#cy talks about musicals

[cyanid-apple]

*in which the two lovers are bonded into something greater than themselves

**that all living things in the universe are part of a single consciousness

[cyanid-apple]

It’s probably too late to overturn these results, but, I’m very passionate about Telephone Wire, so here

Telephone Wire, to me, is very relatable as a song about struggling to connect with a parent. Alison wants to have a meaningful conversation, a meaningful connection with Bruce, but it falls short. She latches onto the first thing he says that she can relate to, kind of going "hey I relate to this experience you had, I had this experience too. I am the same as you, don’t you remember? Don’t you see how we are the same? Don’t you see me ?" But Bruce doesn’t notice.

This is even more tragic when taking into account that this is adult!Alison replaying the scene in her head. She knows that this isn’t merely the last chance to connect with her dad before she goes back to college, but really the last chance before Bruce’s death. She needs it to have gone differently. "This can’t be our last …", she needs a connection, she needs something, but it is their last talk, she can’t change the past.

The shift from "Say something, talk to him" said to herself (an encouragement, she needs to do something) to "Say something, talk to me" to Bruce (she’s despairing, she needs him to see her, to acknowledge her) hits me really hard also

Also just, this paragraph

Musical Theatre Song Contest: Round Two B

Submitter’s propaganda under the cut

Balaga

hey balaga ho balaga hey hey ho balaga hey hey balaga the famous troika driver hey balaga ho balaga hey hey hey balaga hey hey balaga the famous troika driver WHO'S THAT MADMAN FLYING AT FULL GALLOP DOWWN THE STREEEEEEEEET

It's a really fun song from an underrated musical

Telephone Wire

This song always make me cry so bad

It’s the desperation, the need for something to have happened, the need for closure, the desperation to have been seen truly. "there’s a moment I’m forgetting where you tell me you see me" but there’s not, Bruce barely listens, it’s the most normal car ride ever, this is the last time they ever talk

[halcyoncyrus]

Naked in Manhattan is one of those earphones in volume full blast time for a spiritual awakening kind of songs

[thotsfortherapy]

y'all my friend was telling me about how her friend with a 4.2 GPA and 5 labs got rejected for what I want to go into... I was having a crisis about grad school but it looks like that choice might get made for me

[keferon]

Sorry in advance for the word vomit but. I love the whole Jazz-and-Prowl figuring out the language barrier but also consider:

They don't.

Prowl's been captured by Quintessons and is currently thinking of ways to completely scrape his processor so they can't get any useful data, only to get rescued by a random mech. They fight their way out (the mech is extremely proficient in combat). At first he thinks it's a drone- it looks at him when he asks questions but doesn't answer (responds to noise, not language), it is sparkless (not alive) and it makes random but entirely incoherent noises and doesn't even ping (not able to communicate). Prowl has no idea what's going on but he's too injured to make it back to base alone and it's helping him? So. He chalks it up to some waylaid stealth military asset and tries to think of ways to both get it back to base whilst also making sure it's not some sort of Quintesson Trojan-horse [10%].

Meanwhile, Jazz was sent to blow up a Quintesson command camp by his organisation but instead he got thrown through a weird portal, and found a pilot all tied down and probably being tortured so naturally he busted him out but uh. He has no idea what the other is saying. He's talking in total tonal gibberish. Not that he's judging, he's heard some stuff about how far other piloting programs are willing to go to advance neural technology. And his face! He has one! A handsome one. Must be some advanced shit because he's got micro expressions and he's using them to frown as him. Anyways, Jazz's got bigger fish to fry. The sky's a different colour, there are two suns and atmo is reading terribly low levels of O2. Maybe he and this pilot got thrown into an alien planet? Cool- well, actually pretty bad but hey they're in this together.

Prowl knows by models that they're bound to run into another Quintesson patrol eventually, and based on the drones alertness to its surroundings, his previous observations to its capacity to fight, and how it doesn't stray to far from him, if patrol numbers are favourable [1-8 range] they can survive [70, .5]% the route back to base. But the drone is reckless and abandons him to the melee (how can a drone be reckless?) and Prowl gets injured worse. Energon drips from wounds, and the angle makes it challenging for him to patch it. But the drone creeps closer, folds to its (knees? Its joints are in an odd but effective configuration) and gently (gently?) begins to mimic (clumsily) Prowl's motions of patching his wounds. Here is where Prowl falters, because drones are not so careful. Drones do not do not look up multiple times at his faceplates, and become more delicate when they see you in pain. Drones don't hold out a servo and help you to your pedes when your done. Which begs the question, if he's not a drone, so what has been done to this mech?

Jazz on the other hand is freaking the fuck out. Naturally. Because uh, he started slicing Quints, expecting Frowny to do the same because his mech was still clearly operational, only for the idiot to completely disregarded normal combat standards which can be summarised as 'fight hard or die' and instead get chewed on by some big ass teeth.

Only to see the glowing purple dripping from his torn sides, only to see that he's bleeding.

Machines don't bleed.

So Jazz figures out Frowny is an alien first. He starts pointing at himself and saying his name, insistently, until Frowny repeats it. He points at Frowny, and records and replays whatever sound bite Frowny makes until Frowny's also nodding in confirmation. He still calls him Frowny, because even though he has his name? Probably? He has no idea what it means and can't actually pronounce it (no idea how to get a mouth to move that way) but hey! Progress! He does this again and again with small things (rock, hand, cyber?animals, music (Frowny's confused at that one it's pretty adorable) ect.

