#cynpsa

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i don’t like getting political, i don’t like politics at all, but to my american followers and mutuals who are of age and able:

Vote if you haven’t yet!!

Especially if you’re like me and live in a swing state, your vote counts!!!

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:D 💖

Just so can keep track for myself I made this

MY FAMILY

@mysticalblue09 is my wife

@dragonpro809 and @thatoneskully are our children.

And no one will touch my family. Only warning. :3

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with the update to the situation: i’m not gonna say much on it now, i wanna collect my thoughts more cause i think i need time to process. in the meantime, i’m gonna be posting a bunch of art for my aus that haven’t ever seen the light of day and hopefully answer some asks (none of which will be involving the person involved for the time being)

ik this all is gonna be hard for people to process, and i really do care about this little community, so if anything i make can help someone feel a bit better in the current state of things, then i want to do what i can.

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ok this isn’t really a post about the situation but it is a minor update to how i’ll be handling a few of my aus:

the whole rant is under the cut but tldr: the aus i talk about here are Store Shifter, Dad’s Troubles, Flubber, and Epic. Store Shifter and Dad’s Troubles are getting left alone, Flubber is getting a minor recast, and Epic is getting more majorly reworked (mostly character wise, kinda plot wise). As of right now, Wil/crimeboy centric fics are on pause. Not cancelled, but i’ll see later down the road if they need changed or if i can learn to separate the character from the creator. I will be updating the Epic au soon with said reworkings cause i really really really wanna finish that story. I have yet to start and actually finish a chaptered fic and I want this to be my first.

most recently i’ve been posting a few updates on mainly the Store Shifter and Flubber au, while i’ve been kinda working on the Dad’s Troubles and Epic AU in the background.

For the most part, these aus will remain unchanged because you know who either isn’t in them or isn’t a main character. For the Store Shifter, i’m not changing it for now because he isn’t and was never planned to be an important character. I’m just gonna ignore him in that au. Dad’s Troubles he just straight up isn’t in, so that one is unchanged.

Flubber au is a little different: i’m just recasting. He doesn’t have a huge part, but it is a lore important one, so from now on in that story the main antagonist will be Dream (1: he’s easy to stick in the “Tommy’s antagonistic boss” role and 2: i need at least one au where Dream is an antagonist lol). So yeah i’ll make a more official post for that au later.

The main reason for this post tho is the Epic AU, which is one of my personal favorites and i have so much that I want to talk about it for and even a whole bunch of new characters and concepts and world building that I want to post about. However, this au faces a problem for me at this moment: it’s crimeboy centric.

As of right now, I do not feel comfortable updating any of my Wil/crimeboy centric aus/fics. This is not to say I’m discontinuing them, i’m personally very attached to my own fics and a lot of them were written to either help me feel better or to help other people feel better, so I don’t feel right just throwing them away. Also, i will never be deleting my fics or shutting down this account, so I don’t want people to worry there, either. However, I don’t know how comfortable I am with writing for c!Wil rn, especially since this situation is still so fresh and plenty of people haven’t shared their experiences/responses (not to say that I expect anyone to; i don’t expect everything to be handled publicly over twitter). I think in time i’ll be able to separate the character from the actor; unfortunately i’ve been through this before. i’ve seperated characters who were far more like their creator from said creator who had done far worse things (if anyone on this blog has watched TribeTwelve, you know exactly what I’m talking about).

However, even if I eventually decide that I can write c!Wil while separating him from his creator, i don’t know if i’ll ever feel fully comfortable incorporating him in stories with a bigger cast of characters given the cc responses to his actions. Any stories where I have him interacting with people like Ranboo, Tubbo, or especially Niki will likely need to be changed because i don’t feel comfortable portraying them like friends anymore.

