accepted narrative, and it is in these moments of divergence that the true complexity and richness of her condition becomes apparent.
For instance, the sun does not incinerate her on contact due to her age, nor does the sight of a crucifix or the presence of garlic send her recoiling in horror. Rather, the daylight hours leave her weakened and lethargic, her senses dulled and her powers diminished, a state of semi-dormancy that renders her vulnerable and exposed, a far cry from the formidable, commanding figure that dominates the nocturnal realm.
As for her diet, while human blood is the preferred, and indeed essential, nourishment that sustains her, she is not wholly reliant upon it. Animal blood can suffice in a pinch, though it provides little in the way of satisfaction, a mere stopgap measure that does nothing to assuage the persistent, gnashing hunger. The subject of mirrors arises, and she laughs in your face. Apparently, vampires have no issue appearing in reflections, and the whole idea of them avoiding or being invisible in a mirror is complete and utter nonsense. A rumor, or a myth, or a superstition that caught on. Though the whole 'having no soul' bit is true, and she's able to produce an image of herself in a silver-backed mirror to prove her lack of a soul.
"So the legends of a stake to the heart and a cross to ward off evil—none of that is true?"
"A stake to the heart, regardless of the material, would certainly be unpleasant. As for the cross... Think about it, what's the logic in a cross harming me when the star of David doesn't? Or an Om, or an Ankh, or anything else?"
You spend countless hours discussing the minutiae of her condition, the physiological and psychological effects of her unique metabolism, the social and cultural implications of her existence, and the existential dilemmas that arise from her prolonged, potentially endless lifespan. It is a fascinating, exhilarating conversation that stretches across days and nights, an exchange of ideas and perspectives that challenges and enriches both of you, a meeting of minds that transcends the boundaries of species and experience. And at the end of every discussion, every debate, every exploration of the myriad facets of her nature, you are left with a renewed sense of awe, a profound appreciation of the depth and complexity of the creature who sits before you, her eyes glimmering with the accumulated wisdom of ages, a being that exists at the intersection of the natural and the supernatural, a living embodiment of the contradictions and wonders of the universe itself. Every day, the respect you have for her grows, as does your admiration... and curiosity.
So you ask one day, while the two of you are walking through the portrait gallery. "Would you turn someone into a vampire, if that was what they desired above all else? Have you ever?"
Her fingers brush the frame of a particular painting, a portrait that depicts a man in his late thirties, his features sharp and angular, a pair of piercing blue eyes that seem to follow the observer. There is a sadness in her touch, a lingering regret that colors her words, a bitter undertone that hints at a history fraught with disappointment and heartache. She hesitates, a moment of indecision, and you can almost feel the gears of her mind turning, the calculations and considerations that weigh heavily on her thoughts.
Then she speaks, her tone measured and cautious, a diplomat negotiating the terms of a delicate truce. "You're considering it."
"I'm not!" you protest, a denial born of instinct rather than conviction. For the truth is, the seed has been planted, a possibility that has taken root and begun to germinate, a tantalizing prospect that beckons with promises of eternal life, of knowledge and power beyond the confines of mortality. "I'm just curious. That's all. We're just talking."
"But you imagine it, don't you? What it would be like to leave your time behind to embrace better days to come? To be here to see the changes, to watch the world evolve and shift? All to be the one to witness history instead of standing on the sidelines like those who underestimate you. It's in your nature, my beloved historian. You'd make an excellent companion, but an even greater vampire. Most are born either from tragedy or accident, and a rare few, the best ones, have a hunger for something more. What would you be like, I wonder, when the wonder fades away and that curiosity turns to boredom? How would we pass the years, the decades, the centuries then? When the books have all been read and the stories have all been told, and the music has lost its charm? When the dawn and dusk bleed together, and the seasons lose their meaning, and the stars themselves grow dim and cold? What will hold your attention, my dearest, when the novelty of immortality has worn thin, and the banality of eternity has set in?"
Ada's hand reaches out, her fingers brushing against the canvas, the rough texture of the oils and pigments yielding to the gentle pressure of her touch, and the entire time she'd been talking, you could not tear your gaze from her, from her lips, from her teeth, from her eyes, from the promise of a future, a forever, with her.
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You've been with her for five years when she decides to turn you.
Five years.
Only a blink of an eye for Ada. But for you, those years have changed you in ways that are subtle, yet unmistakably present. Her blood has healed the infirmity that had plagued you, leaving you stronger, healthier, more vibrant. And in that same period, the castle has transformed from a place of work, of scholarship and discovery, to something more—a home and a refuge from the vicissitudes of the wider world. In the shadow of the mountains, amid the halls and chambers of the estate, you have found a community, a family of sorts, an eclectic group of individuals bound by a shared commitment to the maintenance and preservation of the Wong legacy. The servants, the staff, the attendants, and the occasional visitor—they have all become familiar faces, their comings and goings a constant, reassuring presence in the uncertainties of your daily life. So much has changed.
Yet, despite the passage of time, the mystery and allure of Ada remain undiminished. You have turned her once untouched entire library upside down. Read every book, every journal, every scrap of paper, and learned the languages contained inside, until the only thing remaining is the archives, the last frontier.
The night of the decision, you're outside, taking in the moonlit splendor of the countryside that stretches out before the castle, the rolling hills and forests bathed in the soft, ethereal glow of the celestial orb. The stars twinkle overhead, a scattering of diamonds against the black velvet of the sky, and the breeze carries the scent of pine and wildflowers, a fragrant bouquet that fills your lungs and invigorates your senses.
The night is cold, so you have on a fur cloak that Ada gifted to you, and a warm mug of mulled cider, the steam rising in lazy, swirling patterns, a visible manifestation of the warmth that suffuses your body, a counterpoint to the crisp, frosty evening that envelops you. The taste is sweet and spicy, the cinnamon and cloves blending harmoniously with the apple and wine, a comforting, familiar flavor that transports you back to the cozy, hearthside gatherings of childhood, the memories of laughter and the simple joys of companionship.
Does all blood taste different like all food is, and does the blood of someone eating a specific dish result in a change of flavor, you wonder? Would you ever taste this cider again if you were to become a vampire? It's not the existential questions for you, but little things, that make you hesitate. A whole world of experiences, of tastes, of sounds and sights that will fade away, or be enhanced, in a way that will never be replicated again. Your favorite meals will lose their appeal, and you'll be trading the sun's light for the moon's, and a single bite will mean an ending, and a beginning. Philosophical questions are nothing next to the idea that you will no longer crave the taste of a hot bowl of soup on a rainy day, or that a lover's caress might be the precursor to a hunt. You've seen enough to know that, and while the thought of becoming a vampire doesn't scare you, the finality of it does. You'll have to say goodbye, and hello, to everything, and everyone.
"You're brooding," a soft, melodious, teasing, chiding, amused, but understanding, and a million other things, at the same time. "It doesn't suit you."
"Thinking, actually," you respond, a wry smile tugging at the corners of your mouth, an involuntary reaction to her gentle reproach. "There's a difference. I'm not some moody artist."
"Some would argue that a scholar is just a frustrated writer," she parries, taking her place at your side on the stone bench, underneath a blanket that is draped around her shoulders, her arm extended in invitation. She's close. Close enough to feel the heat of her body, to catch the faint, floral notes of her perfume, a fragrance that seems to encapsulate the essence of springtime, of blossoms unfurling beneath the warmth of the sun. The kind of smell that makes you lean in. Just a little.
You huddle close, allowing your head to rest on her shoulder. It's a comfortable position, a familiar intimacy that has developed over the course of the past years. "And what do they call a frustrated historian?"
"A storyteller," she answers, her fingers entwining with yours. "Or a romantic."
"And a frustrated lady of leisure?" you inquire, a note of amusement coloring your tone. "What do they call that?"
"Unemployed," she retorts, her laughter ringing out in the stillness of the night, a sound that is as infectious as it is rare. "Or a recluse. Take your pick."
"Ah, yes. The perils of wealth and idleness," you muse, a wistful sigh escaping your lips. "How do you ever cope?"
"By finding distractions," she replies, her breath warm against the shell of your ear, sending a delicious shiver down your spine, a sensation that borders on the illicit, a forbidden delight that quickens the tempo of your pulse, an exhilaration that dances on the edge of recklessness. "And by keeping company with fascinating individuals."
"That's good to hear." Your reply is a murmur, a barely audible susurration that hangs in the space between you, a palpably charged, electric energy that crackles and arcs, a current of desire that flows inexorably toward its inevitable culmination. "I'm glad to be a source of entertainment, at least. Heaven forbid I should bore the great Lady Wong. They'll probably put that on my epitaph. 'Here lies the mortal. She bored a vampire to death, so the vampire returned the favor.'"
"What else would your epitaph read, were you given the chance to fabricate one for an empty grave?"
"I'd have to think of something clever, and not too on the nose. Maybe, 'She died the way she lived. Curious—"
But the meaning of her words sink in late, and you rise from her shoulder to look at her, at the earnest, serious look on her face, and the question in her eyes.
"—until the very end." You finish lamely. "Is this a proposal, Ada?"
"Would it be unwelcome if it were?"
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The room Ada has chosen for the turning is an intimate, secluded chamber deep within the bowels of the castle. The walls are lined with ancient, crumbling stones, the mortar that binds them together weathered and pitted, the surface rough to the touch. Torches start flickering in sconces the moment Ada steps in, casting dancing shadows across the floor and ceiling, their guttering flames the only source of illumination in the otherwise Stygian gloom. The temperature is cool, a damp, subterranean ambiance that seeps into the bones, and it's hard to breathe, suggesting how unused to guests this place is. An old chapel, or a hidden crypt, or a forgotten dungeon, it's difficult to discern. Perhaps it served multiple purposes at various points in the estate's long and tumultuous history, because it's quite literally empty save for a symbol spanning the entire floor, intricate and complex, made up of concentric circles, filled with an interlocking, overlapping pattern of sigils that seem to shift and blur when viewed from different angles, a visual puzzle that defies comprehension. The design is etched into the stone, worn and faded in places, but still retaining its essential form.
At the center of the pattern rests a low, circular altar, its surface polished to a mirror-like shine, reflecting the flickering torch light in eerie, wavering patterns. It's constructed of a dark, lustrous stone, possibly obsidian, its edges smooth and rounded, the product of centuries of erosion and neglect. And upon the altar, a singular ornate silver goblet, surface engraved with swirling motifs, sits in mute anticipation, their contents obscured in shadow.
"The ritual itself is straightforward enough," Ada says softly, her words settling into the silence as if they belong here as much as the dust and flickering of the fires, "We'll take a bit of our blood, from whatever location you prefer, and mix it together in the chalice. Then, we drink."
"That's it?"
"No, we're introducing our bloods to each other. If the bond takes, then we'll move onto the next step, which is to drain me."
Your brain had somehow decided on the logic that it should be the opposite, and it shows in your face with all its glory for Ada to see and address.
"You have to take all of my vampiric blood for it to transform you. I'll guide you through that, and in exchange, once you're done, I'll drain you of your human blood. Once the exchange has been completed, the transition will have begun."
Blood is the carrier, you remember her once saying.
"Transition. That's... a nice euphemism."
"It's not instantaneous. Nor is it pleasant. I'm sorry to say that, and I wish there were a less painful way, but the process of changing from one state of being to another is inherently traumatic. Your body will undergo a series of dramatic changes, and the pain will be excruciating. But I promise, I'll be here the entire time. You won't be alone. You won't suffer a moment more than necessary."
Ada's assurance is a balm to your frayed nerves, her confidence is contagious, and you find yourself drawing strength from her calm, measured demeanor, the steadiness of her gaze, and the unwavering conviction in her tone.
"Yeah," you agree, a faint tremor in your response. "No need to sugarcoat things. I appreciate the honesty."
She doesn't attempt to soothe you further, nor does she offer platitudes or false assurances. Instead, her focus remains on the practicalities of the task at hand, her actions methodical. In a swift, precise gesture, she produces a slim, razor-sharp blade, its metal a dull, tarnished hue that catches the firelight in an unsettling, almost sinister gleam. With a deftness that speaks to a lifetime of familiarity with the weapon, she makes a diagonal cut on her forearm. Dark, viscous fluid wells up from the incision, oozing down her arm in rivulets before dripping into the chalice, where it begins to pool, a small reservoir of liquid life, or unlife. And, after a beat of hesitation, she extends her free hand to you. Her gaze is steady, patient, a silent encouragement that requires no verbal prompt or cajoling, a trust that is offered, and an invitation that awaits acceptance.
With a deep, shuddering breath, you accept her proffered blade, its grip strangely warm to the touch, the handle smooth, worn, and well-balanced, a tool designed to inflict maximum harm, a sharp contrast to the delicate skin of your wrist. The act of inflicting self-harm is a strange, disconcerting experience, a primal, instinctual revulsion that must be overcome.