Prowl has no idea what to make of this strange mech. Is he a failed experiment? A runaway from Cybertron following the Functionalists rise or power? Thennn Prowl finds out one fateful night that the mech is actually an alien organic (in a fit of misunderstandings, and squeezes him pretty hard for it ouch and feels SO guilty about it later) and suddenly the language/culture barrier makes way more sense.

Prowl's injuries degrade (a line splits). He has no way to communicate this except for the energon dripping out of his chassis. The organic is clearly worried (how did he think he was ever sparkless), and Prowl can't reach the injury himself. So he guides the mech's servos past armour and wiring, down to protoform (near his sparkchamber) to the split line. Gestures and hopes the mech can figure out what to do from his miming[#^%]. That'll he'll be careful, and won't hurt him [5%, 87%, #*%, *########%].

Frowny is later picking shrapnel stuck in his forearm that's too small for him to remove, so Jazz gets out of his mech to help with his small human hands. Jazz has no way to communicate to Frowny that if he moves, he'll sheer Jazz's limbs clean off, but he goes in anyway, because Frowny's hurt, and speckled in blood. Because he's clearly struggling and hurt and tired. Because Jazz has to trust that he won't.

Frowny's injures eventually make him collapse, and Jazz carries him the rest of the way. Jazz has no idea how they'll be received (especially considering how Frowny reacted when he found out Jazz was organic). Jazz knows he might be dissected. Knows he might be pulled apart (again) but.

He remembers all the little moments they had on their journey (Frowny shielding him from falling rubble when Jazz was out of his mech once, them getting to gesticulating arguments, Frowny's reaction to his music, how he fell asleep on Jazz once and it was fricken adorable).

It doesn't matter that Jazz can't say (barely understands) his actual name. That Frowny probably doesn't understand his. It doesn't matter that they talk in halting miming, in broken sound clips and touches and half-glares.

He's already gone out on all his limbs, might as well put his head on the chopping block. And if it causes him to lose the damn thing, well.

He's a pilot. Dying horribly is practically his job description.

OOOUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHHHH DYING HORRIBLY IS PRACTICALLY HIS JOB DESCRIPTION,,,,,,,,,,,

[cy-cyborg]

The Jaws Effect and what it means for media representation

The Jaws Effect is the name of a phenomenon that described the panic and fear that sprang up around sharks, fuelled by Steven Spielberg's movie, Jaws. While the fear of sharks and other marine predators had always been a thing, Jaws launched the fear of sharks, and Great White Sharks in particular, to new (and mostly unfounded) heights. Most people will never encounter a real-life shark and so their only knowledge about the creatures come from movies and other forms of entertainment. Entertainment that largely portrayed them as mindless, unfeeling killing machines. After Jaws, sharks became a staple in the creature-feature genre of movies, which only perpetuated the idea of sharks as dangerous monsters even further, reigniting and reconfirming the beliefs the public held about them in the process. These ideas about sharks are, of course, not true, but the misconception and fear has had a real, observable impacts on shark populations, shark conservation efforts and even laws and legislations surrounding sharks and shark conservation around the world.

Ok but Cy, this is a blog about disability and disabled representation, what do sharks have to do with anything you talk about? Well, Because The Jaws Effect is just one of many examples that shows how massive of an impact representation in the media can have, for better or for worse, especially when talking about subjects the public generally knows very little about.

This conversation is not unique to disability representation, nearly every person I've seen who's talked about how to write and design characters from any minority brings it up eventually, but the media we consume, the movies we watch, the books we read can all have big impacts on people's perceptions on those topics. When talking about disability specifically, it's an unfortunate reality that not many people know all that much about us, and so, much like sharks, for many, their only real exposure to disabled people is through the media they consume.

If you don't know anyone in a wheelchair, and your only knowledge of life as a wheelchair user comes from books and movies like Me Before You, of course you're going to (spoiler) come away thinking that life in a wheelchair is horrible and death is better than living like that. If you don't know any DID Systems and your only exposure to a condition like that is through movies like Split (and honestly, a number of other horror movies and crime shows) of course you'll think people with DID are unstable monsters who could become violent any moment. If your only exposure to autistic people is Music, then it's not shocking that you might think Autistic people are "trapped in their own minds," completely unaware of the world around them and lacking any kind of agency. As much as I'd like to be able to say these are "just movies" or "just books," and that if we don't like them, we can just not watch them, they all had an impact on the real world and real people's perceptions of the disabilities they depicted, as do the many, many smaller examples of bad representation.

This is why I personally spend so much time focused on the portrayal of disability in the media, why so much of my content is focused on creating resources for creators to represent us better, and why I think writers, artists and other types of creators should care about the representation they include.