I’ve kind of done this before, honestly, i just never posted about it last time: when beeduo first stopped talking publicly, i stopped writing for beeduo. To this day, i have a fuck ton of beeduo requests in my inbox that i never got to and may not ever write because i didn’t feel comfortable writing their characters being close when in real life they may have had a falling out or now hated each other (so, so sorry to the people that sent those btw). Over time, most people started to realize that it was because of the crazy amount of shipping. It was bad during the dsmp and only got worse when Ranboo came out and all the speculation over Tubbo’s sexuality hit its peak when he’d made it very clear that crossed his boundaries. After realizing their silence was likely just them trying to shut up a more toxic part of both of their fanbases, i became a bit more comfortable writing them as friends again. I still haven’t made any beeduo centric fics or stories since then cause i don’t know the full story of what happened between them, this is all just speculation, but i at least have them be friends as supporting characters in aus i’ve already made.

All this to say that the way i handle the rest of my aus really depends on how things play out more with the situation. Again, it’s still new and i’m still gathering my thoughts. I can think about it more clearly now that i’ve gotten over the shock, which is why i’m posting this, but not every decision will be finalized immediately.

However, back to the Epic AU, it will be getting a rework in a lot of ways. I’m changing up the cast, and i’ve decided to cut Wil entirely because 1: i’m impatient and this is an au that i really wanna start up again and keep working on right now and 2: in the au i have him being friends with Ranboo and Dream and Tubbo and again that’s just not something i feel super comfortable with rn. So, i’m recasting and minorly changing the plot so i can update that one soon cause honestly i just miss it. I’ve still got so many asks and art requests (Becky sent me an art request like almost a year ago now and istg i’m gonna fucking draw it if it kills me) and there was a whole nother species i teased a bunch and then just…never told you about.

So yeah expect an update on the Epic AU soon and thank you for reading this entire fucking essay. As a little bonus for taking your time to read this, i’ll give you a hint for the next au im working on: karlnapity and vampires >:)

Eat, drink water, and get a good nights rest, take care of yourself <3

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About the situation

ok so i hate addressing drama on here but this feels important.

If this is how you’re learning about the Shubble situation, i apologize

more under the cut

first things first: i 100% stand with and believe Shubble. My heart is with her fully and I’m so glad she’s healing from what she went through with her abuser.

the reason im posting this, though, is because of the discourse surrounding Wilbur Soot and the possibility/evidence that he was the unnamed abuser Shubble was talking about. And as many of you know, i post a lot of crimeboy/sbi/wilbur-centric stuff. For now, because from what i can tell the situation is less than a week old, i’m going to give Wilbur time to respond. I won’t say that it’s him, i won’t say that it’s not him, but i’m prepared for the worst.

As for this blog, i’m probably going to handle this the same way i handled the Dream situation; i’m going to take a break from Wilbur centric aus for the moment until things become clearer, but the odds that i’ll stop writing for his character all together are slim. I don’t write with ccs in mind, ever, period. At this point i’m treating the dsmp cast like OCs with how far removed from their og characters they tend to be in my stories. In all honestly, i stopped watching half of these creators over a year ago, but i still like the idea of their dsmp characters. Hell, to be completely truthful i don’t think i’ve ever watched a Dream or Sapnap youtube video in full and those two are main characters in like half of my aus.

Also clarification just so this doesn’t get misconstrued: when i say “i’m going to handle this like the Dream situation,” i mean i’m gonna keep writing and not take down my previous stories, i’m just going to distance myself from the creator until more comes to light. I don’t want to compare Shubble’s experiences with abuse to fakes snapchat screenshots posted on twitter. Again, I stand with and believe Shubble’s story 100%, abuse is not something to be taken lightly and I wish her nothing but the best. It takes guts to speak out like she has and I commend her bravery.

This situation is a bit harder for me than the Dream one, though, because as I mentioned, i was never a huge cc!Dream fan, more a c!Dream fan. But I’ll be devastated if this is all true because I was a huge Wilbur Soot fan. Never really liked LoveJoy, just wasn’t my type of music, but SootHouse was quite literally the first YouTube channel i ever watched. Not to be parasocial, but Wilbur’s videos got me through some tough times. His YLYL videos were the only things that brought me joy when Techno’s death announcement was released on my birthday. I really looked up to him.

