#cw: suicide / drinking / depression / IRL

[ru1b0y]

Yuma/Sundae/Shiro

6th June, minor, Intp-t, 7w8, OCD, ADHD, CPTSD, Major suicidal depressive disorder, demiromantic, gay, ace.

B4 YOU FOLLOW;;

I can be very protective over my friends so I tend to debate ppl.

I dont put CWs on cursing, food or caps lock

Currently I'm a beginner VA and I'm learning JP slowly so sorry if it bad when I speak it. 

Tw for my page: Religious trauma, trauma related to drinking, cussing, sexual jokes, sh and su1c1de jokes, ranting abt any of these topics.

DONT FOLLOW ME IF;;

I don't like you/ I have you blocked.

-11/26+

proshipper.

you refuse to listen, push me out of my comfort zone and you're not my friend

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~ What tags mean on my posts:

` Yuma stfu: general nonsense

` Yuma Thinks: Someone that probably has a deeper meaning than I could explain in the og post

` Yuma rambles: probably analysis or complaining

` Yuma's Oc: oc lore or thinking of concepts

` ew emotions: being overly sentimental/sensitive or venting

` Emu Friend: IRL friend that is literally the embodiment of Emu Otori

' Nene Friend: Irl Friend that is like Nene

` Tsukasa Friend: IRL friend that acts like Tsukasa

` WxS Kaito friend: IRL friend that acts like WxS Kaito

` Rui's Friends or Rui<3: Me mentioning my irl WxS group/thinking about them

` World Future Star: my online star/tsukasa aka Kimi

` Hunty Wunty: talking with Hunter

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I have RP accounts and here they are!!

@k0setsuch1e

@lawandsuffering

@a1l-n-n00th1ng

@ih8chaos

@i-am-a-star

[dethberri]

so, yesterday, while at work, i noticed that i missed a call.  i thought it was weird that the same number was calling again so, i picked up.  turned out to be one of my best friends i’d met on tumblr.  i hadn't heard from them in a while, even though i kept leaving them messages.  they told me they'd attempted two days back and that they’ve been admitted into a behavioral healthcare clinic.  i was floored, and after losing an irl friend to their sadness earlier this year, i was also fucking pissed.  i wanted to lecture the absolute hell out of them, but i didn’t.  i was angry because i was afraid, because i understood.

please, if you’re ever feeling despondent and like there’s no hope, find someone.  irl or not, find someone.  msg someone.  msg me.  i might not update for days at a time, but i’m always logged in.  i see all the notifs i receive.  if you're ever hitting the deep bottom of misery at full speed, i’m more than willing to set things aside, especially if you seriously don’t know who else to turn to.  and if im working — i’m not an employee who bullshits at work.  if i say something’s come up, my bosses will understand.  you’re not troubling or bothering by reaching out, you’re just being human.  we are inherently social creatures.  our brains evolved to ensure our survival, and they operate best when we interact and connect with others.  social exchanges stimulate endorphins, shit that literally makes us happy.  so, to those who have my cell, i'm a call or text away.  my discord is available, too.  inbox is always open, as well as my IMs.

again, know that i'm here to talk or distract or do whatever the hell you want.  if you wanna cope by rping, ooc-chatting, whatever, sure, i can do that.  just.  don't do stupid, impulsive shit.  don't even think about putting yourself in possible danger because you’ve gone and assumed that no one will care or miss you if you do it.  there’s always gonna be someone out there who cares, i can fuckin’ guarantee you that.