Unfortunately, people believing misinformation and stereotypes, while annoying, isn't the worst of the impacts bad rep can have. If a stereotype is prevalent enough, and enough people believe it, it can both put us in harms way and cause us to loose access to things we desperately need and things designed to help us. One really common example of this is when movies and TV shows show a character getting up out of their wheelchair, and use this as proof that the person is faking being disabled. However, in reality, there are many disabilities that might mean someone has to use a wheelchair, even if they can still walk a little bit or stand up. The stereotype of someone standing up from their chair being a fake, especially when it's reinforced over and over again in the media, leads non-disabled people to believe that anyone who stands up from their wheelchair is faking, and results in a lot of real disabled people being harassed and denied things like access to disabled parking, toilets and other accessible spaces. There were even a few cases of people reporting those they see get out of their wheelchairs to Centrelink (The Australian "welfare" department, for those not familiar) as frauds, and while these investigations don't usually go far before someone realises what's happened, it has, on occasion, resulted in people loosing the income they depend on to survive, even temporarily.

But the impact of representation, of course, can go both ways.

I was in high school when the first How To Train Your Dragon movie came out, and at the time, I didn't really like people being able to see that I was a leg amputee because I was sick of kids in particular staring, pointing at me, asking their parents "what's wrong with them?" or asking me directly, "what's wrong with your legs?". I wore long skirts and big, bulky tracksuit pants to keep my legs covered, something that became dangerous in the hot Australian summer, but I didn't care.

But the impact of How to Train Your Dragon came in two ways. The first, was that it was one of the first times I'd seen an amputee (or rather, multiple amputees) who didn't keep their prosthetics covered or hidden, and it gave me the little boost in confidence I needed to do that myself and wear clothing that was more comfortable and functional. And second, the comments from children changed, albeit slightly, but enough that it was noticeable. The questions and comments went from "what's wrong with you?" to "oh cool, your legs are like Hiccup's!" I even had one little girl ask me once if I had a pet night fury. They went from being scared of me and my legs, or at the very least concerned for me, to genuinely curious and impressed. While reactions like that did become less and less common over time, they didn't fully go away either. Even today, I occasionally get young kids asking me why I have legs like hiccup. A friend of mine who was born with one arm shorter than the other and without fingers on that side had a similar experience with the movie Finding Nemo. Her disability was a bit more complex than what I described here, and she always found it hard to explain "what happened" to small children, however, after Finding Nemo came out, she was able to simply tell kids "this is my lucky fin, like what nemo has!" and that was enough to take her from someone "scary" to these kids to someone like their favourite characters.

Of course, it's much easier to see the impact positive representation can have on people's perceptions when we're talking about kids media, but it's not exclusive to it either.

When it comes to a minority like the disabled community who are so thoroughly misunderstood by the wider public, misinformation can and does spread easily. What people see and read in the media they consume plays a big roll in how people perceive the real people attached to the stereotypes. We often hear people say "Fiction imitates life" but the reverse can and often is also true, life can imitate and be influenced by fiction, and those of us creating should be mindful of this, especially when we're talking about a group of vulnerable people.

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[keuwibloom]

Its been a while since ive posted anything Parasynth, so I thought id make these polaroid-inspired drawings to make up for it!

As an added bonus-- I have nicknames for the guys! I actually made these a while back, but I figured id post them here for organization purposes, and so its easier to differentiate when talking about Parasynth.

The nicknames + my reasons behind choosing them listed below the cut!

Blue "Polaris" - Also known as the "north star", polaris is the only stationary star in the night sky, commonly used as a compass for navigation. A star that symbolizes stability when you've lost your way.

Dream "Apollo/Pol" - Named after the Greek god of the sun, music, medicine, and archery, twin brother to Artemis. Went with this because of the twin thing and sun symbolism, plus the healer and archery association.

Ink "Opal" - Opal is a gemstone that shines with rainbow colors. A true opal gem also has a base color of white, which fits with Ink's whole thing. Ink also calls others "pal" so I thought the name would be a nice reference to that.

Axe "Condor/Kon" - A large scavenger bird, related to the vulture. One species of it is the largest flying bird in the world. A condor's head also has no feathers, which kinda reminds me of Axe's skull.

Nightmare "Artemis/Arte" - Named after the Greek goddess of the moon and the hunt, twin sister to Apollo. Chosen for the same reasoning as Dream's nickname. Artemis is also the goddess of wilderness and wild animals, which fits with the gang (in a "they're a group and they are dangerous" way).

Killer "Shrike" - A cute little passerine bird that is known to impale its prey on sharp things, usually thorns. Shrikes are also known as "butcher birds". I think it fits with his vibe, plus shrikes have these black markings over their eyes that remind me of Killer's eyes.

Dust "Owl" - A nocturnal bird that has eerily silent flight and large eyes that reflect light in the dark so it looks like its glowing. I was in between this one and "Kestrel", but I feel like Owl fits Dust's general vibe better.

Cross "Cypress/Cy" - A tree that symbolizes longevity and endurance, but also mourning. It's also associated with protection and strength. I was looking for stuff that was associated with the goddess Artemis and the cypress tree was one (also the gang as birds and Cross as the tree they rest on).

Error "Oregano" - An herb that has a very strong bitter/peppery taste and smell. It's known to have antiviral properties and other benefits, but it is best used in small amounts. I also chose this name to parallel Opal (rock VS plant).