"It has to be your decision," Ada reminds, a gentle, yet firm, admonishment. "I can't be the one to do it to you."
You nod, a jerky, spasmodic motion, a tacit acknowledgment of the irreversible nature of the path you are about to embark upon, a crossing of the Rubicon from which there is no return. With a grim determination, the edge meets the flesh, the steel parting the tissue, a sudden, stinging pain that radiates outward, an immediate, throbbing ache. Blood wells up in the wake of the incision, a crimson cascade that flows freely, splashing against the obsidian surface of the altar, a red rain that puddles in the shallow depression at the center of the stone. You quickly move to aim the flow into the chalice. The darker, thicker substance of Ada's essence seems to envelop and consume your own, a slow, inexorable absorption that is both mesmerizing and disturbing to witness. Soon, the gash ceases its flow, the wound already beginning to clot, and the two of you reach for the cup at the same time, fingers brushing against one another in an unexpected, almost electric contact that sends a jolt of sensation racing along your nerve endings, an involuntary gasp escaping your lips.
"To new beginnings, and the end of loneliness," Ada toasts, a solemn, resonant declaration that hangs in the stagnant, crypt-like atmosphere.
She drinks first, and then you, the mingled flavors of coppery tang and earthy undertones filling your mouth, a taste that is simultaneously repulsive and alluring, a sensory contradiction that leaves you reeling, your senses overwhelmed, and your thoughts scattered, fragmented, like the shards of a shattered mirror, a kaleidoscope of fractured images that coalesce and dissipate in a hypnotic, disorienting dance.
A wave of vertigo washes over you, a dizzying, nauseating onslaught, and for a moment you're afraid if this is 'the bond not taking' as Ada put it. You're left clutching her, arms wrapping around her middle to anchor yourself in her solidity, hoping her blood doesn't reject yours. You want to be with her, truly. To never have to leave her side, or her company. For the nights to stretch on endlessly and the sun to never rise, to spend the rest of eternity in her presence, in her embrace. A selfish wish, perhaps. A desire born of a deeper, more fundamental yearning, a hunger that transcends the petty concerns of mortality, and the fleeting pleasures of the mundane world. You want her, in every sense of the word, and you're willing to sacrifice everything, to cast aside the trappings of a fleeting, transient existence, in order to secure her affections.
She is the most earth-shattering thing to have happened to you—this bloodsucking creature of the night wrapped in the skin of a goddess most fair, her heart of ice, and her soul of a crimson sunrise stuck perpetually below the horizon, waiting to arise. There's beauty in that, you think, a kind of frozen, suspended animation that is at once tragic and enchanting, a limbo that has held her captive for centuries, a timeless purgatory from which there is no escape. Not without someone to pull her out of the snowdrift and the avalanche that is her past, and the present, and her future, to thaw the coldness that has seeped into her bones. And that someone is you. Only you. As she is the only one who has pulled you up from the glass ceilings of the world and pushed you forward to break through them. She's seen the potential in you and nurtured the growth of an oak that will withstand a forest fire. The only one to ever see the true worth in a woman that had nothing to offer, and gave her the whole world.
"You're fine," she whispers, her breath warm against the shell of your ear, her hands cradling the back of your head, a gentle, reassuring pressure that anchors you. "It'll pass."
And it does pass. Eventually, the dizziness recedes, leaving in its wake a peculiar, tingling numbness that spreads outward from the center of your being.
"What was that?"
"The bond taking," she explains, the relief in her tone palpably apparent. "The foundation has been laid. But we have much more to go."
To your surprise, compared to your shaken and dumbstruck state, she's much more eager. It's like a switch has flipped, and the cool and composed lady of the house is gone, and in her place, a starving, desperate creature, and the flash of her fangs emerging makes your stomach drop, your mind going blank.
"You have to drink from me," she reminds, her thumb tracing idle circles on your knuckles. "Take from me. Drain me. Make me weak, and fill yourself to the brim, and then drain some more. I'll take care of the rest."
"I... How?" Your query is a hushed, tentative utterance, the words barely audible even in the sepulchral silence of the chamber.
The prospect of the act itself is daunting, how do you even drink from a person? Let alone drain them to the last drop?
"If you were a vampire, this would be much easier, but..." She takes the blade once more, and casually, gracefully, sits down on the floor before the altar, pulling you down with her. "I'm going to puncture a major artery and you'll suck."
"Suck..."
"Don't let it flow. Suck. Pretend I'm a fruit."
"A fruit," you repeat, in disbelief.
"Yes, a fruit," she smiles, and you could swear that's the sweetest smile you've ever seen. "And to make sure it's not too fast or messy, the carotid artery is best. Right here." She taps her neck twice, right at the base, where the pulse is the strongest, and you swallow. That's... that's a lot. You don't see her hand move, but suddenly two deep streams of blood begin to trickle down her chest, and she leans back, exposing her neck. "Come now, love. We've a long night ahead of us."
Love. Love. Love. The term of endearment echoes in your mind, a sweet, melodic refrain that reverberates in the hollow chambers of your chest, and pulls you forward as if you're connected to her by a leash. Panicked by the blood ruining her dress, you're quick to latch onto the wound, and the first taste is unlike anything else. She's given you only drops before, to cure illnesses, to heal wounds. Never a mouthful. It's thick, rich, and lingers in the mouth. A sweetness to it, a bitterness in the aftertaste, a hint of something smoky, a complexity of flavor that defies easy description, and the texture is equally remarkable, a silky, luxurious quality that belied its macabre origin, a tactile sensation that evokes a sense of opulence, of indulgence, of a feast fit for a queen.
Suck.
You feel her arms encircle you, a comforting, protective presence, her fingers carding through your hair, a soothing, rhythmic motion that helps to ground you amidst the sensory overload. You slot yourself between her legs to keep her in place, and she lets out a low moan, a sound of surrender, of submission, a signal of her willingness to yield, to offer herself up to you. And as the moments stretch on, the initial shock and horror of the act subsides, giving way to a burgeoning, undeniable hunger, a primal, insatiable need that propels you to draw deeper, to consume more of her essence, and to fill the aching void within you that has been left empty and wanting for far too long.
Eventually, it's less of a mindless drinking to fulfill a ritual, and more of a dining experience like you're the vampire here, and you've pushed and pushed until both of you are horizontal on the ground. Pulling away from her throat, you lick at the wound, at the edges, to catch stray beads of blood, to prolong the savor of each sip, and she sighs in contentment, her body melting into the cold stone beneath, a pliant, yielding form that seems to conform to the contours of the ancient slab, an offering made flesh, and you are the supplicant, the devotee, the acolyte at the altar of a forbidden deity. Her eyes flutter open and close, her lips parted in a dreamy, languorous smile, and the soft sounds that escape her are the most beautiful music to have ever graced your ears.
You go in again and don't come up until the fountain has slowed to a trickle, unaware of how much time has passed, and are jolted out of your haze by the force of her pushing you away. That force doesn't match someone who should be rendered boneless by blood loss, and when you look at her, she looks the part of a corpse. Skin pale, pallor deathly, her lips have lost color, and her chest doesn't rise. She's not breathing, because she's not dead, just severely weakened, and the thought is a balm to your worries. Even her hair lacks its previous shine, and her eyes are glassy, vacant, a dull, listless gaze that roams the darkness, unfocused, a disquieting, unsettling sight that sends a shiver of unease racing down the length of your spine.
"My turn," she croaks, her fingers gripping the collar of your shirt, and tugging insistently, a gesture that is equal parts demand and entreaty. "Come to me."
With a muffled gasp, you acquiesce to her request, lowering yourself atop her, your bodies aligning in a strange, intimate embrace, and her arms encircle you once more, her grip surprisingly strong despite the weakness of her frame, her nails digging into the fabric of your clothing. When she tilts her head, the wounds on her neck have clotted, the scent of her potent and overpowering, a bouquet of iron and copper that saturates the stagnant, tomb-like air of the chamber. And then, with a sudden, startling swiftness, her teeth sink into the side of your neck, the pain a sharp, searing agony that blossoms from the point of contact, a radiating, throbbing anguish that spreads outward in waves of excruciating intensity. It's not the first bite from her, but the intent behind it changes everything. Where before, there had always been a measured, restrained quality to the act, a delicate, precise application of pressure and suction, now her feeding is frenzied, a ravenous, all-consuming onslaught that leaves you reeling, your senses overwhelmed, your thoughts scattered, and fragmented, a disjointed cacophony of fear, of panic, and of an underlying, simmering desire that burns low in the pit of your belly, a longing that defies the horrors of the moment, a perverse, twisted manifestation of lust that should not, cannot, exist in the midst of such brutality.
Her hand moves lower, and lower, and her palm slides under your shirt to push you down and closer to her, and her fingers dig into your hip, the pressure bruising, painful. She's taking your heat, draining the life from you, the very essence of your vitality and existence flowing inexorably from the wound, the steady ebb of your strength leaving you enervated, settling over you like a funeral shawl. Yet, the discomfort is not without its rewards, a peculiar, paradoxical pleasure that courses through your veins, a sensation that borders on the erotic, a forbidden delight that thrills and terrifies in equal measure, and as the world around you dims and fades, the edges of your vision blurring and warping, and the shadows closing in, a veil of darkness descends.
In the aftermath, the only sounds are that of her greedy gulping, the occasional, half-formed murmur of approval, and the ragged, labored rhythm of your own breathing as your body struggles to endure the ordeal. And as the last vestiges of consciousness slip away, the final image that flits across your mind's eye is the sight of her, the woman whose life is inextricably intertwined with yours, the one who has claimed your heart and soul, her smile stained crimson.
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The world returns slowly, slipping into your awareness in fragments, as if someone is pulling you from the depths of a dark, unfathomable sea. You can’t remember when the night ended or how you’ve arrived here, in the dim warmth of the estate’s east-facing room, with an odd glow filtering in through a crack in the heavy curtains. The light is wrong—too bright, too solid in the room around you, tinged with a color that is neither the warm hues of daylight nor the cool, silvery tones of the moonlight that has been your constant companion throughout the long nights of Ada's company. No, this light is different, a strange, ethereal illumination that seems to cast a pall over the surroundings, imbuing the space with an eerie, otherworldly ambiance that unsettles and disorients in equal measure. It feels almost as if the boundaries between the corporeal and the incorporeal have blurred, a liminal realm in which the physical and the metaphysical coexist in uneasy harmony, a delicate equilibrium that could tip at any moment, plunging the world into chaos and confusion which you've seen nothing of the likes before.
You stir, your limbs moving with an unfamiliar languor, as if you’re piecing yourself back together. Your skin is clammy, cold sweat clinging to the fabric of the sheets that envelop you in a damp, uncomfortable cocoon. Every inch of your body aches, a dull, throbbing pain that permeates the marrow of your bones, the sinews of your muscles, and the tendons that bind them together, a relentless, pervasive agony that leaves you weak and trembling. Each breath is a laborious effort, a shallow, rasping inhalation that does little to assuage the burning, desperate hunger at the pit of your stomach, an insatiable, primal craving that demands satiety, a yearning that goes beyond mere sustenance, a fundamental, existential urge that threatens to consume you from within. But the worst of the sensations is the maddening thirst that claws at the back of your throat, a parched, desiccated sensation that seems to reach down to the very core of your being—you feel as if you could drink the world dry and still not slake the fire that rages inside you.
The warmth that surrounds you is not your own. Your eyes drift open, slow and unwilling, to see Ada sitting across from you, her silhouette sharp against the muted gold of the morning light spilling in from the window. Her figure is draped in shadow, yet something about her seems… altered. She’s watching you with a gaze that is softer, less guarded, her presence lacking the quiet, unyielding power that had always surrounded her. There’s something disturbingly human in the way she sits, unmoving, her hands resting lightly on her lap, her posture devoid of the subtle predatory grace you had come to expect.
And the light—it dances across her face, illuminating her in a way that feels jarringly real, almost blasphemous. It cuts across her skin, warm and soft, bringing out the faintest undertones of color in her cheeks, the way sunlight only ever can. Your eyes drift to her hands, to the way the light catches on the faintest creases of her skin, the shadows playing at the delicate veins tracing across her wrists. She is sitting in the morning light, with no hesitation, no consequence.
“Good afternoon, my love,” her words are hushed, a gentle caress that floats through the room. “Welcome to the rest of your life."
Sunlight leaves her weakened, you remember. So why? How? Why does she look so... Why does she smell so...
"Ada," you rasp, the word scraping against the raw, inflamed tissue of your vocal cords, a hoarse, guttural sound that barely resembles the melodic, dulcet tones of your former self. "What's going on?"