I don’t want to make this about me, the main thing in this situation is to support Shubble. No matter who the ex is, she deserves all of our unwavering support right now. I hope that if it wasn’t Wilbur that he somehow clears his name soon, but that if it was (im hoping it’s not but im not ignorant enough to blindly disregard all the evidence) that he regrets what he did and is getting help. I believe people can change and that everyone deserves a second chance, but im not going to know what to think of him until he gives a genuine, heartfelt apology for his actions, fully commits to bettering himself, and proves that he’ll never do something like this again.

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I have major writers block rn- any motivation to spare?

idk if you were just asking for tips or specific prompts but i’ll give you the tips i use:

-i listen to theater music. idk why this helps me, it just does lol

-write little tidbits that you have an image for. like if there’s a scene i know i want to have in a fic, i’ll write that first and figure out how to get there later.

-write short! just a paragraph or two, don’t put pressure on yourself to make a huge story immediately! sometimes it’ll grow bigger, sometimes it won’t lol

-write bullet points, it’s so much easier than actual dialogue or storytelling

-read other people’s stuff! reread your favorite stories! take inspo from people than inspire you!

that’s all the stuff i do, at least. I just kinda force myself to sit and write for like an hour when i really don’t want to. Sometimes i’ll write for 10 mins, sit and listen to music for 20, and then repeat that cycle for as long as i need to until it’s 1 am and i can write a bunch (i write almost exclusively at night, idk why).

anyway i hope this helps!! 🫶

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hi everyone! little bit of an update!!

to those of you waiting for the next part in the store shifter au: it’s almost done, i swear.

the rest of this is a lengthy explanation cause y’all know me, i can’t write something short. tldr will be bolded at the bottom if you don’t wanna read all this.

i wanna explain something real quick: in my early years of middle school, i was into creepypasta, which pipelined into Marble Hornets, which pipelined into a ton of other slenderverse series. If you don’t know what that is, it’s an ARG with an emphasis on characters being stalked or hunted by Slenderman. All of them are really really good in their own way and do interesting things with not only Slendy, but adding their own new big bad’s and lore and i’d highly recommend watching one if you haven’t yet. (i may make a separate post about which you should watch based on what kind of content you most enjoy cause i really want to indoctrinate more people into this)

My favorite slenderverse at the time had a very big emphasis on early November, specifically November 11th. So i started to have a little tradition of watching those videos every November 11th even after the hyperfixation had faded just for a bit of nostalgia.

Fast forward to now- it has snowballed to the point where every year for over half a decade now, November 11th rolls around and I am thrown violently headfirst back into my slenderverse phase. I cannot control it. I’ll be like “ok this year i’ll be normal about it, after this long, surely watching one video won’t spiral me again” and it always fucking does. No other hyperfixation i’ve ever had has functioned on a calendar cycle so idk wtf this is. This is the 6th year of this. I cannot escape.

So yeah, per how it’s been since middle school, November-January my main hyperfixation will be slenderverse. It could be shorter, it could be longer, but that’s the general pattern i’ve noticed over the years. After that i’ll pretty much be back to normal.

Don’t get me wrong, i’m not taking a 3 month hiatus or anything. I promise i will do my best to get the store shifter au part out before fucking 2024. But if you’ve sent me an ask recently and i’ve ignored it, i’m genuinely so sorry, but i can’t force myself to work on new stuff right now when mcyt g/t isn’t my main interest. I’ll do my best to get to it eventually when the hyperfixation comes back a bit more, i do read and process and think about every single ask i receive and it always makes my day when i get a new ask, but yeah. For the next few months i’m probably only gonna be working on and posting stuff that’s been in the works, are from asks that we’re given to me like a year ago and already have wips in progress to answer them, or art that i just haven’t given you yet.

on the other hand, if you’re reading this and you like creepypasta or slenderverse stuff, i’ve created what i think is literally my 5th fucking blog! @cynningly <-i’ve been spamming this for like 4 days cause i refuse to be normal about slenderverse stuff, but follow there if you want horror stuff and so far just a bunch of really shitty edits of internet arg sexyman villains. Also yes all of my blogs have to have “cyn” in the name somewhere, that’s how you can tell it’s me lmao

tldr:

my hyperfixations switched up again, im really into slenderverse (slenderman-centric args) at the moment and likely will be till January. This is a cycle that’s been going on for years now. made an alt for it -> @cynningly