Swap/Blue belongs to the AU Community

Dream and Nightmare belong to Jokublog

Ink belongs to Comyet

Horror/Axe belongs to Sour-Apple-Studios

Killer belongs to Rahafwabas

Dust belongs to Ask-Dusttale

Cross belongs to Jakei95

Error belongs to Loverofpiggies

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Oooooh man im watching the end:

Part 1 feels so sad, raven trying to do all the things for her friends on their last day is honestly so so so sad

This projection thing is sick

Them making her the bunker behind her back because she probably would have opposed to it

Beast boy quickly giving her the penny is the most sweetest things ever im actually gonna cry, and every time they did a close up on it

It makes me so sad that she doesnt even try to fight back despite if she goes the end is innevitable. I guess she just wanted to get it over with so her friends dont need to spend any moore time of their ladt moments fighting for her :((((

Raerae my babyyyyyy

"Stay safe" 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Her absolutely obliterating Slade with words is so amazing i cant even-

The raven leading them all together, their hands in the middle, the hope 😭

Im so happy with this little call back to season 1's "switched" where raven and star switched bodues and learned how to use their powers, its so good and im glad star remembered that because she would

Her giving them a bit of her power is so sick and them all saying "azarath metrion zinthos" is so so sick

Can i say the ost for this show as a whole in EVERY episode is absolutely sick and sounds so good i would listen to it on its own, but they also know how to dial it down and turn off the music for so much inpact its crazy, they did it with some apprentice arc scenes and haunted and such and it works so well to hear the atmosphere and suspense is perfect, i also like the ost that plays when the "dark versions" of star, cy and BB appear, its so minimal and impactful (i also like the konochrome no shading look they have) them talking is also pretty creepy

BB going inside trigon's ear and turning into a whale is so smart and also the "wet willie" he said he would give trigon XD

I knew slade teams up with them in this episode but it still feels weird! Also rob volunteered tovfind rae but honestly i think that BB has the closest bond with her and the little things he does through the series, and the penny he gave her, i dont ship them really at all but i feel like he has the closer bond and whole robin is my favorite and the leader, it would have made more sense for BB to go, and more emotionally impactful

Also dont say robin cant stay cuz he would easily beat the shadow titans but they could have done that and nobody would really care too much, they were defeated before by that robot that tried to beat cy in "only human" so shadows of themselves could definetly still proviide a problem with robin there, and it would have made no difference to how that scene could have went

Slade has a point, uf he gets a thing he wants and the end of the world is gonna happen anyway, he might as well take the deal.

Also i thought this whole time that "what he had lost" was gonna be his son or something cuz i didnt have any clue what it could be and drew on the tiny bit of deathstroke comic lore i knew but i was still skeptical, i was NOT expecting the skeleton tho, that seriously shocked me.

Him saying "The fringe benifits were quite enjoyable" and then panning on this scene is just:

Ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew no no no no no no no no no no no no

Knowing what that episode implied and then this line is just ewwwwwwwwwww 😭

Slade and robin being mirrors while fighting litterally on the same wavelength and same split second is more of a testament to how alike they are 0.0

"Im here to save you too" robin saying about slade is 0.0 D: as well

AHA I KNEW THEY HAD TO FIGHT EACH OTHER'S SHADOW TO DEFEAT THEM!!!

BB's saying that terra was right to dump him is just vile

Still think that BB going after raven would have felt more impactful, like sure, robin and raven have been in each other's minds or something and i feel like them being the main two in "birthmark" makes so much sense, but for this, i feel like it makes more sense for BB to go, he's spent the entire show getting to understand raven more deeply than any other character, and he has littlerally been inside her mind. I dont ship them at all but their strong platonic bond would have been perfect for this

Baby rae sounds so weird her voice like that lol

SO. SMALL.

The big white projection raven is so sick lookin. You go girl!!

BB what do you mean raven giving hugs is weird? She litterally gave you a hug at the end of "spellbound"!

Maaann i love them so much.

Something i love about this show is that the titans' friendships is strong and genuine, they care deeply for eachother, truly want to connect to eachother, make sure each ither is okay, they believe wachother instantly when something us wrong and dint disregard eachother's feelings, nobody is ever the butt of the joke and nobody is made to feel bad on purpose by the others, even if they are all completely different from one another, and if it happens then they do their best to make the sincerest of apologies. Them being mad at each other is always coming from a place of frustration from wanting to hang out and enjoy each other's company but just not understanding how

Many kids shows make friends kinda hate eachother, always get on their bad sides, cant seem to stand each other, and always have one of the others as the butt of jokes (even teen titans go does this! D:) so i really love this show for that

"We'll be ready for him" is what cyborg said at the end of "haunted" which i guess goes to show the hope and trust they have in themselves and eachother

Again i would say BB would have worked a lot better for this last scene with raven instead of robin, since BB while being a bit childish, is still really emotionally intellegent! (I mean look at all his interactions with raven and terra!) And this little speach about raven having the most hope does sound like something beast boy would say more than robin (yes he is the leader, but it sounds more right in BB's voice), like, i can imagine vividly what it would be like with bb in robin's place and it makes so much more sense. I honestly wanna draw a version of the same events but with bb instead but thats so hard to do and would take forever sooo :/ thats only a maybe few pannels kinda thing MAYBE

This is a sick arc, the music again was so cool,

I think my favorite part was part 1 tbh, before any of the world taking over takes place