Vampires don't drink from each other. They don't make one another hungry like that. It's what she's told you when you asked about companionship in the truest sense. But she makes the hunger in your body sharpen, coiling into something darker, something fierce, but your mind remains rooted in a mixture of disbelief and something close to horror. This isn’t a dream, not some haunting vision of a life you’ve been chasing. The sunlight, the way it wraps around her so softly—it’s real.
Ada tilts her head, a slight, knowing smile touching her lips. The smile is different now, devoid of that cool, detached amusement you had grown used to. This smile is warm, edged with something quiet, almost vulnerable. Her hands rest lightly on the arms of the chair, her fingers curling slightly as though steadying herself.
You push yourself up, the movement strangely effortless, though you feel a disorienting pull, like you’re moving through water. There’s a dull pulse in your chest, slow, measured, each beat heavy, relentless, like a drum pounding from deep within. Your senses feel sharp, too sharp, as though the room itself has drawn closer, each detail magnified and blurring at the edges.
The light, the firelight from last night’s hearth, everything feels more alive, more present. You catch the faintest scent lingering in the air—the sweetness of cedarwood, of wax and smoke, mingling with something faintly metallic. Your gaze falls on Ada’s wrist, the slight line of red where her pulse should be. That red mark feels like a spark, a flash of something you can’t quite place, and the hunger stirs again, deeper this time, insistent.
Ada studies you in silence, her gaze gentle yet unwavering, as though she’s waiting for you to grasp the truth buried beneath this impossible moment. The quiet stretches between you, your mind piecing together fragments of what you both know but haven’t spoken aloud. There is no more pretending, no more stories wrapped in shadows. This is the truth, laid bare in the unforgiving light of day.
"Why are you... why are you human?"
"We made an exchange. I'm now you. You're now me. A trade."
"But..."
It's all in her eyes. All of it. The entirety of her plan, the intricacies and the machinations of the whole process are laid out, plain and clear, and the pieces click and fit into place. There's no need to say any of it. What's the point of asking questions to which the answers are obvious? Her not telling you of the real nature of the transition proves it.
Your fingers tighten on the bed sheets, knuckles white, the fabric bunching under the pressure of your grip, and it's a struggle to keep your breathing steady, a futile attempt at maintaining a semblance of calmness, to not betray the growing unease, the trepidation, that gnarls and knots within. Had it all been a lie? The affection, the bond, the connection that had blossomed between you in the shadowed halls of the estate, the shared laughter and stolen glances, the quiet moments of intimacy that had seemed so genuine, so sincere, the tender touches and whispered promises, had they all been nothing more than an act, a facade designed to manipulate, to ensnare?
And the thought of that possibility, that perhaps you had been nothing more than a pawn in her grand scheme, a willing victim in her quest for humanity, stings, an ache that lingers and festers, a wound that refuses to heal, a betrayal that cuts deep.
“You've condemned me,” you whisper, the words slipping from your lips with a hollow finality.
"I've given you what you wanted," she corrects, her tone soft, nonchalant, as if oblivious to the turmoil churning within, a tempest that threatens to consume, to destroy. "You wished to witness history being made. To see the future unfold. And now, you will be a part of that—"
"You know it means nothing without you by my side! I don't care that you've stolen my humanity from me, I care that you're depriving me of the only thing that would have made eternity worthwhile! You!"
Her laugh is a low, throaty sound, rich with an emotion that defies easy interpretation. Is it pity, or condescension, or a twisted form of compassion that colors her words? Whatever the source, the effect is undeniable: a wave of fury, a surge of indignation, that rises like bile in your throat that demands an outlet.
"I wouldn't have given this curse to you if I didn't think you couldn't handle it. Love is yet another curiosity of yours, and a fleeting one at that. It's the most fickle of things, and a fool's errand to seek the permanence of the sun in something as ephemeral as the moon. Give it a decade, a century at most. Your infatuation will fade, and then we'll be on even ground. Though, I must admit that having had a taste of mortality once more, I do understand the appeal. Perhaps there's a lesson in here somewhere. Or maybe that's just the human in me talking."
"How dare you!" The accusation slips from between clenched teeth, the venom of anger seeping into each syllable, a bitter, acrid flavor that coats the tongue, a poison that seeks to inflict harm, to exact retribution. But the vitriol of your words fails to find purchase, bouncing off her placid demeanor like raindrops against a stone wall. "How could you do this to me? How could you deceive me so cruelly?"
"The same way the past has deceived us all. With a promise of a better future, or a brighter tomorrow. Isn't that what humanity is, after all—"
"Enough with the philosophy," you snap, the word cracking in the silence of the room. "This isn't a game, or some grand experiment, or a philosophical treatise. This is my life. Our lives. And the fact that you've played with them, toyed with us, with no regard for our feelings or desires, that's... that's—"
"Cruel?" she supplies, her tone remaining infuriatingly even, a calm that only serves to further fan the flames of your outrage. "Yes, I suppose it is. Cruel, cold, calculated. Those are the hallmarks of the vampires. You'll come to learn and appreciate these traits in due time. They will serve you well in the coming centuries."
"Don't," your warning emerges as a growl, a sound that seems to emanate from the depths of a soul wracked with despair, a threat born of desperation. "Don't pretend that this is anything other than a violation, a betrayal of trust, of loyalty. Don't try to justify it, to rationalize it away. What you've done is unforgivable, and I will never, never forget it. I will never stop hating you for it."
"As you should." Ada nods, a simple, accepting gesture. "That is often the relationship between the maker and the turned. But I've been preparing you for it, and you were so eager to learn, so eager to understand."
"This whole time... teaching me your family’s history, everything—"
"Was never meant to be published." Her confirmation is a blade, sliding smoothly between your ribs, piercing the fragile vessel of hope that had somehow endured. "It was meant to be inherited. By you. You were always going to be the sole author of my clan's legacy, the curator of the Wong dynasty. From the moment I found you, that had been the purpose of our arrangement. A mortal, to immortalize the immortals. My historian. My vampire. Mine."
So… she's been teaching you all along.
Not just the mechanics of vampirism, the minutiae of a thousand-year-old blood feud, or the intricacies of a hidden society. No, she's been training you, grooming you, molding you to suit her purposes. And you've been a willing, even enthusiastic, participant in your own deception, a pawn that danced willingly to her tune. Each question, each inquiry, each late-night discussion over a bottle of wine or a shared meal, they'd all been steps in a carefully orchestrated dance, a choreographed performance in which you'd played the role of the wide-eyed, trusting ingĂŠnue, and she'd worn the mask of the benevolent mentor, the patron saint of knowledge and wisdom.
"No," you say. "You just wanted an out. An exit. A way to slip the bonds of the curse, the same curse that I've now inherited. This wasn't about preserving your legacy, or passing the torch, or any of that noble rubbish."
A tremor ripples through your hands, curling your fingers into fists. The hunger stirs, insistent, yet it’s something colder, sharper, that drives you forward now, something fueled by the raw betrayal, the sense of abandonment. She’d promised eternity, and delivered a gilded cage she wouldn't even share with you. There's a sensation of prickling on your bottom lip. Your nails have elongated, sharpened. Fangs, the first stirrings of a power that is still unfamiliar, but potent. As the initial rush of shock begins to subside, replaced by a slow, smoldering anger. You can feel the shift within, the darkness that had lain dormant beneath the surface, stirring, awakening. The shadows in the room seem to deepen, to coil and writhe, mirroring the chaos brewing inside you. A part of you, the rational, academic mind, notes the changes, the transformation taking place before your eyes, cataloging them, analyzing them, a detached observer in the midst of a personal apocalypse. Another part, the emotional, the human, recoils in horror, unable to reconcile the monster you're becoming with the person you once were, and the new one, the monster, is hungry. Furious.
"What did you expect, love? That we would play house for the next millennia? That we would settle down, start a family, and watch as our children grew old and died while we remained forever young and untouched by the ravages of time?"
The derision in her tone, the mockery dripping from her every word, sparks a fresh flare of rage, and you lunge forward, propelled by an instinct that is not wholly your own, an urge to strike, to hurt, to tear and rend. There's the telltale, muffled sensation of sunlight hitting your flesh and scalding it, but it's a faraway pain that you're too out of your body to even feel. Ada's chair is knocked away, broken into kindling, and in the blink of an eye, you're on top of her, pinning her to the floor, a snarl on your lips and a wild, untamed fury in your eyes. But Ada is no mere maiden, and the look on her face is not of fear or alarm, but of a quiet acceptance, a resignation tinged with sadness.
You've devolved into an animal, and the sight of her, of the pulsating vein at her neck, the warmth that radiates from her skin, the scent of her, the smell of her, is an irresistible lure. The thirst, the insatiable, all-consuming need, claws at your throat, and you lean in, mouth opening to reveal the newly formed fangs, sharp, deadly, ready to sink into the soft, yielding flesh and drink, to drain, to satiate.
And you do just that.
Your teeth pierce her skin, and the hot, coppery taste of her blood fills your mouth, a rich, heady flavor that sends a jolt of ecstasy racing through your veins, a primal, savage satisfaction that momentarily drowns out the anguish, the despair, the sense of loss that threatens to consume you. Yet, this isn't a kiss, isn't a tender, intimate exchange. No, this is violence, a brutal act of dominance, of retribution, and Ada's gasps of pain, her weak attempts at resistance, only spur you on, growls rumbling from deep in your chest, a beast that has been unleashed, a creature of hunger and wrath. And the worst part is, despite the savagery of your assault, she doesn't fight back, doesn't defend herself against the onslaught, simply lies there, her arms falling limp at her sides, her breath growing ragged and shallow, the light in her eyes slowly dimming, a silent surrender to the fate she's wrought for both of you, a twisted, tragic union of predator and prey.
"You don't bite the blood," she rasps, and her laughter, her goddamn laughter, is the final insult. "You suck it."
But you don't care. Because right now, all that matters is the taste of her, the warmth of her lifeblood flowing down your throat, quenching the fire that burns within, a fleeting, illusory relief from the hellish existence into which she's dragged you, kicking and screaming, a descent into a darkness that has no end.
And you don't stop until her pulse is gone and her heart can't pump any more blood for you to consume.
When you come to your senses, when the frenzy subsides and the crimson haze lifts from your vision, you find yourself hunched over her, her blood smeared across your face, your hands, a gruesome tableau of carnage, a scene from a nightmare.
"Ada?"
You reach out, tentative, trembling, to touch her cheek. It's cold, lifeless, a hollow shell devoid of the vibrancy that once animated her.
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The funeral is held on a sunlit afternoon, a small, private affair attended by a scant few mourners. A handful of local dignitaries, a scattering of acquaintances, and a solitary figure draped in mourning black, her face obscured by a veil that catches the faintest hint of the breeze, its gauzy fabric billowing gently in the warm summer wind. The service is a somber, muted affair, the priest's words echoing hollowly in the ears of those gathered, a eulogy that speaks of a woman who had lived a life of solitude and secrets, a recluse whose true nature was known to none.
As the casket is lowered into the ground, a gentle, haunting melody drifts across the cemetery, carried on the wings of the wind, a requiem that seems to encapsulate the melancholy of the occasion, a farewell that lingers in the memory long after the last note fades.
You don't attend.
You can't attend.
Sunlight burns you.
The estate feels hollow now. The corridors stretch out endlessly, each doorway, each shadow, lingering with memories that never quite solidify, never quite fade. Days blur, seeping into nights, the sun rising and falling in a relentless, indifferent cycle that you watch from the tall, narrow windows lining the halls. The clocks still tick, marking time for no one, each tick a reminder of the life Ada has stolen away and left behind for you to grapple with, a gift, or perhaps a curse, that has altered the very fabric of your reality and sentenced you to an eternal purgatory. The books that line the shelves are no longer a source of comfort or fascination; instead, they stand as silent, accusatory reminders of the knowledge that had drawn you here, the obsession that had led to the shattering of everything you once knew and the construction of this new, alien world in which you are now forced to reside, a puppet bound to the strings of a power greater than yourself.
You move through her rooms with steps too soft to echo, tracing over the places she frequented, the furniture that still holds a faint warmth in your mind, though it’s long since grown cold. Her study lies abandoned, the desk cluttered with documents, notes scrawled in the delicate, measured handwriting you’d learned to recognize even in brief glimpses. You lift one of the pages, running a finger over the ink as if it might pulse beneath your touch, as if Ada herself might rise from these scattered words and continue the conversation she left unfinished.
You drift to her chambers. The thick drapes that were usually drawn tight left open for that one singular day she spent as a mortal, the curtains pulled wide to allow the sunlight to spill across the floor and illuminate the room. You close them, trying not to get burnt.