I will still be working to post mcyt g/t stuff, but only stuff that’s a wip or has been in the works for a while. to anyone who has sent an ask recently: sorry, but i can’t take on making new stuff when my focus isn’t purely on mcyt rn. I will do my best to get to it eventually and if you’re one of the people who’s sent a story request or ask recently i truly, truly appreciate it. y’all make my day. but, yeah, that’s what’s going on with me lol

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i’ve snapped and made a south park alt account cause i don’t think i can balance both hyperfixations on this one account and also i know a lot of people don’t like South Park so if you wanna see all that, go over to @cyndrastic !it’s not gonna be a fully g/t account but will have a lot of g/t content for the au i was making!

neither this account or that one will be getting frequent updates for a while since i’m still busy as shit (end of high school, woo!), so as i said before, i might be on hiatus for a bit longer! Don’t worry tho! I have new stuff for the store shifter, dad’s troubles, runaway crimeboys, and Epic aus in the works and I’ll post some backlogged art in the meantime if i remember to!

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Is it alr to ask for fics/give prompts?

(Also I almost mistaked you for Kayla XD)

Absolutely! Always!! I’m always open to know what people want! I’m very indecisive and i suck at doing things without someone telling me to if i’m being honest, so it helps a lot when people give me ideas or send me fic requests!!

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hi cyn! was wondering if you have any organized posts with links to your stories? or any au-specific tags? it's alg if you don't i was just hoping to get more invested in your aus.,,,,,,,

— brick

Yeah!!

I still have to make a masterpost (istg i’ll actually do it at some point), but for now my pinned post has it!

the hashtags on my pinned post have all of my aus in order of when i made them! All of my aus have a specific tag for stories, art, and asks about them. If you need clarification for one specific tag for one au, i’d be happy to clarify, but they should all be on the pinned post! But if you want something more specific, i have the #cynwrites tag.

the #cynwrites tag has all of my fully written stories for all of my aus, but that’s the easiest tag to look through if you’re looking for a specific story of mine.

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Hi :D I saw you sent some stuff to @gtraccoon and I really like your work!! Do you plan on posting any south park g/t content any time soon? /nf /pos

hi! tysm, im glad you like it!!

short answer is idk for rn on this account cause this is a new hyperfixation for me

i mainly post dsmp and most of my mutuals and accounts i interact with are almost strictly dsmp, so i’m still very into that. that hyperfixation has been running for like 2 years and generally with me if it lasts this long it’s here to stay for a while. like fnaf has been holding its spot in my brain since 2014 somehow and i don’t see that stopping anytime soon. plus i have so many fuckin dsmp aus that i’m still actively working on.

my fear is that i may lose some interest in south park after i start posting content. like, i posted maybe 4 things about stranger things g/t when season four aired cause i was super super into stranger things. those are my top liked posts of the whole year, but then my motivation dropped cause stranger things wasn’t trending anymore and i didn’t see enough of it to keep my hyperfixation going for more than like 2 weeks. and i still feel kinda bad cause as much as i still like the show a normal amount, i have like 20 asks in my ask box about that au that i just don’t have the motivation or interest to answer.

i’m worried that south park trending on tik tok rn if affecting my hyperfixation cause it’s being shoved in my face so much. but then again, i’m gonna go out on a limb here and say i’m way more into south park than i was ever into stranger things. it’s been a long time since i’ve liked characters as much as i’ve liked some of the south park kids, and that’s really what makes me stick with a show.

TLDR:

possibly leaning towards probably. i’m just gonna give it a minute to make sure this is a hyperfixation that will last so i don’t make like 3 posts and then drop it entirely like what happened last time i tried to post for a different fandom.

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Ok announcement!!

To start off, i’ll be posting another story tomorrow, so yay!

(be warned that this is gone get kinda long, and you don’t need to read all of it, but if you could read the paragraphs that are bigger so you know what’s going on, that would really really mean a lot to me!!)

secondly, i hate to be the one to bring this up again, but this community is…not doing great. I really do love doing this, and my interest in this type of content has not waned one bit, but it can be a bit disheartening to work really hard on something and have no one see it. and i really don’t know what’s up because most of my posts with effort get like 20-40 likes which is awesome!! i’m not disheartened at all by those numbers, especially in a smaller community!