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dni . . . ⋆ basic dni (idrc ngl, do what you want but don't report me, and i block freely) ⋆ judgmental people ⋆ people who have mdni in their bio (i am a minor so??) ⋆ nsfw accounts (this means people who post/reblog porn/nudes, etc. if it's just text, it's fine) ⋆ people who aren't ok w dark topics/get uncomfortable by stuff like that (this is more 4 you than 4 me, i don't wanna make anyone upset) ⋆ people who get triggered by talking about sh, ed, etc… (yes i am aware that it's bad, no don't come 2 my dms with a savior complex telling me 2 get help. i'm trying 2 get help) ⋆ i block freely btw cuz ik a lot of ppl don't respect dni lists + there's people who are unavoidable at times…

byi . . . ⋆ if you interact with me, i might seem excited n stuff ⋆ i might sound like i'm flirting but i'm not (i have a partner and i love them) ⋆ i can make a lot of sex jokes ⋆ i am very immature ⋆ don't try 2 "fix" me, i'll probably block you or ignore you ⋆ i'm a little unusual so yeah ⋆ don't b scared 2 interact w me i luv talking 2 peopleヾ(≧∇≦)ゞ ⋆ i am not pro ed or sh i just post about it and my experience…

fandoms . . . ⋆ hypmic (hypnosis mic) ⋆ paralive (paradox live) ⋆ reverse: 1999 ⋆ servamp ⋆ tougen anki ⋆ karneval ⋆ bsd (bungou stray dogs) ⋆ seraph of the end ⋆ litc (lost in the cloud) ⋆ kagerou daze ⋆ the case study of vanitas ⋆ pandora hearts ⋆ enstars (ensemble stars) (i am KIND OF a part of it bcuz my ex filled me up on a lot of lore when we were together…) ⋆ pjsk (project sekai) ⋆ theres probably some others but i forgot…

interests . . . ⋆ vkei ⋆ scene ⋆ anything bloody ⋆ cannibalism (ooh edgy) ⋆ tortures ⋆ psychology ⋆ music (i listen 2 vkei, scene, metal, etc…) ⋆ vampires ⋆ fanfiction (mostly genshin but other stuff occassionally) ⋆ true crime (i'm not tcc) ⋆ rarepairs (mostly genshin) ⋆ bats ⋆ writing ⋆ books ⋆ etc… ⋆ btw if you're interested in any of these or r interested bcoming friends PLEASEEE message me 🙏🙏😓 i'm looking 4 friends pleaseplwaseplease

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other . . . ⋆ link 2 my post with my ed & sh stats ⋆ alt blog with important things from this blog : @weepspidey ⋆ poem blog : @fleshspidey ⋆ rentry (more links in my rentry so check that out!!!)

remember!!! block DON'T report this blog if you need 2 ^^ this blog is meant as a way 2 vent my feelings/talk about my feelings so please don't dm me about how it's bad. i am aware.

[butchyeons]

Loved ur autistic momo and butch jeongyeon fic. Amazing fic as always any other headcannons/thoughts about their relationship because I’m very curious keep up the great writing :)

hi!! thank you for this, i do have a few other ones! sfw will be above the cut and nsfw will be below it lmao

cishet men and minors dni

sfw stuff:

momo does have an autism diagnosis, however, she didn’t get one until she was older. it was mistaken for ocd when she was younger. when she was old enough to have a better grasp on her needs, she realized they weren’t compulsions, which is what lead to the reexamination and new diagnosis

sana and mina have been her friends since childhood and she is still very close to them. jeongyeon met sana during college- she went on a trip to japan as part of her language class, and the two of them met… at a club. it didn’t go anywhere, but they did exchange numbers and kept up talking, which is how jeongyeon and momo met

momo is a vegetarian! almost all meat textures bother her, so she’s been a vegetarian for a long time because of it. tofu can bother her, too, but as long as it’s cooked in a certain way (if it’s still firm), she’ll eat it.

she still hates mangos and cucumbers though lmao

she loves chocolate, but only milk chocolate

jeongyeon tends to cook more but she always asks momo what she wants to eat first. she’s used to cooking them entirely separate meals, and doesn’t mind it. she’s willing to put in the extra work for her girl, always

she does her best to try and open up momo to different foods. before they got together, momo really disliked tomatoes, but, jeongyeon’s gotten her to eaten them cooked. she still hates raw tomatoes, but now she’ll eat them cooked in stews and other stuff. jeongyeon isn’t insistent on her eating things she hates and wouldn’t ever be, she’s just concerned abt her nutrition 😭 which is why she started making her at least eat protein bars

one of momo’s biggest special interests is japanese law, hence why she became a paralegal. when she was younger she would go through entire law books and memorize them. she basically has a photographic memory

momo’s main form of stimming is vestibular stims. she’s moving constantly- rocking back and forth, flapping her hands around, pacing around. it’s hard for her to stay in one place

and bc of this, she loves dancing. she doesn’t mind loud music, in fact, she sort of prefers it to be loud. which is why she still likes going clubbing. but she does wear earplugs now, lmao

momo is an artificial light HATER! all of the lighting in their apartment that they bought either isn’t too bright or has settings to keep it low

jeongyeon works for a cyber security company. she could’ve very easily stayed in korea for the job but, for so many reasons, she wanted to get out. she didn’t get hired until after she got to japan though, but they rlly needed someone who spoke the language for that position; it just worked out perfectly lmao