The scent of her lingers here, faint but unmistakable, clinging to the silks and velvets she favored, the delicate perfumes on her vanity. You stand by her bed, looking over the emptiness of it, the indentation on her pillow long faded, the blanket still neatly folded where you last placed it. For a moment, you almost forget yourself, hand reaching out, fingers hovering over the sheets, as if the mere act of touching them might summon her back. But the silence doesn’t break. The room remains empty.
It’s in her journals that you begin to find hints—small, cryptic entries, scattered through the pages, written as if for herself, as if for no one. She wrote of immortality with a detachment that borders on disdain, speaking of centuries passed with an exhaustion that’s now all too clear. The words unravel before you, each entry filling in pieces of a life that feels infinitely beyond your understanding. She’d written about her weariness, about a desire for rest, for release, for an ending.
And you begin to wonder—was it always meant to end like this?
Her plan, her machinations, the chess moves that had brought you together, that had ensured the transfer of power, of life, from her to you, was there ever an alternative? Was there ever a scenario in her mind where the two of you would walk the same path, hand in hand, sharing in the eternity she had found such a burden in, or was she always going to choose leaving you behind? You had taken the mortal life she'd yearned for so long from her at the height of her freedom, hadn't you? Hadn't you? She could grow old, and have a family, and watch her grandchildren, and great-grandchildren, and die knowing that her legacy would be preserved, and treasured, and remembered, and even though it wasn't planned on your part, you hadn't allowed that victory to remain hers. In her last moments of mortality, she'd felt you tear that from her, and that had been your retaliation. A fitting punishment.
So why doesn't it feel like one?
You're still the losing party, aren't you?
You sink to the floor, clutching the book, her last words pressed against your chest, and in the silence, a final thought settles over you—a quiet, aching realization that you may spend eternity searching for a truth she never meant for you to find.
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herdarkestnightelegance ¡ 6 months ago
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HC drabble: Astarion and his books
I'm on my lunch break, soooo ...
Astarion used to love reading before becoming a spawn.
Of course, getting the chance to enjoy a book was barely ever - if at all - an option for him for 200 years. So when he comes across a few books while looting on the first day of his new-found freedom, he takes one with him.
Unable to find sleep that first night, he opens the dusty pages and starts reading. And he falls in love with books all over again. History, stories, travel journals, fables, myths - he finds enjoyment in most books he gets his hands on after that.
Travel journals are his favorite. Even though they hurt him just as much as he enjoys them. Reading about far away lands is bittersweet, but also almost like making up for lost time and chances, living vicariously through the characters in the accounts with a mix of envy and a hunger for knowledge. At least until he gets a chance to visit all these places himself, of course.
Sometimes he even steals borrows some of Gale's tomes and - mostly - pretends to hate them.
Astarion is a fast reader, too, taking every chance, every rest at camp, to stand in front of his tent with his eyes fixed on the words in his hands. Reading by daylight especially feels like a triumph over his former Master.
One night he returns from his hunt to find a new book in his tent. He knows it's from Tav. They have asked about his latest reads most evenings while sitting around the fire. Naturally he always humors them and recounts the stories, even if in a shortened, toned down version, pretending not to care as much as he does.
Tav must have paid close attention. Because they brought him a travel journal about a part of FaerĂťn he has not read about yet. He enjoys it immensely. And even though he would not admit it to Tav it becomes Astarion's favorite book.
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hyunverse ¡ 2 years ago
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thinking about hyunjin, and his ways of saying that he loves you.
hyunjin says the three words often, between chaste kisses shared once you awake from the daylight, and when you greet him home from work. hyunjin would say he loves you at random moments — when you’re cooking for him in the kitchen, or when you’re entangled with each other as a movie plays on the television. he means it everytime he says them — you can see the sincerity in his eyes, and the adoring smile he’d plaster across his face at the mere sight of you.
but his ways of conveying his loving emotions isn’t only limited to those three words.
you can see it in the way he would mindlessly draw you. you would be walking into the living room after a shower, and spot him drawing you from memory. at times he doesn’t even realize that he’s sketching you — you’re just always in his mind that sketching your face is like muscle memory.
hyunjin portrays it during the times he’d cut you some fruits. you would be doing your work in your office, and he’ll silently slide you a plate of mangoes, with a fork on it. the fruits are cut the way you like it, fresh and cold from the fridge. at times, he’ll feed you your first bite, cooing at the way your face scrunches up from the cold.
it is routine for him to kiss your forehead. every morning when he wakes up, before he goes to work, once he walks into the door after work, and before he goes to sleep. each kiss is accompanied with a loud, “mwah!” sound, followed by his little giggles.
there are times when you’d flop into bed in exhaustion, work clothes still in tact. he’ll change you into a set of pajamas, tuck you under the duvets. he’ll wipe off your makeup, massage some lotion into your skin. before turning the lights off you’d feel gentle kisses being pressed onto your forehead and your lips.
a big section of his journalling book is dedicated to you. pages occupied with poetry written about you — you know because he spends a little time writing before he goes to bed. you’d be tucked in under the duvets, and he’d still be sitting, scribbling words into his brown journal. smiling foolishly while he’s at it, too — ask him what he’s writing, and he’ll say, “something about you.”
hyunjin shows you he loves you by taking care of you during the times you simply could not. those times when you’d cry more than you eat, when self care is no longer a priority. you'll feel yourself being lifted off the bed, clothes stripped and put into a warm bath. he’ll massage your shampoo into your scalp as he whispers sweet reassurances into your skin. you’re beautiful, he’s proud of you — his assurances will make happy tears run down your cheeks. then, he’ll feed you your favourite food, gentle smile adorning his face serves as a reminder that he’ll always be there for you. always.
you have one too many gifts from him. little things he’d get you when he’s touring — things that he claims reminded him of you. pieces of jewellery, a puppy keychain, (he said that it looks like you) clothes, and many more. it’s come to a point where your friends would call you a hoarder — nightstand filled with a miscellaneous of things, and bed full of the plushies he had given you over the years.
you’ve received many love letters from him too. he would write you love letters from time to time, filling in empty pages with words that could make you cry out of joy. he has a special paper he writes his letters on —because everything has to be special when it comes to you! there’s this thing he likes doing, too — he starts all his love letters with “to my eternal love, y/n,” and ends them with “endless love, hyunjin.”
hyunjin loves you endlessly, and he doesn’t cower away from showing it.
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missredherring ¡ 2 months ago
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An Escape Rope Tied Around My Neck
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Maxwell Lord/Odin ft. Max Phillips/Loki
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1.5k
Warnings: angst. Mentions of blood.
Summary: A wish… what is a wish if not a desperate plea for the unobtainable?
A/N: This is my offering for @perotovar's Frith Challenge! I have a lot of feelings about Norse Mythology and Maxwell Lord, so figuring out how to combine them was a lot of fun to noodle over.
It's a personal belief that the events of Norse Mythology aren't linear and are happening all at once and not at all. You know, in a timey-wimey way. (A little bit of UPG for you, lol.) I've written it as such in this piece, and those moments are italicized. I hope it's not too confusing.
Not beta read. All mistakes are my own.
“Are you sure you don’t need me for anything else tonight, Mr. Lord?” Raquel asks. Her tone is genuinely sincere and without any flirtatious undertones like his last two secretaries had when they’d asked him that same question. Raquel wants to do her job and do it well. He likes that about her. 
The room is crammed with every knick-knack and trinket that he’d seen splashed across the pages of the business magazines. The intention had been to spread them around the larger work spaces in the building, to decorate with the trappings of a successful business in hopes of luring in more clients to keep playing this little game he’s passing the time with, but then the search for the Dreamstone had ended much quicker than he’d anticipated. 
“Yes, thank you, Raquel. Don’t worry about me and go home; I’ve kept you late enough,” Maxwell says and shoos her out of the office.
He watches her, listening to how her heels echo in the empty workspace and then the hum of the elevator as it takes her away. A few minutes later there’s the sound of a car pulling away. Only then does Maxwell close his office door and take a seat behind his desk. 
The stone sits like the prized heart of a hunted down stag in the middle of his desk, resting on top of the scattered academic papers, journals, and notebooks that made up the research material he’d been using to find it. 
It’s almost disappointing.
A couple of lamps on the desk illuminate the room, casting warm light on the stone and turning its color a more dark amber than the fresh honey hue it’d had when he’d snuck a peak through the packaging in the daylight. 
The Dreamstone is different than all the shiny, pristine, and ultimately useless trinkets in the room. It has potential. It could be an escape rope. Or at least a way to smooth the path to Ragnarok.
Eye intent, Odin reaches for it but pauses just before touching the smooth facet of the largest crystal point. There’s a noise in the room, a weight shifting on the cushions of the nearby couch. Magic beckons just out of reach, making his fingertips buzz and tingle with the urge to touch, but he stills.
“Please tell me you’re doing something interesting,” Loki says as he rests his head on the back of the couch. 
There, cast in a perfect balance of light and shadows, sits Loki. Fiery hair in disarray around his shoulder and eyes glittering in the low lighting as he sprawls on the couch. The bond between them pulses: warm, strong, and intact.
His chest aches with the foreknowledge of how it will twist and knot in the future.  
Odin wants to bring Loki into his plans, as he has a sharp mind that loves to think outside of the realm of possibilities, but another part stops him. The part that grows louder by the day and warns of wolf teeth and serpent scales and living dead flesh. 
“Just a curiosity that caught my eye,” Odin replies, covering the desperate need that’s been gnawing at him with nonchalance. 
He picks up the stone and examines it, taking in the weight and texture of the crystal cluster. There’s magic at its core, he’d sensed it before, but now it rises to meet his own. Darker, bitter, and more acidic like bile: eating through whatever holds it for too long. Pulsing, it tastes him and he bites back, a reprimand and reminder to know it’s place. Around the base of the cluster is a metal ring, aged from time and rough handling, inscribed is an old language, but not as old as his, he notes. He traces a finger over the letters but catches on a singular word. 
“Place upon the object held but one great…”
Desire? Want? Hope? Dream? All options but none that feels right. 
He turns the stone this way and that, but even bringing a lamp closer sheds no light of understanding on it. Sighing, Odin looks to where Loki has started wandering around the room, touching everything. 
“Be useful and take a look at this.” 
Loki saunters over, curious, and takes the stone, tossing it from hand to hand before rolling it along his palm. He squints, bringing the stone closer to his face and then licks the last word, his tongue contracting into a point to dip into the grooves.
Odin grumbles and rolls his eyes, the action making the severed muscles in the empty socket ache as he doesn't want to close his eyes and miss a moment of the children playing in the field outside the hall. As the blood rushes to his head, pooling and throbbing there as he hangs from the tree. As he plucks out the eyeball, Mimir’s chosen currency. 
There is no hiding the truth from Loki's silver tongue. He rolls it around in his mouth, teasing it out, and then pronounces: “Wish.” He spits it out onto the carpet and sneers. “Looks like it’s the work of an Olympian’s clumsy hand.” 
Loki passes it back and dusts his hands off to dispel the sticky residue of the stone’s magic. Task finished, he returns to his circuit of the room.
Odin sets it on the desk and leans back to regard it.
“Place upon the object held but one great wish.”
A wish… what is a wish if not a desperate plea for the unobtainable? 
Ragnarok. 
It is a fool’s wish that Ragnarok will stop it’s steady march onward. 
Deep in whatever approximates a god's soul he knows it's coming, it needs to happen, it will happen. 
A forest devoured by fire makes way for new, stronger growth in its place.
If a single wish could save them the fear and pain in favor of a kinder end? 
But when that forest is home to all he holds dear? His family. The people of his community. The mortals who still pray in his name and honor him in their actions.
All those who will look to him when the wolf finally catches its prey and plunges them into darkness. 
There is potential here and all he has to do is coax it to its greatest yield. 
A thrum of delight slides along the bond and Odin brings his focus back to the office to find Loki admiring a gaudy gold ring on his finger that had been on a display with that year’s latest watch model. 
He blinks again to clear his sight fully because Loki has changed. A broad frame dressed in a tailored suit, its design different from the one Odin is currently wearing. His jewel eyes have darkened to be almost black in the room’s shadows. His hair, now short and dark, is neatly combed and styled and yet still caught up in the chaos of his movement. 
They look like they’re brothers who once shared a womb instead of a chosen bond.
Odin’s lips twitch. “You could’ve picked something else,” he says and watches as Max gives him a toothy grin.
“Haven’t you heard that imitation is the sincerest form of flattery?” He lifts a shoulder. “Plus this’ll work better for my own plans.”
Odin opens his mouth to say he doesn’t want to know, but a shiver of premonition rolls through his body, raising the hair on his arms and the back of his neck.
He motions and Max kneels at his feet, curiosity burning in every line of his body. Odin cups Max’s jaw and squeezes gently, drawing it open to allow his thumb room to enter Max’s mouth. 