I am, tho, confused when i’ll post something and get like 120 likes and reblogs on it or something. I get that everyone likes things a different amount, but i kinda feel like i don’t know what people want? If what i’m writing is helping people stay in the community or if they just don’t care? Cause if i’m posting content no one wants to see, i should probably take into account what you all do want to see.

Of course i write things for me, but i want to grow this community! I want more people here, i want people to look forward to reading something because it interests them!

So, all that being said, i’m just gonna do a poll lmao. Vote on whichever of my aus you want to see more of! Some are new, some are old favorites that you guys really used to love that you haven’t seen in a while, and some will contain major lore for the aus if you pick the right ones :)

I’ll be posting a new story tomorrow, like i said, and (unless i get very few submissions), i’ll be posting the results of the quiz the following day. I’m doing it this was to 1. limit the options to aus i have ideas for and want to write for and 2. cause this generally works better than asking someone to comment, send an ask, or respond, cause it’s less of a hassle. Also i did this once and got a lot of responses so hsksksksh i’m doing it again

I hope by doing this you can all see the content you want to see more of here. It’s a mix of some of fluffy aus, angsty ones, plot driven ones, one i literally havent spoken about at all, but it’s up to you guys! Have fun, and don’t worry if yours doesn’t end up winning, cause i promise i’ll get to it eventually! <3

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSe9j8SSk1S5k2idRCDZ7BliDQyNzB2vBreA0x_Qxup7HdlAZA/viewform?usp=sf_link

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ok so my life is FINALLY starting to get less busy so i’ll give you a quick rundown of what exactly has happened in the past few months in order so you can understand why content has been 📉 latelty:

Lead in musical, musical performances, miscellaneous performance, next musical auditions after that show closed, next musical callbacks, got a somewhat secondary lead, concert after school rehearsals start, first concert, second concert, another performance, National Honor Society, third concert, fourth concert, grad project stuff is due

then sprinkle physical therapy, college portfolio work, and general highschool bs in there and we’ve got my life 👍 but that’s just concert season, it’s like this every year lmao

I just finished my last actual concert a few hours ago and i’m not even done with performances yet, i have four next week 😀

anyway thanks for your patience with me! content will be more frequent again soon!

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how many ocs do you have?

uh a lot but i don’t do oc content on here, i only write dsmp fanfics and self inserts/oc inserts in fandom media (especially in fics) make me uncomfortable

nothing wrong with them, everyone is entitled to like their own things, fandom ocs just aren’t my cup of tea 💖

anyway i want to go into character design as a career so I make a lot of random characters, which i could post here if anyone was interested, but again, the people that follow me follow for mcyt g/t content so my characters kinda just exist in my head lmao

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is the store shifter au based on the characters and stuff or on like, the real human people with free will and shit

The characters! Everything i write is with some character in mind, usually the dsmp characters (though I sometimes look at other smps or even other fanfics for an idea of how to write the character), though I tend to mold them to fit my story better and usually present them with my own fanon ideas/headcanons rather than exactly how they are in canon. But, no, I don’t like to think of the real people when I write.

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BEATDOWN WEEK IS OVER WOOO

Sorry for the hiatus! As some of you know, i’m in marching band, and this is parade season, which is the most grueling thing about being in a marching band. Those of you in a marching band know what i’m talking about, but to those of you that don’t? It basically means normal practices, plus parade practices, plus waking up at ungodly hours on weekends to drive an hour away to do a parade.

Anyway my school, has what we call “beatdown week,” which is all of the aforementioned things and more, which is awful.

That plus my back injury wasn’t a good mix. I’m in colorguard, but i’m not allowed to spin with my injury (which i’ve had for 3 weeks fml) which means i’ve just been doing what i can to help the squad without doing my routines.

Anyway, that’s over with, and i don’t have another parade for a few weeks, which means more content soon!! I have a few things in the works, a bit of fanart i want to pump out, and some aus y’all haven’t seen in a while that i want to add more to!! So keep an eye out! :)