they speak to each other in japanese. jeongyeon was already pretty fluent when she moved, and it was an excuse for momo to fully pick up korean (which wasn’t too hard for her given that she can memorize things easily). but since everything around them is in japanese, it’s just a bit more natural for them to speak it

jeongyeon is still close to nayeon, jihyo, dahyun, chaeyoung and tzuyu (who is dating cy) even if they live back in korea. momo really likes them, she often talks to jihyo on the phone when she calls jeongyeon. this has also helped momo with her korean pronunciation, lmao

since jeongyeon knows ksl, she taught momo a few basic phrases for when she’s completely nonverbal but they still need to communicate. things such as their names, “hug”, “bathroom”, “hungry”, “bed”, “tired”, yes and no, etc. it helps them a lot, and doesn’t force momo to try and speak when she just can’t. jeongyeon would never do that to her lmao

jeongyeon really loves legos. her room was riddled with them back before they moved. and after they moved, much like momo’s barbie display, they got her a shelf to put them all up, too. she is running out of room for them 😭

jeongyeon’s a little forgetful, so momo’s usually the one who keeps tab of all the important dates. they nearly missed a flight to korea because jeongyeon got the dates mixed up. they argued about it on the plane, lmao

they don’t really argue much though! momo can just get frustrated easily due to things like sensory overload. she really needs everything planned out. if she’s breaking her routine, it upsets her- so having things planned in advance is the best way to get around that. jeongyeon tries her best lmao

even though they tease each other a bit relentlessly, it’s never serious. jeongyeon wakes up with bed head every morning and momo makes fun of her for it; momo hates most of the music jeongyeon really likes, and jeongyeon laughs about it. it’s not too serious for them, it’s just how they are lmao

momo is very, very physically clingy. she likes pressure on her, but she also just loves holding and being held by jeongyeon. she isn’t very big on pda, though- this is for their apartment only. they hold hands in public, esp when they’re in a busier area and momo’s overwhelmed, but that’s about it. part of it is bc they’re afraid of backlash, though. if they’re in a “safer” area, they’ll kiss each other on the cheek. but part of it is just bc momo needs more than just a kiss and wants to be held, so yknow, save it for their couch lmao

she wasn’t that way until jeongyeon though! everything with her is just different

they’d been together for a year and a half by the time that fic took place. if they could get married, they probably would- but it also isn’t too serious of a topic for either of them. as long as they’re physically together, that’s enough for them!

ok phew that’s enough for the sfw headcanons lmao. i could make this a whole au bc there’s just so much about them but for now it’ll just be a little oneshot that i had fun with. the spicy stuff will be down below!!

sooo the nsfw hcs:

momo’s sex drive is a bit ridiculous, even if it exhausts her lmao. and it only got worse after her and jeongyeon got together

it took a bit of time for momo to actually let jeongyeon touch her. they didn’t start fully going at it until like… 7 months in? and ever since then momo’s been insatiable

and jeongyeon loves every second of that. like, even if it’s just quick stuff, whatever momo wants, jeongyeon will give it to her

but before that it was… a lot of mutual masturbation lmao

and before that, it was a lot of very heated make out sessions that ended with momo making jeongyeon leave so she could get herself off 😭 but it wasn’t awkward or anything! jeongyeon didn’t push her to do anything back then, and still wouldn’t

momo really likes sensory play of all types. it all started as an accident though- during the winter, jeongyeon got back and things got a bit… hot the moment she got inside. but her hands were super cold. and momo figured out pretty quickly that she really liked that. from there they figured out that she really loved iceplay, hence why they did the cold water in the shower

she doesn’t like being restrained or blindfolded. she sort of hates surprises, so, jeongyeon tells her every single thing she’s going to do before she does it

a lot of sex for them rlly is more vanilla, since it’s pretty draining for momo. doesn’t make it less freaky tho the daddy kink is a common occurrence!

momo also has a breeding kink but she doesn’t love thinking abt it lmao. she only really brings it up when she’s super fucked out (aka begging jeongyeon to breed her. and jeongyeon would, she rlly fucking would)

a lot of their sex has rlly just been acclimating momo to getting used to it. jeongyeon likes to make her watch when she’s fingering her, or when she’s using other toys on her. momo’s embarrassed about it but it really does help a lot

momo’s usually a one and done type of orgasm haver so for her to want to keep going is pretty rare! that’s why jeongyeon edges her a lot, especially when they’re doing something more intense

the safe word being used is a common occurrence too. momo just gets overwhelmed pretty easily, and it doesn’t disappoint jeongyeon at all. it’s just a good way for them to pause so they can either figure something else out or just stop completely

also, momo does eventually get the courage to do stuff back. and jeongyeon lets her. although jeongyeon has always been nervous about that type of stuff, she trusts momo, and wants whatever momo wants. it takes a few times of just… hand stuff before momo gets the courage to use her mouth lmao

and it goes super well for both of them!