“Come,” he orders in the voice of a leader responsible for many and while Max’s eyebrows shoot into his hairline, he obeys without question.
How many people will obey him to their deaths? 
He presses down on a sharp, too sharp, canine until blood wells up and beads. Turning it, he presses the pad onto the hot, soft muscle of Max’s tongue, forming the runes as they offer themselves for use. 
Uruz, Ansuz, Isa, Algiz, Algiz, Algiz, Algiz.
The bindrune complete, Odin releases him and allows Max to sit back on his heels as he puzzles over the magic. Maybe the mystery will be enough to curb some of his mischief. Another fool’s wish. 
Rippling, Max fades and Loki watches him with a relaxed face, she’s glowing in the midst of her pregnancy. He’s sparkling with mischief and humor, scarred lips stretching wide. Their face is burned and marled and eyes unseeing in the hard light outside of the cave, left blank after finally being consumed by the spark of their nature. It is not in fire’s nature to be merciful. 
Max swallows and stands. “Interesting. I’ll leave you here,” he tugs his waistcoat into place and smooths the lines of his jacket. “Wish me luck.”
The Dreamstone pulses on the desk in front of them. 
Max is gone and Odin is alone with the stone again, it’s cloying influence reaching and coaxing.
Wish, wish, wish.
URUZ symbolizes Strength, Tenacity, Courage, Untamed Potential, Freedom.  ANSUZ symbolizes the Mouth, Communication, Understanding, Inspiration. ISA Clarity, Stasis, Challenges, Introspection, Watching & Waiting.  ALGIZ symbolizes Protection, Defense, Instinct, Group Effort, Guardianship.
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thefandomwritersblog ¡ 5 months ago
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Ghost of the Ten Horizon: Forbidden West Hekarro x Fem!OldOne OC Action/Adventure/Romance/Hurt/Comfort Chapter 23
Part 3: Ghost of the Ten
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“All time ever does is pass and all I do is remember.” - Sue Zhao
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Much like Dekka predicted, the storm from the west swept in without warning and without mercy.
That first night, Victoria couldn’t help but agree with Hekarro’s concerns. The wind howled with a ferocity that was nothing short of terrifying, shrieking through the Grove like a vengeful spirit. It tore through the trees and tangled underbrush without a hint of mercy, sending debris crashing against the crumbling stone walls with such force that she feared they might collapse under the storm's fury. The tempest continued for days on end, seemingly unrelenting until it finally gave way to a steady downpour that transformed the jungle floor into a murky floodplain. Only then did the Tenakth venture out from their shelters, evaluating the damage but largely ignoring the persistent drizzle as they set about repairing and strengthening their home—an endeavor made significantly easier by the Oseram residing there. When the rain finally lightened, Petra and her crew were among the first to walk through the Grove, ready to offer their expertise and assistance. By the time they finished, everything was more or less back to normal; only a few collapsed walls remained, posing no real threat to the overall structure of the Grove.
But the constant rain left Victoria in a rut. She listened to it patter relentlessly against the canvases that covered her room, sheltered beneath the one that covered her desk. The candle on the corner flickered in the breeze that swept through the Grove, cool against her skin despite the humidity. She stared at her journal, its pages filled with her sketches, and Victoria couldn’t help but scoff at it and push it aside. There wasn’t much to do with the rain constantly coming down, and there were only so many Strike matches against Dekka she was willing to lose before it started to wear on her patience. Her routine walks were no longer an option either; Beta wasn’t accustomed to just casually strolling through the rain like the Tenakth, and neither was Victoria, making it impossible her to join Hekarro on his daily patrols through the Grove.
Victoria’s stomach growled then. She glanced up at the dimming daylight and sighed. The hallway was deserted as she stepped out of her room, turning left towards the arena. The usually lively atmosphere was muted by the rain. A stark contrast to the usual hustle and bustle of Petra’s workers. As she made her way into the Maw, the silence followed her until she reached the dimly lit mess hall. A few sets of eyes turned towards her as she walked in, but she ignored them and headed straight for the counter where Rikka, the Lowlander cook, greeted her with a smile.
"Stew tonight," Rikka announced. "I saved a special bowl just for you."
"Thanks," Victoria replied with a grumble, taking the proffered bowl and shuffling off to find an empty seat. She found a spot with a good view of the room and the door, her back against the wall as she huddled over the table to eat. The rain pattering away against the roof was a constant above the low hum of conversation, and the bustle of Rikka in her kitchen. There was an occasional glance from the nearby Tenakth, curiosity burning in each glance despite Victoria’s best attempts to ignore them.
She understood their curiosity - she was the Old One, after all. The still living daughter of their revered ancestor. A miracle made real.
If only they knew the truth. But even if they did, would it change anything?
Sudden movement caught her eye as a Tenakth woman entered the room through the door. She vaguely recalled her as the same woman who had caused a commotion when she first woke up. Victoria couldn't quite remember her name, though she was sure she was a marshal. Shaking her head, she refocused on her meal, but her thoughts were interrupted by the sound of a strike board hitting the table in front of her. Looking up, Victoria was surprised to see the marshal standing next to her, studying her with a stern expression. A hush fell over the room, all eyes turned to the pair of them.
Victoria leaned back in her chair lazily, still holding a spoon as it played with the edge of her bowl. "Last I heard, the Chief said none of his clan were supposed to approach me." The marshal blinked and then sat down at the table, throwing a bag of strike pieces and tiles onto the board. Victoria chuckled under her breath, "But I suppose rules don't matter when they get in the way of what you want, right?"
The marshal set up the board while Victoria chose her pieces, and they began their game in complete silence. As they moved their pieces across the board, Victoria couldn't shake off the feeling of being constantly judged by the marshal. Their game had also caught the attention of others in the room, and slowly a crowd gathered around their table. The marshal proved to be a formidable opponent despite using simple pieces. It was clear that she was utilizing every advantage she had, even with just the basic tile board. And though Victoria put up a fierce fight and took shots whenever possible, she ultimately lost.
With a slight smirk on her lips, the marshal turned her evaluating gaze to Victoria and commented, "You fight until the very end."
"Why would I make it easy or enjoyable for anyone else to beat me?" Victoria retorted. Laughter rippled through the crowd and the marshal chuckled, motioning to a nearby warrior.
“Bring a round of Stalker’s Bite, I get the feeling it’ll soothe the sting of her loss.”
The order was quickly carried out, and before long, a flask was thrust into Victoria's hand. The smell alone made her nose hairs curl and her stomach churn at the thought of drinking whatever concoction this was. But Victoria wasn't one to back down from a challenge, so she took a big gulp when the marshal offered her the drink.
“Thousand years must have made me a lightweight,” Victoria grumbled, a hand to her head as a sudden rush of warmth and wooziness fell over her, “What the fuck is this stuff?”
The Marshal chuckled and followed suit by taking a large swig herself. Flasks were passed around the group, and several warriors even pulled up chairs to join in. A man next to Victoria nudged her arm, and she handed him the flask as he explained
"We call it Stalker's Bite. It's a favorite among us Lowlanders. We make it from honey collected in the trees just south of Thornmarsh and mix it with fermented fruit. It's Chief Hekarro's favorite."
He handed the flask back to Victoria for another drink, feeling the burning sensation down her throat all the way to her stomach. "This stuff definitely packs a punch. Is this the only thing you guys make?"
Another man, just to Victoria’s left, perked up and grinned, “The Desert Clan makes a drink from the innards of the Spikestalks.”
A voice from the back of the room shouted out, "The Sky Clan has a special drink made from a rare flower! Sweetest brew I’ve ever had!"
The crowd laughed and talked loudly, surrounding Victoria with their noise. Flasks of strong drink were passed around. This was a familiar routine for Victoria; she enthusiastically joined in on each toast, savoring the taste of the sweet liquid. As the night went on, time seemed to slip away, fluid like the drink in her hand, marked only by another round of brew or a rowdy cheer. Faces became blurry and voices blended together in a chaotic symphony. Then came the challenge - another game proposed by an eager warrior seeking glory. He stood up, taking the place of the Marshal, and all eyes turned to Victoria once again. The crowd pressed closer, their excitement almost tangible despite Victoria's intoxication. Yet amidst it all - or perhaps because of it - Victoria found herself reveling in the energy where only two things mattered: the drink in her hand and the undeniable thrill of victory.
The games continued well into the night, long after the last drop of Stalker's Bite had been consumed. Slowly but surely, the clan cleared out of the mess hall at Rikka's insistence. Victoria stumbled through the Maw, accompanied by the drunken Marshal she had befriended, both of them soaked from the pouring rain.
As they turned the corner towards the back bedrooms, Victoria slurred, "I don't think I ever caught your name." The Marshal chuckled,
"Ivvira," she replied, steadying herself by clutching onto Victoria's shoulder. They walked past the bedrooms towards the Throne Room. "And you are the Old One, Victoria."
Victoria couldn't help but laugh. "You all really like to call me that," she said. "It's been months but I still don't know what it means."
Ivvira frowned, “I guess I’m not really sure what it’s supposed to mean either.” They paused before Anne’s exhibit, and after a long moment of silence the Marshal eventually scoffed, “It’s funny how you changed everything.”
“That a good or bad thing?”
“I’m not sure yet,” Ivvira replied, “Before I even knew you existed, I was confused and angry. It wasn’t like Chief Hekarro to keep secrets from us. Even Marshal Kotallo, our champion and her sister, they wouldn’t tell us anything. It went against the Tenakth way." She turned her gaze towards Victoria. "And then you appeared out of nowhere. You were just as angry and confused, and so frightened. But despite it all, you stood your ground with me and asked a question that has haunted me ever since." Another pause before Ivvira spoke in a whisper, barely audible, "What did Anne Faraday sacrifice for peace and unity?"
Victoria's gaze shifted to the empty space where Anne's exhibit used to be, bringing back memories of her childhood. Birthdays missed, sporting events where her mother's seat was always empty. Christmas morning spent alone with a poorly wrapped gift because she had foolishly hoped her mother would come home.
“I think you already know the answer to that, Ivvira.”
A long pause passed between them before Ivvira nodded, “I figured.” She turned to look at Victoria then, “You could always join the tribe.”
Victoria blinked, shocked, “Fuckin’ excuse me.”
Ivvira responded casually with a shrug, "Why not? You don't have anywhere else to go." Victoria felt herself bristle at the statement, but Ivvira quickly amended, "Wait, that sounded worse than I intended. What I mean is, everything you know is different now, and we could learn so much from you. Is it really so bad to stay with us and teach us?”
Would it be such a terrible thing to find purpose once again?
Victoria wasn't sure how to respond. Ever since she woke up, she had been struggling. Angry, lost, and depressed. She swallowed hard, trying to push back the lump in her throat.
Do you even deserve it?
Tears welled up in her eyes.
You couldn't even protect your family. You didn't even have the decency to die with them. Why should you get to live when they didn’t?
"Just think about it," Ivvira said earnestly. "You've already made a huge impact on us just by being here. We all talk about you, even though we're technically not supposed to speak to you. And we've heard you talking with Chaplain Dekka about our history and way of life. Plus, tonight you played games and drank with us like one of our own." she smiled warmly, "I really think you'd fit in well here, and you could do so much good for us."
You don’t deserve it.
You’ll kill them just like everyone else.
Ivvira retreated, her departure leaving Victoria alone with the rhythmic drumming of rain against the Grove. Her gaze was drawn to the void left by Anne’s exhibit, a hollow space that echoed with memories and unspoken words. Her fingers moved of their own accord, activating the display. Anne materialized in front of her, eyes that felt both intimately known and achingly distant scanning the unseen audience. They never settled on Victoria, always looking past her - not the first time, she hated that it wasn’t the last. Even in death her mother always had a way of making her feel small.
The anger was raw, visceral. It gnawed at her insides like a starved beast, fueled by countless instances of the same question: why her? Why had she been singled out from all others to bear witness to humanity's downfall? Anne would have been a better choice. She would have made a difference, shaped order from chaos. But no, it was Victoria who remained while Anne became nothing more than a ghostly projection on a screen. A god in the eyes of the Tenakth.
Worthless
So easy to feel worthless in comparison to Anne's legacy, and Ivvira’s suggestion was just another reminder of this inadequacy. They wanted her as a messiah when she could barely keep herself from drowning.
Useless.
"Victoria?"
A voice cut through the haze of alcohol-fueled self-loathing, pulling her back from the precipice of despair. As Hekarro descended the stairs from the throne room, her gaze snapped towards him. She felt a surge of fury course through her veins at the sight of him. He was no different from Ivvira - in fact, he was worse. His only concern was what she could offer him. Did he wear that mask of kindness for show? Victoria couldn't help but curl her lip in disdain as she looked at him. - they all wanted something from her, all because she was Anne Faraday's daughter, their supposed Goddess. It only added to her anger and bitterness, another burden placed upon her shoulders and an excuse to exploit her mother's legacy.