this does happen with stone butches btw, i’ve seen it get referred to as “melting”. it typically only happens when they’re comfortable with their partners, often later in the relationship. momo is the first person jeongyeon’s ever let touch her, and therefore, also the first person to make jeongyeon cum. so it’s… emotional to say the least

but it doesn’t happen often. it’s a lot for both of them, and rlly jeongyeon just loves to give and momo loves to receive

and momo loves getting fucked into the mattress more than anything else lmao

also she just… loves being jeongyeon’s. like she adores that someone is that willing to get her off, that someone is taking care of her in such an intimate and special way. she loves feeling like she’s owned, that she’s being pampered. even if it’s rough and nasty, she loves it lmao

jeongyeon does not shy away from the dirty talk, and momo loves it sm lmao

the aftercare always includes a shower and then cuddles. even if it’s simple, momo just needs to get clean. no offense to jeongyeon at all (and she doesn’t take any), it’s just… how her brain works! that’s how she’s the most comfortable. and she loves that jeongyeon is so willing to make her feel happy and loved and yeah it’s gay

weighted blanket after getting her guts rearranged >>>>

also they do talk a lot about what momo liked and disliked. it’s important for both of them to know, so things don’t repeat in the future, etc. momo’s comfort is above everything else!

jeongyeon just wants to make her feel good at the end of the day. she does push momo to try new things, and momo’s a lot more willing to try things when she’s in subspace, but most of what they do is stuff that’s simple and familiar

they’re just super gay idk

ok again that’s all for now. i think their dynamic is super neat in general! momo rlly is a pillow princess lmfao, but i think pillow princesses are just… so beautiful. and i think stone butches are just as beautiful. even if their sex is just… sex to them, there’s a lot of factors in it that just make it poetic idk. maybe to outsiders it’s just give and take or just greed, but like, it’s way more than that yknow? they love each other a lot. and i love them a lot lmao.

but yeah, i hope you enjoyed! maybe we can get a fic for the first time momo does stuff to jeongyeon in the future, if anyone would be interested in that. but yeah!! i love these two, and i just rlly love jeongmo in general. i want to write more for them 😭 maybe one day!!

tysm for this ask again! it’s so fun getting to talk about this type of stuff, and i srsly appreciate it. hope you’re having a great day!! ❤️

[cyanid-apple]

I am so normal about Trial Before Pilate (lying) (misinformation) (is actually insane about Trial Before Pilate) (You hypocrites, you hate us more than him! We have no king but Cesar!) (Crucify. Him.) (Die if you want to, you misguided martyr)

[droughtofapathy]

In which DOA lays out the specific and vaguely incomprehensible foreshadowing that hangs over her latest fanfiction's narrative:

If you haven't read "If It's Thursday, It Must Be Nora" then proceed beneath the cut at your own peril. But since I don't actually walk you through the details in-text, instead I'm going to do it here in a way that is both somewhat condescending and a little unhinged, all the while assuming you weren't perfectly capable of having figured it all out on your own. Just trust me when I say it completely recontextualizes a vital chapter. But I need to talk about this, so here we are:

The timeline to this particular story is left intentionally vague, but if you, like me, are an encyclopedia of theatre history, you'll have had no trouble reading between the lines.

In chapter one, Sandra auditions for an unnamed musical Avis calls "that Herman musical" for the role of "the hat shop woman, currently being played by a woman in her mid-thirties," who is later identified as Eileen Brennan, in a roundabout sort of way. You may think this is simply a reference to Kate Baldwin's Tony-nominated performance as Irene Malloy in Hello, Dolly! (2017), as well as a reference to a prior story where Blanche treats Avis to Hello, Dolly! tickets. It is, but there's more to it.

The show debuted on Broadway in 1964, and replacement casting implies it's been a few years since. Sandra and Avis also allude to another upcoming musical "with the young songwriter team that did that strange little show last season with Judy Garland’s daughter. I hear they’re mounting this fall."

This is, of course, Cabaret, and we all knew that right away. But how did we know that? Judy Garland's daughter being, who else, the incomparable legend Liza Minnelli, who made her Tony-winning debut at nineteen Flora the Red Menace, with music and lyrics by Kander & Ebb. Flora the Red Menace (big flop, but Liza became the youngest performer to win a Tony, so good for her), debuted in 1965, and Cabaret premiered in the fall of 1966, which sets our timeline squarely in early 1966. But how early?

Skip ahead to chapter six, and you'll find more blatant hints to the story's setting if you didn't pick up on the first. Avis returns to the hotel singing fragmented lyrics from Cy Coleman's Sweet Charity, and while this too could be overlooked as a reference to Bebe Neuwirth's Tony-winning performance as Nickie, but it also helps us to home in on a more precise date. Sweet Charity opened in January of 1966. Avis goes to see two shows on this particular visit, the other being Mame starring Angela Lansbury and Bea Arthur.

Mame officially opened on May 24, 1966, putting our date in late May at the very earliest, as that was the only time you'd have been able to get this sort of legendary two-show day. But Avis specifically mentions "I don’t know which of them is going to take home the award in a few weeks." The award being the Tony, which took place on June 16th that year. So, the story, and this specific chapter, has to have been either Saturday, May 28th or Saturday, June 4th.

And it could not have been June 4th.

On June 4, 1966, Blanche Knopf died in her sleep. On a Saturday. One week after Avis leaves Manhattan and their hotel room for, though she doesn't know it at the time, the last time.

And that is the real tragedy here.

[halcyoncyrus]

Been so hyperfocused for the past month that I haven't listened to much music outside of musical soundtracks but I just went on a walk and listened to Make Way For Love by Marlon Williams and I forgot how grounding this album is for me.

[pinktaeyeon]

Every month of 2023!

i was tagged by @baekslight, @floweruna & @baekhyunnybyun! thank you 🥺

rules: link your favorite and/or most popular post from each month this year <3 (it’s totally fine to skip months!) and tag some CCs you love!

january

my favourite, and most popular, post from this month was my XG shooting star set. for some reason doing an entire set for a music video is really intimidating to me but i think i did well!

feburary

my favourite was this taeyeon weekend set. i wouldn't be tumblr user pinktaeyeon without having this be one of my favs. i think i coloured and sharpened it well. my most popular set was this irene monster set! i'm proud of this one as giffing stages can be SO difficult! i think it came out well.

march

my favourite was this taeyeon happy performance set! my other fav aesthetic other than pink in general is underwater! taeyeon at the aquarium singing ??? a video after my own heart. my most popular set is this nayeon & sana set from the set me free mv.

april

this month was the start of exo activities and i felt in my element. my fav set is this one of baekhyun doing the sorry i'm cute challenge. he's just !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my most popular set was my le sserafim break the bridge set!!!

may

my taeyeon fine set was my fav from this month. it's one of my favourite taeyeon title tracks and i think i did well making this set considering the video quality is not ! it ! my most popular set from this month was my aespa welcome to my world set. this is actually one of my favourite songs from this year. it's just so stunning.

june

june was A MONTH!!! shinee came back, taeyeon was doing concerts and EXO RELEASED LET ME IN AND HEAR ME OUT!!!! my favourite and most popular post was a set from exo's hear me out mv. this mv was just so special to me. seeing the exos having fun and being silly just meant so much. this set is another fav too. kyungsoo eating a donut gif you're so dear to me.

july

july was peak exo comeback content so i made sooo many sets. it was SO much fun making exo content again so here are a few of my favs 1. chanyeol vs. nails (most popular) 2. chanyeol cream soda mv set 3. exo cream soda performance set from mcountdown (pink shirt, curly haired junmyeon !!!!!!! yeah !) 4. hear me out behind video of baekhyun being a menace

august

my most fav and most popular was my aespa better things set. i loooved this mv so much they all looked gorgeous and the song was so pretty. i loved everything about this release!

september

favourite and most popular is this taeyeon got the beat set. this look.... it's just... so legendary... lives were changed.

october

my favourite post from this month was this set of chanyeol and jongdae in chanyeol's good enough music video. seeing chingu line in yeol's mv really healed something in me. these two sets (cy, ks & jd & chanbaek) are close seconds just bc the good enough mv was so special. my most popular set was this one of taeyeon at the louis vuitton fashion show!

november

taeyeon comeback month!!!!!!!! i made a few sets for her comeback but this one has to be my favourite. she just looks so stunning!!!!! my most popular set was a taylor swift set from the reputation stadium tour!

december

i haven't made much this month but this set of taeyeon's fabulous performance video is my favourite and most popular set! yet again she looks stunning. talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely not ever been done before etc.

this year has been a really good one for creating. i've genuinely had so much fun making things and also seeing other people make things for my favs too. being able to create for exo and taeyeon specifically has been so much fun!!

anyway if you've read this far, thank you! thank you for enjoying all my silly little gifs and talking to me about my favs. i've enjoyed it so much. i'd like to get to know people better but i'm v shy! but seeing people say nice things in tags has been so lovely.

i hope you have a fun and safe new years if you're doing anything to celebrate, and i wish everyone a healthy and happy new year. 💖

tagging: @tipannies @jaennie @thankyou-taeyeon @sunghanbin @jftk @bu99erfly @dazzlingkai @suuho @ryudaeng @byunbaekhyunie @jsuh @bethereforme no pressure but if i've tagged you i've really enjoyed everything you've made this year! thank you for making such pretty content!

[problematic-yuri-poll]

Problematic Femslash Ship Tournament - Losers' Round 1

Elizabeth x Lily (WACCA) VS. Gideon Nav x Cytherea the First (The Locked Tomb Series)

No official art for Gideon x Cytherea, so submitter opted to provide a book cover. Sorry for how tumblr cropped it.

Info and propaganda under cut! This will not be spoiler-free.

Problematic elements for Elizabeth x Lily:

Not only are the two of them canonically sisters, but Lily is characterized in canon as very clingy, particularly towards people she loves (including Elizabeth).

Problematic elements for Gideon x Cytherea:

one's a traumatized teenager, the other's a thousand-year-old lich trying to "save" her from child soldier-ism

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Propaganda for Elizabeth x Lily:

The two of them are very cute on their own, but also very cute together The lyrics and music video for Lily's character song, "With U", hint at how close the two of them are, with the lyrics in the second verse, when considered from Lily's POV, seem to hint that she hates seeing Elizabeth upset, so she doesn't want anyone else to see her upset either - and some people interpreted that in a "sounds pretty yandere to me" way. Nobody ever acknowledges rhythm game ships unless they're from the mobile gacha games, so I want to see more people talk about them

Propaganda for Gideon x Cytherea:

Cy spent an entire book pretending to be someone else and getting a teen to swoon over her just so maybe she could save her from what killed her gf, gotta love a gal with a plan