“What?”
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builtbybrokenbells ¡ 10 months ago
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belladonna | prologue
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Too beautiful to resist, and too deadly to survive; the tragic tale of belladonna in all its glory.
Masterlist
Pairing: Danny Wagner x f!reader
Word Count: 2k
Warnings: mentions of toxic family situations, swearing, smoking
Welcome to the show 🥰 I’ve been incredibly excited to share this with you, so stay tuned for more!
WHERE IT ALL BEGAN
When faced with the tragedy of remembering, it is often perceived as something beautiful.
After living a life as painful as your own, reminiscing on the past is neither easy nor enjoyable.
A deadbeat father, and a stepfather who was present yet absent all the same. A mother who was all but kind, and two brothers who were made fully responsible for all of your successes and failures.
From the moment you were born, life seemed to find every possibly opportunity to strike you down. Despite the relentless effort, you stood up, you kept going, and you survived.
You did not realize until you were much older, but surviving was the easiest part, and the difficulties most often lie within the aftermath. Picking yourself up while still struggling with knowing who you are proved difficult, but you managed to settle yourself into a routine and found a safe place to rest while you pieced together your own personality. Just when you thought you could finally put the burden down for a moment, you found yourself amidst the hardest challenge of all; living a life that was far different than what was destined for you, yet still plagued with the memories of the little girl who once ran so you could walk.
You spent every waking moment avoiding the memories housed in your brain, and when you could no longer avoid them, you crumbled to the ground as you faced them head on. You deconstructed every notion you had of yourself and rebuilt from nothing so many times that your head began to spin when you thought of it for too long. You became a stranger to avoidance, and you made friends with your own demons. Eventually, you made a life out of the hurt that once limited you.
At a diner off the edge of town, you worked night shifts and weekends to make ends meet while you spent the daylight chasing after a dream that you feared might never come true. You went home every night in the dark, the smell of the deep fryer still lingering on your clothes as you smoked as many cigarettes as the walk would allow. When the sun rose in the sky, you would drag yourself out of bed and sit in front of the large panel windows in your living room and write until your mind went numb.
Stories of everyone and everything, synopses of books you wanted to, but would never publish, and poems to air out your own, relentless thoughts. Journals sat around the room, stuffed so full of pictures and words that the spines were near broken. Single pages floated around the space, some with only one word, and some with so many that you could barely read it underneath the mess. You did not have a lack of imagination, nor a lack of patience; writing is a long process, and a good book will take years (That’s what you told yourself, anyway). You lacked inspiration, something to give you the motivation to keep writing and to keep trying, even if you failed. You needed something to write about, because recounting your own tormenting sadness and loneliness was becoming unbearable.
You searched in dive bars with cheap liquor, wondering if you would find meaning at the bottom of (another) empty bottle. You searched in coffee shops with signs that were faded and falling down. You looked for it at the supermarket, in the reds of the strawberries and the greens in the apples. Your eyes gazed up at the old city buildings, wondering if an idea would spark from the crumbling cement and moss-ridden stones. Sometimes, you would pick the sprouts of weeds from the sidewalks to bring home with you in hopes that their beauty, despite their nuis of the gray concrete jungle aesthetic, would flood your mind with some type of passion.
Not even a life blooming amidst the city's fascination with destroying anything green could pry your mind away from the same old boring topics. Months of searching left you with nothing, and eventually, you began to give up on the idea of a muse entirely.
In the serenity of the diner on one particularly late-night shift, cutting through the stagnant air and filling your lungs with a breath of hope, you finally understood that a muse is not something that you go in search of, but rather something that seeks you when the time is right. The laughter was so beautiful that it made your knees go weak and your chest ache for a moment. You wondered how someone could evoke so much emotion within you without you even seeing their face.
The time, of course, was perfect, but when you finally caught sight of the thing you had been craving for so long, you realized that you were not prepared for what the search would bring.
In the diner booth, huddled in the very corner of the building by the window onlooking the streets, sat a man who turned your whole world upside down in an instant. A tattered band shirt with the sleeves cut off and a worn out logo magnified his strong arms, and his curly hair hung down over his shoulders to frame his beautifully crafted face. His jawline was sharp, angling down into a soft chin, and although large, his nose was stunning. His eyes, even from far away, managed to make your stomach flutter with curiosity.
He did not notice you, but god did you notice him, sitting across from a faceless man with long hair, laughing at a joke that was shared between them. His company, although facing away from you, seemed like the louder of the two, and his character bled from him as he spoke. You could not even muster the strength to crane and look at his face, because whatever he looked like paled in comparison to his company. You felt frozen as you watched from the kitchen window, hanging on to every small expression and drinking in every beautiful laugh that fell from his lips.
The first night he visited the diner, you could not find the courage to speak to him, nor could you even bring yourself to walk out into the dining room while he was still sitting. Despite your lack of conversation, you ran home that night and did not get a second of sleep; your nose was buried in a journal and you were too busy pouring your heart out on the paper. You wrote more than you ever had, and with more emotion than you could ever muster before.
The nameless boy was everything you were looking for and more, and proved that a muse was more than a ruby red strawberry amidst unripe fruit, and much more than a measly weed growing between the cracks in the sidewalk. You had been aimlessly searching for inspiration within the inanimate without even considering the fact that the most profound words would be inspired by a living, beating heart.
You vowed that the next time he stepped foot in the diner, you would make your move. You would introduce yourself, smile and take his order as if he hadn’t completely changed your world without even knowing it. You needed more than an echoing laugh, and more than a glimpse from around the kitchen wall. You needed to know him, down to the very things that made his heart beat.
Firstly, you needed his name, and without it, you could not find any more passion. You had milked every opportunity from the miniscule amount of time you had been blessed with his presence (which, admittedly, was a lot).
You needed him in your life, and you needed more than you could even begin to comprehend, because after a lifetime dedicated to forgetting, you found something that made you desperate to remember.
Unfortunately, your life had proved that remembering would ultimately be your demise, and your unwillingness to forget him would turn out be your worst nightmare.
A muse is a source of inspiration in all forms, and the most deadly (and the truest) form of inspiration is a heartbreak greater than itself.
Daniel Wagner was in fact your biggest muse, and to be a true source of inspiration, he was also destined to be the biggest heartbreak you had ever experienced.
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andromedazwrks ¡ 29 days ago
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NEW CHAPTER‼️
Im not going to lie guys this is like my favorite sex scene ive written so far🤭
TEASER:
Stepping lightly across the concrete floor, she approached Stan from behind. He was so engrossed in his work that he didn't notice her presence until she gently tapped his shoulder.
Stan startled slightly, turning to look up at her with wide eyes. "Geez, sweetheart, you scared the living daylights outta me," he chuckled, his surprise quickly melting into a warm smile. "Is dinner ready?"
Instead of answering, she simply lowered herself onto his lap, positioning herself so she could see the journal spread out before them. She felt Stan's arms instinctively wrap around her waist, his chest warm against her back.
"What are you up to, you little minx?" Stan murmured, his breath tickling her ear.
She turned her head slightly, meeting his gaze with a coy smile. "Oh, nothing," she replied innocently. "I just thought I'd come down and see what's got you so captivated down here."
Stan raised an eyebrow, clearly not buying her innocent act. "Uh-huh. And it has nothing to do with the fact that dinner's probably getting cold upstairs?"
She laughed, the sound echoing in the cavernous basement. "Maybe I just wanted to spend some quality time with my favorite mystery man," she teased, running her fingers along the edge of the journal's weathered pages.
"Well, far be it from me to deny a lady her wishes," Stan replied, his voice low and playful. He tightened his arms around her, pulling her closer against his chest. "Though I gotta say, as much as I enjoy your company, it's a little hard to focus on the journal with such a beautiful distraction in my lap."
She turned in his arms, facing him fully now. The warm light of the desk lamp caught the flecks of gold in his brown eyes, and she found herself getting lost in them. "Maybe that was my evil plan all along," she whispered, leaning in close.
As she sat in his lap, her fingers delicately turning the pages of the journal, she reveled in the attention his eyes lavished upon her. The atmosphere was electric, charged with a palpable desire that could no longer be contained. She teased him mercilessly, her hips swiveling in slow, sultry circles against his lap.
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daylight - nine
jj maybank x fem!reader | part 9 of the daylight series | read part 8 here
content warnings: mentions of sex; mentions of alcohol
word count: 3.9k.
blurb: restless after the argument with JJ, you resort to looking through the journal you kept when you were dating Tyler. Maybe it's time to try and let the past go.
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You can’t sleep.
Every time you close your eyes, you hear the argument between you and JJ echo in your mind. The horrible things you said to one another. The perfect avoidance of the truth, as if the two of you were reciting steps in a dance. The thought that everything between you might be ruined keeps you from finding rest.
Mimsy still hasn’t returned any of your calls. Never before have you felt the distance between the two of you to be so gaping. Vancouver feels like asylum that you can’t seek: it feels as unattainable as visiting heaven. You just want to be home, in your old bedroom, in your old bed, surrounded by your old friends. You want to go back to a time before JJ and before Kildare and, more importantly, before Tyler.
Tired of staring at the ceiling, you shove your sheets off and climb out of bed. Stretching, your eyes gravitate to your pin-board. JJ seems to shine brighter than everyone else, it's as if he's backlit. You're momentarily distracted by his radiant smile. By those eyes that could bring you to your knees; the very eyes that captured you before he’d even spoken a word your way. And now, when you see his face, all you can think of is that last conversation. You look away and, like a moth drawn to a flame, or a pirate guided by a siren’s call, your eyes latch on to the shoebox under your bed. 
Something inside of you has you sinking to your knees before it. You guide it out, holding the cardboard like it’s the fragile casing of a bomb. Sitting cross legged on your bedroom floor, you take the lid of the box and lift out the journal. A finger dusts over its worn cover and a solemn smile tries but fails to make its way onto your face. Your fingers crack the pages open. And then, you start to read. 
June 3
Me and Mimsy went to a kegger today. It was pretty boring and not many people were there. We mostly hung out with Kelly and Evan. I played some beer pong - I swear I’m getting better. I ended up talking to this guy called Tyler. He goes to the boys only school in the neighbourhood. He likes country music, which is icky as hell, and he’s a little lanky. I don’t think he likes me very much. We talked for a bit but he didn’t say much, and I felt like I was chewing his ear off, so I went back to Mimsy and decided to quit bothering him. He’s cute though, so it’s a shame. There’s this tenderness in his eyes. I don’t know, I guess I felt sorry when I looked in them. I feel like if he gets coaxed out and given the right space, he might be able to really open up. But if you don’t like someone, I guess you won’t jump at the chance, right? I probably won’t see him again anyway. We don’t really run in the same circles. 
June 17
Mimsy has the flu and I’m scared I’m going to catch it too. I have a photography gig in two days at the hockey club in town and I don’t want to miss it. I think it’ll be really good for the gram and maybe get me some more work opportunities. My post the other week got three thousand likes. How crazy is that? I think I need to get better at editing. That’s usually what sets people’s photography apart. 
June 19
So, the photography thing was today and it was a success! The team were really nice and the coach said he has this sister who’s throwing an anniversary get-together thing in a week or so. He asked if he could pass on my information. I finally feel like this might be something I can actually do, for money and for the long term. Mimsy’s feeling a bit better. I don’t think I’ve caught her bug so that’s a win. Tomorrow I’ll take her some soup and stuff. Oh! And that Tyler guy was at the hockey club too. Apparently he coaches the girls-only team. He was more chatty this time. The guys in the locker rooms had beers and they offered me one, so maybe he gets more talkative when he has a drink? Anyway, we talked for a while. He’s kind of dorky but it’s sweet. He’s a Marvel boy. How funny is that? I don’t think I’ve seen more than five Marvel films and this guy lives and breathes them. I ended up telling him how I thought he hated me when we first met and apparently he thought that I hated him! How funny is that!? He said he gets nervous talking to girls he likes, and when I walked away, he thought he’d messed up. It was really endearing. Long story short, I gave him my number. I think we’re going to hang out in a few days or something. 
June 26
Okay, don’t freak out but I think I’m actually really into Tyler? He’s really easy to talk to. I feel like I can say the most private stuff and he actually listens. We keep meeting up at Billy’s Bagels and talking for ages. He told me about this car crash he got into and I told him about the time me and Mimsy tried to go hitch-hiking and she was convinced we got in a serial killer’s car. He also leaves me these little notes on the receipts. Cute little things. But it’s so confusing, because he won’t make a move. Like, we’ll be sitting side by side and he won’t put a hand on my leg or pull me close. And he never tries to hold my hand. Hasn’t kissed me. Barely hugged me. It makes me wonder if I’m reading everything wrong. I’m just so tired of being the person who always makes the first move and I want him to just do something! I want to know if he feels the same way as me. 
June 28
I’m about to lose my fucking mind. I swear to God, I’m this close to being done with this whole thing. One minute, Tyler’s talking to me like crazy and making me laugh, and laughing at my jokes, and the next, he’s acting like he’s never seen me before in his life. I took Mimsy’s advice, the other night, and when we were walking back, I really dragged it out. And I stood there for ages, outside my house, waiting for him to make a move. We’d spent the whole day together. Got food, went surfing. Then he hugs me. He fucking hugs me. I was livid. I was absolutely furious. I just started walking to my house. And then, I have no idea why, I turned around and chased him down and grabbed him and kissed him. Okay, I basically ran away straight after, but I kissed him. So, great, right? Now we’re on the same page, surely? I mean, he kissed me back. Well, me and Mimsy go out the next day (now that she no longer feels like a corpse) and we walk past Tyler and his friend. I smile at him and wave and he walks straight past us. Mimsy - who said I was overthinking everything - was furious. I think she wanted to run across the road and rip his balls of his body in that moment, to be honest. All I could think about was how awful it felt. It was like last night never even happened. Did I assault him? I mean, did I read this whole thing wrong? He said he liked me, that’s why he was scared to talk to me, but then he fucking ignores me after I full-on kiss him!? I'm just so confused and losing my patience. I'm starting to wonder if it's worth all of this.
June 30
Mimsy tried to cheer me up by taking me to a kegger. Shock horror: Tyler was there. He came up to me about an hour in and asked if I wanted to go for a walk, so I said yes. We ended up at that lake near Molly’s house, and we were looking at the stars. I don’t really remember how or why we got there. Then, out of the blue, he apologised. I don’t think I’ve ever had a guy apologise to me before. He said he was an idiot for not kissing me the other day, and that he was just nervous and really wanted to. Then he kissed me, properly, and it was perfect. I’ve never felt that way before. I think he’s redeemed himself. I’m a little scared to tell Mimsy though…
July 19
Sorry I haven’t written in a while. I got busy. I’ve been spending a lot of time with Tyler, honestly. We’ve been getting to know each other better. He introduced me to his friends and his mom, who apparently really liked me. I’ve been subjected to so much fucking country music. He doesn’t really compliment me though and it’s a little bit upsetting, I can't lie. I like hearing that kind of thing. Like we went for dinner the other night and I made a bit of an effort and he didn’t call me pretty once. Maybe I’m overthinking it. He’s more of a physical affection guy, to be honest. But still. It would be nice to hear it every now and then. He can handle his drink really well though. In fact, he drank Mimsy under the table the other day which was quite funny. He gets all touchy feely when he’s drunk, it’s so cute. He told me that he���s never opened up to someone like he has with me before. Told me things that he’s never told anyone else. He told me about his ex-girlfriend and how she was crazy. I feel so bad for him, that he was in that kind of situation. He laughs at all my stupid jokes. He even told me that nobody else has made him laugh so much before. I don’t know, I get all mushy when he says things like that. I feel like I’m bringing him out of his shell. He said his anxiety is a lot better since he met me, so I guess whatever I’m doing, it’s helping. 
July 24
I slept with Tyler hehe. It was so perfect. He was so caring and kept asking if I was okay and stuff, and I brought up the whole compliment thing and he apologised. He’s so good at taking accountability for when he’s done wrong - it’s so refreshing. He told me I have the prettiest eyes he’s ever seen. I don’t know why that hit me so much. I just think you can tell so much about a person from their eyes. They never age. I'm scared a s fuck though because I really think I might be falling in love with him. Oh no.
August 8
I don’t really have tons to say. Mom and dad got in a big argument yesterday, so there’s that. Mimsy thinks they should just get divorced. It feels weird, thinking about your parents getting divorced. The whole two Christmases and two birthday thing. I don't know, maybe she’s right. They basically hate each other. Dad keeps bringing up North Carolina and how great everything is there. How his life was so much better. Charming, really, when I’ve spent my whole life in Vancouver with him. Really makes you feel special. Tyler’s been kind of busy lately. I keep wanting to go on dates but he just wants to stay in. He told me he doesn’t like PDA. It makes him feel weird. I want to hold his hand but I feel bad. I mean, I don’t want to make him uncomfortable. Besides, I get to touch him all I want when we’re at home together, so who really cares? 
October 14
Tyler hasn’t called me pretty in over a month. I told him and he apologised. He still hasn’t called me pretty. I miss how it was in the summer. It feels like he’s retreating into himself. I don’t know what’s happening. Why everything is changing? What did I do wrong? I didn't change, did I? 
November 19
I think I was overthinking it all lately. Tyler just invited me to join him and his family at Christmas on Victoria Island. He left me a little note, too, after he stayed at my house. It was really cute. It said, ‘I miss stargazing with you in the summer’. Mimsy says that maybe I need to clarify a few things with him. Set some more boundaries. He always talks about those girls on the hockey team he coaches, and whenever girls come up to him when he’s out with his friends. I like that he trusts me and wants to tell me these things, but also, if I trust him, why does he feel the need to tell me? It feels like he’s dangling it in my face almost. I don’t know, I’m probably thinking about it all wrong. I don’t know if I’ve got a stomach bug. My IBS has been crazy bad lately. It’s so annoying. 
December 6
I don’t think I’m happy with Tyler anymore. It’s like he’s a completely different person. I hardly even recognise him. We don’t really talk anymore like we used to. He says he’s really busy with school and coaching. I'm throwing myself into photography jobs to try and keep myself busy or else I just spiral. I don't want to tell Mimsy because I know what her advice will be. And I'm just not ready to face that yet.  
December 26
I leave for Victoria Island today. I’m meeting Tyler at the ferry station. He asked where I wanted to meet and I left it up to him at first. I mean, the obvious answer is the ferry station. That’s romantic. He can come pick me up. But he said, ‘whatever you prefer’ so I felt like I was putting him out by asking him to meet me at the ferry station. I don’t know. I just don’t even know if he wants me to go anymore. He hasn’t said. He hasn’t even said if he’s excited to see me. It’s an awful feeling, when you feel like someone doesn’t care if you’re there or not. Maybe it’ll be different when I see him in person. It’s been over a week since I last saw him and we haven’t been able to talk on the phone. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just kidding myself. I just think if I’m painfully honest with myself, I don’t want to go to Victoria anymore. 
December 27
I think it's over. 
December 29
I don’t even know what happened. I don’t know how to explain it but I feel like I need to get it all out on paper and just walk away from it forever. I think that’s the only way I can even start to make sense of the last six months. It was awful. I fucking hate him and I’m so fucking confused. Jesus, I have been for the past four months. 
Tyler didn’t hug me or kiss me when I got off the ferry, but I guess because he doesn’t like PDA that’s a given. He didn’t introduce me to any of his extended family and left me to fend for myself in conversations. When we first got to the cabin, he sat on the bed and scrolled on his phone with his back facing me for an hour. A fucking hour. Then he went on Duolingo and checked the fucking hockey scores. And I just sat there for an hour after paying for a ferry ticket. Oh, yeah, cause he didn’t pay for any of my travel. When I said I was hungry and was going to get food, he came with me and got himself something. Again, didn’t pay for me. We got his favourite take out. It’s always things he wants to do. I told him I needed a nap and went to my room, and I called Mimsy who was equally as angry. I mean, why the fuck did he call me out there? I’ve never felt so disrespected, so unwanted, in my life. It’s fucking awful. Tyler texted me to meet him and I told him I wanted to stay in. He asked if I was okay and I told him I was angry, and he came to my room. And he was so fucking calm and collected it made me feel like I was overthinking it. Like I was the one blowing everything out of proportion. I told him about how I felt like I wasn’t wanted and he told me that I was. He just said it was weird seeing me in person again. It had been a fucking week. We went out with his family and I put on a brave face, and the whole time he barely spoke to me. Didn’t look at me, didn’t hold my hand, didn’t take a picture of me or of us. I hated it. When I got back to my room, he came over and laid down on the bed. And I told him I was so confused. He just nodded. And he was back to old Tyler. Chatty, familiar Tyler who makes jokes with me and compliments me. He told me how beautiful I was and how pretty my eyes are and all I could think was how he hadn’t said any of that for two whole months. How for two months I felt like I had no idea what was happening. And it made me weak. I hate myself for it but I let him kiss me. We made out and cuddled and it felt like old times, and I finally felt normal again. And then we fell asleep, woke up, and he was back to how he was the day before. Distant and cold and confusing. I think that was when I decided that maybe it was time to leave. 
When we slept together that night, it felt like he almost knew what was going to happen. All of it felt like a goodbye. I tried to enjoy it and feel close to him but I just felt so far away. Afterwards, he didn’t hold me. He didn’t cuddle me when we slept and the next morning, he barely looked at me. He just went on his phone when all I wanted was to be held. That’s all I’ve ever wanted from him, to feel held by him, and he’s never made me feel like I was. I mean, I feel more love from Mimsy than him. How fucked is that.
He walked me to the ferry station and I was wondering what to do. What to say. Whether to confront him and see if I could start a fight. Jesus, anything would do. And for whatever fucking reason, I went for the hail Mary, I guess you could say. I stood there, like the fucking idiot I am, and I told him I loved him. And you know what he said? Nothing.
He said absolutely nothing. 
Then he just nodded - like the useless asshole he is - and told me, get ready for this one, that his ‘family thought I was really nice’. 
I don’t even remember what I did then. All I can remember is sitting on the ferry and texting Mimsy, asking her to pick me up from the ferry station. 
I just don’t understand. I don’t understand why this happened, or how, or who he was. He apologised the next day. What for, I don’t even know anymore. Maybe all of it? But all I can remember thinking, when I read that text, was how I just knew he didn’t mean it. It was fucking Pavlovian by that point: he would know I was upset and apologise, and I’d forgive him and believe that he might change, and we’d carry on. What's the Taylor Swift lyric? You're an expert at sorry? That's him in a nutshell.
You want to know the real kicker? When I told him that I wanted to break up, he told me he didn’t know we were even together like that. So, I ask you again: who the fuck was he? I don’t think I’m ever gonna know. 
January 1
Happy new year. I think Tyler’s blocked me. 
February 9
Mimsy just heard from Darren P that Tyler has a new girlfriend. I think I’m going to throw up. I can’t do this anymore. I just want to forget about all of it but I keep thinking of all the little things that I ignored. All the signs from the start. How it took him to be drunk to even acknowledge that I existed. How it was always on his terms. What he wanted to do. What he needed from me. I wish I never slept with him. I wish he never touched my body. It makes me feel sick that I let him sleep with me that last night. I just feel so fucking used and dirty. Mimsy says it wasn’t my fault but I can’t shake this guilt for not leaving sooner, because the signs were always there. I mean, I thought he hated me. Why the fuck didn’t I walk away sooner?
I thought he hated me. 
That’s the final entry. 
You sit and stare at the barely filled page and then snap the book closed as if you just read how the world is going to end.
The condensing of the turbulent six months you spent with Tyler in a handful of diary entries fails to capture the mass of anxiety, paranoia and pain. The restless nights that you remedied by sprinting at the gym. The meals you skipped because you felt sick to your stomach. The parties ruined when you ended them in alcohol-provoked tears, sobbing to Mimsy about how things felt ‘off’ with you and Tyler. The humiliation you felt throughout the holidays and the disgust that lingered after your final night together. The shame that haunted you for letting yourself do all of that, feel all of that, lose all of that, to some fucking deadbeat guy. 
Because that was what it all came down to. It came down to the fact that you let yourself sit there and take it. That because you felt pity for him, and saw potential, you stayed and fought and tried. God, you tried so hard to mould him into the man you thought he could be without looking at his credentials. And now, on the other side of the continent, several months past the whole affair, you finally realise what it was. 
You fell in love with the idea of Tyler, not Tyler himself. 
It's like the revelation hits you in the head like a hammer. Resets your thoughts. Grabbing the box of things, you head down the stairs. It feels as though you’re not in control of your body. Unlocking the back door, you head into the yard. Ditch the box so you can set up the bonfire, igniting it with the lighter JJ gave you. 
You’re breathing heavily as you stare at the flames. It’s like you’ve been boxing in a ring. You guess, in a way, you have. But you’re tired of battling with the past. Fighting against the memories only to get knocked down, again and again. Wounding you so badly that you can’t face the fact that maybe someone might actually care about you, just as much as you care about them. That maybe you can trust someone. 
When you burn the first photo, you feel a little insane. You never much believed in any of the mindfulness crap Instagram wellness influencers preached. The writing-regrets-on-a-plate-and-smashing-it-up type things. But as you stand, burning the memories of Tyler - anything that reminds you of him, anything that he gave you, anything that he took - you feel like you’re coming back to yourself, piece by piece. Watching the embers lick up his face, crackling until its nothing but ashes and indistinguishable remnants feels like healing, plain and simple.  
The only thing that’s left now is the diary. You hold it in your hands like it’s a first-edition copy of the first book ever written. It feels like the manuscript, encapsulating the entire torrid affair of you and Tyler. The final artefact of your silently toxic relationship, keeping you tethered to your past trauma. Swallowing, you toss it into the metal canister. When you open them again, you see the flames already laying claim to the pages. 
And finally, for the first time, the story feels as though it isn’t yours anymore.
For the first time in months, you feel free.
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axailslink ¡ 2 years ago
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The heart of a man
Rosalie Otterbourne x poc FEM reader
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Summary: You have a diary in which you express how you want to be with a woman it finds its way into Rosalie's hand and she finds herself fascinated because she relates to too many of your words.
Snippet from the fic: “ You turn on your heel to approach the door but Rosalie grabs your arm firmly "with your permission I'd like to read the rest." ”
Everyone in the church scatters like roaches as church service finds itself coming to an end. Rosalie is of course one of the last as she speaks with the preacher asking about his family and well-being. When she turns to dismiss herself from the conversation she bumps into you and you're smitten. You know of Rosalie because everyone knows of Rosalie.
Rosalie is the embodiment of the word "independent" she was well raised by her aunt Salome Otterbourne and is also a bit like her in many ways but they differ when it comes to beauty. Rosalie's beauty is unlike any other her sharp facial features draw you in first then her alluring eyes will hold you in a demanding stare and soon your eyes will find their way to her lightly glossed and very kissable lips. You're brought back to reality when Rosalie speaks in that very distinct voice of hers "my apologies Y/n I hadn't noticed your presence" you shake your head "no you're perfectly fine Rosalie I was just leaving." The pastor sighs "you were trying to leave without my knowledge so I couldn't ask you to sing for the choir next Sunday? I've heard that voice you've got on you girl. Why don't you use it? Come sing for us." You place your leather journal down as you engage in conversation with the very persistent pastor.
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After convincing your pastor you'd make the church burn in flames if you sang, you leave in a hurry to get away before the first lady could try to convince you otherwise.
Rosalie finds herself staying behind to help clean. When she's finally finished your little journal peeking beneath a couple sheets of music papers catches her interest. She knows you wouldn't have left it purposefully so she grabs it before leaving she of course had thoughts on returning said journal but the urge to reveal its contents definitely overpowers the urge to return it.
Rosalie spends many nights reading the pages of your journal finding out who you really are and what you actually want from a relationship. She hadn't expected for these pages to be so intimate. None of these words had she ever expected to come from you.
Shy reserved Y/n you're truly the romantic type.
Rosalie feels like she truly knows you the more she reads she even has favorite quotes from your seemingly continuous daily entries but today she finds one specific entry very interesting it has no title which is odd because all the others do. Unlike the others this seems to be ramblings of your own thoughts and Rosalie's invested. So much that she's cuddled into her couch with a box of cracker jacks with her radio turned off so she can lose herself in your writing.
I truly believe I have no heart because when he smiles at me I feel nothing but HER presence makes me feel everything my heart speeds up and I get nervous. I want her in a way that I can't have her. I want Rosalie Otterbourne. I want to kiss her. I want to touch her. I want to love her the way this man thinks he loves me.
Rosalie shoots up from her spot so fast with no emotion but shock filling her mind. This is the first time a name has been mentioned throughout this leather book and it's her name.
In the earlier pages Rosalie's fingers ran over many words no one should say in the innocence of daylight for example what you'd want to do to a woman how you'd like to please a woman. It's all shocking to her that she's the woman you had in mind as you wrote such sinful things. You Y/n L/n want to please a woman and not just any woman but Miss Rosalie Otterbourne.
Rosalie is left speechless but her moment of shock is cut short when a loud and hard knock on her door breaks the silence of the room. Not used to visitors Rosalie tramples over the many books decorating her floor so well you wouldn't know there was carpet underneath. She makes her way to the closest gown which she pulls over her previously nude body before quickly approaching the door.
Rosalie was so enamored in your journal she hadn't noticed it was pouring down rain so when she opens the door she immediately welcomes you into her home. "Y/n why the visit?" Rosalie centers herself in front of you to avoid your sight of the journal which she isn't aware you had already caught sight of when you first entered. Your eyes take in the beautiful sight in front of you as you rid yourself of your coat "I was informed that you may have something that belongs to me Miss Otterbourne."
Rosalie ponders if she should lie but she chooses not to. Well…not fully anyways. Is making something up on the spot a lie? "Ah you mean the leather book, yes? I meant to return it I've just been occupied…" you don't believe her for a second it may not have taken her long to make herself presentable but the open state of your journal and her nervous expression makes it all clear.
She's read it. She's read every filthy thought that you've had about her. She's read how you want to put your tongue in places it shouldn't be and how you wish you could please her the way no man ever could.
"Was it a good read?" Rosalie's attention turns to the journal just for a moment before it lands back on you "oh yes it was a lovely read I'm deeply sorry that I didn't ask first…I found myself captiv-"
"Lovely you say and what about it was lovely Miss Otterbourne? My diction? Maybe my tone or perhaps it was the mention of your name?" You pick the journal up and look over the page smiling at your cursive and how beautiful her name looks written in black ink.
"I won't tell anyone I never meant to see it. I was curious is all your writing is amazing I couldn't put it down once I had read the first page. I find myself needing to read more" you nod "if you promise that you won't speak a word of this I'll be taking my leave." You turn on your heel to approach the door but Rosalie grabs your arm firmly. She doesn't feel it but your heart quickens from her warm touch "with your permission I'd like to read the rest."
A/n: Part 2 is already in the works and will be a bit longer this is a filler chapter. Also before anyone can say it yes I've not made a fic in a while I know it's just that school is bussing my ass but thankfully my wifi went out so I had some time today.
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silversterner ¡ 4 months ago
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Abrecan, The Daylight Heretic.
“Who am I if not my magic or the research I've made?”
“I am recorded in the pages of my journals, in the unpublished books. I am the calculations I've made, and this is the only conclusion I have.”
Act 1 Aber hits hard guys...
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teejaystumbles ¡ 5 months ago
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Dealers choice on what WIP you choose, but for the ask game :D
Does this chapter/fic have any twists that you’re proud of?
What is your favorite scene you’ve written so far?
Heey, thanks for asking! <3 I am only really writing "Against all odds" at the moment, the 1989 AU, and I really want to write more again so I'm going to be answering for that one!
6. Does this chapter/fic have any twists that you’re proud of?
Yes! I'm actually very proud of finding out what the area of the Burdett-Coutts fountain looks like and deciding I'd make Dream recoil from it because it reminds him of a summoning circle. >:) It was quite the twist I myself had not anticipated or planned for but it gave me the opportunity to make their meeting there more dramatic.
10. What is your favorite scene you’ve written so far?
I've enjoyed writing the scenes were they meet in dreams most, but I'm also looking forward to writing this meeting in the park that is up next. It's going to be fun (for me) and full of anxious pining! Here's a tiny bit that's up next:
The closer Hob gets to the dark, familiar figure under the old beech, the more he feels his heart racing. His stranger - his friend - is here, in daylight, not in the darkness of Hob’s bedroom or the strange quiet of the journal’s pages. He is not merely a spectre, a possible figment of Hob’s imagination. Hob can see other people throw looks in his friend’s direction as they pass by. He really is here!
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rust-painted-fingers ¡ 16 days ago
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Day 4 ... Revival
"—swear to god if i have to bust another cemetery I'm giving up on humans, why do we even have so many nerves?"
A blink and the world came to focus.
Pacing back and forth wildly, the owner of the voice continued his tirade. It was… weird. Blond hair, pale skin, even his nose is small and narrow.
"Rex, you're my only companion left, so I'll let you do the honors of pecking my body away. I can't have my body getting reani— holy shit!"
The man startled as they locked eyes, and a blur of feathers fell. A crow, Rex? was sitting on the man's shoulders. Curiously, the feathers didn't have the usual gleam birds often do. There was even a bald spot peeking out behind the bird's back.
A cough. "Uh, hey mate, can you hear me?" The voice broke his eye contest with the bird. A nervous smile rested on the man.
"Do you think you can like, shake your head? Or even blink, I don't know if I got the lids right."
It was odd, and looking down didn't help matters. It seemed as though different grafts of skin were sewed together.
Eh, beggars can't be choosers.
Techno spoke, interrupting the man babbling about ocular nerves, "Hello, how long will this body last?"
The man blinked, before scrunching his face in laughter. "Wait what the fuck?"
"I mean, you obviously don't have much skill in creation— "
"Hey!"
"— so apologies if I don't trust your work to last me more than a week," Techno finished, idly inspecting his fingers.
The blond huffed, "Ok, so you're pretty familiar with life, which technicallly means I failed but providing a working body is a start. Now I just have to figure out…" Out of nowhere a journal appeared, and the man started scribbling and mumbling at it.
Well that's useful.
Techno quickly tested his mobility. A quick hop deduced this body would be limited to walking only. Five steps later and Techno yoinked the journal away from the scientist.
Ignoring his exclamation, Techno repeated, "How long will this body last?"
"I don't know, maybe a week or two. I tried gathering all the materials in the same time frame but I had to store some for longer," the scientist huffed, refusing to attempt to reach the journal over his head. "Why are you conscious anyways? I would of thought you'd gain the same sentience as a newborn, if at all."
"Hmm, that sounds like a reasonable hypothesis," Techno said, now flipping through the pages, "Unfortunately for you, I am not the result of creation, but possession."
Glancing over the journal, Techno saw blue eyes widen before the journal was snatched from him. That's fine, he already saw what he needed.
"The fuck? So you're telling me your spirit was just wandering and happened to find us at the perfect time?" Even with the journal back in the original's arms, he didn't look away from his pieced together body.
"Yep."
"What the fuck. Brexit, are you actually the fucking queen?" At this he directed the statement to the crow, who supposedly was reanimated in a similar manner.
"You named your pet bird Brexit?"
"I usually call him Rex," he said distractedly, inspecting the bird closely as if he could sense souls, which he couldn't. Not if he couldn't sense Techno.
Techno looked away, more interested in his surroundings. It was pretty inviting, all things considered. It looked like someone's revamped shed, a few garden tools and pots stored in a corner. Opposite that sat a shelf holding several solutions of varying colors, some vials full of eye balls or fingers. Normal shed stuff.
Two weeks of walking, not even in daylight with this amount of stitching, and after it would be back to wondering in nothing.
"Hey how easily can you get me a body."
The scientist looked up from Brexit, "You want another?"
"You said it wouldn't last."
"Yeah, and so would any future ones I make. Flesh is gonna decompose mate."
Techno snorted. "You're telling me you're ok with murder but some kidnapping is too much?"
"Excuse you, I got these bodies by unethically grave robbing," the other quipped. "Can't you just possess someone else? You can walk now."
"Two things: who in their right mind would talk to me looking like this?" Techno put up another finger, "Two, what's your name? I can't be a partner in crime with a nobody."
"I think it's rather beneficial to partner with a nobody, but you can call me Phil. You?"
He would have grinned if he wasn't worried about his teeth falling out, "Techno."
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becausebuckley ¡ 3 months ago
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fic update: won’t be alone for the rest of my life chapter 4!
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4/10: this is me trying
post-season 7 | eddie-centric | eventual buddie | 14.1k and counting
As part of his ongoing process to sort his shit out so he can be better — Eddie’s words — and start living instead of being in survival mode all the time — Bobby’s words, then Frank’s when Eddie shared their conversation with him —, Eddie has therapy homework.
Frank gives him pamphlets to read sometimes, brightly coloured leaflets on grief and parenting and self-care. Eddie reads them dutifully. He finds comfort in some of them, tosses others out with an eye roll. According to Frank, both are valid responses.
He keeps a journal now, too. Eddie’s finding it a little too confronting to go the typical diary approach, to write all about his day and dissect his deepest darkest feelings, but he uses it to jot down random thoughts and lists. It’s probably not what Frank intended, but the notebook is at least getting some use.
(There’s a page in the back he only uses in the middle of the night. He wakes up after a nightmare, feeling lonely and lost, and scribbles desperate thoughts down. He wakes up in the morning, sees tear-stained, barely legible ink, and snaps the notebook shut again. He almost tears the page out entirely, but that feels destructive.
By daylight, he sticks to grocery lists and random observations. At night, he flips to the back. He hasn’t been able to tell Frank about it yet. He doesn’t want to talk about it, even if he knows he should.)
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